AUTHOR: MURASAKIZUNA

MY PRIVATE SLUT ~1~

Kame, youre gay right?

Kame almost choked at the question. He stared at Jin blankly.

Oh dont give me that look, just answer me.

that?

Kame looked down, Yes, got a problem with

Jin smiled, Actually it would solve my problem. Kame blinked, not believing what

hed just heard. A smile started creeping on his face.

Could it be that Jin has feelings for

me too? Yay Im so happy. Oh my god! Jin!! Its Jin!!! After all these years Ive been
longing for him, and now..
Would you have sex with me, Kame? asked Jin. Kame wouldve have laughed if itd been
someone else who had asked that question, in that weird way, from him. But its Jin!!! Its
Jin!!!!! Kame cant believe how happy he is feeling. Its Jin!!!!!!
Jin laughed, Judging by your smile its a yes?
easy to read?

Kame looked down, flustered, Am I that

Am I that hot? That youd agree to this in an instant? teased Jin. Kame

blushed madly. I thought I wouldve at least fought a little to get yes as an answer.
Stop teasing me~

Jin giggled, Kame looks so cute when hes embarassed like this.

................................................................................................................................
.................

I told you he would say yes. Give me my money now. bragged Jin the moment he arrived
at Yamapis place. Whooa wait a minute. No proof, no cash.said Yamapi, smirking.

knew you wont let your money go that easily. I told him to come to my place tonight. And
this camera here will be my ticket to your 200 bucks. Jin smirked. Youre so evil.

Like

you are not Jin laughed. Yamapi shook his head, maybe this little game has gone too far?
But Yamapi cant resist the temptation to witness Jin being stupid for some stupid money, or
more precisely for some stupid pride. Yes, that best friend of his would certainly never
admit to any kind of defeat, even in a game as stupid as this.
.......

Youre early. Jin smirked as he opened the door, topless. Kame flustered and looked
down, Well.. I didnt want to be late..

Youre that excited about us having sex huh?

asked Jin. Kame blushed even more. Am I that hot, Kame? teased Jin as he dragged him
inside and pinned him to the wall. Jinn~ Kame pleaded in a way that said stop teasing
me. Answer me, you have it bad for me, dont you? asked Jin as he lead Kame to stand
in front of the hidden camera. Kame looked down. Jin moved away so he wouldnt be
caught by the camera, but of couse Kame didnt know that. He simply thought that Jin was
teasing him. He has always known Jins reputation. A player, womanizer, proud, thinks that
everybody wants him (which is sadly true, well, at least almost everybody, and that includes
Kame), likes to be begged, likes to be praised, likes to be chased, and a lot more going on
that list. Honestly Kame didnt know what made him fall in love with someone with that
kind of reputation. He really doesnt know, but somehow he believes theres a lot more
hidden behind Jin's bad attitude. He actually believes that Jin has a kind heart deep inside.
You know, Ive always known you have it bad for me, Kame..

You have?

Yes.. Thats

why Im giving you a chance tonight. You know, I am actually a nice person like you said to
me once. So yeah, if tonight goes well, who knows, I might actually date you. But if
tonight you cant satisfy me then good bye, no second chance. Jin said that calmly as if he
didnt care. And Kame knows, Jin really didnt. He knows Jin is telling the truth when he
said there would be no second chance. He also knows hell be throwing away his pride
tonight if hes going to do what Jin has in mind, he knows how pathetic he is but he cant
help it. He wants Jin, he want this chance so bad that hed litterally do anything if that
opened to a possibility that Jin might actually date him. So..
What do you want me to do, Jin? asked Kame. He looked embarassed but also
determined. Strip. Let me see what you got.

Wh..what? Kame look

flustered. Oh come on now, Kame. You want me or not? asked Jin.

Only then Kame started to move. He didnt want Jin to get tired of him even before
anything started. Slowly he opened the buttons of his shirt one by one and let it hang
loosely on one of his shoulders, revealing the so smooth skin of his. Say my name while
touching yourself Kame. Eh..?

Oh come on now.. You dont wanna bore me,

do you? Jin grumbled. Stop acting so innocent when clearly you want to be my
private slut. mocked Jin.
Jins harsh words should be enough to turn anyone off but not Kame. Instead hes turned
on by those. Especially the part where Jin refered to him as.. Your private slut..? Yeah..
dont you want to be that? If that means Im claimed as yours I would.. whispered Kame,
blushing.

Good. Go on.. Jin made a move with his hand that suggest Kame to continue.

Shyly, Kame started running his fingers down the spine, moaning Jins name with sexy
noises. He moved his body in a way that made Jins heart throb in disbelief, never had he
thought that Kame could be this sexy, or that anyone could be this sexy.

Jin curled up to

his feet, trying to hide his sudden hard-on. Jin.. Kame kept moaning as he unbuckled his
jeans slowly, his fingers pulling down his boxers as he crawled on the floor on all fours and
spreading his legs. Jiinnn... Kame licked his lips as he moved his hips. Jin....
Jin cant take it anymore after a few minutes had passed. He had planned to record Kame
stripping and then just send him away but now.. Hastily he stood up and pushed the
cameras off button on his way towards Kame, Kame didnt notice that. He smiled as Jin
came closer to him while undressing himself so quickly. Jinn...
his hard cock teasingly, Tell me what you want, Kame..

Jinn...

Jin poked his butt with

Come on, Jins private

slut.. tell me what you want me to do to you.. I want you to claim me as yours, Jin..
Tsk.. What do you want jinjin to do to you, Kame? Kame blushed madly at the
question.
it.

Come on, dont bore me now.. said Jin.

I want it inside me Jin..

Beg for

Kame had never felt as embarassed and insulted in his life but he went on, Jin..

please... I need you inside me.. I need to feel you Jin..

Kazuya?

Uh.. Jin... pleasee...

You need me so bad huh,

Then without warning nor penetration Jin pushed his

whole length inside him, causing both of them to scream, one in pain, one in pleasure.

Jin

didnt care and didnt even bother to ask does it hurt? or should I go slower?, no, Jin
didnt care. He burried himself deeper, Gosh Kame.. youre so..tight..uh..mmhh.. he
moved his hips in fast rhythm with his hands on Kames back to keep him still, he didnt
bother to do anything to Kame. Oh godd.. fuck.. youre..uh.. Kame... uhh...Kame.. After
only a few thrusts he came hard inside Kame, filling him with his seed.
Kame just realized hed been biting his lips out of pain when he felt Jin pulling himself out of
him. Kame caught his breath as he collapsed on the floor, it hurt so much he almost
couldnt feel the pain on his lips. Youre bleeding.. said Jin. Uh yeah its ok, Jin.. Kame
licked his lips. No, youre bleeding.. Jin said, pointing down. Kame looked at the direction
that Jins finger directed at. Well, thats because youre too rough Jin.. said Kame as he
tried to wipe the trails of blood and Jins semen on his thighs. Jin frowned, Youre
complaining?

No.. Kame answered quickly. Jin grinned, You liked it, didnt you? he

said with a cocky attitude, not realizing that Kame didnt even get a release. Yes.. Kame
answered as he looked down, trying to hide his blushing face. You slut.. Jin smirked as he
pinned Kame to the floor. Kame hissed as his ass crushed to the cold floor, it hurt like hell.
Jins cock is merely inches away from his lips. Would you like this too, Kame? asked Jin.
Its not a question, Kame knows that, its a command. He didnt answer as he put the
whole length inside his mouth, licking and sucking it, making Jin moan shamelessly.

Do you do this often, Kame? asked Jin after he came for the second time that night.
Kame flustered, This was my first time..

Jin smirked, Really? Kame nodded.

Jin

grinned proudly, wow he was the first guy to be inside Kame, the first guy to ever touch
Kame, that snob-ice-cold Kame. He felt so proud of himself, he didnt realize that Kame
was also the first guy ever to make him hard, the first guy to ever satisfy him
sexually, the first guy hed ever want to touch.
Jin smiled maliciously, You know, Im too nice ne, Kame? I even hold myself back not to
fuck you again even though Im so hard right now..
again?

Jin nodded. Then you can have me..

Kame blushed, You want to have me

You dont mind?

As long as its you,

Jin, I dont mind.. whispered Kame, blushing even more. Jin smirked as he fucked Kame
again that night for the third time, fourth time, sixth time, until he exhausted himself,
extremely satisfied. Yeah, Akanishi Jin never loses.
Kame cant sleep that night, his whole body is painfully sore, but he cant stop smiling as he
sees Jins sleeping face. He looked so content, and Kame is the one that made him that.
Kame cant ask more than this, hes beyond happy. Jin.. whispered Kame as he held Jin in
his arms, watching him sleep. He could stay like this forever, being beside Jin, watching him
sleep, just this is enough to make him happy.
...........................................................
Yamapi opened the door lazily, he knows its Jin, no one else knocks on his door that loud.
Jin is grinning widely as he makes his way into Yamapis apartment. Well, come in. said
Yamapi sarcastically. Jins already putting a video tape inside the player and turned on the
tv, Look at this, Pi. My ticket to your 200 bucks. he said proudly as he touched his nose,
its his habit everytime hes winning something. Yamapi sits down and watches.
The first few minutes only drew blushes on Yamapis face, not long after he found himself
speechless as he gaped in shock. Tu..turn it off, Jin. Turn it off!! he yelled. Jin looked at
him, confused, then examined him, then he smirked. Youre hard. Hes hot, isnt he?
mocked Jin. Youre insane, Jin. Hes even hotter when Im inside him. Oh my god if you
had just seen that flustered face when I collapsed on top of him after I fucked him.. Jin
cant stop bragging about his conquest. Youre disgusting, Jin. Hes your friend, how could
you..

Oh shut up, Pi. Youre the one who asked for a proof. Yes, but what I meant by

proof was simply to let me know that he actually said i like you jin not this!!!!!

Jin grumbled, Youre so noisy. Just give me my 200 bucks. Yamapi threw him the money,
still mad. Uh, do you want to buy the tape too? You know, to keep you company at night.
asked Jin. One who didnt know him would think hes making a bad joke, but Yamapi knew
Jins dead serious.

Youre such an asshole Jin. GET OUT!

Fine. Ill sell it to Koki

though, I know he has always had a thing for Kame. And also to Ryo, Im sure hed love
this. Youre sure you wanna be left out?
copy?

Youre sick. Youre sure you dont want a

No. Really? You havent seen the best part, when hes on all fours, moving his

body up and down. I know youre dying to see that, Pi. I know the way you have been
looking at him lately.

Yamapi blushed.

Lets just leave it here, then well see if you want to pay for it or just return it to me. And
by the way, if you like this one and would like to see Kame doing stuff, you can make a
request to me. Ill make him do it and tape it. Hes my private slut, hell do whatever I tell
him to. bragged Jin, proud and more cocky than hed ever been in his life. He has got
Kame! The one that his friends desires. That means he has got pride, admiration, and
money, yeah hell get lots of money. He smirked as he made his way home.

a/n. I cant believe I just wrote an akame smut

~A~

MY PRIVATE SLUT ~2~

Hello?

Kame?

Kames heart jumped as he heard the voice. Jin?! he grinned widely,

his fingers entangling his hair in excitement, Jin is calling me! At night! At this hour! At
sleeping hours! Maybe he cant sleep too? Thinking of me, like I am thinking of him? You
sound happy. teased Jin. I am.said Kame, Jin can imagine he must be blushing right
now. Is it because I called? teased Jin. Jin..stop teasing me.. Kame giggled, feeling
embarassed.

Ah Kame.. If only you could come here.. whimpered Jin in a spoiled husky

voice. Kame gulped hearing Jins needy voice, he sounded like.. Kame.. Uhm.. yes Jin?
said Kame, clearing his throat.

Jin whimpered again in a very spoilt voice, I kinda need a

hand here.. But you wouldnt come when its raining like this, right? Although its kinda
your duty you know.. being my private slut and all, but I wont push you though..

Kame

almost jumped up because of the overwhelming happiness he felt. Jin wants me to come
over! After a long day of practice he still wants to see me! He chose me over sleep! Kame
cant stop smiling, hes so so so happy.

Kame..?

Im on my way.. said Kame

cheerfully, then he hung up, practically rushing himself to be there as soon as he could.

Jin

smirked as he hung up, his plan had worked smoothly and too easily. Kame is easy, he
thought. Jin smirked as he checked the bathroom once again, perfect.

.............
Jin grinned as he opened the door. Kames looking at him, his eyes seem shiny, its so
obvious hes so happy at the moment. His body is dripping wet from the rain, his clothes
are sticking to his skin and cannot hide the beautiful form underneath them anymore. His
face is blushing, and he is smiling at Jin like an idiot, its too obvious that hes too happy at
the moment.
Jin smirked as he pulled Kame inside, dragging him to the bathroom. Kame blushed even
more, his bodys tingling, thinking of what might happen next. Jins grip felt so strong,
Kame wondered why did a simple touch from Jin like that manage to turn him on. But then
he stopped thinking as Jin released his hands and pointed at the bath stall.
Take a shower.said Jin simply. Kame blushed as he saw Jin sit down at the floor in front of
it.

A..are youre going to stay here while Im bathing? Kame trembled, madly nervous.

Got a problem with that?

you dont bore me, ok?

N..no.. whispered Kame, his face burning red.

Make sure

Kame blushed, he didnt answer, hes sure Jin is more into action

than talk right at this moment. Still trembling he opened his clothes, feasting Jins eyes
with his wet naked form. Shyly he took a glance at Jin, the other was still staring at him
with his predatory eyes.
Kame took a soapbar and started rubbing it all over his body.

Say my name.. Moan my

name, Kame.commanded Jin. Kames flustered face became even more red at that words,
he knew what Jins asking by telling him that. Jin... he moaned, arching his head back.
Jin can feel his cock hardening at the sound.

Moan my name while touching your body.

Say how badly you want me. Say how badly you want my fingers on you. Say how badly
you want my cock inside you. Say how badly you want to feel my cum filling you. Say how
much I turn you on that I dont even have to touch you to make you come.. he commanded
again as his eyes locked on Kames body.

Kame fidgeted a little, Jinn..I.. I want you..

He cant continue, hes too embarassed as he noticed a part of him is awakened from Jins
words.

Say it!

Jin.. I want you..

Say it, Kame. Say how badly you want my cock

inside you. Say it or youre out of here. I dont need a boring show like this. threatened
Jin, lying, this is not boring at all, at least not for a certain part of his body.
J..jin..I want you inside me.. moaned Kame, trying to please Jin. Say you want my jinjin
inside you.. hissed Jin.

I.. I want Jin... Kame whispered, unable to continue, somehow

the word jinjin sounded so naughty, it made him blush even more. How am I supposed to
say those things to him, while Im exposed like this.. I feel like a.. Urgghh!! Youre so
boring!!! Jin growled as he stood up. He shoved Kame at the wall roughly, Do you want
jinjin inside you, Kame? he whispered, mocking Kame. Kame blushed, Yes..
smirked, Say it. Say how badly you want it.

Jin

I.. I want.. jinjin.. inside me..so bad.. so

bad.. Kame whispered, he felt so embarassed that he wished hed vanished at this very
second. Jin smirked, Youre such a slut, you know that? I have never found anyone this
willing, this desperate for my jinjin. Youre such a slut. A cheap slut. mocked Jin as he
unbuckled his belt so quickly, revealing his hardened cock that already spilled precum. Then
he buried himself deep inside Kame with one thrust. Kame hissed as he felt that familiar
length shoved inside him. You.. like.. this Kame?! hissed Jin. Kame whimpered out of
pain.

You like this, dont you? Say you want more. Say you want me deeper.. whispered

Jin as he thrust deeper inside Kame and started to move.

Kame whimpered, this was not

his first time, but it still hurt like hell. He bit his lips to supress a scream.

Jin growled.

Youre.. so.. boring.. youre so..uh.. hah..uhn.. Jin couldnt say anything anymore as he
felt orgasm took over him. Uh.. hah.. Kame.. uhn. Kame!! Jin groaned as he came inside
Kame. Nghh.. Kame..

...............................

Ngh..Kame.. Jin moaned as he came in his hands. It was early in the morning, right after
Kame went home, when Jin watched the video of their session yesterday. And somehow he
couldnt help himself from stroking his length the minute Kames naked form appeared on
the monitor. Jin grinned in satisfaction. Then he headed over to his computer to make a
copy of that, and then he edited the copied version. He cut it at the part before Jin
undressed himself. Theres no way hed show their friends his own naked body, its
embarassing. He didnt think how embarassing it must be for Kame, for Kame is more shy
than he is. He didnt think of that, he didnt care.
The first video was a hit. Yeah sure, those three were yelling, telling him off, saying how
crazy and cruel he was to sell them those videos. But after they saw it.. Jin smirked, all of

them just remain silent as they handed him the money. Guys will be guys, thats just how
the way things are, Jin grinned. Kame will make me become so rich..

MY PRIVATE SLUT ~3~

Theyre sitting side by side in an almost empty train, it was almost midnight.

Theres only

a few of sleepy people in the front part of the compartment. Kame is sitting beside him,
sleeping. His shirt is lifted up a little, showing the sexy pelvis to Jins eyes. Jin grins as he
kisses Kame to wake him up.
Kame woke up and blushes, its his habit. Jin has noticed and accepted it as Kames way of
greeting him and Kames way of telling him I love you so much Jin, youre the hottest
person on the planet. I love you soo much..

Jin.. Kame whimpered as he snuggled

closer to Jin. Jin smiled endearingly, but too bad he cant see himself so he didnt know
that. Jin also didnt know that this little game of his is starting to consume him. Yes it is
always Jin who takes the control in their relationship, but Kame is the one controlling Jins
thoughts, Jins dreams, Jins desires.. Jin grabs Kames hand and puts it on his hard-on.
Kame gasped and blushed madly as he touched it. Was Jin asking him to do that.. here??
Come on Kame.. youre mine, right? teased Jin as he brushed his hands against Kames
crotch, making him whimper. Nh..but Jin.. Im embarassed..its..

Ssh.. Come on,

Kame.. I cant take it anymore.. whispered Jin as he nibbled Kames earlobe. Nh..but..
You dont love me Kame? Jin is using his best scheming weapon, pouting and playing
insecure. Of course I love you Jin.. I love you so much.. Kame answered quickly as he
kissed Jin. No you dont.. Jin frowned as he pushed him away. Jin.. Kame sighed, this
could go on for hours. You dont love me.. Jins still frowning.

Jin.. Kame sighed, seems

like he has to give up, like always.

Without another word, Kame crushed his lips onto Jins as he rubbed his hands between
Jins thighs. Jin grinned into their kisses, Touch yourself Kame.. Kame blushed as he get
down on the floor, hiding himself behind the chair in front of him so the other passengers
wont see him.

He whimpered as he turned around to face Jin, then he opened his shirt

roughly like Jin taught him. Jin grinned, I taught him well.. Kame ran his fingers teasingly
across his chest with his eyes closed, Nh.. The arousing sounds flowed from his lips as he
circled his nipple, and then he bit his lips and whimpered as he pinched it, his eyes staring
at Jins with lust.
He licked his lips as he brushed his hand against his clothed cock, only a few seconds until
he withdrew with an obvious blush. He look at Jin while purring, Jinn.. Im embarassed to
do this by myself.. help..me? Jin moaned as he crush down to Kame, pinning him to the
floor. God I taught him too well.. Kame blushed as he looks away, but hes grinding himself
against Jin, contrasted to his shy look. Jin.. Ngh..Kame.. Jin moaned as he ripped their
pants open so fast before Kame even realized it. Jin sat on top of him as he turned Kame
around on the floor. He gripped Kames cock and stroked it as his other hands fingered
Kames entrance. Jin.. no time.. just do it.. I dont want to get caught..

Jins always

doing this these days, preparing Kame before taking him, something that he had never
thought of before.

Somehow, he didnt know since when, he started to feel eager to touch

Kame, he started to enjoy it when he heard Kame moan his name without Jin telling him to
do that, he started to enjoy when he saw Kame lost in pleasure.
Jin.. please..just..Jin... whimpered Kame as he was bucking his back against Jin. Who can
control themselves when Kame is offering his ass to them? No one does, Jin moaned as he
grabbed his cock and guided it in Kames entrance. He shoved himself slowly into Kame,
burrying his whole length inside Kames tightness. Oh my..fuck.. Kame..uh.. Kame bit his
lips as he felt the familiar length shoved inside him. It hurts, it always does, but he has
started to enjoy this feeling. The feeling that Jin is inside him, thrusting so deep and so fast
inside him, Jin is moaning his name while thrusting even deeper until he reached Kames
sweet spot and thrusts into it over and over. He bucked against Jin, wanting to feel more,
just more.. Kame moaned as Jin came hard inside him, and just as Kame knows he wont
last much longer, Jin pulled out of him and vigorously sucked Kames cock, forcing Kame to
bite his lips to hold back a loud groan as he came inside Jins mouth.

...................................

It's been a month since their first session, Jin realized that within the last week he didnt
record any of their sessions. He didnt understand why but somehow the huge amount of
money doesnt seem so appealing anymore. He is somehow starting to hate the idea that
the other guys also get the privilege of watching Kames body, listening to Kames whimpers
and moans. At first he felt proud when he sold those videos to them. He felt like,You can

watch, you can drool, but I own him He felt superior when he saw the envious looks
on their faces. He enjoyed the jealousy they couldnt hide. He enjoyed showing Kame off
to them, if he could, he wanted to show the whole world. He wanted to say Look. Just
look at his body, his perfectly toned figure, his sexy whimpers, his flustered face
when he whimpers. Look how perfect he is and listen to what he said. Listen
carefully, did you heard it? Yeah, he moaned my name. Yeah he said hes mine.
Theres still a part of him that wanted to do that, wanted to show off to the world that he
owns that perfect body, he still enjoyed those envy looks, but theres another part of him
that became stronger and stronger everyday. The part which wants to be the only person
who can see Kame naked, the part who wants to be the only person who can hear his
whimpers and moans, the part who wants to be the only person to enjoy every sight of
Kame. The part who doesnt like to share. The part who wants to kill anyone who
lay their eyes on Kame. The part who hates himself for having shared that
precious view to his friends. The part who is scared and terrified each second, so
terrified of what might happen if Kame found out.. The part who likes to hold
Kame when he is sleeping, embracing him so tightly and keeps whispering Youre
mine.. youre mine.. youre mine..

MY PRIVATE SLUT ~4~

Jin is scared, really scared. He has never felt something like this. Its different with what he
felt when he was left alone in the haunted house or when he had to go abroad alone or
anything in his life. This is more and different. This is the first time Jin has felt something
like this, the fear of losing something important, or someone, to be more precisely.
His friends didnt want to give him those tapes back. Ryo is already back in Osaka so its
hard to contact him as hes always been used to ignoring his cellphone. And the other two
didnt trust him.
No! Why would you want the tape back? What? Did you lose your copy and youre
planning to make more copies of this and sell it to more people?! No fucking way Im giving
these back to you so you could hurt Kame more. Thats pretty much what they said to him.

Hurt Kame more? Are you kidding me? Thats the last thing I would want to do. But
somehow he couldnt say that to them. He couldnt reveal how much he cares about Kame
to them, not before he tells Kame about it. This feeling he feels for Kame is foreign to him,
its new and its precious to him, he cant just bark about it before he tells Kame first. And
before he tells Kame he wants to fix his mistakes first.
But it seems like they left him no choice, he has to get those tapes back, no matter what.
Please, just.. Jin sighed, Just bring the tapes and meet at Kokis home tonight? Please
just listen to what I have to say. Then you can decide whether youre going to give me the
tapes back or not. I really hope you will. Yamapi froze, its unlike Jin to be so serious like
this, its unlike him to sound so devastated and its unlike him to be so polite. He sighed,
Fine. Thank you. Jin said as he hung up.
*
Kame, wake up.. Jin whispered as he kissed Kames cheek. Kame slowly opened his eyes
and blushed as he saw Jin kissing him. There you go... Jin grinned. What? asked.
Blushing.. its your ohayou to me. Do you know that? teased Jin. Kame pouted as he
grabbed the pillow and covered his face with it.

Aw..dont cover your face.. I want to kiss

you..said Jin in a spoilt voice. I havent brushed my teeth. mumbled Kame from under
the pillow. Jin laughed, Kame is too cute. Didnt I tell you that I dont care? said Jin, still
laughing.

Well I do.mumbled Kame again, still hiding under the pillow. Jin giggled and

sighed, You always do. Well then get up and I give you 15 minutes to do whatever you
want to do in that bathroom. After that youre all mine.
Kame quickly rushed to the bathroom. He knew Jin wasnt kidding about the amount of
time he gave him. In fact, 15 minutes was very generous coming from Jin. Kame couldnt
even bath calmly without Jin suddenly storming in and doing stuff to him these days.
Jin was standing in front of him the minute he opened the door. What are you doing? I
was planning to storm in if you had spent more than 15 minutes in there. Youre on time,
though.. Jin pouted. Kame chuckled, Pervert.
pouting.

I cant help it. Its your fault. Jins still

Kame laughed as he patted Jins head and brougt him closer, Is that your way to

compliment me?

Jin blushed, since when had their relationship become like this? At first

its always him teasing Kame, but now...

Come.. I made you breakfast. Jin dragged Kame to the living room. A burned toast, a
burned egg, and a burned apple was feasted on the table. Kame tried to hide his smile but
he failed, Wow..

Jin pouted as he saw the expression on Kames face, Well its not like

Im a proffesional chef or anything.

Kame chuckled, I know, I know.. Arigatou, Jin..

Kame kissed him on the cheek, making him smile. Then Kame sat down on the couch and
took a bite. Is it delicious? asked Jin hopefully.
luck..

Kame laughed, Jin, dont push your

Jin pouted, Its not? Kame smiled, Im just teasing. It is delicious. Jin grinned

happily.
You shouldnt have toasted the apple though.. teased Kame. Jin frowned at him again,
making Kame laugh. Gosh youre so easy to tease.. Kame laughed.
breakfast? asked Kame as he bit the apple.

Jin smirked, Oh I am..

Youre not having

Kame rolled his

eyes as he glared at Jin. That smirk could only mean one thing. Which was proven to be
true as Jin started to undress him.
Kame pouted, So all of this was just to have your way with me, huh?

Do you mind?

asked Jin as he bit Kames neck teasingly, making him moan. I really wish I did..
whispered Kame as he closed Jins lips with his.

This is heaven.. I want to have this

forever.. Kames lips.. Kames eyes.. Kames.... What? asked Kame, confused at Jins
weird grinning face.

Nothing.. Jin smiled, he could spend eternity in moments like this

and it still wouldnt be enough.

I love you Kame, so much.. But you dont have to know

that yet..

Koki had been walking back and forth in front of Kames door for about half an hour
already. He was drunk, although he could still think clearly.. a little. He sighed as he finally
knocked on the door. Kame!!

Koki? asked Kame from inside the room as he walked

towards the door to open it.

Koki stared at him with a grin. Youre drunk.. Kame sighed. Im not. Koki frowned as he
pinned Kame to the wall and started kissing him. Wh.. You..KOKI!! Kame punched him
hard on the face. Koki laughed, You didnt seem to mind whatever Jin did to you. And you
punched me this hard just because of one kiss? He laughed bitterly, I am always nothing
to you, right, Kame? Kame sighed, What are you talking about Koki? What is wrong with
you? For a moment Koki just stayed silent and then he made Kame gasp in shock as hes
started to cry. Koki? Crying?
Koki, whats wrong? Are you okay? asked Kame gently as he moved towards Koki and
patted his shoulder. Koki couldnt control himself anymore, he grabbed Kames collar and

hug him so tight and sobbed mindlessly. Kame was startled but he didnt push him away.
His heart was clenched to see his best friend in this state and gently he rubbed Kokis back.
Whats wrong Koki? You know you can always talk to me, right? asked Kame, comforting
him.
Youre.. too nice.. youre too nice that it hurts. Do you know that it hurts if people are nice
to you when the truth is they dont even care at all?! yelled Koki. Koki what are you
talking about? Of course I care about you. Youre my bestfriend. Koki froze, I.. I am?
Kame smiled at him, You didnt realize that? Youre the person I trust the most in the whole
world.

Kokis tears fall uncontrollably. Kame smiled as he smacked his head gently,

Baka. Why are you crying? Stop crying, baldie. You looked ugly. mocked Kame
teasingly.

Koki laughed as he cried, oh god Im sorry Kame, Im sorry.. Im sorry.. Youre

so nice.. why did I.. Im sorry..

I..Im sorry Kame.. said Koki as he pulled away. Kame laughed, Why would you be
sorry? Koki frowned as he wiped his tears, Th..this.. He pulled out videotapes from his
backpack. Whats this? asked Kame. Koki started crying again, These.. I.. I bought
these from Jin.. a..couple of weeks ago.. Kame stared at the tapes questioningly but Koki
didnt explain anything as he couldnt even seem to meet his eyes. Kame put the videos in
the player and clicked the play button.
And he saw it, those images, the most embarassing sides of him, showed so clearly on the
monitor. Images of him stripping, images of him touching himself while moaning Jins
name, images of..

Kame, Im home!! yelled Jin cheerfully as he opened the door. Koki,

what are you... Jin stared at Kokis puffed eyes, and then to Kame, and then to the
television.. Kame what are you.. NO!!!! Jin rushed himself to turned it off. Kames eyes
were still staring at the monitor blankly.
K.Kame...I...Im.. Im sorry.. Kame, Im.. Jin muttered as he kneeled in front of Kame.
Kame didnt react at all, he didnt even look at Jin. Kame.. Im sorry.. I..

So this is..

so.. this is what I am to you Jin. Im really nothing but a slut to you.. Kame laughed
bitterly. What..? No, Kame..

I thought in time you will see me differently but I never

knew this is how low you think of me. I am not even worth your respect.. I..god..Im so
stupid. Kame laughed at himself as he stood up. No! Kame!! Listen to me.. I..Im sorry!
Im sorry.. Jins tears started to fall uncontrollably.
You.. you were my best friend, Koki. How.. how could.. he sighed as he walked towards
the door. Huge amount of tears were threatening to fall, but theres no way he would show
them this, Kame clenched his fists to prevent the tears from falling.

He grabbed his keys

and walked towards the door. Kk.kame!!!! yelled Jin as he held Kame from behind, his
whole body is trembling thinking that Kame would leave him.

Kame.. please dont go..

dont go.. Kame.. whimpered Jin helplessly.

Kame.. please dont go... I.. I love you.. cried Jin as he clung to Kame tightly. Kame
laughed as he pulled away. Jin embraced Kame tightly, Please Kame.. Im sorry.. I love
you.. I love you.. please.. I dont know what Id do without you.. I love you Kame.. I cant
even find words to say how much I love you...
Kame smiled.

You have a good way of showing it.

Jins heart clenched at those words, he whimpered and cried shamelessly,

he no longer cared that Koki was there and saw him like this. The hell with pride, fucking
stupid pride, its nothing. Nothing compared to Kame!
Kame.. How he wished he could say things other than sorry and i love you.. how he
wished he could say something that could make things right. But he could find nothing for
he could no longer think. He no longer knew what hes saying. The only thing he could
think of at this moment was to hold Kame tightly. The only thing he could think of was
never to let go of this warmth.
Please Kame.. Ill do anything.. Ill do anything.. I love you..I love you so much it
hurts..Im sorry.. Im sorry.. whimpered Jin, still clinging to Kame tightly.
Do you mean that, Jin?

Kame sighed,

Yes!! I love you Kame! I love you! and Ill do anything to make

it up to you.. Im sorry.. Im sorry.. pleaded Jin as he looked at Kame with hope. Well
then, will you respect me from now on? asked Kame gently. Of course Kame.. oh god..
Kame. I promise.. said Jin, starting to feel relieved.
Well then from now on please leave me alone. said Kame. Wh..what? whispered Jin as
he shivered, suddenly feeling so weak.

You said youll do anything.

Yes, but...

was another lie? asked Kame calmly. No.. but..Kame.. please.. whimpered Jin.

So it

Well

then thank you. Kame pulled away and opened the door.
Kame.. Jin can no longer move, he can no longer reach out his arms to hold Kame and
force him to stay. He feels so weak, he feels so weak as hes starting to see that Kame is
really leaving him. Kame...

Kame smiled at him gently, Kamenashi..

closed the door and for Jin the world just disappeared.

MY PRIVATE SLUT ~5~

With that he

Its been two days since the last time he saw Kame. For the first time in his life, Jin cursed
his day offs. Weekend was supposed to be fun, but without Kame, its just a torture. He
rushed himself to the office the minute he finished his shower. His heart beat faster at the
thought that he would see Kame again today. These last two days had been a total hell. Jin
couldnt remember if hed ever been this miserable before. Hes used to being alone, in fact
before Kame, he had preferred rather being alone than in someones company. But now,
its just.. Jin sighed. He had never felt lonely before but.. so this is how it feels.. Jin sighed.
*
Jin waited nervously at their office as his eyes kept glancing at the door, expecting to see
the face he missed so much.

Minutes after minutes passed, Jin waited impatiently as his

heart beat faster each second. His thoughts were filled with Kames smiles, Kames blush
everytime he greeted Jin first time in the morning. Will he greet him the same way, even in
the smallest shade?

He glanced at the door instinctly as he smelled the scent he could

never forget, the scent he loved so much. And there Kame was, as breath taking as always,
Jin smiled unconsciously as he found it hard to move or to voice a sound. I miss this scent,
do you know that? That I started to use everything you used to use just to feel that youre
near me? Just to imagine that youre near me. Im sick, I know, Im pathetic, Jin laughed
bitterly.
Kame took a glance at him before he looked away and joined the rest of the group in the
corner. Jin kept staring at him with thousands of emotions he could never able to
describe.

I miss your smile, your sincere smile that I would never have anymore. I miss

your eyes, your beautiful eyes that trap my soul everytime I look into them. I miss you
Kazuya, so much that its consuming me.. Jins eyes were clouded as hes walking towards
Kame unconsciously. I miss feeling your warmth in my embrace. I miss sniffing your hair
as you snuggle your head to my shoulder. I miss.. Unconsciously he wrapped his arms
tightly around Kame before neither of them could think.
J..Akanishi.. Kame was startled as he pulled away. His face was blushing from Jins
sudden act.

The rest of the group were looking at them as they gaped in shock. Kame felt

like he could die of embarrasment at this very second as he could feel the others were still
staring at them.
He pulled away but Jin just kept holding him tighter. You look pale, Kazuya.. whispered Jin
as he drew his fingers onto Kames face. Kame could feel his face was burning red. Hes

too shock to respond anything. Jin is losing his mind, what the hell is he doing? People are
watching!! He froze as Jin started to kiss him.. everywhere. His eyes, his cheeks, and near
his lips. Kame pushed Jin roughly as the other started to reach his lips with his own. You..
you.. crazy.. you.. Kame couldnt voice his thoughts well as hes still trying to catch his
breath. What the hell are you doing, Jin? Didnt you promised to leave me alone?! Didnt I
make myself clear last time? You.. you.. Kame glared at Jin with anger. And in front of all
these people.. Are you trying to make people question and then find out what happened
between us? Wasnt it enough that you humiliated me in front of my best friend? And
now.. Kame laughed bitterly, you are unbelievable, Jin.
I..Im sorry..I.. Jin stuttered as he finally realized what had just happened. He didnt know
what hes doing, he just couldnt think clearly the minute he saw Kame. He just.. Im
sorry.. Im.. Jin froze as he saw at Kames disgusted face. Are you disgusted with me now,
Kame?

Do you feel disgusted if I hold you? If I kiss you? Jin smiled bitterly as his tears

started to fall again. If you do, then just kill me. Kill me now, Ive got nothing to live for.
Not anymore. Jin let his tears fall, not that he could control it. No, and he didnt care that
people were staring at him questioningly. He didnt care about anything anymore. The hell
with everything. The hell with everyone.

I.Im sorry minna. Akanishi and me are just..uh...practicing for a play. Uh.. for.. theatre!
Were playing a.. greek tragedy!stuttered Kame. The others breathed in relief even though
they didnt actually believe it. But at least Kame gave them a reason to act like nothing had
happened and they didnt have to act uncomfortable and gloomy. They laughed, Oh god!
You guys really scared me there! Thank god!

Kame laughed with them. God bless the

play!! Taguchi yelled as he started to mimick a one-man play. For the first time Taguchis
joke cracked everyone up. Everyone but Jin, but still, its a new record for Taguchi. Kame
even gave him a smack on his head. Its an honour coming from Kame, you know. That
means he thinks youre funny.
Jin stared blankly at Kame laughing in the crowd. Am I nothing to you now, Kame? Or are
you just a good actor? Eitherwise it hurts. Even if I deserve it.
*

Youre not eating, Kame? asked Koki. Too lazy to get up.. Kame smiled, hes dead tired
by their crazy dance scenes. How can you still smile to him and not to me? That smile is
mine. Jin frowned and hid the sandwich he was going to give to Kame as he saw Koki hand

Kame a onigiri.

Yeah. Have that instead. You like onigiri better, he is your best friend, he

knows you better.. Im just.. an asshole. Jin frowned as he tried to prevent himself from
crying.
Stop crying now, whiny ass! What kind of guy would cry over something like.. I dont even
know what it is. Onigiri versus sandwich?! You idiot! Jin cursed himself mentally as he
wiped his tears.
Kame thanked Koki and put the onigiri besides him. Eat and come down to the bar, ne?
People are waiting for us. Koki smiled and left him to join the rest of the group. He could
tell Kame preferred to be alone for a while right now, before he has to pull an act again in
front of countless people in a few minutes. Yes, he was being nice to him. But then, that is
just how Kame is. Being nice to everyone, without showing his emotions, hiding everything
to himself so everyone could still stay happy and comfortable without noticing that
somethings off.
Yeah, he knows you very well, doesnt he? Jin frowned. You know what, Kame? I know that
too. But Im not a nice guy like Koki. Im sorry, Kame, Im not. I cant leave you alone. I
cant pretend anymore, even if its the only thing you ever asked me. I cant fulfill it, Im
sorry. Jin walked towards Kame and lay on top of him. Kames eyes widened as he tried to
shoved Jin away but Jin pinned him down as he started kissing him.
Jins heart clenched as he saw Kame staring at him with fear and disgust but he didnt stop.
Instead he closed his eyes as he reached Kames lips with his own and ravished them
eagerly. He can feel Kame tremble in fear, it saddened him, it did, but it only made him
tighten his grip on Kames wrists.
Jin.. please let go. whispered Kame helplessly. No. Are you going to rape me? Am I
really that low to you? That you cant think of me in any other way than that? You cant
respect me at all? Not even as a bandmate? asked Kame flatly. Jin froze. No, its not..
Its not that I only think of you that way, its not.. Although it would be a lie if I told you I
dont want to have you right now, but thats not all there is to it.. Kazuya.. You.. I.. I just..
I..
I miss you.. thats the only thing he can voice, although it didnt express even the tiniest
bit of everything hes feeling right now.

Kame laughed, Get off, Jin. No. I miss you.. I

miss holding you like this. I miss being close to you. I miss ..
a girl. Get off. Kame stared at him coldly.

Jin. Please stop. Im not

No.. Please.. Im sorry I couldnt control

myself. I.. I promise I wont do anything. I..I just wanna hold you.. Jin hated how he

couldnt stop his tears from falling. And he hated how Kame seemed to not care and acted
like he didnt see that.
Get off, Jin. Said Kame again, flatly. No.. whimpered Jin. Fine. Suit yourself. Do
whatever you want. Im a slut anyways.said Kame.

Wha.. no youre not.. dont say that..

you.. youre my everything.. dont say that.. dont.. Jin cried as he stroked his fingers on
Kames face. Then get off. If you dont think of me as a slut, get off.said Kame coldly.
Kazuya.. whimpered Jin as hes started sobbing mindlessly, his grip loosened up not
because he wanted to but he just couldnt find strength to do so. Kame sighed as he
shoved Jin off and got up. And he left the room without a single glance at Jin.
*

They are really really really drunk.

Yeah, Im not blind, you know. Ueda and Maru

stared at Kame who was giggling with Koki as hes sipping another glass of vodka. Theyre
sitting too close to each other, Jin frowned. The six of them and their crews were gathered
in the bar to celebrate the last day of their pv-shooting. The damn tiring dancing scenes
were finally over.
Jin clenched his fists as he saw Koki put his arms on Kames shoulder, Kame looked
uncomfortable but he smiled. Jins whole body tensed with anger as he saw that, he sipped
his beer and walked towards them. How dare you.. Hes as guilty as I am. How can
he still touch you and he gets that smile, when all I got was get off.
Kokis eyes widened as Jin shoved him away and carried Kame on his back. What..
Akanishi, let go off me. Kame struggled weakly, the alcohol consumed all his energy.
Akanishi, put him down.said Koki.

Dont touch him! Dont you dare. Jin glared at him

as he saw Koki reached for Kames arms. Jin wrapped Kames arms around his neck and
walked out of that bar.
*

Jin carefully watched his steps as he carried Kame to his bed, hes shivering as he could feel
Kames breath on his neck. Its hard to try to walk properly with Kame on his back when he
had a throbbing hard on, when he could feel Kames warmth wrapped around him, when all
he could think of is the memory of how good it feels when hes inside Kame. How good it
feels to hear Kame moaning his name.

Kame whimpered in his sleep as Jin finally managed to put him down to the bed and lay on
top of him. You are mine. You are mine, do you know that? Dont you ever forget that.
Jin start kissing Kames lips, parting them open to give him more access. I love you, I
love you so much it hurts.. Im sorry Kame. I really wish I was a better man,
someone who wont treat you like this..

Jin started to open Kames shirt as he

sneaked his hands underneath it to touch Kames skin. I wish I was someone who
could control his emotions, someone who is able to not touch you and kiss you
when youre helpless. Someone who could leave you, as long as it makes you
happy.. Jin unbuckled Kames jeans as Kame was trembling beneath him. What is
happening? Kame opened his eyes slowly. Jin..? whimpered Kame. Jin shut him up with a
kiss. Jin.. stop.. whispered Kame, but thats all he could do for he had no strength left.
Jin roughly opened their pants and boxers and rubbed his painful erection against Kames
cock. Kame blushed as he could feel himself aroused at the friction. This is so
embarassing. This is so.. disgusting. Make it stop. Jin, stop! Jin.. stop.. plead Kame. Jin
wrapped his mouth around Kames cock and began to suck it, ramming his tongue on the
slowly hardening flesh. Im sorry I wont stop even if I know you will hate yourself
tomorrow, Im sorry but you are mine. Ill make sure you remember that. Your
smile, your body, your everything belongs to me.
Jin positioned himself above Kame as he put his fingers inside Kames entrance. Jin.. what
the hell are you doing? Stop. Leave me alone.. pleaded Kame helplessly as Jin guided his
cock into his entrance as he shoved his length into Kame, making Kame bite his lips as hes
still trembling in fear. Im selfish. Im an asshole. I want you. No matter what, I
want you.

Jin moaned as he burried himself deeper inside Kame. He started to move as

he wrapped his hands around Kames length and began to stroke it. Kame shoved his hands
away, anger and disgust cleary shown in his eyes. Even if it disguist you and only hurt
you even more, I want you.

Jin gripped Kames hands with one hand as he started

stroking Kames length with the other one. He forced Kame to look at him as he saw the
other look away. Im immoral. Im heartless. Im disgusting. I want you. Jin burried
himself deeper inside Kame, ignoring the silent pleads that begged him to stop. He kept
moving, faster, faster, moaning Kames name until he groaned as he came inside the
trembling body beneath him.

I hate myself. Im disgusting. Im disgusting. Kames tears started to fall as he covered

his face with the pillow. Jin looked at him and grabbed the pillow away. Im sorry

Kazuya.. And Im sorry I didnt even regret this.

Im sorry..

Just go. Jin. Go.

Leave me alone. Please.. said Kame sounded so weak. Jins heart clenched as he look at
Kame like that, but he didnt leave.
Im sorry.. but I cant leave you. Im sorry..

He wiped the tears from Kames eyes

and forced him to face him as he started to kiss him, every bit of him. I love you
so much.. so much.. Im sorry I cant find a better way to love you.. It hurts so
much when you cry, believe me, it does.. But I cant let you go.. Im sorry.. Jin
tightened his embrace as he felt Kames struggling to push him away.

Im sorry,

I will never leave you alone, even if my existence is killing you. Im sorry I cant
stop loving you, even if it will only hurt you more.
to be loved by someone like me.

Im sorry.. Im sorry you have