betsisanders' paintings ... some paintings are my versions copied from originals by other artists. thank you for giving me inspiration to create my version. may you be blessed for sharing your talent with me. the prose that accompany my paintings are my thoughts and feelings. may people learn from what i write and somehow be calm and peaceful when viewing my paintings. love lots, betsisanders
betsisanders' paintings ... some paintings are my versions copied from originals by other artists. thank you for giving me inspiration to create my version. may you be blessed for sharing your talent with me. the prose that accompany my paintings are my thoughts and feelings. may people learn from what i write and somehow be calm and peaceful when viewing my paintings. love lots, betsisanders
betsisanders' paintings ... some paintings are my versions copied from originals by other artists. thank you for giving me inspiration to create my version. may you be blessed for sharing your talent with me. the prose that accompany my paintings are my thoughts and feelings. may people learn from what i write and somehow be calm and peaceful when viewing my paintings. love lots, betsisanders
Title: Woman & Flower Medium: Acrylic on Canvas Size: 24 x 24 inches Artist: betsisanders 2012
Wishes and dreams are two different things. A wish is something your mind wants, needs or desires. A dream is something that your heart or subconscious wants, needs or desires. When you wish, you are unsure of the outcome. However, when you dream, you have a clear picture of what you desire, you set your mind and heart to achieving your goal, finally, fulfilling your dream. You can let go of a wish but you can't let go of your dream, and your dream won't let you go. (betsisanders 2012)
It was once a wish to learn how to paint, until it became a fulfilled dream.
These two paintings were part of a group painting exhibit last April 1 to 30, 2012 at Chef Jessie, Amorsolo Square, Amorsolo Drive, Rockwell, Makati City. See you there! Title: Ballerina in Motion Size: 5 x 7 inches Medium: Acrylic on Canvas [ my version, copied from an original painting ] What to do, what to do at dawn, when sleep evades me... My kind of art, from an aspiring visual artist, a newbie. "a Young newbie artist imitate, while the professional ones steal!"
It's been more than ten years since I started painting.... "To paint a picture" was part of my bucket list. I was 40 then and my mom had just died. Painting gave me the solace I needed. Painting was hours of silence, breaks from my crying episodes, that filled the emptiness, alleviated my pain (physical emotional and spiritual pain) and provided comfort when no one else could.
I am not a gifted painter. I have not perfected the techniques taught by my art teacher. I lack the dexterity and the patience to create detail, light and shadow, texture and depth. I search the Internet for inspiration and then I imitate, create my own version, add a 'bit' of my style, sign the painting and claim it as my own.
I am not a gifted writer. In every painting I make and post in my blog, I write something about it; something that happened to me that day; my thoughts and feelings which may or may not have anything to do with the painting or just about anything that comes to my mind.
Simple paintings, simple words, when put together become one, an expression of my soul whom I have named betsisanders. / betsisanders 2012
Finished simple art work at dawn. Instead of sulking and feeling the pain, I sketch , draw and paint. Life is a challenge but it has always been good to me! Title: Naked Ballerina Medium: Acrylic Size: 5 x 7 inches Artist: betsisanders ... my human experience What else can be more human than pain? Sleepless nights, physical pain, tears. (chronic pain syndrome & fibromyalgia). Today, my body is challenged with this most human experience.
I create ... Thats how I stop the pain.
My thoughts today ....Friends come and go. I let go of some friendships. It was a letting go of someone for my own good, and in the process I gained something better. I am relieved and glad that I cropped those frenemies out of my life. I am quite sure they feel the same way. I had done them a favor. By letting frenemies go, other friends are now back in my life. I've made room for those who matter now. By creating space, I allowed others to fill up the holes those frenemies created. It can be called 'weeding', or 'removing the chaff from the grain', 'throwing out the bad seeds'. 'Amputations', 'cutting the cords', 'turning your back and never looking back', 'closing the doors and keeping them shut'! But what about with family? Did the same thing but it is easier with frenemies. There are no connections that bind me with frenemies unlike with family.
Art is the power of developing the soul. As I am at this moment of my life.... I shall leave with you creations of betsisanders, my soul. Love my work or hate it... Display it, keep it in your camphor chest, give it away, burn it or throw it. It doesn't matter. I have given you the best gift. Each creation is a big part of myself . Stay well, be well, and maybe, you shall remember me fondly, maybe we shall meet again some time, somewhere, someday... if not in this lifetime, maybe in the next.
A lot of my FB friends liked the naked ballerina. OMG.. pressure! Hmmmm I have to make something better, something different.. sooo stressful! ... I have to outdo my own self, out shine my last work.
If you don't like the next few paintings, that's alright. Making them helped me survive some sleepless nights, my painful episodes.... 14 trigger points due to fibromyalgia acted up at the same time. I asked my son to rub my back, neck, arms and hands and place cool blue ice gel. After a taking my meds, I hid under the covers because it was too cold, then i dozed off to sleep. Shortly after, about thirty minutes later, my medcines have taken effect and I am back to being 'normal'. Functional enough to face the world again, able to smile and laugh, as if nothing happened. Then I continue working on my art projects.
Thanks to technology, to those brilliant scientists, those intelligent doctors who are able to manage my physical pain. May God bless you more, so more people may benefit and be healed...... Love love love, betsisanders 2012
"I long for silences with another where there is nothing to forgive or explain or justify, where we agree to abandon quickly spoken words for a time so we do not abandon ourselves or each other, the silences where no one asks me to choose between belonging to myself and being with the world. Oriah Mountain Dreamer
Don't you just love this piece from Oriah? She puts together simple words so beautifully. She doesn't use flowery, oratorical words. She is not like other writers who use highfaluting terms that are often incomprehensible!.
Oriah talks about silence, a shared silence. That is how friendships should be. To be able to understand the other's silence is a true test of friendship. Going for long periods of time without a phone call, an SMS or even an email from old friends, yet still feel connected to each other. That kind of friendship is priceless, precious. I thrive on this kind of relationship. These birds hum. Let us try to do that too. Thirteen years ago, I was "enveloped with overwhelming sadness" after my mom's demise. That's when I started painting. There were days when all I did was cry, and it lasted for an entire month.... Until one morning, I heard myself humming a tune, that's when I realized that Ive healed. One of the authors I quoted in my blog said, "Find Joy in what you do and sing it out. betsisanders 2013
To laugh as often as I can To giggle or chuckle .. not whimper, sob or weep .. and hope to never shed another tear. To grab every chance on happiness To dance to the music that life plays To sing or hum along with life's melodies To receive all that life gives me To accept, even if it breaks my heart To learn from these heartaches To grab every opportunity to make myself a better, more caring and more loving individual, To gain and benefit from life's blessings To endure the suffering caused by failed relationships To bear the pain from the holes in my heart To allow others to mend and fill up these holes To heal and forgive fast
To never be angry, hurt, or lonely To never despair or lose hope To love more those beautiful persons who love me back To not fear death, instead ... start living To want or desire some things ... and let the universe help in obtaining all these wishes To pray and always be thankful To someday be with loved ones who have gone ahead To take my place, my reserved seat, beside my Creator To be remembered by you To be kept in your heart always To know that my purpose and journey Has brought meaning in your life. So dear friend, stay safe When the time comes that I cannot be with you Keep me in your heart .... remember me in every drop of rain That's me, crying ... every teardrop comes from my loving heart.