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My thoughts this semester at

ASU

So far it has been going downhill but Ive

been learning about my inner struggles,
fears and strengths. This shows a
relationship with my education and life. I
have shared personal thoughts, feelings,

What you will read.

Joharis Author Last
My Choices &
Windows and Thoughts
Outcomes
My Windows

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Joharis Windows and My Windows

The actions I can take to discover my blind spots is be myself and pay close attention to
how people respond to me. My boyfriend has made me seen my blind spots that I do not
like. It has helped me become more cautious of my actions. However, Ive realized it is
hard to change bad habits but on the other hand, actually knowing what they are helps me
restrict from acting them out sometimes. During stressful times I seem to just snap at
anything and I become a negative person. I feel like everything is going wrong. I actually
feel that way right now. I found out I am pre-diabetic and I am finally dealing with my
PCOS and my older sister was institutionalized because she is hearing voices. I wonder if I
am not made to handle stressful or uncomfortable situations. I am my biggest critic. That is
something I am working on lately. Accepting my flaws, my mistakes, my struggles and
myself. Johari has made me aware of my windows and it is my choice to see through them
and be seen for the real flawed me.

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Joharis Windows
A Johari window is a psychological tool
created by Joseph Luft and Harry Ingham
Its a simple and useful inter group relationships
tool for understanding in It1955.
is one of the few tools out there
and training: that has an emphasis on soft skills
self-awareness such as behaviour, empathy, co-
personal development operation, inter group development
improving and interpersonal development. Its a
communications great model to use because of its
interpersonal relationships simplicity and also because it can be
group dynamics applied in a variety of situations and
team development; and environments.

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My Choices and Outcomes
I believe that if I took full responsibility of all
the outcomes that happen in my life I would be
in a better place. I made many bad choices and
took a lot of time for me to realize that I was the
reason I did not succeed my first year of college
right after high school. I did not believe I was
smart enough but I realized I was too lazy to
try. Even though I believe we all have choices
and decisions we make we are only human. My
experiences growing up in school is that I only
had two teachers that cared about my success
and went the extra mile to help me do better in
school. Yes, we all can decide and take actions
but people along the way can really guide our
own decisions. I come from a single parent
home who is illiterate and much older than the
parents my classmates had my mother could
not help me at home to do my homework and
at first she was embarrassed to admit she could
not help me and needed more help for me. I
struggled in school and I do feel I could not
only blame that on myself. I was only a child
my brain was not yet wired to know what to do
and all I felt was shame and lack of motivation.
On the other hand, working right after high
school it taught me how to be a good worker
and taught me retail business. I also learned
about life and the struggles of adulthood. I then
realized I needed more of an education to live
better and to honestly be smarter. When I began
college I had more discipline and more focus I
did not feel pitty for myself I felt proud that I
beat the statistic and actually returned to school
from the working world. However, even though
I made that decision it would have not been
possible if I did not have my sister support to
live with her while I went to school full time
and made that my priority not work or like how
I said adulthood. I feel many people want a
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better life specially those in poverty but life
happens and as much as they want to be better
and have big dreams and goals other factors
play a role. They want to make better choices
and decisions but they are out of reach for them
of course this does not apply to everyone. I feel
we have the choice to be good or bad to one self
or others based on values and beliefs but again
we cannot judge upon ignorance. To me
education and life itself is opening my eyes to
what the reality of this world is and I have
gained the power to make choices and life
decisions that still may make me take a few
steps back but I learn from each experience and
make better choices next time. I want to pass all
the good Ive learned to my future students
because to me teachers who really care and are
knowledgeable can help guide and sculpt a
leader with knowledge and care for all
humankind. When I do not succeed in a class I
feel like a failure and I stay feeling like a failure
for a long time and for everything I do. When I
do better Ive become more confident and speak
more positively to myself, which then causes
me to stay happy and live a happier life. Ive
been trying really hard to stay positive this
semester but I have been struggling the last two
weeks. I know I lack confidence in myself it is
in my thoughts and Ive noticed how that makes
me act or barely function in life. Ive never been
able to built enough confidence within myself.
Lately, Ive been falling back behind because of
my family issues like things they are dealing
with that do not affect me directly but I feel so
sad that I let it dig me into a hole that only digs
deeper the more things begin to go wrong like
falling behind in classes. I may still be working
on positive self talk but for now I am lucky I
have a great boyfriend who lifts me up
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Author Last Thoughts

Still on this journey we call life. I am learning about myself everyday

and becoming a better version of me.

-Linda Najera