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QO-FIXJNDER/OrnrCron Christopher B. Dunn

t'{r. Iee W. C,aylord JCCLC'8200Fenceline
Jefferson city tt{o 65101
TNSTITUTTCD{ALOOORDII\IAIOR
Christopher A. Hargrave

INSTIT\.EIOD{AL DIRECION
Eric C. Wright
CCITIRTBUTTNGDIRECTORS
Lorna Mitchell
Esther S. Grobe
K.S. Caprood
L. Daniels
J. Micheal
Elizabeth tvticheal

LETS When striving for your goals it should

nct be done in a way ttnt interferes wi-th
ALL your natural strnntaneity, ror should being
spontaneous and going with the flow of life
SAVE interfere with living your life and seeing
your dreams csne true.
THE

CHILDREN Each person reeds to fintl their balance

between striving for their goals and
HUIVIANITY enjoying life. Iets aII save tlre children,
hunanity and lets not forget that we have'
AND the ability to needle our creative energry
and contribute back to srciety.
NEEDLE
This nay just be our last ctrance to do so.
CREATIVE

ENERGY
 L.A.S.T.C.H.A.N.C.E., Iets A11 Save The Children Hunanity And Needle Cteative
Errergy, was created frcrn a thought and a longing &sire to try reaching out
to the troubled youths and teens l*ro have been misguided or negatively held
imprisoned by their daily influences and surrounding elenrents of sriminal
behaviors ttrat nay lead them to the crcnfires of a prison, or r^,orst death
prernature death.

In the year of 2002 I was introduced to a very good friend wtro later assisted
nre in tlre developing of this prognam. I once wrote Mr. Lee C,aylord, expressing
my croncern and need to provide a service that I knew and felt would be a
useful and beneficial crontribution to the youth and society if adopted and
practiced by the participa.nts and roe crcntinued to forrmrlate a plan to nake
this dream beccne a reality. I strongly believe t},at we aII as a vfiole have
a responsibility to insure ttrat we extend our hands to the falling and assist
than up from the pitfalls in our society and those wtro have fallen victim
to the ills of their own individr:al ignoranc'e that may lead or led them to
prison. I strongly believe that if we continue to allovr our brothers and
sisters, our sons and daughters, our nieces and neptews, uncles and auntst
go through life without giving them the love, respect, and farnily support
then r^e wiII have failed them and they will in turn seek this gift elsevrhere
whrich qould lead to regative influences in their lives.

We as a people, a nation, a body of great intelligence must crcne to fully

understand ttrat without each other assisting one another we are doomed and
society will be nothing without hunanity to exist within it.

I said hr:rnanity because we are a people, a strong and beautiful creation

of Gods roork, and we have been created in Gods inage, the body of the world.
We are hunan, a family r:nknown to each other, but wtro strive for the colTrnon
reasons and goals in life.

L.A.S.T.C.H.A.N.C.E. \.,as founded on 12 fundamental ctnracteristics, vihich

if applied to your daily thought and action you will find your worth, value,
and understand your purpose in life better. You as a ird.ividual have to be
willing to want to nake a change in your life, it rm:st start with you and
you first mr:st cone to accept the fact that you are rpt perfect and you too
nake mistakes, but you're willing to learn frorn themr you must be willing
to take responsibility for your indj-vidr:al actions and be willing to a&nit
to your self ttrat you have a problern and need help in order to nake a change.

Tkris program wiII not r,sork if you do rpt horestly put forth the sincere effort
to nake it work for you.

I have seen many yowrg nales and fenales faII victim to prenature death
a1I because of their pride, selfishress, inconsideration of others, and sorne
rnay have escaped a prernature death but they later found thenselves in prison.

This just rnay be your last chanc.e to get your life in order, if not you may
end up in tioo places you don't ever want to be, prisons and graveyards.

Founder/Chairrnan
Christopher B. Dunn

L.A.S.T.C.H.A.N.C.E.
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 WHERE DO WE START, HERE & NOW
TODAY, FOR OUR TOI'IORROWAND FUTURE

Dear Friends and all readers:

r think these difficul-t tines of my past have helped ne to understand the

nature of my life better and understand better than before how infinitely
rich and beautiful life is in every lray and that so many things ttat people
gro through the world r,'orrying about are of no importance, becan:se they
have no faith, no faith in thernselves or any higher being, and because they
have no patience.

During the first 3 years of my exccnrnunication with society I sat back and
gave thought to what is it that nanwants out of life; vtrat is it that will
nake nran tappy, and wtrat is it ttr,at they yearn for and still it arnazes ne
that nan is so concerred with satisfying themselves ttrat they trave lost touch
with the real conception of life. I have learned to accept ltro I am and vtnt
I've beccne, I have learned to crcnsider and respect the needs and opinions
of others and I have learned that vrtren one door of happiness closes another
door will open. I understand the value of life now, and the mj-stakes of
putting my wants in life before my reeds.

This is our L.A.S.T.C.H.A.N.C.E. to set a positive example for the youth

of tonorrow, we must take the initiative steps for^ward to take
against our ov/n igrnorance, stupidity and selfish behavior. Renrenrberthis,
vtnt we do today wiII influence them tonxrrrow and the years to crcme. Ilae
decision rpw for you to nake is to decide vtrich path w:iII you take in teaching
and providing them the lessons needed in order to reach their goals.

Fifteen years later still nan has yet gnasp hold the importance of what we
did, dore and will do by nct taking full responsibility for our actions,
mistakes and influence on our future, CIJRchildren and htunanity and ClJRselves.

Christopher B. Dunn

We must acknowledge the problems, confront the issues, deal

with the situations and be willing to continue with one another
to meet our goals, w€ must do so toqether and know that we can
do anything that w e f o c u s our g r e a t e s t a t t e ntion on. The past
has shown us that a p e o p l e accomplish e v e n t h e i m possible with
only a little. As I've said before t o s o m e o n e , w € need not worry
about the mountain before us, and therers n o n e e d to destroy
it, it's only'a-chalJ-enge & can be overcane, but we must trave the faith and
the wiII and drive to reach the top.
 I AM NOT WITHOUT I'{ISTAKES
I AM NOT WITHOUT MY OWN PERSONAL FAULTS
YOUR ACTIONS IN THE PAST MAY AFFECT YOUR FUTURE

I wish to take this opportunity to share.with you a story a story that

nearly &stroyed nre but sqnehow it took a turn for the better, but nct without
claiming a few set backs.

I grew up like nrcst of you, in a typical home, crinre infested conununities,

vihere drugs, gangs, pimps, fast noney and girls were the order of the day
and all that natter at the tirne. I didn't use drug nor drink alcohol but
I had friends and family nembers who did and sone who pa.id with their lives.
I wasn't your typical kid nor thought like the average eleven year old, and
most will teII you that for my age I was far to advanc.e then nost kids of
my age. Irve spent tine in Saint Louis, l4ississippi and Chicago, the only
son of my nrother and the youngest son of my father, r gruess you could say
that I had an okay life, but trust me my }ife was far frorn being just okay.

I have always been a qrnfident person and strong willed in aII that
I believed in, but there were tines that I wasn't sure about a lot of things
in my life, I wasn't sure if I would have children, if I would ever be a
husband soneday and the saddest of them all is I wasnrt even sure if I would
live to see my dreams crcrnetrue or live to see my sisters, nieces and nephews
grow into iren and wofien.

I didn't grrow up poor but we did live in public housing, there r^,ere tines
ttrat we weren't able to afford a lot of the best things and at tines I did
have to accept what was handed down to ne, Iike all young kids I rejected
it and vuanted better, the rnnre brancl clothes and high priced shoes, but I
wasn't paying for them so I didn't have a choic"e or say in the natter, but
I did have the deterrnination to get out there and start providing for myself
as I found out wasn't a easy thing to do at a yor:ng age. I resorted to shop-
lifting (boosting) with one of my eldest brotlrers and his nany fenale friends
at the local stores, never did I get arrested but at the tinre I wasn't really
concerned with if I did because I was a juvenile and I knew the roorst the
systern crculd have done to ne was send ne away to a youth facility group honre
or place IIE on probation. After aII of this & my disorderly conduct I later
fotrnd myself neeting my fate to the system,'but all this would later change
how I would start to feel about myself and future.

Like nany of you I too felt that I wasnrt appreciated at hone, loved, or
wanted, I often felt like I was nrere in the way then being in a farnily at
hone, I felt like I was the lone sheep, the insignificant one vtro was just
taking up space and thought my nrother and sisters r&ould rather see re gone
or be better off without rre, so I resorted to sleeping on tlre streets, staying
out late and living in tlre basenents of friends hones, I could Lave lived
in the cornpanyof my nother, father and sisters, but at the time I didn't

L.A.S.T.C.H.A.N.C.E.
feel as if they wanted ne there, so like rnrst of you I decided to live for
myself and move on with or without them, but this would later prove fatal
to my life and c.onception of life. I always had this influence over people
in ny ocnmunity and of my age bracket and even sonre older, that I learned
to use this to my advantage, not knowing that it vould later cone back to
haunt and alnpst kill ne. I was always a srnall child growing up, I was born
prenature and suffered frqn rashes and scars and rejection as a kid by fanily
nembers and honestly I didn't as a chitd thirrl< that I belonged or fit in
with my fanily so wtren I grew up I bonded rpre with the streets and people
of the nigtrt tlnt called the lights npther and the hard concrete father,
together these two I felt taught nre the harshest of vrtnt society had to offer
rne arld the crcld cnrel and realistic truth that couldn't be disputed with
or guestioned.

I later srea.ted a social family of my o\^,n, ran the city streets, going frorn
town to tovrn, traveling frorn state to state with a ntunber of them expanding
and growing my social affiliation range. I Iater got a taste of v*r,at my future
may be when my closet brother roas shot in the back and killed all because
of jealousy, drugs and false friends wtro actr:ally set him up. Tlris nade ne
rethink ard consider my own life and the effects my o!fir death merycause my
sisters, father, nrrther, nieces and rephews. I couldn't just gp around jtutping
on the bullies an)nrcre, or extorting drug dealers I disband nry group and
challenged myself, ctnllenged myself to see if I could live past my 15th
birthday, but ttat was alrnost a failed attempt because just into my 15th
year I was stabbed twice, once in the cfiest and in the neck, seeing my own
Iife fade away and watching the tears frorn my yor:ngest sister eyes fall scared
ne, hearing her beg God rpt to take ne, and watching my other sisters rush
out the house in pursuit of my father to nake sure te didn't Eo kiII the
guy that tried to kill ne I rpw real-ized tlnt they did love rre. I looked
upon the countless of faces ttrat stood outside our hore and saw people crying
and sone with disbelief ttrat ttre so called imfanrous King Trap was about to
die. While lying in the hospita\ ,, hooked up to tubes and needles in
both arms, I looked up at my nother and saw the pain in her eyes, I vowed
today I wasn't going to die, rpt }ike this, I had to fight to live, and had
found my place in life rpw.

I nade a cunplete 360 in life, I associated with people that I lsrew in

my past but I learned to appreciate life nxrre ard ftark God for each day
I am blessed to crontinr:e to live, I grew up in the middle of tvlo worlds,
stuck betroeen two types of lives, people, religions and two forms of v*nt
I ttrought was life, but I was misinforned, but this is how I got my naIIE,
being trapped and confused, feeling the need to be a leader and nct a follower
and not allovring others to dictate my life.

I later found out tlra! it was my owr fears, fears hidden deep down that
I suppressed for years that held ne back frorn living, I realized that I would
forever stay trapped if I didn't change my life, free myself frcrn the fears
of my past and accept God, and face life each day with a realistic, clear
and optimistic view, stop judging, persecuting and pushing my roeight on others
I had to take responsibility for my actions even those of my influences that
nay have resul-ted in others being harned.
 r know rnany of you have felt this way and nany of you nay stirr feel
that you have been held r:nder tlre foot of others, be it ramity, a faired
relationship or being teased or burried in the past, or being accused of
a crirne or arrestedrtreated bad by the police, I krow because I've been there
and still I fight to overccrne these problems, but to nre they are simple daily
obstacles, hurd"Ies- ttnt \^/e, you and I can overc€ne if we just put our heads
togetlrer and finO' a comnon clenorninator in our lives and focus more on ogr
negative energy into the ccrnplete sphere, we'Il be able to reach our own
individual goals.

I know you didn't choose this life, and nrost of you have been forced into
this life but now you have the chance to nake a difference and have a say
in what and how you will live this life, don't look at it in a pessirnistic
view, look at it rike it is, and that is "LrFE cHosE yo{J".

I can remember being 13 years old and allowing a guy into my nothers honre
and not knowing that this so called friend turned around and stole frorn ttre
house as he left, I later asked him to return the iterns, we had security
bars on the house and were told not to go outside so he srnpped and called
ne names, thinking he was protected because of the bars, but I allowed my
enotions to get the best of my logical reasoning, so I exited the house from
the side and surprised him and nrademy reguest one last tinre, he refused
and that's vrtren I struck him in the face, he returned hone, told his nethers
and father, they called the police and he lied and said I assaulted him on
his own front, I was arrested and charged with trespassing and second degrree
assault, I can recall being 14 years old and standing with a young lady and
her family vtrile to our surprise we noticed a guy climbing inside a window,
we thougttt it was a burglary but it turned out ttrat the guy raped the wornen,
I lived by that same so called street code " No snitching" but-the women
saw us standing outside and later asked her son vfiile I walked passed to
identify rne so that they could get sone infornation out of nre as to v*ro the
9uy vasr r told the guy r wrourd telr him, but not the porice, they got upset
and r was rater arrested for failing to herp the porice catch the gnry. r
stayed in jail for eight nonths, still I thought the guy r*culd avenge his
notlrer rape, but it didn't happen, but wtnt r am trying to get at is that,
this sanre wonEmwho was attacked then actually started to trate ne and years
Iater a srine happened at her honre again and she was one of them vfio nade
a false statenent against nre, despite my innocence she didnrt care, because
of the past. What you get is wtrat you giverreturned to nre.

I have now accepted the fact that I nade a nunber of rnistakes in life and
I know that in order for nre to free myself frorn the past I first rmrst take
responsibility for my actions. I can't allow anger, hatred or any ill will
thoughts dictate vfio I've becone. No natter v*rat happens to you you must
be willing to be t]:e bigger nnn/wornan and want to changer you have to
feel the need to ctrange, if r can do it despite arl that has happened
to nerso can you.

Thark you for ristening and giving me an ear to hear about my trnst, no\^ryou
must live to tell yours.

L.A.S.T.C.H.A.N.C.E.
 Think before you react
for every actions there's a reaction

The power of the individtrals thought process has been likened to that of
a rich garden, the soil of vtrich by organized and considerable efforts ntay
be converted into a necessary productive product and feed the need of a strong
grrowing society, or if neglected it wiII without a dor:bt yield a useless
weed entangling harming the value of tlre conrnr:nity. I trave for:nd that the
mind is always at work and rever taking a break frcnr building up and tearing
down, bringing misery, tuihappiness ard trnverty, or bringing joyrhapBiness
pleasure, riches and peace. It is never id1e, the rnind is the great-est of
all the assets available to nanlcind, but wtry is it the least used ard the
most abused of aII assets? Its abuse crcnsists nainly in its rpn-use.

During the passive reading hopefully you wiII cqne to acc-ept the logic in
vrtrat you've read and take it with you as you grohT $rrough life. I do not
profess to be a scholar rror do I hold a Doctors or Phd in philosophyr but
r do trave a understanding of logical/reasoning- L-A.S-T. c.H.A'N'c'E' was
an idea tfiat I had while sitting here, a simple thought that I felt a reed
to share with ottrers so th,at they crculd c.onreto accept the facts of reality
and not simply go through life, but grow through life.

I onc.e was a aviil reader and believer of science and during my studies I
grew more and nore interested in the developnent of the hurran mindr what
nrade us think, what nade us react to particular things and vtrat caused the
eternal effects of enptions, ild wtrile pondering for years I've come to the
realization that science tas revealed nany of natures nost profound secrets
but not the secrets of nan's grreatest sourc.e of riches, the po!.ler and abifity
to nct control an emotional thought. This is one secret wLrich has never been
revealed to nrarkind and probably wiII never be answered, PertraPs because
nrarkind tras shown such r:npardornble indifferences towards this great divine
bened.iction, and foolishly many trave tried to tane and control it but it
proved fatal to them. The pover of thought is the nxost dangerous or could
f. tfre npst berreficial of aII abilities available to nankind &pending of
course r4nn how it is used. Through the power of thought nran has crrnstructed
gr€t civilizations, inventions and great ocntributions to our society, but_
at the sane time one rm:st' nct forqet ttrat with this sane power man tras destroyed
otlrer nen and trampled &wn other-societies, DaVinci raas oire of these great
minds that had the ability to create such crrntributions to assist nan to
progress but vtro was rather used to sreate weapons to destroy other societies
as if tlrey rlrere helpless clay forms

I have for.rrd that, every creation of nan, wtrether it be good or badr it

is first created in a thougtrt pattern. A11 ideas are conceived tlrrough thought
and aII plans, and desires serve a ptrrpose. While we trave been given tlre,
privilege of thought we do nct have total cantrol of it, not to undermind
tlre fact ttrat we do have crcntrol of vfiat we choose to do from those thoughts,
so there is rp excuse as to wtry you or I done a foolish act. Threre is nc
justifications for sone of the things that we've done in our lives that have
altered our logical/reasoning thought process.

Please note tlnt in my evaluations I found that there are tr+o nrajor logical
fundanentals principles ttrat this attainnent can be reached;

L.A.S.T.C.H.A.N.C.E.
1, Inductive Reasoning- Ttre assr:rnption of the unknolrn facts or hypotheses

2, Deductive Reasoning- Thre known facts of wtnt is believed to be facts.

But I failed to take notice of the essence of the tr,urcand vtren I did I found
tlat there is another but can't be placed in the same filed of the two
above, so I found that in this evah:ation the theorization of IIGICAL
DGTaNATICI:{s. This gave rise to the reasoning/logic theory, dearing with
facts, takes these important steps as a neans of naking you think affective.
You must sepa.rate facts from fiction or hearsay evidence, wtrich is only an
assunption and speculations, and you then must separate into classes, wtat
is important and uninxrprtant.

Most of us don't think about vfiat we do, we just do it and tlrat is the problem
today, most people wouldn't be in sone of the sitr:ations their in if they've
sat down and gave careful and considerate thought to vtat it was tlrat they
were doing or was about to dor. rf we wourd have then we lrculdn't see so
nany in prison, so nany dead, so nany in debt, so many heading down those
12 steps ttat wiII destroy you. l4ost so-call thinking is nothing but an
expression of feelings through the enntions and the enxrtions are not
dependable. Thre reasonable/Iogic thinker always suLrnits his/her enotional
desires and decisions to their head for judiciary review and close exanination
before they rely on them as being sound. T'lre nore cornnonly expressed enotions
and the nxrre dangerous on that account are:
1, LOVE
2, FEAR
3, ANIGER
4, JEAT{XJSY
5, REVEN@
6, VAt{rry
7, GREm
B, PRE.IUDIG
9, SELETSHNESS
10, INCCNSIDERATE
11, IIATE
12, NO RESPESI

These 12 have taken many people down and destroyed their lives, and these
should always be controlled and always subjected to constant scrutiny. These
12 have the potential to rob you of your greatness and always they seek and
destroy any and all opportunities for achieving your Eoals.
 IN ORDER FOR ANY CHANGE
YOU },TUSTBE WILLING TO TAKE THE FIRST STEP

In my short life I have crne to learn that through my very own personal
Iife experiences that I am but th,at of a simple man, a struggling spirit
that is only trying to liberate rnyself and aid those that I can. I w"ish to
help ottrers see ttreir dreams becrcne their reality as rrcIl as see my ovrn dreams
come true despite the trenendous pressure that I am under. You are no rcre
differen! tlren I am.and if I can overcrcmethe harshness of this life and
continue to thrive to reach my gnals so can you, but first you must have iaith
in your self and know that there is rothing in this life that is easy. I
see you as I have seen myself in tlre past, a tnrd piece of coal lying deep
under the surface of the earth just taking on all the pain and frustrations
of tlre daily problems, rot knowing vfien you will be able to rise and shine
and Iive in the acceptable r,orld above, but wtrat you aontinue to fail to
realize is that like all crcal ttrat is held back and set so deep and taking
on the trenendous anpunts of daily pressures you have the potential to be
greater then you actually realize.

You have the ability to trarrsform into a diancnd, and Iike aff pt.e dianronds
they too have resisted blows to such an extent that a iron tranunerIrEy split
in tro and even tlre anvil itself rnay b displaced. Ttris invincible force
which defies two of rnture nxrst violent forces, iron and fire. Iron and Fire
can be broken by the spirit of ones soul and wiII to reach their goals.

I have krown people wtro profess to want to nake a ctrange in their lives
but failed to take the recessary steps to reach their goalsr'some people nade
it to the top by overcuning trenendor:s odds s,hile others have simply gave
in to their lack of confidence in tlreir own ability, onJ-y to suffer a tragic
set bacl< ttrat forced them to give up. V{trile others vrtro faced the sane daily
obstacles chose to continue, set new goals and rededicate themselves to neet
each objective, ore step at a tine. I have saw death row inrnates whro stared
death in the face and Iive to teII about the experience, I trave net nren and
woflren vfio abused drugs to the point vtrere they felt they had ncthing in life
to live for and I trave seen gang nernbers wtro found a reason to live and gave
their lives to a cause for the betternrent of a people and themselves. I soon
saw that togetlrer, they provided hope to and for those in sirnilar situations.
While separately ttrey are examples of how to keep going despite life's harsh
challenges, ttese people rever gave up of gave in, and today they are living
with a strong understanding of life ttrat has and should inspire aII.

Ttrese people have dore vfiat others said tlrey couldn't do and that was take
thrat first step to produce a positive product for the usage of society. You
like myself must be sure and willing to follow the path, a1l it takes is
faith in your self and a understanding ttrat there wiII be rough tines ahead
in your journey.
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 TIIE MASIERS KEY

l[tre inportance of a education in any society is of great value and witttout

it we will be only shutting ourselves out from the rest of the world and
taking advantage of the opportr-urity to growr progress and reach our goals.
Learning is developing of grrowth, by learning a saying is if a nan lcrpws
not and don't care ,then avoid him, he is a fool, but if a rnan knows rpt
but still desire to lcnow, then teach him. If a man laeorqshe lmow he is wise
then fo1low him. I have lived trying to figrure out ttnt saying for years
and it took nre a wtrile to fully understand but I refused to give up urrtil
I found the essence of its neaning. I am still a strr&nt and proud to e&nit
ft.

In todays ilof,Id it is recegsarlz to understand ttrat to not seek an education

and without a considerable education many doors are and wiII be closed to
you, job erplol'nent, adwancing in yor:r current job, or simply jttst being
able to read to your ctrild. Without the basic skills it is .1mpossible.
TLre road is always easy looking back, l<rnwing is an adrrantage-in itself.
Orrly the igrnrant not l<nowing have a higher potential of being a victim.
But it is the ore wtro chose not to allow him/herself intellectually grow
victimize tlremselves, they becrcne the Iower class, ttre nccking laughter heard
in the wtrispering air of society, you can't fault no ore, you can't point
the finger at anyone but your self for not taking the advantage of taking
hold of an education. Sonreof you will say nan I can't do itr I am to old
to go back to school or man I know erough to get by, veII that is igrnorance
talking and ttnt is fear taking hold of yor:r Iogical reasoning. We are never
to old to attend schoolrnor wiII we krpw enough to sayttr,at roe'krOw aII we
need to get by, if that's the case then you must ask yourself what is it
in life do you really want and if that is how you perceive life tlren it is
obvious that you don't want or need much in life. But v*ro are you depriving'
vtro are you cheating, wtro are you taking fron, wtrat about your child? What
about your self and the krrowing ttr,at you reached reached and actrieved your
g€1.

You must understand ttrat an ED(JCATICI{IS TI{E }4ASIffiS KEY to reaching your
goals in life just think about it, you rnay have a nice job now, wittput a
education you Iack the necessary skills, tools (KEYS) to utilize wlren an
op6nrtunity cones for a higher paying job or position in your current job'
you wilt be passed over and the one with keys wiII be chosen. What will you
do v*ren you have to file your tax return at the end of the nxcnth and year?
What wiII you do wtren you have to deposit your rcney in a bank or ptrrchase
a house or car, figure out sales ti.xes, the importance of an education beqcmes
of gneat value-
 THE COMPLETE SPHERE

I gave considerable thought before constructing this theory of building

a horne, I wanted to employ the needs of a positive and productive dwelling
where peace and unification could be found. I saw a need to build a purpose
and need for a positive and productive tool that will crontribute to our own
societies. I found that our everyday lives are very similar to ttnt of
creating a hone from a touse, and like in every building structure there
first must be a fotrndation that we can build from and ttrat is a sound c!flrlllcn
9@I, need and desire.

If you will look at the opposite page you wiII see from my drawing ttrat
I have built a honre and came up with eleven personalities thrat is needed
to erect such a place. The 11 personalities all serves a individual purpose
in order to establish balance and organization as well as narnpny to nrake
a hone. The personalities are as followed: F0{JNDTATICI!, UNDERSTANDING,
CONSIDRATICN, PATIENCE, DISCIPLINE, RESPESI, REASONABLE,OPTIwISrIC
IOGICAL, CALIIICXJS, & WILLINO{ESS TO ACW{I. I chose these 11 for their value
in character, balance and organization. I crcne to realize that we m:st be
of sound mind and witJ: great deternrination to deal with all the opositions,
and negative influences in life to find our worth in self, life and of others,
We must rpt allow such iIIs destroy our courage. This house is like that
of a body, it's wlpre you find peace and unity, understanding and security,
it's where you are one with self and nature, but a tpuse cannot becqne a
honre until you are comfortable and satisfied with your self and harnony is
established.
RESPECT & SECURITY
ffiEq
UNDERSTANDING CONSIDERATION
organi-zation
OPEN14INDED OPTItvlISTIC
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TRUST 0't.r' ^ O PATIENCE
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FIXJT{DATTCD{

Each has a say in making a house a home and you should pick
11-12 people, put in place of the above and confront your problem
and deal with them as a whole and find a way to help those of
the house deal with their problems, by doing so you will learn
the importance of unification and what it takes to build a strong
impact in your community and self growth.
without communication we wirl fair in meeting our goals.

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SrcURTrY
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CCNSIDERATIOI{

oglrrillgIIc
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LOGICAL VIE\^I

REASONABLEVIEI^I

PATTENCE
WILLINQ'IESS TO ACCEPT

UNDERSTAI{DING FIXJNDATICN

DISCIPLINE

1. For:ndation _1rrr=1 7, W/window-Reasornble

2, W/ waIl-Understanding B, N/window-Optirnist
3, n/wall-Oonsideration 9, E/window-Iogical
4, E/viall-Patience 10, S/window-Cautious
5, S/vrall-discipline 11, Door-Willingness to accept
6, Roof-security & Respect

we chose to construct on a realistic principle of rratue and purpose of the

daily life in a society. L.A.s.T.c.g.e.tl.c.i. rr.= erected it's structure
based on the building of a hone f|om a house, qiving it neaning, giveing
it function and purpose for all that attendr'eieven (11) menrbeis
are sigrned
to a house (GHAT@cuP) to uake it a hone, .rra ast as a FAr:[rLy
and conre to
build as a constructive unified force as one bodv.

L.A. S.T.C.H.A.N.C.E.
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 How does tlre house transform into a hcne many has asked, and vtnt purpose
does this hone serves to the crcnmmrnityand wtrat do the individual building
the honre benefit frorn the labor, and tinre spent in erecting such- I wiII
tell you, and by the tinre that I have finished'I will like to ask you a few
Uuestyons_ i_*f Vou're able or even capable building one yourself .
lt "*
In building a house there first must be a qlmron ground to build on in our
case tlrere is the need for a foundation which is TRUST, there must be trust
in every honre in order for there to be a comnon undersland.ing -
of knowing that there is solid grround under your feet and we must always
be sure that or:r feet aie planted firmly. Wi.thout it we are unsure, and not
prepared to build a strong bond with the others wtro will occupy the structure
with you. Once we have cone td. being sure about the nxrtives .of one another
we can start erecting each of the four walls that are rreeded, UNDERSIAI{DING'
ONSIDmATICD{, PATIH\CE, and'DISCIPLfNTE,each serves an important role in
building our hone, wh,at is a hone- wittibut.understanding, crcnsideration for
the others wtro wiII live with you in this home, there nn:st always b trntience
in any hone, things nay not lqcrk out for you in the tine.,that you want it
to work and with people in the building with you you all will have different
attitudes and individr:al problems but as,a wtrole you can sit down and ccne
to a urrified understanding and agreenent to tackle the problem togethert
but this can't be done without patience. We need to learn that r,'e're not
the only ones that share this hone so, vre practice discipline in our efforts
in getting along with each other.
The eyes of your bodies are said to be the windows of your soul, just like
ttrat of the home .the windo.ws playS.a very important role aS they are your
eyes and bring in the light, ve here at .L.A-S.T.C.H.A.N.C.E. strongly believe
that every honre need these four windows, there is the LOGICALWE\^I' the OPEN-
MINDm Wff, the REASONABLE VIE:hl, and the OITMISTIC VIEI^I. We must cone to
look at life, our [Ersonal situations and others in the honre w"ith all four
of our perceptions, never nrake a determination on nere assr:rnptions or blind
fate or speculations, if you fail to use aII four of the windows you are
bound to be a bitter, judgemental person, and tlrere is no value in ones life
to view life or others one sided or with a closed eye. If you approach life
in your home you have opened the door of fears, vtrich carl cause you to doubt'
not trust, question, accuse and bring a negative vibe to tlre cwtrole, and others
wiII start to view you and your intention and nxrtives.

In constructing yor:r hone one must not forget tlnt you must provide sone
security, shelter over your head and this is your roof, under it is respect
respect for everyone that is a part of your home, without respect there will
be confusion, bickering, constant fear from other nembers in your hqne and
every nan and liornan deserves to be respected, but you aII must know that
in order to get respect you first must 6s willinq to qive -from respect. And last,
there is the door, this door is your threshold td and your r^rorld and
society, the willingness to accept people in and know $nt everyone is not
the enemy but be careful to v*ro you let into your hore, still you must ocne
to understanding that if you can't accept others or tlre facts for vtnt they
are then how can you e><pect for others to accept you. If you use each of
the said then you have learned and found the essence of UNITY, FAIVTILY' WHOLE
CCI4PLCIENESS, a organization with a family structure in your honre vfiere t]rere
is peace, and harnxrny for all to live as one.

L.A.S.T.C.H.A.N.C.E.

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 YOU GET WHAT YOU GIVE
UNDERSTANDING
UNIVERSAL 1 O1

Why is it that there are so many of us wtro seem to think that the urorld is
ours and that all in it belongs to us, wtry is it that so many of us think
that life is to hard to live and that it should be nnre easy to live, or
better yet EA.SYin all without any life challenges? There are a lot of answers
to those guestions but let ne give )nou one you rray rpt have heard before.

rt's my understandj-ng that you get vrtrat you give, y.G.w.y.G.u.101. rt's ttre
universal understanding of Dawrwj-n's theory. It's a very rational and safe
way to doing and thinking just about anything, there are other forces in
tlre universe wtrich you will associate to Darwin's theory, such as the logical
findings of gravitational pulls, actions and reactions, and the cause and
effects of nature. It's impossible to circrmzent the truth in a fact but
it is possible to cirsunvent the truth vfien only a lie is all 1ou've known.
People have manipulated the truth so nnrch that it is very difficult to teII
rtrrich is truth and falsetrood, but this is vtrere logical/reasoning cone in.
I have for:nd ttr,at is the principles of accurate thinking it actually ables
us to understand the truth behind the fabrications, and gives us a profound
tool to reach a higher state of consciousness.

If you give love to arptlrer tlren love you will get in return, if you give
hate to sorleone then hate is wtrat you wiII get in return. YCU @t WHATYOU
GIVE UNTVERSAL 101.
(13" MovrNGFORWARD)
There is nothing wrong with growing up and nraturing or settling down or moving
fcr^ard with pr life in a psitir,e vay, urle.s 1cu tarc ro irfisticn of nakirg a pcd:cLire
nrrve for growth. Yorr life must have nreaning and you must be the one who
needs to take into full account of the risks that are sure to be nade in
order to neet yotrr goals but all risks need not be viewed as trarmful or even
nore detrinental to your health, growth or to anyone else. We aII have a
duty to take fult restrnnsibility of our actions to becure truly alive. With
L.A.S.T.C.H.A.N.C.E. We hope to open your eyes so ttnt you will learn to
be nore focused on the great possibility of positive growth and develoSxrent
in your life.

Start by following tlre first of the six (6) steps you will need to take:

1, tearn to take full responsibility for your own actions.

2, Take into consideration tlrat others nay b affected by yotrr actions.

3, Learn to turn your snall fears into a positive and pro<luctive growth
opportunity.

4t Learn to say yes and stop allowing yor:rself to believe in any failing
attempts at reaching for your dreams, goals-and living your life.

5, Never be afriad to ask questions if you're not sure about sonrething,

and dspite any failures learn to pick yourself up and nrove on.

6, Learn to nake each day count of your life, give life a chance.

L.A.S.T.C.H.A.N.C.E.

13
 THE 12 DESTRUCTIVE ACTS
THE ENEMY OF ANY SUCCESS

SELFI SHNESS

I
12. I FEAR
I INCCNSIDERAIE
1 1 . I
10. HATEFUL
HATF:FTI

09. BITTMNESS

I
08.
I.CD{M,INESS
07.
06. AICOHOLISI4

II
05.
DRUGABUSE
04.
JEAT,CIJSY
03. PESSII4ISTIC
02.
JAIL/PRTSOT{
01.
DENTTI
00.

I
L.A.S.T.C.H.A.N.C.E. has a twelve step comception to reach
our persoral goals in life, but in the process of trying 1to
attain our goals there are obstacles and a second flight of
stirs that we will face, but it is up to you to facre them
and it is up to you either accept the truth or deny the truth
in neeting each challenge.

A11 stirs read sonewtrere, be they up or down, positive or negative, they

a1l lead to sonrewtrere, but you have the decisive choice to chose if you wiII
ascend or descend, if you climb or if you will faII. rn the graphic above
you will see two sets of arroh?s, one tlrat is &scend.ing from the top, while
the other is parallel but stitl they both are without constructive reasoning
and no connection. Renenrber tlnt it is up to you, the individr:al vtro shall
chose vhich direction you will take, but always know this, there is rnthing
in li-fe ttab easy and there are risksinvolved in our lives that r+e will face
to nreet our goals but if you choose to take the descending flight then you
have ' decided the difficult route to take and you can see vitere the lead
frorn 1-12. r have been there, r have taken these steps before in my life
but before I completed my descrent I realized my own personal value, my worth
and potential to crcntribute to the vorld, society and sonreones life.

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When a person realize how safe and nechanical his or her life has becrcrnet
he or she can do one or the other, they can either try to forget about it
or they can try to fight it, l4ost people witl continue to go ttrough life
fighting the truth in their present life and knowing that a change is reeded
in order to prognress on a higher level of positive productive growth. I should
know because I have been there in my ovrn life, I didnrt want to accept the
fact that I reeded to ctrange if I wanted to live a honest and sincere life'
r d,idn't think that there r^ras anything w:ong ne but r was wrong about that
too in rfiy own persorral evah:ation of myself . I was a negative, lost, confused
and sad excuse of a hr-unan/representor of society. I didn't use drugs or
drink alcohol but I knew ttnt I had the ability to influence others and at
the tfue even tle ability to force others to do things that I knew was vEonq,
still I didn't at the tirre consider the fate of my actions. I was misleading
people and destroying their Iives all because I l<rrewI could do so, but v*nt
tfpe of a person was I becuning and wtrat type of a nan/brother/frierd was
I to those lfio took nry or&rs, I was a selfish and foolish poor excuse
being, nct even a man did I tr,ave the right to call myself. I've cone to the
realization that I had to change and by doing so I trad to first re-evaluate
myself and seek out my needs and formulate a plan and set a goal and stay
focused and stop fight the facts before nre. I had to learn the tr,ard'ray by
watching ny very own brothers descend frqn the twelves steps Ieading down
the wrong path. My bnothers selfistress, fear, inconsiderate actions. hateful
thoughts, Ied to bitterness, tJrey becanre lonely and not trusting in others,
sone chose to drink alcohol vtrile the others chose to abuse drugs all to
escape the realization of their fates before them, sadly to say this boldness
closed their eyes and they became very pessimistic and jealous of others,
and they endedup in prison and eventr:ally they tok ttrat firnl- step down
and death feII on my brothers like a !,reight frorn the sky. Now they are gone,
dead to the toorld.

I found tlnt npst people focused ncre on one aspect of their life tlren the
other, vfiile the other areas of their lives take a back seat and faII so
far behind ttnt they tend to forget about vtr,at nnkes them vtrole. Scne people
take on a nunber of risks at being ac€epted by others and not much risks
on accepting themselves for vfro and drat they tnve achieved. We as a people
fear not heing accepted by society or others so much that we lose focus on
our ohrn persornl value and rqcrth, we want so much to be a apa.rt of the social
order that rtrewill block out the neoessary skills of gurowth and we allow
tlat fear to dictate us and our actions, but you rm:st understand tlrat if
you fear sorething tlrat you are doing or is about to do ttrat is beneficial
Lo yotr life, it simply means that you are gnowing, growing nature and mcre
aware of your worth urd r"=po.,sibilities, you're ocpanding your ol/!r personal
boundaries. By facing your fears in various areas of your life you can mcve
fonnard and accelerate your o\^m persoral gnowth.

Fac.e your fears, becqre a stronger and nore positive and productive nembr
of society. There are many different areas of life tlrat you can grow in.
Focus on vrtnt is nct roorking for you in your life, vtlat is the problemr trlt
to evaluate the situation, put ncre energy into the areas where you are weaker
in and E:sh yourself with pa.tience.

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L.A.S.T.C.H.A.N.C.E.
 THE 12 STEPS OF REACHING
YOUR PERSONAL GOAL AND SUCCESS

HAVE FAITH
) 0 1.
STAY PBRSISTENT ! 02.
BUrLD CONFIDENCE I
WILLING TO CHANGE 03.
HONESTY
04.
ACCEPTABILITY
I, 05.
NEVER GIVE U P I
SUPPORTIVE
; 06.
STAY FOCUSED
RESPONSIBLE /-
07.
RESP
08.
TRUST
09.
'l
0.
11.
12.

once a lErson sees the wisdom of-taking

focusing rr.re on productive i""r a chance in positive growth and
or *,a..=G;i"g they start to see and
feel a difference in their rives,
but those oto-oo.r't wirl continue to
how do you go about doing this ask
or reaching that level of serf understading.
A good and sure way to reach the
top i: ov t"xi.rg ttrat first step, nake a
Iogical list, a reasonable and simple li-si oi .r.rio*
rife and attack them one u" categories of your
have the potentiar to reacir ""1.:* at-iine, rike the above, you
thJ'top, FI
bul you **i "tii=
r,.,r. the desire,
and the wirr to achieve yo'r goar".'u.,a"r"t the drive
do you must take into acLuntl-rtienos rro tu" that in arr that you
.r,o i.,!in.te rerationships, career
sec'rities, r" irv bonds
f,::riiTriar and your own personar
""4 "o*."tions
once you recognize an area of yo5-life
a nentor' a friend a productivl ttrat you feel a need to grow, find
inrttre".. orto'...r inspire and herp you reach
that rever, be ..,.,rrsl".rt in your efforts ana .r.re, give up,
nay just be your LASI CHANCE. because this

Like everyone erse, r have falren

into routines
for me to do and cr,arrengint myserf, r have ferr 9f_just doing vtnt was easy
1of
r arready knew how to do ana-oone into doing wtnt r was
going to other areas and avoiding yr! i tto,rght-u.,rrd work, onry to avoid
fairtrr. .rra'r"iection. r arrowed my fears
to dictate and stunt my own q.",rbhl
R"[itiv*a'iiu . dear friend vtro nrailed
me a sheet of paper w_ith, a [.est
the sheet that asked ', D6 vou-mrro3f_sone ""it, u]o th"r was a guestion on
ro Do rurnbs rItAT you ATREADyKNo^toR
Do You rAKE A RrSK AT TRYTNGSO4ETTITNG
AI{Evvrr i".t-y.r." ago r'd responded
*,T tll:3t:n: qTr r.a.rregdtknewro ir",'u-'r didn,r fair. Bur nowr
nave grown to take the risk of learnirrg_=o,,*ttirl
fail or if r am not-accepted bv-o$re5s-for ,r"o, not fearing if r wirl
poh/er to purr back rike a piec6 *v?"Jp"*e. Fear has the potential
of chewing ,*"-;; the bottom of your sh@s,
it wiII pull you back frorn ,"..f,ir,q your goals.

L.A. S.T.C.H.A.N.C.E.

17
 UNDERSTANDING THE PRINCIPLE
KEYS OF ALL SUCCESS AND GROWTH
AND KNOWING YOUR WORTH & VALUE
TO SELF, OTHERS AND HUI4ANITY

To keep grrowing, you rm:st learn to overcsne the

the ten&ncy of being influenced by temptations.

By facing your fears in a different way and comfronting

them each day, but start by dealing with the samll fears first.
You can keep expanding wtro you are and develope into a npre
*=taive and productive person.

Strive towards neaningful goals, goals that are real and

reasonably within your ranger you can achieve it only if it's
logicaUy sound. You must renenrlcer ttrat your goals are a
important facet of becorning a balance.
( 18' TEgr 12 s'rms oF S{JCCESS)

GIVE A CLEAR DEFINITION TO EACH OF THE TWELVE STEPS TO SUCESS

AND BRIEFI,Y GIVE AN EXAI4PLE AS TO WHY EACH OF THE 12 ARE OF
GREAT IIIPORTANCE FOR POSITIVE DEVELOPMENT:

1, TRUST

2, RESPECT

3, RESPONSIBILITY

4, SUPPORTTVE

5, NEVER GIVE UP

6, ACCOUNTABILITY

7, HONESTY

B, WTLLTNG TO CHANGE

9, BUILD CONFIDENCE

10, STAY PERSISTENT

11, HAVE FAITH

WHAT IS THE MASTER KEY TO REACHING YOUR GOALS ? ThETC

is but one key, what is it?

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 WHAT DOES VIOLENCE SERVES US
WHAT SERVICE DOES VIOLENCE PROVIDE US
WHO DOES VIOLEI\CN SERVE ?

A11 violence consists in peopre, in some they use it to force

others r:nder sone form of threat, no natter if it's physical, socially, or
financial or even enxctionally. Ttre ability to influence others by such n€ans
is still extortion and a cruel act of nental violence. There are a number
of tYpes of violence and all need not be physical, the grreatest form of such
an act is nental-pyschological nranipulation, people contribute these abusive
acts against others vtro they feel.they can fearfully crcntrol. tbst people
vito take such actions against others feel that the other is to roeaF. or w-ithout
support frorn others vfiich cannot intervene and stop the abusive assortnpnt
of assault.

I have seen nales take out their frustrations on fenrales, even vfien the
fenrale done rro trong to justify his actions, but nct consider taking out
his frustrations on the nale that upset him prior to getting honre to the
fernale why? Because he feels that he can handle and ocntrol her, and she
would be physically to weak to defend herself against him and his evil
onslaught, but who is the weaker of the two ? He is. Still she should trave
the courage to stand up and defend herself even if it nreans to pack her things
and leave. She must. be stronger and say no more and walk away and never look
back, she must have faith in herself and rise above his threats, holcl her
head up and prove to him that he will miss her when she's gone. No woman
deserves to be abused, and if you hit her, you can't say that you love her,
becar.rse love does not physically or nentally alter its need.

I have krnwn bullies vtro irculd pick on kids that were either handicapped
or people that were at a mental, enxrtional or physical disadvantage then
they were and out of their own ignorance of inability to socialize and feel
acceptable they choose to take advantage of anotlrer. I have seen such first
hand which actually was the cause of the GIrI'S being fornred in Saint Louis
Missouri. l4ost bullies are suffering from a Iack of positive attention, nrcst
are upset with themselves because they feel as they've failed and sqre are
bullies because thev crave the attention of beinq accrepted bv others or the
popular crovds.

The cause of violence is nct igrnorance, it is self-interest. OnIy reverance

for hurnan life and the environnrent.
Violence is the last refuge of the inc-onpetent.

Let ne share sonrething with you fron the late l4artin Luther King Jr. if
I riayr t4artin once said " If you succunb to the ternptation of using violence
in the struggle, unlcorn generations wiII be the recipients of a long and
desolute night of bitterness, and your chief legacy to the future will be
an endless reign of neaningless chaos".

I now need you all to think and carefully crcnsider the trenren&us long-
term effects you will qcntribute to hunanity for your selfish actions.

L.A.S.T.C.H.A.N.C.E. 20
 UNDERSTANDTNG HOW OUR OWN
HABITS GOOD AND BAD DEFINES WHO
WE ARE AND WHA-T-.WEI\,IAY BECOUIE

We here at L.A.S.T.C.H.A.N.C.E. believe that aII actions derived frcm a sirnple

thought and that thought sreates a habit, and habits are not sorething ttnt
you wish to base your life or daily living on because those habits can prove
to be a down sizing elenent of natr:re, a distraction and a hinder to lncur
o\^tn personal growth in becoming a positive and productive nenrber of society
and your self . t{,abits, cone from ore or the other sources, but both of them
hereditary. Iets take a review of sonething, take physical heredity-now fron
this sotrrce one interits sonething of nattrre and character of aII the
generations of tlre hunan race which have preceded tlrem. Tlris inheritance
is fixed by the laws of nature, but much of it can be rilcdified in preparation
for you to achieve farther in life.
TLere's sleeping habits, snxrking habits, eating habits, drinking alcohol
tabits and drug usage habits, ssne have even developed a tnbit in lying for
no apparent reason, but they have gnown so use and acsustom to these habits
ttlat they are c.qnfortable with them nct knowing ttrat these very habits wiII
decide the path that they w.iII journey dor^/n, and for ttpse of you wtro see
nothing \^,rong with this then it is you wtro should guestion vrhy is it tlat
you continue to neet such a negative response from you life. You get what
you give relTernber. Sit back and take this tirre out to discuss w.ith your house
and confront your neighbor on the right side habits and r.*rite down tlre habits
and at the conclusion of the nreeting let each nenrber give impute on tle habits
and roork out a solution to the habit and try not to get upset or fn:strated
with their evaluations of you but take in the positive feedback and work
on your habits.

2, Social heredity-cronsisting of all envirorrnental influences, education,

experiences and impulses of thought and peer pressure. The greater security
of thinking is inspired by the influence of social heredityr. Scrre people
are so negatively infh:enced that they can't deLermirre which is best for
them, th-is is the sane as say that nrcst of our thinking is na& for us by
others, but you have the ability to think for yourself, do for yourself,
Iive your life, don't a1low yourself to be used again by fear, wanting to
feel ac-cepted or belonging to sone social establishnent, you must first cone
to recognize your own worth and vah:e and only you krow sthat it grood for
you or bad.
I can refiEnber entering prison and seeing aII the different gnrys with their
slit personality and their strange ways, filled with lies and ganes, I l'ould
sit back and just watch them and laugh at them and their stupid"ity, because
they just didn't know how to be real or be thernselves, I saw so called guys
latro clained be be leaders of a religious chapter but they practicre other
forbidden acts behind the doors and still to this day they profess to be
spiritually incline, despite their &wn Iow betraviors. Most people are only
imitators of others, and many are neurotics whrorrculd rather keep up with
the Jones than be tlrenselves. Just observe those vtrom you lcnow best, study
their habits carefully and you'll realize that mcst of them are nerely
synthetic irnitations of other people. l4ost people triat along accepting and
acting upon the thoughts of others and habits.

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You must take that step forward in3tead of following soneone else, you have
to establish that you are not that sheep thnt is trailing along, but breaking
away to nake a path in the pasture yoirrself. You tave to be that once in
a g6eat while indj-vidual wtro will ccnre along and pull a!,xay frorn ttre srowed.
I never felt like I was one of the norms ncr did I accept being apart of
such a grouping, but still we aII have life to live and you must be nan/
or rdcr&anto stand up and take back your life and rpt allow anyone else to
Iive for you and control you.

I was talking to ore of my nephews rot long ago and he said that vtren he
got older, that he wanted to be just like re, he thought I was a real and
strong nan just because I was conrnitted to the prison system, but there is
nothing real and being strong about being in such a place, I sat back and
held the pLroneand talked to him about what is being real, sotid and strong,
I told him the same thing that a old nran once told ne and that wasr$don't
be like nerbe better then ne, don't walk in my foot step walk along side
them to see vftere they go and if itrs rpt going into the direction tlnt will
nrake you better then ne then you should step in front o; my footprints and
continue to strive on and introduce the world to you'1

A LHTIER FRC[4KAREN

I vart. b *EIe with larr sr*hirg aht. my lib ard tr>l I cae so cl-e to dyj-rg c in pi.ur
ftr tte rest of life, f an a 14 lear old r.hite gi-rl fi:crn Sc,th Grclira, I guo rp in livirg
Iife just. b b livjry it, I res irnol\d with a olfu gqg vto I tlngt ttat lrlred ne krt. I
vas sbd to fird cr-t ttat Le d&r't realty lo,e ne. See my nctts died htsr I hn ard my
futls vre a jtnlqg vfD pded ne off cn ny garffie, s I realty ddt't tarc a ed, I \^ruld
re him fisn tifie to tire, ht fe l€s s sbrrg tlat s,sr vtst I sa^rhim le vegr't abl-e to
remgUze Er trV d H a hothe vto r"asr't relty a rrcle, te rrfpeO ne fiun tte tire ttat
I vas B trtilL I vm 11, te \^st. to Fi.ul ard tlds relty rpettea my futte, te cal]ej ne a
l-iar ard a vtoe ad I t,as tut herarre I di&r't e anyUrirq \"asEl, \^eL[ I U'qgt. I di&r't
h-t I lcst my futhe crrptdefy ttsr I ttsr b6re s{-Ef irrrlrhd hy tte tiire I r"re 12 with
a guy t^to said te \.ru1d grte ne tte r^mld ild take ne ai^ay fion al1 thjs, I hFlis€d him lile
a fcol. this nan $ELS a l<rrhn &r-g enltr ad garq{ranb I lattr joired tte garq ht. rrt ks^/irq
ttat I H b Lme s< with e,eryre in his ora*, ttqg d-&rft care abcrt. my 4e h,t fr this
neu-rof mirEs I vrdd ta\e diFd fr him o I r,.st alcrg with it, nV bcdy vas in Fain ad se
ard ttds is vfEI he jrd:rcd-rcd ne to P.C.P. lek, vet, dHrL it rurbed tte Fain fa a vhile
b-t. tte pain vas alvap tfee fa ne in my H. I !€s s orfi:sed ard difrr't larl/ \.tat b 6,
I \,arted b dire, h.t cre &y nV lqftien d&r't ere, I ford nlmlf irrDh€d in a mlfu,
I di&t't plIL tb kig a tarc a gLn, I r,as just tfse ard Fcpfe ks,r I r,ns with this guy,
p I vas aresbd to..

r sat in ju\Erile tEIt ftr bo yeas ard d-rjry ttds tire, r gar,e biiJ: to my fi:lst ddld a
hartifuI little girl, my bq/frjsd gct clt cn l^eil \,hj-le I r,re sti[L ttELe, rrt crre did fe
ocne to re re, rrt crre did te asl€d ab.t tte hefty, I r^BS$ afiraid ard didrrt krl/ $fse
to hnrl, ttmmy galrffie vecte b tte Cristian Hr Fat Ctrrecticn inNdi Grolira, askiry
fa informticn abt hEh/can I po,e m/ irrrcE. !E $t a rye fisn I\t. Drn, ard te
b€re my h[g h:tts. I ngb it cr,t d ja[, ard rsp cn prd:aticn fc 15 ]€rs, ht my o< te
\^arted rcfldrg to & wittr tle behy kut \^tsr ttgy rerff his bail, sftsred him te b.j€d calf-iry
my garffiJe tore fa Ite, s, fE di-&r't ]o,e ne ttsr c tte bdqf ard I'm a ncl]Er rnr, had<
in sdml, takirq care of my ryslln-lities, h.t.I r,'art. yrr b ko^/, I nE& it ard e Gn
1u:. Tlurtcs L.A.S.T.C.H.A.N.C.E. ttarj{s fcr savirq my lifu ard my little girf.

lcte l{arsL

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 CONTROLLEDUNDERSTANDING

In this process of conveying to the brain a clear picttrre of vfiat one

desires to have translated into its ptrysical eguivalent there are four very
inportant steps that we rm:st challenge, all of wtrich are easily followed
and are subjected to individr:al c.ontrol in every manner.

First step
ion of definite

CYeation of practical plan for attai

of pr:rpose.
Third step
Create alliance with others vilro exSnriencerstill
or infh:encre may be needed, according to the L
of our purpose.

rnnrediate ana .on€?m5l*=Sggion in carrying out the

plan which tas been adapted. Thought must be weII
supported with logical reasoning and sinc.ere
ernrtiornl feelings. The mest inportant of all our
enxctions "FAITTI". The necessary support ntay b
given to ttrought by the aprplication of eight
principles of this ptrilosophies.

THESE ARE THE FOUR PRINCIPLES OF

A CONTROLLED UNDERSTANDING
IN OUR OWN INDNVIDUAL
PURPOSE.

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 EIGHT PRINCIPLE POINTS
THAT GIVE OUR LIVES SUBSTANCE
AND FAIVIILIARIZING OURSELVES
WITH OUR PURPOSE

1' DEFINITEOF PURPOSE-Beginwith this principle by the a&pting of a logical

objective based on a definite rnotive or desire for attaining-yor:r goai.
And stay consistent with your efforts, never give up to the-flars of
of failure, pee: pressure or persecution by others, know in your heart
that you can and will achieve your objective.

2 , REASON WTTIIYCXJR I'IIND-Through ihe aid of this principler you should aIIy
yourself with others who have the necessary skitts and education and the
experience to aid you in growth, be it nay, nentarry, enrotionally, sociarry
financiarly, spiritr:arry, or physicarly. our roinds is our stronqest toor
and we must reason with it at tines to allow ourselves to underltand that
you can not reach ttrat point in your Iife where you are without the need
of others positive/corrstructive influences.
3 , Pm.soD{ALrNrr-rATrvE-You must appry this principre to your life by taking
initiative in carrying out your pransr you must take the first steps if-
you wish to reach yor;r goars, you and onry you Lr,avethe ability to make
but if you don't take the first step or nake the firsL move iJnreetinq
your goals then you wiII never get anlnvhere.

4 , CREATfVEVISICD{-Youshould practice this principle through the faculty

of your inagination' as an aid to reach your goa1s. Renrernbertlnt every
creation or great success in life started frorn a thought. Albert Einstein
once said that " Any intelligent fool can nake things bigger, more crcmplex,
and nxcre violent, but it takes a touch of genius and a roi oi courage
to nrcve,in the opposite direction". You have the necessary lools rrow to
reach yo-ur goals.

SELF DTSCTPLTNE-This principle should be appried in your'daily process

to_ilsurp that every thought of your mina oUjective wil-I be orqartized
and direbted towards reaching and achieving your goar and serving its
intended purpose and to insure you against the possibility of g'rittirrg
or giving up on your self'v*ren tines and situations seems to,'be getting
difficult for you.

6, APPLID FAITTI-Applied faith in your daily journey has a reans and purpose
in everyone's life, it provides the individr:al with the necessary nope
and self-reliance to insure continuous action in the pursuit of vour
objective

7' PLEASINGPERSONALIW-Thisprinciple must be apptied as a nreans of be able

to influence others to cooperate and sell your idea or plans to other
people with the minimun of resistance frorn them, but focus on a positive
co{Trrrrcn
interest of the public.

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B, TI{E IABIT OF @ING TI{E DfIRA MILE-Cteating friendly allies, taking the
necessar)r risks and devoting your tine and patiencre to sonrething with
out giving up to the fears of rejection and failures you will earn the
respect and acceptable right to be called a nan/i^acrnanand positive and
true friend to your self and hunanity, you wiII be a productive nenrber
of our society.

The nprnent that you give up on anl.thing because you feel fear or pressured
by others if the morcnt that you allow your life to be without substance
and wittrout neaning and life without neaning is but a enpty shell sitting
by the sea held down by the sand.

T?y saying to yourself 12 tines a day that " I allt SCI{ECI{E,I HAVEA LIFE/
I TIAVEA DREAMTO SEE CC[.{EIRUE AND I AI4 ABLE TO DO AI{YITTIING
DESPITE
TI{E PROBLED{STIIAT I WII,L FAG TODAYBECAUSEI HA\/E ME, AND TI{ATTSSC[4mODY
WHOCARES,"

TCNYIS MESSAGE

l4y nalre is Tony, I am on death row here in Texas, I have been on death row
for the past 6 years and soon I will be executed for a doubly murder and
rape, I a&nj-tted to my participating in the murder of a rival gang nember
but I wasn't good for the rape and secrcnd murder of his girlfriend. I started
to write brother Christopher a while back, I just wanted son€one to talk
to and share my story, l4rs Beth Mictrael of (trristian Pen PaI Connection had
introduced nre to him and drile writing him I learned a great deal frorn him
and I couldn't understand how he crould be so positive even after all he's
faced with, he asked ne to share my story and I agreed. Like I said I was a
born street thug, a real vork in procress, I joired the gang dien I was young,
I used drugs and stole anything that wasn't nailed dor.rn, I'd stole your shoes,
or your clothes if you hung them out to dry on ttre line, tlrat is how bad
I was. Well I did a run with one of my people and I thought this was my road-
dog but te showed his true qclors whren he got arrested for the sting that
he pulled ne into, a robberlr gcne bad and the life of two people ended. I
was watching the news vfien I saw the police cuff him and two days later tlre
Iaw was at my door kicking in. I was later inforned ttnt he implicated tttat
I lias theie and that I was the one who killed tlre girl and raped her, I didn't
]<ncw that she was raped. Well ttrat was my road @. He took the stand against
nre to escape the death penalty. Non of nry so called brothers in ttre gang
visited ne, they didn't try to get nre a lawyer, they \,'ouldnrt go by my nother
house to see how she was doing. I gave my life to that code, to the streets,
aII to find out tlnt the streets, crcde and my so called brothers were not
my brottrers. I had to go through this 21 years later to realize the truth
tlat the life I lived, is the Iife that is about to be taken, I took a life,
and my npssage to you is tlrat if you don't want to end up wtrere I am and
where I am about to go then you need to sit back and re-evaluate your life
and friends and value the life you have because it is a gift.

S1IOP, ITIINK, and LISTEN, there's a better life, drugs, gangs, and my stupidity
got nre here, but you can save yourself before it's too late. Don't do to
your mother vfiat I have done to mines, I'm sorry mc{rma and I love you will
miss you.

TCT{Y
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 THE PYRA}4ID C]RCLE

It is clear that the way to heal society o f its vi-olence

and lack of love is to replace the pyramid o f domination with
the circle of equality and respect.

RESPECT
SELF AND
OTHERS

WILLING TO
CONSIDERATION ACCEPT WITHOUT
FOR OTHERS PERSECUTION OR
JEALOUSY/ nXVv

UNDERSTANDING LEARN TO TRUST

SUPPORTIVE OTHERS AND OTHERS
WILL BE WILLING
OPENNESS TO TRUST YOU
SOCIALIZING
WITH OTHERS
BUILD A CO[4I{ON
BOND USING THE
PYRAI4ID CIRCLE

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 WHEREDID IT GET ME
1IIE INFT.;UENCESOF DRUGS& AL@HOL

ttow did drugs affect my life? It started when I was thirteen years old,
I was living in Saint Louis l4issouri during the tinre, I was a runner for
a local dealer name Ray Ray, I would transport PCP for him frorn tine to tirc.
While associating with him, he was the very first person to introduce me
to narijuana, I took my first hit off a joint in 1983 or 1984, I can't really
remember because frorn the usage of PCP it affected my memory perceptiont
but I do renrenrber I was in the eight grade about to enter high school. I
later started to have problems in my life, I would start buying weed,
(marijuana) and sold it too, but ttrat was a conflict of great interest because
I was snoking more then I sold.

When I entered the eleventh grade I got caught with sonre weed and a gun
in my school locker and was later expelled from school never to return, I
then went to juvenile for the charges and eventually got out but that led
to nre not taving nothing to do, c-ouldn't work due to my age, I was kicked
out of school so aII I had was tine to hang out in the streets. I started
hanging out nnre and start drinking with local cats (associates.) in my
conrnunity, I had to stop selling weed because I was smoking nxrre and nxrre
and much nore then r^ftat I could seII and I rnrasn't naking any money, so I
started selling PCP (Dips, water, \^Iet). I never did go back to school.

I go so deep into the street gane, so they call it. I started smoking this
water, PCP regardless of the fact this wasn't my choice of drug to use. I
have a hard tinre renrenrbering things frorn the past now whrich is a result of
the drug use destroyed my memory, my eye sight is failing, I failed achieving
my educational goals because I was kicked out of school for my behavior.

can't account for anl.thing in my past tlnt would cronstitute any value. I
think back now after 33 years of living, I can't help but sit in crcnrplete
disbelief and shanre for how I allowed nryself to be misled and controlled
and influenced by drugs to the point r*rere I ended up almost losing my life
totally. I nay have lost 2 cars, a house 3 jobs and nxrst important my freedom
now and there is rp excuse for it, I can't blanre my family or girlfriend,
I can't blane poverty or being denied an education, because I chose to nake
this rnistake, I chose to use and seII drugs, no ore forced me to, but by
my drug usage that is vrtren I turned to conrnitting my life to crime.

Now I have crcnre to accept my responsibilities and a&nit that I have a problem
because I saw first hand how drugs can bring a person down, nct only a person'
but a vfiole conrmrnity and an entire family as weII. Drugs can bring down
the best of us and the strongest of people if you allow it to enter your
life, but only you can open ttnt door and give ttnt influence life, I know,
and trust ne it's a hard and difficult door to c once you allow it to be
opened.

That fur has been closed in my Iife for sonre tine now and I have vowed
to never again allow my life be taken by the influenc.e of my igrrrorance and
stupidity, drugs and alcrchof had a hold of me but I learned how to let go
and push hrack. So can you, have faith in yourself.

A former student of L.A.S.T.C.H.A.N.C.E.

DAVID

L.A.S.T.C.H.A.N.C.E. 2B
 WIIEREDID IT GEirIT{E
TIIE INFTTIENCES
OF DRTreS& AICOTIoL
.t:

tlo!,r did drrgs affect ny life? It started when I was ttrirteen years oldt
I was living in Saint louis t'lissouri during the tilre, 1 nas a nuner for
a local dbaler nane Ray Ray, I voulcl transport PCF for him frcm Line to ti$e.
t{hile associating }rittt- him, tre was the ver'1' first person to introftrce ue
to narijuala, f ioot< my first hit off a joint tn tbgt or 1984, I canrt really
rernernber Hause frcnr tte usage of PCB it affected my IrErory trerceptiont
but I do renernber I rllas in the eigtrt grade about to enter hi$r school. I
later started to have problerns in rny life, I rould start trrying Heedt
(rnarijuana) andl sold it too, but that r'las'a conflict of g:reat interest because
I vas snoking ncre tten I sold.

Wt€n I entered tlre eleventh grade I got caught wittr ssne veed ard a gun
' in my schocil locker ard was later experled frqn scihool re'irer to- rettrnt r
tSen-vent to juverrlle for the ctnrges ard eventually Eot out but that' Ied
t"-t* rot having rnthing to do, ouldntt rtork due to my aEe; I was kiclced
out of school s6 all I had vas tfure to tnng out in the streets. I started
hanging out npre and start dririking raittr locat cats (associates) in uqf
c"*r'i.-ity, I hact to stop selling weed because I $as snoking ncre ard trcire
and muctr-more then whaLI could sell and I wasnrt' rnaking any rpneyr !o I
started selling PCP (Dips, 1taten, t^Iet). I never did go back to sch@I.

I nn# so fup into tte street ga1tpr so ttrey caII it. I started smoking this
*ad"}-, pe regardless of ttre fact ttris wasn't my ctpice of d:ryg to Use' I
have a f6rd tine renernbering ttrings from the pult t*n $thictt is-a reiutt of
tft" O.,tg use destroyed my mercryr InY eYe:sight is failing, I failed achieving
.my educational goaG because f was kicked out of schcol for my behavior-

. lcan't accourrt for anything inmy past, that would constitute any \ralue..I
think back n*r after g3 years of fiving, I canrt help tnrt sit in qcfiplete
disbelief arrd shane for tpw I allooed unfseff to be misled and controlleq -
apd. influenced by dnrgs to ttre point r*rere I ended rp alnost losing mf -Iif9
iobfly. I rnay have IosL Z carsl a house-3 j-"Uu uoO nrcst lnpoftarrt-ry_tT.dt"
ncw anii tlprJis iro ercuse for it, I cantt blarc nry family or girlfrierdr-
I canrt blane poverty or being O"ili"O an educatior.r* because I dpse to make
this mistake, I ctpse to use init sell drugs, no oIE forcred ne to, but by
my d6rg r:sage ttrat is $*ErI I turred to comdtting my life to c'rine.

. No1r I have ccne to accept my responsibilities anil achrit tlrat I trave a problemt
because I saw first hard-tpw drug; can bring a person dolrn, roL only a fErson'
but a wtrole ccnnrunity and an entire family as weII. Dr'ugs can bring dovm
tjre best of us ard tne strongest of people if you allolv it to enter lotr
iii", but only you can op.n [rr.t doo; a;rd givJthat influence life, r krnw,
and tnrst ne it's a hard ary] difficult dmr to close once you allow it to be
opened.

lltrat door has been closed in my life for sone Line now and I tr,ave v€niled
d;".r igain allow rny Iife f" t"tofr bV the influence of my igncrance arrd
go
stgpidiby,-do,rg= and aicobol had a hold of ne but I learned how to let
andp:str-back. So can you, have faittr in yourself.

A forner studerrt of L.A.S.T.C.II.A.N.C.E.

DAVID

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 TIIE PYRAMID CIRCLE

I_t .is clear that the way to. heal , society, o f lts violence
and lack of love is to replace the pyramid o f domination with
the circle of equality and respect.

RESPECT
S+['F-ANE

CONSIDERATION ACCEPT WITHOUT

FOR OTHERS PERSECUTIONOR
JEALOUSY/ nUVy

UNDERSTANDING LEARN TO TRUS,T

SUPPORTIVE OTHERSAND OTHERS
WILL BE WILLING
TO TRUST YOU

BI'ILD A COMI,ION
BOND USING THE

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