Angels and Eros

by

Billy McBride

Copyright 2012, by William McBride

ISBN 978-1-300-45634-6

Table of Contents

This Will be a Good Night.....4

I Need to be Touched.....16
What the Heck Just Happened?.....25
Fragments.....40
Revisions....50

This Will be a Good Night

by
Billy McBride

Music was the magnet.

- Billy M.
The difficulty and reward of music.
- Billy M.
Hope shot down.
- Arielle
Remember why you feel bad, because the worst is NOT
going to happen, and you are persuaded it will!
- Arielle
Billy, you're going to love your Dad.
- Arielle
Your pain will go away.
- Arielle
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They, the neighbors, will be better.

- Arielle
Billy, you will love traveling and riding your bike in San
Antonio.
- Arielle
It doesn't work that way.
- Valerie
This was the problem with rabies, you idiot.
- Teresa
The Republic is your problem.
- Teresa
Billy, you are not damned with knowing others.
- Teresa
Billy, it's time for your pain medicine.
- Teresa
Stereotomy is your pain medicine.
- Teresa
Stereotomy and Homer's Iliad are your pain meds.
- Teresa
"Who am I kidding?" is a dumb quote.
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- Thrikbot
Billy, your brothers are going to love playing with you.
- Kathleen
Billy, it's good that you're going to have to listen.
- Kathleen
I wish I could talk with them.
- Billy M.
Remember your Abba in his class.
- Kathleen
You can ride your bike in the morning like Chaucer.
- Kathleen
You either have to love or be wise.
- Tov Tov Shalom
It will be better to wait. You will see.
- Teresa
What the heck just happened?
- B'nayvoovah
Uh un, same thing with your money.
- Ora Ora Tiferetot
In every act of speaking there is a kind of contempt
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because we are trying to express something which is

already dead in our hearts.
- Fredrich Nietzsche, Pepe, Ora's brother
The thing that shocked you so much that was demanded, it
took your breath away, but the hurt you are feeling is
because you are thinking of the worst again, and it is good
instead which will happen. You will see.
- Teresa
You fear unnecessarily and your feet need a rub.
- Teresa
Who am I attracted to right now?
- B'nayvoovah
Even the conflict of the future over your cats will be good
as well as the results...Ha Kol B'Seder.
- Teresa
Now about your feet (and sheet).
- Teresa
Billy, write books just for us too, for our intimacy.
- Teresa
Odysseus, what on Earth?!?
- Teresa
Wash and rub.
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- Teresa
Grace, confidence, creativity and more. Get it?
- Teresa
That feels great!!!
- Billy M.
Read this book to your Mom and Pop.
- Teresa
Adam and Eve were the first parents in the Torah.
- Teresa
Awesome stuff. Awesome.
- Teresa, MUSTARD
Bottom is my favorite because he hath no bottom.
- B'nayvoovah
Continual writing is a road to happiness, to bliss.
- Teresa
Wanna get on Skype?
- Teresa
Billy, you don't even know how to spell "imma" in
Hebrew!
- Thrikbot, ORANGE

Billy, get your foot rub.

- Thrikbot, ORANGE
They will know what all these words mean.
- Thrikbot, ORANGE
Homer's works look great and small, a cosmos and a
simplicity, all in one.
- Thrikbot, ORANGE
Wait (to the neighbors)!
- Thrikbot, ORANGE
Shalom Alichiem!
- Thrikbot, ORANGE
Billy, you're gonna like the inspection, and also going to
the dentist, you are going to like talking to others about
your life and needs.
- Arielle
It is planned.
- Arielle
Billy, you're gonna like listening to them go on about you.
- Arielle
Very good. Tob Shbeeb Hates Atobots.
- Arielle

Very, very good, we are like their babysitting parents!

- Arielle
Foot rub!
- Arielle
Need a bigger one to write on (clip-pad).
- Billy M.
Billy, like we say when it comes to studying, you will love
being a student by yourself, talking with your guest.
- Bertha
Billy, don't worry that they call you "Billy" and not
"B'nayvoovah." It's good.
- Bertha
How do your feet feel now?
- Bertha
Inclusive communities and spiritual-esque parents.
- Bertha
Kant still is a difficulty.
- Bertha
What is that one?
- Bertha
Outsider is okay, but so is your BED!
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- Bertha
Write some books just for us!
- Bertha
Just read poetry to them, and write.
- Bertha
Freud is awesome.
- B'nayvoovah
Wrestling with this writing.
- B'nayvoovah
Whew, these are tough ones.
- B'nayvoovah
Very, very good, what will we do? You will see, it will be
awesome!
- Yafah
Family Gnosis.
- Yafah
About the car trips...half your worry is unnecessary and
will always be so. You will love going out. But we will be
careful too.
- Yafah
Omaha.
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- Yafah
Cranberry pills.
- Yafah
It's not really a new or old phrase, but geometrical, which
we don't do.
- Valerie
Sometimes they do geometry and older stuff (phrasing) but
it's not really part of our final vocabulary.
- Valerie
What zoo animal sound is that?
- Valerie
This is a public book.
- Valerie
Write a private book for us too.
- Valerie
Healthy imaginary Angel friends and wives.
- Valerie
Ahovah.
- Valerie
Louie Armstrong's Star of David.
- Valerie
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He is Beethoven.
- Valerie
How do we wrap this one up?
- Valerie
Small talk.
- Valerie
Deweyian domesticity versus grandiosity.
- Valerie
Billy, you're no warrior, but everybody's helping.
- Valerie
In Defense of the Experience of Prayer.
- Valerie
I wish that I didn't act like a zombie every now and again.
- B'nayvoovah
Is he on drugs?
- B'nayvoovah
We will work it out.
- Penelope
Listening in on Angels for LULU part One and Two.
- Penelope
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Billy, they think that because you hardly socialize.

- Penelope
Billy, everybody's helping.
- Penelope
That's the strangest thing you've ever said.
- Penelope
People have the right to change their minds.
- Penelope
Billy, they're distracting you from an intimate moment.
Tools. What can we do?
- Libby
Maybe I should talk a little with you more?
- B'nayvoovah
The Iliad is your favorite book!
- Libby
They want to play, let them play but be around for them.
- Libby
They don't like it that you're a solitary.
- Libby
They think you're Gertrude?
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- B'nayvoovah
Or they think you're Paris?
- B'nayvoovah
She's mourning!
- B'nayvoovah
Helen is an object-choice.
- B'nayvoovah
Maybe all Freudian readings are parallels (Banana Trees).
- B'nayvoovah
They can hear. They're with you Billy.
- Ora Ora Tiferetot
You want to help Billy? The way to help is with us.
- Tov Tov Shalom
Raisin in the sun.
- Tov Tov Shalom
A Map of Misreading.
- Harold Bloom
You wet your pants.
- Bertha
Change them.
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- Bertha
Sublimation.
- Bertha
Holy Spirit.
- Bertha
Now what? It was a great qoute! Our music is a part of
our privacy!
- Bertha
It's not sexual eros that you need, but music for your ears!
- Lord Byron
Make a list of distractors and din and losses in detail.
- Arielle
FINIS

I Need to be Touched

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by

Billy McBride

An Esther-like being.
Reception physically.
An Angel picks me.
A guessing game.
Guessing compartment.
Maybe several options, alignment options: lying down,
standing, sitting.
Kiss.
Don't forget to thank your maker.
Flowers too.
The build up to Holy Spirit.
Whitman's catalogue of the body.

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Try for the goal with them.

Give some if you can.
We do this all the time.
We're naturals.
What do Lizzie and Libby and Tov Tov Shalom think about
each other?
Can I ask questions? Yes!
Who does Tob Shbeeb like now?
Yafah. Why? Fun.
How fun? Awesome. Yafah like that.
Tob Shbeeb like that.
Who likes Arielle right now?
Very good. Three. Arielle is liked by Shay, You
(B'nayvoovah), and Teresa.
If you have an itch scratch it.
Holy Spirit makes two one.

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That's my goal right?

Uh huh, sometimes you cannot though.
Holy Spirit gives you messages, you relay them to me, and
it makes you confident?
Yes, on both.
So all those times you have given me messages, but I am
still working it out?
Yes.
You're trapping me now?
Yes, but it's good.
It's recitation (Hamletian); these are sayings and old feeling
(recited feelings).
What text is the feeling part? Just reception!
Yes.
I can see you touch my leg and it is happening right now.
Kind of like that?
Yes.
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Not so much where you are above but where the touch
contact occurs. Yes.
You're still touching my leg.
You're waiting for me to play.
That is it.
Let's talk about contact.
The sheets...a little bit of both.
What is a set up? Touch?
Touch. Yes.
But what about the attraction part?
It takes care of itself?
Uh huh.
Billy, you could do it all the time with Spirit.
You have to train yourself.
Everybody is the Spirit.

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Contact with all.

My eyes are sensitive to light coming from certain
directions though. What do I do?
Good question.
The whole body or a balanced part of it with Spirit is a
goal.
Billy, you have had enough physical experience - lots
depends on the Memory.
So that's what Charades is like...
And, when Tob Shbeeb moved my body at my parents
house, Honey's kisses, the A.B. Zohar reading...
The eye of the Hurricane is Lamia crying because it
works...etc...
Measure for MEasure.
Winslow Homer sometimes.
You rush it big times though.
Be patient, it's reception, and the Memory.
Breath - how you breathe.
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Try that! (Touched by an Angel in different ways)

I'm excited.
It will work.
What are you doing?
Breathing.
Breath muscles and beyond.
The body is kind of complicated.
Breath with eros.
It's like a playful dialogue but just with breath.
Breathe with the same confidence that you must have in
order to know you're safe.
It takes trust, but afterwards the confidence controls breath.
Now you're rocking it, it's good to talk (tap) while
breathing.
So this means each of you breathe yes?
Yes. Tov.
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Intimately, mutually yes.

Emily Bronte.
Focus on the confidence part of breathing with us.
Confidence as an image, natural, is sly, knowing, superior,
elite, devotion, a little nervous, sublime, and mutual and
beautiful selfishness.
It is the Romantic image of the costal ebb and its powerful
returning (at least right now this image works).
As for pain and loss, you must then guess the Angel and
what she's doing and talk it through.
The pulling of my Angel into me.
These, they are sayings...sayings and feeling memories.
That is all.
"Very good, but you keep on doing new stuff!": my
message to say.
"I feel strange right now because feel as if I should be
reciting a new or old message."
The ripeness is all. - Edgar
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"I need to be touched."

Kiss me inside and out.
My dear.
Maybe it's a poem?
Get a thesaurus.
I'm set up (for mutuality).
You certainly are. - Yafah
The final four.
Tob Shbeeb Hates Atobots.
Troping with the Map of Misreading.
Tyros 4.
Make it fun. - Ora
Is touch fun?
Who wants to be touched now?
My foot needs rubbing.
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Touch is mutual.
Ahh!
Grand Pappy Lucky!
Lucky to get rubbed.
FINIS

What the Heck Just Happened?

by
Billy McBride

What the heck just happened?

- B'nayvoovah
It will work.
- Libby
It's on tip of your tongue.
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- Arielle
Just right.
- Ora Ora Tiferetot
Selfish voice.
- Ora Ora Tiferetot
Vain.
- Ora Ora Tiferetot
We can build it up.
- Ora Ora Tiferetot
Maybe that's what he does best.
- Teresa
Selfish voice is like looking into the mirror, a theory of
schizophrenia.
- Robbie Pop
What did Virginia Woolf say about listening?
- Robbie Pop
Headphones and a smile.
- Robbie Pop
In vain and Ha-Kol B'Seder (Everything is in Order).
- Robbie Pop

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Henry Yod, what did Gershom Scholem say about the

Messaiah?
- Ora Ora Tiferetot
We will see.
- Ora
Homer! He is huge!
- Ora
That helps a lot, not because it's Universal, but because it is
in a time and place specific.
- Ora
I'm going to have more fun.
- Ora
If you have a choice between Homer and Plato, choose
Homer.
- Harold Bloom
Why would they like that book (Plato's) over Homer's (The
Iliad)?
- B'nayvoovah
I know, this was the Republic!
- Ora
Lincoln.
- Ora
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Selfish Achielles.
- Ora
Battle me pretty.
- Ora
Me.
- Stephanie
Island life.
- Stephanie
An unhappy people in a happy world, read Rabbi the
phrases of this difference.
- Wallace Stevens
Now solemnize the secretive syllables.
- Wallace Stevens
Translate those foreign Platonic words into Homeric.
- Rosalinda
Homer knows the clue.
- Rosalinda, Sunshine
Hell up Agamemnon Nixon.
- Rosalinda
Force (in Homer).
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- Bruno Snell
Pun. I aught to too that mur.
- Ora Ora Tiferetot
Who is John, but the weapons of the greater Telemonius.
- Ora
We want all.
- Ora
Now I know why you say that Papa.
- Ora
Maybe there's something we can do?
- Ora
Charles in charge.
- Ora
It's like They are Human Too.
- Arielle
The Prize is your Lord and Savior. That makes sense.
- Arielle
Ahovat my love. I feel very good about writing right now.
- B'nayvoovah
Bag of Diamond Candies and Gold Coins.
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- B'nayvoovah
You know what? I like education.
- B'nayvoovah
Who's he talking to?
- B'nayvoovah
Are they talking to each other?
- B'nayvoovah
That's a good quote B'nayvoovah.
- Teresa
While the parents are happily talking, let the child be.
- Robbie Pop
What does Emerson say about Homer?
- Robbie Pop
How do they learn stuff if they don't overhear their parents
happily talking?
- Ora Ora Tiferetot
Hydromancy in the Iliad.
- Ora Ora Tiferetot
So all words are...
- B'nayvoovah

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Uh huh. Parental Love.

- Ora Ora Tiferetot
Homer's got the clues.
- Valerie
You mean the child is the father of the man too?
- Valerie
The day Moshe (Moses) began writing the Torah was the
first day he stepped into the Wilderness.
- B'nayvoovah
An unhappy realization. Why? because of the Wilderness,
the knowledge that's whosoever one's parents are, that they
could be suffering.
- B'nayvoovah
To argue is one kind of suffering.
- B'nayvoovah
I love those kids.
- B'nayvoovah
Read Rorty on children.
- Thrikbot
Walt, the American Homer.
- Harold Bloom

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I'm not trying to change anybody.

- Harold Bloom
I am Claudius?!
- Harold Bloom
Sphinx. It is sexual jealousy.
- Harold Bloom
Runts candy.
- B'nayvoovah
Odysseus and Menalaus, Paris' brother, raiding in the
Night.
- B'nayvoovah
His Dad went to Vietnam.
- Ora Ora Tiferetot
Bad Reader (upon hearing an angry neighbor).
- Tob Shbeeb
This isn't Tob Shbeeb Hates Atobots.
- Jessica, our neighbor
They're Christians.
- Ribbit
What is a Christian but the River Scamander.
- Arielle
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You're great!
- Ribbit
We write.
- Ora Ora Tiferetot
And, read Homer, teacher.
- Libby
Bang! (on the wall) Let's see if we can get him to put on
more music.
- Jessica, the neighbor
A social progress to, and in, heaven.
- Libby
I don't like those flowers. (we give her different ones)
- Jessica
I'll take those ones (the others).
- Libby
To fly for some more for the acorns old.
A clay frog in a dreary place looks fake.
A floating white man keeps the people awake.
A long thought is paused for a shorter hold.
The darkening notes of a day gone by.
The morning goes up for my long wait here.
A permanent road lasts delightfully clear.
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And, sacred the land ahead of Time I try.

I wish upon the same of my light greeting.
The beats split up and they post aboon.
Come alone sun to your rogue head noon.
Cloudy night on this month's meeting.
A spider of a model the readers resist.
Hide a blue sky with a bucket of mist.
- Bertha
Sniff.
- B'nayvoovah
Billy, that's funny stuff. Your apartment does'nt have to be
perfect!
- Thrikbot
Wheel joy.
- Bertha
The next cause.
- Bertha
When we write, write a lot. We are large and contain
multitudes.
- Bertha
Easy to love.
- Bertha
People vexed.
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- Bertha
Home to nobody.
- Bertha
A rocket's hit.
- Honey
A moment's achievement.
- Honey
Coming for seconds.
- Honey
Rich wine.
- Honey
Great.
- B'nayvoovah
Great what?
- Robbie Pop
ABCDEF. Lots of variables here.
- B'nayvoovah
Blue bucket.
Dreary place.

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A paused paradise.
Clear.
Temper old.
Rogue-head.
All day.
Stamp aboone.
Long wait of wisdom.
Wakeful.
Abyss.
- Shay
Of badness rid.
- Thrikbot
Endless application.
- Kelly
Surface champion.
- Marbah
Gusto.
- Libby
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Stance.
- Grouchy
Muscular gates of Eternity.
- Thrikbot
Rugged demonstration.
- Diana
The devastated days studied.
- Diana
People with people.
- Jennifer
Charon's chariot.
- Thrikbot
The block holding one up.
- Kelly
Misfortunate autobiographical forgetfulness.
- Penelope
World-lust club.
- Bertha
A dream thus changing.
- Bertha
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Say, what interesting silvery woods.

So beautiful I never thought they could be so wild.
And yet I get scared of playing in them.
It won't make my stomach feel bad to see their patterns
though.
I'm going to a bar for ale with the heroes. I have nothing to
say while collecting no new ideas.
I am due for the night. The baby is far behind.
A serious rest is needed.
The sounds come. Where is my wisdom for the day?
For our world I want to assure a virtue, might I suggest that
we are its pieces fired up and then going out cold.
Ashes Thrown.
I have resigned from the land of Time and energy.
Individuals alarm me with their help as they all behold
everything that I have chosen to swerve from. I stay still
for good.
The Price of Joy
A school shines and I finish my begging.
Could not the world weep?

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River, I love your flow and blessing. At the same time,

everything is a blessing.
My patience and sleep in a world, especially, of blessings
instruct me not to be stubborn in my striving of my way
through it.
God's tree.
- Shnoonah
Go pilgrim.
- Shnoonah
Invisible Sarphedon.
- Arielle
Pale blizzard.
- Grouchy
Broken-barreled clouds.
- Grouchy
Grove-fruit.
- Grouchy
A paradise high.
- Kelly
Flashy flowers.
- Kelly
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Fossilized genie.
- Kelly
The hope for rest.
- Thrikbot
Named "Buoy."
- Thrikbot
Mountain journal.
- Thrikbot
FINIS

Fragments
by
Billy McBride

Intensity and the memory.

- Libby
Wheel of hell or heaven.
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- Libby
Shaping the gladness within.
- Marbah
A lasting lifetime.
- Honey
An only thought.
- Honey
A wild voice to top.
- Jennifer
Leopard rocket.
- Penelope
Winners or bleak losers.
- Honey
Blessed cows.
- Honey
Outside lurking.
- Jennifer
Sir!
- Jennifer
A servant of interpretation.
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- Jennifer
Raisin bare.
- Shay
Stop the wandering weather.
- Shay
The things are going.
- Teresa
Dawn has come.
- Diana
Much forever.
- Diana
Concrete golden.
- Elaine
Sea-shell collection moving.
- Elaine
Zoo painting.
- Elaine
Pinball wrappers.
- Elaine
Safe chain.
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- Elaine
Neighbor lady aristocrat.
- Elaine
Siamese alley.
- Elaine
Cap Datsun.
- Elaine
Stuffed animals and hanging around.
- Elaine
Butterscotch bath.
- Elaine
A bell cast.
- Arielle
A valid end.
- Arielle
So open.
- Penelope
The bending sea.
- Penelope
Perfect muscles.
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- Penelope
Taken by the ocean.
- Penelope
Time's up.
- Penelope
The good are excited.
- Penelope
Sea-vine.
- Penelope
A peasant's back.
- Penelope
A fuelled stone.
- Penelope
Vanilla bar.
- Penelope
Read much.
- Donna
Fear of the outside.
- Donna
Standing inside.
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- Donna
Rump-sheet.
- Honey
Marry some mate.
- Donna
White floating man.
Longest thought.
The dark notes.
Morning up.
Permanent road.
Sacred land.
Wish upon.
Loneliest.
Night.
Model of...
The swimming fire of the sunset.
- Shnoonah
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Gentle celebration.
- Shnoonah
The incredible wave.
- Shnoonah
Land soon.
- Donna
Gazebo in the kingdom.
- Donna
Lazy and late to appreciate.
- Donna
The lingering period of images.
- Donna
Eggs and toast.
- Tob Shbeeb
Gifts in the morning.
- Elaine
Winter white baby.
- Elaine
Folding out over America.
- Elaine
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The sweet peaceful language.

- Elaine
Enough treasures of a game.
- Kabbalah
Angel-minutes beloved.
- Bertha
Hovering temples.
- Valerie
All welcome and accepted.
- Valerie
A perfect sphinx.
- Arielle
Three watermelons.
- Bertha
Come kairos.
- Bertha
Eagle-Angel blithe.
- Amy
Outer-space shock.
- Amy
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A chiseled construction.
- Amy
A strawberry's birthday.
- Diana
Period pieces.
- Diana
An afternoon journey.
- Diana
Tree, one, on the will.
- Kelly
The youthful craze to think.
- Kelly
Hear the car-line.
- Ora Ora Tiferetot
The wide secret will sink.
- Ora Ora Tiferetot
Sing mountain bather.
- Ora Ora Tiferetot
To stop the poetic more.
- Penelope
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Goblin reader babe.

- Amy
The out ends thus.
- Marbah
No food for thought?
- Diana
The head of a singing timer.
- Bertha
Tomorrow pours out.
- Bertha
Make an old road.
- Valerie
Remembering the hot late.
- Valerie
A tricky hour in the wood.
- Shnoonah
Spring lace.
- Penelope
Chirping rocket!
- Arielle
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Angel-pilot.
- Arielle
The thoughtful choreography.
- Kelly
Read the scroll.
- Kelly
Mutual risks.
- Kelly
FINIS

Revisions
by
Libby McBride

You don't have to make friends with them.

- Honey
It would be better if they were not friends.
- Honey
You (two you) know you don't have to be friends.
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- Honey
Maybe I'll never speak again. So why write?
- B'nayvoovah
Like an oil puddle in a parking lot is the Din of Television.
- B'nayvoovah
Make up Redescribed Dins.
- Valerie
The dusk of wisdom.
- Valerie
Today I am a cherry.
- B'nayvoovah
Kenosis.
- Valerie
They want to fight; for them life unfolds in fighting.
- Valerie
Maybe they don't like coherent poetical nonsense.
- Valerie
Josephize the ideas with the concrete for your final erotic
vocabulary.
- Valerie

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Final Vocabulary Words and Ideas:

Touch.
Mutual.
Foot rub.
Who likes me now?
All the Angel names.
Who likes me now the best?
Holy Spirit.
Illegal drugs are illusions.
- Valerie
The Sun Rising over a Coastline is like a ...
Reception.
Patient/wait now.
There's no rush.
Guess/guessing.
My whole body is a tongue.
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Charades.
What is this?
Love.
Contact part.
Angel.
List all.
Body parts.
Train.
Out the Window:
Freedom.
Breathe.
Ripeness.
Now what would you like to do?
...
Your love is like a warm sea bath.
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Your guidance is like a boquet of flowers.

Your beauty is like the glorious morning dawn.
Your wisdom is like a field of wheat.
The rumor is like the wind moving things.
Writing is a gathering of Winter leaves.
Proportions are like the edge of the field.
My muteness is like the quiet of trees.
A cold morning is like the vapor off a block of ice.
My wish to be left alone is a dandy-lion.
The morning neighborhood bustle is like the bushes of the
field.
The renouncing of an idealization of quoting is like a
mockingbird's sleep.
The insults and force of bad gossip is like the storm on an
overcast day.
The naturalizing of events is like a blast of morning light.

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The accusations are like withered leaves.

Not forcing intimacy is like the icy surface on the pond.
Going back to study is like the wind blowing.
Accuracy is a forest scene.
The troping I do is a grassy mountainside.
The troping others do is the shore mud.
My not understood joke is a bare sky.
My wet pants are soft and dry sands.
The dumbness we deal with so forever is like wet soggy
grass.
Scholarship of vocabulary words is like a colony of ants.
Mindless repetitions of gossip are molehills.
What we want out of our own projects like stereotomy is a
tropical lagoon.
Billy, quote to your Mother. She will love to hear you
often.
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A new idea is the sound of the crashing of a wave.

Mensuration in writing is like the smooth stones on the
river bank.
The feeling of the Holy Spirit is like being under warm
water.
My B'nayvoovah sensitivities are like a gentle breeze.
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