The Ascension process of ngsbacka 2011 by the White Rose Clearing the downstairs of the barn, really heavy

energy, and dirt under the staircase. Symbol for transformation was seen when I found the real snakeskin in the dishwashing temple area while cleaning it. Energetic clearing of the Chapel and freeing some old spirits from there. Peace of Gad entering the Chapel. Prayers continue on a daily basis in the Chapel all along. Ensos arrival the Healer, whose Mother and Sister is Miriam, and who works with Christ. The healing process is being activated by Ensos presence. I introduced myself upon arrival to Marttha as having a new direction and vision for ngsbacka. The capstone of the pyramid has to be activated in ngsbacka by the Holy Spirit. Someone has to carry it. I also told her about my vision for the Academy of the Golden Age. Later I go through confrontations with Martte, who denies me possibility to do workshops and to speak in meetings. I had another talk with Martte in the cafe. Mala was sitting near us, but I was so concentrated in talking to Marttha, that I didnt see her. Marttha starts to melt. We discuss anger in a positive sence. Constructive anger, and honoring ones own personal boundaries. I talk to her about the importance to clear the root chakra for the right use of the spiritual energies of God. Ensos first dance workshop. I dance contact impro with someone, which leads to a state of complete connectedness to my body and I feel nearly unable to walk because of the abundant energetic flow in my body and auric field. The next morning I get Pyret and Marttha admitting me a possibility to recite a poem in the morning meeting. Let me touch your heart by Claudia Patricia Sanches. It describes the difference between Divine and pure Love as opposed to personal mashy love. It was written by a very special teacher of Light from Mexico, with an incredible connection to the Holy Spirit and the Divine Mother. We had people singing Om in the backround. People came to thank me after that saying many were crying even and felt really touched. Divine will as opposed to personal will On the same day during the silent sitting I get the urge to walk to the middle of the room and some energetic connection is being anchored through me there.

Later I wittness Divine Beings in the room, which I see suddenly as an initiation hall inside a pyramid. The hosts of Light have gathered there to welcome us and guide our process in the opening ourselves to the Light. An aura of deep sacredness pervails the room. Petter starts to talk about the gratitude he feels to the Indian masters and their spiritual traditions. I feel the need to point out, that all the religions and cultures are a part of the same whole, same God, Unity or Oneness. After the session Petter comes to me angry and tells me not to speak in his gathering. It was his workshop and his space. I said that was it his workshop or Gods, and if God didnt fit in what did that mean? I wanted to remind the people, that it was not just the spiritual traditions of the East, that we needed to honour, but all the siritual and religious traditions of the world, including their founders. Which is all One, in the end. We tend to admire India, but at the same time forget our own roots and traditions in the so called New-Age spirituality. So we need to look deeper... I also pointed out, that I hadnt received much support for holding my workshops from the staff, and asked if Petter himself could help me, so I wouldnt need to talk in his events. But he was not cooperative. We so often have our ideas of how we want things to be, we have our ego-based agenda, and if God has another agenda we resist it. Personal will as opposed to the will of God. At that point I had been contemplating, wether I should go to Ireland or not. I had booked a trip there 2 weeks earlier, and the time was approaching to make a decision to leave or not. After the silent sitting I had a strong intuition, that I should stay. I went to the computer in Malas newly cleaned office to check my email. The woman, who was supposed to host me in Ireland emails me, that she had a sudden invitation to a wedding in Germany and that she cannot accomodate me. That I call synchronicity. Next morning we have silent sitting in the Chapel. I get the impulse to sing, and I start to sing softly Om. Some people leave the Chapel, and we continue with singing. Enso receives healing and blessing. I study material of Summit Lighthouse and receive answers to the processes here. It feels as if I was guided to read that particular chapter just that day, so things feel really guided and magical. The new Spiritual Board The next day I start cleaning Malas office after persuasion process, that had been going on since the day before. Finally she agreed to let me do it. It was when Mala was herself really tired and looked like she needed more rest, that anything else. I told her, that this office, from where the whole house is run from didnt quite represent the

state of the art of our upcoming Magical Summer season.... The Paradise on Earth, as the brochure read... The cleaning process took 2 full days. It started by me washing all of Malas clothes lying around the place. As I hanged them, I realized they were all black as all of mine were white... By the time we finished, I had had an idea to set up an altar representing the new spiritual board of ngsbacka. That day, when I was just bringing my altar stuff in to the office, I caught Pyret on the way to the office, I ran after her telling her, that I had an idea of the new spiritual leader of ngsbacka. When I finally reached her, her trying to run away from me, as usual, I showed her the picture of Christ. Her reaction was astounding: I dont know that man. Another peculiar figure in the new board was found during the cleaning process actually hiding behind the computer. It was the Gnome. Being also called the Trickster, his nature is expressed through storytelling, creative chaos and helping people to let go of old habits. So a creative figure like the Gnome we all wanted to join him in the new board, as hiding behind the computer wasnt really feeling the right thing for him to do anymore. He wanted to come out in the open and negotiate his ideas in a more honest and straighforward way together with the rest of the Board. So the new spiritual board was elected that day, and the final members were chosen as follows: Jesus Christ, as the representative of the Divine Father, Amma, as the Divine Mother and the Gnome, as the creative driving force of chaotic ngsbackatype of processing, which has that touch of genuine MAGIC in it combined with chaos and incredible transformation happening here. Aside from these prestigious figures, there were two glass Buddha heads, of which the other was made a representation of Mala with her Peru-Inca hat and lapis neclace, and another Buddha received his Kitchen staff hat, symbolizing their enlightenment. Flowers and candles were also offered to our new Board memebers, and some beautiful other things. Osho was also part of the board at one point, but then he was too busy and had to leave in the form of a book, which found an interested reader. There was however also another figure, which was placed just outside the office, representing well the Housekeeper herself. It is a small lego-figure, with a deceptively sweet looking pink upper-part, as a dress, but a mans bearded face and touch guys black jeans with some chains hanging from the pocket. This figure, however was decided to be this time on a wellcoming mood for the new people arriving that afternoon for the volunteer-camp, holding her hands up as a gesture of a warm greeting. Sharing groups the Search for my personal group

The sharing groups were not really falling into place at first for me. I attended one sharing, where someone said ngsbacka is Hell. The energetics were confused to say the very least. The other time a door was closed in front of my nose. So many times I just ended up doing my sharing with Jesus and God in the Chapel, which was rewarding, as usual. I experienced loneliness but also divine love, and light, in a very concrete ways. One of my most special experiences happenend, when in the end of a long prayer session, I suddenly become aware, that I was inside a spiral of Light and that the darkness, which was hanging around the whole planet, was not effecting me in that Light. I felt complete freedom and truth in that experience of my connection being more powerfull, than the collective energies, people get caught up in usually. I was really praying for the clearing of the energies of ngsbacka and the healing of the Heart of ngsbacka collectively. One evening I also had an amazing experience of visiting a city of Light on another dimension. I met a man there, who said he had been my spiritual teacher before, and he told me, that religions are like old structures, but that the living Light could be felt and openend in anyone anywhere, as long as that person was pure in heart and did pray in his her own way. That the Light of God was in everything and everywhere, and that God was here and now happening to all who had this contact. That experience cut down a lot of the shame and condemnation Islam is so famous for. Finally I found my real family in the healing circles sharing group. I was guided to join them by my inner voice. That afternoon Nicole had an epileptic attack during our sharing. We go through shock and call the ambulance. Enso also tries to heal her and ends up taking some of the energy into his system. I am guided to go and heal him through my voice and prayer and talk with him. Our connection deepens and we share things in relation to our common work for God. So God help us! Some days after that we celebrated the lost and found day of ngsbacka. We were going through the Lost and Found, and people were taking the things they wanted, and the rest was brought to the laundryroom. It dawned on me, that those clothes somehow represented the conscioussness of such a variety of backrounds and levels of conscioussness. I thought, that those clothes were also a sort of expression of the confusion of people, when they arrive here. They are looking for something, but they dont know what it actually is they should find and how. So they go around workshops here and there and have experiences, which they later on reflect on and the do the sharing and so on... But are they really Found in the end? Skeleton transforms into Light ngsbacka being Lost and Found

That was the day, during which to my astonishment I spotted a real looking skeleton in the front of the Annex on the lawn. So I came up with the idea of dressing this doomy figure into ngsbacka conscioussness with the Lost and Found clothes. Actually we did some really funny photos and a video of him leaving to Stokholm as well. There were rumors going around about him being fed up of living in the closet, and wanting to transform his existence into more interesting and inspiring areas, such as Tantra and rock and roll. His outfit also described his ideology: a t-shirt saying Filthy and Furious with a rock- musician holding an electric guitar in his hand, an odd pair of broken boots and well no pants! But he was happy to start his new life and we bid him farewell, and sighed in relief finally the past energies of ngsbacka were leaving in a concrete way. That evening I wanted to burn my old clothes as well, and joined the drama workshop. I told them I was Lost and was wondering if they could help me to be Found again. But they were just doing theatre-excercises, so I went on to Martthas fire-ceremony just to wittness the burning of the holy package made in the Native American ceremony the day before. The evening ended up in all of us singing Amazing Grace as the Techno party base was playing loudly in the backround, but we didnt care.... I once was lost, but now am Found.... On that event I also burned my Lost and found outfit and came back to the Light... but as usual, the show must go on, and some clothes were still hanging around and people were still refusing to let go of the old and saying, wait, dont burn them just yet. Divine Sound and the motor Martha asked me to have a workshop on wednesday, and I agree to stay, after a few it is too late, I have to leave mutterings. So I surrender and stay, and days pass. Then my kurdish husbands emails start to show alarming signs and I decide to go to check things up in Finland regardless of everything. I keep my workshop Divine Sound and receive encouraging feedback. In the morning meeting Hari had mentioned, that the energetics of the process in ngsbacka were like a huge motor, which would start and then slowly increase to the full power by the time of the evening. When we started my workshop there was a huge tractor motor being started outside the Chapel, and I had to go and close the door. I mentioned the symbolism to the people. Marriage and some points about Islamic culture

I want always to do things in a natural and organic way, and went back home. We had a beautifull meeting with him, but the next evening was my flight to Ireland. I went to clear some of the rest of the stuff of some friends, and came home late, had pizza with my husband and eneded up missing my flight to Ireland. So I realized, God didnt want me to go! Next thing I did was to take the first train towads Turku to catch the ferry to Sweden next day. My husband, being from a muslim backround, ofcourse wasnt impressed of the change of plans. But that was too late. I was already on my way to transformation and freedom... He is especially jealous and holds the opinion, among others, that a woman shouldnt talk to males if she is a good Muslim. But as I am from a totally different backround and a social open type, that is really too much to ask I feel. But still I can understand him. But I dont have to act accordingly. Actually the reason why I came to ngsbacka in the first place had to do with the fact, that my husband was being violent in the realtionship. As an uneducated person, it seemed it was his only defence agains a free woman like myself, who was passing every imaginable limit and not fitting into any category of his past ideas, and still loved him in the middle of it, was driving him completely mad. All he could do was to scream and shout bad names at me in the end. I also had been living in Iraq for 3 monts prior to coming to ngsbacka with our 9 month old twins, and really living according to the muslim culture there. What was strange thoe, that I read the Quran while visiting Iraq during one week, while the local people couldnt read nor understand their own religious book, I became a somewhat strange figure in their eyes. I was really praying 5 times a day with them. I was teaching them about the Quran. And I was touching some sensitive spots, which became the cause for controversy later on. So I had originally escaped my flat because of this physical and emotional violence, and my friends seemed to all be occupied, and here I was looking for a place to stay. Finally I found a friend, and spent a few nights at her place, before deciding to come to ngsbacka. Pyret welcomed me telling me about her own kurdish ex-boyfriend... Painfull but successfull birthing process of the Christ conscioussness of ngsbacka Transformation processes always have the element of letting go of the past and accepting the moment of temporary chaos in our lives. Upon my departure, we celebrated the Birthday party of ngsbacka. It was as if through the holy spirit work of that workshop the whole site had become blessed and transformed on the energetic level. People came to me saying, that they could feel the difference. I gave the

children birthday hats and whistles and everyone was enjoying the party. The wes also a special moment of silent communion with Edgar in grace, as if time stood still. I had some hard time leaving, but in the end I just took a taxi, that had driven to the yard, and left with an Iranian driver. Symbolic of my way back home to the muslims. It was like cutting the imbilical cord to the energies of my spiritual family and friends in and of the Light.