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Imprimatur:
Joannes van Deenen, S.J. Provincial of the Dutch Province The Hague, Holland, Sept. 1 2, 1973
The parable in Chapter 9 is adapted from a story by A. F. Wyers published in "De Bazuin" in Holland, August 15, 1959. Used with permission.
TABLE OF CONTENTS
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Acknowledgm ents Foreword The Cou rage to Accept Acceptance The B eyond in Our Midst Free i n Truth As Bread That Is Broken Teach Us to Pray You Are the M an H e I s Al ways Faithful The Celebration of Healing Give Them An Impression of Who I Am O u r Yes and Amen Neither Do I Condem n Y ou The I m p ossibility of the Gospel How Happy Are the Poor in Spirit The Least of My Brothers Prail tes The Hour of Glory He Em ptied Himself The Prayer of a Poor M an His Love is Everlasting The Best of All Good Things Appendix: A Penance Service F oo tn otes
FOREWORD
F ather Peter van Breeme n has a doctoral degree in atomic physics-which is to say that he is a man of our contemporary world of science and technology. H e is a D ut ch Jesuit-which is to say that he is a m an honed in the contemporary church. M ost of all, he is a m a n of deep prayer which is to say "if you read his words, you will h ave some idea of the dep ths that he sees in the m ystery of Christ" (Eph 3:4). Gospel m eans Good News, f or those who know how to see and hear, those who believe, Jesus will always be n ew and he will always be good, attractive, compelling. What van Breemen writes is new and g ood w ith the eternal f reshness of the daily bread of the Gospel Eucharist. He writes in depth with a bold simplicity. About God he writes, "He has never revealed Himself e x cept in terms of love. God cannot love but totally , 100%. He cannot love me with any thing less of love th an that with which He loves His own Son. I cannot lose the love of God because it is not based on any achieve ment of m ine. I don't have to save myself, He will do it ! " About m an , he writes, "The love, the acceptance of other persons m akes me into the unique person I am meant to be . . . when I am not accepted, I cannot come to f ul fillment. Not to accept anything f ro m a person is tantamount to killing him, making him sterile. He can' t d o anything . " About p rayer, he writes, "Prayer cannot be a means to an end. Prayer 7
is the last word- there is no word beyond prayer. . . Prayer is not efficient, it doesn't bring about any thing- it's the stillpoint, the axis around which every thing rotates." This is a dangerous book. Read with faith and openness, it will compel you to follow Him more totally or "to go away sad" (Mk I 0: 22). Edward Farrell
There is a basic principle in theology which states that faith or Scripture contains the answer to the deepest q uestions o f the human heart. Faith is about life , my life . Faith is like x-raying my h u m an exist ence . It helps me to live better, to be more h u man, to be m ore in tegrated. Faith is to discover that there is only a oneness : God is the deepest Ground of my bei ng.
The Question
One of the deepest needs of the human heart is the need to be appreciated . Every human being wants to be valu ed. This is not to say that everybody wants to be told by others how wonderful he is. No doubt there is that desire , too, but that is not fundame ntal. We could say that every human being wants to be love d . B u t even this a d m its of am bigu ity. There are as many varieties of love as there are species of flowers. For some people, love is something passionate ; for others, it is something rom antic ; for others, love is something m ere ly sexual. There is, however, a deeper love, a love of acceptance. Every human being craves to be accepte d , accepted for what he is. Nothing in h u m an life has such a lasti ng and fatal effect as the experience of not being completely accep ted . When I am n ot accepted, then something in me is broken. A 9
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I am accepted by God as I am-as I am, and not as I should be. To proclaim the latter is an empty m essage because I never am as I should be. I know that in reality I do not walk a straight path. There are many curves, many wrong decisions which in the course of life have brought me to where I am now and Scripture tells m e that "the place on which you stand is holy ground" (Ex 3: 5). God knows my name : "See 12
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There are more than three billion peo ple in this world and yet no two of them are identical. There is no mass production with God . Though every person is different, God can put himself in each one without repeating himself. That is the richness of G od. Every human being is a prototype-the first and last of a series. God is involved in each of us. He has set him self in the hearts of each one of us. St. Augustine ex claims:
Late have I loved You,
Late have I loved You. Behold You were ever within me, and I abroad, seeking You there. I. . . rushed madly about in the midst of forms beautiful which You had made. You were ever with me, but I was not with You. The very things which had not been, unless they were in You, kept me from You. You called me by my deafness. 2 name, You cried aloud to me, and Your voice pierced
He had looked everywhere for God and God was so close-in the midst of his own heart. St. Paul tells us, "Yet in fact he is not far from any of us, since it 18
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"If you make my word your home you will indeed be my disciples, you will learn the truth and the truth will make you free." John 8 : 3 1 -3 2 The word "emeth" i s a Hebrew word which until recently was considered synonymous w ith the Latin word "veritas" (truth) and is now translated " fidelitas" (fidelity ) . It communicates a knowledge of God. It is for the Hebrew an existential word . His life , his whole existence is rooted in the fidelity of Yah we h. He can trust Yahweh. Yahweh will never let him down. That's "emeth . " To Westerners, truth is something intellec tual. Truth means that the idea and the w ord corre spond to reality . This is less p ro found than the eastern meaning of the word. J oh n in his G ospel uses t he word m any times, e.g., "the truth will m ake you free" (Jn 8 : 3 2) . We miss the whole point i f we in terpret truth in this context as meaning intelle ct ual truth. The t ruth John speaks of is this : the reliability of God's love. When I really know that I can trust Yahweh, that he still accepts me even though I have sinned- t he n I am a free person. "Emeth" is the noun, and the corresponding verb is "aman"-to confirm. Our "amen" stems from this same verb. God says 27
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When I do not feel completely accepted, I find ways to assert myself: 1 ) I become adamant on certain principles. I cannot yield for fear of losing something of my own personality. If, instead, I were to live on God's acceptance I would have no need to assert m yself. God has made me worthwhile. I know this in faith, and that is sufficie nt. 2) I spend my ener gies not j ust for the kingdom of God , for the a posto late, but also to build up my own image. How many te nsions arise fro m this ! When I really believe in the personal love of God for me, then I am relieved of that part of my work which is nothing but self assertion. God's love for me is not based on my work. God's love for me is based on no thing : "If Yahweh set his heart on you and chose you , it w as not beca use you outnumbered other peo ples : you were the least of all peoples. I t w as for love of you and to keep the oath he swore to your fathers that Yahweh brought you out with his mighty hand and redeemed you fro m slavery, from the power o f Pharaoh , king of Egypt" (Deut 7 : 7-9 ). G od loved m e even before I ex isted . St. Augus tine says, "You created me because you loved me." G od doesn't love me for what I am, but I am because G od loves me. When the love of G od is based on nothing, it cannot be d estroyed. I can never lose it because it is not d ue to any achieve ment of mine. No matter how I behave , that love will remai n : " Love consists in this : not t hat we have loved God but he has loved us" ( 1 Jn 4 : 1 0 NAB ) . The love of God is a free gift . It gives me freedom , peace and happiness. As soon as the love of God is no longer the basis, the cen ter of my life, then I beco me enslaved. I have 29
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men, but inside you are full of hypocrisy and lawlessness (Matt 23:27-28).
The pharisee is self-comp lacent. He is convi nced of his own righteousness : "The Pharisee stood there and said this prayer to himself, 'I thank you, God, that I am not grasping, unjust, adulterous like the rest of mankind, and particularly that I am not like this tax collector here ' " (Lk 18: 1 1 ) The o pinion of other peop le is very important to the pharisee: " Everything they do is done to attract attention, like wearing broader phylacteries and longer tassels, like wanting to take the place of honour at banquets and the front seats i n the synagogues, being greeted obsequiously in the market squares and having people call them Rabbi" (Matt 23 : 5-7 ). The p harisee is very concerned about his own image and will even use prayer to im prove it : "And when you pray, d o not imitate the hyprocrites : they love to say their p rayers standing up in the synagogues and at the street corners for people to see them" (Matt 6 : 5 ). He is convinced that , in the kingdom of Yahweh, he has a very important place. It is too bad that the rest o f mankind cannot equal him. That the p harisee fulfills the law is to his credit. But he believes that by keeping the law he saves and j ustifies himself, and this is his mistake. The pharisee is the m an who kills himself in order to observe the law. The law means everything to him. He is conscien tious in observing it in every detail. He fasts twice a week ; he pays his tithe of mint and dill and cummin. But the emphasis is solely on himself who accom plishes all these things. What is lacking is surrender, abandonment. And he doesn't d are to surrender.
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all your so ul, with all your strength" (Deut 6: 5). Originally , then, the covenant of God 's pre fe rential love was basi c, and the law was the response of the people to that coven ant. As time went on, however, the covenan t lost its significance for their lives. To be chosen by God didn't mean much any m ore. The wholehearted response in joy was gone. The law, h o wever, remained but it had become an obligation, a harness. The law was experienced as a burden and a very heavy one, too. Whereas in the p ast when the spirituality of the covenant was alive the p eople felt safe in the shadow of God's love, now in the pharisai c times as the Old Testament deteriorated, the Chosen Ones felt safe in the shadow of the law . The law se rved as an escape. The law became a shack ler. The letter of the law which Christ at tacked so vehemently was typical o f the pharisee. He saw only the law. B ut the law has no raison d'etre when we do not believe in the covenant of God's love. The pharisee, then, keeps the law and thinks that because of this he is agreeable to God. God's acceptance is secondary for t he pharisee whereas, for Ch rist , it is exactly the opposite: being agreeable to God comes first. Suppose a ch ild has never experi en ce d any love from his parents, and he sees other children whose parents shower them with a ffe ction. The child becomes j ealo us. He thinks, " I want to be loved, too. I 've never experienced it, but I'm going to d eserve the love of my parents, to evoke it by my good behavi or." The boy works on behaving perfectly to gain the love of his p arents. This is the way of the pharisee. He is behaving in such a m anner that h e is going to ind uce God's love. The init iative is h is. What 33
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answer, 'I tell you solemnly, in so far as you did t his to one of the least o f these brothers of m ine, you did it to m e' " (Matt 24:40). When w e finish our works of obedience, prayer, renewal or chari ty , w e m ust smile. This is what the p harisee cannot do. He cannot smile abo u t his own achievements. His whole e ternity is at stake, so he is always dead serious and very tense. He is m anaging his salvation. The m an of faith p erforms like tasks but when he has completed them he says: "This isn't what really counts. What matters is the love of G od . " In like manner St. Luke tells us, "Wh e n you have done all you have been told to do say 'We are m erely servants: we have done no more than our d uty' " (Lk I 7: I 0). The basic question is not so m uch " Is G od content with me?" but rather, "Is it e nough that God is God and that he loves me? " Faith is to believe that God says "Yes" to me, to my being, that God confirms me. When I really believe this, then I , too, can respond "Yes" to God.
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Prayer is to be in God's p resence with open hands and an open heart . There are m any things in my life to which I cling as with a clinched fist - m y p ossessions for sure b ut the immaterial things as well-the w ork I do, the p osition I h ol d , the friends I h ave, m y ideas, m y principles, my image . I f I should open m y fist, they still remain. Nothing drops out. B ut my hands are open. And that is what p rayer is. After a while, if I am willing to remain long e nough with open hands, the Lord will com e . He will h ave a look a n d roam through m y hands to see what I h ave. He m ay be surp rised-so m any things ! The n he will l ook at me and ask : "Would you mind if I take out this little b it ? " A n d I answer: "Of course y ou m ay take it o ut . That's why I am here with open h ands." And perhaps the Lord will look another time at me and ask : "Would you mind if I p ut something else in y ou r hands?" And I answer : "Of course you m ay . " That i s the heart of p rayer. The Lord m ay take something o ut , and he m ay p ut something in . No one e lse can do this, b ut h e may. He is the Lord . I h ave 37
A S BREAD THA T IS BR OKEN Exercises and as we sing in the similar words of Godspell: "Three things I pray : to see you more clearly , love you m ore dearly , follow you more nearly , day by day . " This knowledge will grow into a personal relationship with Christ and eventually m a ture into the most profound relationship of my life as it was for St. Paul who could write : "I live n ow not with my ow n life but with the life of Christ who lives in me" (Gal 2: 20) and "Life to me, of course, is Christ" (Phil l : 2 1 ). A more recent example of this friendship with Christ is found in the life of Dietrich Bonh oeffer who wrote in a letter of August 2 1 , 1 944 :
The key to everything is the 'in him .' All that we may rightly expect from God , and ask for, is to be found in Jesus Christ . The God of Jesus Christ has nothing to do with what God, as we imagine him , could do or ought to do. If we are to learn what God promises, and what he fulfills, we must persevere in quiet meditation on the life, sayings, deeds, sufferings, and death of Jesus . . .In Jesus God has said Yes and Amen to it all , and that Yes and Amen is the firm ground on which we stand. In these turbulent times we repeatedly lose sight of what really makes life worth living. We think that, because this or that person is living, it makes sense for us to live too. But the truth is that if this earth was good enough for the man Jesus Christ, if such a man as Jesus lived, then, and only then, has life a meaning for us. If Jesus had not lived, then our life would be meaningless, in spite of all the other people whom we know and honour and love .3 The third stage of prayer is finding God involved in the whole of reality . Not only in Jesus Christ can I find God but in every person and , in fact, in every thing. Prayer now means to say "Yes " to reality , to have a positive attitude towards life, to confirm what 42
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"Now once Jesus was in a certain p lace pray i ng and when he had finished one of his disciples said , 'Lord, teach us to pray' " (Lk 1 1 : 1 ) . Jesus told them in a p arable of the need to pray continually and never to lose heart ( Lk 1 8 : 1 ). There are several theories on prayer making the rounds of today 's circle of th ought all of w hich reflect something old and something new . We hear it said that everything is prayer : " I pray all d ay ! " Beautifu l as this may sound , there is a d anger here that prayer lose its meaning and content. When everything is prayer, then prayer itself is nothing . There are those who say " M y work is my prayer . " This is an ambiguous statement because i n one sense it is true, but in another sense it is false . I cannot pray and then not live up to it. The work I d o surely reflects the authenticity of my prayer. But I am fooling m ysel f i f I allow my work to replace my prayer or i f I find prayer only " useful" insofar as it motivates me to action. Prayer is something real . It has a value which extends far beyond the limits o f my vision. To grasp something of this reality I must d ispose myself for it. I m ust begin to pray . Difficulty in prayer occurs because I do not begin properly . If the borderline between my work and my prayer is thin or has even disappeared , if I maintain that I can pray 47
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Father, J esus Christ, or any other person from the Gospel . My wh ole being is tranquil and quiet. God is there . He h as been waiting for me. M aybe I am willing to pray and I pray well, but I h ave another difficulty . I do not feel that God answers my prayer. This is turning thi ngs upside down. God is not the one who is answering .. God is first. I am but a word spoken by God. I am the one who answers : You have first loved us, 0 God , alas. We speak of it in te rms of history , as i f you have only loved us first but a single time , rather than that without ceasing you have loved us first many times and eve ry d ay and our whole life through. When we wake up in the morning and t urn our soul to you . . . You are the first. . . You have loved us first ; if I rise at dawn and at the same time turn my soul towards you in prayer, You are there ahead of me ; You have loved me llrst . When I withdraw from the distrac tions o f the day and turn my soul in thought towards You, you are the first and thus foreve r. And yet we always speak ungratefully as if You have loved us first only oncc. 1 Soren Kie rkegaard So I try to make myself still. I try to listen to God. I listen not j ust to the message I want to hear but, w i th complete openness, to what God wants to tell me : Contemplation is essentially a listening in silence, an e xpectancy . And yet in a certain sense , we must truly begin to hear God when we have ceased to listen . Because there is a higher kind of listening, which is not a recep tivity to a ce rtain kind of message only. The true contemplative is not the one who prepares his mind for a particular message that he wants or expects to hea r ; b u t h e remains empty because h e knows that he can neve r 49
AS B READ THAT I S B ROKEN expect or anticipate the word that will transfonn his darkness to light. This silence is not a kind of 'blacking out' which one does of set p urpose, as a conclusion to practical reasoning on the subject, a sort of artificial darkness of one's own making. Such a person is not alone with God , but alone with himself. He is not in the presence of the Transcend ent One, but of an idol: his own complacent identity. He becomes immersed and lost in himself, in a state of inert , primitive and infantile narcissism . 2 Again , some people say that they do not like to pray because they cannot tolerate introspection. However, prayer is not facing myself; it is facing God . To pray means to tum the spotlight on Christ . What I sho uld do is gradually revealed to me. It h appens to me . I discover it without self-analysis. On the con trary , the desire to examine myself or to see myself grow is a degeneration and a set-back in the life of prayer. Slowly and peacefully, in coming to know Christ, I come to know myself. What follows is a plausible scheme which may be help ful for growth in prayer. It is not in tended to stifle our prayer as a harness but rather to clarify our con cepts of prayer so that the experience becomes more lucid and free . The scheme h as five levels and , surprisingly , we begin at the top ! l . Prayer begins with the realization that I am loved by God as I am. His love is based on nothing and , there fore, is the most basic and secure fact in my life . I simply let myself be loved by God . This is not so much an activity of mine but a passivity in which I let God 's love soak in and permeate my w hole being. I t is the most restful attitude a person can take and the most fruitful as well. I should remain on this level 50
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as long as I can, neither a longer nor a shorter time. Why not shorter? Because even i f I should spend all m y time on this level, it would be m ore valuable than anything I could d o ! Why not longer than I feel I can? Because I w ould be forcing myself and that is always wrong. When I sense that I am satisfied , I move on to the next level. 2. My response to God's l ove is an activity o f m i n e , a n d in this instance, it i s the highest a n d m ost intense act of which I am capable ; namely , adoration . To adore is to aban d on myself com pletely into the loving h ands of God . God may d ispose of m e - "Your will be done . . . " I can p ray this without any tension or apprehension because I am convinced that God is n o threat to me, that he is the source of life and fulfillment. This prayer of adoration can be made with or without w ords, in my own w ords or in the w ords of another. Again I stay in this adoration as long as I can without pressure to e ither shorten or prolong the m omenL 3. Next, I refer to a particular episode in Scrip ture (or of a book w hich helps me to pray ) but in such a way that I try to identify with Christ or with a person with whom Christ is dealing. This means that I contemplate a G ospel event not as an onlooker from the sidelines but as a participant-as one deeply in volve d . This is not a matter o f the imagination which conjures up a vivid scene but a matter of the heart (in the biblical sense) which knows itsel f related to Christ. It is n o longer I who live but it is Christ who lives in me-who speaks in me or touches m e or heals me. This can be a very prayerful experience . Again I remain there no longer nor shorter a time than I can . 51
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" At the turn of the year, the time when ki ngs go campaigning, David sent J oab and with him his own guards and the wh ole of Israel. They massacred the Amm onites and laid siege to Rabbah. D avid h owever rem ained in Jerusalem . I t happe ned towards eve ning when David had risen from his couch and w as strolling on the palace roof, that he saw from the roo f a woman bathing ; the woman w as very beautiful" ( I I : 1 -2 ) . A w arrior has nothing w ith which to occupy his time. After his nap he paces up and down on the palace roof. There is nothing wrong in this, but the bored om reveals the power of evil which l urks as a kind o f fifth column within each of u s : "The h eart is m o re devious than any o ther thing, perverse too : who can pierce its secrets?" (Jer 1 7 : 9 ) . Evil is p art of ourselves and the slightest provocation is e nough to bring it to the surface. " David m ade inquiries about this woman and was told, 'Why , that is B athsheba, Eliam 's d augh ter, the w i fe of Uriah the Hi t tite . ' Then David sent messengers and had her brought . She came to him , and he slept with her; now she h ad j ust p u ri fied herself from her courses. She then went home again " (v3-4). W e carry o u r treasures in vessels o f clay . Blessed Claude de Ia Colombiere said , " I feel within m yself the p ossibility of every sin." We, too, bear 53
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Even a cursory gl ance at the New Testament reveals the e xistence of a special relationship b et ween Jesus and sinners. Jesus scand alized many people because of his associations with them, yet h e contin ued to seek them. He had to. His name is J esus- "be cause he is the one who is to save his people fro m their sins" (Matt I : 2 1 ) . "While he was at dinner in the house it happened that a number o f tax co llectors and sinners came to sit at the t able with Jesus and his d isciples. When the Pharisees saw this, they said to his disciples, 'Why does your master eat with tax co llectors and sinners? ' When he heard this he replied , ' I t is not the healthy who need the doctor, but the sick. Go and learn the meaning o f the word s : What I want is mercy , not sacrifice. And indeed I did not come to call the virtuous, but sin ners' " (Matt 9 : I 0- 1 3 ). J esus has little time fo r the virtuous " for the Son of Man has come to seek out and save what was lost" (Lk 1 9 : I 0). This is the heart of his mission : he has been sent by the Father to seek sinners. He had not come to denounce middle class habits, to provoke and upset the establishment, to instigate a social revolution or to tak e sides with the outcasts. In short, his purpose was not to straighten man's relationship with his fellow man. Sometimes his act ual m ission will i n clude
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G od goes out of his way , sends his only Son to seek sinners. He m akes n o distinctions. In h is eyes we are all sinners : " As they persisted with their q uestio n , he looked u p and said , 'If there is one o f y o u who h as not sinned , let him be the first to throw a stone at her' "(Jn 8 : 7 ). Before he can cure us we must admit that we are ill . No d octor can ever heal a p atient who refuses to admit he is sick . We can be saved only on condition that we con fess our need to be saved. God respects our freedom . He d oes not force himself into our lives and he will n ot redeem us if we refuse . Who considers himself as j ust, as virtuous, puts himself outside the sphere o f Christ 's influence. Where there is n o con sciousness of sin, Christianity operates in a voi d . The whole Gospel loses i ts meaning and purp ose : " I f we say we h ave no sin in us, we are deceiving o urselves a nd refusing to admit the truth ; . . . To say tha t we h ave never sinned is to call God a liar and to show that his word is not in us" ( 1 J n 1 : 8 , 1 0 ). Christ came not to arouse or agitate the m ilieu. There w as more at stake. Jesus sought to bring about a revolution in the very depth of man- there where he blocks out the love of God . In this revolution 1 esus himself takes the initia tive : "For this reason I tell you that her sins, her many sins, m ust have been forgiven her, or she w ould not h ave shown such great love" (Lk 7 : 4 7 ) . There are two interpretations of this te x t : Either the woman showed such t remend ous love and therefore her sins were forgive n or her sins were forgiven and there fore she showed trem end ous love. The first in terpretation w ould be Old Testam ent. The p rophets w ould do the same . When a si n ful woman cam e, cried and repented, 63
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reconciliation of men am ong them selves. This recon ciliation is the key concept which opens the d o or to all other biblical con cepts such as forgiveness, redemp tion , salvation , j usti fication , san ctificatio n , peace, charity :2 For anyone who is in Christ , there is a new cre ation ; the old creation has gone, and now the new one is here . It is all God's work . It was God who reconciled us to Himsel f through Christ and gave us the work of handing on this reconciliation . In other words, God in Christ was recon ciling the world to Himself, not holding men's faults against them , and he has entrusted to us the news that they are reconciled. So we are ambassadors for Christ ; it is as though God were appealing through us, and the appeal that we m ake in Christ's name is: be reconciled to God (2 Cor 5 : 1 7-20). Not only is the reconciliation of p rimary im p ortance for the preaching of the Gospel. The living of the G ospel depends on it as well. For how can we ever m an age to love unselfishly , to serve hum bly and patiently in spite of frustration if we do n ot live on God's forgiveness? The Sermon on the Mount p resup p oses the personal experience of God's forgiveness. M uch zealous ded ication in the Church does not bear good frui t because it is not founded in recon ci liation. Only a person who realizes his own guilt and knows that it is forgive n , can love his enemy. He who under estimates the reality of si n is naive and shallow and will not go far in his service of others. But he who und erestim ates the reality of forgiveness traps himself in the vicious circle of frustration and aggre ssion and will soon be rutted in his efforts to create a better world . B rotherhood based on either p re m ise alone is 65
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his chosen people to their dignity and happiness, of his "emeth" as the reliability and faithfulness of his love . Paul's letter to Tim othy gives us, indee d , an excellent sum mary of the message of all the p rophets : "We may be unfaithful, but He is always faithful, for He cannot d isown His own self' (2 Tim 2 : 1 3 ) . But with all their un usual eloquence and their mighty personalities, the prophets did not su cceed in convey ing the message o f com plete acceptan ce notwith standing the real guilt of the people . But God's love persisted : "At various times in the p ast and in various differen t ways G od spoke to our a n cestors through the p rophets, but in our own time , the last d ays, H e h a s spoken to u s through His son" (Heb 1 : 1 -2 ) . O r, as Christ himself p uts it in the parable of the wick ed husbandmen : "He h ad still someone left : his beloved son . He sent him to them last of all. 'They will respect m y son ,' he said" (Mk 1 2 : 6 ). The m ission o f the Son was to show that God's love is gre ater than all our guilt, that though we h ave sinned , we are accepted : "I was born for this. I came into the world for this : to bear witn ess to the truth" (Jn 1 8 : 3 7 ). We recall once more that "truth" in the biblical sense means: the reliability of God's love . He fulfilled his m ission by acce pting everybody whom he met. The tax col lector, the p rostitute, the adulteress, the p ublican -all found in him the gentle sym pathy that made e ach feel accepted . He did not break the crushed ree d nor did h e quench the wavering flame. He found something good i n everyone and he condemned no one: "God sent His Son into the w orld , not to condemn the w orld but so that through Him the world m ight be saved " (J n 3 : 1 7). He went out of his w ay to accep t 67
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had died and he said ' I n truth , this man was a son of 4 G od ' (Mk 1 5 : 3 9 ) His eyes were opened in that ultim ate test in which Christ w as tried by h is fellow men. When God's love revealed in Christ goes to that extreme, then it m ay d awn on us, too, that t here real ly is no limit to God's love . It indee d transcends all our h um an though ts. It is greater than our he arts and greater than our guilt. I t m ay convince us that not "any created thing can com e between us and the love of God m ade visible in Christ J esus our Lord " ( Rom 8 : 3 9 ) . It m ay finally bri ng home to us that even with our real guilt we can still approach God and be sure of his acceptance . That is to experience a n e w b irth , a new creation . When a m an feels condem ned , his cre ativity and his power to love , his j oy in life as well as his sense of wh oleness are blocke d . When that same man suddenly or gradually understands th at he is not rej ected or co ndemned but accepted and loved by another on whom he depends, he experiences the re freshm e n t of a healing stream . Every thing is cha nged. There is sunshine again , and song. He can be glad and spread his h appin ess . Now he can give and love. H e is a new m a n , a new creation. Things which were imp os sible when he felt condem ned are now possi b le . I t was the m ission of Ch rist to b ring m an t o that reconcilia tion and rebirth . Those who grasp that m essage, o r rather, those to whom this even t h appens, we call Christians.
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"Jesus also sai d , 'A man had two sons. The young er said to his father, "Father, let me have t he share o f t he estate that would come t o m e . " S o the father divided the property between the m . A few days later , t h e younger s o n got together everything t h a t he h a d and left for a distant cou ntry where h e squandered his money on a life of debauchery . When he had spent it all , that country experienced a severe famine, and n o w he began to feel the pinch , so he hired himself out t o one of the local inhabitants who put him on his farm t o feed the pigs' " (Lk 1 5 : 1 1 - 1 6). Contrary to Jewish custom , the father divided the property between his two sons. Perhaps the father consented to his son 's choice to prevent a greater rebellion which would make his return all the m ore d iffi cult or to eviden ce a disinterested respect for the free will of his son . The consequences which the son suffered show clearly the consequences of sin . His e xperiences were empty. He squan dered everything, even his fut ure. Misery piled upon misery -he had no m oney , no foo d , no friends, n o rest, no peace . H e was shattered. As long as he had money , he had "friends ;" when t he money was gone, the "friends" disappeared, too. There is never any deep satisfaction or fruitfulness in the e xperience of sin . We know this. Yet so o ften we 71
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our sorrow . And because we never express i t , we become despondent, downhearted. The classic exam ple o f this is J udas who betrayed his Lord but refused to con fess his sin . He did not think that forgiveness was possible. Repentance is a dialogue. The sin is expressed . Peter, like Judas, also betrayed his Lor d , b u t Peter confessed his sin , a n d he w a s forgiven . Part of true repentance is that we learn our place : "I no longer deserve to be called your son ; treat me as one of your paid servants." The boy made no claims. Everything now was a gift, and he was grateful. In a resolute way and against all human respect , he went home to tell his father he had sinned : The sacrament, the life of penance which is but the life of Christ lived out continually, is the most personal o f all the sacraments, the most intense and , therefore , the most difficult. Perhaps it is the last sacrament we are ready for because it demands so much of us ; it demands such mat urity , it demands such a capacity to suffer, the most terrible kind of suffering, to really learn who we are . We will do anything to escape that kind of suffe ring, that kind of anguish. Who of us is really ready to face the living God ? I "While he was still a long way off, his fathe r saw him and was moved with pity . He ran to the boy, clasped him in his arms and kissed him tenderl y . Then his son sai d , 'Fathe r, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I no longer deserve to be called your son . ' But the father said t o his servants, 'Quick ! Bring out the best robe and put it on him ; put a ring on his finger and san dals on his fe et. Bring the calf we have been fattening, and kill i t ; we are going to have a feast , a celebratio n , because this son of m i ne was 73
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sel f in o ur service. Yet this is not the point of the parabl e . J esus concen trates on the goodness of the fa ther-the response of the father, the l ove of the father, the wi llingness of the father to forgive . I t is not centered on the love of the sons and, rea lly , there isn 't too m uch Jove there . The first one came home because he was hungry and the other complained because h e h ad neve r been given a kid to cele brate with h is friends. To focus too m uch on our service and o ur achieve ments can make us com placent in a shallow or desp ond ent way. l t is better that we should foc us on God , his love : "This is the love I mean : not our love for God , but God's love for us" ( I J n 4 : 1 0). Le t us look at the love of God and be h a p py. Let's celebrate !
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A k ing wished to see the son of a couple who lived near the bend in the river, ten miles upstream from the palace . He noti fied his m iniste rs of his desire , and shortly thereafter they sent a m essenger in the direction ind icated . He reached a little farm w here he found a young woman feeding the pigs. When the messenger conveyed the request of the k ing, the wom an looked at him in astonishment. "There m ust be some m istake , " she said . "I have no child ren at all, let alone a son who could speak with the king." So the servan t returned t o the palace em pty-handed and reported his failure. The royal h ousehold , fearing the king's anger, hoped that the king would forget about his demand. I nd eed , that seemed to be the case , since neither that d ay nor on those following did he again refer to the order. One m orning, about twenty-five years later, a y oung m an appeared at the gate of the palace. I t w as obvious that he was wearing his best clothes since his rustic appearance and simple demeanor were out o f harmony with the solem n dark blue apparel he was wearing. He asked to see the king who h ad supposedly summ oned him . The gate-keeper eyed him with sus picion and , a little later, the footman declared that the k ing had not summ oned the boy. 79
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"Of course I d o ! I asked him to come , didn't I?" This is God's w ay . He gives us unbounded trust and confidence. He has no doubts. And when one h as no d oubts, one can be patient .
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I believe nothing can happen that will outwe igh the supreme advantage of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For Him I have accepted the loss of everything, and I look on everything as so much rubbish if only I can have Christ and be given a place in Him (Phil 3 : 7 -8). To know Christ m ust be the goal of our lives. And the only way to k now Christ is to con tem plate hi m : "And we with our unveiled faces reflecting like 84
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Introduction : The bap tism of Jesus m arks the beginning of his p ublic life. The Gospels too begin with the p roclam ation of the baptism of Christ l The even t of the bap tism contains the whole G ospel in a nutshell. I t is like the overture of an opera. I t is the fron tispiece of an unusu al book : the p resen tation of J esus t o Christian believers. For Ch rist, the baptism w as the key moment of his life . He had lived thirty years in pre p aration for it ; he w ould need t he rest o f h i s life t o fulfill i t . He knew it encompassed all that was foretold by the prophets concerning th e servant of Yahweh. For the Father as well as for the Son, it was an intense moment. As in a kind of sacrameot, Christ received and accep ted his m ission fro m .the Fathe r. He submitted himself to the task his Father gave him . O fficially, he said "Yes" to the Father with the full realization of what that "Yes" i m p lied . He placed his e n ti re life -what was and is to come-into the hands o f the Father. Beginning: "Then Jesus appeare d : he came from G alilee to the J ordan to be bap tised by J ohn" (M t 3 : 1 3 ) . According to t raditio n , Jesus is thirty y ears old when h e comes to the Jordan. He has lived t hose thirty years in Nazareth. His mother has w o n dere d a t times "Is this t h e child anno unced by the angel?"
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The Baptism : The bap tism of J oh n is a baptism of repentance and of forgiveness of sin . He does n ot baptize people who wish to j oin the Jewish religion. He bap tizes those who are already Jews but Jews in need o f conversion . I t is a second call. And J oh n is severe in his preaching. To be a son o f Abraham means nothing. One has to change one's life , to admit one's sinfulness. This is what John preaches. Jesus lines up w ith the crowd and w aits h is turn . H e lays no claim to any thing special. He asks no exceptions. I n e ffect, J esus j oins us. H e chooses t o share o u r life, t o live in solidarity with m ankind. Solidari t y , for Christ, is not j ust to mix with the crow d , to sociali ze , but to share our guilt and sinfulness. John is shock e d : "John tried t o dissuade him . ' I t is I who need b ap tism from you,' he said , ' and yet you come to me ! ' But Jesus replied , ' Leave it like this for the time being ; it is fitting that we should , in this w ay , do all that righteous ness demand s . ' At this, John gave in to him" ( M t 3 : 1 4- 1 5 ). Christ insists. He wants to be baptized. H e wants to be treated like a sinner. This public a c t of solidarity will extend bey ond the limits o f the m o ment, beyond the shores of the Jord an . Even tually this solid arity will turn Christ com pletely into sin : "For o ur sake God m ade the sinless one into sin so that i n him we m ight become the goodness of God" (2 Cor 5 : 2 1 ). When Christ is bap tized he is fully
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Our Baptism : Our bap tism shares the same ele ments of emptying and glori fication , of d eath and life :
You have been taught that when we were bap tized in Christ Jesus we were baptized in his death ; in othe r words, when we were baptized we went into t he t om b with h i m and joined i n death , s o that as Christ was raised from the dead by the Father's glory , we too might live a new life (Rom 6 : 34). We share the death of Christ . We e m pty ourselves. We enter the tom b . And in this way , we j oin Christ i n h i s resurrectio n . W e k now the power of h is resurrection and the peace that it brings with it. We e xperience the fruit fulness of a new life which is no longer bound to the past . New strength envelops us. Our bap tism means that we open ourselves to Christ so that h is life m ay continue through us.
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He m akes it clear that all of us are sinners. The more or less that m eans so much to us does not concern him . We have to know that we live on his forgiveness. "When they heard this they wen t away one by one, begi n n in g with the eldest, until Jesus was left alone with the woman, who rem ained stand ing there. He looked up and said , 'Woman, where are they ? Has n o one condem ned y o u ? ' ' N o o n e , Sir,' she replied . 'Neither do I condemn you ' " (v 9- 1 1 ) . This m ust have been a trem endous moment in her life . She w as really close to d eath. In fact , accord ing to the law she was already condemned to death by stoning. Jesus rescued her from the gates of death. No one was in terested in this woma n . But Jesus was. Finally, there com es into her life one person who accepts h er, who approac hes her as a human being. Finally , there is someone who believes in her, and not in a condescending way. Christ is unreserved ly receptive. This is a beautiful example of liste ning. Christ himself listens to this person . She says very little - 'No one, Sir' -but Jesus listens even before she speaks. He who cannot understand a frie nd's silence, will never understand his words. To listen is much more difficult than to speak or to look. When I speak or look, I am the cen ter, and this is natural to m e . B ut when I listen, the other person becomes the center and that is much m ore demand ing. To listen is to grab hold of my cen ter of gravity and place it for a time in the o ther person. I t requires great effort to d o this for any length of tim e . It means to empty oneself in order to be filled with the other person . Christ em ptied himself. He was and still is a m aster a t listening, since in him there is n o self-con cern. H e 99
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dista nt. We may be tem pted at this moment to give u p . This would be a basi c mistake for we confuse the Gospel with an ideology , with an ideal. The Gospel is a Person . Perfection means to fo llow Jesus Christ, to accept the friendship of Christ. There is no tension , no sense of gu ilt or fa ilure . We go with Christ. We do n o t lose courage because we are with him . He accepts us as we are , and we accept ourselves . This is wh olesome and libera ting. Now we can concentrate on the d esires of Christ. We do not have to be bothered with a blueprint. We can live in the presence of God , the sacra m ent of the present moment. There we can fi nd God day by day. The ideal, then, is not a state of perfection to be reached but fi de lity to God's love, the Providence of God. We are cen tered on a Person, not on an ideal. This makes all the d i fference in the world . We are more accepting of the failures and im perfections of ourselves and others. Each person goes his own way with Christ. We no longer need the subtle m asks to hide our faults and to prete nd n on-existing virtues. The only criterion is sin cerity in m y relationship with Christ. This will give us peace and creativity and encouragem e n t. This principle ap plies to a community as well. It m e ans that w e , the com m unity , do not have to bridge the ga p between the ideal and the reality . When we go with Christ, w e do not have to pretend any t hing. We sim ply concentrate on fidelity to Jesus. This is th e biblical sense of perfectio n . It never i m p lies a state of perfection to be reached by way of m oral achieve m en t . All through Scripture we read of the p resence of God 's glory and power in a p lace or in a perso n . This is to speak of perfection . Mt. Sinai was 101
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comm andments. He knows them and has always kept them . He is asking about the ultimate, the decisive element, his unique call in life. "Jesus looked steadily at him and loved him" (v 2 1 ). The love of the Father is reflected in the eyes of the Son. I cannot say that I have kept all the comm andments from my youth, yet that same in finite love goes ou t to me as to this youth. The refrain "God saw that it was good" (Gen 1 ) becomes visible in Christ as he gazes in full confidence and sym pathy on this you ng man. "Then Jesus said , 'There is one thing you lack. Go and sell every thing you own and give the money to the p o o r ' " (v 2 1 ) . From his love comes an invitation-not an additional commandment but a concretization. Because Christ loves him so much, he offers him poverty. That is a gift, a special favor. How happy are the poor in spirit ! Christ w ants this young man to be happy, and he kn ows that in poverty there is happiness, peace, joy-the kingdom of heaven on earth! The value of poverty is a mystery. I t can only be discerned fro m t h e inside b y experience. Once i t i s compromised, one is n o longer happy. Poverty makes the spiritual life easier in every way . When one is poor one relies on God for every thing. Jesus touches this y oung m an exactly where he is most vulnerable and this is the radicalism o f the Gospel : "Then Jesus said to his disciples, 'If anyone wants to be a follower of mine, let him renounce himself and take up his cross and follow me. For anyone who wants t o save his life will lose i t ; but anyone who loses his life for my sake will fin d it. What, then , will a m an gain if he wins the whole world and ruins his life? Or what has a man to 1 04
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"A single word characterizes the Jesus o f the gospels and expresses his essential attitude to life : pra u tes. This word can only be translated very inaccurate ly into English . " 1 When a word is typical for Jesus, it is worth a closer exami n ation . When there is no accurate equivalent of this word i n my own language , the investigation into the e xact meaning of i t is all the more pressing, for after all, "the limits of m y language are the limits of my world" (Wittgenstein ) . I n all scriptural re feren ces in this chapter the n ou n "praii tes" or the adjective " praii s" o ccur in the Greek text. Together with the explanations given they may bring home to u s the authe n tic meaning of the word in the New Testament, and thus help us to know Christ better. To sense the meaning of "pra ii tes" let us first look at the eight beatitudes not separately but as eight i n tegrated statemen ts, as an attempt to draw a self-p ortrait o f Christ in eight strokes. Each line tries to express the sam e attitude from a different angle. Together they reflect the mentality of Jesus, his life-style, and of anyone who believes in him . The word "praiites" could serve as a summary o f these eight beatitudes. The same is true of the fruits of the Spirit which Paul enumerates in Gal. 5 : 22 : "What the Spirit brings is . . . love, joy, p eace, patience, kindness, goodness, trustfulness, gentleness, and self-contro l . " These, t o o , are not n in e isolated qualities b u t rather nine e xpressions of the same Spirit which when combined p o rtray a certain type of man, a true i mage of a Christia n . Again , the word "praiites" stands as a synopsis of them all.
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Now , supp ose a Roman soldier had witnessed such a demonstration. He saw a ll the wealth and luxury of the Roman empire bestowed on that m a n as i f he were a god . Sup pose that same soldier happens to be i n Jerusalem and he sees a man coming down from the Mou nt of Olives on his don key with people shouting and waving branches from the trees. Then we know instinctively what "praiites" is in con trast to the Rom an pageant. This man is humble, unobtru sive . He is a m an with a still heart. We have to learn this, to train ourselves to i t : "Learn fro m me for I am gen tle and humble in heart, and you will fin d rest for y o u r souls" ( M t 1 1 : 29). We find p eace when we learn "pra u tes. " There is m ore to stillness than the silence of the tongue. There is, for instance, the silence of "we don't know what to say" like the vapid silence we call "angels passing b y . " Every one is embarrassed , frantically searching for something to say . There is n o stillness in anyone's heart ! Silence c a n also b e condemning. We c a n reprove a person without saying a word . When we d o not speak to a person for a number o f d ays, we hurt him m ore than words can do. That is not stillness, because our hearts are in turm oil . A story fro m Zen Buddhism gives us a good exam ple of this. One day two monks set out on their journey to another monastery in a heavy downpo ur of rain . The road is q uite muddy. All of a sudden, in the bend of the road, they see a beautifu l y oung woman who is dressed in a silk kimono with a wide sash and carrying an um brella to protect h erself fro m the rain . And there she stands! Tanzan immediately understa nds. The girl wants to cross the road but she 131
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cannot because of the mud . Her dress will be stained . So Tan zan goes to the girl, picks her up in his arms, carries her over the muddy road, and puts her down. The two monks continue on their jou rney . Ekido doesn't say a word for the rest of th e day . When they arrive at their destina tion , Ekido cannot restrain himself any longer. He says, "What you did was dangerous. Why did you do that? We monks stay away from women especially when they are young and pretty . " And Tan zan replied , "I left that girl there . Do you still carry her? " Ekid o 's disturb ance is not stillness of heart . Guardini and others have stressed that silence and speech complement each other. We cannot speak if we are never silen t ; then we only rattle. On the other han d , silence which is not complemented by speech can be quite disconcerting. We can also say that silen ce and speech have a common root . There is one attitude which provides for both speech and silence, n amely , the stillness of the heart . The silence of the mouth is only a prelude to this. The real stillness consists in the absence of self-concern . It is the peace of knowing oneself accepted by God as one is and aba ndoning oneself to his love. It is to rest secure with God in gen uine close ness to him, surrendered to him without struggle or strain : Yahweh, my heart has no lofty ambitions, my eyes do not look too high. I am not concerned with great affairs or marvels beyond my scope. Enough for me to keep my soul tranquil and quiet like a child in its mother's arms, as con tent as a child that has been weaned . 1 32
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Israel, rely on Yahweh, now and for always! (Psalm 1 3 1 ) The M oslems say that two people have only learned to love each other when they can be silen tly together. In the begin ning of their courtshi p , they have to talk in cessantly and keep the conversation going so as not to e mbarrass one an other. But as they grow in love they can be together for hours with hardly a nything to say . Their very silence speaks of love. They know that the most esse ntial realities are not e xpressed in words. The same holds true for our re lationship with God. When we are really a t home with him , w e do not have to speak all the ti me. We can j ust be with him . This silent presence is rooted in stillness of heart- " pratites . " From this stilln ess we ca n speak without breaking i t : "Jesus came from sile n ce. That w as his home and he had to struggle to ach ieve speech. Man comes out of turmoil and n oise, From this silence and silence is a task for him. " 2 we can say something which is worthwhile because in our sile n ce w e have more contact with people than we can ever have with speech alone. In that silence we can listen and then we can react and respond . ' ' P r a lites" brings thoughtfulness and wisd o m , se nsitiven ess a n d sy m pathy to our words. It i s said that the core of fa nati cism is doubt. Fana tics are extrem ely outspoken because they have doubts in their hearts w hich they try to shou t down. In the sam e sense we can say that the core of " pra u tes" is faith. Faith gives a re laxed attitude. We know ourselves loved by God and we are convi nced of that. And in that faith w e come to stillness and rest. And that is the beati tude of "pra u tes . " 1 33
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accom p lish an unbelievable amount of work and, in addition, spend m uch time in prayer. How do they manage? Their hearts are still. They know themselves loved by God . There is no sel f-concern . Others squander the energies of their hearts. "Prautcs" teaches us to ge t rid of the in ner friction . We do not rel y on our own achieveme nts. What m atters is that God loves us. When we place the em phasis on o urselves, we fail . The Gospel becomes impossib le. There is another story from Zen Budd hism which tells of a b ird lying on his back with his legs u pward . Another b ird com es along and say s, "What's the matter with you? Why are you lying in a fu n ny way like that? " "Oh , " the bird answers, "I have to. I am holding up the sky. I f I were to draw my legs back, the sky would fall and all the people would be kille d . " As it happened a leaf fell from a tree and came down with a ra ttling sound which frightened the bird . He turned over and flew away . The sky remained. When we, like the bird, consider ourselves as the cen ter of the world , we cannot p ray. Because God is no longer the focus, we lose the sti llness of heart. "Prautes" is not weak ness or cowardice. What we may fa il to realize is that "pra t1tes" can only be p ossessed by a strong person . There is a gentleness in "pra u tes" but behind the gentleness there is the strength of steel. I t is n ot a spineless gentleness , a sen tim ental fondness, a passive quietism . I t is a strength which is under con trol-not so m u ch self-co n tro l as God-control. The strength which is roo te d in "pra u tes" is serene. Our petty faith is strained because we do not dare to surrender ourselves : 135
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"Now about eight days after this had been said, he took w ith him Peter and John and J ames and went up to the mountain to pray" (Lk 9 : 2 8 ff). While Jesus prays the reality of his Father's favor captivates him and rad iates through him. His skin turns into light and his whole being is aglow . "As h e prayed, the aspect of his face w as changed and his clothing becam e brilliant as lightning. . . And a voice came fro m the cloud saying, 'This is my Son , the Chosen ' One. Listen to him . " All thro ugh the Old Testament the cloud is a symbol o f God 's presence. A cloud hovered over the ark . Mary was overshadowed by a cloud. Now a cloud envelops the disciples. They , too, are in the presence o f God here on Mount Tabor. At the b aptism Christ d escended and p ut himself among sinners. At the transfiguration sinfu l man is lifted u p to the m ou ntain where God is present. The bap tism of Christ and the transfiguration on Mount Tabor are turning p oi n ts in the life of Christ. In the baptism the hidden life shifts to the public life. And the Father speaks at this decisive moment i n the life of his Son. On Mount Tabor the p ublic life moves into the p assio n . Again the Father speaks and exp resses his pleasure with his Son : "This is my Son, the Chosen One," H e is p erfect. He fulfills the m ission given him 1 37
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And yet, it is the obvious and proper topic for this occasion , for his glory which shines so brilliantly is the fruit of the passion. What is discussed and what is seen are related as cause and effect. Why are Moses and Elijah the partners in this conversation ? Presumably , because Moses as t he lawgiver and Elijah as the greatest of the p rophe ts toge ther re present the Old Testam ent. There is mo re to it, however. Guardini explains that Moses had the thankless task to free his peop le from their shackles. Over a long period of time ( 40 years) he had to lead this stiff-necked people through all the hardship of the desert and to remain patien t u nd er all their resistance. And Elijah the Prophet struggled against the powers of evil during the reign of King A chab, the p ro toty pe of rebellion , and his terrible wife , Jezabel, more hardened in wickedness than he. All enmity against God , heritage of more than a thousand years of in tractability and blin dness, is carried between these two m en . l The third hint of this interpretation is found in the language of the gospels, especially the gospel of J oh n . They use words which at first sight seem to have a double m eaning, but for the person who believes the two meanings coin cide . It is a gi ft of fai th to see that the two realities are basically one and the sam e. We can consider the phrase "the h our. " We i m agine "the hour" as the most successful mo ment in a person 's li fe , the p eak of his career. For Christ, "the h our" is Calvary . Herein is th e double meaning. We think "the hour" as glory but the glory is in the cross. The word "glorified " is another example. At first glance we think of "glori fied " as exubera n t praise, 1 39
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that nothing can soil it , abase it , humiliate i t ; it has ac cepted the last place and cannot go any lower. 3 This secret of the Master is also the secret of his fo llowers. In the Christian h um ility their lives will become won derfully fertile and show the glory of the kenosis . Simone Wei! remarked that the extraordinary greatness of Christianity is n ot that it provides us with m edicin e against suffering, but that i t gives perspective to suffering. Christianity d oes n ot spare us p ain . The Gospel does n ot promise that we will not suffer. I n deed, the Gospel m akes it very clear that we do h ave to lose our lives, to take u p our cross and follow Christ. And that is unique! All other religions either try to avoid pain or make one imm une to it so that it will no longer be felt. This is not the G os pel a pproach . The cross rem ains a h uman reality but the Gospel gives meaning to i t , and that fact m akes the di fference. Once we know that su fferi ng has a purp ose, or at le ast once we can believe that there is a m eaning to it, we can endure much more. That is the Gosp el m essage -that su ffering need not be a loss. People can grow bitter through suffering but they can also become beautifu l . And the latter serve as a grace to others. Their suffering has made them tran sparent, m ore o pen , wise and gentle. In them , we see t he fru itfulness o f the cross. Pain can glorify us, m ake us radian t and give a fruitfu lness to our lives : God lets himself be pushed out of the world on to the cross. He is weak and powerless in the world , and that is precisely the way , the only way , in which he is with us and helps us. Matt 8 : 1 7 makes it quite clear tha t Christ 1 43
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Jesus sent Peter and John from B ethany to Jerusalem to m ake the preparations for the feast of the Passover. A fe w hours later, Jesu s arrived with the other ten of the disciples. It will be the l ast eve ni ng that Jesus is to be alive and he wants to spend i t with his d is ciples : "It has been my heart's desire . I have longed and longed for this evening. " He would like to draw som e courage, som e comfort and strength from being together with his friends before the Passion begins. He has also longed for this meal to share a m ost precious gift with his disciples. He is going to give himself away. He will hand himself out as a little piece of bread so small and insignificant. So much will h e empty himself. The Last S upper is a mystery o f the emptying of Christ. "A dispute arose also between them about which should be reckoned the greatest" ( L k 2 2 : 24). The feast o f feasts which Christ had anticipated for so long begins with a quarrel, an ugly quarrel about something so alien to his m entality : "which should be reckoned the greatest." The last d ay of his l i fe , and his friends fight for the first p lace. Most q uarrels are exactly this. No m atter how well w e hide behind theological or sociological masks, the real issue is usually that we beli eve that we are greater and we are n ot going to y ield . How many times had Christ put a 1 45
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child in their mid st? They haven 't yet begu n to grasp t h c message. This evening is a tremendous disappointment to Christ. His own disciples give him the feeling that his whole life has been a failure. He had n ever succeeded with the leaders of the people ; they had rejected him from the very begin ning. For a time he was popular with the people b u t then gradually he lost them , too. On Palm Sunday there was a terrific demonstration of enthusiasm but tomorrow they will cry just as loudly : "Crucify him . " And n ow his disciples make abundantly clear this very hour that they, too, have missed the whole point of his message. They are no better than the others. They w an t to be so important ! He has achieved nothing, and tomorrow everything will be finished. Each of us, sooner or later, will face a situation which at least from a distance can be com pared to this moment. We will feel as Christ fel t during the Last Supp er. - It may be the death of someone very dear to us, an agonizing death which is unbearable to witness. And we ask "How can God perrni t this?" - Or the moment may come when a friend whom we love, to whom we have confided our deepest thoughts and ideals, turns and goes another way . We feel b etrayed. It is not our e nemies who make us suffer m ost but our friends, people whom we love. Only they can make us suffer. That can cause a crisis similar to the one Christ suffered here. He had shared everything with these men, and they betrayed him right in the heart of his message. 1 46
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- Or we may be disap pointed in ourselves. All of a sudden we see such a gap between what w e say and what we are that we become paraly zed . We would even like to run away from our comm itment, from the whole Gospel, because we feel we are frauds. All of life is one big lie . - Or there is the crisis of being told that every thing we have labored for was done the wrong way. It is all a fa ilure. Things have changed now and there is little that we have con tribu ted after all. - Perhaps we say to ourselves "It would be better i f we had not been born . " A curse o n the day when I was born , no blessing on the day my mother bore me ! A curse on the man who brought my fa ther the news, 'A son , a boy has been born to you ! ' making h i m overjoye d . May this man be like the towns that Yahweh overthrew without mercy ; may he hear alarms in the morning, the war cry in broad daylight , since he did not kill me in the womb ; my mother would have been my tomb while her womb was swollen with me . Why ever did I come out of the womb to live in toil and sorrow and to end my days in shame ! (Jer 20 : 14-18) In such a crisis, Christ still has something to say . The profession of faith in t h e early Church was very brie f- "Jesus is Lord . " This means among many other things that Christ can cope with any situation. He can handle this crisis, too . But, whereas we are tem pted 1 47
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your life away ! " -they could n't. The dismay of the a p ostle s ! This is the heroism of the Gospe l : to wash someone else's feet. The sons of thunder, James a nd John, had wanted to call down fire from heaven because the m essage of the Gospel was not received immediately . They were also the ones who came with their mother to ask secretly for the first places in the kingdom of heaven. Now Christ says that if they want the fi rst place, they must wash the feet of their fellowm an . The tax collector, Matthew , had been ric h . How often had his slaves, at his sligh test gesture, knelt down and washed his fe et. Tonight it is the Master who kn eels . And then there is Judas who is full of dece ption , ready to betray his M aster, but Christ d oes not pass him up. That would be closed ethics. He washes the feet of the man who in a matter of hours will deliver him with a kiss. Tha t is Christ. He em ptied himself. This humility is part of Christian love . Christian love is unique. It is different from all other types of love. What calls itself "love" is at times mainly the d esire for possession of the other person , and what co nsiders itself service and availability can , in fact, be quite selfish . There is the te m p tation to make use of other people for one's own image. Christian love has humility at its roots . It requires tremendous generosity and a constant battle with one's own egoism and desire for self-assertion to m ai n tain the attitude of Chris tian love. An yone who lives by Christian love will reach a juncture in his life where he meets the challenge to enter into genuine humility . And i f he refuses to d o that , then his Christian love dies or turns into a carica ture of love. It is the tragedy of human life that selfishness always 149
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h ave lost it. We receive it as Gift . People who want to be importa n t should ask themselves, "What d oes Christ do in the Eucharist?" The m ain dish of the Last Sup per was the one-year-old lamb which Peter and John had gone on ahead to pre pare. For the apostles, this lam b was a rem inder of the past. The passover lamb was t he m e morial of the exodus from Egy pt, and all t he po werful m iracles that went with it as unequivocal signs of Yahweh's faithfulness to his Chosen People. For Christ, however, this lamb was a sign which p ain ted in to the very near fu ture. Tomorr o w , Christ will be the lamb led to the slaughte r h ouse. Leviticus ( 1 6 : 20-2 2 ) narrates the ritual of the scapegoat wh ich was loaded with the si ns of Israel and then led into the d esert . Tomorrow , Christ will be the lamb o f God who takes away the sins of the world (Jn I : 29 ) by carrying the terrible load on his shoulders and out of this world . Every year the high priest would go into the sanctu ary to sprinkle the ark o f the covenant with "blood that was n ot his own" (Heb 9 : 2 5 ) . Tomorrow Christ will enter the sanctuary once and for all "taking with him his own blood" (Heb 9 : 1 2) . For Christ, the Last S up per is the limit of sel f-empt ying. He knows fu ll well that when he breaks the bread , he is breaking his own bod y . The die is cast. The ritual of the Last Supper will have to be completed the next day in all o f its cruel reality . Christ initiates this himself: "No one takes my life from m e ; I lay it down o f my own free will" (Jn 1 0 : 1 8). St. Paul tells us that "every time we eat this bread and drin k t hi s c u p we are proclaiming his death" ( 1 Co r 1 1 : 2 6). This is all the m ore true of the One eating of the 151
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thinking I have toiled in vain , I have exhausted mysel f for n othing" (Is 49 : 4 ) . Christ sees in Gethsemane the sins of the people who know of his passion, who have prayed about it, yet who still compromise their lives. His passion doesn 't m ake much of a difference to them. I t d oesn 't change their world . These, h is friends, m ake the m ost terrible contribution to his su ffering: Were it an enemy who insulted m e , I could p u t u p with that ; had a rival got the bette r of me, I could hide from him . But you, a man of my own rank, a colleague and a friend, to whom sweet conversation bound me in the house of God ! (Ps 5 5 : 1 2- 1 4). Jesus su ffers from the thought that his passion might be a waste, that people still will not u nderstan d : I know all about you : how you are neither cold nor hot . I wish you were one or the other, but since you are neithe r , but only lukewarm, I will spit you out of my mouth (Revel 3 : 1 5- 1 6) . The mediocri ty of our lives must disa p point him . We are a fraid to allow the passion to touch us, afraid to go too deep for fear it may change our lives. Christ realizes that and he is in anguish and distress. Up until now he had been so eager to begin the work of redemption. Now there is only revulsion : "For it is not as if we had a high priest who was incapable of ! 57
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The word "resurrection " is like an ocea n. It has a n in finite beauty. We cannot grasp i t ; i t slips like watr through our fingers. Nor can we see beyond its horizon. It is also dangerous. We can easily drown in it. Again , the word "resurrection" is like the Grand Can yon . Its awesome grandeur we can never fu lly e x plore . And there is th e risk that we ge t lost in it. The m ystery of the R esurrection is not as easy for us to acce p t as it used to be some d ecades ago. Is it a body formed from a corpse? How does that work? Is i t a body which is agile, penetrable , rad iant? How do we imagi ne something like that? Is it a n immediate physical a n d sp iri tual co mm union w i t h the un iverse so that the earth becomes a part of the structure of our body-sou l u n ity? St. Paul was asked similar q u estions regard ing it: "Someone may ask 'How are dead people ra ise d , and what sort of body do they have when they come back? ' " ( 1 Cor 1 5 : 3 5 ) . His answer is sharp : "These are stupid q uestion s ! " Why? They tum the mystery into a proble m : "We teach what scripture calls : the things that no eye has se en and no ear has heard , things beyond the m ind of m an , all that God has prepared for those who love hi m" ( I Cor 2 : 9 ) . And whatever answ er we give is within the mind of man and, there fore , cannot be correct. The resu rrection is a 161
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inferiority complex in the living of their faith. Consequentl y , they feel tempted to dilute the mystery o f the resurrection to such an extent that it can be accepted by everybody. The worst thing about an i n feriority com plex is that it inevitably turns into its reverse. People w ith an inferiority complex sooner or later assume a su perior behavior. Some w ill con trol an other person by leaning heavily and constantly on him. Others will alm ost always in a k ind of lam e , de pressive mood withdra w themselves, b u t o n rare occasions they will com e out of their corner to say or do things which no one else would have the n erve to do. People whose faith suffers from an inferiority complex, alas, manifest that same tendency to m anipulate other people, this time in matters of faith. They can have a disruptive infl uence and form the breed from which heresy hun ters come. Their in tra nsige nce m asks an uncom fortableness with the my stery which cannot be ex plained . To live with a m ystery requ ires a certain amount of humility. I f w e can not say what resurrection is, then let us at least say what it is not ! In the first place , the resurrection is not just to say that Christ lives on in our mem ory , that his words are still alive among us, and that his nam e will never pass out of this world. This is too m eager, for in that case resu rrection would be a very common phen omenon . The many words and fam ous names of Shakespeare , Plato, David and a host of others are still am ong us. This interpretation m akes resurrection so general that i t no longer has a special m eaning. There is a second and more serious reason why this explanation is too meager. It purports that Christ lives among us because we are 1 63
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A third false understanding of the resurrection is to see it as a re turn from death to life. Lazarus, the you th of Nai n , the daughter of Jairus returned from death . Christ did not. There is an essential differen ce between these three people and J esus. This leads us to the correct answer concerning the nature of the resurrecti on . After the three negative enunciations we shall m ak e two p ositive state ments about what resurrection truly is. Resurrection, then , is not a return from d eath b u t a break through death into a life in which d eath has n o p ower anym ore : "Christ, as we know, having been raised from the dead will n ever die again . D eath has no p ower over him any m ore " (Rom 6 : 9 ) . This is the basic difference between Lazarus and Christ. Lazarus retu rned to life and then he had to die aga in. Christ did n ot return to this life but h e has broken thro ugh death into a new life . There is no death ahead of him any m ore . And that is the definition of the resu rrection : life over which death has no power. When we say this, we say the precise truth but as we do so , w e d o not know what we mouth ! With words w e articu late a mystery . Though we express it in words, it still rem ains a mystery . Biology sa ys a great deal about life -life with death in it. Li fe without death is beyond our knowledge. The m ost si m p le person knows that life ends in death. This doesn't hold for Ch rist any m ore. Our life experience is the mixture of li fe and death together. What life itse lf is, we do not know. What we call life isn 't life , really. Peo p le over thirty years of age who can n o longer d o what they were capable of d oing when they were 1 65
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Messiah . " When we can identify Jesus of Nazareth, the carpenter-Rabbi who died on a cross, with Christ the Lord , then we believe . T h e m ystery of the resurrection i s central to our faith. I f Christ is not risen, then our faith collapses. Nothing remains. The Gospel should be read from the viewpoint of the resurrection because that is the way it w as w ritten. Every e pisode of the Gospel is imbued with the light o f the resurrection. When w e take t he resurrectio n out, there is nothing left to the Gospel, j ust as when we take the head from the body the rest becomes a corpse. When we leave out the resurrection, we cannot use anything from the Gospel , because the core o f the Gospel is the resurrection. This is what gives life and p erspective to the Good News we b elieve and teach. There is a remarkable phrase fou n d in the Acts of the Apostles. The disciples have gathered to choose someone t o replace J udas who killed himself. Peter calls the disciples together and explains in these words the task at han d : We m ust therefore choose someone who has been with us the whole time that the Lord Jesus was traveling round with us, someone who was with us right from the time when John was baptizing until the day when he was taken up from us-and he can act with us as a witness to his resurrection (Acts I : 2 1 -22). This is the d efinition o f an apostl e : a witness to the resurrection. When we do not witness t o t he resurrection whatever our labor and our service, we are n ot apostles. On the other han d , when w e radiate the joy and faith of the risen Lord w e are real apostles, whatever w e do. The heart of the apostolate 1 67
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The Holy Spirit is the fullness of what God has to give . In liturgy there is a host of i mages and com parisons to express what the Holy Spirit does and is. He sanctifies, he strengthens, he consoles. He warms when we are chilly , he helps, he cures and heals. He m akes supple what has become stiff, he cleanses, h e e nlightens when i t is dark. He is a tongue, a dove . He is fire , storm , light and dew. He is breath. He is the finger of God with which God made the universe . He constantly renews the face of the earth. In his farewell discourse, Christ speaks m u ch about the Holy S pirit. He says that i t is better for us that he leaves: "Still, I m ust tell you the trut h : it is for y our own good that I am going because unless I go , the Ad vocate will not come to you ; but i f I do go, I will send him to you" (J n 1 6 : 7 ) . The gift of the Spirit is m ore precious than the presence of Christ himself. In that S pirit Christ is closer to us. He is right in the midst of o ur being. The Spirit is the fullness of what Christ can give : "The Advocate, the Holy S piri t, whom the Father will send in my nam e, will teach you everything and re mind you of all I have said to you" (Jn 1 4 : 2 6 ) . Everything and all the Word contains in i ts in tegrity is brought home to us in the literal sense -brought right into our hearts. I 71
The Holy Spirit 1s the third Pe rson of the Bl essed Trinity . This sim ple state m ent say s a great deal. It m eans that God is a "fam i l y . " God is not a lonely God. He is not the "unmoved all-m over" o f Aris totle nor the Narcissus o r t h e philosophers, a God who is only in terested in himself. But God I S com m unity . God is life toge ther. I n God there is bege tting and knowing and loving. In God there is perfect comm unication. The Fa ther's whole self is ex pressed i n the Word which i s the Son. And the Son surrenders himself to his Father in complete aband onment withou t holding any thing back. The two o pen themselves up totally. Lonelin ess in human l i fe is a great pain. God has the bliss of being toge ther: I and Tho u , Father and Son, who can look 1 73
A second reply to the question "Who is the Holy Spirit?" identifies the Holy Spirit as the Spirit of Christ, the mind, the mentality of Christ : I shall ask the Father, and he will give you another Ad vocate to be with you forever , that Spi ri t o f truth whom the world can never receive since it neither sees nor knows him ; but you know him, because he is with you , he is in you . I will not leave you orphans; I will come back to you (Jn 1 4 : 1 6- 1 8). I n his Spirit Christ is with us: "When the Advocate comes, whom I shall send to you from the Father, the S pirit of truth who issues from the 1 75
the Spirit himself expresses our plea in a way that could never be put into words (Rom 8 : 26). The Spirit himself prays in us. Prayer becomes so simple. More and more we learn to listen to Jesus who prays in us. The desert Fathers described Christian prayer as listening deeply within o urselves to the prayer Jesus u tters through his Spirit to his Father. In this sense our prayer becomes more p assive. We are not doing the praying, but the S pirit, or Jesus himself, prays in us. The Holy Spirit is the mind of Christ which takes hold of us: "No one can say 'Jesus is Lord' u nless he is under the in fl uence of the Holy Spirit" ( 1 Cor 1 2 : 3 ) . Th.is unadorned form ula, so bri e f, so easy to pronounce, is the most difficult prayer in the world. To pray "Jesus is Lord " means an u n reserved giving of ourselves to Christ . He is Lord. He may tell us what to do. To pray "Jesus is Lord" is to acknowledge Christ as Lord of the universe. Every thing in this world is less important, less powerful than he. Only the Spirit enables us to pray this p rayer.
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When we are imbued with the co mplete truth which is Spirit, then we can witness : "But when the Spirit of truth comes he will lead you to the com p le te truth" (Jn 1 6 : 1 3 ). It takes courage to speak the truth that is Spirit to others. Mere intellectualism is fa r easier because it is safe ! We cannot be wou nded . A witness m akes himself vu lnerable. He puts not only his brains but also his heart at stake. To witness means to be defenseless. It hurts when our witnessing (and that means we ) is not accep ted . There is no apostolate without the willingness to suffer that sort of pai n . We can hide behind brilliant arguments and we won't be hurt. But we won't be heard , either. Religious life should be a witnessing. This is to say that we do not have a defense to offer those who j udge religious life , contest it, who wish to renovate it with out themselves possessing an in tegral faith and a super natural hope . Outsiders or religious themselves can eas ily make many complai nts against religious life . They m ay be correct in what they say and yet be missing the right spiri t , the Holy Spirit, the real integration. To witness to religious life means that the life in itself has value for us and gives us fu lfil lment. We do not live it to convince others. That is not witness. That is a facad e. To wi tness in religious life means that even if others do not understand or ap prove we are full of hope. This is basic to wi tnessing: who loses his soul will find it. Wit nessing is unselfish, disinterested . The Holy Spirit makes us into witnesses. The fru its of the Spirit sha pe the type of person who is a true witness to Christ even in the m idst of pain and hardships: "What the Spirit brings is .. . love ,joy , peace, patience , kindness, goodness, trustfulness, gentleness, and self-control" (Gal 5 : 22). 1 80
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Celebra n t : Introduction The grace and peace of God our Father a nd of our Lord J esus Christ be with you. We have come together as sinful peo ple who want to admit that we are so. The com m on confession of that sin fulness a nd the com munal e x pe rience of G od 's forgiveness can bring us closer together as a com m unity. I t can also deepen our conscie n ce a n d open our eyes to w h a t w e would not see perhaps by ourselves. These a re the ad van tages of a pe nance service over a pri vate con fession. The personal con fession has its spe cial value, too, m ainly that I e x p ress e x p licitly in wo rds sp oken aloud to some one else my con crete sins and receive the person a l sacra mental absolution. Thus I com mit myself and , in a human way , absorb God's fo rgiveness. So the penance service and the p riva te confession have their own special merits. They should not ex clude but co m plement each other. The check on a good penance service is a more pertinent person al con fession ; and the check on a good p rivate confession is a more in tense cele bration of the penance servi ce. Celebran t: Opening Prayer God our Father, let us not seek false names to cover
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up our sins, and let us not try to escape the gift of your forgiveness. You never fail any one of your people. Your greatest joy is to exercise your forgive n ess in accepting one who went astray , who was lost an d came back home. We come today to let o urselves be forgiven . We approach you without any rights, but we are certain that you come to meet us with open arms and a deep joy because you are our Father, today , and everyday, forever and ever.
A ll: A men. Lector: Old Testament Reading, Isaiah 5 2 : 1 4-5 3 : 6 or
2 Cor 5 : 1 7-2 1
A ll: R esponsorial Psalm - Psalm 1 3 0 A n tiphon : "To you I lift up my heart ; in you I p lace
my trust . "
Lector: New Testament R eading - Lk I S : 1 1 -24 or
Lk 7 : 3 6-50
Litany of Petitions
Let us pray to God who is our Father that he may give us the grace of true contrition . . . Let us pray to the Lord . Response: Lord , hear our prayer. That we m ay have the courage to face our life and to j udge it . . . That he m ay keep us from scrupulousness and from shallowness . . . That he m ay keep us from despair and from lack of con tri tion . . . 1 82
A Penance Service
we may n ot restrict ourselves t o the disappointments i n our own selves and to the dents in our own excellence, but that we may also touch your love from which we shielded o urselves and you whom we've hurt . . . That the hard light of truth m ay unveil t o us the reality of our lives and that courageously w e may endure the pain o f this unveiling, a n d that God 's love for us as we are may always b e the deepest fou ndation of this whole celeb ration . . . That w e m ay believe i n the love of y ou , our Father, and m ay be secure in that love, and that we may deep down in our hearts experience your grace and your kindness . . . That w e m ay inspire each other to a more authentic repentance, and that you may be in our midst sin ce we are gathered in your name . . . Forgive us, Lord , that w e were too little our own selves, that likes and dislikes were sometimes more important to us than our own conscience ; that we did not seek the deepest Grou n d of our existence but stayed somewhere on the surface ; that w e did n ot try t o discover your guidan ce i n our lives, and that w e hurt your holy will ; that som etimes we did not even provide for a climate of interior stillness in which alone your voice can be heard ; that we did n ot shine forth peace and j oy but restlessness and discontent. . . Forgive us, Lord, that we sometimes too easily dismissed our prayer and excused ourselves w he n it w as n ot n ecessary at all , and sometimes didn't make an effort to be really still i n your presence ; forgive us, Lord, for the time which 1 83
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we wasted in laziness, for the distractions which we welcom ed , for the dozing, and for the times we appeared before you only partly prepared . . . Forgive us, Lord , that sometimes we have been lazy-too lazy to get up, too slow to help-that w e did not accept inconveniences or changes in plans graciously ; that we delayed u n pleasant p lans and tasks, and sometimes delayed them so long that they could n ot be done anym ore ; that our conversation was som etimes shal low; that we didn't really search for the depth in our lives . . . Forgive us, Lord, for all our unworthy thoughts, our judgments of others, our unfair criti cism and our inner disconten t ; the sensual fantasies which we fostere d , moodiness and despondency which we nourished . . . Forgive us, Lord , for fa iling to tum to you in our moments of lonelin ess . . . Forgive us, Lord, for our reckless speech, the harshness of our words, the rashness of our opinions, the lies and half truths that we u ttered . . . Forgive us, Lord, for what we have not said when the situation deman ded it. . . Forgive us, Lord , that sometimes we have been factious ; that we sowed divisions in our community ; that sometimes we have put people at odds with one another by tattling; that we stirred up suspicion ; that we underm ined trust among m en and among the members of our c o mmunity ; that through our guilt our community is less one that you expect; that 1 84
Penance Service
perh aps thro ugh our rigidity or laxity , we are p a r t ) y gu ilty that some h ave left the commu nity . . . Forgive us, Lord , that sometimes we have been conceite d ; that we tried to make ou rselves im porta nt, to dominate , to b u ild up o ur own im age ; that som etimes we were not really sin cere and tried to create a semblance to w hich no reality corresp onds; that we've tried to make ourselves popu lar ; that we wanted to b e right in fro n t and with it. . . Forgive us, Lord , that som etimes we showed l ittle enthusiasm in our fa ith ; th at through a cultivated medi ocrity we did not do j ustice to the tru e face of Christ and the true m e a n ing of the Gospel in the eyes of o ur fellow m e n ; that we h ave been unfa ith ful in our missi o n ; that som etimes through selfish ness vv e tried to in clude in o ur vocat ion what d oes not agree with it. . . Forgive us, Lord , if sometimes we lived in too great a lu x ury ; if we closed our h earts to the needs of this world ; if we abused the movement of renewal in the Chur c h to make oursel ves richer and to im prove our standard of livin g ; that we placed our needs and desires above those of the com m unity ; that we used unfair d ip l omacy to advance our own desires ; that we tried to domi nate instead of to serve . . . ( For th ose who live a celibate life ) Forgive us, Lord, that someti mes we d id not try to live the fu llness o f celibacy ; that we did not try to let the love of Christ fill our h earts and lives ; that 1 85
w e looked for substitutes and compensations thus depriving the people committed to our care of the deeper inspiration celibacy is meant to be for them . . . Forgive us, Lord , that sometimes we opened ours lves too little to the deeper inten tion of the other and t o the deeper meaning of God's spirit in our time . . . Forgive us, Lord , when we were slow and tepid and lived m ore according to the letter than to the spirit ; when we tried to leave things as they are and did n ot have the courage to begin anew . . . Forgive us, Lord , our faults of omission : the help we could have given , the comfort which was expected from us, the sorrow we did n ot even see , the inspiration which we denied others, your longing for us which we did not want to hear . . .
Celebrant: Prayer
God , I come to you as a member of this community , admitting my own weakness and sins and asking for forgiveness. I am sorry for the many times that I have turned away from y ou to my shallow , untrue self and have taken away from the full strength a nd stature the Body of Christ could have in our community . Each of my in fidelities h as done harm to others, not showing the real d ep th of what the Gospel should m ean for them.
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Silen t R eflection A ll: Psalm 51 (as a common confession)
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May almighty God have mercy on us, forgive us our sins, and b ring us to everlasting life.
A ll: A men. Celebra n t : May the alm ighty and merciful God grant us pardon , absolution and remission of our sins. A ll: A men.
Almighty God will have mercy on us because of his Son , Jesus Christ, who surrend ered himself for us and carries all our sins. The p ower, the kingdom and the glory are his. M ay he bless us and keep us, m ay his face shine u pon us and may he give us p eace and grace today and every day, forever and ever.
Celebra n t : A ll: A men. Celebra n t : May the passion of our Lord Jesus Christ, the m erits of the Blessed Virgin Mary and of all the saints, whatever good we have done and evil we have endured , achieve for us the forgiveness of our sins , the increase of grace and the reward o f everlasting life. A ll: A men. A ll sing: recessional "Grant To Us , 0 Lord " ( Lucien
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3 Huub Oosterhuis et a l , Fifty Psa lm s : A n A tt e m p t a t Tra nslation (New York : Herder and Herder, 1 969) , 74.
4 Dietrich Bonhoeffe r , L et ters a n d Papers fro m Prison edit. by Ebe rh a rd Bethge , rev. ed. (New York: The Macmillan Company , 1 9 67), 1 5 5 . 5 Paul Tillich , The Courage Press, 1 9 52), 1 87 . Chapter Four l (Denville : Dimension Books, Inc., 1 973), 1 8 . 2 Quoted by Farrell ,
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I Edward Farrell, Prayer Books, Inc., I 972), SO.
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I A. F. Wyers, "He t Tweegesprek Met God," August I S , 1 9S9.
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event in the third chapter only because t he first and second chapters were added at a later date . John follows the same order of Matthew and Luke but expressed in his own way. Chapter Eleven
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l Paul Tillich, L o ve, Po wer University Press, 1 960), 1 1 9 . Cha pter Fifteen
I Ladislaus Boros, God Herder, 1 967), 1 70. 2 Ibid.,
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Footno tes 3 Ladisl aus Boros, We A re Fultire (New York : Herder and Herde r , 1 960). 74. Chapter Sixteen
1 Romano Guard ini, Th e Lord (Chicago : Henry Regnery Company. 1 954), 244-47 .
2 Anthony Padovano, Dawn Without Darkness (New Jersey: Paulis t/Newman Press, 1 97 1 ) , 1 5 .
3 Anthony Bloo m , L iving Pray a Templegate Publishers. 1 97 1 ), 9 8 . 4 Die trich Bonhoeffe r , op. cit. , 1 88 . Chapter Twenty
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I Anthony Bloo m , Meditations: A Spiritual Journey (Denville : Dimension Books, Inc. 1 972), 26.
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