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I am a tripper. My world is all about imagination. Often my imaginary world blends in with my real
world and I cant differentiate one from the other. Sometimes I wonder if I have a real self beyond
my being an actor But all I know is that films are my passion, love and my fodder for life
DISTURBED CHILDHOOD, YET A HAPPY CHILD
I was born in Kolkata to Swapna and the
late Dilip Sen. And my birthday falls on the
26th of July. When I was born, I was named
Rituparna, but it was much later when I
joined films that my name was changed to
Rii. Soon after my birth, I lived mostly with
my grandmother, as both my parents were
working. My parents had a very turbulent
personal life and were going through a
divorce when I was barely two. I also have
a brother, who is 10 years older to me.
But despite my parents disintegrating relationship, I had quite a joyous childhood living with
my uncles, aunts and grandmother. All the pampering that came from them was an added
bonus. I remember how I used to perform Bollywood numbers in front of my uncles friends and
made them give me chocolates or toffees in return. I guess that was my first step towards
acting. I must have taken my dancing talent very seriously because on every holiday, at 11 oclock
in the morning, I would visit all my neighbours, dance to Bollywood numbers and as remuneration
take a bowl of tomato ketchup from them. I used to love eating tomato ketchup! I still do.
It was also a philosophical journey, as I learnt about a man-woman bond through my parents
troubled relationship. I saw a lot of hatred between them they would beat each other up in front
of me. And I often wondered why human beings behaved like that. I thought if two people loved
each other, it should be forever There should be no space for hatred or fights. It made me realize
the importance of relationships. Right now, the focus of my life is not just my career. Its also about
building relationships with people not just your lover but everybody around you, but Ill come to
that later
Soon after my parents divorce, my father died. He was diagnosed with liver cancer. I was too
young then to understand the loss. Besides, I have no great memories of him as a dad other than
a few vague incidents of taking a rickshaw ride with him, or him taking me out to buy a pair of
shoes or chocolates.
My parents were not very strict and that helped too. But I must say I was pretty rash. There was
craziness and recklessness in those adolescent years which, of course, had its own charm. I fell
in and out of affairs and there were numerous flings, but none important enough for me to
remember. But I am happy that all those affairs and flings happened because they helped me
understand myself and my body as a woman.
And today, I have realized that I dont want a relationship where Im bound by emotions. A
relationship with a friend or lover is always bound by anger, lust, insecurity, pleasure. Emotions
should be neutralized. I want to practice how a relationship can be built without carrying its
emotional baggage.
MOTHERS SECOND MARRIAGE
When I was in still in high
school, my mother re-married.
And my brother and I moved in
with my second dad. I was
quite fine with it. As I said,
though a little disturbed, I was
essentially a happy child, so I
never had these notions that
my second father would
snatch my mother away from
me or something. On the
contrary, my second dad was
quite lovable. He used to take us to restaurants. I thought my mother was pretty cool too. At least
she was honest in whatever she did. We didnt share the traditional mother-daughter relationship
but she was supportive in whatever I did, be it modelling (which I soon got into) or my raving
affairs. She never tried to take charge of my life. She let me have my space which was good.
TEEN MODELLING
I was still a teenager when I began modelling. After I finished my 12th, I didnt want to pursue
studies any further, and I kept wondering what to do with myself. One of my friends said, You
look good. Why dont you try modelling? And I thought to myself, why not? At that time, my
second dad also passed away, and I was thinking of doing something to earn for myself. So I
started modelling, and this was exactly 12 years ago. I remember going to Sishir Studio which was
a cult studio in Kolkata in those days. And the scenario was completely different then. The
modelling industry was not as professional as it is now. Someone referred me to this
photographer who told me that a model was required for a spice ad and that I had to report to
the studio the next day. I went; they took my pictures and gave me 1,000 bucks and I was thrilled!
I told myself, this is it! I didnt have to do anything. All I did was smile and went home with a fat
packet. But it was not just money that drew me to this profession. It was my love for the camera,
and this love affair with the camera has continued ever since
I completely forgot who Rituparna was and I was reborn as Rii. Rituparna was a big name and Q
suggested I rename myself Rii. After that, since 2003, I made a conscious decision not to do
mainstream cinema and television. And I detached myself from television completely. I became
very choosy about my work and did films which were completely independent and driven by
passion. I didnt worry about how much money they made at the box office.
In fact, I dont do films for the masses anymore. Q introduced me to dogma and underground
(non-mainstream films). I watched Lars von Triers The Idiots, Alejandro Gonzalez Inarritus 21
Grams and Gaspar Noes Enter The Void and Irreversible. And my head got really messed up
seeing all these movies. Lars von Triers The Idiots had a big influence in my life and I wanted to
do films which had nudity, and where I could use my body. I didnt want to just put on makeup
and stand in front of the camera. Discovering dogma Films Tepantarer Mathe, however, was
doomed because nobody understood the film, not even the producer! When Q was shooting this
film, I didnt know what a dogma film was and neither did the people around me. A dogma film is
not shot on a cinematic camera. It was shot on a PD 150 camera and it was completely digital.
There were no extra lights, heavy production ware or a huge number of people which you
commonly see on a film set. I learnt later about all this. A dogma film is a method of very realistic
filmmaking started by two Danish directors in 1995, where a movie is shot in a natural setting with
natural lighting. To put it simply, it is everything that a Bollywood or Hollywood blockbuster is not.
For me, it was something completely new. Detractors were bullshitting us because they didnt
know that a film could be made on digital camera. Things have changed a lot now but we were
ahead of our times.
IN LUST WITH Q
What also struck me when we started shooting
the film was the cool quotient of everybody
around me. It was a completely different culture
from what I was used to in Bengali cinema.
Everybody spoke in English and was so coolly
dressed. Q had reddish orange hair and such a
cool personality that I was completely bowled
over by his handsomeness. And what followed
was a totally clichd pattern the director and
the actress fell for one another. It was not love It
was lust. It was a completely lustful relationship.
But soon, I was in for a reality check when my family explained to me that they didnt like it that I
was not returning home at night. They didnt like the fact that I was staying with a man; and that
my body was full of love bites and scratch marks. It was something my family could not handle,
and they freaked out! They gave me a bad time and even beat me up to make me come around.
The scene was so violent that I felt I would lose my mind. Thats when I left home and moved in
with Q.
Before we moved in with each other, things were different. Everything between us was so crazy
and romantic. After we moved in, things changed. Our relationship matured and we are in a
much stronger relationship right now. Today, I am in touch with my mother but I dont know
whether she has accepted the fact that I am living-in. But I am sure she wont dare to confront
me. I am not in touch with my brother though. He and I are very different from one another.
GOING NUDE
Then in 2010, came Gandu. The film was never released in India but it was perhaps one of the
most talked about films in recent times. And yes, there was a lot of talk about the full frontal nude
scenes I did. For all those whose eyes just popped out, yes, Ive done nude scenes in Gandu.
Some people use their eyes or face to express themselves; I use my body. Its simple and organic.
Period. I am an actor. When Paoli Dam did Chatrak, everyone went calculating who did it (the
nude scenes) first. But I am really bored with this issue. And its not about who did what first but
rather why they did what they did.
And Im all for the cause of cinema and Ill continue acting with my body. I want to push my
sexuality in cinema to the borderline where it becomes extreme and dangerous. What I mean
here is that I want to shock people! Sexuality is a cult for me. Sex in India is done behind closed
doors, so when I am shooting nude, I am challenging my audience to be nude of all their
inhibitions while watching the scenes. It may not happen the first time they are watching my nude
scenes, but at some point people will recognize the language of the body. I am making a political
statement with my body. Understand the politics of the body! I also have nude scenes in my film
Cosmic Sex which won me the best actress award at Osians Cinefan Festival of Asian and Arab
Cinema.
As an actor, I think nudity should not be a matter of contention as it is done all the time in world
cinema. But Gandu was a path-breaking film in many ways and not just because of the nudity
in the film. It won the Jury Award for the Best Film and the Best Director at the South Asian
International Film Festival. It was hugely appreciated in Rome and Berlin. It was shot on a
shoestring budget with only six crew members and filmed in black and white with one scene in
colour and had no official script. But when Q made the film, he knew the impact it would create.
It was an anarchist film and it was out to shock - right from the name Gandu which means
asshole.
My current film Tasher Desh (Land of Cards) is based on Rabindranath Tagores dance drama.
And it was screened at the 7th Rome International Film Festival and is now in theatres in India. I
had no idea about the play before I was asked to act in it. Of course, I had seen some
representation of this dance drama. But Q has adapted it in a very refreshing way.
I have just finished shooting another docu-fiction called Saree, also directed by Q. The saree is
the oldest living garment in the world. The six yards of unstitched woven fabric is the national
costume of the women of India, Sri Lanka and Bangladesh. The story of Saree is beautifully woven
through a love story and how desirable a woman looks in a saree.
Q, MY MENTOR
People keep asking me why I work only with Q. To them, Ill
say I am just happy working with him. We work well as a
team. Q worked in advertising for 12 years in India, Maldives
and Sri Lanka. He directed over 50 television commercials,
winning various awards on the way. Then, inspired by the
independent films of Europe and Japan, he retired
voluntarily and shifted trade and city. He returned to
Kolkata and started a progressive art collective called
Overdose, making original films, design and music.
CINEMA IS MY LIFE
I eat, drink, sleep and breathe cinema. Every single hour of the day I am thinking or talking films
either ideating or discussing the production and planning work. People often ask me how it
feels to be the top actress of contemporary alternative cinema and I say its been a struggle.
Because what we are doing is not mainstream cinema. It is out of the box. From producing it to
organizing the funds, we do everything for our film. And it requires 100% dedication. The silver lining
though is that alternative cinema is booming not only in India but across the world. There are so
many Indian directors like Kiran Rao, Q, Anand Gandhi, Anurag Kashyap and Dibakar Banerjee
making such fabulous films. So our work is looking up and our struggle seems to be bearing fruit
Sudeshna Chakravarty