In 2009, I was jobless and hopeless.

Being the bread winner of the family, I was so frustrated on

how I could sustain the needs of our family. We were renting an apartment, and my mom was ill
at that time, I didn't know where to get food on our table and my mom was earning so little from
tutoring. I kept on praying to the Lord to give me a job so that I could provide for my family. I tried
so many times to apply for a job, but I just didn't make it through the cut. I was getting frustrated
until my frustration brought me a change of prayer to our Lord and asked Him, instead of giving
me a job, I fervently asked him to reveal Himself to me. A week later, I was summoned for a job
interview as an Online English teacher to Korean students. I was given the job and without my
knowledge the company is a Korean - Christian owned company. My prayer at that time, was
answered, not only the prayer of mine to get to be closer to God, but the job I had been asking
the Lord. In that same year, I was baptized by another church. for the next 6 years of working for
that company, we were doing daily devotions, encouraging our employees to attend discpleship
groups.
Even though I was baptized by a Christian church, I still went on going with my mom on a Catholic
church, thinking, it was just the same. It is the same God. I just don't have to follow their rituals
and belief and things will be enough. I also thought, doing my devotions, attending our company
daily devotion and sharing was more than enough to say that I am Christian.
A part of me was still not contented and something in me was still telling me that there was still
something lacking in my Christian life. Until around 2013 one of a newly hired employees has told
me about CCF Malolos. She has mentioned about the having many services in CCF which made
me become interested in trying to attend, since the church I was attending to, only has got 1
church service.
I didn't hesitate that week to attend the service and I could remember the topic about the 10
commandments specifically, about commandment #6, You Shall Not Commit Murder. I was in
awe hearing the pastor's preaching and explanation and I realized how shallow my relationship
and understanding of God's word upon learning the commandment's implication. Killing someone
doesn't only mean killing somebody physically rather taking someone else's joy, peace and hope
or being angry with a brother or a sister is also an act of committing murder.
I enjoyed learning a lot from the Sunday services that's why I kept on attending. By God's grace,
my relationship with the Lord has given me enough wisdom to share it to my mother who was a
fully devoted Catholic. She was one of those people who'd say "I was born as a Catholic and I'd
die as one." She accepted the Lord Jesus Christ, and she started attending CCF services.
I also enjoyed attending our Discpleship group and we even go earlier in our office to have our d-
group.
In Jan 2017, I decided to move to another job in Manila and it made me apart from my group that
I attend to. I've become so busy because of commuting to and from work.
My mom as well had become badly ill and I saw her body deteriorating from her illness. She would
always say that perhaps God would soon take her, as her heart had become too frail and her
kidneys were badly damaged from CKD.
On July 10, 2017, one of the saddest news I have ever heard from my entire life was that, my
mom had passed away and I was in Manila. I rushed from BGC to Malolos, and it has been the
longest 3 hours of my life. And I just couldn't believe it, that my best friend my mom was too cold
already, lifeless and dull. I cried and cried, I cried a river but knowing that it was God's plan, I was
relieved that she didn't have to die a terrible death. She didn't have to go through much more
pain. Her death was beautiful for me. I saw that it was her time already. I even thought of,the
reason why I have had to move to another job was because God has already prepared her death.
If I didn’t move to another job, perhaps it would be another problem for me, as I wasn’t prepared
for her death and I wasn’t financially capable to send her off to a burial. My manager, who was a
Chinese business man, shouldered all the expenses of my mom’s burial and I was able to
peacefully send my mom off.
This event has been one of my biggest turning point in life. I know I have to be closer to God
because he will be the only one to give me comfort and love that I long for from my mom. And
knowing how God works, I know I have to be more dependent to him.
I sought CCF page knowing that CCF has discpleship groups through Skype. I asked them to
place me for a group and that's where I met my current dgroup Leader, Ate Perly at around
September 2017.
My Dgroup Leader has helped me a lot into deepening my relationship with the Lord. She
encouraged me to attend all activities in CCF such as the IDC, LifeGoals training and to study
GLC books online so I can catch up with our studies. I also have had the chance to meet her
dgroup leader, Ate Lilian, who never failed to be a mother to me. She comes along with me in
some activities as my dgroup leader is presently in Japan.
They have also sponsored me to attend True Life Retreat last May 2018 where I was then again
baptized possessing the real essence of it in my life.
I thought to myself and always talk to my mom, that my dgroup leaders are guiding me, just as
how my mom would want me to be guided.
Presently, I am discipling a lady from Puerto Galera through Skypleship and I am also discipling
some ladies in BGC from whom I have met in a Christian event.
I am still growing in the name of the Lord and excited on how else he will use me for his glory.
To God be all the honor and praises.