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by Urethris
Withdrawal.
It comes in all shapes and sizes. Drugs, alcohol, sex, and for me: BBSing.
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May 1, 1992-
As of this date, I was a devoute Catholic and was totaly against drugs
(which I still am) and against the use of alcohol. My grades in school were
pretty good, and I had what could be called a "normal" social life. The
morning of May 1st, however, was one that would drastically alter the
course of my immediate (and hopefully latter) future. On this date I called
my first BBS. It was a board in Brick called Infinity Concepts Prime. I
became freinds with the Sysop there, Tracer Von Megatron. He pretty much
taught me the ropes of BBSing, like message posting, uploading,
downloading, chatting, and the like. From this point on, I made calls to
BBSes from my father's house since I didn't have a modem of my own.
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Days 1-7:
God, I am SO bored...I just pace around my room...I think I am going MAD! I
need my farking modem back! I keep dreaming that I call Cyber/Chat, but I
always wake up and realize it was not real.
Day 8:
I feel as though my fingers are out of shape. I saw 0rc and Creon in
school... They talked of various goings on the Chat...they told me there
was gonna be a gathering on the upcoming weekend. I was sad. Ack! I am
going NUTS! I NEED my Cyber/Chat! I sit here and fantasize about talking on
the chat...and my mom keeps bugging me about where I misplaced my
gloves...I hope to get them back soon. I am bored. Oh so bored. I hope
someone actually reads this....pretty soon I fear I shall start babbling on
end and make this into some STORM file or something just as icky. Blossom
is on. Yay. Nose from hell I say. Didn't she appear in a few of those
Webster shows way back when? Gee...I dunno...
Beaker: Heya "Hon." I don't blame you for getting me into trouble. I still
love you. I had my first drink with you. We even "slept" together. I am not
sure what your impact on me was, but I think it might have been really
funny.
Ffej: I seriously doubt if you'll see this (I just have this feeling). Even
though you have called me a "moron" on numerous occasions, I thank you for
introducing me into the world of Alternative Rock. During the Death Race I
had no choice but to listen to it, eh?
Tal Meta: What do I have to say? You bring out the evil in me. I have
enjoyed scaring Christians on a regular basis since listening to your
preaching on the inconsistancies in the Bible. I have taken a new outlook
on religion.
Sir Blah: Well, you have confirmed my suspicions about Irish people being
fall-down drunks. And at least I know there is another Dragon Lance freak
out there.
Ulycees: The other Paul. You remind me that my Guido/Whop hair is not some
curse... it something reserved for the really cool....but wait, you like G
'n R! Damn you! Forget the hair thing! Get a real band! :) Nah...I enjoyed
getting drunk with you too.
Hegz: Bob, my father of sorts. Glad to know that you never had to use the
"Mallet" on me. Heh.
Captain Agnostic Locutus: You were one of the few that was nice to me and
showed me the ropes on C/C. I enjoyed all the Star Trek orgy type jokes.
Mijnite: As evil looking as you are, I feel a brotherly love man. This
groovy thing, I mean. You wouldn't drive 45 minutes to get just ANYBODY now
would you? Thanks to you, I end every setnence I say with "yo."
Dreamer: You are one of those few existing Cyber/Babes. Gleen is lucky to
have you. You have showed me the kinder, gentler side of things. It is good
to have a positive feminine influence.
Hmmm.....I can't think of anyone else to mention at the moment. Gee. think
I shall go rest my eyes. I NEED to get my modem back. If this goes out
before I officially return to the BBS world, is there anyone who is willing
to lone me a modem?
Day 9:
Oof. Things are getting better...instead of being a raging lunatic about my
modem loss, I just feel this emptiness. I sit here in front of the monitor
and pretend I am back in the T-conf. I have learned that the numerous hours
I have spent on Cyber/Chat have enhanced my reading speed. I went through 2
books in the last few days, and my eyes never tired....
Music is also a drug of mine, but Cyber/Chat was more. The geeks were my
understadning family...gosh...I feel like Mildred Montag. Anyway, things
are getting better. I just found out today that I will probably get my
braces off in 2 months. More good news...I am officially ungrounded in a
week. (Next Monday I think, that would be the 11th or so). After that date
I will be able to use my father's modem on the weekends starting the weeked
after that. So two weeks from last Friday, which is the 15th, I should be
able to make my re appearance onto the chat. The days will go slow until
then...I feel that only 2 days a week might only worsen the withdrawal
pangs though...I shall see.
Here is even more good news: the band I am currently in will be cutting a
demo soon. I am overjoyed. But there are 2 holes in me now. One that I
previously had and the one left by C/C. The other hole was made by a
drastic error on my part. I have to leave at the moment, but I think I
shall explain that in more detail when I return.
Day 10:
Well here I am again, babbling along. Coach is on. How stupid. I think I
shall turn the Rangers on. That other hole I was speaking of... Most of you
know this already...Hmm...she just called...I will explain tomorrow. Ick.
Day 12:
Had to skip day 11....some shit came up. Let us just say that the "hole"
ocurred as a result of that LOVE thang. Luckily for meself, I have found
someone else that I may get involved with.... time will tell. Things seem
to be getting better for me, but without the Chat I feel as though I am
wasting away. I heard today that Dad is adding 10 more lines. Looks like
someone else went insane too :)
*******
Pretty damn shitty! I got my modem taken away a few weeks ago!
Sure...
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Gee...these things always end the same. But are any of you surprised?
Day 14:
I have become violent. I just beat the shit out of my brother. He had it
coming I say. I fear for my mental stability. Ook. I tried calling a few
geeks last night but no one was home. I was sad. I need some sort of
therapy to handle my emotional distresses. There is only one theapy *I* can
think of: Cyber/Chat. Ook.
Day 15:
I am officially ungrounded today. When I am at me Dad's next, I shall call
C/C and u/l this file. I know I have only been gone for about 2 weeks, but
it has seemed like an eternity to me. I hope no one has to ever go through
this.