My Center:

The root of myself never really existed as it exist in others. Most behavior for me is or was rooted in
habit, wisdom and my gifts. Experimentation on myself disturbed the flow between my creator and
myself. Wisdom was replaced by a mental illness &/or reaction(s), gifts were lost due to lack of practice
and direction and habit was impossible to changing conditions or addictions. At a certain level where sin
is not deliberately practiced gifts can enter or be maintained. When I wanted to see what I could do
without God or family, it was because those concepts were warped. However now church and God are
solidified in a holy yet practical state
for me now. I am no longer lost and self consumed as others. At this place my existentialism can
combine with God’s determinism synthesizing a “call”. The Matters or their family concept of God or the
Tao or nature or magic do not interfere. Occult, mysticism, philosophy, comparative religion are now
futile. Sociology and psychology I call into question as sciences as well as science itself as pride is
replaced by self respect. All the world’s systems and methods thereof are not my concern as no
worthy science will unite it all or as I may be the author of how to repent or perform penance as
opposed to how to sin more effectively pretending there is no God or truth to make a difference. I can
never fully unite with such a world. Some I tried to love were created for this world, but I am not. At this
point salvation of sanity is found in Jesus Christ, not Jung or Nietzche or Darwin or Marx or
Frued/Skinner. There is no synthesis or lowest common denominator of religion unless Christendom
failed to exist then it would be expiation of negative or misdirected energy as karma by human works.
In their world magic and religion began as one and are no different with the premise my will be done.
Beginning with the political or Wiccan law of harm not. So far this has been a great waste of time, except
to have the ability to redirect sinners.
In martial arts Hinduism gave birth to Yoga and Ishinryu which travelled to China for the birth of Kung
Fu with Buddhism and Taoism which travelled to Japan with karate and Zen Buddhism. Likewise
Hinduism came from Zoroastrianism also with Jainism and Sihkism all of which are karmatic or human
work oriented forms of mysticism to impress a diety, deities, henotheism or family oriented shrine
polytheism based.
From Judaism came Christianity then Islam claimed origins in both later, but with
karmatics from the East therefore Sharia laws were cruel as deterrents and to expiate negative acts aka
karma. From Christianity came the Roman Catholic Church which later schisms created the ethnic
Orthodox churches and later schisms the Protestant Revolt/Reformation starting with Lutheran,
Presbyterian/Calvinist, (Ana)Baptist, Anglican/Episcopal, Methodist and different groups from the last
three in subcultures. Later movements from Baptist or Methodist produced Seventh Day Adventist,
Jehovah’s Witness, Christian Scientist and Mormons which some term “cults” or cultic. The Protestant
Movement focused on grace which through later movements again became more action oriented as
karmatics of Eastern mysticism, Islam or Hinduism in difficulty, especially in Holiness movements
towards sinless states. Out of Holiness or Methodist came some of the KKK and ironically AME.
Now is the time to trust God for guidance through Jesus Christ mediation or try balancing all of this.
The sociological principle of dialectics can be seen at work as well as a lot of human denial as a
psychological mechanism of defense in the Fruedian terms, but at a certain point human reason must
surrender to faith even without clear definition for its survival. Modern Wiccan leaders or the Church of
Satan by LaVey or Crowley all destroy their followers in that no level of magic can be maintained to
coordinate your and human affairs to a desireable result with sanity still being a result. Therefore throw
away the occult even to the Goetia or Kabbala. The root of all magic started with divination as some
used the I Ching or Horoscopes yet it started from the same root as gambling by throwing and reading
bones before there were dice. At the other end politically Socialist(s) or Communist plan every detail
based on resources as Democrats. The deeper we go into freedom without God or trust in him then
the greater the bondage or oppression or addiction.- William F. Matters Jr.
Schizo Yet Effective: If we do not flaunt our strength in front of the weak there is no

shame. We can’t carry everybody else’s burden or make sacrifices for their faith

or for their absence of faith since everybody is a little different especially in a sin

cursed world. Structure is great if it leads to freedom and not chaos. Life is purely

mathematical in effect for us. Pills that make you drowsy, coffee to counter and a

cigarette for continuity.