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ENGL 2010
Food is an interconnecting source across the world. It is something that is not only a key
to our survival but a passageway to our culture; alongside other cultures. As one comes to grow
and develop within societal ways, they also grow accustomed to the routines and customs. Even
when growing up all within a condensed area, socioeconomic is a determining factor to the
quality and type of food that they have the capability to come upon. Example, fast food and
processed/ packaged foods are cheaper than healthy foods, so those who are poor have access to
the unhealthy food even if the wants and desires are elsewhere. A factor judging what people eat
is usually based upon appearance, body language and smell, but what many dont realize is that
genetics actually have quite a bit of impact too weight, and at times the food that can and cannot
bone structure, or many other factors. A large issue being the weight gain heavily seen across
specifically America (who currently holds the highest obesity rate) is based upon the chemicals
being pumped into out bodies, including GMOs and preservatives used to let the food many eat
The reason obesity has become so high within America is because of the change within
our everyday diets, mainly being chemical, hormone injected foods processed and packaged. Its
almost an oxymoron because we live within a society that expects all to reach unattainably high
beauty standards within both men and women; yet all that we are fed, or that many can afford
creates the opposite effect of what is suppose to be obtained. This manipulation through
addictive foods, one being sugar has created the link of eating disorders that many of us know or
have come to learn and know about; whether it be personal or a known story.
one side and on the other growing up with a depressed bulimic mother on the other is a whole
other story. Eating disorders run in my family as is; but no one ever thought I would personally
obtain one. I stayed a happy child but the years of abuse built up turning my happy child self into
a depressed heap of skin and bones. It all started with my biological father and if my knowledge
serves me correct being called a worthless piece of shit that should go kill herself almost on a
weekly basis. The most impact one person can make on you is as a child, especially close family,
friends and last but not least, parents. As a child I wanted nothing more than to have my parents
happy with me, even if it meant hunkering down and letting a blow come across my face or any
other part of my body. Whether it be sitting as a small child and letting my mom sit and cry
while she also used me as her comparison stalk. My parents were my heros as a kid, no matter
how many times they beat me down and hurt me, but as I grew this developed into strong forms
into you, that never disappears. Fully and completely deceiving your own perception of yourself.
As a 115 pound girl I saw myself as over 140, growing up around insecurities there is an
everyday battle that occurs. Triggered by small miscellaneous things. Food is a toxicity to me,
something that I have personally come to absolutely hate, no matter if it was my favorite ice
cream, pizza, or anything else. Sugar caused weight gain, so did eating healthy though and it was
something that I could nor was willing to touch for almost a month period. Living off of rare
bites of food, mainly being mints and water caused a weight loss of 30 pounds within a month
turning me into to skin and bones starting to be noticed by people around me. Where I learned
how to hide bruises by the age of 4 I now was learning how to hide the weight loss through cover
of clothing not willing to be caught or once again told I was fat as I could barely hold myself up
Wobbling through the hallways my ninth grade year I already know I did not hide my
new come addiction as well as I thought I had. Between changing in the locker rooms about 3
times a day depending on the activity within gym and my two dance classes, I had set myself up
with this schedule of not only starving myself but with one that made me consistently active. My
clothes quickly shrunk, my social issues continued rising; whether or not being groped by an
oncoming guy, having my drinks spiked or trying to keep my grades up when barely able to keep
my eyes open in class. Art and poetry became an anger release as I was trying to find out who I
personally was, a question I can honestly say not many of my fellow mates and I hadnt figured
out, we are just little pesky ninth graders. The years oncoming of recovery had to be the most
difficult, fighting the urge and the images, always insecure about my figure as I had to come to
accept incoming weight gain. It took three years to completely gain back all the weight loss,
three years to have a secure sense of confidence in myself. Three years to feel what hunger was,
an odd sensation I had only felt when I forgot to eat for three days; my body not ever giving off
the signals until once again I was back to no longer moving from exhaustion. Where a difficult
journey it gave me a broader understanding of what the food we eat does to our bodies because
of the strangling grasp one sweet holds over my head. It is almost an acceptance in fate in my
eyes, where I either indulge and let the weight gain happen or I refuse the foreign poisonous
substances into my body. Living the life I did, do and more then likely will where regulated
eating is nearly impossible, but moderation on dependence of specific foods has become a
withstanding talent throughout my day to day endeavors. There still are all those treacherous
thoughts that run through my head, able to be triggered at any moment but a much more subdued
and hidden version that happens on a daily basis. Anorexia is not a disease but a mental thought