Professional Documents
Culture Documents
A Novel
By Dick Croy
Chapter 1
David had taught her that, then one weekend she'd taught
Well before last summer she had been aware for some
time that not just her body but her whole being craved
of tough love.
herself.
lifted and rocked and lulled her. Which were worse, she
asked herself for the nth time, the broken bones and
this morning.
would soon push all that aside; this was her therapy
session.
Esther rolled over and lashed out with her right arm
She'd made peace with her past long ago, even before the
little fiefdoms.
But hadn't she come out here to wash all this from
like a spear.
his victim's flesh. So now did her body furrow air and
took her hairbrush from a beach bag, which she flung over
saltwater and sand. Her face with its full, crisp Old
She curled her toes into the packed wet sand as she
far down the beach when she felt someone behind her and
was the shape and texture of her own rage; she had
weapons.
away down the beach. In a daze Esther saw him pull the
all the willpower she could muster, she felt her self-
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Chapter 2
Monica Canyon.
and towel and pulled herself from the car. She hadn't
door was open and she was safely inside. She shut it
reported.
thwarted after all she couldn't even tell him what had
awaiting her.
There was no one else she had to talk to now but the
police files.
her dressing table and looked deep into the haunted eyes
of her ordeal.
The Santa Anas were blowing and the night was full of the
ribcage.
the wall.
dreamless sleep.
* * * * *
were Jung's illustrated Man and His Symbols and, from the
What the hell was she looking for, what had she
yet?"
formal."
closest of friends?
okay?"
on Dan's door that this was how she used to feel in high
face.
that knife!"
Esther smiled wanly and took his hand. "I know you
pantomimed futility.
"But you got away! You never cease to amaze me, Dr.
Roth."
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able to count on. They'd known each other for what? seven
or eight years now, and had been sharing the clinic for
four. The sex thing had never been a problem since Dan
his practice.
describing.
at stake."
than that."
was also hoping that maybe you could help me throw some
light on this."
that. But what were these feelings, the dark glimpse he'd
perspective here.
Chapter 3
the Rav4.
dark by the time we get off the trail!" Mary Alice St.
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the animosity between the two women had been worked off
forest, where the dusty dry heat in the air was replaced
evergreens. Here you could sense that the ocean was just
up the trail.
Should she help? How could she help? The man was bigger
can't be happening!
a movie.
the saddle! Pam was quiet now. Not a sound from her. She
was dying, or she was dead. The man had killed her. He
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all around her, whose shriek she would hear for months to
come. But for the moment, at the center where she was,
Chapter 4
experiencing it.
Manning looked even more upset than usual about the day's
late-breaking events.
trail.
she didn't ask herself how she knew this with such
"No, I didn't."
* * * * *
was just a spectator. But now that I've had time to think
"Why?"
"Thousands of years."
past."
called it.
I mean."
"Positive."
now, the best thing you can do is to forget about him and
mind."
help."
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Chapter 5
the taste and money that had gone into decorating it but
eyes.
the hall. Dr. Roth's door was open; the receptionist was
title?"
hangings.
said?"
composure.
"Caucasian? Black?"
up at him and..."
"And what?"
away."
Lieutenant!"
whole grim story of her own ordeal once more. All but the
that.
* * * * *
his head toward the building he'd just left. There Esther
the boy kept his eyes busy, in the frank manner of the
young.
know it's not, I have friends who board here," she lied,
easy gait and responded well enough, but she was going to
be sore if she was out here long. She'd told the boy an
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nervous anxiety, she was sure she had done the right
thing in coming.
labored.
When the horse's hooves hit the ground she slid from
frenzy, she was "seeing" more with a new sixth sense than
with her eyes. Seeing with her nose, the palms of her
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trail.
Chapter 6
Ten minutes till air time and the News-8 anchor team
it?
"Burt, get the hell off the set and let the makeup
knowledge.
to double figures?"
It's just..."
a daily basis."
understand."
houses.
do the same.
his head. "You think that won't get the local ACLU up in
arms?"
video monitors.
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brother."
like this. But what I think, and what you think, don't
Chapter 7
it.
night.
her. If anyone had been her mentor this man had. The only
her intransigence.
mahogany desk.
and you're looking into the mirror as you did then, into
your past, into that dark chamber with its many rooms and
entered?"
image they were both looking for. But she was surprised
said nothing.
circles."
less control over what happens in your life than you have
it?"
there in the room with you can you picture him now?"
"Are you sure it's for you now that you can look
"Do you think this could account in any way for the
father I had."
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David smiled across the table at her with his kind eyes.
his smile weakly. "At least now I know what it feels like
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see her until tonight, to relive with (and for) her what
she had already had to recount for Dan, the detective and
first with Dan. Not just because she found the retelling
she'd ordered.
"Not hungry?"
eating meat?"
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piece, drawing more juice from the tender steak with his
of his fork.
it.
When the hell had she last eaten, she asked herself;
she could hardly wait for him to cut the steak in half.
And why had she assumed that after all these years she'd
happening to me."
enough.
* * * * *
drink.
knew the details of how she had fought off her attacker
tone of voice.
move!"
the most gifted modern dancers on the West Coast; but for
were half a dozen men and women of all ages whose only
fire".
individual.
right now!"
from its source. You are energy. You have to flow freely
asked her.
right now."
now."
"Then why don't you come and just see how you feel?
We won't let you push yourself too far, will we, Juan."
her.
shooed her away with a pillow. Juan opened the door for
* * * * *
When only she and David and another couple were left
know."
"Why is that?"
wonder."
beyond it. But the death of what the body or the ego?"
more?"
impatiently.
the leather glove she had found on the trail. When she
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"Having trouble?"
still swaying with the music, she began to hug and caress
her friend.
out."
inside of you."
Believe me."
dam."
"And if it breaks?"
afloat."
her chest heaving. And then, finally, her sobs gave way
along with Esther, then swept her up into their arms and
a life raft.
"I was?"
"But what?"
* * * * *
Chapter 10
weight."
office.
this time. "I guess I'm afraid to," she finally came up
with.
what we're going to find out about you in the next few
weeks is all the things you are, and always have been,
besides fat."
* * * * *
suit, who was rooted to the chair her first client had
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capability already."
know."
"Describe it?"
like."
instruments.
Esther she was going to have some success with this one.
* * * * *
called them.
all these years or would want to. Now I don't know what
to do."
"Oh of course."
sarcasm in her voice when she asked the young woman how
Here it was, not even noon yet, and Esther was already
* * * * *
"I mean, I'm all for feminism and women's lib, but
night stand."
long-term relationship."
less about yourself and more about the women you were
stood up. "I'm sorry, but I really don't see any point in
coming anyway."
just didn't know how to break the news to me, did you."
friends."
into the chair behind her desk. Then she buzzed Judy and
heard him swear at you and came out to see what was going
to the post office and then I'm gone for the day."
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"What tapes?"
Chapter 11
area in the rear of the store. His actions had the swift
to cut twine.
counter.
shelves lining the wall behind him, and she found herself
the ring.
and applied the mailing label, then stapled the open end
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the angels.
* * * * *
and she felt, although she was reluctant to use the word,
They'd been edgy with each other the past couple of days;
sorts.
behind her.
fascinated scrutiny.
she noticed.
smile.
of a city's destruction.
other's face.
experience.
"I am. 'Carroll''s spelled with two R's and two L's:
paintings."
...The man had ripped off her dreams. They came back
the ones confronting her. She had been stalked and torn
awake by them night after night for the past week. Or was
was she? Where was she? Then, like the side of a life
Chapter 12
restless crowd.
But she was cut off from these people, isolated from
virtually paralyzed.
life.
beach.
but the doors were just closing. She ran to the closed
pressure of fear.
room where hideous images from her worst dreams had been
revealed.
her neck and arms crawl. She could see its shiny black
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intercepted.
Vermont Avenue and headed north, driving too fast but not
* * * * *
her. The more ways she could fuck him over, the better.
they all did the same way she'd learned to do. Five
learned the hard way she wouldn't even exist for him.
seen behind the big rock he'd led her to didn't mean
Johns get outa hand on her a few times and she'd always
boy, Mama's only teasin'. You know, I'll bet you could be
were, even when his mouth was twisted into what appeared
* * * * *
brake nor closing the door behind her. The Lexus rolled
plant.
* * * * *
"C'mon now, don't play games with me. You just gonna
screw around or you gonna get laid? Just fifty bucks and
that evil eye either you don't know how lucky you are."
back from the top of the rock. But when she recovered her
Esther went for the eyes first. But the big man,
his eyes and into his face, Esther was in a fight for her
life now.
found her voice. Her screams could be heard all over this
help.
deeply bruised by the time they pulled the man off. She
choke hold.
ribs, but the stupid girl was still screaming her lungs
him.
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you, Foley?"
say someone saw Esther jump out of her car and just let
joggers rescued her! The guy must have dragged her there
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claims Esther just kicked her shoes off and went running
her hospital bedside; but her eyes stayed closed and she
swollen face.
connection."
know."
thoughtful.
"Nothing."
but she's safe now. And she looks a lot worse than she
really is."
the hell was going on? Esther had complained more than
once about men who batter women; now she was a battered
"I still don't know what the hell you expect to find
"Nah, I think she was tryin' t' sell him some Girl
Esther.
"So let's assume for now that the good doctor's not
some kind of lead on the guy. Look around see what you
can find."
"I don't have a clue, Arnie, let's just give her the
benefit of the doubt for now, okay? She says the guy who
before, right?"
"So what?"
Lieutenant."
would have taken to reach the rock most directly from her
car.
destination empty-handed.
fer chrissake?"
chase, he'd be the one to find it. Both men were quiet
went over the ground around the large rock. Costello was
psychic?"
"executioner's" hood.
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booth, and the big man had been squeezed in here studying
then brutally beat her and fled when she was rescued by
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crossed off.
"Roth? R-O-T-H?"
"Yes."
"Well, not if it's the wrong one. Are you sure she's
"That will be fine. And what room did you say that
was?"
Esther Roth, whoever the fuck you are. You messed with
The nerve of that cunt! How the hell did she find
in heat. That hurt, you cunt, and you were going for my
killed you right then and there, fuck the little boys in
baby.
* * * * *
"Four-eighteen."
windbreaker.
clock till they find a private room for her, so you have
door."
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be all right."
She didn't dare let herself go, and it hurt too much to
cry anyway.
"...Funuvabiff!"
attempting to reassure.
* * * * *
called the goddamn cop who was watching her room. What
happened?"
rest."
put his hand on David's shoulder. "I know it's hard. I'm
stay away for awhile, that you try to understand and not
time, is that she needs you there with her, call me and
posted?"
"Of course and, you know, she may ask to see you
* * * * *
exclusive."
it?"
earthquakes.
murdered or mutilated.
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entirely plausible.
"If it's the same guy she's used before, I'll vouch
transmission in intensity.
together, Burt."
up! Let's put some fire in their eyes! It's time someone
Chapter 16
may have given me just a few months, but the Good Lord
two beds.
unsuccessful.
She nodded.
"All right."
anymore."
For the first time, Dan had the uneasy feeling that
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himself to listen.
categories that I'm aware of. I'm lost right now. I don't
swinging her legs over the side of the bed. "Now, I'm
mind."
* * * * *
filming."
Meredith icily.
admitting area.
crew.
front door."
this."
Larry!"
frame.
respond at first.
"How do you know it's the same man, Dr. Roth? Could
who had moved in behind her, went the other way. Dan
your questions."
within herself.
have nothing more to say. Now would you all just let me
headquarters the minute she and Dan left and had just
disturbance."
Her crew was already heading for the door with their
equipment.
exulted under her breath. "Did you hear him say they had
Chapter 17
urinals.
Costello.
Roth's receptionist.
"'Business' huh?"
matter."
with a hamburger."
fly.
coincidence."
sense."
hooker's lyin'."
Arnie."
* * * * *
her boss. She'd left him with an indelible image that had
smiling.
friend."
you."
resist?"
* * * * *
diners alike.
treating symptoms."
into?"
"...Still unofficially?"
approach to treatment.
beings."
all of you."
Judy took a sip of her wine, and Clark could see her
reassured her.
own in particular."
therapist."
nowhere in sight.
"Oh no, she's gone! Do you think she heard me? Did
you see her face? How could they have let her out of the
anguish.
clinic.
might. It wouldn't have been much out of her way, and she
knows she can find me there most of the time for lunch.
Chapter 18
impound yard where her car had been towed, had pushed her
herself home.
body certainly knew where she was. She parked the car and
turned off the engine. Why had she come back? Was it
nervous system.
There was such panic in the way she took off all at once
return to her car. The world and her own nature were
* * * * *
as they pulled to the curb just down the street from the
wait?"
back for the news prep. Both of you wait here, I'm going
else's.
paid a fortune for security now, and half the time it was
space.
her against the light from the distant exit. She gasped
cut her off but brought him to within twenty feet of her.
a slight quiver, "I don't know who you are, but one
was playing with her. Was this the guy who'd beaten Dr.
Larry in two.
and missed.
her neck. Any moment now his heavy arm would grab her
face from the camera's prying lens with his arm. Then he
didn't even slow down, covering his face with his left
Only after the van was gone, its racing engine and
and the reek of exhaust fumes, did the three of them come
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remember."
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"the news".
to hold back tears after Valerie had sent away the two
success.
desk.
attack occurred."
"First she took her shoes off," adds the girl with
him.
off on a stretcher."
* * * * *
garage. With them this time was Lt. Clark, with whom
immediately.
it.
Chapter 20
the sand out from under her feet. She laughed at the
She fled into the water, and the hooded man pursued her,
her only escape was the open sea. She turned in panic and
began to swim.
safety razor in her hand. She felt the edge of the blade
despair.
* * * * *
the counter area. "Hey, the order said wheat toast!" she
"Why don't you toast that the way the order reads
you, baby."
cook.
the coffee pot and went down the counter with refills
The way she saw it this was just part of the service.
People came in here for a lift after all, and she usually
caffeine kicked in. Less for the increased tip this might
nothing had come between them, good or bad; she was just
here to pour him coffee and was willing to help make his
handling charge to her check for all the extra work his
pie she'd been saving for herself all evening. She liked
and alive on a night like this. Tomorrow her two days off
feisty old woman was right again, and Angela could hardly
Chapter 21
that what she had taken to be the wind all this time was
in her apartment.
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herself, she got out of bed to slide the doors into the
a chill shot up her spine. Goose bumps broke out all over
the hell was it? How had she gotten into the apartment?
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had to find out who had invaded the privacy of her home.
closet!
"Es-ther...Es-ther...Es-ther."
same.
down into the earth, until she had completely lost track
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splash of water was the more distinct sound. She had the
Chapter 22
hardly drag herself from her bed, Esther felt worn and
were more frightening for what had been left out but
pain, seeking...what?
She looked away, not wanting even to think about it. But
only hope of safety. But the hair on the back of her neck
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second!
hands and fingers were too clumsy to make the damn key
work!
They were right behind her now, she could feel their
his sides.
Esther. Why the hell wouldn't you let me come see you in
the hospital?"
hear later youve been all over the news. What the hell
is going on?"
tone and attitude softened. "Come over here and sit down,
"I was in bed when all your pounding woke me," she
condo."
makes sense."
question.
you, Esther, but I'll back off, if that's what you want,
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so you can deal with this in your own way. All right? You
dirty cheek.
about myself. Now, for some reason all I can see are the
all."
Chapter 23
Griffith Park."
channel.
police say was with the man Dr. Roth attacked. Melody,
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frying pan.
towel.
* * * * *
coffee.
"You know, you have all the time you need to get
Valerie.
now."
the time."
"As do we all."
"Of course you have. And it's helped prepare you for
them."
seems to matter."
prove to be true, Val; but how can that in any way excuse
the days and weeks between killing cycles when the killer
a national pastime!"
know.
we are."
reflections of ourselves."
"Well all the clichs of course. Who are we? Why are
faith!"
animals at heart."
that's what I've been trying to tell all of you. It's me!
Chapter 24
with."
from Hitler."
like either."
"Don't take this the wrong way, Dan, but you're not
of the time."
to like the guy from the beginning and every now and then
blessing in disguise."
"How is that?"
complacent?"
there..."
mentally stable."
in the gut."
would. She doesn't want our help right now. I trust her
normal again?"
yesterday."
"I think Esther felt much the same way. That's the
a basement?"
Not the Esther we both know, because she has the humanity
herself?"
two men were walking along the rim of a gigantic dam. And
and behind it, still others, one behind the next, each
Chapter 25
she had felt. The more she thought about it, the more
certain she became that the true message the dream held
for her was this vision of mankind's and thus her own
the other. The dream had left her with the conviction
emerged victorious.
today's Los Angeles Times from the pile inside her door,
the gorgeous weather the Santa Anas had blown in. When
had the sky over the ocean ever been so blue before? She
sat there sensuously soaking up the sun and sea air and
Wolfman.
attention.
it."
Wolfman."
leather glove she'd found near the riding trail where Pam
honor.
sensory perceptions.
words would come out, only growls deep growls like the
moving again.
life.
Esther."
about forgiveness.
projected self-hatred?"
how that has made me feel about myself all these years.
anger. But the real hatred comes from the fact that this,
Do you understand?"
battleground of ours."
it still is."
You must find it even more difficult now that you see
dealing with 'notions' like life and death you might find
punish."
God?" Krongold asked after they had both been silent for
a moment.
his books."
"Yes."
deliberate a verdict.
'Let us pray.'"
the human heart; we'd damn well better get another one
another dimension."
Esther incredulously.
Chapter 26
with the press and other callers. But it was obvious that
percent."
her that she hadn't really seen this face in a long time.
experience."
amazing."
"How so?"
prayer of emulating him. I'm not sure I'd even want to,
but I certainly admire him for rising above the hell he's
gone through."
baffled her. What the hell was going on with her today?
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"So do I, David."
* * * * *
shelves almost two weeks ago, the day after the attack on
the beach. When none of them held her attention, she dug
had all been limited to what she was ready to see and
little more. Yet lying here now in her healing bath, she
flesh before?
* * * * *
favorite lines.)
and David both loved Thai and Indian food, but since
she'd had the desert on her mind much of the day, she
pepper which she added to the pot. Then she strolled with
"How you doin' out here, big boy?" she asked in the
West.
reckon."
She laughed and drew her arm around him. They eyed
she said when David turned the chicken for the last time.
last two weeks had been some kind of bad fever dream and
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last forever.
* * * * *
"I don't mean just the last couple of weeks, it's been a
said, smiling.
she allow for the effect of whatever natural high she was
Which was the truer snapshot of the way she really felt?
* * * * *
After dinner they put away the food but left their
large hand combing her lustrous dark hair away from her
they both felt. For now at least the kiss made all her
David's...David...DAVID!
...Now.
Always.
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Chapter 27
planet? Besides who has the biggest guns and the most
I'll scalp their ass or gun 'em down like any good, real
American would. It's the American way: you know, the he-
fate! said the poet. Yes sir, I am God, step right up and
see me create the son and the holy ghost right before
ass. Nope, nobody fucks with me, I ain't buyin' into the
outFoxed.
her hate and her greed and her hypocrisy like we all do
worse cards than anyone else, I've just gotta make the
Cap'n Crunch karma: Tony the Tiger just baring his fangs
You don't know me, you can't get inside of me. Can
as slimy sex could ever be. How the fuck you know they're
not the same thing? You kill your first cat, wring its
Why not? Who says no, who says you can't? When the man's
fire? Said they could see the flesh bulge tight before it
went all watermelony. Fuck you! you're not me. And there
figured that out yet? Meek and mild gods, Greek gods,
Yeah, gonna smack you upside the head's how I get off.
disease, man I'm the cure." I love it. Only Sly got it
a symptom.
* * * * *
Chapter 28
pleasure as exertion.
to comfort her.
your grief."
* * * * *
they were led by the maitre d', a tall, skinny young man
sidewalk.
"Did you?"
asked casually.
clinic too."
know he has a house of his own. How much does she rely on
him?"
on the subject."
him sound. From what Dan's told me, his being out of town
Clark nodded and let the remark pass, but Judy saw
talking to you?"
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state of mind."
her?"
"Very."
know."
syndrome?"
knowledge of."
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creature."
'hunch'?"
"Really?"
"That's interesting."
victim, period."
* * * * *
"I know just what you need," Valerie had said when
She held the smoke in her lungs until she felt light-
can think of that might have been even better for you is
country."
"I think she was one of the first when she was
probably the only stew in America who did; she was flying
between L.A. and Honolulu then. She said the flights got
same time."
interested now.
how moved by the story she was. The two women drifted off
them more wine and some fruit, Esther let the high take
tarmac.
ramp which had been wheeled into place beside her plane.
Shed have to fly the plane herself. She sat down in the
spaceship.
sky.
Chapter 29
cast over her life and over the human race since the
much death per se, death in the abstract, since the very
had broached at the party he and Val had hosted for her;
now she knew where the idea had originated. What was it
impulse she took the next canyon road up into the hills
reawakening.
panic her this time. She saw a place ahead where she
could safely pull off the road and leave the car. She got
out and locked the doors, then sniffed the air. That way,
No...nothing.
from the highway below back into the hills. Perhaps from
Sure enough from the ridge she could see down into
lot you haven't told me. You almost got yourself killed
"I'd be in trouble?"
* * * * *
Chapter 30
facetiously.
just for looks never thought I'd sell it. But then no
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while allowing time for one more stop on her way to the
morning, and the errands the two events had prompted had
begun to drag her back toward the abyss. But she relaxed
into her true feelings for the younger woman, who had
well do you know him?" she asked when they drew apart.
few days and Judy returned to her place behind the desk.
telephone.
"Could we talk?"
"Sure where?"
Lieutenant?"
fantasy."
about?"
"Nothing?"
it under surveillance."
him..."
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find something?"
will."
are?"
case."
without parole."
be ruled insane?"
even or better."
the ones called when someone gets wasted. We're the ones
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who have to console the loved ones, and then go risk our
passing.
he's going to find out there's no one between him and me.
I'm not going to let him drive me from my home and I'm
consequences."
half-dead.
Chapter 31
wrong situation"
free.
other.
attack?"
question."
Bernard."
contemporary society?"
sarcasm.
about?"
Boris Karloff.
and the gypsies, the homosexuals and all the rest who
Krongold to continue.
or unwilling to change.
beings."
offer."
solution."
to that."
to that level."
city!"
"I don't think so, Esther. Not when you see already
"Which is?"
extinguished so easily?
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her."
react. Why had he let her get to him like this? She
the most hare-brained lead I've heard this week. Get outa
them more promising than this one. But Clark wasn't ready
tomorrow morning.
* * * * *
she didn't act now she might lose her nerve, giving the
that someone was there now. A wisp of smoke rose from the
front. Clark had told her the man lurking in her garage
the heavy bag over her shoulder and began a long stealthy
from the cabin, she set the duffle bag down and unpacked
drapes, but Esther didn't need to see who was inside. The
Wolfman's presence.
and spade from her bag, along with two lightweight sets
terror. She imagined the door suddenly flung open and the
had given her, and from which she'd recently fired a few
someone like this? She didn't wish to find out. Nor did
his life.
real work lay ahead of her. She had to secure each block
screws into the log walls without being heard, one tiny
covered the rope and her purchase from the sporting goods
then.
Esther had the first screw almost all the way home when
against the log wall. She tensed and held her breath,
see light from the cabin spill onto the ground in front.
She was afraid to release the guns safety for fear the
one swift motion. How likely was that? Rigid with fear,
cabin, and her reaction, the thin light on the ground and
and secured the top. Then she looped the bag around her
that what she was feeling now was a sense of calm. Could
she actually pull this off after all? And could success
task.
Esther could feel her power clearly now. She was her
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Esther heard the bag carom off the walls of the flue
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later the cabin door burst open for the second time this
the roof. She was possessed now by the fury that had
the cabin.
open its powerful jaws, but she didn't dare let him try.
Taunting him, she whipped him across the face with the
rope.
twice, she flipped the rope loop toward his huge flailing
he'd be hers if she could ensnare his left hand and get
The Wolfman kept his free hand back, away from her.
himself. With her rope around his hand, he could jerk her
off her feet if she didn't pull it taut in time. She drew
With her back to the Wolfman she bit down on his wrist
slip the noose over his hand and tighten it in one swift
only limb left to him. His free foot caught Esther with a
right hand. The instant the Wolfman tried to pull his arm
shoulder.
ahead of her.
she been deceiving herself all this time? Had she been
convinced all along that she'd never get this far, that
and a small box. Clumsy with fatigue, she pulled out and
confronted him.
"Now you're gonna find out how the others felt, you
free arm, her curled hands were soon warm and sticky,
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nothingness, a void.
and of her invention. No, that wasn't it; it was the deja
that was connected in some way with her. When she stepped
into the light their own eyes widened in horror, and they
her pass.
caked and matted with it. Like a giant wave breaking over
WOLF TIME 287
flooding back, sucking the air from her lungs and bile
began again.
"Esther...Esther..."
But the more she struggled to ignore it, the louder, more
"Esther...Ess-ther!..."
But she didn't get there in time the wolf had her
wolf tensed now for the kill, Esther opened her arms...to
embrace it.
the woman's voice from before, calling her name. And the
insight that it was her own pain, burning itself out. Was
she dead then? Was this an angel before her? Someone from
power.
splintering wood.
paw print.
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Honda.
overnight.
The air here, high above the smog and heat of the
happened since the last and promised to call when she was
all, the Wolfman had opened the door to the kind of high-
journalism and taking her who knew where, and now Esther
psychiatrist's life.
ideas.
could have put it there, even the police. The one thing
death.
more responsible for her own destiny now than she ever
had before.
Roth?"
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a man's life."
soaked corpse.
Putnam's death.
turned on you."
with a loud sigh. "I certainly need it." She stood up and
equipment.
sit down again in the chair opposite her. When she had
difficulty but also great relief she poured out the story
say only with bitter hatred. One thing she had never been
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rescue.
had taken her years to trust any man at all, and she'd
had few real lovers. Even the thought of sex was usually
just too painful. And no man since the one who'd taken so
"Where is he?"
top of me."
apartment..."
myself, for the first time in my life. All the anger and
had the feeling and I believe this now that his death
* * * * *
drug problems.
crowded courtroom?
plea.
of order restored.
steadily stronger.
But I..."
time.
been transfigured.
THE END