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using'a&r'. Becauseof this, his usageof this word was like a jolt, and
was intended to place us all on the same level. It was a sort of deliberate
reversal, even destruction, of the commonly accepted vertical relationship.
What is interesting is that later on-after the 1940sthat were so full
of the anticipation of liberty and democracy had been and goneChairil Anwar's type of aku slowly ceasedto signify the destruction of
an uncomfortable relationship. Aku itself even came to be regarded as
an uncomfortable expression. Using 'aku' was considered indicative of a
swollen ego, and of that bug called individualism prodding with its sting
to left and right. Aku created anxiety. Aku was cursed. Now, the safe
way was not only to use the word'saya' to refe r to oneself, but also the
first-personplural forms,'kami' and'leita'.
What we 6nd reflected here, in many ways, is our suspicion of the
individual. What does the individual mean to society, in fact? In our
language the word 'individual' is often translated as'orangseorang',and
in our consciousness,
the individual appearsas a threat to the togetherness
of the group. Sometimes, because we are confused as to whether this
individual is from the group or a sole actor, and particularly if he or she
is considered likely to bring shame on the group, we use the word
'oknum'to describe him or her, a word that has the connotation of 'type'
or 'man'in English, as in'oknum ABRI'_an army type.
It is no coincidence, then, that in his famous poem'Aku', Chairil
Anwar uses the word'jalang' for 'savage' in the same breath as the
phrase 'outcast from his group'. 'We are familiar with the word'jalang'
from its use in the phrase commonly used to curse prostitutes as
'perempuan
jalang' or'savage women'.
Chairil Anwar knew that his rebellion against the dominance of the
group and of vertical relationships within the group was risky. Yet he
was probably not aware that he was truly alone, heroic and also tragic.
For time has shown, in the 6fty years since he wrote that poem, that
it is indeed difficult for people to copy him and use the word 'a&s'with
its punch. Individuals are still seen as trouble-makers. When in 1945
Bung Karno rejected the proposal to include human rights in the
Constitution, this was becausehe regarded the indiuidu,the a&r, as the
basis of social unrest and disharmony. And even now, when we
frequently see individuals being bashed up by the masses,tortured by
the rulers and slanderedby the public, we are still afraid of aku. We feel
safer using the third-person plural inclusive pronoun 'kita', meaning 'all
of us', to refer to'I'.'lil/e do not yet regard the individual as someone
who dares, needsand has the right to stand out, and yet at the same time
is solitary and threatened always.
19 Septemba
1992
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