For me, now is forever, with this final medium of discourse in completion for this subject matter, it lets

myself have free-will of spreading realizations of my learning experiences, some forethoughts of what will happen and seek appreciation to others as I fully extend my arms with these simple embracing words to people who have been part of--my not so far success; from the depths of hardships and failures and to the sunny days of this phase of must-attain status in the present time, in the midst of uncertainty and curiosity of what life must cater. I want to have this opportunity to give thanks to everything that stayed beside me through all matters. This wouldnt be possible if not without some specific persons: First, He from up above the heavens who always share His glory and blessings to me, my family, friends and loved ones He who gave and continuously giving me strength and protection every now and then, every waking-up mornings. I want to thank God for everything. For giving me my family that provides me shelter and all the support they could offer. For my friends that shared their shoulders to lean on, their hands to hold on to and even their food to eat with.

To other loved ones who have been sharing their selves to be my inspiration. And of course, I want to give God a huge thanks for giving me another set of mothers, first Dr. Carlos and now Dr. Magsalin they are an enormous gift from God, such an inspiration to have, there is no unit that could measure nor words to explain all the things they have given us, the love, care and concern, the sacrifices and efforts just to make us better and hone us according to what is necessary for our growth and development, thank you for nurturing and giving us the greatest nature to have an efficient learning. Again, I want to thank everyone from the deepest part of my heart. Thank you!

 Climbing the Ladder of Success A metaphorical phrase that means, varied ways of reaching goal. Dream, Believe and Survive Setting aims and having perseverance, faith and prudence to attain goal. Personal Experience
The moment-to-moment experience and sensory awareness of internal and external events.

Student Teacher
4th year BS Education Student practitioner applying his/her Tertiary level learnings.

Cooperating Teacher Experienced teachers employed to supervise student teachers or teacher

interns in affiliated schools.

 Cooperating School
An
affiliated school where interns of BS Education students practice

teaching skills.

Pupils

Learners or attendees of formal education in an institution.

Motivation
A psychological feature that arouses an organism to act towards a desired goal and elicits, controls, and sustains certain goal directed behaviors.

Lesson Plan Blueprint of the teaching flow of a teacher. Guide for teaching. Faith Confidence or trust in a person or thing, or a deity or in the doctrines or
teachings of a religion. It may also be belief that is not based on proof.

This study provides a sum of personal experiences on events that had happened to me for months of active participation and immersion, as I put my learning into life. As I do my practicum--from identifying my cooperating school, meeting my cooperating teacher, meeting my students for the first time, knowing my students, first time of teaching in the class and a whole lot more I will lay basically all that I have recollected thoughts, ideas, feelings, experiences and learning both from internal and external factors. They say its hard to start, I say its harder to put things to an end. Every time new challenges arrive to people, they tend to explore their selves with different questions like how to start, what to do, when to do this in pursuit for the accomplishments. These questions are essential. What affects a person much that hinders its will to continue and pursue its task is a large portion of what if questions. From the moment that these questions start to bother the mind of a person, every single deep-seated ideas on ways of executing actions will be put on queued way back behind everything else, and there, without prior notice, procrastination ate the whole system of ones being. Fear to start and what will happen, triggers delay of success. In this paper, I will share how I recovered from this way of thinking, how I overcame barriers on my initiative to work.

Being conceived in a passive and radical society is not easy for everyone. And finding bliss as a means of motivation to escape the roots of all the burdens, people tend to search for things to put in mind and set it as a goal for them to feel safe for their selves. Same with any other people I, Christopher, also longs for something that would make me satisfy as a well-being. But before that I would like to define dreams, these are set of goals and ideas you want to attain in the future. When I was a kid, I dreamt of great things that I want to have when I grow up;a big house to live with my Mama, Daddy, Arvin my little brother, ate Rachelle, Tito Nonoy and other relatives whos been so attached to me and I want them to be close to me no matter what, have a car to drive so I can go to different places, and also, so I can take my parents to places theyve never been before and for them not to be tired of walking, have plenty of foods so that I would never leave myself, my brother and sister put to hunger again, have better clothes so that my family would not feel insecure to the

expectations of our surroundings. As I child I never knew what these dreams means just
to attain at least one. Its just a mere impossibility. As a child, I never knew that these things would even consume my whole life just to make my family feel safe within me. I never knew what responsibility I was trying to pursue. A safe haven for the creative mind

of a child. And this is because kids, just like me before are just wild dreamers. Dreaming of what seems pleasurable in our senses. As a child things were not serious, there was even this instance that I can no longer remember that when we were with our relatives I suddenly said, gusto ko maging ganyan, pointing to a Jollibee crew wiping the fast foods clear window glasses. But as I grow older dreams seems to be more legit in the eyes of my skills, abilities, capacities and possibility of attaining one. Guided with my childhood dream, I continued it but in a more sensible and reachable manner. Slowly, as I trim down and segregate impossible and possible dreams: First, I want to be an artists, not referring to what specific field because of not having much knowledge to define what I really want, after hanging out with my uncle, he is a painter, I finally realized that I want to be a painter. But then I found out that Im no good with anything about shapes and colors, or maybe no one pushed me to pursue anything? Who knows? Next, I want to be an engineer because some of my cousins and uncles are great engineer. Then I left and dropped that dream somewhere from the past that I can no longer see it.

After that I want to be a doctor, because one uncle of mine is also a known doctor in our place and I think he earns a lot. But they said thats one expensive course to study. So again I gave that up, same with being a pilot having similar grounds. And, finally as I weave my future, I hold a promise for 3 years that Ill become a chef and own a restaurant, making it successful and become a first -class resto in the metro. I said to myself that I will study Hotel and Restaurant Management. Until Ive reached the key to collegiate degree, my graduation to high school. As Ive mentioned I always feel lack of support from my parents because they are too busy fixing the family or otherwise, so from that moment I felt more pressure and expectations, disappointments. One day a clear message was thrown right into my face, that time my older sister was studying in a high-end university, shes taking up BS Nursing, so my parents have to pay a lot for her. My dad keeps on telling us to be frugal for us to save a lot of money, because it is all for us. But we didnt see any progress in it, because we put ourselves in the state of frugality but my dad only wastes his money to liquors, cigarettes and to his self-proclaimed friends. I know in the first place that I dont want to give my parents problems and burdens because thats one of my goal so I was tentative about my decision of being a chef because even if that is cheaper than my other dreams still that is expensive to attain. But what hurts more is to hear the fact that my dad doesnt want to invest on my college, he told me eh pano si arvin? that was my younger brother. Its

like my hearts crushing to death when someone specially my dad deters me in my dream. So I had to look up for other schools where I can study, I changed my 3 -year plan, there I was stuck in the middle of taking risk, I decided I want to be an accountant, I applied at PUP-Taguig and Pamantasang Lungsod ng Muntinlupa (PLMun) . I passed PLMun but I was not able to comply on my final interview because I have sidelines during that time to earn, so Ive got no choice but to hope for the best on my PUPCET result. Result came in and it is barely passing. I was fooling myself during that time that it was good even if I know that people around me knows that its no good, I didnt reach BSA quota so I tried M.E instead during that time Im one the last 8 persons to be interviewed, I didnt know they were just testing your eagerness to pursue the course,

so I left I didnt why I did I do that, it just happened. Next thing I know I was one of the
last 12 students at PUP Taguig waiting to be accepted on the last course available, that was Bachelor of Science in Secondary Education. I grabbed the opportunity even if I dont like the course because I felt that this is better than none. I have to stay there than stay at home doing nothing. And despite of the fact that I am just a leftover I know still in myself I have the potentials, its just missing its fit. So there I was back in the corner of the past misled, confused, staying on a dream I never dreamt of having. An impossible dream that once I wished shouldnt happen.

Believing is an instinctive state of mind where you put trust into something or someone hoping for something to happen. Sometimes life is not what you expect it to be, but that doesnt mean it has nothing to offer. Silver liningsit is a phrase I started to tag in my life since the time that fear consumed me, from the moment I had agonies in my choice to have doubts on the result of the products of my efforts and eventually loss of perseverance, values, motivation and every single thing that makes me wake up on each mornings, even the inspiration was lost the family, its like a one way process: I should do things just not to waste time. The only thing that kept me moving is my breathing. I had to do things in a manner of routine. What I did on the early stage of my college life is search for temporary happiness, but thank goodness I found good friends as a supply of pleasure and I havent gone insane that I have to break my life just because I think Im broken, why is it so?. It is because inside me I still have hopes to hold on to. I knew that at the end of the road therell be light. As time went by, I continued believing that life has more to offer, so my grips held tighter on the rope of hope, and slowly things got brighter. Lights started flickering everywhere and from that I knew God did not let go of me. Even if this is not the path I think I should be.

Maybe it is my calling. As people try to define this misfortune. Since I already have enough illuminating candlelit I needed to travel along and continue the ambiguous and bamboozled track that I am taking, I still continued and never stopped for anything or anyhow. Things got more difficult and even getting worse but the feeling inside is still there that I must continue. So I did continue my walk. Pain was severe but I think it was nothing and I was even able to recover fast and be better on a different battlefield I accidentally got into. For once, twice and even many times I found myself believing that I can! For the fact that I did not choose this but still I can. Its because some things just dont simply happen by choice sometimes its about the chance, and since it is a chance youve got no choice but to go along to its strong current, because youve got no one to blame to because no one wish things to happen,

and because it just happened on its own. And all youve got to do is do your part and act
it out, do your best and be the best you can be. Life is full of ups and downs. For you to win its game is to be who you are be happy of what you are and be contented of what you have, be more thankful on what will you soon possess because everything you see or feel is just borrowed.

Be low so you wont step on anybody, but not too low because you might be the
one being stepped on. Be high so you can easily give thanks to the one above who gave you your life, but not too high that you can no longer see who really is above you.

I woke up finding myself preparing for school and when I arrived at PUP, everything felt so different. Everybody in the class changed. Everybody acted so strangely-good. Everybody acted so fine, their movements, the way they talk, everything. As I gladly observe my peers I sat on a random chair near my clique and I was surprise with myself. I was part of a new era of primates closely intact in that enclosed learning facility and firm and proper, like what educated ones should act. I rejoiced within me that I was part of the development. Everybodys sharing the same thought that that maybe just a dream. We are on last year on our course. We are sophomores. It never felt so uplifting that weve reached something that is beyond expectations after all the things that our class have been through. Our minds were all set to give a blast on this last full year of our togetherness. In this year we had our full first and last participation to the organization and we truly had fun. But like any other year studying is not always fun or enjoyment about leisure. It is also about seeking knowledge and development by all means whether something good or bad had happened one must find learning from it.

In this final opportunity I will no longer let go of the things that is mine. Chances had its turn, now its my choices turn to have its limelight. Ive started my year actively and lively in the organizations activities. I can say that I was a good shot, I may not be able to win but still I enjoyed everything with a congregation colleagues. Its really nice to be known by other people and for you to be their inspiration is a great compliment a simple activity could offer. Like what John Lennon said, Time you enjoy wasting was not wasted. I believe that learning is everywhere it just need certain ways how to get one. And one of the ways is the proper disposition. When I was up on stage Ive gained confidence and trust on myself. Since Ive gained what lacks in me to go to the wild truth of the teaching field then I am ready to execute all the methods, strategies and techniques Ive learned from the two Doctors. That is why I love them so much. That was one session with the BSED class, where we were distributed to major cooperating schools in Taguig, and I was sent to Upper Bicutan National High School, a name the renounced by the previous Practicumers because of their fear to deal with the rumored bad teachers from that school. Bravely Ive said to my classmates, who cares if they are not nice and accommodating in manner? Even if the rumors were true I would still continue because I never did reach what I was during that time if I did not do well and I trust myself for that, I trust my mind, heart and skills for that because the two

doctors are the one who skillfully honed and shaped us to young professionals and I trust them for that because I know they trust me too. All together in Amarras lead we went to Upper Bicutan National High School, we had our conversation with Maam Dolor she is the English Head Department, she is accommodating and willing to help us with our concerns. She let us choose whom we want to be our Cooperating Teachers. Mrs. Lagasca, my Cooperating Teacher. That was a Monday morning when it happened that the schedule given to me for that day was wrong I arrived there 5:00 a.m to reach the 5:30 a.m but unfortunately her schedule is 6:30 a.m. I engraved what the Doctors always say. If you cant come on time come before the time. And Im sure that I accomplished that the first day. As I wait for Mrs. Lagasca my Co-Practicumers, one by one disappears as they go with Cooperating Teachers. I was really nervous as my Co-Practicumers meet their CTs because all of their CTs are nice. I was the only one left in the faculty room, waiting in vain for my CT. There I met Mrs. Mendiola, she has one bold face so I was quite threatened to her. But then after we converse with each other I found out that she is a really funny person and I wish she was my CT unfortunately she is a math major. A big woman came in then Mrs. Mendiola suddenly speaks, oh, ST mo.

Then I quickly greeted Mrs. Lagasca a pleasant morning. And she tremored to me, ANO BA YAN AYOKO NGA NG ST EH! I had no choice but to be quiet. Before we went up to our class. She noted my schedule, and she gave me hers. I dont know what would be the sense of that because the whole semesters she didnt even bother look up my schedule. She gave me briefings. Like I should not be late. But as I observe her on my no absences stay in my cooperating school she is always late. As we approach our next class, she murmured and lets me hear her, BAKIT KASI GRADE SEVEN PA? TIGNAN NATIN TAPANG MO! I want to break that time, but for me to gain respect I should be professional, I shouldnt cry in front of her, I need to be calm and collected. As I sat at the back corner of her classroom I stare at her and her class to start my observation then I can see her rolling her eyes at me. Back to the faculty, she doesnt talk to me. And as a Practicumer I should have the initiative to help her. So I offered my help. And unexpectedly she gave all paper works she can give me. Like arrange and sort out Birth Certicates of Students, their Form 137, then after I do that without rest she would give me another set of papers. She told me to record all the papers. Those papers were kept and not yet recorded, those papers covers two quarters of the students year. The first semester was a total wrecked for me because I always feels sick because of the task she keeps on giving me and I cant even tell her if I can I have rest

because I was shy. Because sometimes I cant find her she just disappear and sometimes I see her roaming around the faculty stretching her arms and saying AAAAAH NAKAKAPAGOD even though shes not doing anything and next thing I know she is sleeping. But what else can I possibly do Im the one who is asking some favor, so I must have an uncomplaining nature, I always follow her and talk to her as if she is an authority. Semestral Break saved me from the stress. Start of second semester arrived, and it means more effort than the first one. I was wrong when I was thinking that this will be more difficult, because there is a sudden change with Maam Lagasca she got tender and caring and she would want me to be with her always. When she first saw me teach she left teaching on all of her classes with trust. She never fails to help me improve my techniques. With that feeling I felt that my effort on the first semester paid off. There are even instances we just chat outside the faculty about anything. And

she even told me ones that she considers me like a brother only.
Things got better and happier on my stay on the second semester. Im even thankful that she understands my condition when I said I have to go. But I made sure I was able to teach everything my students need before I leave.

 Dreaming is believingset goals you want to attain in life that no matter what
dream that might you will eagerly grab and reach by all good means.

No

matter how hard life could be, never let anyone tell you that you cant do

anything, especially yourself, because we are all capable of doing something as long
as we start believing that we can.

Frustrations wont bring improvement to a person it would just break him into pieces.
Get over all your problems, solve them right away, find answers to questions you have inside your mind and heart for you to have the perfect state, condition or

disposition for you to reach you goal.

Success is not the quantitative achievement of an individual, it is the quality of ones

well-being, his/her contentment, maturity, happiness, satisfaction on task and doing the best he/she could.

Savage

days are over if you want to be human; be civil, be humane. Civilized

humans are educated ones, people who can give right judgments and can control
right emotions and he who can execute his thoughts to movements, words or symbols that are generally accepted in the society.

Optimism is the key to Success.