As we “walk”...

I like an english word “walkers”. When I think about it, I´ve always get a little impression
of freedom. Walking is something more than get up from the bed and rush to work. It has
always spiritual sense in the daylight. When I walk, it is only me. From one point to
another I have distance between these points, where my time is only for me and my God.
When I am leaving past behind me and reaching future before me, I can learn something
more about a beauty of the moment “now”.

One part of my way to work takes me thirty minutes from my house to the railway
station. When I mentioned this among the people, I was surprised, how many of them
were shocked. “That is a long way”, I have heard, or “Do you wanna lift, darling”, or
“Better you can get taxi.” From one view I can understand. Especially in this time of fast
cars, instant coffees, fast moving world, full of very fast information. From this view
“thirty minutes” looks like nothing. Looks like that I´m actually loosing them or wasting
them by my walk. They are not worthy. But from another view it is “time” which is given
to each of us from eternity. And sometimes I am wondering if we notice that time as a gift
is given just once... and once, and once. That is why the time is so worthy. We can never
get it back.

I believe that we are living in the most rushing time in the world history. If we could roll
pages of the history eighty years ago, which is just one generation, we would be suprised
how people were thinking for example about my “thirty minutes”.
One of our famous writer Karel Capek, very good friend of president T.G. Masaryk, was
writing stories about ordinary people and their living in 1920. When I read his stories
first I actually felt like that I have jumped into very different timing zone. The “zone”
where people lived in time instead of live for time. People didn´t have things like we do
today. That was time without internet, mobile phones, text messages, only few people
had a car. No television, just radio and only somewhere. People used bicycle to work or
just walked. The day apperead to be more slowly than today, even sometimes “boring”.
But they had something what we are missing today – they had more time for each
other.
I remember I was listening one biblical teacher Derek Prince years ago and he said
something very interesting for me. He said that we actually watching our life around us
more than we live it. And I heard this from him very long time before I saw first “reality
show” in TV. Lawrence Kushner one very famous Jewish todays writter mentioned
similar view in his book “God was in this place and I, I didn´t know this”, he wrote: “We
are so busy with watching, recording, analysing our lives, that we forget to live it.”
This idea was connected in my mind later with Jewish understanding for life. Jews
understand that everything in the daily living is spiritual. Eating, working, breathing,
listening, talking etc. Because of the “Breath of Life” which God breathed to human
creature, every single action in our life has spiritual purpose. Jews have even a prayer of
thanks giving that thay can go to toilet. In that prayer is written: “Thanks be to Adonaj
that every hole in my body is working properly, because if one of them wouldn´t, I would
not be able to stand before you, serve you and praise your Holy Name”.
I tried to reflect my ordinary daily schedule and I had to consider that I see some
spiritual purpose only in two parts of my day. My prayer and my reading Bible.
Everything else was just on the side. Not really connected with my God. Even if I prayed
“God please bless my day”. So I started to think how important, for Almighty God who
created the whole World, can be for example eating my dinner. I can say prayer of
thanks for food as blessing, but than what is so spiritual with eating dinner. When I was
a young boy, my father always told me, when you eat your food do not do anything else.
Neither watch TV nor read newspaper. Eat your food. And he was right. Eating dinner is
not only spiritual it is very spiritual. That is time when we receive real blessing from our
heavenly Father. As soon as you can see the food with your eyes, you can start enjoy a
colour, form. Than you can smell it with your noise. You can catch different parts of that
smell. You can regognize some of them. Than you can touch it with fingers. In the some
parts of Eastern Europe countries people don´t use fork and knife when they eat, instead
they use fingers. When you touch your food you can put it into your mouth where your
tongue can produce different sensations of taste. What your eyes saw actually is
becoming reality in your mouth. All these sences, what we are actually using every single
day, were created by Almigthy God. But not only this sences. The food, every single part
of vegetable, meat, spice, flavour, water etc. was created and manage by God. And God
made it with one single purpose. To bless us. Eating is not only spiritual it is actually
divine worship of Creator.

In the contrast of this picture I was thinking how we, living in this fast world, see the
food as blessing. Specially in the time of fast food and McDonald´s. How we regard for
example single bread on our table? “Give us our daily bread o Lord, we pray”. I thoutgh
about Jesus, how He fed the thousands. Bread and fish. Than is written, that after every
one was fed He gave command to gather every single piece of bread and fish, that
nothing can be ruined. What attitude keep world today? Make a profit for yourselve,
do not care about others and throw out everything what you don´t need. It remains me
single word from book of proverbs: “ The horseleach hath two daughters, crying, Give,
give... .”

We read stories in Scriptures about Moses and Israel people on the desert. God fed them
with manna from heaven. Gave them water from the rock. Or Elijah, feeding by ravens
with meat and bread. Or, again Jesus satisfying multitudes with a food. I know, we have
Tesco, Supervalue and Dunnes Stores today, we don´t need such a “miracles”:-), but I
was trying to figure out and put myself into a picture, how would I trust to God in the
desert with people of Israel or in the steps of Elijah? What if one day, I will appear in
similar situation? Would my faith sustaine? That´s the question, because James in his
epistole wrote: “Elijah? He was as the same ordinary guy as we are”. So how does it
sound?”

Sometimes I have a feeling that our time today is very framed. Ten minutes for this, eight
hours for this, five minutes for break, thirty minutes for prayer etc. That makes me ask
myself: Was the time created for us or we for the time? Ecclesiastes said in his famous
chapter three: “there is time for everything...”. But I can hear many times today very
different sentence: “I have no time”. I think the problem can be that we walk more with
our “time” than with our God, who is actually not framed with our time at all. Who
simply is! As He said: “I am, who I am”. And because He is, so we are. And we are in the
very moment right “now”.

As christians we understand that time was created by God. I think, that God makes time
and put our living into time for one simply reason. That we can, without any special
knowledge, understand that everything in our life has a start and also has a finish. And
we have no power to change it. But unfortunately sometimes we try to change it. How?
Because we have a “plans”. Don´t take me wrong, dear readers. I believe that to have a
some plans in our life is a good thing. I mean the “plans” where we create and build our
life in the future and we are not only the actors there, but we are the directors as well.
My question is. Is there still any space for the real God and his real plan for us?

We can hear in churches today: “God has a plan for you!” I found myself more and more
frustrated when I was listening this and was trying to find it. I was asking God many
times. What is your plan for me? I was dreaming about myself preaching on the stages to
thousand people, than I saw how I was prophesying to people into their lives. Than I saw
how I´m laying my hands on the sick and they get healed. I was driving out demons from
people and did many and many other “big” things. My imagination was runnig on full of
gas. And there is actually nothing wrong with all this. And I believe in all this. Even
Jesus is sending us to do this things in the world as a sign that His Kingdom is near. I
just found one problem here. The problem was my own understanding what does it mean
God's plan. The problem was that I found myself living more in the future and from the
future and I was simply missing the beauty of the moment “now”. When I looked back
into my life, I could see totally different story of my real life from my imagination how I
was supossed to live “God's plan”. The God's plan, how I thought it would be for me,
wasn´t actually God's plan but my own imagination, my own story which had never
happened and will never happen. Instead of preaching to thousand I saw myself serving
to people with disabilities. Instead of laying hands on the sick I found myself sick with
alcoholism, fighting with the pain and simply realizing, what the real grace of God means
when it is giving to me for free. Instead of prophesying I found that I am the one who
needs to hear which way to go. I realized that my own understanding what does it mean
God's plan was more similar, what we can learn in the world today. The desire to be
successful. The desire to live life in success, respect and victory. The desire to be “seen”!
But I learned something. It does not work in God's Kingdom. I simply found myself more
as sinner who needs forgivness. I found that real desire in my heart is simply just to
“belong”. I found that before walking in to real God's plan I need to loose my own. As I
am walking, I am realising, that I am loosing. And I am actually loosing myself for one
reason – to be found again, and again, and again.
As I walk I need to learn how He walked and than my walk is become the real freedom.

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