Professional Documents
Culture Documents
A Dissertation
Presented to the Faculty Of the
School of Human Service Professions
Widener University
In Partial Fulfillment
of the Requirements for the Degree
Doctor of Education
By
Marcia A. Matthews
Center for Education
May, 2005
Dr. William Stayton, Th.D.
Dissertation Committee Chair
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Title of Dissertation:
Author:
Marcia A. Matthews
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illiam R. Stayton, Th.D.
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COPYRIGHT BY
MARCIA A. MATTHEWS
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In loving memory of
my grandmother, Angeline LaRose,
whose unconditional love
still feeds and nurtures my heart.
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Acknowledgements
The remarkable people who participate in BDSM and who
are so self-aware and honest it sends me reeling are all
too often categorized as freaks in this society. This is so
far from the truth that it demanded attention and research.
The women I encountered along the road to this work's
completion inspired me with their intelligence, compassion,
sanity, and humanity.
thank those six brave and sincere women for sharing their
stories with me.
I'd also like to thank my tireless committee: Dr.
Patricia Koch, whose relentless edits and revisions were
inspired and essential to the thorough completion of this
dissertation; Dr. Konstance McCaffree, whose guidance and
support was integral to my process and whose presence was
sorely missed during the final stages as she worked to
recover from illness; and to my chair, Dr. William Stayton
whose indefatigable cheerleading and encouragement gave me
the strength to carry on through this arduous process.
My undying thanks go to my study partners-in-crime,
Dr. Sandra Greenberg and Keith Cetera. Their support and
long Sunday afternoons of exhaustion-inspired laughter
helped keep my eyes on the prize.
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Abstract
This phenomenological study looked at the previous research
and therapy on bondage, discipline, dominance, submission
and sadomasochistic
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Table of Contents
Dedication..................................................i
Acknowledgements.......................................... ii
Abstract................................................... iv
List of Appendixes...................................... viii
CHAPTER ONE: Introduction.................................. 1
Purpose of This Research Study....................... 4
Delimitations......................................... 5
Definitions of Terms.................................. 6
CHAPTER TWO: What Do We Know About BDSM Sex Play?........ 11
Introduction......................................... 11
Theoretical/Historical Overview..................... 13
Psychodynamic Perspective............................13
Behavioral Perspective............................... 15
Sociological Perspective.............................17
Research on BDSM..................................... 24
CHAPTER THREE: Methodology................................ 3 9
Rationale for Qualitative Study..................... 39
Phenomenology........................................ 4 0
Participants and Setting.............................41
Data Collection: The Interview Process.............. 42
Data Analysis........................................ 44
Reliability and Validity.............................45
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Sarah's Story........................................ 48
Hannah's Story....................................... 48
Lisa's Story......................................... 49
Kate's Story
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Danielle's Story..................................... 50
The Journey into BDSM Play
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Appendixes
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List of Appendixes
Appendix A
Consent Form...........
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Appendix B
Interview Questions................................. 124
Appendix C
Demographics Questionnaire..........................125
Appendix D
Participant Instructions............................126
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CHAPTER 1
Introduction
Sexuality is a multifaceted, evolving, fluid, unique
and "complicated phenomena"
(p. 182).
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"the scene"
"over
the past 100 years or so, numerous theories have been put
forward in an attempt to explain the apparent attraction of
S/M"
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Purpose of this Research Study
Based on the gaps in understanding, the purpose of
this study was to explore the subjective experiences of
lesbians who engage in public BDSM sex play. To do this, an
interview format was utilized so that women could tell
their stories in their own words to describe the experience
of participating in public BDSM sex play and the feelings
that accompanied that experience. These stories also
illuminated the wider impact that the participants' BDSM
experience has had on their lives. A qualitative research
approach, phenomenology, was used to best understand the
women's lived experiences and the phenomenon of public BDSM
sexual play. The overarching question that was explored
was: What is the experience of public BDSM sex play like
for lesbians who engage in this behavior? This phenomenon
gave rise to the following sub-questions:
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Definitions of Terms
Although several of the following terms are not used
in this study, they are terms commonly used within the BDSM
community. References to these definitions are found in the
following sources although they have been adopted for this
study: Brame et a l . (1993); Warren (2000); Varrin (2001);
and Bannon (1992).
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CHAPTER 2
Literature Review: What Do We Know About Bondage,
Discipline, and Sadomasochistic Sex Play?
The purpose of this study was to explore the
subjective experiences of lesbians who engage in public
BDSM sex play. This chapter will focus on what we know
about BDSM and who practices it. The chapter opens with a
brief introduction to the phenomenon, followed by a
theoretical/ historical overview of the topic that includes
the three prominent perspectives used for research and
therapy: Psychodynamic, Behavioral and Sociological. The
next major section presents research on BDSM, including
sections on survey, women and BDSM, content analysis and
ethnographic research.
Introduction
For the purpose of this study BDSM is defined as the
consensually engaging in sex play that can involve any form
of "physical and/ or psychological pain", dominant/
submissive role playing, bondage and discipline for the
understood purpose of sexual foreplay or arousal
(M.S.
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(Alison, Santtila,
'master', or
'submissive', or 'slave'
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"The word
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This was
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(p. 270).
(p. 270).
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(p. 2 72).
Sociological Perspective
It wasn't until the late 1970's that a different body
of research began to emerge; S/M was being studied from a
sociological perspective (T.S. Weinberg, 1987). It was the
sociologists that first started looking at S/M sexual
behavior from a cultural and community perspective
dependent upon meanings. T.S. Weinberg (1994) expressed an
unchanging view of S/M as a social behavior.
A concept that emerged from the sociological
literature is frames. According to Weinberg,
"frames are
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(p.
(p. 267)
"Humiliation,
(p. 267).
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(p. 267).
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Role Playing
Role playing is "an exaggeration of those sets of
expectations that surround the particular dominant and
submissive roles chosen, for example, master and slave"
(p.
(p.
(G.G.
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(p. 386).
Mutual Definition
Mutual definition is defined as "An assumption of a
shared understanding by the participants that their
activities are S/M"
"pain has
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(p.
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"understanding of SM
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(p.
307) .
In conclusion, it is clear that there are several
different perspectives on BDSM, with some overlapping
assumptions and meanings. However, there still remains an
inadequate amount of information and knowledge on this
topic (Breslow, 1989). Breslow suggests "that this failure
of understanding is due to a number of factors. The first
is the lack of precise definitions of the phenomena being
studied. Another important factor is the lack of empirical
data on which to base the theories and hypotheses used to
try to explain the behavior. This current study approached
the phenomenon of public BDSM sex play from a sociological
perspective in order to shed light on the social context
and meanings of this behavior based on the insights of the
participants.
Research on BDSM
T.S. Weinberg (1994) wrote a review article focused on
the most important sociological research on sadomasochism.
This research has been conducted through surveys, content
analyses, and ethnography. These different types of studies
are discussed below.
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Survey Research
Spengler's
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meaning"
(p. 53).
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(p.54). In the
(p. 55).
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(SSA) and
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(e.g. face-slapping,
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Content Analysis
While content analyses of S/M materials is removed
from studying behavior, it can still provide insight into
the meaning of BDSM. Two content analysis studies will be
presented that shed some light on meaning.
Houlberg (1991) emphasized that the social subcultures
of S/M needed to be studied. Houlberg examined the monthly
magazine of a West Coast sadomasochism club as a means of
understanding the subculture represented within the Club.
While the sexual orientation or any other demographic
information on the clubs members was not detailed, it was
mentioned that the composition changed from primarily gay
males, in the 1970s and 1980s, to a majority of
heterosexual men, women, and couples. This publication was
used for a number of reasons including recording its
history, sharing stories, poems, etc. reflecting the S/M
interests of the club's members, reporting on the club's
major conflicts, and keeping in touch with the longerdistance members.
Utilizing a descriptive content analysis by items,
Houlberg (1991) examined forty-seven issues of the magazine
published by the Club. He then reported the results of the
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3.
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"In
(p.180). It
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(p. 182).
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Ethnographic Research
Ethnographic research allows the researcher to
submerge him or herself in the field of study so that
firsthand observations and personal interviews can be
conducted in order to obtain a more in-depth understanding.
A major challenge is gaining entree into the BDSM world.
Thus, there are few ethnographic studies.
In a review of the sociological and social psychology
literature, T.S. Weinberg (1994) cited Brodsky's
(1993)
"what did
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(p. 269).
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CHAPTER 3
Methodology
The existing body of BDSM literature tends to consist
primarily of pathological views of BDSM, the cultural and
community perspective, and research into the specific sex
behaviors individuals engage in during scene play. In
contrast, this phenomenological study sets out to examine
BDSM from the subjective experiences of the participants
who engage in public BDSM.
This chapter begins by discussing the rationale for
selecting a qualitative research approach, and in
particular phenomenology.
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1994).
Participants and Setting
(p. 601).
Since the purpose of this study was to gain an indepth understanding of the meaning of the phenomenon,
it
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CHAPTER 4
Lesbian Women and Their Journeys into Public BDSM Sex Play
The purpose of this study was to explore the
subjective experiences of lesbians who engage in public
BDSM sex play. This chapter serves as the backdrop for
understanding this phenomenon. It begins with discussing
the backgrounds of the six women (whose names have been
changed for purposes of confidentiality) who participated
in this study. The chapter then moves into presenting the
journey each woman took into the public BDSM scene. Next,
the phenomenon of being a "newbie" and being enculterated
into the scene is discussed. The chapter concludes with a
summary of the common themes that were presented in the
women's lived experiences of this journey and the essence
of being a "newbie."
Abby's Story
Abby is a 26-year-old, white female. Her religious
preference is Jewish. She earned a Bachelor's degree and
works full-time as an Administrative Assistant at an
educational publishing company. She identifies her
socioeconomic status as "middle-middle class". She has been
in the BDSM scene for six and one-half years and selfidentifies as a "top". She identifies her sexual
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She identifies
She has no
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Danielle's Story
Danielle is a 35-year-old white female.
Her religious
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her journey into public BDSM that began at seven years old:
Actually I have known that I had been a bottom since I
was seven years old. So, when all the kids were
playing doctor or house, my downstairs neighbor and I
were playing Man from Uncle, which is a spy show. Both
of us must have been bottoms because both of us always
wanted to be the foreign spy. So the other one would
play, like, Napoleon Solo, who would capture the
foreign spy and then we would take turns tying each
other up, slapping each other across the face and
feeling each other's tits (what we had of them at the
time.) So we were doing interrogation scenes at the
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"no..."
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[laughter] I needed to be
(Sarah, lines
2 - 10)
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him. I
at the bar and held on to the bar for dear life the
whole evening. I mean he [my friend] was out in the
back with some guys doing whatever and I just stayed
at the bar. The next week I went back by myself.
(Lisa, lines 23-28)
Danielle was really "gung-ho" to get into the scene,
but she also went through an enculturation process with the
help of her partner and friends:
I was working at XXXXX,
was
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[laughter].
And then ran away and never connected, but we were all
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(Abby,
lines 33-58)
Abby goes on to describe a few different types of parties
that she attended before she found the scene that she was
most comfortable in (e.g. queer play parties). She explains
that there is much more social networking at these parties,
which contributes to more action:
I never really played at any hetero parties except for
once and it went pretty badly. I didn't enjoy my scene
at all. Mostly because people came in couples and the
single men who came were not appealing to me at all.
So there wasn't a lot of opportunity to play. It was
my social scene so I would go and I would watch other
people play and learn stuff and hang out in the
kitchen and talk to people. That's kind of like how I
made a lot of friends....But once [women and queer
play parties] started appearing, I haven't been to
hetero parties since because what's the point
really?...At women's parties, the people who host the
party are true hosts, whereas people who hosted hetero
parties,
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CHAPTER 5
Experiencing the Public BDSM Scene
The purpose of this study was to explore the
subjective experiences of lesbians who engage in public
BDSM sex play. This chapter explores the various
experiences the women in this study shared about the scenes
they have participated in and enjoyed. The phenomenon of
public BDSM sex play is explored in three stages. The
chapter begins by exploring the preparation that takes
place before a scene, including the anticipation process
and negotiations. Next, the experiences and feelings that
are part of the phenomenon of the scene itself are
disclosed. These include some shared feelings but only some
experiences that are unique depending on the role a person
in playing in the scene. The last stage explores the
phenomenon of aftercare that occurs after the scene occurs.
Two overriding themes emerged from the collective
experiences of the women. The major theme was one of
connection and a minor theme involved the fun and sexual
satisfaction experienced. The essence of the phenomenon is
then presented. The chapter concludes with an exploration
of the overall impact BDSM has had on the women's lives.
Overwhelmingly the women felt that their public BDSM sex
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(Lisa,
lines 78-82)
For Hannah preparing for a scene involves focusing,
which includes getting dressed:
...there's [pause] there's a huge, there can be a very
big amping up of anticipation....If I'm pulling out
all the stops, so to speak, and starting with getting
dressed in something completely fetishy...I don't need
to do anything much else to get my headspace
ready....If I'm not in full shmoo [fetish dress], then
I do have to do something to sort of focus.
(Hannah,
lines 72-76)
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as I
have. I
mean,I'm
out what
I don't
wannado,
I'm only
drawing
from a
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(Danielle, 138-148)
Negotiation
Another aspect of preparing and planning for scene
play is negotiation, which is extremely important. Some
individuals who engage in scene play are better at
negotiating than others. Lisa is one participant who has
particular difficulty negotiating. She describes her
struggle in this way:
Oh, I am so bad at negotiating. So bad.
[laughter].
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negotiate.
(Sarah,
lines 133-136)
Hannah talks about the difference between setting up
scene with someone she's played with before and someone
new:
[If] we know each other well and we've played before,
we don't have a lot left to negotiate about. If it's
someone new, well, that's a different process and it'
very, it can be very talky. There's lots of
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(Hannah,
lines 83-86)
Danielle emphasizes that it is even important for her
to negotiate with her private partner when they play
publicly:
We'll negotiate what we're gonna do at a party. Mainly
because I don't like surprises. I like to know, not
necessarily what's expected of me. I don't need a
whole itinerary, but we both think about what it is
that we want to do. And then we jointly pick something
that we're gonna d o ....I don't wanna be waiting around
for you while you're doing something else, cause the
not knowing [what you're doing]
(Danielle,
lines 224-233)
Abby explains how people can get bad reputations if
they don't abide by the negotiated plans that they made:
It's kind of like every new scene you do is like a job
interview. For a top anyway. I mean, no one wants to
play with a do-nothing bottom either. You can get a
reputation that way. And there are also what are
called "black hole bottoms" that are like a
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(Danielle,
lines 321-326)
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'Cause then
they'11 get the impression that you play too hard and
you want to leave them with the really happy glow of
"that person's really great". That usually happens
around 60%. If you don't go far enough, it's boring
and if you go too far, it's too hard and then you're
too hard as a top.
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(Danielle,
lines 179-194)
Danielle frames this exchange as taking a journey
together in which the two people can have very different
experiences:
You're taking somebody on a journey. You're not
responsible for where they go. You are responsible for
making sure they can take care of themselves and that
they're gonna come out better than they were before.
S&M play is often like a mutual path that people go
down together, but experiences on both sides can be
very, very different. But you're taking this journey
together, which is great and you're having this
exchange... you're doing it together but your
experiences are your own. And that is actually just
kinda how I want to live my life.
(Danielle, lines
351-357)
As we learn from the women's own words, the phenomenon
that occurs during the public BDSM sex play has some shared
meaning for the participants but also scene play is a
different experience depending on the role that one plays.
This is expressed by Lisa in this way:
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I do need a lot of
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Connection
The theme of connection was reflected in more dialogue
provided by the women than any other concept. This
connection was two-fold: with one's play partner and with
the community overall.
Danielle describes how the BDSM community makes it
easier to connect:
I think one of the things that I love the most about
it [BDSM] was just how direct the kink world is.
Whatever you want is fine and there will be somebody
that you connect with on some level that will, y'know,
it's like one of those matching games where you're
like, what are the things that go together? And then,
it's just so simple that it's not about the way the
dating world is....Much less game playing, much less to
put forth an image that you think somebody else will
find attractive. You're like,
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is m y social club.
(Danielle,
lines
151-165)
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(Sarah,
lines 84-87)
To further highlight the theme of fun, Hannah talks
about her experiences of scene play this way:
I often think of it as literally plain old, good plain
fun. It seems like a vigorous healthy-vitalityinducing thing to do with your time. I can't imagine a
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(Abby,
lines 309-310).
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ensure that feelings aren't hurt, expectations are clearlycommunicated and that both partners get their needs met.
The experience of scene play varies greatly amongst
tops and bottoms.
Although the
The
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Self-Empowe rment
The women experienced empowerment in three major ways,
including building their confidence and self-esteem,
developing their identity, and helping them to heal.
Abby
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the effect that being in the scene has had on her self
esteem :
From going from being a teenager and adolescent with
pretty low self-esteem and whatever and looking for
approval, I've kind of learned... that it's ok for me
to pick and choose what I want to do.
I don't have to
(lines
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magical and sex and sexuality and that energy. For me,
it is one of the most creative forces and experiences
of my life...1 have found in S&M play the freedom to
use my imagination and to be creative in ways that I
have never found in any other medium. So it's almost
like an artistic medium for me. Y'know? And so it
really has brought out these creative impulses and
parts of my personality and imagination and really
helped me grow. I think I need that to be a person.
So, it's not really just about having an orgasm.
(Danielle, lines 455-456; 461-469)
Becoming empowered also involves further developing
one's identity. Some of the women described how their
involvement in public BDSM impacted this process for them.
Hannah seems to feel strongly about this:
What we're doing in the scene is figuring out how to
be female-bodies, whether we're butch or femme or
genderqueer or any number of self-expressions. Claim
it and own it. Let it find a way for it to be in a
place where we stand empowered. That's just hard.
Women are still beleaguered on that level in the
culture and dykes more so.
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Healing
Many women described how their involvement in public
BDSM had healing powers for them. For example, Hannah
describes how public BDSM has empowered her to
get more in touch with her own body:
It's how much do you bring your whole body along for
the ride? How much are you inhabiting your whole
physical self....I mean it sounds ridiculous, but it's
almost like a deep sports analogy....I have friends
who are marathon bikers or tennis players or they go
rock climbing and I'm like, I don't do any of those
things. I do this and it fulfills a lot of the same
needs.
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I mean, I learned a
(line 253).
Improving Relationships
All of the women described ways in which they believed
their experience with public BDSM sex play had improved
their relationships in many aspects of their lives. The two
major themes that emerged involved learning to communicate
better and learning to trust others and be nonjudgmental.
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Better Communication
Many of the women gave examples of how they've applied
the communication skills they've developed through BDSM to
situations outside of the scene play. For example, Kate
relates what she has been able to take from scene play
regarding communication:
From watching other people play I've been very touched
by their play and also learned about
communication.... Even once I saw at a play party a
scene go a little bad and watching the way the people
communicated and tried to kind of back off from it and
were able to and it being fine....1 was like wow, the
world should be such a good place....1 think the use
of a safe word would really help a lot of things.
(Kate, lines 192-196; 201-202)
Abby gives another example of how negotiation in the
BDSM scene has carried over into improving the
communication in her day-to day life:
The negotiating, communication relationship kind of
stuff
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(Sarah, lines
240-243; 292-293)
Lisa also discusses the issue of trust: "I think that
it's an important thing to know yourself and know what your
limitations are....1 think you also have to learn how to
trust people and trust your instinct on that"
(Lisa, lines
199-201).
Kate believes that being privy to others' sexual
experiences during public play has helped her to be more
non-judgmental:
That's that whole other adage about don't compare your
insides to other people's outsides....If you're never
kind of around other people having sex...all you have
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a little
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If I started
"Hi, how
are you?" She had just sort of gotten done getting her
ass beat and I was like,
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(Kate, lines 12 7-
114)
Hannah discusses feeling misunderstood by the larger
society:
Honestly, I often still feel like we are generally
misunderstood at least in the larger world. Kind of,
what we're doing and why we're doing it. What kind of
fun we're having. From the mainstream cultural markers
that I perceive, it's a plastic, one dimensional take
on what we're doing. It doesn't have any grasp; any
depth.
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274)
Danielle also talks about safety and misunderstandings:
I do have safety issues that I'm always thinking
about, in terms of important things to think about.
Like, even though things are consensual, if somebody
gets hurt will the police think that something's
consensual?... Just because you have an agreement with
somebody, if they're somehow incapacitated, and can't
say, "Yes, I really volunteered to be here and to do
that", you are at risk of being misunderstood in a
very scary way....It's important and you should always
take into consideration what you have to think
sometimes about worst case scenario. Think about what
is it that I'm willing to give up to do because while
we might live in a supportive community. That's just
this tiny little community. It's not really the rest
of the world.
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in the scene
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CHAPTER 6
Discussion and Recommendations
The purpose of this study was to explore the
subjective experiences of lesbians who engage in public
BDSM sex play. This study was phenomenological and used
face-to-face interviews of six women in the BDSM scene in
order to capture the essence of the phenomenon. The
interviews were transcribed and then analyzed using a
process described as horizontalization, which refers to
going through the texts of the interviews and all the
expressions
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Others
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Weinberg, T. S.
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Appendix A
Consent Form
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Participant's Name
Date
Participant's Signature
Date
Investigator's Name
Date
Investigator's Signature
Date
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Appendix B
Interview Questions
1.
3.
If yes, how?
From the above, what has the most meaning for you?
Why?
2.
3.
If yes, how?
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Appendix C
Demographic Questionnaire
1 . Age in years:
2 . Education Level:
3 . Occupation:
4 . Religious Preference:
5 . Race/ Ethnicity:
6 . Socioeconomic Status:
(lower class, lower middle class, middle-middle class,
upper middle class, and upper class)
7. Number of years in
the scene:
__________
8. Self Identify:
(top, bottom, dominatrix, mistress, sadist, masochist,
slave, switch, etc.)
9. Sexual Orientation:
(lesbian, queer, etc.)
10. Do you have a primary partner? ___________ If yes, do
you play privately, apart from the BDSM scene? __________
If yes, whom do you include?
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Appendix D
Participant Instructions
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