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Prompt #1
Andrew Roseman
Scott Harris
UNIV 392
11 July 2018
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in Ignatian Spirituality takes on a different meaning than the definition we are familiar with.
Ignatian indifference is the ability to let go of things that guide us away from goodness and the
capacity to focus on those things that bring us closer to God. Put simply, it is closely related to
harmony, balance, and the quality of being neither good nor bad. This balance is not only one we
must create for ourselves, but also exists naturally in our day to day lives. In “The last night that
she lived” and “I heard a fly buzz when I died,” Emily Dickinson highlights the balance that
exists between things that we assign meaning to and the insignificance of our mundane lives,
inviting the reader to analyze the value we place on death and the incomprehensible reality that is
human mortality. In T.S. Eliot’s “Ash Wednesday,” Eliot illuminates the objective truth of our
lives that can be found when we remove our personal attachments and faith from the world
around us, ultimately showing the reader that we need to have faith in order to find meaning in
our lives. When pairing the works of Dickinson and Eliot, we find value in Ignatian indifference
and come to see that understanding ourselves and the world around us often leads to a cognitive
journey.
In Emily Dickinson’s poem, “The last night that she lived,” we are invited into a
reflection of a woman’s last night in the mortal world. Dickinson begins by commenting on the
setting of the woman’s death, writing, “It was a common night,/Except the dying; this to
us/Made nature different.” From the beginning, we are introduced to the paradoxical nature of
the world around us. Though the woman is dying, there is nothing extraordinary or cosmically
significant occurring. Death happens at all points in time and is only as important as we make it.
Objectively, death is an experience that all living things must come to know. It is an event
similar in objective meaning to tying your shoe. Though we all know that death is a reality that
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we must one day experience, we are unable to truly understand what it means to die and no
longer exist in the reality we have created for ourselves. Even the time of day is insignificant:
time is a human construct that we place value in and depend on to function. The cerebral process
of understanding our own reality and making sense of it depends on the value we assign to
events in our lives, though this analysis is entirely paradoxical. This sentiment is expressed
throughout the poem subtly invites the reader to grapple with the notion of our perceptions of
death and what it means to no longer exist in a sentient, corporal form. Dickinson continues to
play with the reader’s mind and demonstrates a superior understanding of human thought and
emotion when she comments on the duality of survivor’s guilt and jealousy that surrounds death.
On the one hand, the speaker feels profound guilt that she is able to continue existing while the
woman lays dying, ready to submit to the incomprehensible eternity that is death. On the other
hand, the speaker feels jealousy that the woman dying is finally able to experience death, an
event that our entire lives are leading up to. She is also being gifted with an escape from the
material world that we all must continue to suffer in. This complex analysis of human experience
perfectly illustrates Ignatian indifference: there is an inherent paradox, and equally a balance,
that comes with every aspect of our lives. As we live our lives, we must stay mindful of the
objective truth in everything and examine what meaning we assign to events and happenings.
The natural world does not have the capacity to give human mortality a meaning. It is, in a sense,
indifferent to our ideas and notions. However, it is to our advantage to revere the values we
Dickinson creates a similar feeling of complex indifference in her poem, “I heard a fly
buzz when I died,” in which she writes about person reflecting on her own death. From the very
first lines, we are exposed to the complex interplay between the significance and simultaneous
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insignificance of our own death. Though our mortality is the defining characteristic of human life
and is what makes us alive, death is inherently unimportant. At its lowest level, completely
stripped of meaning, it is no different in value than a fly buzzing. However, the indescribable
power of death when placed in the context of human reality seems as fundamental and infinite as
God Himself. When juxtaposed with the buzz of a fly, an uncomfortable, tense emotion is stirred
in the reader as we try to understand the immensity of death and the seemingly unimportant
existence of a fly. Death, which we view as ordered and a fact of life, is interrupted by the
chaotic buzz of a fly. In this juxtaposition, Dickinson highlights the duality between order and
chaos, death and life, and significance and insignificance. When reading the poem, the reader
must accept and come to terms with the fact that the speaker has experienced death and is
her description in of the buzz. Dickinson writes, “and then/There interposed a fly,/With blue,
uncertain, stumbling buzz,/Between the light and me.” In the midst of the speaker’s final
thoughts, the buzz of a fly would seem blue and uncertain, especially when paired with our
expectations of death and the serenity we imagine follows. In this poem, Dickinson unpacks
what we think we know about death and asks us to view the world through an indifferent lens: to
see neither good nor bad and to strip everything of meaning aside from what effect different
events have. In order to practice indifference, we must simultaneously recognize what it means
to be human and the fact that our actions are just actions while also respecting and revering the
capacity we as humans have to create meaning in our lives. The way we perceive good and find
God in our lives is undeniably important, even if it is merely a human construct. Therefore, we
must honor ourselves and take actions that we believe create good in the world. The way
Dickinson employs indifference in this short, succinct poem invites us to reflect on how we
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identify good and bad, how we assign meaning to our lives, and what we can do to continue
In T.S. Eliot’s “Ash Wednesday,” we are invited to immediately reconcile the objectivity
contained in mere existence. However, Eliot moves past Dickinson’s reflections on indifference
and asserts that we depend on faith and the meaning we create in our lives to engage with the
world around us. Eliot essentially slaps us in the face with reality in the third stanza, writing,
“Because I know that time is always time/And place is always and only place/And what is actual
is actual only for one time/And only for one place/I rejoice that things are as they are…” In this
passage, the reader is reminded that things are what they are until we decide they have meaning.
However, coming to this realization is too much to handle. We are unable to completely remove
meaning from everything in our lives or even truly understand what it means to view things
objectively. As Eliot comes to this realization, he is suddenly grateful for our capacity to identify
and classify events, places, and times in our lives. The poem is coming from a lack of
indifference and life stripped of all understanding, possibly a place of despair and darkness. Eliot
is arguing that without faith and a conception of a higher purpose, our lives are insignificant.
This realization is too much to handle and actively disregards any attempt at order. Eliot shows
us that through a belief that there is good in the world and a notion of higher purpose, we are
given the capacity to be indifferent and guide ourselves toward things that are good. This theme
runs throughout the poem and is emphasized in the last stanza, when Eliot references the Hail
Mary prayer, writing, “Pray for us sinners now and at the hour of our death/Pray for us now and
at the hour of our death.” Eliot is reaching out to God to save him from a life without meaning
and is consistently grateful for the presence of God in his life. Eliot’s approach toward
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indifference sheds another light upon what it means to live a life removed from the pursuit of
Through the works of Dickinson and Eliot, we are asked to reflect upon how we conduct
our lives and what it would mean if we didn’t have a notion of good or bad. These works deepen
what it means to be indifferent and show readers that we all have an intrinsic capacity, whether
we are Christian or not, to practice indifference—whether we choose to seek the good in life or
find ourselves lost. When reflecting on what life would be like if we didn’t honor what we
believe to be good, we see that it is in our best interest to be constantly mindful of how we create