Triangles: A Novel
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Holly, filled with regret for being a stay-at-home mom, sheds sixty pounds and loses herself in the world of extramarital sex. But will it truly bring the fulfillment she is searching for?
Andrea, a single mom and avowed celibate, watches her friend Holly’s meltdown with a mixture of concern and contempt. Holly is throwing away what Andrea has spent her whole life searching for—a committed relationship with a decent guy. So would it be such a bad thing if Andrea picks up Holly’s castaway husband?
Marissa has more than her fair share of challenges—a rebellious teenage son, a terminally ill daughter, and a husband who buries himself in his work rather than face the facts.
As one woman’s marriage unravels, another’s rekindles. As one woman’s family comes apart at the seams, another’s reconfigures into something bigger and better. In this story of connections and disconnections, one woman’s up is another one’s down, and all of them will learn the meaning of friendship, betrayal, and forgiveness.
Unflinchingly honest, emotionally powerful, surprisingly erotic, Triangles is the ultimate page-turner. Hopkins’s gorgeous, expertly honed poetic verse perfectly captures the inner lives of her characters: Sometimes it happens like that. Sometimes you just get lost.
Get lost in the world of Triangles, where the lives of three unforgettable women intersect, and where there are no easy answers.
Ellen Hopkins
Ellen Hopkins is the #1 New York Times bestselling author of numerous young adult novels, as well as the adult novels such as Triangles, Collateral, and Love Lies Beneath. She lives with her family in Carson City, Nevada, where she has founded Ventana Sierra, a nonprofit youth housing and resource initiative. Follow her on Twitter at @EllenHopkinsLit.
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- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5I have heard some really great things about Ellen Hopkins' writing, from reviews of her young adult books. But I have never actually read any of her work.
I was pleasantly surprised when I picked up this book. Triangles is written in poetic verse, which apparently is how Hopkins writes her books. I haven't read many poetic verse books and I find that I really do like them.
Triangles is an adult fiction book about three women, two are sisters, but they are all friends; Holly, Andrea, and Marissa.
Holly and Marissa are married while Andrea is divorced. All three have children. Holly is an almost 40 year old mother of three whom starts to look outside of her marriage for what she thinks is missing. Marissa is a mother of two, her son; Shane; is gay, her daughter Shelby has SMA. Andrea is raising her daughter Harley on her own, with very little help from her ex.
All three women have their issue's; Holly being the one that stands out the most to me. She has the perfect life, or so we think. A doting husband, three wonderful children and on top of it all, she doesn't have to work. But you soon find out that as great as she has it, she believes that she is being smothered and that she needs more... more sex, more affection...just more. She becomes the "whore" of the book and really just made me dislike her.
Andrea , as the single mother that ends up in one dead end relationship after another, caught my heart. I was her for a few years. Although, I didn't end up doing what she did, I did have my fair share of bad guys and liars. And with an ex that all of a sudden wants to be a father, i know how she feels when it comes to sharing Harley with her ex and the doubts that arise.
Marissa is strong throughout most of the book, dealing with a teenager that is gay, and her failing 4 year old. I don't think that I could be married and deal with all of that on my own. As much as she is married, she may as wel be a single mother. Her husband Christian isn't around, and when he is; they are more roommates that share children than anything else.
Each main character is given her own little section as there aren't any "real" chapters in the book, and you will notice that while it is written in three different points of view, it really flows. All of the sections go together amazingly well, and the story is a powerful one.
I felt as though I was drawn into the lives of these women and my heart broke along with Marissa when she found out just how messed up her marriage was.
I don't want to give away too much, but know that this is a powerful read! - Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5This book was surprisingly a life changing read. It makes you appreciate what you have and take a closer look at your own marriage.
Andrea is a single mom struggling with dating problems and raising her daughter. Her story was entertaining and lonely. I felt for her... It seemed as though she sulked alot. When she meets a charming guy and thinks he could be the one of course he turns out to be a douche. Towards the end of the book though there was a twist and I loved it!
Holly basically wants to be a cougar. She sheds the weight and prances all around. She puts extramarital activities before her family and even decides to write an erotica. When her husband finds her writing he realizes the stories within the journal are real. Together they grow apart and their marriage wears thin.
Marissa has it tough and I loved her story. With a gay son and a terminally ill daughter her life is consumed by being a caretaker. She argues with her husband trying to get him more involved. Little did she know he was having an affair. Towards the end things change... Will they mend their wounds??
Overall if you like reading about older women with depth this book is for you!
Wonderful, emotional read. - Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5I've been reading her books for a while and at first I didn't think I'd enjoy it. Compared to her Teen/YA books, this one's quite raunchy, so if you've never read anything by Ellen Hopkins before, I wouldn't suggest this one first. But overall, the content doesn't bother me and I thought it ended nicely for what it was.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Book Title: "Triangles”Author: Ellen HopkinsPublished By: AtriaAge Recommended: 18+Reviewed By: Kitty BullardRaven Rating: 5Review: Another wonderful addition to women’s literature, Ellen Hopkins brings us a vivid and moving tale of three friends reaching that inevitable hill called the mid-life crisis that seems more like a mountain.This story is amazing, the characters are brilliant and the emotions are extremely easy for women of all ages to identify with. I loved this novel and I’m sure other women everywhere will!
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Riveting and evocative. This author has the ability to wrench every emotion from you as you read, shock, anger,sadness, empathy, disgust etc… Her characters are raw and real.
- Rating: 2 out of 5 stars2/5Story had great potential - but writing it in prose is not for me. I mostly found it incredibly annoying.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5This was Ellen's first novel and I expected nothing less than amazing. It was actually better than I expected. While the content is much more adult than her YA novels, I found nothing wrong with it, and I am a 20 year old reader. I loved how she kept the poetry but it flowed like a novel does.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Getting older causes people to question if the life they have lived for the past forty years is the one they want to be stuck in forever. Marissa, Holly, and Andrea are no different than most America's either struggling to keep a marriage together, or struggling to cope with being a single mother, eventually everyone starts questioning the choices they made when they were younger. It is called a midlife crisis. Triangles tells the tale of three woman, and the struggles they face in the lives they have chosen to live.
I was a huge fan of Ellen Hopkins when she first came out with Crank, and Glass. The story of her daughter’s struggle with drugs captivated me so much I would read her books in one sitting. Once she started coming out with the other books such as Burned, Impulse, Tricks and more, I started to read them but slowly just stopped buying her books at the bookstore. I am an adult and I didn't relate to the novels anymore, because her novels talk about a ton of serious teen issues. I did however miss her incredible poetic writing style, and would constantly wish she would write an adult novel. Triangles was my wish come true, a novel for adults.
As soon as I picked up Triangles I was sucked back into the world of Ellen Hopkins beautiful tragic poetry that I missed so much. This novel reminded me why I was a huge fan of Ellen Hopkins to start with; she has this ability to capture me as a reader with her writing style, and her talent for storytelling. The tale of these three ladies is so incredible I could not put this novel down no matter how hard I tried. When I wasn't reading Triangles I couldn't wait to dive back into the novel at my next free moment.
Triangles is about three different woman but they are all tied together. The show stealer for me was Marissa a mother of a disabled daughter, a gay son, and an active member in a failing marriage. Marissa's story is tragic she takes hit after hit throughout the entire book. Marissa's entire life is dedicated to her disabled daughter to a point she is almost a prisoner in her own house. Marissa's friends don't come see her anymore, her sister avoids her, and her husband is either not around or drowning himself in booze. Marissa's story had me in tears, and I love when a book can bring real emotions out of me.
Now for my recommendation, of course I would love to say this book is incredible and everyone would love it, but I just don't think that is the case. Most people read to escape real life problems, but Ellen Hopkins novels take real life problems and multiply them by a thousand. Also Ellen Hopkins creates villains not heroes, and her stories don't end with a resolution, they end with a consequence. So if this sounds like something you might be interested in grab yourself a copy, but keep an open mind. This novel is for adult readers only due to sexual content.1 person found this helpful
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5This book is not what I thought it would be. It wasn't even a shadow of what I thought it would be. I thought the storyline had great potential to be a touching story about female relationships with friends and family. However that aspect of the story was greatly overshadowed by numerous raunchy sex scenes that got really boring and silly after awhile. I also found 2 of the 3 main characters so immature that you just couldn't take them seriously. This would be considered good chick lit but nothing more substantial than that. I gave it three stars because the audio production was fairly well done. I'm not saying it was a terrible book, just a big dissapointment to me because I was hoping for something more substantial.
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- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5Have you ever heard about high school kids moan about having to read poetry? I'm about one step up from that. And by that, I mean I don't moan about it out loud but it's rarely something I have rarely chosen to do since graduating from school. About the only poetry reading I do voluntarily these days is reading through the elementary school kid's poetry packet when he brings it home after the unit is finished every year. For my money, he writes some highly entertaining poetry (not that that was his intention, mind you). So it was almost completely out of character for me to choose to read a novel in verse. **I only qualified the above statement because Sharon Creech's Love That Dog for the elementary school set is written in verse and is bloody brilliant. In any case, had I been paying close enough attention, I'd have known up front that Ellen Hopkins' Triangles was a novel in verse and it would likely not have hit my plate thanks to my long time avoidance of most poetry.Narrated in verse and in turn by all three of the main characters, this is a novel of mid-life crises, dissatisfaction, unhappiness, and infidelity. It calls into question what we can legitimately expect from our lives, the meaning of loyalty, love, and friendship, and how marriages can wither away or crumble from lack of effort. Holly is newly thin and looking for excitement which she finds in multiple affairs. Andrea is a single mom who tries to shepherd friend Holly away from temptation but when Holly succumbs, she has few compunctions about trying Holly's settled and comfortable life, including Holly's husband, on for size. Andrea's sister Marissa is stultifyingly trapped. Her daughter has a terminal disease and she has subsumed her whole being into caring for Shelby for as long as Shelby has to live. That her son Shane is newly out of the closet and constantly sparring with his dad, Marissa's distant and work-absorbed husband, doesn't ease her burden any. As the stories twine together, each of the women is brought to the crisis point, forced to examine her life, and to determine what she wants from it and who she ultimately wants to be.While the poetry is an innovative way to tell the story, it was confusing with three narrators. Holly, Andrea, and Marissa all sounded exactly alike in their sections because of the spareness of the verse, making it difficult to retain which woman's story the plot thread was following at any given moment. They came to seem rather interchangeable. And somehow the poetry was less evocative and more devoid of detail and symbol than it should have been, leaving the tale feeling thin and underdeveloped. Each of the women's self-realization does in fact include her sexuality but there was an awful lot of very descriptive scenes that really did nothing in the service of the plot or in building the characters. None of the characters was all that sympathetic or likeable over all and they didn't seem to grow or change in any perceptible way either. The about face at the end of the book on some characters' parts was too easy and unearned to be believable. Although this is a book written for adults with middle aged characters, the feel is still very emotionally puerile and teenaged immature. Telling the tale in poetic form was interesting and could have worked but it needed to plumb deeper than it did and to be used for a reason. Ultimately I found the book unsatisfying and grateful that it was a quick read.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Book Title: "Triangles”Author: Ellen HopkinsPublished By: AtriaAge Recommended: 18+Reviewed By: Kitty BullardRaven Rating: 5Review: Another wonderful addition to women’s literature, Ellen Hopkins brings us a vivid and moving tale of three friends reaching that inevitable hill called the mid-life crisis that seems more like a mountain.This story is amazing, the characters are brilliant and the emotions are extremely easy for women of all ages to identify with. I loved this novel and I’m sure other women everywhere will!
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5A sad, dramatic snapshot of four women's lives that incorporate lots of drama! I am pleased to say that after reading this, I am so appreciative to have the family that I do!
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5This is a great book. I love the writing style of Ellen Hopkins. She is truly an amazing author who can weave the story, relationships, joys, sadness and life lessons taught by the various family members into an enjoyable novel.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Good Stuff No holds barred, dark, truthful, raw and honest Writing style is unique Some nice dark honest humour thrown in A lot of truths about parenting, being a women and marriage All of the children characters are interesting,would have liked more about them - I love Shane Heartbreakingly beautiful at times Even-though it isn't my usual fiction and a little too sad and uncomfortable, I just couldn't put it down. Hopkins grabs you with her understanding of relationships and makes all of the characters oh so very real Fantastic character development Poetically written (mostly in a good way -- we all know that poetry isn't my thing) Very emotional (I'm talking rip your heart out stuff) - you will need Kleenex near the end Fascinating to read all of the various observations about the same events from each of the friendsThe Not So Good Stuff (MAJOR SPOILER AT END) Its a real downer at times and extremely uncomfortable to read - this is not a feel good book Sick terminally ill children make me cry and feel sick, I have a hard time with this Does not put a hopeful spin on marriage and way too many uncomfortable truths about marriage and friendship - I need something a little more hopeful (This has nothing to do with the exceptional talents of the author) SPOILER - The little girl dies and it is very raw and honestFavorite Quotes/Passages"Shane was born perfectly fine, despite the same genetic pairing. One in four. That's what their odds were. God gave Shelby SMA. Shane just got "gay"."She's penned her fair share of the spicy stuff. My expression must say more than I want it to because everyone laughs and Betty says, What? I may be old, but my memory is still good. And my husband isn't quite dead yet.""Oh, and I got a makeover -new cosmetics to enhance my natural "beauty." What a joke. But hey, the just-barely-out-of-high-school department store "expert" managed to sell this "in need of advice" middle-aged hag three hundred plus dollars' worth of lotions and creams, which do make my skin feel plumped and moisturized."Who Should/Shouldn't Read Good for adult reluctant reader Perfect book for a book club discussion Not for those who like something light and fluffy - that being said I am definitely reading something light and fluffy next cuz this was INTENSE3.75 Dewey's (Based on my enjoyment not on talents of writer)I received this from Simon and Schuster on behalf of the Bookalicious Twitter Book Club
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5A book that mixes romance and interpersonal relationships with touches of erotica and chick-lit, this is not the type of book that I would normally seek out on the shelf. Having admitted that, I found the book to be an interesting work that alternates between one of three women in mid-life seeking anwsers to life's persistent questions of love, fidelity and regret. The book is well written and uses an interesting structuring of line lengths, paragraph size and spacing and a liberal use of indenting and outdenting to add a visual sense of poetry. Sections are short and often end with poetry or a keyword that launches the introduction to the next person or idea.I don't know if this breaks any new ground in its mixed-genre, but I found it an enjoyable book whose presumably unique presentation style should appeal to many readers. There are some very good lines mixed in with an interesting narrative.This book was furnished by the publisher in exchange for an honest review.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Triangles is the first novel I've read by Ellen Hopkins. I've heard a ton of great things about this author and her books so I was thrilled to get my hands on Triangles. Ellen Hopkins is well known for her young adult novels but Triangles is an adult novel. This novel is written in a beautifully descriptive verse. The story line focuses on three women who are at a cross roads of sort in their lives. Holly, Andrea and Marissa are all struggling with different issues and circumstances. Holly is a mother of three who wants something different. Her search leads her to exploring her sexuality. Andrea is a single mom who is still searching for that special someone. Marissa is married but might as well be single for the amount of attention her husband shows her. Marissa also has her hands full with her terminally ill daughter. Ellen Hopkins is an epic story teller. Triangles is told from all three women's points-of-view. I love how the author gave a glimpse into the other characters reaction to the events unfolding. I was glued to the pages as I read through this book. I didn't want to put it down for anything. Triangles is an emotional roller coaster that had me on the edge of my seat waiting to see how the events were going to play out. I felt connected to the characters and their individual stories. This book had me laughing and crying until the very last page.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5I won this book from a GoodReads first-read giveaway. When I signed up for the giveaway I had no idea that the book was in verse form. I found out that it was shortly after I won the book and that made me wary of the book. I wasn't sure if I would like how it was written. Once I started reading the book I realized that I worried for nothing. The book was written beautifully and if was so unique. I liked that it was so different from what I usually read.The book revolves around the lives of three middle-aged women; Holly, Andrea, and Marissa. All three of the women are going through difficult periods in their lives and because of these difficult periods their lives intersect each other. Andrea and Marissa are tied together through the bond of sisterhood, while Andrea and Holly are tied together through friendship.The women all react differently to their difficult situations. Holly who feels bored with her marriage and life looks into infidelity to spice up her life. Andrea who struggles with being a single mother looks for a man to love her and keeps finding Mr. Wrong, which eventually leads her into the arms of Holly's husband. Marissa who is dealing with an ill daughter and a rebellious gay son, spends all her time taking care of her daughter while her husband slips further and further away.I found myself absolutely annoyed with Holly throughout the book. She basically is just a shadow of herself to her family, of whom really need her, and basically obsesses over her lover. If she had only paid a little attention and acted like a parent, maybe she could have prevented her daughter Mikayla from getting pregnant, but no she had to have her own fun.I thought that Andrea should have kept up her affair with Jace, Holly's husband, because Holly basically threw away her marriage. What harm would it have been for Andrea to be with Jace? Although I do understand that she didn't want to be like Holly and have an affair. She wanted to be true to herself.I loved Marissa's devotion to her daughter, and to her son as well. I knew that Christian was cheating on her from the beginning, I could just sense it. I was/am so pissed that he left he to take care of Shelby all by herself; how could he be so selfish? I was hoping that Marissa would leave him, because even though she doesn't know it she is strong, he was the one that needed her. I don't think that they'll end up staying together much longer I just think they need to lean on each other right now.I would recommend this book to women of all ages.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5For three these three women, getting older mean contemplating you life and figuring out what you are missing and whether or not it needs to be obtained. This type of midlife crisis story has been well documented in women's fiction, but here the words make all of the difference in how that story is conveyed. The story centers around:Andrea - single and with a teenage daughter, sister of Marissa. She wonders why love passed her by and even though she is barely getting by, she knows she should be thankful for what she has. She is the one I rooted for the most.Marissa - married with a gay teenage son and a terminally ill daughter. She wonders why God is punishing her with such a hard life which she approaches with much grace and fortitude. I connected with her struggles the most. Marissa's son Shane is a breathe of fresh air and shows that his mother is trying to raise him right.Holly - Andrea's best friend with the *perfect* life of a wealthy husband and three kids but now wants *more*. The least likable character since she seems to ignore her family in pursuit of pleasure and Marissa and Andrea are a bit jealous of her. She decides she want to be an erotic author and uses this as an excuse to have extramarital affairs. These three characters and their stories overlap through interactions with each other and their children in a typical fashion with catty remarks that are actually the truth about what is bothering them in their own lives. In her own unique way, Hopkins cuts right to truth about what makes these women tick. Their heartache is poured out on to each page in a very honest fashion. These are very believable characters and their actions credible since you can easily imagine them involved in the PTA at your children's school. For some reason, I didn't expect Hopkins novel for adults to be written in verse, it just didn't occur to me that she would write her first adult novel in this form. I am so glad she did since this style of writing is truly one of my favorite. I am amazed by authors who can pull this off since the craft seems much more difficult than traditional story forms. Every word needs to count and in this story every word counts double. I found myself quickly reading this one and then savoring certain passages. I truly enjoyed the recap poems at each chapter. This is a much needed breathe of fresh air to women's fiction. If you want to try other verse books, check out Lisa Schroeder and Sarah Tregay.
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5Being so used to Hopkins' writing, I was surprised by how much this book lacked. Not only would I say this isn't her writing YA anymore, but it was on the tip of being...uncomfortable for me, and I even read erotica! What grinded my gears was how in almost every YA book by Hopkins, there's some kind of trauma, drug, abuse, etc. that the author connects to the reader in some instance. In Triangles, the only thing going on is infidelity, which, if you've never went through that, or aren't 40 years old, can't really identify with the characters who are. I didn't hate the book by any means; it had enough going for it that I read it pretty quickly and painlessly, I just wanted her to either go all-out with the sex or take the story down a notch to something less intimate. At the rate the story goes, it feels like you're stuck in 2nd gear and only hope the ending shifts you into 3rd...which it never does. I hate to say it, but I really expected more from Hopkins. Maybe with her next book...
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Find this review and more at On The Shelf Ellen Hopkins is the bestselling author of incredibly popular young adult novels, such as Crank and Glass, that are enjoyed both by teens and adults. Triangles is her first adult novel, which is written in verse instead of the common prose of most novels. This novel is definitely meant for mature readers, and in my opinion, if you are easily offended, you may not like it because of some of the issues and content that comes up during the story. That being said, I thought it was a very wonderful book. It is very artistic in its structure, words, and story. This book follows three women, Marissa, Holly, and Andrea, through some very tough times they are having with family, love lives, and careers. There are many emotional and personal changes that happen for these women, and the author’s words do an amazing job of transporting you along on their journey. The book being written in verse gives a whole different feel to the novel. It has a different flow and emotions are emphasized in a different way. When grammar and punctuation are not something you have to pay strict attention to and rules can be bent, other things happen with a story, and the beauty of it can be accentuated even further. Hopkins’s verses are geniusly written and absolutely exquisite. The personalities of the characters really come through in this work, and I feel as if I know them well. Their true selves shine through in each verse, raw and real. The writing of this work is very honest and how-it-is, all reality, making it very believable; it matches the drama of real life. The pages of poetry are full of lovely descriptions and meaning, both obvious and hidden. The only bad thing I could possibly say about this book is that it has a tendency to be confusing at first when it switches from the view points of the three women. I think that was a me thing, though, and has nothing to do with the author’s style, since I am not very used to reading books with more than two view points. So many of the author’s words are powerful, but I think the most powerful was the last poem. Wonderful!Magnificent, artistic, real, honest, descriptive.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Very clever writing of Hopkins in this book. Her experiment with the poetry format, the three different perspectives, the different fonts all make for a perspective on the lives of three women that has more dimensions than an ordinary novel. The characters of the three women are well defined, broad and deep, and give an insight in the lives of women who we would call 'ordinary', but turn out to have deep motives for what they do or not do. The story keeps a tension, problems are solved at some point, yet the lives of the three characters will go on when the book is finished, the book is a glimpse in three lives, unfinished and satisfactory at the same time.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5This emotional novel focuses on three women: Andrea a single mother searching for love; Marissa, married to a mostly absentee husband, is consumed with caring for her terminally ill daughter and struggling to come to terms with her son's homosexuality; and Holly who seems to have everything, but wants more excitement than she is getting as a wife and mother. Being a fan of Hopkins' teen novels, I was excited to see she had written a novel for adults and could not wait to read it. I was not disappointed. Her new novel Triangle speaks to mothers the way Crank spoke to young women. Just a warning, however, that this novel contains some pretty graphic sex scenes . . . this is definitely not for teens!
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Ellen Hopkins is one of those authors that is on auto-buy for me. As soon as I heard she was writing her first adult novel, I was stoked. Her YA novels are always so dark and gut-retching and I expected nothing less from Triangles, and she didn't disapoint me. Ellen Hopkins def. shows more a sexual side in this novel and at times I felt like I was reading an erotic novel, but in true Hopkins form she dosn't sugar-coat things, and her brutual honesty is something I love about her. This story follows three women, Holly, and sisters Marissa and Andrea, all woman who are struggling with a certain aspect of their lives. Holly has it all a husband and three beautiful children, and a house that many people can only dream of, But Holly starts to feel like she needs more and starts experimenting sexually on the side seperate from her husband, and her teen daughter comes to her with a secret that she's pregnant. Marissa is dealing with a cheating husband, a daughter who is terminally ill and a son who comes out of the closet and who's partner is HIV-positive. Andrea is trying to find a man to treat her right, but she falls in the same trap everytime with men who are alcoholics, and abusive, etc. This story is powerful and if your a true young adult, I would say to hold off on this book until your older because it is very sexual in nature. The story has very serious issues that the main characters are dealing with. But for all of us adults out there this book was a great, dramatic story and I loved it, but honestly i've never read an Ellen Hopkins book that I didn't enjoy! Can't wait to see if Ellen continues on the road of writing adult fiction as well as young adult!
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5This was my first time reading something written in poetic verse...and also something written by Ellen Hopkins, and I absolutely loved it. I was extremely hesitant to try poetic verse out at first, but I decided that I'd give it a shot, and I am so glad that I did! Triangles was a beautiful story, and it was beautifully written! I was seriously blown away while I read this one, it was one of those stories that sticks with you long after you've finished reading. :DBefore trying poetic verse, I was always worried that it would be hard to get to know the characters, but in Triangles, the characters were so real, and while I didn't always approve of their actions...*cough* Holly *cough* I still felt like I genuinely got to know them throughout the book. I loved that Triangles alternated points of view between three characters, Holly, Andrea, and Marissa, and I especially loved that all three of their lives were connected in some way. Holly was best friends with Andrea, who was the sister of Marissa, so sometimes their stories would overlap, and I really liked when that happened, it just made it seem so much more involved.Out of the three characters, Marissa's stories were my favourite, she was genuinely such an amazing person, who had been through so much, and I was thrilled that her ending of the story seemed pretty optimistic. Holly, was probably my least favourite, but I did find her parts entertaining...morally, I just kind of found her to be a terrible person. I could understand why she acted the way she did...even if her choices were kind of terrible. Andrea, was somewhere in the middle, she'd been through lots but she'd worked hard in her life to get where she was. All of these women had men problems, which I'm sure is pretty obvious by the description, but they all handled them in different ways.My favourite of the poetic verses were the sections between the different narrators. If you read the words that stuck out off to the side, they'd form a complete sentence, or idea, and every time I'd read one of them, I just couldn't help but smile! :D I was completely enthralled with Triangles once I started it, and I honestly didn't put it down until I was done. For a 500-and-some page book, it seriously just flew by! :DI seriously can't recommend Triangles enough! It was a captivating story told in a beautiful way. I will put a bit of a warning here though because Triangles does mention sex, and there are a few scenes that don't go into explicit detail, but they describe enough that it might not be appropriate for younger readers. Ellen Hopkins does have YA titles though, so if you're younger and want to try one of her books out, maybe go for those ones first, and wait on Triangles until you're a bit older. :)If you're a bit hesitant to try poetic verse, like I was, I say go for it! Don't be afraid, and give it a chance. You might love it like I did, and after reading Triangles, I can definitely say that I've become an Ellen Hopkins fan for life! :D***I received an ARC from Simon and Schuster Canada/Atria Books for an honest review.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Triangles centers in on the lives of three women, two sisters, Marissa and Andrea, and Andrea’s friend Holly and alternating narrators every few pages amongst these three women.The story begins with Holly, a woman who has everything she could ever dream of. She is athletic, has a successful and attractive husband who gives her everything, and has three lovely children who all live in a dream house. Of course, behind all what seems to be the perfect life, not everything is as it seems. Holly continuously feels as though she is missing something more in her life. One of her daughters is rebellious, and her husband Jace is the only parent who enforces parental discipline. Perhaps Holly’s emptiness comes from being an adopted child, biological parents unknown, and being married at such a young age in college. Just before her fortieth birthday, Holly begins to stray from her husband, trying to find something or someone to fill the void she has…The story then continues with Marissa who is in her mid-forties. She is a stay at home mother, who must dedicate every minute of her day to watch and take care of her terminally ill daughter, Shelby. Shelby has SMA and is not expected to live past the age of four. Marissa also must deal with her sixteen year old son Shane, who has recently come out of the closet, hangs out with the wrong type of crowd, and smokes up to escape. Her successful husband Christian is never around, and whenever he makes an appearance, he is usually drunk. When he comes home from various business trips, or from late meetings at the office, Christian never sleeps in the same bed as his wife and some nights, does not even come home at all. Marissa cannot help but feel that Christian is trying to escape his life at home by loading himself with work. Marissa also suspects that something is wrong… Could Christian be hiding something from her?Next comes Andrea, Marissa’s younger sister. Andrea is divorced and has a fourteen year old daughter named Harley, and rarely gets any help from her ex-husband. Unfortunately, Andrea gets involved with the wrong men, alcoholics, cheaters, and liars, leading to many dead end relationships. Andrea just wishes that for once she can find a man who is successful, handsome, and who will love her back, she wants that her best friend always takes for granted; she wants everything that Holly has…The emotions and daily lives of Holly, Marissa, and Andrea are the focus of the novel. These women are all connected to each other, one even directly affecting another’s life within the novel, thus making Triangles an appropriate title for this novel. These three women give strength to each other, while at the same time; some must lie to avoid destroying their friendship. Triangles deals with many heavy issues such as commitment, betrayal, adultery, and alcoholism. These three women learn that every choice they make will bring consequences that connect to these issues in some way. With alternating narrators, readers will be sucked into this powerful read, and will experience the many issues present in today’s society through the eyes of these women. From the very first page, Triangles will take you on an emotional rollercoaster that will last right to the very end.My favorite aspect of this novel is that Ellen Hopkins writes about relatable adult issues, that many women and families go through. I also appreciate that the secondary as well as the main characters are realistically portrayed. The alternating narration was brilliantly pieced together and is yet another aspect of the novel that I appreciated, as it gives the opportunity to readers to feel the thoughts and emotions each character experiences.Ellen Hopkins is an incredible writer with a wonderful way with words and that has a unique writing style. For those who are not familiar with Ellen Hopkins’ writing, she writes in poetic verse, and is definitely one of my favorite authors. Ellen Hopkins takes a bold stand with this remarkable adult novel Triangles, presenting many lessons readers should consider and can easily relate to. Ellen Hopkins’ novels are the kind that will leave you thinking about the issues presented, long after reading the novels, Triangles is no exception…I recommend this novel to those who enjoy Adult Fiction with emotional depth. For readers who enjoy YA, you should definitely consider picking up Ellen Hopkins’ previous novels, you will not be disappointed!5/5 MUST READ, HIGHLY RECOMMENDED!
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Ellen Hopkins has a way of connecting with her readers in a way that seems almost intimate and a little voyeuristic. Her novels are written in poetic verse - some more artistic than my non-artistic mind can wrap around - but the story is always touching on some level.Be forewarned Hopkins is not a tiptoeing author. Her previous novels, written for young adults, tackles difficult subjects head on. This one is much more graphic than her previous books. Hopkins tackles the difficult stage of the middle age woman, using three women whose lives constantly intersect, like a triangle. Marissa is stretching towards her mid-forties. She is a stay-at-home mother who is bitter with the cards she has been dealt. Marrying later in life than her contemporaries, she was a stewardess who fell for a passenger, married him, and settled in Reno, Nevada. She is the mother of two children; Shane, her 16 year old gay son and Shelby who is terminally ill and expected to live only months into her fourth year. Christian, her husband, is often absent and Marissa is filled with resentment as her life is completely engulfed in caring for Shelby and dealing with her gay son on her own. When her husband makes an appearance, he is usually drunk.Andrea is a divorced mother of a 14 year old daughter, Harley. Her specialty is dead-end relationships. Although she craves companionship she knows her tastes tend toward the unavailable - her last relationship being with Geoff, a man who forgot to tell her he was still married. He was also an ugly drunk. Andrea is also the younger sister of Marissa. Both girls are the result of a marriage born of free love hippies. One of the girls may not be the daughter of her identified father. Andrea is a passive player who lacks backbone, at least in the beginning of the book. Andrea covets what Holly has.Holly is a friend of Andrea's. She is the discontented housewife hiding behind the perfect, successful husband and three lovely children. Adopted as a baby, Holly sought security early in her college career which she cut short. Holly and Jace have the suburban dream. Now Holly is reaching her fortieth birthday and she wonders how life would look if she was not married or a mother. Holly begins a hedonistic second adolescence beginning with innocent flirting at a bar and littered with lies and ideas for her writing career in Erotica. Although the story is about sex and love, it is also about commitment, friendship and acceptance. It's a difficult book to read for so many reasons. There is loss, betrayal, one character who pursues hedonistic sex. There are also subjects that the middle age woman doesn't want to admit - different figure, lines and sags, existential questions, life defining moments of, "So this is it?" Redefinition of love and marriage, reasons for staying, choices of leaving and all of fascinating in a sociological way at a distance, a personal way closer to the age of forty or so.If I were to be perfectly honest, I would admit that I identified with each of the characters at least to some extent. Questioning the social mores, religious morality, purpose of life, home, God's will and chance are all part of adult stages of life. Some of these issues were definitely taken to the extreme by some of the characters in the book. And yet I am glad Hopkins went that direction for the reader's benefit. It was a strangely discomfiting yet satisfying read.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5When I received this ARC in the mail, and realized it was written in poetic verse, my first thought was "Ugh, I really do NOT like poetry. I'm probably not going to read this." I had never read any of Ellen Hopkins YA novels.So I was a more than a little shocked when I picked the book up around 11pm to just read the first few pages, and found myself completely sucked into the story of these 3 middle-aged women and the intersecting twists and turns of their relationships. 5 hours later, it was 4am, and I had just finished this 500+ page novel. As a full-time working mom of three school-age boys, it has been a VERY LONG time since I've stayed up all night to read a book all in one sitting.I identified with some parts of each of these women, which kept me interested in the story way beyond when I should have gone to bed. And while nothing was really much of a surprise (it was easy to see things coming, and the ending, while somewhat sad, was inevitable), the style and ease of the author's prose propels you along. A highly recommended read.For some reason, the cover of the book made me think it was another "vampire/Twilight" story. I could not have been more wrong. Just goes to prove you shouldn't judge a book by its cover!And finally, a word of warning: This is definitely an adult novel, with detailed descriptions of graphic sexual situations - the author's YA fans should NOT read this novel.
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Triangles: A Novel, by Ellen Hopkins. Atria.A Division of Simon & Schuster, Inc.
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1. Self-realization in women—Fiction. 2. Female friendship—Fiction. I. Title.
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This book is dedicated to some very special friends, who shall remain nameless here. But you know who you are.
Contents
Acknowledgments
Chapter 1: Triangles
Chapter 2: Holly: Not Big
Chapter 3: As Always
Chapter 4: I Used to Hate Running
Chapter 5: And Today
Chapter 6: When i Get Back
Chapter 7: He’s Always Home on Time
Chapter 8: Obituary
Chapter 9: Marissa: Fuck Her
Chapter 10: One of My Costars
Chapter 11: A Cosmic Joke
Chapter 12: Breathing Stabilized
Chapter 13: Her Brother
Chapter 14: I Should Go In
Chapter 15: God Is On a Walkabout
Chapter 16: Andrea: Best Friend Meltdown
Chapter 17: It’s a Smooth Asphalt Cruise
Chapter 18: Average Guy
Chapter 19: Merlot-Faced, He Goes
Chapter 20: Holly In Action
Chapter 21: Under The Table
Chapter 22: Holly: Four Mojitos
Chapter 23: Almost Every Window Is Lit
Chapter 24: I Don’t Believe In Santa
Chapter 25: Tumbling Toward Exhaustion
Chapter 26: Quivering Rays
Chapter 27: But Andrea Was There
Chapter 28: Vanilla
Chapter 29: Marissa: Saturday Morning
Chapter 30: Lack of Uninterrupted Sleep
Chapter 31: It’s Not The First Time
Chapter 32: I Wait For Him
Chapter 33: I Keep Shane Company
Chapter 34: Unexpectedly
Chapter 35: A Few Minutes
Chapter 36: Andrea: If I Had To Tell The Truth
Chapter 37: A High School Hookup
Chapter 38: It’s An Hour
Chapter 39: Finally
Chapter 40: On Our Way
Chapter 41: Halfway Home
Chapter 42: Yikes! Major Crush
Chapter 43: Reverie
Chapter 44: Holly: Family Dynamics
Chapter 45: Mik Starts Her Research
Chapter 46: Conspiracy Firmly Established
Chapter 47: Before I Get The Chance
Chapter 48: I Follow a Trail
Chapter 49: He Definitely Remembers
Chapter 50: We Shed All Pretense Quickly
Chapter 51: Sex With a Stranger
Chapter 52: Marissa: Swim Therapy Day
Chapter 53: Sometimes I Swim
Chapter 54: Escape
Chapter 55: The House Is Empty
Chapter 56: As I Fill The Kettle
Chapter 57: Potential
Chapter 58: Andrea: A Rapid Pulse
Chapter 59: I Hang Up
Chapter 60: I’m More
Chapter 61: Her Funeral
Chapter 62: I Don’t Discuss This
Chapter 63: The County Employee
Chapter 64: A Cop-Out
Chapter 65: Holly: Deceptions
Chapter 66: The Fourth Wednesday In June
Chapter 67: On a Weekday Evening
Chapter 68: And They Are, In Fact
Chapter 69: So Why
Chapter 70: It Is a Game, Pure And Simple
Chapter 71: It’s Her Mother
Chapter 72: In The Deep, Dark Forest
Chapter 73: Marissa: The Fourth of July Weekend
Chapter 74: I Drink My Coffee Black
Chapter 75: My Inbox
Chapter 76: But The Way
Chapter 77: A Door Slams
Chapter 78: About Guilt
Chapter 79: Andrea: Camping With My Parents
Chapter 80: I Don’t Mention Bears To Holly
Chapter 81: That Earns
Chapter 82: When Did He Grow Up?
Chapter 83: As I Muse
Chapter 84: From Holly’s Place
Chapter 85: I Try To Tune Out
Chapter 86: The Menu
Chapter 87: Holly: Running Is a Cure
Chapter 88: More Likely
Chapter 89: Smart Girl
Chapter 90: Ooh, Bad Move
Chapter 91: Not Exactly An Apology
Chapter 92: I’ve Always Claimed
Chapter 93: Game Time
Chapter 94: A Daughter
Chapter 95: Marissa: An Unintended Benefit
Chapter 96: Tonight, For The First Time
Chapter 97: When I Let Myself Think
Chapter 98: I Slip Past Him
Chapter 99: It Really Is Gorgeous Outside
Chapter 100: Bedtime Routine Accomplished
Chapter 101: He Smells of Whisky-Beaded Sweat
Chapter 102: Who Is This Man?
Chapter 103: Andrea: The Problem With Health Kicks
Chapter 104: My Second Job
Chapter 105: And The Best Thing of All
Chapter 106: Right This Minute
Chapter 107: Moments Like These
Chapter 108: He Sounds Sincere
Chapter 109: Another Awkward Silence
Chapter 110: Turn-Ons
Chapter 111: Holly: What’s Rotten
Chapter 112: So I’m a Little Disappointed
Chapter 113: Not Sure If She Means
Chapter 114: Post-Critique
Chapter 115: It Goes Into My Journal First-Person
Chapter 116: Satisfaction
Chapter 117: Marissa: Transient Desire
Chapter 118: Alone Enough Right Now
Chapter 119: I Finish My Coffee
Chapter 120: It’s Not a Nice Morning
Chapter 121: All Sense of Regular
Chapter 122: Wish I Could Blame The Wind
Chapter 123: Stitches
Chapter 124: Andrea: Time Is Relentless
Chapter 125: All it Takes
Chapter 126: Her Son Might Be Schizo Too
Chapter 127: Right Now
Chapter 128: It Was One of Those Conversations
Chapter 129: A Feeble Cough
Chapter 130: Brain Crammed
Chapter 131: One of Those Shadows
Chapter 132: The Philistines
Chapter 133: Holly: Some Kids Never Learn
Chapter 134: I Open My Arms
Chapter 135: The Senior Carlisles
Chapter 136: Small Talk Accomplished
Chapter 137: I Scoot Into a Lounge Chair
Chapter 138: Which Is Why, I Suppose
Chapter 139: No Take-Backs
Chapter 140: Marissa: Perspective
Chapter 141: All Decked Down
Chapter 142: An Aura of Nervous
Chapter 143: Getting Dressed
Chapter 144: I Emerge
Chapter 145: July Heat
Chapter 146: Confession
Chapter 147: Andrea: Nasty Bad Habits
Chapter 148: I’m Torn
Chapter 149: Not Quite As Much
Chapter 150: Late Sunday Morning
Chapter 151: Not One Word
Chapter 152: Okay, That Was Funny
Chapter 153: The California Roll
Chapter 154: A Friend
Chapter 155: Holly: No Run Today
Chapter 156: Caught Up Completely
Chapter 157: I Plumbed The Question
Chapter 158: And That Led
Chapter 159: What Happened There
Chapter 160: Parental Priorities
Chapter 161: Marissa: Not The Worst Day
Chapter 162: Still, As We Motor Up
Chapter 163: Have I Been Asleep
Chapter 164: I Step Out of The Car
Chapter 165: But No
Chapter 166: How Far
Chapter 167: Andrea: All Rhetoric Aside
Chapter 168: Five Days After The Fact
Chapter 169: Why Do I Feel
Chapter 170: Worried About Wardrobe
Chapter 171: Teetering
Chapter 172: Now The Room Throbs
Chapter 173: Jealousy
Chapter 174: Holly: The Power
Chapter 175: The Audience Sings Along
Chapter 176: Another First
Chapter 177: As The Waiter Leaves
Chapter 178: Degrees of Infidelity
Chapter 179: Marissa: Saying Goodbye
Chapter 180: To Say
Chapter 181: He Barely Talks
Chapter 182: Valid Question
Chapter 183: When He Looks Up
Chapter 184: By Nature
Chapter 185: Love Disappears
Chapter 186: Andrea: Buried In Books
Chapter 187: I Start The Car
Chapter 188: She Does, of Course
Chapter 189: Ice Broken
Chapter 190: Wild Waters Is Packed
Chapter 191: Imagination
Chapter 192: Holly: Possibly The Best Day
Chapter 193: That’s The Second Time
Chapter 194: We Are Allowed
Chapter 195: My Face Flowers Heat
Chapter 196: We Practically Surf
Chapter 197: Cowboy Up
Chapter 198: Marissa: The West
Chapter 199: Little Steps
Chapter 200: When I Invited Claire
Chapter 201: Claire And Tyler Live
Chapter 202: I Almost Choke
Chapter 203: But She Won’t Die Today
Chapter 204: Awkward
Chapter 205: Home
Chapter 206: Andrea: Moored
Chapter 207: Thankfully
Chapter 208: It’s Been a Very Long Time
Chapter 209: Those Questions
Chapter 210: Perrier-JouËt
Chapter 211: The G-Spot
Chapter 212: Holly: Research
Chapter 213: Case In Point
Chapter 214: Sixty-Three Minutes Later
Chapter 215: Something Shifts
Chapter 216: We Decide To Practice
Chapter 217: Have You Ever Been Tied Up?
Chapter 218: Orgasm
Chapter 219: Marissa: I’ve Tried
Chapter 220: So Instead of Drew And Grit
Chapter 221: Not That I Believe In God
Chapter 222: A Rather Amazing Thing
Chapter 223: I Ponder Such Things
Chapter 224: Rather Than Drown
Chapter 225: Which Is Odd
Chapter 226: It’s a Very Long Two Hours
Chapter 227: It’s Under Control
Chapter 228: Andrea: Flowering
Chapter 229: Synergy
Chapter 230: Crazy
Chapter 231: So Tonight
Chapter 232: It’s a Very Long Few Seconds
Chapter 233: The Apples
Chapter 234: The Evening
Chapter 235: Meanwhile
Chapter 236: Not Quite Awake
Chapter 237: Holly: You Can’t Outrun Obsession
Chapter 238: I Know
Chapter 239: Exacerbating Every Doubt
Chapter 240: That Was Me, Once
Chapter 241: I’m Not Ready To Die
Chapter 242: Bucket List Completed
Chapter 243: Semi-Rebuked
Chapter 244: Saturday Night
Chapter 245: Marissa: Call Me Crazy
Chapter 246: God, I’m Just So Sick
Chapter 247: Who Knows
Chapter 248: Philosophical Musing
Chapter 249: That Inebriated
Chapter 250: It’s a Small Pile
Chapter 251: Trips
Chapter 252: A Star Rises
Chapter 253: Andrea: Fate Has Decreed
Chapter 254: More Than Surprised
Chapter 255: She Might Be Right
Chapter 256: My Cerebral Meanderings
Chapter 257: Then Again, Maybe Not
Chapter 258: Marissa And I
Chapter 259: Surely Nobody Else Knows
Chapter 260: The Obvious Answer
Chapter 261: I Don’t Get To Hear
Chapter 262: A Quiet Plea
Chapter 263: Holly: Quiet
Chapter 264: Tonight Will Be Reckless
Chapter 265: It’s a Homespun Affair
Chapter 266: But As Morning Gives Way
Chapter 267: I Won’t Keep
Chapter 268: It Goes In My Journal
Chapter 269: Public Sex
Chapter 270: Marissa: Eclipsed
Chapter 271: Forgiveness
Chapter 272: The Smack of Footfalls
Chapter 273: We Are Standing Here
Chapter 274: Pungent Words
Chapter 275: Shane Goes To Call Alex
Chapter 276: A New Life
Chapter 277: Andrea: Still Married
Chapter 278: Mulling Over
Chapter 279: But Before I Do
Chapter 280: I Meander Over
Chapter 281: Definitely Time
Chapter 282: I Squeeze Into
Chapter 283: Spilling a Secret
Chapter 284: Holly: Falling To Pieces
Chapter 285: Dry Spell
Chapter 286: The Last Stanza
Chapter 287: Wonder What He’d Think
Chapter 288: Almost, But Not Quite
Chapter 289: I’ve Just About Sold Myself
Chapter 290: Impossible!
Chapter 291: Listen To Me
Chapter 292: Nothing But The Truth
Chapter 293: Marissa: The Truth
Chapter 294: I Can’t Bring Myself
Chapter 295: Everyone Has An Opinion
Chapter 296: Spontaneously
Chapter 297: It Was An Evasion
Chapter 298: The Last Person
Chapter 299: As Much As He Hated
Chapter 300: A Honeymoon
Chapter 301: Andrea: Wait And See
Chapter 302: In That Department
Chapter 303: I Wasn’t Gentle
Chapter 304: Truth Is a Sharp Spear
Chapter 305: The Rest
Chapter 306: Convergence
Chapter 307: Holly: Collision Course
Chapter 308: For Every Action
Chapter 309: The Crazy Thing Is
Chapter 310: I Wish The Confrontation
Chapter 311: I Had Nothing To Say
Chapter 312: By Noon
Chapter 313: Perfect
Chapter 314: In Those Moments
Chapter 315: Marissa: A Sexless Trip
Chapter 316: We Grapple For Them
Chapter 317: This Evening
Chapter 318: I’d Think it Was The Wine
Chapter 319: Suddenly We’ve Segued
Chapter 320: Inelegant Truths
Chapter 321: And Will I Ever Want Him
Chapter 322: Threesomes
Chapter 323: Andrea: An Abrupt Direction Shift
Chapter 324: Jace Took The Hook
Chapter 325: Despite Everything
Chapter 326: I Sincerely Did Not Expect
Chapter 327: I Swear, Again
Chapter 328: Stories In Leather
Chapter 329: Holly: A Journal
Chapter 330: He Never Told Me
Chapter 331: I’ve Been There
Chapter 332: The Timing of Her Call
Chapter 333: Turns Out
Chapter 334: Ulterior Motives
Chapter 335: A Very Big Part of Me
Chapter 336: Falling Back
Chapter 337: Marissa: Faith
Chapter 338: When Christian Got Home
Chapter 339: But It’s Back To Routine
Chapter 340: It Is Kind of Nice
Chapter 341: What I Want To Hear
Chapter 342: I Chant a Silent Mantra
Chapter 343: As Summer Dies
Chapter 344: Andrea: Officially, Summer
Chapter 345: Sitting Here
Chapter 346: Friday Evening
Chapter 347: I Am Standing Naked
Chapter 348: Suddenly That Sounds Really Good
Chapter 349: Comfort Sex
Chapter 350: Holly: Fusing Lives
Chapter 351: That Same Voice
Chapter 352: I Still Want a Drink
Chapter 353: On The Far End
Chapter 354: Sarah And Tia
Chapter 355: We Talk Long Into The Evening
Chapter 356: Words Are An Echo
Chapter 357: Marissa: The House Is Shuttered
Chapter 358: Friends Keep Stopping By
Chapter 359: As For My Son
Chapter 360: It Is Just Past Dawn
Chapter 361: I Am Soon Grateful
Chapter 362: Departure
Chapter 363: Andrea: Embers
Chapter 364: Every Trace
Chapter 365: A Huge Admission
Chapter 366: Up Until Now
Chapter 367: I Am Still Woozy
Chapter 368: That Stops Him
Chapter 369: Huge Questions
Chapter 370: Holly: Musings On An Autumn Run
Chapter 371: For Now
Chapter 372: Speaking of Time
Chapter 373: I Hope it Does
Chapter 374: Dream Bigger
Chapter 375: Marissa: I Don’t Dare Dream
Chapter 376: Because, Without Hope
Chapter 377: One Thing I Can’T Predict
Chapter 378: Home Is Different Now
Chapter 379: Haunting
Chapter 380: Andrea: Condemned
Chapter 381: I Did Not Expect
Chapter 382: Her Healing Is Slow
Chapter 383: Parallel Lines
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ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
Immense thanks to my husband, John, whose faith in me remains steadfast. And to my family, which grew by one this year, and serves as a never-ending source of inspiration. Also to my Simon & Schuster family, which grew by an entire imprint this year. Thank you, McElderry Books, for your continued support. With a big shout-out to Jon Anderson, who encouraged this new writing venture. And thank you, Atria Books, for your warm welcome. With special nods to my editor, Sarah Branham; publisher, Judith Curr; the design department, which has to work extra hard to make this book look right; and to marketing, which now has to work hard to make it a success. And, of course, to Carolyn Reidy, an amazing woman who took more than one chance on me.
TRIANGLES
Scientists say every action
initiates an equal and opposite
reaction. I say that’s just the start.
I say
every action initiates a most
unequal and unpredictable
chain reaction, that
every
filament of living becomes
part of a larger weave, while
remaining identifiable. That each
line
of latitude requires several
stripes of longitude to obtain
meaning. That every universe
is part
of a bigger heaven, a heaven
of rhythm and geometry,
where a heartbeat is the apex
of a triangle.
Holly
NOT BIG
On perimeters and diameters.
Math was never my best
thing, not even when school
was a thing.
I was an English
freak. Lit classes and creative
writing, yeah, I could go for
those. Escape. That’s what
books were. Are. I should
have finished college. Given
myself some choices. But no.
Instead, I let someone build
me a box. Cube me in. Okay,
it’s safe inside, and safe is
not a bad thing to be. Except
after twenty years, stuffed
inside my secure, little box,
I’m in need of a good stretch.
Pushing against the sides. All
it will take is one good shove
for the walls to tumble down.
And every day
I wonder, will
this be the day?
AS ALWAYS
I wake to anorexic rays of morning,
prodding gently through cracks in the blinds.
The breathing beside me is even. Familiar.
Safe. Once upon a time, I might have slid
a leg up over Jace, reveled in the way he
stirred, hot and hard before the rest of him
surfaced from dreams. But not today. Not
in many, many days. I ease out from under
the sheets, slip into shorts and a sports bra,
grab my running shoes, gentle my way
out the bedroom door and into the silence
of my house, asleep. Even after school starts
up again, I won’t see the kids until after six a.m.
But early June, the mad dash to cereal rarely begins
until nine. Which gives me almost four hours
to myself. I take three bites of a PowerBar,
wash it down with Smartwater. Outside,
the sun has yet to crawl over the eastern hills,
yet warm waves temper the night-cooled air.
It’s going to be a hot one today. A quick stretch
and I start my daily run downhill. Can’t do it
any other way, since we live on top of a sage-
crusted knoll. A series of hills rims the lake-lush
valley where Jace and I bought our home, fifteen
years ago. Down. Along. Up. Along. I run, flushing
rabbits. Quail. Squirrels. Hopefully, no coyotes,
hunting for the rest. I see them every now and then,
eager-eyed and scruffy-coated. Sometimes they trot
straight up the roadways, unconcerned about
human intrusion. In fact, they relish it, and
the opportunities it brings. Trash on Fridays.
Cats on their own evening prowls. Small dogs,
let out to wander. But they don’t bother me
and almost seem to enjoy my company. No
coyote escort today, however. I fall into my well-
practiced rhythm, draw deeply of the dawning
morning. Here, in the zone where every breath
takes on such meaning, I find the best part of my day.
Today, I discern some subtle shift. Perhaps it is
the earth’s lean toward summer, but there is motion.
Unexpected. Disorienting, as if I’m running
somewhere new. But am I running from? Or to?
I USED TO HATE RUNNING
In high school, I always trailed
the pack, running laps in P.E.
After graduation and into my one
year of college, I avoided most
forms of exercise, except skiing
and the occasional bike ride.
Three pregnancies, two years in
between each, didn’t do much
except breast-feed and eat. By the time
all three kids were finally in school,
I was a big sack of blubber, afraid
to even start an exercise program.
It took staring down probable
diabetes to make me consider
how much I wanted to stay alive.
I cut carbs. Started walking. One
mile a day, then two. After a while
I ran downhill. Later, uphill too.
Now, less than a year later, I run
more than five miles every day. My legs
are amazing, my body is tight, and
I love how that feels. How that looks.
Certain neighbors have made it a habit
to come outside and watch me run by
every day, despite the early hour.
There is power in that, in the ability to
manipulate the intent behind the smiles
and hellos. And while I would never
take up with someone this close
to home, knowing I could makes me
happy. I run to be happy. Run to
be strong. Run to be successful
at something besides being
a mom. And when I run, I can think.
AND TODAY
I’m thinking again about geometry.
About cubes. Squares. Triangles.
How they’re all made up of lines.
A line is a collection of points
along a straight path that goes on
and on forever in opposite directions.
Two lines that never intersect
are parallel. Two lines that intersect,
forming ninety-degree angles,
are perpendicular. Perpendicular lines
cross each other. Crossing lines.
Today I’m thinking about how easy
it is to be perpendicular. And about
how, while parallel lines may not
intersect, parallel lives too often do.
WHEN I GET BACK
All out of breath and sheathed in a shimmer
of perspiration, Jace is up and heading
toward the shower. Coffee?
I ask.
He takes one look at me, smiles. In a few.
But first, come here. Did I ever tell
you that sweaty women turn me on?
"Thus, your addiction to beach
volleyball?" I go over for a morning
kiss, sex the farthest thing from my mind.
Jace, however, is totally in the mood,
as advertised by the twitch of his hard-on.
Come on. We haven’t had a morning
go in a while, and I don’t have to be
in the office until nine. He coaxes me
toward the unmade bed. Pretty please?
I start to protest, to say something
about having to change the sheets,
but it’s simpler just to give in for the ten
whole minutes it will take to make
him a satisfied man. And me a dutiful
wife. He leans me, stomach against
the rumpled spread, over the bed,
tugs down my shorts. I close my eyes
as he slips two fingers inside me.
See, now? You’re ready for me.
Strangely, I am, and when he pushes
more than his fingers inside, the sex
is comfortable. Easy. No work at all.
It doesn’t even take ten minutes
until I feel the familiar tightening
of his thighs. Jace comes. I don’t.
He punctuates his final thrust with
a soft Oomph. Pulls away, sticky,
starts again for the shower. Dues paid,
I’m a little less guilty about reminding him,
"Don’t forget I’m going out with Andrea
tonight. Mikayla’s spending the night
at Emily’s. But Trace and Brianna
will be here. Get home on time, okay?"
HE’S ALWAYS HOME ON TIME
Unless he’s on a really big case,
but lately even his litigations
are slam-dunk average. Some
would call that lucky, I guess.
I find it ho-hum, but it pays
the bills, and pays them well.
I watch Jace towel off. At forty-
five, his hairline is sliding back
a bit, and shallow lines have
webbed his eyes. But he stays
fit enough and women, I’m
sure, find him attractive.
Attractive. Reliable. Good
provider. Always home on
time. Even-tempered. Caring
father. Adoring husband.
(Sounds like an obituary.)
What more could any sane
woman ask for, right? Which
says a whole lot about me.
OBITUARY
She decides to write her own,
rather than leave it to strangers;
studies the paper, develops
an obituary template:
In loving memory of
[complete name goes here],
who passed away
[say when, but not
how]
after [number of] years
on this earth. [He/she]
is survived by [spouse, children,
parents, siblings, if applicable].
She considers her life,
how it will end. What
do
you write, she wonders, if
none of those things applies?
What do you say about
someone who realized no
dreams,
who never found love, never
wanted commitment? What
do you say about someone
who clearly wanted to
die?
Marissa
FUCK HER
I swear that must be what God said
when he agreed to implant me in Good
Old Mom’s uterus. I can see it now:
The angel of making men horny meets
up with the angel of making women
stupid. "Let’s create a problem for some
lame earthly couple," he says.
(Making Men Horny Angel has to be
a guy. Why would a woman angel
bother with making men horny?)
Uh, you mean, like rip a condom and SNAP …
baby? Sounds like a rainy afternoon,
agrees Making Women