INTRODUCTION TO PART ONE The material presented here was not written down verbatim nor transcribed from

recordings b!t recalled afterwards from memor"# The original intent of s!ch an e$ercise was to f!el the wish to be present in the moment so as to ob%ectivel" as possible remember what had been said# It is not the intention of Part One to present a record of s!b%ective responses to what was given as this varies from person to person and wo!ld add little to the reader&s !nderstanding# The leader of the gro!p was Annie 'o! (tavele" )*+,-./,,*0 a p!pil of both 1ane 2eap and 3!rd%ieff himself# The gro!p was first sit!ated in Portland and later A!rora OR# The transmitter of a teaching lends his or her own 4flavo!r5 to that teaching# Altho!gh a fair percentage of the following material can be fo!nd elsewhere the conte$t and elaboration are often !ni6!e# It is m" opinion that even 3!rd%ieff himself in his most pessimistic moments did not foresee the e$tent to which h!manit" wo!ld degenerate in the "ears after his death )*+7+0# The mirage of 4progress5 the dawning of a 4New Age5 and all the rest of it mas8 the fact that the vast ma%orit" of the world does as it alwa"s has done9 finding newer wa"s to ind!lge in vanit" self love hate greed and st!pidit" in general# There is a tendenc" to label a teaching as 4failed5 if the whole planet is not mirac!lo!sl" transformed within a short period after having been e$posed to it# One onl" has to loo8 at The Christ&s teaching to see how readil" h!manit" incorporates higher 8nowledge into ever"da" life# (o it wo!ld be an error to %!dge an" given method b" e$ternal res!lts# The 4world5 that m!st be changed is not one e$perienced b" the five senses# Two essential aspects of the :or8 will not be described the ;ovements or (acred Dances and (ittings# The reason that the former will be omitted is that the" can onl" be e$perienced b" act!all" doing them and the latter m!st be transmitted directl" from teacher to p!pil# <oth re6!ire feedbac8 from one who has alread" thoro!ghl" participated in them# It is ama=ingl" eas" to corr!pt a techni6!e even a simple one when one does not f!ll" !nderstand it# :itness how a short stor" or a %o8e is transformed when passed aro!nd a circle of ten or twelve people# 3!rd%ieff designed his teaching to be carried o!t in gro!ps so that there wo!ld be others to reflect bac8 how one act!all" is# :or8ing alone almost g!arantees that one will slip into fantas" and imagine all sorts of grand attainments# There is no ro"al road to !nderstanding no magic process as s!ch hidden from p!blic view# Real inner change occ!rs b" activel" incorporating the ideas in ever"da" life# ;erel" ac6!iring more 4esoteric5 8nowledge is !seless and can lead to a state which is worse than if one had never heard of the ideas to begin with# To ponder one idea to

practice one e$ercise for at least a wee8 at a time is a wa" to 4digest5 this material# Otherwise it can lead to mental constipation and leave the reader with a false sense of 8nowing something witho!t reall" !nderstanding it# A tool is onl" val!able if it is !sed# ,+>,7>?@ Airst 3ro!p ;eeting

A'(9 This is a school of the Ao!rth :a"# (chools of this nat!re have e$isted since man co!ld thin8 tho!gh the" have alwa"s been s!spected b" the general p!blic# <!t we won&t go into that at this earl" date# These meetings will ta8e the form advocated b" ;r# 3!rd%ieff that of 6!estion and answer# Alwa"s tr" to as8 a 6!estion that reall" means something to "o! not something that ma" so!nd important for the sa8e of so!nding important# :hen I met ;r# 3!rd%ieff for the first time and we were given prior notice that each of !s wo!ld be able to as8 him one 6!estion I tho!ght and tho!ght abo!t it b!t onl" one 6!estion 8ept occ!rring to me and that is what I as8ed# 2e began b" sa"ing 4Ah "o! witho!t 8nowing it have accidentall" as8ed important 6!estion5# The answer to an" 6!estion is more form than an"thing else beca!se b" the fact that "o! can as8 it means that "o! alread" have the answer# (o tr" to clarif" the 6!estion in "o!r minds %!st don&t as8 o!t of habit and "o! will probabl" have at least a portion of the answer# None of "o! wo!ld be here !nless "o! felt some disappointment in life# I have heard man" stories of how individ!als have come to have contact with (chools# One person in New Bor8 stood on the bloc8 he tho!ght the 3!rd%ieff Instit!te might be located# Ainall" one night he saw a gro!p of people entering a doorwa" and followed them in# 2e of co!rse was noticed as a stranger b!t was later assigned a class and %oined the :or8# There was a fellow who had read all the boo8s and wrote to the p!blishers the" forwarded the letters to the Instit!te and the Instit!te forwarded them to me# :e all come to this :or8 wanting something more# Onl" b" wor8ing on "o!rselves can "o! ac6!ire that something# Ever"thing man gains ever"thing he comes to 8now is alwa"s destro"ed b" war or disaster or forgetf!lness# :hat ma" seem li8e 4peace5 one moment is an ill!sion beca!se war brea8s o!t the ne$t# The world is a reflection of o!rselves and if we are at odds with o!rselves there will alwa"s be wars and violence# C# :ill this :or8 help m" children or can the" help meD It sa"s on the cover of <eel=eb!b that it is in the form of a m"th is that tr!eD A'(9 :ell what is tr!thD Do "o! 8nowD Bes of co!rse this :or8 can help "o!r children b!t "o! m!st be able to help "o!rself first# Can "o! reall" do an"thing nowD 2!manit" is li8e a tidal wave and we are individ!al drops in that wave# Can one drop of water infl!ence another dropD No# <!t we can learn from childrenE we can learn to be child.li8e not childish# Children don&t lie as m!ch as ad!lts and that is helpf!l# Also m"ths and fair" tales are ver" importantE the" contain man" important things and "o! sho!ld read "o!r children these# Not the modern remade fair" tales b!t the old ones#

(ome of "o! ma" have been l!c8" eno!gh to have had them read to "o! as a child# One of the older gro!ps is now wor8ing on m"ths comparing them# The" have fo!nd that the stor" of creation of co!rse with minor differences is the same in all religions# A'(9 Do we act!all" go to the s!n when we dieD C9 No# As we are we are food for the moon# :hat we are tr"ing to do in this :or8 is to be able to be food for the s!n# :e are not able to <e as we are# C9 2ow does vegetarian diet fit into the :or8D

A'(9 In <eel=eb!b 3!rd%ieff sa"s that it will be most !nli8el" that all the people on the planet will become vegetarians# Therefore we m!st cons!me at least some meat or e$perience a lessening of o!r will power# This is not to sa" that a vegetarian diet is not good for "o!r health b!t it is bad for "o!r will beca!se "o! are s!rro!nded b" non. vegetarians# <!t we m!st 8eep in mind where the chops that we are eating come from# Feep in mind that the" were once part of a living being somewhat li8e !s and than8 that being for giving its life to provide !s with a meal# :e waste a great deal in America# The Indians alwa"s as8ed the animal the" had 8illed for forgiveness# The" never wasted an" part of the animal# :e throw awa" vast amo!nts of food# One Northwest Indian tribe even went so far as to reconstr!ct the bones of the salmon the" ate and place the remains in the river in the hope that the fish wo!ld come bac8 to life# Of co!rse it didn&t b!t it was the tho!ght that was important# C9 Do "o! mean that we literall" waste food or spirit!all"D

A'(9 Don&t "o! see how m!ch isn&t !sedD C9 On the chart of the Ra" of Creation is there an"thing below the bottom triangleD

A'(9 Bes b!t that does not concern !s now# :e m!st get to 8now what is immediatel" aro!nd !s at first and then we ma" be able to thin8 of these things which are so far be"ond !s# C9 I am worried that I ma" be too old to be in the :or8# I read somewhere that 3!rd%ieff said "o! had to be "o!ng to be s!ccessf!l in the :or8# A'(9 :hen we were visiting 3!rd%ieff in his apartment in Paris I was a member of 1ane 2eap&s gro!pE a p!pil bro!ght his parents to meet 3!rd%ieff# 3!rd%ieff was alwa"s ver" 8ind and deferential to older persons# Ainall" the father got !p eno!gh co!rage to as8 3!rd%ieff whether he and his wife were too old to be in the :or8# 3!rd%ieff was silent for a long time then he loo8ed !p and as8ed the man9 4Bo! able to get o!t of bed in morningD5 4Bes5# 4Then not too old for :or8G5 Bo!ng people often do not have eno!gh life behind them and older people often do not have eno!gh time in their ever"da" life for the :or8 so it wor8s both wa"s# It is good to have "o!ng and old in the same gro!p# One gro!p I have is all "o!nger people and the" have a diffic!lt time getting

off the gro!nd beca!se the" all had similar e$periences and there wasn&t m!ch disagreement# Bo! need friction to get real disc!ssion going# C9 2ow can I !se ever"da" disappointments s!ffering to increase m" awarenessD

A'(9 A good 6!estion# <!t now "o! m!st observe "o!rself# Bo! don&t reall" 8now m!ch abo!t "o!rself at all do "o!D Observe how "o! react how "o! operate# Do "o! 8now what 8ind of machine "o! areD No# Then "o! m!st find o!t# Tr" to be aware of "o!rself stand bac8 from "o!rself and regard "o!rself as 4it5# Don&t identif" with "o!r bod" let the 4I5 as it is now see the wa" "o! move or feel# Don&t become involved or "o! will cease observing# This will allow "o! to ac6!ire information that will be !sef!l to "o! in the f!t!re# C9 I fo!nd the comparison with a machine interesting# The heart a p!mpHHH#

A'(9 :e can be food for higher beings# <!t as we are we %!st ret!rn to the soil become food for worms compost# :e descend on the scale instead of rising# O!r goal is to go to the s!n not fig!rativel" b!t reall"# One thing "o! m!st alwa"s remember9 Never accept an"thing I sa" as tr!e "o! m!st prove it to "o!rselves# Bo!r tas8 for ne$t wee8 will be to ta8e words that "o! !se fre6!entl" that "o! thin8 "o! 8now the meaning of words li8e freedom tr!th %!stice and reall" thin8 abo!t them# :rite down what the" mean to "o!# Don&t write down what "o!&ve heard from other people or learned in school b!t what might be their inner meaning# :e will disc!ss "o!r tho!ghts# Bo! have probabl" come across the statement that this :or8 isn&t for ever"bod" and as8ed "o!rselves 4:h" is this so wh" can&t ever"bod" be helpedD5 :ell if someone wo!ld go downstairs and let in the long line of people waiting at the doorHHH## ,+>**>?@ C9 Once we are in the :or8 are we still !nder the 'aw of AccidentD

A'(9 Bes and no# One of m" favo!rite analogies is that as we are we are li8e a canoe being propelled down a swift river# :e have no control and ma" be dashed !pon a roc8 at an" min!te# :e have no idea of what might happen ne$t# 'ater after m!ch wor8 "o! ma" ac6!ire a r!dder still later "o! ma" have "o!r own sails and be able to criss.cross the river at will or even sail against the c!rrent# As we are we have no direction or individ!al power# :e appear to be !nder the 'aw of Accident b!t this is beca!se of o!r ignoranceE as we are we cannot see the meaning and the wh" of things# As I said at the first meeting we are the onl" self.evolving creat!re on the Earth at this time or rather we are the onl" creat!re to have the potential for self.evol!tion# There have been man" e$periments b" Nat!re to create a self.evolving species and !ntil h!mans came !pon the scene abo!t a million "ears ago all previo!s e$periments were

fail!res# An e$ample of a failed e$periment is the insect world# Bo! ma" have wondered at one time 4wh" insectsD5 especiall" after having been bitten b" one# The" don&t reall" seem to fill m!ch of a need in the scheme of things# :ell it is beca!se the" were once m!ch larger and when the" failed to develop properl" Nat!re red!ced them in si=e# Bo! see Nat!re never wastes an"thing onl" man wastes so rather than destro"ing them the" were 8ept# Insects have an advanced intelligence of their own the" are highl" organised and s!ccessf!l on a limited basis b!t the" nevertheless failed to self.evolve# 1!stice is getting what "o! have wor8ed for# 3!rd%ieff said that all three centres m!st sweat# Nothing in the :or8 is reall" given it m!st be earned# (omeone who %!st sits bac8 and waits for efforts to be made b" themselves will consider it !n%!st if another strives hard and achieves something b!t of co!rse that is %!stice# C9 :here does o!r wish to do something in the :or8 come from does it come from all o!r centresD A'(9 A tr!e wish "es# <eca!se a tr!e wish is a wish to <e# To <e what we reall" are# :e have ver" few wishes# ;ost of the !rges in !s are desires or wants or needs# Desires are created in !s witho!t o!r sa" in the matter the" come from o!tside o!rselves# 'i8e a shin" new car or pair of shoes in the show room window the" act on !s s!bconscio!sl" we can&t reall" help it# :e find o!rselves being attracted to this and that all the time this is what 8eeps societ" going along on one level the material desires of man" people# A h!ge amo!nt of material and energ" is totall" wasted on these dreams b!t when it comes to act!al needs we spend ver" little on them9 food shelter and ac6!iring !sef!l 8nowledge# Tr!e wish transcends all of this and once "o! have it and find a school "o! have a chance to brea8 o!t of the c"cle of desires and artificial attractions that hold !s where we are# Ever" time a desire ta8es hold of "o! "o!r energ" drains awa"# Often as8 "o!rself 5:ho am ID5 b!t don&t tr" to get the answer# Onl" after long wor8 "o! ma" get an answer from within "o!rself# 43o o!t and live dangero!sl" p!t "o!r life in %eopard". become a %eopardG5 1ane 2eap# Two tho!sand million is what the Earth&s pop!lation sho!ld be three and a half tho!sand million is what it is toda"# There are man" people who are act!all" s!bh!man beca!se of this# ;ost people don&t want an" more 8nowledge than the" have alread"# :e have this material beca!se it is not being !sed b" others# :e are not stealing it from people who reall" desire it# Eight" percent of man8ind is ;an N!mber One and I have a high regard for ;an N!mber One the man of the moving centre# ;an N!mber Two is emotionall" based s!ch as artists who are !s!all" h"stericall" inclined are pathological sic8# ;an N!mber Three thin8s is concerned with his head brain# 2e sho!ld learn to wor8 with his hands and train his moving centre which wor8s @, ,,, times faster than his mind# (a" "o! come in after chopping wood "o! are worn o!t and ta8e a glass of brand" or a slice of bread it affects "o! immediatel" the whole bod" feels it# If "o! had to rel" on the head brain to digest food it wo!ld ta8e I ho!rs# ;en N!mbers Two and One sho!ld learn to

thin8 to thin8 abstractl" to !se ideas to ma8e forms# <!t "o! m!st remember that ;en N!mbers One Two and Three are all on the same level are all e6!al in potential# Ever"thing wants to <e to manifest itself its idea# Bo! can feel this wal8ing among the redwoods the !rge to <eE the seed growing into the plant the plant tr"ing to f!lfil itself# Each of !s is an idea coming into itself prod!cing self.ness# I have heard old people as8 4Is this all there isD5 And it is reall" sad to hear this especiall" when it is too late for them to change# That is the 6!estion that bro!ght !s here and one we m!st not forget to 8eep as8ing# Chinese stor"9 A ver" rich man b!ilt himself a great castle protected from all his possible enemiesE all ro!tes of entr" were well g!arded# 2e lived peacef!ll" there man" "ears !ntil one da" he had an !ne$pected visitor# Death penetrated to the ver" heart of the fortress and carried him awa"# C9 Is it !sef!l to tr" to stop the flow of associations b" co!nting e$ercisesD

A'(9 Bes it is a good e$ercise to !se vario!s methods to stave off !seless associations# Did "o! get the idea from Orage&s boo8D C9 No I haven&t read it#

A'(9 :ell Orage gives several wa"s to do this li8e sa"ing K;ar" 2ad A 'ittle 'amb& while at the same time thin8ing K1ac8 And 1ill :ent Up The 2ill& or *.*,, /++ @.+I and so forth !ntil "o! meet in the middle and start bac8 to the beginning# <!t li8e an" e$ercise "o! sho!ldn&t overdo them at first approach them grad!all"# If "o! are starting training for the Ol"mpics "o! don&t begin b" r!nning /, miles the first da"# Associations aren&t 4bad5 of themselves# It is da"dreams and fantasies that do m!ch more to 8eep !s asleep# Bo! m!st start slowl" and b!ild !p avoid attempting too m!ch at once or of doing an" one thing b!t 8eep observing "o!rself at all times if "o! can remember to do so# That is the hardest part. remembering to observe remembering to remember# C9 (ho!ld I contin!e to practice F!ndalini BogaD

A'(9 :hat do "o! mean b" F!ndalini BogaD C9 <reath of fire breathing e$ercises#

A'(9 No "o! sho!ld not# Bo! m!st not fool aro!nd with "o!r breathing# It wo!ld be alright to contin!e the ph"sical e$ercises b!t leave o!t the breathing parts# C9 <!t most of the e$ercises contain breathingHH#

A'(9 :ell get "o!rself another "oga boo8# Bo! see breathing is controlled b" the moving centre which doesn&t reall" 8now m!ch abo!t these mattersE "o! can !pset !pset badl" "o!r entire organism# (o sta" awa" from these methods the" can onl" do "o!

harm in the end# If "o! have read the (econd (eries "o! ma" remember E8im <e"&s in%!nction to the "o!ng 3!rd%ieff regarding those who teach and do not 8now# :e do so m!ch to o!rselves e$periment with dr!gs and coo8ed !p techni6!es that sho!ld onl" be ta!ght b" real e$perts that we often do more harm than if we&d %!st left o!rselves alone and lived an ever"da" life# The moving centre is b" far the most intelligent of the centresE it reg!lates all the organs witho!t the thin8ing centre b!tting in# And when it does b!tt in it !s!all" messes things !p# :e m!st get to 8now o!r moving centre better before we can start an" t"pe of e$ercise that involves breathing# After that we can perhaps get to 8now something abo!t the emotional centre which is the most diffic!lt of the three to !nderstand# C9 :hen we st!d" one centre don&t the other two interfere get in the wa"D

A'(9 Bes the" do# :hen we st!d" the centres we m!st be as ;r# 3!rd%ieff sa"s sl" we have to o!twit them# The" !s!all" want to go their own wa"s and we have to discover methods to prevent this# :e have h!ndreds tho!sands of little 4I&s5 all wanting different things at different times# To reall" st!d" and remember what we have seen re6!ires one 4I5 the big 4I5 which is now small and wea8 to compel !s to wor8# C9 Co!ld interest in the :or8 be the res!lt of e$pos!re to the ideas in other livesD

A'(9 Bes it co!ld# There is a possibilit" that some ma" have been e$posed to these ideas somewhere at some time# <!t it reall" doesn&t do m!ch good to thin8 abo!t it# C9 :on&t it be easier for those who might have been e$posed to the :or8 beforeD

A'(9 Not reall" no# :e all begin this wor8 e6!all"# At some f!t!re date "o! ma" realise something feel some force at wor8 in "o! and that might be the res!lt of past effort b!t that is a long time awa"# I don&t thin8 that con%ect!re of this sort is of m!ch benefit# Ne$t wee8&s tas8 will be to tr" to find the difference between a clear tho!ght an emotion and a sensation# Tr" to see how each manifest itself# ,+>*I>?@ A'(9 Ever"thing is either eating being eaten or preparing to eat or be eaten# Thin8 abo!t this# :e have ver" few if an" real emotions# Once in a while we ma" feel tr!e grief tr!e sorrow if someone close to !s dies# <!t most of what we regard as 4emotions5 are in fact self.ind!lgent9 self.pit" inner considering etc# It is good to do!bt things# :hen "o! 48now5 ever"thing there is no room for change# It is better to sa" 4I don&t 8now5. then "o! can learn#

:e 4go aro!nd5 man" times both in circles and c"cles# <!t we can have no 8nowledge of this as we are# :e m!st prepare o!rselves so we do not die li8e a dog# If "o! live "o!r life with the tho!ght of "o!r imminent death "o!r whole life will change# :rite 4memoria morte5 remember death on a slip of paper and tac8 it where onl" "o! will see it in "o!r closet or bathroom medicine chest# This will change the flavo!r of "o!r life# :e are born L we die# Observe "o!r apprehension abo!t death# Death is nat!ral# Tr"ing to den" death is !nnat!ral# :hen "o! are sic8 let "o!r bod" heal itself# It 8nows more than "o! do# Don&t tr" to thin8 abo!t how sic8 "o! are# Read a detective novel something to 8eep "o!r mind b!s"# In st!d"ing the enneagram or an" of these ideas "o! m!st feel them# Don&t approach them thro!gh "o!r intellect# Aeeling is important# O!r emotions or what we have of them are li8e wild horses# Bo! can&t control themE "o! have to let them r!n their co!rse once the"&ve beg!n# The intellect!al centre is o!r wea8est centre that is wh" it is so eas" to control# The moving and emotional centres are far more diffic!lt to control# O!r three basic foods L air the tangible food we eat at meals and impressions# :e can live a month witho!t eating five min!tes witho!t breathing b!t we wo!ld die in a second witho!t impressions# Impressions separate !s from other animals# <!t as we are we have no idea how to properl" !se impressions or even the other two foods we ta8e for granted# Bo!r tas8 is to ma8e mone" doing something "o! have never done before# Arom this point on "o! need to pa" d!es which are M/#J, per person per wee8 and we will need a gro!p secretar" and treas!rer# ,+>/J>?@ A'(9 The 4so!l5 is onl" a germ a seed in !s as we are# Each of !s has a drop of 4water5 in !s h!manit" is the ocean# <!t we cannot do an"thing with this drop !nless we develop individ!alit" as opposed to personalit"# In this :or8 we start at the ver" bottom not at the top as in most other methods# Bo! m!st start with small things and not concern "o!rselves with the big weight" 6!estions which "o! cannot have an" !nderstanding of at the present# It is important to ma8e a list of "o!r first childhood memories tr" to remember what "o!r emotions were what "o! tho!ght abo!t# Children ver" "o!ng children rarel" lie and can even see the world as it is# I remember when I was a small child crawling on the floor# It was cold and snow" o!t and a deliver" bo" came in. the first thing I saw was the white snow on his shin" blac8

boots# I was so intrig!ed b" this that I crawled over and began lic8ing them. !ntil m" mother r!shed over and "an8ed me awa" !ne$pectedl"# It is important that "o!ng men wor8 hard ph"sicall" and !se their energ" while the" have it# One of the reasons for all the tro!ble we have in this co!ntr" with teenagers is that the" rarel" wor8 hard an" more# And if "o! observe "o!rself while ph"sicall" wor8ing "o! store another 8ind of energ"# :e are in a ver" sad state. we have no real faith hope or charit"# 3!rd%ieff sa"s that onl" one tr!e being imp!lse is left in !s and that is so encr!sted over b" personalit" that it has great diffic!lt" in being heard over the din of desires wants and da" dreams. that is conscience# Not the 4learned5 conscience of o!r parents schools and ch!rches b!t that voice deep down inside !s which 8nows what it is we sho!ld do# :e m!st tr" to !ncover this facet of o!rselves before we can tr!l" <e# Do not attempt to s!ppress or control "o!r emotions# 'earn to direct them# ;a8e them serve a f!nction rather than letting them fester or fl" off the handle# As "o! are "o! thin8 that "o! can control "o!rselves# This is an ill!sion# One min!te "o! ma" thin8 "o!&re in control the ne$t a new 4I5 steps in which ma" have an entirel" different attit!de and not wish to be 4!nder control5# Thin8 of "o!r bod" as a wild animal# 2ave "o! seen trained wor8ing farm animals li8e the cow pon" or sheep dogD The" are happ" with themselves# Compare them to the pampered cit" poodles alwa"s "apping !seless# O!r bodies wish for a master a real 4I5 to tell them what to do# As we are we are li8e two thirds of a triangle a negative side and a positive side b!t no base connecting them so there&s nothing to let them flow wor8 together# :hat ta8es the place of real 4I5 in !s now is personalit" and personalit" constantl" changes never sta"s p!t so we can&t reall" !se o!rselves for an" real tas8s# :hen we replace personalit" with individ!alit" based in essence then we will be able to do# :e spend most of o!r time being concerned with what other people thin8 of !s and "et we do not even 8now who we are# As we are we do not see how vanit" and self.love operate in !s# Notice how ph"sical post!res are connected to mental and emotional states# ;an" of the "ogic post!res were invented to prod!ce definite states of mind# If "o! frown wrin8le !p "o!r face or slo!ch while "o! wal8 notice the state of mind that goes with these post!res# Bo! can determine a person&s t"pe b" %!st loo8ing at how he or she sits# I was watching the :atergate b!siness on television last night and 2oward 2!nt&s face was a veritable map of his inner state# I wo!ld li8e to give "o! some hints on what to observe in this area9 . Tone of voice# 3est!res from pelvis to head# Aacial e$pressions# Carriage# Post!re )an e$pression of how one is thin8ing>feeling0#

Emotional temperat!re )4ic" detachment5 4hot !nder the collar50# Ps"chological weight )heav" dense or light air"0# Also notice how others manifest# One thing don&t label# Don&t tr" to define things or ps"chologise abo!t them# 1!st observe and ta8e notes as tho!gh "o! were collecting insects placing them in bottles !p on a shelf# (omeda" after a good deal of wor8 "o!&ll be able to notice when anger or a strong disli8e is coming down the road toward "o! and "o! will be able to direct it# Now tr" to observe don&t tr" to 8eep it down# Tr" to ma8e an" strong emotion a signal that it is time to observe# Feep in mind that to go on to more advanced wor8 "o! m!st 8now what "o! are wor8ing with9 "o!rselves# Bo! m!st get to the point where "o! are no.thing nothing# Onl" then does real wor8 begin# C9 :hat is the difference between a reaction and a responseD

A'(9 All that "o! do now is the res!lt of reactionsE ever"thing happens to "o! ever"thing is infl!enced from the o!tside# There is no real 4I5 %!st a collection of little 4I&s5 who rarel" agree on an"thing and never sta" with "o! for more than a da" at a time# :hat we are aiming for in this :or8 is re.sponse.abilit" not reactions# To be able to respond and not a!tomaticall" react# 2ow can "o!r ship ever get an"where if there are a h!ndred captains who ta8e t!rns going where the" have a whim to goD At best "o! wo!ld get somewhere p!rel" b" accident# Air is the food of emotions# Bo! can do!ble the effect of an incoming impression if "o! are present when it arrives# This cannot be an aftertho!ght b!t m!st occ!r sim!ltaneo!sl"# :e live most of o!r lives either in the past or f!t!re so this rarel" happens b" itself !nless one is in new or threatening circ!mstances# (o while activel" observing o!rselves we start to change we increase o!r bod"&s abilit" to absorb 4higher h"drogens5# Alwa"s be aware of the 4role5 "o! are pla"ing and that it is a role# Insanit" is !s!all" ca!sed b" a person becoming so thoro!ghl" identified with one of his small 4I&s5 that he can&t brea8 o!t of the established pattern or b" accidentall" glimpsing things as the" reall" are the world behind the faNade# If s!ch a person is !nprepared for s!ch a glimpse he can become totall" !nbalanced# ;an" persons in instit!tions have what is called an idOe fi$e a fi$ed idea of one thing which ta8es !p their entire life# :e are sometimes not that far from that state o!rselves# C9 Is conscience li8e the s!per.egoD

A'(9 :hat do "o! mean 4b" s!per.ego5D C9 Oh the id the ego the s!per.egoH#

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A'(9 :ell I haven&t 8ept !p on modern ps"cholog" b!t perhaps it might on some s!perficial level# In this wor8 we have a definite lang!age a lang!age "o! m!st all get to 8now if "o! are to !nderstand each other# Otherwise there will onl" be conf!sion# It does little good to attempt to compare how one idea in the :or8 is li8e some other idea in another s"stem# <" conscience we mean that which is in "o! at birth an inner voice which 8nows what is right and wrong# This is not learned# Feep observing "o!rselves tr" to for the habit# This is the most important thing "o! can do# I realise that it is eas" to become impatient b!t "o! m!st remember that this :or8 ta8es a ver" long time and that nothing can be gained overnight# C9 Aren&t all of the modern labo!r.saving devices progress beca!se the" give !s more free timeH##D A'(9 Aree time for whatD To do whatD :hat are "o! saving time forD All of these machines onl" serve to wea8en !s# There will come a time if this trend contin!es when we will be !nable to do even simple ph"sical things# If "o! have read 4Also (prach Parath!stra5 "o! will remember that the 4last man5 had onl" eno!gh energ" left to blin8 his e"esG 2e didn&t have an"thing left to feed himself move or even have se$# And that is where we are headed# Energies in o!r ever"da" life are li8e waterE the" flow 6!ite well down hill and become easil" e$ha!sted# <!t b" conscio!s effort we can p!mp them !p hill increase them# :e !se ver" little of o!r potential strength# Tr" to learn as man" ph"sical s8ills as "o! can# Nowada"s people 8now less and less abo!t more and more# Bo! 8now I still have m" mother&s piano and when I am d!sting it if I miss a spot I can distinctivel" hear her voice sa"ing 4Bo! missed that spot do it overG5 Tr" not to do as others aro!nd "o! do# This is an e$cellent method b" which "o! can observe "o!rselves and the actions of other people# Remember 3!rd%ieff&s response to his grandmother&s death that little %ingle9 4'et her with the saints& repose Now that she&s t!rned !p her toesH#5 That&s what he is sa"ingE avoid doing the ro!tine the e$pected# As we are we are creat!res of o!r given sit!ation# Notice how even the weather infl!ences !s as tho!gh it rains or snows to spite !s# Tr" to brea8 the pattern of re.action# Do something the wa" "o! have never done it beforeE br!shing "o!r teeth with "o!r left hand if "o! !s!all" !se "o!r right hand# P!t a pebble in "o!r shoe# 3ive it a tr"# *,>,/>?@ C9 Are "o! one who 8nowsD

A'(9 Fnows whatD C9 Oh in the (earch 3!rd%ieff sa"s that a teacher m!st be above on a higher level# Are "o!D

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A'(9 :ell )la!ghter0 3!rd%ieff alwa"s answered 6!estions of this nat!re b" sa"ing that we in the :or8 are all on different r!ngs of a ver" long ladder# A large octave of the scale# 1es!s Christ was a ;an N!mber ? and we can have no idea of 2im or how we wo!ld approach 2im# :hen "o! as8 a 6!estion of someone 4above 5 "o! and the" do not 8now the f!ll answer the" in t!rn as8 the person above them and so on !ntil it gets to 3od and the answer ret!rns down the scale# Each of !s depends !pon the person above and below# I have no absol!te 8nowledge# C9 All we do is sit aro!nd and tal8 here there doesn&t seem to be an" emotion or closeness# I feel hemmed in# A'(9 :hat else can we do nowD There are other things we will do after "o! have learned to observe "o!r selves long eno!gh so that something is cr"stallised in "o!# Right now we m!st plant these ideas and tal8ing abo!t them is the onl" wa" we can do that# I seem to be doing most of the tal8ing don&t ID Remember "o! are li8e do!gh )and do as in do.re.mi0 and these ideas are the "east# <" properl" receiving them perhaps something will be change# C9 I notice that I have a whole collection of gest!res that I go thro!gh when I&m in a crowd or %!st with other people so I&ll blend in and not be noticed# A'(9 Bes it is strange that in America where we have a chance to reall" be different ever"one is so concerned with being ali8e in attit!des and approaches# In England where I spent a good deal of m" life ever"one is e$pected to be ali8e as in the schools where the children wear !niforms# <!t if "o! loo8 closel" "o! will see that each girl will tie her hair ribbon differentl" so she won&t be e$actl" ali8e the others# :e are s!b%ect to the laws of centrif!gal and centric force# I don&t 8now whether "o! have been e$posed to this idea in "o!r school s"stems b!t it merel" means that there is a strong p!ll that tries to blend together individ!als in a societ" while at the same time separating them# (ome e$pect individ!alit" while others are ver" !ncomfortable with it# 'oo8 at Comm!nist ChinaE the" abhor the idea of individ!alit"# C9 2ow can I consider e$teriorl"D

A'(9 As "o! are it is almost impossible to consider e$teriorl" beca!se ever" time "o! start to p!t "o!rself in another&s place a different 4I5 pops !p and promptl" decides to consider interiorl"# 4:h" isn&t he pa"ing more attention to meD (he reall" doesn&t love me# It isn&t worth the effort5# Etc# :e alwa"s end !p right bac8 in o!rselves and ignore how the other person ma" be feeling# Bo! see !ntil we 8now o!rselves better than we do now we can start o!t with the best intentions in the world and still end !p as we alwa"s do . wanting the other person to conform to o!r e$pectations and becoming angr" when the" fail to do so# :e are alwa"s seeing how people sho!ld be and not how the" act!all" are#

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1ane 2eap told !s an anecdote abo!t 3!rd%ieff and three aristocratic R!ssian ladies who had heard abo!t 3!rd%ieff and wishes to meet him# The" were allowed to come to dinner one da" and even tho!gh the"&d been told that 3!rd%ieff was a son of a sheep herder the" were still willing to ris8 their social position# :ell when the" arrived the" fo!nd 3!rd%ieff sl!mped over his chair as if dr!n8 arms as8ew head on chest# As the evening wore on the ladies became more and more ta8en abac8 3!rd%ieff !nb!ttoned the top b!ttons on his pants and win8ed at them# The ladies 8ept balancing as 1ane said their tiaras atop their heads !ntil the" co!ld escape# Bo! see 3!rd%ieff never made it eas" if "o! felt some specific resistance he wo!ld ferret it o!t and ma8e things even harder for "o!# <!t if "o! were prepared if "o! co!ld overcome obstacles meeting him co!ld be a ver" moving e$perience# 2e often overflowed with benevolence and some wo!ld brea8 down and cr"# 3ood is that which ma8es "o! more conscio!s# <ad is that which hinders conscio!sness ma8es "o! forget# That is the onl" real good and evil# The rest is what it is no more no less# Ever"thing else is %!st ne!tral# Bo! will find that "o! onl" thin8 "o! thin8# Tr!e thin8ing is a reall" big thing# :e lie to o!rselves and others all the time constantl"# This is not good mainl" beca!se we are !naware of it# If "o! conscio!sl" lie that is another matter# The important thing is not to lie to "o!rselves inwardl"# 3!rd%ieff sa"s that it is foolish to tell the tr!th to ever"one at all timesE it wo!ld onl" serve to get "o! into !seless tro!ble# <e conscio!s of what "o! sa"# Don&t fall into the trap of believing "o!r own bl!ffs# :e are alwa"s pretending# :e are afraid if we sa" we don&t 8now that we will be thrown o!t of the h!man race# :e pretend that ever"one else 8nows and the f!nn" thing is the" don&t either# (o don&t feel isolated even tho!gh we are all 4alone in a crowd5 to some degree# Cleanliness is important# The Arabs alwa"s go to the baths before an" important event as do the 1ews# If "o! notice animals "o! can see that the" are alwa"s grooming themselves in their own wa"# 4Onl" man and friend pig sta" dirt" 5 said 3!rd%ieff# Each person has a definite chemistr"# (ometimes a person will repel !s sometimes attract this has nothing to do with personalit" it is merel" chemicals at wor8# Even one&s own children can have chemistries that might not mi$ with o!r own# <!t blood is deeper than chemistr" and the feeling of famil" r!ns beneath it all# Do not become disco!raged# I 8now it is diffic!lt to remember to remember b!t "o! have to be scientific abo!t it in the sense of impartiall" observing "o!rselvesE regard "o!r 4I5 and the rest of "o! as living a tho!sand "ears apart# C9 :hat is t"peD 2ow man" t"pes are thereD Are the" all hereD

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A'(9 There are ?/ t"pes b!t we have a good selection here# T"pe is that 6!alit" connected with chief fa!lt that something in !s that tips the scales whenever "o! are in a sit!ation that re6!ires a decision# It determines "o!r reaction# If "o! are la=" "o! do the thing that re6!ires least energ" if aggressiveE "o! %!mp into conflict etc# Abo!t a "ear d!ring l!nch on (!nda" :or8 Da" a folding table loaded with dishes collapsed with a crash# I co!ld see most of those present and each reacted according to t"pe one immediatel" r!shed to pic8 !p the bro8en dishes one watched the table fall and smiled another co!ldn&t fig!re o!t what had happened and so forth# C9 :hat is the correlation between astrolog" and the 3!rd%ieff s"stemD

A'(9 I can&t help "o! m!ch on astrolog"E "o!&ll have to find o!t abo!t that on "o!r own# <!t we are infl!enced in essence b" the astrological config!ration at the time of conception# <!t as we live most of o!r lives in personalit" this infl!ence pla"s little part in o!r individ!al ever"da" e$istence# C9 Is the 6!alit" of impressions inferior toda" compared to past generationsD

A'(9 No# The" are the same as the" alwa"s have been even with the la"er of man made poll!tion which s!rro!nds !s# :e receive all the impressions we need tho!sands each second even while asleep# <!t the h!man race is 6!ic8l" degenerating and ma8es little !se of the impressions available to it# Tr" to 8eep in mind that at ever" moment ever" possible h!man emotion ever" possible h!man sit!ation is happening on the s!rface of the planet# If "o! can remember this when "o! enco!nter personal diffic!lties and remember how small "o! are in relation to the whole of e$istence "o! ma" if onl" for a moment attain the proper perspective# An" effort we ma8e helps !s even tho!gh we ma" not see it right awa"# Occasionall" when we least e$pect it we will see something in a different light# (o remember res!lts are alwa"s proportional to efforts the larger the effort the greater the res!lts# Therefore do not begr!dge modern life and its diffic!ltiesE it s!pplies m!ch grist for the mill# :e treat o!rselves li8e pampered pets# 2ave "o! noticed how ho!se pets stin8 if not washed fre6!entl"D :e ind!lge o!rselves far too m!ch# Conversel" we m!st not ab!se o!r bodies drin8 too m!ch eat in e$cess get too little sleep# :hen we observe we often fail to see what is right in front of o!r noses and this ma" lead to depression to a sense of not getting an"where# The people in the oldest gro!p have neglected self.observation and have to go bac8 to s6!are one and begin all over again# Bo! can never neglect this# It is a constant and contin!ing process the 8e" to the whole s"stem not something "o! do for a while and then 4go to higher things5# This ma" be wh" we don&t see the wood for the trees# <eca!se <ig Answers don&t %!st pop o!t and hit !s over the head we sometimes ass!me that we aren&t 4doing5 an"thing# Right now we sho!ld be collecting data not tr"ing to anal"se#

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:e don&t reall" 8now wh" we are here do weD Animals 48now5 plants do not have to be told# <!t man has forgotten# 2ave an" of "o! tho!ght abo!t thisD :ondered wh" "o! were placed hereD :h" "o! are aliveD And what this bod" with its three brains is forD Feep these 6!estions in mind# C!ite a few "ears ago when I was %!st beginning the :or8 I happened to see a man spea8ing on the telephone# 2e was so thoro!ghl" identified with that telephone he was the telephone# I once visited m" eldest son at boarding school and I was swearing a rather st"lish hat and when he saw what I was wearing he said 4;!m please don&t let the other bo"s see "o! with that hat on5# :e all have o!r little visions of the wa" people sho!ld be t!c8ed awa" in o!r minds and it ta8es a charge of d"namite to change o!r views once the" are formed# In the New Bor8 gro!ps the gro!p leader at the end of the allotted time %!st gets !p collects his notes and marches o!t# That&s it# It is startling if "o! have never attended one of their meetings before# 2ere we do not operate the wa" the" do in New Bor8 or (an AranciscoE it is a bit more rela$ed# I s!spect it is a hold over from the rigid O!spens8" wa" of doing things# 4:omen are h"sterical five da"s a wee8 men onl" three5# 4Toda" people not mere ps"chopaths b!t ps"chopaths s6!ared5# 3!rd%ieff# 2ave "o! noticed how we tolerate actions on the part of o!r grandparents that wo!ld appal !s if o!r parents did themD :h" is thatD Each person needs something from the wor8 which is not e$actl" li8e an" other person&s needs# Now we have to wor8 together on the same things no matter how d!ll this ma" seem# At a later date we can wor8 on an individ!al basis# :hen "o! find "o!rself angr" !pset whatever stop retain the e$pression on "o!r face and loo8 into the mirror %!st for a second# (ee what "o! loo8 li8e to others# :e !s!all" begin acting as soon as we get in front of the mirror or camera and onl" see o!r most appealing e$pressions# *,>*->?@ A'(9 :e thin8 3od reall" cares whether we believe in 2im or not# It wo!ld be similar to o!r caring whether one of the billions of cells in o!r bod" believed we e$isted or not# 3od is the <eing of all beings# The earl" Christians had the abilit" for m!ch more intense :or8 than we do toda"# Toda" we are 6!ite deteriorated b!t still have a chance and have to tr"# Abo!t /,, "ears

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ago we began to rapidl" decline# Toda" people avoid doing the simplest things with their minds# I have act!all" seen a person write down *, Q *, R /,# The h!man mind is s!perior to an" personal comp!ter# I recall when England still had the po!nds shillings and pence s"stemE */ pence to a shilling /, shillings to a po!nd# People easil" fig!red o!t costs in an" combination with their minds# :hen "o! have to do something it becomes eas"# Now the" let children !se calc!lators in school# No effort# Bo! can tell "o!r mind e$actl" when "o! want to wa8e !p in the morning and it will# 3ive it a tr"# Tr" to g!ess the time when "o! have been awa" from a cloc8 or the temperat!re# Bo! can generall" come within two or three min!tes or degrees# Impressions fall on !s in wrong centres# Notice s!dden feelings that come o!t of the bl!e of sadness or elation# This is the res!lt of associative flow# Each centre !ses a different grade of f!el and cannot operate properl" on the f!el of another centre# An owl is a two brained being and lives in two worlds earth and air# :e are three brained and can live in the air on earth or in water# Americans are a mongrel race# :e are often in conflict with o!r heredit"E the average person is l!c8" to 8now who their grandfather was or what he did# In most co!ntries people 8now abo!t their ancestors the" have a sense of contin!it" and place# Tr" to find o!t as m!ch as "o! can abo!t "o!r famil" as far bac8 as "o! can to see if there an" patterns# Ever"one completel" mis!nderstands ever"one else# :e each have totall" different meanings for the same shared words# That is wh" we m!st learn to !se a :or8 vocab!lar" so that we 8now what is act!all" being said# C9 Can people who practice martial arts develop a permanent 4I5D

A'(9 No not as s!ch# 1!do 8arate and so forth were once part of real schools now the" are separated and mostl" !sed onl" to train the moving centre to enable "o! to 8noc8 one&s enem" on the headE the" are too concerned with res!lts# C9 I notice that when I&m aro!nd machines in a factor" I&m ver" nervo!s# Do we have an instinctive fear of machinesD A'(9 :e sho!ld haveG <!t no I don&t thin8 so# As a matter of fact most people love machines# :hen I was a girl 4progress5 was a big dealE the idea was that more and more machines wo!ld give people more 4time5 for what I do not 8now# C9 I have noticed that a certain sense of !rgenc" a feeling that there isn&t eno!gh time that it is r!nning faster and faster# A'(9 Bes things do seem to go in and o!t of st"le m!ch more rapidl" than the" did before and "et ever"thing remains the same# C9 :hat is attentionD

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A'(9 I co!ld give "o! several definitions of attention b!t all "o! wo!ld do wo!ld be to place them in a noteboo8 and thin8 that "o! !nderstood what attention is and promptl" forget abo!t it# Bo! m!st find o!t for "o!rself# <!t I will tell "o! this9 4a5 before a word means 4in5 or 4toward5 so a.ttention means 4with tension5 b!t that is not what we are after is itD 1ane 2eap said that Arit= Peters once told her when he was abo!t nine "ears old9 4I&d rather wal8 a mile than thin8 a tho!ght5# :e all s!ppose that we are constantl" 4thin8ing5 b!t we don&t we associate# To reall" thin8 abo!t something is far more diffic!lt than it seems# Even tho!gh 3!rd%ieff lambastes !s in 4<eel=eb!b in America5 he did have hopes for Americans# ;me# De (al=mann spends three months of the "ear in New Bor8 the longest period that she spends an"where# I as8ed her9 4:h" if we are so hopeless do "o! spend so m!ch time with !sD5 (he co!ldn&t answer# (he even was pers!aded to visit the (an Arancisco gro!p a few "ears ago# :hen I first started the :or8 with 1ane 2eap in 'ondon five of !s got together and rented a ho!se and lived in a 4comm!ne5 as "o!&d sa" now.a. da"s# Tho!gh we had some prett" bad disagreements we st!c8 together and remained friends# In ever"da" comm!nes the gro!p !s!all" falls apart !nless the" have a tr!e common inner aim# Ariendships formed in real gro!ps are often deeper than blood relationships# After having lived in England for /J "ears I ret!rned to America and fo!nd man" things I did not li8e at all b!t after thin8ing abo!t it I fo!nd that m" disli8es were all in me and not on the o!tside# C9 Are o!r parents environment or %!st heredit"D

A'(9 <oth# Each person is the s!m total of all those who have gone before one&s parents are the immediate representatives of all "o!r ancestors# An" :or8 "o! do is retroactive and infl!ences both those who have gone before "o! and those to come# It is diffic!lt to separate what is the prod!ct of heredit" and what is the prod!ct of personalit" or environment# Tr" to thin8 of a mile high glacier and each snowfla8e there compressed in la"ers "ear after "ear is !ni6!e "et ali8e# Each of !s is !ni6!e "et we are all h!man beings# If we were to disappear Nat!re wo!ld not miss !s at all# Notice how m!ch tension "o! have all the time in "o!r nec8 the wa" "o! sit when "o! go to sleep at night "o! do not even let the bed hold "o! !p# Ever"one 8nows where the" reall" are# 'et&s do an e$perimentE now point to where "o! are )half the gro!p p!ts their hands on their hearts half watch0# (ee no one pointed to their head so little goes on there an"wa"# 4Art5 toda" is merel" self.portrait!re one artist&s view of himself !s!all" ps"chopathic#

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It has gotten to the point where I wo!ld be most hesitant to go into a hospital so man" machines are ta8ing over the d!ties of people that it is frightening# I watched )e$0 Sice.president Agnew&s farewell speech on television last night and the commentator&s remar8s afterwards# It was simpl" ama=ing to hear the difference between what Agnew said and what the commentator heard# The" were almost e$actl" opposite in meaning# After the end of :: II what did people do to celebrateD The" got dr!n8D Isn&t that a strange wa" to celebrate the end of s!ch vast destr!ctionD Each person as8s a 6!estion for ever"one in the gro!p# As8 what "o! want to 8now others want to 8now the same thing b!t do not as8# Remember it is in me and "o! have to drag it o!t ver" little is given# *,>/,>?@ Conversation after two pla"s p!t on b" gro!p members9 A'(9 The pla"s of (ha8espeare contain far too m!ch material to be written b" one man# (ha8espeare was a member of a gro!p and the pla"s were presented !nder his name# Even tho!gh the mode of e$pression in (ha8espeare&s wor8 is o!t.dated the pla"s still have a great deal of val!able material in them# It is good to attend real pla"s not the hodge.podge of pla"s "o! can c!rrentl" findE ones that don&t merel" pander to fads or trivial emotions# :hen acting in a pla" "o! sho!ld pretend to be someone else b!t act!all" tr" to be that personE it helps "o! see how others feel and thin8# The abilit" to la!gh at "o!r own fantasies is a good start on the wa" to destro"ing them# *,>/@>?@ 42appiness as a p!rs!it is worth" onl" of a pig5# Albert Einstein# A'(9 It is most !nfort!nate that o!r fo!nding fathers incl!ded s!ch a basicall" sill" idea as the 4p!rs!it of happiness5 in the Declaration of Independence# If "o! reall" thin8 abo!t it 4happiness5 is s!ch a trivial thing to p!rs!e# :e can register impressions from the s!n the stars and the (!n

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10-23-73 Absolute, but not in our present state. As we are, impressions fall on the wrong centers, helterskelter. Our fantasies get in the way of the proper use of impressions. ntrospection is useless because we ha!e !ery little to "look into#. $ust obser!e yoursel!es, %on&t try to analy'e - that will come after you ha!e store% a great %eal of %ata. (o not shy away from people who cause you friction. )hey can be !ery helpful in allowing you to see what you fin% %istasteful in yoursel!es, although people who are always %epresse%, always negati!e, shoul% be a!oi%e% because their negati!ity can be contagious. t *umps like an electrical spark between people. )hat was part of +itler&s power, his ability to share his intense negati!ity with his au%ience. (on&t be afrai% to speak your min%, or offen% someone. f they want to be offen%e%, let them. ,e are like earthworms, one centere%, groping towar% what we like an% a!oi%ing what we %on&t like, always fearful of suffering an% making a real effort. )ry to ha!e intentional thoughts, they %on&t ha!e to be "big# thoughts, *ust e!ery%ay, simple things, but you initiate them without ha!ing to ha!e an e-ternal situation forcing them on you. ,hen you learn a skill you will notice that it becomes easier an% easier, that is merely because it is becoming mechanical. .ou must obser!e yourself to a!oi% this. ,e shoul%n&t try to stop emotional reactions but we shoul%n&t mull them o!er an% o!er in our min%s. )hat unnaturally prolongs them. /earn to become in%ifferent to them rather than letting them take o!er your entire being. As you get along in the ,ork, assuming you stick with it, think you will fin% that you will feel a strong sense of closeness with other members in the group. 0ot a social type of feeling, but something that transcen%s e!ery%ay concerns. remember a story $ane +eap tol% us about one of the members who ha% stu%ie% with 1ur%*ieff in 2aris. A proper young man ha% returne% to his home town in 3nglan% an% was out walking with the !illage !icar. As they were walking the young man happene% to notice a girl who was walking with her parents. +e ha% met her in 2aris an% she too was in a 1ur%*ieff group. )he young man broke away, rushe% up to her, they embrace%, e-change% greetings an% promise% to meet in 2aris. ,hen the young man returne% to the !icar&s si%e, the !icar aske% whether the girl was his fianc4e. +e sai% "0o, she wasn&t#. )he !icar aske% if they were relate%, "0o# again. ,ell, what was her name, he %i%n&t know. 2u''le%, the !icar aske% where he ha% met her, well, in 2aris55.. )o%ay this story %oesn&t ha!e much impact as mores ha!e change% so much in the past fifty years, but you get the i%ea. ,e are half asleep when we are "awake# an% half awake when we are asleep. f you e-ercise all three centers %uring the %ay, %o physical labor an% conscious thought, then you will sleep soun%ly, without %reaming, at night. (reaming is a pro%uct of left o!er energy we fail to fully use %uring the %ay which must be release%, so we fantasi'e, ho!er between true rest an% waking.

1 t is a mistake to think we shoul% look at things with %etachment, that closes off a place within you. ,e shoul% !iew things with impartiality, without i%entifying, without becoming caught up in them. )his woul% be like looking out of a win%ow an% becoming lost in the rain, rather than seeing the win%ow, the rain an% oursel!es looking at them. ,hen we e-perience a negati!e emotion or state because of another&s attitu%e, it is a current passing between us, a contact is ma%e because we ha!e a place in us for that attitu%e to roost. f you %o not ha!e that correspon%ing place, no contact will be ma%e an% you will remain unaffecte%. (on&t try to work against these feelings in you, try to buil% up other feelings to replace them. /ittle can be gaine% by working against something, working for something is much better. 67ea%ings %uring this perio% were from Orage&s 2sychological 3-ercises 8 1enerally a ten minute rea%ing at the start of the meeting. 10-30-73 A/9. :n%erstan%ing is imme%iate an% non-!erbal. nformation an% knowle%ge is retrospecti!e an% !erbal. .ou can always tell when fantasy has taken the place of actual effort, when the e-ercise or task you are %oing becomes easier instea% of har%er. )he thinking center has to be pushe% or it lapses into imagining that it is working. ,hen typing or %oing anything with your mo!ing center that re;uires no thought, %on&t let the thinking center sit i%ly by, %o math problems, learn wor%s of another language, learn to %o more than one thing at a time. <ost of our illnesses come from not properly e-ercising our centers, especially the mo!ing center. f you are goo% to your bo%y, it will return the kin%ness. .oung people shoul% use their bo%ies an% prepare them for later life, e!en perhaps for a time when they %on&t ha!e their bo%ies. /ast year when some of us went to the 9an =rancisco group for some intensi!e work we woul% get up at > am an% work until 3am the ne-t morning. )he min% itself nee%s no sleep, only the bo%y, though the bo%y is often a%roit at persua%ing the min% that it nee%s sleep also. )he energy that is nee%e% for mental e-ercises is scarce as we are now? it is a higher energy that we usually %o not use. ,e are working "against nature# in this respect. Our emotional center can&t count. )he mental center can. )he mo!ing center can watch. )ake 1> minutes from your bo%y, your e!ery%ay life, in the morning when you get up. 9pen% this time wishing, true wishing with all three centers, buil%ing up the will power to try to remember yoursel!es. 9pen% this time ;uietly looking out of a win%ow, not %ay%reaming, but really thinking about why you are in the ,ork, what it means to you. 1et a "hair shirt#, wear shoes that are a little too small or too large. f you ha!e a corn use it as a remin%ing %e!ice. 0othing comes easily in this work, you ha!e to force your la'y sel!es. .our ol% habits which ha!e been built up an% control you are not only from this life but from all your past li!es, they must be taught to take secon% place to your wish, your wish to @e.

1 t is a great trage%y that the )ibetans who ha!e come to this country after their country was %estroye% by the Ahinese are almost completely unable to pass on the great knowle%ge because so few people are e!en close to their le!el of un%erstan%ing. 9ome of the 1ur%*ieff people %o ha!e contact with them an% perhaps not all the )ibetan wis%om will be lost. 11-0B-73 67ea%ing of A 1nostic +ymn from <ea%&s =ragments of a =aith =orgottenC A/9. )he pearl has a special meaning in esoteric teachings, it is pro%uce% by a small, one braine% being as a result of irritation. 1ems taken from the earth are of a lower le!el of the octa!e. After meetings try to write %own what is important to you. f you keep trying you will %e!elop a ",ork memory#. .ou must keep trying, again an% again, nothing is easy 8 you get nothing for nothing. 9tubbornness is a !ery useful trait, sometimes. 9ome of the %ifficulty is that the ,ork is basically so simple. 1ur%*ieff sai% at one of the %innersD "0ow you are like fisherman with net that has large holes, fish can swim right through.# /ater, maybe, the holes will get smaller an% smaller until you can catch i%eas before they get away. $ane +eap sai%D "/ittle steps for little feet.# ,e li!e partially in two worl%s, one, the mun%ane, the other, a higher worl%. )he ,ork is an attempt to bring them together, rather than lea!ing one at the e-pense of the other. (ays can be like the weather, some are *ust terrible, others blah, some won%erful. ,e shoul%n&t let our emotional climate %ictate our li!es. .ou can use negati!e states to remember? if you %on&t, that %ay is lost fore!er an% is waste%. ,e spen% most of our li!es li!ing in the past or the future. 9ome people e!en get totally stuck li!ing in the past an% ne!er li!e right 0O,. )hey worry about what they once %i% or what they&re going to %o an% let petty little fears push them aroun%. 3!erything e-ists an% happens 0O,. Only our self impose% !eil of illusions pre!ents us from seeing that. ,e get stuck looking out one win%ow of our house when there are many more a!ailable. ,e ha!e a small supply of %ays allotte% to us, we can make of them what we will, or let them %isappear without a trace. E. ,here %o our fears come fromF (o they come from the conflict between how we think we are an% how we actually manifestF A/9. .es, that coul% be one source. ,e spen% so much time worrying about what others think of us an%, in fact, people really only think of themsel!es an% har%ly notice we e-ist. 0obo%y really cares about us, we *ust mechanically think that they %o. 7emembering early chil%hoo% e-periences is a useful way to fin% out where some of your fears come from. ,rite %own these memories an% then ask your mother when they occurre% an% at what age, or if they happene% at all. 9et yourself a task an% follow it through. )his is the best way to get out of an attack of %epression an% listlessness. Also, making a conscious %ecision an% intentionally carrying it out stores up energy rather than letting it %rain out of you. .ou can ne!er %o anything tomorrow, only right now.

1 E. ,ill you e!er gi!e us %irect answers to our ;uestionsF A/9. 9ometimes will gi!e you a !ery %irect answerG @ut to stimulate you to think about these i%eas so that they are really part of you, are really your own, you ha!e to fin% out the answers insi%e of yoursel!es, otherwise, what goo% woul% an "answer# beF t woul% be like glimpsing into "higher# realities with %rugs, or like looking o!er someone&s shoul%er %uring a test. .es, you get the answer, but it is not from your own un%erstan%ing an% is therefore lost an% can&t be use%. t is easy to sit an% listen to someone else&s answer to a ;uestion, then tuck it in your book of answers an% forget about it. )hat&s what they %o in e!ery%ay schools an% that is why most people %on&t really learn anything. .ou must steal time from your e!ery%ay life for the ,ork. f you %on&t you can&t e-pect anything to change. .ou ha!e to %e!ote all your energies to what you are %oing at any gi!en moment. f you are at your *ob, then all of your energy must be %irecte% towar%s that. f you are at home %oing something, then all of you shoul% be engage% in that. .ou see, when you come to a cross roa%s an% %eci%e to go north, go north with your whole being, all of you, %on&t go north with 2>H, south with >0H an% west with the other 2>H. E. rea% in the 9earch that only people who are "normal# se-ually can make it in the ,ork, what e-actly is "normal#F A/9. ,ell, know the passage an% this is one of the few places in the book where Ouspensky inserts his own opinion. 1ur%*ieff ne!er sai% that. 3!en though Ouspensky %i% lapse in this case, we shoul% be grateful to him for writing this account because 1ur%*ieff ne!er taught that way again, after he left 7ussia an% the material woul% ha!e been lost fore!er. :nfortunately Ouspensky latche% onto it as an unchanging gospel an% coul%n&t see that one must a%apt the teaching to the circumstances, to the people being taught. )he sean% instincti!e centers of the lower story, as we are, push the other brains aroun%, they are all mi-e% up. )he se- center 6it is not a brainC supplies energy for the continuation of the race. /ater on, when we sort out the proper functions of the three brains, you may be able to make use of the higher energies of the se- center. 0ow, %on&t concern yoursel!es with this matter. 67eferring to how a sore toe or tooth can totally take o!er our consciousnessCD <an IJ coul% still operate, think, e!en though e-periencing se!ere pain. <an I> remembers himself often, is much closer to true consciousness. Obser!ing oursel!es now is relati!e consciousness. Obser!ing is the first step on the long path towar% really remembering one&s self. (on&t confuse the two. n a year we will begin rea%ing @eel'ebub in group. 0ow, try rea%ing it to each other. f you aren&t marrie% or li!ing with someone, fin% a goo% frien% who will rea% it with you. )wenty pages at a time is enough. 1ur%*ieff woul% always bury an i%ea %eeper an% %eeper as soon as people caught onto it too ;uickly. +e sai%D "3!erything is in @eel'ebub, e!en how to boil egg, but that is not what it is about.# E. ,as %a Kinci an ob*ecti!e artistF A/9. 0o. @ut he trie% all his life to fin% the true meanings of life, as %i% @lake. @ut there were no esoteric schools operating near him at that time. A hun%re% or more years can pass when there are no teachers a!ailable. ,e are fortunate to ha!e relati!ely ;uite a few

1 teachers in our lifetimes. n%i!i%uals on their own can only get *ust so far. )hey are like can%les without someone to light them. )hey are able to ascen% %o-re-me but nee% a teacher to *ump the gap at fa. )o be tense or keye%-up is the wrong approach. @eing rela-e%, at ease is much better. 0otice a cat poure% out in the sunlight, totally rela-e%, yet a bir% can lan% an% the cat is imme%iately alert, rea%y to pounce. )o be rea%y for any situation you must be rela-e%. n the Orage e-ercise ga!e you last week what %i% you trace your obser!ations back toF )he i%ea. 3!erything initially starts as an i%ea. )ry to get beyon% the material si%e of a thing an% %iscern its i%ea, its why, its function. Lrishnamurti is an e-ample of a man who became a <an I> without ha!ing been a <an IJ. +e %i%n&t go through the process of struggle in!ol!e% when a <an I1, I2 or I3 becomes a <an IJ an% then a I>. .ou can hear the strain in his !oice when he tries to e-plain his i%eas. )his is because he cannot e-plain how to get to where he is. +e can tell you how it is to be there but not the practical steps re;uire% to arri!e on your own. n this ,ork we %e!elop slowly, thoroughly an%, most importantly, practically, so that all of our knowle%ge is ours an% is balance%. 9ome forms of yoga release intense energies, usually se-ual, which can totally unbalance a man, e!en %ri!e him insane an% this is because he was not prepare% correctly, he is not strong enough to use these energies an% %oes not know how to %irect them. )he 9tory of the 0ati!ity is a picture of how we are. )here was no room in the inn for the Ahrist chil%, it was busy, fille% with !isitors an% occupie% by e!ery%ay concerns. t ha% no room for anything else. 9o the Ahrist chil% ha% to be born in the stables, the essential self. A man in an ol%er group relate% how he unco!ere% the basis of his fear of ri%ing in automobiles, e!en though he %ri!es one all the time. .ou see, he wasn&t allowe% to go to the toilet one time as a chil% when ri%ing with his parents. t seems silly now, but these small things take root in oursel!es if the light of awareness is not focusse% on them an% they can take o!er one&s entire life. Leep a lookout for your own fears an% try to trace them back to their origins. Anger an% shouting aroun% chil%ren is !ery ba% for them. )hey ten% to think that they are the cause an% assume all sorts of guilt feelings, e!en though the conflict may not in!ol!e them at all. ,rite a fairy tale using a ,ork i%ea, base% on your own un%erstan%ing an% we may rea% some in group. As regar%s to "helping out# with %inners an% functions, you can really %o nothing. All you %o here is for yourself an% you must earn the right to participate. All of the chores are inner tasks an% any i%ea of you "helping# must be left behin%. .ou must be alert an% know when to sei'e the opportunity to assist. t is not a matter of following or%ers, of being tol%. 11-0M-73

1 61roup %inner at <rs. 9ta!eley&s homeC A/9. At 1ur%*ieff&s meals we were e-pecte% to %rain a tumbler full of !o%ka, the women in se!en %raughts, the men in three. At one %inner came feeling as though were about to catch a ba% col% an% thought all that %rinking woul% make me feel more fu''y, so %i%n&t %rink my share that night. was seate% way at the en% of the table an% surely thought 1ur%*ieff coul%n&t see me !ery well, at least not well enough to %etect my shirking. Of course he notice%. At the en% of the meal he came up to meD ".ou not %rink honorably, you not finish !o%kaG# <me. %e 9al'mann si%e% with me an% sai% it was my business whether %rank or not. )hat took guts with 1ur%*ieff stan%ing there. 1ur%*ieff replie%D "Aome on, %rinkG# 9o %owne% the glass. f ha% wa%e% in an% %ebate% probably woul% ha!e collapse%. As it was, the alcohol ha% no effect. ,ith 1ur%*ieff present alcohol ser!e% a %efinite purpose, you %i%n&t get %runk, but more essential? the masks slippe% a bit. @ran%y is the "spirit# of the grape, if properly use%, one can become more "spirite%#. Alcohol is a shock to the stomach an% mo!ing center. An% if use% this way, not to stupefy 6you can watch )K if that&s what you wantC but to gi!e force to your wish, it is useful. +emp affects the thinking center an% e!entually re%uces what little will we may ha!e. t is much more harmful than alcohol in that respect. 2eople %on&t know how to use their leisure time, so they *ust get %runk or blank their min%s off with tele!ision. E. ,ere the %iot toasts a remin%er of your type after you ha% %isco!ere% it or whatF A/9. Oh yes, the toasts. )here were the geometric i%iots, s;uare, roun%, 'ig-'ag, hopeless, s;uirming, e!en 1o% is an i%iot, an uni;ue i%iot. ha!e the list aroun% here somewhere. )he science of the i%iots was use% by 1ur%*ieff to show those who ha% broken with life, who were "between two stools#, who were tra!elling in the %irection of consciousness, where they were. One of the first effects of the ,ork you may notice is that you slowly fin% yourself not un%erstan%ing anything. .ou %on&t know where you are, you feel lost an% ten% to be attracte% to any light in a win%ow. ,hen you finally go %own all the way, then all that is left is to go up. f we coul% lower our sights a little, if, through this work we coul% secure *ust one thing, one ;uality, something in us which is really permanent an% truly our own an% can sur!i!e our %eaths, then we will ha!e achie!e% a great %eal. )his woul% make the ,ork "easier# the ne-t time aroun%. f you can she% "you#, your life an% habits, then there is a chance to mo!e up the scale, you wonNt ha!e to repeat the same life o!er an% o!er again . )here has to be, say, a "$oe 9mith# somewhere in time, whether you occupy that position or not %oesn&t matter. .ou can go on to another le!el an% lea!e "$oe# behin%, he %oesn&t cease to e-ist. All of 0ature is in agony o!er us, we are hol%ing up the process. 3!erything ali!e wants to mo!e up the scale an% as long as we&re stan%ing in the %oorway not mo!ing, this can&t happen. 3!olution can&t skip o!er us, at least not yet. Once you catch a glimpse of the great plan, the o!erall scheme of 1ur%*ieff&s ,ork, it will alter e!erything.

1 @eing e-actly on time, being punctual, may seem like a small thing, but it is important. 1ur%*ieff woul% be walking out the %oor if someone was twenty secon%s late for an appointment. )here was a woman in the 0ew .ork group who complaine% to /or% 2entlan% that she ne!er coul% get to the meetings on time. +e sai%D ",ell, that is !ery simple. $ust come a half hour earlyG# .ou rob others by being late. )here was a young 3nglish woman who !isite% 1ur%*ieff, this was after the war, who was still in the starry eye% stage. t was %ifficult not to be starry eye% aroun% him. 9he arri!e% early one %ay an% foun% him cooking a large pot of soup in the kitchen. (espite all of his responsibilities he foun% time to %o a goo% %eal of the cooking. 9he *ust stoo% there, agape, staring at him. +e turne%, smile% at her, took a spoonful of the boiling soup an% offere% it to her. 9he opene% her mouth an% procee%e% to swallow the scal%ing hot li;ui% an% burnt her mouth. .ou see, you are e-pecte% to be practical, to always keep your wits about you, to be alert an% not asleep. 9he learne% the lesson the har% way. .ou ha% to be constantly on your toes in his presence, he coul% play many roles, he coul% be anyone he please% to be. One moment he coul% play the role of a young girl with the gestures, the !oice so perfect you woul% belie!e that he was a young girl. )he ne-t moment he coul% be a %o%%ering ol% fool, the ne-t a great sage an% we were always alert for the sage, because he woul% slyly slip something in that was important for us to know. f you were %ay %reaming you might miss it an% he might not repeat it. 9omeone who %i% not know 1ur%*ieff !ery well commente% that he kept his stu%ents in a constant state of fear. 0ot at all, we were *ust afrai% of missing something that might pro!e to be in!aluable. E. ,hy %i% 1ur%*ieff speak so strangelyF ,ell, for one thing, he always %i% his best to make you work, he ne!er ma%e anything easy an% if it seeme% easy, or if he seeme% to go out of his way to make it simple for you, it was so that he coul% later turn aroun% an% make it twice as %ifficult. @ut his wor%s kept coming back to you. f he spoke so that you coul% easily un%erstan% what he sai%, you woul%n&t mull o!er what you ha% hear%. +e woul% often tell a person to lea!e the ,ork so that the person coul% gain a perspecti!e an% figure out things before going on. 1ur%*ieff coul% also be intensely boring. +e coul% %rone on an% on an% su%%enly say !ery clearly, when he notice% those present ha% cease% listening an% were getting nothing out of what he was sayingD ".ou know, here in the ,est hospitality !ery strange, guests ne!er know when to lea!e, they *ust stay on an% on5# <me. woul% *ump up an% sayD ".es, time to lea!eG# )his ,ork is for those who really want it, no, no, that&s wrong, that&s being sentimental. mean to say, this ,ork is for those who can use it. t is sometimes calle% "the techni;ue of techni;ues#. )he more in%i!i%ual skills you ha!e, the better. +ow can you e-pect to put into action what you learn on a higher le!el if you ha!e trouble baking a potato on this le!elF Ahristianity, %uring its first three hun%re% years, taught the techni;ue. )hen it went un%ergroun% an% taught only those who coul% make use of it. 9ome%ay this will happen to the 1ur%*ieff ,ork. n the beginning the i%eas an% the schools are open to all, if they look har% enough. An% am not talking about the "Ouspensky-1ur%*ieff# book-mark people, but real schools. @ut to preser!e the true nature of the ,ork it will ha!e to go un%ergroun%. 3!en now little more than twenty years after 1ur%*ieff&s %eath people are wiseacring about the ,ork. hear the 1ur%*ieff-%e +artmann music in the most unlikely places. @ennett, the $u%as of the ,ork, has si- month "instant# courses an% charges O2000. )his ruins many people&s chances of e!er succee%ing. A few months ago a young man !isite% me who ha%

1 been in @ennett&s school an% *ust by stu%ying his posture you coul% see that he was hopelessly mi-e% up, he ha% gotten too much too soon an% ha% not %e!elope% in a balance% way. )his is one reason why you shoul% not rea% a book which is coming out this month, "Kiews =rom the 7eal ,orl%#. t contains a great %eal of !ery !aluable material, but it is really inten%e% to be rea% alou% in groups, not by in%i!i%uals. .ou can purchase it if you *ust ha!e to ha!e it, but %on&t rea% it. ,ell, maybe once a year as a treat. @ut if you %o, remember that most of the material was inten%e% for a%!ance% pupils, people who ha% alrea%y attaine% something, who ha% earne% the answers. Once again this is an e-ample of getting something for nothing. )his applies to the 9acre% <usic, when you pay O1> for a recor%ing 6recor%s at this time cost O>C it remin%s you that it is special, that you shoul%n&t treat it like all your other recor%s an% *ust play it as "easy listening# music. Only @eel'ebub was inten%e% to be rea%, at first, by yourself alone. <eetings an% /ife s 7eal Only )hen ,hen " A<# are meant to be rea% alou% in a group. @ut because people began han%ing them aroun% in typescript copies, sometimes incomplete, it was %eci%e% to publish them, so they woul%n&t be %istorte%. After %inners 1ur%*ieff woul% appear with his little harmonium hung aroun% his neck an% play a selection of music. 9ometimes its woul% lea!e us in tears, other times profoun% thought. )his was true, ob*ecti!e art, it affecte% e!eryone alike. t is unfortunate that more wasn&t preser!e%. At first 1ur%*ieff forba%e anyone to recor% these sessions. @ut, as always, se!eral American pupils %isobeye% him an% hi% a tape recor%er un%er his couch. =inally he appro!e% an% e!en appointe% a "keeper of the tapes#. Also an American stu%ent ma%e a !ery short film of 1ur%*ieff, maybe you will get to see it some%ay, it was ma%e %uring a %eparture for a picnic. .ou can see pupils rushing aroun%, hither an% thither an% then 1ur%*ieff walks into the frame, completely there, full of @eing an% slowly lights a cigarette, looks into the camera an% that&s it. )here were people aroun% 1ur%*ieff who were so attune% to what he wishe% to con!ey that all he ha% to %o was tap out a meter on a table top an% they coul% pro%uce a whole <o!ement, inclu%ing the music. (e +artmann an% <me %e 9al'mann coul% %o that an% for many, many hours on en%. )hen 1ur%*ieff woul% come in the ne-t %ay an% %iscar% all that ha% been put together an% start on another i%ea. )here are many <o!ements, more than the 3M recor%e% on recor%s. )o really ha!e a true un%erstan%ing of the ,ork you ha!e to take part in the <o!ements, all three centers are in!ol!e%. f tol% you what a clear i%ea was, or a real emotion, what woul% you %oF .ou&% stop looking. nformation is useless unless it is gaine% by inner work. =ear, natural fear, comes only from the instincti!e center an% shoul% not in!ol!e, as it often %oes, the emotional center. f it %oes, then something is wrong. ,e are not out to "control# the centers, but to allow them to work as they shoul%. )here are times woul% like to take a stick an% whack someone o!er the hea% with it, but %on&t. ,e ha!e such a limite% amount of a!ailable "higher fuel# for real thinking that we e-haust it !ery ;uickly. @ut if we keep practising, o!er an% o!er, these e-ercises, we will %e!elop a greater capacity. )he ability %e!elops geometrically, not arithmetically. )ry to think in two %imensions, we ten% to regar% things linearly, in straight lines, rather than !ertically an% hori'ontally at the same time. 3!erything seems to us to come into

1 e-istence, stay awhile an% then crumble back to %ust. @ut the i%ea is always there, it e-ists fore!er, the forms may change, but the concept behin% them remains. 1ur%*ieff&s relati!es ha!e been no help at all regar%ing the ,ork. )hey are always bringing law suits an% trying to grab all the money they can from his work. .es, se!eral of his chil%ren are in the ,ork, but you must remember that chil%ren inherit their parent&s bo%ies, not their min%s or i%eas. f that were the case humanity woul% ha!e e!ol!e% aeons ago. $ust before he %ie% 1ur%*ieff sai%D "0e-t twenty years most important perio% of my life.# .ou see, we all thought that the ,ork ha% come to an en% with 1ur%*ieff&s %eath, that the ,ork was 1ur%*ieff. @ut something ;uite une-pecte% happene%, the see%s he plante% took root an% starte% growing. )here are real 1ur%*ieff groups all aroun% the worl%. )he pseu%o groups ser!e a purpose though, they help wee% out those who aren&t really suite% for the ,ork, who are satisfie% with the form. 9ome%ay, *ust like Ahristianity, 1ur%*ieff&s teaching will be ma%e into a religion an% the real teaching will go un%ergroun%. ,e ha!e to repay all that we get from the ,ork. 9ome, who ha!e it, can pay in money 6notice how money, the "bloo%# of society seems to flow to all the wrong placesFC, some pay by passing on what they ha!e learne%, but we all must pay by working on oursel!es. An% if you think ha!e groups solely for your benefit you&% be ba%ly mistaken. ,e all are 1ur%*ieff&s chil%ren an% gran%chil%ren, chil%ren of his min%. E. +ow long %oes it take to %e!elopF A/9. $ane +eap, think, %e!elope% as ;uickly as anyone in the ,ork. t took her 1>-20 years. 9o %on&t start looking ahea% *ust yet for imme%iate results. Leep your attention on the here an% now an% %on&t start counting your chickens. +a!e any of you notice% the ;ueer feeling pro%uce% by a full moon, an% how your energy le!els are affecte%F 1ur%*ieff calls the moon a huge electro-magnet. +ow %o you sense it influences youF usually keep my win%ows open, but when there&s a full moon %raw the curtains, somehow the moon light has a negati!e feel to it. Aurrently there are !ery negati!e !ibrations in the atmosphere all aroun% the 3arth. @ut you can use these !ibrations intentionally an% not allow them to take hol% of you. ,e are M0H water an% the moon an% planets push us aroun% as they %o the oceans. )he 9un create% us, the ancients knew this an% %i% not worship the 9un because of some simple-min%e% reason such as it was big an% bright, but because it literally is true. 9unlight, water an% air. )hat is where our foo% comes from. 0otice how people eat, they gobble it %own without any thought. ,here %i% it come from, who grew it, what ha% to %ie so they can eatF )ry to be aware of these things when you eat, try to see the connections. )hen foo% will ha!e chance of becoming "higher foo%# an% of being transmute%. E. ,hat can we %o to help stop warF A/9. ,e are all "%oing# our small share to stop war an% !iolence by our efforts in the ,ork. f we can change oursel!es then there is a chance. 2eople are always wanting to change others without themsel!es changing. Always wanting to "con!ert# others an% make them change. n times of great tension the ,ork seems to surface to try to pre!ent great knowle%ge from total %estruction. @ut the poor )ibetans, feel especially sa% for them, ha!ing to li!e amongst us barbarians, no one can un%erstan% their immense learning. )hey must feel as though they are pregnant an% unable to gi!e birth.

1 )he !olume of a room is !ery important as to how it affects the moo%s an% psyche of an in%i!i%ual. :p until about thirty years ago people still knew how to construct at least li!eable homes, now they are throwing up these match bo-es, she%s. .ou feel now as though you were in a coffin. ,e will gla%ly limit our li!es *ust to "sa!e# money on the important things, but throw it away on the tri!ial. )he instincti!e center "sees# things as pictures, as %o animals 6points to catC? he sees his worl% that way. Our thinking center works, for the most part, !erbally. <ath is an e-cellent way to train it an% learning to cook well brings all three centers into play. A goo% e-ercise you might try is what is calle% the Ainema 3-ercise. ,hen you *ust get into be% at night an% are about to fall asleep, %on&t. 9tart counting 1-2-3-3-2-1-2-3-J-J-3-2 etc. an% try to re!iew your entire %ay, beginning when you first get up in the morning right on through your %ay to right now. )ry to see yourself as though you were sitting in a theatre watching yourself up on the screen. (on&t think about what you see or make *u%gements, but *ust obser!e your %ay. )hen, when you are finally about to %rift off to sleep, get out of be% an% sayD "0ow am going to sleep#. ntentionally %o this, rather than letting your bo%y %rag you off. )he main ha'ar% of this e-ercise is that you may fall asleep before you get to the en% of your %ay an% sleep !ery soun%ly. suppose it coul% ser!e as an e-cellent sleeping pill if you %on&t watch out. 3!en when a large group of people woul% be packe% into 1ur%*ieff&s apartment to hear @eel'ebub rea% alou%, some persons coul% fall asleep sitting up an% snore away an% the temptation to stick a nee%le into them was !ery great. 1ur%*ieff ga!e off tremen%ous amounts of energy which coul% allow you to %o things you normally woul% be unable to %o. A frien% of mine who was li!ing in /on%on %uring the war happene% to be making pigeon pies one %ay. =oo%, especially meat, was !ery scarce at that time. An% it seeme% that she was a little short on pigeons that %ay, so when one flew %own an% starte% to walk across the lawn she sai% to meD "Oh, if only <r. 1ur%*ieff were here, coul% figure out how to catch that bir%.# Aon!ersely, if you %epen%e% on 1ur%*ieff to %o your work for you, he&% let you fall flat on your face. 11-13-73 67ea%ing from 0icoll&s 2sychological Aommentaries on fusing the i%eas of the ,ork into your e!ery%ay lifeC A/9. )he =ourth ,ay is in life, so pay attention to what is going on aroun% you, but %on&t get hypnotise% by newspapers an% )K. @ut now they are a part of our li!es an% we shoul%n&t ignore them or preten% they %on&t e-ist. )he mass of humanity %oesn&t change, it is the same to%ay as it was in the time of Ahrist, history *ust keeps repeating itself automatically. 0ow &m not comparing <r. 0i-on with Ahrist 6laughterC but take a goo% look at what is going on. )he last news conference was more like a lynch mob than anything else. Lnowle%ge is a passing presence. :n%erstan%ing is permanent. <r. 1ur%*ieff was once aske% what, e-actly, he was trying to teach, he answere%D ",hen it rains, street gets wet.#

.ou can only un%erstan% the laws of the :ni!erse through the emotional center. Once <r. %e +artmann !isite% our group an% tol% of the time he was tra!elling through the Aaucasian mountains with 1ur%*ieff. )hey ha% stoppe% at a small town an% 1ur%*ieff %eci%e% to con%uct a <o!ements class on the spur of the moment. All the town ha% was a run %own hall with an ol%, ba%ly out of tune piano. " throw up my han% say "1eorgei!anitch, cannot play such a pianoG# +e sai%D "(onkey can play 9teinway, but only real musician can play this piano.## ,hen you feel yourself slipping into a ba% moo%, say to yourselfD " ha!e a right 0O) to be negati!e.# ,hen, after long work, you ha!e a real moment of self-remembering, each cell in your bo%y will be fe%. An%, after awhile, your bo%y will remin% you to remember yourself. 0othing is important, yet e!erything is important. /ong perio%s of forgetfulness can actually help you reali'e the !alue of self remembering an% obser!ation. 1ur%*ieff sai% he woul% trust instincts o!er all else. :se Orage&s e-ercise of taking a small whim an% carrying it to its en%. )his is a small step in %e!eloping will. .O: AA0 )+ 0L .O: AA0 (O .O: AA0 @3 12-0J-73 A/9. n this ,ork we %o not learn skills merely to be goo% at something, but to %e!elop our true " #. Karious skills are a means to %o this, not an en%. $ust as a real artist shoul% %e!elop his art an% not be content with an e-cellent techni;ue. 2erhaps the 3arth, like a %og infeste% with fleas, will become ill an% %ie, or, perhaps, it will shake off all this e-cess population. ,ho knows whether the fit or the unfit will sur!i!eF <o%ern me%icine has %one great harm to our species by keeping ali!e the %efecti!es, trying to a!oi% 0ature&s pre%ators. n all other species 0ature takes "care# of the weak an% the lame. 0ow, of course, %on&t want those who are unfortunate to be line% up against a wall an% shot, but we shoul%n&t %e!ote so much time an% energy to keeping them ali!e, like !egetables, merely to say they are "ali!e#. t is more a fear of %eath than a lo!e of life that fuels this sentimental attachment to those who are not really li!ing. )ime is three %imensional, not *ust a straight line between then an% now. ,e ha!e PJ,000 separate, yet concurrent, li!es. )he rish ha!e a certain "something#, they were once part of Atlantis an%, perhaps, ha!e some %im memory tucke% away back in their min%s of this heritage. 12-11-73 A/9. Aonscience is feeling all at once.

1 Aonsciousness is seeing all at once 6with three centersC. .our eyes are *ust lenses, in actual fact you see through the top of your hea%. 1o out an% buy a goo% anatomy book, learn about your bo%ies, where things are an% what they %o. ,e are like someone who owns a mansion but who has ne!er left his be%room. .ou hear right behin% your eyes, in the bone there. 3-erciseD /ike what "it# %oes not like. +igher centersD <o!ing 8 n%i!i%uality. 3motional 8 ,ill. )hinking 8 Aonsciousness. Once you really start to obser!e the !arious " &s# that resi%e insi%e of you, you&ll ne!er be bore%. <atter of fact, you will cease ha!ing to go to the theatre to be entertaine%. ,atching yourself, or watching other people, can occupy you for hours. All those people, outsi%e of yourself, are you also. ,e are all part of the human brotherhoo%. f you ha!e, or like, cats you can %efinitely see that they ha!e %istinct emotions, they can e!en show contempt. Aats ha!e perfecte% their being-Les%*an-bo%ies, they are as high on the scale of their being as they can go. )he ancient 3gyptians knew this. 2eople assume they worshippe% cats 8 not so. )hey only recogni'e% the fact of their perfection an% represente% it as an e-ample. (ogs on the other han% ha!e a way to go, perhaps that is why 1ur%*ieff use% the e-pression "to %ie like a %irty %og#. .ou really shoul%n&t make consciousness into such a comple- affair. %on&t know whether tol% you one of my fa!ourite analogies or not, so &ll repeat it now. )he beginning of consciousness is like walking through a pasture at night. n the pasture are cow pies, now, if you are not paying attention to what you are %oing, you will step in a cow patty. f you are trying to see an% are trying to make use of all the a!ailable light, no matter how %im it may be, you won&t step in it 8 simple as that. t is sometimes better to make a %ecision, any %ecision in a gi!en situation than to sit aroun% !acillating o!er it. 1ur%*ieff sai%D "As you are all your %ecisions are wrong, so what %oes it matter what you %eci%eF# )here are no "right# or "wrong# %ecisions for you really to make, yet. )here are correct instincti!e %ecisions, like not stepping in front of an oncoming car, that is ob!iously "right#, but other than that, they are arbitrary. )he same applies to "answers#. 3!ery one is so concerne% with coming up with the "right# answer, there isn&t any right answer, only an answer you happen to gi!e. 7emember the first %ictum of Ob*ecti!e <oralityD +onour you mother an% your father. .ou shoul% honour them whether you like or %islike them. 0ow-a-%ays parents get all e-cite% about whether their chil%ren like them or not, what %oes it matterF <y mother use% to tell meD ".ou&ll thank me for this some%ayG# An% thoughtD "Oh, no won&t.# 0ow thank her. ,hen she ma%e me work or %o something %i%n&t want to %o, she helpe% me. Our bo%ies want a master. 9omeone who knows what to %o. ,e are always starting something an% then fin% e-cuses to stop. Our emotional center an% our mo!ing center can always fin% some trick that will si%e track our thinking center. ,e are e-perts at fin%ing the path of least resistance. .et that path usually nets the least results an% if we happen to obtain results, it is an acci%ent, without

1 consciousness. A great many contemporary parents are afrai% of their chil%ren. Afrai% their chil%ren will %islike them if they make them %o anything they %on&t want to %o. ,e will all pay for this later when we ha!e a nation of criminals an% malcontents. E. )ime seems to be actually mo!ing faster an% faster, is it that &m *ust getting ol%er or is it spee%ing upF A/9. @oth. 0ature is win%ing up the clocks within us. On our le!el 0ature nee%s certain !ibrations to be at a higher rate, so things happen more ;uickly now. @eel'ebub, in the chapter on time, says that time is the :ni;ue 9ub*ecti!e phenomenon. ,e are e-periencing life at a faster pace. ,hat 0ature can&t get at one pace, she gets at another. All of creation is in tra!ail o!er the state of man, we are swimming aroun% in circles while the rest of the 3arth&s species wait for us. ,hen first met my husban% to be be knew at once that he was the man was going to marry. /ater on imagine% that it was because was in lo!e with him. E. (o you know your past li!esF A/9. ,hen came from /on%on, after li!ing there for 2> years, to be with my parents in their last illness, %eci%e% might as well stay in America because was an American. After my parents %ie% mo!e% %own to 2ortlan% to fin% a *ob an% then, a house. ,hen was looking for a house happene% to pass one an% knew that was the one, an% sure enough, it was for sale. )he mo!ers aske% meD "+ey, la%y, you li!e here beforeF# because knew e-actly where e!erything fit. (e!eloping a real " # is like sil!er plating a spoon. One crystal at a time an% it takes thousan%s an% thousan%s of crystals to finally complete the process. Anything we consciously learn in this life is retaine%. Anything mechanically learne% is lost fore!er. Artists can crystalli'e something in themsel!es through suffering an% great effort, but this is usually in one center, such as <o'art knowing how to compose at the age of three. Aompetition ser!es a real purpose in cultures which ha!e not totally %egenerate%. )he female must choose the strongest, fastest, most able male. @ut now this has turne% into a cartoon in our society, as an en% in itself. ,e are, as a person in one of the ol%er groups pointe% out, !ery much like the "slugs# in @eel'ebub. ,e crawl along until we meet an obstacle, turn an% go the other way. Our antennae search out anything that seems pleasant. @ut we shoul% be %irecte% towar% a real aim. 9tan%ing up all %ay without sitting %own or getting up early when we %on&t ha!e to are simple ways to start getting a taste of will. )ry to think ahea% %uring your fifteen minute morning ;uiet time, think about the ,ork an% what it means to you an% what the Ahristmas story means. <ary is the same in all real religions, think it is <ara in @u%%hism, <aya was the mother of <ohamme%, it means "sea#, the great solution of %issol!e% materials which can become us. All the mothers of the great prophets were "!irgins#, blank slates. Ahrist&s mother ha% to go to the stables to gi!e birth, where the animals fee%, think about what that means. 2resent were only two

1 animals in the original, an o- an% an ass 8 two animals that work without rewar%, without se-, without complaint. n the early Ahristian art, when the artists still ha% some i%eas about what the story meant, until aroun% 1,200 A(, they inclu%e% only these animals, now you see an entire 'oo. ,hat %o the three wise men representF )hey represent the higher centers coming to be born to a new " #. t is no acci%ent that all religions ha!e holi%ays at the ,inter 9olstice, the %arkest time of the year, when the new year is born, it is also when things are the most negati!e, %epressing, a time to make a conscious effort. .ou know a <an I1 is an e-cellent mimic of <an I3. <an I3 really uses !ery little of his real thinking center, he mostly operates from his formatory apparatus. 9o it is not %ifficult for <an I1 to imitate the unconscious manifestations of <an I3. A goo% e-ercise to try is to see how a <an I1, I2 an% I3 woul% react to a gi!en situation. )his is a goo% metho% to %e!elop obser!ation in all three centers. 12-1P-73 A/9. )he basic chief featuresD 9elf lo!e, !anity, gree%, lying, fear an% se-. 9elf lo!e is when you think of yourself as the center of e!erything. t if is raining, it is raining to spite you. Kain means empty, it is a state of preten%ing to ha!e what you %o not, in fact, possess. /ying, likes to puff up e!ents, to make %ramas, preten%ing to be "men# an% "women# when we are not. .ou shoul% begin to practice compassion on animals. Aaring for an animal, actually taking care of one, is a goo% e-ercise. As we are we are incapable of real compassion, it&s all mi-e% up with self lo!e or self pity. Ahrist an% @u%%ha ha% true compassion for the sorry state of humanity. n 3nglan%, which has a goo% %eal of ba% weather, remember ha!ing to go back an% forth to work on the bus. &% be waiting for it on a win%y, rainy corner. 9ometimes it was full an% it woul% splash by without stopping an% &% feel awful. 9ometimes &% be on an% we&% pass some poor slob an% &% feel smug, aw, too ba%. .ou must be able to see both points of !iew. )here is now a current beginning, 1ur%*ieff saw it coming an% helpe% it along. .ou ha!e a chance to make something, your parents %i% not. 1ur%*ieff tra!elle% !ery far gathering up the wis%om of the ages an% inclu%ing a %efinite techni;ue for achie!ing inner goals. Other schools e-ist which ha!e great teaching, but no way to personally reali'e the teaching. ,e may ha!e sat in this room many times before. .ou might think that coming to this ,ork, in retrospect, was easy, as if it *ust happene%, but you will ha!e to pay for it later. Anger an% fear are closely relate%. 0ote your bo%y&s reaction to fear. 9ee what you %o, not *ust instincti!e fear, but psychotic fear. 9hocks are an e-cellent means of obser!ing yourself. 9elf obser!ation an% %e!eloping a ,ork memory are the two main ways of breaking out of the prison of e!ery%ay life. ,hen you begin to see *ust how much you are a sla!e to habits an% personality patterns you can start to a!oi% repeating the same things o!er an% o!er again. .ou see, when you are in a state of forgetfulness e!ery thing you ha!e %one ten thousan% times seems to be new to you. )his is what helps keep you in prison, this illusion of freshness.

/or% 2entlan% was out walking once in 9cotlan% an% came to this steep hill, on top was a stone cottage. )here were three paths win%ing up the hill, each e!entually reache% the top but took a %ifferent route an% much effort, but only one path coul% be taken at one time. 12-2J-73 6Ahristmas 3!e with <rs. 9ta!eley, three people presentC A/9. )here are times, like this e!ening, feel like sociali'ing. 1ur%*ieff came in one %ay, while was in his apartment, wearing that re% fe' he often wore, sat %own an% with a great sigh sai%D "Ahhhh, time to be AhristianG# an% took off the fe'. 1ur%*ieff %i% most of the cooking, but he woul% ne!er cook the same thing the same way twice. +e woul% always change a %ish slightly no matter how many times he ha% cooke% it. +e aske% me when we first metD ",hat can you (OF# thought an% thought an% finally sai%D " can cook.# e-pecte% him to pooh-pooh that, but he replie%D ")hat is important to know, goo% skill.# E. feel awkwar% asking you ;uestions, think it has something to %o with feeling inferior5.. A/9. Aoul% be. remember $ane +eap was aske% once by a woman in our group, can&t remember e-actly who, but she sai%D " always feel like a fool asking ;uestions5.# $ane answere%D ",ell, then, you A73 a fool.# Airplanes are the most insane way to tra!el e!er %e!ise% by