Book of Est Notes

Most people are afraid that something will work--rather than not workbecause we would lose interest in our present games, our familiar problems, our act, our enduring personal relationships, etc. Experience your negative emotions until you begin to get that youll do anything to keep from ending your acts and experience whats happening right here and now. Youre living life through your rear-view mirror. Dont try to do anything. Just do, just be. You have current beliefs and lies you live by that try and convince you your lives do work. The harder you try the worse you feel. Ideas and beliefs destroys experience. Having a belief in God destroys experiencing God. Ideas about God are deadly, deep on the scale of non-experience. You have to go through nothing. To accept whatever happens in your life as just a process of life itself. Youre perfect the way you are. When you really know something--then beliefs, thoughts and feelings about it are not necessary. We cross the line when we get out of beliefs and feelings and simply observe. When you go beyond the level of observing, you get to the level of what is called realizationthats the Aha! Experience! All belief is the least reliable form of knowing. It represents uncertainty. I am and have been ok I can do and be whatever I want to do or be Providing it does not bring harm to other human beings. It is all right for me to be this way I love and have been loved and am loving I recognize this and accept this I can aspire to and have a higher state of awareness and consciousness It is all right for me to do this

If you look at your fear and are able to being really with it, itll disappear. Just observe it, dont fight it. You are perfect, but there are barriers preventing you from experiencing and expressing your perfection. The resistance leads to persistence. If you try to resist or change something it will become more solid. The only way to get rid of something is to just let it be. If youre feeling tense and try to relax, youll feel more tense. If you have a headache and try to change it, itll continue as long you as try to change it. Stop resisting and start observing. The things you work on persist. When you fully experience something then the experience disappears and youll have a new one.

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The Mind
Let all ideas and beliefs you have of the mind go. Wipe the slate clean. The mind has a record of millions of experiences from our past that unconsciously is influencing our behavior. The purpose of the mind is the survival of the being or anything the being considers itself to be. The ego is when the being starts to identify itself with the mind. When you think you are the mind, the minds purpose becomes the survival of the mind--. When the purpose of the mind becomes the survival of the being it thinks it is, then, the minds purpose becomes its own survival That is what is called the ego. When the being identifies itself with the mind. So now the purpose of the mind is not the beingbut the mind itself. So the survival of the mind means the all the minds Tapes Points of View Decisions Thoughts Conclusions and Beliefs

Now the mind has a vested interest in all of these records and tries to keep itself intact by replaying the same tapes to prove itself right. So when the mind plays an old tape, it makes you feel you understand something. To keep itself intact the mind looks for agreementout in the world in order to survive. It wants to be continual reconfirmation of its point of view, decisions and beliefs/conclusions. So the mind wants to keep proving itself right. For example Religions Make people feel right in their poverty. Philosophies To prove right they feel like doing anyway. Writers Write books to secretly justify themselves.

All religions, philosophies and books are just the minds way of trying to prove itself right and dominate others.

The mind doesnt want bliss, --it wants to be rightand keep playing the survival tape. It rather be right than advance in consciousness. All minds do this. The minds logic is that one element of an one experience is the same as every-other except sometimes. Est training is a fusion of many methods that seemed to work better than using other methods. When we get upset or sad, etc, its a past experience that triggered that emotional response. Its the mind playing a recorded tape that it links with that present experience. When a tape is played it gets in the way of being present in the experience--. Which leaves an unfinished tape to be recorded and stored. Its when you FULLY EXPERIENCE something that is disappears and a new experience begins. When something is fully experiencedit is instantly released. The memories stored in our minds go back at least to when we were in our mothers womb and many believe that our memories include the collected unconscious of all our ancestors combined. The ancient yogis of India claimed memories back some 350 trillion years. This keeps things in perspective of how little we consciously are aware of. From the moment of birth onwards we came under the influence of our mechanical mind. From birtheverything we do is stimulus response after stimulus response , etc. We are machines. Our lives are totally mechanical and stimulus response. Theres no meaningor goals, morals or ideals. No control. Tragedies are just tapes being played. All drama is just your mind triggering off some past threat. We spend our whole lives trying to find an escape from just admitting youre a machine. The mind feeds thoughts, liketoo complex or doesnt make any sense. Every thought thats popping into your head at this moment just pops.

You dont control it. Effect, Effect, Effect Thats all there is. Theres nothing to get. There is no control over mind no matter how long you spend pretending there is.

Unenlightened is A machine who doesnt think hes a machine Always resisting and trying to control things

Enlightenment is: Knowing and accepting youre a machine Its say yes to what is Taking what you get when you get it and not taking what you didnt get Always doing nothing but simply doing what youre doing Accepting what you are, what comes, what is and take what you get when you get it Is fully experiencing whatever feelings come up and anything associated with them Choosing what happens, when it happens Knowing what you are and what you are not and knowing thats perfect

Buddha said it this way You cannot escape the wheel of birth and death until you realize you are not the doer The Wheel= the First Machine You can release all the limitations of your machine mind by fully experiencing the feelings that are associated with them. If we fear death, then we say yes to our fear of death, we choose our fear of death and fully experience it. It may disappear and it may not. If it disappearssay yes to its disappearing. If the fear remainssay yes to still having the fear. Sometimes fears and barriers disappear and sometimes they dont, but, your experience of them will.

Youre not the doer. Youre the source and creator of all you experience. Youre a God, but what you, the individual entity bouncing around inside the big world you created, what you do is totally out of your control. Youre the source of your experience but dont have the least bit of control. All you can do is choose what happens. When you learn to want what you getyou get what you want. Its all a cosmic jokeyou dont understand a joke you get it. Human Beings = God, who being bored, must create games. The natural flow of the universe is

Being-------- Doing----------- Having

Most people define themselves by what they dorather than by what they in fact are. Your dull days will come whether or not you prepare for them. Your high days will come only when you dont prepare for them. Its about letting go of games that arent working. Getting a release from taking your minds un-working games seriously. In actuality, each of us, as the sole creator of our universe, is a God, and because we have created all, everything is as important as everything else. When were fully in touch with what already is and accept what isas more important than what isnt then all games are over. Theres nothing to do and nowhere to go, everything is perfect. But we Gods get bored with this perfection. So we always end up pretending that something that isntis more important than what is, and thats a game. When were fully in touch with what already is and accept what is as more important than what isnt, then all games are over. But we get bored again and decide again to start playing games. Many Gods in mythology are always taking human form to play games. As did Krishna and Shiva. Even Jesus is seen as God taking temporary human form.

The world is imaginary. The only question is who is going to do the imagining. Most people passively absorb the imaginary structures and game rules of others. The wise creates his own. All games, all goals , all events are the creation of imagination. You can accept the world as others have create it, accept their goals and rules and play their games, or you can consciously create your own. In both casesyou and you alone are responsible for everything that happens to you. The search for God, Enlightenment, Reality, Ultimate Truth, is an interesting game until its won. Then once you grasp it you find that the game is over. Then if you marry your insight, you find that youre living with illusion. What humans want is interesting problems and gamesno more, no less. No pleasures, not truths, not moral codes, not a state of happiness, just interesting games. Mind, body, spirit all love games. Even Monks and Mystics advancing along the path and make a sudden leap forward, discover that, winning loses its interest and they then slip back into the mountain-climbing up the path to score again. The ones who reach the top and stay there dont play the same games over and over. Their never bored and are continually creating entirely new universes. Human life in any meaning sense is impossible without playing or without contest. But they dont live with the illusion that they are competing for anything worth winning or against any other than an imaginary creation of themselves. __________ Nonoko quote Why, its only the movement of my eyes. And here Ive been looking for it far and wide. Awakened at last, I find myself. Not so bad after all.