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STORIES FROM NOWHERETOWN
MOISES F. SALINAS
SOUTH OF REALITY
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© Moisés F. Salinas
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INDICE DE CUENTOS
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THE PIECE OF CLOTH
2006
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Reeked? Yes, reeked. They put all the men on the
center of the street, and their leader, a man named
Svoboda or something like it, pulled out his sword,
and a big, gold cross. ‘I came to save your souls,
you Jewish sinners.’ He spoke with a drool and
was obviously very, very drunk. ‘You should
resign your sinful ways and swear allegiance to our
only savior, Jesus the lord. And I shall let you
live.’ He said. Mendel was obviously very, very
afraid. He knew that these men were not joking, the
value of life back then was very, very low, and
Jewish life was even cheaper than that. They
looked at their rabbi for guidance, as these
Svoboda guy put the cross right in front of him.
The rabbi was silent for a moment, but then he
began: Shemah Israel, Adonay Eloheinu, Adonai
Echadˆ… Oh, you learned that one in Sunday
school? Yes, yes, Hear thee, oh Israel, the lord is
our God, our Lord in one. Your great grandfather
Mendel remembered then the story of Rabbi
Chananya ben Teradyon who sacrificed himself
and ended up burning wrapped in a Torah scroll
rather than renouncing his faith. And Kiddush
Hashem, the holiness of the name of God as the
only God of the people of Israel, and how over
generations we, the Jewish People, have died to
sanctify his name and maintain the legacy of Israel.
And that gave him strength. So he started too:
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Shemah Israel, Adonay Eloheinu, Adonai Echad…
Soon, all the men started to pray, together, and the
Rabbi, who was on his knees in front of Svoboda,
stood up. All the other men started to do the same,
but then Svoboda screamed and stabbed the Rabbi
in the chest. The other Cossacks fell upon the men
and started stabbing them right and left. Mendel
too got stabbed and fell on the dirt. The Cossacks
burned the shul, and they left. Many of the men
died that night, but not your great grandfather. He
was injured, and very ill. They took him to his
house to rest, but he was not well. The next day,
Mendel called his son, Yitzhok, my grandfather.
Mendel had his Tallis with him, his prayer shawl,
which had been stained by his blood because he
was wearing it when the Cossacks dragged him out
into the street. He told my grandfather Yitzhok to
take it. ‘This is to remind you of your legacy.
Never forget who you are. Keep it and pass it on
for generations, and hopefully one day this Tallis
will make it to Jerusalem when the Moschiach
comes.’ Mendel died the next day, and even
though Yitzhok was too young to say Kadish for
him at the funeral, he donned the blood stained
Tallis on and repeated the ancient words of the
bereavement prayer: Veyitkadal, Veytkadash,
sheme rabba…”
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Michl was very tired, and they had to stop the
story anyway to get ready to light the candles and
start the Shabbat. But that night, Joey stayed
awake very very late thinking about his great grand
father, the blood stained Tallis, and his legacy.
The next morning Joey could not wait to hear
the rest of the story, so he asked his grandfather
Michl to please continue where he left the night
before.
“ Well, Yitzhok never washed the stains, and
he continued to use that Tallis for many years. I
remember as a young child thinking about it and
saying, “why doesn’t he wash that old dirty
Tallis?” But one day he told me the story of the
Tallis, and I understood. When he died, a few years
later, I kept the Tallis. I did not wear it all the time
as my grandfather Yitzhok did. But I kept it in a
very special place, and took it out on special
occasions when I needed to remind myself of the
hardship our people had to endure to survive for
the past 2000 years. That is, until several years
later a guy by the name of Hitler came to power in
Germany. Oh, you learned about him too? In
school? Yes, he was a very mean person. He
wanted to kill all of the Jewish people. Well, he
was in Germany back then, and I was in Poland,
and we didn’t think much about it at the beginning.
But then the big war began and in a couple of
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weeks German soldiers were parading all over
Poland. And it wasn’t long before SS soldiers came
into our little village and took all of us. I was a
very young man then, but I was married and had
one little son. No, Joey, I’m sorry, both of them
died in the war. We got separated, and I was sent to
a concentration camp first. But when the German
soldiers came marching into the village, the first
thing I thought about was the Tallis, so I ran to my
house and put it under my clothes. After a while I
got sent to another camp, and I could not keep the
Tallis anymore, but I did not want to loose the
legacy, so I cut off a corner, the tzitzit, and carried
it with me even as our condition was getting worst
and worst every day. Well, I’ll tell you the story of
how I survived some other day, Joey, but for now
all I need to say is that I survived and the only
piece left I had from my life back at the shtetl was
that little piece of a Tallis, with a small stain of
blood and a tzitzit that was more gray than white.
And yet, at that moment, the day the American
soldiers marched into the camp and rescued us,
there was nothing more important to me than that
little piece of Tallis that in my mind represented
our legacy and the whole 2000 years of history of
the Jewish people outside of our land, the land of
Israel. No, I married your grandmother when I got
here, to America, and your father was born soon
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thereafter. Well, yes, as I matter of fact I do, I still
have it. And guess what? I have it right here with
me.”
Michl pulled out a carefully folded
handkerchief from his pocket, unfolded it, and
revealed a small triangular piece of cloth that was
so grimy and discolored that it could really be
anything. At the center of the triangle there was a
hole, and from the hole, some strings, the tzitzit,
hung in a tight knot. There was indeed a small
brownish stain, which Joey guessed was the blood
of this very ancient ancestor of his.
“Joey, tatele, I want you to have the Tallis
now. Your Bar Mitzvah is approaching, and you
will become part of the people of Israel. When you
do, I want you to remember the legacy. I want you
to remember how hard it has been for our People to
make it this far.”
Joey took the piece of Tallis that day, and the
day of his Bar Mitzvah he had it on his pocket, in
the handkerchief and inside a plastic bag. That day
he felt very proud to be part of the legacy. The day
after, he put it in a closet. And there it remained for
many many years, undisturbed, and while not
completely forgotten, it became just a part of a
memory that Joey would only bring every once in a
while. He only took it out twice in the next 30
years. The day his grandfather Michl died, as he
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held on tight on the small piece of Tallis as he
recited the ancient words of the Kadish, and the
day his own son, Michael, who had been named
after his great grandfather, became a Bar Mitzvah
on his own and thus part of the ancient people of
Israel.
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It was an early afternoon on a typical Friday
at the house of the Goldbaums. They lived in the
fourth floor of modern building in an upscale area
of Seattle, a trendy neighborhood, where young
successful professionals made the bulk of the
tenants. The incoming weekend could be felt in the
air with many of the young professionals were
abuzz with the preparations for the weekend, the
dances and the dinner parties of the Friday night.
Yuan, a beautiful young woman whose
grandparents had emigrated from China, but who
now preferred to be called Jean and had very little
connection with her family, was getting ready for a
dinner party at her house. She had been married to
Michael Goldbaum for about a year now. They
were very happy and they looked like the perfect
couple, perpetually happy, even though Michael
had a bad month or two after his father Joseph
passed away early that year from cancer. Jean was
looking for some tablecloths and dinnerware in a
closet when she stumbled upon an unopened box
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they had received after Michael’s father passed
away, with some of Michael’s childhood
belongings. She had plenty of time before the
dinner, and the box was kind of unsightly (Jean
loved cleanliness and organization, and everything
in her house had to be as close to perfection as
possible). She decided it was time to open the box,
and sort its contents out. She took some old
baseball cards, an old high school diploma,
pictures, a small little league trophy. Some old
record albums (they don’t even make those
turntables anymore, she thought). And inside a
small plastic bag, a white handkerchief. She
opened it, unfolded the handkerchief, and then was
disgusted with what she found. It was a small
piece of old cloth, filthy and smelly, stained by
what looked like chocolate, and clearly had been
attached to something by an unraveling piece of
string that looked like it had been dragged through
mud. It was positively disgusting. She put is aside
and as soon as Michael got home she confronted
him about it.
“Jean, it is some sort of family heirloom. A
souvenir or something from and old ancestor. I
really don’t remember the story that well. Yes, I
know is disgusting. Well, it kind of connects me to
my past. Yes, I know, we have to look towards the
future, and I know that you gave up all of your old
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Chinese culture and break up with your family to
become part of the modern world, as you say it.
No, no, I know you wouldn’t be married to me
otherwise. Fine, fine with me. Get rid of it. I know
how much that bothers you, and yes, I love you, so
if you thing is a focus of infection, just put it in the
garbage.”
The next Monday, the city dump truck drove
through the pick up area of the complex. A large
metal container was dumped and then compacted
into the truck. The little piece of cloth, now mixed
with some rotten raspberries, some used paper
napkins, and a disposable diaper, laid inside.
The middle aged driver pushed the lever to
compact the trash further, but some of the leftover
food splashed and stained his uniform. He cleaned
up the pieces of food from the nametag in his chest
that clearly showed his family name, Svoboda.
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A BUS RIDE ON A SUNY DAY
2009
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eons have compared to gold. But at noon, with the
sun up high, it just looks like stone. But stones
were everywhere in Jerusalem of the late 1980s.
They were on the walls, on the paved streets, on
the ancient ruins, and in the air. Yes, in the air,
because besides being the city of stones, Jerusalem
is the city of conflict. The city has been fought over
and conquered dozens of times, by the Israelites,
the Mesopotamians, the Babilonians, the Greeks,
the Romans, the Mamelucs, the Muslims, the
Christians, the Ottomans, the French, the British,
the Jews, hey, some people say even the Aliens.
No, not illegal Aliens, Extraterrestrial Aliens. Are
they are not joking either. The Internet is full of
stories, from the Second Temple to Elijah the
prophet, claiming a connection to Aliens. In any
event, the point is that Jerusalem is the city of
stones, and the city of war, and at that point, in the
winter of 1987, the stones and the war came
together. See, in 1967, depending on which side of
the stone you where, Israel either “liberated” or
“conquered” the east side of Jerusalem. And for the
next 20 years, the Palestinians from Jerusalem,
which where for the most part considered second-
class citizens de facto even if legally they were
supposed to have all the rights of their Jewish
counterparts, actually did their best at integrating
economically to the new Israeli reality. But by
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1987, a new generation of Palestinians, who had
only known Israeli occupation, and had never lived
under Jordanian occupation, or British occupation,
or Ottoman occupation, got tired of this particular
occupation and were willing to fight for their self-
determination. And that is when the stones and the
conflict came together in beautiful synergy.
Palestinias, first in the Jebalia refugee camp, then
in the rest of the West Bank, Gaza, and Jerusalem,
decided to fight the powerful Israeli Army with
stones. The same stones that gave Jerusalem its
aurous name became the weapon of choice for
these perennially occupied people. The Israelis
were mystified. How does the mythical Army of
the six-day-war and the Entebbe rescue fight an
army of stone-wielding Palestinian Davids? The
reactions were varied. “Rubber coated bullets,”
water cannons, tear gas. “Break their legs” said the
legendary Yitzhak Rabin. And of course, acrylic.
Tons and tons of acrylic sheeting to cover the
windows of military vehicles, of civilian vehicles
of West Bank Israeli settlers, and of course, of that
non-descriptive white and red Israeli line 23 bus
that me and my friend Mike were riding that
ordinary afternoon in Wadi Joz.
“Take Cover” screamed the driver. The bus was
pretty full and there was no room in the center aisle
to drop to the floor. I was sitting next to the acrylic
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covered window anyway, so all I could do was
crouch. I remembered those little safety cards from
the airplanes that said that in case of emergency,
you should put your head between your legs. I
don’t think the safety engineers on airplanes ever
thought about flying stones as one of those
emergencies, but that was all I could think of on
that second. I was expecting baseball sized, sharp
rocks to start hitting the window any second now.
Probably because what we, and the rest of the
world had seen on TV, I imagined Palestinian teens
on the other side of the street, like young Arab
versions of Roger Clemens or Fernando
Valenzuela, throwing with all their might to try and
break the acrylic sheeting protecting the bus (me!)
from their fury. So what happened next came as a
total surprise. A heavy, loud thump!! From the
ceiling. I instinctively lifted my head in surprise,
just to hear a second thump!! And actually saw the
roof of the bus cave in a little and begin to crush
just like an empty beer can against the forehead of
John Belushi. This were no stones. They were
massive boulders, several dozen if not hundreds of
pounds heavy, that had been lined up carefully on
the edge of the roof of adjacent buildings. I was
paralyzed. Would the roof of the bus cave in,
letting one of this massive rocks in, crushing the
bodies of the people inside? I was not confident the
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aluminum body of a bus could take the impacts,
not to say anything about the useless acrylic that
the Egged cooperative spent millions installing in
many of its buses. It was a small example of a
basic rule of warfare: improve your defenses, and
the enemy will eventually find a way to improve its
weapons. Military solutions are never final, always
cyclical.
And then, a miracle happened. No, the Israeli army
did not show up to save our souls. No, the bus did
not sped away, it had to slowly roll out because of
the traffic. Neither God nor the Jerusalem Aliens
lifted the bus into safety. No. The miracle was at a
more human level. As I sat there, with my torso
down and my head up, paralyzed in disbelief, my
friend Mike took the hood of my coat, and put it
over my head. Just like that. Suddenly I had the
certainty that the thin cloth hood would protect me.
Suddenly my thoughts moved away from the fear
of being stoned to death, to that simple, useless act
of kindness, of caring.
Slowly, through the rain of rocks that weirdly
reminded me of the sound of heavy hail, the bus
struggled to roll out of Wadi Joz. The roof was
seriously dented. Suddenly, a massive rock hit the
windshield. The driver steered left, and the bus
went off the road and started speeding down the
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hill, faster and faster, towards the valley down
below…
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MAXIMUM SECURITY
2002
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THE DELAY
1992
"Hello…"
"Heather?" I recognize his voice.
"Yes. Who is this?" I pretend not to know.
"Robert"
"Robert?"
"Yeah, from the bar, the other night…"
"Oh, yes. Robert" I say with an uninterested
intonation.
"How are you?"
"OK"
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"Listen, I wanted to ask you out on Friday"
"Oh, I can't Friday" I lie.
"How about Saturday?"
"Where to?"
"To this place"
"Maybe, I don't know. Why don't you call me
Friday to confirm?"
"OK, but it's a date"
"Maybe. Call me"
"OK, bye, but I'll see you Saturday"
"See you"
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He changes the topic, again, courteous and
friendly, but this time he takes my hand. His hand
is strong yet delicate. It's warm, it feels good. I let
him be and he keeps talking without interruption.
He smiles. His smile is charming, and his eyes.
But it is all part of the plan.
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"My Mom is going to kill me!!!" I jump out of my
seat.
"Don't worry. We'll be at your home in a minute"
He said which with such confidence that a strange
feeling of calm invades me.
We get on his car, and begin a long road to an
unwanted farewell. Almost without noticing, his
fingers drip down and weave in with mine. We
stay that way, in silence, until we get home.
Silence and love. I was drunk with happiness and
at that instant I couldn't ask for anything else in the
world.
"Well, we're here"
"Yeah. We are here." I look at him with sadness.
I would like for that evening to go on forever.
Only one thing was missing.
"Why don't you give me your phone and I'll call
you…" the phrase interrupted by the speed in
which I get a pen from my purse and I write down
my number in a piece of paper. I sign it: Heather,
and draw a happy face right next to it.
Just like the happy face, he looks at the paper, and
smiles. He steps out of the car and opens the door
for me. I stand up, look at him, and almost like
making a wish… he holds me with tenderness and
time seems to stand still. He moves his face closer
to mine and… only one thing was missing: a kiss. I
feel his lips, warm and moist, on mine. My heart
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beats furiously and I get scared of myself. I freeze.
A few seconds go by and I feel confused, and
finally he moves away. I feel like an idiot, and
begin to wonder what is he thinking about me. I'm
ashamed of having desired that kiss so much only
to ruin it by getting petrified when he finally does.
I would like to hug him and kiss him again just to
show him, but…
"Bye" is all I can say.
"Good bye. I'll call you" but it sounded like… I
don't know. Maybe I'm just imagining things.
Maybe it was sadness what I heard in his voice, or
maybe not. Maybe hope, I don't know. He looked
at me intensely for a few seconds as I was opening
the door, trying not to turn around. Finally he got
on his car and drove away. Away from me.
That night I could barely sleep. I was thinking
about him, his hugs, his kiss. About me. The next
day I was expecting all day, waiting…
The Phone!!!
I run to pick up and grab the handset: "Hello…"
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