JenniferMorales

English11
PaulHealy
10/29/14FearisPartofLife

Astrangechillranthroughmybody.Myroombecamecolderandmystomach
startedtobeunbearable,Icouldntgetoutofbed.AsIpeekedovertoseewhattimeit
was,theroomturnedthreehundredsixtydegrees.Isobbedundermycovers.
ShouldI
alertmyparentsaboutmysituation.
Mybodystartedtoquiverandmyheartbeganto
havepalpitations.Mysistertostayedwithmethatnight,evenwithherintheroomIfelt
alone.Thenightgraduallypassedby,butinmymindthesunwouldntrisefastenough.
Thenextmorning,Ifollowedmysisteraroundtodistractmyselffromthehorrific
anxietyIfeltinside.AlthoughItriedmyhardesttoavoidmyanxiety,Iwastrapped
insidemyownthoughts.Intheeveningmymomfoundmesobbinganddecidedtotake
metomydoctor.ShetoldmethatIwassufferingfromanxietyattacksandprescribed
mesleepingpills.Themicroscopicpillshelpedmesleep,butdidntstoptheattacksfrom
happening.MyfamilyandIknewwehadtofindanotherwaytohelpmeovercome
theseanxietyattacks.Ifoundnewsolutions.Everydaywalkshelpedmebydistracting
meofmyownthoughts.IattendedchurchandtalkedtothepriestaboutmyfearsandI
becamestrongerspiritually.
Iwasdeterminedtomoveonfromthatnightandgrowintoapersonwhocan
fightthroughanystruggle.Ibelievethatfearisapartoflife.Imalwaysgoingtohavea
fearinlife,andinsteadoflivingaroundmyfearIratherlivewithmyfear.Idrather
acknowledgethatnight,thenjustputitbehindme.Thatsummernight,mademerealize

thatlifeisnevergoingtobepredictableand,Imgoingtohavetoaccepttheunknown.
Myanxietystillcomesback,butnowIknowitspartofwhoIam.