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We are within a storm facing a struggle over mental illness. I fail, I rise, I fall, I
stand tall. The patient is learning to cope with illness. The storm is surviving being
mentally disturbed. The patient is a victim of their own mind. The illness owns
them and only their pride can save them, heal them and deliver them from the
raft from sinking deeper until a hole they dug and cannot get out. The illness
imprisons their minds. They must struggle with the devil to find peace in their
hearts so they can live a healthy life again. The voice within is a disturbed voice of
confusion. The patient identifies with loss of memory. They struggle with the loss
of their past with living the present being reminded of their past convictions they
ask for help.
Characters:
The Patients: Paranoid Schizophrinics
The Voices: Disturbed voices they hear saying negative things about them that
lead them to mental illness.
The Delusions: Confused feelings of distorted thoughts that are not real.
The Therapist: Someone who tries to walk the patient through their illness
teaching them to cope with their reality.
Patient Delusions:
One and two tie my shoes
Why am I ashamed
I don't fit in
My head bowed down
Am I ashamed of having black skin
Three and four close the doors
Wonder why my back hurts
My bra is tight
My booties shakes
From left to right
Five and six pick up sticks
In the air, now both feet down
Wiggle your hips and clown about
Seven and eight close them pearly gates
Just lost my job and got mouths to feed
Baby's daddy in prison and I got needs
Nine and ten start all over again.
They took my baby from me
Because of the color of my skin
been hurting ever since
without a reason to live
My poems are not protest against another race. My poems reflect the
feelings of everyone. The topics I discuss in a line of a poem is something
everyone can relate to. My poems are Civil Rights poems that reflect a modern
movement on the black culture in telling what it means to feelings and have
emotional response to being black in America. I hope people can relate to what I
write so that they can understand that everything will be alright, to let everyone
know there are people who feel just like you do no matter who you to put you at
ease to find peace when you read my poems.
I discovered that when you discover yourself, you begin to invent your
voice. The best gift you can give yourself is to share your talents with others.
When I write I ask me to ask myself is this really me. I am representing a reflection
of me when I write and then my journey begins. I am a poet.
I would like to present to you a few daily motion poems that I wrote about
love, life and the pursuit of happiness. I have found that the key to pursuing
happiness, is to discover your voice within writing a poem.
NO more secrets
No more lies
I mourn for the one I love.
I say this from the heart
I felt loved deep inside
I never forgot how love felt
I will never regret
what love meant.
I never forgot our first kiss
how you held me close
what love meant.
I accepted your love
with interment trust.
Letting feeling inside
the regret of losing you
not wanting to let go
Yearning to hold on
Understanding I loved
Waiting for your return.
My heart ruptures
at the sound of heart beats
against the tides of time.
I embrace each wave
With caressing skin
My thoughts ponder
Softly with emotions
Sounds invisible to light
The stillness of the air
Embraces my thighs
Lovingly I feel warmth,
You holding me close
Our eyes meet at a distance
Your lips pressed against mine.
I remember my first
He was the temperament
of my brass crescendo
Rain down on me
Let me feel the notes from tempo
Keying in rhythm of cognate
My heart pound beats of desire
Let the notes escape the fire
Into a metaphoric hold of dreams
Tantric rhythm, droning sax
Poetic verse calling back
As eyes wide shut yearning desire
I felt loved by the tunes
That blow my mind with resonance
I feel loved by his essence
Moved by passion magnificent
Tunes float into dreary space
Drifting into extreme extract
It was only one love
And he was my only true love
He was my first love
The sound music
Brought me back in time
to the very first time
I made love
He was strong to hold back tears of resentment
To hold his tears when love could not say
To hold back his feelings inside
When he needed the space to try
He failed to recognize
His weakness to love with desire
And I did not break him from his peace of mind
Instead I gave him the support
And prayer that his dreams don't falter
An empty heart
Broken of
Ideas
Fantasies
Dreams
Love burns
La, di, da, di, da, da, la, di, da, di, da, da
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da
His-story
His-story
I 'm form the ghetto
I grew up in
the heart of the ghetto
on the west side of
north Vegas
the streets were fierce
the poverty, the street gangs
living on disability
in paint chipped housing
lawns unwept
the needy were greedy
streets were filthy rich
high on drugs,
sex addicts addiction
drive byes affliction
to meth, but a dream
from the ghetto
living life isnt what it seems
high off the American dream
the promise that one day
I'll achieve at being a mother
the threat of living off welfare
a dead beat father
who cant pay the rent
the upkeep of raising a family
a single mom alone in the world
having to raise five children
in a single house hold
living check to check
cannot pay the rent
selling everything she got
to make ends meet
children are starve
its never enough
living in poverty
aunt no joke
aunt got no education
one job is not enough
to provide an education
so her child can grow up
to pursue a better life
to be happy
from the ghetto
the heart of the ghetto
hard times are bad in the ghetto
hear gun fire every night
they kick in my door
through rocks and eggs at my house
I pray to God asking what its about
the roaches and rats are infested inside
but I will not come out to sell my body at night
their voice threaten me, the ghetto queen
trying hard in school made to look like a fool
people telling me Im too poor
to make good grades when scores should be low
Making a dollar out of fifteen cents
Isnt enough to pay the rent
with the life Im in transition
being better than what I am
proud to live in the skin Im in
I pray tis be different
no not like this
I want to give in to sin
I want to quit
I fear Im living a dream
Time is not wat it seems
The ghetto is not for me
It is not what it seems to be
The ghetto is not what is meant to be
When I am scared to leave the house
Vegas threats are way too loud
People are fed up with discrimination
Racy thought racist ideas gone to waste
No one wants to fail in life
Back stabbers try to get ahead
At all risk another ones dead
Corruption desperate thieves
Try to take over at all means
People hide behind their lies
The reality of being black in the hood
Life is a statistic another one bites the dust
in the ghetto
She had her child taken away
With a rain check that said
Your child does not deserve to be black
Denied that your color is not good enough
You have no husband
With no way to raise a child
Alone, without a man
And because you chose to fuck yourself
Youre a homeless slut who is not good enough
All your life you wanted more
To be successful and to score
When they took my child
They took all reason to live
Im not good enough
To be a mom
I fear I cannot go on
Live on live life
For Ive been judged
There God and my God
Dont see eye to eye
I am a child of God
Who has purpose
In the ghetto
That is where Im from
And I will be damn
Before the fat lady sings
The last note is played
And I give up on my dreams
My story, must play on
My story , must play on
history must play on
This is my story, of a ghetto queen
Quitting is not an option
Empty Love
An empty heart
Broken of
Ideas
Fantasies
Dreams
Love burns
I am a factor of illusion
whose vision is an inherent mark through time.
A state of mind.
Black Mamma-Faces
Its Over
Lemonade 2
why does it have to be this way?
Why do we choose to live this way?
Why is life as it is?
Why can't things change?
Why do we doubt life?
Why do we fight the way we do?
Why can't we be happy?
Why do we argue?
Why?
Why?
Why?
Is it because,
few words stumble
and has lost its meaning?
I am the addict
desiring with needs
burning with the desire
to held and loved.
Words control the lust
I feel I am the voice that thirst
I am the darker sister
Whose words are
As sensitive as her skin
I am the voice within Flowing
Through loose fingers
My words reveal no lies
But tell the meaning of
Desire
Words of innocence
I am the voice behind these words
I contain silence
Silence is being alone
In the dark and cannot see.
Alone, I am afraid
silently I listen
The sound of a pen
dropping
dropping
dropping
Because I dared
to be diferent
I am connected
to intolerance
my thoughts are words
accept things
into another
state of being
I know no thirst,
behind this peace of mind
No familiar faces,
behind this peace of mind
Abandoned trust,
behind this peace of mind Broken,
death will come someday
Ill-exposed by all the lies told
Words of informality
ill-imagined delusions
There must be a better place in this world
To heal the pain
I now feel inside
A place where solitude solicits my tears
Solicits my fears of being touched
Not by thoughts,
I felt I loved once inside
Deeply hidden rage
holds a place dear to my heart
I've been raped
Alone in the night
My innocence exercises,
The pain, the fears, the tears I share
Holds a dangerous place inside
Ready to explode...
I am tired of wanting
As much to be desired
There is no more
nothing but wants and needs
I am tired of wanting
As much to be desired
There is no more
nothing but wants and needs
afraid of my own shadow
Hidden behind masks
That mark the streets
Blind the alleys
With broken speech
No one understands
Every day is a new round
Every second is on the clock
But our outcome
Is a choice
We live together
We die together
The spirit must live
We wear the masks
Walking stones into ashes
Scattered dust in the wind
Skeleton bones led to carry on
Vulnerable and weak masks
Die
Without reason
Every day is a new round
Every second is on the clock
But our outcome
Is a choice
Die
Without reason
Every day is a new round
Every second is on the clock
But our outcome
Is a choice
Die
Without reason
Every day is a new round
Every second is on the clock
But our outcome
Is a choice
I fell down
But I could not
shut out what corners of my eyes
light blocked from seeing
a wooden beam
I have learned to shut out
the world the way
men shut out me
I fall from circumstance
I get close to reality
My feelings are not real
accept what I am
caught up with expectations
for what needs
stars don't adjust in the light
I am blinded by darkness
in a deep dark
hole that I am holding on
Alone my heart weeps
I exist
I learn
from their struggle
I struggle in diferent ways
strong to survive love,
loss and pain
I could be the same
I must walk of death
and live my life for the
love of who I am.
I cannot reject loss
there is no turning back.
Don't be
Love
Let me go peacefully
In the brisk of silence
Let my heart rest
On a whole note
Let me go peacefully
No more fighting
No more name calling
No more hating
Wishful thinking
Me and you
To be loved by you
Boy meets girl
And falls in love
Lost for words
Deep in thought
Out of time
I'm in to you
Needing you to need me
I you we is but a dream
To hold you
To love you
In a gentle way
To be there for me
Until our dying days
To know you care for me
When I'm low
Love heals the pain
I fear the fear
To die alone
Let me go peacefully
In the brisk of silence
Let my heart rest
On a whole note
Let me go peacefully
If I must die
Let's rest peacefully
With my voice
My last note
to carry on
Peace
peace
peace
Delusion Voices:
lonely hearts don't die
they live to sing a song
when they open up
it is never over
'till the long days are gone
I am a factor of illusion
whose vision is an
inherent mark through time.
Quietly, I withhold
an emotion, an intrusion
who has
paced each step,
silently...
The voice within,
somberly calling,
negating
insecure thoughts
of denial.
An inclusion
from compromise,
negating motivation...
A state of mind.
Allusions I am
the mirror image of you
You are of me
it in my voice
You see my actions
of who we have become,
My voice carries on,
When you love someone
Who does not love you back
It hurts, the beast in the lyrics
The buckle in the heart
Morning the love I lost,
I am the mirror image
When love hurts
I become an
invisible enemy of hope,
trust cannot hold loose sand.
I am the image of love
Love don't regret
I hold emotions,
I withhold the pain
of being denied, love
what once was mine
Within the image of pain
became loss and hurt
My tears lie
of broken promises, of
Circumstance,
Feelings come and go
images to let go
When you took away
the blame, the guilt,
When you took away
the love, the joy, I admit
You took away my heart.
How many times
must I walk out
before you
call my name?
Promise me
to keep in touch.
His-story
His-story
I 'm form the ghetto
I grew up in
the heart of the ghetto
on the west side of
north Vegas
the streets were fierce
the poverty, the street gangs
living on disability
in paint chipped housing
lawns unwept
the needy were greedy
streets were filthy rich
high on drugs,
sex addicts addiction
drive byes affliction
to meth, but a dream
from the ghetto
living life isnt what it seems
high off the American dream
the promise that one day
I'll achieve at being a mother
the threat of living off welfare
a dead beat father
who cant pay the rent
the upkeep of raising a family
a single mom alone in the world
having to raise five children
in a single house hold
living check to check
cannot pay the rent
selling everything she got
to make ends meet
children are starve
its never enough
living in poverty
aunt no joke
aunt got no education
one job is not enough
to provide an education
so her child can grow up
to pursue a better life
to be happy
from the ghetto
the heart of the ghetto
hard times are bad in the ghetto
hear gun fire every night
they kick in my door
through rocks and eggs at my house
I pray to God asking what its about
the roaches and rats are infested inside
but I will not come out to sell my body at night
their voice threaten me, the ghetto queen
trying hard in school made to look like a fool
people telling me Im too poor
to make good grades when scores should be low
Making a dollar out of fifteen cents
Isnt enough to pay the rent
with the life Im in transition
being better than what I am
proud to live in the skin Im in
I pray tis be different
no not like this
I want to give in to sin
I want to quit
I fear Im living a dream
Time is not wat it seems
The ghetto is not for me
It is not what it seems to be
The ghetto is not what is meant to be
When I am scared to leave the house
Vegas threats are way too loud
People are fed up with discrimination
Racy thought racist ideas gone to waste
No one wants to fail in life
Back stabbers try to get ahead
At all risk another ones dead
Corruption desperate thieves
Try to take over at all means
People hide behind their lies
The reality of being black in the hood
Life is a statistic another one bites the dust
in the ghetto
She had her child taken away
With a rain check that said
Your child does not deserve to be black
Denied that your color is not good enough
You have no husband
With no way to raise a child
Alone, without a man
And because you chose to fuck yourself
Youre a homeless slut who is not good enough
All your life you wanted more
To be successful and to score
When they took my child
They took all reason to live
Im not good enough
To be a mom
I fear I cannot go on
Live on live life
For Ive been judged
There God and my God
Dont see eye to eye
I am a child of God
Who has purpose
In the ghetto
That is where Im from
And I will be damn
Before the fat lady sings
The last note is played
And I give up on my dreams
My story, must play on
My story , must play on
history must play on
This is my story, of a ghetto queen
Quitting is not an option