11/06/97 5:14 PM So what is thing all about. You know.

This thing that is the common link of the scientific method in which theories and hypotheses are posed to unify observations? What is this thing and what is its nature? One thing about this symmetrical pattern that underlies thye activity of scientists, is that it is like a type of vision or a reality that lies behind the mass of sense of data. I find myself reminded of Platos description of the life of the Philosopher. In The Phaedrus, Plato writes about the contemplation of univerals that are envisioned in connection with a mass of sense data. There is the clue. The scientific method, involve the contemplation of a mass of sense impressions often in the form of laboratory experimental data. The theoretical scientist then contemplates the sense impressions and attempts to envision a structure which will unify and simplify the apparent multiplicity and complexity. There are few interesting things about this phenomenon. First of all, for those who hate the objective ruthlessness of scientific observation especially when it is applied to the cold and calculating observation of the conduct of human beings and other living things, would naturally be delighted to see that cold and clinical observation turned upon the scientists as a group. It is simply delightful. Then there are other delightful aspects. There is the idea of holism in which the theoretical scientist strives to contemplate the Whole of all the sense impressions that are connected with the subject of study. This is hard to define since differentr people have different ideas about where to draw the boundaries that include everything connected with the subject under study. Some people see connections between impressions that others do not see because they construct restrictive boundaries. In fact, the vision that enables a person to see connections between what to others are differentiated, are the very people who seem to come up with the most significant unifying theories in science. Theories such as the Pythagorean

theories of musical harmonies; the Copernican theory of cosmology, the Newtonian theory of mechanical motion, the Planckian theory of quanta, the Einsteinian theory of special relativity, the Darwinian theory of the origin of the species, theWatson and Crick theory of the structure of the genetic molecules of DNA. So how did it begin this tendency of at least some humans to see unifying simplifications behind the apparent complexity and chaotic multiplicity? Some like to say that a man known to us as Thales, a resident of an island called Samos, off the coast of what is Turkey today, in the Aegean/Ionian sea that Turkey shares with Greece; was the first to put in writing this pattern of awareness. In Thales case, it came down to contemplation of the whole of the living sensory world and the envisioning of the cause and origin of all the multiplicity and complexity of life. Thalesd is said to have concluded that everything in the living world was made from a single unifying substance and Thales said it was water. Thales is also said to have stated that everything in the world is full of theon - the divine spirit. Just as modern translators like to interpret for Thales and say that he claimed as a primitive that everything is full of Gods, probably a mistranslation of the Greek word thron; I suggest that many modern translators similar mistranslate when they say that Thales wrote and taught that all living things and everything in the world of the senses is made from water. I suggest that Thales was a mystic and a magical and perhaps charismatic person who probably taught that all that we perceive is sacred and divine and that all living things originated in water. Scientists have allowed themselves to be seduced by the ancient vision that involves the idea that the world and realm of sensory perception is all made of a single unifying fundamental substance or in todays language - fundamental particles that are indivisible and industrible. The history of science has provided a wealth of data to confirm that this idea is an illusion except in the sense that everything in the sensory world is made of energy and consciousness. Despite the overwhelming evidence of history,

there are still scientists today who search for quarks. Quarks are no more than a modern word for the indestructible and indivisible atom of Democritus and Leucippus in ancient Greece. The idea of a fundamental substance, of the Democratic atoms and modern quarks, is an idea which is conditioned by extreme finiteness. Thales was probably a mystic and I suggest that Thales was not concerned with finite ideas about the world of the sense (finite by definition) is composed of a fundamental substance which many says Thales calimed to be water. I suggest that Thales the mystic was more concerned with a holisitc view that concerned bot just all of spavce but all of time and all of consciousness. It is much more likely that the mystic Thales was concerned with the process of evolution and in the self evident reality that psyche is the fundamental unifying link in all perception. The human tendency to envision unifying structures that link together sense data may well be indicative of the tendency of psyche to self awareness - to the awakening to the enlightened view that the real and true nature of being is consciousness itself. On a more person note, I look at and contemplate those experiences that have involved interactions with other human beings that have been the cause of the theft of my property that I worked hard for, for interferences in my personal life that caused separation from my former wife and more painful, separation from my children: and in general an intolerable invasion of my personal privacy, deprivation of my freedom of choice and disturbance of my peace and tranquility. When I contemplate these violent, aggressive, destructive, entropic acts by these people, I tend to see a structure that unifies them in terms of the emerging illusionary revolutionary zeal displayed by thos people who have been hypnotozed into automatons who consider themselves to be Saving the Earth. 11/06/97 6:52 PM

The thing is that the unifying vision that has formed like any scientific theory which seeks to unify (symbolize) the rich diversity of seemingly chaotic and disorderly impressions, can never be more than an approximation - a symbol. What is most real is the experiences themselves and not the symbol that represents them. Many scientists would argue that Newtons laws of mechanics which can expressed in the simplest form as F=mv, are far more than a symbol because it is a universal law that hold for all macroscopic mechanical behaviour and is this much more than a symbol. But what is a symbol. It is a packet or piece of sensory information that is used to represent a mass of information. This is precisely the relation between a mathematical equation and the wealth of situations it is invented to represent and describe. It is always an abstraction. If we were to apply Newtons law to the movement of the moon for example. All the equation tells us is that the velocity of the moon is the product of the force exerted on it and the inverse of the mass of the moon. The equation is an abstraction of what we observe. An abstraction in the sense that the equation reveals only a fragment of the whole experience we have in observing the moon. So it is with the vision I have of the Intent that I am aware of that has been intuited together from the mass of the experiences I have had with respect to the events that resulted in my total impoverishment and separation from my children. I believe that this aspect of my life experience is coming into the glow awareness at this time largely because of a similarity that I am aware of that exists here and now and the circumstances that lead to the separation and impoverishment. In particular, at this time, there is a person who has attached himself to me and has decided to ignore my stated wishes for him to leave my home and who even arghues that it is not my home just as there was a time in 1983 when I made it clear to Mary Helen Wickham Mansur Watson that it was my wish that she leave my home and she ignored my wishes. In both cases the reasons for my demand that the tow leave my home are the invasion of rights as a human being. In both cases I am subjected to naked aggression, merciless criticism, ruthless harassment, invasion of privacy, gross

disturbances of my tranquility and peace and severe limitations of my freedom of choice. In both cases there are clear signs of naked psychologcal manipulation which seems to have the intention of benefiting the physical livlihood of the agressors who have invaded my life and my home; benefitting them at my material expense and at the expense of what is even more important; the peace, freedom and privacy I am so stronbgly drawn to by prajna. In recent weeks there have been two very clear messages to me from the realm of the superconscious and each time the message has been to live life to the fullest now. To clarify what I mean, let me say that both the experiences involved death and I took the messages as a reminder of mortality of the body and thus an encouragement to become fully involved in life now. I say now in order to contrast this time with the early stages of my spiritual development. Prior to the entry into my life of Mary, I was a especailly rational; meaning that most of the key decisions I made in life were made with a careful analysis of options, measurement of the value of those options and a calculated decisions as to the option that best seems to meet my personal needs and requirements. Then came my total and utter destruction as a compliant member of modern industrial culture. Financially ruined and alienated from family. Homeless and impoverished. Humbled. As a result of a series of coincidences that involved both my own personal experiences, a letter from my father and a book given to me by my wife Gail, I came to adopt a new posture after making an incredible effort to make alliances to regain my material status and to provide myself a livlihood. From that time on until just a few months ago, I have been inspired by and lived my life by the way of the Tao, the watercourse way you might say. The change that occured after I emancipated myself from the limitations of the usual corporate life and chose freely to come and live by Crestone Creek, has been extensively written about as it was occurring. I will reiterate that the change involves a new way of reading the signs. From 1984 until 1997 I found myself contemplating the experiences I have in the sensory realm and intuiting signs that advised me as to the appropriate conduct. Even the emancipation from

corporate confinement that released me to freely choose where to live was made with a heavy reliance on intuitive interpretation of signs observed in the sensory world. Then after thirteen years of this uncarved block, submissive, passive, selfless, desireless, self denying, ascetic approach to life a change occured. A rather momentous change that I now see can only occur when one has rid oneself of the illusions that might lead one to trample upon other living beings because of insufficient awareness. The change is that now there is a transition occuring from the water course way to the prajna way. The prajna way in the sense that I believe it is meant in Zen. The way of discerning what path to follow by way of one inner connection with the vast ocean of psyche. The change is one in which the field of awareness that is drawn on is expanded from the external realm of sensory awareness to the internal realm which is vast indeed. It seems quite clear to me that before one can effectively reconnect with the vast ocean of awareness and thus to do as one feels; one first must be rid of the unconsciousness and insensitivity that would lead one to damage other beings for ones material livlihood. Otherwise, the emergence of acting in accord with what one feels would find the perversities that cause so much pain and suffering. Theft. Murder. Rape. Sadism. Cruelty. Deception. Violence. Intimidation. Manipulation. Its intersting that the night before last I dreamt after no dreaming for a while. I forgot to describe the dream upon waking but I do recall that I had a conversation with Mary and although I was in general kind to her I advised her firmly that it was time for to pay for what she has done. I presume that I was refering in the dream to what she did to drain off my assets and to separate me from my children. This all took on new perspective after I saw how much pain my daughter feels because I was ot there in her middle years from 5 to 16. I felt compelled by that experience to do whatever I can to put an end to these gross interferences by a gang of people who I can only describe as not only deluded fools

but weaklings and cowards who rely on the strength of numbers to violate others in the name of noble goals which I see as nothing but thinly disguised selfish ambition and greed - let me say it is egotism and illusion. I dont know what it means for Mary to pay for what she did but I do know that she more than anyone else is directly responsible for the draining off of my assets and my separation from my children which are closely reelated. She is not alone in responsibility. I see Gail as having a very important role in both the impoverishment and the separation. There are others too who may have and some who must have had a role but it is Mary and Gail who made the decisions and conducted themselves as they did who together are the direct cause of the impoversihment and separation. It is currently happenning with Hunter so the way I see it Mary is continuing and she needs to be stopped. Futhermore, the incident in Summerlin that brought on so much pain for Laini is to me quite unforgivable. It has gone on too long and now it must be stopped. Then last night I dreamed again and again I forgot to write down my recollections on waking but I do recall that there was a conversation with Bill where I feel that I put it all on the table with nothing held back but can give it no better definition than that. Then there was sort of plain sort of house where I heard the news that I had won some sort of lottery that was worth a great deal of freedom of choice. Bill has a different affect on my life than Marys but the conduct has been very similar. Relentless cruel criticim, verbal abuse, physical violence, criminal assault, theft of property, invasion of privacy, constant scrutiny, disturbance of the peace of my home and severe limitations of my free choice. Now I feel I face the same fate of having my assets drained off while Bill acts to intentionally distract me from the task at hand. I see the same sort of tactics. There was a time when I looked at all of this and put aside my personal disdain for what I consider to be deplorable conduct in the belief that these people are motivated by noble aspirations and have engaged in what would normally be reprehensible conduct but which I have accepted because it

seemed their goals were so important as to justify extreme measures. Thats all changed. I now have experienced the transition from sensory to psychic guidance and with this comes the embrace of my conduct as inspired direclt by psyche. I feel total and utter revulsion for the conduct of these people and will no longer passively accept it or shall I say I will no longer excuse it because of their possible motivations. My inner feeling is now that there is no justification that I can accept for this type of conduct and that the conduct is not any more indicative to me of a high level of spiritual evolution but in fact is no more than a thin disguise for egotism and selfish disregard for the life of other beings - in particular the innocent three children and others. I would like to know how to stop them actively but I dont know how to do it. The best I can do as far as I can see is to separate myself from them and erae\se my trail so they cannot impress themselves upon my senses. That means going into seclusion somewhere. If I wish to avoid the difficulties and limitations of seclusion then I must find a way to bring collective pressure to bear upon these people to stop them and the obly way I can think of is to use the legal system. 11/06/97 8:18 PM Psyche may in fact be conveniently symbolized as a network of interconnected autopoetic systems that are self replicating, self organizing and sustain themselves via internal feed-back loops. For example, I find that the act of writing acts as an internal feedback loop that nourishes the autopoietic psychic structure that I write about. How about that. Psyche evolves. This means that when experienced in the full dimensionality of integral time, psychic displays the properties of successive transformations. Rational. Physical. Taoic. Prajnic. 11/06/97 9:28 PM Its fuckin true. When I fuckin write I tend to feel good about myself. I tend to feel good. I tend to feel whole. I tend to feel complete. Satiated. Fulfilled. Lately I have found myself feeling

less than good at times and I attribute that to the conduct of the violent and abusove invader whose patterns of activity impressed upon my sense I am reprelled by. Prajnic repulsion. When I write for some reason I become more aware of just what my identity is instead of being aware of the ugly distorted images that are communicated to me by the abusive and violent angry unstable invader.