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Freya Bedwell
Table of Contents
1. Hercules
2. Sink Up
3. Hear No Evil
4. Lovely Pride
5. Bones
6. Morgue in the Closet
7. Pair of Ravens
8. Life as a Bird
9. Bite It
10. Genes
11. 12:21
12. Shoebox
13. Window Creek
14. Vase Face
15. Either Sider
16. Graph-might
17. Enclosed
18. Geometric
19. Lion Mask
20. Lonesome
21. Breakfast
22. 99%
23. Sulfur
24. Little Country
25. Spacious
26. Beehive
27. Penicillin
28. Sunrise
29. Peerless
30. Ponder
Thank you, mama, for teaching me
Hercules
In Hercules,
There are hummingbirds that fly close to you
Before they retreat
Whittling songs from the air with their sharp beaks,
They speak.
In Hercules,
I watched hummingbirds
They were fairies to me,
Light and bright within sight
Green, grey, red sometimes,
Sinking down
Down
Down to guts and mind mixes with intestine
How feelings intertwine with void,
White noise
No point, no point,
No light, no dark
Muffled
Static
Doors in the ceiling,
Windows on the floor
Blanket with no warmth
Cover your head and dont cry
Dont cry
You dont know how
You cant remember how you did before
Before
Before this fire started and
This candle melted into your brain pores
Wax traces your hairline down onto your shoulders
Weighing like a boulder
Hunch over
Lose your integrity to the fear that you will fall over
Its over
Hang your head in shame, you dog
You may only see the fog
There is no light,
No light, no-
Dust to dust,
We say,
Hoping that this will make it all fade
As we go through the day
The dust remains
Rubbed in and remade
I only found out what you liked just before your death,
Because you were depressed.
It was 11:55.
I took 26 minutes to cry,
Before I finally stopped and spent three hours
Letting an old dread
Creep in like fingers to my head
The fear of what just happened again.
Stagnating
Vibrating
Until it falls
And
Breaks
Open
And at it you
Are grating
At it
unfit
Either Sider
The transfer of
Brain to page
Of mind to line
Of strokes to shape
Of caution to brave
Of expression made
Beyond the borders
Of my mind my thoughts can be
Made
And beyond the bare page
My feelings are laid
Into thoughts which bade
The local emotions made
To focus in inked page
To show imaginations
amalgamations
Enclosed
down
Do you feel
The lack of air between your lungs
That doesnt suffocate you, but you can sort of taste it on
your tongue
With each breath you take and it stretches down
Between your ribcage to your stomach
Sucking inward, twisting, bound
An ugly thing to ignore until it
Leaves for a moment
Leaves for the passing glance or peaceful trance
And when you
Snap back to it
Breakfast
And
I vote to write.
Make little ballots in my head
About what word to use,
This? No, that, instead.
I make a government on a page,
Style changing as I age,
And I do it as if Im on a stage,
Making my own propaganda
To present to all the people on some platform, my own
performance,
To show how I am not ignorant,
And still I keep to myself
Instead of entering the ballot
I debate with myself and myself alone
And my skills I hone
But for what? Just my own
Because stages are scary and make me wary
Of life itself, that burden we all carry
Beehive
Back then,
In the bed
Alone and quiet while the room was
Silent
The violet hue draped over you
The lack of any sort of true.