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Photo
by
Mollis,
Galveston,
Texas.
Fanny RuthvEn
Page:t,
Houston, Te:xas.
How
Know
that the
PUBLISHED
1917
BY
WASHINGTON.
D. C.
Copyright,
y
MAR -6 1917
CI.A455795
c/?/
CONTENTS.
Chapter
I
II
III
IV
V
VI
VII
VIII
IX
6i
The
A
A
tery.
XI
XII
XIII
The
''Choir Invisible.''
Defining Soul and Body.
Visions. Love Spiritualized
By Death.
XIV Back
XV
XVI
XVII
XVIII
XIX
Gethsemane.
Passing Into the Beyond.
Over the Borderland.
XX The
XXI
XXII
XXIII
XXIV
Red Darkens.
The "Power House" of Existence.
Panorama of Life As Lived On Earth.
Mundane Readjustment.
Mundane and Supermundane Relationship.
of Life Unifying
With the
Source of Life.
A Soul Relinking With Earth.
As THE Todays Became Yesterdays.
FOREWORD.
**Fools deride
In writing
this
philosophers
book
me
am
investigate.'^
yielding to a sense of
to offer to the
thinking and
came
am giving them
me
to
and unasked
to those
to avail
matter
as I
unsought
as
who
care
how
may
im-
when
nating mentality.
When
May
first
mani-
21st,
191
1, I
am
really
ourselves, to
which
it is
From
phenomena
to
the
needless for
with, nor
am
me
to say that I
am
not affiliated
The
al-
ways been attested by the universal instinct and believed by nearly every one, as it is the foundation of
Unfortunately, it has been so shrouded
all religions.
in mystery and uncertainty that its solution has engaged the prophets, sages and philosophers since be-
Wisdom
is nothing
our very materialistic
present; during which time there has been such a
persistence of evidence that we are compelled to admit that there is something, somewhere, not dreamt
of in our materialistic philosophy.
new under
the sun" to
this,
said ''There
CHAPTER
me
distinctly
to
my eyes
so
The equanimity
able.
minutes,
my
seat,
my mind
I
for a
few
again turned in
How
Know
That
rear,
as little
own
That
conversations.
from any
the sentence
of the passengers
was
thoughts or
as
conclusive as the
positive that I
within the
sound area?
my
assurance. One minute
was positive had heard
the next admitting the impossibility of When
I
it
it.
as I
was
know
that
if
dent of humanity to
sons
had heard
a sentence of
sufficiently a stu-
that
number
of per-
when
surance
of
it
on
shake
my
off
It
soul.
was
problem
could neither
became
restless, ill at
nor solve.
Torn by
the conflict of
it
my hat and
and
after putting
them
when
removed
traveling)
down with
delusion
lending
fancies. All of
myself
to the
which was
useless
most unreasonable
it
The Dead Are Alive
in
it
things.
Had
much
ness," so
my
^'strong
minded-
That which
things.
my
I
all
feel
this
it
being impossible,
determined
go unsolved in so far
foolish
it
seemed that
to dismiss it
as I was concerned.
had permitted myself
let
How
to in-
agination.
gathered up the
bulky Sunday paper and resumed reading with a
Forcibly dismissing the subject
that
How
lo
Know
That
such an acid
I give a
congruity of
And
then
it.
suddenly
a cold touch
was upon
my
it,
taking
my
less fingers,
it fell,
partly on the
it
My hand,
be-
Slowly
I relaxed,
thawed
out, as
it
to
betray
my
its
tled myself
hand, at
first
my
which I could feel and see, in so far as the indentations were concerned, but could not see the cause that
produced them. When the indentations on the hand
ceased, I could see shadowy fingers, so transparent
as to be scarcely perceptible, more of a suggestion
than a reality, moving up my arm, touching lightly
A moment later I felt them distinctly
as they went.
on
my
which outweighed
had
in '^creepiness" the
touch of the
cold.
came
hand
though smoothing it back in
a caressing way (producing anything but a caressing
My whole being seemed slipping into uneffect).
Distinctly
passing over
my
hair, as
my mind
How
12
Know
That
came nearer
and nearer, until I could feel its body pressing heavily against mine as it stood beside me.
As I waited
in agonized suspense two hands, instead of one, were
caressing my hair, then two cold palms were taking
my face between themselves after a moment there
was a gentle lifting pressure and I knew my head
was being thrown back my face lifted. I looked
up and caught the faintest glimpse of dark, luminous,
detached eyes looking down into mine the eyes
were all I saw the outline of the face shading into
that great, weird, awe-inspiring presence
nothingness.
I
my
my
face
away toward
the
stronger than
my ability to move or to
think coherent-
touches,
its
all
of
caresses
its
Meantime
that un-
upon me
until
awe merged
into resignation
feeling that I
while
less to control.
With
the
coming
shadowy
weird presence sat down beside me. I knew it was there could
have put my hand upon it without looking around,
but instead with my hand resting on the window sill
explain
it
to
myself
even then
13
I realized it
was
This most undesirable mental constraint was interrupted by a voice, softly calling my name ''Fanny."
Instinctively I turned toward the presence beside me
in a listening attitude without even a suggestion of
fear or uncertainty. The mystery of the voice was
solved.
that
ly,
is
thought
it,
feeling that
if this
apparition,
my
it
was,
by speaking aloud
to that
which
else.
wondered somewhat
left to
How
14
Know
That
turbance to which
me
were answered as
''It was better so."
My
strange."
"It
as
is
settled
eventuate,
back resigned
to
mode
of conversation, as the
"He
knew
the reference
15
pronoun I
more
as
me
to
it is
to those
who
would ask
read and
my
readers
utterance to that
which most
me
who
see
of us
would lock up
trembling
lest
some one
My spectral visitor,
find
it
out and
evidently
criticise.
most interesting to me, went on speaking of my husband-to-be and his political affairs, as one who knows,
disclosing many things of vital importance affecting
his interests, to
which
it is
Thus
I listened
dow
into
bowed
the
at the
wonder
blue-gray
eyes
of
it.
my
fiance
train
of
and
The
presas in-
How
i6
stinctively as
though
I
it
Know
out and
down
That
two hours.
CHAPTER
ij
II
my
fiance
and
his
them
across
intrude?"
made
^'No," I
except
I
as
had no
answer, as I was in no
way engaged
and
felt that I
mystery-laden voice
this
had
as to sit there
thinking of
knowledge it
displayed as to the contents of the letters and before
the answer was dictated anticipated accurately what
it was to be, adding a preview as to the final outcome
like
at the
of the correspondence.
I
it
was
all
over and
we adjourned
dining room for lunch, feeling relief to be removed from its incessant talking and prognosticato the
tions.
But fancy
my
surprise
when
perceived the
invisible presence
the table!
existence, I
ment
in
In an effort
which
all
three
became
so interested that I
How
Know
That
it to
In the afternoon
we went
to the theatre.
The
per-
formance consumed more time than we had anticipated, and on coming out found we had only a few
minutes in which to reach the depot in time for the
train.
Tired?
it
19
"I
am
here,"
came with
gentle promptness.
With
listened
little
"Who
How
20
Know
That
While
this
am
made
as-
surance.
"So you
The
shall be,"
came
memory's
tablet
to the
very
first
records of
inci-
dates,
It
is
When
speech
so
to
the
future?"
wave
struck
sation engulfed
me dumb;
to say "yes,"
like a vice
and
might answer
''Oh, don't
Quite
is
please
soft,
don't."
my
in contrast to
replied in a
"It
^*no."
lifted
myself that
21
dreamy way:
better so."
"
know
the
rest
applies
this
you
equally to the
spirit
world."
"Spirit world," I echoed, half wonderingly.
must be
a spirit," I
presence, until
"Now
it
mused almost
"It
forgetful of the
interrupted:
want you
to listen attentively."
The
voice began, so
marveled at it.
gan alternating high, low; harsh, gentle; soft, loud;
and while I wondered at such a proceeding, it quoted
softly in a far away, dreamy voice
still I
How
22
''How pure
With what
in heart
hour's
Know
That
and sound
in head,
affections bold,
Should be the
An
man whose
communion with
"The dead,"
mused and
the dead."
fell
under the
spell of
its
me
well as any
human
voice."
"Marvelous marvelous."
My companion was evidently delighted, which fact
pleased me and we entered into conversation as unreservedly as any two earth beings.
To
as to the
modus
oper-
may
be well to explain
that my questions and answers wer^e given at all times
mentally and under no circumstance did I ever speak
andi of such conversation
it
23
which to
would bear
the
the
semblance of madness.
This process of hearing
is
it
like, yet
wondrously un-
like, its
which
is
By
this re-
from within,
versa
is
the same.
When
electric
lights, gas
nection.
The
spiritual hearing,
which
is
a transmission of
ment thereof
ly
much
as the physical,
How
24
blankness
Know
That
is
Who
is
it
a listening
of without.
call his or
is
direction.
its
The body
belongs to the
body
is
dust.
It
is
The
communicates
As
realized in all
its
went on and on I
was in actual com-
it
fullness that I
to
'Why
know
that
''It
would be
better,
to believe
no doubt,"
blindly?"
admitted, and
25
me
me from
dreaminess into
the usual
How
26
Know
CHAPTER
That
III.
my
caused
childhood.
At
first I
am
here."
While
I half
'^I
me
expected
to
it
after ato
by a
startled
and
it
was
moved
cautiously
I stood
trembling
warm
May,
after
day.
Still
had no means
27
of defending myself.
do not
my
me most
With
and, fastening
distressingly.
out of the
I
room
passed hurriedly
many
upon me.
sank into a
chair, almost overcome by the many-sided mystery
that pressed in upon me on every side, and, summoning the fragment of remaining courage, I looked
about the room and was astounded at the apparitions,
the sensation of
ghosts, spirits
all stages of
eyes
in
ing amongst them, in which floated white, transparent hands and glimpses of faces and forms dimly dis-
room and
How
28
ness,
which spurred me
Know
That
into action.
It
effect.
shake
it
off entirely I
of times, "I
am
repeated to myself a
there somewhere.
my
number
In an effort
To
knew
to
be
with proud unconcern into the dressing room and began preparations for retirement, my thoughts filled
with something more tangible than ghosts and such
things, which I kept consciously shut out of my
mentality.
I had a most distressing time unhooking the closeranged hooks and eyes on my dress that fastened up
the back and as I labored with it I could feel hands
touching mine, as though assisting in the operation,
yet I stubbornly ignored that which I knew would
demoralize if recognized and proceeded as placidly
as such an enforced attitude would permit.
No sooner were my shoulders bared than an open
hand, humanly warm, pressed upon one shoulder
and passed perceptibly across the back to the other.
29
and the
fact that he
execute
it,
was
sufficient to frighten
one
ability to
less
timid
than myself.
sense of
many
eyes
the tears as I
made
my arm
and
heard
a reproachful
voice saying:
'^Fanny, don't you
'^Unfortunately, I do not
somewhat
bitterly.
afraid."
"I
am
if
surance.
How
30
Know
That
dates,
month
indiscriminately.
criminate, therefore,
It
was
while
until
tirely
felt
my
to
me
voice
with the
came
in
offer-
upon
contrition soothingly
"Do
istence on earth.
They
at the time," I
com-
plained.
"It
would be
whom
is
few with
when one
it is
The
voice in-
"Now
"Very well,"
began,
still
I assented,
memory;
all
This accomplished, I
hurried into the bed room to be confronted by a real
dilemma that of putting out the light and facing the
ghosts in the darkness! This does not sound nearly
so formidable as it really was. It was a combination
thority the voice assumed.
much
for
31
unmoved contemplation.
its
As
fancied
and counted
was twelve
No. There was no need of debating on the subject
any further be locked
with the ghosts was bad
enough
the darkness
the light but
was impos thing not be thought
remembered
every stroke
o'clock.
it
in
to
in
sible
in
had
that I
it
to
of.
a little night
its
illumination, and a
few minutes
later I
it
ventured.
I sorely regretted
leaving
my
little,
who had
home
of the friend
room with me
He
was
al-
ways
in the
at night,
alone!
though
above.
stood in
it
Then
How
32
Know
That
dering
where
at the
knew
the night
Then
grew and grew upon me until it was something dreadful and I closed my eyes
to shut out the sight of anything that might confront
me in the chilly darkness. I felt a presence coming
nearer and instinctly lifted my hand to ward it off.
A cold grasp met my hand and pressed it firmly
downward, until it rested by my side, with all the
I
knew and
a great fear
it,
and
a voice stern
with
re-
''Fear
"Why?"
came
I
demanded.
my
head
child), shut
wildly.
(as I
my
done
so often
as a
frightened
knew
had
33
the presence
it
seemed,
re-
move
the cover
feeling
it
manded
For an
it
might
But
am notnow/^
so laden
with
it.
made answer
truth-
who
nounced that
much
my
its
"Am
its extremity
impotency."
superior to fear
"That remains
Then
so
it,
so,
as if to
to
is
to
now?"
to
recognize the
I
exfull-
asked eagerly.
be seen."
test
the other
; ;
How
34
Know
That
caught glimpses
Blazing
eyes shone fieetingly from behind the clouds; vapory
hands reached toward me in entreaty and voices came
pleadingly, while I watched them eagerly, unafraid.
I could feel their touches, feel the bed tremble and
shake under their manifestations but was no longer
I
afraid
quite
the contrary.
The
weird, wondrous
Amid
And
"One
two,"
counted.
The
me
of
its
of the
Unseen
in the spirit
finality:
goodnight."
What
my
and listened
The Dead Are Alive
treating footfalls on the stairs
and
galleries,
to
mind might
it.
Whether we
convincing
Then
realize
to the
as if
mind
which
add
a touch of reality
or not, there
it
as
35
better grasp
is
nothing so
sound.
rest of
me
it,
until the
I drifted
morning
When
awoke
I sat
up
in
guiltily, half
I sat
tion."
"As you
riot
within and
was
How
36
Know
That
not accept
ral"
to
less of the
When
the day,
it
The
a tentative
presence never
prom-
left
me
upon me while
I resisted it
while I denied its existence and was
fighting against unconditional surrender.
At the
same time I realized that a priceless jewel was being
offered me I wanted to take it, to hold it, to press it
to my heart, yet was afraid to touch it
afraid to
have it touch me a fear that was not physical but
was a feeling as inexplicable as the cause of it. To
accept would be to form all my conceptions and conI
its
force
compromise
And
of pride.
my
con-
37
CHAPTER IV
SHADOWS OF NIGHT.
When night came again and I was locked within
my apartments my little dog was with me playing
about while I changed my street clothes for more
comfortable house apparel.
When I sat down to read the evening paper he lay
on a sofa pillow at my feet, evidently free from any
disturbing influence. In a few minutes he jumped
my
barking furiously at some invisible object. I tried to comfort him but to no avail.
Suddenly the barking ceased, the tenseness went out
of his body and he trembled violently, dumb with
fear. Thoroughly alarmed I arose with him, walked
about, talking to him, but in his endeavor to keep the
object of his perturbation under observation, he came
so near falling out of my arms that I placed him on
the bed and sat down beside him. Instantly he jumped
wildly off and ran under it, crouching as far back as
possible, with trembling in his body and fear in his
I made every effort to coax him out but he
eyes.
only wagged his tail feebly and looked miserable,
refusing to move. Wondering what had so frightened him I looked searchingly about the room but
there was nothing unusual in its appearance, not even
a suggestion of the supernatural other than a coldness out of harmony with the temperature of the day.
Again I tried to coax him out but when he persistently refused his attitude of dejection so appealed to
me that I crawled under and brought him out against
his inclination. After a little while his fears subsided and I put him on the bed, covering him up com-
hurriedly into
lap,
How
38
pletely.
Know
That
window and
sat
where the
tangled
then single
file,
heard pertaining
all
of
memory.
viewed
passed on leaving a
wake, shedding no light
on the present, which half irritated me, causing me
to swing with the pendulum to the other extreme and
try with all the intensity of which I was capable to
convince myself the whole thing was a fabric of
fancy that science could never justify such foolish-
sense of insufficiency in
as it
its
ness.
A voice startled me
"I
let
"As you
I
knew
deceive yourself?"
myself hush, please,
will."
the
my mind backward
into the
my
face
entities of
away and
it if it
my intensity of
so
purpose.
comedy
enormously outweighed by
I was, perplexed be-
There
39
yond endurance, trying desperately to summon evidence from the pages of the past when all around and
about me, waiting upon my acceptance or rejection,
was evidence enough to convince the whole world.
I was however like the rest of the world
did not
care to be convinced.
This time I went far back, even violating childhood by digging up the ^'hant" stories of my old black
nurse (black mammy) with which she had induced
sleep when my childish perseverity ignored her
crooning lullabies. She had an array of cellar, attic,
old house ''hants," but her favorite and most effective
one, in so far as I was concerned, was that of a headless ^'nigger" who had ^'hanted" "de quarter" after
the war, in which he had lost his head, and, according
to her version, was always looking for a head to appropriate, caring little whether it was white or colored. Here is where my childish interest began and
ended.
No
matter
how
strong
my
inclination
had
How
40
they told her
many
Know
things,
That
little
retailed
psychic
who
was sorry for her but not sorry enough to act toward
her as I now would have others act toward me.
Later this sensitive little flower was transplanted
to another garden far from the ridicule that had made
her life unbearable, all for daring to tell what I now
know was the truth.
I dwelt painfully upon this incident for some time,
I
even after all these years, chiding myself for the part
I played in it.
Then shaking it off with an effort I passed on over a psychologically barren period
from childhood to young womanhood, where an incident, with practically nothing in common with the
present, clamored for recognition, and as it belongs
to the
tific
family of things not measurable by the scienmay as well record it, although the
yardstick, I
I sat
up
pecting to see
my
sister,
for surely
it
41
how
the intelligence
wondered if, after all, it was not a matspeaking to soul, differing from the present
only in the souls being disembodied. It is reasonable
to suppose, I contended, that a soul is the same entity
within or out of the body. Why not? I was embodied and in communication with the disembodied,
manifesting the same principle under different environments.
As I was casting about for some other incident to
festations, I
ter of soul
contended.
satisfy
came
half ironically.
down
when
I strayed
which gave
to
me
my
ridicule.
So powerful
is
the
42
period in memory, in
my
me
startled
"And
so the
to the pres-
ent?"
and looking up in
from whence came the voice, my eyes
the direction
"Who
sponse.
different times
amazement.
"Yes; and you have existed since time began but
that matters little at present."
"What
"Your co-operation."
"That would be an easy matter if you would only
explain the mystery of your coming where you
came from why you came and all about it. Tell
me plainly what is required of me."
"Has life, in any of its phases, ever been explained
to
what way
is it
^^Yes;
The
it
is
life, is
the subconscious
no exception."
not
part the soul
a part of life?
of everybody's life."
43
a part
it is
life.
life,
not?"
"No.
the
exist-
demand some
came back
to
me:
It
was thus
until
in a tone
that intruded
dreaming that
upon my
that which
materialistic views,
I
never
And now
store of
unearthly
me
stillness
shrink a
and
little as I
made
How
44
knew
not what.
Know
That
me
forward,
as a
voice
was saying:
''Come, bathe in the light of the victory that
is
yours."
As
me
that
all scintillating as
were coming and going interThere was something so restfully fascinating about it that sleep threatened to come in and shut
it out, when suddenly, standing beside the bed was a
tall, dark person, illuminated from head to feet by a
scintillating light which came from within and lighted up the body like an electric light does the globe
which incloses it. This time the luminous eyes blazed
into mine unflinchingly, as in awe I whispered
''Meon?"
"Yes Meon," came the confirmation, as I watched
it slowly vanish, noting with wonder that the light
within which had illuminated the body, was the last
of miniature lightning
mittently.
thing to disappear.
Before
it
disappeared,
it
stood
still
45
beside me.
And
thus,
How
4^
Know
That
CHAPTER V.
FORGING LINKS
When morning came,
IN
after
THE CHAIN.
with a guilty sense of having abused the night by indulging a dark, untellable secret something that I
dared not tell. Despite the wonder and beauty of it
knew.
This companionship with the Invisible had established itself into a permanency and I was never without conscious knowledge of
its
existence.
When
in
whom
conversed.
To
this
at times, I
"The touch
And
During the
of a vanished
hand
is still."
person in question was to me an open book something seemed to impress every condition of his or her
the future as well as the
life upon my mentality
while
Another noticeable
this condition
effect
was
that
that
scintillated,
one color
the
body)
not only
47
but
increased
to another.
in different persons
tended in persons in public life than otherwise. Under ordinary conditions this light is barely perceptible even to the occult vision.
And thus the days went on as I struggled to adjust
myself to living in two worlds, eaSh exacting its ob-
ever,
was
this, I
it
go
let
at that.
after retiring
Meon came
ing
am
my
absence."
While
I listened for
In
rest.
my
heart thanking
Meon
for his
been intense,
and relaxed
me
had
was upon
As
How
48
Know
That
listening
so
when
more
manded
startling
what it meant.
promptness the answer came:
"Oh, nothing.
note
We
the effect."
With
With
this a
my
little
As
from matter
The Dead Are Alive
49
As
of spirit life
a disillusioning phase, I
new phase
must admit
so real that
it
frightened
me
some
The
room and
dressing room,
upon me,
when
is
ance and
peals of laughter
effort.
It
find
obey
my
persisted in refusing
was equal
to the exertion, I
in a
He
50
How
alive,
Know
which
That
fact
my resentment and I
means of suppressing the annoyance, when a calm,,
challenging voice came:
"Why did you not command us to go, after which
we could not have remained?"
"Go now and never return," I commanded, with
company could be so
After listening to them go and
came
upon me,
my harshness but not
enough to recall them, as I did not care to have my
little dog frightened to death, to say nothing of myI half regretted
self.
to the
preconceived ideas
as to
is
is
greater.
While
more or
less, to
communihis or her,
disillusionment.
When
51
making it a matter of
came or not.
The next day the desire was strong upon me to tell
these strange things to some one who could underout
further disturbances,
all
stand
I
if
remembered
my
manicurist,
who
this
connection
When
came out
it
dogmatic.
As
wonder
to
known
their discredit,
my life.
it
is
made me
freethinker and I
knew my
action
all
the
How
52
agony of
of
my
it
Know
I arrived at the
away
inquiry
for the
That
Temple to
summer!
my digres-
sion.
me! Science, where the supernatural is concerned, had laid its sceptre down; the
flag of materialism had fallen into the hands of
Knowledge; the dark door of death had swung on
its creaking hinges, revealing a light beyond which
consumes the darkness that makes us tremble on its
threshold truly I seemed to have changed my perhad
that
affected
sonality
and
I had.
The same
if it is
true "as a
to all
man
thinketh, so he
is,"
how
different!
As
my
landlady
pate
what
to call
the night
take no chances
my fiance
and
early, as I
La
this
end
in
me and would
his
where I expected to
party and spend the day cruisPorte,
With
of
eight-thirty train to
meet
me
might require
view
we
both enjoyed.
during the
La
after-
Porte, as a
was thus
I lay
53
its
the
How
54
Know
That
CHAPTER VI.
WITH THE COMING OF THE DAWN.
"Get out of bed," I stood up and moved uncermiddle of the room, noting a suggestion
of the dawn in the semishadows that played about
and the gray that pressed upon the window panes.
This I noted with surprise as I fancied the night still
young, feeling that I had slept only a very short time.
tainly to the
The
as to the time.
down
As
the shades,"
it
giving the directions and was pleased that he had returned but refrained from expressing myself there;
on, as
in process of manifestation.
After sitting as directed for a few minutes, drowsiness came over me, the heaviness of which caused me
to forget that there was no back to the stool and my
55
Thoroughly awakened,
scrambled up,
heart because of the
astrously.
little
my
face, fixing
my
moved, with
a rolling
efifect,
few seconds,
it
where
it
make
Thus suspended,
began quivering into nothingness and darkness was over everyness of the room.
it
thing.
While
about
spot
there was
this,
where
I sat
it
distinct,
moving
noise-
How
^6
lessly
in
Know
circular waves
That
toward the
easel,
which
The
individualized
until
pale,
illumination
bluish
more pronounced
ly effulgent
The
as
it,
As
gazed upon
suddenly there came down,
and
its
area.
vibrating
whiteness, lighting
revealing to
canvas,
upon
my
where only
world! I
daring obliteration, with rescuing intentions, but
my rising attempt was firmly suppressed by a power,
not as of hands, but a concentrated force, more powerful and impressive, that forced me down with an
emphasis that checked even the desire to rise.
Held by this strange power I began wondering if
it was possible that I could be dreaming, at the same
time, felt convinced that I was not. Be that as it may,
I was not satisfied and wanted something tangible
that would bear material evidence when the light of
in the
this
First,
57
where
command
to arise;
be with unreality.
As
easel
plainly discernible.
How
58
merged
into vibrations,
tremblings.
scuring
Know
it
The shadow
entirely
from
That
and vibrations
came down,
of darkness
my vision,
into visible
ob-
abruptly changing
came on
my
face,
hands and
would
assure
hair, as
me
that I
though
was not
The
my
ly with expectation.
difficult,
eyes, and my
Slowly the dark curtain was
its
soft meshes.
As
it
spread over the entire room, it encompassed me within its glow, and I stared at that which stood before
me, fully revealed and recognizable.
In the quivering whiteness the picture frame
seemed only a window and standing out beyond it,
looking at me with love in their eyes and happiness
59
lifted that I
still
lived
in the mystic
No
my heart
its
love to
gazing
held by the
credness held
as
an impromptu reception
spell of
me
it
And
still I
sat
sa-
within
itself,
powerless to turn
away from where the shadowy footprints of unreality had just fallen on the register of reality, breaking down the barrier between the two.
I was startled by the landlady's knock on the door,
punctuated by:
'^It is time to get up."
The little dog, barking furiously, rushed from his
refuge under the bed, glad, no doubt, to have some
real, live, human being to take issue with, while I
She entered with a
arose and unlocked the door.
cup of hot coffee, the one thing I needed most, as I
was very cold and my nerves not up to their usual
standard of steadiness.
As I stood holding the coffee, expressing
preciation therefor, I examined the
which I
had now
my
ap-
mute witnesses
partly on the floor; the one slipper, heel up; the ring
my
onyx
slab.
How
6o
Know
That
proceeded with
visible almost
by her question
'^Aren'tyou well?"
"Perfectly," I replied hastily, but realizing that
would be
indisposition
my
distrait
"You know
manner,
getting
added, forcing a
little
laugh,
inharmonious
of
this
"Thank you
no,"
my
my
CHAPTER
A
6l
VII.
^Tatti, I
familiar
it
came
here,"
startled
me
SEA.
was
Not
"Lillian?"
intensity not
then
know
had passed
of
my
sound came
unmixed with
as I listened
with
who
ever so addressed
me
all
came
the
perfume
of violets,
which
thing you
it is
it
if
really I."
am
free,
joyous
way
that
made my
heart
bound with
de-
How
62
Know
That
am
enough
free
to pass
recognized
me
me
see
your face,"
"Let
I will
I insisted.
when
come
in different
vibrations."
"But what
is
prise.
steps
fol-
a pleasant
day.
As we drove toward
side
the depot I felt a presence belooking around I saw Lillian as dishad ever seen her in life, with her laugh-
me and
tinctly as I
lips.
almost as quickly
as I
unreal.
63
if
the truth."
me
"I
am
all
would almost
The greatest exclusiveness marked my attitude toward them, as I devoted myself to reasoning rather
than audience giving. There were too many. The
the doors of
my
it.
held
At
same time I
was wishing ardently that there was some one with
whom I could intelligently share my secret some
one who could understand some one who could
swim in the deep waters on which I floated aimlessly, tossed by the vagaries of its currents, without even
a knowledge of its depths.
or sounds of the supernatural.
the
How
64
"La
that
it
My
Porte," the
startled
me
Know
brakeman
That
cried,
seat.
cold touches
met the
made me
train
goodbye."
Once begun
it
to shut
as
we
An
hour
later
we were steaming
make
gold-
The Dead Are Alive
65
my
showed the effect of the nervous strain unI had been for the past week.
I was exceedingly proud of my reputation as a marksman,
and having no desire to forfeit it, feigned some trivial
casion
der which
something
Some
also.
as the noise
some
(although
it
is
when
to
them for
reason.
alities
by which
was surrounded.
pearls
softest
A dream picture
my wedding
dress,
itself
upon
I
my
seemed
thoughts
to see
my-
How
66
Know
That
a voice interrupted
How
it,
you will
it."
preposterous!
absurdity of
that dress
despite all of
at the
my dream
again.
To more
as
it
were,
somewhat
down
tired,
as nothing.
In about an hour,
weighed
so heavily
"Tired?" asked
way, and
sat
down
had
upon me.
my
fiance in a matter-of-course
beside me.
he said:
"And
so
it
is,"
and
as if
by mutual consent we
set-
fol-
The Dead Are Alive
67
grew beside the ship chanfrom Houston to the sea. The fragrance
of the blooming magnolias filled the air with a sweet
heaviness the birds and butterflies were singing and
flitting everywhere with a joyousness that was coniage and wild flowers that
nel that leads
tageous.
As I gazed enraptured, with my heart in perfect accord with nature's harmonious offering, the scene
changed just merged into something quite different.
I no longer looked at trees, vines, flowers and
flitting birds but was staring with wide open eyes, far
out over hills and valleys unto a mountain, leading
up
the side of
upon
fiance
in
silent
me more
How
68
Know
That
than anything the forces of mystery had yet confronted me with. I could not move my eyes from
the scene
mad
impulse seized me to throw myself overboard and thus end the tyranny of this mysterious
force that held me in a bondage that I could neither
explain to myself nor to any one else and there seemed
no escaping it. Any fate seemed preferable to madness
the very thought was maddening. With this
alternative uppermost in my mind I arose and walked
to the aft of the boat, weighing the matter in all its
phases. When this mad impulse threatened to be-
come
hand
fell
upon
my
upon
a chair,
and
a stern voice
was saying
"How cowardly thousands have spent their lives
working and praying for one little crumb from such
a feast as is being served to you without the asking."
"Why
plained.
not serve
"If you
it
with
less bitterness?"
sorely
my
soul
is
com-
things to me.
being tried."
69
exist," I per-
sisted.
''Yes,
but suppose
questioned solicitously:
ofif
the lethargy
my
my
into
from
The invisibles were
its wind-tossed dishevelment.
even in there manifesting themselves.
I felt my-
self
immune
hair
feeling
that the
surprise element
into
Heaven or
if
Then
deck
waiting.
the boat
just in
How
70
Know
CHAPTER
That
VIII.
A CHILL-LADEN PROMISE.
We
proceeded directly to a cafe and ordered dinner in accordance with the ravenous appetites the sea
always gives when it does not entirely destroy.
As we
ate I perceived
what
heard:
an invisible presence beside me, but as the physical was clamoring for consideration I ignored it, very much as I had done, or
rather tried to do, during the day.
But it was insistent, refusing to be ignored, manifesting its protestation by touching me, pulling my sleeve and
whispering '^listen," until, more to relieve myself of
its nagging than anything else, I listened with as little
change in my outward demeanor as possible and this
is
him you
Tuesday night."
The knife and fork went slowly down and remained so for a moment, then I arranged them in
the manner that indicates the termination of a meal
and sat back amid emotions struggling with stupefaction.
A more choice diminisher of appetite was
beyond serving or conception
"Tell
'^So this
stared
me
at,
tude:
''Not finished already?"
thing
How
it.
this intangible
71
as
thing
and now
mine
I possessed, to
it
was
be reconsent by
to
and bear me
away to some mystic realm which the pen of the
historian had never violated
a mystery which to
quessolve was to become a part of, I hesitated
tioned it. Why had it waited until the star of love
had arisen in the firmament of my life, illuminating
me, ready
to take
me
into
its
icy clasp
it,
making
it
ated?
''Are
which
you
ill?"
startled
came
me
almost painfully,
as
my fiance,
with some-
He
my
took
How
72
summoned
Know
That
sufficient
demanded almost
"Nonsense
fiercely:
why
sonable?"
"I know it," I defended in a tone as convincing
could
I
command, yet realizing its ineffectiveness.
"Well
ing at
commented,
me
as
glar-
suggested he considered
it
a fancy
unworthy
of his
My
my
duty, as I regarded
it,
in the premises, I
put on
"When
abstractedly, look-
it
Then
it
release.
little girl,
73
feel better
that
was
a creature of an-
other realm.
Any
it is
over
Meon
interrupted:
is
are because he
to
make such
startling statement."
Someway
I resented
my
"It was
I
intention
human sympathy
I felt the
need of
now
want none."
came
softly,
How
74
I
indulged in
its
Know
That
the discord
"When you
Upon my
arrival I
go alone.
A few minutes later we were in the office and I was
ready to execute that which was required of me.
After the windows were raised and fans turned on
down and began writing according to the dictasat
I
tion of the voice that was to my companions inaudible. I had explained to them that it was a "matter
of business that admitted of no delay," and, no matter
what they thought they were courteous enough to
make no comment. The writing concerned the disposal of my personal property and personal matters
not of interest to one not intimately concerned, therefore, it is useless to inflict the reader with such details.
To me it was a very serious matter.
As the midnight hour approached a warning voice
came
"Tarry not
after twelve
at
o'clock."
thirty.
it
elevenuntil
75
ing:
"We
will go now."
we
two, three
Then
off,
the
started
hand pressing
me.
striking, one,
it
until
space.
felt
falling
into
How
76
Know
CHAPTER
That
IX.
asked eagerly:
"How
are you,
I tried
far
little girl?''
away and
remained for some time until the "pressure" of distance gave way and I could feel his warm hand
holding my icy one, of which before I was not conIt seemed I had just come out from under
scious.
a great burden and a thrill of joy passed over me
as I noted the pleasure mirrored in his face at my
return to consciousness. I smiled with an effort and
almost drifted out again as I was very weak and
dominated by a sense of belonging to another world,
the requirements of which were paramount. Thus
for a long time I remained in semi-consciousness,
ready to pass into another realm or remain in this
with equal indifference nothing seemed to matter.
"Your
indisposition so worried
me
that I remained
came
call
when
77
for me."
am
it
deserved.
my
said:
'^Goodnight, and
"Tomorrow"
happy dreams
until
tomorrow."
lingered in a tantalizing
way long
had gone and I mentally reiterated "tomorrow tomorrow," wondering vaguely what the morrow would really bring, and as if a part of the half
dream I heard Mrs. P the landlady, telling the
doctor over the phone that I was resting well and
again
that she would call him first thing tomorrow
tomorrow," as though it
I repeated "tomorrow
were an incantation which would reveal in advance
after he
its
necro-
logical aspects in
It
myself
How
78
Know
That
It
men
should fear
to
die;
you are
"Come
call
you
then and
if
lie
need be."
At
first
me
I will
"I
would much
to sleep lying
rather
up
sit
I'm
afraid
I'll
go
down."
"I will call you, I promise, if need be," I reassured her, for of all kind women she was the kindest,
out a moment's
rest,
me
all
night with-
a splendid
example of
unselfishness.
might eventuate.
few
notes
Music!
at first, then soft, mellow
strains, so low and far away that I had to consciously
shut out all other sounds and lift up my inner self,
as it were, to hear, and even then it was tantalizingly
indifference for anything that
just a
indefinable.
mosphere.
little
round
lights roll-
79
and emitted
cold breaths of air, which made me shiver ever and
anon. Caressing voices seemed to come from everywhere as beautiful, diophanous forms passed and repassed, beings which long ago my childish fancy
would have painted ''angels," just a dream page
from the long-forgotten book of childhood.
Thus half dreaming, half waking, I passed into
the sleep from which I expected to awaken in another world (for which I was neither glad nor sorry), and which was just a drifting out beyond consciousness as an unanchored boat might drift out
from the shore.
tinted clouds that floated undulatingly,
The
next thing I
remember
was
up-
sitting bolt
what
ment
startling a
in
I
so
had
come?"
myself back on the pillows which Mrs. P had readjusted, she having been awakened by my sudden
springing up. To her inquiry as to what the matter
was, I replied:
query.
am
perfectly resigned."
How
8o
Know
That
to themselves.
permeate everything.
apprehensive bitterness in
to
til
became weary
seemed
There was something of
my
its
intensity,
whom
I felt
need-
Then
the voice
came
so
suddenly
it
startled
to
me
come?"
rising sar-
feeling that
to
it.
why
understand
of life
when
I felt willing
my
reviewing
casually
past
life,
8i
from which no
asked:
"There
we
no virtue in generosity
is
love or those to
whom
it is
to those
whom
who
the bed.
That
At
Then came
a question
all
things else:
"What
"I was
of
your free-thinking?"
but,"
er
How
82
weight of
self
Know
That
know
dif-
ferent."
''Rather
not?"
late, is it
"So it is," I admitted, and an awful agonizing moment passed before the voice came again:
"That is not so bad. Thought is as much a matter
of evolution as anything else
in fact more so. The
truth which is to liberate the world is actually waiting upon thought evolution."
my soul had
That there was no condemnation
aright?
dence."
yet such
"If there be a
demand some
heard
for
me
God
if
tangible evi-
if
"When you
there are other
emnly, but
for that
my
soul
Tuesday
nights,"
came
which seemed
to
me
so
to feel
thankful
depressingly un-
83
would you
you are or would you dress for the occasion?"
''Dress for the occasion, of course," I made answer
promptly, wondering what spirits had to do with
theatres and vice versa.
"Yet you would permit your soul to enter into a far
"If you gave a box party at the theatre
go
as
"I do not
know how
"We
ir-
which sobered me
so
"That
is
well;
now we can
take
up
the subject
demands."
"I am listening," I said meekly, settling down to
the seriousness I felt was required of me (and it was
no pretense). I had had my lesson.
it
How
84
"No
error,"
Know
That
all
"must
soft,
one
false
the goal
is
per-
fection."
"The
simplicity of
you, but
remember
be faithful in
rrtuch'
"I pledge
I
my
^he
who
the
is
little
great things
things of everyday
the soul
tests."
soul
was strong
and small,"
prom-
in the
ise of fulfillment.
"A
it
were
made
had
you must
better
it
That
we must
mundane
admit, as
(2)
(the
law of
action).
embracing
all living
the
(the
all
mankind)
law of Divinity).
structions.
mind.
85
though
it
were but
a con-
was the
last injunction.
It
me
considered
all
that
my
to me very
mind, tabu-
seriously
and reviewed
lating
As
it
it
carefully in
in.
it
required a renewal of
ness
my
my
pledge, in
made the
things."
Then
soul again
all serious-
it
to overflowing,
but
who
little
shrouded
in
How
86
only by
its
own
Know
light
My knowledge
for himself.
That
can
it
it
to say it
to duplicate
After the
many
had been, at
and the room grew gray-
materialized
intrude
itself
upon
its
light.
come and
I looked out
upon
87
world that was as changed, in so far as I was concerned, as though I had in reality passed into the
beyond I realized then it would never be the same
and it never has been.
old world to me again
;
How
88
Know
CHAPTER
That
X.
the day
wore on
weak
it
came
seemed im-
come
it.
Then
determined
bathe
to
regardless of consequences.
It
was well
pected
determination
brought forth
floated
into
speech,
which
on the bed
weak and
side,
where
then
seemed no weight.
instead there
me
89
force, suggestive
which came
strength
remained with
to use,
until
to
me
me
as a
me
as before.
Yet an under-
one.
going
my
in.
paid very
when
surprise
it
little
it but fancy
expecting it to be
attention to
stepped into
it,
so
shock.
made
as to the
we
course,
all
No
process.
explanation was
Of
pro-
sound?
friends
may
Of
suggest
course,
my
proximity
am
leaving
much
of
what
who
am
writing to the
where
How
90
as
Know
That
are,
me insists that
am just passing
who
these mani-
care to investigate
by the requirements.
How changed the whole world seemed! Instead
of joyous anticipation at the coming of my Beloved
in the evening I dreaded his coming with a guilty
sense of deception, feeling that I would rather have
died any death than to have lived to face him, a
living
exemplification
of
prevarication,
illusion,
madness or what
I so
wanted
to explain to
him
tell
him
just
how
it
was patent
as the
to all, for
baths gave
many
which
was very
grateful,
delightful diversions.
In-
The
The Dead Are Alive
ful stories
which
who knows?
A
to
me
it
91
was very
cloudy, rainy
waited in absolute
certainty for that which long delayed its coming
as I
way
just
the sunrise.
is
much
to re-
alize just how blank and empty life can really be. It
seemed utterly impossible to take up the burden again
to act in accordance with the persistent requirements which my promise of ^^faithfulness" involved.
The temptation to denounce it all was strong upon
me it seemed some hallucination or delusion was
chaining me to itself that I had to free myself of it
and I would! Rash were the resolves I made and
meant to abide by! Chief among these was, that I
would get up out of bed, that I would never listen
to another voice and never do another thing that was
included in my promise of "faithfulness."
This inharmonious mood lasted until well into the
afternoon until time for the bath, which I had
promised myself, in all seriousness, that I would not
take.
of
Then
left
the sensation
undone, began
How
92
Know
That
As
it
tion of
my
face
ceeded with the ''showering," but the attraction increased with such absorbing insistence that I again
took the hose firmly in my hand and held it near my
eyes with the same result, only to have the same irresistible attraction hold me when I began bathing
again. This time I held it up with the resolve that
I
would
either allay
its
disturbing attractiveness or
mode
of
93
my
face in
my
face, parallel
When
it
touches your
was
I
as distinctly discernible as
never saw
it
except
Rarely
my
However,
which my face
face.
as a reflection in
shared.
How
94
death ever in
my
Know
That
mind, which,
at that time,
me
seemed
receptive to
My
was
so
weak
Nothing
strengthened me, although I took the medicines prescribed by the doctors, rigidly
plainingly.
tried to
re-
quired of
forces,
tween
life
a receiving
station
and reader,
ing
my
approach of an undesirable
presence, which I met with the command "depart,"
and in no sense was this command violated. However, in a few instances the presence would stop and
plead to be permitted to come nearer, as though it
tion but could feel the
but that
95
"still
small
When
battle.
haps
this
which
shared in these rejoicings feeling that perwas my passport to that ''far country" into
my
and
music
fell
Then
upon me
like a benediction.
and
How
96
Know
CHAPTER
That
XI.
beyond
it
is
it
we
seek to attain.
B^ETHOVE^N.
I
was
so depressed,
that despite
stalled.
tor's
my
From
weak and
listless
the beginning
recommendations that
it
My little
The Dead Are Alive
97
to
forgetful
jump on
tail
of
at
caution
safe
he
distance.
would
when he noted
Somerun and
different vibration.
seemed
to
fulness within
tra,
as I lay in
Then suddenly
happy
rest-
stillness
the
it.
How
98
Know
it
That
as a
profane thing in
harmony
it
apart
is
only
a shadow.
who
physician
sat
on
one
raging in
doctor
the
fury
silence, yet
When
its
the night
felt
my
pulse,
eagerly, motioning to
which he
way
professionally at
my
father to
to
first,
come
day the
then
nearer,
One long
my
face.
99
my
father,
who
^'Thank God,"
he considered
my
and I
which caused
sciousness
sic,"
replied ardently:
me
my
eyes
him:
''That
No
is
understand when I made referhad heard so I gradually refrained from speaking of it, storing it away in
one seemed
to
since remained.
who
reality,
is
one
a mystical un-
it it is
more than
real.
On waking
morning
How
lOO
Know
That
my
acquaintances.
wished
my
was
fiance
less
so tragic as
While
Mrs.
her
S,
it
then seemed.
in this unenviable
came
as she
is
of
in,
and
whose very presence exudes sympathetic understanding. With a cheery "How are you, dear?" she came
directly to the bed and sat down beside me. Demonstrating my pleasure at her coming, I laid my hand
caressingly on her arm. In an instant a strong force,
loi
above
all,
me
as
though
storage in here
Fm
freezing."
While perspiring
to feel cold in
paid the
In the evening
lighted that
my
when my
fiance
came he was
de-
saw that I would be well in a few days if such improvement continued. I refrained from mentioning
the cause but assured him that I was feeling splendidly, and we chatted unreservedly of things that suggested themselves without intruding upon the subject that had come like the serpent in Eden, and imparted to me wisdom of which he knew nothing, and
How
I02
Know
That
which formed
forget that I
to pass
beyond
my
this realm.
invisible,"
soul
would
lift
CHAPTER
103
XII.
in
same
the
it is
all.
given
spirit is
to
every
m^n
to profit withal.
"For
to
one
another, the
is
word of knowledge by
the
same
to
spirit.
"To another
"But
all this
viding to every
man
spirit, di-
severally as he will."
FIRST CORINTHIANS
12; 6
tO II.
volt in
my
soul against
what seemed
trivial require-
ments and needless delay. A reproving voice intruded itself into my rebellious consciousness
'Why do you permit such thoughts to dominate
you?"
''I am tired of life and everything in it," I replied,
as petulantly as I felt.
"Everytime you
fall into
move
How
I04
Know
know
^'Then
leaving
not of
explain
must
it
to
me
instead of
you must
live
to
know
its
death you
die."
no death," I insisted.
the name by which the birth into the higher
*^But there
"It
life
life
attending tortures?"
"To know
That
is
the
"Tell
is
real life
me
about
it,
is
recognized."
wont you?"
interest.
awe
me
way between
mal
The
natural did
it
seem that
So
al-
With
my
my
vases,
105
beautiful, brought
and
Pedestals,
impromptu and
flowing.
when
the night
came
grance with
my
dreams.
whom
How
io6
Know
That
my
inclination to disobey, I arose cautiously creeping on tiptoe to the table with fear and trembling
for the lives of
my vases
when
tion to myself
up
into
my
moment beside
only compelled
me
While
much
as a rose,
leaving
me
which caused me
A voice came in
to
refrain
from further
it.
a tone
107
my
was
so
weak and
as I felt sleep
"What?"
that I
was
a victim of suggestion.
it
off,
I told
feeling
myself in
was not cold at all but was instead comfortably warm and honestly tried to feel
myself so, even when the sense of coldness became
I could
so intense that to deny it was unreasonable.
have cried out for cover though the night was hot,
with a sultry threatening of rain in the atmosphere
and not a breath of air stirring.
all
seriousness that I
How
io8
and spreading
Know
itself in
That
pale illumination.
The
prove
its
my
upon
it
hair generally
if to reassure myself
to
reached out my hand, still reand took a piece of fern that lay
presence
table
is
at
hair,
my
which
face, as
it
unconfined).
A
foot,
came
moment
speech gone.
remember the
impulse of tearing myself away from it, which gradually gave place to resignation and observation.
The very atmosphere in the room seemed electrified, alive, and out of its quivering vibrations came
the form of my mother, who stood by the bedside
looking down upon me lovingly and tenderly with
She wore a gray dressing
great illuminated eyes.
gown, which I recognized as the one she had worn
when last I saw her in the earth life. In her hand
she held a gorgeous white flower, stretching it toward
me, almost touching my face with it. The fragrance
seemed to fill the entire room, neutralizing, over-
flowers,
and
my mood
109
me
to
kiss her and tell her how glad I was that she had
come, but this being impossible, I cried out mentally:
"Mama little mama speak to me."
"The body
is
to the soul
what
the flower
is
to the
ing
if
of those
the possessions
still
do they
have souls at all? Was there really no end to perplexing problems to press in upon one from every side?
My attention was diverted by Meon standing before
me, plainer and more illuminated than I ever had
seen
He
looked into
my
my
Then
felt
myself
to
be
How
lo
Know
That
could
moved
it
Then
in
body and
uses
independent
only for the convenience of
it
the soul or
is
The body
life.
spirit
is
the real
is
life,
When
this conviction
was
full
upon me
a voice
well
it is
many
well," and
spirits joined in
me
body was
gently lowered on the bed, head on pillow, more pera
as
the
It
is
impos-
mony with
when
one's "foot
goes to sleep."
the
was
as
memory
slumber that
of the night
Long
after sunrise
when
rose of red, in
fern
my
was tangled
in
my
left
my
opened
my
eyes there
right
hand was
crushed
How
112
Know
CHAPTER
That
XIII.
LOVE SPIRITUALIZED BY
VISIONS.
DEATH.
The
me
with
closing
my
when
where
had
tossed them.
in
in fact,
a creature of
another world.
super-sensitiveness gave
way to
While
as
from
intently.
the con-
is
in
its
it?
The knowledge
of
its
real
infancy."
wished that
discriminatingly, as by
my
had
113
listened
more
indifference, I doubtless
exist in
in this
knows ?
When
weak and
and invited sleep
with something of a longing for it. But it did not
come. Instead I lay wide awake thinking in a listnight came I was glad, as I was
weary almost
less,
to unconsciousness,
my
consciousness closed to
Distrait,
semi-darkness,
room and discern a slowly gathering mist, which became so pronounced that it obscured the walls and
objects in the room. Then it began growing in scope
until it became boundless in expanse, lights and colors
mingling and intermingling in it. Then it took on
the look of the sea, as though it were, in fact, water;
showing the inhabitants of the sea, ^'those under the
crust of her roof and those above it," exercising a potent, invisible
power which
There were
How
114
Know
That
more
fleetness
and
it.
terrible blackness, as of a
upon
and unperturbed;
down beneath
made, passed
and there was
something ominous about it. Then a change came
over the scene and when the white mist showed again
there was a darkness within it, which I perceived represented land with its cities, rivers, lakes, trees and
flowers.
There were the inhabitants, those on the
earth and those in the air about and above it, in appearance so like that it was difficult to distinguish one
kind from the other except for the positions mainothers,
differently
tained.
Then came
115
map and
prehensiveness.
which
such phenomena presented themselves but they came
only when I was too weak and ill to care whether
they came or not. I have tried to ^^call up" something
This, however, was not the only occasion on
How
ii6
Know
That
dream
pictures of loveliness to
which
did
Be
that as
it
to
The
against
my
was determined
to
The
when one
is
"sitting" seen
to
weak
be done
what seamed
in
all
it
judgment.
almost too
something had
desolation,
end
my
to lift one's
hands!
But
had
one
just to think I
world
like the
bloody horrors
at
as a giant
then a valley of
all
of
to
me and
it
seemed that
could forsee awful things. Then I would try to persuade myself that it had no meaning and when it
persisted I could only take consolation in feeling that
17
While
little
(Written
nephew,
whom
welcomed
as a
January, 1916.)
was during the summer of 191 1 that this series of manifestations presented itself it was nearly two years before I put it in
manuscript form and not until September, 1913, that I first made an
At that time a world's war seemed
effort to interest a publisher in it.
such a remote possibility that publishers were not inclined to risk it
to say nothing of the subject matter of the book in general.
After
several unsuccessful efforts at publication I finally modified the "war
visions," changing them from well defined outlines into the general
form in which they remain. I then continued taxing publishers with
the manuscript until the war materialized when I put it regretfully aside,
But now that the
as a thing that had failed, and tried to forget it.
war comes nearer the end, perhaps a pre-vision as to its outcome
might be of interest At any rate I find myself restless under a reawakened desire to have it published.
The manifestations were generally heralded by the assembling of
the flags of the nations. That of Germany came first and others would
come floating in, one by one, and all would wave about, intermingling,
until they became a conglomerated mass from which they would
finally emerge stained by a redness as of blood, rendering some almost
it
came
in
Turkey
is
inevitable.
And England?
have home
rule.
There
is
brotherhood.
How
ii8
Know
That
And
want
to kiss
him."
"Oh,
my babymy
this
time I
little
down
boy."
to
mine
felt distinctly a
lips
I again kissed
it
and mine,
as
its
mother's in-
visible
19
tightly clasped to
it
felt
what
holy
a sacred,
The
ness.
its
il-
joy,
a deathless love.
When
puzzled way
who
me
in a
ness?
side,
dead child
who
tremor
in his voice
"Yes,"
"How
tired
and
ill
you look
me and
"Not
sort of
way,
as talking
lips
had
kiss
difficult for
my
by conveying a
and death. There-
fore, I closed
until I
him, in a mumbling
was rather
my
was equal
membered
so well,
life
it.
came
gentle voice
like a caress:
which
I re-
How
I20
"Thank
him.
you, dear,
Know
That
was for
this I
it
"There
no death! the
is
stars
little
body.
go down.
And
The
For
dear,
all the
Is life
How
immortal
boundless universe
there
wanted
spirits tread,
is
no dead."
to tell this
mourned
dead stood beside them radiantly happy, bathing them doubly in her purified love
child they
as
The Dead Are Alive
CHAPTER
121
XIV.
tented
indifference,
which
peaceful
joyousness
sometimes imparts.
It was nearing midnight before I drifted into a
sleep from which I was rudely awakened by a loud
knocking, which became ever louder and more pronounced.
I sat up quickly, staring inquiringly in
the direction from whence it came. As the noise came
from the direction parallel to my head I was obliged
to turn around as well as to sit up in order to see
what it was. So numerous had been my surprises
during the previous weeks that I had come to regard
myself as being immune from surprise and I now
realized that I had grievously erred in
this,
as
to see
coming back
across
Moving
acteristic as to
that of
my
among thousands
had made his life on
be recognizable
father.
crutch
it
me was
into eter-
How
122
nity!
My
Know
my
fondness for
That
father
made
the contem-
With
my
anguish
^'Oh,
I cried
papa
out
is it
**Yes, child, it
you
is
I,"
really
came
eyes riveted on
you?"
him coming
awed whisper
'Why
in
it,
life,
too?"
known anyway."
"One soon
to
guard against
attracts
and by keeping your spirit pure only the highcan come into spirit communion with you."
So intense had been my interest as I listened that I
like,'
est
my
still
feet crossed
"You used
cramped
He seemed
sitting in a
under me.
to sit that
way
nearly
all
123
the light."
^^I
am
glad
now
glad
to
know you
still
it is
all a
beautiful birth as
"Tell
me
about
all
it,"
all
"The
is
much
in those
asked in astonish-
ment.
"It
is
"How many
is
are there?"
by the traditional
busy unlearning
"Are things
not all."
You know
beliefs
as I
as
so different?"
"In so far as everlasting punishment and a localized Hell and Heaven are concerned, yes; but we
must not discuss such things, let's talk about children,
as I have not long to remain."
"Very well, papa," I assented, trying to suppress
my disappointment that he had so abruptly changed
After speaking
the subject most interesting to me.
with loving solicitude of each of his children, calling
them by name, he turned away saying:
How
124
Know
That
'*No
not
things I
as
so soon," I protested.
want you
to explain to
When
"There
tient,
is
much you
very patient
will be given to
goodbye."
I called
I called after
him
tell
me
to die?"
be pa-
know
am
going to
no an-
down
On
again.
when my
fiance
came
125
I at-
''I
too
was gone.
The
next day, to
statue, pedestal
my
utter bereavement,
every
it
background for ghostly manipulations but so desolate in appearance that these words kept running
ceaselessly through my brain
"Bare ruined choirs where
sang."
late the
sweet birds
How
126
Know
That
CHAPTER XV.
WRITING.
When
me
of mistaken kindness
As
restless
I perceived that my
mental direction with
the usual swiftness and accuracy but I charged it to
my weakness and tried to continue. The pencil was
my
127
from the paper in the middle of a word and almost removed from my hand. I began again but it
was pulled at, touched, shaken and lifted with such
persistence that at last I gave up writing as the letters were not of such importance that they had to be
executed under such stress. Thus arguing I lay back
disgusted, with the pencil relaxed between my
fingers. No sooner had I done so than a numbness, as
of something coming down into my arm and permeating it, was distinctly felt, rendering the arm
and hand utterly useless. This I regarded very seriously, as fear of paralysis was upon me; but thoroughly alarmed as I was there was something that
pressed against removing the hand from the positiou
in which it was, and I could only regard it apprehensively. Then I saw the hand vibrating and the
pencil, independent of my direction, assume a writing position and, propelled by a force and guided by
an intelligence outside of my own, began writing,
yes, writing with my own hand yet I did not
know what it was until I read it. How wonderful
it seemed and ''still the wonder grew" when I discovered some of the writing was in a language I did
lifted
not understand!
Then
the rain
came down
torrentially, lightning
How
128
Know
That
it
were.
THE CASTLE ME
I dwell in the Castle
Me
And
For
I'll
I'll
leave
it
go away
here below
no longer need
it
had never
Harbored a human
Just as tho'
it
soul.
While I go on my journey
Unto regions of light
Where
there'll
And
Now
re-read
it
be no sorrowing
there will
as I
come no
night.
its
a sense of
independence
the ego, as a
29
body a recognition of
thing apart from the body and yet man-
ifesting within
of the
it.
me
but
rarely exercise
as I write this
book
it
what
is
my
Even
the use?
constantly combat
efiforts
of in-
a record of
it
my
personal experiences, I
less of
how
may sound
it
it
came
am
to
it is
recording
me, regard-
such interferences.
Using the pencil was not the only phase of this independent writing that manifested itself through me.
On numerous occasions invisible hands have taken
mine and with my index finger written on walls,
doors, portieres, bed or anything convenient
even
on my lap. Where there was no visible result each
word was spelled out slowly, letter by letter, as my
mind accepted and retained it. If for any reason a
letter was obscure or I failed to grasp it, it was im-
At first all writings were accomplished by pronounced vibrations of the hand but gradually this
ceased and the hand appeared practically normal.
While admitting this form of writing to be one of
the most w^onderful phases of my psychological experiences,
hand
is
irresponsible
to
beings,
it is
When
generally taken
be near and
in
it
the
if
levity
accordance with
How
130
Know
That
is
as often
misleading
cannot touch
us, therefore,
when
which are
really
will do
And
of the universe
create
its
kind.
world our
in the study of
keynote
it is
much what
life,
only more
so.
Our
131
is
in the earth
what
is
attracts them.
my benumbed hand
selves in a meaningless
way
before
my
eyes, continu-
Hands would
take
closed
my
in
letters
my
first
very desperation I
would
despise writing
How
132
Know
That
had
last seen
them.
end."
And
be
thus another
its
place
CHAPTER
133
XVI.
is
a natural body
and there
is
a spiritual body/'
St.
Paul.
*'I
according
to
my
promise.
my
compliance
I protested in a
As
went
subcon-
any other
was
tired of
it!
room
succumbed
of the invisible
world and
its
requirements.
Again
With one
foot poised in
mid
at
myself stretched
My
tion of
it
there I lay
other.
there I stood
Common
me
which
joining
come
twins!
why
my
''other self"
of explaining
at the
impossibilities forbade
in the bath; beside
one / gazing
had waited
it
an opportunity
How
134
While watching
life,
it
Know
eagerly
That
began evidencing
it
ing a bath
somewhat as I looked at it
there / stood looking at it, watching it manifest life,
and acting as I would act. Then almost suddenly
distinctit became dual as it struggled in the water
ly I could see another body, shadowy but dej&ned, an
the glove.
and
continued
to
pulling
about
until
again and
again.
Then
the
the
midway between
up
tionless.
They did
still
and mo-
readjustment
up
what seemed
to
start all
and
is
moved
apparent
in the water.
impossible to conceive of
how
physical
in
back and
over again while the physical body lay white
still
It
135
It
trying
to
fascinating and
it
held
me
ob-
to force itself
out of the
The
windows, the nose and ears drew away, but the mouth
remained firm. I realized that I was being shown
the modus operandi of the separation of the soul
from the body and truly it was a grewsomely wonderful thing to look upon.
tion
jumped
a voice so startled
amid
me
nearly
tion.
water.
forced solicitude:
"How
stupid of
me
long
to
permit you
to
remain so
at once."
my
How
136
Know
That
on her I went into bed with a heart heavy with disappointment, feeling that but for ill-timed interruption, my eyes would have feasted upon the mystery
of mysteries
and
the
earth abode.
its
With
Then
wondering vaguely
the water,
was
if it were the
was not hers. Strange that one person
such things and another cannot! Yet such is
there,
still
the apparition
if
power
to see it
can see
a truth that
When
can be demonstrated.
came
in she
it
seemed
my mind
looked
seemed
which
shut
it
it
most
knew
was incarcerated.
it
Shutting
felt a
escape?
when
it.
my
In fancy
I al-
I think there
tation in the
oft- repeated
question
'Where
to
is
the
soul?"
to
137
And now
'^I do not know."
knowledge was wonderfully up-
know and
did
the
lifting spiritually.
human
in the
earth
earth.
Water
the soul of
is
human
Water
earth.
When
mother
goes
each
spirit
was upon
body
within was calling to other ^'shadows" that had been
released from their prisons of flesh and they came renewing the promise of my release and we all rejoiced
together. My body had become a thing apart and I
no longer included it in thought of myself it was
now a useless thing from which I would soon escape.
night and the magic of
everything
it all
its
stillness
the '^shadow"
Then
in a sense of humility, I
wonderful experience,
given to
to
me
instead of one
knowledge,
this
more
spiritually worthy,
one of the
effort
to
thought of
it
the
more
the
responsibility
of
the
As
little
song,
which
files
as a child, I
of
memory came
the thread of
my
insinuated
as tho' it be-
How
138
night every
Know
That
were
it
a thing of today
melody
church nestling
the cool, green trees, saw the flowers and half
dilapidated grounds, the solemn gravestones (sentinels of the dead) in the distance as I looked out of
the window. In the Sunday School choir with me
were the same little girls with their fluffy skirts and
curly hair the same little boys with hair wet and
plastered down, fumbling nervously with catechisms,
pealing forth
its
in the little
among
looked
at until
they came
singing:
it
a kindness
on. Pass
it
shown?
on,
Let
it
travel
Till in
Pass
half
down
it
on.
the years
Lpt
And
on, Pass
it
it
it
on. Pass
it
on."
The Dead Are Alive
nurse" touched
me
139
series.
touched
me
the
A
depopulated.
invisible
chilly depression
made
the bath as
it
a loneliness so intense
one asks
for
me
if I
am
ever lonely,
is
"Yes, sometimes
my own company to be
strikes a responsive
And now
was
my
heavy heart, I turned my eyes to the nurse, a mundane creature, for companionship and consolation.
How
140
Know
That
'What
is it,
dear?"
nothing.
^'Oh, nothing
being sick"
to
made answer
am
so tired
downpour
as a
tired of
of tears
tional
and having the ability to enforce it. I felt this force and recognized it yet was
compelled to take pills and medicines until the sight
and effect of them almost made me really ill, for the
nurse having a professional sense of duty never let
by
a force desiring
a period
it
which demanded
But
this
day
my
enforced
loneliness
than
fill
an otherwise lonely
more
intellectual than I
then
my
my
It was
was then
being.
it
whisper or a tapping;
listened until hope turned ashes and weariness sifted
I felt like holding
its torturing despair into my soul.
up
my
hands
upon me
141
me
to those
tirely.
Nor
way
noon gave
preying
had offendedwhether
to afternoon
still
heart I waited.
The
ing that
my
''Aren't
when
you going
to
bathe today?"
And
I'll just
take a
as I felt really
unequal
to it in
him
to
every way.
whom
me
Then
had made
and I felt
me from
ing that
alone
if I
my
modity.
my
faithfulness
Then
it
promises
was indeed
when
left
cheap com-
With
this
and
me
went
Wondering
at this
How
142
Know
That
realizing
my
how
and
it
between
my
It
fingers.
it.
it
in
melted
I held the
my
it.
just a
from my hand, beings of the invisible, cloudrobed and frostily-white floated about, while the
**choir invisible" added its harmony. Rainbows and
crystals seemed intermingling in the radiant whiteness and I felt as one with the pure creatures that
hovered about, as the "shadow" body within me, in
independence of the physical environment felt
fallen
stronger and
association with
its
kind
all
was
a sense of
143
to describe
Infinitude interpenetrated
to
would be
all,
be
to
including
me.
So far had
mundane
I drifted
that the
in long today."
And
thus
How
144
Know
CHAPTER
That
XVII.
GETHSEMANE.
"The broad minded see the truth in
narrow minded see only the differences
"You
me
into
When
was about
to
ed:
"No more
sponded submissively:
"I shall take no more."
Evidently pleased at what she considered an easy
added:
"You may
take
better,
but not
me
been stained
my
in
the past on
its
my
terrestial
soul
had
journey
tifully
demonstrated that
no doubt as
"And now,"
my
it
was no longer
so,
and had
left
to
transition." In
profound humility
I told myself,
"I
am
I
it
was
that
preparations, at
felt
completely compensated by
Even now
tion.
145
this
one manifesta-
bound
even in the
who
who
The last class Schopenhauer must have
mind when he said: "Naked truth is out of
will not.
had
in
make
it
can
only
It
is
its
easier for
vestigate
The
soul's
or not just as
we
will.
make
When Columbus
intention of going in
announced his
search of another world which
How
146
Know
seas,
That
self
when once upon it, the evidence of life appears. The sea has laws that must
be complied with before we can become intimate
cannot discover
this
but
know what
think or say.
which
I felt
was near
realization,
I lay
with
transition,
my mind wandered
to a
fore
my
147
see
how
I look."
away
comply with
to
returned, handing
"Your
looks."
illness
me
my
request,
and
in a
moment
as
an encourage-
changed.
blance of
it
did I
see.
my
How
148
Know
That
v.rhat I
gateway.
"No, not
with
a sigh of unrest I laid the glass face down on the bed
and tried to convince myself that it was all a delusion,
that my sight had become impaired by constantly seethat,
it
cannot be,"
I told myself, as
And
ance of
all
argued
to
myself that
this Christ
which
so fortified
me
mentally that
149
had vanished and with this assurance I raised the mirror and again looked into it.
I almost dropped it so great was the shock; it was
I
nearer, much nearer and wonderfully magnified.
never looked upon anything that so aflfected me, es-
pecially so
when
moved
As
looked fixedly
at
it
the hands
opened
could
that
was
sorrowfully: ^'Gethsemane
Gethsemane,"
and
soft
voices took
mirror
face, to
at the reflection of
which
my own
pale, disturbed
mirror
down reverently, face up, and thought long and earnestly.
All noises seemed sacriligious. I remember
these
I laid the
into
my
thoughts:
How
150
Know
That
it
smiles or scorns
roses,
Christ with
thorns."
The
me saying
"We are
all
Christs
corporated within
all.
He
is
the
is
in-
all
God."
shocking this sounded for
How
"still,
pered and
"He
moment but
the
is
knew
it
the perfect
was
true.
man
Like the
With
power uprising
power of an embryo God
I feel the
a glorious
And
lifts
wall
it
surrounds
me up from
me
the sod."
151
by listening attentively
to the
lence," said:
'When
come again
garden
of sorrows."
Was
me
Christ telling
"We may
that he
led.
Gethsemane, Gethsemane
Each his own Gethsemane."
skies
How
152
Know
CHAPTER
That
XVIII.
"Eat nothing; drink nothing/' so the breakfast remained untasted, while I wondered at a command
so strangely at variance with all mundane require-
My
ments.
from those
protest
interested in
my
physical welfare.
When my
fiance came in the evening and remonwas strongly tempted to confess all but
when this temptation was strongest, I remembered
a motto hanging over his desk: "The Head That Is
Loaded With Wisdom Does Not Leak At The
Mouth," and refrained, realizing that my confession
might be productive of more harm than good. I thus
forced him to place his own construction on what apstrated,
peared
to
The
be "obstinate foolishness" on
my
part.
were brought
to me only to be carried away. I really did not want
them, as I was neither hungry nor thirsty. In some
splendidly beautiful way I was protected against the
physical inconvenience and distress that otherwise
would have attended so complete a fast.
It was then I felt most keenly the responsibility of
living in two worlds
each exacting its obligations.
finest wines, delicacies
and
fruits
To
ible
in
me were drawing
as
heavily on the
Bank
of Pa-
was and
so tried to impress
153
upon them
my
They
On
with
my
seating himself
came
characteristically straight to
the point.
Devil but
let's
point-
edly:
"Will you?"
"No," I replied, feeling
screaming
had
that I
settled
down upon
us.
When
it
seemed
or not.
How
154
Know
That
tenseness
ity to respond.
He
took
my
cold hand,
felt the
pulse
and come back but when I heard the gate click with
more emphasis than usual I knew my wishing was
in vain. That icy good-night seemed a living thing
which tantalized and chilled me, making me feel
like calling him back to explain to him, regardless
of consequences, that
a
would forbid
he should know.
the telling of
what
The Dead Are Alive
155
whispered ''Hush
for the last time,"
''Why
let
me
hold
my
love to
my
heart
and then
"So
have
from world
by
world."
so I have," I admitted
more
to
myself
made me wonder why her sleepAs far as I was concerned the dis^
tressing
How
1^6
Know
That
loved
causing
me
me
to
the
weak
me
to act as directed
pointment.
to this
existence.
my
cherished
who
me in
those
holding
soul only to be
up
When
mundane
"Forgive
me,"
whispered,
contritely,
"you
I am."
A flood of joy burst upon
and again the controlling Power held me passive.
Slowly I turned, adjusted the pillows, arranged
my night clothing comfortably, shook my hair loose,
pushed the covers away so they would not touch me
and lay down, first in one position, then in another,
me
As
my
a soft
hand pressed
"Remember
my
than before.
am
thine,
my
me
157
as
thou wilt/*
its
pace.
went; waves of
amid
soft variegated
colors,
undulating
apprehensive feeling
what seemed
little
lest a real
shock come.
detached electric
Then
lights, illuminat-
ed the whiteness in a most weird and fantastic manner during which time the shocks became quite dis-
tinct.
Dream
faces
came
Then slowly
me
there
tric-laden lightness,
How
158
Know
That
would touch me and draw away when the shocks became too pronounced, only to return and repeat the
process again and again until finally the shocks were
no longer perceptible and I had the sensation of being
a part of them, of being electrified, as it were. Then
with a vibrating, quivering movement it spread itself
over my body, enveloping me entirely, holding me
within itself, as it settled down with a suggestion of
permanency. It was with considerable wonder I
tried to analyze this strange scintillating, vital, living
was
essence.
It
gestion of fire as
^'Can
this
a live thing
we know
wonderful
it.
beautiful
this
thing
be
death?"
is
back and
in
birth
is
in unison
is
voices, I
lifted
is
realization.
in
it
up
I
its
could feel
who
my blood turning
sail
cold
upon
its
could
waters.
feel the
159
There was
was conscious
still.
Then
and knew
was the ''shadow" body struggling for reitself from its prison of flesh.
Little lapses of consciousness came and went as the
''Shadow" body adjusted and readjusted its sails and
helm in conformity with the beacon light ahead, as
the shore it was leaving became dimmer and dimmer.
Suddenly it stopped upon the "still waters" of the
channel and as seabird to its mate, it called to a
loved one who remained on the darkening shore,
lease
it
"good-bye,
my
While lingering
love."
in
regret
its
The
night was
come
it
was dark,
so
dark
was
"Welcome
to
Death,
And
let
me
Thou
from thee;
me."
draw near
worn out
dress
from
How
i6o
Know
CHAPTER
That
XIX.
it
fascinated
me
as
it
in a
slightly parted
left
i6i
had no further use. However, I felt a protective kindliness toward it; it had been a faithful
servant, executing my every wish and whim and now
that I had passed beyond the range of its services, it
which
my
pleased
fancy to robe
it
much
dress, the
to
me
in quite a different
As though responding
thought
sleeping beneath
1
my
tory sensation.
I
to
seemed
me
tinctly
side of
to last
the object of
my
solicitude.
As
saw the shadow body more disthan the physical. Viewed from the other
life, the '^shadow" body seemed the original
I
and the physical the duplicate, the soul the real, the
body the unreal. Within and interpenetrating all
was a light, which I had not before perceived as being a part of the spiritual anatomy. This light penetrated from within, both the shadow and physical
bodies, maintaining through and about the body an
aura or illumination which enveloped it; clothing
it, as it were, in a magnetized illumination.
How
wonderful
this
three-in-one
life-manifestation
seemed, especially
the one
when we
the physical!
How
i62
Someway, how
a mental
Know
That
It was like
Yet the difference of view-
different he seemed!
vivisection.
moved
a little nearer
not startle
him from
^'Dearest, I
am
my
so that I
me
might
his slumber.
my presence
He moaned
cal consciousness.
tried to help
and turned
restlessly
and said:
"Such dreams I deamed she was dead." So he
had really heard without recognizing it.
Now that he was awake I came yet a little nearer,
confident that he would see and hear me, for I stood
very near him and called softly: "I am here, dear,"
but he only seemed more restless and sighed more
deeply.
my
death as he
end
to
make
his
settled
down
to
in
first
163
all
knowing
never
called,
that he
my
hear
while
how ardently I
every way minus the
voice no matter
in
physical body.
Then
or see
ment
I fell to
me and
Mine was
more
'^cross
like a
his
easy matter to
move out
With
called to
How
164
movement.
mundane
for
Know
That
wonder and
beyond which
to
interests
to
chide myself
me
had
though in-
I realized I
passed.
viting
began
My
My
pass beyond
it,
it,
understand
I tried to
it
to
wrest from
it its
reason
marked
persistence.
my
shadow
of earth
pitting
its
Then
was moving
way,
within the propelling vibration and when I stopped
darkness enveloped me not a sight nor a sound
just oppressive heavy darkness, with the sensation of
being alone in eternity weighing heavily upon me, as
I waited in awesome uncertainty.
I
easily in an undulating
At
first this
pressive; but I
too,
had
its
within me.
was
it
dark
My
that the
me
165
it
As
Meon
it
all,
asked solemnly:
Rather
one must admit when I was
adjust myself to the condition of having
a disturbing question
trying to
come!
that
if
And now
the
was
to
go?
remember
feeling
he did not
we were
in
in a
Meon, knowing
my
thoughts, interrupted
choosing
my
destiny, in a
i66
How
Know
That
real, I cried
out
in exultation:
Heaven."
''That is well," he made answer evenly, as the
electrified vibrations began manifesting and he stood
in a listening attitude which I simulated.
In a moment I distinctly heard the word "Come" and with
a soft, bluish light playing about and enveloping us,
we floated out on the undulating waves of space.
'^To the very highest
CHAPTER
167
XX.
my
body through
space.
And
so
we went on
held
my
attention until
sensation of being
considerations.
was
listening, trying to
hear what
Meon, and
asked
''Tell
me, please,"
I persisted,
with increasing
in-
terest.
"Ask no
questions
that which
is
for
you
to
know
Thus rebuked
was mistaken
Then
surely I
it
How
68
'^Are
we
vinced that
''Yes,
Know
That
we
within
were.
its
magnetism or
spiritual gravita-
tion."
"Why?"
"Earth's interests hold them."
my
teacher.
these
invisible
human
influences,
The Dead Are Alive
169
mundane
existence
much
one
is
as the psy-
mundane
Disem-
the
wondered
my
As
my
spiritual vision
how
is,
the
God
human being
is
principle
stronger.
How
ijo
making
Know
That
If
we could
all life,
"Knowledge
wherewith
We fly to Heaven."
The one thing I would like to impress upon every
one
is
there
is
is
the wings
no matter
remain in darkness (and long
no soul irretrievably
lost,
before the
As
of the place I
my destination?
Meon relieved my
"Did not
suspense promptly:
his ascension?"
itself upon my conwas nothing suggestive of
the orthodox Hell of fire and brimstone. It was red
but certainly not fire, nor did it have any of the at-
intruded
tributes of
fire.
The Dead Are Alive
171
this
went boldly further into the darkness, as if to wrest every secret from it, but I had not
gone far when a voice from the very depths arrested
me and I fell back listening and a voice unlike any
I had yet heard was saying:
environment,
sins
Somehow
and grew
kept recurring to
thought.
retrospective.
me
until
remembered
(a
it
became
memory
my
theme of
not altogether
that that
my
arguments against the existence of the Christ. I renumber of Gods or Christs that according
to Theological History (and Mythological) had
"descended into Hell and risen again the third day."
There were Krishna, the Hindoo God; Zoroaster,
the Persian God; Osiris, Egyptian God; Baldur,
Scandinavian God; Quetzalcoatle, Mexican God;
as well as the virgin-born saviors Horus, Adonis,
Bacchus, Hercules and Mercury, the Word and
Messenger of God. Many Christs in many different
called the
There was
religions.
Meon
Buddha.
"To
all
Lord
interrupted gently:
man
these ideals
came
nations
knew
less
What
a difference one's
same circumstances!
How
172
Know
That
which had been the ultimate in the negative now occupied the same position in the affirmative.
As I pondered over these things I felt myself again
within the vibratory propelling force and heard the
word, ''Come."
duty compels me to incorporate
within a book the undesirable condition just described.
I would choose, were the choice mine, to
I regret a sense of
embody only
that
which
is
thinking makes
it
so,"
exists,
that which
regardless of
not be.
we know
what our
is
evil
is
but
when we
disagreeable to us)
theories
may
or
may
and the
lives
we
really live.
CHAPTER
173
XXI.
as I could.
me the air was charged with moving begoing ever onward, some going swiftly, while
others plodded along as though their burdens had
not been sufficiently lightened for the requirements
All about
ings,
of the journey.
my
scope of vision.
goodbye.
With
this
dawn
of another
How
174
Know
Thai
me
as
er world, asking
me
me
as we might of one who comes from the realms beyond the earth. They were full of faith, love and
certainty as to an "after life" and seemed spiritually
far in advance of the earth, yet they were perfectly
familiar with earth-life and its conditions, evidently
having lived on earth, nor were they entirely free
from the magnetism of earth interests, as I saw some
going earthward, as though drawn by something of
paramount importance. They would dive, as it
were, quickly and easily, into the Red Darkness and
gradually become one with its redness.
While there seemed no doubt that these people
once inhabited the earth, I saw no one I had ever
known in this life. They had possibly progressed
there out of the darkness and would go back to help
those less fortunate into the higher condition which
they had attained.
As I wondered at it all, the dimness of the soft,
silvery light and other things which I did not understand, a voice came
"To eyes grown accustomed to the darkness this
light
"It
is
is
brilliant."
beautiful
mitted mercy of
held
me
very beautiful"
its
softness,
added
command
went
my own
istence the
convenience
"Dawn World/'
175
for so
it
seemed,
as
it
was
company with
brating onward
So enchanting was
this riding
on vibratory waves
The
Wonderful was
gaze
rock beneath."
the sight that
met
my
enraptured
of whiteness, boundless in
on earth, for
How
176
The
nificence.
Know
That
which colors,
harmonizing in the most delicate way, were coming
and going, ever changing. Electricity seemed to be
the power which held it all together, as the electric
blue would merge into violet and play incessantly, in
a serpentine way, into which almost imperceptible
yellowish streams seemed to flow. It was self-illumglass of a variegated whiteness, into
inated.
This
really I
am
we
is
it
requires,
so
ing upon
it
go
it
at that,
my
entire
though harmonizing the body with its magnetism. At first this was not altogether a pleasant
sensation but after getting into harmony with it all
mysteries seemed dissolved the very atmosphere exuded knowledge, free and flowing for the mentality
body,
as
to feed
tain
upon
as there
is
is
free
and flowing
seemed that
It
mine
as I
all
the
stood there.
wisdom
was
mysteries,
one
who
and
understood.
177
nothing
else to
to teach
them,
communwere no distance.
They
though there
as
The
humanity.
souls
selves.
''The
will just
go
let' it
Once again
at that.
had made
itself
even
manifest
me
Now,
it
this great
me
all
with
its
How
178
ing
itself
Know
That
space, illuminating as
it
ness,
away
power
that seems to
Suddenly
me
it
tele-
it
House"
which
in
I stood,
and up through
"Power
this living
its people.
Over
was a sense of a living connection between this
place and the earth, as the darkness slowly obscured
the earth and my vision passed out of harmonious
While
within
me
that
its
made me know
my
I still
its
that there
influence, as
looked
down
was no such
it
interpene-
it
as the
wondered how
The Dead Are Alive
179
mate evolutes
would greatly
Nor
is
facilitate
problem of existence.
soul
the same soul somethe
sometimes
every step
on me.
as a
Referring
took fastened
reality
its
female in
to reincarna-
more
firm-
It
is,
to
"The
of the sunrise
first flush
is
even
now upon
the
earth."
meaning
In
fact, I
gave very
of the sentence.
me
in
my
desire to
go
thought as to the
desire to go back was
little
The
How
i8o
Know
That
With
said:
He made
at
me
with a
^^Come."
different."
"Did
you?"
"No."
"What
I
into
freedom?"
my new born
desire,
though
felt
almost rebellious,
knew
tell
of all
what
it
or not.
more I thought
enamored
more
I
became
of the project and
of it the
the more determined in its execution, at the same
passionately from all points, and the
is
no inde-
pendence;
^*A11 are parts of
Whose body
Alone
nature
is
in that ether-electricity,
my
desire to return
cried out:
"Let
it
be so
let it
was alone
going back."
How
82
Know
That
CHAPTER XXII.
PANORAMA OF
When
ignored
my
I again raised
me was
before
it,
first,
but
its
my
attention,
which
compelled
before.
What was
the
meaning
of it?
Then it appeared several times, illuminating different human faces, alternating male and female. It
was not unlike
stand
still
moving
before
me
picture.
Now
it
seemed
to
in
its
attractiveness.
As
it
In the growing
had come
gazed upon
I
it
merged
As
which
grew with
the physical.
Still
she
grew
as the
little
glowed
in
harmony with
183
the great
At
metamorphosic process I reawas truly myself, as I recognized the incidents portrayed as pages from the book of my
this stage of the
lized that
it
schooldays, just as
my memory
retained them.
Yet,
reader a whole
Fs.
We
life history of
up
which
all
her in bondage to
mastery of
to
it.
itself, as
It holds
too small
from the
^^choir invisible"
the piano!
At
years!
With
the
coming
of
How
184
RESPONSIBILITY."
Know
That
came upon her suddenly, covering her from head to feet, yet she was as unconscious of its coming as she was of its potentiality
and went on just as though it had not come. As it
spread itself upon her there appeared before her
three roads; one was labeled ''GOOD" one "EVIL"
and the other, the center, was unlabeled. There
were thousands treading the center road where there
were hundreds on the others. There were many more
upon the road of ''Good" than upon that of "Evil."
It
to those
who
who
saw the
girl's feet
upon
the
unmarked
road,
saw
those
who heeded
When
she
not.
great shadows
twin
shadows, as
it
were, hovering
One was
over her.
"Selfishness,"
her,
touching
sang
on and on,
185
would sing
When
as
fair, girl-
might consciously
re-
all
was no one
to re-
it
and dim-
hard to describe so
can be understood, but I'll do my best. At first it was somewhat
like an ordinary globe around any light, only it was
nebulous; but as the bodies (the spiritual and physical) began manifesting and growing, it took on
rather an oblong shape, interpenetrating and extending out beyond the bodies several feet, giving the suggestion of being the illumination from the little light
that still remained within the bodies, the life spark,
as it were.
Colors came and went within it but they
were very unlike these dark red-hued shadows that
liar that
it
it
is
and
looking with
Spirits of love
woman
at
as light
and care-
How
86
Know
That
to her.
She sang
on,
shadows were
not.
Other
spirits
nearby were
listen-
all realiz-
man made
187
the
ently
"Not
just yet
"Mistake
some dayperhaps."
a mistake
there
is
no
"Perhaps,"
heard her
say, as she
How
it
was hard
to
away from
it
the
creature as myself.
life
Its
How
88
Know
That
or justification.
this,
however,
am
con-
main
show the interest and
influence of the invisible world on our earth lives individually, showing that while they respect the law
thread,
which
is
sufficient to
abused
to the
when
it is
used or
It
is
death from
fortunately the
is
grow strong
time, happiness
its
mundane
grow
is
is
cross
There was
marked
showing
and the sick woman
who lay on a bed of agony the next morning. She
was ill, very ill, with a cold, or hoarseness that grew
so alarmingly worse that a physician came and diagnosed "Laryngitis." Without realizing the seriousness of it she wondered how she had "caught such a
cold," and felt it would be entirely dissipated within
a few days.
a
was very
ill
knew
down
to
another and
shadow."
'189
arti-
bondage which it
seemed to realize would thereafter be a bondage indeed a veritable prison house of expiation. So desperate became these struggles that I heard those near
saying: ^^She is dying harder than any one I ever
to free itself, to pass
beyond
its
saw."
down
comes
to physical perceptions,
then
slept easily, peacefully, while the great Spirit remained, comforting her troubled soul, which had
imprisonment of
were down.
its
flesh
its
desire to escape
from
of responsiveness.
tor
and whispered
It
in a hoarse,
it
yes,"
''I
to
professionally,
How
190
Know
That
^Tossibly."
face
and
later, in a half
to the wall,
still
me
die
let
me
my soul
is
dead."
The
which, still shadow-stained, enveloped her.
same Great Spirit looked on sorrowfully, respecting
the law of self-responsibility and refrained from interference, yet
his protecting
influence.
Then
lifting
spotlessness
of
went
on.
191
all
that
over with
new
as
promises,
new
ideals,
such
satisfy.
Then came
saw her
that
well-remembered train
scene.
Then came
of
its
down
to the
very end
pilgrimage.
turned
away
but
something but to
it was the shadow of earth's spiritual deafness and blindness that made me unable to see. Then
I looked back where I had seen the "pictures" and
was standing face to face with myself as a spirit. I
looked at it and it looked at me. When this airy,
see
perhaps
How
192
Know
fairy
That
lay
down
turbed.
was
same
that
ed, clothed
which
all
moment
with
its
feet in
quivering before
later,
little light,
my
at
larger and
more
my
eyes
illuminat-
It
was glowing
in
which
it
shuddered,
had
as I lifted
deserted.
It
was
my
still
quivering within
its
won-
upward
and outward beyond the range of my vision. Again
I looked upon the "dead" shadow body and shrank
away from it, wondering, wondering what could
this mean?
Did the "Shadow" body have to pass
derful illumination, then
it
slowly quivered
"To
treat
me
like that,
Meon?"
pressively.
almost sarcastically.
made me
say
hastily
What
saw made me
live
it.
it
now and
'193
interest."
'^Now
it
justified.
''That
is
many
great
"Come, tarry
not,
lest
space.
How
194
Know
CHAPTER
That
XXIII.
MUNDANE READJUSTMENT.
I was trying to open my eyes, the lids of which had
grown stiff and unyielding; trying to adjust myself
in a case which seemed to have shrunken; trying to
move hands that had grown heavy beyond my ability
Meon
lift.
and other
spirits
"My how
Then
she looked at
thought of
me and
to professional
"How
me
as
just
cadence:
morning?"
me
195
While
The
she
made her
finger nails
was unable
toilet I
were blue
to raise
myself
as
I
though bruised.
could not see
As
my
toe
same condition and pushed them under the edge of the sheet and
shut my hands so she could not see them and turned
my face where it would be in shadow, all the time
wondering how it looked. When I shut my hands I
could not feel the nails on the palms and altogether
there was such an unnatural feeling that I began
investigating and of all disconcerting things it was
How
the discovery that my body was insensible!
awesome was the thought of being a living soul in
a dead body!
I pinched myself, easily at first, then
as vigorously as my limited strength would permit.
This having no effect I took a hairpin, from where
I had put it the night before when I loosened my
hair, and with it pricked my arms, then my body
through the thin gown but there was no more sensation than if I had been pricking the bed!
It was
terrible and I heard the nurse coming and closed my
eyes.
She came very near and after looking at me
critically for a moment, remarked:
nails but fancied that they
*^Not eating
Then
it
all
is
were
in the
came back,
this
How
196
Know
me
That
was brought
arranged in the daintiest and most tempting manner.
I could have screamed at the sight of it, but
restraining myself, I smiled and said pleasantly
to
that breakfast
in,
*'I
you."
After the tray had been taken away and the nurse's
arguments over with, I again settled down to the perplexing problem confronting me. What ought I
to do? After deliberating for a long time I called to
the nurse:
from
room?"
When
planation
it,
I said,
by way of ex-
"Thank you
my
flesh
seems so dead."
damp
skin
could have
felt
it.
197
missed, or rather
is still
in a speculative
of
my
body
derful
my mind
tried to formulate in
magnetic
or
electrical
current,
invisible,
from
be used or abused
as
we
elect.
it
to
and yet
which were once high among recognized imSuppose for instance some one had told
possibilities.
our forefathers, as they rubbed stones together to produce a light, that the time would come when by touching a tiny button a whole building or city would be
lighted up instantly that a man could sit in Wash-
New York
tinent
How
198
Know
That
to
in the
the
by the death of the singer technically we hear
the dead
nothing
the dead sing
but there
case of a
in
least
play,
see
supernatural about
force
it.
It
ELECTRICITY
is
is
demonstrating-
its
power on
We have
wonderful things common by everyday use and so we will go ever onward filling the wonders of today with the commonplaces of tomorrow,
and there are many wonders still unborn, greater
even then we dream.
Spirit communication is one of the wonders of today that tomorrow will claim for its commonplaces,
when we will converse with the so-called dead as
easily as we now do with the living; communicate
with other realms as we now do other cities visit the
invisible worlds, leaving our physical bodies at home
just as we now do our other material possessions.
Really spirit communication is nothing new it
is as old as the records of the world; all religion is
earth at
made
all
it
these
199
based on
it;
While conscious
down through
life
dence of
it
uncertainty
is
now upon
longer and
a glaring inconsistency
us
when
it
insists
but
the time
refuses to be denied
on taking
ranks of demonstrated
fact,
continuity of
the ages, evi-
its
facts.
place in the
It
is
any
foremost
demonstrated
of the world,
that all
The
fied, as
who
will
may
history of spirit
communion
right or wrong.
muned with
it
in
is
rather diversi-
its
were sacred,
in later days they were burned at the stake as witches,
heretics and worse still later they were incarcerated
within asylums for the insane; but now it has met us
we stand face to face with it, with no
at Philippi
choice but acceptance; and still later, in the future,
There will be peace,
it will revolutionize the world.
one nation, one religion and we will wonder how it
could ever have been otherwise. However, there is
a price, a mighty toll, to be paid before this ideal
spirits
condition prevails.
How I
I
digress
my
me down
the
war
longed
and unseen over a soul that beand yet to both one exacting a
of the seen
to neither
How
200
fast,
Know
The
and
That
few minutes
later I
heard
About
and
the
power
of persuasion, de-
tions."
the bitterness of
it all,
as
turned
my
came sparingly
as
came upon me
benumbed
Then
lids ab-
a peace
nothing mattered.
in utter disregard.
either
as
they liked.
me
that I
had been
released.
201
knew
it
before I
^'Eat drink."
Now
transitional
drama
memory
which seemed even more beautiful than the realiI had wanted to come back to earth but now was
ty.
T altogether satisfied that I had done so?
A special dinner was prepared that evening and
served with as much ceremony as though in reality it
celebrated my return from the "Port of Missing
Men," all of which I appreciated more than I dared
of
express,
feigning
an
indifference
the
absence
of
waited in
this
more
awful uncertainty,
perceived
it
As
Meon
202
How
Know
CHAPTER
That
XXIV.
RE-
LATIONSHIP.
"That which was
man
the Father
is profitable to the
soul of
waited for
Meon
to
speak but as
the same.
The
203
As
sleep
its
we
wrapped
in the oblivion of
sacred firesides and stood aghast as the doors of skeleton closets creaked on their rusty hinges and strange
ghosts walked out in full view, concealing nothing;
as
How
strange
it
all
How
204
Know
That
Such protec-
human
beings
thus guarded make no objections, and as most persons are unconscious of invisible solicitude they
neither appreciate it nor object to it.
In some instances it is all right but in others it would be better
However, this breaking up
to break the influence.
or changing ones invisible household is a very serious
matter and should be undertaken only with discriminating intellectuality and spirituality, or even more
undesirable entities may enter into the vacancy created by the departure of those who must retire at the
command of the one concerned. While the law of
^'like attracts like," is excellent, we must not lose
sight of the fact that "a chain is no stronger than its
weakest link" and that we are no stronger than our
weakest propensity.
^As a
man
thinketh so he
is'
205
more than
Even little
damp
had pumped to
pillows
little
Some otherwise
make
It
is
such
by claiming that ''God" or some scion among the influential dead told them to do it. They feel perfectly
justified in what they have done regardless of consequences to themselves or any one else. Such earthmagnetized spirits live, in a way, the physical life, at
the expense of human beings, and in some way gather
unto themselves strength beyond the average spirit,
so much so that they can imitate the voice or appearance of any person they find it expedient to represent.
They find some person. of their own instincts and
How
2o6
Know
That
ment
ment
of their design.
They
assist in the
accomplish-
power
to identify
to create as
St.
Paul
warns us
^'Beloved,
believe
own
spiritual strength,
we evolve
However,
it is
unconsciously through
and wake
a
in
all
possible for
we may
pass
eliminating conditions,
go by way of
The
who go
it
207
upon
the reader
unfortunate crea-
world
after abusing,
out of
communion with
we have
us until
In
fact,
attained
them instead
of be-
of ourselves.
We
must learn
to
not nearly so
shadow
Poor dominated
stained as
free.
and pliant in
to tell them
such influence and
creatures, miserable
wanted
I persisted
of the
window; he turned
mo-
How
2o8
Know
That
ing
many
They
things of interest.
They accompanied me
When
but they could not hear him speak nor see him.
knowing
Not
it is
away from
given to
us.
209
more
A call
to
Those who
cycle of time?
slept
brations
were
different.
of
it
they came
down
the electrified
its
wrong choice
is,
involves.
at times, consciously or
uncon-
permanent creations
music, love
things
mundane
in the
that
form
make
strata
and leave
of art, literature,
life
worth while
to
How
210
Know
That
human being in
we must sometimes feel it
when the chord is struck. Sometimes we are conscious of it when we stand in the presence of a masterpiece of nature or of man. At such times a memus.
There
is
stabs us, as
While
21
would be
if
little to
is
entirely there
The mere
such communication.
munication
it
possible,
however,
com-
much
to the in-
vestigator.
Then came
a phase so tender
It
mother watching
spirit
whom
left at
little
ones
world.
over the
wayward
son,
who
heed-
little
murmuring "Mama
Papa;"
and impress
solicitude.
Friends came
on the object of
to friends;
loved ones to
The beauty of all this was that these souls were not
bound by the magnetism of the earth but by the ties
of love, which transition glorified, making it a pure,
How
212
Know
That
who
or any one
sufficient to
is
ference complicates.
side, as
attending duties
its
of progression,
own
invisible, not to
of them.
The
a delicate process
If they care to
fish calling of
it
is
well;
loved ones
let
still
who
When
it is
sacrifices they
were causing.
come they
On
the other
it.
hand such exactions without the possibility of compliance leave us open to spirits of deception who
would gladly embrace the opportunity of representing themselves to be the desired one.
to believe
us,
we
As we
are prone
tell
unscrupulous
spirits.
it is
the beginner
dis-
who
should be careful.
When
such a
The Dead Are Alive
'^receiving station"
is
213
without dominating the continuance of their achievements and labors, to which is added the knowledge
that the evolution to a higher existence supplies
one of the greatest forces in earth's progress. Many
of our great men are still living amongst us in this
way. Instead of going on the journey of individual
progression they are sacrificing themselves on the altar of progression of humanity in general, which in
the end will be a sacrifice more than well made.
As I went on taking soul inventories over the city
I came near unto my fiance but loyalty placed her
white hands over my soul's eyes and I passed on without the slightest desire of "seeing unseen" any skeletons that might darken his closet
if there were any
they were, to me, too sacred to violate. This, however, did not apply to his friends, so I vibrated out
to the home of one of his business associates and floated through the walls into his presence. He was surrounded by highly evolved beings, who while they
loved him very much made not the slightest objec-
my
tion to
recognized
spirit,
was.
coming
my
as
near
to
him
as I desired.
was shocked
a scroll so nearly
He
to see
unwound
who
it
that
How
214
how
realized
erroneous
Know
is
That
man.
He
in soul
still
In the
this
phase of
drama and
life's
knew
me
but he chided
different
tran-
difference
which
few weeks
verified.
When
listlessly in the
city I
bathed
of the sea, with all desire for further delving into the
soul
problem gone.
many
yond
was
all
was
it
puzzle.
Really
thousand crimes."
In the midst of
my
conjectures I
distress
vanished instantly.
could see
it
spreading
out, far out over the face of the earth dispelling the
darkness,
Everything was
I saw the
were very near and
'Tower House"
as
though
it
As I looked
know and heard
suddenly
we
all
fancy
is
to
go back
am
so tired that
is
not to convict
it."
"But
is
"The
rein-
is
soon to be fulfilled."
ness,
planation:
"What
is
"Trying
she doing?"
to
asked mystified.
me
with appre-
How
2i6
Know
That
It
it.
protected against
is
Then suddenly
her, conjecturing.
I was aghast at
had solved the mystery
and
which has
so baffled
our physicians
scientists.
"wake up."
spirit world.
Why
When
it
body and
returns
we
What
it
its
Possi-
at the
mercy
of the
merciless.
Too,
spirits so
217
There
where the rightful owner
regained possession of
its
remem-
would
life)
On
The
hand
makes or mars the
the other
became
less
and
less
Her
less disturbing.
At
last
she
mer's night as
came
I
it
was
a soft, breeze-laden
sum-
How
21
presence and
knew she
Know
That
you."
With
my
my
presence
219
CHAPTER XXV.
THE LINK OF INFINITUDE.
The next day was
mood was contagious,
noon
wore
on,
rain
especially
when
as the after-
drizzled
with
plaintive,
two separate
entities.
The
How
220
Know
That
"When
this sensitiveness
came upon me
why have
was
in
been other-
wise since?
"A
and
to transpire."
is still
am I to remain on earth or am
This has become unbearable."
"It will not be required much longer," he replied,
"Tell me, please,
going
to die?
looking at
me
my
question."
I sent
my
Some
Hell."
How
life's
No
it
struck
221
me!
All of
philosophy
matter
it is
well to
make
of ourselves,
our most desirable companions, for it is this companionship that will outlast all things else, even
throughout all eternity.
He was quick to note my abstraction and said with
apologetic solicitude
good
*^I
to
am
have you
not tired.
it
seemed
."
I has-
listen again."
It
is
such a pleasure
days
my
was
over.
come while
was
still
How
222
Know
That
would be entirely and forever removed from its necessity. As though accepting the challenge she folded me tenderly to her bosom, lifting me above the
melancholia that had so dominated my waking hours.
I was awakened by thousands of spirit voices
blending in a monotonous chant, the same thing over
With one
"Thy
will be done,
is
mine
to use, not to
make
it
subjective to that of
would
use it just as I elected. Thus my resentment grew in
pace with the ever increasing power and persistence
of the monotonous chanting, which finally became so
another, even though
nerve-racking that I
street,
it
felt like
that I
anywhere
to escape it
as it
level
The Dead Are Alive
223
mise
if
necessary
demanding
that
thrill of
hammered
so violated.
Then
ceptance or rejection
God.
my
ac-
my will
in the
Uni-
versal
Will
its
conscious oneness with the All-Intelligence, that instead of making my will subjective such a unification
would give it a dominance that it could not otherwise
attain.
How
224
Know
That
blind.
it
My
operation.
which
soul
may
progress, as long as
ceptance.
not mine."
ible, in
which
my
sponsive chord.
Then came
silence spreading
wings of peaceful
225
How
226
Know
CHAPTER
That
XXVI.
protested.
Closing
my
"I would
voice
came
junction
away saying
me
last
night."
My
night.
it,
seemed
repeating,
that
all
to live
"Thy
had
it all
will be
Whose body
nature
is
and
God
the soul."
the
we
227
God
will,
we
inject
are right, on
which
it.
First
point the
vised.
we must know we
''still
erosity in everyday
away from
quirements grated
afifairs, let
in-
seemed
to live further
and
I therefore
kept
my
eyes
How
228
Know
That
seemed I had already passed over the borderland and there was a tomorrow the tomorrow of
death life everlasting. Thus a kind of semi-consciousness began playing its part in the drama and I
til it
listlessly.
When
eagerly
"Oh, Meon, am
weary of earth."
"Yes, come," he
out of
my
body
so eager
was
am
so
almost jumped
I to escape
and
soon
had ever
been before.
As
vibrations to those of a
"Meon, did
moving
train
and asked
moving
first
train
com-
229
vi-
brations."
''But I
tested.
"Which
still
you remember."
you were looking
over the paper with your mentality open to receive
the most unexpected intelligence, creating an ideal
condition. I spoke you heard."
As we drifted far out, ever onward, I noted with
interest great vibrating orbs of light and remember
wondering if they were inhabited to which Meon
vouchsafed the intelligence that they were and the
desire was strong upon me to visit them.
In a moment, however, this impulse was blotted out by the
"I was reading,
if
not reading
as a
part of
it;
colors
mingled and intermingled suggesting rainbows bathing in a silvery sea the silvery sea whose waves
seemed propelling us and thousands of others ever
onward toward a wonderful shore somewhere in a
wonderful world.
Almost abruptly we were upon a substantial white-
ness
of life between
however,
so
it
intricately
life.
These planes
interpenetrate
that
it
How
230
would
Know
That
to intelligently differentiate.
it
"the
am
we
So for convenience,
let it go
at
that.
Evidently
we were
expected, as
many
great spirits
Meon
joy,
its
23
upon
it.
It
self,
ing, taking
me
unto
itself so
gently that
it
was almost
realm
were calling to me, calling into a world that is as far
above the ethereal as the ethereal is above the physical and I wanted to go.
Then I could feel myself
slipping, slipping over the borderland where the
realm of God kisses the realm of Christ, to remain
beyond which we must have become as Christs, as
beyond it we begin the evolution toward the Ultimate
Godhood.
Then I was looking down upon my spirit body
much as I had done my mundane garment after leaving it upon the earth plane, and into the grandeur of
imperceptible.
Souls of
the
superethereal
it
all
plained:
How
232
Know
That
to its
garments
as
to the soul
it
ap-
we
or hold
fondly
our hearts
crying out in anguish, "Oh, if I could only forget
True, if we could only forif I could only forget."
life as
get
suppress
we would
it,
is
refined
burden before
to
ory
it
Be
that as
it
may, mem-
down
lays
The
where
soul
every
its
is
sins,
veri-
which
we come up
233
it.
Nothing we can do will
tomorrow from coming but we can refrom placing upon tomorrow burdens of toOn the other hand it is possible, though rarely
day.
we can
pass al-
pression
soul
have existed since time began." Where did the voice come from? Suddenly
I realized that that which had been to me a great
is
electrified current
Spirit,
was
interpenerating
everything,
uniting
all
How
234
Know
That
tual,
speaking
emissary of
all
Too
Then
tide as,
moving seems
full for
asleep
radiance was
interpenetrating
everything with
just
as it
as
just
unification.
in
still
I felt
less
ages
of
reincarnations,
/,
It
thrill
of
battling
through
atoms of
life
235
life.
themselves in the
with
Suddenly
it.
request to return to
dare
to
hope that
my
had
known so many in the spirit worlds with the same
desire. Too late, we want to come back just for the
good we may do but how few ever come back across
story of a ''far
Then
drawing
itself,
throwing
me
back, as
had been
moment
voice, a mentalized
me
it
as
wave
floated into
my
conscious-
ness:
How
236
when
came
there
Know
That
At
first it
power, renewing
its
life in
it
it
was opand
life
little
while
I arose
And
And
Too
asked eagerly.
"Yes."
"Is it well that I have done so?"
"That depends on yourself it is a rare responsi-
bility as
well as privilege."
Infinitude and
as
transparent
237
into space,
invisible."
My
loved ones
who
world then joined us, all vibrating in joyous delirium, until a hand closed gently on mine and the
voice of Meon was saying:
"Come," to which I quickly responded remembering with compassion a fast deteriorating clay image
in the darkness on the far away earth and hastened
downward, creeping into the cold deadness of it.
How
238
Know
That
CHAPTER XXVII.
A SOUL RELINKING WITH EARTH.
So unresponsive was the stiffening clay in which I
was incarcerated that I feared my long absence had
forefeited my dominance over it. I labored long and
earnestly with the problem of readjustment, realizing
the impotency of the spirit in a material executive
sense without the co-operation of the body. I was so
oppressively cramped that I had to combat the desire
to just let go and return into the spirit world.
"O,
Thou who
Morning found me
I feigned sleep until
as I
this feeble
urn of clay."
nothing of eating.
of the
room and
639
ing everything.
As
the day
wore on
could not
resist
wandering
m Heaven
that
my
"Meon,
I called
How
240
my entire
body which
Know
That
until then
my
To have
sensibility return
I could have cried aloud in the anguish of its recognized meaning. I had known the life of a spirit
had ridden on the wings of evolution to its finality
This touching,
as of fingers, continued,
pressing
be well."
"Healers?"
spiritually?"
fallen out of
accommodation or
"You could
if
you wanted
to but
The Dead Are Alive
241
is
covery."
"Am
pairingly.
As
and veritable
felt
chained
hopelessly
ed that I had been given what I most ardently deand should be rejoicing instead of complaining,
wondering at my own inconsistency. Thus began the
relinking of a soul with a body from which it had
been released in the pursuit of the brand of knowledge that St. Mark doubtless meant when he said,
"There is nothing hid that shall not be manifested."
As the days went on the "healers" worked with admirable persistence and I could feel myself growing
stronger and stronger, until I could recognize my
body as a part of myself just as it had been before
the separation came, "even as you and I"
just as
any of us feel, for which I was sometimes glad
sometimes sorrowful, for it was not easy to tear onesired
self
away from
tifully different.
Yet the
we
How
242
do not recognize
Know
That
stead of abusing
it,
as
we
it
accordingly in-
its
it
holds us in safety to
itself.
Wc use
strength^ usefulness
when
it
Even where
it
is
When
earth
accordance with the laws and privileges governing it, other phases of life follow autolife is lived in
little friction
as
day follows
night.
To strengthen us,
*^Great souls
Ere
Earth
must burn
work
to meet."
is not,
herself.
243
someway
incident
it
How vividly I
stands
recall every
alone
out
different
When
down
I sat
in the car
the exertion.
How strange
we went
everything seemed as
speed-
As my
my convalescence and chatted of the commonplaces
ings.
at
When we
blue of the
anew
in
my
sea.
My
all
was
Watching
the beauty
How
244
the
Know
That
beyond
coming in,
far out
earth, just
as on other planes, life is very much a matter of coming and going not so different after all.
This drive having no ontoward results paved the
way for a duplication every afternoon and a very
long one on Sunday to the very end of the island.
After our return I could not disguise from myself
that I was very tired, which being patent to every one
was accepted as a natural consequence of the unusual
exertion.
''Look into the face of the Sun and you look into
the face of
It
lized
was
God."
however, until I was alone that I reavery tired I was and lay down without re-
not,
how
of resting there
unrest,
came
rendering
re-
tress of
plored
please."
came with gentle firmness,
pressed upon me the
where you
as a sense of finality
are,"
full reali-
night
first
my
245
I
soul
After
there
it
was upon
me
the sense of
my
soul and
it,
body having
infinitude and an image of clay. Following this almost immediately was severe internal bleeding, the
blood of which was dark, clotted and stagnant in appearance, which forced me to remain for days with
ice bottles on the affected side, keeping it in a frozen
condition. Here is where the doctor and the nurse
my patience
to the utmost.
was
my
it
Nor
they
especially
skin
During
me
Of
all
reality, this
my
inexplicable.
is
as
of other
much
soul
is
even hesitate
to
embody
it
mystery
but
as
as it
any of
it.
How
246
Then came
I
Know
That
a day, a beautiful
fore, a
yet
my
human
af-
more than two months beconsciously reincarnated being the same and
where
how
had
different!
left off
247
i,
CHAPTER
XXVIII.
think
if
they
knew
just
and
began
to
wonder
just
my
bitterly as I
a
statement
resolve to write
already
Meon
silenced all
"Read no
ten
line
on
"Why?"
free to read as
asked in surprise,
it could
no way affect
"Writings are
the writer and
ference
in
While
I resented this, in a
way,
have abided by
How
248
Know
That
me
at times.
wedding
fiance
became
that
love blinding
me
to the universal
law of
duty.
my
it all
accusing conscience
some day,"
(that
249
would
assure
small
voice"
"still
As I grew stronger I half feared my ability to communicate with the world invisible would abate accordingly but that rare privilege
is still
it is
mine
mine and
my
life.
to use
when
my
How-
but that
it
else
can give.
How
250
Know
That
my
which
haunting
out of
me
life,
soul
me
filling
my mind
me
"Why
hast thou
re-
to pro-
take
Then from
visible,"
afar
electric shocks.
there
came
and upon
How
me was
well
the awareness of
little
electrified current
251
it meant to
redeem regardless of all things everything.
No spirit word was spoken no sound broke the
awesome
stillness
mov-
ing upward, going up bodily just as I had once before; I could feel the covers slipping
fell
bells of
away
my
as
little
they
dog's
numbing cold permeating everything. I was vibrating slowly upward, up, up. One hand was resting on
my
upon me. Then came a pause and I apprehensively opened my eyes to behold a wondrous change.
1 was staring into a white-canvas-like mist fringed
by a nebulosity in which variegated colors played,
the blue of electricity predominating. As in a moving picture I saw myself on the train with Meon beside me, just as on that May morning which seemed
Following this was a panorama of
so long ago.
every incident in the weird, shadov^ drama in which
Fate had sent me far wandering into the realm whose
door is death. As I viewed it thus condensed, I realized more forcibly than ever the intricately intimate relationship of the realms, visible and invisible,
ily
all
How
252
Know
That
shadowy
came
words
Pass
on; Pass
it
The
it
on."
End.
wrong when
he said
"Every great
stages.
Next they
say
conflicts
it
through three
with the Bible.
it
it."
who may
of those
Lastly
be thus in-
iii,
Matthew, xvii,
Mark, ix, 7
16, 17
Ezekiel, i, 28
Acts, xi, 7, 8, 9
Job, iv, 1-6
Deut.,
ix,
12,
13
SPIRIT LEVITATION.
II Kings, ii,
Acts, viii, 39
10,
9,
11
Ezekiel,
SPIRIT
SPIRIT
Numbers, xxiv, 4
Daniel, x, 9
10,
iii,
12,
Ezekiel,
13,
viii,
14
COMMUNICATIONS IN DREAMS.
Job, xxxiii, 15
Genesis, xxxvii, 5
Acts, X,
I Kings, xviii, 12
II
Joel,
ii,
Genesis,
28
Genesis, xxxi, 11
xxviii,
12
CONTROL OR INFLUENCE.
Acts, ix, 3, 9
Genesis, xv, 12, 17
Acts, xxii, 17
Daniel,
I
viii,
18
Kings, xiv, 5
MATERIALIZATION.
Matthew,
xvii,
i, 9
Genesis, xviii, i
Luke, xxiv, 15, 16, 29,
30, 31
Job,
iv,
Ezekiel,
15
Exodus, xxiv,
10, 11
Mark,
ii,
ix,
Genesis, iii, 8
Daniel, v, 5
253
WRITING.
Chron., xxi, 12
Exodus, xxxii, 16
Exodus, xxxiv, i
Exodus, xxiv, 12
Daniel, v, 5
Duet.,
II
v,
lExodus, xxxi, 18
Duet., ix, 10
22
TESTS.
Matt, xxvii, 51, 52, 53
Genesis, xxiv, 14, 19
Job, iv, 15, 16, 17
"For
He
is
unto Him."
Cor.,
Sam.,
26,
i,
27,
xii,
10,
11,
17,
28
Luke,
"Concerning
I
all
live
I.
many who
by what
others think, and grade the subject accordingly. Such
persons may be as much surprised as I was to find
Also
find
are influenced
thinkers, scientists
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