1.

(01/20/2014)
mapofthesolarsystem yousaw
inyourthirdgradeclass,itsa
lieyouarent theearth

youarent wedged between

venusandmars,twoinches apart
oneitherside.itsnot sosmall

aspace liminal space making

dustthatneveris was

acore butwanting tobe

agap ourflashlights each

must havejust grazed.

2.
(01/21/2014)
inaNookontheOtherside
ofmycampusBody

Dickensoninmindsees

Leaves,rollaway
fromDeposits,over
populatedislands

caughtinConcrete

stillroll

soispitonmyhands
andtrytowashtreesap
fromtheparktrees fuck
ithoughtitwouldbeeasier,
persistentshit.

ilightmycigarette myfirst
wasyearsago.akid looksfiveyearsold
fallsfromtheclimbingwall hisfirst
ihopestillachild
whowillclimbclimbclimb

3.
(01/22/2014)
tobeaplanetinorbittoo
farawayfromyourbrothers.
adistancetocross,aboundary

thesilenceandlifepossibly
aperimeter.ithinkplutoisjust
anicyrock,iknowtheywere

onceclosertomethanjupiteror
saturn.ifeelpluto
keeptrying.

4.
(01/22/2014)
WhereismyBarneyBdayCake
thebridgeyoucross theropetiedtothepost
iscut thewoodenplanksbreakdown
insequence youlosefootstepstheirphantoms
thereaftereveryliftofyourfoottrying

forheaven andgravity
oppresseshopethebridgeswingingdown
yourunning youranklesmight growwings
experiencethefall intoinbetween

yourchoice willnotkeepyousafe
justdrownyouwilldrowndrown
likethetimeyouweretwo youcameback
fromfloating inbetween

trustthebridge divefromit
walkthebridge pretend
itisacloud

5.
(01/23/2014)
smokeafewcigarettesandrealize
youhavetwohoursyouwanttomurder
beforemadnesshourisreignedin.

takethestairsiknowyou
haventexercisedinayear,lazy
fuckbutjustgethightokill.

dodgesecuritycameras,dontbeseen.
theywearmasksalot,imsureyoudont.

thisisaloneandfreeandyou
arefinallysomethingicanscale.

6.
(01/24/2013)
Theyarethekindthatmakeyouforget
posthumousdayscreamingsoloudandlong
mybrainbecomesoxygendeprived
andmylungsburstorshrivel
orwhateverthefuckhappens,iwish

idiedinthatmomentbutnotreally,
imscaredofthatkindof
conviction.ijustwishibecameapharmacist
insteadofanenglishmajor.
icouldjustoverdoseonbenzodiazepines.

7.
(01/25/2014)
thenightsky,alake
themoonis
myface

looksdown,
catcheseveryripple,
surrenderedsounds

8.
(01/26/2014)
Youhavetofindwhenyouareborninside
iwroteeverywordicouldthinkin
withablacksharpiepen,inhighschool
mybodywasacrosswordpuzzle

fromthebooksmymasinks
herselfinto,withbleedinghighlighters
sheisfindingherself

frustratedwithawordshecantpinpoint.
shecallsmynameinavoice,
likeiammaandsheisson

wonderingaboutessencesprouting
outfromforeheadsanddrapesobscuring
it.puzzleintersectsthemandall

sheasksisthepronunciation,sherepeats
untilitbelongstohermouth,heressence
soundslikeheraskingforme

togiveheritsmeaning.ibeginthething
mahastoroohinsideyourtroungma
whenmabankaet.

shedoesntunderstand
icantmakeanysense.

9.
(01/27/2014)
dayswithgraffitiarms,
jimbotoldmeinkdrains
intoporousskin,absorbed
withtheidea,bloodpoisoned.
inevertoldanyonei
wasscaredofmybrain
dyingout.

fifteenbowlsofmarijuana
smokedeveryday,
pretendingtoinhale
andexhalemytightstomach.
ithoughtiwasforgetting
myselfentirely,inevertold
anyoneaboutlosing
andbeinglost.

thebackofmythroatwhereirestedpills
ithoughtwouldfloatmedeeperinto
myself.

10.
(01/28/2014)
igotatxtmsg
ileftmytorch
caniborrowyours?
encasedinagraybubble
onmylitphonescreen

wemeetdown
onthestonebenchbehindthesciencebldg
sitdownforaritual
smoke.

wewalktoacave
offtothesideofthebench
andilightmytorch.

itisanarrowopening
butiamnotsurehowcavernous
reallybcwewalkedonlyinastraightline.

mytorchwasonlylitenoughtoseedown
ajawlineleadingtoaneck
maybeinchesinfrontofyourfaceaswell.

wewalkedandwalked
straightaheaduntilisawasmall
chest,awalnut

ofabox.chainstwined
viningaroundit
butitshedatear,
afracture.

11.
(01/29/2014)
twomarblesseenthroughaslit
andtheembersyoutake
asteptowards,
theyareliteyes
ofaruffledowlcooing,
tryingtowhisper

theowlseesthedark
tosliceapartillusions
tofindthereal
magic

inhishour,thequiet,
listenstofind
thedeathof
something.

12.
(01/30/2014)
irememberfallingasleep
tothesoundofAberdeen1987
withbrothersifound.no,brothers
whofoundeyesthatsawnothing
butground.whatmemories

comeupforyou?littlemice
scuttlingtofillholes.

13.
(01/31/2014)
whyarewestilltalking
abouthummingbirdwingsflapping
fiftytimesasecond?ialready
knowshelikestofly

backwardsfromflowers
withnomorenectar.theowl
eyesstillinthenight,freeze
framethescenestocatch
anydifference,shifts

fromeachscreenshot.death
isaclueofanything
alive,besidesme
ialreadyknow,echoes
insideabeak.