Crossroads of Awakening Discusses Spiritual Journey

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Module: Crossroads of Awakening

Speaker: Eric J. Pepin
Disc:
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Eric: Youll have to excuse me, Im quite emotional right now. It was a bit of an experience I had
at about 1:15. And theres only one thing in the Universe that would even humble me . . . by
making their presence to me and saying something to me. And that experience came just a little
while ago. And poor Jason was sitting at the table and I had just finished eating and I started to
weep, I cried. And I tried to hold it from him and I just want you guys to know - its not pain. Its
not sadness. Its weeping of joy . . . I dont know how to say it. So, I wasnt expecting that and Im
just trying to pull myself together.
My mind is very dimensional . . . multi-frequency kind of layer of where my mind is at right
now. One foot is trying to stay here and the other one is up here, so Im doing like when you guys
shift; Im gasping for air because for me its profound. So, If its profound for me, I think you guys
have an idea where Im at and where Im trying to come back down to. Or youre just going to have
me weeping the whole time. We cant have that! So, Im going to try to talk; its like translating
from up here . . . that Ive been spiraled now. Talk about being tested, you know. You think you got
it all down and youre at it. And then of course, you know, the Universe says something to you, and
even I (says excuse me then pause) am humbled by this being by God. And I am nothing . . .
nothing. (Starts to say something then says excuse me . . . pause).
I dont want to get all like Reverend Billy whatever on you guys, so. Its so not like me. So the first
thing I just want to say, let me look upon your faces, let me look upon your souls. And I can not tell
you how proud I am that you guys are here.
Ive looked for 10,000 years. Time is very different in that other place. And time is very
short, but feels very long here in the organic body. And, I dont need to tell you how Ive suffered
because I know that Im preaching to the choir. I know that you guys have suffered. And you know
what I mean; being here, in this dimension, in this world. Its a choice. Its a choice you all made in
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a different place, in a different time. Like Star Wars: In a far, far away place. All of you guys. And
to give you a little bit more of the riddle that I tried to dance around very carefully for good reason.
I was asked to go find the very best - the very best. And I dont ask why when Im asked by God,
the Universe. I just say okay. And I was asked - evidently I was doing a good job, I suppose. An
old soul - and Im talking white cell . . . Im talking old time. I am so not talking just your everyday
white cells. I am not talking your everyday spiritual people. Im talking, human terms. I am talking
about ancient old, old, old beings that were in other worlds in the Universe, asked to be there to do
the work. For these other worlds, for these other places, FAR away - 10,000 years of searching;
10,000 years of journeying and coming into worlds like this, organically, in this dimension. And
having to approach other enlightened beings and saying Ive been asked to come here in person to
ask you to come to a certain time . . . a time . . . a certain place . . . a certain moment. And that it
would be perilous, and I have to ask in person because were trying to fly under the radar. Under
the radar.
Ive kept an oath of secrecy, not able to really truly say what or where and expect people to
know and understand and knew damn well the old souls, the ancient ones, theyll know. But I had
to ask. And you got to come in and scratch the knowledge. Put it deep . . . deep. Its like asking
yourself to die. But for one being - not one of you guys questioned. Not one. And asked you to
come here, and be part of the world. Be part of the organism. Merge in. Bring not the full attention
upon you so that its not smited. Ill call it the Darkside, Ill call it whatever you want. So, there is
some truth, take it for what you want. I can say it now, I can show you certain things that you need
to know now. This is holy ground. Do you understand? The Island is holy ground; it is Gaias, the
heart chakra. Its vegetation . . . its the Force . . . its, its at its strongest here. Were not of the
earth, per say. So, in one way, its a little unusual for us. But, yet, we can also fully understand it.
I can speak my mind because the Darkside is too tempted and intrigued as you are to know
what my next move is to do something to me at this point. It has as much anticipation to what Im
up to, what is it that he has to be concerned with now? Holy ground. I made it to the base. We made
it to the base. Does everybody understand what Im saying? If you knew, you never would have
made it. Its too hard for this state of organic mind that you guys are dealing and coping with every
single day. That the joy of knowing that Im going to start unveiling some of this would have
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emanated from you - dont under estimate the, I hate to sound like Star Wars, the Darkside, the
dark force.
You know that sometimes one can not control that temptation. Our hearts beam at the
mention of God, beam at the mention of the Universe, beam at the mere thought. How can we
contain such intense joy that we have, and love, and loyalty for this being? So one has to be silent
and let you guys move under the radar. Its like holding your breath, suffering. And you guys do it
willingly, the same as I, I do it willingly.
So I want to look at you. Im not looking at your faces, I mean that in human talk, I dont
know. Let me look upon your faces. What Im saying is let me look into your souls. Because I am
in need finally of the company of my friends. Im in need, and Im tired like you. And I need that
company now because I can finally say it without the consequences of having to fly under the radar
and what it might do. Theyre certain borders Ive pushed, yes. Everything Ive taught is the true
ancient knowledge. Its clean, not manned up by mans consciousness, interwoven with the
knowledge. Not the, with all due respect, the shaman stuff. Its clean what Ive given you. How you
want to internalize it, thats up to you guys. Because I know youre going to pull it from that higher
place that youre bringing in. I didnt want clones; I wanted ancient beings that are damn powerful.
The finest from across the Universe! Its like were drawing the line. You know, one says well why
its going to be earth? Well, if its some other planet, it wouldve been - well why this planet? Its
here. Thats why. And its now, and its approaching. Its not some kind of cataclysmic event. Like
Ive been saying over and over, if it shoots straight and you can figure it out, then it aint what it is.
It still will move to the side, and youll go thats funky! But thats right. You understand what Im
saying? So, one foot here one foot there. Alright. I can do it. I just want to just have a moment,
okay?
Mohammed, here. I want you to know something that I know that you all need to know. I
remember watching a movie. I like movies in this dimension. Its also sometimes the Universe
talking. Its a movie, I cant remember the name of it. It was about this Asian family, and she had a
daughter. And the mother and theyre at the table. And the mother was saying afterwards, why
dont you pick this, or do this or that and the daughter was arguing. Shes very meek, very gentle
and the mother finally stops and says to her - I forget her name - she says, I see you. I see you.
Dont think that I dont see you. You know, theyre certain things I can do and theyre certain
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things I cant do. Theyre rules. And believe me, last year was tough because there are a lot of rules
that even IT broke to break me. Because IT knew this was coming to here. Its coming now. So it
was throw all the stops and throw the kitchen sink at me and everything else. Thats fine. Ill take it
all. You cant stop it now. You cant. So, be mad, be pissed, I dont care. All I have to say is Im in
good company. Im in the company of powerful friends and I will say it to the Darkside now Step
Aside, Step Aside. Thats good company.
Its funny, because Ive done some One-on-Ones the last few days, and you know, I dont
want to say its about money. But there is a reason behind it all. Trust me. And, so Im doing what I
have to do, and thats the way things work here, its a resource to build a resource and Im fine with
that. So Ive been working very hard and I wanted to share a few things that were very interesting,
and things that I need to get off my chest.
I want all the women in here to stand up. This is what I want to say. What isnt said and
needs to be said. Its true - I lean towards the men because this is a world where they have
advantages versus the women. And the women got screwed. She has to give birth, she has to give
the child, she has to do . . . many births. Where the men have a certain kind of freedom that they
can move towards their spirituality, okay? When one gives birth, there is this love that is put into
the child. But this is an organic world, this is still an organic child - soul too. There are diversions
And so I never really focused so much. All I cared about was, I have to set up some kind of line
before Im discovered by the Darkside, lets say. I need to work as quickly as I can. And I thought:
the women in this dimension, their mind moves into subject areas and interest thats not in the line
with the clean knowledge I have to give them. Because they move with the intelligence from here.
Its different than how a man uses their kind of intelligence. When I say intelligence, I dont mean
brains, okay? I mean spirit. I mean frequency.
Im so humbled . . . humbled. Never did I think, my arrogance if you will, that I would find
some - believe me, theres things upset now. Youll understand, okay? Never did I think that I
would find such powerful women. Powerful! You dont even know youre potential! And I need
you to know that equal. Believe me, it has to do with your work. Okay? And, I will teach you, I
will empower you, I will do whatever I can. But, I thought wrong. Im willing to admit it. And, I
am honored and humbled to be in your presence. So much, you have no idea. So, to you. I wanted
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to straighten that piece of business out. And no one can tell you any different now because it came
from the source, okay? The guys - theyre sitting here, arrghh.
My mind is racing around - where it should begin? There are certain techniques that I want
to teach. And its about which one I want to jump on because Im more excited about sharing
information Ive never shared. And then theres a part of me that says, you know, well, then theyll
complain that Im not teaching enough technique. So Im damned if I do and Im damned if you
dont. Its always a 50/50 crowd after. So everybody just wants - lets bring it on! Lets do it all
now! So well do as much as we can, as usual. Im going to teach you guys something, because its
important that I do. And I do not want you to under estimate the power of what Im going to teach
you.
There are pieces I give, and there are full pieces. I dont give things that are not absolutely
useful, okay? Its not about holding back. Its about timing, okay, timing. And I get very upset
when people say - well, hes holding back certain knowledge. Well, Im not trying to belittle here
now, but would you give your 5 year old a buck knife to go carve sticks and trees with? Okay? But
is the child going to argue with you if thats what it decides it wants? And seems to think that
others have that? Okay? You guys are just - damn if you guys arent powerful old souls and Ive
got to play the game, you know. You know, and then think, you know, oh well I dont want to get
in a wrestling match now with them, so you know. Now I got to...sigh.
So, lets get right to it. One, its going to be a challenge. Because of the weather, because of
whats going on as you all understand. How many of you guys have worked with the tones? Please
raise your hands. Okay, go ahead put them down. The tones are a class that we offer. I suggest you
get your hands on it, okay? I dont give any sales pitches. This is not about money...its not about
making money. If you cant afford it, and youre honest, and youre sincere, you talk to my staff.
Believe me, well work something out, okay? The pitch is a tone. Its like a high pitch tone if you
tune into it, okay? What this is is frequencies that I call the sound of God, if you will. As I said
before, Gods not going to talk like Im talking to you now. Gods not going to have a
conversation, Hey whats up? Okay? God is just this -- beyond even our imagination. Of this, this
presence of being, okay? And there are things in an organic body, okay? That if we want to work in
these higher levels, to kind of re-awaken us and re-stir how to move in those places. Okay? Then
there are little things that are like hidden for us to discover. The pitches are that little something.
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One of many, as Ive given many, but one of something, okay? If you listen to them you will hear
like this: (making high pitch sound). And if you concentrate on it - you cant use your brain, you
cant use your brain. Because the second you use your brain, and you think upon it with the frontal
brain it goes like this from: (making high pitch sound and it suddenly being whisked away). Its
gone. So now you got to clear, you got to concentrate, you bring it back: (making high pitch sound
again)...and then all of a sudden, you got to clear your mind. You got to go deeper. And not think
with the forward brain. The organic brain. And all of a sudden youre going to hear another one:
(making high pitch sound again). And its like this: a bar now is what I would call it. And its
going: (making another high pitch sound). And the more you let yourself go and you let this other
consciousness move into it, it goes from: ( making another high pitch sound), and its going to go
louder and louder and louder. It can be deafening. Deafening.
What you want to do then is you want to take this bar. And you take this piece, and youre
going to listen: (making high pitch sound again) And you go boom...theres 4 of them. And youre
holding it. And then theres 8 of them. And you can feel them. You can see them. But its not sight,
its not feeling. It is coming from this other place as a being you exist. As youre a dimensional
being, you dont have arms and legs and hands and a nervous system. We want to go back to that
because thats what we are plugged into right now. So it just makes logic. You got to throw the
logic out. You got to throw the rationality out. You got to do everything that you dont want to do.
Everything that says, No, what are you nuts? Okay? Its scary. Its like a threat. Its the organic
body thats being threatened. And its holding you here; its holding you still, saying, No, you
want to be here.
So you have all these bars out, and youre like controlling them all now, okay? Youre just
holding them, holding them. And then, of course, its not the babbler. Its this other part of you,
comes forward, okay? And all of the sudden it goes from here, it goes: (making sounds of tones
evaporating). And youre right back to that first one when you had it and it disappeared, and youre
like, Okay, I got to start all over again. You got to practice, and practice, and practice with it.
And when you have the 4 up, and you have this going on, you can lower it. You can make it come
forward. You can move it like this. And you hear it go: (making high pitch sound). You can do all
sorts of stuff with it, okay? And what are you doing? Ill tell you what youre doing. To your
dimensional body, this is what youre doing: youre like a little baby...first steps. Maybe you had a
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heart attack and youre paralyzed. And you got to re-learn what you absolutely already know
perfectly! Its as if it were removed from you. And you got to re-awaken those cellular bodies in
you. To retrain them. And as you keep practicing, youre going to get better and better. And all of a
sudden youre going to go, I dont need the pitches now. I can move. I can move my energy
around. And youre going to go, Well, I can do these things but Im not quite sure what they
mean now. And then, in this world, one can move energy and the organic body - it doesnt feel
anything. By understanding the pitches, you go into - my favorite word that I always get corrected
on suptle which you guys will correct me as subtle. Fine, whatever. Anyhow, the point is I can
not stress to you more, its frustrating. Its frustrating as an organic being to hang onto those
pitches. It goes against everything that we want. And your brain will just throw it out if youre not
careful to hold onto to them. Because they dont belong here and as long as youre listening to them
its like pulling you dimensionally higher. And its like - youre bodies like, No. And then,
(making whisking away sound) you forget. Youre like, What was I doing 10 minutes ago?
Uhhhh . . . that tone thing. And youre forgetting. I mean you were just like . . . I mean you feel it.
Youre there. Its a funny thing. It doesnt want you to learn.
You know, its like I said to somebody about the jungle and energy. I love Gaia. I love
Gaia, the Earth, the Goddess. Call it whatever you want. But I have a friend of mine who is very
earthy and I mentioned I was going to talk about Ayahuasca. Ayahuasca is a hallucinogenic that
comes mainly from Brazil, but theyre brought it into other places. You drink it and you guys are
going to, I mean its like, schwwaaaaa (making sound) Okay? Ah, youre going to go to some deep,
deep, heavy places. The problem with us were other people - like, you know, I dont want to say
the hippies, or whatever, but they go there. Theyre like they know it all now. Ive got this
knowledge and the Gaia rhythm and I get it and they feel it and da, da, da, da, da, da, da. I said to
my friend Ko, I said uh - she says, dont you want to be part of Gaia, dont you want Gaia to take
you in? I say no. She was like, what? she was like but . . . I say what. What, do you think its
like a bad thing? Shes like yeah! Im like - well, I said, Ive got news for you. Im of the
Universe. I was asked to come here and to protect because Gaia is not of itself. Gaia belongs to a
much bigger picture. Much bigger picture. And I said, I will not isolate myself to the
exclusiveness to just Gaia. I dont serve Gaia. I will act upon its orders, and I will protect it with a
ferocity, okay? But because it is the will of God, the Universe, and I will not be forgetting that. I
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will not let it slip from me that Im so entrenched into the Earth Goddess. The Earth Goddess is
nothing - nothing in comparison to her father, her creator. And this is what people forget.
They say they remember, they feel it in here, its one and the same. Human beings have a
tendency to title and tag things. Those of you whove learned from me know what I am talking
about. Well, when you say Goddess and the Goddess, you cant say Universe and God, its not the
same. The Goddess is somehow tagged emotionally that is an Earth being of energy. And they
forget, they forget. An Earth shes tough. She is of nature. Its not like this lady sitting there having
a conversation. It is similar to God, but Gods way much more intense. But, it wants to create life.
It wants to over take. You stay still long enough, she doesnt care about your flesh. Flesh to her is
just part of soil, trees, land, its of the earth. And she wants to love you. She wants to love you so
much. Love you, and youre like ahhhhh. Okay? Youre in a stasis. Youre in a stasis because
youre like ahhhh, love, mother . . . mother, energy, creation. And thats all the organic part of
you. Okay? And its love.
The problem is that a mother can love her child too much to and ruin the child. They can
stifle the child, never to leave home, to have fear to leave the mother, to be concerned about
moving away. There can be too much love. The Earth has to be strong. It is in space, its sub zero
temperatures, it is brutal. Its getting meteorites thrown at it. And were like what meteorites?
1,000 years . . . a million. Its nothing to her. She constantly has to deal with shit. Okay?
Constantly. And what is here, shes nurturing and thriving and wanting to grow because that is the
will of God and shes obeying. Shes obeying. Shes emanating this frequency out saying I love
God too. But were down in the core of it. And now weve been sent from another universe and
were these ancient beings, these ancient white cells and we know what weve got to do. And now
we got to say OK, well you got to shut off what you know. Thats going to get you through this
and merge in and now were like OK, we know theres something here, we know theres
something we got to connect to, we know that were connected to something higher. But lets
sample this, lets sample that. And were like going through bags of stuff throwing it over our
head, and you got to speed up time. Thats, uhhhhh, Buddhism. Looks uhhh, you know,
Christianity. (Making sounds uhh ummm). What the hell are they saying? Who? What?
Okay, so this is what were sampling. Were sampling all these things because the
navigators saying no no yep ...maybe...maybe...looks good. Exhausting ourselves. And now
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were like, this isnt anything, I cant take it anymore. I love you universe, you got to tell me. You
got to tell me. Spoiled children. And the universe, theyre like you got it already. You agreed. You
agreed to the contract. Eric, whatever, came and talked to you. The spokesperson I chose to send to
do the job. You signed the contract, shut up now. Do the job, okay? And you guys arent (laughing)
crybabies by no means, okay? But its like growing pains. Youre like this sucks. This sucks, I had
it down, I know I had it down. You took it from my memory, and you packed it away, Im going to
unpack it, I know its there. Im helping you unpack, believe me. And Im like what the hell did
you need this for? You dont need this. And youre like yes I do.
So, back to the pitches, because Im still on target, okay? You just dont know it yet. You
think Im wandering around. Lets come back now, okay? The pitches...the frequencies. Its whats
helping you to learn to move that body. I mean I can give you data, I can give you knowledge. I can
help you unweave all these knots that hold you in this dimension, okay? The pitches are an
exercise. I got news for you, youre all lazy. Youre all lazy. Im lazy, but you know what my
answer is? I already made it....so its like (says tauntingly) nah nah nah nah nah nah nah. Okay? I
dont know what to say to you. Okay? Its the truth. Once in a while Im going to get my butt
kicked, but not as often as you guys do, and thats good. Anyway, so you guys are going to have to
fight for these tones, these pitches. You guys who dont know it need to learn it. I think Matthew
Struves been teaching it here, okay? If you havent taken it or youre haven trouble hearing it, you
dont deserve to know it because you need to hunt him down. With some mercy. Some of you guys
have been brutal on some of the staff. They came back like drones last night. Okay? I said now
you know what it feels like. I said, Yeah, I walk around, I said I feel like a pinball. Okay? One
person comes by its like, ping. I turn around to go this way, ping. Its another one. I go - a triple
one - ping, ping, ping. And Im like (making long inhale sound) and then Im like, no. I got to look
cool. Im the master. Im the teacher. Yeah . . . sure no. Okay? No idea. I got an organic body
just like everybody else. And the thing is, my brain says you got to answer that question. Oh, you
got to answer that question. And my bodys going ahhhhhhrrg. Okay?
The pitches, the tones, are very real. They will wake you out of a dead sleep. Youll jump
up like this. And be like it sounds like a car just, a truck just went through your head. Like
waaaaooohh. Okay? And youll be like what the hell was that? That is your mind slipping into
those higher dimensions and when you slide into them, somehow, your organic body and the brain
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somehow interprets it kind of funky. Do you see what Im saying? And thats what it can sound
like sometimes. Its not literally what it sounds like, but were translating with electrical current,
per say, through an organic brain and its trying to translate it. Its like a radio station and taking a
toaster and getting it to capture the sound waves. And it sounds like shit, but you can make it out.
But its not designed for that, but somehow, you know, MacGyver...youre doing it. Whatever, you
know. I dont know if in reality you make a toaster turn into a stereo system, but you get the gist of
what Im saying. And thats what youre doing. Were taking - shit, Okay? And were bringing it
into these higher dimensions. And I dont mean literally that the organic body is shit....sometimes it
feels like it. But, anyway. So, were working with what we got, because we are building this
dimensional - inner dimensional, multi dimensional body. And were saying, Ok...we got to
exercise the arms, you got to exercise the legs. And what does a guy do whose going into therapy
who had the stroke and cant move half the body? Theyre almost making him do it. Because there
is a part that just wants to give up. That says I dont want to do it. Okay? And nobody here would
be any different including me. And I would be the worse. Because Id be bitching up a storm and
they would hate me. Thats what you guys have to do right now. You guys are in like therapy to
physically build up your bodies multi-dimensionally now that you are under the grid.
The frequencies are going to teach you how to kind of do this and youre going to forget to
do it. Youre going to let it evaporate from your memory. Youll going to see it and get it and jump
on it, and then youre going to forget about it. Or youre going to take it to a certain point and
youre going to go Ive done everything I can with it. What else is there to do? Gee Eric, Ive
gotten 50,000 bars. How do you like that? Good for you. I got 100,000. Anyway, so the point is, is
that there are things one would be missing if one were to say to me, Ive taken it to the limit. No.
You took it to the limit...youre sailing because you really can have no luggage mentally to get
there. You literally have to surrender, theyre like micro surrendering. Okay? And theres
something about, about dropping into the back of your head to reach the higher. Its almost like I
relax waves. And then I slip in. And the second you have a thought, its like it backs up to more
firmer. And you want to drop them. And then youre like, oh yeah, Ive got it good. And youre
like, whoop. And youre like I trained for the babbler. I shouldnt be babbling. I do my
meditations. I know my self, why I am babbling, god dam it all. And so you go back, because its
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not meditation. You can kind of play around with them, but meditation, what youve learned, is all
of the skills to get you through all this other stuff that Im going to throw at you.
Its telling you, you know, its like this. Okay? Im teaching you babblers bad. This is how
you beat the babbler. This is how you move energy. This is how you breathe it. This is whats
going on when I say this. This is how youre going to handle it, because when you start moving and
the cars rumbling, and its like putt putt putt. You got this piece of garbage that you had to fix up
because youre in the middle of the jungle, okay? Youre on planet Earth and youre like heres the
heap of crap you got to fix to get off the island now. Okay? And youre ferociously working on it
because you want to get off the damn Island. Okay? So, you get it going and its like putt putt putt
putt putt. And we got banana fuel that we fermented to make. And its crap, but we got it to work.
We know if we can catch flight, it makes it into an elite craft or something, it like metamorphoses,
we know that.
So, you got to work with what you got. The tones, when you go there, is the skills youve
got from meditation that is your wax on and wax off. Its whats going to make you - when you get
to certain points, and you start to fall back, youre going to use your old skills to kind of BOOM!
And then youre going to go right back again. Okay? Its just going to come to you intuitively.
They say in martial arts, you learn a move over and over again so that when something happens,
you dont think about it. Its not so much you plan for it. So when somebody goes to swing at you,
your body just does it. Youre doing the same thing. Thats why youre meditating. Youre holding
yourself there, youre moving your energy, youre going into higher places and coming down.
Youre learning to control the body. And, so when youre going to go into these other places, when
you start to listen to the tones - and Im tipping you off now more than youve been tipped off
before - and youre like, alright, Im going to go back and look at that because I went through that
whole place and I didnt see a door. And I walk up to the wall and Im kicking it and its swinging
open and Im saying there it is the whole time. Thats how you got to be thinking. Its there, its
hidden from you.
So, when you enter the tones, youve got to use the skills without thinking that youre using
the skills. Okay? Get the humor out of that one, I dont know. And you know exactly what Im
talking about. And everybody else who ever sees this who walks in there going to go This guys a
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nut. What is he talking about? The skills you have that you dont have that you shouldnt be aware
youre using that you shouldnt be using but you should be using. Its like ahhhh.
Ill tell you, they sweated a few pounds off me in this place. Okay? The kitchens up there,
Im down here. I found motivation and I didnt like it. But I made it back and forth. And then I
figured out I could send for it. I deal with the same crap you guys deal with, just differently. I have
other challenges, okay?
So, weve taught you guys the pitch, the frequency, okay? I think its going to be extremely
difficult to catch that pitch in this environment with the wind blowing and the environment. And as
you guys are going to find out, theres a lot behind all this, and Im going to be unveiling in part 2
tonight. Okay? Theres only so much that I can spew out. So...the pitch. I just wish I could have
you guys do the pitch in here and I just know its going to be really hard for a lot of people. Not all
of you guys because most of you guys know about it and other ones will stumble into it, probably
because of where youre sitting, actually. Because sound waves are kind of moving stronger in
certain areas and less in others depending where youre sitting, and so on and so forth.
So, Im going to explain it - WOW! Look at this. Well, alright. The staff is kind of
thinking. Of course its not frosty icy cold. I hope nobody really takes me too serious. I heard that
my sense of humor - nobody knows how to react. And theyre like they dont know if youre being
serious or youre being funny. I say the same thing all the time. Well no wonder they didnt laugh
and they looked at me like they were real nervous and scared, you know or something, you know?
So, the important part is I find it amusing, okay? Alright, Ill get back on track, I know...I know.
Alright, the pitch, the tones. Weve taught about the pitch, weve told you it exists, weve
helped most of you guys find it. Some of you guys are sitting here scratching your head saying
well, how come I was never told about the pitch? Dont bring it up with me. Bring it up with your
coaches, bring it up you know, or youre ordering it. Bottom line is, bring it up with the big man. I
dont know what to tell you, okay? But now youre onto it. You guys can get off your own duffs.
Those of you guys who dont know about, you know about it now. Okay? And thats where youre
going to have to go before you and dont do what Im teaching you now. Okay? Dont rush
yourselves. Its that damn airplane on the banana fuel. Okay? On the island. Youre going to hit the
gas, and instead of getting up to speed, because youre thinking Ill power it...its just going to
take off. Fool, fool, fool. Dummy, dummy, dummy. Okay? Youre going to do this and the
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engines just going to blow up because it cant do that much that fast. And now youre at square
one, Okay? Now what are you going to find to build an engine? Okay? Now you lost all your
banana fuel because you picked the whole forest to make it now go look for papaya and start all
over again. Patience, Okay? And thats one thing most of you guys dont have. Well, were made
of the same fabric, I can tell you that much. Theres no patience. I can only warn you guys over and
over and as I say to students over and over and over again - the ones that are around me that drive
me crazy. The ones you guys are probably envious but you have no idea. Some of you guys got to
see what they get. They get a lot of this, all the time. So, its good. Its bad, I know. The point is, is
that if you jump into what Im going to show you, the reason why I havent said anything is I
needed to make sure people didnt jump too fast. Now theres a big clue psychologically in what I
just said. Does anybody know one of the words I just used?
Audience: Too fast
Eric: Too fast? Nope
Audience: Jump?
Eric: Jump. Now what does the word jump mean. You guys rattling through all of them. Hop,
jump, skip. None of which I will do. Okay? Too much exercise. Jump. You know its like sci fi
channel. What do the space ships do? They say were going to jump into hyper dimension. Oh, now
you guys are getting a little excited, Okay. Im going to teach you guys. Even my students right
now are like this, What is he talking about? We dont know this. Damn him. Were supposed to be
the first to know. I held out on them today. I held out on them a whole week. Honest to God. And
then I would be like, yeah, I got some information. I figured out a solution to Really? What is
it? And I said No, I got to wait. We got to all be together. Im milking it out just like I am right
now. Im killing all of you guys now. And it drove them nuts. Drove them nuts.
Im going to teach you guys how to jump, okay? Jumping is moving yourself into that hyper
dimensional place, Okay? And just because I teach you guys how to jump doesnt mean you guys
are going to jump very well. Not my problem, Okay? Not my problem. Its up to you guys to figure
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out how to use all the equipment. Ive given you as much as I can. I will continue giving as much
as I can until I cant. Okay? But I know Ive 10 times enough to do the job. Its just that everybody
has to find - you guys are all slightly different designs, I guess is what Im trying to say. Youre not
all from the same damn planet. When you were on that planet, you were organic. Multi
dimensionally, you were not. Thats why I had to intervene into this organic other world to go find
where you were, what the hell you were doing. And they say when you croak, heres the map, go
meet us there, you know. That was very funny.
Jumping is actually very simple. Right under your noses. I wouldnt be surprised if some
people caught onto it. But I can tell you already, they didnt know what the hell they had. Its like
sitting around a house, you know, and youre saying youre bored to death, there isnt anything to
do, its been a month, and then you look over and the whole time theres been a TV sitting there
connected to a satellite dish or something. Not that TVs good, I know Im going to get in trouble
now for that. But anyway, the point is, is the idea of it. Okay? Its been under your noses. Okay?
Its probably a lot under your noses, just to drive you guys a little bit crazier. So, this is it. Are you
ready? You guys dont really look like you want to know. Okay. When youre listening to the
tones, its very simple. I want to ask something now. Matt, watch what Im going to say be on some
class already or something, but, do you do any breathing techniques when youre doing the tones?
What do you do? Tell me. No, no...Im talking to Matthew. Hes on the spot now. All eyes are on
Struve. (The Student proceeds to say something that is inaudible on the recording)
Okay. This is how close it is. Okay? And Im telling you dont under estimate it. You go see
if Im right or wrong because I know you guys are going to do the stupid thing is what I call it. Its
inevitable. You guys are like Baard. There some piece of information and he dont know about it
and hes like a kid running for it to listen to the tape of some conversation I had with somebody
else because hes like a, Ill get in trouble for this, but hes like a whore for knowledge. And I
suspect most of the people in here are whores too. So, I mean that in the nicest way. Okay? So, I
know whats going to happen. Im going to tell you guys and I might not even see you guys
tonight, you know. Its going to be like, we dont need him now. Maybe I shouldnt say anything.
Believe me. Tonight Im going to bring down the house. Okay? So. Thats it. I got to compete with
rest of them and show you guys who the old dog still is, okay? Ive been very excited about tonight.
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So, when youre listening to the pitches, Ive also taught over, and over, and over again that
breath, which yoga and all these other schools really teach, theyre already onto certain things,
Okay? In some ways, Im the Johnny come lately. Or Im the one whos just really reminding you
guys of stuff that you guys may not be paying attention to because theyve known a lot. When
youre listening to the pitch, breathing, okay, is your consciousness. Its somehow connected to the
organic body. When you get upset, you know people always say, Take a deep breath -- blow it
out. And Im always like, Shut the hell up, okay? Because I dont care. Youre just making me
madder. You know. I got it under control, Okay? There is something to be said about watching
your breath. Okay? Your breath is the first thing you do coming in. Its the last thing youre going
to do when youre heading out. And everybodys heard it before. Okay? Think about it. We hear
things but we dont think about it. We dont reflect on it. We dont look at it. We go uhh,
pretty...next thing...its mine. Here it is up on the shelf. You dont even marvel at it. I mean theres
stuff that I have that Ive brought in my litterbug phase of life, okay, that have, and Ill look at it
and itll fall over and Ill turn it over and Ill go OH...I never knew it has this thing on there.
Thats very interesting. Its only been 5 years. But hey, thats cool. I wish I wouldve known that
earlier. This is what Im saying. When I say its the first thing you do and its the last thing you
do, you got to be thinking about what Im saying. It is the simple things that we overlook most
quickly because were like that cant be important I do it every day, every night, bla, bla, bla. I
already thought about it a million times. Have you thought about it with non-thought? Have you
thought about while youre going into the zone? What is it that youre doing when those of you
guys have gotten the in-between class, and youve done it, and youve shifted, and youve gone
into this in-between state of consciousness? Your breathing drops. Its like something completely
changes. The silence, the calm. You move the environment.
So, powerful things happen if you just are careful enough to see them happening, Okay?
Breathing - Your breathing stops. Its almost like your calm, breathing stops, everything around
you, like time, slightens, a bit. Things go slower that should be going faster. Things change, but
youre not paying attention. You paying attention? Big things are happening. So, breathing and
breath. When youre listening to the tones - here it is, its coming, Im going to say it. All you have
to do is take the pitch when you got it going good, without any thought, inhale it, and expand the
pitch outward. Just like I tell you to expand your energy. Breathe in and get big like a balloon. Feel
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the energy. Okay? You feel the energy moving out from you. Okay? What Im saying is, you take
that pitch, Okay? And its like (making high pitch sound) and you go (making louder pitch sound).
Its a difference between holding it really loud and working it, okay? Now all of a sudden, youre
not thinking about your breath. Its the last thing on your mind. I dont want to be thinking about
my body. Im telling you, hold it. Hold it. When I say hold it that means non-thought. Hang onto
those bars. Get them nice, and then all of a sudden, just go (making breathing sound) and just
expand them. Its going to go from (making ringing sound), okay? Trust me. Okay? Your whole
energy field is just going to go (making whoosh sound). And youre going to come back down.
You know why? Even a bird has to have a few attempts. And then you guys will ruin it. (Making
whining sounds) I should have been flying by now. (More whining sounds). Okay? Fine. Now
youre back in the doe, youre back in the machine, keep bitching, you know, there you go. Okay?
Its that simple. Its that simple. Its the simple things that are the things most easily
overlooked. You want some big fancy complex answer? Well, lets throw the Vedic teachings at
you, lets spew it off for the next 30 years and yeah youll get it. But by the time you get it, youre
going to be like this (making gasping sound)...you cant even do it. And how can you learn if you
got the flu? You know? Would you be sitting here you got the flu? Well, you whores probably
would. Anyway, Okay...Sounded so horrible. We got to edit some of this out, because it makes
sense here and now but, not really. That was funny. But you getting what Im saying, Okay? Is that
you got to weigh out your moments right. You got to plot is what Im saying. You got to
go...Okay? Dont make it so you set yourself up for failure because youre your own worst enemy.
Youre going to be brutal on yourselves mentally, psychologically because you think you should
have hit some more levels. Okay? You got to strategize, you got to have patience. Work on your
tones before you go trying to expand it to that level.
Here you got (making ringing pitch sound), and youre like, Oh, Im all that. Now Im
ready to go multi-dimensional. Okay? Unbelievable some of the stuff I have people come to me
with, okay. Unbelievable. How come I havent hit multi-dimensional levels? Im qualified, Im
doing all this energy work, Im on a multi-deep level, bla, bla, bla. Its like its being kept from me.
Im like, Go away. Shut up. Youre not even trying yet. What do you mean? Surrender,
Breathing, Tonal class, Meditation skills (making cutting sounds). Start integrating them. Thats
what Im saying. If you mastered that class, and you worked with it, then you already would
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intuitively know what to do just like the martial arts. Youll know. And you guys are so - this is the
problem with old souls, especially ancient ones, big pain in the asses at the same time. Youre like,
I already deserved this, why should I have to work for it again? If I had to do it, you guys can do
it too. Im first, Im the princess...If I got to do it, you guys got to do it. Okay? Same drill. Okay? I
dont like the term Princess. Cut it, put it in as king in there. Anyway.
So, this is what Im saying. Okay? Is that you have to learn things before you go jumping
into them. Dont be so impatient. Be patient with yourself. I think the biggest killer of Gods, okay?
When I say Gods, I dont mean like you guys are Gods. I mean Gods in the noblest effect of when
one is enlightened, what would be a good word to call them? Oh...they are like a God.Okay? Its
tagging, so Im going to use a tagging mentally for something you can internalize emotionally and
kind of get better what Im saying. So when I say Gods are walking on earth, I mean that there are
enlightened beings walking around. And of course theyre (making sound effects) because they
cant remember much right now. Its there. You know, its like they say, Callie or which one it is.
A lot of folk lores. They say you can go down the road, you got the little old lady with the big
thing on her back (Eric making spooky sounds), Okay? And youre like, you know, walking, youre
like, Yeah I can help her out, Im tired its hot out So, this is who you guys are. You guys are
like this little old lady, youre like the old man, you look all helpless. Some of you guys feel
helpless. Eric my life is miserable (Making whining sound). Listen, I can match you, I can match
you. Maybe not lately, but, Im doing okay lately. But, Im always ready. I know it can get pulled
at any second. Okay? High-low, high-low. Thats life. Deal with it. Master it. Find a way to work
with it. Okay? But the bottom line is, is that youre feeling like youre at this pathetic aged
weakened. Youre not as robust as you could be, youre not where you want to be. Listen, its all
about doing the things Im telling you to do. But the biggest thing thats going to hold you down is
your impatience. Impatience will kill Gods. Okay? It will kill Gods. And the biggest reason why
most people, almost all of them, do not reach these enlightened states - is impatience.
You know what the second killer is? Setting a set expectation of what its supposed to be
like. And you dont even know youre doing it. Thats the point. You already think, Well, God,
Erics enlightened man. You know, he can probably do this or that or hes cruising to these You
know, alright, so its true. Its true. Ill admit. Theres a dimensional yacht that we that are
enlightened go to. And we drink it up and whoop it up and dance all night and have a good time
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and were going ahh, those fools are in the other lower dimensions. Ha, ha, ho, ho. Okay? Thats
not what its like. Okay? Thats not what its like. Stop trying to figure out what its going to be
like and you might get invited in. Its your wanting that so much, that the wanting comes from your
human self. Your organic self. And it creates a frequency. And that frequency, in all honesty, is too
thick, too heavy, too fat, too disorganized, too whatever. It cant get in. Cant get in. Because its a
tone. I dont know how else to say it. You guys got to unravel this. Okay? Youve got the tools,
Ive given it all. About having thought, but not with human thinking. I mean this is in Foundation
Set. Its all there. Now its like but its so much... Unbelievable.
More than most people whove been searching have. Spoiled, spoiled, spoiled. Okay? How
many out there dont even know what the heck Ive got out there, and that Ive given. Okay? Where
were you guys before you found it? Okay? You know, running around, you know with the pagans,
with the horns in the air naked through the forest. Doing the color of light, you know, vibrational
feel it spiraling in. I mean, Im picking on everybody now, I know. But think about where youve
been and where youre at now. Okay? And you dont have to be identical to what Im teaching.
What I want is, I want a hybrid, I dont want clones. Okay? I dont want clones. I dont want
everybody to be like, We got to be just like Eric Pepin. I want a hybrid. And, I dont want all my
bad parts in there its a lot. Okay? So youd better be smart in figuring that out and which parts
youre going to take. You got to take the knowledge, the good stuff and bring it in, contemplate it,
work with it. And then you take half of yourself, you throw out a lot of the luggage that you know
that you cant take, Okay? And you breed them together in your dimensional self. And then what
comes out is this awakens you. Thats the ancient being. Because the only thing youre really after
is your true pillar, your middle pillar, Okay? And you need the skills in order to handle this rough
weather to get through it and how do I map this all out. And Im like your co-pilot; Im just trying
to help you. I dont want ego worship. I dont want hero worship. I mean I know I talk and
everybodys like ahh...Erics the guy. Believe me; I do the same thing as everybody else. I
complain, I fart, I pull my pants down, I pull them up. Things happen some times and Im like,
Why? Why? Thats wrong for the body to do that, you know? Same thing. Okay? But I have this
luxury of sitting down and just going (making whoosh sound) and I can go and I can work in these
higher places. And I come back and Im like the kid made a mess of the house. What did my body
do now? Okay? Very funny stuff. So unappreciated (says with a sigh).
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Anyhow. So, youve got to stop putting these expectations. Somebody said to me the other
day, that what attracted them to me was that I was so real. That I was so real. These gurus and
these teachers and you know, Im so amused by them. You know, they come out and they got the
orange and they got the cloth around and theyre all like, and you know, theyre like ahh..ahh.
And he goes in, he sits down, he lifts his leg up when nobodys looking and (making passing gas
sound), you know, and hes like Okay. Air it out. Alright, let them in. If youre thinking that you
got to be like these people, Im telling you bullshit. Okay? Its bullshit. And youre creating a set
standard for your consciousness that thats where you think you need to be to enter stages of
enlightenment. And this is weight. This is weight holding you down because here you go thinking
again. Here you go thinking like this is what I think it should be like. Okay? And just for the
record, I have, you know, big respect for certain spiritual teachers. You know, youre going to
throw the Dali Lama out there or something like that. Im not making fun of those teachers. Keep
that in mind. There are certain ones that I definitely have a lot of respect for. They have their
approach to teaching and what theyre teaching and its for different levels of people to kind of help
them and get them to where they need to be. Good stuff. Okay?
Im teaching people that I consider white cells and theyre part of this world, they love
people. Theyre integrated with the world, they love Earth. Love. We have absolute love for all
mankind. Okay? But, theres a certain kind of knowledge were appropriate for. Its like, you know,
you grow up. And if youre Asian, you eat Asian food. You come to America, you eat the
American food. What do you crave? You crave what is familiar to you. Its like Baard with his
damn chocolates, Okay? Got to have the Norwegian chocolate, the American stuff is crap. Theres
nothing wrong with Hersheys. Its good. Okay? So, we know what truffles are. Were not dumb.
Okay. So, you know, you got to realize that theres a certain kind of food that you guys from where
you are from, youre origins, that youre looking for. This is part of throwing all that crap over your
heads. And searching through things, okay? You know what it is? Its like Baard. Baard comes and
hes like (making huffing puffing sound). Its like whats the matter.
Baard: Nothing...nothing...nothing.
Eric: And Im like what the hells the matter with you? You know. Youre driving me nuts.
Baard: I need something. I need...
Eric: What do you need?
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Baard: I need some candy.
Eric: Candy? Hes got the biggest sweet tooth you can imagine. Him and Jason. So, here, I think
hes going stir crazy. Theyre driving me crazy. Im like I got to be the master. I got to, you know,
get...get...get. I got to get in the zone. I got stuff to do. And youre distracting me now. Im going to
lightning bolt your ass. Get away from me, okay? So, this is all the time (making huffing puffing
sounds), you know? So, Phillip comes, Okay? And whats Phillip? Phillips his friend from
Norway. Hes not engulfed into the Higher Balance stuff, but I like Phillip - Phillip raise your hand.
Ill make you famous now. Okay? So, Phillip comes and hes like hey, hey, you know, Phillips very
laid back, so he can hang. Okay? And hes like, Oh, I brought something for you. Throws out this
bag of Norwegian chocolate or something. This one over here (making fast moving animated
sound)...ahhhh. If I could get that out of him as a student, I should just hold the bag. Okay? Who
comes out of his comatose from the heat, from teaching like this: candy? They were like this.
They were hopping and stuff.
So, what Im saying thats what it is to us, this knowledge, its what Im serving for food for
you guys. Its like...like ooo...this is the good stuff now. You know, when you guys smelled it the
first time youre like errrr....probably same crap. This - that. You know, youre looking at it,
youre looking at it. (Making smelling snorting sound). Give me some more of that, whats this too.
Okay? And thats how it begins. And I know. I know. Im like yep. Thats right. Good stuff. Good
stuff. Here you go. Got to pay for dinner now because I got to buy more ingredients. Okay? I got to
find the time to make it. Okay?
So, this is what it comes down to. I am not picking on other schools of teaching. Okay? I
think that you can come out with a Hunan dish that we would all die for. You could come out with
a Persian dish; you could come out with something from India. I mean I eat everything. Do I look
like I got any problems picking what Ill eat? I love all food. Okay? I love all people. Okay? There
is no defining anything with me. You know? Except for a few things - I dont eat seafood or fish.
Probably a lot of people will be shocked by that. Its icky. Its slimy, its icky. Anyway, so, the
point is, is that Im trying to find another way still to teach. I use a little humor. I use this, but its
analogies that Im using. Im making you guys feel certain things that you can relate to, not just
words of like you have to do this and do your lotus position. And heres your mantra and you do
that for a month and (making nonsense sound effect) Okay? Out. It needs to go. So, youve found
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you food. Im your food. I have all due respect for other belief systems. Id be happy to sit down to
hear what they have to say, I see the beauty, I see the eloquence, I see the truth in what theyre
saying. And then, the bottom line is, is theres a lot my crappy cooks out there then there are really
good cooks. Isnt that true in life if you look at it that way in life? Okay? And thats what Im
saying and what Im making fun of. So, I dont want you guys to think that Im saying that all of
its crap out there. Just that I make the best food, thats all.

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