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A Notorious Woman
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Published by St Martin's Press in New York and Piatkus in London, in 1988, A Notorious Woman attracted the following notices:
* A compelling tale, offering an interesting insight into Cornish life a century ago — Cornish Packet
* These adventures of the beguiling Ms Rosewarne will keep a fair few enthralled during ... this summer — Manchester Evening News
* Ably blends cogent social commentary with romance ... With its emphasis on moral propriety, tart repartee, and the all-important social milieu, this book echoes 19th century fiction, but its protrayal of the degradation and oppression of women has contemporary relevance — Publishers Weekly
* The writing has pace ... by an author who clearly loves the Cornish countryside — Plymouth Sunday Independent
* Macdonald is as long-winded as ever, but his readers should find reason to stay with him–or with Jo, a character they'll take a shine to — Kirkus
* ... will sweep you into the world of lovers' secrets and titillate you with the deep passions lying beneath a calm surface — Rave Reviews
* True to form, Macdonald has penned another gloriously impassioned adventure ... Splendid historical fiction from a master of the genre — Margaret Flanagan in Booklist
And—of Macdonald himself: *He is every bit as bad as Dickens – Martin Seymour-Smith

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Malcolm Macdonald

Malcolm Macdonald is the Vicar of St Mary's Church in Loughton, England and has seen the church grow significantly in his time there. His heart is to see revival, growth and freedom in the UK church. He regularly teaches at conferences in England.

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    A Notorious Woman - Malcolm Macdonald

    Part One

    Still Life

    Chapter 1

    SOMEWHERE HIGH ON TRIGONING HILL a vixen yapped at the frost; the year was turning. A chill breeze keened back and forth through the loose lights of the decaying window, like the drone of some ancient piper, playing to no one. A cold slab of moonlight lay across the threadbare carpet and climbed up the antique counterpane, where it came to gentle rest upon the sleeping form of the young woman. In the deep dark of the passageway beyond, a nervous hand strayed forward, touched the door, edged its opening wider, wider … until a creaking of the hinge made it freeze.

    The young woman stirred in her sleep, turned on her back, breathed easy again.

    Raw eyes in the pitch-dark passage roamed greedily where the hands that now stayed the door and its jamb longed to follow. Such a pretty creature – in sleep so gentle … such a shame, such a waste!

    Mr Visick! What ever are you doing?

    John Visick, lord of Wheal Venton mine, master of Lanfear House – and, indeed, lord and master of his questioner – put a finger to his lips, closed the door, this time without a squeak, and tiptoed toward her. His excitement, or the evidence of it, died in those few steps; it did not revive when he embraced her bony frame. Mrs Visick, my dear, you will take a chill.

    But what were you doing there?

    He steered her back toward the carpeted regions of the house, explaining as they went that he had thought he heard voices.

    Voices?

    And laughter.

    Laughter?

    He laughed, as if to show her what the word meant. Is my speech so defective, my dear, that you must confirm my every word?

    But how could there be laughter – at this hour? The way he nudged her into their chamber and prodded her toward the bed was most disagreeable. And in Johanna’s room of all places.

    That was my thought, too, ma’am. My very thought. He ran his hand down the washboard of her ribs, rested at the awkward protrusion of her hip, and shivered. Fortunately it was just the wind. Must get some putty for those lights or they’ll drop out in the next gale. He kissed her on the neck. You are cold, my dear. We both need a little warming.

    Theresa Visick lay back and sighed. Be as quick as you can, she begged. How we shall survive tomorrow, I do not know.

    Their two heads lay side by side, a universe apart. She stared at the ceiling, conjuring one after another of the coming day’s disasters; he closed his eyes, buried his face in her pillow, and, such is the magic of desire, fleshed her bones with those young, supple, enticing curves that still called to him through the dark labyrinth of the house. Then he was quick, indeed.

    In her chill little room that was not quite a servant’s garret and not quite family, either, Johanna slept on. Outside, in the now-waning moonlight, the vixen trotted over the hilltop to bark in some more likely parish.

    ***

    Dawn awakened a different John Visick: he scrubbed off sin like the rime of sleep and clad himself in the bible black of righteousness. There was no giveaway gleam in his eyes as he muttered his solemn, everyday, Morning, maid, to Johanna. As always, she was first at the breakfast table – having already been about the house for her usual hour – plus, on this day of days, an extra one beside.

    She glanced up briefly from the list she was compiling. Good morning, Uncle John. I hope you slept well?

    The question merited its customary grunt as he settled behind his curtain of newsprint.

    The nights are certainly turning chill, she added, at the same time writing: 7pm – Jessy to put the warming pan through Dr Moore’s sheets.

    What? What? What’s that? Chill? Mrs Visick, a bundle of frayed nerves and sleep-starved bones, came bustling into the breakfast room and flopped, already exhausted, into her chair. How you can stuff yourself like that I don’t know, she snapped at Johanna.

    The young woman greeted her aunt and hoped she, too, had slept well.

    Sleep! the woman echoed. Then, to the maidservant, I can’t touch a thing. Just a piece of dry toast.

    You’ll wither away, Mrs Visick, her husband warned mechanically. You’ll slip between the floorboards.

    When the maid brought the toast, her mistress said, as if complaining, Perhaps I could manage a peach. A small peach?

    The maid nodded and left them; before the door was quite closed, her mistress added, "Bring two if they are very small."

    Johanna spread the last of her dole of marmalade and popped it in her mouth. Willie to see to Dr Moore’s boots before he does the lamps, she wrote.

    Well, here’s a fine breakfast, Theresa Visick commented. Nothing but reading and writing all about me!

    Bring your household accounts, my dear, her husband advised jovially. Then we shall complete the academy. He smiled at his niece (his wife’s niece, actually, as he often reminded himself) to see her smile in return.

    But Johanna was too long in this house to be drawn in like that. Her smile was ambiguous enough for her aunt to read into it: How little these men understand! The older woman, however, was in no mood to be patronized. Speaking of the accounts… she said to Johanna.

    We have been rather busy on other things, her niece reminded her.

    You needn’t speak as if the entire burden of it has fallen to you, Mrs Visick responded. I’ve had my share.

    Johanna smiled inwardly. Her aunt’s share had consisted of one, single question: What shall Selina wear for the visit of Dr Anthony Moore? Even her uncle, though he knew full well the importance of this occasion, had been forced to joke about it in the end. The Corn Laws are repealed, he said, "and ruin faces the countryside. America takes up arms against Mexico. In India, our army is decimating the Sikhs. The Irish potato crop is set to fail yet again. The world groans under matters of great moment, yet what is it frets our sleep and wears our nerves to a ravelling? What shall Selina wear? Great gods and little fishes!"

    The basic decision had been easy enough: Selina would wear the dress her mother had worn to such good effect in 1823 (for had it not led almost directly to her marriage in 1825 and the birth of Selina herself in 1826?). It was of a fine cream-coloured wool woven with a pink silk stripe and printed in a dainty floral pattern of yellow, red, green, blue, and a purple that had faded rather pleasantly, as if it had known the way midcentury taste would go.

    The impossibly difficult question had been: How to alter it? Should it be left plain or should a flounce be added? Two dresses in the last Ladies Journal had sported a flounce about eight inches above the pavement-sweeping hem. It was a question of fashion, and no one down here, at the far end of England, was quite, quite sure what fashion, at present, decreed.

    But fashion was not all. There was also a question concerning the front of the bodice. Should the point of it be stitched down? The answer reached beyond la mode into realms of morality, for, if the bodice were left free, it would suggest (to a person of discrimination) that Selina possessed a watch of her own – that being where the fob pocket was usually concealed. And, if matters proceeded toward a satisfactory climax, Dr Moore might offer the girl a chaste embrace – and thus discover its absence. Might he not then think her somewhat dishonest – pretending to possess that which she lacked? And might he not consider it symptomatic of a deeper fault within her?

    Questions fashionable, questions moral – and also questions practical. For example, if the sleeves were made detachable, she could wear that lovely mantle of shot silk and taffeta with black net gloves for calling, while for evening she could wear the long silk shawl with matching sleeves. Then it would be a dress for all occasions. But might dear Dr Moore consider that to reveal a somewhat cheeseparing character? Or would he applaud their common sense and thrift?

    The arguments had worn Mrs Visick to a frazzle – which she considered her fair share of the burden of Dr Moore’s visit.

    Next to arrive at the breakfast table was Terence Visick, the oldest of Johanna’s cousins. In fact, at twenty-six he was three years her senior; but he behaved as if she were still the sad little orphan whom fate had wished upon this household more than ten years ago. Bonjour, ma chère cousine! he cried. Any kipper today?

    "Bonjour, chèr cousin. Fresh herring," she told him.

    Good egg!

    All dishes were good egg! to Terence – except, oddly enough, egg itself, in any of its forms.

    As the only son, and heir to half the Visick-Trahearne partnership in the Wheal Venton mines, he put in a grudging two days a week at the office and spent the rest of the time repairing his status as a gentleman. Today he was off to fish a private reach in the Pendarves estate.

    Who’s going to rouse the belle of the ball? he asked cheerily.

    Rouse? his mother asked.

    The two youngest of the family, Deirdre and Ethna, eighteen and sixteen respectively, tried to slip unnoticed into their places. Their father lowered his paper until his eyes just met theirs. Are you sitting comfortably? he asked in an ominous tone.

    Thank you, Papa, came the terrified replies.

    Bottoms not cold?

    No, Papa. They almost fell over each other to assure him.

    Because I can warm them for you.

    We’re sorry, Papa…

    It’s Selina, you see. She won’t get up.

    Ah! Terence said. Say what you will about us Visicks – you can’t fault us on our sense of loyalty! He winked at Johanna.

    And you’re not too old to thrash, sir, his father growled at him.

    Who is these days, the youth answered amiably. If you’re looking for a bottom to warm, pater, Selina’s probably expecting you upstairs. Anyway – she’s refusing to get up. He engulfed a huge spoon of thick, claggy porridge.

    Mr Visick rose hastily, but his wife was ahead of him. Leave this to me, Mr Visick, my dear, she said firmly.

    Their eyes met; he yielded after a struggle. With every confidence, ma’am. I shall return shortly before one o’clock. He departed for the mine office in Helston.

    Mrs Visick turned to her son. Now, why is she refusing to get up?

    Cold water, he advised.

    I’ll give her cold water! Your father’s not the only one who can sting her bottom. She turned to Johanna. I don’t suppose you know anything of this?

    Johanna thought she did, but not in terms her aunt might understand.

    Then I shall sting her bottom, Mrs Visick repeated and went in search of key to the cupboard where her husband always kept a large stock of fresh withies.

    Let me talk to her, Aunt? her niece begged as she followed her out. Please?

    You! The woman was scornful but she offered no actual resistance.

    Selina had locked her door against the world but she had forgotten there was another way in from the old nursery; that second door was actually in a curtained alcove where hung all her petticoats and chemises. The key to this alternative entrance was discovered after one or two attempts, which alerted Selina to the invasion. As a result, when Johanna pulled open the door, gritting her teeth against its complaining hinges, she found her cousin, still in her nightdress, busy trying to wedge a chair under its handle.

    That wouldn’t have worked, anyway, she said. It opens outwards.

    Selina burst into tears and rushed back to her bed; but, Johanna noticed, she peeped out furtively to see whether her mother and the birch were at hand.

    Johanna pulled up a chair and sat beside her cousin. While she waited she looked about her. The contrast with her own bedroom could hardly have been greater; not that it bothered her much. Sometimes, in the depth of winter, when the wind howled around Lanfear and fought its way in through every crack and cranny, she envied Selina this spacious chamber with its sheltered aspect and evening fire. But on a late-summer’s morning, like today’s, it seemed uncomfortably large and unwelcoming. All in all she preferred her own smaller and much simpler room – luxurious for a governess, but far too good for a servant, as Mr Visick had commented when nursery days were done and the room became available for life’s semi-fortunates.

    Selina stirred at last; snivelling up an ocean of salt she croaked, Thank heavens it’s only you. I couldn’t bear any of the others. Oh, Jo, you are lucky!

    And then there were two, Johanna replied.

    I don’t see how anyone could say that of me. I think I must be the most miserable girl alive.

    Johanna waited.

    I mean, Selina went on, you’ll never be married, never have to go through all this.

    All what? What is so terrible?

    All … everything. It’s not just today, you know. Today’s only a tiny bit of it. It’s just … everything.

    Johanna was at a loss. Like the rest of the family she had assumed this was some minor tantrum that a few well-chosen words might cure; but now it began to sound serious. Everything? she echoed. It must start somewhere. Tell me where it begins.

    In the cradle, I suppose. Selina closed her eyes, turned on her side and curled herself up in a tight little ball. Oh, I wish I could lie here like this for ever and ever. It begins the moment they say congratulations, it’s a dear little baby girl. Or it begins when we start learning our Accomplishments. It begins when we go to the County Ball and let half Cornwall’s eligible manhood push us around the floor – trying us out. How do we converse? Is our breath sweet? Our rosebud cheeks – how did we get them? It begins when we are yoked to… She ran out of breath. Oh, she concluded, it begins, it begins, it begins, but it never ends.

    But it’s always been like that, Johanna said. How could it be otherwise? And after all – she brightened, remembering the comfort she had half-prepared while forcing her entrance – "Dr Moore did ask you for two dances."

    Oh hush about that!

    No other girl was so favoured.

    Stop it, stop it!

    Not Desirée Curwen, not Felicity Beckerleg, not even Bathsheba Strike – and everyone said they’d be the queens of the ball.

    Selina vanished beneath her sheets and screamed.

    Johanna eased down the counterpane. Get up and let me brush out your hair. You’ll feel so much better for it.

    "How would you know?" Selina sneered.

    Well, even with my little mop I never feel right until I’ve taken out all its tangles.

    Selina thrashed like an eel on a line, turning herself over until she faced away from Johanna. Damn you! she said. Damn everybody!

    Selina!

    "You’re so humble. So cheerful, always. Why don’t you claw our eyes out? I know I would."

    I’m sure I’m most grateful to my aunt and uncle. It would have been cruel to bring me up as one of you when I could never expect half your advantages.

    With slow deliberation, Selina turned to face her cousin. You truly mean it, I think, she said.

    I could certainly never expect the sort of match they are preparing for you.

    Wearily Selina closed her eyes and let her head fall back to the pillow. I knew no one could understand it, she said.

    I’ll try, Johanna promised. Get up and let me brush your hair and you tell me all about it. She tugged gently at the sheet.

    For a moment Selina resisted and then just lay there passively while Johanna pulled back all the bedding. She did not stir, however, until her cousin took up a feather from the mattress and began trying to push it into her ear; then she giggled and sought to bury her ear in her shoulder. Ogre! she cried.

    Ogress, Johanna corrected.

    Schoolmarm! Then, in one of her mercurial changes of mood, she became all at once serious. That’s what you should be, you know. That’s what I’d do if I were you. I wouldn’t tolerate this house a day longer. I’d get a position as a teacher somewhere – in Normandy, perhaps. Or a governess in a nice family.

    Johanna nodded toward the dressing table.

    Selina allowed herself to be guided across the room. Why don’t you, Jo? Be a governess?

    Johanna’s smile, reflected in the looking glass, answered for her, saying she thought her cousin’s words the very height of fancy.

    I was never more earnest in my life, the other protested. A crafty look crept into her eyes. "I know. Why don’t you make eyes at dear Dr Moore when he comes and bewitch him. And then they’ll be so angry they’ll turn you off from here."

    And then?

    And then I’ll come with you and we can both go and be governesses or teachers somewhere and never have to bother with… She caught sight of Johanna’s smile and her mood darkened at once. Give me that! She snatched the brush away and began ruining all the good work in a hasty assault on her tangled locks. You always win in the end, don’t you, she said angrily.

    Johanna just sat there patiently, holding out her hand, waiting for the brush to be returned – which it was, soon enough.

    Selina became contrite again. But wouldn’t it be sublime? she asked. We could just please ourselves.

    And whoever employed us, Johanna pointed out, resuming her brushing.

    Oh … yes. That hadn’t struck me. Selina grew thoughtful. I suppose a husband is an employer of a kind, she said at last.

    What would you like for breakfast? Johanna thought it time to ask.

    Oh, how could you! I shan’t eat for a week.

    Then, when you’re dressed, why don’t we go for a walk to the top of Trigoning Hill and spread our parasols and sit in the sunshine and pretend that one o’clock is years and years away?

    Selina clasped her cousin’s hand to her cheek. Oh, I do so wish I had been a kinder person, she said mournfully. But I’m not, you see. And now I’m going to be found out.

    You can tell me all about it when we’re on our walk. There! Johanna extricated her hand. It’s a glorious day and everything will look very different, I’m sure. I’ll send Rose to dress you, shall I? Will you unbolt the door if I do?

    She left the way she had come, via the old nursery.

    Well? Mrs Visick snapped the moment she saw Johanna.

    She is still a little vaporous, Aunt Theresa. Her mood is fragile.

    Fragile, indeed? I’ll teach her to have moods! What does a girl her age need to have moods for – and on such a day as this.

    If I may suggest?

    Well?

    I believe that sunshine and fresh air and… Johanna tried to think of a kindly way of saying escape from this house, but could not. I think if she and I took a brief constitutional to the top of Trigoning, she might return calm and refreshed.

    On an empty stomach? I’ll wager she’ll eat no breakfast.

    I’ll ask cook to make us some sandwiches.

    "Make her some sandwiches, you mean, surely. Her aunt, annoyed at finding no harsher solution, and fearful of doing nothing, threw up her hands and flounced away. On your head be it, she added vaguely. And don’t stay up there all morning."

    I’ll set all the servants to their tasks before I go, Johanna promised.

    For two young women, nominally of the same family, they made an odd pair – the daughters of a rich squire and of a poor parson, one would have said who did not know them, for the Visicks were careful enough not to dress their poor niece as a servant. Their way to the summit of the hill led between hedges, burgeoning with life in the full vigour of late summer. Cow parsley, woodbine, coltsfoot, and yarrow spilled in flowery profusion from tenuous footholds in the earth between the hedging stones. The fields and hedgerow ended a quarter of the way up the western slope of Trigoning; from there on it was the haunt of ling and gorse and a dry, sedgy grass that was slippery underfoot. They spoke in disjointed trivialities, for the slope was too steep and their long dresses too cumbersome for sustained converse.

    At last they gained the long ridge of the summit, or, rather, a shallow, sandy pit just beneath the brow on its sunward side. That cavity was Terence’s sole contribution to the world of archaeology; he had abandoned it when it yielded up its entire treasure – a George III penny. They spread their parasols and sat awhile in silence, gazing out over the busy waters of the bay. The rare intimacy of their earlier conversation now seemed to elude them; each could feel the other straining for the words that might restore it.

    Fancy being a miner out there under all that water! Selina shuddered. I should dread every moment.

    Yes but I often envy the people on all those boats, Johanna confessed. Always travelling. Always moving on. Even their arrivals are only temporary.

    Selina agreed. Never stuck anywhere for long. After a pause she added, as if it followed naturally from the advantages of the nautical life, I wish it were midnight already and this day over and done with.

    She looked nervously at Johanna, who merely shook her head in bewilderment.

    If someone asked you to marry him, Jo, what would you say? Selina went on.

    It would depend who did the asking.

    Pick the nicest man you know. I’m not seeking to pry, but what would you say?

    Johanna laughed. I’d say yes, of course.

    Without a qualm?

    What about?

    Well … oh dear. Selina screwed up her eyes. "I mean … d’you feel ready? D’you think you could manage it all? The house … servants … the lord and master – could you manage him? That’s what frightens me. I wish we lived in the days when marriages were properly arranged and there wasn’t any nonsense about needing to be in love as well, don’t you?"

    Johanna looked at her in surprise. But why?

    "So that I could call him Mister Ponsonby, or whatever his name was and he’d call me Mrs Ponsonby, and we’d say cold, cold things to each other at breakfast and snap at one another all through supper but in between we’d be perfectly free."

    Johanna thought a moment and then said, And after supper?

    Have our own bedrooms, Selina said at once.

    But what would such a marriage be for? Johanna objected.

    It would stop all this nonsense. No more suitors. No more yes-papa, no-papa, and please can I have? No more chaperones. No more being controlled by glances and coughs and shivers of the fan. Oh bliss! She lay back among the ling and closed her eyes. Then she remembered Johanna’s original question and added, "That’s what it would be for – to escape! I wish there were some way of doing it without having to marry, that’s all."

    After a while Johanna said, I wonder if men go through such torments.

    I shouldn’t imagine so for a minute, Selina replied. Who knows?

    Have you never asked? What d’you talk about when you dance with them?

    Selina laughed. Certainly nothing so interesting as that. One talks about the Four Safe Topics – the Season, the Music, the Charm of the host and hostess… She lapsed into moody silence.

    And the fourth? Johanna prompted after a while.

    Her cousin shrugged. "Actually, there’s only one topic – Boredom. That’s what one is really talking about. She gave a shrill, almost despairing laugh. What a pair! Here’s you would rather marry than anything, I suppose. And here’s me would give all my prospects to anyone who could take them off me – simply not to have to walk back home and prepare myself to be meet and fitting in the eyes of the great and wonderful Dr Anthony Moore."

    Heavens, what can be so dreadful in him?

    He’ll want to … touch me, and kiss me, and hold me in his arms… She shivered. "And I shall just be so maladroit and gauche. I know it. And he’ll murmur at me and I shan’t know what to reply. And he’ll ask me things and even though I know the answer I’ll forget it. I just know it’s going to be awful."

    Johanna tried to think of something comforting that would not also sound hopelessly anodyne.

    How do people kiss? Selina asked. D’you know anything about it? No, I don’t suppose you do. I don’t know why I let you drag me up here at all.

    It so happened that Johanna did, indeed, know quite a bit about the pastime of kissing. She had kissed cousin Terence, once, in an experimental moment. She had kissed young Isaak Meagor, off the farm below Lanfear, more than once. She had kissed Willie Kemp, the junior excise officer, while his superior was searching for smuggled brandy – quite recently, that was. And she had been kissed by the parson, the last but one; he had caressed her bosom, too – but that had been before the scandal between him and Mrs Bolsover. However, she wasn’t about to reveal any of this to Selina. I imagine, she said, it’s one of those things where you just know what to do when the moment comes.

    You would! Selina gazed at her coldly. What if Dr Moore should prefer you to me? He’s rich enough not to let any thought of a dowry worry him unduly. Promise me you won’t do anything to encourage it?

    Johanna shook her head pityingly. "Dear Selina, you’ll worry yourself to no purpose, so that all your worst fears will come true. You’ll make them come true. But you have nothing to fear, honestly."

    You see – you wriggle out of it. You won’t promise.

    What? What is there to promise? That I shan’t make eyes at Dr Moore? As if I would! When did you ever see me making eyes at anybody?

    So why won’t you promise?

    Because it’s so absurd. I mean, even to make such a promise would be like admitting its possibility. If you asked me to promise not to cast you down that mineshaft over there, I should also refuse – and for the same reason. It’s just too absurd. After a pause, she said in a more conciliatory tone, Would you like a sandwich now?

    The question galvanized Selina. She sat bolt upright and gave out a great cry of rage, which was also a cry of terror and of frustration. You’re no better than anyone! she howled. The tears began to stream down her face. I thought you might … I mean, I hoped you of all people … Oh God! Who can help me? Who can help me now? And she rose to her feet and began to stumble off down the hillside.

    Johanna scrambled up and set off after her. She was used to her cousin’s mercurial changes of mood but even for her this was something out of the ordinary. Selina became aware she was being followed. She halted and spun around. Don’t you dare! she yelled. Just stay up here and be useless where it can’t hurt anyone. If you come after me, I’ll make you sorry you were ever born.

    Still Johanna took a step toward her but it provoked only a fresh paroxysm of rage. I don’t want you, she shrieked. "Can’t you get that into your thick skull? You are not wanted. You’ve never been wanted – anywhere! Why don’t you go and cast yourself down a mineshaft?"

    And she turned and stormed away.

    The peace that closed in around Johanna was only bliss. Time was when such an exchange would have plunged her into gloom for days; but now it was just water on an eider’s back. She turned and walked the few paces to the very crest of the hill, which, at over 600 feet, was the highest for several miles. From here you could actually see the geography of the far west of Cornwall, from the Atlantic on the northern coast, some eight miles off, to the Channel shore, a mile or two southwards. She stood there and turned a slow, full circle, breathing great drafts of the western breeze, fresh off three thousand miles of ocean. From here all human works and feelings were set in their true proportions.

    The great tin mines whose belching chimneys described a mighty arc from Godolphin in the north, round through Wheal Vor, Pallas Consols, Carnmeal, and the legendary Wheal Fortune to the east, seemed mere toys. In their satanic workings they had maimed and broken generations of Cornishmen – and women, too, for most of the surface work was done by the bal maidens; but from here they seemed no more than playthings, scattered by a greedy and impatient child, careless of the landscape’s charm. The fields, too, were shrunk to a patchwork quilt, an incompetent creation designed by a horde of squabbling beginners. At various moments in history the run of the hedges and lanes must have made sense to someone but those reasons had long vanished, leaving nothing beyond a perverse but fertile confusion of arable, pasture, and croft. Here and there was the occasional intrusion of a remnant woodland covert where the gentry preserved their game.

    Johanna let the familiarity of it all reclaim her and bring its peace. Most of her days she lived from moment to moment, from room to room; it was easier so. But the spirit also needs that longer perspective, both of space and of time. Poor Selina! She always behaved as if two quite different girls were at war within her, one arrogantly certain of her maturity, the other a frightened child desperate for reassurance; each begged you to side with them and was resentful if you did not. If a real Selina existed at all, she was prisoner to both. People said, She’ll be different when she grows up – she’ll soon settle. But Johanna, who knew her better than anyone, having been the butt of her venom so often, now doubted it. Five years hence they’d probably be saying, She’ll be different when she has her next baby – that’ll soon settle her.

    Far off across the peninsula a hoot from a train on the Hayle Railway brought Johanna out of her reverie. Half past eleven. She ought to be going back to Lanfear, to supervise the preparations for the guest of guests. She folded Selina’s sandwiches back into their paper and placed the bundle in a rabbit hole – a gift to a fox or a piskey. Then she turned for home. The day was so fine, however, that she could not deny herself the pleasure of going the long road around, between Balwest and Greatwork and on by way of Trevithan. She picked her way down the hillside, singing, As I went a-strolling one morning in May, in her clear but uncertain soprano; and it seemed to her she had little enough to complain of. If she could honestly pity someone with as many advantages and prospects as Selina, then she must be among the most rather than the least fortunate of people.

    At Trevithan she faced a choice of paths. The carriageway went around Lanfear, almost three fourths of a circle, approaching the house from the west; or there was a shorter bridleway across the fields that would bring her in through the kitchen garden, to the east of the house. It all depended on which pump they were using to fork out Greatwork; if it were the one on this side of the hill, the stream would be too high for her to cross. She had just decided to risk it when she heard a gig approaching down the lane behind her and a man’s voice crying, Hoa there! Hoa-back, sir!

    Young lady? he called, catching her half-way across the stile and unable to turn and face him. "Pardon my presumption, but if I go out of my way once more, they’ll think it worth their while to set up tolls at every junction. Pray tell me, does any road hereabouts lead to Lanfear House? I’m a stranger to this district, you see."

    Johanna froze. This young man could be none other than Dr Anthony Moore himself – almost two hours earlier than expected. How like a bachelor! But what could she do? If she directed him truly, he would arrive within five minutes and discover a house in turmoil. If she misdirected him, he would find her out soon enough and then how would she face him every day for the next two weeks?

    Young lady? he prompted hesitantly.

    Pardon me, sir, she explained. My dress is caught in a bramble here. It will only take a moment. She bent and pretended to fiddle with it, giving herself time to think.

    Are you by any chance Dr Moore? she asked. From Plymouth?

    Why yes. He gave a small, surprised laugh. You know of me, then? Am I so close to my goal?

    You are not expected until one o’clock, she told him as she stood up and faced him at last.

    Their eyes met. She saw a young man in his mid-twenties, dashingly handsome, with wavy blond hair and a kindly eye. Selina was lucky, she thought – though the young man stirred nothing very deep within her.

    What he saw, however, was something he would never forget – a young woman with the most hauntingly beautiful eyes he had ever encountered. The rest of her face was handsome enough but those eyes held him entranced. It was not love at first sight, for he was not so shallow as that. Indeed, in those first few moments he was so struck by her beauty, he almost forgot she was a person and so gazed at her more as one might examine a beautiful work of art.

    I live at Lanfear, she explained. I am Miss Visick’s cousin. My name is Johanna Rosewarne.

    His gaze fell as he recollected himself. Ah. The truth is I thought I’d get no farther than Truro yesterday, Miss Rosewarne. In fact, the road was so good I pressed on to Helston. Will it matter, my turning up early?

    Not if you have cures for heart attacks in your bag, she told him.

    Oh. Like that? He sighed, consulted his watch, and then looked vaguely about him. How to kill two hours? Is there a good prospect from yonder hill? Has it a name?

    Trigoning Hill, they call it.

    I presume one may walk to its crest?

    You could drive as far as Balwest Farm and leave your gig there. They’d bring it round this afternoon.

    And are you bound for Lanfear House, Miss Rosewarne? May I not take you at least part-way there?

    Curiosity got the better of her. If I may ride with you to Balwest, sir, that will then be my shortest way. I’ll accompany you to the hilltop and you’ll see the path I take to Lanfear.

    He jumped down to hand her up into the gig. So be it. And, smiling to himself, he gathered up the reins.

    Chapter 2

    THE FIRST THING Johanna pointed out to Dr Moore was Lanfear House itself. Then, moving wider: Most of this nearby land is in Germoe parish. That’s Land’s End in the distance.

    I can see St Michael’s Mount! He appeared surprised. But it’s so exactly like all the engravings. One almost forgets it’s a real place. He turned seaward, bringing her into his field of view again. And there is Mount’s Bay, eh?

    She nodded contentedly, as if she part-owned it. I think the waters are never the same two days on end. Indeed, they can change five times in the hour.

    And so many ships.

    One can usually see five or six sails. She glanced at him shyly. Sometimes, when I’m sewing at my window, I watch them pass and I try to imagine all the lives going on out there. Every creek and inlet has its little lobster catchers, so I might actually know some of them. Or their families, anyway. And then every tide one can see fishermen putting out from Newlyn, Penzance, Porthleven … Mullion. Her finger traced the rim of the bay, turning her full circle toward him again.

    He gave only a token glance at the sea. She found his attention discomforting – yet not unpleasing.

    That fellow, he remarked, with another brief dart toward the sea. He’s no fisherman.

    A lugger, she agreed. They go from port to port all along the coast, from as far away as Bristol.

    He smiled. As far away as Bristol!

    Yes. They come all down the north coast to Hayle, then around Land’s End to Penzance and Falmouth, and so on, back to England again.

    Then they must also go ‘as far away as Plymouth,’ he pointed out with gentle mockery.

    Everywhere seems far away down here. She scanned the horizon. That big one out there – the three-master, almost hull down. She’s an ocean-going trader. Oh, and look! There’s another, wearing towards us. D’you know, some of them haven’t sighted land since the Cape or the Horn. And we’re the first thing they see – Cornwall. A revenue man told me a seaman told him they forget what the colour green is like. Isn’t it a marvel?

    A marvel, he echoed, turning his eyes inland. And these are the famous tin mines. What a devastation they have caused!

    It’s bread in the belly, though. She sighed. Without them the destitution of the poor would be unimaginable.

    He put his hand to his midriff and laughed. I wish you hadn’t said that, Miss Rosewarne.

    Oh, are you hungry, Dr Moore? She ran to the rabbit hole, stooped and produced Selina’s sandwiches – to his utter amazement.

    Do you sleep in a bottle? he asked. Have I only two wishes to go? Because I hope you’d warn me. There’s one wish I’d … well, I’d sooner die than make it my fourth.

    She laughed and explained, passing lightly over the true state of her cousin’s nerves. You will be kindly? she urged. This visit of yours means so very much to her – and you know how easy it is to put one’s foot wrong in … when one is…

    Ah. He returned his gaze to the sea.

    Why do you say that?

    He tugged briefly at his lower lip. I have no idea of Lanfear House – what it will be like – what you and your family are like.

    Nothing very remarkable, I’m sure. Miss Visick is, or can be, a little highly strung.

    What can one learn of anyone or anything in one evening? And at a ball, too. Such artificial circumstances.

    Indeed.

    I hope I don’t compromise you, Miss Rosewarne – bringing you up here alone?

    She laughed. Oh, we are chaperoned, have no fear. I imagine at least a dozen pairs of eyes are upon us at this moment, Dr Moore. Besides, it is unlikely I shall marry into any circle where such compromising counts for much … if, indeed … well, you were saying you know nothing of us?

    Yes. All I know is that Miss Visick struck me as the most interesting young lady there. Therefore I rashly asked her for two dances … received this invitation … and… He appeared not to know how to finish the thought.

    Is there anything amiss in that? she asked.

    No, not at all. Well … perhaps … in this sense: Expectations may have been raised that I did not intend to rouse. I regard this visit merely as a chance to know Miss Visick – in fact, to know all of you – better. Not to cement any lasting … you know?

    She smiled. Are you seeking my advice?

    He nodded. "I see you are of the family and yet a little apart from it."

    Then if I were you, I should find the earliest opportunity to tell Miss Visick what you have just told me.

    I don’t wish to sound conceited but … it will not disappoint her?

    Johanna shook her head. And now I really must go. Briefly she took off her bonnet to retie its ribbon.

    He stared at her in frank amazement. She felt she ought to explain. When I was sixteen…

    But your eyes are such an astonishing blue! he said. And yet your hair is black as a raven’s wing. Oh, do forgive such personal remarks – but the combination is so rare. I had no idea.

    Did he think her eyebrows were painted then? It’s not uncommon here – and very common, they say, in Brittany. Or was he just rather unobservant?

    Celtic, eh?

    Doctors shouldn’t be unobservant. She went on, Old Joel Rogers, well, you don’t know him of course, but he sells strewing sand from door to door, he told me the old folks used to call colouring like mine ‘candle and ray’ because those who are … those who have it, possess supernatural powers of… She hesitated. Joel Rogers had actually said, supernatural powers of attraction. She moved her hands awkwardly. Supernatural powers … of some kind. Silly talk.

    As a moth to a taper, maid, Rogers had said, combing her hair with his fingers as if he could not believe its intensity until he saw it against his own weatherbeaten skin. Candle and ray.

    I really must be going now, she repeated, replacing her bonnet and tucking her short hair in all around the brim. I need hardly remind you we have a very important visitor arriving today – and I’m sure the house is falling apart down there. I only hope he has the courtesy to arrive a little late.

    The doctor laughed. You were going to tell me something about when you were sixteen?

    Oh – she shrugged awkwardly, still half-turned to leave – Mrs Visick somehow acquired the notion that hair of my particular colouring is extraordinarily susceptible to headlice and ringworm and things – to spare me the indignity of which she… Johanna smiled and snipped the air with her fingers.

    He struggled vainly to find a polite way of saying stuff and nonsense. I shall disabuse her of any such notion at the earliest opportunity, he promised.

    Not on my account, please.

    You don’t mind? No, why should you, come to think of it.

    She turned her gaze to the south, to the wide waters of the bay. I was unhappy at the time, of course. For a day or two.

    No more than that?

    "And then I realized what that new little face, staring back at me out of every wretched looking glass … what it reminded me of: a pageboy I once saw in an engraving. My father, God rest his soul, used to subscribe to the Art Journal. And I remembered an engraving he once showed me. A portrait by Veronese of some Florentine grandee with this young pageboy at his side. ‘In those days,’ he explained to me, ‘painters weren’t the gods they like to think they are today. If they wanted to show their scorn for a rich, jumped-up patron like this grandee, they had to be very subtle about it. Just look what old Veronese’s done.’"

    Johanna moved her hands as if the journal were before her still. He watched her, fascinated at a gift for recall that was so total, so loving. "‘First look at our grandee himself. Slightly coarse, perhaps? Or then again perhaps not. The feeling vanishes and returns and vanishes once more – very subtle. Much too subtle for a grand fellow like that even to notice, consumed by self-love as he is. But now look at his pageboy! It’s as if Veronese were saying, See! I can indeed paint the look of wisdom, if I wish. I can depict true grandeur of soul. If you doubt me, study this young lad. And so there he stands, the humble little servant whose nobility mocks a master who, for his part, will never twig what’s happening!’ She laughed at a cunning so deep it could ring down the centuries like that. Then she turned to him apologetically. Of course, the only similarity between me and the page was the style of the hair. I shouldn’t wish you to think … I mean…"

    He eyed her shrewdly. The only similarity, Miss Rosewarne? If the pageboy knew what Veronese had done, then there is at least one more. Isn’t there? After a silence he prompted her: D’you suppose the lad did know?

    She gave him a reluctant grin. Yes!

    He took a step toward her. And now I hardly need an explanation of why you were not at the ball.

    She turned and walked from him, down the path to Lanfear House. Ten past one would be politely tardy, she called back over her shoulder. Oh – and we haven’t met … when we finally do meet … if you see what I mean. As she went back down the hill she could not help thinking what a pleasant young man he was and how lucky Selina would be if his liking for her ripened into love.

    If she herself ever married – and if she could take her pick of husbands – she would pick Dr Anthony Moore. Or someone very like him.

    Chapter 3

    FROM THE VERY FIRST the expectations of the Visick household pressed so heavily upon poor Dr Moore that his chance never came to tell Selina what he had confessed at once to Johanna. And the supposed object of his love was so prickly whenever the conversation came within a million miles of that topic, he began to despair – just as the family, for its part, began to despair of his proposal. By the start of the second week they were resigned to accepting that the usual thing had happened.

    The rituals of courtship, which had served well enough in the age of the frankly arranged marriage, were quite inadequate to modern purposes; for lately there had arisen the somewhat novel notion (due, no doubt, to a recent flood of novels upon the subject) that love should play some small part in the process. The usual thing, then, was that young people who became enamoured of each other in, say, the hothouse of a County Ball found that the tender buds of love were soon nipped in the frosts of a two-week visit. There was then nothing to do but pass the time in as civil a manner as possible and part friends. And so it was as friends that the three young people, Dr Moore, Selina, and their chaperone, Johanna, set out for a picnic at Praa Sands one afternoon early in the second week of his visit. Any day now it would be in order for him to receive an urgent summons home; a sense of finality hung over the occasion.

    Theresa Visick was naturally heartbroken that so much planning and preparation should have come to naught. But a mother who wears her heart on her sleeve – especially when it is in that condition – is soon an object of ridicule; her nubile daughter, moreover, would drop several points in the race. So Theresa smiled till she ached and was in every way the gracious, carefree hostess. God and the household alone knew what fires were banked as she stood beneath the doric porticoes of Lanfear House and waved the youngsters out of sight.

    It was a sunny, breezy day, blowing in from the southwest. Far out toward the Atlantic hung clouds that threatened rain; but they dissolved into air as they approached the Land’s End peninsula, leaving nothing but scattered, fleecy white nimbus to temper the sun from time to time.

    It’s a disgrace to be driving there, Johanna commented. It’s not above two miles, even by these twisting lanes.

    What about the picnic things? Selina asked, reasonably enough.

    Jenkins could have driven down with them. Still, it gives us more time on the sands. Shall we go the Pentreath way and come back past Pengersick?

    That’s quite a steep downhill at Pentreath … with three of us up?

    They looked at Dr Moore.

    The brakes are quite good, he observed. You’ll have to tell me the way, though. Every one of your lanes looks the same to me.

    They soon reached the main road, a mile-long, gentle, downhill run into the broad, shallow valley whose meeting with the sea formed the sands of Praa. At Germoe crossroads they passed a gang of men felling the last of an ancient stand of oak – a timber for which the mines had an insatiable appetite.

    As soon as one gets this side of Truro, Moore commented, one sees nothing but tree stumps everywhere. It’s like the descriptions one reads of pioneer lands in Canada and America.

    The two women agreed that, even in their short memories, the landscape had improved enormously – though they should not like to see all the trees removed. Johanna added, My mother told me Cornwall used to be like fairy-tale country, all dark and grim and shadowed with trees.

    Everything decaying and dank. Selina shivered.

    Yes, that’s the trouble with forests, Moore told them solemnly. The real Robin Hood died of the rheumatics, I’ll wager.

    The game amused them all the way to the Pentreath turn. When they came to the steep part of the lane he whistled and said, I see what you mean. Pray it’s dry. He hauled at the brakes with all his might and they just managed it without a slide. There were a few close shaves, though, which made it necessary for the women to cling to him tightly and throw their weight behind his; manfully, he raised no objection. They were quite breathless when they arrived at the foot of the hill. There a spring gave rise to a brief but vigorous stream that ran down toward the beach. They tethered the pony by its banks, giving water and a little grazing to keep him content; the shady overhang of willow and ash would keep him and the picnic cool, too. Then they strolled the last furlong, down to the lobstermen’s cottages, where the road levelled out onto the grassy dunes above the beach. There the stream ran out upon the sand, all the way down to the sea, which was at three-quarters tide.

    Moore gave a cry of delight and raced down to the water’s edge, where he began trying to bounce the flat, rounded pebbles across the choppy water in the game called ducks and drakes. Selina was about to join him when her cousin held her back. You remember what you told me – when we walked up Trigoning last week?

    Yes.

    "Try to find some way of telling him. Here and now – today."

    Selina’s eyes went wide in surprise. D’you think I could?

    Trust me. Find different words if you like, but make him understand.

    Oh! She closed her eyes. I’ve thought of nothing else all week. A thought came to her rescue. But actually there’s no need now. He’s obviously not going to ask me to marry him.

    But that’s exactly why you should tell him. I promise you, you’ll be pleasantly surprised. I promise.

    Well… She was still dubious. We’ll see.

    They went down onto the sand; he was already coming back to join them.

    Oh dear, Selina called out.

    What’s the matter? he asked.

    Well, at low tide you can walk around the end of this stream. The sand sort-of swallows it up half way.

    At the present water, however, they were forced to hop from one precarious stepping stone to the next. Moore went first, and then developed a gentlemanly curiosity in the shape of Rinsey Head, whose sheer cliffs marked the eastern end of the sands, a hazy mile away. This allowed the women to lift their skirts and make the hazardous crossing in privacy. As soon as they were over, Johanna said, You two go on. I could never resist this. And she peeled off her gloves, picked up a boulder, big as a nine-inch egg, and hurled it into the bed of the stream, leaping back to avoid the splash.

    Oh, that looks fun. Moore picked up an even larger boulder and hurled it after hers. The splash soused him neatly down one side, from shoulder to foot – a narrow line, as if from a dribbling hose.

    Johanna laughed. There’s a knack to it. Go on – I’ll catch you up before long. She took out her handkerchief and gave his wet jacket a token dab or two. Remember what you told me that day up Trigoning? she asked under her breath.

    Mm-hmm. He eyed her warily. He had told her so much, he recalled – too much, perhaps.

    Tell Miss Visick. You’ll…

    Tell her? But I’ve been trying to do nothing else for the past week!

    I think she’ll listen today. Try, anyway. I think you might be very pleasantly surprised.

    Aren’t you coming? Selina called from some way off.

    Tony trotted to join her.

    They walked side by side, close but not touching. The sand was coarse and slithery, making each step a small labour. Johanna and Terence once built quite a large reservoir down here, Selina explained. The moment they were out of earshot she went on, What d’you think of her, by the way?

    He coughed. I hardly think that a … well…

    Oh come on, Dr Moore. There was more than a hint of weariness in her voice.

    I beg your pardon?

    Jo has organized this so that we may put our cards on the table. I saw her talking to you just now – telling you the same as she just told me, I’m sure. So – what d’you say?

    He smiled. I say ladies first.

    She sighed. We all know why you’re paying us this visit. And you and I both realize it hasn’t worked – greatly to our mutual relief, I suspect.

    Oh. The surprise was merely social.

    But… She turned round and stared at her cousin. Jo is absolutely right! she murmured to herself. She returned to him with a smile. Don’t you see – the chance it now gives us? Oh yes – this is a rare opportunity.

    Opportunity? He began to feel a slight alarm.

    "We can really, really talk. Have you ever done that? I haven’t. Those ghastly, ghastly conversations we had at the Ball! Look – you’ll be gone soon and we’ll probably never meet again. There’s no need to guard our words, to flatter, to reach for the conventional … the safe remark."

    I see. He grew thoughtful.

    She waited for him to take up her original question – what did he think of Johanna? When he did not, she intoned, giving each syllable precisely equal weight: What a char-ming view I think Corn-wall’s so pret-ty at this time of year don’t you?

    After a while he said, There may be dangers in frankness, Miss Visick. Untutored frankness between young women and young men.

    Indeed?

    We may rail against society and chafe at its restrictions. And yet they do arise out of certain practical considerations. Much wisdom has gone into the making of them.

    Really? Selina replied.

    The innocence of children – which is often so wickedly knowing – is really appropriate only to … well, to the years of childhood.

    I hope I did not mean to babble at you, Dr Moore.

    The choice of word is yours, Miss Visick, but…

    I did not realize that, as one grows older, the great pageant of life must reduce itself to the Four Safe Topics.

    By the great pageant of life you mean…

    I mean our hopes, our ambitions, our feelings.

    Ah!

    "What d’you mean: ah?"

    You bring me back to my point when you talk of feelings. I presume you do not refer to superficial feelings – like our feelings at struggling over this excessively yielding sand?

    I’m sorry our beach is not to your liking. Perhaps we should…

    No, no. That was just an example. Forget I said that. But you know what I mean. Or perhaps not?

    Selina masked a smile. You mean our emotions, Dr Moore. You think it’s bad form, do you?

    This accusation of shallowness stung him. More than bad form, Miss Visick. It is dangerous.

    Hah!

    Believe me, I know this – not simply as a man of the world but as a doctor, too.

    To all people, at all times? And in all places and circumstances? She looked about them with amused contempt.

    But he retained his solemnity. "Indeed. When I mentioned children just now, I did not intend it as a rebuke, and I’m sorry if you read that into it. I make a distinction between being childish and childlike, you see. Women have a childlike innocence and beauty that is their greatest charm. But just as children can pass in a moment from the angelic to the savage – because they do not understand the source of their emotions and therefore cannot control them – so, too, can a woman. Indeed, so, too, can a man. The difference is that a man, or a gentleman, is supposed to understand such a transformation and is therefore obliged to strive with all his might to avoid those circumstances in which … oh dear! This has become impossibly pompous. Just tell me you know what I mean?" He smiled to recruit her agreement.

    But she saw that he had exposed the chink in his armour. You mean, despite the gentleman’s true feelings at that moment?

    Y e s. The agreement was reluctant.

    Voilà!

    And what may you mean by that?

    I think if any explanation is due, Dr Moore, you are the one who owes it.

    But I’ve just…

    Are you seriously maintaining that you and I, walking in perfect though chaperoned seclusion along this strand – I agree, it is tiresome, by the way … shall we rest awhile on that bit of driftwood? – anyway, that you and I may not talk of anything of the slightest interest or importance for fear that we should turn into beasts?

    You always go to extremes, he snapped. Of course, you know I think no such thing.

    Do I? But what grounds have you…

    The point is that, once those rules are relaxed, once a general spirit of laxity is allowed to creep in – and it would always creep in at the edges in exactly the manner you are now proposing – then who knows where it might end?

    "Ah! Here we have it at last! You and I are to discuss the weather, the scenery, and doh-reh-mi, not for our own sakes

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