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Body, Mind & Spirit

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GIVE
YOU
FREEDOM
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YOURSELF

IT IS NOT MY INTENTION TO HARM OR DESECRATE ANY


ONE'S FAITH OR PRACTICES.
EACH ONE IS FREE TO FOLLOW ONE'S OWN WAY.
THE FACT IS YOU ARE ALREADY FREE.

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My Story
I'm a Male, Indian. (60). Tamilian. Was born into a Catholic
Christian family.
Date of Birth: 17th September 1951, 12-18-30
p.m.(Noon), at Tiruchirappalli, Tamilnadu, India. Graduate in
B.A.Sociology. On 4-11-1970, 8-00 a.m. I entered into
Government of India service as Stenographer, with M/s Bharat
Heavy
Electricals
Limited,
Tiruchirappalli.
For two years after joining duty, I lived a normal young
man's life of music, movies and friends. In 1972, suddenly I found
life was not as it seemed to be. I became acutely aware of the
suffering of Humanity.
I first read the book, 'Thought Power' of Swami
Sivananda of Rishikesh, Himalayas, India. Then I had a meeting
with Fr. Bede Griffiths, of Shantivanam, Kulittalai, Tamilnadu,
India. His meeting promised me safety in spiritual life. In the mean
time, I devoured thousands of spiritual books available on this
earth. But I was growing more and more panic stricken.
And I found a great spiritual asylum in a magnificent
Guru Sri La Sri Pandrimalai Swamikal. He initiated me into a
powerful Mantra towards worshipping god Murugan, the Deity of
Tamilians.
It was a successful pursuit that benefited me with
material and spiritual benefits, along with rare siddhies, psychic
powers like telepathy, precognition, and healing powers. I was
happily married to my wife Bella. We were blessed with a rare and
highly gifted girl child, who is now a Dentist abroad.
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I got spiritual ENLIGHTENMENT on 30-4-1984. I resigned my


lucrative government job, which was a shock to many. But my wife
who also worked for the Government took it all cool and supported
and sustained me.
For few years I managed to live my Enlightened state,
though all along I felt it to be a limitation. I started feeling
uncomfortable in it.
On 19-2-2007, by 12-15 pm I stumbled upon the
website Actual Freedom of Richard. Then I never turned back. I
became actually free in 3 years.

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PREFACE
Universe is Free.
Everything in it is also always free.
Only the human species have the idea of bondage and freedom.
All other species are born free, live free and die free.

Some thinkers all along the history of human kind have created many
theories of bondage and freedom.
An ant, a rose flower, an elephant, a tea cup never thought of bondage
or freedom.

Ideas of Bondage and freedom are sheer human invention.


This is how the common man sees things.
He neither bothers about the Ancient Wisdom nor about those who are
against Ancient Wisdom.

Or he blends both in a strange way and makes out his living.


I have written exclusively a Chapter on COMMON MANS WAYS TO
FREEDOM.
I too was a common man. But life was too much for me to bear. I
wanted to find freedom, happiness and harmlessness. Common mans
satisfactions were not enough for me.
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Suddenly, I found my questions were answered in Actual Freedom


through www.actualfreedom.com.au.The progenitor of this web site
offered me the shortest and sharpest way to freedom.
I have shared here my experiences of Actual Freedom
through Chapters like, My way to Actual Freedom, and Essence of
Actual Freedom, along with some practical clues that helped me to
arrive at actual freedom in my life.
For me the message of Actual Freedom worked. I feel when
it worked for one person, it will work for others also. But I wont claim
that this is the only way to freedom. One has to see it for oneself. For
me, this is the only freedom that is worth to be called as actual freedom.
For another one, it can be something else. And it is not my intention to
harm anybodys faith or practices. After all we are all free to follow our
own way. Also, I dont claim, in my presentations, exact authenticity to
the report as was envisaged by the progenitor of Actual Freedom web
site. For precision and accuracy please go to their web site.
It is said that, one who is really COMPLETE, will never
attempt to educate others because, there will be no more any other
for him. That way, since I aspire to share my experiences with others,
if not to educate which I can never do, this itself may be a sign that Im
INCOMPLETE. But, there is a delight in sharing. So I do!
But again this is the beauty of Actual Freedom, in Actual
Freedom there is neither me nor the other. No entities at all. No issue of
completion or incompletion. There is only the Pristine Actuality that is
shining FOREVER!!
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Those who want to analyze my experiences, through these pages, are


welcome to do so, to take it if it pleases them, or leave it, if they feel
that it is not their cake to eat.
This Universe is free.
Everything in it, are already free, inherently free and peaceful, including
the one who reads this manual.
Regards,
Justine.

INDEX
S.No
Contents
1
My Story
2
Preface
Book : I
I
Common Mans Way To Freedom
Book : II
II
My Way To Actual Freedom
1
Q&A
Book : III
III
Essence Of Actual Freedom
1
Reality
2
Time
3
Identity
4
Affective
5
Psychic
6
Ecstasy
7
Fact
8
Actual Freedom
9
Oblivion
10
E.O.A.F in Short
Practical Infinitude
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Infinitude - 108
12
A Typical Day In My Life
13 9 Tips To Quick Attainment Of Actual Freedom

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BOOK-I

1) Universe is always free.


2) So, everything in it is also always free.
3) Only the thinkers and so called philosophers started talking
about bondage.
4) An ant, a rose, a lamb, an elephant or even a dinosaur never
worried about freedom. They were born free, lived free, and
died free.

5) Only man craves about freedom or feels sorry about bondage.


6) Both the old and the modern thinkers always condemn people
and promise to give freedom, especially the religious thinkers
and the new-age liberators.
7) While the religious leaders spoke about Original Sin, modern
psycho-spiritual analysts speak about ego, instinctual passions
called fear and desire.
8) Irregardless of these arguments, the Infinite always remains the
Infinite.

9) In every age, new thinkers come, and teach new ways to


freedom.
10) But nobody cares to see as to whether these teachings have
any influence on the people and more than that, the Infinite
whether cares about it, we dont know.

11) Any teacher, or psycho-spiritual inventor, simply imposes his


findings on humanity with considerable threat, finality,
banality and claim theirs is the only way to Freedom and
Peace.
12) These things have never worked in Humanity.

13) They all remain only as tall claims and fanaticism.


14) People and other species are born happily, live and die as they
all happen to be.
15) Both the spiritual people and the non-spiritual, the so called
atheists both have brought to this earth, both good and evil,
while the Infinite remains neutral.
16) Spirituality has blessed people with a lot of noble qualities
like patience, sense-control, love and regard for others,
compassion, grace, tolerance, charity and universal love.

17) Atheism has saved people from superstition, religious


fanaticism, crooked thinking etc.
18) But, spirituality also enslaved people in lethargy, fatalism,
and slavery.
19) Atheism, also took people to anarchism, irresponsibility, and
cruelty.
20) Both spirituality and atheism have failed to bring happiness
and harmlessness to people.

21) The third kind of Pacifist theories have also failed because,
they simply say, the Infinite is Pure, so all is Pure, ignoring
the fact that the whole world is in dirt and in chaos here.
22) Karma and rebirth are facts in Human Condition.
23) But from the Infinite Condition, they are not true or fact.

24) For many to succumb to the fact, either to any one of them as
the ULTIMATE fact, is a disaster.
25) For them both the views are to be embraced as equal facts,
because, the Infinite works that way.
26) Karma is a fact; as well as it is an illusion.
27) Karma is a fact, because, the person suffers or enjoys its
consequence.
28) Karma is NOT a fact, because Infinite has no Karma. It is
Utter Purity.
29) For them, a person who teaches Karma as the ultimate fact is
as wrong as the one who preaches that there is no such thing
as karma.
30) Many are able to accept both as facts, as follows.

31) For them those who preach God and gods as the ultimate fact
are as wrong as those who teach that there is no God or gods.

32) One who preaches rebirth is the only truth is as wrong as the
one who tells that there is no such thing as rebirth, or avoiding
rebirth concept is the only safe way to freedom.

33) One who preaches that Ancient Wisdom is the only Truth,
must be wrong as the one who denounces that wisdom, as the
root cause of all evils.
34) Ancient Wisdom has truth in Human Condition, and it has no
truth in the Infinite.

35) They feel one should have tolerance to embrace both.


Somehow they blend both and live.
36) Those who stick on only to Ancient Wisdom are as mistaken
as those who advocate a theory only against it.

37) That way both will spoil the natural peace of humanity.
38) How the so called fall of Humanity happened, no one can say.
Only the Infinite might know it.
39) Apparently, there seems to be a fall from grace, harmony,
peace etc.
40) But in the Infinite, it may not be a problem at all.
41) There the Ancient Wisdom comes to help. But it is a fact that
it steeps humans in deep ignorance and laziness too.

42) Atheists who dont accept the Ancient Wisdom may be quick
in their decisions, and impose unnecessary hardships upon
humans. That way both the spiritualists and the atheists - work
for the cause of confusion and chaos.
43) On the contrary, the Naturalists, who are neither spiritualists
nor atheists can embrace all the facts of the Infinite, and keep
themselves serene and peaceful under all circumstances.
44) For common people, the way is simple. Embrace all the
people, the spiritualists and their Ancient Wisdom, the atheists
with their penchant for direct Purity of the Infinite, and the
Naturalists who dont care both of them, and are able to meet
life, as it comes to them.
45) One who synthesizes all these three, the spiritualist, the
atheist, and the Naturalist, seems to be a far better human
being, free from all fanaticism and radicalism.
46) The spiritualist ridicules and condemns the atheist, the atheist
laughs at the spiritualist, and the Naturalist abhors both.
47) But, a person who can accept all really lives in the Infinite,
with total acceptance and simple peace that a flower, an ant, a
cloud, an elephant or even a dinosaur enjoys.

48) What shall we call such a man?


49) We can call him a Common Man.

50) The common man lives his ordinary life in whatever way it
comes.
51) He feels to be in line with the Infinitys (Natures) vibe.
52) The common man is not worried about God, or no-god.
53) He doesnt know about his instinctual passions.
54) Of course, all history is only about this common man.
55) The spiritualists, the atheists, the Naturalists, all lament about
lack of peace and happiness in the world. The common man
lives his life peacefully. He feels there is infinite sky and there
must be something more than us, say like Nature. And he lives
carefree and casual.
56) Common man does not know mysticism or its opposite, or
any other ism. For him life passes smoothly as it is for an
ant, or perhaps an angel, real or imaginary.
57) For him highlighting Love as the panacea for all the ills of
life, or talking about its opposite as the only way to peace is
cruel and insensible. He is ready to fight or kill if needed.
Speaking of dispassion and detachment is also a crooked
human invention. The other species have no such problems.
They obey the will of Nature and the Infinite. They neither
love hate nor try neutrality. This is only a bane on humanity,
self-invited by humans.

58) Common man knows that astrology mostly works for strange
reasons. But he has no time to bother much about it. Only the
pundits who are for or against astrology make a big fuss of it.
59) A Guru is a great support to a common man. But that
common man is not much bothered about it, as a spiritualist or
an atheist for or against.
60) An anti-guru person speaks and writes vehemently against it
as cultism. But the common man doesnt care about that at all.
Also he has no much investment to one proclaiming guruthought.

61) An ant never contemplates its death. But the spiritualists, their
opponents, and the naturalists give much significance to it.
62) Common man rejoices both in the gods are real and gods
are not real. Mostly it never bothers him. But the intellectuals
are making such a war over it.
63) Someone wants to make it known, he is against God/gods,
and another one wants to be known for no God/no gods.
64) The Naturalist just enjoys his time, delighting at the beauty
of Nature.

65) The common man has no time even to think over these things.

66) Astrology is a fact/lie, as is experienced by a common man.


Still many believe it is as true as gravitational force I cant
jump and stand in space even for a single minute or second the gravitation will pull my body down. Some believe, the
celestial bodies, planets, might be sharing pulls between
themselves that may tell upon the humans too. Still, I am a
part of the Infinite. The planets are only dusty particles of the
Infinite. Here two schools of thoughts happen, one says all
is due to planets. Another school says This is all ridiculous!
How can planets affect me? Both are fools for the common
man. Because, he knows both are true. as he intuitively
experiences these things as the play of the Infinite and he
has no time for serious thoughts over them.
67) Both the spiritual guru and the atheistic guru take people for a
ride which never gives peace or happiness, because the
common man is safe from such hair-splitting dissections in his
life. His life is as happy and spontaneous as that of an ant or a
rose flower.
68) Common man believes and disbelieves astrology whereas
spiritual people uniquely believe in it, and atheists uniquely
disbelieve it. Who is in the natural position? The common
man.
69) Too much faith in astrology and total disbelief in it, both are
extremes.
70) A common man who doesnt care for both is in more peace.

71) Everyone claims authenticity. Every spiritual teacher has


established his message into a school of thought. Every atheist
too has established his theory beyond all disputes and
arguments.
72) It is only the common man who never bothered about these
things and he lives and dies without any trace, in the bosom of
the Infinite.
73) Every prophet and the anti-prophet promised peace on this
earth.
74) They all say, Peace is yet to happen. There is no Peace.
75) Is not the Infinite, PEACE itself?
76) And yet, how there are wars, discards, rapes, murders,
suicides, famines, etc?
77) These things happen, in spite of the Already Existing Peace of
the Infinite.
78) Human failure? - Failure of the teachings of the Prophets and
Saviours?
79) Perhaps, the Infinite may know it all, as it runs this Universe.
80) But any one can claim authority on the Infinity, and claim his
message as the authentic and final. Infinite doesnt care about
it. Common man too.

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81) These teachers are genuine people. Most of them dont want
to cheat people. But the power, purity and infinitude they
experience by the Infinite makes them get dazed, baffled, and
excited and each one of them claims that he is the chosen one,
long awaited one, etc., to save this earth.
82) Common man smiles. He has no time to listen to these craps.
Some have time to listen and spoil their lives, along with these
visionaries. Most others escape.
83) Invariably, all these teachers threaten humanity with some
statistics. They are clever in their arguments. Common man,
all along the history, has remained impervious to their logical
arguments. For him, it is the Infinite that takes care of, and not
these over-felt beings called prophets and anti-prophets.
84) Of course, it is all awful. The Infinitudes or the ways of
Nature are horrible. But the solution given by the teachers of
various schools of thought for peace are much more horrible.
Each one tells something as if it is the final insight. They all
claim themselves to be the son of god, messenger of god, or
the most awaited incarnation, as the only harbinger of Peace.
Centuries pass. Infinite keeps on smiling. It is not bothered.
This gives renewed impetus to each teacher and so called
prophet. Each one suffers megalomania that he/she is the only
chosen one. They self-choose themselves. But the common
man simply lives his life as it comes and dies in peace whether
happy or unhappy.

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85) But strangely, astrological researches reveal special people


taking birth to redeem the fallen world. The birth charts of
them show remarkable points about their life mission. There
may be a truth in astrology. It is said, there are ways to
decipher a birth chart exactly whether it is that of a murderer,
teacher, musician, actor, writer, savior, yogi, atheist etc.
Within the human condition, they seem to be true. But, in
the Infinite Condition, that is all meaningless. To limit oneself
to the Human Condition or to limit oneself to the Infinite
Condition both must be wrong. It cant bring peace and
happiness.
86) Again these are all based on our limited human intellect.
Infinite must be fully aware of its ways and means.
87) Common man never cares for such things.

88) He is so happy and satisfied with his little things of life.


89) A yogi or his opposite the bogi plans his life style and gets
annoyed and irritated with most of the things around him all
the while believing himself to be happy and blissful.
90) Common man neither knows happiness or unhappiness
greatly. All that he knows is like an ant or a crow, to eat when
hungry and to mate with his mate.
91) Whole Universe and all the species in it function
spontaneously. Only man troubles himself to decide whether
to meditate or not to meditate, God/no god, love/hate,
heaven/hell, bondage/liberation etc.

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92) This does not mean seeking knowledge, peace, harmony, is


wrong. The point is, they are so simply available than through
yoga, anti-yoga, spirituality/atheism, third way, fourth way
etc. Common man considers them as a sort of luxury or as it is
not his cake to eat.
93) Astrology, anti-astrology, guru, non-guru and the one who
teases gurus and the non-gurus, etc. are never a problem for
the common man.
94) But, still all these are welcome provided none of them claim
final authority on humanity. Common man shuns their shadow
and lives merrily with his business called life.
95) Infinite will never claim authority on any one. Because, it is
the Infinite that is experiencing itself as one and all.
96) It is the so called teachers who claim to come and give peace
to humanity that do the mischief.
97) Otherwise, Universe functions well.
98) Common man has common sense. If the earth, the Universe
has existed eternally, infinitely, these wars, discards,
misfortunes are insignificant in the totality. Thats why
common man is not bothering much for the appeal of the
teachers threatening for a Judgment day or eternal damnation
etc.

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99) As the Infinite is infinitely aware of itself, no ultimate harm


can ever happen. But human conflicts baffle us. Only the
Infinite can answer and not the teachers with false promises of
Love or hate.
100) It is really painful to note that all the teachers and antiteachers failed to bring peace on earth as they have all
promised.
101) Is it a human failure, or the very nature of the Infinite?
102) It seems both, or it is something which we could never
comprehend.
103) But the life of an ant, a rose is far better and they are
spontaneously peaceful than humans and the warring creed
of gurus/anti-gurus, the third group ridiculing both of them,
and isms.
104) The bottom-line is, for common man, those who say that
Ancient Wisdom is the solution for Peace on earth, and their
opposite who say, Ancient Wisdom is the cause for all evils
on this earth both dont bother him. And he can make a
strange mix of both and make out his living. Because, we
cannot fathom the INFINITE. And the Infinite remains
dumb and neutral. To a common man, all that he can do is
to mind his life as an ant or a rose or an animal. He is able
to be quiet or to quarrel with others too.

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105) Common man feels, Life knows how to lead him on and it
knows better than us.
106) Common man feels we are safe.
107) Common man knows INFINITE IS ALWAYS FREE.
108) Common man lives as ALL IS WELL!

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BOOK-II

Chapter-I

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Q 1 . How do you say, you are fresh every moment?
A n s : INFINITUDE is already COMPLETE. It is astoundingly aware of
its own Infinitude and Eternity.
The I/Me, as I feel, is imaginary a memory-packed entity. It is
pain.

Bliss too is that of an entity. Pleasure is felicity. Blitheness is


Peace. Actual is gaiety. I am in Pristine Actuality.
So, I am FRESH, THIS VERY MOMENT, NEXT MOMENT,
And so on...!
Q 2 . What happens when you sleep? Who is aware?
A n s : INFINITE is aware of itself- when I sleep, or I am awake, or I
become dead, or even when I was not born.
Infinite is already complete, already peaceful.
My imaginary I is an alien entity inhabiting this actual physical,
flesh and blood body.

Body is actual, the I/Me are unreal.

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Q 3 . Why is daily life boring and full of tensions?
A n s : From the moment of waking from sleep till you go to bed, you act
from the imaginary I/Me. So life is full of redundant activities.
What else you expect that way, than boredom and tensions?
Q 4 . How was I caught into imaginary I/me?
A n s : Along with Natures survival instincts of species (for you as
human) FEAR, DESIRE, NURTURE and AGGRESSION as a
small baby - naturally prevail in you.
Then your parents, teachers, and the society as a whole have
imposed on you, the I/Me.
And by that, you suffer pain, despair and disappointments in the
entire life on earth, and in imaginary rebirth too!
Q 5 . Is rebirth true?
A n s : Whether rebirth is true or not, this, your present life is the first and
last, INEVITABLY.

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Q 6 . Where are the Saints, Sages and billions of people who lived

on this earth before us?


A n s : They dont exist in any form. When they lived, they were real. But
now they are extinguished without a trace.
Even then it was the Pristine Actuality that experienced
itself as them. Only the Pristine Actuality, as this Infinite eternal
physical Universe exists forever as a moving stillness in
perpetuus mobilis.
Q 7 . So, I too am an imagination of myself?
A n s : Certainly. But there is the Pristine actuality behind your imaginary I.
There are three Is.
1.
2.
3.

Imaginary I.
Societal I.
Actual I.

Q 8 . How can I give up the imaginary I?


A n s : The I cannot give up the I. Altruistic self-immolation brings that
extinction. Then, the already existing Actuality reveals itself, in all
its pristine purity.

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Q 9 . Who are you?
A n s : a) As an entity, I am my own imagination.
b) As a person, I am an individual, with necessary agenda for a
peaceful co-existence with others, for my allotted days on this
earth life.
c) As the Actuality, IN THE PRISTINE ACTUALITY, I or others
don't exist at all. (In the sense of imaginary I).
I never was, am, or will be.
d) Infinitudes Moments live as me.
e) This is everyones story.
f) This imaginary I/Me, is not eternal or immortal.
g) I am actually, a series of moments of the Eternal and Infinite.
Q 1 0 . Why there is no peace on earth?

A n s : UNIVERSE is always in PEACE. In this magnificent Universe,


This tiny earth has a species called Homosapiens along with other
million species.
It is the humans who miss the ALREADY EXISTING PEACE.
PEACE IS THE PRISTINE ACTUALITY OF THIS UNIVERSE.
We humans massacre the already existing Peace.

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Q 1 1 . How is it that I find myself very solidly existing?
A n s : From birth onwards, you know only being. You never experienced
non-being. That is, not-existing.
Hence, this illusion of beingness and the Grand Delusion of
BEING(GOD). OBLIVION is your ultimate Fact. PRISTINE
ACTUALITY IS NEITHER BEING OR NON-BEING. IT IS.
But this IS, is not the spiritual THAT. IT IS NOT
TRUTH. Pursuing TRUTH is madness. You will never get it.
Extinction of Instincts reveals ACTUALITY.

Q 1 2 . Can music, devotion, calenture take me to Actuality?

A n s : They are affective states. ACTUAL CONDITION is devoid of such


states. Pristine Actuality is blitheness and gaiety, far superior than the
affective devotional involvements. A sensual pleasure basically.
Q 1 3 . Religions ask you to reject sensual pleasures.
A n s : That is 180 opposite of Actual Condition. Asceticism is radical
departure from the Actual. But altruistic self-immolation is the way
to the Actual State.

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Q14. How can I attain Mukti?
A n s : How can a non-existing entity attain Enlightenment and its so-called
culmination called Mukti. These are institutionalised insanity.
Q 1 5 . Is liberation not true?
A n s : There is no entity to get liberated. Bondage is relatively true,
because, we see humans bound in suffering. Humanity is still under
the grip of instinctual passions of FEAR, DESIRE, AGGRESSION
and NURTURE.
But liberation is utterly false. Actually, no one is in bondage,
or no one is getting liberated.
If I say, no one suffers actually, you will be angered and
may ridicule me. Bondage and pain (except physical pain) are manmade.
Nature, this boundless physical universe, has no trace of
bondage, pain, or suffering at all. Universe is blithesome. Earth
floats in felicity, gaiety, splendour, and unimaginable glory, through
all eternity and infinity.

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Q 1 6 . Is there a heaven and hell?
A n s : Heaven and hell are states of human minds. Minds of imaginary
entities. When the entity itself does not exist, how can heaven or
hell be actually true?
Q 1 7 . From where do I come from?
A n s : As a living, biological flesh and blood body, you come out of fusion
of the ovum of your mother and the sperm of your father. As a
human species, through Nature.
All species are of Nature, Universe experiences itself as
me, you, all species, solar systems, stars and galaxies.
Physical Universe is Eternal and Infinite. You come from
nowhere and go to nowhere. You are always here.
Q 1 8 . Karma seems to be true.
A n s : Whether karma is true or untrue, the entity is certainly not true. All
is, the eternally FREE universe experiencing itself.
Pristine Purity permutates in perpetuous mobilis, in
boundless, eternal, infinite physical universe.
Karma and rebirth are childish human pettiness, in this
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Q 1 9 . Is astrology true?
A n s : Ultimately, there is no way to foresee the future. Eternity decides
everything moment by moment. In itself, it has no pre-conceived
plan, because it is already COMPLETE.
It is so FREE to run by itself. It does not care or know
what I will eat for the dinner. My individual choice decides that.
Every moment is FRESH to Eternity.

Infinitude has no beginning and end. It is already FULL


and FULFILLED. It is astoundingly aware of itself. Earth rotates
precisely on its axis. To the Infinite, this person J of to-days
evening, say 4.00 pm, happens to exist precisely at that moment
only. Not before, or after. It is so on.
As social beings, we have to plan things. For social coexistence we have schemes and civil conduct enforcements and
proper executions of them by societal laws.
As social beings we identify each others by a name,
profession, status etc. But the actuality, and its instrumentation
called Nature too dont know this J (me). They are concerned
with me as a unique part in the total beingness of the human
species.
All the human hearts on this earth, beat 72 times per
minute by average. Nature pumps the hearts, not me. Humanly, by
observing certain natural events, like rotation of the earth, we can
predict in our own realm to some extent. It depends on the physical
facts. Some psychic periodicity may also help in predictions. But
nothing is pre-ordained. Fate is human invention and madness.
Physical Universe is ETERNALLY FREE.

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Q 2 0 . Is psychic true?
A n s : Pristine Actuality has no psychic domain. In Actuality, there are no
vibrations at all. Earth or the Universe has no psychic power. There
are only magnetic fields in the form of electrical energy.
Mans imaginary I born of instinctive passions fear,
desire, aggression and nurture, manipulates this energy through
mind, in the form of the gods, or electrical and electronic gadgets.
Some individuals with special training, or as natural gift
from birth, or some with their bio-electrical energy called kundalini
focussed at various levels do some psychic feats called telepathy,
pre-cognition, apportation, materialisation or de-materialisation,
telekinesis, healing the sick etc.
There is nothing divine, or supernatural in them. That way
psychic is true. We are all connected by a psychic web. There is a
constant traffic going between people. Love connects us
psychically. But psychic is not actuality. Thats why love or any
emotion brings only pain and disappointment.
Love in whatever form inevitably brings conflict. Love for
my wife, my lover, my country, my friend all end in despair.
ACTUAL INTIMACY is far superior than love. And in the
Actual World, there is no Psychic web at all.

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Q 2 1 . Can yoga and medition help me to arrive at truth?
A n s : Truth is a human construct. Irregardless of our words, inventions,
techniques etc. Infinitude exists in its own glory. By calling it God,
Truth, Oneness, Supreme, we limit the limitless.
We invite pain, misery, wars, rapes, murders, suicides and
despair. Yoga if done for physical health benefits, it can be of some
use. There are many ways as good as yoga for healthy living. Science
has developed many methods.
Yoga has a spiritual base in it. They call it a path to union
with God, the Divine. An imaginary entity becomes one with God,
sharing His Powers, Ashtama-Siddhies.
Man becomes God. Many gods are created by man to war
with one another. Each god becomes a religion and their followers
become fanatics, and terrorists. Global peace is always at risk.
Religions have failed to bring Peace on earth. On the contrary, they
have only created endless wars among humanity. Killing one another
for their own God or the State.
Yoga and mediation is not the way to arrive at Actual
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Q 2 2 . How do you say Oneness is wrong?
A n s : Though this word indicates a beautiful dimension, it is a restless
metaphysical space. A mind-thing. Not the Actuality. Actual has no
name. Actual is not fancy, imagination, or a mind-construct.
ACTUAL IS ACTUALLY ACTUAL.

All words, even ONENESS are coined by us. We want to


create unity where unity already exists. Already there is Actual
Intimacy. One should realise Actual Intimacy, instead of creating
Oneness born of love for another human being or for anything.
Q 2 3 . J.Krishnamurti, Osho and many teachers spoke about

oneness.
A n s : Yes. All was old wine in new bottles. They are based on Spiritual
principles, that never take one to Actual Freedom.
They spoke against religions but ended in finding a
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Q 2 4 . Is not Actual Freedom too a sort of religion?
A n s : It can never be. It is not a path. Pristine Actuality is a self-existing
FACT.
Religions speak about God. Atheists speak about NoGod. Actualism reveals the Actuality. An actualist is not a seeker. He
knows peace already. So it is not a following as in religions.
Q 2 5 . Is not Pristine Actuality another name for truth?
A n s : Truth has been defined. Pristine Actuality need not be defined. Truth
can be experienced. Actuality can only be apperceived.
Q 2 6 . What do you mean by apperceived?
A n s : TRUTH can be perceived by a perceiver. In actuality, there is no
perceiver. No entity. There is only apperception.
Q 2 7 . How can one arrive at the Actuality?
A n s : Start asking yourself, How am I experiencing this moment of being
alive? From waking up from sleep , and in all activities, all along
keep asking yourself as much as possible.
Very shortly it will take you to the Pristine Actuality and
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Q 2 8 . Are there no steps?
A n s : No steps. Fascination leads to contemplation. That ends in realisation.
Soon Actualisation happens.
May be it will be a matter of few months, and for some rare
ones, it can be in days too. Pure Intent will be the driving force, all
along.
Q 2 9 . What are the essentials to Actual Freedom?
A n s : Just interest. Thats all. We see misery in ourselves and others in the
world. We all want peace and harmony, within and without.

Altruism takes you to self- immolation and results


happen. The false I/Me are to be extinguished. It is a sort of psychicsuicide. Happiness and Harmlessness are the final result.
Q 3 0 . What are the other aids towards it?
A n s : Pure Consciousness Experiences. We all have had a brief spell of
PCE at various stages of our life.
The confidence born out of the perfection experienced in
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Q 3 1 . What is Pure Consciousness Experience?

A n s : It is a pleasant memory of a past event. Mostly it will be very brief.


When you revert back to it you will sense a state of temporary
freedom, ease, sweetness, unearthly flavour, a longing, a power.
It will be very difficult from all the other memories of our
past. For many - time stands still. An extreme relaxation from the
fetters and pains of the world. It varies from minutes, hours, days and
to some months even. One person was in PCE for four months at a
stretch.
Q 3 2 . Can PCE be induced?
A n s : Yes. For some drugs did it, even alcohol to some extent. It is said that
PCE can be induced on daily basis. For some it may be music,
poetry, dance.
To one person it happened just while dipping a biscuit into
his tea-cup. But many mistake Altered State of Consciousness to
Pure Consciousness Experience.
Q 3 3 . Can meditation help to enter Actuality?
A n s : No, Contemplation helps.
Q 3 4 . What is contemplation?
A n s : Looking squarely at FACT.
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Q 3 5 . Has Actuality an element of samadhi?
A n s : Never.

In Samadhi there is a person, and a state called Samadhi to enter.


In Actuality both are missing.
Q 3 6 . Are you affected by past memories?
A n s : They are there. It is like reading the old papers of somebody elses
diary. Waste of time.
Q 3 7 . Do you have anxiety about future?
A n s : There are necessary essential plans and thoughts about future. But no
affective state of anxiety.
Actuality has no future. Its always only this Moment. I
am aware of the man-made calendar future also.
Q 3 8 . Can music take us to Actual?

A n s : Music is affective. It can trigger sadness or happiness. These are


Altered States of Consciousness. Poetry too can take one to ASC.
Sometimes they can induce a PCE.

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Q 3 9 . Can alcohol open one to Actual?
A n s : Alcohol is a mood-enhancer. Not a mind expander like marijuana.
For one with Pure Intent, these things, can induce a PCE.
Extended PCEs can take one to Virtual Freedom. In due
course, VF gets actualised in Actual Freedom.
Q 4 0 . Life on earth is full of harsh realities. Are all these fanciful

thoughts of A.F help bear such shocking facts?


A n s : Instead of deploring and despairing on these shocking facts, if you
even once taste the Virtual Freedom, you will gain strength to march
towards Actual Freedom that is just under ones own nose.
Spirituality has failed to give cure to these ills of the
society. See it for yourself, how safe you are in the Actuality.

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Q 4 1 . Dont you get bored at times?
A n s : Only an entity, a person can get bored. If the non-existence of the
entity is found out, then who is there to get bored? Of course, theres
a living physical body with senses. It is to be engaged in sensuous
activities.
When hungry it eats, drinks, makes merry itself through
sensual activities including sex, watches TV, walks on streets
enjoying the busy activities all around, tobacco titillates the neurons,
drinks intensify the happy moods, everything around fills the senses
with felicity, gaiety and blitheness and sleep lulls me into blissful
oblivion.
When Nature decides it will take me into its bosom of
PERMANENT OBLIVION.

Where is room to get bored?


Q 4 2 . Dont the miscreants irritate you?
A n s : I enjoy their mischief with delight. Poor fellows. Sometimes I get
into an uncontrollable laughter at their stints. Belly laughs that makes
the eyes get watered.
Q 4 3 . Do you weep?
A n s : The tear-glands are there in my eyes. When dust fall in they shed
water. There can be no emotional weeping. Very rarely crying
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Q 4 4 . And self-pity...?
A n s : In the absence of a self or Self, self-pity cannot arise. Those days, I
had that kind of things. They are of no use now.
Q 4 5 . Do you get angry?
A n s : Anger is there. I look at its uselessness. I use devices on the target
that kindles anger. Having applied the necessary action I keep quiet
in the still-peace of the actuality.
Q 4 6 . What do you mean by devices?
A n s : One person was unnecessarily crossing my way of life, my quiet life
through unwanted judgements and comments. It was provoking. I
plainly told him our gap cannot be bridged.
He was free to move with me; but I cannot show love for him
apart from my actual intimacy. He might be disappointed and so may
have to keep away from me for his own good.
Q 4 7 . It shows you are heartless and ruthless.
A n s : I have a physical heart but not a sentimental heart. I am intimate with
all, but cannot possess or be possessed by others. If it is called
ruthlessness, I disown responsibility.

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Q 4 8 . Are you aware of the evils around you?
A n s : I am more aware than others. But since theres no entity, I cant do
anything about them except living my life in actual freedom.

Q 4 9 . Is not your behaviour eccentric?


A n s : I have been labelled as eccentric, heartless, immoral, antisocial etc.
In my spiritual days, I was respected as a saintly, superhuman, lawabiding person.
After entering the actual, I am considered an outright wastrel
if not a scoundrel. Even in my spiritual years I was found to be
socially useless. In the Actual, it was fully confirmed by these
observers as an useless person. Some get scared of the stillness
around me. But I have no way or need to compromise with them.
Q 5 0 . What will you do, if a sudden earth-quake hits?
A n s : I will also run to save myself and try to save others, and all other
possible things one may have to do.

Q 5 1 . Is there a god?
A n s : There can be no God. Only the boundless physical Universe eternally
exists.
Q 5 2 . Then what is there?
A n s : Physical Universe permutates in perpetuus mobilis. There cannot be
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Q 5 3 . Is there a soul?
A n s : There is only a physical body. There is no soul. Soul was invented by
humans to continue forever. I am not immortal. Universe is forever.
As the Universe, I am always here. But as this body, I am
here in this place and at this moment only, other things are
metaphysical thoughts.
Where else I could be actually than this place and at this
moment? Mystics go astray here. Mysticism is a complex
metaphysical thought. Imagination. This moment is concretely real.
Its not maya. This pen and paper are actual. Not maya, imagination.
Soul is imagination.
And it is always, this moment. There is no not this
moment. Its always here and always now.
If people can understand, even if a single one, he can
experience heaven this very moment, in this very earth. Truly,
nobody suffers. Whether we understand this or do not understand,
makes no difference to the boundless physical Universe, and its
Pristine Actuality and Purity.
In the Infinity, whether I am born, unborn, lived or dead,
nothing makes any difference. Eternal is intact, complete, pure,
unpolluted. Its my puny non- existing imaginary I - that has made
all this mess, including asking the question, who am I?, Is there
God etc.
My very presence prevents the Actual and my seeking for
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Q 5 4 . Do you mean, all the ancient scriptures and sages

were wrong in their teaching?


A n s : I dont know. But they did not give their promised peace on earth;
this I know for sure. Also, they promised peace after death, not
while living on this earth. Can you show one man who has come
back again from the grave?
There may be NDEs(Near Death Experience cases), I ask for
a completely gone man, say, did Socrates come back? He would
have taken rebirth, he may even say, I was Socrates. Whats the use?
Somewhere, the entity has to end. Mukti, Mahasamadhi,
Parinirvana. Then which was the first birth of that entity? So, this is
all a metaphysical mind game. Entity is imagination. Peace on Earth
is our essential need. Peace of Mukti is not important. Peace, here,
now. Peace is yet to be seen on earth. Only the Pristine Actuality
which is already existing peace - can fulfil our longings.
All the old are TRIED AND FAILED Paths. Actualism is
the need of the hour, for ailing Humanity to understand.
World war may break at any moment. World peace is at
stake. Everyone should realise this and come forward to bring the
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Q 5 5 . Are you afraid of death?
A n s : Why should I? Before my birth, I was not. After death, I will not
be. Where is the problem? When physical death comes - one
moment I am here and the next moment I am gone. Extinction.
Finish. Kaput.
May be the process of death may be painful for some, or
peaceful for the other. We cant say. Even if I fall sick for six
months bed ridden or I die in a lightning speed in an accident- when
actual physical death happens one moment I am here, and the next
moment I am gone forever! Ah! what a happiness! Only fools can
cling to this ephemeral body, with imaginary thoughts of heaven
and hells. The limbos and purgatories, even if they are true, are dust
in the final oblivion forever!

Q 5 6 . But you have to live here till death comes.


A n s : So what? One can live sensuously, joyously and at abandon. What
else is one going to take away in death, and what for? Pava, Punya,
merits and demerits? They can of course help for a peace-loving
entity, but when the entity itself has to be abolished for final
extinction, they are only the second-best choices of concepts. Not
the original best now available.
One can live the Parinirvana while living in a body. This
could be the Natures next stage of evolution. Otherwise this azure
planet earth will be destroyed by human beings themselves through
wars. Theres no other way to Peace than inviting the Pristine
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Q 5 7 . Are you a missionary of Actualism?

A n s : I could never be. I have no missionary zeal. Actuality will take care
of it. I am not even an instrument of it. I simply rejoice in this
discovery and get delighted to share with other human beings.
Q 5 8 . Do you experience pain and anguish at the sight of

suffering humanity?
A n s : Certainly. But it is on the surface. Deeply there is no one, no entity
to identify with this universal suffering. I am not the son of god, or
a messiah, or a teacher, nothing. I am neither joy nor suffering. I am
blitheness, the neutral peace of this physical Infinitude, that is in
Perpetuus mobilis.
Q 5 9 . Why life on earth is dull and glum?
A n s : Due to the dull and glum people.
Q 6 0 . Why are they so?
A n s : Due to false identity and religious repressions and revenges. Animal
and plant kingdom are neither dull nor fiery.
Q 6 1 . Is nature dull or jubilant?
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Q 6 2 . Has the Universe intelligence?
A n s : It is far more than intelligence, knowledge, wisdom, plan, scheme
etc. It is puissance, full of benevolence, purity stemming endlessly
that is fully aware of itself.
But Nature is red in tooth and claw. It is wild. Perhaps man
learnt this wildness from Nature than from animals.
But Infinitude is endless stillness movement. It is movingstillness, not a still-stillness. Always same- but never the same.
Every moment it is new. And it is beginningless and endless.
Human brain cannot conceive this.
Q 6 3 . Then how did you conceive it?
A n s : Just by physical seeing. I could see no edges to the space and no
opening point of time. Infinity and eternity, if they have no
beginning and ending means, no middle too.
One can keep on recessing or going forward endlessly in
infinity. Nowhere it will end or begin. All that this puny mind can
do is to enjoy the only moment given to it blithely and pass away in
peace, when nature knocks the door. And seeking peaceful happy
and harmless co-existence with my other human beings can only be
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Q 6 4 . Is intelligence inherent or an attribute of the infinitude?

And why we humans are idiotic and silly?


A n s : It is inherent. A vast self-knowing condition. It knows many better
ways than human intelligence. Serendipitous.
Nature doesnt care neither our intelligence nor silliness.
Q 6 5 . Why there are very few geniuses?
A n s : These are man-made standards. The natural splendour of the endless
physical universe lies beyond human comprehension.
In the apperception of the actual, this dimension is opened
up unsolicited to a human being.

Q 6 6 . All our prayers to the dead ones where do they go?


A n s : To the empty sky.
Q 6 7 . Finally there is no reality at all?
A n s : Yes. Even the words truth, Absolute, Supreme, even the Actual
dont exist at all. These are names coined by humans.
There is Pristine Actuality, which is also a word for our
convenience. When I/Me vanish, Reality too vanishes.

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Q 6 8 . Then whatelse is?

A n s : Boundless, infinite Physical Universe alone is. That Universe is


experiencing itself as you and me.
Q 6 9 . Can we say only nothingness is?
A n s : That is opposite of saying UNIVERSE IS.
Physical Universe is forever. Religions call matter as Maya, nonexistent and a metaphysical idea of Absolute. This is 180 opposite.
UNIVERSE IS IN ALL ITS GLORY! But for you and
me or for anything, this moment only is. You can see, it is never
not this moment.
Where else I could be actually than this place and at this
moment? Mystics go astray here. Mysticism is a complex
metaphysical thought. Imagination.
Q 7 0 . What is the use of realizing the actuality?
A n s : Illusion and delusion ends. Benefits are beyond price. Instantly
peace is found to yourself which you can share with the world.
Finally intelligence operates in you unimpeded. Blind
nature is superseded. Actual perfection and excellence is free.
Unadorned I stand on my own, more free than a bird on a wing,
cleaner than sea-breeze. To be me is to be fresh, each moment
again. Owing nothing to no one, I am Free from corruption.
Perversity has vanished forever. Goodwill freed of social morality
comes effortlessly. All internal conflicts are over. I am gentle and
peaceful in character. Physical Universe is magnificent.

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Q 7 1 . Is Universe and life same?
A n s : Yes. Universe is all time, space and matter, in perpetuus mobilis.

Q 7 2 . Still my mind craves to find meaning for life


A n s : Seeking meaning for life can end only in narcissism. I/Me are such a
tiny speck of dust, Universe is grandiose and magnanimous.
Q 7 3 . What is free mind?

A n s : Free mind is the perfect neuronal activity of the brain, always here
now, freed of I/Me. It is joy to see that everything happens by itself,
in this moment.
Q 7 4 . What is Actual Freedom?
A n s : It is actual peace, innocence. No sin and guilt. Untouched by evil,
malice, or sorrow. And all this without effort.

Spiritual effort struggles in vain to resemble the purity of


the Actual. Actual is a magical wonderland. No furious urges,
anger, rages, hostilities.
Benign, benevolent. Morality cannot attain this, Good.
Spontaneous, no necessity for virtues. No good and evil here. A
veritable paradise. One can be in it 24 hours. No need of belief. It is
so perfect, that theres no need of belief. It is so perfect, that theres
no need for love, compassion, bliss, euphoria, ecstasy, truth,
goodness, beauty, oneness, unity, or wholeness, all such baubles.

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Q 7 5 . Can even an ordinary person live like this?
A n s : Yes. But Universe does not force anyone to be so. Its only a matter
of personal choice. Its just available under ones own nose. It is
possible for all.
Q 7 6 . Nature doesnt seem to care for such felicitous life.
A n s : There is only a blind breeding of species. Nature, by nature is blind.
It is in our taste to choose felicity, freedom blitheness, and Peace.
Q 7 7 . All that we see around us is discord, tension, chaos, wars,

dirt, poverty, deception, cruelty and disgrace. Do you live


creating for yourself an imaginary paradise?

A n s : Just look at your hands. It is as old as the Universe, atoms


rearranged out of the perfection of purity, welling in perpetuus
mobilis, as actual material universe. There is only ambrosial
perfection. There can be no imagination in the Actuality.
Q 7 8 . Where does god exist?
A n s : God is an imaginary entity, of vain- glorious psychic entity.

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Q 7 9 . Universe and our life in it seem to be a sick joke!
A n s : No. Universe is so enormous. Infinity and eternity are so immense.
Misery is impossible. Universe is grandly complex, marvellously
intricate, so wonderfully excellent. Calling it a ghastly mistake or
SICK JOKE, is preposterous.
It is grand and enchanting living the perfection of this
pure moment of being alive here in this fantastic actual universe. For
a split second leave alone the bickering and whining of the pit of
real human society. have little courage and look!

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Q 8 0 . Universe may be so grand. It is too big for us to conceive. It

is the little things of life that are pleasurable for us.


A n s : That means, you dont know how to see. I will tell you, how I see
life. In this moment, here, perfection and purity abounds. Living
itself is so precious. Something beyond compare. More valuable
than any Kings ransom. Its not rare gemstones, bags of money,
treasured love, bliss. Look at the infinitude of the Universe, the
life-giving foundation of all that is apparent.

The lucid perfection in which I am in this moment, is like


the crystalline perfection and purity seen in a dew drop in a leaf in
early morning sun-shine. Breathless wonder and immaculate
simplicity.
When you learn to live this magical perfection of this
Purity, 24 hours a day by ceasing being me, and be what you
genuinely are there is no separation from this something which is
precious.
This purity wells up constantly in boundless stillness,
utterly immeasurable in its magnitude. This stillness of Infinitude
is the PRECIOUS.
This stillness happens as me. intrinsic basis of everything.
It is life at its genesis. It is not centre of everything. There is no
centre here. Stillness everywhere all at once, be all and end all of
LIFE ITSELF.
I am the Universe experiencing itself, as a sensate,
reflective human being.
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Q 8 1 . Leaving I/me, how can one live here!
A n s : I/Me are forever locked-out of this actual world.

Once knowing this - you can relish the actual world, still more
intensely without I/Me, sustain a family, buy a home, get married,
have children, pursue a hobby, eat, drink and make merry yourself.
Q 8 2 . A boring daily life, you call wonderful?
A n s : Yes, Truly wonderful!
Q 8 3 . People are like weeds being born and dead. I am one of

those weeds. What is more in it?


A n s : You are not a weed. As this flesh and blood body one is not just a
weed. One is this material universe experiencing itself as an
apperceptive human being.
Q 8 4 . I cant believe you live in actual world 100%.
A n s : Not only me. You too can live it 100%. It is true, of course, that
there is such a pristine purity and peerless perfection in this actual
world that it is inconceivable/incomprehensible and
unimaginable/unbelievable to a denizen of the real world. Many
years ago, I too thought that it is impossible to live in the actual
world, and as beyond anyones wildest dreams. Yes, now it is 100%
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Q 8 5 . Is actualism, an advanced level of spiritualism?
A n s : Serendipitous actualism is a third alternative to illusory materialism,
and delutionary spiritualism.
Q 8 6 . What propelled you towards Actualism?
A n s : The main agenda was lack of peace among humans, in oneself, in a
household, and world at large. In spite of technological growth there
is no peace in oneself and in world at large. I also found that nobody
can give me peace or make me happy and harmless.
Only I can do that. I did that, by eradicating I as ego,
and me as soul.
Q 8 7 . How can one live without feelings?
A n s : I never say stop feeling. But cease being-psychologically and
psychically self-immolate, that is entire affective faculty is
extirpated. The psyche itself will be no more. Otherwise a man
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Q 8 8 . Is there a way to get into that state of pure happiness?
A n s : Yes. Ask yourself this, each moment again: How am I experiencing
this moment of being alive? This is your only moment of being
alive. Past, though already happened, is not actual now. Future,
thought it will happen, is not actual now.
With this magical formula, you can check and recheck
whether this moment lives you in FULL, and can retrace your step to
happiness, however much you may slip off. After all, the next
moment comes free and fresh.
Q 8 9 . Instead, can I not pray for grace?
A n s : One will never become free, waiting for the Grace of God to
descend. One has to reach out, extend oneself like one has never
gone before. It should become number one priority. An obsession. A
happy person is a pleasure to be with. If you are not good company
for yourself, then what are you for others?

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Q 9 0 . Entire Universe seems to be inert. Is it alive?
A n s : Materialism says, rocks are dead, lifeless. Does this not say, only
something that was alive can even be dead? In Actualism, we see
by direct experience, that matter is not merely passive.
In Actualism we can have excellence experience and
perfection experience. Excellence experience has no magical
element. In it time has no duration as now and then. Space has no
distance as normal here and there. It is one Eternal time and
Infinite space in perfection experience (PCE) it is fairy-tale-like
magical experience, purity, lustre, brilliance, vividness, intensely,
wondrous, scintillating vitality, everything alive and sparkling. The
very earth beneath the feet, rocks, concrete buildings, a piece of
paper, literally everything is as if it were alive(though a rock is not
as alive as a human). One is not living in an inert Universe.
Q 9 1 . Is not Actualism a theory?
A n s : Actualism is not a theory, but direct experience of the Pristine
Actuality.
Q 9 2 . What happens in a pure conscious experience?
A n s : The brain, without identity and affective faculty, becomes incapable
of mental images or imaginary scenarios. But very brilliantly
involved in what it is doing, in the moment, thinking and
interpreting sensory inputs. If there is no need for thinking, it is
simply sensually aware of being conscious of being alive.

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Q 9 3 . Can one speed up to enter Actuality?
A n s : I cannot make it happen. I am not required to make it happen. It
happens of itself, only when one is fully ready.
One should get accustomed to benignity, benevolence
and blitheness. The purity of the actual is so powerful, it would
blow the fuses off if one enters into it ill-prepared.
The vast stillness of infinitude would be too much, too
fast, too soon. One could go mad with super-abundance of pleasure
that pours forth.
Q 9 4 . Is discontent on life as it is, a requisite factor to seek Actual

Freedom?
A n s : Freedom is that one wants like one has never wanted anything
before digging ones psyche, is a most mammoth challenge one
could ever take on, which would not appeal to the desultory dabbles.
Q 9 5 . What is virtual freedom?
A n s : Virtual means almost as good as or nearly the same as ACTUAL
FREEDOM.

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Q 9 6 . What are the steps from a PCE to Actual Freedom?
A n s : When one remembers a PCE, it precipitates another. Many PCEs
follow. Contemplation begins. I cease seeing, and seeing takes
place by itself. I is an interloper, an alien psychic possession of the
body. I do not belong here.

All this is impossible to imagine. One should be


confident that the actual world does exist. PCEs give confidence.
One need not generate confidence as in the spiritual path.
Experience of purity is a benefaction. With this comes
Pure Intent. It guides through one in daily life. Gently ushers one
into increasing ease and generosity.
With this growing magnanimity, one becomes more and
more anonymous, self-less. Being ceases it was only a psychic
apparition anyway- and is over, forever, in one human being.
It is all thrilling and enthralling, yet utterly and
exquisitely normal at the same time.
Q 9 7 . Is Actualism a philosophy ?
A n s : The pure consciousness experience enables one to know, for oneself,
that actualism is not a philosophy.

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Q 9 8 . Your writings have many grammatical errors.
A n s : What I write is expressive poetical prose- it is not a thesis I am
conveying lavish exhilaration of life itself. It is not intended to
stand literary scrutiny for scholarly style and grammatical forum.
It can catapult a reader into this magical wonder-land that the earth
is, Actuality speaks for itself.
Q 9 9 . How to induce a PCE?

A n s : By allowing it to happen.
Q 1 0 0 . Why time seems to be fleeting one?

A n s : In actuality, this moment lasts forever. In reality, it seems fleeting,


because ONE IS OUT OF TIME.
Q 1 0 1 . And you mean peace is a possibility?
A n s : Irregardless of our words PEACE already exists
on this Earth and the Universe. Only humans have contaminated it.
Q 1 0 2 . How can I flow in time?
A n s : You are already flowing in time. Stop flowing out of time.

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Q 1 0 3 . What do you mean by flowing out of time?

A n s : Your psychological time. The time of clock moving. The time


happening due to earth moving. In the Actual, time does not move.
It is moving/stillness. Stick to it. It is moving in time. There one is
not out of time.
Q 1 0 4 . You really mean, actually there is no suffering in the

world?
A n s : The suffering of the individuals, and the society as a whole is true.
In actuality, the entire universe is free of any kind of suffering.
Q 1 0 5 . There are earthquakes, floods, famines, epidemics besides

man-made wars etc. How do you say you are free from
anxiety and suffering?
A n s : Natural catastrophes are true. Nature is red in tooth and claw. But
the Universe is perpetually still and free of calamities. I am the
Universe, experiencing itself as a sensate human. Universe knows
more than me. I am in its moving/stillness. Compared to the
Calamities, Universe is serendipitous, benevolent, happy and
harmless.
Q 1 0 6 . I think you know the cruelties of one man doing to another.

A n s : Yes. That is where I want to share my tried and won actual


freedom path of happiness and harmlessness. The tried and failed
spiritual path is to be given up.

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Q 1 0 7 . How are you sure about it?

A n s : If one man can do it, all can do it.


Q 1 0 8 . There must be a sudden way to Actual Freedom too!
A n s : Yes. If one clearly perceives the inevitable extinction/oblivion of
I/Me it can happen sooner rather than later. Extinction of being
at physical death has no benefit in regards to peace-on-earth.
Extinction of being at this moment in time is beneficial
immediately to oneself and others(peace-on-earth).
Time has no duration in actuality, now being eternal, is
already always dynamic, and everything happens now, nothing
ever happens in past/present/future time.
As now is the way, then now is the means, then now is
the end! Bingo!....
It is no longer possible to distinguish between life
being lived and life doing the living, cause and effect vanishing
without a trace.
This is my moment of glory; my growing achievement,
makes my petty life worthwhile, is my most noble sacrifice for
I am what I hold most dear, this is my legacy for all
humankind.
My reward is to go blessedly into the oblivion I
have secretly craved all along.

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58

A ctual Has no Vibes


Nothing survives bodys end
Extinction is full blithe

Vanish without trace is the fact.

59

Chapter-1

EALITY

60

1.

World Reality is illusion.


Spiritual Reality is delusion.
Pristine Actuality is Fact.
Actual Freedom shows it.

2.

Daily Reality is imagination.


Spiritual Reality is hallucination.
Pristine Actuality only is.
Actual freedom reveals it.

3.

Be the Pristine Actuality,


not as the reality.
Find what is Pristine Actuality.
Be free from reality.

61
4.

Reality obscures Pristine Actuality.


Illusory I must end.
Delusionary Divinity must end.
I vanishing, reality vanishes.

5.

Being free of thinker,

being free of feeler,


there is immense clarity, purity.
Sensate body only remains.

6.

Then one is automatically


benevolent, benign, peaceful, happy.
Even perfect feelings gone,
seductive love snare goes.

62
7.

Mystical worlds are dissolved.


Only clean clear perfection
of the pristine Actuality
remains concretely here now.

8.

Sages have taught delusion


for thousands of years.
Their cure-all method,
has not worked at all.

9.

With sages, identity sense


quantum leaps from head
to the heart, and this
is the massive delusion.

63

10.

Being transforming into Pure-Being,


oceanic unitary perception state,
creates delusion, as if
self has ended forever.

11.

Oneness, wholeness, the All,


I am the self,
I am the God,
is delusion of Divinity.

12.

People are seduced by

this kind of fantasy,


resulting in Fact-blindness.
All this is pathetic.

64

13.

Its possible to extinguish,


this identity, this me,
this second I of
deluded sages and mystics.

14.

Demise is as fictitious,
as my apparent presence.
I am always here,
as I always was.

15.

I will be forever.
I have only imagined
that I existed, and
it was emotional play.

65

16.

To be just sensations,

not a person having,


brings most astonishing sense
of freedom and release.

17.

Only this moment exists.


So, no lasting I,
to make the past
and the future real.

18.

Past, present, future gone,


leaves one in the
purity of here now.
It is intensely pleasurable.

66

19.

Infinitude is beginningless and endless.


So there is no middle.
We come from nowhere,
and go to nowhere.

20.

We are particularly nowhere.


Thats we are anywhere.
We are already here.
It is always now.

21.

As this body only,


this moment in time,
has no duration,
as in now and then.

67

22.

Because immediate is ultimate,


this place has no distance.
as in here and there,
for relative is the absolute.

23.

Life is not a

vale of tears, surely.


Actual world is ambrosial.
Beginningless and endless peace.

24.

Each moment, again and again,


I am fresh, new.
I never was before,
All happens first time.

68
25.

This moment never was.


So it is exciting.
No way to know,
what will happen next.

26.

Pristine Actuality is seen

by a perception unassailable.
Whatever happens is appropriate,
to this moments circumstance.

27.

How much more stimulated


can one be, than this?
And there is safety.
Nothing can go wrong.

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I ME

70
1.

Spiritual Now, Mystics Now,

is created by you,
through mantras and meditations,
or by any means.

2.

In the Actual world,


there is no creation.
This universe is in
Perpetuus mobilis.

3.

Perpetuus mobilis is apperceived,


in my direct experiencing,
of actuality of Infinitude,
at this moment of eternal time.

71

4.

Perpetual matter, is now


arranged, into my being a
flesh body, replete with
apperceptive awareness.

5.

I/Me as centre, creates

a boundary and superimposes


an edge to actual universe,
invites endless misery.

6.

This is where spiritualists


and scientists, fell a victim
to the theories of Pralaya,
Big Bang, beginning/ending.

72
7.

As space is stillness domain,

time too is unmoving/unmovable.


Time as an actuality,
Is a non-moving domain.

8.

Time itself doesnt move.


Objects in space move.
Only the events change;
not the Moment itself.

9.

This moment in which

event A happens is
the exact same moment
in which event B happens.

73

10.

enjoy just here,

at this place, in infinite space,


right now, at this
moment, in eternal time.

11.

As a flesh and blood body,


Im delighting being alive,
in the perfect Purity,
of already existing Peace.

12.

Its never not this moment.


An intensely hushed stillness,
vast and immense, I enjoy,
just by simply being here.

74

13.

Its not awe/reverie/beauty.


No emotions or passions.
Factual, single actualness.
No burden of mind/mindless.

14.

A sparkling intimacy.
A fairy-tale like quality.
A paradisiacal environment.
Yet leaves one free.

15.

No I/Me here.

No encumbrance of feelings.
Its not mine or yours.
Available for anyones asking.

75
16.

Measure of time, and


TIME itself are different.
Clock ticking is measure
rate of earths rotation.

17.

In the Actual World,

in this moment of stillness,


TIME stands still. You can
immerse in its Peace.

18.

Matter arranges and rearranges,


always itself endlessly, and
it happens through all
Eternity, and Infinity, forever.

76

19.

Passage of Time is

a localised phenomenon.
Only this moment in
Eternal Time exists here.

20.

Infinitude is astoundingly aware,


of its own infinitude.
But I can be aware,
only of this moment.

21.

We locate ourselves,

through yesterdays and tomorrows.


Infinite has no reference
points, to be allocated.

77

22.

Take away the walls

of this limited room.


Then this special location
does not mean anything.
23.

If you die next

moment, where is a future?


You cease to exist.
Reality is not Pristine Actuality.

24.

The next moments you,


does not exist now.
Only in next moment,
that you happens here.

78
25.

Universe decides every moment.


But it does things
with an absolute certainty.
Here is the safety.

26.

Earth rotates on axis,

precisely, unerringly, without fail.


Physical laws are astounding,
and very accurate here.

27.

may catch fever,

or get leg broken.


Yet I experience life,
as perfect as sky.

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Chapter-3

DENTITY

80
1.

When I goes, theres


no feeling, no emotion.
Ego I can never
be in the pristine Actuality.

2.

Ego I expands and

creates spiritual soul I.


Any identity is delusion.
Altruism removes the ego soul.

3.

Ican retire, die,

dissolve and life will manage.


Simply, I holds up
the works smooth functioning.

81
4.

Visualising, fantasising, romancing are


all identity. Actual has
no such things, because,
it is already always factual.

5.

My presence prevents the


very meaning of life.
I wishes to remain
to find some meaning.

6.

Not me having sensations.


I am the sensations.
Only series of sensations
are happening here now.

82
7.

Actual stillness has no me.


Real has a me.
This me is imagination.
Feelings are not Actual.

8.

Stuff of the body

is the stuff of
the Universe. No need
of separate I identity.

9.

Identifying myself as I

am That, I am
God is sheer madness.
No dirt enters Pristine Actuality.

83

10.

Identity can never get

into the Actual. No


getting in ever occurs.
Identity gone, Actual remains.

11.

Relinquishing the I identity,

Im just the body only..


After realization comes actualization.
No I is Purity.

12.

I am not in
any samadhi state stuff.
I have no identity.
Only a constant delight.

84

13.

Identity can end now.


No dragon to stop.
Just one short step.
It is all over.

14.

Identity has no peace.


Self, me is poison.
By nature Im defiled.
Im corrupt to the core.

15.

As my very selfhood,

Im perversity itself.
No purification method can
succeed to improve things.

85

16.

The last bit always

eludes purification. It is
a delight to share,
what I have found.

17.

By not deleting the

instincts, one is foolish.


Infants are not harmless
and innocent, as believed.

18.

Along with the identity,


both the Real and
the Spiritual get vanished
from ones own perception.

86

19.

Grim and glum person,

cant have Actual Freedom.


Enduring entity is just
an emotion backed memory.

20.

I is beliefs, feelings.
Ending fear is essential.
Any emotion is fear.
All emotions are pain.

21.

Become friend with yourself.


One has another chance;
another moment doing better,
to make it work.

87
22.

You live with yourself,


for all 24 hours.
Others come and go.
But you always remain.

23.

Even after few months,


old things may return.
Again, the next moment
is there, freely available.

24.

To feel terrible is

simply silly and a waste.


Feel good being alive,
if not happy always.

88
25.

You are the best


person to help you.
Who else can do?
You alone can do.

26.

Be accepting is wrong.

Question everything. Ask why?


Dont waste precious time,
always feeling just rotten.

27.

You see, it works.

There is another way.


Put everything on a
it doesnt matter basis.

89

Chapter-4

FFECTIVE

90
1.

I have physical heart,


but no sentimental heart.
I do care, but
dont feel I care.

2.

Now I could not


get a mental picture
of my dead mother,
for it is imagination.

3.

Affective imagines past and


future as Real, and
I know a cow intellectually,
but can not imagine it.

91
4.

If I draw a cow,

I can not visualise


the cow . It emerges
as the drawing progresses.

5.

Being free of imaginative


faculty, is sweet breeze.
No I in head.
No me in heart.

6.

I am not a feeling
being, to feel others.
Im not a psychic, to
know other peoples thoughts.

92
7.

Body is here now.

Theres no immortal self.


Calentures, emotions, are pain.
Still people relish it.

8.

Group highs, mob riots


are all affective states.
Life has meaning when
you are not present.

9.

I have no emotions.
But Im not a zombie.
I am felicitous, friendly,
very peaceful, and caring.

93

10.

Feeling is by affective

faculty. No feeling is
not barren and sterile.
Cease being is the message.

11.

So, for me, no

moods, auras, souls, spirits,


or gods. No affective
ripples in my mind.

12.

Feeling creates the feeler.

Senses start with affective.


Construct sense of presence.
Feelings come before thought.

94

13.

I do everything without
affective feeling, and a
mind freed of feelings,
is a great pleasure.

14.

A tree, flower, ash-tray


have no fear at all.
Only sentient beings have
fear, which is affective.

15.

Fear, aggression, nurture, desire.


These are four instincts.
Blind Natures software package,
giving start in life.

95

16.

Instincts can be deleted,

which are in Reptilian brain.


Get rid of emotions.
Give up all passions.

17.

Feelings will not upset.

They are rubbed out,


finished, extirpated, ended.
That is Actual Freedom.

18.

Self-help groups can give

instant results. But useless,


short term temporary things.
It is just delusion.

96

19.

Unaware person gets deluded,


as if valuable happens.
Spends lot of money
for this quick-fix.

20.

Why keep anger, rage?

Get rid of them.


Emotions are rotten feelings.
You wont need any more.

21.

This is your only

moment of being alive.


Feeling heated is not
really feeling good here.

97

22.

Kundalini and mantras are

ways of feeling heated.


Still feeling emotional, how
you will prove unshakeability?

23.

Then your new way

will become another belief.


A fact is obvious,
something seen very clearly.

24.

And no passion arises,


though few more months
you may need to
go through old ways.

98

25.

Until you are finished,


with those old things,
you have heart strings
attached to many beliefs.

26.

You have put your


heart and soul in it.
you can not say,
be done with it.

27.

Done with it immediately,


it can not go,
just by overnight.
It is quite deep.

99

Chapter-5

SYCHIC

100

1.

Psychic web connects us.

It connects great distances.


Catalyst is psychic programme.
No psychic web in the Actual.

2.

I have no psychic power.


No powers outside the psyche.
Power is domination over
others and brings conflict.

3.

Mystical is a complicated

metaphysical thought. There is


no elimination of self.
Primal self is glorified.

101
4.

Enjoy the life now.

This is the goal.


Appreciate this alive moment,
no matter what happens.

5.

Earth has physical forces.

It has electro-magnetic fields.


Earth has no power.
Certainly no psychic power.

6.

Spiritual path fiddles levers,


controls, and makes conditionings.
It has not worked.
No results are found.

102
7.

Sages discovered wrong insights,


wrong methods, wrong teachings,
which are illusory and
delusionary path called spirituality.

8.

Karma, rebirth are mans


childish insanity, taught by
silly gurus followed by
millions, for thousands of years.

9.

Spiritual practice cannot give


happiness. It brings restlessness,
wars, jealousy and despair.
Bloodshed follows a guru.

103

10.

Infinitude is an Actuality.

All the mystics and


all sages considered Infinitude
as concept and not Actual.
11.

Oceanic wholeness, Oneness are


just restless metaphysical space.
They are your minds
fantasy and are imaginary.

12.

Spiritual path is corrupt.


If self is there,
things must go wrong.
Stand on your own feet.

104

13.

Aloneness, oneness are identity.


Love, compassion, trust, surrender,
Master, disciple, are useless.
They wont give Peace.

14.

Actual is a perfection

of purity and intimacy.


Beauty, love are limitations.
Actual is a magnanimity.

15.

Actual is possible for anyone,


to be actually free,
It is under your nose,
available for your asking.

105

16.

I experience now constantly,


non stop Actual Freedom.
Earlier I didnt believe
it can be for 24 hours.

17.

Universe is so enormous.
Infinity is as big
as you can get.
It cant be bad.

18.

Grounded at this moment,

one is fully committed,


one is fully involved,
not standing back somewhere.

106

19.

People believe all will

be provided mystically, miraculously.


They believe everything will
be supplied just automatically.

20.

This they are calling


living in the Present.
All have to work
to support each other.

21.

Universe will take me


back into its bosom
in its appropriate time.
So I am secure.

107

22.

What are you saving

yourself for here?


And save for what?
Reach out, extend yourself.

23.

Enlightenments goal is known.


You do meditations, mantras.
You know your destination.
Can it be the Unknown?

24.

If you wish to

remain a person here,


then all is pain
sorrow, and disappointment.

108
25.

Drive to discover Truth,


causes a person to
become utterly severe, mad.
It is a belief.

26.

They are following belief.

But with a Fact,


you dont have to
depend on anything or anybody.

27.

If I can remain

friendly, kind, calm, considerate,


under all the circumstances,
then I am winning.

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Chapter-6

CSTASY

110

1.

Actualism has no ecstasy.

Ecstasy is emotional distraction.


Vibes are passionate atmosphere.
No good and bad in Actualism.

2.

Addict needs adrenaline buzz.


All vibes are unpleasant.
Neuronal excitation of brain
is just a waste.

3.

Pristine Actuality has no


affectations like bliss or ecstasy.
It is pure pleasure
Without the burden of bliss.

111

4.

An alien entity only


is inhabiting this body,
taking on an identity
of its own delusionally.

5.

Bliss is of entity.

Pristine Actuality has no entity.


So it is simple
pleasure without any limits.

6.

Bliss comes by your

doing kriyas, mudras, asanas.


Bliss is a drug.
Pristine Actuality is your Fact.

112

7.

Spiritual aspirant is addict

of mantras, bliss and


various herbs, chemicals and
habits of many kinds.

8.

Prescribing drugs for bliss,

mystics have blundered humanity.


Actual Freedom has something
far beyond petty bliss.

9.

People seek escaping reality,


through alcohol, sex, music,
prayer, gambling, but they
find no peace or happiness.

113

10.

Be sincere but not serious.


So, drinks, drugs may help,
used with pure intent,
in moderation, as blest.

11.

Seeking oblivion in alcohol,


or some other drug,
is an identitys secretive
desire for permanent oblivion.

12.

It only masquerades oblivion,


while inducing half sleep,
its not true oblivion,
given by dreamless sleep.

114

13.

For one and all

death is always just


two feet away, and
Alcohol fun is welcome.

14.

Tobacco can titillate you


without any hang over.
Sobriety is never risked
as in alcohol consumption.

15.

Live in the peace

Of pristine Actuality and


Life is intrinsically purposeful.
Reason lies open all around.

115

16.

In this very air,

I am aware of it.
Breath, see, hear, taste,
Smell, touch, all time.

17.

It never goes away.

It will never go away.


I was standing in
the way, to find meaning.

18.

To be the senses,

just as bare awareness,


is apperception, so full
of peace and benignity.

116

19.

Calentures, devotional emotions are


being experienced for centuries,
by the misguided humanity,
all ending in wars.

20.

Devotion to ones own


god, has not given
any peace, but only
war with ones neighbour.

21.

You may feel a

hole in heart region.


Larger chunk of identity
is in the heart.

117

22.

By feelings, emotions, passions,


heart leads humans astray.
Centuries upon centuries,
it has spoiled humanity.

23.

Religions teach emotional control.


But encourage pious emotions.
They dont know all
emotions are only destructive.

24.

Love of a god,

love of human etc.


are all affective responses.
They wont give peace.

118
25.

Many tried stilling passions,


but maintained the self,
by name of calenture,
devotional crying for god.

26.

Going beyond all feelings,


has never been done.
Feelings are not known
as birth-place of addictions.

27.

Love wears off soon,

yet it is praised,
as cure-all for ills,
for century upon century.

119

Chapter-7

ACT

120
1.

No who knows here;

only the what knows.


No use of after-life bliss.
Vanish without trace is Fact.

2.

The I is forever

cut off from the Actual.


Realisation is the recognition;
Actualisation is the Action.

3.

Actual freedom is not

just words. But Fact.


This life is first and last,
whether rebirth is true or not.

121

4.

Peace exists by itself,

irregardless of my words.
Not the past, but delete
the entity and humanity.
5.

Nature is Red in

tooth and claw, and


divine goodness etc. are
just your own hallucination.

6.

Perfect Universe is not


intelligent. It is far
more than being merely
intelligent in human way.

122
7.

Perpetual Universe knows itself,


how to do better,
than us, because, all
the while, Perfection abounds.

8.

Chicken first or egg first?

No beginning or end to Infinite.


That means no middle too.
We are already here.

9.

Actual Infinitude is utter

stillness. A.F. life is


precious beyond compare and
is joy of nectar.

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10.

Exit the intellectual masturbation,


and enter the Actuality.
Seeing Fact sets free.
You are always free.

11.

This is Humanitys tragedy.


Spiritualists, scientists speak same.

They say Universe comes from


nothing, and goes to Nothing.

12.

A wrong metaphysical thought.


Nothing too is something.
It is actually everything.
Physical Universe already is

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13.

Nobody is seeing this.


Because that will be the
ending of the soul.
All seek their immortality.

14.

They desire avoiding death,


want to avoid extinction.
Its impossible to avoid death.
Death is the end.

15.

Before I was born,

I was not here.


After death I wont be.
Where is the problem?

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16.

Extinction is the way.


Just be the senses,
without the I identity.
It is the Paradise.

17.

I float in the Infinitude,


of perfect pure universe.
We come from nowhere,
and go to nowhere.

18.

No heavenly rapturous bliss.


Only the Oblivion. Not attractive,
alluring, or quite desirable.
Yet I wanted it.

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19.

Solid knowing gives surety.

Simply an irrefutable knowing.


Not any flight of fancy,
or spiritual visionary experience.

20.

One may get terrified,

with no fixed ground.


One should rely on
confidence born of Perfection.

21.

You have all the help

in the Actual Universe.


And that is enormous,
unbelievably beyond our imagination.

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22.

Without the mystic, the

magical quality of Actualness,


becomes clear and apparent.
Mystic hides the Actual.

23.

Sometimes wow, sometimes


anxiety, is the sign that
Pure Intent is operating.
Theres no real danger.

24.

Pristine Actuality is incredibly still.


Only the objects move.
Nothing goes wrong ultimately.
Everything is already perfect.

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25.

Mystics go astray here.

Future is yet to happen.


Theres no prearranged future.
Because Infinite is complete.

26.

Inexhaustible Purity stems endlessly.


Its impossible to know the future.
How stimulated I am?
Nothing survives bodys end.

27.

I alone bless myself.


I salute my audacity.
I admire by myself.
No me is freedom.

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Chapter-8

CTUAL

REEDOM

130
1.

In Actual Freedom,

no urges, impulses, or emotions.


I ventured where
no human had gone before.

2.

No monastery, diets, celibacy,


books, rules, in Actual Freedom,
for Pristine Actuality
is a self-existing condition.

3.

In me, the urge

to socialize, has vanished


completely, and I have
no contacts or friends.

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4.

Scan can not reveal,

the absence of self-software.


After deletion, no evidence that
it was ever installed.

5.

Actual Freedom has no

imagination. That faculty has


vanished very long back.
Pristine Actuality simply acts.

6.

To go deep in

Actual Freedom needs the


nerves of steel, and
ability to stay unmoved.

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7.

I do not need

anything to do here,
to get a thrill.
Its a non-stop excitement.

8.

The Actual World I live,

is utterly, actually, peaceful.


Always it is so.
Always it will be.

9.

I found the real world

to be of pits, and so
I abandoned Humanity and
its bickering, and whining.

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10.

Its beyond feeling anything,


A Purity and Perfection,
far beyond anything else.
That is very wonderful.

11.

Actual intimacy sees others,


clearly as they are.
Neither attracted nor repulsed.
This is Actual Intimacy.

12.

Earth is perfect situation.


The Universe is Perfect.
The Sky is Perfect.
All things are Perfect.

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13.

An after-death perfection,
is available just here.
The joy of Parinirvana,
is available just now.

14.

Things you cant think


even in dreams, you get.
It cant be imagined.
It should be lived.

15.

Its never boring, fatuous.

Its a life without ambitions,


emotions, tensions, being-goody;
yet its never trite.

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16.

No burden to oneself,
and to others too.
It is all truly wonderful,
light, tender, easy, sweet.

17.

Others too perceive it.

You become gentle, friendly.


Nice to be so.
A supremely blest condition.

18.

My mission is achieved.
I am sitting back,
and enjoying the show.
It is a pleasure.

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19.

I do not know,

what will happen next.


But it is all
going to be good.

20.

And just move on.

Spiritual world is fatuous,


all gathered around one guru.
Here we have equity.

21.

Delicious to be freed,
from all family ties,
and just to meet
them as other humans.

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22.

Every moment, you plan.


But moment presents itself.
You pollute it terribly,
then lament for Peace.

23.

Every moment is Peace.

But you massacre the Peace.


You only suffocate yourself.
Underneath, Freshness always brims.

24.

You want helping people?

Give them the best help.


You enter the Pristine Actuality.
It is ultimate help.

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25.

Be in the Pristine Actuality.


It is true help.
Hard to hold on?
It can be done.

26.

Others may take it,

or may not take.


It is their business,
not in your responsibility.

27.

It is not selfishness.
Moving to the Pristine Actuality,
is not surely selfishness.
Living illusion is selfishness.

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Chapter-9

BLIVION

140

1.

Mes death is Paradise.


My demise will be
as fictitious as my
apparent presence seen here.

2.

You have to see.

If you are not free


when the body is,
you will never be free.

3.

Because, who is going


to be free after the
death of the body?
There will be nobody.

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4.

Ceasing to exist is

the only security here.


Not ceasing the feelings,
But the Feeler should cease.

5.

Apperceptive awareness makes


self immolation quite easy.
There search for meaning
amidst the debris ends.

6.

Then inner outer worlds

also end. Just to


be senses is apperception.
This is Pure Consciousness.

142

7.

In spiritual freedom, just

the Part becomes the Whole;


In Actual Freedom, Part
and Whole both end.

8.

Just knowing that self is

Illusion is not enough.


I should cease permanently.
I wont drop the I.

9.

Apperception does the work.


Altruism brings the result.
Anyway, being alive is
already an impersonal thing.

143

10.

All here is illusory.


Narcissistic self centered mess.
Even great intellects are pervert.
Great saints had been foolish.

11.

Species instinct is powerful,


than the individual instinct.
When the I gets erased,
Theres no where to arrive.

12.

One becomes just happy

and harmless. I vanishing,


higher power also vanishes.
Actualism is not gnana.

144

13.

Actualist is not a seeker.


He already knows peace.
My demise is mine;
not any one other.

14.

I am dedicated to
this moments Universe here.
With my demise, the
ever-fresh Perfection remains.

15.

An egoless soul is

still only an identity.


Extinction is blitheness.
Its not bliss, but benignity.

145

16.

Actual Freedom is not


imagination but Actuality.
I could never ever
become perfect and pure.

17.

Only thing I could

do was, to die to identity.


We are one, and
I am That are Solipsism.

18.

Blitheness is great peace.


You can have it while
you are a body.
Need not wait till death.

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19.

Death is the end.

I am just this
flesh and blood body only.
I am mortal.
20.

I will die in

due course. My heart,


lungs, brain, all will
stop. Flesh will decompose.

21.

Nothing survives the physical


decomposition. There is only
Perfection. One is only
blithe and benign here.

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22.

Extinction of Me is
total dissolution of fear.
No fear in Actual
world where I live.

23.

Oblivion is great blessedness.


Being anonymous is taste
of our ultimate oblivion,
before and after death.

24.

, me, are very real;

but are not the


Pristine Actuality that is
Utter stillness and instant peace.

148
25.

Oblivion is no-consciousness.

Alcohol or anaesthesia are


Semi-consciousness, or unconsciousness.
Sleep and death are total oblivion.

26.

I am the Universe,

experiencing itself, in all


its splendour, and magnificence,
as sensate reflective human.

27.

When the body dies,


consciousness of the body
disappears as in sleep.
Consciousness goes into oblivion.

Those who want to have a TASTE


of ACTUAL FREEDOM in 10
minutes, they can read this, and if
feel good, contemplate to become
actually free, so QUICK!

REALITY
1) Real World though Real, is not Actual.
2) Spiritual world of sages is delusion.
3) Actual exists forever as Actual.

4) Physical Universe is the Actual.


5) Endless Pristine Purity is the proof.
6) It was, is, and will be forever.
7) But man is mortal, whereas is Matter is
Immortal.
8) Man imagines himself as immortal.
9) Being free from Real is Actual.
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IME

1) Many don't want the purity of this moment.


2) Mystical Now is Metaphysical, not Actual.
3) Time has no duration, when I am not.
4) Time is a localized phenomenon.
5) For all, this life is the first and the last.
6) Matter arranges and rearranges endlessly.
7) It never repeats anything twice.
8) Each moment is anew.
9) I enjoy afresh, each moment, again and again.

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IDENTITY
1) I/Me identity induces stress and anxiety.
2) Any identity as man or god is delusion.
3) Karma, rebirth are insanity.

4) Universe experiences itself as dog too.


5) A dog does not know that he is a dog.
6) Identity is not needed for what one already is.
7) 'I' looks through 'my' eyes, 'my' feeling.
8) So, 'I' feels isolated and miserable.

9) My very sense of presence prevents Actual


Freedom.
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AFFECTIVE
1) Actual Freedom is sensuous, not affective bliss
state.
2) Affective imagines past and future as Real.
3) Affective though Real is not Actual.
4) Silence too is only a pure feeling.
5) Actual Silence has no 'me'.

6) Sweetness of compassion is seductive.


7) Severing ties to humanity is a bold step.
8) 'Feelings only' connect me to 'others.
9) I am non-affective by emotions.
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PSYCHIC
1) We are all connected by Psychic Web.
2) Catalyst is the psychic programme.
3) Love psychically connects.

4) Psychic power is domination over others.


5) Mystical is a meta-physical complicated
thought.

6) Psychic means, soul-power-bliss and PAIN.


7) You have to be free when body is.
8) After death, there will be nobody.
9) Spirituality is jumping from pan to fire.
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GURUS
1) Spiritual Gurus are deluded people.
2) Gurus don't reveal fact and the Actual.
3) They are full of lust for POWER.
4) Bloodshed and hatred follow any Guru.
5) Evil still exists in Spirituality.
6) 'We are One', 'I am That' are Solipsism.
7) Actually, there is no separation at all.
8) No self-absorbed narcissism in Actual.
9) Spiritual Gurus make people believe non-sense.

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ENLIGHTENMENT
1) Spiritual Enlightenment is a nightmare.
2) It is delusion born of illusion.
3) It blinds one to Fact and Actual.

4) It drains energy.
5) Egoless soul too is still an identity.
6) Normal Reality = Known. 9 billion people live it.
7) Spiritual Reality = Unknown. 1200 enlightened
people had it.
8) Actual Reality = Unknowable.
9) Actual Reality is next step in evolution.
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ECSTACY
1) Ecstasy is emotional distraction.
2) Love, beauty, bliss are baubles.
3) Calenture, emotions bring disasters.
4) All vibes are unpleasant.
5) No vibes in Actual World.
6) Ecstasy is affective deep feeling.
7) That is self-aggrandizement of delusion.
8) Vibes are emotional atmosphere.
9) Actual Freedom is sensate blitheness.

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FACT
1) 'TRUTH' is human invention; 'what' is Actual.
2) Rebirth, gods are imaginary.
3) Real obscures the Actual.
4) Infinitude experiences itself as me and you.
5) Alcohol shows a deep urge for oblivion
6) Urge of 'me' to disappear forever.
7) Abandoning Humanity is Peace.
8) Actual World is Nectar.
9) To vanish without a trace is the Fact.

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ACTUAL FREEDOM
1) Actual Freedom is dew drop Perfection.
2) For me, no 'others' of past, present or future.
3) Infinitude is as actual as a tooth-ache.
4) Apperception is non-feeling Actual.
5) Universe is stunningly aware of its infinitude.
6) Oneness is restless metaphysical space.
7)Actual Infinitude is utter stillness.
8) Inexhaustible PURITY stems endlessly.
9) I am fresh - each moment again and again.

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EXTINCTION
1) In A.F. software of self is deleted.
2) It is as if it was never installed.
3) My demise is as fictitious as my appearance.
4) There is nowhere to arrive at.
5) Intense aspiration automatically opens it.
6) Extinction is blitheness and benignity
7) Altruism opens Actual Freedom.
8) No imaginations possible after extinction.
9) The 'I' ceases to exist permanently.

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OBLIVION
1) Sleep and death are total oblivion.
2) Nobody wants just to be the body.
3) Because oblivion is mortality.
4) But death is the end.
5) No after-death continuity.
6) Identity can end in one fell sweep.
7) No dragon on the way to stop you.
8) Just one short step, and poof!
9) It's all over, done, in this body!

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P ractical I nfinitude:

INFINITUDE

108

162

1) No outside to infinity.

2) No beginning/end to Time & Space.


3) One has to find out for oneself.
4) Each moment, simply be here.
5) Not nothing - UNIVERSE IS!
6) Philosophers call it VOID.
7) They experience it with psychic adumbration.
8) This is institutionalized insanity.
9) Mind creates that Fantasy.
10) Then yearns to live it.
11) But Universe is INFINITE and ETERNAL.

12) I arrived here devoid of IDENTITY and SELF.

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13) I am the Universe, experiencing as a HUMAN.

14) Locating oneself somewhere is wrong.


15) It is separating from a 'Perceived Whole'.
16) Anywhere is Everywhere ALL AT ONCE.
17) This is what ETERNAL & INFINITE means.
18) I have a boundary in this room.
19) Physical Infinity has no boundary.
20) It is amazing all this happens.
21) No edge to Universe.
22) Time being Eternal has no beginning/end.
23) Therefore no middle.

24) Time/Space has no middle.

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25) We locate ourselves through yesterday and


tomorrow.
26) Infinite has no reference points.
27) Take away the walls of this room.
28) Then location doesn't mean anything.

29) All Time/Space are right here now.


30) Nowhere but HERE/no time but NOW.
31) 'I' being a Center, create boundaries.
32) Panicked by 'no limits'?
33) Ever-expanding vastness is blunder.
34) You as center try to endlessly expand.
35) 'I am Vastness', 'I am God' is utter mistake.
36) Universe is not expanding.

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37) IT IS ALREADY COMPLETE !


38) IT IS INCREDIBLY STILL!!
39) UNIVERSE IS NOT MOVING AT ALL !!!
40) Objects like planets/stars move.
41) Move in relation to each other.
42) But the Universe is not moving.
43) Scientists' Big Bang may be false.
44) Mystics' ever expanding vastness too may be
false.
45) These ideas are from the self.
46) No movement - only utter stillness.
47) Silence is not stopping mind.
48) Absence of 'entity' is silence.

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49) Actual Silence is utter stillness.

50) Light from darkness is wrong.


51) 'Primary Cause' is our own INVENTION.
52) Universe exists without a cause.
53) Time too stands still there.
54) No rushing or going somewhere.
55) No coming from nowhere.
56) Edges of Universe don't rush out.
57) One cannot grasp this as concept.
58) Don't use this as Mantra 'NO OUTSIDE'.
59) That will be 'you', the self.

60) When 'I' disappears, body only remains.

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61) It is everywhere, all at once.

62) No omnipresence, omniscience, omnipotence.


63) No conceptual thinking - delusion vanishes.
64) Do we grasp edge to space?
65) Why we grasp edge to time?
66) Yesterday, today, tomorrow are ideas.
67) Ideas are not Actual.
68) If you die next moment, where is future?
69) You cease to exist.
70) Reality is not Actuality.
71) Every moment you are new.

72) Next moment's 'you' doesn't exist this moment.

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73) Of course, we need plans to function.


74) But only the moments decide you.
75) Not you the moment.
76) Next moment's actuality only happens next
moment.
77) Let us say, you die today.
78) Tomorrow you won't exist.
79) Essentially, there is no tomorrow.
80) Tomorrow is as far away as PLAEADES star.
81) My stomach gulped when I saw non-being of
future.
82) My going to bed tonight does not exist now.
83) Future as reality has no hold on me.
84) This is where mystics go astray.

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85) Future is yet to happen.


86) No pre-arranged future.
87) Only our habits create it.
88) All time/space are at once here now.
89) It does not arise out of nothing.
90) For it is already here.
91) The NOW cannot go wrong.
92) For INFINITUDE is PERFECT.

93) No advance 'GRAND-SCHEME'


94) Universe doesn't know what is going to happen
next.
95) But it does things with ABSOLUTE
CERTAINTY.
96) Through memory we do things.

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97) The Actual has no burden of memory.


98) Every moment PERFECTION abounds.
99) As limited 'self' we block it.
100) I may get some disease, but PERFECTION
remains.
101) Everything is already PERFECT.
102) It is 'ME' standing in the way.
103) When 'I' is altruistically immolated, perfection
is seen.

104) That perfection is ALWAYS HERE.


105) Perfection will always be here.
106) We can consciously live in perfection.
107) It is our birth right.
108) And it is the Easiest thing.

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A TYPICAL DAY IN MY LIFE


I wake up by 3-00 a.m. Every day, it is a new wonder, that a day
is available for me to live. I have a brisk cold shower, and walk on the
terrace of my home till 5-00 a.m. This indoor walking strengthens my
Realization of Actual Freedom.
Then till 8-00 a.m. I work on my PC. After breakfast of Oats
porridge, I leave the home. I am 60, a retired person, full of health in
all respects. I have no business interactions with anything or any one.
I simply start walking into the busy Town roads, towards a River
bridge that is 10kms away, bare footed. This long walking in crowded
city strengthens my Actualization. I return back home by bus. I don't
drive vehicles for the past 2 years since I became actually free. I just
hate it, whereas I love walking.
After a frugal midday meals I rest till 3-00 p.m. with reading
magazines or books. . Then I allow myself little drinks that put me on
some sort of 'Auto Pilot', wherein the intellectual rigidities melt for a
while and I am 'out from control', and I view me and the world as a
spectator. I never drink Coffee or other beverages. I am non-smoker. I
listen to music or a bit of movie in my PC. I never watch TV or news
bulletins. By 6-30 p.m. I take some fruits with some Spirulina and go
to bed by 7-00 p.m. I sleep immediately like a log of wood, and get up
by
3-00
a.m,
without
alarm.

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I possess and handle very little personal things. I don't do socializing.


It all stopped 5 years back. I have no friendships or time passes. I am
aware of the sufferings of Humanity. But they don't affect me and I
don't do anything to cure the world. I think living my Actual Freedom
could be the real help.
The instinctual passions of fear, desire, aggression and
nurture still have the traces in me. But they are like almost dead
snakes. They can never have full sway in me. It is 2 years since I
actually became free. Still the process goes on and the dust is settling
down. In the beginning it was bizarre, like standing on shifting sands,
or it was as if the ground beneath was sinking. Now things are
concrete and safe. Life is grand.

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9 TIPS TO QUICK ATTAINMENT


OF ACTUAL FREEDOM
1) Have long walks sometimes in solitary places. This will strengthen
Realisation. Sometimes deliberately walk without specific task to do,
again long distances in crowded places. This will strengthen
Actualisation. Even now I walk into my Town, 10 km a day without an
agenda, barefoot.

2) Barefoot walking enhances the process of A.F. 100 times more


faster than walking with shoes.
3) In yoga tradition, they do Ahimsa Enema everyday. That is
cleansing the colon. Your bowel should always remain almost empty.
This keeps your body and mind lighter.
A.F. insight pulls down from the Universe great energies. Your
body should become accustomed to bear them. Otherwise they will
blow the fuses off, or you will only be repeating them
mentally without becoming actually free. I do three times a day.
4) Wearing no undergarments, and wearing loose clothing, avoiding
ties and socks, tight belts around waists, avoiding bras for ladies will
tremendously boost the perception and enjoying the rarefied heights of
Actual Freedom. Otherwise you will be pulled down every time
miserably when you take flight into A.F.
And you will grow irritable than normal people and bark at others
even for silly things. Because the Purity you envision will be
overwhelming you, while your tight-fit body will be suffocating you.
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5) Before going to sleep forget about A.F. Have little drink, music,
anything pleasant and be in abandon. Learn to sleep like a log of wood
deliberately forgetting everything at least for 6 to 8 hours. The
process that went on whole day will now be settling into your subconscious sharply as laser beam and the next morning you will find
that your realisation growing faster and faster and very very easy.
6) Always inwardly keep on repeating any three or four syllable
words whatever you do.
As a sample, 'All is Well'. I follow 'Actual has no vibes'.
The Originator of A.F. recommends 'How am I experiencing this
moment of being alive?' Anything you like. You can invent your own
meaning. This is electric route to A.F.
7) Learn to ignore other people's opinion about you, be image-free, as
much as possible. Just be yourself, almost adamantly. Niceties,
compromises, adjustments are blocks to realisation and actualisation.
8) Avoid arguments of any kind. Never try to justify A.F. is the
ultimate fact with any one. They will rob you even your little
confidence born out of your realisation of Perfection.
Always keep in mind the falsity of all kinds of relationships, except
Actual Intimacy.
9) Always keep in your person some sentences, written by your own
hand, words that dramatically influenced you from Actual Freedom
readings, preferably, not more than 9 points. Because brain has
limited retention power. A short prayer penetrates the heaven. With
limited words clarity blooms faster.

And words are not the ACTUAL.


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Q.70: WHAT IS THE USE OF REALIZING THE ACTUALITY?


ANS: ILLUSION AND DELUSION ENDS.
THE BENEFITS ARE BEYOND PRICE.
INSTANTLY PEACE IS FOUND TO YOURSELF AND YOU
CAN SHARE WITH THE WORLD.
FINALLY INTELLIGENCE OPERATES IN YOU UNIMPEDED.
BLIND NATURE IS SUPERSEDED.
ACTUAL PERFECTION AND EXCELLENCE IS FREE.
UNADORNED I STAND ON MY OWN,
MORE FREE THAN A BIRD ON WING,
CLEANER THAN A SEA-BREEZE.
TO BE IS TO BE FRESH EACH MOMENT AGAIN.
OWING NOTHING TO NO ONE I AM FREE FROM
CORRUPTION.
PERVERSITY IS FINISHED FOR EVER.
GOODWILL FREED OF SOCIAL MORALITY COMES
EFFORTLESSLY.
ALL INTERNAL CONFLICTS ARE OVER.

I AM GENTLE AND PEACEFUL IN CHARACTER.


PHYSICAL UNIVERSE IS MAGNIFICENT.