GROIN

FOR THE CLOSER A MAN IS TO HIS DESIRE, THE MORE HE DESIRES IT, AND SINCE HE CANNOT HAVE IT, IT CAUSES HIM GREATER TORMENT- CLIZIA, MACHIAVELLI
YOURE NOT GOING TO LIKE THIS SHE SAID AS SHE LOOKED INTO MY EYES. I AM GOING TO PUT YOU INTO THE HOSPITAL IN A MATTER OF SEVERAL MINUTES I WAS IN THE CARE OF PARAMEDICS IN AN AMBULANCE DRIVING TO THE HOSPITAL EMERGENCY ROOM IT ALL WAS MOVING SO FASTI WAS PRESENT AND AWAKE, FULLY CONSCIOUSI HAD TROUBLE
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BREATHINGA TOTAL SHORTNESS OF BREATHAN EMERGENCY TEAM OF SEVERAL GROUPS OF 2-3 DOCTORSNURSES WERE SIMULTANEOUSLY ASSESSING AND DECIDING AND RESULTING IN A CRISIS PROCEDURE TO PLACE 3 STENTS FROM THE FEMORAL ARTERY INTO THE HEART BLOOD STREAM . AWARENESSA TIME OF CRISIS-RISKOPPORTUNITY IN RECRYSTALLIZATION INNER NECESSITYA SHIFT IN PSYCHEA CHANGE IN MY SCRIPT OF EXPECTANCY-UNDERSTANDING THAT USUALLY MADE THINGS FIT MY WAYS AND PATTERNSANOTHER SHOCK IN TRAUMA STATES OF DEEPEST INNER NECESSITY A TIME TO SEE INTO DARKNESS WITHINTO BE AWARE OF THE HEART IN DARKNESS.THE HEART STRUGGLING TO FUNCTION IN THE UNDERCURRENCY AND CROSSCURRENCYA TIME OF THE LUNAR ECLIPSE DARKNESS IN THE ONGOING DRAMAS OF MY HIDDENTHE SHADOW ENCOUNTERS OF INNER NECESSITY

IT IS ENCOUNTERING ONES INERTIA IN ARMORINGS AND DEFENSES AGAINST ONES REAL VULNERABILITYTHE FORCE OF ONES REAL SELF THAT MEDIATES IN QUESTS OF ENDURANCE-GETTING ONES NEEDS METSO MUCH ENERGY CONTROLLING THE SHADOWS WITHINHOLDING THE IMAGEAN INNER TUNING NARRATIVE OF THE CONSTRUCTED SELF AS A DRAMA OF PERSONALITY IMPRESSION MANAGEMENT INFOLDING INTO INSIGHTS OF WHAT CHANGES NEED TO OCCUR TO REALIZE NEW WAYS THE STORY SCRIPTING OF ONES PERSONALITY MANAGEMENT OF AN IDEA VERSION OF IDENTITY

BECAUSE A MAN IDENTIFIES WITH HIS PERSONALITY, HIS ESSENCE BECOMES NUMB, PARALYZED AND WILL NOT DEVELOP AS HE GROWS OLDER BUT WILL REMAIN IMMATURE '...THOUGH HIS PERSONALITY MAY APPEAR TO BE SOPHISTICATED, FULL OF GLIB WITTICISMS AND CHARM, HIS ESSENCE IS 'INFANTILE'AND ESSENCE SUFFICIENTLY

SUPPRESSED MAY DIE ENTIRELY GURDJIEFF

IT IS SEEING PERSONALITY AS MEANS OR A SERIES OF SUCCESSFUL GESTURESIMAGE MANAGEMENT AND IMITATION-MIMESIS STRATEGIES OF DESIRE AND LEVERAGE ARMORING AND FORTRESSING ALIENATION OF THE SELF FROM THE INSTINCTIVE AND INTUITIVE REALNESS WITHIN IT BECOMES DYSFUNCTION-DISTORTION IN A FALSE HOMEOSTASISIT IS SEEEING THE CONSEQUENCES IN THE IMBALANCES OF HABITUAL POSTURES, GESTURES, FACIAL EXPRESSIONS THAT TELL THE TALE OF WHAT DID OR DID NOT HAPPEN AS ONE EXPERIENCED SO MANY ANGST TIMES OF FIGHT-FLIGHT IT IS THE AFFECTS OF TRAUMA IN LONG TERM BODY MEMORIESECHOES OF AVOIDANCE AND RESIGNATION IN MUSCLES AND NERVES THAT ENDUREARE NUMBED WITHOUT AFFIRMATION OF HEALTHY INSTINCTIVE ALIVENESS ONE SENSES AND ENTERS INTO STRESS AND TRAUMA DEFENSES AND
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DISORDERSFOR TRAUMA IS THE POWER TO DESTROY AS WHAT WAS POISED IN READINESS WAS UNABLE TO ORCHESTRATE ITS MEANINGFUL COURSE OF ACTION AN INTERRUPTIONREDIRECTION-INCOMPLETIONTRAUMA IS ALSO AN OPPORTUNITY OF RESSURECTION OR TRANSFORMATION OUT OF A TERROR OF SENSATIONS AND EMOTIONSTO REVISIT A TRAUMA IS AN OPPORTUNITY TO LET THE BODY MOVE, CONVULSE, BREATHE, SHAKE, SHUDDER BEYOND THE CHRONIC IMMOBILITY AND THE ARRESTED DEVELOPMENT OF CONSTRICTED TENDENCY . THE EMERGENCY ROOMGROINACCESS THROUGH MY GROIN.THE ECHOIC SOUNDS IN GROYN OR G ROI N WHERE THE KING IS DEAD, LONG LIVE THE KING AS UNCONSCIOUSNESSLE ROITHE SOURCING INTO AND FROM GROIN TO HEARTA RESONANCE IN MY BEING OF DEEP ECHOIC CORRIDORING IN THE MIDST OF THE UNUSUAL DECEMBER 2011 LUNAR ECLIPSE-WINTER SOLSTICE
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3 STENTS IN BALLOONINGS TO AIR AND TO SUPPORT THE RECOVERY FROM THE CONGESTIVE HEART FAILUREDEEP VULNERABILITY-POWERLESSNESS IN A MEDICAL EMERGENCY PROCEDURE INDENTATION INTO MY GROIN THAT CALLED FORTH A RESONANCEA MEMORY ASSOCIATIVE ECHO OF A CHINESE DREAM PLAY THE PEONY PAVILLION A DEEP SILENT MEMORY TRAUMA OF AN ACCIDENTA MONARCH BICYCLE CHILDHOOD BEING HIT BY A CAR GROIN-TRAUMA AND THE YEARS OF COVERING UP IN NEVER TELLING ANYONE OF THE SHOCK AND INDENTATION AN UNTOLD STORY A MEMORYAN ADAPTATIONTHE DISTORTION AS STOICISM IN A SMALL BOY LEARNING PAIN TOLERANCETHE THEME OF PLAYING INJURED IN ADAPTATIONS AND WOUNDEDNESSTHE IM OKAY AND DONT WORRY ABOUT ME OF SELF RELIANCE AND NOT LETTING ANYONE GET TOO CLOSE

THE IMPACT-INDENTATION GROIN ACCESSING AND ESTABLISHING REDIRECTED REPRODUCTIVENESSTHE DRIVES INTO EROS IMAGINATIONA DANCE OF THE IMAGINATION TRANSFERRENCE AN UNCONSCIOUSNESS GOING THROUGH THE PEONY PAVILLION DAMEN CHAMBER ENTRANCE OF A FATAL LOVESICKNESS DREAMTHE SOURCING OF DEEP MELANCHOLIA AS IT WAS SET IN MOTIONTHE CONSEQUENCES IN A WITHDRAWAL FROM THE SURFACE OF FEELINGS AND SENSESTHE IMAGINARY EXPANDED INTO FANTASY, EROSTOCRACY CRAZE AND CRAVE, ROMANCE, WAYS OF MIMESIS IN IMITATION STRATEGIES OF BEING LIKE ACTING OUT AND ACTING IN PERFORMANCES OF ACCOMPLISHMENT THE SOMETHING DEEP WITHIN AS AN ECHO OF A CHINESE DREAMTHE PEONY PAVILLION PSYCHE OPERA OF THE YOUNG VIRGIN GIRL AS SHE MOVES INTO EVENTUAL RESURRECTION OUT OF AN INNER COSMOS OF EMOTIONS AND DESIRESIT IS CONSCIOUSNESS IN A
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PSYCHE YIN IMAGINATION PARALLELISMA PERSONAL PASSAGE IN THE TIME OF DEEP YIN LUNAR ECLIPSE DEPTHS I FEEL AN ECHO OF THE MATERNAL DEPTHS OF MY MOTHERS SHAME-GUILTGRIEF IN HER LOST CHILDTHE SUPPRESSION OF EXPOSURE IN SENSES OF BELIEVING SHE HAD DONE SOMETHING WRONG .. I AM IN THE EMERGENCY ROOMTHERE IS A LOSS OF OXYGEN IN MY BLOODSTREAM AS I MOVE THROUGH THE IMAGINARY WALL AND IMAGINARY DOOR OF THE DI CHINESE EMPEROR ON HIGH ENTERING GHOSTLINESS IN THE SHADOWS AND UNCERTAINTYTHE YIN RECEPTIVITY OF A SHUTTING DOWN OF YANG HEART BECOMES HEART FAILURE AS LEFT VENTRICLE EJECTION RATE IS REDUCED TO 5%...

IT IS CONCEPTUAL CONSCIOUSNESS ASSOCIATIVE TO THE ONGOING PANIC THE PAN-NICK OF THE CRISISA STATE OF POWERLESSNESSAN INTERSECT OF EROS AND VIOLENCE IN HEART AND BREATHINGTHE LIFE FORCE IN CONFLICT AS OVERLOADS OF HEART DESIRE AND INHERITANCE PLAY OUT AS DRAMAS OF IDENTITY MEDIATION ITS KNOWING THAT REAL LIFE EVENTUALLY CATCHES UP WITH YOU IT IS CONTEMPORARY EROSTOCRACY LACK AND INADEQUACY IN A CULTURE OF DESIRE IN ROMANCE RESCUE THE PRINCESS WISHESTHE BARBICAN FORTRESSING OF CRAZE, CRAVE IN TRANCEROS MIND-SETS OF EXPECTANCY CONTROLSIT IS THE PSYCHE TERRAIN OF THE INNER HUNGRY GHOSTS OF ADDICTIONS AND APPETITES IN CONSTANT MEDIATION OF IMPRESSION MANAGEMENT AND BODY ARMORING THE OXYGEN IN MY BLOODSTREAM IS ONLY 85% AND I RECEIVE BREATHING ASSISTANCE THROUGH TUBES INTO MY
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NOSEI AM GRASPING THROUGH THE INTERRUPTIONS AND ARRESTED INTERNAL WEBBINGS OF MY OWN SPLITOFF REALITYA CONSTRUCTION OF TRANCEROS SPELLSMY DREAMTIME IMAGINARY SPLITTINGS OF FORCED DISTORTIONS IN DECADES OF FOLLOWING SUGGESTION TRANCINGS INTO MANIFESTATIONS OF WISHFULNESS. I AM IN A HEART FAILURE CRISIS THAT IS BEYOND MY COMPREHENSIONTHE MANY COMPENSATORY BRAND-ZONE LAYER-RINGS OF W.H.AUDEN FOR EVERY CHILD IN OUR CARE AS MUCH NEUROSIS AS HE CAN BEAR CRASH INTO MY AWARENESS OF PHYSIOLOGY-MORTALITY AS I BECOME AWARE OF THIS LOSS OF ORGANIC INTEGRITYMY HEART IS IN CONGESTIVE HEART FAILURE AND ALL THE MEANS OF ADAPTATION I USED TO GET TO THE PRESENT ARE NO LONGER SOLUTIONS IT IS MY AWARENESS OF RECURRENCE IN REEXPERIENCE OF MY EARLY CHILDHOOD GROIN TRAUMATHE HIP
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WARS OF A PEONY [A CHINESE SYMBOL OF VAGINA CONSCIOUSNESS]THE GREAT MIDDLE KINGDOM REALM OF YINYANG DEPTH RANGINGSTHE SLANG USE OF A SIMILAR NAME COYNTE NEAR COYNE AS 19 TH CENTURY WORD FOR VAGINADEEPEST YIN IN LUNAR ECLIPSE RHYTHMS I AM FORCED INTO REARING AND I REMEMBER THE SEVERITY OF AN EAR INFECTION FROM SEVERAL MONTHS BEFOREMY SOUND SENSITIVENESS IN FINE TUNED SKILLS OF HEARING THAT BECAME TOO MUCH OF A GOOD THINGI FEEL AS A BAKKSIDER PROCESSING THE NOISE AND FILTER THROUGH THE NUANCES OF MEANINGS BY POWERS OF IMAGINATION AND ASSOCIATIONS ECHOIC TIMBRE IN THE DEGREES OF PENETRATION-PIERCING OF WHATS IN A NAME AND WHAT RINGS TRUETHE MEANINGS OF THE SOUNDS AS THEY ENTER MY CONSCIOUSNESS I FEEL THE ECHOIC IN ACCESSING MY CHILDHOOD FANTASY-IMAGINARY REALM OF JOHNNY AND PEENY[PEONY] AS
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TOILET BEHAVIORS SPLIT OFF FROM RELAXED AND NATURAL FUNCTIONING ANGST, DISTORTION, CREATIVITY ALTERED PRESENCE IN RELATIONSTHE MONARCH MON-ARCH STATE IN AN UNDERCURRENT WITHINAS SHAME CREEPS WITHIN AND ONE SEES THAT ONE IS DIFFERENTAN AWARENESS OF SHAME AS A HYPERVIGILANCE GUARDIAN AGAINST THREAT OF BEING CAUGHT IN THE ACT, AGAIN OR BEING SEEN AS LESS THAN THE CONSTRUCTED IMAGEPERSONALITY AS PROJECTED IT IS EDGE OF HYSTERIA WHERE EXCESSIVE AMOUNTS OF ENERGY IS INVESTED IN THE UNIMPORTANTTHE DAMS AND BRACINGS OF A BARBICAN SHAME CASTLE OF IMPOSITIONMEDIATION FORTRESSINGIT IS COLLISIONISM WITHIN AS WISH VS. RESISTANCE TO WISHIT IS DESIRE AS A STRATEGIST OF POWER QUEST IN DREAM WANTING TO BE WANTED WAYS IT IS TO SEE INTO THE CONSTRUCTED PADDINGS OF ARMOR FORTRESSINGS IN THE MIDST OF SHADOW DENIALS OF REALNESSIT IS WANTING TO BE
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WANTED IN POSTURAL DISPLAYS AND POWER EXCHANGES THAT PROTECTS AND INSULATES YET SPLITS ONE OFF FROM BEING IT IS BEING IN STATES OF MIMESIS-EMULATION THAT NEVER BREATHES INTO AUTHENTICITY TRUTH OF URGENCY

.. IT IS THE FRUSTRATION IN TRYING TO TELL ONES TRUTH OF A LIFETIME OF CONSEQUENCES WHERE AMPLIFIED TRAITS HAVE BEEN CHARGED WITH GREAT COST IN BODY INTEGRITYTHE REDIRECTED REPRODUCTIVENESS WAYS OF POWER QUEST AND LEVERAGE OF INTERNAL ORGANS IT IS KNOWING THE ROYAL RHYTHMS OF TRANSFORMATION IN SYMBOLISM OF MONARCH BUTTERFLY DRAMASTHE HIP-STIR PIVOT ECHOIC OF A SIT-SITESAT-URN EARN ASH EDGES TEMPO OF STAR DUST DREAMSTHE DRAMAS OF SHEDDING-LETTING GO AND EVOLVING
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AND BECOMINGGROWTH IN AWARENESS IN THE GROIN OF A HIP-WARS EVERYDAY VIOLENCE OF DESIRE AND OVERLOADS. THE 110% OVERCOMPENSATION WAYS TO MAKE UP FOR FEELINGS OF INFERIORITY MAY GET RESULTSJUST AS A RESTLESS AGITATION SERVES DRIVES OF POWER QUESTS FOR STATUS AND AMBITIONIT IS DOING WHATEVER IT TAKESIN THE SHORT TERM WAY THE LEVERAGE PRICE OF THE EXCESSES IN ADRENALINES AND HORMONES WORKS FOR ONEHOWEVERIF PROLONGEDTHE STRESS OF BEING AS EXPECTANCY OR IMITATING AS VALUED RESULTS IN INNER DEADENINGS AND LOSS OF HEALTHY WHOLISMIT IS A QUIET PERSONAL STRUGGLE OF LEARNING AUTHENTICITY WHILE OVERTHROWING THE FALSE OR FANTASY VERSION OF SELF WHAT CAN I LIVE WITHWHAT CAN I GET AWAY WITH BECOMES A MODUS OPERANDIA WAY OF LIFE THAT SERVES

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AS MEDIATION AND NEVER BECOMES TRUTH OF PRESZENCE NEWSPAPERS ARE UNABLE, SEEMINGLY TO DISCRIMINATE BETWEEN A BICYCLE ACCIDENT AND THE COLLAPSE OF CIVILIZATION-GEORGE BERNARD SHAW .. ECHOIC MEMORYDEEP CRYING ARCHING PAIN IN THE PRESENT AS THE STENTS WERE REMOVED A WEEK LATER WHILE I WAS IN INTENSIVE CARE AT THE UNIVERSITY OF ARIZONA MEDICAL CENTER-U.M.CIN THE EXACT SIMULTANEOUS MOMENT OF STENTS REMOVAL MY PSYCHE FLASHED TO THE 1952 BICYCLE TRAUMA INDENTATIONIMPALEMENT-IMPACT ZONING INTERSECTION AT 21 ST PLACE AND DAMEN IN CHICAGOMEMORY SURFACED AS REEXPERIENCE OF THAT TRAUMA EVEN THOUGH IT WAS NEARLY 60 YEARS LATER AND THE IMMEDIACY ACTIVITY WAS THE REMOVAL OF THE BALLOON IN THE
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STENTSTHE FLASH DEEP WITHIN WAS AS IF I WAS BEING HIT BY A CAR ONCE AGAINIT WAS A FORMED-CORRIDORED PATHING THROUGH THE ORIGINAL PAINVIOLENCE OF THE TRAUMA CAR-BICYCLE IMPACT THE MONARCH BI-CYCLE MON-ARCH INTERSECTTHE GROIN BRANDED IN A HIP NUMBING POSTURAL DISTORTIONA BIG RED IMAGINARY DOOR IMPRINT ZONING WITH THE EMPEROR DI ON HIGH GUARDING AGAINST THE THREAT OF PENETRATIONA MIDDLE KINGDOM MODELLING OF A VIRGIN IN A DREAMA STATE IT WAS THE EQUIVALENT OF BEING SCREWED ROYALIMPALED ON THE MONARCH BICYCLE FRAME AS IMPACTED IN A COLLISIONISN WITH A CAR CERTAINLY IT WAS NO COMPARISON TO THE STREET CAR IMPALEMENT OF THE YOUNG GIRL FRIEDA KAHLOYET DEEP FEELINGS OF POWERLESSNESS SENT ME OUT OF MY CONTROLS OF MY ORDINARY TEMPOS

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I WAS IN A CASTRATION TERROR OF MIXED SENSES EVEN AS I SENSED THAT IN SOME WAY THE BRAND WOULD, ONCE AGAIN, MAKE ME OF USE.IF ONLY I COULD MARSHALL MY 110% HEART EFFORT-WAYS TO PERFORM IN AN ENHANCED TALENT STATETO LEVERAGE INTO THE INTENSITY-DENSITY OF SQUEEZED ENERGIES-SKILLS OR ROLE AND EXCEED EXPECTANCYTO MANAGE THE DAMAGE AND MAKE IT A REWARDED TRAITZONING-CORRIDORING-MEDIUMAVATAR-CHANNELLING IN POINTS OF LIGHT MERIDIANSTHE BODY ELECTRIC PATTERNINGS OF MERIDIAN STREAMS OF PERFORMANCE RITUAL AND RECURRENCETO BE PART OF AN ELECTRONIC COLONY OF PERFORMERS WHO PERCOLATE AS ELECTRONIC SURROGATE-MEDIUMS IN A CAULDRON MODEL FOR A RITUAL CONVULSIVE RHYTHMAVATARS, CHANNELS AND POINTS OF LIGHT CHARGED SMITHS RARE AIR SOUND PERFORMERS AND DREAMERS OF ENERGY SKEWS

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FOR A MANS WOUND IS WHERE HIS GENIUS WILL BE-ROBERT BLY THE PATH OF HEART PROCESS OF TUNING INTO INNER NECESSITY IN DISTILLING ONES ESSENCESLETTING GO OF ALL THAT IS NOT ONE AND FOCUSING WILL OF CONNECTIONS INTO TRUINGS OF INTIMACY PRESENCEIT IS LEVERAGE IN BORROWED ENERGIES THAT BECOME NEW NORMAL.THE ALTERED STATES OF TOO MUCH OF A GOOD THING GUIDED INTO TALENT OR PERFORMANCETHE VITALITY OF HEART AND SOUL IN SUGGESTION PATHINGS TRANCEROSTO ENCOUNTER IN DREAMS ECHO DEEPLY THE WONDER AND WISHFULNESS YET BREATH INTO AS IS IN REAL RELATIONS TO KNOW OPPORTUNITY AS WHAT SOMEONE IS WILLING TO DOTHE SUBMISSION TO A QUIET VIOLENCE OF COMPLIANCE IN AMPLIFIED USEFULNESSTO CONSENT IN THE INVISIBLE RESONANCE OF AN UNHEARD SOUND THAT STOPS TIME FOR THE DURATION OF IT USEREMOTE SIGNALS
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THAT BLOCK OUT MEMORY OF THE MOMENT, LIKE HYPNOTISMTRANCEROS STATES TO BE IN ALTERED STATES OF REACTIVITY AS ONE EXPRESSES THE AFFECTS OF THE ENCOUNTERIT IS GOING INTO TRANCEROS DEEP CREATIVE RECEPTIVITY AS EXTREME YIN THAT BECOMES STATES OF SUSTAINED INVERSIONTHE FEMININE WITHIN AS POLARITY OF NEGATIVITY IN CHARGES OF DRAWING IN RECEPTIVITYA PARALLEL TO THE FEMININE ENERGY STATE OF ACCESSING REPRODUCTIVE RHYTHMS IN REDIRECTED REPRODUCTIVENESSTHE SUSTAINED INVERSION OF CREATIVE CAPACITY DRIVING THROUGH COLLECTIONSTORAGE-BRAINSTORMINGS INTO MASCULINE YANG GENERATIVITYIT IS LEARNING TO FOCUS THROUGH THE CHAOS WITHIN TO GENERATE AN ART EXPRESSION THAT REPRESENTS ONES SENSES OF AN ENCOUNTER WITH A PERSON OR A THING

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THE FORM OF EXPRESSION FOLLOWS THE FUNCTIONTHE ART FORM BECOMES ORIGINAL TO THE DEGREE ONE IS ABLE TO BE IN THE REALITY OF ACTUAL FEELINGS WITHOUT TRYING TO INCORPORATE SOME OTHER SET OF VALUESTHE ACTIONS ARE INTEGRAL TO THE ENCOUNTER WITHOUT THE INFLUENCES OF SOMETHING DERIVATIVE OR IMITATIVEIT IS CURIOSITY IN SEEING WHAT IS THE TELLING DETAIL OF THE ENCOUNTERS AFTER THE REMOVAL OF THE STENTS I WAS IMMOBILIZED BY BEING PACKED WITH SANDBAGS AROUND MY HIPS AND LEGS FOR MORE THAN 6 HOURSTHE ZONING FURTHER COMPRESSED MY PSYCHE NARRATIVEIT WAS A PROTECTION AGAINST EXCESSES IN BLEEDING AND /OR STRAINS OF THE HEALING AREA ..

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I FEEL RECURRENCEA WAY OF LIFE THAT DRIVES INTO THE TRAUMA CONSEQUENCES THAT NEVER SEEM TO END I FEEL THAT I AM ENDLESSLY FORCED TO SEEK SOURCINGS IN THE DEEP CONFLICTTO KNOW THE TENSIONS WHERE SYMPTOMS ARE IN THE MUSCULAR RIGIDITY, THE STIFLED PLEASURETHE CONDITIONED NERVE FIRINGS THAT HAVE BEEN REDIRECTED AND LEVERAGED IN USEFULNESS I SENSE THAT THERE IS METHOD IN THIS MADNESS AS THE ORIGINAL REDIRECTED REPRODUCTIVENESS OF TRAUMA ZONINGS MADE HYPERVIGILANCE MY NORMALCYA SUGGESTION TRANCING WAY OF LIFE THAT SERVES AN IMAGINARY WALLING INSULATION THAT BLOCKS OUT AND PREVENTS WHAT WOULD OTHERWISE PENETRATE INTO THE DEPTHS OF LOST INNOCENCE FOR EVERY CHILD WITHIN OUR CARE AS MUCH NEUROSIS AS HE CAN BEAR-W.H. AUDEN

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THE CHARGES OF INDENTURED SERVITUDE IN A BODY ELECTRIC OF DYSFUNCTIONAL SKEWING INTO IMAGINATION MANAGEMENT OF ENDURANCE-PERSONALITY MEDIATION THE SUPPRESSION OR CASTRATION SURRENDER OF BEING AS EXPECTANCY IN INVISIBLE RESONANCE IN RHYTHMS OF AMPLIFIED USEFULNESS AND ROLEPERFORMER ZONINGS IN MERIDIAN POINTS OF LIGHT PATTERNINGSTO BE GUIDED IN SUGGESTION TRANCING INTO SAVANT-AVATAR-CHANNELLINGS THE CONTEMPORARY MONARCH ROYALTY WEDDING OF WILL AND KATE IS IN THE AIR IN AN ECHOIC TIMBRE OF MASS-OCCUR GLOBAL ELECTRONIC HERDINGTHE INVISIBLE RESONANCE BECOMES THE PLANE OF SOUNDCOMMON GROUND AS THE SEXOMONEY EROSTOCRACY MEDIA FEEDS OFF THE EXCITABILITY OF THE DREAMSTHE DREAMS THAT REVERBERATE INTO MY SENSES OF LOST AND PROFOUND ..

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THE BICYCLE MON-ARCH STATE OF SHIFTINGS THROUGH YIN-YANG RANGES OF DEEP CREATIVITYTHE FEMININE RECEPTIVITY AND THE MASCULINE GENERATIVE SOMETHING ACHES AS DISPLACEMENT SOMETHING IS MOVED FROM WHERE IT WORKS BEST SOMETHING IN THE WAY SHE MOVES CALLS AS THE WOUND SEEKS A SOLUTION FOR WHAT IS MISSINGTHE REDIRECTED REPRODUCTIVE COMPELS CONSUMPTIONS TO SEEK POWER IN IMITATIONSMIMESIS CONSCIOUSNESS IN SIMULTANEITY TIMINGS OF MACROCOSM INTERSECT WITH MICROCOSMTHE BICYCLE SPORTS AND DRUGS OF LANCE ARMSTRONGS TEAMTHE UNITED STATES POSTAL TEAMTHE EDGES OF INDIVIDUAL EFFORT-ENDURANCE-REWARDS YET QUESTIONS OF SUBSTANCE ABUSE TO BE FALSE-CHEAT IN COMPETITIONS THE YIN-YANG RANGINGS OF BI-CYCLE IN CREATIVE ACCESS OF REDIRECTED REPRODUCTIVE DEPTHSTHE NAME
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GOVERNOR OF A STATE OF RESONANCE IN SYMBOLIC REPRESENTATIONAN ELECTRONIC SURROGATE OR MEDIUMCHANNEL-AVATAR IN VIBE FREQUENCYAMPLIFICATIONTHE REMOTE ACCENTUATION OF VALUED TRAITS WITHIN THE BI-CYCLE OF CREATIVE-PERFORMANCE CAPACITY THE BLIND SPOT IS THE HEART OF THE DREAMTHE DREAMER IS IN REDIRECTED REPRODUCTIVENESS AND IS ENGAGED IN A LEVERAGE OF SOME BODY-ORGAN ZONETHE DANGERS OF TOO MUCH OF A GOOD THINGTHE BI-CYCLE DRAWING ENERGIES AWAY FROM NORMAL ORGANIC INTEGRITY THE SHORT TERM LEVERAGE OF ROBBING PETER TO PAY PAUL THAT MAY BECOME LONG TERM HARM TO ORGANIC INTEGRITYTHE IMBALANCES THAT ARE EXCESSES IN TALENT-ROLEPERFORMANCE AND THE DISTORTIONS THAT DEPLETE ORGANIC VITALITY .. ONE ENTERS INTO CREATIVE-SPIRITUAL DEPTHS TO GRASP THE VIRGINAL PEONY
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THAT ONE LACKS WITHINTHE IMAGINARY WALL WHERE THE MONARCH DEEP FEMININE OF EMPTINESS ENCOUNTERS THE NOTHINGNESS OF THE REALM OF HUNGRY GHOSTS THAT REPRESENTS APPETITES AND FILLERSIT IS SOURCING LACK, ABANDONMENT, ATTACHMENT AS ONE COMPENSATES FOR WHAT IS NOT THERETO ACT OUT OR TO ACT IN AND PERFORM INSTEAD OF BEING IN HEALTHY BREATHING SELF PRESENCE THE BARBICAN CASTLE FORTRESSING AS A MEANS OF TRYING TO SUSTAIN ROYAL PRINCESSES AND RESCUE BEHAVIORS MAKING TROUBLES INTO TOOLS, WEAPONS AND MEANS OF POWERCONTROL-MEDIATIONTHERE IS NO TRUING OF EROS URGENCY WHEN ONE IS IN RECIPROCITY-EXCHANGE AND POWER GREATER THAN LOVE SHAME DEFENSIVENESS IT IS THE FEELINGS OF INFERIORITY IN DRIVING NOT GOOD ENOUGH OR TRAUMATIZED VERSIONS OF IDENTITY THAT BECOMES COMPELLING BEHAVIORS
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IN STRUCTURAL COMPENSATORY WAYS IT IS DESIRE IN MIMESIS STRATEGY BEHAVIORS OF PERFORMANCE IN WISHING-WANTING TO BE WANTED WITHOUT THE INNER TRUTH OF URGENCY ABILITY TO LOVE IT IS TO ENDURE IN AN EMOTIONAL DESERT AS VANITY FEAR PERVADES A PSYCHE WALL OF AN ELECTRONIC COLONY OF AVATARS, SAVANTS, MEDIUMS, RARE AIR ATHLETES AND TALKING SMITH POLITICOSAN ENCHANTED EMOTIONAL DESERT OF BODY ELECTRIC PERFORMERS IN E PLURIBUS UNUM STRIVINGSMEISM IN AN INDIVIDUATION PROCESS HONING WITHIN KA OR DI DUALITY STATES COMPRESSIONS AND BEING GUIDED INTO PERFORMANCE BODY ELECTRIC CORRIDOR PATTERNS OF MORE-SO SKILLS, TALENTS AND EXTREMES OF NOVELTY AND CLOWN-SHOW DISTRACTIONS A CLIMATE OF EXCESSES IN ONE OUT OF MANY-E PLURIBUS UNUM WHERE RULE OF THE FEW AND THE EXCEPTION MAKES
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THE RULE DRIVES DISTORTIONS OF HUNGERS TO ROLE, PERFORMANCE EXTREMES THAT ARE OF VALUETHE LEVERAGES OF REDIRECTED REPRODUCTIVENESS WITH THREAT TO LONG TERM BODY INTEGRITY BEINGS AS AMPLIFIED-ACCENTUATED IN TENDENCY OF REDIRECTED REPRODUCTIVE EROS-TALENTPERFORMANCE-SKILL AS SOMETHING THAT HAS BEEN MOVED FROM WHERE IT WORKS BEST HEARTATTACKS AND KINDNESSA REALM OF INNER NECESSITY FREQUENTLY MASKED IN POWER GREATER THAN LOVE RHYTHMSTHE TRIALS, TESTS, TEMPTATIONSFOR WHAT PRICE IS THE PATH OF THE HEART WHERE ONE SEEKS CONNECTION AS MANY OTHERS ARMOR IN SELFDECEPTIONS AND ILLUSIONSLIPSERVICE AND VALENTINES OF HALLMARK CLICHES WE LIVE IN A PROJECTION IMITATION DISPLAY CULTURE OF REWARDS SEEKING TO SERVE THE HUNGRY GHOSTS OF
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APPETITE AND SPOTLIGHT NOTORIETY AN IMAGINARY FANTASY SEXOMONEY MEDIA EROSTOCRACY OF CRAZE-CRAVE AND TALENT-ROLE-LEVERAGE PERFORMANCETHE 15 MINUTES OF FAME AND THE GLIB-SOUND BITES OF PHOTO-OPS AND SEXOMONEY SEDUCTIONS THE MANY LIVE IN A QUIET VIOLENCE OF COMPLIANCETHE STRIVINGS TO MAKE THINGS FIT AND THE NARROWINGS OF NUMBINGS TO BE WITHIN INTENSITYDENSITY LIMITSMOST ARE IN ANGST AS TO STRANGLE OR PRESS TIGHT IN DEFENSES OF CONSTRICTION-INHIBITIONSHUT DOWN AND APPROACH-AVOIDANCE FEAR OF EXPOSURE OR SHAME BEING CAUGHT IN THE ACT, AGAIN STRATEGIES OF WHAT CAN I LIVE WITH, WHAT CAN I GET AWAY WITH IT IS A SPLITTING AWAY OR DISTANCING FROM LIFE AS PARTITIONING OR DISSOCIATION IN DRIVES OF MEETING EXPECTANCY INSTEAD OF BEING PRESENTIT IS DISTORTION AND IN SOME
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INSTANCES SELF-MUTILATION AS BARRIER BINDS AND BONDS OF SKEWS OF ENERGY CORRIDORINGSIT IS LOSS OF WHOLISM AS THE PART BECOMES GREATER THAN THE SOUNDNESS INTEGRITY OF BEINGTHE TALENTMEDIUM-CHANNEL-ROLE GREATER THAN FULLNESSTHE INTENSITY-DENSITY CORRIDORING SEEMING TO BE A LIFE PASSION AS NUMB, DENIAL OR DEADENED SENSES AFFORD THE STRAINED HEART OF 110% LEVERAGE TENDENCY IN BEHAVIORS OF ROBBING PETER TO PAY PAUL .. THE GROINA CONSTANCY IN RESTLESS AGITATION IN A FIELD OF SEXOMONEY MEDIA DREAMS OF NOT BEING GOOD ENOUGHIT IS LIKE A FISHER KING DRAGON FIRE TERROR THAT NEVER SEEMS TO GO AWAYAN ETERNAL RECURRENCE KIND OF NIETZSCHE NIGHTMAREFOR NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES I SOUGHT RELIEF AND RECEIVED LOVE-HEALING THE BRAND-ZONING AS CHARGED WAS STILL IN THE DEPTHS OF
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MY PSYCHEIT WAS IF I WAS TRAPPED IN A KISS OF THE SPIDER WOMANEROS NAZISM OF WEBBINGS DUALITYA BICYCLE IMPRINT IN MONARCH ROYAL AWARENESSECHOIC CHESS AND CHEST STATES OF WILL YOU STILL LOVE ME WHEN I AM 64THE BEATLES AND THE CHESSBOARD OF KNIGHTS, CASTLES, QUEENS, KINGS, BISHOPS AND MACHIAVELLIAN POWER THE POWER CONTROL OF WANTING TO BE WANTED IN OWNERSHIP OF DESIRE AND THE DESIRABLESEXOMONEY STATUS CONSUMPTIONS OF BUY THIS TO BECOME THISEROSTOCRACY FERTILITY IN CONSTRUCTIVE DISCONTENT IN ADVERTISING AND SENSAMORA RHYTHMS OF THE MAD THUD IN THE MESS THIS AGGRESSIONS OF CONSUMPTION TO SUBSTITUTE FOR THE MISSING LOVE OR RELATIONSHIP DEPTHS THE WOUNDED HEART IN A WOUNDED GROINTHE ORDINARY AS A DAY AFTER DAY PRESSURE CONSTANCY OF HEART

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SEEKING EROS SATISFACTION TO MAKE THE PAIN GO AWAY THE THINGS WE DO FOR LOVE WE LIVE IN OVERLOADS IN A CLIMATE OF RIGIDITY ARMORING OF TENDENCY IN OBESITY,TATTOOS AND SPIKINGSTHE ARRANGEMENT CHANNELLINGS OF INTENSITY-DENSITY IN IMAGE ZONINGS AND A VANITY NARCISSISM OF IDENTITY THE STAR ECSTASY IN POINTS OF LIGHT BODY ELECTRIC ACCENTUATIONS MUSCLES, FIBERS, HORMONES, NERVES IN SERVITUDE TO A TALENT OR PERSONALITY MEDIATION PATTERN TENDENCYACCENTUATIONBECOMING MORE SOTHE BLIND SPOT AS THE HEART OF THE DREAMPERSONALITY BEHAVIORS IN GETTING AND ADVANTAGEBY ANY MEANS NECESSARY THE HEART FAILURE AND THE GROIN ECHOIC TIMBRE BECOME THE MEMORY
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VORTEXTHE OPPORTUNITY IN THE MIDST OF A CRISIS IN SOURCING TO RELEASE AND MOVE FORWARDI RECALL MY IMAGINARY JOHNNY AND PEONY IN THE GREAT SPHINX STRUGGLE OF OEDIPUSWHOEVER SOLVES THE RIDDLE OF THE SPHINX THE SECRETS WHICH THE OTHER SEX PRESENTSMATURITY IN ADULTHOOD AND KNOWLEDGE OF ALIVENESS BRINGS FORTH SUCCESSHAPPINESS IN THE PERSON WHO SOLVES THE RIDDLE AS WELL AS THE POSEUR . GROINIT IS THE BALANCE IN THE HIPS AND LIPSWORDS AND SHIFTSTHE GREAT ATHLETES KNOW SPEED IN ADAPTATIONS TO EYE-HAND COORDINATIONS IN THE LIFE FORCE EROS OF REPRODUCTIVE LEVERAGE ACCESS IN 110% PLAYING WITH HEART THE CONCENTRATION, MARSHALLING, FOCUSING IN PERFORMANCE-ROLETHE HIGHLY DEVELOPED TALENT-SKILL ZONING IN A FOUNDATION OF GROIN HIP POWERGROUNDING AND PSYCHE BALANCINGSHIP EXCESSES OF DISPLAY
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AND CONTROL .. TO DISCOVER THE TRUINGS OF UNMANAGED EROS REFLEXESTHE SHUDDER IN THE LOINS INTUITIVE INSTINCTIVENESS AS DESIRE IN REFLEXES UNMEDIATED BY CONTROL, A SURPRISE PLEASURE IN AND OF ITSELF.A VULNERABILITY YET A POTENCY OF EROS IT IS IN THE MEDIATIONS AND COMPLIANCES OF LOVE AS WITHELD THE MOST EFFECTIVE PARENTAL WEAPON IS WITHDRAWAL OF LOVE OR ITS THREATTHE CHILD IS FORCED TO GIVE UP HIS INSTINCTUAL LONGING, TO SUPPRESS HIS SEXUAL DESIRE FOR ONE PARENT AND HOSTILITY TO THE OTHER IN THERE PLACE, HE WILL DEVELOP FEELINGS OF GUILT ABOUT HIS SEXUALITY AND FEAR OF AUTHORITY FIGURES THIS SURRENDER CONSTITUTES AN ACCEPTANCE OF PARENTAL POWER AND AUTHORITY IT IS A SUBMISSION TO
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THE PARENTS VALUES AND DEMANDS. THE CHILD BECOMES GOOD WHICH MEANS HE GIVES UP HIS SEXUAL ORIENTATION [PRESENCE] IN FAVOR OF ONE DIRECTED TO ACHIEVEMENT THE COMPELLING NEED TO FOLLOW HIS PARENTS WISHES THE WHOLE PROCESS PRESERVES THE GENITAL ORGAN, WARDS OFF THE DANGER OF LOSING IT [CASTRATION] ON THE OTHER HAND, THE SUBMISSION PARALYZES IT, TAKES ITS FUNCTION AWAY FROM IT [SIGMUND FREUD] IT IS THE SPIRIT IN CASTRATIONCOMPENSATION OR AS RONALD REAGANS CHARACTER IN KINGS ROW EXPRESSES WHERE IS THE REST OF ME THE RESTLESS-AGITATION STATES OF POWER QUEST TO PROVE WORTH AND THE HUNGER DISTORTIONS OF DESIRE IN IMITATIONS IN WANTING TO BE WANTEDIT IS THE NEGATION STATE OF THE THING IN AND OF ITSELFIT IS DESIRE IN STRATEGY TO SOMEHOW CONSUME OTHER OR IMAGE TO GAIN THE VALUED TRAIT THAT ONE BELIEVES ONE MUST HAVE

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IT IS THE EXHAUSTION-DEPLETION OF IDENTITY AS SERVITUDE TO REWARDEXPECTANCYUSING UP THE TRAITS THAT ARE SKEWED AS TOO MUCH OF A GOOD THING BECOMES CONSEQUENCES AS SOMETHING IS LOST OR SOMETHING IS MOVED FROM WHERE IT WORKS BEST .. IT IS BARBICAN SHAME CASTLE FORTRESSING IN CHARACTER ARMOR TO DEFEND AGAINST DEEP CONFLICT SOURCINGS.AS MUSCULAR RIGIDITY AND BODY CONSTRICTION THAT IS IN STIFLED PLEASURETHE CONDITIONED RECURRENCE OF APPROACH-AVOIDANCE NEURO-FIRINGSSEEING TENDENCIES IN ANGST WHERE ONE CONSTRICTS, PRESSES TOO TIGHT OR STRANGLES TO CONTROL AGAINST RELEASETO NUMB AGAINST THE BODYS PROMPTINGS OF HEALINGIT IS EMBODIMENT AWARENESSIT IS SEEING THAT FOR SEXUAL ORGASM MAY NOT BE WHAT IS DESIRED

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PROPRIOCEPTION IS THE NATURAL SIGNALLINGS OF SENSORY RECEPTORS IN JOINTS RE: GRAVITY THAT IS DISTORTED IN HUNGERS, VANITY, FEAR, MIMESIS ONE MUST LEARN TO REFEEL IN ORDER TO ACCESS NEW POTENTIALSTO OVERCOME THE FALSE-INHIBITED FEELING SYSTEM STRUCTURED TO SERVE IMPOSITION ORDERINGS AND TERROR ANGST IT IS ORALITY IN LIPS OF CONTROL TO MEDIATE AIR, MOISTURE, BREATH INTO CONSUMPTION-DIGESTION TO HAVE A STOMACH TO DO ITA GUT OF EXERTION-EXPRESSION AS A DRIVE INTO HIP BALANCE OF PERFORMANCE CONTROLTO TEMPER DESIRE-WILL OF DOINGREPETITION-ACCELERATIONAMPLIFICATION IN DEGREES OF WAY OF DOINGBALANCE PERFORMANCE IN HIP SHIFTS OF GROIN STAY HUNGRY.PLAY HUNGRYTHE LIPS OF ENERGY IN THOSE WHO DO AND THOSE WHO TALK ABOUT ITTHE SPLITTING WITHIN OF EMULATION AS 110% IN BEING LIKE OR GETTING LOVE
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IN REWARDS-AUDIENCE INSTEAD OF THE IN AND OF ITSELF IN DOING IT IS THE REALM OF PISSOG OR CANALIZED GOSSIP AS ORALITY-CHAT BECOMES A SWAMP OF HYSTERIA SENSUALIZATION EXCESSES OF EXCITABILITYTHE SEXOMONEY EROSTOCRACY CONSTANCY IN CHARGED UP BUZZES AND BITES OF GLIB AND EMOTIONAL STIMULATIONSA HYSTERIA SENSUALIZATION THAT SUBSTITUTES FOR REAL SEXUALITYA NARCISSISTIC STATE THAT PRECLUDES REAL ORGASM PRESENCEFOR THE DRIVES MAY BE WANTING TO BE WANTED AS POWER GREATER THAN LOVE OR MANY OTHER VERSIONS OF APPROACH-AVOIDANCE FOR THE IMITATIVE BECOMES A CIRCULARITY OF TRYING TOO HARD AND NOT SUCCEEDING BECAUSE THE CHASE IS MORE VALUED THAN TRUTH OF INTIMACY-URGENCY ..

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GROINTHE EROSTOCRACY DREAM DRAMAS OF THE LAWS OF FLAWS IN CRAZE-CRAVE AS MEDIATION OF VITALITY AND IDENTITYIT IS SOMETHING IS MOVED FROM WHERE IT WORKS BEST.LEVERAGING INTO PERFORMANCE THE USE OF REDIRECTED REPRODUCTIVE ENERGIESTHE ANCIENT MODES OF POWER GREATER THAN LOVE OR CONTROL IN MEDIATION OF EXTERNALIZED IMPOSITION TO ESTABLISH A POWER LOVE SENSE OF SELF AS ASSETS OF WORTH. IT IS ALTERED ENERGY IN TOO MUCH OF A GOOD THING AS ENERGY IS LEVERAGED INTO EXPECTANCY-ROLE FOR THE THINGS WE DO FOR LOVE.... TIMING IN DEGREES OF REPRODUCTIVE DISPLAY PERFORMANCE AND DENIALMAKING THINGS FIT AND MAKING USE OF DREAM STATESDREAMS ECHOING DEEPLY IN REVERIEIT IS BEAUTY IN CURVES AND HARMONIES FLOWING INTO LEGS, WAISTS TO BREASTS, BALANCES OF MOTION AND SIT-SITE-SIGHTINGSMUSIC IN EROS AS ADVERTISING CONSTRUCTIVE
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DISCONTENT AS SENSES OF NOT GOOD ENOUGH MOVE IN RESTLESS AGITATION SEEKING IMITATION BEHAVIORS TO GAIN ADVANTAGETO BE WANTING TO BE WANTEDONE IS OUT OF BALANCE WHILE IN COMPLIANCE WITH AN EROSTOCRACY SEXOMONEY-MEDIA CULTUREONE RIDES DISTORTION WINDS OF COMPLIANCE IN AN INTENSITYDENSITY COPING-ENDURANCE WAY OF MAXIMIZING-LEVERAGINGTHE TEMPORARY BECOMES THE WAY OF LIFE AS THE 110% SHIFTS EVENTUALLY HAVE A COST IN ORGANIC INTEGRITY GROINTHE LEVERAGE IN BALANCEDISPLAY-POSTURES OR PADDINGS OF DEFENSIVENESS THE INSULATION EXCESSES OF HIP WARS IN SHIFTS AND DENTSTHE BRUISES IN YIN-YANG THWARTINGS, THRUSTS AND RECEPTIVITYTHE BLOCKS IN DEAD ZONES AND ROMANCE FANTASY DREAM DAZE FUELINGS IMAGE-IMPRESSIONQUICK FIXES-COSMETICSTHE POWER
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GREATER THAN LOVE WAY OF MEDIATION FORTRESS CONTROLTRANSFERRENCES AND SUBSTITUTIONS, DEVICES ARTIFICIAL AUTO-EROTIC VIBRATION TOOLS OF INCREASED SPLIT-OFF PLEASURESSOMETHING BETTER THAN NOTHING YET ALIENATIONDISCONNECTION INCREASESHIP WARS AND THE WEAPONS OF CONTROLIMAGE RULINGS .CONTROL GREATER THAN INTIMACY WILL OF PRESENCE, WILL TO ASSERT-CONNECT-EXPRESS, WILL IN POWER LOVE OF TRADES AND RECIPROCITY VS WILL TO LOVETHE SOCIAL MEDIATION OF ROYAL CHESS LOCATION IN MOMENTUM OF BUILDING PYRAMIDSPOWER LOVE IN EROSTOCRACY RHYTHMS WITHIN A CONTEMPORARY SEXOMONEY MEDIA CLIMATE OF COOL FIRE OVERLOADS THE JACKNIFE POSTURAL DISTORTION OF ONES FOETALIZED HEAD TURNING INWARD IN SELF CONSCIOUSNESSTO MONITOR AND IMAGE-MEDIATE ONESELF IN THE INFERIORITY WAYS OF RESTLESS AGITATION FOR FEELINGS OF NOT GOOD ENOUGHTHE ONGOING WANTING TO BE
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WANTED DESIRE MODE TO MAKE UP FOR FEELINGS OF LACK AND NON-WORTH TO ALTER AND REFLECT UPON ONESELF IN FRAMES OF REFERENCETO SEE DIFFERENTLY IN THE LITTLE NIGHTMARES IN THE DAY TO DAYTO SHIFT ONES POINT OF VISION OUT OF FRIGHT PARALYSIS IN TRAUMA REMAINS IN BODY-MIND WAYS SO THAT ONE MUST ENCOUNTER THE INSTINCTUAL IMPERATIVE THAT WAS THWARTED IN THE OVERWHELMING FRIGHT MOMENTTHE TRAUMA MOMENTAS THE BODY WAS IN A STATE OF POISED IN READINESS BUT TRAUMATIZED AND UNABLE TO BE IN ITS MEANINGFUL COURSE OF ACTIONDEEP TRAUMACOLLAPSE, DEFEAT, HELPLESS RESIGNATION, LACK OF ENERGY TO FUEL WILL AND MOVE FORWARDDEATH FEIGNING-DEADENING SENSES IN SURVIVAL MODESANALYSIS PARALYSIS IN NUMBINGS, IMMOBILIZATION, ANALGESIC EFFECTS IN PAIN RELIEFDISSOCIATION AND DELUSIONAL MINDSETS OF CLOSED CIRCLE DOCTRINE-BELIEF CONTROLLED WAYSSTUCK IN A PROCESS OF RETERRORIZING THE SELF IN PSYCHE SHADOW MAINTENANCE BY ACCENTUATION OR
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MISDIRECTION OF INTENSE SENSATIONS AND EMOTIONSCONTROL IN SHUTTING DOWNAVOIDANCE-PARTITIONINGS AS SUPPRESSION VS. CONTAINMENT WHERE ONE MOVES IN THE FAMILIAR FEELINGS AND RESPONSES IT IS THE ORDERING OF A PATTERN OF INTENSITY-DENSITYTHE USE OF FUELS AND THE MEANS OF ENERGY OR MERIDIAN CORRIDORS OR HABITS TO BUILD INTENSITY AND THEREBY ANAESTHETIZE OR NUMB THE ANGST OR UNCERTAINTY ZONES .. TO SEEK RELEASE OR FIND ONES COURAGE IN A FRATERNITY OF AL-CO-HAULTHE SUBSTANCES AND STIMULANTS OF WANTING TO BE WANTED OR ACCEPTED-ADMIREDTHE GROUP AND PEER COERCIONS AND CERTIFICATIONSBEING JUST-LIKE IN MIMESIS IMITATION OR ONE OF US IN US VS. THEM WAYSTO BUY THIS AND BECOME THATTO STRATEGIES OF POWER IN IMAGE AS ONE SEEKS INDEPENDENCE USING IMITATION THAT PRECLUDES REAL AWAKENINGSAN ELECTRONIC CANNIBALISM OF CONSUMING TO BECOMEA FALSENESS IN FORTRESSING AS ARMORING, DECEPTION AND
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ILLUSION ACTUALLY DISTANCE ONE FROM WHAT IS REAL THE CONSTANCY MEDIATION OF A BARBICAN CASTLE FORTRESSINGWHAT CAN I LIVE WITHWHAT CAN I GET AWAY WITHTHE COPING-ENDURANCE WITH IMPOSITION AND COMPLIANCETHE FOUNDATION OF THE HIDDEN AGENDA BELOW THE SURFACETHE ACCUMULATIONS OF RESENTMENTS AND SENSES OF UNFAIRNESSTHE DELAYED PROFOUND SELF-PROTECTIVE RESPONSES OF RAGE-COUNTERATTACKIMAGERY IN PASSIVE AGGRESSIVENESS THAT SERVES AS RESTLESS AGITATIONBREWINGS OF NOT GOOD ENOUGH OR HUMILIATIONS IN COMPLIANCESPSYCHE COERCIONS TO GET MONEY, STATUS, POSITION, ETC THE THINGS WE DO FOR LOVEFOR CONTROL FOR POWERFOR ADAPTATIONS EVERY ADAPTATION IS A CRISIS IN SELF ESTEEM [ERIC HOFFER] THE SUFFERINGS OF THE SUPPRESSED SENSES BECOMES THE AGITATED IMMOBILITY THAT SEEKS THE FLAWS OF OTHER[S] AS
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OPPORTUNITY FOR ERUPTIONPARTICULARLY IF ONE IS A TRAUMA CHARGED BEING LOCKED IN FEAR-POTENTIATED IMMOBILITYOR ONE IS WEBBED IN BIOLOGICAL TRAUMA RESPONSE PATTERNS THAT DEADEN IT IS CRISIS-RISK-OPPORTUNITY TIME AS ONE MUST BREATHE INTO THE WAYS OF PENDULATION WITHIN THE BODYS NATURAL RESTORATIVE RHYTHM OF CONTRACTIONEXPANSIONKNOWING THAT SUFFERING DOES NOT HAVE TO LAST FOREVERTAKING STEPS TO ACTIVATE RESTLESSNESS IN TUNING INTO AN INNATE ROCKING BETWEEN INNER POLARITIES IT IS KNOWING THAT NO MATTER HOW BAD YOU FEEL, THERE IS SOME EXPANSION WITH A SENSE OF OPENING, RELIEF AND FLOWA RHYTHM TO BE TEMPERED IN INTEGRATION OF CURRENT SENSATIONS THAT HAD PREVIOUSLY OVERWHELMEDTO REESTABLISH A NATURAL RESILIENCE IN NEW FRAMES OF REFERENCE TO BE IN TITRATION AS GRADUAL STEP BY STEP PROCESS OF TRAUMA RENEGOTIATION AS IF ONE WERE IN CHEMICAL REACTION-SLOW RESOLUTIONS THAT ARE NOT EXPLOSIVE ABREACTIONSTO KNOW ONE IS TO SEEK TO
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RESTORE ACTIVE RESPONSES OUT OF ENTRENCHED SYMPTOMS TO MOVE INTO A NEW EQUILIBRIUM OUT OF MOTIONLESSNESS TO INSTINCTIVENESSTO MOVE BEYOND TRAUMA WEBBINGSTO DISCOVER AND RELEASE ONESELF FROM RELYING UPON THE ROUTINE OR USUAL FRAMES OF REFERENCETHE PROCESS OF DISCOVERY-RELEASERECONSTITUTION IN A RECRYSTALLIZATION OF WHAT IS ESSENTIAL-WHAT MATTERS IN IMMEDIACY OF WILL AND PATHING OF HEART IT IS TO BE IN GOLDEN RULE DO UNTO OTHERS RECIPROCITY WAYS WHILE HEALING AND STRENGTHENING THE DAMAGES AND CONSEQUENCES OF IMPOSITION BRANDINGSTHE COMPLIANCE STATESTHE MEDIATIONCOPING-ENDURANCE STATES TO LOVE IN DEGREES OF SHARED EXCHANGES UNTIL ONE IS STRONG ENOUGH TO LET GO OF ALL THAT IS NOT ONETO EVOLVE IN AUTHENTICITY AS ONE LEARNS ONES OWN TRUINGS OF INTEGRITY
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 .. THE LAW OF FLAWS IS THE METHOD OF CREATIVE CURRENCY IN HUMAN DEVELOPMENTIT IS ACCENTUATION OF ENERGIES THROUGH A RECURRENT MERIDIAN POINTS OF LIGHT BODY ELECTRIC ZONEA FLAWIN MY INSTANCE ITS LOCALE IS IN MY HEART TO GROINMY SIT-SITE HIP PLACE THAT DEMANDS SUPERB BALANCE IN MOTIONS AND ENCOUNTERSMY MON-ARCH PIVOT POSITION OF DOING AND SHIFTINGSTHE RESULT BEING AN EXCESSIVELY CONTROLLED BREATH AND CHANNELLING OF ENERGIES INTO ROLE-SKILLPERSONALITY OF PERFORMANCE EXCHANGE VALUE THAT WAS SUSTAINED FOR DECADES BY A VARIETY OF MEANS FROM CIGARETTES, ALCOHOL TO GLIBNESS AND PUSH OR HOT BUTTON WORDS TO ENTER INTO SOUND AND UNSOUND IN THE HEART OF DARKNESSTHE DEPTHS
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OF INNER SHADOWS WHERE POWER IS GREATER THAN LOVETHE EXTREMES OF INTENSITY TO CONTROL AND COMPEL AS FEAR EATS THE SOUL FOR WHO IS ABLE TO ACCESS LOVE OUT OF THE ABYSS NOTHINGNESS OF ALONENESS IN A GENERATIVE WILL TRUTH OF INTIMACYWHO IS ABLE TO OVERCOME THE SELF AND BE PRESENT IN TRUTH OF URGENCY FOR THE CLOSER A MAN IS TO HIS DESIRE, THE MORE HE DESIRES IT, AND SINCE HE CANNOT HAVE IT, IT CAUSES HIM GREATER TORMENT [MACHIAVELLI] .. IT IS POWERLESSNESS SEEING INSTINCTS CALLING OUT OF PSYCHE FORTRESSINGS IN CALLING FORTH DEGREES OF FEIGNING DEATHTHE DENIAL AND REPRESSION IN UNCONSCIOUSNESS
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USING DRUGS AND ALCOHOL TO ANAESTHETIZESURRENDERING PRESZENCE IN BEING HELD BY SPELL DREAMINGS OF WONDER AND WISHFULNESS ESCAPING INTO DEEP WISHES OF IDENTITY IN IMITATION IDENTIFYING WITH THE DI OF THE PAVILLION DREAM OF A VIRGINAL PINING TO DEATHIDENTIFYING WITH THE DREAMER IN A TIME OF ACHING FOR RELEASE IN THE IMAGINARY COSMIC REALM OF DREAMS AND DESIRE FOR THE CLOSER A MAN IS TO HIS DESIRE, THE MORE HE DESIRES IT, AND SINCE HE CANNOT HAVE IT, IT CAUSES HIM GREATER TORMENT [MACHIAVELLI] . IT IS SEXOMONEY MEDIA EROSTOCRACY COMPRESSION THAT CRUSHES IN ON ME IN MY ENERGY VIBRATORY-LOCATION IN MING ORDERINGTHE WORDS OF MAGIC
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AND MATTERTHE SLANG IN 19 TH CENTURY COYNTE AS VAGINA WHERE DEEPEST YIN INTERSECTS WITH LUNAR ECLIPSE AND SOLSTICE SHIFTSLUNACY MOON PHASES OF UNIVERSAL LIGHTSHADOW REFLECTION TEMPOSTIDES AND WATERS OF PSYCHE WAVESTHE UNITY OF HEAVENS AND EARTH IN WEATHERS AND WHETHER RINGS IT IS AL VEL LEGIS AS THE BOOK OF THE LAW OF HUMAN ENERGY DEFINITION AND DEVELOPMENTA LAW OF FLAWS IN WHAT IS IN A NAME AND THE RESONANCE OF SOUND MINDS IN SOUND SOCIETYTHE COMMON GROUNDING OF MASS CONTAINED AS ONE OUT OF MANY [E PLURIBUS UNUM] BECOMES THE EDGE OF EACH NEW WAVE IN DEEPLY SHARED AND COMMONLY FELT CONSCIOUSNESSMASS-OCCUR MOMENTS AND MASS-OCCUR MADNESS AS THE SYMBOL IS AMPLIFIED THROUGH AN ELECTRONIC SURROGATE OR ZONE STATEMASS IN REACTIVITY FORMATION MODES OF GOING ALONG TO GET ALONG

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IT IS THE LAW OF FLAWS PLAYED OUT AS THE EXCEPTIONS MAKE THE RULES, THE STANDARDS, THE RHYTHMS OF ELECTRONIC SURROGATES DEFINING STATES OF FREQUENCY RESONANCE... INVISIBLE RESONANCETHE MICRO IN A LAW OF FLAWS DEFINITION OF INDIVIDUAL AS THE MACRO MING UNITY OF HEAVENS AND EARTHTHE SURROGATE BEING IN A MODEL CAULDRON WHERE A COLLECTION OF SAVANTS, ELECTRONIC SURROGATES IN AVATAR, MEDIUM, CHANNELLINGS SERVE MIRRORINGS OF UNITY OF DESIRE OF GLOBAL WAR-MING TO REFLECT UPON WHAT HAPPENEDTO SEE INTO UNITY OF DESIRE AS MAGICIAN STATE IN ONENESS GRASPING FOR PHOTOGRAPHS OF A LUNAR ECLIPSE DURING THE WINTER SOLSTICE OF 12-2110TO SEE ECSTASY-AGONY IN INTENSITY-DENSITY AS THE LONGESTSHADOW-TIMING DAY BECOMES AN ATTACK AGAINST HEARTA SPACE WAR OR STAR WAR OF 110% HEART BEHAVIOR IN AN IMBALANCE OF BODY ELECTRIC
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LEVERAGE THAT HAD GONE TOO FARTO HAVE LENT ONES HEART ONE TOO MANY WAYSTO HAVE DEPLETED MY HEART IN OVERLOADS OF INTENSITY-DENSITY PASSIONSPROBLEMS IN CENTER GROUNDING FOR ONE CAN STILL LOSE AS ONE PLAYS ONES HEART OUTONE GIVES 110% EFFORT GROINSTENTS OPENING THE PATHINGS INTO THE HEARTTHE FACILITATION OF BLOOD FLOW IN LIFE FORCE OVERCOMING CONTRACTIVE EXCESSES IN LOSS OF OXYGEN AND CIRCULATION TO OVERCOME THE PATTERN OF POISONS AND THE UNSOUNDNESS OF THE PISSOG OF HIP CHATTER SWAMP OF NOTHINGNESS THAT TAKES AWAY BREATH AND SOULTHE ONGOING ECHOIC THAT FEEDS ON THE EXCITABILITY OF THE HYPED AND THE TRAGICTHE EGOISTIC SPOTLIGHTINGS AS A POWER THAT SWALLOWS LIFETHE EXAGGERATIONS IN COOL FIRE THAT CONSUMES AUDIENCE IN MASS OCCUR MADNESS

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THE SEXOMONEY EROSTOCRACY MIRROR RINGS OF VANITY DISPLAY FOR REFLECTIONS OF DECEPTIONSNOVELTY AND SELF ABSORPTIONSTHE UNDERWORLD-UNDERCURRENCY OF HIP VIBES PLATEAU OF EAR ACHING EXCHANGESTHE SOUND ORDER IN ELECTRONIC BLACK HOLES SEXOMONEY MEDIA AS A SUCKING STREAM OF EMOTIONAL DREAMSTHE LACK AS A BEAT AGAINST NOTHINGNESS THAT GOES ON AS A COLLISIONISM OF SHIFTINGS IT IS PSYCHE ROYALTY IN BELIEFS OF SEXOMONEY MEDIA STARS AND ZONED OUT SAVANTSTHE TRADEOFFS OF LIFE FORCE ENERGIES IN THE INNER WILDERNESSTHE GREAT ESCAPE PATHINGS OF ROYAL COMPLIANCESAL VEL LEGIS IN THE CHEST AND CHESS AS AIR IN BREATH, PRANA, CHI IS IN THE CUINGS OF A AND BEAUTY, VENUS, EROS IS IN THE CUINGS OF LTHE CONSCIOUSNESS OF PSYCHE CHOICES IN L AS EROS ENERGIES IN CREATIVE WOMAN FILLED OR WOMAN SATISFIED IN REAL SEXUALITY
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IT IS SEEING THAT POWER LOVE IS CHOSEN AS THE BEING FILLED WITH CREATIVE-EROSTOCRACY ENERGIES IN DESIRE MIMESIS BEHAVIORS INSTEAD OF L OF SEXUAL ORGASM TRUINGS OF URGENCY AND RELEASETHE PISSOG AND THE IMPRESSION MANAGEMENT DRIVING THE SEXOMONEY CLIMATE INTO EXCESSES OF EROTICIZED-EXCITABILITY DISTORTIONS TO CONSTANTLY MEDIATE THE IMPOSITIONS RESULTS IN THE EXHAUSTION OF DRACULA WRITER BRAM STOKERS TOMBSTONE EPITAPH FOR BEING FILLED IN CREATIVE RESONANCE IS THE REDIRECTED REPRODUCTIVE CORRIDORINGS OF EXTERNALIZED USEFULNESSIT IS THE EXHAUSTION OF TRYING TO SATISFY THE BLOOD HUNGERS OF POWERTHE OVEREXCITED AND OVERSTIMULATED THAT ARE COMPELLED TO REACTTO SEEK GLORY IN HEROIC SERVITUDE OF ELITE ARISTOCRACY RHYTHMS AND REWARDSTHE BLIND SPOT BEING THE HEART OF THE DREAM AS THE DREAMS
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ECHO DEEPLYTHE ZONED WAY EVENTUALLY RESULTS IN EXHAUSTION AS THE PACIFIERS AND ORGANIC LEVERAGE DEPLETE TRAITS IN A DARWINIAN SELECTION VIOLENCE THE TOO MUCH OF A GOOD THING TRAIT IS KNOWING THAT SOMETHING IS MOVED FROM WHERE IT WORKS BEST SOMETHING IS LEVERAGED AND USED FOR SOME OTHER PURPOSEA SYSTEMIC REDIRECTION IN THE WAYS OF SHORT TERM FIGHT-FLIGHT INTO TALENT-ROLE THAT BECOMES PERMANENT IN EXCESSES OF HORMONES AND ADRENALINES THAT SAP VITALITY FROM BODY ELECTRIC NORMALCY . GROINROYAL RHYTHMS OF THE MONARCH DRAMAS OF BUTTERFLY TRANSFORMATION AND ORDINARY EMPIRE POWER VIOLENCEHIP WAR SITSIGHT-SITE IN HIP-STIR ECHOIC OF PIVOT CRISIS TEMPOSTHE PEONY PAVILLION VIRGINAL IN YEARNING HUNGERS
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REACHING TO THE DEEPEST YIN IN THE EXPRESSIONS OF KINGS SPEECH FOR ARTIST-CREATIVE BEINGS IT IS FOR EVERY CHILD IN OUR CARE AS MUCH NEUROSIS AS HE-SHE CAN BEAR IT IS A BELIEF PERSPECTIVE THAT THE MANS WOUNDS ARE WHERE THE SOURCE-FLAW-GENIUS WILL BETHE PART OR PARTS OF THE BODY READIED FOR ACTION BUT FAILED IN SOME TRAUMATIZED TIMES BEING UNABLE TO COMPLETE OR TO ORCHESTRATE ITS MEANINGFUL COURSE OF ACTION BECOME THE AGITATION-RESTLESSNESS OF CORRIDORINGS OF TALENT-SKILLPERFORMANCEONE IS ABLE TO SEE THE HABITUAL POSTURES, GESTURES, FACIAL EXPRESSIONS THAT TELL THE TALE OF WHAT DID AND DID NOT HAPPEN WHEN THREATENED AND OVERWHELMEDTHE HABITUAL POSTURES AS THE PATHS THAT NEED TO BE RETRACED AND RESOLVED TO HEALTHE SOURCING OF THE INSTINCTUAL IMPERATIVE ,THAT ONCE UPON A TIME, WAS THWARTED IN A MOMENT OF OVERWHELMING FRIGHT

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