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Justin Fowler Commented [1]: Overall, your piece uses excellent

descriptive language and stays on the narrative point.
As far as something to add, it would be for you to be
Dewey more specific about your examples that you are
including about your childhood and the experience of
English 101 13463 your trip overall.

11 February 2019

Social Location Assignment:

One Fateful Night

My senses became overwhelmed as the colors came flooding in. My knees began to

tremble as my mind started to burst with ideas. Each concept had a form of its own, melting into

one another at the seams. From this molten soup of disordered thought a being emerged like a

titan rising from beneath the ocean. I was confronted with pure pandemonium. It washed away

my ego and every preconceived notion I had about reality. Through the limitless abstractions, I

caught a glimpse of a perfect future. From then on I knew my destiny: to grab hold of the

transcendental object at the end of time and to set the soul of humanity free from the prison of

matter so that we may live in eternal paradise.

My childhood was not so bad, though, it was confusing and enraging. My main source of

anger came from the education system. I was always at odds with my teachers when I was

younger. Whatever they were teaching seemed unimportant or wrong. All of the classes were too

easy or just flat out boring. I also had a bone to pick with the dominant religions. Everyone was

always so hypocritical in their beliefs. Religion seemed like a fairytale told to keep the kids from

misbehaving. It was constantly at odds with the hard won facts of science. It baffles me how so
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many people can believe in such childish things. Religion should be a dynamic set of beliefs

about the world that is rooted in scientific fact and oriented by the spiritual traditions of our

ancestors. I was lost in the world. I wanted to believe in something greater than myself.

However, nothing presented itself to me. I had a god shaped hole in my soul that needed to be

filled. Without a light to illuminate the hole, darkness seeped in. I was captured by hate as I

watched others cause so much unnecessary suffering because they couldn’t let go of their

outdated and illogical beliefs. Whenever I saw people touting moral opinions like “gay marriage

is wrong” or “women shouldn’t get abortions”, their only argument to back it up was something

along the lines of “because god said so.” I grew tired of this argument quickly.

I decided that I couldn’t rely on others to give me answers. I must find the truth myself.

The world was awful. I didn’t know where to go. I thought that the government, which I resented

so much, only made things illegal if it threatened their grip on power. I started to smoke weed

and drink at high school parties because it was against the law. I grew more and more hateful as I

was denied good experiences by other people. It's obvious now why they didn’t like me. But at

the time I blamed not only them, but god too, for my own shortcomings. I was headed down a

dark path towards my own perfect hell. My search for meaning was turning up nothing but rotten

illusions and false idols. Through science, I was armed with the tools to reduce any belief into

meaningless materialism. I could reduce any religious experience into delusion or hallucination.

Science promised me a factual based approach to the mystery of being. However, it revealed its

inadequacy through its failure to provide anything substantial on the question of consciousness. I

was losing all hope, until, one day my friend Derek mentioned a curious psychedelic drug called

LSD.
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Over the years i’ve had a few LSD sessions; all of them were mind bending and world

shattering. This one was special. It began with ingestion of the chemical, then, a slow build up as

it began to affect my brain. About an hour later I started to feel the effects. My body felt lighter

and my mind was buzzing with ideas and creative energy. Psychedelic drugs affect your mind in

a strange way. It feels like it affects your whole body, but, it only affects your brain’s sense of

your physical form. It has a certain indescribable nature about it. It must be experienced directly

because the english language does not possess adequate words to explain it. I will do my best to

translate it into a comprehensible form. I closed my eyes and entered into my mind, something

similar to meditation. With every breath I took I could feel the rest of the world falling away.

Soon there was nothing left but me and the dark. Then, even my sense of self began to fade away

and there was nothing but the unending formless void. A flash of light from the center of my soul

burst forth and exploded into a dazzling display of lights. Particles swirled around and began to

collect into great spheres of stunning size. I was witnessing the birth of the universe. My point of

view expanded and I could see many stars swirling together into a wonderfully massive spiral

galaxy. Then the galaxies came together into a twisting and churning limitless ocean of stars.

Like a titan rising from beneath the depths of the atlantic a great figure slowly surfaced out of the

stars. A god-like figure with power beyond comprehension. It commanded me “Pay attention!”.

My perspective was suddenly thrown down to earth. There I witnessed the rise of life from the

primordial pools to the kingdoms of man in a flash. The curiosity of man drove him out of the

caves and into the light. The struggle for survival kept us going even when there was no hope in

sight. We have always been reaching for something, something forever beyond our grasp. Yet

we keep stretching for it regardless. I began to contemplate the future, extrapolating the curves of

history to try to predict the future. That’s when I realized it, humanity is aiming for the
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transcendental object at the end of time. We cannot reach it until we perfect ourselves and our

culture. We must evolve into the next order of being. We must create a perfect world in order be

granted the power to grab hold of the transcendental object. This is a force of nature beyond

anything our diminutive human brains could possibly imagine. From that point on I knew what

my destiny was, to perfect human society so that the soul of humanity can be set free from the

bonds of the material world.

After my trip I had to slowly piece myself back together. All of my old convictions and

beliefs about the world were shattered and beyond repair, they must be abandoned. I must form a

new set of values in order to orient myself towards the divine. Today I face my future head on

and face every challenge with my full force of will. I am determined to bring the full weight of

the truth to bear upon our culture. The pursuit of perfection should allow us to question our most

sacred cultural relics. We cannot allow imperfections to linger because we are afraid to question

our ancestral knowledge.

We all must reevaluate ourselves and our belief systems so that we may properly orient

each individual and the global culture towards our ultimate destiny. I realize that my current

belief system is inadequate so I am constantly trying to find and repair the holes in it. I hope

others may come to the same conclusions as me. We must begin to work together on a new

religion. Humanity needs to be united under the same set divine revelations. We have fought too

many wars because “my god is better than your god.” It is time for us all to PAY ATTENTION!