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A.D.D. My Ass!
By Carol Gignoux
Boston,MA 77904
http://www.theassetbook.com
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Copyright © by Carol Gignoux 2010
As a rAfter, you solve problems. From complex developmental
problems when you were an infant, to big world problems as an adult,
you constantly evaluate, communicate, experiment and fix problems.
Your imagination never stops leaping over obstacles. Challenges that
would frighten or stop many people are everyday apples and oranges
for you. If someone says that it can’t be done, you find a way to do it.
If the issues are insurmountable and the damage unfixable, you build a
bigger and better possibility.
I want to stop here and say that writing this book and using my
life as an illustration of living with the label of ADD has been
terrifying. Why is being authentic such a big deal for me? I discovered
that I have layers of protective coating around me which translates
into not being vulnerable or intimate with very many people because I
am distrustful and afraid. I grew up being neglected and abused. I
considered myself unattractive, though the word I used was “ugly” and
on top of all that, I had this “disorder” and “deficit” label that just
painted a big red A on my forehead for everyone to see. For me to
come out and talk about it to you now is like taking off all those
layers. I’m saying, “OK World, I’m coming out of the closet.”
I will tell you straight up that being a rapid fire thinker, being a
kid who is a rapid fire thinker and not having the tools to channel and
Rapid fire thinkers have trouble with processing info from the
outside when they are distracted and can’t keep their mind on it.
Because of this distractibility, they struggle with learning. One of the
tools we will discuss in this book is how to use the energy of that
Neuro-psychologists test kids and adults all the time and give
them the ADD or ADHD label. Sometimes they are correct and
sometimes they are not. A number of my teenage clients have become
upset when they worked to learn the tools to harness and harvest their
mental energy only to have a neuro-psychologist tell them they “don’t
have ADHD.”
For every idea that a non-rapid fire thinker has, a rAfter has ten.
The law of averages makes this a winning situation as long as the
rAfter has the tools to monitor, discern and understand their idea flow.
The more ideas, the greater the chances that one or more of them will
be a solution or an invention.
Childhood
When my mother’s second marriage did not work out, she became
very needy again and began using me as her support system. Growing
up alone and afraid, with no solid identity of my own, it was easy for
me to assume someone else’s identity and in this case my mother’s.
After all, I had finally found a way to get her attention.
The Christmas tree at my aunts’ house was piled with gifts for me
that first year. I was shocked. Throughout my childhood and adoles-
Translation of a rAfter:
In fact, the first couple of years, I was a lost soul. I was in a dorm
with girls from Atlanta. We called it “Hot-lanta.” They had money. I
felt lost, but they took me under their wing. Inside of me I was very
jealous of their clothes and labels, and they would bring back all new
things from weekend shopping trips. I focused on the underwear –
ruffles and silk. I had three pairs of cotton underwear and I would
wash it and try to hide it behind the door.
One day, everyone was out and I went into their rooms and stole
their underwear and put it in a drawer in my room. There was a dorm
meeting, “Somebody here has stolen some things that belong to other
girls and we are going to give you a chance to put it back. If you do
this, nothing will happen to you.”
I remember how painful that was and how I felt sick inside. I
found an opportunity to put the underwear back. No one ever said
anything to me but I think they knew that I did it.
Translation of a rAfter:
Thrown into yet another new living situation, I adapted and made
myself an indispensable member of the group. Still using my rapid fire
thinking skills to process through years of emotional and physical
abandonment, I evolved from considering myself invisible and unable
to receive gifts to a person who longed to have nice things. My
impulse to steal was a kind of self-acknowledgment gone awry. I was
able to adjust and correct and go on evolving.
The moment that stands out for me was when I realized that I had
been accepted by a group of influential and rich girls on campus.
There was no sorority on campus at the time and we decided to start
one and only the best one would do. I look back on it and see that they
really did accept me and like me. I didn’t believe it until they chose
me to help them start this sorority.
Translation of a rAfter:
I remembered how I used to feel when I was a kid. All those years
in school when I could have been studying, I was always afraid of
what would happen when I got home. I didn’t do my homework or
study. I don’t know how I got out of school at all. The school system
can’t deal with a kid who has all this emotional stuff going on, no
matter how intelligent and capable that child may be.
I said to those kids, “I’m here for you, I believe in you.” Then, I
showed them how to channel their impulses and thoughts into a
disciplined flow.
I said, “You thought you were stupid but today you know that you
are a rapid fire thinker, a super-evolver. You can stop blaming yourself
and start healing.”
Translation of a rAfter:
Learning to Love Me
I went to therapy and worked hard at learning to love me. The truth
is that compassion is the healer. When my compassion for myself
outweighed my comparison of myself against others, I healed from my
wounds. When my compassion for my mother outweighed my pain of
abandonment, I healed from my wounds.
My Super-Evolving Journey
So, if you are a rAfter, here’s the habit I’m suggesting that you
establish:
Write down your life history in a 1-3k word essay. Find in it the
ways that your asset allowed you to survive and thrive. Your past is a
gold mine.
For the rest of your life, starting today, look at yourself in the mirror
every morning; give yourself a smile and say, “You’ve got The Asset.
You are a gifted human being and I love you.”
Make It Real