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Todays Meditation
Closing your eyes now, in a room full of people. It can be scary, but it
doesnt need to; its okay Lin Ostler, during first class meditation of the
semester.
That statement made me tear up a bit, maybe because I feel very
vulnerable the majority of the time. My emotions from the statement helped
me to become more aware of my insecurities. Also, during this meditation, I
imagined my bones under my skin, and each major blood vessel pumping
throughout my body. I could feel and almost hear my blood flow; it was
soothingly alien to me.
Sep. 2nd
Mindfulness is offering yourself to the senses of the present. Paying attention
on purpose and not judgmentally; acceptance of present moment/reality.
Commit fully to being present; were not forcing ourselves to be judgmental,
calm, or stillsimply invite ourselves to interface balance/mindfulness; work
with what is present now.
Todays Meditation
Sep. 9th:
I could not sacrifice the bloom of the present moment Henry David
Thoreau
Breath Anchors used: three-part breath, diaphragm breathing, and Ojai.
Todays Meditation
Like with all my other meditations, it seems the hardest part is getting
pass the backpain. The pain trickling down my spine, and to my lower back,
keeps me from my thoughts (or lack thereof). I find that I keep myself from
stretching, and moving while Im trying to meditate, which, in turn, makes it
that much harder to meditate. So, I decided to let myself slowly stretch, with
my breathing, instead of forcing myself to be still. That eventually helped
feel when I think of this person. If I can fully, consciously, and unconsciously
love myself I will be able to fully love, or at the very least, humbly accept
everything else.
-Not healing the world, but honoring them, and being aware of their
existence-
Oct. 21st:
We are the night filled with glints of light, between the fish, and the moon;
while we sit here together Rumi
Why is it we choose language to express how we feel?
The River water moving in all rivers at onceare you jealous of the oceans
generosity?
fish swim in the huge, fluid freedom.
The above passages genuinely brought me gentle tears of appreciation of
beauty, and simplicity.
Todays Meditations
The first thought that came to mind was thinking itself. When you
asked to be aware of what the first thought was to come to our minds, my
thoughts were, what am I thinking? After the initial discomfort of moving
from my back to my stomach, I felt a cold release from the bottom of my
spine, up to my neck, and then my jaw; all places, of which hurt on a daily
basis. Once we rolled back over, from stomach to back I felt a warm energy
(or inner-tingling sensation) flow from the bottom of my jaw, down my spine,
until the top of my naval. Upon rolling over to my back that energy was
release, and perhaps mixed with what was still cold, and left a perfection of
temperature and overall comfort throughout the mentioned areas.
Oct. 28th:
Dont hide the candle of your clarity, standup, and burn into the night.
Rumi
When we are sitting by the fire, or with our breathing, trust the message of
your own life, mind, and feelingsstumble upon an ancient stillness.
-Wherever You Go, There You Are
Nov. 4th:
There is no point in trying to deceive the heart, it depends on honesty for
survival -Leo Buscal
Agape: Highest form of loveunconditional love, shown through your
actions.
Felio: Love that you have, thats committed, but platonic.
Storgo: Familial love, and devotion.
Eros: Romantic, passionate, and bright; a love that will burn itself out.
Consider, the honeymoon phase, or the Garden of Eden, where everything
is perfectfor a time.
Bhakti: Devotion, dedicating your life to some form of divine love, or
spirituality; the love of the higher self.
Do you allow yourself a sense of peace through creativity that allows you to
cultivate peace?
What makes your heart sing?
What are you unwilling to feel, experience, or surrender?
Do you love sharing things you love with others?
Todays Meditation
Heart Chakra Meditation: Bhakti to our meditation
The first question I embodied was, Can I share the things I love with
others, even with others that I love? The answer, truthfully, was no; I have
never fully shared my love of peace, nature, music, art, and knowledge with
anyone but myself. I asked myself why, and my heart told me it was because
I cannot put a consistent faith in trusting others, even those I truly love. Then
after this realization (as I have never thought about it before) and
acceptance of this deep truth, I asked, can I trust myself? Yes, although Im
not sure that I consciously do, and its a constant struggle, especially
differentiating between my subconscious fears, and past programming, and
my own intuition. However, I feel, and believe, and know that I can trust
myself, and that I must, in order to heal, and be able to fully love, and trust
others. I thought of how Ive become to lose my trust in those Ive loved, as I
dont believe thats been the case forever. I think that Ive reached a point
where I innately block the divine trust towards anything new, and therefore
has inevitably led to me doing so to the things I use to trust as well. This,
perhaps, is because of the betrayal, and cruelty of others, and even past
experiences within my own family circle that have led me to subconsciously
lump their potentially misplaced actions with those of others. I have
systematically let the intentional, and perhaps nonintentional malicious
thoughts, and behaviors of others, affect me negatively by blocking the
genuine love, trust, forgiveness, and humility I have for others, as well as
myself.
The most profound part of this meditation was at the very end, when
you asked to allow ourselves one last question before classs end. My heart,
and mind immediately thought/said/felt, I love you to myself. In the short,
yet seemingly long, twenty-four years I have been alive I have honestly
never ever thought or said that to myself with complete honesty. I have tried
to say it to myself in the past purposefully, but I have never genuinely
believed myself, or felt any love for myself; this time I did.
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I imagined the light radiance of green flow, and expand from my heart,
up my throat, and into the labyrinth of my mind, swiveling through the tiny
crevasses of my brain nodes, like a cool, green sand being poured into an ant
maze. Once the greenness was one with the naturally pink within my brain, I
felt, and envisioned my heart budding as a rose, and becoming fuller as they
do when exposed to the right amount of sunlight; I watched with my eyes
closed, as it illuminated my chest, and collided with the star-like particles of
green found above. Thank you.
Nov. 11th:
What is it I need to ask myself that I am afraid to say? What do I need to day
to find my voice; what is my secret chord? What is it youre afraid of to
speak, that you could say to the world, and the self?
What I need to say, Everyone just be quiet. Just stop, and breathe. I
love you all, the big, and the small; caught between the fork of it allwhat
paths that we might take, lead back again. There is no mistake, but time, and
time again.
It is important that awake people be AWAKE, or a breaking line may
discourage them back to sleep. The signals we give: yes, no, or maybe,
should be CLEAR. The darkness around is deep. We have to shine, and let
that crack open up, and have that light shine through.
Meditate to Hear in Silence
Todays Meditation
When the wind instrument, (clarinet, or oboe?) began in the song, Singing in
Tongues, I thought, we are all here and we are all alone, but I felt no
sadness about it. It was a relief almost, in that we only have ourselves to
answer to, and to work on, or with. In the end, we are only within ourselves,
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Stimulate your mind with good books, films, and experiences; knowledge is
a survival tool for your soul.
Todays Meditation
The sound of waves transferred in my mind to the rustling of leaves.
The image of dark green trees in a perfectly crowded forest emitted a soft
deep purple, dusty glow, getting lighter as the they reached the sky above
their home. The immediate imagery I received from this meditation, guided
by the sound of the Oceans waves, was very comforting, and relieving to be
something other than the ocean, as I havent had any good experiences
there.
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The Aitareya Brahmana of Rig Veda suggests that the three phonetic
components of Om (pronounced AUM) correspond to the three stages of
cosmic creation, and when it is read or said, it celebrates the creative powers
of the universe. The Upanishads have several connotations as well, including:
The sacred sound, the Vedas, the Udgitha (song of the universe), the infinite,
the all-encompassing, the whole world, the truth, the ultimate reality, the
finest essence, the cause of the Universe, the essence of life, the Brahman,
the Atman, the vehicle of deepest knowledge, and Self-knowledge. In regards
to Shvetashvatara Upanishad, the folling referenced text claims, Om as a
tool of meditation, empowering one to know the God within oneself, to
realize one's Atman (Soul, Self).
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Devanagari,
Jain symbol
Gujarati Assamese
Assamese,
Bengali, Oriya
Arya Samaj
Malayalam
Tibet
Siddham
Kannada
Bali, Indonesia
Telugu
Java, Indonesia
Grantha
Chinese
Tamil
Bibliography
For Om:
(Paul Deussen, Sixty Upanishads of the Veda, Volume 1, Motilal Banarsidass).
(Robert Hume (1921), Shvetashvatara Upanishad 1.14 1.16, The Thirteen
Principal Upanishads).
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Thank you,
Lin for
being an
important
stepping
stone in
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my path to
the higherself
With love, &
gratitude, Allye.
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