A Contemporary Mind and Other Crimes

A CONTEMPORARY MIND AND OTHER CRIMES
AN INTERNATIONAL COSMOPOLITAN
B'RYAN
AN ADVENTURERS PHILOSOPHICAL OBSERVATION & AN ADVENTURES POLITICAL CONCLUSIONS
Copyright 2002 by B'RYAN.
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In Memory of My Father a Righteous Romantic My Mother a Perceptive Realist & All My Generations Unnecessary Dead Whose Lives and Families Deserved Better ALOHA To the Great Individuals Who Let Me in Their Lives Especially My Sister And the Other Great Women
Knowledge is useful information. Understanding is interrelated knowledge. Perspective is balanced understanding. Comprehension is correlated perspective. Wisdom is the above intelligence applied and shared. (BRYAN)
PROLOGUE
During the days I spent with my grandfather following his retirement as a doctor, he would become absorbed in intense recollections of intimate subjects. He re-lived these with passionate feelings and expressed them in a knowing voice. His lifes demanding circumstances and the behavior patterns of twisted social conventions forced his intellectual efforts to come to terms with the ethics of living, the focus of survival and the acceptance of death. Stories, by their nature, are structured towards entertainment. My grandfathers stories explain conventionality and overcoming its biases with unfolding surprises. For him remarkable comprehensions emerged from the intense dangers found in the inherent risk of deadly situations. The pressure stimulated invigorating and liberating conclusions that revealed societys structured abstractions presumptuous assumptions. His stories are vehicles that focus the knowledge within the events and the composing of the intelligence needed for success. He saw and deduced the deeper intellectual involvement of his experiences as the most factual source of understanding. His intellectual attitude towards knowing what was before him and handling contemporary living evolved into a fusion of self-improving eclectic pragmatism, philosophically termed, International Cosmopolitan. His comprehensions evolving inclusiveness were created in this prevailing state. Living amplifies life; the more one looks, the more there is to see; this means an individual responsibility to develop sophisticated
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perspectives that enjoy pleasure, engage change and manage uncertainty. His personal wisdoms full presence embodied ethics (what-ought-to-be), experiences sensibilities, and awareness assessments, not the spells of prefixed perceptions or the mental habits of a regulated mind within their illusions of comfortable conjecture. To him, seeing clearly gave answers, while traditional agendas propagated poor preparation, misplaced importance and overaccepted conditioning. Not knowing is ignorance, the root causes of devastating suffering, lost potentials and fatal inadequacies for the deadly challenges of the contemporary world. Especially concerning evil the willingness or intent to do harm. My grandfathers heaviest tears and burdens were carried in private anguish due to the unnecessary loss of so many otherwise very capable individuals. His meaningful love motivated him. He once said, With age one roams back and retouches long-retained impressions, while others flash into the mind with emotional references that have focus, pace, rhythm, and weight. Powerfully felt urgent moments are re-experienced with clarity and emotional surges, from and toward long carried private episodes of wonderful smiles, thoughtful frowns, sparks of shame and griefs life long pains. The appreciations of age are in the reminders of having lived because ages thoughts, reflections, and memories explode into passionate waves that ripple aliveness through the body, potent sensations so contrary to most passions in old age that sadly end in impotency. Age quietly accepts what is. The clearer meaning and hard-earned recognitions are the wisdom of experience, lifes most expensive gift to give and the most valuable to receive. What more realistic gift could a loved one give? Grandfather, why does your intensity have the feel of the last lecture on living? Obituary obligations! Life is about living, the fuller the better. Society is about purposed functioning with an impreciseness of failures accomplices. Potentials are capped by the appeasement to agendas priorities of things superseding people and gratification supplanting real wealth, the philosophy of ones mind and health. Civilized adult life is full of organizing, assessing and deciding, the
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dynamics of relevance, which contemporary literacy maximizes. A modern structuring that embraces uncertaintys encompassing influence over life because the sole objective certainty in living is uncertainty, the universes reality and lifes actuality. Seeing clearly that which is, and utilizing what is superior are the efforts of this book. My grandfathers story is an opus to optimal behavior that also redefines grandparenthood (Ghood) which is not about admiration. Rather the accumulation of realizations that necessitates distinctions and a genius in passing on wisdom the best way possible in order to minimize livings saddest regrets. If I only knew and I should have.
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Substance Transcends Credit, But Deserves a Thank You Whenever Possible

Tropical America starts in the dawn of the Caribbeans Windward Islands and ends in the Hawaiian sunsets. The warm waters of these latitudes encompass many passionate eccentricities and colorful cultures. Panam is the regions maritime crossroads both historically and geographically. During the turbulent geopolitical gestations of the late 1930s, it was a hot simmering cauldron. In the center of which was Gregorios Icehouse Caf, a single large building with two operations, a nightclub/caf and a commercial icehouse. The cafs long lobby entrance was enclosed at both ends by solid wood doors, which made the clockless windowless interior a refuge of shadowed timelessness. No brain-piercing glare and cool air from the commercial icehouse made the caf a comfort oasis. The cafs low bandstand and stage sat behind the piano on the dance floor surrounded by tables. The bar ran along the back wall. Gregorios second floor office had separate entrances into the caf and the icehouse, while a shaded terrace was only accessible through the kitchen. El Caf supplied needs and conveniences beyond hearty food and stiff drinks. Experienced men, whether cagey captains or entrepreneurcapitalists mapped out plans, refined schemes and waited on their results, which usually functioned on a need-to-know basis. Large cast reproductions of the first coin minted in the USA were inlaid in the
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tabletops of the cafs well-spaced tables. These carried a poignant reminder to respect privacy due the coins engraved inscription by Ben Franklin mind your own business.
Sundial Tempos Moondial Rhythms

Music is irresistible across Tropical America. The musical styles follow the tempos of cultural accents and the aesthetic senses of individuals. The harmony is the mood and the melody is the atmosphere. The enthroned musical sources are the love affair between the romantic Spanish guitar and seductive African drums. The poetic Spanish melodies and erotic African rhythms are the duet that fertilize and inflame a vigorous sensuality. El caf had soft jazz days and the hot spices of tropical nights, which made the steady activity an engrossing event. A unique source of simple pleasures came from the useable musical instruments that lay freely accessible. The fortunate few, who could play, shared the inspirations of earnest emotions in solo performances. Often, simple soft hymns to renewed faith or relieved private dramas by unburdening the pangs of inadequacys failures. Many performed old favorites for the familiar feelings of fond memories, which momentarily relieves anxietys incessant mental-spinning, while too few played the blues that heal. The feel of jazz permeated El caf. Jazz is doing, an art form with improvisable musical arrangements, composed from the European structuring concept of harmonies, overlaid with deep captivating African rhythms. Not being precisely notated allows natural adaptation by the individual artist, these subjective interpretations and expressions from additions and variations creates diversitys fresh music. Individualitys expressions for livings passions and lifes rhythms compose Tropical America, whose social customs support the individuals personality traits with traditions of acceptance that do not require justifications or approval. Summed up in one word, vivo. Literally, its translated as I live, realistically as I am free to be me.
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Povertys Talent Creates Art Wealths Exaggerations Buy Art

El cafs bandleader was Rubn; a seasoned man who accepted what life is and lived its passions knowing its rhythms. El maestro was an artist of life, not the artist as an identity that is so often an apologetic identity for deficiencys weakness. He survived youths ignorance by his wits and taking chances to learn the wisdom of striving and accomplishments. He sought opportunities because a better life doesnt climb stairs and knock on the doors of ignorance. Rubn pursued life to capture musical expression. He interpreted and played the streets poetry. These eternal melodramatic moments of struggle and feelings were honed into expressive rhythms, the motor force of music that connects with us and carries all forward. Hard times focus and experiences insights gave his artistic compositions an earnest openness, heard in the resonating clarity of his maturitys suave elegance. Rubns sound flowed with a smooth confidence. The summation of his being and impeccable style propelled his music and carried the audience. They responded like another instrument in his orchestra. His arrangements of absorbing rhythms and the vivid magic of dance merged into the sensual movements that arouse and excite. A conductor of a musical ride, who raised and released the patrons frenzied tensions through the energetic expressions of dance, which discharged all the static charges developed by the daily grinds of lifes imposed circumstances and personal dramas, a therapeutic self-medication that liberates. El cafs Prima Donna was Consuela, whose long late sets closed our weeknights down. Her impassioned voice resonated a connection in songs that guided and massaged our minds sensitive secluded recesses. The performances were quiet personal dramas of operatic passions, musical cries from the heart, not sentimentality as entertainment. She was a spiritual uplifter, who touched the closed spaces within solitudes darkness. Her awareness of suffering had the strength to do something about it. Her vocals comforted and consoled, while lamenting desires pains. Compassionate moments with a spiritual companion in the struggles of human existence, souls bared and clemency shared, embracing the
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cures of her hard-earned wisdom. Humanity expressed through calming comprehensions gracious love. Her healing music helped our journeys by softening the hard edges of long days lonely nights that freed us into the release of healing sleep.
Live Novels to Write a Biography

During a liquid siesta one day, Captain Brien entered El caf and had a quick double for having survived another emergencys precarious landing. He then ordered a second, which he took to a table where he sat confidently. Soon afterwards, Rubn walked in with an exquisite woman, who was very upset. She asked for the pilot who was pointed out; they walked over to Briens table and stood in silence until the sail bag Rubn was carrying hit the floor. The sound triggered Rubns gorgeous companions emotional state. Her concern was having been burned by the spray of hot motor oil leaking from Briens airplane that had flown low over Rubns boat. The emotional words seemed to fade into alluring background music as the presence of her beauty filled the room. When she finished, Brien calmly asked where were the burns because her skin only radiated the marvelous glow of youth. She slowly pirouetted and dropped the back of her blouse. Her bare shoulders and back met the pleasure of her sultry slitted skirt; unnoticed were the few small, faint, red marks from where the hot oil had touched. Her statuesque pose of classical beauty in draping garments mesmerized the clientele. The moment hung in museum serenity until Brien turned to Rubn and said she obviously saved his life, because fortunately she was on top. With the smile that response brought, Brien invited them to join him and ordered champagne as his peace offering. He instructed a busboy to have the soiled contents of the sail bag brought to the laundry, while Rubn told the waiter to put more bottles on ice. Brien flew into Panam and our lives in his civilian model Grumman G-21 called a Goose, a twin-engine flying boat. He had bought one after a crash and rebuilt it. This episode made him an instant celebrity. Until then, he was just another face in a new, growing crowd at Gregorios caf. 16
The quality level of the new patrons was improving in line with geopolitical events that increased in Panams commerce from international trade and transshipping. For weeks thereafter, a thick conspiratorial air often hung about Rubn and Brien, like the steamy humidity after a sunny afternoons tropical rain. Brien was a proficient worldly operator. Urban tough, with an intensity of focused concentration and full presence that meant an experienced survivors background with realities and actualities at point-blank range. His casual demeanor and open-minded astuteness was likable but his jaded wits sharp observations pierced the most polished mask with a penetrating edge that laid open essential qualities or crippled projections. Rubn, the lusty passionate cosmopolitan, had a notorious reputation concerning women. This made Brien guilty by association, another rogue lover. Both were adventurous lovers of superb women, inflamed by the chase and quietly enthralled by the conquest. Chivalrous men of soiled honor, heartbreakers whose philandering proved to be colorfully risqu, which only embellished their virile reputations. The suave fantasies whispered over coffees by the refined cliques of spoiled bored women or self-absorbed rich daughters with baited hooks held aspirations of desires you could read in calculated looks. Commitment and permanency were well beyond any arousing, exotic moments for these seasoned seducers. They enjoyed the relaxed company of women and treated them all with respect but seemed most at ease with intellectually competent women, no matter the background. Inferiority bowing to superiority exists in every type of relationship from formal obligations to the most personal. Submissive expectation due the conditioned vulnerabilities of females is repugnant to sophisticated individuals. This pairs sexual consciousness undemanding attitudes and mutually satisfying behavior were refreshing qualities profoundly appreciated. It gave them a charismatic appeal. Rubn knew a lot of the very attractive women and Brien thrilled them with their first airplane ride, his aphrodisiac of flight, so he thought. As with all men and women, the question of who is seducing whom, is always in the eye of the participant giving their opinions; those loaded statements of projected insecurities that are so different from substantiated viewpoints. 17
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When Rubn had not been seen around for a while, no ones curiosity was aroused. His romancing schedules were numerous and irregular. When the affairs were intense he was preoccupied with love because his lust never lasted long. When he took an unannounced vacation without a previous word to anyone, it raised few eyebrows. Gregorio noticed Brien slid out of town just before Rubns vacation started. He mentioned that this was more than a good time with the girls, if these two were together and out of sight for an extended period. Its hard to know what this type of men are up to, but you damn well knew they were totally capable of doing anything they wanted. Finding out the latest escapade was simply a matter of patience.
Optimum Behavior Applies Pragmatic Comprehension And Contemporary Literacy

Truti, the afternoon waitress from El caf, entered my clinic at twilight with an urgent message passed to her for me. It read a friend had an emergency with no other details. She accompanied me in focused silence to a dock on the bay near her home, where a small high-speed boat waited for me. The helmsman steered by the setting stars. Tropical nights at sea have a dimension where a person can pierce all the directions of ones infinity, but this night gazing into the heavens only dissipated my mind into its enormity. My existential-anxieties seem to reflect back an uneasiness that the clear moonrise helped calm because moonlight strengthens the soul. The boat raced for a star on the horizon that led us straight to a small islands protected cove. At the dock, the moonlight cast a veil of shadows on the young woman who secured the lines and escorted me to a picturesque house just off the beach in a flowerscented garden. Inside the main room of the cottage, I gathered my composure with a couple of centering deep breaths. The movements of another woman interrupted my silence when I looked at her she pointed in the direction of a doorway to a dark room. At that door, the smell of blood and sweat hung in the air with a person outlined on the bed from the soft still flame
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of a candle. Drawing near revealed an unconscious Rubn, an alarming presence that intensified a flood of thoughts instantaneously. His fever could be felt through the heat of the bloody bandages. As these were cut away, the wound was probed without much reaction, which indicated exhaustion. The wound was serious but not life threatening, the physical damage from torn tissue was consistent with this type of injury; the complications would be an internal infection. Extraction of the bullet lodged in his side was the only thing on my mind. After the wound was treated and stitched a sedative kept him from moving around and reopening my work. We waited patiently in our best philosophical passiveness. Out of my immediate presence, the womens consequent emotions and anticipatory reactions fed each others anxieties, those vague unpleasant states with qualities of apprehension, dread, distress and uneasiness. Rubns predicament focused my mental efforts but did not quiet my angst. That emotional accompaniment to the silent anxiety of the meaningless, incomplete and chaotic nature in the uncertainties of human existence, which every disorder present compounds. A couple days of monitoring his condition would benefit both of us. The relaxing warm ocean waves on the isolated palm-lined white sand beach would fill the wait perfectly. My thoughts were perplexed by what was behind this situation. If detected gunshot wounds are serious with legal complications on their procurement. Bullet wounds and no hospital means evasion of officialdom. This situation involved culpability of some type, not my presumptuous conjecture, a jealous spouse. Time and answers would allow me to grasp this confusing puzzle. Thoughts without perspectives and quick opinions are usually inadequate assumptions because they carry potentially fatal consequences in medicine, where there is no substitute for an informed neutral observational approach. Events would reveal the extent and seriousness of any complications; for the time being his physical condition was my primary concern. Rubns fever became worse due to one of the jungles package of infecting agents but there was no sign of infection in his wound. Infections are the indisputable medical scourge of daily existence in the tropics.
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Tears in the skin, no matter the size, become biological petri dishes for the omnipresent hardy bacteria strains. Rest is the bodys paramount message to itself but his mental state would not let him rest completely. Rubns weak physical condition, fever and a potpourri of drugs within pains muffled screams made for an on-and-off monologue of vague ramblings. These flowed in a mixture of delirious words and mumbled half sentences, which made it seem as if mental battles were taking place between his active conscious and subconscious mind. The lack of reasons and logic confused me, while many suspicions about what might have taken place ignited my curiosity. A general idea of events emerged, the most interesting deduction was the getaway but then few have ever seen a flying boat. As he improved, idle chatter could not penetrate Rubns political rage and frustrations fury. He needed a couple of days of reinvigorating sleep, which would help the mental traumas. His recuperation on this small slice of paradise progressed remarkably well. The underlying tranquility facilitated my behavior therapies of relaxation and contemplation; the inner perspective of self-reflection rejuvenated my strengths, as tensions seem to dissipate in the encompassing activity of beach time with its harmonizing effects.
Democracys Conversational Philosophy is Far Superior To Ideologized Submission as Philosophy

When Rubns clarity came back, his first words were pain drains the soul. He was distant and not talkative, which disciplined my curiosity. His energy was low and in no mood to be answering open-ended questions. Healing has its own schedule and a patients psychological state effects the process, so the best medicine was a prescription of preserving this calm healing environment. The women who lived in this house and nursed him were family. After a morning spent in the shade of a palm tree on the beach, we had lunch together. The patient laid on a day bed arranged on the porch with a soft warm breeze sweeping in from the ocean. Alone and at his discretion,
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he organized his thoughts within the pauses of silky soft breaths as he spoke of what happened. After the vaguest details possible, from a natural storyteller, my question was why he bothered with such an undertaking. He explained his outrageous actions as his battle against authoritarianisms injustices and social hypocrisy with its dismissive contempt toward peoples rights and humanitys natural justice. He argued rightly, human suffering is the only real enemy, so if the administers of justice are not fair and ethical, they cannot claim to be better than those they condemn. To him information is an essential of life, without which we are mindblinded. He was disgusted by the villainous mentality of totalitarianism with its pervasive social engineering of vulnerabilities susceptible to every promoted deception of propaganda. He detested the paranoid status quo attitudes of the autocrats running the command-andcontrol structures in the major capitals of democracy. Infallible blind bureaucrats in untouchable cloistered bastions of medieval-mindedness, which propagate administrative-dictatorships that government by decrees. Attitudes that spit upon practicing heroically won Democratic ideals.
No Interpretation is Pure or Innocent Most are Projections of Loaded Opinions

Powers empowerment and greeds injustices are humanitys historical constant. Their well-organized subjugations are disguised in pretentious fictions and concealed by death. Ultraconservatisms unyielding dogmatic tenets maintain the status quo without compromise, no matter the cost, which means powers expedience governs, not ethical morality. Individual freedoms, civil liberties and social progress are the historical constants of modernization struggles against the status quos stagnation extremism as social necessities. Such social abusive have facilitating perceptions socially embedded by traditionalism, which enforces single-minded certitudes that require intellectual uprisings to change. Tradition obligates, ideologies deny and obstructionism negates social progress with evergreater expenditures. Undeniable attainments are won by battle because
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established privileges and selective advantages are never surrendered magnanimously due to the basic principles of greed and the conceits of inherited elitism. Historically, most civil wars are conflicts between the needs of social progress and the vested interest of the status quo. Spains Civil War was a modernization uprising between reactionary ultraconservatives and the democratically elected socialist government. The Republic side was supported by trade unionist, liberal groups along with both idealistic communists and Stalinist against a rightwing alliance of fascist, reactionary monarchist and ultra-orthodox religious groups. Spains domestic political conflict swelled from international complications. Eventually, foreign politico-military efforts appropriated the war and political-upmanship demanded that the other side match actions with ever-greater reactions. This escalated brutality drove a domestic conflict into a testing and proving ground for barbarous weapons and merciless military strategies as displayed daily by the militaristic savageness of aerial bombings against civilian targets. Such abuses against civilians lacked international condemnation because the large-scale military interventions had foreign ideological partisans and agents of influence abroad. These manipulative operatives orchestrated intense international propaganda campaigns, which spread calculated definitions and purposed information. This deliberate obfuscated propaganda cultivates doubt and confusion, which was reinforced by contributory disinformation and secondary issues diversions. These propaganda strategies affected destabilized events because they successfully misrepresented the warring factions case and aims. The ploys of subversion coding and multi-level interference undermined the courage of internationalist to express their righteous outrage over the would-be dictator Franco and his actions. The Republicans credibility suffered because undemocratic frauds manipulated public opinion. This was done by public relations mastery of consensus, popularized by distribution control that saturated newsprint, radio even newsreels. The hidden agendas of isms, those distinct and formal sets of priority beliefs, which legitimize the beneficiaries of isms activities and practices are historically anti-democratic. These
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systematic complicities influenced the tide of the Spanish Civil War because the biases hampered financial aid and curbed international support, which worsened the civil wars pains and advanced Europes next major conflict.
Truth is Gods Shadow Propaganda is Shadowless Rule Advertising is Mystical Belief

Rubn, if the philosophy behind the action taken is the controller, what directs us? Public Relations (PR) is the attention-persuasion industry with spectrums of functioning from promotion to concealment. The transparent masters of communication, which is totally underrecognized for its proficiencies at influencing and formulating the accepted and believed. Public relations is engineered, targeted and packaged persuasions, whose information propaganda maneuver situations to acceptance by the most efficient means. Propaganda wraps encoded information and images into an easily retainable euphony with its messages scripted into tones of vague and theatrical authenticity. Societys emotional receptiveness to approximations of truth give any well packaged premise undue credibility because they are projected as true, if only in the form of the language and logic used. Public relations manage behavior by being thought-adjusters, technicians of opinion and the coordinating conduits of consensus making. Propagandas welds single-acting referencing to the desired conclusions. Public relations apparatus in fact, pattern behavior with the effectiveness of scholarly precision. Repetitive broadcasts penetrate the targeted audiences spectrum of attention, which generates a credible acceptance that evolves into a form of truth. These influences persuasively orchestrate the major components in understandings, decisions and priorities. Ideological propaganda decrees behavior. State propaganda orders objectives. Economic propaganda conditions necessity. Every behaviorism is harmful, dangerous and destructive when packaged as reality.
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Rubn, you sound like a lecturer. Music teaches one to listen with deep clarity, not with motions. See what youre hearing. Understand it for what it is, its honesty and truth, which can be positive or negative. Knowing of a subject is not knowing the subject, because the distinctions in detail configure what it is. PRs projections influence far more than initial impressions and assumed understandings. The efforts for the objectives carry the most revealing information, as does the messages of the approach and targeting. PRs profound affects leave effective but unrecognized residues, to which we listen and respond and therefore live by. Esoteric propagandizing directs ones psychodynamics if one does not clarify the involvements because the propagators corruptions and needs will dictate ones actions and responses. Rubns focusing strengthened him, but the effort drained his energy. In the clarity of deep exhaustion, he said there were no rewards for the vicious and malicious because they have ethics or morality. Grandfather, the vividness you express is in such felt detail. Focused relaxation merges into the specious present, where all is instantaneous. Visualizing reminiscence are connections to parts of ones life. Those seen through the heart are ones fondest treasure; retrospections give the moment back, often for the last time. So age recaptures living? The simplicity of relevant understandings and deaths deterioration of life sets honest priorities. To an experienced man being genuine in every moment puts problem prevention in the forefront of every conversation. Shared wisdom expresses closeness in personal relations. This shared positiveness helps compensate for the cost of lifes difficult battles and overly long journeys.
The Source of Problems is Not Life but Sociocultural Actualities with Untouchable Agendas
After an hour of deep rest, Rubn spoke about wanting to help the Spanish people end the reign of serfdom by medieval-minded
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reactionaries and he wanted to show Latin American support for the democratically elected government and raise the morale of the international Aidez Espagne. He defended his aiding the POUM, the Anarchists fraction in the Republican cause as helping counterbalance the military influence of Stalins communistic administrative-dictatorship. Rubns reasoning was summed up as a far lesser evil in the war against feudalistic regimes systematic total oppressions. He expressed it, as robbing a corruptions gold to stop another political atrocity of robbing the Spanish people of a modern life. A Colombian company of anonymous owners had a monopoly-mining concession with sole dredging rights along the Rio San Juan; this corrupt legal arrangement kept out all other mining activity. Rubn knew that powerful silent partners in Bogots highest official circles enforced the legitimacy of an overextended concession for personal gain. Political legalisms structure limited definitions that facilitate organized corruptions unlimited exploitation. Rubn robbed the dredge to pay for a military weapons contract he had signed, in Panam, which consigned ownership directly from the European factory to POUM. The politics of military financing is paramount because war costs explode daily, normally culminating into the major component of a nations economy. A single bullet cost the price of a cup of coffee; a military rifle on automatic equals the cost of a simple school. When industrial wars mass-production quantities are factored in the cost accelerate with use at ever-growing scales of expenditures with a 40% or more profits margins for the armament industry. With the first part of Rubns plan accomplished. The next phase took depositing the payment for the munitions contract into a Panamanian bank. This involved a Belgium arms dealer, who was operating locally. A couple of days later, we decided it would be best not to raise any more suspicion, so I returned to town. The highly competent women in the house could change the bandages and understood what symptoms to look for that would require any additional medical attention.
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Comprehension Reveals Simplicitys Complexity And Deceptions Lack of Simplicity

Crime and newspaper headlines are usually mentioned then forgotten, but recent events had me paying closer attention. My first oneon-one encounter with Brien was at his airplane. The reason concerned a message to see Rubn when it was feasible. Deepening conversations with Rubn made me feel like I was now a distant participant. Briens warm greeting had a sincere feeling behind a mans handshake; he projected a relaxed sense of confidence and openness, like knowing someone well for awhile. He immediately used the moment to emotionally grasp the latest on Rubn, sentiments that were expressions of true friendship. My detailed knowledge meant Rubns trust. Brien said there was far less to all this than what the newspapers reported because nothing happened to anyone or to the dredge. The skillfulness in the deed was Rubns organization and detailed preparation. He averted violence by using his insights on human nature. Pragmatic genius matches wisdom to circumstances with the right timing. How was that? Rubn knew the crew size, approximate location and the dredges operation schedule. The dredges regular supply boat operated out of Panam the regions center for maritime logistics; a collision and resulting dry-docking had put the supply boat out of service for a long time, which maximized the gold inventory that set the plans schedule. Panam also avoided the hungrier Colombian officials in the closer port of Buenaventura, which is a small port of conveyance for the rapid transshipment of goods in and out of the wealthy interior of Colombia.
Positioning and Timing Facilitates Whereas Busy Self Obstructs

As we toured the airplane, he reflected and the story unfolded. Early the first day the river was scouted from a very high altitude to find the dredge and a good place to hide the seaplane. Once the airplane was
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secure, the group prepared for an early morning start to a strategic position downstream from the dredge on the blind side of a long, thin fingershaped peninsula. The airplane was the pivotal component for success, so we rowed for hours to protect it. The rectangle steel dredge was a long low-sided barge that vacuumed the rivers bottom, back and forth between the riverbanks. A machinery shed built on the bow covered the pumping equipment that removes the overburden above rivers bedrock. This exposed the cracks and crevices in the bedrock where the heavier gold settled over millions of years. A long-roofed shed in the middle covered the area where the mud gold mix from these pockets on the bottom was washed over a sequence of screens that eventually separated the gold. The crew occupied a two-story structure on the stern. The broad rivers slow relentless currents and storm surges eroded the river basins soft soil, which formed the rivers long zigzagged course. The peninsula was very narrow, so we decided to cut a path across it through the thick vegetation. The hours of hard machete work allowed the canoes to be carried overland and hidden downstream of the dredge. When the dredge was first sighted up close, all the previous conversations fell into place. The dredge was upstream just off the far bank, working away from us. The dredge maneuvered downstream with the current using mooring lines that extended to both sides of the river where they were secured to large trees. Later, under cover of darkness with their canoe covered in jungle vegetation, Rubn and Felix his cousin, moved steadily upstream hugging and pulling on the overhanging vegetation, this kept their movements invisible and avoided splashing paddles. The canoe slipped past the mooring lines cleanly, the most exposed moment of danger. They then positioned themselves strategically upstream of the dredge, invisible among an outgrowth of jungle foliage where they observed the dredge. Throughout the next day, they were close enough to listen to the crews conversations, when the machinery was quiet. Once, when the machinery was stopped, a panthers deep slow growls put the big cat close
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behind their camouflaged canoe. The cats noise was so loud; it got the dredge crew looking right past them. Felix was patient but nervous. His camouflage moved unnaturally. He changed positions in the canoe to face the vegetation, ready with a machete in hand. Panthers fearlessness put the big cat on his mind more than the dredge. The wait was filled with refining the plans. Routines made the schedule of daily rituals predictable. That evening before the moon rose, the scout canoe slipped away from its observation point and returned to the downstream position unnoticed. Felix was positively relieved to put distance between him and the big cat. During a drink after dinner, Rubn finalized the next days operation. The next morning a torrential tropical downpour filled the sky quickly; the thick rain cut visibility to a few canoe lengths and made the dredge just about invisible. The minute the rain started to fall Rubn and Felix moved back upstream of the dredge and the other two canoes were placed on the waters edge concealed among the dense vegetation. When the heavy rain stopped, the thick dark gray curtain started to lift. As the day wore on, the humidity thickened as the suns heat increased. The humid rain turned the jungle into a hot bath of sweat. By afternoon, the conditions in the shade were cooking us; sweat ran into our eyes and filled our ear canals. The time was spent watching the rain-raised waters swollen currents carry large trees and entangled clumps of jungle vegetation broken free from the riverbanks downstream. The sizes ranged up to half the dredges size, which forced part of the dredge crew to deal with them all-day, disconnecting the affected mooring line that allowed the pieces float past. By late afternoon the wait had become long and anticipatory. The dredge was positioned perfectly, halfway across the river slowly moving in our direction. The plan was working well; the most critical parts had been completed safely. Any exposure would have ended the operation because an alert and armed dredge crew would have been too formidable. The patience of the wait was a calm excitement, not jittery nervousness. A state broken by adrenaline rushes from every new sound, which sent the heart racing and made the silence louder. A desirable
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feeling right after the peak of excitement passed, when no actual concerns were realized. Focused predators noticing every movement from just off the dredges sternquarter, in a secure location behind a huge fallen tree; a stones throw from the anchor lines position. This observation post unfortunately overlooked the dredges bathroom that was built off the stern without a rear wall. This opening exhibited raw human events, which made for humorous comments; watching an anally active crew. Mealtime was an hour before sunset. As this approached, Rubn and Felix became active in the still foliage they moved to an outcropping directly in front of the dredges bow. The plan had psychological calculations; long isolation would automatically trigger mens ravenous desires without question.
Conservatisms Bankruptcy is its Greeds Extremism And the Pains of the Unnecessary
Dredge crews work nonstop 15-hours days, year-round. Any crew rotation was dangerous; lacking union protection made the replacement worker permanent and any needed absenteeism a terminating gamble. This isolated and lonely crew had been dry on the dredge for most of a year, if any group of men wanted and needed a drink it was these overworked captives. The appearance of drifting bottles with the familiar shapes of quality whiskey would be manna from heaven, with one swig ending any curiosity. The plan was for the crew to find the bottles before the meal break, so each drop would be consumed on an empty stomach. On top of that, Rubn mildly drugged the bottles to inhibit any violence from the crews hostilities; this would neutralize alcohols normal emotional release. The pent-up frustrations of deprived needs over long periods in confined crowed space for overworked men was a lit fuse of angry aggressions compounded by deeply held animosities that most every boat crews have and alcohol ignites. Alcohols vigor amplifies the drinkers flaws.
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Rubn coordinated his movements to the actions of the dredges crew, slowly and cautiously; concentration controls the nerves. The first attempts to place the bottles in the water so they would drift to the dredge failed because the rivers currents carried the bottles past the dredge. They moved the canoe an arms length at a time to a more strategic but vulnerable position. The currents between the shoreline and around the dredge still swept the next bottles down stream. Concerned about the inventory becoming lost so badly, Rubn and Felix were forced to improve the probabilities. So, in a second of calculated wildness, they threw bottles into open-water, directly in front of the dredge. When the bottles drifted right up to the dredge, these became stuck next to a big canoe lashed to the side. From these first throws they got the positioning perfect and the next time the deck was empty they threw all the bottles with the staggered spacing they wanted. The bottles were all-over but the colors blended in with the dark water, an unforeseen dilemma that overcharged the moment, until a bottle was finally spotted and retrieved. A crewman looked at the bottle and around the dredge to check if he was seen, then he quickly ran inside the crews quarters. The greedy scoundrel hid the bottle but by the time he was back, most of the bottles drifted within sight. When the crewman returned, he was totally absorbed visually sweeping the river. He quickly spotted and grabbed other bottles. His movements to bring the bottles aboard drew the attention of another man. A short conversation had them staring and pointing out over the river, fingers indicated directions; Rubn and Felix remained unseen. Finally, the second guy signaled a third crew member, who joined in and pulled bottles aboard with a net on a long pole. Screams got the whole crew involved. Within minutes, they had most of the bottles on deck. After a few more minutes of clowning and shoving, each opened a bottle of the partially labeled, high quality liquor. The crew did the smell test on their bottles. They were hesitant to drink. The biggest member of the crew, the obvious bully, called over the smallest man and forced him to try the first drink. After some more forceful persuasion the small man drank more. Nothing happened. Then a wiry old man, probably the crews hard-core functioning alcoholic took a
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drink from the bottle. Immediately, he gave his experienced approval, and the crew started to drink fast and heavy. As the whiskey was consumed, the crew became quieter, until the dredge stopped completely. Vision from darkness into light is possible over great distances. When neither movement nor sound emerged from the dredge for what seemed like hours, signals from cigarette lighters launched everyone. Cautiously in the advantages of darkness and silence, the canoes approached from three directions. The attack positions were taken-up and a soft monkeys howl signaled the canoes to move simultaneously. Alongside, the only sounds heard were our heartbeats. Mental reflexes jumped back and forth between total apprehensions, about either an ambush or the plan was working perfectly, which had our adrenaline pumping and concentration hypersensitive. Like agile jungle cats, everyone slid aboard the dredge with faces masked. Rubn and Felix boarded from the bow. Quiquo and Roberto were on the starboard side with Rubio Roy and me on the stern. These mercenaries were no-nonsense men and essential to these operations. The dredge the crew appeared out cold. Each crew member was incapacitated in various positions that indicated the drug and alcohol mixture had a sudden intense effect. After the dredge was checked thoroughly, the crew was finally accounted for after the last member was found on the top deck. We then gathered at the captains locked cabin. The door was made of metal. This unexpected obstacle needed some fast thinking. Rubn explained through the air slots in the door, that if the captain was awake and made it difficult, he would be shot. Roberto yelled, to the captain, the door was just a short delay. Our crew thought in whispers without a good answer, until Rubio Roy had a clever idea. He and Quiquo grabbed a screw jack from the tool shed, along with a solid steel rod and wood blocks that are used to move heavy machinery. They put together a contraption to horizontally engage the jack directly onto the lock of the cabins door from the facing wall. Before the jacks mechanical advantage easily pushed open the door, how to deal with the captain was decided on. So with guns cocked and
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faces covered, the instant the iron doors lock popped open the jack fell into a dead stillness that echoed trepidation. Signals and words were spoken into silence. No one looked in for along time, and then Rubn and Rubio Roy entered guns cocked. The faint light of a lantern outlined the captains still head resting over his arms, which Roberto lifted by the hair and let fall, the thud said he was out cold. Since when, who knew, the half-empty bottle raised hopes, but the Morse code key and transmitter had our attention and held our concerns. Rubn broke the apparatus immediately. The search of the captains cabin uncovered three locked metal strong boxes. Probably one for the owners Panamanian bank accounts, the other for Bogots official weight and the third a small one for the captains cut. After some effort to find the keys to the locked boxes, the jackpot was hit. There was gold in each box. They weighed more than expected and each had a bag of rough precious stones. Rubn declared everybodys cut doubled. He then had Felix put a good size stone in each member of the dredge crews pocket, which was worth more that a years pay. The excitement fed the adrenaline but the moment demanded controlled emotions and neutral reactions. In hushed voices and without wasted movement, the gold was divided between the two big canoes taken from the dredge and then together the group moved quickly downstream with the current. The canoes were huge compared to the small two-person canoes that were built to fit inside one another and into the airplanes interior dimensions. Roberto sank these smaller canoes, so the dredge crew would be stranded until a native came by. This provided a good head start, if the captain did not send out a telegraph message. Brien reflected about being beyond excitement seated in the front of the lead canoe. The adrenaline pulls on the paddles made the canoes getaway soar and the moment dream-like, which exploded with a gunshots scream. One of the dredges crew must have been acting dead drunk and waited to fire into the direction of the fleeing silhouettes. Everyone shot back continuously to keep the shooters head down, until distance offered protection around the downstream bend. Rubn was unlucky getting hit. Rubio Roy treated the wound behind the bend as Rubn lay in the launch.
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Rubn packed for this crisis and Rubio Roys experience in handling hard existences injuries proved its value. An airport official approached and abruptly interrupted Briens narrative. He left saying he would be busy for a short time. Seated on a fold-up chair in the shade beneath a wing, the appreciation of the stimulating story and view from a unique location inspired many thoughts regarding the introduction of the airplane into the Caribbean culture and the changes of its influence. This current cast of Caribe characters stood out in the historical context because this group of Tropical American marauders, still being buccaneers like their ancestors now used wings; those horizontally positioned sails.
The Caribbean and los Caribeos Histories are Complex, Mythological and Unwritten
Espritu del Individual is the caribeo soul. It lives in the Caribbeans kaleidoscopic of legendary excessiveness that are captured in the largerthan-life island folklore of high sea buccaneers, noble natives, free adventurers and the epic heroics of runaway slaves. The strength and authenticity of the Caribbeans Spirit of the Individual were demonstrated to the first Spaniards. When some of the indigenous Caribe Indian males killed themselves and their male children by drinking poisonous cassava juice, instead of accepting slavery. Honest perspectives on the natives individualistic priorities, honorable actions and ever-expanding histories shows our social conditioning due to accepted ignorance from biased histories and greeds enabling fictions. The Caribbeans buccaneers were a roving diverse group of rough and tough survivors with questionable allegations. As social outcasts from every form of European legalistic social failures and draconian medieval nightmares, whether deliberately unpaid marooned sailors, deserters, escaped slaves, fugitive indentured workers and societys regular cast of social undesirables. The early Spanish were mercenaries, pretenders and ruthless fortune hunters in royal servitude. The early English newcomers had a substantial
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percentage of social undesirables due to Englands Vagrancy Act of 1547, prescribed indentured servitude for the basement class and wandering unemployed. These targeted poor were made inmates for Englands prison industry. They were scorned felons of povertys social vulnerabilities. Medieval attitudes that produced economic prisoners caused a large proportion of early North American immigrants to land in chains. Men, women and children were sold across the British Isles to captains of ships with the courts blessings. Upon arrival in the colonies, they were resold in chains to the highest bidder. Economic prisoners destined for any form of compelled labor is incarceration for profit. Policies of poverty and contrived circumstances cause grim lives because all forced servitudes entail being overworked and castigated but without the extreme physical and mind-altering psychotic mayhem spewed upon their black counterparts. The masters of forced labor were aware that the terms of bondage had release dates and one day the poor whites would be able to take revenge as freemen. The myths of idealhardy pioneers are aspiration fantasies of revisionism histories; such decided enabling fictions are anti-history. Los caribeos wisdoms are from blood-sweat enslavements that know fake historys cost.
Enslavement and Torture are the Sole Human Endeavors Worse than War
True history is about human experiences. Humanitys history is the heritage of mankinds best moments but the history of humanity is the continuous epic struggle against the aggressive constraints of organized domination, these authoritarian security apparatuses historically execute to perpetuate the use of ruthless murder, violence and torture. The seeds of the los caribeos history are the life and death gambles for freedom buried in povertys unmarked cemeteries. Attempts to escape greeds ceaseless misery were bets to experience living over suffering the many forms of cruelty and brutality beneath totalitarian captivities, which deconstructs life by excessive deprivation and rabid restriction that are
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the Dark Ages hells of pain-as-punishment. These extremisms made any dangerous risk to escape heroic endeavors. Evil is manmade, so it needs ennobling fictions; good just is. Hells are structured evils with many names, methods and forms. Purgatories are povertys intellectual/psychological quagmires. Enslavements whether through deficiencies, dependencies or servitude have borne psychological legacies of lethargic mentalities and dehumanizing captivity. Escaping evil and every form of hell is a mans divine duty and freeing oneself from every purgatory is an individuals religious responsibility. The social heritage of medievalism is the Dark Ages reign of diabolic greed in absolutists terms, whose historical legacies are pessimistic social parasites that infect everyone entangled with their evil psychoses psychotic shadows. Medieval-mindedness subjugates by the premeditated destruction of the individual. Thick-mazed walls hide the torture chambers of prisons dungeons and endless procedures maintain the torturous psychological abuses that have replaced the implements of physical pain. Victims and casualties are confused by beliefs and conditioning; slaves and forced labors social literacy comprehend actualities (life as it is) and realities (that which does not go away).
Thoughts Played Reveal the Individual

Grandfather, where did your cultural realism come from? Determining cause, effect and motive; these reveal the profoundness of the not-so-arbitrary nature of our highly structured existence. Awareness and change are essential properties; recognition and acknowledgements of the involvements rearrange the scope of possibilities and potentials. Births potentials are open possibilities but the forms of potentials are set by our received perceptions, whose paths of influence direct us inevitably to the goals of our desires. These are systematically reinforced from the pre-birth environment to the all-encompassing sociocultural
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matrix with its ever-expanding field of themes, involvements and entanglements. Manipulation is a derivative of greed obscured by layers of formulations, cunning meaningless issues and mini-theories of comforting vagueness, which the pressures of conformity and psychic denials sustain. Profiteers bondages are based on control not ownership. Humanity is subjugated by purposed social, financial and educational poverties, whose esoteric susceptibilities, vulnerabilities and dependences carry impairments closer to diseases than shackles. While unknowing and powerlessness are call destiny by dogmatic philosophizing that avoids demands for fairness and justice. What Tropical American historical perspectives are missed? There are many my favorite is the buccaneers, who called themselves the Brethren of Ghost, a romantic image for shady bands of hungfrom-the-yardarm individualist. Participations cost involved random and violent actions that carried life-altering consequences of legendary proportions. Passionate and fanatical devotees to acceptable risk for the gains of individuality, personal liberties and social freedoms that made them and their exploits the brightest hues of excitement on the Caribbeans historical palette. The centuries of conquest and colonialisms murderous plunder and ruthless exploitation had strategic flaws, slow transportation and subservient loathing. Spains merchant fleets convoyed the gains of the cartels of greed back to the possessing-class palaces, but along the way many of these floating treasuries financed the buccaneers histories. Costly navies of many nations hunted these treacherous symbols of individual independence that theo-political hypocrisys public morality damned. Non-hierarchical personal liberties directly challenge the social order because social comparisons are destructive images that question the accepted, with consequences far more dangerous and feared then the bloodiest cutlasses. The independent caribeos were disrespectful social inferiors with the audacity to have successfully destroyed authoritys established shams of superioritys greed. Systematic enslavers are humanitys most evil criminals and the consequences of these organized social hypocrisies are due to historys
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ugliest transgressions because social morality is scripted for the enslavers expedience with the needed paraphernalia of sermons and legalistic righteousness. Whereas the infamous buccaneers robbing of royalty were deeds ending in torturous deaths and summary executions. The buccaneers fought and won extraordinary battles against societys masters; these momentous and glorious feats grow unrivaled in relation to this eras institutional barbarism. Autonomous figures laughed at and looted from the presumptuous self-proclaimed nobility, who then pillage humanity to finance their social orders supremacy and formalitys richly costumed ceremonial lives. Nobilitys moral superiority is seldom, if ever, answerable to its own deficiencies and definitions because idealized images and sterilized histories played out in odious servitude to soulless power decide for themselves. The escapades of the Caribbean buccaneers were the only beacons of freedoms left, after the natives natural happiness was destroyed and slaverys shackled bodies and imprisoned minds expunged living. Fortuitous pirating transferred wealth that allowed them to experience the sweet life of independent means. This free spirited living enabled the common man to broaden his dreams, while grasping the truest wealth of the privileged, options and choices with discretion over decision-making. Independent individuals symbolized raw potentials and proved the strength of diversity, which exposed elitisms selfish conceits and greeds gains as arbitrary contrivances that were made real by the social architecture that produces ideological subjects with complying mentalities through conditioning or violence required.
When Prayers are Screams, Dreams are the Last Freedom Lost
Heroic dreams to seek, realize and express oneself beyond grinding stagnant existences are universal human aspirations. The lore of the buccaneers self-made independence, exciting escapades and wild adventures over hundreds of years enlivened the Caribbean Saga and validated the yearnings for free-living, no matter how rough, crude and
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deadly. The buccaneers romantic and heroic mystical legends are larger than life because mans daily dispiriting despairs are connected to the fleeing desires hidden in every mans dreams. The desires imagined in ones mind, follow the dream of dreams, yet human ideals are often damned by agendas of greed throughout the history of humanity. And so, awareness and the sensibilities of commonality in human dreams are dreams unfortunately garroted. Except in el caribeos history.
Smuggling is Trade that Avoids Officialdoms Contrivances

Consorting for greater gain is human nature. The earliest expression of large-scale organized human greed was in the aggressions of tribal units. When tribute to the might of authority was extracted, taxes were born. Organized crime started as conquest. The state started on the regular tribute extorted from peaceful peasants by the more aggressive and violent marauding herdsmen. Taxes are the historic constant that finance the tax collecting and spending social order, which caries the surcharges of authoritys corruptions that compel gain to the few; societys non-working silent partners in the efforts of others. Avoidance of regulatory-taking has many names derived from ideologically loaded interpretations sewed to facilitate expedience. During periods of low revenues it was normal for power to fall back upon the crimes of might. Classical Greece used authoritys time-honored practices of state sanctioned corsairs on the high seas and maritime extortion in the ports, which is one of historys oldest economic models on trade. Smuggling is the oldest adaptation to these abuses of officialdoms terms of commerce. In the 16 th century, the King of Spain granted royal trading concessions to Sevilles guild of merchants. The monopoly of these trading houses ruled the New Worlds economics with absolute power that punish all other attempts at transatlantic trade caught. As the sole merchants they owned of all traded goods with sole shipping rights; these restricted
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all shipping to their corporate fleets and all trade to their all ports of entry. The edicts of this monopolist alliance placed legal bans on all uncontrolled commercial activities, which eliminate competition because it was a severely punishable criminal offense to trade with any uncommissioned agent or agency. Economic exploitation derived monopolistic profit margins of 100% or more, in gross markup on each and every item. These economic abuses provoked newer ways of avoidance. Less greedy foreigners and contrabandistas (against the ban) ran the Spanish trade embargo successfully from non-Spanish European ports, because poverty and island communities do what they have to, in order to survive. Accurate history can be repressed and denied but not be changed. Cristobal Coln noted in his ships log on his fourth voyage in 1502, that the indigenous trading ships he came across, sailing the southern Caribbean islands, were the same size as his ship. Such logbook entries prove that extensive and well-established pre-colonial travel and trade existed across Las Americas. Centuries of inflicted injustices directly from Europe or overlaid controlled local elite who imposed colonialisms golden exportation, underpriced exports and overpriced imports. El caribeos maritime traditions have always circumnavigated monopolized activities and imposed prohibitions, whether against Spanish decrees or Englands Royal Crown Corporations Navigation Acts and every other colonial powers national corporations. The Caribbeans infamous contrabandistas, even aided the North-American revolution and their offspring the capitalist transshipments of restricted goods and services, still supply the market needs to the ever-latest social policy abuses by profiteering greed. Caribeo capitalisms contravening heritage compares more than favorably to officialdoms compelled economic circumstances as seen from the native perspectives, the slave industry and colonial powers presumptuous autocratic generosity. Social attitudes derive from societys experiences and daily life. These have created strong social sentiments for individual efforts, which generate firmly entrenched caribeo cynicism, which still has a healthy anti-authoritarian vitality.
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The most successful buccaneer was not any of the overpublicized English privateers but a Dutchman. Piet Hayn who in 1628 seized the entire Spanish treasure fleet anchored at the Bay of Malanzas, east of Havana, Cuba. This was the heaviest single blow to the Spanish aristocracys carrera de Indies, the remarkable merchant fleet, with untold histories that plied the worlds oceans for centuries. The regular pirating of Caribbean treasure ships came to a quiet end, when no treasure ship arrived in Seville in 1640. Over the following years, the social adeptness of the native-born Creole elite set a regional agenda with this aristocratic plutocracy responsible for domestic priorities and social investments. This gradually ended the Spanish Crowns outright authority. Yearly manifest from the New World of gold and silver ran in the tens-of-millions of kilos. Spains tally of summary retribution over the centuries was in the hundreds-of-thousands of tons of consigned silverequivalent, which equated to multiple increases in Europes holdings of precious metals and stones. Official numbers did not include the vast amounts lost to pirates through shipwrecks or smuggled and the tax-exempted, as was applicable to any religious articles and jewelry worn on the body. The weight of bejeweled passengers debarking required many to be seated in chairs and carried down the gangplank by crews of hired workers because they could not walk beneath the weight of the untaxed jewelry worn.
Maps are Outlines that Guide Comprehension Far Beyond Geography

Position exceptions and bought privilege constitute are a large part of Latin Americas history, especially its failures. Latin America is an inaccurate concept ramped with inappropriate perceptions. Las Americas is geological whereas Indian America is precolonial antiquity. The Spanish Americas are historical. International Latin American is the unacknowledged contemporary. Tropical America is the future, a crowning conceptualization.
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What do you mean? Tropical America is a cultural integration that lies between the idealistic fantasy culture of the North and South Americas traditionalized identities. Tropical Americas heart and mature intelligence evolved from Indian Americas cultures and centuries of slavery wisdom. The cultures aesthetic appreciation and comprehensions of the underling unity of diversity accepts and enjoys the many eccentricities, nuances and accompanying annoyances, which facilitate the individual compared to the restraint priorities of more rigid conformist societies. So geography and history have made us separate entities, not the imposed stereotyped identities, with their built-in assets or liabilities. Which is why labeling the terrains of progress accurately is empowering, while unrecognized it continues stagnations disempowerment. Remember social powers assessments and decisions cause things to be the way they are, and things are kept that way by the social orders power and status quo traditionalized poverties. The sociocultural context sustains the regulated mind with its ideologically tinted perceptions and insular traditional visions. These opaquely filtered abstractions hold the biased opinions of discriminations (different treatments) and the prejudices of intolerance (refusing to accept). Tropical America accommodating cultural sophistication and social maturitys tolerance of mutual-respect as well as the non-judgmental sensibilities avoids the social damage of traditional compliance for ideological agendas impossible demands. Tropical Americas free-spirited personal liberties ring authentic with daily inconveniences and petty exasperations, the social cost for the rights to happiness, which must be accepted because social freedoms and individual liberties are lived by respecting them in others. Intellectual maturity and emotional intelligence recognizes the necessities of human nature and the bio-realities. Mature social attitudes serve the people, whereas criminalization of law deciding private behaviors aggravates social problems to serve the ends of the powers-that-be. Contemporary literacy in accordance with Thomas Jeffersons statement,
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the legitimate powers of government extend to such acts only injurious to others, has only politically motivated religious propaganda as a counter argument.
Professionals Only Think As Far As Required For the Next Move; Ethics Require Much More
As Brien approached, I realized I enjoyed his gestalt and personality. After an apology, he picked up the story without a missed beat or change of inflection. As he started he returned to their approaching the airplanes hideaway, Quiquo warned the jungle was too quiet, so there were humans around. This got everyone focused. As we approached, a native stood under the wing. We ready our guns, which caused a woman to step out of the vegetation and stand next to him. We all exhaled sighs of relief. The couple was from the area and waited to politely ask for whatever we could spare, including the trash. They did not want money because there was nothing to buy and only a long perilous ocean voyage in canoes, to and from Buenaventura. This place was so remote the machete ruled and ownership of a fishhook was wealth; our discardable belongings were a treasure trove of reusable goods. The people in the Chocs endless swamp are Amerindians and Cimarrns the descendants of runaway slaves. Various groups from the exploitation centuries established independent communities in the most remote areas, whose numbers were augmented by those economically stranded. Serious men and women, who sacrificed societys comforts to live in austerity, affirmed personal liberties and social freedom as more important and meaningful than any masters presumptuous generosity. The natives honesty and sophistication were impressive and proven by their not breaking into the airplane nor asking questions. The couple got the canoes and everything the airplane could spare, which left only the clothes worn and the booty. Rubio Roy said primitive societies not primitive people. He explained they never volunteer information and
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had the large jungle animals rationalism, precise movements and discreet awareness that functioned in silent purpose. Primitive perspectives, not physical circumstances determine the boundaries of primitive people because the credentials of truth, intent and a commitment to purpose is lived, no matter the lack of material comforts. Jungle lore recognizes everything has value and instructs, which makes ideological believers platitudes and other worldliness seem strangely stupid. Life warriors are wise in the ways of survival; they understand that to eliminate everything unpleasant is folly, so instead they accept the unpleasant by comprehending it. There is no unreasoned fear of nature. Fear is the intimidation of self. They have respect and humility because the scales of nature completely overwhelm the human dimension. Roberto reminded them the longer they hid their new wealth, the better the possibility in keeping it. Officialdoms mindset is the intimation of the powerless by laws gun barrel, whose aggressive taking squeezes povertys nothingness and makes greed vicious from the whiff of gain. The seaplanes specs read 60mph for takeoffs in normal conditions. The Goose was suppose to carry eight passengers and the pilot but a more realistic number was five with full fuel tanks. The load meant we had to wait for first light for the extra distance necessary for an overweight takeoff and the cool heavy morning air that hangs over the rivers glassy surface. The airplane taxied out into the river and accelerated with the rivers current for what seemed like lifes most intense speedboat run. Simultaneously, enormous flocks of birds ascended from trees passed, in an ovation of spectacular nature, until the moment of engineered sciences magic, the separation from the water surface into the sky. The pleasing feel of success struck home with the clear and expansive vista. The Goose flew due north just above the endless green canopy invisible, surrounded by a circular blue horizon. The seaplane approached the small pacific islands bay, low out of the south, which visually blocked a wide view of the landing and takeoff. The crew and cargo returned to Panam City from the island aboard separate motor launches. The airplane returned empty to the airport.
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Rubns secret to a clean getaway was not to be seen together and to pay the crew immediately. He told them to take separate vacations; out of sight out of mind. His other main concerns were envys burning selfhatred and jealousys emotionalized ignorance, disordered absurdities always cause disruptive predicaments for those envied. The momentary reprieves of cheap talk of those lives lost to pathetic pettiness by bored neighbors and small-minded acquaintances make anything out of the ordinary either havings or doings a potentially dangerous possibility. Human failures burden life with the overwrought existences of mental inadequacies that destroys positive efforts. All fast money parties hard in the beginning due to the normal overreactions of povertys frustrations to a life exposed to advertisements fantasies. Spending does eventually slows down but cannot be stopped; small fortunes disappear regularly as paying the high-priced bills of selfabuse take their ever-higher tolls, in the false perceptions of being rich. Wealth takes more cash than the biggest envelope could ever hold, and being comfortable is only rich to the less fortunate. One can live quietly with a suitcase of money in a long temporary comfortableness.
Neither Money nor Position Equates to Intelligence

In a surprisingly firm voice I asked why did he became involved? Brien answered, the amount of working capital needed to maintain himself and pursue his next business idea was beyond a foreigners borrowing ability, plus the challenges of high-adventure and confidence in Rubn. How could you be short of options? Cash not options; economic systems are pretentious social productions with legal framing that obscure the eliteultraconservative tour de force economic architecture, which culde-sacs lifes efforts for the non-privileged. The preservation of capital and defense of profit rule the established financial sector. The mastery of such is constructed by the earliest economic consolidators, whose commercial norms and laws have gainful partiality and plutocratic
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considerations that the walls of vested interest and swords of special interest envalue with exceptionism. The interest of the plutocracy configures economic entries; these prescribed channels have hidden conditions as the cost of doing business. The established view favorable circumstances are promoted through acts of law that economically seize or victimize as needed. When uncontrolled profits growing influences get noticed, regulatory laws are enforced to constrain and weaken its course. Liquidity is the facilitator of efficiency for capitalisms various economic models. Cash and credit are the ultimate liquidity; their control determines and patterns economic activities. The power policies of wealth see borrowing as having both political and economic potentials. The availability of loans fertilizes and the lack thereof de-energize, which makes loans closely guarded socio-political weaponry controlled by grantors clauses. What about a bank loan against the airplane? Banks do not accept moveable collateral. Banks are agents and agencies of loans, which makes interest their business. Interest shackles humanity because interest payments are paid in cash for the banks main product; a created non-existing synthetic money called credit. Some say compounded interest replaced usury. Credit captives and restricted possibilities for upward social mobility requires the public theaters overpublicized exceptions to feed the powerless lottery of dreams. Popular success stories are from fortunate circumstances, not a society structured for open access to and supportive of fair economic opportunities. Why do people facilitate such action? The social order conditions society and paycheck-to-paycheck vulnerabilities compels. So, economics is business with ideological structuring? Business is the functioning of ideas; the agendas are in the legal constructions. Businesses are just inert sets of abstractions, which their proponents goals, directorship and motivations define. Eco-
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politico philosophies are mixtures of overstated goals, misstated motives and understated consequences. Socio-economic terms are meaningless generalizations without accompanying descriptive qualifications that state the socio priorities and political means intended to deliver these conjectural aspirations. The informative specifics are lost to public view by PRs assumptions, purposed misdirection and overgeneralized confusion. So, capitalism has a ruthless image. Deservingly so, for the extremism of unrestrained savage capitalism that has its roots in medievalisms squeeze economics. The worst aspect of classic capitalism is when the goal of business is to stay in business irregardless of the products or services consequences. Capitalisms economic theories have little or nothing to do with the participants morality, values and ethics or lack thereof. Capitalism is neither a creed nor an encouragement to pillage and seize. Capitalists share mans ethical commitment to be responsible, to do what ought to be done. Capitalism is more than its ruthless versions? Capitalisms material success lubricates economic activity, the packaging of value-added services captures theoretical capitalisms unlimited economic growth potential for profits and social progress from creative potential. The philosophical inclination in the variations of mutating capitalism is to test the new, which is about opportunitys risk and the reality of change. This makes Liberal Capitalism a valid possibility if allowed but orthodox conservatism and its status quo attitudes see progress profits as challenging not strengthening the establishment. The economic-realities of entrepreneur-capitalist is a survival question, which obligates access to capital, so capital formation could be a rationale or justification? Brien answered you either beat the system or it beats you, and Is the crime of all crimes, a crime and Do abstract legalities justify failure?
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These required serious contemplation, not emotional responses. So, I asked about his plans, which he led into with more economic references and the insights of success.
The Perfect Prospectus Limited Investment Unlimited Returns

Conviction drove his traffic of ideas. Some crimes are so massive, that they are too enormous to be punished. Therefore, the perpetrators are rewarded, which qualifies Balzacs phrasing about serious crimes behind great fortunes. It takes money to make money. The more secure the quantity of working capital the higher the probability of success. His plan was an aerial photography business that documented whatever anybody was willing to pay for, which underwrites the expensive experiences of flying. Kodak has a large plate camera that can take detailed aerial pictures. Photographic surveys are composed to give an economically valuable representation from the unique perspective of an overview. Aerial photography is a business with a future that confirms geographical positioning and many other pieces of asset information for any commercial projects from agriculture to construction. So, he ordered two cameras because the further away from the factory, spare parts become the infamous frustration to smooth operations. Eliminating downtime losses and waiting for replacement parts can close a business. Constant maintenance and a good parts inventory is the key with the best replacement part supply is a complete backup.
Pragmatism is an Alloy of Being and Doing With Realistic Thoughts and Relevant Actions
Brien, your particular focus on individual liberty defends personal freedoms rather than demanding moral certitudes and ideological ideals.
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Truth is social and constructed rather than transcendent and objective; this causes the worth of ideas to be proven in action and their merit judged by results. What works for one does not always hold for another thats why pragmatism is strenuously open to all perspectives. My version is a populace philosophy overlaid with progressive practicality for the socioculturally underdog. Human ideals are best served by gathering effective comprehension from informed perspectives and the approximations of value-free science to broadly raise the lowest because these achievements help society the most; all else are forms of self-servingism. My experience on individual independence is the only ethical qualifications are in accordance with Thomas Jeffersons the actions do not interfere with the liberties of others and the answer to ideological fears is Socrates greatest social wisdom, instruct rather than forbid. Youre like a wandering Greek scholar, whose lust for knowledge and philosophical critiques subversively endanger the established doctrine by a deeper probing of dogmas. Living isnt random. Enabling information and self-reliance are regulated and instructed away or squandered on diversions trivialities or over-thought irrelevances. So, functioning is structure by ideological priorities that are only maintainable by the intellectually isolated. One must recognize what is, the superior, relevant and appropriate for comprehensive resolutions, which negate reductionisms encapsulating perceptions and the status quo reference traps. The social order and its extensive history of evil make every fairminded and informed individuals naturally anti-autocratic, no matter the systems ideals from the most benevolent litist utopian illusions to every form of totalitarian delusion. So youre a freewill international cosmopolitan, one of those openminded pragmatic individual with self-sustaining strengths striving for an ethical self-determination. An nomadic Incosmo with transmodern inclinations and accented
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libertine attitudes; my liberal ideas of living self-critically are without excessive conviction but with an excess of cynicism towards the conclusions of inherited standards because no one culture, society orism has a monopoly on the best of all possible worlds. See and think clearly, while recognizing the necessary. Critically formulated perspectives and assessments avoid decisions being impulsive responses to manipulated psychology and extraneous influences. Appreciation of the human similarities and enjoying the differences is one of mankinds most valuable and stimulating resources. Philosophy wants to make things clear and is best kept short between people but within oneself this refining gives clarity to ones direction and strengthens ones decisions. Brien then asked, how long before Rubn would be moving about normally? He has reasonable mobility so in quince dias, an imprecise two weeks. With that change of subject, we noticed the afternoon had passed. We separated and upon reaching the gate, a man approached me, questioning me about the seaplane and my involvement in it. Vulnerability concerns startled my nervous system; my mind jumped awake with unfriendly thoughts, struggling for headway through a myriad of simultaneous thoughts. The general questions concerned the seaplanes performance specifications, which again, fueled my uncertainties. Then a small boy ran up with a new candy and broke my intensifying paranoia. The man was a father expanding his sons future. Not knowing the details and seeing the wonder of the opportunity, Brien was pointed out. Mental agitation is caused by the mind, and any emotional projection or obsessive attachment to thoughts impairs the individual because they are potent distractions; in dangerous situations any inattention is potentially deadly. My overreaction showed a lack of awareness and a not so calm center. These new unmastered circumstances indicated my meditative reminders to be patience and strong were not enough; I needed new comprehensions.
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Aesthetics Awareness and Appreciation Conformitys Compliance and Uniformity

Back at El caf the conversations were about the robbery of a big gold mining dredge on the Ro San Juan, in Choc, the Colombian State that borders Panam. A dense swampy jungle more primitive than the Amazon basin with its lost ancient cultures and numerous geological features. The rivers delta is on the Pacific and the rivers headwaters are around 30 miles of flat terrain away from the headwaters of the Ro Atrato, which empties into the Gulf de Uraba on the Caribbean, an area very favorable for a sea level canal. The delay of the news about the robbery was due to the slow going over Colombias difficult terrain with its various jungle-covered mountain ranges and non-existent infrastructure. Colombia is larger than Texas, California, Connecticut and New Jersey combined or larger than Spain, Italy and England together. The Panamanian newspapers headlines read a band of river pirates hit pay dirt and got away with gold that seemed to grow heavier by the hour, as the dredges damage worsened till it finally sank. Newspapers are heralded as societys prime source of truth but are first and foremost businesses, which sell decided news and appealing interpretations of events as news, not truth. Implied truth enhanced by fallacy, laced with bits of facts void of outside confirmation makes for a vehicle of selfserving presumptions. News is second-hand information at best, useful for firming up opinions. Conditioning responds only too well to assumptions conveyed as facts. Numbers, in particular, dazzle the beholder by the charm of competence and implied righteousness logic. And of course, as ignorance would have it, blind compliance to the truth of media credibility, naturally corrals the reader into accepting the incredulous as unaltered fact. In matters of commerce truths are a singular viewpoint out of many possible interpretations. When affected parties furnish unsubstantiated data and uncorroborated accounts, political or economical, the information must be automatically, suspect. Self-interest arranges its desires by obstructing any inconvenient truth.
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The dredge companys law firms PR crafted its case to establish strategic positions for optimal returns. Such public relations packaging made the claims convincing enough, in a greedy sympathetic way with an urgency to counterbalance the insurance industrys notorious opportunistic delays that minimize the settlement losses. Projected interpretations maximize opportunism by being scripted in ambiguous sub-dialects, whether legalese, commercialese or officialese, which are devised to conceal pertinent meanings from the uninitiated. Service merchants like insurers, bankers and lawyers are no more than private sector bureaucrats, attaining the rewards of their self-interests using orchestrating PR perceptions and images to promote them as pillars of public trust. For the impressionable and inexperienced, image-belief is a potentially costly and dangerous illusion. Greeds excessive desires and the human element of self-interest as need combine into potent motives; greed captures the purpose of function with self-interest being the final cause. Was that the reason Rubn doubled the cuts and giving away the stones to the workers after all the risks were taken? Rubn makes assessments not judgements. Evaluating results takes into account the extra cost involved in maintaining success, not the singular greed of the greatest profit. Smart men calculate with commonsense practicality; any participant complaining over the level of success confirms stupidity. Greed is a motivating trigger for evil; an explosive concoction of disorders and inabilities that aggregates weakness volatile reactions. In the critical moments of reaction, Rubns quick decision maintained his leadership and avoided betrayals. Extra vigilance and motivational expenditures are normal, so any windfall bonuses must be shared to guarantee total success. Protecting success is the prime responsibility of top management. The sensual pleasure of success fuels itself, which is why nothing succeeds like well-managed success. -So, Rubns generosity was in his own self-interest? -Absolutely, being generous in a wise investment and preventing the unwanted, is brilliant.
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Rumors Hold Elements of Truth Gossip Projects Elements of Disordered Psychology

Panam is a country of secrets but a city of none. The gossip windmill at El caf was wiping up stories about the robbers with loud rumors about them being in Panam. Why stay in Colombia? Panam with its selection of the finest things was the best place to enjoy spending money. Then someone interjected that a Panamanian company owned the Colombian mining concession, while the captain and crews nationalities changed with the presenters biases and prejudices. Every gossipmonger had two cents worth of psychologically exaggerated idiocy; the stories going around were more entertaining than the latest movies. The newspapers reported a big gun battle had taken place. The dredge captain and workers were said to have protected themselves and the gold from an overwhelming number of robbers. The crew had fought bravely from all the bullet holes in the dredge. When they ran out of bullets they abandoned the vessel and fled into the jungle. The next days story had a bomb sinking the dredge, which forced the captain to abandon ship and forfeited the gold to save his crew. Rumors are attention-grabbers. As rumors are retold they become gossip because of the added-on conjecture, exaggeration and misheard assumptions, which distort everything said. Gossip is cheap entertainment that flies because it relieves boredom and the all-too-common functioning depressions. Experienced people decipher the deception in rumors and fill-in the missing pieces. Speculative projections and their psychological deficiencies expose the real messages of gossip. One-mans problems are another persons perverted living. Secrets are power. El cafs business clienteles acumen was refined into an art form because any potentially profitable gossip or compromising rumors from the loose lips of whiskey generated profitable gains. Brien decided to seed the gossip fields with cover stories among El cafs worst social delinquents at the bar, just in case a possible fast departure from Panam was necessitated. My gossip was Rubns slow recuperation was due to a serious illness.
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Partners in Progress Rulelessness

Within days, the papers reported the Colombian officials had located the robbers campsite and were hot on the trail. And at least one of the robbers was wounded because bloody bandages were found. Events turned serious over the next week, when the Belgium arms dealer working in Panam, who received the gold from Felixs banker disappeared and was found murdered for no apparent reason. During our next conversation, Brien mentioned the investigators would put together the time-line and deduce that a large fast boat was required to accomplish this feat. So, the rivers residents would be questioned and they would have nothing to say because they saw nothing out of the ordinary. Eventually a joke would pop into an investigators mind that maybe the robbers used a seaplane to make this invisible getaway and there was just one civilian amphibious airplane around. All the inhabitants of the region live along the rivers banks. How does a gang travel a river unseen or vanish into an impenetrable jungle? They do not. They fly in and out. A seaplane means fast access to and from any place. Blood means necessary medical treatment; the association drew me closer into the circle. The deductions were not all that clear, as Brien played with his thoughts out loud. He said we needed to grasp the involvements from officialdoms priorities. And to understand societys bureaucratic masterdoms with its conspiratorial stratagems and dictating methodologies that manipulates the known by managing the social context. Nor did I recognize the immediacy of pointed gun seriousness behind command. He said, Authoritys relentless cast of mind and its institutional culture have disordered agendas that had to be the basis for our decisions making. I asked him to explain. Commands multiple purposes and consequences must be comprehended and adapt to, in order to prevent being destroyed by their calculated reasoning or our foolish errors. Bureaucracies are social arrangements as permanent as any temporary measures has ever been. These institutions are very misunderstood public-
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financed enterprises, optimized by design and maximized by being intertwined from the complicity of contributing gain, which construe the importance of compliance with legislation that codifies the purposes of politics and policies of regulatory law. The worst abuse is not regulatory taking but problem profiteering, whose practitioners uphold contrivances over substance, by obligated empty strategies of allusive solutions to non existing and secondary problems which facilitate their selective gains; these are the root of the apparent reasons for permanent social problems. Constraining solutions only serve to institutionalize politics of easy gains that have benefited the profiteers long and well. Authoritarian bureaucracys mantra is pliantpermanent-power. How do you see the bureaucratic involvement unfolding? From the perspectives of the bureaucrats mantra pay-promotionpension. This situation is the authoritarian functionarys bread-andbutter. When the job defines the man, any touch of excitement, sparks stale personalities and generates some self-worth because desperate choices and stagnations degrading normalcy are pushed into the background. Glamorous cases are sensationalized with opportunism and enhancements. While chasing the perpetrator, means perks, and catching them means loot bonuses. Jobs secured, promotions made, pensions and expenditures justified, these are powerful motivations. How do we stand? Smart enough to do it; wise enough to be where officialdom has no motivation. Form follows function and function follows structure, so in Colombia the normal bureaucratic vices would apply in an increasing degree to well-proven methods, until something more useful refocuses priorities; here the hype of the journalist fueled a string of headlines to sell the story.
Cooperation Empowers
Later Tannia, the sometimes hostess and full time personality, saved us from the bar, when she informed us that Gregorio wanted to talk to us
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upstairs. As we entered, Gregorio was in a low voice conversation with a captain of a docked freighter taking on supplies and cargo; more of Gregorios mystery trading. They finished immediately; the captain departed flashing us a content smile that enlivened a deep lined face of facial scars from tough sagas and permanent concerns. Then Toro entered, Gregorios right-hand man, who supervised the ice plant and the caf. Gregorio asked about the extent of Rubn wound and the complications. My prognosis was, with no serious complications, he would be moving around pretty well soon. Good medical news is always taken with a noticeable physical relief from people who really care. Gregorio told Toro to pass the word to quiet the scuttlebutt about Rubn. Gregorio wanted one of us to inform Rubn that the arms dealer found dead was a well-connected man who was tortured viciously before he died, an important detail not included in the newspaper articles. Colonel Owen of army intelligence, the power behind command when things get serious, passed on this information and mentioned the torturers liked their job. The colonel had asked Gregorio if he had any ideas of what was going on. The colonel was curious about the lack of obvious motives and the extent of the torture involved, which was professionally applied because they kept the man alive a long time in incredible pain. When the colonel officially leaves the Canal Zone, seriousness is involved. Gregorio mentioned the vague possibility of a connection with the gold robbery, being tied to the arms dealers business. Because nothing else was big enough to get the colonels curiosity in motion or the arms dealer tortured. Gregorio said he did not know the whys or the hows of what was going on, but official interest was authorized to find more information. Gregorios choice of words had another whole message behind it; he fathoms the situation purely from a few details. With officialdom, he did not want to be told anything so that way he would never have to lie. He would figure out what he needed to know. Brien concurred. Rubn was up, but moving cautiously and he tired fast but soon he would be moving sufficiently normal to be seen around. If he tried to return to work before he was himself on stage it would cause more questions and a messier predicament. Musically Panameos are a very
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knowledgeable audience and are too appreciative of music not to notice and comment. The wrong attention could get the rumor mill working overtime. We let people know Rubn was still weak from the lingering effects of Dengue fever, one of the less potent cousins of Panams infamous Yellow fever, but he might be in for a couple of sets in ocho dias an imprecise week.
Chauvinistic Nationalism is Psychological Weaponry

One evening, over drinks with Gregorio and Consuela in the Hotel Panams piano bar, we talked about the nations new sense of international importance due to the implications of militarisms industrial and commercial profiteering. Sentiments toned to the geopolitical rumblings in Europe. Consuela affirmed this international focus because wherever she preformed, she saw groups of misemployed officials watching each other. Silent pairs, nursing drinks occasionally listening and never tipping. Gregorio said some nights, potential enemies physically bumped into each other and got bluffy. Sarcastically alluding to the apparatuses of power unlimited resources even make unknowables into reality for the perks. I mentioned securocrats political theaters vague specifics have implicit perils and risks that leave no room for public doubt in the high drama of yearly budgets. The few real spies are the poster-boys fronting vast bureaucracies of ordinary employees whose work keeps their cultures perceptions appearing serious and its immensity equating to being real. Consuela said striving for human ideals and surviving having them is the more demanding achievement and dangerous accomplishment. Gregorio said top-secret stamps and the use of the obscure labeling of ongoing security matters or investigations, identifies securocrats. The social order is about profitability and protection for the few, which results in needless complications for the many.
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Gregorio said the innocent victims determine securitys true priorities of protecting powers agenda and greed. Securitys faultless protection is due to hermetic accountability and unscrutinizable patriotic reasoning, so the historical record states the reality. Consuela added that cynical insinuation, even by those who pay, is truth stumped by legalistic wounding. Questioning of authority borders on criminality, while pursuance of facts becomes a treasonous act. Consuela stated securocrats security guarantees comfortable job security; only fools and the brainwashed dont grasp badge opportunism or know lifes corruption. Gregorio mentioned securocrats operate beyond public scrutiny, often beyond factual basis. Consuela said its all a shadow play with ethical themes and amoral minds. Gregorio said spying is the public image, the real mission of these agencies is deciding culture to direct society, which is cultural tyranny. He then left us to find two bellboys to page two high officials from enemy embassies with overbearing self-anointed importance. A few minutes later, the bellboys entered moments apart, paging them to the telephone by name and embassy, a wave of shock swept the place. We laughed at the low murmur of significance and the gestures of earnest in the heads bowed closer over the small tables, as concentrated side-glances pierced the surroundings for security in this deadly serious matter.
Affectionate Love is a State of Consciousness Not the Desires of Romantic Infatuation

Normalcy flowed for awhile. My preoccupations had no added stress or psychological mayhem. Days later, there was a long afternoon lunch at Gregorios with my medical partner, Eduardo. During which he mentioned
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that a comfortable life was easiest with connections but the shallowness of privileges self-indulgences produces mediocrity, which cost living too much. I mentioned, Reading and listening cultivates the harvest of thinking, which secures contentment. As we were going to take this line of thought somewhere, two sensuous oriental girls lit our eyes with the sheer admiration of beauty. They wore the clean lines of understated elegance in the rich tones of tailored silks clinging sexuality, accented by the exciting allure of thigh-slitted elongated legs. The presence of such class (the how of what you do) caused a focusing silence. They had lunch on the patio and came inside, as a patron beat the piano up. After he finished punching the keys, the ladies applauded out of politeness. He knowingly thanked them, explaining he was just enjoying himself before returning to his office and the instruments about the stage were for anyone to play. After a shy look around the empty room, in the image of oriental modesty, one girl sat down at the piano and started to play delicate captivating music, which had a deep potent simplicity. An educated guess; classic Japanese. Simple clarity, with a serene depth that absorbs you is my appraisal of classical music from any culture. Her girlfriend just followed along both sang so softly no one heard them until the third piece, when they sang a duet, which was truly angelic. The place came to a stand still. The aesthetics of art is beyond language, the tongue of thought. There was a pureness to the music, a duet of subtle seduction. When finished, the applause was heartfelt and the ladies were surprised and appreciative of the reception, behind their blushing shyness and knowing eyes. The moment Eduardo realized that our enchantresses had finished, he was on them like a jaguar. The ladies were seated at our table before they could think over his invitation. He was quietly burning so passionately as to be still. Our most refined manners blossomed upon our introductions to Linda Lee and Lori. We shared some intercultural wonderfulness. Their Spanish was perfect but had a strange accent. They mentioned being Hikkei Brazil-
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jin, Brazilian born members of the large Japanese immigrant community in Brazil. They were waiting for a liner headed to Japan, to visit their ancestral home. An aunt was chaperoning them, but she was sick in the hotel and after two days being stuck in their room, they wanted a break for lunch and El caf had been recommended. Eduardo asked Lori the name of the long piece she first played. She replied Beethovens Sonata number 14, called Moonlight but added she liked Liszts name for this piece, a flower between two abysses. Eduardo said the name captured the first impressions he had of them, and then said their voices matched their beauty. The compliment made them both blush in modesty. Eduardo talked about his love of impressionist sketches in words of Haiku poetry and the haiku style solid, visual, exact, economical yet evocative. This purely artistic message got their attention, so he continued. Western arts designated knowledge components logically and symbolically convey the theoretic aspects in the nature of things. Western aesthetic appreciations and intellectual mastery concerns the content of art, which differs from the oriental aesthetic component in things for their own sake and, the desire to understand nature by becoming part of nature. The Japanese have mastered the philosophy of aesthetics in living with a natural perfection of design, a purely artistic appreciation for the aesthetic potential of all objects. Lori said she was impressed with his knowledge of Japanese culture. Linda Lee mentioned the aesthetic components have the richest of lifes enriching themes. Eduardo set the impression he wanted, and asked them to sing some more. After they modestly consented we got up and sat around the piano. Lori played short classical Japanese melodies, while Linda Lee told us the names that were lost in the quick speech of fluency. She used her fingernails on a caf guitar body to accompany Lori. After an exchange in Japanese, they switched to some calm, sad traditional Sambas. Then
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with the same smooth rhythmic base and a faster tempo, they introduced a taste of the rich diversity of Musica Popular Brasilleira, pure entertainment. We walked them back to their hotel and Eduardo asked if they wanted us to look at their aunt. Linda Lee said she was sick like this before and had her medicine and would be uncomfortable with a foreign doctor. Eduardo was in lust and love with both of them. He was confused and felt relieved when he got them to commit to spending more time together. Lunch the next day was without me; my schedule had a pressing appointment that would occupy me out of town for at least a few days. My trip got extended a couple of days and upon my return, life had changed; Eduardo sat me down and told me the story. He was in the clinic the first morning of my trip when Linda Lee came running into the office and asked him to come to the hotel and look at their aunt. She had become notably weak overnight. He finished with his patient and asked the other patients in the waiting room to return the next day because of the emergency. They rushed to the hotel and when he entered the room, he saw immediately the aunt had died. After a fast examination of the body and medications, he determined the death was from the complications of old age. The nieces were in shock. He handled the legal questions and, because they were Catholics, he got the aunt a Mass and in the ground fast. His decision-making minimized the uncomfortable moments. Eduardo handled so much, his goodness shined and they became more relaxed and confident with him. All emotional strains need therapeutic releases and conversations are one of the best. They confided their sincerest stories. The girls planned to go to Japan and find husbands, as the aunt had some old matchmaker friend. Now that the source of traditional Japanese influence was no longer around, the decisions of other serious concerns had to be faced. The ladies sparks of openness and wittiness made them seem more Brazilian, compared to their previous quiet demeanor. This made Eduardo relax more. As time passed and living sought them out, Linda Lee and Loris desires to continue on to Japan immediately were waning. Japan
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was really a foreign country full of uncertainties; it mainly existed from stories and reminiscences of old relatives distant recollections. Brazil still had the same reasons for leaving in the first place; there were only menial womens work and unsatisfactory male options. Japan might be better, as their aunt took for granted, but that was wishful flights of an aunts dreams with many unknowns and countless ifs. Eduardo offered his big house to save the cost of the hotel bill. They were comfortable with him and the situation. He told them they could live with him as long as they wanted. This gave them a refuge to think over the future without financial pressure. He shared the depth of their connection and understood they were inseparable. To have one of them you had to keep them together. Relaxed familiarity nourishes comfortableness; this fosters friendship with intimacy that grows into the clearest of loves. The quality of these ladies upbringing and their bicultural wisdom quickly organized financial matters. They did not want to rely on Eduardo, so as to establish a more equitable relationship. Living well takes the personal efforts necessary; theirs had sophistications bond of truth and sincerity. Grandfather, I sometimes feel you are being oversimplistic and talk at me and not to me. Good perspectives sound simple but deliver sophistication; the oversimplistic sounds meaningful but delivers ignorance. My communication styles is just consistent information, experienced balanced with the roughness of directness, you will see as your information categories develop and your comprehensions conceptualize. So, conceptualizing facilitates performance because it captures intellectual clarity. Conceptualization ties knowledge into understandings with perspectives. Sophistication extrapolates meaning to maximize potentials for livings increasing needs. Astute insights have deducible implications and conclusions; this unfolding creativity becomes the bases of good decisions.
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Neurotic Tendencies Drive Every Ploy While Neuroses Thicken Every Plot
One afternoon days later at lunch, Gregorio passed by and informed us that a Panamanian banker was found tortured to death. He suffered from the same degree of torturous perversion as the arms dealer, and no official motive had been determined. Brien whispered that he was the banker who received the gold for the Belgium arms dealer. Fortunately, the arms merchant did not know either Felix or Rubn, but the banker Felix deposited the gold with knew him personally. Tortures beyond pathological evil; any form of physical or psychological torture makes the torturer and their directors the lowest inhumane beings in existence, no matter the antisocial personality disorders or belief-system justifications. Corrupting evilness defines the psychovert but inflicting brutal precise pain indicated these psychoverts wanted all the details known by the victims. Later, Rubn and I were in Gregorios office and just as we started to talk about the latest turn of events, Felix burst in the office door looking for him. Felix had been living hard, overindulging. Continuous exhaustion from substance fatigue magnified his highly charged personality along with his personal angers and stresses. These combine into a health timebomb well-past distress overreaction. He physically shook from head to toe, not from an emotional panic attack but fear. He lost his mental sequence trying to say everything simultaneously. Felix loudly expressed repetitious concerns in confused sentences. He was scared and on the verge of a nervous breakdown, calling for help. Felix had been on his way home after he heard about the banker, when one of the neighborhood kids warned him that strangers were waiting in a big car outside his house all day. On that news, he went to Rubns but his house was empty, even the maid was gone. He looked everyplace he knew on his way here. The more places he could not find Rubn the scarier it became. His emotional instability overreacted with each pessimistic steps swelling paranoid projection for the worse. No answers
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or help exacerbated this serious traumatic episode. Panic realizes its fear, a self-fulfilling vulnerability, where the emotional reactions felt reinforce the circumstances anxieties. Rubns presence stopped the emotional panic but it took a strong sedative for Felix to gain control of his self-traumatized thought process. The medication and a secure setting helped him calm down enough to catch hold of himself. The sound of options being discussed reassured Felix, but Rubn was very concerned. Felix believed he would be safe at his uncles house in the cloud forest within which he kept bees and gathered wild honey. His uncle would supply strength for his fears. He wanted to disappear into the jungles thick foliage with its limited horizontal visibility and dense layered canopies permanent shades of semi-darkness that shrouds all its inhabitants. Rubn reluctantly agreed to the idea but had a noticeable lack of conviction behind his words. Out of sight in this situation was not out of mind. Felixs mental involvements were the reactions of his insecurities, not the needs of the situation. Until this drama unfolded further, Rubn wanted him to go to the island for his protection. His distraught state locked him into his thought patterns. Felix had stopped listening. All his clothes and money were at home, returning was out of the question. Safety was the primary concern. We filled his immediate necessities from my medical bags supply of sedatives. Rubn left the medical bags to get some cash from Toro. Felix grew calmer as we waited. After Rubns return, they departed in a somber mood. These developments made us quieter and more watchful of the many new faces in El caf, especially the patrons with transparent stories and those who hung around all day, everyday. Calculating decisions were a taxing strain of stress on Rubns weakened physical state. His abilities would handle the situations but my concern and responsibility was to remind him not to over do it. His well-adjusted temperament was sustained by an emotional nonattachment that keeps lifes normal setbacks and uncertainties in balanced interplay with ones developing perspectives.
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Opportunities are the Open Doors to Futures

Rubn got a break when Tannia told him about meeting an impressive but very disgruntled entertainer off a passenger liner. She described a lady too young to be singing to the sentiments of another generation. He traced her down in town and negotiated a new contract. While the liner refueled and took on supplies at the transit dock, he and Toro went to the ship in single-minded determination. His charm and generous offer got her and a traveling companions full attention. After a short conversation with cash changing hands, and before the apprehension of important decisions second thoughts, he escorted them off the liner. Breaking legal contracts can be so messy and time-consuming for young inspiring ladies with personal money and the pressing engagements of exciting futures. The ladies lone concern was the loss of their luggage, which Rubns promised of a new set of the finest overcame. As Rubn, Kathryn and her friend Rex disembarked the ship, smiling and waving as they descended the gangplank. Toro bundled their belongings in sheets and dropped them out of their cabins portholes onto a waiting launch. Experiences efficient silence was perfected from years of moving contraband on and off moving ships, which made the belongings of charming women a pleasant cargo. Ships and docks were Toros childhood playgrounds and schooling. The years of Prohibitions profitable high-adventures made transgressions exciting and taught officialdoms convoluted ways and disutilitys utility. Authority always defines anti-authority conduct as outrageous crimes, but Prohibition established officialdom to be the problem profiteerings biggest gainer. Rubns arrangements had her performing at the caf that evening after the liner hoisted aboard its dock lines. Upon the sound of the liners horn signaling its steaming for the Canals locks, the ladies left their new apartment for some female tropical ado. The concern over Rubns performance was forgotten the moment his special guest stepped into the spotlight. A physically stunning strawberry blond of cinematic perfection and revealed proportions was a
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consuming distraction, sufficient to receive ten creative proposals a night. Her radiant beauty and detached sexual confidence excited the hormonal forces in every Don Juan. Rubn was so unnoticed, as to be nonexistent.
Women are Not Children Especially Those with Self-dependent Experiences

Miss Kathryn, Rubns song goddess, sang the latest swing numbers tropicalized by Rubn. Her stage presence shined in her solo performance, which revealed an incredibly well trained voice. Her final selections were an assortment of jazz classics, these changed the patrons mood from a crowd infatuated with her attractiveness and novelty into an appreciative audience. The acknowledgment by those in attendance of her artistic performance made her comfortable and that is home for travelers in residence. Kathryn was definitely a mystery lady; statuesque and competent, traveling the world of life, carrying the perfect essentials and no history. Her stimulating presence came from the gliding elegance of a dancers grace wrapped in fashions of her own creation. Her spirited personality and intellectual maturity was obvious from her clear and tolerant sophistications sensitivity, which handled the swarming males emotional vivacity and psychological needs without feeding them. Her extraordinariness was a multifaceted portrait that only Cubisms explicit simultaneous awareness of multiple perspectives could capture. The lavish fantasy glitter as a diva made her the toast of the suave Don crowd. She spurred a new social season nightly. The Dons came in adoration to beauty from their haciendas and mansions in their finest, and nobody out-dresses a Don. The nightly performances with Kathryn had Rubn artistically on fire. Her talent inspirited him into a rapid recovery. When other talented performers shared his stage, he would play to a complimentary level, set by the other performers, never overshadowing. Kathryns sparking energy was exceptional. We were sharing Rubns jazz compositions, divine passions craving cries reflected off Kathryns aloof femme fatale, a modern
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Muse Euterpe and a contemporary Tropical-American maestro bringingforth spontaneous artistic creations. The audience shared the pleasure in pure celebration, the finest element of this aesthetic culture. Onstage, they communicated via music as charged forces of nature that carried us along. Offstage, Rubn reserved emotional distance and warm respectful manners acknowledged a sincere respect toward Kathryn. Rubns carefully chosen moments and calculated consideration held a specialness due to its remarkableness.
Arrogances Expects Attention that Testosterone Intensifies

Kathryn exploded the hot passions of tropical madness that extols beauty, mesmerizes minds and focuses efforts. A mini-casino developed over the amount of time before she was swept off her feet. After meeting her a few times, my impressions were confirmed; there was a lot more to her than the self-infatuated Don Juan characters could conceive or deceive. The operatic acts of romances flowers and champagne were humorous because any social awareness would realize shes had a gardened chateaus worth of the finest. Any act or actor, irrespective of skill, did not impress Kathryn. She was unaffected by mere repertoires, her womanness surpassed the males best psychological me, performances. She actualized the artistic mode of seeing things exactly the way they are. Such strength and competency are rarely experienced female character traits that are not challenges to be conquered or dominated and destroyed but greatness to be shared, supported and cherished. The idealized Spanish hero Don Juan epitomizes the arrogant seducer, who also has an unrecognized self-love aspect. The vainglorious types will eventually be too challenged by this competent womans personal strengths. Their ineffectiveness on her would be perceived as her inadequacy, failed conceits normal defense mechanism. This male intimidation by a female is actually male unpreparedness and the inability to acknowledge or admit anything beyond the boy mamas makes and baby loves.
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In the psychic depths, irrepressible male arrogance involves insecurities and disorders hidden behind polished conceits with culturally supported enabling fictions. Relationship maturity requires awareness and respect to grasp and hold competences uniqueness. One of the sophisticated gentry, not an arrogant and pompous imitation, could walk with her; no one was going to sweep her off her feet. Kathryns self-esteem desired respect not adulation; she wanted to be truly heard and appreciated for her efforts success.
Ismized Agendas Vilifying Biological Realities are The Noise of Power

How do we differ from the Northerners? In handling of sexuality, the human addition to sex. In the north, the good lifes sexual pleasures exist but as a double standard reserved for wealth and status. The imposed puritanical reasoning sees confident sexuality as a cultural enemy. This prudish and censoring sexual repression leads to the cultural illness of genital frustrations, needs shame and guilts getting, which are intensely emotional and socially powerful manipulators. In Tropical America sexual conventions are sociocultural lubricants that have an expanded sense of normality. Sex is a life force full of emotion and sexs ritual recovery of vitality. These core bio-realities are affect-loaded by social norms that generate personalities and psychological intelligence, here nudity is beauty and not an evil crime or a sin. This sophisticated sexual consciousness carries social attitudes with open tolerance and broader opportunities. The worldly Dons suaveness has a relaxed confidence in their enjoyment of women, which enhances emotional maturitys loving. Great lovers sexual vibrancy give attention to the qualities associated with sex such as desire, sensuality, intimacy and pleasure. The dramatic expressions of socio-eco actualities and bio-realities are social freedoms and individual liberties that evolved from desires heeded and compassion acted upon, only external influences cause the
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probabilistic outcomes. Tolerance and discrimination differentiate cultures. We share elite plutocratic constraints on life with our younger rich northern brothers, but not their prurient constrains on living. Religions cancerous fear and guilt emotions and theological imposition due sin-uendos are self-wounding abuses in the hands of ones ignorance. Catholic emotionalism is the source of self-victimizing in many areas but not in most matters of sex. There the indigenous cultures and the slaves bio-realities generated mature sexual attitude that godspeak obsessions could not penetrate. While Tropical Americas religions of emotion are the excitements that poverty escapes into and sees as a befitting sensual normality for lifes ancient Necessity. These sexual sensibilities that are in sharp contrast to the puritan norths biorepressions and affections suppressions. Sex isnt the problem nor is sexuality but innuendo neuroses and conviction psychosis sure are. Puritanical cultural enforcers psychological demons and obsession/ repression abnormalize the bio-realities of the sexual creatures we are. Social immaturity toward emotions excites all the wrong sorts of passions, which distracts from livings beautiful passions of sensuality and pleasure. Denial perceptions undermine too many potential satisfactions in growing old that age recognizes too late.
Exaggerate Ignorances Overgeneralizing is Applicability Surpassing Significance

The rare periods when Brien was alone in the distractive speculation of too many possibilities mixed with whiskey conjecture, he binged until he got bored or mentally fatigued. Exhaustion weakens resolve but he never lost his intellect over the duration of a binge. His reactions were understandable because anyone who has someone pursuing them should be paranoid to a serious extent. Valid fear warns false fear harms. Fear is a beneficial evolutionary survival tool, which psychological intelligence must repurpose and redirect from ancient survival imperatives to the total inter-humanness of spreading urbanism. Managing fear is a stamina challenge because unmanaged concerns compound into anxieties
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of influence due the weariness of ceaseless thoughts. The mind gets fatigued by constantly projecting uncertainties unknowns back on to themselves, which substantiates the weaknesses and amplifies the disorders. His mood slipped into alcohols costliest intrusions, hangovers lost days. Alcohols seduction is patient and smooth, a compelling drug with negative tendencies of psychological dependence and physiological addiction. Self-directed behaviors lost in the deepening comfortable fog of pleasurable consumption. In El caf his phases went unnoticed because his social skills carried large parts of the evenings. Life for the most part was fun. When he became bored with his slide, he occupied his time with the airplane and business plans. Work heals and positive actions mend, which are the best support for any solution. The airplanes vulnerability and the situations uncertainty had him starting so many more stories to whomever; the rumors became running jokes. When people asked me if he was really going to fly around the world nonstop or some other folly. I would simply restate their question exactly but in a deep tone, which was sufficient for the questioner, to accept their question as an answer. Events are interpreted through ones chain of insecurities and fears. People do not listen; they only hear their wants assumptions.
Dont Suffer Ignorance or The Psychological Vandalism of Pessimists

The cafs social parrots re-echoing pretensions were bad enough, but the hearsay existence of distractions and forced conversations of a surprising number indicated the retained insecurities of adolescence. The functioning unconscious were occupied in the self-indulgent meaningless of the illogical. While, Briens voluminous melodramatic fictions were diversions by the confusion of contrary stories. However these were no real security against the actual danger, the unknown assassins.
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Brien stated emphatically truth heeds safety. The law of necessitys self-protection overrides social considerations and establishes ones ethics; the intensity comes from the seriousness found confronting powers ruthlessness and grappling with forces beyond ones control. No one has to hurt themself in any way, shape or form or commit social suicide by telling the truth or being inappropriately honest. Truth is only due to oneself and those respected or toward the appropriate areas within responsibilities, the rest get civility to gallantry. For Brien deceit and duplicity were self-defense ploys, evasive actions and reactions to ignorances dangerous projections. He maneuvered every aspect of the situation at hand with reference to the overriding demands of the bigger picture. Lying and dishonesty can be ethically correct because morality is a non-applicable question when the matter is none of the questioners business or when reality could come back with precarious repercussions. Individuals assess behavior because true motivations are unknowable and only an assessing analysis of behavior patterns reveals psychological characteristics interacting with influences. The consummate individual has an ethical value system that utilizes the appropriate techniques necessary to protect vulnerabilities and manage success. Success is demanding, allusive and fragile, its most common destroyers are disguised by well-groomed personality disorders and welldressed envious greed. Poor assessment due to the focused rush of the immediate situation often misses the costly unresolved psychological inadequacies in others; these contaminate the success process by undermining the best efforts required. Personnel psychology and agendas are the real time destructive forces behind failure. Grandfather, the unrecognized partiality for failure makes the unreasonable and non-rational very common. Individuals must grasp the social orders power to influence, which has both philosophical inadequacies and structural flaws. These expedience defects cause the social neurosis distressing and stressful stressors, as well as the biases of social psychologys deficiencies that cause the social psychoses with their compounding psychological complications.
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Optimum behaviors priorities maximize potentials, which has a certain functioning optimism due to advancing options that are each kept open as much and as long as possible time wise, for flexibilitys possibilities. Independent operators cannot afford to be involved with fools or pessimistic attitudes with their propensity for the unfinished as sufficient and partial accomplishments as complete. These always cost the optimizing doers much more than the striving pessimist with his unconscious positiveness towards failure. So those striving past limitations and desperations deserve respect. Yes, but with ones eyes wide open because whenever abilities and limits are surpassed people usually revert to the worst aspects of their personality and imprinting with all its negatives and inabilities. Heed psychological warnings to avoid the neurotics verbal vomitoria and psychotics irrationality as the ultimate rationale. Understanding this establishes the perpetrators as wrong and worthless with disorders problems. Astute responses saves time and misplaced efforts, while preventing psychological pains wear and tears.
Normalitys Standards Are Enabling Fictions With Egoisms Considerations

The earlier the source traits that mold behavior are imprinted and habits develop the stronger the acceptance and the normality of insufficiencies with their burdening by-products and side effects. Societys belief-value trainings illusionary ideals and daily living actualities cause verbal trust to be perceived with loose uses and looser obligations. Lies debilitate and lyings perceived harmlessness blindsides the nave. Upon puberty verbal trust without mature perspectives becomes a source of emotional damage. Lies work because we are conditioned to the expectation of truth with emotional responses as validation. The verbal fictions of social vanities that rule daily life are fueled by the insecurities of the moment. Non-critical acceptance of the projected and its contagious errors hurt listeners, which are social actualities so common
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that believing seems a behavior problem. Lying and its acceptance have become societys oral habit of smooth conveyance; its normality has made handling the truth problematic. The pretense of intellectual honesty behind the norm of hypocrisys word-to-actions lies are so rampant verbal trust usually doesnt extend past sociable convenience. Expedience and ulterior motives determine communication, not honesty. Excuses are lies of personal justifications for inadequate efforts. Rationales are compiled excuses that embrace what works easiest, whereas being ethical is doing whats appropriate. Concerning self-serving matters, lies match wants. The negative functions on lies. Greed lies to take advantage. Promises are airy words; in matters of money, verbal trust is a toxic contaminator. The muses, demons, egos and ids in charge of lies, live off of believing, wants and susceptibilities. The most serious repercussions of lies and lying are the effect-laden residues that continuously injure the personality.
One must Grasp Lying to See Lies Victimize And Premeditated Liars are Evil Destroyers
Mini-truths facilitate orchestrated lyings purposed influence and manipulated functioning. This often involves evils willingness and intent to do harm. Transgressions of organized lying range from the conditioned responses to the conspiratorial enigmatic. Traditional understandings are disastrous to truth because the psychosocial concepts of lying and deceits are conveniently limited to spoken words, just like stealing is misunderstood to only involve any unauthorized taking of physical objects. These ancient simplistic Judeoprecepts of specific-act wrongness are parable morality from social conditions based on living in the utter ignorance of a couple of thousands years ago. Conspiratorial Lies carry out agendas and their subsequent actions premeditate exploitation of people and circumstances. The constructed formulations of the conspiratorial lies use multi-level contributory tie-ins that are effectively structured with the inferred, false issues misdirection
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and denial. Lying follows opportunistic functioning. Lies take many forms, from omissions, commissioned, blatant and partial truths half-lies, to shrewd deceptions of complex lying that involve contributory reinforcements with staged images and bought credibility, whose vague inarguable generalities are stated in the nonspecific truths of expertise jargon. Single and packaged deceits are intellectual transgressions that misappropriate time, abilities, possibilities and freedoms; these make them felonious social corruptions not covered by statutes or the theocentric. Lyings negative psychologys very worse influence is the willing acceptance of the premises and ploys of lying being repeated as source materials. Psychological indeterminacy or doubt has a lingering uneasiness that we are not trained to recognize. Doubt, as the basis of reflexive questioning, is an important but unrecognized defensive measure against manipulations. Experience proves doubt is an intellectual imperative because its a warning mechanism. However, the strength of conditioned responses overwhelms this important self-defense tool. The truth of lies is the fact that any rejected premise annuls all that follows especially the results. Decisions stated with confidence and repeated out loud clears out the lingering receptiveness to lies. So, the modern social theory of self has to understand the depth of deceptions in lying and the extent of self-deception.
Numbers and Statistical Associations Are Not Cause and Effect.
Empowerment Has Exactitude of Meanings

Facts and numbers have perceptions of preciseness and determinacy that gives comprehension to vague complexity and nebulous estimates. In Western cultures, quantitative reasoned presentations and numeral representations have a deeply ingrained receptiveness
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of inherently unbiased truth-convictions with cold logics factual accuracy. Perhaps facts and numbers, those abstract symbols with interrelated structuring set by the formal logic of mathematics, do not lie, but depictions interpretations are highly subjective and open to misapplication and misrepresentation. This actuality is due to every interpreter being easily accessible and influenceable. In many instances, numbers and their logical representations are much more useful and suitable to biasing and lies than words because numbers, like approximations of truth, stop further critical analysis. So, the legacies of lies victimize from purposed misinformation to conspiratorial inference.
Stress and Stressors Complications Over Influence the Spectra of Health and Wellness
Moods usually followed circumstance, so tensions tightened when word came back that Felix and his uncle disappeared without a trace; intensity went exponential. More serious stress reactions necessitated new levels of self-management. If the pursuers could find Felix hiding in a remote jungle location, they were efficient and effective. On this news, Brien confirmed the freighters arrival that carried his cameras. Meanwhile various contingency plans were refined. Rubn showed no outward tension but had a rude abruptness with anyones lack of applied intelligence. He wanted things straight and to the point, like after midnight negotiations. This caused direct and explosive reactions in the predictable confrontations with arrogances hype-sensitive vanities that he further incensed by stating them out loud. In similar situations, what is valid for one generally holds for others with specifics varying the particulars. Our social lives suffered because our adjustment disorders maladaptive reactions were linked to the growing concerns of a deadly uncertainty. The interworkings of the group as a whole was supportive, but enduring mental anxiety, tensions and abnormal stress were burdening
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negative influences that interfered with the satisfactory accomplishment of tasks and acts essential to ones well being. When one constantly rehashes the same things with the emotion of the moment, it changes nothing but affects everything. Bad psychology beats-up ones personality. Repetitions and the swings of our mood were made worse by diminishing emotional reactions, which indicated stress-induced psychological and mental fatigue. Relaxation enhances sexual joy and lifes behaving easy. These were lost or difficult to retain with the predicaments uncertainty. The archenemies of mans sex drive are anxieties, stresses and tensions, which intensify distractions that dissipate passion and constrict pleasure. Sex is inhibited further by a few ounces of alcohols disruptive side effects, a chemical that destroys the sexual performance ability, at the same time stimulating virile fantasies. Each condition was a serious concern that complicated functioning and in any combination guaranteed an indifferent performance, which cause incomplete or indifferent orgasms. Peace of mind and health are the most valuable conditions of life because the wrong thoughts cause mistakes to be made, while internal stresses like anger and emotionalized frustrations seem to facilitate ones susceptibilities to further negative psychology and physical illnesses. My psychological counter-strategies were easy use my time being positively engaged. So, I treated the clinics patients and worked where needed in the hospital, where poverties exasperations are exhausting. Encouraging disorders and the many types of depressions are avoided by keeping positively engaged; taking care of even small positive things sidesteps the self-victimizing and compounding. Every positive step reinforces the needed attitudes for psychological health to prevail, which aids ones self-management of livings larger situations.
Managing Normal Neuroses Prevents The Onslaught of Psychoses

Tensions stretch until they break. Rubn felt Robertos crew somehow missed Felix at his uncles and demanded a second effort. This time they
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stayed overnight and still had nothing to report. The news propelled our concerns well past psychological stress and emotionalized anxieties. Time and the overactive mental chatter of overintellectualizing the unanswerable were stressors, a source of stress. Our anxiety disorders syndromes often had severe anxiety as the dominant disturbance. The precariousness had us on the verge of making psychological errors by impaired assessment. Every small slip-up reverberated with implications, which increased the constant pressure because the situations dynamics mutually reinforced the other destabilizing influences. These were serious psychological repercussions on a group of amateurs, lacking the balanced perspectives and occupational insights of experienced criminals. Our psychological moods got complicated when fatigues non-efforts and alcohol clouded the mind. Alcohols strength is the drinkers weaknesses. Deadly torturing unknowns hung in the dark shadows that stalked our minds. The cumulative effects leveled the last signpost that read do no damage on the borderline of normalcy long ago. We were inventing the rules of psychological survivals acceptable maintenance. Rubn decided an open discussion was advisable immediately to structure the enigma and the overall situation. At the gathering, Rubn started taking apart each facet to get a balanced perspective of where each event stood with separate assessments. He wanted to calm the psychology down through an acceptable group outline; sharing our deductions would put us on the same page. The search for something specific to concentrate on, even a rationalizable guess would have been acceptable at this point. We agreed our enemys primary aim was not the gold but the tortured victims knowledge. This limited the perpetrators deductions to the details supplied. We discussed the theories and facts in neutral abstractions. Weighed-probabilities eliminated the dredge crew, they had no means and knew nothing; they were just hard-working men, not efficient torturers and killers. The mining company was insured and the claim well padded. The insurance company had motive from lost gold and exaggerated dredge damages, but overstated costs are normal ploys of
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commercial greeds opportunism to establish an advantageous negotiating position. The values of greed are factors discounted in the final negotiations. The insurance company would need mercenary bounty hunters. These were easy to find, but a remote possibility because insurance functions on annual percentages. They simply raise premiums the year following a bad year. The Canals military had no reasons to be involved and they do not apply brutal physical torture as a form of questioning in legal investigations. The colonels questions indicated he was at a loss. He assumed these incidents were about a dirty arms deal gone bad or a falling out between criminal partners. The arms dealer did not sell large quantities of arms in this region of the hemisphere. Even the bankers legalistic usury with its performance clauses and affected interest rates were insufficient reasons. Once the gold was deposited in an untouchable corporate entity it was impossible to retrieve. The dead banker was just another overtailored accountant, a commercial mercenary who would have cooperated for a cut, even volunteer any information free under pressure and would pay to avoid being tortured. So this eliminated any local criminal operations, and greedy quasi-official Colombian role. The torture was the confusing element. These assailants wanted every piece of information and no loose ends. Torture costs lots of money because it takes organization and ruthlessness, and both carry extra charges. The group interested might be the law without any interest in legality; incarceration for gain and tortuous interrogations are common official criminal policies, but murder of wealthy men willing to pay is not. The frequency and type of official indignities depends on the political circumstances and greeds gain, which makes enforcements expedience policies profitability questions. Officialdoms corruptions commonly utilize disordered brutalitys pains, not torturers permanent damage to obtain the desired. These groups were discounted because these victims were too connected and had the wealth that buys freedom. Now Generalismo Franco had motive for the arms dealer. It was feasible but unlikely. He had no organization outside of Spain, not even a real consulate much less a full embassy in Panam. How could Francos men
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know about the gold and these other details in the first place? Even if they had a spy in Belgium, once the contract was fulfilled it ended their interest, why pursue these other people? The chain of events and the money trail was self-evident but to what goal? Finding and killing Rubn? He did not have the worth or importance for these hideous events and deaths. The mystery was a road of death in someones hell. No one story fit all the pieces. Brien asked Rubn if he had been having an affair with the presidents wife or any general who was psychotic. We smiled at Rubns face of meaningful innocence about wives, which lightened up the meeting for everyone. He said he could not tell the difference between quality generals who used the militarys efficiencies to deliver whatever social progress they could affect and those with brass disorders. This took a group of men, and witnesses are a deterrent to violent acts because they affirm guilt. Potential political blackmail are entanglements religiously avoided by public servants, except by those under orders. A few points reduced the confusion, mostly a chain of dead bodies with the next links obvious and not much else. The information trail ended where it began. A full circle with vague points, useless for any meaningful resolution. Painful events had to unfold, as precautions filled the wait. Applied intelligence, personal strength and calm patience were our principle necessities. The conceivable motives were too vague and speculative for now. Until there were new facts, we were still on mental standby and physical security alert. Being together in a group stopped us unknowingly intensifying each others concerns and paranoia; this was a very positive influence. We were where we started but we felt less anxietized. The meeting was therapeutic; it lifted our deepest emotional isolation. But there still had been no contact with Felix, who we desperately wanted working in the deep jungle with his uncle. Rubn lifted a suitcase onto the table, opened it and handed each of us three loaded .45s with holsters and extra clips. His primary reasons for the meeting was to provide personal protection for whatever and accessibility for whenever necessary. The meeting gave me some perspective. The situations may be quiet,
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Being and Neurosis are Always in Conflict The Chaos is Unawareness

The morning after, Briens cameras arrived; he talked to the Canals management and Colonel Owen about taking aerial photographs of the canals extensive jungle enclosed water collection and storage system that feeds the daily water requirements to operate the Canals locks. Upto-date photographic references hanging on their walls would establish the concept and start his business portfolio, which was a profitable exchange for all involved. Later in the day, he moved the Goose onto one of the Canal Zones airfield, near a Grumman JRF-3, the military version of the Goose. The colonel required direct supervision of an airplane flying over his areas of responsibility. Brien concurred because lately he heard men with foreign accented Spanish were asking questions. Brien had strength of character and taking flight to escape would not penetrate his integrity. Hazardous situations are just greater mental challenges to serious men like him. Cowardliness and weakness denials are the consequences of disorders and inabilities. He mentioned he needed a copilot cameraman, so my schedule was adjusted which reorganized my life. My emotions were answering for me. The cameras body and lens were large and cumbersome; the lens housing was about a foot in diameter, but the soaring movements and incredible perspectives made me fall in love with both flying and photography. The last copilot Brien wanted was a soldier, who would report his every word and action to the colonel. Brien sounded rude to anyone with selective attention, but his distinctively connected cynicism was enhanced by a rough vocabulary that meshed descriptively in sophisticated wit. His anti-authoritarianism was easily interpreted as the
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worst articles of belief to the inexperienced, ideologically adjusted, overtrained, under-educated and immature. Out of the blue, the colonel mentioned, Brien was probably an opportunity-criminal like most people but he had the snap-to it takes to be successful. Virtuousness is the core of the worldly citizen-warriors, which is a unique and special breed the colonel presented himself to belong among. The next day an invitation for lunch was accepted by the ever-present Roberto. During lunch two ladies came looking for me with a message from Louise, telling me to come to her establishment immediately. Truti was signaled to serve the girls and only their tab was on me. Roberto was gone until he was broke and his credit cut off. You could see it in the seriousness of his smile and the complete attentiveness for and from the ladies. At the queen of charms house of love, a girl escorted me to Louises second floor suite. There was Felix; the psychological reaction to this fear-induced situation was not an overreaction but a strange mental distance. His personalitys make-up was from an overloving home, not the tough-side of life. He needed to feel safe and talk to someone he could trust; this brought him back somewhat. To me the practice of medicine starts with sympathetic listening, not credentialed attitudes. My attentive support helped him to concentrate and a serious sedative from my pocket pharmacy put him in a more comfortable mental state. After Felix waited a couple of days in the security of his uncle, his confidence was restored. He then went to his mothers house and had his brother Louis go to his place alone at nightfall, reasoning it would be safe. Later, when Louis took much too long to return, he slipped back into his house and found his cloths and money gone. He ran in growing panic to every place he could think of looking for Louis. His fears exaggerations raced with his heartbeats because he finally admitted Louis immaturity did something stupid. The possibilities pushed every negative emotional button in his stressed personality. After a couple of days at his mothers house praying and hoping he had no more patience left. The situation was too much for him. In sickening
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thoughts he went to his uncles in desperations final hope. Hope is the response to living in fear. His hopes were fading as his fear intensified his anxieties with each failed idea. His uncles house was empty and unlocked. His uncle worked his hives over various large areas in the surrounding jungle. When he was not located around the old hives, Felix had to search in an area of new hives, much further into the jungle. His descriptions went beyond panic and fear. A psychosis where the jungles closed unwavering world became a psychological mirror that reflected his emotional instability, which consumed him. The growing traumatic neurosis over finding bodies thickened his jungle. A lifeless gray mist shrouded the vast wet greenness. Confused senses saw danger in natures random movements with paranoid anxieties in every dark recess. Stressors both assumed and actual ignited his obsessions and exploded his compulsions constantly; the loud jungle rains produce psychologically blinding hysteria from the sounds of panics echoing fears. In a heavy fog of lost time, he stumbled on to a path and found direction. He headed back to his uncles house; on the way he located his uncle from the smell of his dead body. Scorching tropical heat was decomposing the body as fast as the insects were consuming it. This image was engraved with each shovel full of effort. He courageously kept his sanity battling the traumas mental panics. Felixs psychological, emotional, mental and physical fatigues were far beyond the diminishing capacity of physical reactivity that differentiates fatigue from exhaustion with its sensations of tiredness that may or may not be due to fatigue. His spirit and fears adrenaline kept his disorders from running off with random abandonment or collapsing into the dimension that talks with God and death. He tried to hide from himself, and fled to his mothers house, which was empty. He panicked when the maid returned and told him the police reported finding his brother body. This put sheer psychological hell into Felix, his mental state shifted, he ran here. Severe anxieties complicated by his guilt over his worst fears were now his reality. Felix started blaming himself totally, which put his emotionally unstable state on the verge of a complete mental breakdown.
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Help would require full-time clinical care. If he remained alone in his tragedy, the finality of events would deliver their heavyweight blows. The constant images would stimulate a personal hell. Inflamed psychological fragments in depths that set off undesirable response chains pushed on the door of a gross stress reaction with a major depressions chronic suffering. As Felix talked events out and the sedative took-hold he got into the bad part, which was the tread of guilt-laced logic that probably kept him sane. Felix felt Louis being uninvolved and unknown made him safe. His only apprehension came from past experiences with his brothers immaturity around money. He raged at himself for listening to Louis and not keeping Louis in his sight at all times. Instinctively, he knew Louis would party till he spent too much of his money and use vivo to rationalize his arrogances glorious indifference that lived his self-centered wants. Selfishness is personalized greed; the masqueraded norm of the spoiled and self-absorbed but when it involves other peoples money vanitized presumption is just stealing. So to have his brother take these dangerous matters with the necessary seriousness, Felix had told him most of what had taken place and with whom. He did not mention me treating Rubn because that was secondary. This was also the rationale behind seeking me out. I knew Louis revealed everything he was told. So whoever they were, they now had the full story and the disposition to hurt everybody implicated. Felixs seed of sanity was the need to warn. He was in bad shape and the warning was guilts sanity. When he could not find me at the clinic, he ran to Louises place, which was insight of El caf, so as not to involve anyone else. At Louises the concerned friendly faces without blame slowed his hyper mental state from developing into a major agitated psychological disorder. My observation was that the more he talked the less intense the developing problems. The extreme circumstances that pushed on his character proved how much ability he had, which was more than anyone could expect. The revelations compounded everything, which made the demanding wait for our associates a stress-inducing stressor. Felixs warning was successful and recognizing this strengthened him somewhere deep inside,
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which disciplined my mentalizing. Louise the ultimate seasoned adult, held knowledge built on the deepest private cravings. She witnessed the screaming depths of dark desires, buried behind polished social masks, but even with all her compassionate wisdom, there was no nursing this situation, only long-term positive tranquil time would mend Felixs condition. Roberto was sent for and the urgency of the situation had him running to find Rubn and Brien. This was the most critical concern as both were together on some business and were due back later. When finally located and told Felix was at Louises, Roberto said their reactions were instantaneous relief. But as he continued the story, the relief was just as instantly replaced with intensified concern at being the next targets of an ugly death. They rushed to Louises place; two streets away they separated, Roberto came straight in, while they entered unseen through one of her discreet entrances, away from any surveillance operatives view in the caf. In Louises suite, Rubn went over every word and sentence Felix used in explaining events to his brother like a surgeon. These were analyzed for content and complications. Rubn understood the nature of Felixs brother acting and reacting as he pleased not wanting to hear infringements. He just humored Felix with visual agreements, so he could get the money. Felixs overexplanation was an emotional plea to take this seriously. Louis would agree to anything but would do what he wanted, dismissing what was agreed upon. Formalisms strict detailed social and verbal standardization fed elitists conceits. The enculturation of these rigid conformity obligations put superiority/inferiority in every form and level of social interaction, which triggers egotistical presumptuous. The habits of ignorance reign due to the vanities of superiority because the need to learn, whether asking questions or seeking assistance is seen as indicating inferiority. To Louis, his big brother was just talking story to scare him. To disprove Felixs exaggerations and confirm his machismo, he show who was in control by stopping for a well-deserved drink. Self-centered dispositions dulled concerns as alcohol invigorated his decisions. He probably became friendly with strangers who easily manipulated his
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vanitys insecurities with bought drinks. Each person has a tolerance level; one drink past that quantity and the alcohol takes over. This makes ones weaknesses the only things supreme. Louis security became lax because to him all responsibility and culpability ended upon triumphantly exiting Felixs house. Rationales are any convenient assumption, which gain substantiation with each presumption. The professionals only had to feed his vanity to get him to join them. He went along full of himself to a painful death, another sad example of inappropriate vivo as inconsiderate self-centered activity. Here the possibility to hurt other people from egotistic decisions and selfish actions was too real, to rationalize away or disregard. So, evil had the whole story that made us vulnerable prey to unknown predators. Rubn organized Felixs departure to the island for his safety. We both felt that our pursuers had no more interest in Felix. By having this information, their true objectives would emerge. The next move was evils, and tortuous murder was only a vehicle to an end. We were forewarned; therefore, prepared for the moment of confrontation. In the circumstances, Brien and Rubn decided to rent out Louises place. This secured the immediate future till events worked themselves out. Louises house was a safe place; big, roomy, patrolled by cooperative police with secure entries and discreet access from various streets, through cooperative neighbors homes, whose rents were on her payroll. These preparations were for her clients protection and were very advantageous for us. Roberto, Rubio Roy and Quiquo were not named, so messages were sent for them to come over immediately. As they arrived, the circumstances were explained. Quiquo, together with a few extra reliable men from the icehouse, covered Louises with more protections inside and out than a royal harem. Brien and Rubn had Roberto as a bodyguard at a discreet distance and Rubio Roy roaming nearby. Nobody was going to grab them without a gun-battle. They decided to keep up a vigilant normalcy. To hide would cause others to be tortured in the pursuit of them. Great men and women do not desert serious commitments or flee unavoidable challenges. These are what lifes preparations and self-respect are about. Difficulties overwhelm mediocrity and terrorize the fearful;
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the waits of difficult moments reveal an individuals power, the actions and reactions expose ones true essences.
Psychodramas Losses Generate Ripple Effects With Tidal Wave Proportions

A couple of mornings later, over coffee at the caf, accompanied by Toro and Liliana, our conversation was interrupted when Rex walked in. The soft-lighted impression was she had the deepening beauty of the night. At the piano, she played a selection of short pieces and finished with a couple of delicate originals. Then with a sweet smile, she just left without a word. Toro said she comes in the morning and plays, then just leaves. Her playing was so good; he and Liliana rearranged their Another victim of daily schedules to share some special time. Liliana under the developed eye of an aficionado of sculpture must be considered a classical Tropical-American beauty. Chiseled facial features and an athletic body from regular physical activity were highlighted by the rich contrast of black hair on the tanned color of health that gave form to her radiating inner beauty. Toro was a mans man. His wife was definitely his partner and equal in every meaningful way while emphasizing the sharing joy in each others unique styles, abilities and talents. Grandfather, I thought Toro was strong and macho. No, he was a great caballero. Caballero machismo has an achievement currency, where respect is given by being earned for deeds accomplished. Whereas macho masculino, the ideal of total masculinity, has affect-loaded arrogance and vanitized beliefs that are driven by illusions and delusions. These false beliefattitudes at their worst are affirmed by coerced acknowledgement. The cultural characterization of its normalcy is stereotypical reductionism. Image machismo devotees always overcompensate for their ignorances weaknesses and inadequacies against the most defenseless. The denser the macho masculinism, the more ignorantly insensitive it is. No one talks of this difference. Where did you learn it?
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Clinical experiences deductions have a hard rawness unpolishable by the bending hollow words and the bent ideas of rational lies. The treatment of too many victims of instruction as educations inabilities and psychological problems that dismiss the womens participation in living and the sexual sphere opened my mind. Egocentric selfimages projecting sexual appeal or wants that any womans resisting their irresistibleness and all knowing has an element of psychotic denial in the male reactions. When the preposterous does happen, its perceived as her abnormality. Consequently its dealt with by the true abnormalities. Traditions must grasp sexuality has two participants and any decisions made involve both, not mans immense vanity as virility. Men do not comprehend the womens fertility cycle; much less sense the cyclical hormonal influences or the mindblindedness sustained by arrogant stupidity towards the most important person in such lives. Unconfronted cultural issues like the question of force, as maleness, released upon conditioned female vulnerability are due to the functions served in sustaining the social order on the domestic level. These issues are publicly avoided because traditions of ignorance enforced by social customs of acceptable violence authenticate and reinforce the sociocultural agendas that produce role fillers. Excessive verbal aggression and physical intimidations pathetic self-gratification serve the pitiful needs of serious psychological disorders. The superfluous dramas of sanctimonious ignorance and povertys extensive frustrations are the most burdening conditioners that impair psychology with symptoms exacerbated by mood altering situations and consumptions overlapping influences. These failures of comprehension produce the all-too-common forfeit of innocence because children suffer with their mothers. Emergency room realism defines acceptable behavior. Victims and casualties suffer the cultural norms of traditionalized abuses. Society lacks appropriate responses to the many harmful ruptures from dated social customs and status quo suppressions where knowns are kept unknown. The cause of the seemingly uncaused. Womanhoods socio-bio complexity is only less than the earths biosphere and the universe itself.
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Life is Expanding Energy Directed Purpose Generates Its World

When Brien heard about Rexs recital, he wanted to start our days at El caf because it would be both a good safety precaution and an early warning, if anyone did not show up. The next couple of days the little audience relished the opportunity. Kathryn joined us and delighted in the casual companionship out of the limelight and definitely enjoyed talking to Liliana, who was probably one of the first Tropical-American woman of personal substance that she had engaged in quality conversation. Such pleasure was apparent; you could see the connection of deep recognitions and the mutual respect upon which self-confident people base instant friendship. No petty jealousy or interfemale insecurities projected between these two selfassured women. After the others left for their days demands, Liliana talked frankly with Kathryn and openly in front of me about womens dilemmas. Liliana said, the greatest poverty is negligent educations poor vocabularies; no new words no new thought. The under-educated have one word for twenty things while the educated has twenty words for one thing. Limited vocabularies operate at full mental capacity, fully engross barren minds absorbs partial-knowledges faulty behaviors. Kathryn added negligent attitudes have a devastating predisposition toward unknowingly embracing limitations and pursuing acceptable failure. Relevant understandings are the key to unlocking victimization. Kathryn responded, knowledge is control. Beside the stupidity paradox the less you know the more you assume you know, the mind is tricked by the vaguely recognized as known because it sounds remotely familiar due to the ambiguity of limited vocabularies and undereducateness oversimplistic reductionism. So listening stops, which ends any understandings because poverties under-developed memory process has nothing to remember as nothing is retained to recall. Presumptions dismissing assumptions.
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Kathryn then asked Liliana what helped her the most? Learning not to take things overly personal and emotionally. Emotionalism is about reactions and volume is not virtuosity nor does intensity bestow legitimacy. Emotions distort circumstances, amplify behavior and confines options. And for you? Grasping the extensiveness of the philosophy of pessimism. This blanketing negativeness stems from pessimisms perceptions of worsening gloom and the worst can and does happen with the accompanying traumas of every failures drama giving emotional validation. Pessimist embraces failure with a twisted logic that prioritizes the attainment of failure to prove every fear is correct no matter the loss. Pessimist functioning for the worse has an unconscious conditioning that pursues pessimisms failure as living. And asked what stood out for her. Toros calm harmonious nature took the scare and the created-drama out of daily events. This showed how emotionalism and psychodramas deepen misdirected feelings. Few situations are simple where interactions are highly involved because the ramifications of bad conduct and personality disorders make normality into psychodramas. Kathryn said the connections of meanings, motives and causes are the wisdom of modern functioning. Intellectual maturity and psychological intelligence differentiates and assesses meaning, motive and cause. Liliana said a wonderful part of Toros love was the calming mental habits of thinking through all important matters and subjects, which automatically replace confusions flashing patterns of scattered emotionalizable thoughts, whose response habits are conditioned to the language of ignorance. A calm center is a rational strength that prevents complications. Change requires losing the self-restrictions on the possible. Living smart takes utilizing ones memory because it saves on wear and tear. Memory and reflection take learning habits that facilitate ideas and thoughts. Investing in yourself averts the costly setbacks and harm from the acceptance of repeating the same mistakes due unrecognized
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variations. Whereas those under-educated emphasize the speed of performance and instantaneous gratification where feelings dominate. Kathryn touched Lilianas arm and laughingly said Toro has the patience of a saint and a great mans wisdom. Liliana put her other hand on Kathryns arm and said, Sister you have no idea of the days invested in explanations, where the words used were dissected into the art of conversation. What I have come to realize is the greatest conflict in relationships are the differences in personal development. Kathryn said she admired and respected Toros love. Liliana said Toros beauty is his confident enhancing openness that furthers all. Kathryn squeezed Lilianas arm again in affirmation. Lilianas covered the hand on her arm with her hand again and said, we ultimately figure out life by what feels painful or right. The emotional pains suffered in the maturity process are endurable because of the strength its knowledge bestows. Toro opened my eyes to the ideologue keepers of stupidity. For me, and now Kathryn, we felt the respect in love between Toro and Liliana, a partnership of shared positiveness built on mutual trust and self-respect with the enriching apperception for the rewards of understood differences. Considerate behavior and compassionate comprehension nourish lifes deepest, most complex and usually most difficult endearment, personal relationships. This intimately interrelated but separate entity stands by itself, the us of love in daily living. Lifes dance is the felt harmony of a relationships connections that fulfills the scope of the lifes satisfactions.
Dysfunctional Conduct Dysfunctional Heart Dysfunctional Lives

Very early the next day Liliana sat quietly self-contained until Kathryn came-in and sat next to her. By the time the coffee arrived, the
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conversation picked up with the intensity of the day before. Liliana said parents are wonderful, but their human frailties are overwhelmed by the constant strains of what Toro calls the masterdoms raw ugliness that produces ignorances desperations and poverties simmering anguishes. Dysfunctional living undercuts psychological balance and damages the spirit of those entangled. My parents drama of deceptions pushed emotional buttons to justify and satisfied disorders. The slightest perceived impropriety triggered predictable emotional overreactions, severe mood swings and reflexive antagonism. These persistent neurotic psychodramas had private audiences to personal hells. They produce psychological handicaps and emotional devastation. While the constant fear of physical violence and uncontrolled intimidations harden sensitivities and condition disconnections that leave deep psychological scares. A frightening realization was these psychodramas of aggressive vindictive rages were masochistic sabotage, whose pain and suffering validated the compounding neuroses accumulated psychoses. This abnormal emotional entertainment to escape frustrating lives of too many fights, too many problems and poverties inescapable boredom had a sensual arousal, which was a sexual arousal. The psychological screams release emotional culminations pseudo-orgasms. Kathryn commented that Lilianas dilemmas and realizations had a sad similarity, which made the females common occurrences and cultural terrain seem to be the consequences of premeditation at the source. The variations come from the influence of the lack of basic knowledge and habits-of-ignorances dumbmentalizing. The sum and substance as youths and conclusions as adults were similar, victims of dogmatic constraints condescending attitudes and imposed weakness. The immense tragedy and loss to individual woman and womanhood is being defined with a genital vocabulary in the terms of masculine culture. This vocabulary causes society to have a total disregard of the female without reference to men. Male culture reflects command structures mass-produced one-dimensional existences with its pessimistic submissiveness and costly indiscriminate generational complications. She then asked what helped her the most? Toro raising my self-confidence (the quantity of self-reliance), and
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self-esteem (the quality of personal worth). To him, escaping all the oppressions imposed limitations required personal investments to gather and apply the knowledge of and for self, which starts with making personal time and learning to relax deeply with oneself and the events of daily living. Seeing clearly re-evaluates the various triggers and thresholds of excitability, which affect actions, reactions and inactions. Grandfather was that the vocabulary used? Honest intellectual formulations take into account the world as it is. My responsibility is to intellectual integrity not exact wording because effectiveness is the main priority. Vocabularies are the main vehicle of empowerment and the shorthand of our intelligence. Verbal inaccuracy and partial truths are communicated stupidity. Ones explanations lay-bare the explainers intelligence and project the character behind the perspective. Perspectives, explanations and extrapolations are the references of ones current existence. They are revealing character sketches, as is the working of ones intelligence. But the truest character is the personality revealed when gain or losses are involved and real intelligence is how an individual is engaged and the worth produced.
Art is the Transference of Knowledge

Liliana had never been out of Panam but she spoke the international language of thoughtful intelligence. Her social elegance was from a mature outlook, the melody of exchange between sophisticated people. Wisdom recognizes and shares appreciation for qualities effort and accomplishments. Lilianas awareness knew Kathryn needed to know. Her motivation was respect. The deductions from Lilianas comprehensions and the general background material for female survival and couple dynamics in this ultra-traditional male dominated culture filled in many important blank spaces for Kathryn. Seduction got a lot more difficult for the Dons projections with every insightful thought expressed.
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Within a few moments of finishing, as if on cue, Rex entered with sheet music firmly in hand. She proceeded to play Coplands classified jazz, abstract pieces of Americas essences. My favorites were El Mosquito and El Salon Mxico. The shared enjoyment was seen in Kathryns radiating happiness as Rex joined us. I mentioned that her morning recitals were refreshing. She said, music expresses her feelings when her thoughts are in transition. During the fabulous morning that followed, the table conversation jumped around from people to places with interjected facts and observations only a coeducational tertulia, the marvelous Spanish tradition of cultured entertainment as social occasions, where enthusiastic inquisitiveness is bounced about in a witty humorous manner, could produce. The group talked about the robbery and discussed the inevitable war in Europe with its many facets numerous effects. The ladies voiced their intellectual sparring abilities, not whispered appreciations, which made for an enriching free flowing conversation. Rexs perspectives carried the penetrating insights of cosmopolitan sophistication that had the holding force of the well thought-out. The subject turned to the latest addition to Gregorios modern art collection that was slyly scattered about the caf. His understated style placed his pieces in unadvertised spots, quality noticed because the eye was always drawn to them. The newest piece was a group of three mobiles, hanging above the barstools, which had a coordinating movement with the patrons beneath that formed a complete presentation. I admitted the piece had captivated my enthusiastic inquisitiveness. Mobile are dynamical space-time dimensions for the movements of change in the moments of life; stimulating vehicles for the observers projections and conceptualizations of human psychologys subtle composition. Dangling elements influenced by the slightest external force, like a personalitys mood swings that sway from the lightest breezes of living that provoke varying responses. Cubist mobiles are kinetic sculptures of integral symbiosis and simultaneous fluid uncertainty with perceptions of flowing arrangements in multifaceted combinations. Lifes fluid focus of perspectives is the relativism that stimulates the individuals creative dynamics. The focal movement distinguishes the
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uniqueness of the observer-object; focal flexibility frames and amplifies lifes intellectual compositions. The flowing reflections of interpretive movements capture projections that announce our mental state. Intellectual projections weave a broad individualistic eloquence. The components are episodes of experience when examined they reveal histories. Seen from afar, the elements merge into a mosaic depiction, the subject-object. Rex said mobiles were the flowing dances of existence. This piece captured the delicate complexity of the human personality and asked its title. The artists title was Inner Man; I called it the Mobile of Perspectives. Rex in a soft challenging tone asked me what had I concluded. Actualitys abstractions are a fragile reality. And Cubism? Modern Art has many schools of visual perceptions. Cubism is not imitative or a vassal to representation, but the art that deconstructed the historical visual perception into an essence of perspectives, conceptualizing a creative reality using elemental components. Twodimensional images on the retinas subconsciously merge conceptualized in the mind of the observer as completed threedimensional objects. Cubism, like living, is perceptual and conceptual. Vision seen and images felt are relative to the pure tendencies of cubist creations, a vibrant art that reveals the viewers psychologically colored views. Cubisms visual representation of multiple simultaneous basic components and essential perspectives captures the intellectual in images. These interpretations broaden critical philosophy using advanced abstractions and visualizing the tools extraordinary of our century, analysis. I used Gregorios two pieces that were placed on the office stairs wall; one is an Analytic Cubism piece that disassembles the object as close as possible into the key components of its underlying basic forms. The other is Synthetic Cubism, which builds up a recognizable image from abstracted underlying elements. Cubist portraits are synthesized co-creations, autonomous reflections of essential abstract images and essences; these recognizable elements
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dramatize existences reality. Cubist collages are compositions of insightful impressions, whose synopsis of basic components build out fluid conversations of reality from within the restricting frames of the preordained. Arts freedom of expression in the 20th century advanced humanity with inspiration, individualized interpretations, multiple perspectives and altered perceptions. Comprehensions and influences in seditious intellectual contrast to classical monoculturalisms singular-view focus and the oversimplistic horizontal perspective. This would have made Gregorio the art connoisseur, a radical freethinker in orthodox terms. The diverse selections expressed the psychology of and in art. His placements were the contemporary existential realities. Rex smiled into my being when she said the true cubist self-portrait captures the underlying, so be cubist wise because the pains inflicted unveils the masks worn. We broke-up on that thought provoker for the pursuits of the day. At the Goose, my curiosity had me ask Brien about why he did not pursue Kathryn. As a performance artist, she had too many demands from her arts priorities, not counting her cosmopolitan clarity. These held her attention more than adventures of the moment. There had to be much more to her love than excitement, no matter its sources. Her level of quality meant a man must be committed to wake up before love each morning, so he is awake and alive to fully share her wonderfulness; I can barely sleep. Brien changed the subject by mentioning Rex in a neutral way, as a quiet beauty that underplayed her intelligence to see who took notice. Kathryn does. And you. My emotional uncertainty changed the subject by mentioning that Rubn was not pursuing Kathryn either. Brien said the relationship was too special to Rubn. To use Rubns words a unique gift of a pleasurable artistic treasure that he did not want to lose in the quick sands of his emotional swamps.
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Rubn had explained to him that arts discipline consumes, which makes the ballerinas beauty and grace, unattainable ideals and musicians journeys to artistry lonely. Performance artists demand long lonely years of disciplined practices methodical pursuit of perfection. Art opens the aspiring masters to the enlightened solitude of their creations, where patience searches deeply within dreams of shared space for pure artistic connections. Their deep intimacy had its own profound desires and satisfactions beyond any ancient Necessitys urgency.
Philosophical Ideologies are Political Pretense in the Historic Present

Modern arts cast an enlightening perspective on the historical agendas conceptual prisons. Art opens the mind; its evolution of thoughts expands personal philosophy and human consciousness by giving order to nebulous mental vistas and chaos seemingly non-connections. Modern conceptualizations enhance contemporary existences multiplying connections and seismic changes, which are the dynamic forces of the evolving sociocultural complex. My conceptualizations are a mosaic of perspective that evolved over the years from experiences facts-of-life and eclectic attitudes. What emerged were tiles of perspectives with their own intellectual histories and hues in alterable arrays of focal points established by maturitys fluid flexibility; each focal point brings a change of scale that introduces new phenomena, thoughts and behavior. New conceptualizations have fresh implications of evolving wisdom. Mans dominating conceptualization is humanity. Humanitys single difference is linguistic. Languages are medium of expression made less adequate by indifferent words that emotionalize responses. When words are spoken indiscriminately without consideration for the influence projected, there is a lack of maturity and respect.
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Experience Changes Perceptions and Perspectives

So conceptualization is more than imagery? Imagery is a picturing; conceptualizations are an individuals originating and comprehensive representations, a concept packaging of less is more. Cultures and societies are built on shared imagerys perceptual relations. The received perceptions of ideological images imprint the established psychosocial psychology and social priorities that arrange the cosmetic functioning on existence. Ultraconservatisms formulated perceptions are ancient; they emanated from the Greek Gods on Mt. Olympus. These Gods were authoritarian and repressive, while the Old Testament God was vindictive and merciless. All commanded human existence with mandatory obligations, purposes and obedience. Basic human needs were given a fundamental structuring using the logic and philosophy of Greek philosophers from Pythagoras to Plato with Plotinus words used in the Bible to describe God. Challenging knowledge and insights are stated in isolation or within agendas context, where the subtext determines applicability. Traditionalisms public theater maintains the accepted by partial truths presented and represented as inviolable, given and closed. These status quo stratagems obstruct the instability of superior interpretations and modernizing perspectives that are the bases of individual conceptualizations. Socio-realities are compelled interpretations. Psychorealities are intelligence tools. Bio-realities are evolutionary wisdom.
Bureaucratic Despots Rule by Coercions Cohesion And Dictate to Constructed Vulnerabilities

Brien mentioned with the weariness of business disappointments that he had a recent inquiry that seemed serious about an aerial photograph job. Such a paying project was an excellent solution to get his concerns off the mental roller coaster of our predicaments. Although things had been notably quiet and uneventful, tension keeps a tight grip.
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The prospective clients requested some examples of his work to be brought to the meeting. The potential client knew he was doing some high and low altitude shots of the water storage system for the Canal. The importance of this opportunity to him demanded the best shots possible to establish the business concept. Because we had more than enough, the solitude of a long flight on a beautiful day was for therapeutic clarity. In the air, we stopped talking and gazed out the window into the high blue. The horizonlessness reflected our thoughts. Early the next morning, Briens aerial photograph presentation took place in an upper floor office of the Pan-Baltic Bank. He left for the meeting carrying a well-selected portfolio, a good representation of possibilities for various potential projects. In due course, he arrived in a positive mood from good preparation and a salesmans optimistic confidence. Upon his return, our hellish episodes explanations were surreal. The what and why answers were secondary to the questioner. Brien said he entered the prospective clients office and was immediately asked for examples of his work. With full enthusiasm, he displayed the photographs. Then a well-dressed man that everyone was intimidated by entered and studied the photos and in an authoritative voice stated reality. Brien was what he wanted, but the nightmare was not what Brien wanted. The meeting was a set up for blackmail with unspoken threats of a painful death because powerless people are alternative-less pawns. Power is appliable force that cause effects and gets its wants. The leader was an arrogant Nazi official from the German Embassy, masquerading as a commercial attach. He had two well-trained human attack dogs present for physical intimidation, violent intellectless types anxious to demonstrate their canine obedience training that reduces status to a compelled reflex. The Nazis reasoning was accented in threatening seriousness, as the monologue was dictated. The man in charge mentioned the various participants in the gold robbery but became specific with Felixs brother details. Shrinking options of prison or death predetermined Briens decision to take the money. Briens experience let the Nazi continue undisturbed; he needed time for some parallel thought. He knew these first critical moments would set the
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credibility needed to survive this deadly entanglement long enough to save himself; it was not the obvious choice, but being convincing enough was the primary concern. The Nazis intelligence staff from the embassy had long monitored the work of the Belgium arms dealer in Panam. He was a known Republican sympathizer and small-time supplier from local contributions. When an informer in the munition factory passed word of a large order for the anarchist contingent and when the original order was doubled with a gold prepayment, he came under full-time scrutiny. The Nazi officials in Berlin wanted the specifics behind this contract that was concluded as having been paid for by a wealthy unknown group of Republican partisans operating in Panam. The extent of propagandas penetration and reinforcing web of influences was learned the hard way. Self-satisfactions recognitions with the generalities behind the obvious stops further critical thoughts probing, which is propagandas victory over the educated. Propagandas opaque confusion and our emotional blinding hatred on Franco caused us to miss the obvious; the German high command was in charge and bureaucratic follow-up has different priorities. Munitions supplied by these foreign morale boosters would kill German soldiers fighting alongside Francos army. With the European manufacturers contact and delivery details were known, Berlin would take measures to disrupt the shipment of weapons. The Nazis command ordered a complete report concerning this group of well-organized anti-Franco supporters operating in Panam to determine future capabilities. The Nazis official here had to investigate this unknown but well-financed enemy that put Latin America sentiment on the Republican side. The Nazis had tortured the Belgian to learn what he knew. Tortures excessive efficient works so well no matter the goal it retrieves the details assumed. Neither the Belgium nor the banker knew much, which confirmed the Nazis desires that this was a group of dangerous professionals. Authoritarian bureaucracies survive and prosper off of enemy proportionality because they have the means to materialize the desired from expensive trivialities to worthless excesses. Truths, like
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idealistic amateurs, endanger the bureaucratic manias and occupational pretenses theatrical exaggeration. This was why Brien stated he was a mercenary among amateur idealists to keep the belief-attitudes from getting more out-of-hand. The Hitlerite in charge had an understated aggressive formalism that causes over-concern towards the boss because he likes to hurt people. This bigger desk functionary had to establish at-will domination by emphasizing the Nazi dedication to efficient execution and Briens vulnerabilities fatal consequences. During which Brien deduced the few missing details and the primary reasons behind this charade. Briens description of excessive correctness and formalist conceits covering psychotic symptoms was humorous. He called this person Herr cabrn and saw him as more dangerous that a typical mediocrat with bully mediocritys darkest delusions because he was a vicious powerzealot with a megalomania disposition. He is deadly enemy and you still have a sense of humor. Hes a disordered Philistine, devoid of imagination and triumph in the trivial. Another power hungry delivery boy of his subjugation marching orders whose existence requires precise authorization up and down the Pavlovian chain of authority. Dont personalize; recognize the real enemy from its agendas objectives, retaliatory obligations and its executioners needs not the subjugated subjugators, who are systematically overregulated. Nazism is just another authoritarian dictatorship by an organized band of armed men seeking fear-based command-control in the rigid mindless tradition of absolute obedience. The Nazis have an exaggerated ideologys enabling fiction, whose technicians of manipulation engineer highly calculated identity perceptions for effectiveness. Contrivances from intimidation to psychotic surrender bestow hygienic images for the functioning disorders and idiocy of the followers. All ideological entrapments follow the fundamentalist format of scripted thoughts from irrefutable rational-lied conjecture that always have a venerated belief in serving some sacred mission. Contributory psychologies and controlled influences suppress the broader worlds deeper experiences by expertly conditioned denial, social exclusion
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and regimentation that utilize those involved affective disorders and vulnerabilities fears. Brainwashings unconditional acceptance defers decisions to higher authority where occupational conclusions set the results, not what is right. Herr cabrns training was controlled schizophrenia. His deadly abstractions made no distinctions between constructed illusions and reality. His too-sure adherence and mastered refinements of perceived perfection somehow authenticated superiority, but only concealed the disorders we will need to utilize. Brien, arent we overdetermining him? Overdeterming is a compliment, evils beyond determinable. Too often, rational aloofness and correctness misses the proximity of evil and underestimates the immediacy of danger. Herr cabrns plan called for every intelligence detail and to probe how extensive the USAs security network was in Panam and the surrounding region. The official after-action review revealed Briens spectacular potential value; an established aerial photography operation was the perfect espionage asset of the highest military caliber. The Canal is the Western Hemispheres transportation shortcut, which eliminates the need to sail around all of South America. This route saves at least a months sailing time, an incalculable strategic asset for the fleets moving the men and the materials of war. This hyperbolized the importance of the Canal and the spy operation. Briens service was an as-needed collector of pertinent strategic intelligence on the defense and preparedness of the Allies strategic inter-ocean shipping bottleneck. His position was non-replaceable more important and valuable than guns and gold. Rubns misdeeds were insignificant. Brien was a career maker so no effort would be spared to own him. Brien was a career bureaucrats dream but an autocrats nightmare. Personality traits easily overlooked by occupational greed because the espionage potential justified a fully funded project with commands entitlements and top-mans perks. The strategic information from supplying a steady stream of pictures on the Zones defenses carried
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familiaritys rapid promotions because the supplier had direct connections to Berlins inner circle of power. Brien despised Herr cabrn because he saw the human waste and tolls from adult efforts for evil goals. To Brien the psychological composition of Herr cabrn was far more uglier than aggressive mediocrity. This bureaunazi intimidator was mean-spirited as all zealots are, but his amoral greed derived disordered gratifications. A powermonger using evils nonspecific dread with its psychotic reactions to perpetuate his perverted disorders, which feed off of the pains inflicted on the induced disadvantages of the compelled. Painful psychological brutality and cruelty are perversions that confirm the dispensers as a torturer.
Later Doesnt Work Good Timing Starts Early

Brien was a fast thinker. He determined the missions priorities and deduced his participations value. Every ambitious careerists reasons for involvement reduce to greed and disorders needs; these are well prioritized before any idealism stated in public mottoes, selected euphemisms or patriotic slogans. Briens countermoves started with the expected reactions of these bureaunazis inquisitors to encourage a nonviolent recruitment. He exhibited concerned fear and submissive inferiority because authority figures disorders respond to displays of personal degradation and personality disintegration. The hierarchical pecking orders psychoses are excited and fulfilled by demonstrations of humiliation from the compelled because psychotic perversion satisfies the neurotic superiority of authoritarian culture. Briens responses enhanced the presumptive wants that also fed their acceptances continuing revelations. Authoritarianism is a direct derivative of despotic absolutisms, whose extremism descended from the Dark Ages barbarism and the reign of divine rights primitiveness with liege-siege mentalitys priorities and unerring methods that impose decreed circumstances. So, Brien had no
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real choice. He had to buy himself all the security conceivable to avert a premature death. He had to subtly exhibit interest in believable ways. The options reduced to incarcerations psychological tortures slow permanent damage or immediate death. The Nazis were present tense, do or die. The threat of jail was a theatrical intimidation ploy, to test Brien and obscure their plan. They needed a convincing commitment to protect their operation in Panam or hed leave dead. Brien saw them as decision executioners and assessed his position on each powerful attack from the priorities of the results desired. He understood dominations working logic, which applies whatever forces are required for the goals desired. Especially, barbarisms purposed madness with its security prisons dungeons that eliminate the unwanted and the evidence. This knowledge made him strong facing their powerful attacks. He explained to me, how he acted hesitantly, and then asked with a tone of greedy intent what amount of money was available, for the risks and dangers. Reluctantly accommodating but for an ever-increasing amount of cash that was pushed-up with practiced proficiency. He knew his value was beyond money. Personal greed supplied an explanation for his actions they understood, to enhanced credibility he mentioned his isolationism. So the work was not treason because the USA would remain neutral in another pointless European war. His calculated submission rendered him acceptable and his greediness confirmed their needed conclusions because greed hears only its wants. Functionaries perceive from the institutions dehumanized mentality, obligatory categories and ethically desensitized morality, which are qualified by medieval-minded belief and stereotyped comprehensions. After the credible acceptance of the inevitable, Briens next selfpreservation necessity was to create a delay. He needed time to affect his possibilities from the non-options decreed. One of his cameras arrived damaged, so he played this ploy. They thought he was lying because the photographs presented were excellent. He explained the camera was
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knocked around on landing. They telephoned for an embassy technician to check his story as two attack dogs escorted him to retrieve the camera. When they return with the camera the technician examined it and concluded a few small parts were needed. Brien mentioned the closest and fastest place to get the parts was in New York. Herr cabrn demanded the details, so a courier could obtain the parts immediately. Briens ploy corroborated his cooperation, which bought time and got some crucial initial credibility, this avoided the standard occupational paranoias from getting nasty and ugly. During the questioning, they asked Brien about my involvement in the robbery. He fed them a false sense of my liability, from my treatment of Rubn to being involved in the financing and planning. This distortion matched their suspicions, which made me defenseless to blackmail. As Brien explained, it was now their operation. He had to embellish my involvement because he felt crucial decisions were being taken based on his answers. In the heat of dangerous circumstances he had to guarantee my full cooperation in a creditable way. My future as a potentially dangerous liability was being determined, my vulnerability to being blackmail was the deciding factor. My photographer position was important but precarious because a vacancy by murder would give a Nazi the job. A psychological moments clarity released a grateful appreciation. His situational awareness and the scope of his minds functioning on so many levels so well, and in such threatening difficulties changed my easy paced intellectual focus. Brien was structuring autonomy, not negotiating. He involved me into a more complex predicament to gained time, which was a calculated risk, not an answer. Continuing to stay alive required the time he bought. The powerful positions in authoritarian bureaucracies require a psychological mentality that unquestioningly accepts the end-justifiesthe-means apologia with compelled control and killing the most efficient means. The fanatic is identified by no compromise attitudes. These bureaunazis epitomize secular fanatics with their dedicated employment
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psychology and rule legitimizing mercenary values justified and anointed them because institutions morality of convenience always have a fervent devotees higher calling. Commands security reasoning is antiseptic, any functionaries would eliminate Brien in a second with the forethought of flushing a toilet. Subjugators require constant affirmation that taking orders proves, while assertive actions get noticed, which leads to reliabilitys promotions. Sanctioned misdeeds guarantee job security; the bonds of guilt assure future protection by the direct connections to buried skeletons. To escape alone would become a rationale to enhance security by the Nazis that would leave a completed chain of tortured deaths. If Brien chose to run, we run together. Just the sound of the names of those involved registered the events as too complicated. To fly away immediately, and take our chances was an open possibility, but we both knew it carried too many ifs. I asked him what he wanted, which was to reverse the situation and use this opportunity against these psychoverts. Focused hatred is dangerous. His state of mind was past these Nazis disordered needs; he felt the evil inhumane core in this beast of racist ultra-fascism. He gave me a brief outline of his plan, but the decision was mine. After a pause to synchronize the moment, Brien asked me about actually wanting to be involved. Time was required to think this out better. Brien told me to take my time but to keep an open mind. He had a crucial meeting at Colonel Owens office and if he went along there was the possibility of an interesting solution. He asked me to wait at the caf and not leave until he returned. Then he raced off in a projected focused intensity. Gregorios empty office made the wait solitary, while calming large single malts gave my brewing hatred some directional control, as emotions pushed the borderline of acceptable behavior. Moods changed as the clock startled my attention from within simultaneous parallel time, the psychological time that rushes and consumes as clock time passes. Emotionally driven confrontational images inflicted painful barehanded deaths on excrement humans. Adrenaline pumping muscle tension from premortal pleasures swayed my body with every thought of vanquishing
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men that are so evil. When Brien finally returned, he saved me from the hell of my violent psychology, as he told me the new status of our dilemma. He apologized for the rudeness of the abrupt departure and for leaving me hanging, because the meeting required that he be there alone. His concern was the mere perception of my involvement to the colonel. Official logic assumes guilt by suspicion, which my presence would authenticate. If Briens conclusions were not accepted, only he would have the legal difficulties because the colonel would know nothing about me. Guilt by association is a social deathwatch to any reputation. To Brien, public reputations were vanity illusions that meant nothing, but what friends knew meant everything. Officialdoms abuses are social wreckage makers. Whether by direct confrontations or indirectly, by legalistic woundability, laws loadability or by accusational publicitys substantiation-at-will. Institutional weaponry also includes the swords and shields of mediocrats desperations and mediocritys inabilities. Brien knew the military mentality had to accept the deal logically, but one mans logic is another mans sin. What goes into an organization comes out their baby; those at the wheels of power make decisions that steer the subjects course of action their way. Fortunately, real realism prevailed. The intrigues value avoided the consequences of shortsighted politics. So much so, the colonel signed on to Briens plan instantly, knowing the higher-ups would get on board; such individual initiative at critical moments is noticed. His adrenaline-enhanced clarity ran through the details of both our strategies and objectives. These carried unconventional sets of priorities with the key being the power to exit at our discretion. In the fluid process of success, flexibility is the continual adjustments to altering complications within the usable time available. Brien said theres more to everything than well ever know; so, we should take nothing for granted because nothing is irrelevant or what it seems. He also said not to judge, just notice and assess because warnings are subtle and any surprises or emotional confrontations would complicate matters. He said we had to be anticipatory and forget about responsibilitys accountability with these groups; they are the law. Complicit agreements
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between authoritarian institutions establish the militarys web of command-control with its shared cores of mutual purpose. His efforts bought time. The opening allowed more reflection for critical decisions, an ally that enhanced possibilities. We deduced the informations few missing details and set in motion a far-reaching counter-strategy. Seeing clearly organizes and sequences plans. All decisions restrict options. Our enemys officialdom had at its disposal well-established and unlimited resources with the authoritarian cartels blank checks on power to obtain the desired. Brien was locked-in and fearless; his wisdom jabbed me hard. He said our intellects could balance the odds against us but mine needed serious restructuring.
Conformity Pursues Uniformity Uniformity Compels Conformity

The next morning on the tarmac, while Brien went to order fuel, my reflections on the situation gave me a clear sensation for its correctness and a personal strength of conviction. During the long wait for the fuel truck, we had an opportunity for a needed conversation. The takeoff would move us on to the next group of participants in his scheme. This group required him to convey the impression of me in the background, an unintentional participant, a victim of circumstances from Good Samaritan actions. Brien wanted only one person talking during any risky exchange because it was the most optimum strategy. Position relegates answerability, so in this situation the speaker stands out as chargeable, a distinction Brien wanted in order to maneuver events. Brien stopped our walk and faced me. In a serious voice with a look that held a deep connection, he said our protection and survival is first and foremost, so trust no one or believe nothing, especially where greed or disorders can gain. Never lie between us, hold nothing back, no subject is out of bounds and forget self-consciousness, its a fools concern. Surprise from a lack of preparation would prove costly. We had to react advantageously toward the others parties priorities and stratagems both enemies and allies. Otherwise, the possible outcomes were the product of the decision-makers
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limitations, so we had to determine everyones motivation and vulnerabilities because failure had fatal consequences for us. He outlined the situation and background from the other participants perspectives, which were to be our reference. We had to read roles and dispositions like an open book because the deductions were crucial. In rigid societies, rationality is standardized stereotype conformity, while formalisms uniformed functioning structures conventionality for everything touched. Chauvinistic sectors are quasi-political directorates, the executive centers of decisions, whose massive organizations of influence obtain the appropriate responses. Official culture sets the course of societys normalcy and priorities with regimented self-serving effectiveness. This social ordering has serious implications that make any unawareness of it or about it both as an adversary and ally a critical disadvantage.
-Isms Absolutes Dictate Conformity -Ismites Semi-Absolutes Compel Uniformity

Brien said preached noble striving and unfailing medievalist attitudes subjugate individuals worth below that of positions and roles function. Millenniums of unchallengeable military institutions have made the social conscious totally complimentary and contributory to militarisms philosophy of Power. The systematized stereotyping and conformity responses are developed down to the coded perceptions, messages and expectations in the advertisements sewn all over the uniformed uniformity. The military attitudes are cynicism, aggression and powers ambitions. The social values these generate are so inbred by commands demands for rigid conventionality; its perceptions and categories are portrayed as the only rational sanity, worthy of adulation next to money. Its so encompassing were conditioned to feel proud when it destroys to sustain itself. This ultra-institutionalism sees compassion or moral concerns as undermining threats, whose proponents are viewed with hostility and unreliability.
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Doctors are credential vulnerable; a doctor maintains a useful and controllable civilian position susceptible to commands rewards or punishments. Say and discuss nothing, otherwise your soulful comprehensions will be labeled cynically. We must influence their assumptions wherever possible to influence their decisions. These military men must see you as a malleable unintentional victim of circumstances. Consequently, they will project social bonds to draw you into their groups confidence, a phony social ploy because outsiders follow instruction orientation or pressure. You will be expected to influence me, a social deviant, along some disciplinary straight and narrow that guides their medieval servitude on human propriety. I mentioned cynicism is just a self-reflection of pessimism. Formulated salutes and verbal genuflecting to superiority exist mostly in the expectation of personal arrogance, which are always minimal and despised because exhausting daily activity machetes the greater world to the immediate effort. Yes, thats my point. Your perceptions are blind to compliances profoundness. Every form of elitism superiority entitlements and structured privileges inequitable outcomes are sustained by ideological rigorists paranoid functioning. Authoritarians see individual self-confidence and independent living as archenemies. Any uncontrolled actions that authority assumes wrongly or merely misunderstands are dangerous. The officials mindset to all perceived threats is simply to apply subjugation techniques, whose effectiveness carry destruction or dead. Belief-attitudes morale certitude justifies all, especially for mediocrity and irrationality. Truth-convictions adherence collars and the restrictions leashes of conformity validate superiority by inducing inferiority, this conditioning of intellectual poverty negates constructive criticism. The habits of ignorance are inherent excitability, so every serious discussions turns into an argument between those experienced and rigorisms beneficiaries; so, keep your mouth shut, nod earnestly and flee appropriately. I asked him to explain. Acknowledging my not knowing cleared my mind and focused my concentration.
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Authoritarianism constructs and ingrains a contributory culture with obedience beliefs that defer decisions to the unanalyzed perceptions and hyperbole of authoritys superiority. Commands vindictiveness and every mans many agendas are minefields, so avoid projecting into agenda inabilities and the setups for confrontations to learn more. Powers greed and despotic desires are the merciless extremisms that curse humanity. Militarisms prioritized social ordering is cloaked by societys many colored uniforms. Each a cult of power, run by hypermasculinity with rigid indexed categories of ascribed roles. Authoritarian organizations function with predictable uniform behavior and conformitys mutual expectations because each is a cast reproduction of the original military model. We cruised for a while in our thoughts far above the Canal. Briens plan carried drastic changes with demanding mental readjustments to survive the challenges. During the slow moments where urgency is lost, my thoughts realized the commitment required and revealed a man unprepared for these deepening levels of entanglements. Events had unfolded rapidly with multiplying involvements and dangerous complexity. Listening to Brien helped my needs and the delays gave me some breathing space to grow.
Job Sincerity is No Substitute for Integrity or Nobility

Brien put the seaplane down next to one of the islands in the middle of the 23 mile long Gatun Lake that comprises the center of the Canals waterway. The seaplane skimmed along the surface of the water. It slows somewhat before settling into the water, but still hitting the water at 60 mph is a hard impact. Colonel Owen was at the dock and ordered the guards to moor and stand watch. He then escorted us to the main cabin. On the walk, he gave a general outline of what to expect and some seemingly unconnected details missed in the rush. The hurried walk brought us to the Canal Zones military staff in a
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pleasant cabin, once my emergency operating room, and now our operations headquarters. Here the counterplot thickened. Briens meeting with the Nazi spies was discussed in detail, except for the reasons of his being bound to blackmail in the first place. He was thanked for his patriotism but these officers knew the facts in detail, specifically the criminality. Professional manners and social skills express admiration by showing teeth as a smile and a firm handshake as bonding. Behavior that lies somewhere between annoying and irresponsible because it was so obvious. Official survivals professional honesty knows what particulars to avoid mentioning in front of potential witnesses, which were not us. Office politics will disclaim prior knowledge of Briens flawed background if the plan goes wrong. The official excuse will be his unreliability caused the failure. Insiderdoms code of silence underwrites career insurance for peers, those interacting classes with shared sentiments. Authoritys supremacy is absolute. Substance is an expedient secondary. Commands paranoias ploys of influence and political theater are scripted to pass all blame downwards, until it reaches the defenseless. Image enhancing subordinates are rewarded, while blame is assigned to conveniently reassigned aides. Such would be the fate of the one, whose dereliction of duty was not to have investigated Briens background more thoroughly. Institutional performance obscure ambitions varied motives and careerisms years of climbing over rivals. This makes the filtering on the selection ladder of officialdom soiled by the blood that institutional psychology extracts. Career terminating consequences make plausible denial a reflex mechanism and loyaltys silence a promotions code of conduct. The intensity of defensive posturing is in decisions involvements and confrontations engaged. The conceits hidden by formalism obligate mastering the rules of engagement because of the dangers in the dark egotistical conflicts of careerist politics. Offices are the ultimate killing zones; pens are the deadliest weapons. The robbery and its reasons were meaningless. Officerdom interpreted the Spanish Civil War as prescribed because true believers and ambitious employees are the first victims of propagandas effectiveness,
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indoctrinations receptiveness and trainings conclusions. These highranking officers administered their authorized duty areas with the utmost propriety, while their political skills master career matters and budget affairs. Beyond occupational expertise, generals and admirals are normal men with adult incumbencies and time constraints on diverse priorities and lifes events like everyone else. Dont confuse the office, position or title with the man
South America is a Few Hours Flying Time from Southern Texas

The Canal is the Americas strategic bottleneck. As the maps were rolled out, the vulnerability of the Canal due its inherent design features were blaringly obvious. The Canal could easily be put out of commission in many ways. Both ends of the Canals proximity to the open ocean put most critical structural components within easy range of any aggressors naval guns. The locks and narrow entrance channels were easy blocked in a variety of ways from simple sabotage to the most serious, blowing up the dam, which would empty the Canal of usable water. Even the antitorpedo walls at the entrances were far behind their completion schedule. International events with strategic implications were intensifying and this meeting brought the future home full-force. The paper preparation of contingency plans, by the Army, for every conceivable possibility was staggering, but the facts were insufficient equipment and resources. Disrupting the Canal could add years to the war because repairs to any major damage would be hampered by the lack of machinery and materials due to the war efforts many other priorities. The only realistic security was preventing an attack. Briens involvement was crucial in deceiving the Nazis about nonexistent preparedness for the defense of the Canal. Japans militarism was constantly mentioned in the same context as the Nazis. The full implications from these unfolding facts generated some monstrous scenarios. There was going to be an all-out coordinated joint service effort to give the impression of superb security defenses.
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The plan called for the appearance of appropriate preparedness and stores of equipment in the strategic staging areas with fortified positions and impregnable security perimeters placed around potential sabotage targets. The offensive component emphasized long-range reconnaissance airplanes and naval patrol vessels, both surface and submarines. Early warning and powerful interception capabilities would give the most advantageous protection: discouragement. It was impressive watching these professionals serve a true purpose. Wars an all-consuming event, not a political positioning or newspaper debate. This was a preliminary bout. Failing in this operation could seriously have an impact on the coming war. The consequences were too immeasurable if lost, and that was not going to happen with this leadership. The discussion gave a menacing world vision and the scope of strategic maneuvering by the different sides to gain advantageous positions was an eye opener. My lack of serious thought on this war across the globe was a social embarrassment that keeping my mouth shut stopped me from exhibiting.
Emotionally Self-centered Thought is Not Thinking Its an Aberration of Thinking

As the inter-service needs and wants were discussed in growing detail, the conversations lost significance for me. My concentration drifted to watching the focus of thoughts and the thought process. Thinking is choreographing the intellect; an organization of developed abilities to obtained and generate more knowledge. Too often most efforts at thought start and end with a problem(s). This restricting intellectual habit makes living a mental rut of compressing anxiety, stress and fear. Unfortunately, people call an assumption a thought and the responses to worrying thinking. While the first one verbalized becomes an idea to be acted upon. Undeveloped thoughts are mental aberrations of simplistic presumptions or shallow impressions, which sets the emotional direction and behaviors that carry thought-stopping opinions. Psychological composition directs the mental processes. Many
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intellectually lazy people live for the occurrence of their problems. Difficulty gives their day a perverted meaning. Problems validating identity as meaningful existence is self-centered worthlessness, the foolishness of poor-efforts constant failure. Problems are not personal but emotional reactions to them have contagious behaviors that are taxing and destructive. The mental habits of personality disorders and arrested development limit every endeavors potential gain and obstructs mans most precious personal assets: enrichment, enjoyment and pleasure. Prevention is gain without waste, a major accomplishment in success. Managing problems that are preventable is incompetence. Prevention requires admitting previous errors because the humblest admissions of inadequacies create greater knowledge and builds character; key factors in individual success. Applying the insightful knowledge earned from past experiences have continuous rewards and prevents the loss of wasted efforts; this effectiveness enhances the next opportunity. What epitomizes opportunities experiences? Lifeventures are survival exertions in the random conditions of uncontrollable environments that makes participation demanding, punishing, fatiguing and very dangerous with impartial death an unavoidable companion. These differ from high-adventures, which are demanding, punishing, fatiguing and essentially dangerous activities but deaths participation has a controllable element due to more survival decisions.
Survivals Morality is Defined by The Tolerable Order of Self-interest

The meeting turned onto the subject of photographing the canal. The whole Canal Zone is five miles on each side of the 51 mile long waterway. Shooting it correctly was going to require a concentrated effort. The acceptance of Briens ideas by this group and the growing significance of the Goose were music to Briens ears. We were now under everyones microscope, and we carried the plans success on our shoulders. The crucial concern was not blowing our cover,
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which meant keeping up social appearances for complicating involvements. Briens and the good doctor had to maintain our normalcy, including the social flaws. Any new or uncommon changes, even unfamiliar associates could be viewed with suspicions uncontrollable conclusions. Consistency would avoid tainted impressions that would diminish the credibility of the planned stream of false intelligence. The primary goal was influencing the perceptions in the minds of the policysetters, those original order givers in Berlin, not the information gatherers in Panam. The officer in charge requested to see the camera equipment, which he knew, was in the airplane. This office excuse for a private discussion also gave us a useful moment. During which Brien said, the military culture measures everyone against its own inhibiting narrow performance tolerances that maximize the minimum. Military indexing only knows an indexed inferioritys social order, whose adhesiveness is delivered by its arsenal of intimidationcoercion domination weaponry. I laughingly agreed and added selective privilege often has psychoses about them and mentioned his performance was excellent. Still, his relaxed vocal presence and lack of deferral made them uneasy within their ritualized roles. It keeps their concerns on our reference points unpredictability not my subtle positioning moves. Youre beyond their social orders psychology; too challenging for a restrained lifetime of rewarded conformity, so a negative label stops any comparison that could cause serious philosophically selfevaluations. Behind officialdoms professional facade of social acceptance are many personal agendas that will label you a common crook to avoid intellectual respect, dismissable as necessary, tolerated as useful, but disposable by worth. Actualities denied confirms formalisms rite of rank, which validate more than authority. You are a fast learner, and I am glad we are working together. The purpose of uniforms is as a visual syntax, whose persuasive messages simplify existence for those accepting involvement. Uniformed
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functioning effectiveness is to the lowest common denominator. This first gear mentality slows things down and permits commands inabilities to manage the status quo by the proven. I mentioned change and the new showcase both the talents and inabilities present. That motivates the hated. At the end of our slow walk back, after he gauged those present, he said be patient and quiet. I sensed his confidence. He knew the various motivations objectives and our real value. Brien was intellectually ahead of everyone including me.
Personal Harmonies Come from the Comprehensions of Experiences Perspectives

As the details were being discussed, Brien let the theater of rank stage the show; he interjected points here and there to engage the groups attention. Awareness manages the moment and executes from the assessed worth in the moment. His had a symphonic sense of timing as he patiently waited until the professionals talked themselves out. So later, image greed would not claim credit for his proposals importance and value by omissions ploys that would diminish them in any way. This protective insurance also covered possible actions by subordinate delivered aggressions to redefine reality, which is a common habit of unchallengeable power. The closing pauses growing silence indicated the end of the meeting. In this instant, Briens raised his hand, which took-on the focus of a conductors still baton, as the general recognized him. He got the groups full attention. Brien asked if they had another minute. Then, in exasperated unison, their weight fell back down into their chairs. Brien stated in a firm voice, If this works in Panam, why not use it in other strategic positions around the region, this would extend the perception of the ability to project military power at-will? Not just to feed the enemy, but to fill them with systematic false intelligence.
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The key was to have the military get Washingtons national corporations to use their foreign operations in strategic locations to supply aerial photograph contracts. These cover stories would furnish the reasons for operating close to strategic geographical and military sites that could be photographed clandestinely. He visualized an enemys perceptions of preparedness from a continuous surveillance blanket across the region, centered out of Panam, which put those present in direct command. Logically, the Nazis would surmount a strong but underplayed effort toward this work. Briens first suggestion was to have United Fruit as a future client with its operations in Costa Rica, Colombia and Ecuador, these would cover the Pacific approach to the Canal. His other suggestion was to use Standard or Shell or a large independent in Venezuela for the southern Caribbean approach. He envisioned signed contracts and retainers deposited into his German bank account, within a short but reasonable time frame. Let the Nazis put the situation together after the money enters the Germans bank. Berlin will piece together the big picture. The officers smiles lost their office face with their appreciation of his ideas. These future photographic projects held added intelligence value with this group and assured us a longer term of personal security with the Nazis. The importance was confirmed when Brien mentioned reliable maintenance was needed to the officer in charge, whose enthusiastic response was no effort would be spared. Later, Brien said when things are going right and benefits cost no one, that is the right time to push for as much as possible, which is smart business not greed. Legitimate opportunism is far different than greedy deceit. Any wasted opportunity or mistreatment of trust are failures of the intellect. All participants profit in good business, whereas in bad business something or someone is taken unfair advantage of, so compounding profits from repeating the accomplishments are lost. This factor is the biggest loss because repetition of what works accumulates the largest gains the quickest. The dedicated entrepreneur is an opportunist for building successes.
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Entrepreneurs are Creative Artists in the Genuineness of Economics

Briens seemingly impromptu actions were a seamless mental ballet that demonstrated his conducting while acting. His manipulation of so many serious and experienced men was accomplished by presenting originality; options beyond what these officers visualized. His creative idea enhanced the whole project. The realism of self-interest was further augmented by the rewards of greater achievements, which also cut us a lot more slack from presumptuous oversight. The idea would have eventually surfaced but later carries lost time and extra cost. Brien had the plan right and the timing perfect. The ability to imaginatively expand past moderate capacity and caution utility by reinterpreting dilemmas into workable prospects of possibilities is the hallmark of innovative thinker. Obtaining adequate payment for utilizing abilities takes experiences knowledge that is gained from overcoming copious mistakes and constant shortchanging by the adherents of greed. Demonstrated inventiveness and mastery of multiple talents applied with a directors skills are the abilities that make the entrepreneur the marquee artist of business, a talent-driven calling.
Experienced Knowledge Sees the Premeditation

For a conductor, the tempo is the key in choreographing the dance. Brien knew the timing controlled the performance and set the price. The original Canals watershed contract was renegotiated to photograph the whole Canal in low level detail for the Army. The unfinalized price was now layered deep with espionage value that the Army had to meet because the contract money was to be deposited in his German bank. As army intelligence looked into the possibility of procuring future contracts, Brien would ask Herr cabrn if there were German companies that could utilize aerial photos. I felt this was dangerous because if Germany companies were used, we would risk more exposure. Brien assured me this was real important.
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Without exception, his conversations were opportunities to be maximized by projecting potential, not the submissive role of the weak victim of circumstances. The legacies of serfdom are many, but the saddest is the social attitude of a subject submissively accepting greeds meagerness with absurd gratitude.
Silent Partners that Command Compliance Arent Partners

This was a one-time project. The paychecks end with the job, which had no previous pay scale for reference. The renumeration is set by negotiation. When the general in charge pulled Brien into a side room for a private meeting, Brien bargained astutely, maximizing compensation for the effort, experience and dangers. Brilliance in this realm takes quick discernment and perceptive salesmanship. He was consumed with maximizing each phase of the various negotiations. He was charging appropriately by evaluating the market and needs. Calculating worth in this unique situation required experience. These abilities were the summing of awarenesses in time frames, which determines the price of worth. Briens financial renumeration was determined by the total commitment demanded from a lifetime of survival exertion to the complexity of entanglements. He explained to me having been wronged too many times before by public executives, bought advantages and the legalistic cabal. Men rewarded for existing successfully, so he had guided each innuendo on the forays on compensation. He was a true capitalistentrepreneur, those economical creators who bring forth commercial activity and gain from innovative ideas and the originality in the uncharted mist of the quasi-legal. Yes, but this time true national security is setting the agenda, not the usual self-interest motivations. He replied overall, but public concerns can be bought and legitimate incidences have their own history, both are used to secure powers objectives. Our real concern was the habits of the institutional culture doing something stupid because this matter was beyond their field
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of normality. Officialdom imposes its desires, which carries all kinds of consequences for those below and on the margins. Pray-tell. The authorities are the source of bad decisions with public repercussions that its whitewashing institutionalism goes to extremes to deny. Powers inabilities and avarice practices exist. Whether the legitimizing authority continues to do more damage than the violations of law cause because the benefits to bloating the bureaucracies involved override the greater social cost or the abuse of mediocrity squeeze for promotions from imposed no-risk silent partnerships to institutions unethical cash flows. Authoritarian bureaucracies are crushing citadels of power that are draw irrefutable fluid-lines in the sand, which can easily put us on the wrong side at anytime.
-Isms With Political Ideologies Structure Executive Entitlements Everyism including patriotism has ismites
Briens bs was bureaucratic shit, the historical constants of aggressive bureaucratic-centered assumptions for self-serving conveniences. This official arrogance is analogized as bullshits bs, a coin of reference for a bulls power to shits where it pleases; the problem is where and whats excreted. Brien refused to fall into autocratic decided decisions, which means a good deal is what sounds good to the giver. He would not allow his payment to be dictated by appointed officials from distant realms whose comprehension of market value and other financial considerations are beyond the best intentions of the best public-sector managers. In institutional compensation packages perks are the currency of position. So compensation is never fully understandable due to subsidized living including social services and entertainment, these distort the bottom line. Many things like automatic appointments to tuition-free military academies for the qualified son of every senior officer exist on a
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need-to-bases and never appear as income. Complicit agreement with indulgent public-sector accounting procedures cloaks the bureaucrats perk-filled gross wage with strategically publicized perkless base salary scales. Propagandas over-reaching perceptions of ultimate danger and self-sacrifice inferences make any compensation seem insufficient. These PR perceptions keep the artificially low compensation unquestioned. While the political philosophy purpose of patriotism is to rationalize good, with good that causes suffering and pain, patriotism is overcontexted with affect-laden sentimentality that disguises personal agendas. When moral indignations cannot hear rational discourse, youre dealing with chauvinism not patriotism. Professional patriots are compensated very well when the value of promotions uncounted rewards and enriching perks are included. Brien knew our efforts cost and risks. These established the true market value. The price was fair and with the pumped-up unmentioned price that the Nazis were paying, money became secondary. The Germans willingly paid as motivational greed, to keep Brien content, under control and producing. The Army paid because it needed him even more. Brien was writing the checks; they were just signing. Grandfather how do you see the militarism and the military? By recognizing western militarism roots are in the political power wielded by Empirical Romes Officer Corps. Centuries of general emperors and political pets facilitated military-class dictatorships that used empire-building to set a compliant social order. Military bureaucracies are the demigods of society, whose conclusions determine existence. Official intrigues and PR scare campaigns obscure these massive public enterprises of private gain that function with a siege mentality and an obtainment idea of success. The militarys present economic model is a guilded cage in denial over to the true cost of misappropriated social investments and waste of contrived profiteering. Military attitudes must modernize away from blood-and-guts expenditures to brains-and-brawn investing in the most effective strategy, prevention. Productive peacetime and emergency missions are golden opportunities for the militarys mobilizing and
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organizing efficiencies not military readiness distractions that need contrivances to justify.
Biology is Sinless Laws Perversions are Transgression Law Enforcing Greed is Evil
The historical legacies of despotic absolutisms reigns are institutional infallibility and finality. Social literacy evolved from questioning the uncaused causer of the supposedly arbitrary and the random nature of events and things. My social attitudes have examination room authenticity from the painful consequences of status quo density and mediocritys uselessness, the inability to make better decisions. Briens social attitudes came from comprehending PR and grasping real politics. He saw the social orders hypocrisies with its administrations sanctimonious self-servingism, as repugnant repercussions due to opportunistic greeds parasitic living off of its authority. He felt any premeditated injustices like taxation extremism that squeezes the useful and unjustifiable states of poverties essentials for the unnecessary or complications due problem profiteering are acts of inhumanity. His social literacy recognized the who gainswho loses effect shows what it is. Unaffordable law procedural corruptions serve-up the powerless to the sacrificial altar of pretense. He saw laws greeds as elitist conjecture replacing constitutions, heroes and humanitys values and ethics, which are abandoned for expedience as serious social transgressions. So being judged and held to strict adherence of such legal mechanism is meaningless, and legalisms demands for ever-more laws traps living on judicial flypaper.
Read Policy Law and Certainties Labels For Agendas Deceptions and Objectives
Brien lived his potentials and worked hard on his intellect and state
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of mind tenaciously. The scope of social awareness had cost him most of what he had more than once. His expensive legal perspectives were knowledge only a fool wouldnt learn from. Justice is a business that held no relevance. He said our best protection was to interpret from our recognition and forget the law with its idolized image of ethics among bestiality, idealistically projecting blind justice to all. Laws are arbitrary concepts from a directed socio-political system, so motivated interpretations overshadow the greater claim of ethical justice. Profiteering is validated by judicial bureaucracys justice, which sets entanglements and purposes criminality. Enforcements selective applications shortcomings and obscure agendas are why the authoritative bureaucracies are lavishly financed and enforcements hypocrisy aggressively supported. Lawmakers are policy-setters and the bureaucracies paymasters. The lawgivers prejudices and ambitions make it difficult to be uninfluenced by the ravenous ways of special-interest and the command of the powerful minority within the majority. Such factors make idealistic perceptions of law dangerous. His social literacy on law was dont count on the law unless you got enough cash to buy justice. His primary social wisdom was organizing your life with the power to exit and only count on yourself.
Status quo is Acceptance Stagnation is Silence Communication is Progress

Seriousness is a perspective shift. Eduardo required explanations of events without all the details being expressed including the need for an open-ended holiday. He demonstrated his character by not questioning the holes in my storys logic and the unstated importance. True partnerships are far more than the sum of their parts; its a ride with unlimited potential due to the efficiencies and advantages of personal trust. Trust is a rare, fragile and remarkably valuable human treasure; an enabler only a fool destroys. After the conversation with Eduardo, I left for the caf and sat alone
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in a quite moment over an afternoon coffee. During which my thoughts were captured by the profoundly sad music of Consuelas at the piano, the change in one note can alter a piece from joy to sadness. In focused silence with downcast eyes, she finished singing two hymns and exited immediately. Her inspired sound was so downhearted and melancholy; a deep emotional release choked me. The mail ship from Spain had called at the port with both her brothers last letter and the saddest message a loved one ever receives, the Heros Letter. The official notice from her brothers commanding officer told that he had been killed during a major battle in his war against social injustice. She had known this was coming since the day he left years ago. Her anguish was griefs soliloquy. The next morning even before climbing out of bed, my first thoughts raised a sense of obligation to see her. So, the first stop was a visit to her house. She welcomed me in quiet calmness. Over coffee, we talked and her mood lifted. She opened up and her pains retreated for the moment. She wanted a fresh pastry from her local bakery, during the walk, I mentioned that no one seemed to have heard of her brothers death. She did not want people to know until some time passed, as the pain was singularly between her and God. Religion helps us to behave well toward one another and to be brave facing lifes string of tragedies; her Spiritualitys strength was the nucleus of her being. Now was too early with both her parents recent deaths for strangers expressing words of condolences. To her, these rituals of sympathy seemed not to connect, which made her uncomfortable. The incidences were constant reminders of her loss, not a consoling interchange. She just wanted to quietly complete her acceptance of her last family members death in her own private way. She handled this ultimate sadness in her most conformable way. Time will desensitize her enough to be touched by the shared sense of deep loss from others, whose similar pain would be a calming connection for her spirit. Preoccupied with uncertaintys implications and daily intensity made me intellectually nervous, with quick responses that are never my best thoughts. I was far from a calm thoughtful companion that she needed in
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her mourning. In a conversation with Gregorio, we felt it would be best for him to visit her in a day or so, just to make sure her situation was going along without complications because lifes tragic misfortunes induce depressions. What is Spirituality? To me its a Beings potential realized; the excerpts of religious teaching left after the institutional agendas and sociocultural obligations are recognized and discounted. And potential? Potential is reaching every last point.
Conservatism Optimizes the Status Quo Modernism Optimizes Progress

Rubn had minimized his performances to spend time with Felix on the island. Consequently, his schedule was very loose. The first night back in awhile, he caught my eye at the front door and signaled me to meet him in Gregorios office. I pivoted immediately to evade being socially tackled. The anticipation in talking to Rubn built during the walk around to the icehouse entrance, the bright tropical darkness cleared my mind because the smile given by the icehouse guard was the first noticed in awhile. Rubn arrived promptly and we shared a drink, while filling him in on the details of the latest. The information demystified recent events and answered many loose troubling concerns that had been anxietizing him. The new developments needed time for interpolation, as new chapters opened. He knew from my tone that our days were hectic with many more ahead. We were being pulled into a deeper quagmire with confined maneuvering room and no lights at the end of the tunnel. Rubn was concerned for us but had confidence in our ability to succeed and offered his services in anyway required. He was furious about the Nazis torture and murders. His intensity had the cells in his body burning in an internal rage that created controlled explosions whenever the subject was touched. His sensitivity and highly chargeable
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dispositions were lethal combinations, whose overreactions took effort to contain. I humorously mentioned to stop beating his personality up with his emotionally driven intensity. Which when spoken became a cowarning to myself because anger and stress aggravate the other conditions present, which carry worsening psychologically malignancies. He seemed to be hardly listening. His emotions were driving. The Pacific plans were discussed and the probability of going on to neighboring countries and Venezuela. Positive subjects to get his mind into his logic and out of his affect-laden emotions. His overemotional reactions wanted to kill Herr cabrn now, but he controlled his emotionalized body-mind sensations from overtaking his rational thoughts. He knew we were working together to keep the coming world war out of the region and any act of revenge could kill Brien and myself. He got some perspectives and calmed down. For Rubn, this was not to say his heartbeat was normal. With his mind focused, he questioned me in considerable detail about Herr cabrn and his two attack dogs. The information had him thinking and pacing Gregorios office. We share another drink and he let the band play on without him, a normal occurrence during his celebrity liaisons. Rubns concerns were about the Nazis here and the Armys perspective on Panams precarious position. He asked me to clarify certain details about the spying and the various plans. Now, he had a better picture and wanted us to be safe first. He would wait for his revenge because he understood the seriousness. He controlled his emotions; his emotions did not control him. There was an idea for a plan developing; his smooth politeness and not wanting to say anymore gave it away. We organized the communication channels between us in case of emergency and then separated.
Personality Traits are Interpersonal and Intrapersonal.

A few days alone and undisturbed were needed for my mental health because events and demands were moving beyond my comfort zone. In the darkness of the early morning of a second restful day at home, my
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attention focused on observing the thinking processes not the thoughts themselves. Lifes greatest adventure is lifes shortest journey, the travels in the mind. The greatest challenge is mastering the arts of the intellect and peace of mind. These require a frame of mind that honors solitude and the deepest listening. Observing my thoughts revealed ceaseless mental activity to have ritualized mental patterns. Constantly recurring and persistent rehashing of thoughts are usually motivated by anxietized insecurities. Mood disorders have an element of these repetitive behaviors stimulated by specific events in normal situations. The short-lived acute levels of arousal and emotionally charged desires are common because people indulge themselves in pleasures of physical sensations. People do not realize these experiences reinforce the response chain that lock in habits. Habits are learned patterns of repetitious activities that become automatic and reflexive due to the rewards. Disordered thoughts dominate the intellect without self-management. Attempts to resist compulsion produce increased tension and anxiety, which are only relieved immediately by giving into the behavior. Actions and reactions are strong indicators. Obsessive-compulsive reflexive reactions have insecurities involved somewhere. The subject and worries are the attendant sense of anxiety, whose habitual repetitive reactions develop into mental patterns with behaviors. Impulsive actions seem reflexive self-gratification. Obsessive a driving craving and compulsion the repetitive compelling behavior of having to have. The strangest repetitive sequences are thought-loops that follow ones mood, this emotional conjecture and circular reasoning of unthoughtout thoughts use languages vast flexibility to generate notions of different thoughts. Finding myself, dealing with the same concerns in different languages, then putting them into mathematical formulas was the indicator of a need for a more appropriate self-management strategy. Ones mindset and physical setting have powerful influences because of the sensitivity of trigger responses to numerous layered susceptibilities and vulnerabilities mingle into tangled weaknesses. When anger, anxieties and stresses are continuously stimulated, the interacting complications are the waiting room of disorders and illnesses.
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Emotions and self-centered thoughts overwhelm the mental process and swing ones mood phases, which are often projected opinions on biochemical cycles. When we identify with them and react with feelings and responses, we block out reality. This mentalizing susceptibility in pressurized daily situations feed upon increasing stresses and unrelieved physical tensions. The consequences of continuous personal battles accumulate in lifes unrecognized semi-permanent fatigues. Resolutions and solutions must be sought out, not avoided by cheap thoughts and cheaper behaviors or the overinvolvement with the mechanics of problems. Priorities organized for resolutions and solutions start with labeling the type of thoughts one has precisely, continually if needed for the thousands of times necessary, until the thoughts begin to quiet down. This focused effort acquaints oneself with ones self and reveals how ones mind functions and its effects. Personal success is seeing clearly and recognitions awakenings, which the balanced perspectives of maturity utilize in the challenges and trials of the day; these have no emotional-thoughts one-sidedness. Acknowledging both weaknesses and strengths are positives to build upon because self-sustaining confidence evolves from realistic effort. Small positive steps break the strongest negative spiral. Positiveness counteracts emotionally self-centered thoughts and aberration of thinking, which drags one around by the circumstances. Meditation follows thoughts riding the calming rhythms of long smooth breaths and the pauses in between to the thoughts, motivations and involvements recognitions. Awareness essence blooms from deep silences recognitions, which arise when the mind settles down after the psychological noise has ceased and the ego isnt. A frequent reminder to an allusive realization is emotions and logic in the brain function with the exclusion of the other. Emotions grasp supporting notions but they seem to disconnect memory. Awareness recognizes the prevalent influence on the thinking process. Confusion is the individuals costliest tormentor. Confusions disorganized disturbances have many fathers that swirl in every psychological wind. Mental states are manageable with intellectual maturity and emotional intelligence using therapeutic techniques; these take a
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commitment to personal honesty. Awareness reads actions and thoughts. Carrying a calm center and deep silence into actions are the truest empowerment.
Relearning is Intellectual Adjustments

After my time alone, a long walk in the beauty of balmy weather allowed me a conclusive reevaluation of the situations and options with a sliding set of weighted pros and cons. It was a long slow walk in the night that lasted until dawn. Life rides our continuous decisions, not problems; the words are often mental counterparts but are not interchangeable. The problems ahead would be plagued with perplexity and peril, which needed good decisions. Any emotional reaction or emotionalized thoughts would make me my own worst enemy. My conclusion was that we were safe into the near future. Rubn left word; he had gone to visit Felix, another supportive mission of compassion. The latest news would be very helpful for Felix, but Rubn knew not to mention too much about the next chapters. Potentially dangerous, even chancy possibilities would induce anxieties, which Felix did not need stimulated. He needed complete rest; not news that inflames compulsions repetitiveness with the same paranoia dressed in new clothes. This was important because Felixs nature was excessively sensitive and he had adjustment disorders from destructive impulses to immobilizing emotional reactions. Conditions complicated by emotional grief and his introjection of blame, which trigger personal guilts selfadministered punishment. Guilt is a profound contraction of self. His hollow emotions echoed a moral masochism, driven by images of the painful deaths to loved ones for whom he felt responsible. He rode a wide-range of mood disorders but principally agitated depression, a hard and difficult anguish from the unforgiving elements of a dangerous adventure on a goodhearted novice. Each person heals from within. Felix needed mental rest, we all did. The passage of time is the best therapy because it softens the sharp piercing
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cutting edges of psychological pain. Only time desensitizes oneself to deep pains, by raising the thresholds of significance, which put distance between relapses. However, no one ever fully heals from such traumas. Felixs breakdown had some serious depression involved and those periods were difficult. My recommendation was to keep him on the island and minimize all outside influences including friends with their unspoken emotions and unconscious stimulations. The wrong piece of well-intended news might knock him down and he might never get-up again. Felix was truly a good man, whose positive outlook and basic human goodness would help him through this psychological pain. But you cannot rush healing time, only shorten it, by being in the perfect setting, like the island. He had been weakened psychologically and all this new entanglements could overwhelm him, in his susceptible condition. He had survived a psychological hell to get to his shortcomings that were now on the mend. My advice was to stay calm, follow his thoughts to their source and see the involvements clearly to reconstruct a stronger self.
Knowledge and Wisdom are Quite Different Things

The courier arrived with so much equipment, Brien could have open the best camera store this side of Hollywood. The photography supplies included a miniature spy camera that would help our security immensely because we could put the selected prints directly onto the small German film. This was a logical way for us to obtain an extensive number of photos from the hangars darkroom without raising any suspicions from Canals officials. Disappearing plates and too many prints would be too great an accomplishment; the quantity of success could raise questions and be risky to our credibility and dangerous in the run-on explanations required. Berlin would be scrutinizing the methods and selection process for particular shoots. This way we fill their film with a preselected arrangement of shots, letting them recognize the significant ones. Each roll would include a smooth logical pattern of amateur selected photos mixed with the colonels strategic choices. Our prefixed composition would allow
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the German professionals to demonstrate their deductive talents to our desired conclusions.
Violence Crosses the Threshold of Mental Illness

The Nazis used the overseas branch of a German bank for its espionage work. Normal banking activities have regular crowds coming and going. So, Briens account in the bank facilitated the cover stories for our operations because the German embassy was under surveillance by many countries. Brien wanted to establish a safe and smooth exchange for the daily shots, in a public place, where we have more security and few surprises. He wanted verbal exchanges to be kept to a minimum. This would keep the transfer straight and simple without the risk of overdoing; as well as minimizing the dangers from unthought-out rash answers to well constructed questions. We needed time to figure out our counter-moves for everyones verbally masked aggression. We saw the bank, as a menacing place where we could be held and sweated at-will. In a conversation with Herr cabrn, Brien mentioned that using the German bank too often might raise too much curiosity if the bank was ever recognized as their base. Totalitarian-minded autocrats design society so they hold all the situational advantages, so in these menacing matters even the smallest edge for us could be a possible lifesaver. El caf was the perfect place to operate from because it was both our base and a public establishment. It was bureaucratically acceptable because so many of them were there regularly and we could exchange the film with casual visual signals to rendezvous in the mens room. The caf also covered the reimbursements for long expense-account days. Upon Rubns return, we ran the plan by him. He was in full agreement but demanded that at the first sign of real danger, he could kill any Nazi close to him, involved or not. This was an excellent performance clause. We agreed that if the danger was that close, we would be trying to kill any nearby for our self-preservation.
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Rubn suggested we bring in unknown men to have complete security in the caf. We liked the idea, but first we had talk to Toro and Gregorio. Toro was alone in Gregorios office without a desk, just a magnificent tropical hardwood table and matching high back captain chairs. As a friend and gentleman who treats every man next to him as his brother, a long conversation explaining events was due him. Being filled in on the most recent details to stay on top of events is mandatory for intelligent people working together. Relevant information facilitates the best results for the many facets of any project. Details are the building blocks and trust the cement that solidifies all the advantages for individual success. Toro agreed with everything except Rubns idea of using strangers. He said the Nazis and other spies were here daily and knew the regulars, so new regulars might do something stupid and draw unwanted attention. The Nazis could make disastrous assumptions. Plus sitting around all day would be boring and intoxicating. He volunteered to do the job using his crew, which was even a better idea. He also mentioned we would have issues with too many friends later because after these incidents passed and the story was known our friends and workers would take any lack of confidence too personally and be insulted. Characteristically, upsetting the machismo, if we did not give them a chance to kill these racist bastards for Panam, emotions and motivations were past the point of bravado. The cafs Panameos were invisible to the culture-blind Nazis after being served once. The second time, non-German Latinos were just servants to them, inferiors totally dismissable. Rubn wanted Rubio Roy and a crew to cover the outside of the caf after dark, with Roberto as inside armed security. Most importantly, we had a tested and proven confidence in each other. Toro had Gregorios complete confidence and commitments extended by one were for both. The actuality is big success takes teamwork; secretive personal actions within projects are attempts to hide inabilities that grow the accompanying dilemmas, which drive costly behaviors toward failures expensive consequences. The moralizing stories of the lone thriving operator are novels by writers whose wild opportunities usually take place in comfortable chairs with time to construct elaborate puzzles.
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Rarely are depths endured confronting and overcoming uncontrollable urgencys constant complexities, where talents reduce all to the essence of the components and sequences of good decisions that yields achievements. Within days, El caf had been rearranged for our security and like everywhere else, speed cost extra. The restrooms were remodeled with a strengthened lockable door that had an occupied sign. My favorite touch was the verse in different languages above the urinals: Millions of Bacteria Live On Your Hands Wash your hands Even moving around the caf was now noticeably slower and indirect. Strategically placed mirrors appeared on the wall behind the tables we usually sat around, and the bar had wall mirrors up to just below the bars collection of paintings. These allowed a causal focused vigilance over the whole place. Tannia or Liliana handled our section on the sunset till we left shift. Our friends were protecting us. The stage was set. We were past ready. The pieces were in place and strategically positioned. All the delays gave the colonel the time he needed to move the equipment and warplanes from the staging areas in Southern Texas air bases. When Brien got the word he went to the bank for some cash and to report the Armys officer in charge of overseeing our project had finally returned. We would start in the morning. At Briens suggestion, our first rolls with the German camera were overexposed by one and two settings. Just to appear less keen, small mistakes would help our foes underestimate us. This incorrect exposure brought a technician out as predicted to pick up the second days film, which indicated they were developing the film immediately. While in the bathroom, the technician explained the error and how to rectify the mistakes. Soon afterwards, the technician receiving the photos was replaced by alternating attack dogs. The operation functioned smoothly, flying regularly using the big camera to shoot the military equipment shifted around the Canal Zone. Repositioned day and night, the paint on the warplanes numbers hardly dried. The photos made the Canal into a strategic fortification with supplies
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and men positioned in the logical places that military men would place them. The aerial photos of the infrastructure and machines of war made the Canal look like a well-armed fortress. The Navy rotated a variety of vessels on both coasts of the Canal; the Army Air Corps had a number of the latest bombers and long-range reconnaissance airplanes patrol flights fly low over the citys embassies regularly. The longer the patrols range, the earlier the warning and higher the possibility of interceptions. The deception process was now well documented, and Brien got the most from each flight. The colonel left Brien alone because his intense efforts were more than sufficient. The concern over the volume and speed of the photos being furnished too quickly was countered by routinely faking mechanical problems. The unpredictable and fast changing conditions between the rainy and dry seasons with the need for overhead light made for agreeable half days scheduling. We worked fast to build an inventory of work that we released in deliberate installments, which gave us control of our days and the immediate future. Blurred images were sent in regularly, seemingly from the airplanes movement, to make the work appear more difficult and us not too smart. After each flight we go the island cabin to develop and select the prints to be given over, then we photograph these using the German camera. Back at the airfield, we wait in the hangars darkroom and supervise the maintenance. Within a reasonable amount of time, we would pass the colonels guard a package of photos. Then we usually leave for El caf with our selections on the German film. A messenger with a check kept us out of the German bank entirely and the cash flow made the party flow. The colonels men were not watching us but were close enough just by watching the Nazis. There was a sense of being exceptionally awake, in a high state of disciplined excitement, without nervousness. Our friends were performing like a theatrical group, which minimized risk and predicaments. We were living a special opportunity and knew it. The groups integrity made this serious living a wonderful event. Applied intelligence maximizes opportunities advantageously.
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Stereotypes Make Glass Walls

My idealistic patriotism was at propagandas proportions. Unfortunately, an incident at El caf popped that balloon. The public image of institutions is constantly defiled by the real inabilities of its representative employees. Brien and I were involved with men executing precise strategies, to help save a democratic future, at a critical time in humanitys civil and political unfolding. We were embarrassed for all of them, when another member of the same military structure displays the worst possible social skills imaginable by sounding-off with rationalized ignorance to supplement an impotent egos crude existence. Rationalized ignorance is a combination of faulty social values and dysfunctional traits due to the limitations trainings rote learning. Tannia had an enlivening presence, amorous appreciations and graceful charm that captured and seduced you. She stirred the air with an excitement that lingered. The poems her smile infectiousness and her capturing personality cause us to miss the warning signals from a serviceman who strutted over to a table nearby. Tannia asked, Seor Jones would you like a beer? Its Lieutenant Jones! OK, you want a cold beer? Yes, make it fast and remember its lieutenant Jones. No! Its Seor Jones here, over there its Lieutenant. Miss, I am a lieutenant in the United States Army! That is a label, not a name. Is that the United States of Brazils Army or The United States of Mxicos Army? The American Army! Theres 40 some countries in the Americas with two USAs. No there isnt Besides the progressive domestic republic, theres the foreign imperialism version. We made you Panamanians. Millenniums of Indian America and decisive centuries of the
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Spanish, even the Africans were here earlier, yet the Anglos made us! Beliefs are firm opinions not knowledge. We still did. Isnt that a jingoism we? The United States of America. Your jingo dysfunctional, the uniforms transference neurosis hides a dense emptiness. You insult my uniform. Youre ridiculously stupid, government employees in matching work clothes are not heroes in bloodied uniforms. I am a soldier serving my country. You serve tables for tips. Yes, cash and laughs. You submissively serve desks a mere personal aid, doing yes-man servitude. Toro stood up from our table staring Jones straight in the eyes and calmly told Tannia to settle down. Toros threatening stare sent Jones a forceful message to shut up. Tannia was caught up in the rage of her frustrations, built-up from a lifetime of perverse male arrogance. Despising his baseless self-grandeur focused her fury. She pierced his worthless soul with the dagger of insight, saying his adolescent-mindedness is a social psychosis. Toro moved her backwards, but his actions inflamed her. She wanted no help. As Tannia said the word gringo covers too many losers she approached Jones. Within inches of Jones face, she slowly enunciated na-idiota, with saliva exiting on the last syllable. Toro pulled her back, as she literally spit out blanco idiota. Because Toro was an imposing barrier, the lieutenant was unable to strike out and hit her. Furious at being completely humiliated, Jones imploded and stormed out. A patron at the next table asked, what did the Spanish words mean? North American idiot opinionated ignorance. She heard everything in her rage and turned to the confused questioner and said, imbecility cajoling delusions of grandeur, then she realized the quality of who asked and said forget it! Youre just as socially illiterate!
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Toro told her to have a drink to calm down and not waste herself on fools. Yes, some cold water to clear away the patheticness of official pretense. She was exasperated from a life saturated with assumed female and racial inferiority and traditional superiority attitudes that are self-content stupidity. These embossed deficiencies embarrass sincere people because sophistication separates cause from effect. Distinctions are eliminated by oversimplifications significant sounding triviality and overgeneralizations complex facts in simple sentences; life without nuances and qualifications limits thoughts, directs conclusions and consolidates failure.
Psychological Prisons Hold the Visions of Conditioning That Deliver the Habits of Responses
Tannia stopped working for the day and sat with us. She talked about negative psychology as one of her favorite themes in literature because its such an instrument of response. The traits and woes of negative psychology enrich the characters and twist the plots, while its institutional use circumscribes life and calcifies evil. The demographic and psychographic categories of institutionalized culture indoctrinate a inferior them-and-superior us conjecture of existence that cultivates and supports the imbecility produced no matter what. Uniformitys psychological habits impose peer pressure complicity that causes credibility to become truth-convictions. Peers, who see mistakes, wrongs, or truth, say nothing under threat of social retaliation. Such intimations debase all involved. Conformity is the response of conditioned expectations. The effectiveness suppresses candor by repressing the personalitys independent expressions, which maintain and strengthen the postures and conduct desired. The key psycho-basic of performance attitudes is the first exposure that a blank mind receives imprints with the equivalence of being engraved in stone. When authoritys initial perceptions premise goes unquestioned,
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immediately the projections are embedded with the conviction of truth. While emotionally driven reasoning as validation reinforces the projections. This conditioning is difficult to change, even by accurate information. Regimented indoctrination and instructions reinforcement establishes a designed mental process that becomes the trainees thoughtsystem. Administratively desirable techniques have long been perfected and instilled by formulated circumstances routines that produce fatigue and tension. These weaken the psychological self and enhance trainings psychological priming. Further implicit memory and behavior responses are due to trace conditioning, a more complex version of Pavlovian conditioning. Reflexive responses from repetitive training drills firmly establish the paths in the brains cortex analyzers and basal ganglia, where memory traces become behaviors paths of least resistance. Throughout history, command secures its realm of entitlements by imposing a single path mentality, which selectively filters information, comparisons and uncontrolled situations, factors that influence committed acceptance. Compliance whips are psychological because of conformity to indoctrination obligation. Personal liabilities make the belief-system unchallengeable due to reinterpretation vulnerability, as with differences of opinions expressed neutrally being portrayed slanderously as questioning commitment and loyalty. The authoritarian culture is a perpetual liege-siege mentality that produces conformist behaviors and uniform attitudes with circumscribe influences that recognizes carrying out obligated abstractions as intelligence. The organizations objectives are enforced as fact with implications as justification. Obedience substitutes for relevance, while restricted mentalities subdue common sense and alternative options. This pseudo-intelligence diverts significance with triviality, distractions and inflammatory opinions. Arrested development, no matter the cause cannot really acknowledge the complexity of the broader world nor recognize the extensive spectra in living and life. Regulations are training codes. When there is a systematic attempt to modify behavior and establish priorities that negate the undesired by retaliatory compliance. Official
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instructions are the domain of received references. Indoctrinations training is brainwashing. Training is controlled schizophrenia.
Corporate Washington Cultivates Agendas by Buying Media to Control the Story

The colonel had another international contract moving along. His said if matters were leading, the appropriate interpretations and efforts would follow. This leadership insight cuts down on procrastination errors by keeping those involved positively engaged. Thinking ahead, not overanalyzing the past or present, avoids unnecessary concerns from pessimisms priorities and insecurities paranoias. United Fruit Companys corporate headquarters set up a meeting at the corporations Panamanian law firm with a senior partner and their local executive. Corporate instructions to the local executive were to contact Brien and schedule a meeting and obtain firmed-up contractual negotiations on the retainer and performance schedules. The project was an aerial survey of corporate properties in Panam, Costa Rica, Ecuador and around Uraba, Colombia. The colonel told us neither the executive or company lawyer knew anything beyond a normal business deal. Later, at the meeting with them, their actions revealed accomplices in a theatrical performance of office greed with a professional script of involved complications and simplistic firm conclusions. The lawyers verbal dexteritys intertwined an ambiguous process concerning multiple possibilities and psychological scheming. The complexity of the legal innuendoes would take a Supreme Court to diagram. The melodrama was hilarious. Polished professional mannerisms and versatile verbiage held dangling threats to emotionalize the sense of vulnerability. The projections were dialogued and delivered perfectly for psychological domination. The lawyers summation was to accept his wise counsel because only he could interpret the growing complexity of his presumptions of our situation correctly.
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This time the practices of law on a nave audience was not blinded by credential bluff but illuminated the professional role-playing. The lawyers negotiations were indirect self-promotion accented and correlated to stimulate paranoia-anxieties susceptibility that pushed-up the bill. The lawyers interpretations carried a self-serving construction. This legalistic self-dealing is facilitated by legalisms procedural and process obligations. His intimidating legal-uendos were a product bottled with value-adding complexity, which were overstated in conjectured confrontations that advertised his command and sold his honorarium. The lawyer wore the tailored role of his employment well. He legally costumed control by the exclusive ability to grant the corporate contract. The drama was staged with the executive, who was really nothing more than a weak short-change accountant, which made them some of societys truest professional thieves. The morals of credentialed intimidators patronage squeeze exemplify the systems obligated authority figures as corruption felonies. During a meeting between the lawyer and us after the lawyers initial intimidation failed to obtain the response desired. This aggressive attitude was delivered at an opportune time that was obviously prearranged because the executive had to use the telephone in another office at the appropriate moment. Alone the lawyers toned threat lay within his authority to delay the negotiations or stop the project. This legalese had a deep voiced seriousness, which set up our salvation that could only happen by the lawyers efforts for a percentage fee. Upon the executive return, he confirmed the lawyers exclusive contractual control existed, which confirmed conspiratorial complicity. Recruiting a fee is normal, but taking a cut as a silent partner was robbery. The two conspiratorial pen felons were felonious bit-players in a situation outside their scope of living. Brien was never one to let an opportunity pass. They squeezed, so he raised the price. After which some flat generalities were stated to have Brien not raise the price. Then Brien stated if the home office did not like it, forget it. His steadfastness won agreement that a new price would be submitted. After some greedy calculations, they both willingly coordinated the future arrangements and meetings. We did, as the colonel
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wanted with all the appearances of normality that now included Briens profitable renegotiations. Licensed conceits are social corruptions that reminded me that in East Indian English they pronounce lawyers, liars.
Oligarchic Powers Traditionalizes Greed And Compose the Facets of Subjugation

Brien was outraged; his frustrations were slapped by the abuses of privileged criminality. In neutered awareness of what was before the eyes, he asked if I noticed conspiratorial criminality is faceless, nameless and always wears well-tailored suits and well-pressed uniforms. Our perceptions continue to picture criminality in the worn clothes of urban poverty. He attacked these false perceptions and the power of professional oligarchies that cause them. Social perceptions have such contributory uniformity it seems society is run by the same people, whose conformities only differences are degrees of personal opinions. The justice business is a very powerful appendage of the governments network of public corporations. In procedural justice an ad hoc mixture of statutes and precedents, interpretations hold the reins. Procedural justice indicts crime not motives, which are irrelevant to the question of innocence or guilt. The perceptions of equitable law has traction in society because the Judicial-penal industrys self-anointing PR cultivates the convictions justice serves truth, not the truth of justice; its a commercial enterprises that serves vested interest. Lawyers are retail franchise holders in a monopolistic service industry with exclusive membership by credentials and licenses that regulate the means of access and functioning. The features of these retail merchants are obscured by promoted perceptions and polished images with understated salesmanship. The attorneys service is to guide the client through the swamps of the legal languages fluid dexterity and around the consuming quicksand of legalities. Legalities tentacles generate value-added service products on and against the obligated, which are compounded by the professions byzantine nuances, arcane and
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ambiguous language with esoteric procedural mazes and contrived process labyrinths. Lawyers are optimizers who interpret and secure the needed. The powerful law firms with their high-priced specialties and preferential expertise epitomized this functioning. Effective access allows power to be heard and its influencing applied, these are expensive services. Nonpracticing senior partners get appointed or their elections get financed to key positions in regulatory agencies and/or ruling bodies. Positional controls deliver formidable services and expensive abilities, which make no hurdle insurmountable; law firms administer avoidance, disentanglements and obtainments for those who can pay. So, legalisms abstractions are constructed and reinterpreted to obtain the desired. Writing law and implementing interpretations attempts to give order to the permanent flux of the general, using mans most complex entity, language. Whose exactitude difficulties and constructions of vague approximations breed manipulation dialects like politicalese, officialese and legalese. These are meaningless jargon of masterfully toned contorted language. Language is symptomatic of other things, so its use must be deciphered for accurate assessments and good decisions. With languages indeterminacy and without ethical truth in law, influences determine interpretations.
Labeling Our Thoughts Acquaints Us with How Our Lives Work

Later, Brien mentioned to Herr cabrn that after the Canal project, he had another contract in the works and already had a meeting with vague commitments. He talked the positive interest up like a bad salesman, which fed Herr cabrns low-life impressions of him. After some questions and explaining the projects outline, not much more could be said. Herr cabrn told us to pursue the contract and keep him abreast of the negotiations. Then, in his condescending snobbishness, he dismissed us.
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A few days later, the colonel and United Fruits regional executive caught us at the hangar. We discussed photographing the company extensive holding in more detail, as well as, the areas where they planning on buying established plantations. As the Canal project was near completion, we decided to start and shoot the companys properties in Panam and then around Uraba, Colombia. Brien figured three days of air work was sufficient, and we would work out of Panam and just refuel at Urabas airport. After that, we would shoot Costa Rica. We would be based out of the capital San Jos because it was equal distance between the banana regions on the coastal lowlands along both coasts. This was generously scheduled for ocho dias. As with any time without specifics, it slips into a single category of the nebulous future. Ecuador sits about 600 miles south of Panam, which was just within the Gooses cruising range. United Fruit had an extensive export operation both from the companys extensive commercial banana plantations and as the areas major wholesaler buyer. This project could take quince dias to complete. Briens scheduling had maneuvering room that guaranteed we would always look good by being done early or on time, never late. Tentative dates were arranged with the retainer promised accordingly. Brien waited until the regional executive brought up meeting and the change in price. The executive wondered if there had been a misunderstanding, as he was more than willing to handle the whole project. This was Briens get-even moment. In a straight voice to the executive, he asked if the 20% for our silent partners would still have to be handled directly because legalistic threats were implied. In the calmest manner, the executive said that money was ours. Then he added these matters would be better handled if he took over the project himself. He looked at both of us and said he would deal with the legalities personally. The colonel agreed but missed the messages in the executives subtle smoothness. In front of us, the colonel said this executive could be trusted fully, we knew there would be no problems. Brien had been schooling me on taking my negotiating position much more serious, as a continual confrontation. Negotiations involve more than monetary concerns; they
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include managing respect, strategic positioning and the establishing of performance dependability and responsibilities. One must recognize the limits of those they are involved with and not surpass these limitations. This was one of the safest things a person could do for themselves and their success. Panams banana regions and Uraba had no military value. Uraba remoteness meant we take drums of clean fuel to refuel at the local airport. The plan was to just fulfill the contract obligations with the most realistic composition. The Pacific work was a credibility builder for both the Canals photographic work and us. The physically verifiable presence of naval surface vessels and submarines in Pacific would show the Navy was patrolling routinely, even with Japan half a world away. This would set the perception of good preparedness in the Pacific, which infer superior preparedness in the Caribbean. This accomplishment had incredible importance. Circumstances were moving fast. A retainer fee from United Fruit arrived at the bank. At the next meeting, Herr cabrns secretary introduced us to the manager of the private bank department, the cushy service existing in large banks for the qualified. Wealthy clients have transactions and services taken care of in seated comfort with the utmost discretion of white-gloved courtesies. Rude tellers and boring waits were nuisances of the past. After meaningless formalities, we were brought to an adjoining office to meet Herr cabrn. His cold demeanor said things were normal. Then Brien mentioned the United Fruit Company negotiations were solidifying and a schedule was being worked out. As an afterthought, he mentioned the possibility of even another vague job possibility, aerial mapping some oilfields in Venezuela for an oil company in a territorial dispute with their competition. Briens toned vagueness made the possibility seem remote. Herr cabrns blank face never broke a line, while dismissing us. The bait was played and swallowed but the hook was not set. We just let out more line by our silence and departed without breaking the thought. Brien gestured me with his elbow on exiting the office and caused
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me to notice a classic contrast in the cultural definition of beauty. The comparison revealed the qualities of a beautiful, toned, blond, Germanic frulein running the bank managers office and her equally beautiful, tanned, toned, black hair, Latina assistant. A visual validation that the luckiest man finds the most beautiful women in the perfection of pure beautys many variations. To many, the eyes move with hormonal impulsiveness and vanities confusion or are blinded by prejudices limitations, whereas the artists discerning eye searches for essence to capture images beyond inclinations. Beauty is one of the objective properties of the universe but is culturally subjectified. Beauty and ideals are pure, and art is where lines and colors express visions captured. Plain has beauty to be uncovered, while exotic incites the blood. Voyeuring Beauty is a universal ideal, which modern awarenesses expanded definition of beauty has enriched.
Stereotypes as Definitions Make Mental Prisons As Perceptions They Make Psychological Prisoners
Mr. Jones mental acrobatics toward Tannia had become more desperate and obsessive. His emotional expenditures crossed many disorder thresholds. Tannias piercing public insults inflicted deep wounds to his fragile identity delusions that did not soothe his mental state. He was suffering progressive dementia, where bio-psychological afflictions were activated by alcohols chemical interactions. His deteriorating condition made every exchange a grievous personal injury. The bartenders provoked his violence to ban him. He needed treatment, a fact his psychotic arrogance and peer-covered falling job performance made impossible, to quote a friendly colleague in the Canals hospital. Tropical-Americans famous tolerance for live and let live was extended by compassion but not encouraged because we realized he was mentally ill. Sadly he was lost beyond himself, seen and understood by his irrational actions and reaction. The danger was in his unpredictable and uncontrolled violent nature. The situation was confrontational any compassion would be misconstrued as attraction. A serious conversation
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got Tannia to take his sickness seriously because it concerned her. From then on she ignored him completely. One night she was followed. Another night after work he scared her. He was so close behind her; she could smell him on the evenings soft breeze. After that, she had someone walk her home regularly. When Gregorio asked one of his officer acquaintances to see if Jones was on duty those nights, he got word Jones was signed into his post every night. Officially, Jones could not have followed her. Brien told Rubio Roy and Roberto to keep a protective watch on Tannia. The situations had quieted down for a while after that, until Liliana came to my house one evening with an emergency message to rendezvous at the Canals military police headquarters. Tannia had been taken away by Canal MPs and a pair of dual-salaried Panamanian policemen. These uniformed mercenaries are badge whores that respond to the money received for services rendered. Apparently, Lieutenant Jones was missing and the Army could not find him. After a few days, the military police decided Tannia must know something. Upon hearing about Tannias situation, Gregorio sent Liliana for me and went to find his defense lawyers. Officialdoms adversarial enforcement pursues by entanglement. Even in the best of times, the military police did not treat the Panameos respectfully nor with true justices greater access and balanced enforcement. Hate encourages violence, which ethnic biases spark and agendas utilize. These police positions seemed to be filled predominately by under-educated recruits who are comfortable with an overseer psychology; those pathetic victims of the plantation cultures legacies. If the authorities took it for granted a Latin was involved in bodily harm to one of their own, racial hate-based emotions prevailed. Executive authoritarians operates at-will, well beyond oaths and the law, in this type of situation, where detainees dangers are deadly dramas. I waited for Gregorio outside the offices open door listening to Tannia with her interrogators. It seems Jones had bragged to his fellow soldiers about their hot affair. When he ended their relationship, she was so emotionally upset that she threatened to kill herself. Tannia laughed so hard it took her minutes to regain her composure. The accusation was Tannia murdered Jones, after he told her the
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affair was over. Tannia was a scorned hot-blooded Latina, wronged by the man she desired; this script fulfilled the stereotyped role of guilt by suspicion. Expectations focus perceptions and stop the analysis process, while stigmatizations conclusions supplied the investigators with what they needed. Perceptions assumptions provided a motive for the conviction required that packaged evidence would prove. The leveling aspects of stereotypes are oversimplified assumptions that lead to extensive insufficiencies as knowledge because repetitions familiarity and sameness complacency suffice as knowns. Stereotyped basis for decisions and presumptions of a standardized world are, at best, loosely formulated conjecture that cost the user as a self-victimizer. No room exists for extraneous comprehensions in stereotypes purpose, which carry a self-sealing set of expectations that are the root cause of most innocent victims and their families pain and suffering. Rigidly formulated conventions contrived unfairness and unethical abuses by authority are the sources of animosity that feeds the most righteous anti-authority sentiments.
Beauty, Brains, Competence and Purposed Reason Makes the Rest Insignificant
In her defense, Tannia answered back strongly and directly. She stated the accusations were pure conjecture that was unsubstantiated by reasonable logic because it misdefined her for the conclusions wanted. A regular self-fulfilling clairvoyance that bestows blame on her and intelligence on them; she was not stereotyped guilty, they were. The investigators could not follow that reply and kept on applying their trainings closed-logics verbal traps. Entrapment set ups manipulate intimidated people into directed confusions confessions by losing every argument to authorities exploiting simple yes-no, true-false, either-or, answers to complex questions. This believed stupidity is a psychological-linguistic manipulation stratagem that is far removed from the intricate complexity and difficult answers beneath the surface of daily functioning. Intellectual maturity
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utilizes the accuracy of approximation terms, as with more or less, maybe, depending on, unknown or unknowable. These educated concepts have full intellectual legitimacy for the actuality of most things in human existence. When these intelligent expressions of life are used, they have a strange sincerity that captures a refreshing intellectual honesty but the context of ignorance downplays them to the point of being refuted. Relating to this framing reveals the shallow flaws and general underinformedness in educations training processes. Unknown and unknowable are genuine responses to the perplexity of daily dilemmas and the vast enigma of living. Mans insufficient education is extraneous conjecture presumptuously believed and arrogantly projected, which makes answers assumptions at best. Peer stupidity is impregnable. Consequently, dogmatic conventionality rules. The traditional feminism belief of dumb females and cultural superiority perceived Tannia a racial inferior obsessed with an American military officers prestige and social status. This narrowmindedness was a serious inadequacy on their part. She was the wrong woman to attempt to terrify into submission with intimidation; much less cultural inferiority based on projected prejudices and stereotype biases. Tannia started off by explaining herself in French, which no one spoke. She switched to German, but again no one understood. Then she tried Italian, and then Portuguese, and finally English. In exaggerated exasperation she stated, out of consideration to their poor language skills, their Castilian needed serious help. A fact the local employees would never mention, not out of politeness but apprehensions over the repercussions from honestys reception by ignorance. She would be helpful and tell them that their Spanish was terrible and because of the seriousness of this matter, she would speak to them in English, a foreign language in her country. Tannia realized these mens occupational mask hid embarrassing mental capacities that were denser and less educated then she thought because they completely missed her insulting condescension. Their lack of understanding was even below what she thought conceivable for such media-promoted positions but authoritarianism doesnt educate, it constructs responses that facilitate commands wants.
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She became even more direct and conversed with them on a more primitive level, so their unfinished educations simplistic logic apparatus could follow. This reaction confused them because people usually wilt in authoritys presence and tremble into submission when aggressively confronted. Tannia was like a teacher stating the obvious. First, the quality of life here has more honest tolerance. Second, the weaker the government, the freer the people. Third, sophistication must relate but does not mix with trash of any color or status. A university woman of independent means makes social choices for herself and does not respond submissively to any males insecurities or presumptions. These were unrecognizable concepts for Jones, whatever his supposed social prestige. He was a despicable worthless adolescent, in a uniform too big for him both in size and stature. Tannia laughed over her own statement of fact and stated, What an incredible asinine thought, her desiring such a repulsive little man. Handling the pressure of this situation showed her strength and quality. She styled so exceptionally. Explaining living from her perspective defended herself. After convent school here, she studied French Literature at the Sorbonne, which was established in 1257, where she drank lots of wine older than the USA. After graduating, she studied English Literature in Cambridge. Her father passed away at this time and, as a good daughter fulfilling her family obligations, she returned to live with her mother. She then sold her fathers business and bought large pieces of commercial land around Panam City. Cosmopolitan and financially solvent with both mental and financial assets beyond the aggregate of this buildings personnel were facts that dismiss any preconceived notions of female desperation as a legitimate motive. The few hours a week at the caf are for free flowing personal entertainment in this oppressive male culture, other days Western literature calls teaching at the National University. Jones was illiterate with an arrested development and social retardation. You think that annoying idiota or any other imbcil could imaginably interest competency, says more than it assumes.
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Any sincere and considerate man has more value then an army of Jones. My accomplishments as an independent and educated individual, comfortable within the cosmopolitan culture are beyond such limited mental ability. Jones pathetic temperament is a functioning abnormality. Her full-strength of character and class was more than these men ever experienced or saw, except for flashes in Jean Harlow and Carol Lumbard movies. Her self-confidence was something that was beyond their monoculture blindness with its propagandas delusions of unique superiority that prevents mature cultural sensibilities toward shared human occurrences and the true specialness of competent beauty. Sophisticated people do not believe in authority infallibility nor accept ignoramuses politely or should they. She stated with finality that Jones was inadequate as a man with less value then monkeys manido in jungle humidity. The officer asked one of the Panamanians, What is monkey manido? Manido is the fart-fouled sweat found between the dirty cheeks of a monkeys ass.
Character Proves its Quality Under Pressure

My gestures for silence to Gregorio and his associates kept us waiting outside the office door for Tannia to finish. She needed no help. No one but a bigoted fool or disordered person would believe Jones could handle such a woman, but enforcement types are chosen for trainability and contributory psychological tendencies to job performance, especially the willing acceptance of violence and its costs without question. Authoritarianisms philosophical-psychology is an unbroken chain of medieval-mindedness that never has to truly explain itself, so there has never been honest analysis or fair evaluation. When Gregorio and his Panamanian lawyers entered they set the Zone police aback. The support immediately stopped the next level of authoritarian submissiveness being applied against the suspect/prisoner who surpass trainings techniques. Enforcement roles must re-establish
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compliance because they are always right no matter how wrong; their historical purpose is suppression and the only known is obedience. One soldier left and returned accompanied by the senior officer in charge, who reviewed the situation. He had the same prejudices as the Neanderthal types but was a Cro-Magnon-tho-realist type, politically aware enough to appear neutral. He called his subordinates into another office for a conference, most likely for instructions to be careful. While the soldiers were in conference, we all talked to Tannia at once. She sat in total control the whole time. She proved that the strength of her dancers body was from the power of her mind. The military police returned and questioned her and us some more. Standard intimidation and domination operating procedures use relentless probing to wear down the detainee into error. Trainings work habits had them apply an indirect ploy. This take on the disappearance was that maybe she killed him one night in self-defense when he followed her home. No dead body meant that there was no proof of foul play or a time of death, which made the whole event a fishing expedition. Aggressive laws fine mesh nets always snags the innocent. At this point, Gregorio asked about Joness duty log. The head investigator said the duty log was government property and not available for public examination. The hostile inaction confirmed his deductions that Jones had signed in, so the last time he was seen he was officially on duty. Gregorio figured Jones had signed into his post and would sign out upon his return for an alibi of his own. This made Jones absent without leave while on duty, which is a serious military justice matter. With builtin conviction arguments followed the deductions that events centered in the Zone and not in the Republic. When our pointed reminders finally penetrated their roles rote density, they begrudgingly said it was a possibility. The police did not like this logic because it meant they would have to work harder for another possible solution. Conclusion driven assumptions and manipulating evidence makes for easy works easy money. Difficulty work and performance pressure rationalizes violence and tortures efficiency as acceptable enforcement procedures. Police perform to the lowest common denominator in the group; this makes the disordered
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minority and the few psychoverts violence and stupid actions seem the norm. This diminishes the policemen of honor serving their communities. The lawyers legalese of Gregorios duty log deductions became difficult physical evidence to ignore in their argument of innocence. Tannia had feared him but had no other real motive. She had an alibi because she worked the night of his disappearance and Truti walked her home every night after work. Authority frustrations grew as overtrained insufficiencies confronted sophisticated intelligence. Uniformers have no individual discretion to make decisions that close situations; they are trained to obey. Abusive physical and psychological methods, which would normally be applied at this point, were impossible with so many supporters of substance supporting her. The military police counter-attacked by threatening that they would search her familys house. She replied that her mother could handle it. The investigators went to Tannias home, where her mother and the house staff received abusive treatment through rude accusations and a meaningless intrusive search. The officials stopped at the caf to find Truti, who had escorted Tannia home the evening of Jones disappearance. They then went by Trutis house and were told she was away. They returned empty-handed and annoyed at not finding any usable justification to continue the psychological assault; they used their occupational logic to hide their hatred of not proving failure and their personal density by not desiring justice. Finally, civil liberties forced them to release Tannia. We left her off at her home and retired to our long wished-for beds. Truti was not around for a while, as she was visiting relatives in the countryside. Rubn and Toro had both told the investigating officials that her vacation had been scheduled and she would return in ocho dias. The officials said they would return to talk to her. This was normal except Truti was an orphan; a pointless point to make in this emotionally charged atmosphere. Only fools volunteer information. Nightly, the crowd had more new faces in the caf, which made too many faces appear vaguely familiar. The subgroups at El caf started to become distinguishable by wardrobe similarity. Events were quiet and the time passed easily as our emotional states had time to calm down.
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Truti reappeared and the Armys investigators were in the caf within minutes. She was wearing much less make-up than usual and her clothing was modest but still informative of her sexualness. The images impression was a give-away. She was questioned about Tannia and her story concerning the disappearance of Jones without causing the slightest complication. They departed disgruntled. Officialdom remained involved but still came up with nothing on fading old Jones.
Geographys Prizes Cause the History Supremacy Writes

One night thereafter, a businessman joined us at our table, who represented the Venezuelan operation of a large international oil company. The expensive socializing at our table sent all kinds of messages to those observing. The project was the aerial mapping of his corporations properties in Venezuela, and if we happen to fly over their competitions assets and exposed photographic materials on them; we would be well compensated for our losses. When the oil company executive left the caf, three groups followed him and we could not figure out all of them. When Brien mentioned this to the colonel, he said the executive was so important that he had bodyguards and use of a Boeing 247. The oil company took this situation with the seriousness we needed; Venezuela was going to be interesting. Gregorios business increased noticeably even for breakfast. El caf was like an auxiliary office for numerous embassies, probably due to so many expense-account spies. Gregorio gave us free food and a wholesale discount on drinks. New medical equipment was bought, which modernized the clinic. This made Eduardo totally content. There were always beautiful women in the caf, drawn by the opportunities. Our table was self-filling with the most gorgeous women in Panam, whose psychological blemishes were microscopically examined by Tannia. As she had decided to quite her waitress job and sit
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with us and enjoyed herself. Her brilliance was not giving away what she knew. The good times were full-time nonstop, Tropical-American style. The days routines were now starting around midday mainly for restful mornings because the body needs healthy sleep after any abusive activity. Everyone seemed content, even Herr cabrn was not offensive. Socially closed and ruled by a swagger stick meant this was the best he could do because positive expressions reveal so much and require openness.
Ones Awareness and Self-discipline Not Pills Eliminate the Suffering of Mindaches
Brien used an illusive electrical short in the instrument panel to free up a long weekend of fishing in the Pacific. Panams teeming jungle supplies the big game fish offshore with a buffet diet. The marine rich tropical water and geographical features causes some of the worlds finest trophy fish to cruise just off the jungles coastline. Rubn organized the fishing for Felix, in the company of friends as a step to reintroduce him to being involved with people. After so much good fortune, Brien and I needed a break to reorganize and stay on top of the outside pressures. Preparations fine-tuning is advanced execution, but the primary aim was to get Felix past his pain. The pains of psychological injuries, disorders and mental illness have implications all over the human landscapes. The shadows of psychological pains are in sharp contrast to the clarity of victims with acute or chronic physical pain. Pain consumes living, which is compounded by being an under-acknowledged basic human condition as are psychological perversions, meaninglessness and death. Felixs psychological entrapment had no bio-chemical base beyond substance abuse. His precarious and volatile mix of flawed source materials where intensified by associated consequences. The interplay of failed understandings due his agenda prioritized perceptions and their
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psychosocial complications which were layered with his religions inadequacies interpreting life in terms of guilt, blame and atonement overloaded his dated philosophys psychological intelligence. Yesterdays intellectual and psychological deficiencies are carried forward in the pessimistic vernacular of existence based on the age of ignorances pain with its traditional ethos of suffering. This social psychology construe an unquestioning acceptance for every burden inflicted and every perversion of denial believed. Relieving suffering and bearing the grief of human experiences was Gods will. This dogmatic belief was irrefutable until secular intellectuals embraced the growing scientific culture that was establishing the what is not the whys of a compelled abstraction. Felixs plight showed acknowledgement helps one to grow through the weak versions of disorders. Other disorders are too strong and require help to be dealt with or avoided. Heightened awareness and expanded understandings generate effective perspectives, which are the balanced strength of mature intelligence that heals. Comprehensive perspectives see past dramas and grasp the traumas, which brings things into the present, where one can exert influence. Over the many long slow boat rides to visit Felix, my reflections always came back to psycho-reality empowerment starts with honesty. We self-created our everyday therapy to handle the burdens of living and paradox of an infinite mind and finite physiochemical body. This mental balancing act is enhanced by the best eclectic efforts of personal development not the deadening triviality of the cultural middle. Meditating on the anxieties generated while analyzing the shields of our neurotic symptoms reducing, narrowing and projections reveals what is in the motivating depth of our minds. Awareness and empowerment must reign supreme to dissipate confusion and unlock potentials because an inadequate detail can misdirect a future as easy as a foolish decision can destroy a life. Awareness is that alertness in observing and the attention in interpreting, the characteristics of intelligence in being; empowerment is livings most relevant response. Empowerment synthesizes importance and matches recognitions with influences and involvements that guides functioning.
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These are enhanced by meditations private introspection that relaxes the mind and identifies that which moves the meditator, it is not something external, but a search for a realization to what is happening to ones self at that moment. This compares differently to the vehicle of prayer, which comforts and strengthens. Both are practitioner driven, but one focuses on its references. We had confidence in Felix, and the time spent with us speaking just English was to keep him out of his cultural logics operatic tragedy. Languages subtle biases stimulate subconscious stimulants and sociocultural responses. Functioning in a second language dodges the subliminal chains of established habits and reinforcements that trigger and strengthen ones well-established thought patterns. We enjoyed being together and, as the days passed, the success of the episodes purpose captured us all. Felix became more himself and recognized it. The positive circumstances and non-judgmental companionship helped overcome the last obstacle in guilts role of emotional self-victimization as penance. Over some drinks at sunset, Felix confessed a sense of betrayal and stupidness. His facial expressions showed the pain. Brien said, Felix you saved our lives with your integrity, youre suffering the emotions of guilt, there was no betray. Betrayal to Brien was greeds back stabbing abuse of intimate trust that torments goodness innate vulnerabilities. Rubn said personal betrayal is a costly existence because the betrayers are cowardly fools, whose greed negates integrity and annihilates worth. Weakness succumbing to temptation is stupidness, which has too many causes generating its depravities. Silence serves the perpetrators shortcomings because we all suffer the casualties and wounded people produced. Betrayal is a disturbance of consciousness, an ugly evilness, where any premeditation confirms serious psychosis and intellectdeficiencies. The modern context of our understandings strengthened Felixs recuperating perspectives. There was no betrayal in his actions. His brothers immaturity and selfish actions were inappropriate no matter the rationale. His uncle was another innocent victim of circumstances due events beyond any individuals personal sphere of influence. If one cannot
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influence or control it, one should not antagonize about it, but recognize and accept limitations and abilities because these determine involvements. Extremisms violence set the involvements scale of proportionality. Men destroyed by institutional destruction and killings, as official functions are victims of state sponsored terror. Felixs family was some of Panams first causalities in the coming war and not the last. I reminded him, humanity has taken a decisive stand against racist tyranny, and we are modern mixed blood men fighting daily for our childrens future in this undeclared war against evil. We were repeating insights expressed before but the situation was right for the message to be heard with positive acknowledgments reinforcing healthier understandings. The next morning, Felix was feeling well enough to be truly smiling. He was himself but quieter. When he hugs his mother and sees her smile back, the happiness will ignite his empowered personality.
Elitisms Ideology and the Conservative Apparatus Condition Authoritarian Pawns

All boat rides are positive journeys of surprises in understandings. After we dropped Felix off at the island, the long ride home was contemplative. People are not stupid but they do have limits. His role of pain was an operatic tragedy repeated so often as to be a cultural norm. Felixs functioning from societys roles with their performance structure of emotional responses being more established and valued than expansive thoughtful content, traits promoted by traditionalism because role identity and visual impacts are desired, not personal development. Societys roles have been entrenched through the millenniums by the repetitious sermons derived from learned parables. These established the acceptable framework of physical reactions to psychological situations, where only tears validate sorrow and personal guilt requires self-inflicted pain. Stereotypical role-fulfillment are ignorance traps that
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victimize because modern understandings makes emotional responses to the expectations involved meaningless. The thick esoteric veil that cloaks societys ways and whys, seem as affected and convoluted as heavenly mysteries. True culture is the accumulative processes of the workable and a composite of attainments that orders needs. Society is configured permanence for transitory supporters. To compile an understanding of these enigmatic social architecture puzzles and the overlaid ideologies institutionalism that consume lives and entangle souls involves pattern recognition and deducing the psychosocial and sociocultural obstacle courses of living. Self-sustaining minds necessitate not being trapped wasting life on the nonproductive, mastering notable secondary propositions, embellished subjects or excessive and extravagant details. Pursuing awareness and empowerment are the efforts that facilitate personal success because no interpersonal or intrapersonal operating manuals, social blueprints or options outlines are published for public consumption. Self-determination involves recognizing what is superior; self-esteem relearns. Self-respects truest aspirations optimize potentials and behavior. Without How to manuals or design blueprints to reveal the social architecture that funnels thoughts, behaviors and functioning individual proficiency is random at best. The essential perceptions configure a submissive socialization, which are composed upon the long history of the fundamental ideologies grammar and traditions logic. The inevitabilities of the social orders totality are preserved by powers mastery as the securer of the required. This is why you say there is no uncaused caused. The puzzling complexitys mystified causes are part of the purposed ploys as is no public accountability or final responsibility. We are taught needed understandings of heaven in great detail, but informative guides for practical mastery of the sociocultural are dismissed as answerless or explained away with circular reasonings discourses to nowhere. Yes, the single-mindedness and generational stagnations repetitiveness are depressive ruts that exhaust dreams and postpone progress. Social order ebbs and flow, but institutional structures
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generational advantages were made permanent by Romes invention of cement. This solidified Roman society and started the powersthat-be structuring the as consolidation of power, as most powerful institution the military is always key. The military influence over the social order reflects militarisms philosophy and the military profiteers ruthlessness. Imperialism politics and empire politicians are a corrupting social model. The Renaissance ended the Middle Ages Medievalism? The Renaissances principle influences were in the arts, science and commerce. While societies authoritarian institutions went untouched and have continued in superioritys densified infallibility. Grandfather what delivers the daily punches to our efforts that cause the simplest progress to be such an exhausting effort? Social literacy must recognize the connections between the complaints sources and misery or one self-victimizes. Decisive overacceptance and unquestioned conditioning due arrogant pride in mediocrity and aggression, generates continuous setbacks from the errors of poor understandings bad decisions. Yesterdays close minded social conscience opposes any re-evaluations, even due recognized wrongs and unmet needs because doubts questions and disbelief are negated by propagandas clairvoyance and status quos dynamic inertia. So reactionary fundamentalists are the defenders of the status quo? Fundamentalism knowns everything without knowing much, as they have all the answers to the important irrelevant matters. These truth-conviction tyrants functions unmolested by superior knowledge because their fanatic moral certitude is based on unknownables that dismiss knowns, which generates dilemmas that fundamentalism claims to solve. Reactionary fundamentalisms cults of death are the fanatic social order assassins who enforce conformity as beliefs; killers as heavenly rewarded murderous guardians of mythical yesteryears. Literalisms simple-minded makes for easy acceptance of the religiously contexted propositions that cloaks the power of directed group ignorance. Yesterdays ultra-ideological doctrines uncapturable generalities
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have been superceded by rational explanations up to lifes irreducible mysteries, which are now open to equally valid interpretations. Religious emotionalism has been transformed even more into politics to oppose modern informed perspectives that help manage the accelerating psychosocial dynamics of weightier knowns and flourishing unknowns. Modern comprehensions and empowered intellectual attitudes need preeminence, not ideological cohesions conform or parish, that enforces stagnations historical cycles of victimizations. What carries this forward? Vocabularies, meanings and interconnections lubricated effectiveness. Bring this into focus. Accuracy and details are the enemy of those who control the fate of others. Besides destroying truth bearers and sacrificial victims most all organized aggressions reduce to psychological warfare. This manipulation is obvious with unbiased comprehension of cause, function and motivation. Social illiteracy of the past tense psychosocial-sociocultural dynamics preserves the deficiencies misconceptions that cause adjustment problems and compliances stress. Modern progress is intellectual success, which is based on self-knowledge and requires social literacy to manage the demands of daily grinds. Comprehensive perspectives diminish the painful and expensive complications from yesterdays ideological reductionism invoking agenda priorities as need. Grandfather, how do you sum up the power of influence over the psychosocial and sociocultural that produces us socially illiteracy pawns? The individuals either spends a lifetime serving the pawn philosophy or eliminating the pawn neurosis. Elitism is by privileged individuals. Humanity is individual privileges.
Focus on the Goal, Forget Vanitys Glow

At the next meeting in the bank, Herr cabrn expressed understated
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interest in our work in Venezuela. We read this sudden unprompted interest, as the baited hook was set and set deep. An increased budget request must have been approved, providing substance and prominence to him, by weight of his operations military prestige. His personal PR campaign got him noticed up the chain of administrative command, a limelight that a contingent of cohorts probably stepped into. Our time was spent contemplating so many different bureaucracies their sameness was striking no matter the nation or the different uniforms colors. The psychological magnet of institutional membership attracts similar personalities and motivations. The obstacle courses of careerism condition the official mentality and trainings techniques reinforce its aggressive purpose. Purpose and functioning efficiencies make all institutions mirror images that only appear different due to circumstantial style that are only differentiated by perceptions of degrees with leadership disorders setting the extremism. Herr cabrn worst features were not his underplayed zealot mannerisms but his inabilities ruthlessness and his sadistic bureamaniacal psychoses. Him like other position abusers with manipulative drive manias are recognizable by the after-effects consequences administered. Their primary motives seem to be disordered gratifications from dominating weakness. Aggressive and costly psychological situations find secure opportunities to exploit within the safety of the cultural density of amoral institutionalism. Our self-defense positioning was paramount. We would never let the self-gratifications of a bureaunazi or authoritarian mediocrat victimize or injure us. Brien called it, mediocritys mental masturbation, which indicated petty officials with server abnormal psychotic disorders, not bio-reality of hormonal release that makes masturbation normality.
Nationalism is Reflexive-patriotism Ethnocentrism is Reflexive-identity

Briens complexity had an intensity that was overcriticized regularly in whispers. Weakness is intimidated by the dynamical including
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enthusiasm. His assertive manner and quick deliberate movements were smooth like his insightful phasing, which were lost in reactions to his effective but rough vocabulary. Brien was focused on the goals; a man committed to the risks of the chancy moment where his intense attitudes always pushed to enhance advantages on the difficult road of success total focus. He underplayed himself in self-defense and his stratagems purposely overplayed positions, while adapting whatever moved us forward. This ferreted out psychological waste and weakness that only fools involve themselves with. Brien was in character working on his future equipment inventory, when he blamed equipment failures on inferior mass manufacturing compared to Germans higher quality. This was an open-ended throw out to an off-handed comment by Herr cabrn. Brien inquired about the possible availability of some famous German camera equipment and lenses of military quality to obtain higher resolution. This unsolicited interest was misinterpreted and opened the political recruitment floodgates by way of Aryanism. Superioritys illusions are revealing projections because the beliefs are absurd and the believers fools. Herr cabrn recruitment started with a Nazified Aryan speech about w.a.s.p. being North American born English of Germanic stock like the present British royal family. These German-British royals adopted Windsor, in 1917 to anglicize their Germany name Battenberg to Mountbatten-Windsor. He mentioned the most recent king of England Edward VIII, who abdicated and was retitled the duke of Windsor, as being a true admirer of Hitler with aspirations from a Nazi regimes destinies. Then Briens abruptly stated, Actually more a stupid-spoiled aristocrat desperately wanting the ultimate soft-life back, after his aristocratic inabilities made him a public fool. This response startled me out of my boredoms entertainment of interpreting whats behind being projected, during predictable speeches, simplistic sermons or shallow conversation. Herr cabrns spiel combined ethnocentrism and its political twin nationalism; both are very destructive, when socially engineered to accomplish offensive objectives. Nationalisms significance lies not in its beliefs but in its function. Briens actions ended that thought line.
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Brien normally moved with the smooth movement of an athlete. His dismissive demeanors lack of interest was a noisy sliding chair. He stated cash was his only interest and it is neutral. He led us out in seriousness; his neutral poker face was kept by a slow deep inhalation and long slower exhales. Outside, he said Herr cabrns mentality was frhrer worship toned in polished belief. Herr cabrn was so full of his personal significance that the sound of his voice echoed self-satisfaction. These Nazis types are so socially blind, they didnt see the worst enemies are the powerful GermanAmericans who came to realize Hitlers fascism was just another totalitarian total political total state dictatorship with a socialist name and a few populist ploys. Grandfather, how did you see it? The success of propagandas manipulations confirms that social architecture sows weakness, not strength. Ultranationalists are ethnocentric prisoners of tribalisms politics of emotionalism, while institutional idol worshipers are mediocre Philistines at best. Utopian leaders are psychopaths, and Nazism is just an ultra-fascist totalitarian domination that utilizes nationalistic racism. What is fascism? Fascism is the systematic belief in the supremacy of a group with facilitating rallying concepts from prejudices to efficiency, which regiments control of societys apparatuses. These administrativedictatorships function with or without an identifiable dictator. How did you feel about waspdom? Its the worst self-naming ever done by the masters of the word. Waspdom identifies the influence of elitist social activities and shared puritanical values, not the ASI (Anglo-Saxon-Irish) leadership it strives to be, but it is the closest name ever mentioned for this Britishcentric American plutocracy. This non-existent aristocracy is the majority possessors of the worlds wealth and the means of production with invisible mastery of the bond market that makes them, the them of commanding influence.
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The Creed of Greeds Vile Amoral Tenet Its All Mine and Nothing for Anyone Else
Grandfather, the word conservative elicits an emotional response because ones natural conservative nature has seen them through so many of lifes rough spots. Human beings by nature are prudent, wise and careful in conduct. People are naturally cautious amidst the vicissitudes of life, which has as much connection to the conservative ideology as a tree has to the trunk of a car. Prudence is mans nature, which is a bio-reality. Conservatisms politics of power as survival realism justifies selfinterest and the conservative ideologys codified domination. Centuries of absolute social power established the name recognition subliminally with biologically prudent sensibilities. This identity transference and perception formation arouses emotional responses that have the strength of belief-attitudes. These belief-values reactions open the believer to a reflexive acceptance of the conservative ideologys conclusions. Conservatisms financial power and its political agendas mix of legitimizing mini-theories pushes it doctrine as the only realistic interpretation, so alternatives are dismissed before one can questions relevance or realize whats involved. Self-interest and realism are the keys to success in many aspects of living but with elite-ultraconservatism self-interest realism is the essential premise. The defining differences in social realism are the methods used in handling the self-interest of others. Social realism in its practical and ethical correctness recognizes the self-interest of all involved and therein lays the possibility of compromise resolution. This comprehension of social realism has more realistic relevance than ideological realism, which imposes interpretations desired. Intellectual stagnation starts with limited vocabularies. Imaging knowledge and expressing effective concepts involve information and architecture, the most relevant words and languages power structures progress. Word expansion extends meaning with
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more in less. Apostrophe (s) possessiveness visually restricts plurals, comprehensions comprehensions or povertys poverties. Change and transition are descriptive verb/nouns projecting potent perceptions. Assimilation follows utility. Verbs become nouns. Nouns become verbs. Words take on explanatory roles rather than merely descriptive meanings, as aspects of modern life unfold with its stresses changes and energizing coping.
Conservatisms Social PessimismsIcs AbetIsts Striving for Failures Self-validations

Tannia wanted lunch on the patio for some privacy. During which Brien mentioned the history of power reads liked a chronicle of disordered abuse due authoritarian efficiencies being directed by the mentality present. The social reality is the systems complexity as the overlord of existence; its institutional powers composes culture and society using a full range of influencers for complete acceptance. So, connect the dots of scattered information of ignorance to replace the presumptions of knowing. Brien stated emphatically, If you dont know the powers-that-bes ways and means, nor distinguish weaknesses, both yours and the authorities, then youre a victim of compliance because enslavement looks a lot like freedom, when the master is unknown. A deep focusing breath put Tannia in the silent depths of her mind. She said organized elitism is ancient and became rooted in Aristotles philosophy with its closed-logic and single-mindedness which has aggressively dominated Platos openness to diversity with equal validity. Homage and reverence to greeds pretenses as superiority started with the idol process consolidating power with each new idol, until devotion evolved into a legitimized ascendancy of privileges. The cults of power, whether based on animal courage or ideological idol-worship formalized superioritys entitlements. Hierarchic unitys lore meshed parasitically with Aristotles orthodoxy logic and belief justifications because his scientific principles natural
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order of nature had God created superiority indexing upon natural slaves inferiority. This pyramid social order self-servingism and scientific premises concluded moral certitude that supplied every intellectual and moral need for their social elitism. Ideological tyranny suffocates any encumbrances for the deserving few with the virtues of servitude and poverty for the rest. Aristotles language-logic systems and his rules of thought and his articulated structure of the natural sciences are the source materials that Western Civilization is built upon. So omnipotent is this philosophical support, it recognitions and interpretations influence how perceptions are described, assumptions expressed and abstractions made, while granting the authenticity we feel. His conceptualizations and comprehensions ordered knowledge, as the Greek scientific methods overwhelmed and replaced irrationality and the rudimentary. The word aristocracy probably came from the followers of Aristotle and the concept sophistication from the Sophist their archenemy. Does that also hold for Plutocracy and Pluto the Greek God of the Underworld? So, current versions of the established are period productions? Yes, selective interpretations still exploit the under-educated as God(s) contend, while the well positioned receive more as God(s) intended. Powers dogmas unceasing efforts are due to profitable devotion. Millenniums of powers greed configured a very polished and all-encompassing social consciousness with formulated supported from complimentary psycholinguistic logic, biased perceptions and emotional reasoning. This profound agenda has set the terms of civilization. Ideological conservatism multi-level propaganda is projected with such a perceived soundness it reassures the weaknesses present. Weakness seeks strengths reassurances, not truth. Intricately simple perceptions of certainty and catastrophic pronouncements stimulate predictable responses from a social psychology based on fears and anxieties. This manipulated emotionalism and the internalized self-perpetuating cycles of self-deceptions along with unquestioned acceptance preserves selective inattentions mindblindedness.
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Fundamentalist, ultraconservatives and status quoist are neophobics, and unrestrained greed is a psychosis. Greed was irrationally abstractable when ignorance rules and little material wealth exist but today it is indefensible because so little of the immediate is unknown and wealth is createable. Modern knowledge makes greed a disorder. While modern progress due to changes success delegitimizes conservatism addictions to the opportunistic traditions of power that set their single-minded course of social possibilities. Brien said systematic contributory propaganda legitimizes into beliefs. Youre noticing the voids of the under-educated and the large gaps of the educated. I thought Western Europes sociocultural bedrock was the Roman Catholic Church. Actually, the bedrock is the philosophical alliance between the Catholic culture and Greek science, which was made formal in the 13th century, when the Church adapted Thomas Aquinas technical and encompassing philosophical interpretation of Aristotles science as the defining doctrine of orthodox Catholicism. This formalized the Roman Catholic Church with the sphere of aristocratic ultraconservatism. Historys most powerful partnership conceals the shared mutual interest because of its definition control, which constructed the sociocultural complex that set the paths of function. Such incredible power over the formation of living makes the knowledge of contemporary literacies a survival tool. Like begets like, in the obsessive genetic indulgences of the hereditary cults of greeds. Aristocratic plutocracies facilitating social values have dogmatic adhesion to self-serving circumstances that bestows the unearned advantages of selective privilege. Historical constants that are as common as titled nobility, whose modern offspring are guillotine shy and so much more inconspicuous. Militarisms feudalistic obligation-dependences perpetuated aristocracies, which started after victorious militarys groups settled into
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protective castles. Within which palace politics and court practices evolved into plutocratic basins of power driven by self-organizing genetic greed.
Modern Informations Unveils Conspiratorial Evils

Christian love is a consciousness expressed by Mercy on the Sin against the Sermon. This brought forth humanity as a sociophilosophical entity, which was a radical break with ancient elitisms ideological absolutism. Humanitys ideals are the moral antagonist of social heritages elaborate and exaggerated abstractions. Elitisms social status policies and cultural politics operate with many hidden objectives for enhancing preservation. Codified pretensions discriminate by social identities with intolerant obligations and social immobility. These produce complying structured servitudes. Elitist beliefs and values are social originators that ideological dogma rationales, justification, and legitimization with self-determining morality decreeing the social order. Elitist worships the fantasy of unique ancestral superiority; god-begotten genetic-mes sanctimonious attachments to ones vainglorious notions of self, which are transmitted by divine glory transgenetically as ordained. Elitism has many protective levels and ultraconservatism so many protective forms of domination, they remain unchanged no matter the veils of ideals expressed or beliefs professed because their social orders amoral persuasions has captured or terminated every challenging alternative. The rendition of subjugation depends on the circumstances and objectives; the particulars are modified to be effective in the activities of compliance. Ideologies decide history because of authoritys willingness to use whatever means necessary to serve its ends. This social realism revolves around unrestrained power and having as the maximum virtues. This ultraism of authoritys impunity has echoed a merciless cruelty and ruthless brutality that has built the monuments of history.
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Elite-conservatism is So Successfully Established, Rulers are Sequentially Numbered King X, Pope XX, Y Pharaoh or Z Dynasty
Tannia, as a social translator and academic correlater, what are the roots of our social psychology? Pawn psychology is the products of the fundamental philosophies, an alloy of elitism and ultraconservatism ideologies that have structured the foundation of culture and social orders from ancient dynasties to modern fascisms. Elitisms gg-is genetic-greed and indexed-superiority along with classical conservatisms 4-Cs, command-control-consolidate-continuity are the paramount principles serving the caste of power. Navet and conceits interwoven conditioning configure an excessively favorable social infrastructure and prefixed social conscience that identifies with this self-serving conformity as a civilized necessity and the only sanity. Elitisms mastery and ultraconservatisms controls have constructed uncontestable philosophical-psychologies. These ideologies dogmatic simplicity have organized culture around facilitating its needs as societys wants. Status quo functions from the presumptions of knowing with antiintellectualisms conventionalities of traditions dependence priorities and social theatrics misdirection. Conservatisms status quo equilibrium inertia generates and conceals the bitter politics of stagnation and negation, irrespective of the reigning political identity. Manipulated psychics vulnerabilities defer personal responsibility to authoritys superiority, while constraining inadequacies cultivate passivity and withdrawal. This social philosophys structuring causes individual self-wounding that obstructs empowerment, optimism and progress. Consolidation expansionists monopolistic morality seeks ever greater scales-of-effectiveness to put all under the reigns of powers social order. Command eliminates all direct and any potential challenges, at any price and by every means necessary, from indenturing intellectual legitimacy to eliminating as-needed.
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Control is as simple as maintaining the culture/social contexts determined conclusions by restricting content. Context directs society and parameters the individuals general intellectualism. Decided content suppresses thought, oppresses alternatives, represses comparisons, manages experimentation and utilizes dissent. Ideological arrogance falsely claiming credit for the unstoppable and confiscating all success because the uncontrolled promotes curiositys critical thoughts and enthusiasms philosophical shifts. Continuitys opportunistic longevity secrets are no thoughtsno change. Never question the culture or bring it into doubt and draw no attention. The class order of the inheriting beneficiaries maintains a vaporous social code by enforced silence and social repercussions. These secretive promoters ultimate protection is the orchestrated rational dismissal and denials of their non-existent existence. The most efficient ruse to deliver power is the mythical uncaused event. Intellectual dishonest is seen in patterns recognized there are no random patterns in society or the nature where all spheres are spheres of influence. The mastery over existence by elite-ultraconservatism is so evolved and encompassing its the water of social functioning. Unless you comprehend the ideological designs of the socio-eco-cultural system there are only consistent one-sided gains for a select few and randomness for the rest. I refer to and see our system overlord as the masterdom mode.
Master the Question How, to Predict Which

The plutocrats and the political-class have all the power necessary. The powers-that-be causes what is, because what happens or doesnt is wanted. Power never diminishes it just adapts or is absorbed by greater power. Powers historical fictions are so well established that even tax revenues finance them.
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Superioritys determinism amidst births and lifes many vicissitudes is due to genetic arrogances gainful participation. Elite-ultraconservatives are chained to yesterdays, stultified prisoners of privileges stupor and formalisms subterfuge. Epitomized by ineptitude hidden by status quo non-functioning in important public positions. Coordinated state-initiated paranoiac charades, atwill tactics and prosecutional tyrannys accusation-uendos have institutionalized subjugation and traditionalized bureaucratized subjects. Elitisms encompassing perceptions are so historically ingrained its a root cause of the uncaused cultural totalitarianism. Inferiority penetrates its subjects psychic so deeply the victims explanations accept blame for any failure ascribed. Organized supremacy is merciless greed imposed by ruthless extremism with a willingness to accept extensive self-inflicted losses to sustain superior/inferior perceptions. Eco-injustices conscienceless greed criminalizes poverty by framing blame on the targeted stereotype. Politics puts greed in perception, normality means the good have and are superior, while the have nots are dangerous inferiors. Various layers of psychological vulnerabilities and financial susceptibilities obligate servitude; these efficiencies have superceded serfdoms failings. Social frustration disappears when you grasp enculturation produce serfdom psychology and conditions the habits of ignorance. Enemies are defined by the functions served not the consequences. Information cant be stopped but its usefulness is containable. During a long reflective pause, a deep longing stare with a biomagnetic intensity you could feel between Tannia and Brien, made me realize this conversation was an intellectual Tango of mutual seduction. To further happiness I order them a couple of souffls, as I headed elsewhere.
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The Rich Arent Different but Privileges Advantageous Experiences Sure Are
Grandfather, the social body has an elitist core, conservative skeleton, bureaucratic muscle and a shedding skin of expedience with the blood of power and a consciousness of greed. A crude but effective description. Historically, elites rules through a replicated masterdom of psychological shackling and ideological terror, which generate powerless followers with decided lives. The systems most protective layer is the intermediary bureaucratic buffer that exerts managerial administration over society; a buttress to blur, blunt and eliminate social discontent, and control the burdens of greeds scorn. Bureaucratic authoritarians sit at the center of vast interlocking webs of social power. These executive functionaries coordinates contributory contrivances that direct outcomes into the prescribed with self-serving rationales based on self-initiated facts and supportive legislation. The compliant agreements and complimentary objectives create higher more expensive walls, not progressive resolutions. Institutional confusions stratagems of no accountability no responsibility no accessno change, are the bureaucratic dynamic that correlates to the invisible hand of the uncaused cases. Faceless nameless administrative opaqueness advances dictatorial ends. Institutional transparency is the primary vehicle of social justice, which only requires specific job descriptions and specific area of responsibility being identified with the position; this current holder exposes faceless power, the taxpayers most potent master.
Mafias are Eco-alliances Plutocracies are Eco-syndicates Aristocracys Power-oligarchies

How did the different perspectives influence your grasp of SpanishAmerican History?
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I reconnected concepts to events, which provoked historical perspectives that continue to be refined; patriarch traditions rule lives as bare maintenance possessions. Spanish kings decreed vast land grants to the original conquistadors and the loyal retainers that followed. Royal edicts carried liege obligations that duplicated Spains domestic hierarchical social structure. This established the Americas Seigniorial Society, a New World aristocracy, whose privileges and advantages solidified the foundation for a continuous ruling class of hacienda nobility to exclusive urban club plutocracies. The Spanish Crowns viceroy system was the unifying vehicle of administrative authority overseeing all colonial possessions. Mxicos territories had 31 viceroys at any one time with countless functionaries. This was representative of the situations across the continents. Policymaking for the Americas was in the hands of the nobility-dominated bureaucracy in Madrid, while direct administrative authority was maintained by filling viceroy posts with monarchial appointees from Spain. These peninsulares had royal authority and executive powers, supported by autocratic clerical and local authoritarian bureaucracies, organizations that functioned as Dark Age absolutists. In 1503, the Casa de Contratacin (Chamber of Commerce) was founded in Spain. This body oversaw and regulated all trade to and from the Americas. In 1543, a royal decree granted this eco-alliance a monopoly trading concession within which Spains most commanding eco-syndicate the Indian Merchants of Seville prevailed. Monopolistic regulatory laws allowed the elite families corporations to grow immensely rich and to socially imprint their feudalistic traditionalism on society. Eventually, these transatlantic cartels became quasi-governmental institutions on economic matters for all of Spains America. The oligarchies started in Mxico City and Lima. Soon afterwards, regional consulados were established that branched out into every major city of the Crowns possessions. These then monopolized all interregional commercial activities. Historys most persuasive human motivations are powers command over gain. In Spanish American economic history, the gold was expropriated
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and mined out quickly. The greatest mineral wealth of the Indies was not gold but silver. Silver was first obtained from existing native mines in Bolivia and later unearthed in Mxico, around the 1540s. During this period, mining was extensively expanded by brutal exploitations that was contrived as tax obligations, to avoid being labeled the native slavery it was. Greed and power always desires more, which pushed silver mining that drove the constant demands for loans in this capital-intensive industry. At the same time, agricultures yearly gamble on the rural haciendas also required regular loans to function. Serving these continuous economic needs in the regions made the wealthy trading houses even more powerful by the commercialization of their resources, wealth and capital. The many forms of capital facilitated financial operations to evolve into vast American based enterprises, which were only managed by peninsulares. Over centuries, the size and distances meant the large nativeborn Creoles families developed deeper connections, which developed into direct participation as partners. Eventually, these commercial operations were captured from inter-marriages. Spains aristocratic superiority and autocratic will-to-power absolutes set harsh ultraconservative patriarchal legacies as the New Worlds social value system. This social order philosophy replaced the native cultures with its traditionalized consolidating uniformitys compliant conformity. This utmost proficient expediter perceptually anchored the social orders command as essential, control as necessary and privilege existences entitlements as correct and obligated tribute as normal.
Despotic Absolutes Rule the Many Forms of Vassals

All religious leaderships administer vast economic assets. In the Americas, the Catholic Church played an important economic role from the earliest times. As a circulator of capital, the church provided laymen with credit and investment capital, long-term low rents on real estate and leasing of economic church properties, both those developed by the
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church and those bequeathed. In some areas of the economy, the Church had profit-making concessions, as the principle supplier of social services to the populace. The church even hired out workers, repartimiento as waged labor from their communal haciendas to non-church enterprises. Under the law of the Spanish Crown, inheritance had to be divided evenly except where a morjorazgo was applied. This Seigniorial Society legality enabled the most elite families to evade inheritance laws. Powers privileges passed on the haciendas intact, which made the eldest male the next uncontested sovereign patriarch, while the remaining sons utilized the patrician connections to rule from decision-making positions in the principal public institutions of social authority. These political generals, ministers and bishops had vested interest support and special interest efficiencies that guaranteed the continuation of ancestral heirs. Family members in policy-setting positions within the various social organizations were sources of financial profits and political gains to their families. Generals buy huge amounts of supplies for armies. Government officials place, design and build publicly financed infrastructure projects. Spanish tradition dating from the 13th century authorized aristocratic families to officially exercise the right of presentation for candidates to church offices. This formalized the elite families authority over the church, whose dominance in society was so immense it determined whom a person could marry. Seigniorial powers dictatorial infrastructure and dynastic infiltration made the patricians social order the most influential force for centuries. This caused its vices, indexed beliefs, position values and disordered attitudes to be copied and emulated as the realities of life. Elitist privileges configured and loyal protectors regulated the domestic society into patriarchal tutelage. Ordinary citizen and consumers were turned into passive clients who were submissive through patronage rather than out-right force. Economic paternalisms subjects pay additional percentage on the price as tribute to the patriarchal as provider, the social homage to the master. Paternalistic social orders manipulate social inferiors by fealty and favors between patron and client for ring kissing obedience. The clientele, in return, obtained social protection, in the harsh exploiting and extorting circumstances created by these paternal overlords of power. This aristocratic
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social order inhibited or bestowed the politics of liege economics at-will because its ultraconservatism fabricated the secular domains legal, financial and market processes, which rules the socio-economic actualities. Autocratic domains outside the family had obligated ties bound by patronage to the rule of the compadrazgo (godfather) and the political-eco cuadillos (strongman). Spanish Americas seigniorial feudalism was despotic with absolute subjugation by institutional oppression. Traditional suppressions are the scourges that indentured daily life and servitude existence, which are the flaws of medieval interpretations of the philosophy of power. The stagnant legacies of these ordained repressions are the burdens at the root of the regions continuous moral crusades for humane social justice.
The Politics of Wealth and Oligopolies Configure Eco-feudalisms Autonomy

Grandfather, that was long ago. Only to the nave. A grandfathers lifetime to a grown grandchild can be over a century. Mutations of these dynasties still reign across Spanish America through a myriad of enduring interlocking networks with reciprocal ties, radiating outwards from patronage seats of power. Connected locally and associated internationally with immense political authority and unrivaled economic power. These growing and unbroken chains of prestige continue to establish advantages by arranged influence. In modern times, success reigns behind conglomerate corporatism that have merged into international networks of power oligarchies. These confederations of vested interest are bonded together by shared objectives and the gains of compliant agreement. How does that relate to my living now. Societys actualities are power and wealths references from the corporate state to moneys value system, the only measure of value that reigns supreme because its the only standard of values permitted to flourish. Referencing set the politics of culture?
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No, it maintains the socio/cultural context that is why every branch of power has a public relations department to expedite the social orders orthodoxy of public affairs. PR involves contractors of consensus, the designers of the desired, authors of acceptance and implementers of approved interpretations, a conspiratorial association with facilitating pet politicians. How do you see the PR industry? Theyre just companies that represent the interest of others. That oversimplification is like equating evolution to Darwin or attributing Christianity to King James. Scratch the surfaces of every ideological, institution or economic agenda or strip any uniform, to penetrate the workings of ultraconservative philosophy and status quo politics. Every institutional leaders climb to the top demands ideological purity of the fundamental tint, to cloak this sociopolitical reality takes PRs policies of expedience. PR is a bought service of systematic multi-level persuasion projected as informative, entertaining or the consensus, which is expensive, so projection analysis reads the definitional control messages and situation coding signals. Deductions from projections have value and advantages that become commercial commodities when one finds the right use, tradable across the global inter-exchanges. PRs ways and means overpowers the unordered even accurate information. This influencing includes universal actualities because consistency of structure dominates the randomness of the unorganized. You lose when you win playing in the wrong game. Comprehensions and webs missed make for costly hindsight. Everything interrelates in its sphere, and spheres influence each other. Good decisions take comprehensive perspective with knowing components, relationships and objectives. The art of good organization and decision-making are an individuals most profitable talent.
Humanitys History is the Unfolding of Mans Being And Its Meanings

Humanitys profound subjects like culture and social goals, as well
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as the prime movers behind the sweep of history, power and greed have the shallowest clich conceptualizations. The historic constants of powers wretched excesses and greeds ever-greater pursuance of obtainments are the anguishes of its barbaric reality. Power destroys to exist and greeds insatiable appetite demands ever-more taking. Shared income chains connects the webs of control. Authority upholds itself with subordination by enforcement and terminating, disenfranchisement and marginalizing, undermining and woundability, compliances legal frame-ups imposed on the targeted. Humanitys deadliest enemies are greeds enslavements and antiintellectualisms domination because the consequences impoverish living by systematically compelling individuals to act contrary to their will. Actualities not conceptualized nor structured to sustaining the status quo are overpowered by social context censors and the promoted viewpoints of agendas using charismatic and bought intelligentsia rational-liars, pseudo-experts, nit-picking defenders and soothing earnest presenters, the master of promoting their knowing as the only intelligent possible. Humanity has no such self-serving promoters. Humanitys epic campaigns are not aristocracys vainglorious narratives or militarisms empires or ideological utopian futures but the daily betrayals of individual progress by ignorances conceits and social hypocrisy. Elitisms beliefs, values and attitudes are void of empathy, which maximizes their ruler-ruled us and threatening-them social ordering. This otherness abstraction and exemplary intimidations inflicts sociocultural tyrannies. Social powers nexus power, greed and social order have interwoven motives and priorities. Social dimensions are directed by a compelled conformitys uniformity. Systematic manipulations maintain acceptance by adjusting personal fears dialable vulnerabilities that exploit the induced paranoiac-anxieties susceptibilities. The central issues of the history of humanity are authoritys total indifference to the excessive cost and unproductive waste of its belief-attitudes and conformitys corrosive disordering, not just its economic greeds selective gains for the culture of privilege and its status quos secured corruptions.
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Adolescence and Sophistication Share Similar Vistas but Different Visions

When the colonel reappeared after quiet some time, Brien commented on the absence of his tension. We called him GOman for a code name because his nervous energy had him always going. He had been a welcomed quest in Washingtons offices of power. Where he got the full green light for Venezuela, this success carried an important automatic promotion, considering this projects military value and normal rapid expansion with the outbreak of war. Brien was delighted because, when everyone is rewarded, personalitys abnormalities dont overly materialize. The charged nature of dangerous adventures has exciting physical sensations and marvelous intellectual focusing. Pleasurable sensations similar to the joy of success in the emergency room but this was full-time, without the patients pain and heart wrenching inconsolable suffering of the families. Brien admitted he also experienced strong pleasurable sensations from constant adrenaline production, incited further by the constant stream of focused clarity from the demands of daily events. This seductive, captivating state of being was almost scary. Addictions are highly pleasurable, self-reinforcing activities pursued irregardless of prudence. We had this engrossment for sure but without the acknowledgment or any outward signs yet, of dependence and addictions hidden costs, where symptoms affect functioning. The excitement was contagious. Even the base staffs fantasies were in on our secret mission. The ticket for admission was gossip; easily bought by an ever-increasing audience of whispers. Dreamers shackled to monotony were free for moments by vague innuendoes, projected as inside information of weighty international intrigue taking place in secret. Boredoms triviality begets the disorders present for meaning starved functionaries. This generated a self-regard that had little to do with the actual incidents. Fantasies are unobtainable dreams. Personal dreams are motivational images that are obtainable with dedicated efforts but an unrecognized social wisdom is that dreams pursued always takes the dreamer on a rewarding journey to a better place than the original dream.
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We lived the seriousness of the circumstances because we were fulltime targets, looking over our shoulders, not over coffee cups or rims of emptying glasses. The risk from flight accidents or the frequent end of double agents buried no one but us. Offices do not crash and burn, or are desks executed. Brien humorously announced the impending contract in Venezuela to Toro, Rubn and Gregorio in his office. The attempted joke got a nod for effort. The retorts to some light humor showed the emotional strain each carried in the moments of honesty between friends. The latest penetrating questions were asked; the rest was deduced. This group was nobodys fool. There is no spoon-feeding perceptive man. The life of lies becomes self-evident because time reveals the falsehoods through the patterns of inconsistency, to honest questions and normal results. The latest news from the brass was evaluated into the general situation and the implications of the potentials sketched. They used the military information and patrons details, while reading between the lines of the news. These formed the base line of interpretations that also highlighted the importance of what was being left out; the source of insights from thoughtful ruminations. An imminent shift in of global proportions was underway, worsening from an ugly possibility, to a deadly certainty with ramifications moving faster than anyone could fully realized, which were spreading from those directly affected to encompass humanity. There was a social confusion from emotionalized fears grappling with anxietized projections that blinded many to the fact that this conflict was for the existence of the individual. Hard decisions were being taken against the historical path of authoritarianism that was also setting a new direction for humanity, which meant a fight to the end with the victors philosophy and interpretations setting the future. A political typhoon was being whipped up by the spread of Japanese militarism, which would alter the future of the Pacific completely. The information had profound implications for this small group of international cosmopolitans, who visualized the outline of a sad inevitability. Such knowledge toned down their personalities into a daily earnestness. Gregorio mentioned these Nazis were just another group of bigoted
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fanatics, unfortunately leading one of the finest military traditions. The German army was not defeated in the First World War; it just accepted a political solution after being severally weakened by influenza and the stalemated carnage of reinforced failure, so the armys core returned home intact. The Japanese have never been defeated in war; they gave Kublai Khan his sole defeats, the grandson of Gangus Khan. Their empire spanned from Western Europe to China including most of Asia. Toro added Japans murderous extremism against Manchuria stared 1931 and China proper, in 1937. The samurai mentality and Asian racism drove Japanese aggressions. Rubn said, this mechanized warfare is neo-cannibalism. Brien added dont expect this power-greed to stop, the conquered men will be put into Japanese uniforms and used as cannon fodder by being marched down the next enemys gun barrels, while Japanese soldiers guns are in their backs.
Ethnic Chauvinism and Social Phobias Like Judeophobia Announce the Holders Failures, Psychoses and Disorders
Gregorio said he read a Berlin copy of Hitlers writings, which he got from a Polish ships captain. This German version was more fanatical and racist then the English version that the German Embassys propagandist selectively passes out here. No Spanish versions were available in Tropical America. Toro mentioned many of the new faces in the caf were refugees fleeing Europe. Noticing the refugees but not seeing the depth of their plights was an intellectual error. My unawareness of the obvious indicated that I was overly comfortable in the caf, which was stupid because unawareness is the costliest distraction in life. Not being more in tune to the situation was a good-times emotional trap that occupied my peripheral attentions where early warnings arise. Justifiable as overabsorbed in my dilemma sounded like an excuse, which indicate my intellectual laziness. When one is emotionally responding enjoyably, self-discipline is difficult
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to maintain. Playing at the wrong time is always disproportionally priced fun when the bill arrives. Gregorio brought up many of the new faces were skilled people desperately seeking work in their fields and a few had money to invest. The idea of a replacement for me at the clinic was mentioned and Gregorio said he would follow up on finding a doctor. Panams qualification compatibility, so the high quality credentials of these European refugees would waiver any serious complications. From numerous clienteles conversations, Gregorio had a much more personal perspective on the motivation and costs behind the courses converging. To me the battle was local, more a confrontation with Herr cabrn; war was still a distant abstraction, a darkening squall line clearly outlined low across the far horizon on these sunniest of days. To Gregorio, the war was an offshore hurricane whose stirring winds were constant slaps in the face from the implications and after-effects on innocent civilians and the decency of humanity. These new arrivals were from all over Europe, reluctant additions due to the USAs closed-door policy toward Jewish refugees. Politicians sign positive sounding government law in front of the cameras making it law, off camera its often stamped, take no action, which marshals the barriers of bureaucratic obstacles. Politicians direct all bureaucracies by way of hidden instructions for obscure agendas; they vote the paycheck of appropriations. Gregorio mentioned the main objective for FDR was to protect his New Deal from being labeled Jew Deal. During the anti-Semitic atmosphere permeating his country where the daily want ads read, No Jews need apply, Christians only. Political refugees and economic immigrants invigorate the receiving nations, but problems arise when insecurities link to selective illusions. Immigrants and refugees must acknowledge what failures forced them to leave, which their sacrifices to leave proves. The immigrant truth is dont demand change from what is superior; plan on adjusting or dont come. Traditional reasoning motivated by ideology dont travel well or hold meaning or have value beyond personal psychology. Better places have better practices, so striving
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for dogmatic past and its social failures is wrong and irrational for the generosity shown.
Despotisms Absolutes are Powers Advantages Legitimized by Traditions Premises and Precedents
Gregorio called in a man from downstairs, he said he wanted us to hear. This mans cold rational explanations were from the direct consequences of suffering beyond pain, where thoughts of the soul are the glue of sanity for the strong. After we met him, his clear heavy voice told us his recent harrowing experiences. Germanys official discrimination policies and political aggression transformed the speaker from being an upright citizen to a vilified outcast. Fearmongers political theater and sequenced consensus manipulation had the law redefined. It branded him and the others targeted as criminals. Scripted schemes instigated the summary confiscation of each created victims economic assets. Targeted guilt and povertys vulnerabilities facilitated acquittalless prosecutorial justice that supplied industries with forced labor. The Nazis leaders ruthless perversions generated immoral and unethical changes to what was most likely Europes most highly cultured and civilized nation. Personality and civility were replaced by Nazi propagandas overstated uniform identity, enhanced by heroism images, set to Wagners musical dramas. This chauvinistic nationalism indoctrination pushed ultranationalism using newsreels and radio broadcasts, which made the suppressive repressions oppression easier, faster and deeper. Germanys aristocratic despotic rule-ruled traditions formed a compliant social conscience of rigid followers, which accepted a dictatorial authoritarian extremism that compelled fanatical conformity. In non-homogenous society, perverted social policies are started against the most defenseless; in Germany, this group was the disabled. This castthe-die for the government as the arbitrator of life, which the populace accepted with propaganda belief and fears behaviors.
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Extremist vilification requires psychological assurances of correctness for uncontested acceptance, which negative stereotype connotations and legalized stigmatization supplied. The core of social civility was altered by ultraism policies that produced national-scale criminality for mass-incarcerations. The most infamous antisocial laws were the discriminatory Nuremberg Laws. The official name was The Law for the Protection and Honor of German Blood. Legalism attitudes and political laws enforced prejudices against the Jews in a nationalistic sense. Perceptions of ethnic enemies isolated them as social deviants. Hitlers own words were propaganda. These words made the Jews defilers of human purity, thus a biological threat, which made them aliens at-large in good society. Hitlers pseudo-scientific phraseology provoked the merely prejudiced into fanatics. He regarded Jews as contagious bacilli and vermin, which imaged Jews as malignant and a subhuman species, this generated social convictions that lumped all under one all-inclusive negative label, no matter the vast scope of social categories in every minority. This formulated bestiality framed the pretense for the authorities rabid conduct. Officialized racism generated dense psychotic attitudes and perversions that enhanced powers trimorphism of greed, command and compliance.
Greed is a Product of Mental Illnesses Fueled by Disorders

Powers greed has voracious predatory traits with unquenchable cravings, which propelled state evil against each of the next targeted subgroups. Hitlers suppressions by decree were justified by announcing the lowering of taxes. Eco-propaganda stated the confiscated spoils would be used to defer the cost for the needed increase in the national policetroops. While broadened functions were legalized as citizen protection against the fear of domestic menaces and the possible terrorism by the targeted. Terrorism uses fear to change behavior and targeted violence to facilitate suppression.
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Eco-propagandas sharing in the gains by presumed taxes saved logically made the innocent public into co-conspirators. Therefore, moral taxpayers had no moral complaints against the authorities immoral actions. These confiscated assets were stolen money that substituted for law enforcements normal budgets so it could be applied directly to the militarys budget under the Nazis rearmament programs. Powers greed never gives or returns anything of worth because its psychological infrastructure feeds upon and is justified by the taking. Legalized confiscations are lucrative sources of unearned wealth. No matter the acquisition policies, the redistribution of wealth is always upward. Direction follows structures preferencing. All political actions contain some form of gain for the political class, especially for the most powerful special interest groups, the owners of the means of production. An important social wisdom is such wealth creates its own destiny.
Christians with God and in Historical Fictions But Not with the Law and Profit Taking
Humanitys historic enemies are evil perpetrated on society by villainous conspiracies. Most are unrecognized because greed is so refined it only requires complicity and a few key legal decisions woven within the malleable law. Sociocultural beliefs in laws justice and obligated righteousness make whole populations prisoners of assumptions that are only lost confronting legal actualities. Laws an unquestionable social necessity of customary rule that is mastered by the established to allow or prohibit certain actions; the most worthless law being supreme over the highest ideal. Law and laws order are political smoke screen for unrestrained authoritarianism. Fascist totalitarianism is total political state ultraconservatism with popular delusions. The Nazis achieved political power by engineered events and murderous intolerance toward every influential opponent of the Nazi agenda. Social control was then consolidated by psychologically seeding fear and intimidation throughout the country. Continual fears infectiousness institutionalized the society, which cloaked and facilitated
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these nefarious characters who hold power and paraphernalia above people, citizenship and humanity. Heightened psychological disorders are a ruthless amoral and immoral stratagem to fabricate for surrender of constitutional protections. Systematically depriving targeted minorities of their civil rights of protection and then despotic confiscation of financial assets eliminated self-protection. Stopping the accused appearance in front of an impartial judge legalizes political slavery. Judicial lawlessness and acquittalless inquisitorial procedures of forced confessions, acts of contrition and Judas practices of rewarded denouncers and informers are the root tactics that impose oppressions public silence. This causes governments to become uncaused totalitarian states. Criminalizing social attitudes, individual behaviors, social problems, various medical conditions and genetic differences betrays the ideals of citizenship and humanity, which are political atrocities. Command inspired and institutionally engineered civilian neuroses from manipulated fears intensify paranoid anxieties. State propaganda justifies this extremism of authoritarian routines, which are crimes against humanity. Secret objectives and hidden agendas are skillfully concealed by the complexity of various indeterminate implications. Contributory propagandas partial truths fluid vagueness produces pointless communication, the ultimate bureaucratic smoke screens for society. While bureaucratic clarifications thicken the verbal fog because there are no specific explanations, established answerability or scheduled resolution. Political conjecture becomes public evidence in the social atmosphere of enforced compliance. Yesterdays honest citizens made into criminals of imprecise victimless offenses legitimize political slavery. Forced labor dehumanized and exploited in prison factories defines bureaucratic enslavement. Public extremism in the social value system is justified because civility, ethics and morality are all made into secondary considerations to expedient legality. Unethical legalisms carry consequences that destroy civil societys humanity. The law is malleable because it serves influence not ethical morality.
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State propagandas positive statistics mask each new category of undesirable in organized oppressions. Large-scale oppressions are themselves legalistic criminality lost in the black psychologys negative manipulation. Such vast conspiratorial undertakings require unimagined hidden consent agreements across the social and economic spectra, including commercial agreements with potential enemies national corporations subsidiaries. Authoritarian standards of values are justification for at-will expedience. Believers honor the national paramilitary police as societys protectors, no matter the mentally diseased actions of its members as saviors because in executing their jobs, no laws are ever broken, due to the fact bureaucracies do not arrest themselves. The various uniformed and operative obedience enforcers are always rewarded with high social status entitlements, legitimized by codified ranks deferential treatment. This ill-rationalism facilitates disordered stupidity in dissociating and denying the execution of the basic honorable existence of humanity. The Nazi dictatorships legalistic frame-ups formulated a socially accepted bureaucratic inquisitions deadly efficiency, the historic death plague of confiscated lives to seize assets. The evilest doers were the police-troops of the German state police. The gestapo was a critical part of the Nazis elite paramilitary unit the schutzstaffel (ss). Both the gestapo and the ss epitomize law enforcements political task of controlling social order, no matter the truth. Events were spiraling into another hell with the heaviest repercussions for the innocents and unprepared who always suffer most. Saul was a patron who escaped Germans inquisitorial racism with part of his family. His experienced insights were profound, a devastating reminder of the evil present in all men, which takes so little motivation to emerge and tolerate. Intense intellectual screams against confiscations deaths by powers legalistic evils. Our freedom refugee was burdened with a modern social role, truth crier because he was an honorable person and precise witnesses to the history of another political inhumanity. The men in the office had a focused hatred one could feel. Gregorio was very disturbed; Rubn and Toros veins were bulging. Brien had the serious stare of calculating concentration. Words limitations and
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Aristocratic Arrogance Preserves Comfortable Mediocrity Integrity Sustains Greatness

The next day, the same group was back in Gregorios office. This time the visitor was no less than a German prince. The German aristocracy as a group is the ultimate practitioners of personal discrimination and social intolerance, due to the best presumptuousness money can buy and selfish conceits corroborate. Usually the nobility wears their superiority, but this man was a true nobleman, not a bloodline scoundrel. The prince expressed a monstrous social structuring with broader entanglements and comprehensions than Sauls but their separate measurements confirmed each other. This was an orchestrated plot, spreading and consuming from the authoritarian pyramid downward without compromises. He fled Germany because he knew the inner workings of Nazi organization and saw the political ideology as repugnant. His perspectives were gained by the Nazis aggressive recruitment of royalty into the partys highest ranks with direct commissions into the elite ss officer corps. He detested the demented strategies and his morally corrupt social peers, as the Nazis bought off the amoral aristocracy. In too many cases with the profits of unrestricted slave labor used in the possessing-classes factories, fields and mines. Inhumane atrocities hidden behind regal families corporations with appropriate fees to avoid any liability of responsibility, whether moral, legal and financial. This insiders viewpoint revealed insights to future actions and directions, beyond the deceptions for the ideological fodder. The ideological fanatics dedication indicated this totalitarian ultraisms goals were to expunge enlightened mens ancestral futures. The princes turning point occurred while he watched from an official car as an obviously innocence persons collapsed in panic after an ss officer order the gestapo agent in the front seat to arrest him. The ss
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officer laughed while the person fell to the ground. When the prince asked what was so funny, the officer said he knew the person from school and never liked him.
-Ism Denotes Distinctive Beliefs and Formal Practices

The prince said tyranny has an established format only fools suffer because its so obvious. Militarisms authoritarian core has many forms but all share an amoral extremism toward obedience and self-preservation. Tyrannical actions of compliance due to degenerate physical violence and psychological perversion are routines, as are quick deaths for its cost-efficiencies and psychological tortures behavior modification for its silence. Oppressions psychological intimidation most potent weapons of subjugation are the sacrificial victims. Simply arresting the most obliviously innocent people in front of the most witnesses, spreads fears sense of vulnerability in panic proportions, which expedites repressions self-subjugation, the ultimate enslaver. These formula-based stratagems extrude a self-disciplined social cohesion. Unrestricted aggressions on susceptible paranoia-anxieties induce a fear-consciousness across society that solidifies compliance. At-will tactics and prosecutional tyrannys accusation-uendos are calculated evil that eventually depersonalized society with guilt by suspicion and expected denials as conformation. Historic truth, civility and ethical social values are disavowed by infectious propaganda with crime measured in paranoid conjecture and drops of blood, going back generations. The structured advantages of institutions make greeds insatiable satisfactions self-perpetuating because unrestricted intrusions and executions obtain the desired. Numbers and profitability increased dramatically with genocide confiscations. Cash flows motivate authority, especially the bounty-driven, black uniformed dysfunctional police troops and their evil psychoverted leadership. Greed and commands despotic control makes rigid compliance the social order. Resistances to
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Ethical Phobias are Group Psychoses that Supports its Members Neuroses
The prince said the powers-that-be are the opinion-makers whose special interest finances policy. Public administrators are policystrategists and decision-makers with the privileges of command and entitlements of obedience. All power brokers and institutions operate conspiratorially, which only means plotting in secret. The law defines a conspiracy as effects centrally coordinated. Any criminality is in the decisions taken and goals sought. Bureaucratic complicitys entitlements of shared profits furnish the protection for massive human destruction. All subjugations require cohesive and conspiratorial circumstances that change society because the corrosive corruptions of cultural values reflect the psychoses of greed. Saul sat back while the prince spoke, studying him. The princes nobility of character noticeably affected Saul as the tension in his earlier facial expression eased. Saul realized more than we did what was involved in his walking away. He told the prince he was a man of great integrity. Saul also proved himself a man of great integrity because his character had no displaced aggressions or comforting deception, no matter how justifiable. He was an individual who could raise himself, for the best in a terrible personal situation, beyond all the pain and evil, which is the truest nobility. Saul mentioned the ss and gestapo never preached Nazism. These groups executed the subjugations for bureaucratic priorities and personal needs, secure behind the ideologys legitimacy and institutional immunity. Impunity for the perpetrators unrestrained enforcement of the systems oppressive agendas allowed personal wants and disorders a free hand. The motivation of ideology is more in the psychological profile of the follower, than the infallibility of the prophecies.
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Toro said silence is evils strongest ally. Psychological and physical torture hides behind the vagueness of what constitutes abuse and acceptable force. Word games and procedural ploys dismiss accusations that are historic facts due the medieval nature of the work. Enforcers and executioners are a subspecies, who are perversely represented by social propaganda and over-rewarded for inabilities and poor education. Saul said abuse, even torture may not have a legally precise definition for the doers benefit but he knows it, when he deals with it. Toro added so does every black person, but what is amazing is the extent of successful social brainwashing that has eliminated the existence of centuries of white slavery that was feudalistic serfdoms. This historical wallpapering over what was, is the reason for the continuance of so much costly inhumanity and individual destinies in inhospitable societies because we avoid the facts were all minorities with enslaved ancestors and every nigger on every totem pole is created. Brien said the descendants of European serfdom accept belief parables as history. Sauls stated, beliefs are organized perceptions abstracted into overaccepted conclusions. Brien added carrying out beliefs says more about the person than the belief. Gregorio brought-up the total disregard of societys social mechanics concerning ethical action and answerability, which makes manipulation possible and all of us involved. What is profoundly wrong and a travesty for humanity is all these organized manmade evils are repetitious and preventable. The prince said, the originators know the deeds purposes so maintain official distances. Brien added the guilty facilitators are vaporous institutional unknowns, seldom publicly unmasked, judged or punished, which finesse atonement because of a scapegoat or the infamous uncaused events.
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Saul added, Humanitarianisms due process for everyone has an absolving moral justification and an ethical obligation that legitimizes the instantaneous summary dismissal by the securest means available toward all order-givers commanding the potential death or torture of the innocent, harmless and powerless. I mentioned authoritarians deny at-will. Job responsibility obligate and job performance mandates at all times that those above know and be kept informed of what those under them are doing. Toro added pyramidal procedures prevent personal discretion because internalized fears sustained by perceptions of one-way mirrors as ceilings, the see-through floors to those below. Gregorio mentioned pyramids have no vertical exceptions for involvement and single-acting formulations have no horizontal exemptions. The prince said authority authors legality and morality, which have designed-in self-protection from nuances of deniability and verbal labyrinths. Phantom statements of determining liability are wellworn statements for the gullible. The show-offerings sacrifice of the lowest rungs on the institutional ladder only validates the chain of guilt to the top because of the power needed to place of blame, which stops guilts climb and critical thoughts incriminating possibilities. Toro said commands drive structure utilize rewarded disorders and acceptable force to compel submission, but less acknowledged are the procedures of institutional regulation that alter the mind. The prince condemned the social criminality of expedience politics and the psychotic inhumanity at the hub of command that allows a few maniacs amoral violence to subjugate vast populations as nationalistic sanity. He looked at Saul and said the intelligentsia insecurities and apathy allows paranoia agendas to get popularized. True condemnation requires diagramed assessment for these organic webs of evil. The facilitators, doers and profiteers are the causers. They avoid complicity because of the institutional command of society and fools belief in stings of randomness and the uncaused. Sauls victim-centered view was toned in fresh pain, as he mentioned
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in other wars the few rich Jewish financiers helped finance both sides but not this one. This time Americans corporations and its PR corporate neutrality are working with the Nazis supplying strategic material, even using slave-labor to supply the Hitlerites war machine. I asked, didnt he mean Nazi sympathizer? No! Hitlerites are commercial profiteers as opposed to the disordered gestapo and the bureaucratic ss mercenaries. Nazi sympathizers are the products of successful propaganda or nave believers due the political capital from a few progressive social benefits. Rubn said officialdoms gain attest to complicity. Policy-setters priorities and decision-makers procedures facilitate occupational conspiracys denial but are inexcusable social atrocities. Command responsibility is the originator for the crimes of obedience, which leaves the responsible agent without choices. Platitudes of just following orders or its my job are insulting idiocy because only reasonable, practical and ethical orders are obligated to be followed; loyalty and obedience stops at crime and murder. Rubn said greed caught always turn into accusation dramas that the power of power suppresses. The system never evolves beyond barbarisms inhumane reactions or theology beyond sincere moral words. Brien added behavior follows propaganda so enough repetition turns shallow familiarity into beliefs, but even truth does not justify, legalize or annul the issues of occupational perversions. We all agreed the historical constant of inhumane perversions must be recognized, labeled and criminalized but they never are because hacks and thugs enforce the official line murderously. Mental disorders may not know better but the educated classes sure as well do. After bottle-storming attempts we arrived at: Political atrocity crimes (pacs) concern compelled behavior with excessive physical or psychological torment and damage, done randomly or organized as forced bondages or parasitic dependences. Dysfunctional psychoverts (dyps) are the at-will obedience participants whether profiting, actively involved or accomplices by
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silence who deliver the unrestrained violence, including the evilest tyranny the damaging of the foundations of a human mind. Bureamaniac parasites order and implement vicious policies and depraved actions for the deluded and deranged. The anonymous evil-power behind the pacs and dyps. These violence-mongers are medieval throwbacks, whose evils are beyond ethical considerations and moral judgments. Saul and the prince were victim-witnesses. Their information ended any doubt and eliminated any considerations from personal thoughtfulness toward this violent depravity of ruthless power. If the Nazis delusions of grandeur flourish in Europe, where would these enslavers targeted genocide stop, and at what cost?
Ultraconservative Elitisms Hierarchical Cults Form the Social Orders Deciding Authority
After the prince left, Toro asked me, Why was I smiling? The German aristocracy has historically maintained the most cohesive heritages in all of Europe. This formidable aristocratic cartel of power traces its roots back to the officer corps in the wars between the unconquered Germanic tribes and the Roman Legions. The noble prince was from within the Hapsburg lineage, a genealogy pedigree said to extend back to the Roman emperor Augustus the 1st and Aeneas the Trojan hero of Virgils Aeneid. Such ennobling fiction is the work of court historians, whose motto is what needs to be true is true and what ought not be true is not true. His bloodline has been prominent since the 11th century, furnishing sovereigns to the Holy Roman Empire in Central Europe. The ancestral roots of our nobleman have a direct uninterpreted intimacy with the attainments of Western Europes culture and history. The prince was probably even related to King Carlos I of Spain, a German by birth. Carlos I was simultaneously King Charles V of Germany and Emperor of the Holy Roman Empire with an ancestry of something like 17 titles and their respective domains, which composed a major part of Europe. An empire built on feudalistic serfdoms with its economic squeeze societies and slave economies.
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Carlos reign started in 1519 and lasted almost 40 years. Various direct offspring then followed him into the next century. This family plutocracy controlled the vast increase in transportable wealth and immeasurable treasures from the New World. They expropriated the Royal Quinto (the 20% cut on all precious metals mined in the Americas), as well as all import duties and sales tax receipts from all transatlantic commercial activities for centuries. The family commanded the start of modern history as its policysetters and decision-makers, which set the course of civilization. This power oligarchy in some social form of vassalage gained off all our ancestors for centuries as feudalistic fodder or economic dependencies. The Hapsburgs have been the master of global intrigue for centuries and probably still are the most powerful and reigning power oligarchy, now made invisible by accommodating laws, aristocratic discretion and bought history. My grin was due to the fact we know such quality men from the different ends of the social spectrum and shared so much with them. Universals are mankinds equality; all else is egotistical illusions and delusions. Toro slapped Saul on the back while saying we know the masters good son as an equal and smiled, as we all did. Gregorio added they were both natural aristocrats honest, virtuous, candid, reasonable and tolerant and, considering the circumstances, very special men.
Freedom to Decide is Lifes Greatest Privilege

The German ancestrys cohesiveness and alliances are comparable to the feudalistic Japanese. The ultraconservative ancestral rules of German aristocrats preserves peerages command, formal conventions and restrictive marriages policies that restricts members to inner-class marriages, under penalty of ostracization. Aristocratic purity has a celebrity identity known as blue blood. The visual sign of elitist superiority are the visible color of the facial veins on the fair-skinned.
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The German aristocracies most reactionary subgroup is the Junkers. These aristocratic landlords uphold reactionary elitist beliefs and ultraconservative ritualized authoritarianism. Junkerism is a major social pillar of German militarism masked behind the Nazi agenda. Racial fascism is complimentary to traditional aristocratic ambitions, fabled elitism and nationalistic tribalism. The German nobilitys are so entrenched they are the custodians of German culture and the opinion-setters of Germany society. The effectiveness of aristocratic social customs has secured elitist exceptionism not applicable to me conveniences by legalistic designs. Grandfather, historical gaps are intellectual vacuums that comparisons fill with interesting connections. Gaps and related connects like the profiteers of blood-sweat without gain for a laborer is bondage; forced labor in inhuman conditions is enslavements slow mass-murder. Historical gaps on aristocracies are centuries of genetic-mes advantages. Traditional privilege remains untouched and unapologetic, richer than ever, absorbed in big illusions of petty self-centerness with holier-than-thou arrogance. Their History is the heritage business of and for power. Social powers inner class enviewing of itself is a well-financed fabrication industry of necessary historical perspectives. The superiorclass noblesse oblige is to elude the liabilities of moral and ethical responsibilities or negate social atrocities, so peer participants can retire to the sheltered protection of the family estate after every failed foray, unmolested. The aristocratic heritage industry pursues historical perfection and overambitious conclusions using credentialed restorationists and academic public relations, whose revisions and reconstructions renovate facts to refurbish privileges bruised and myths lost. Heritage interpretations confirm superiority, while legacy advantages confirm inabilities. Historiographers authoring trimmed and embellished fiction become official, which legitimize this impertinent class propaganda as fact. Aristocratic historiographys are centuries of privileges will-to-superiority premises framed in glamorous dramatic events for patriotic emotionalism.
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Besides unanalyzed history advancing court histories, whats involved? Historical literatures self-proclaimed essentialities are perceptions that set the tone of social coherence. Historical novels information, values and intentions embed the enabling logic to sequentially flow along the structuring of commands labels. This intellectual composing carries forward an essentiality that preserves the social orders incomparable superiority as necessities. Authoring text out of context with subtext and pretext is ordained as official by printing them as textbooks. All written text has a silent authority, which is especially true for textbooks. The overall context is the major purpose of organized orchestration. Contextual texts are supportive of longevity and the social powers glorious future. Contexts frames subtext with singular rationales, pretexted for ideological obligations and self-serving references. Textbooks are one-sided interpretations that legitimize, conceptualize and substantiate the intellectual focus of education, which graded mastery confirms that totally influences future interpretations. Give me a historical illustration. Feudalistic serfdom was European slavery, from and by birth, people were the property of the feudal estates master. Serfdom was the complete psychosocial subjugation for a lifetime; a cultural absolute with contributory substantiation from societys other esteemed institutions. Feudalism and the Americas plantations imposed fates and determined existences have no consequential difference and too many similarities not to have shared roots. The shackled existence of slaverys overwork and powerless conditions and the chains of serfdoms manacled families to overtaxed fields and powerless directed lives are degree questions. Accurate historical perspectives may never know the vast conspiratorial involvements of these plutocratic and eco-syndicates enslavers. Whats more important are the representative understandings of all systematic enslavements and the enslavers. The similarities, roots and legacies would enlighten the future about the efforts involved and the true loses and costs for the traditions of subjugations.
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Historys most influential unwritten subjects the centuries of contributory ideological enslavements reduced to the meaningless nonspecific term serfdom. Oversimplified texts, pretexted in childs imagery reduce the context of this paramount historical subject in Western civilization to a footnote subtext of grateful fortunate inferiors. The evilness in the cartels of greed is in the stolen lives and long slow murder of burdens, which are actualities transposed by the theater of perception with the delusions of content peasants in biblical fields of edenic fantasy. Social literacy uses the insightful perspectives of Italys long complex political history Cui bono Who benefits? to determine the invisible string-pullers of anonymous influences hidden behind the delivery professionals. Who gains who loses, carry messages that infers unknowable answers. The Spanish que costo is the cost analysis. This expense evaluation questioning penetrates conspiracies by seeing expenditures as investments in whatfor what, which connects cost and gains; the actions taken for the consequences desired. The political charades euphony that avoids guilt and blame is penetrated by whose responsible whose fault, the extensiveness of the misdirection indicates the powers involved. Dont you mean que costa, the cost in time and effort, while the heads of governments are always responsible? No, que costo, those cost in time and effort in the large scale of the historical overview. It may be the presidents responsibility but its usually the perpetrators of greeds fault.
Group Behavior is Attributable to Culture Human Behavior is Attributable to Environment

Spains geographical isolation and ideological encapsulation of time, plus close to 800 years of being subjects of the Moors caused Spain to miss many of Europes most important historical events. The philosophical roots of Spains medieval serfdom went unchanged and burrowed deeper into the cultures rigid social customs and traditionalized attitudes of compliant ignorance.
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The artistic individuality of the Italian Renaissance overturned the medieval view in urban Europe but Spains core went untouched. Spain never went through the Reformation, which taught the power of the word. Nor were the Spanish realms populations exposed to the Enlightenments rationalist beliefs in reason and human progress. Spain also missed most of Westerns mans most profound cultural influence, the industrial revolution. The residues of this legacy delayed Spains modernization to current times and still haunt Spains colonies. Social literacy reads the dynamics to understand the status quos self-interest, which pays to get the situation that serves maximum profits without consideration no matter the secondary or long-term cost. Cui bono tells social powers stories; que costa tells the victims stories and que costo gives accurate history. Powers events play themselves out over powers established formulations. Orthodox methodology is a social strength but an intellectual weakness. Closed mentalities and unchanging interest cause functioning to be a string of habits. Consistency has predictability, the few variable aspects and unfolding sequences are the details in which advantages can be had. Empowerment recognizes and understands power and weakness.
Iberias Vast Empires Never had the Sun Set Centuries before Englands Sun Rose
What happened to the aristocratic plunder and wealth? Candor is usually buried somewhere behind abstract ideals and lost to expediences reasoning. Relevance has powerful enemies and important historical themes have uncontrollable power. Castles, financing aggressions, greeds paranoia, and elitist vanities are costly diversions that expose arrogant inabilities. Inner European history concerns inner-class warfare over expansionist agendas territorial consolidation and political solidification. Wars of greed and battles of vanities among the various plutocracies and allied oligarchies were the major preoccupation for
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centuries that demanded large armies and expensive campaigns. Financing warfare is a large-scale commercial enterprise, which carried very high interest rates on the loans to compensate for the cost of financing the losing sides. Historically, the consequences of continuous feuding by national aristocracies spread Americas plunder across Europe. Spain squeezed silver mines; its European enemies squeezed taxes. The Low Countries traders, German and Northern Italians bankers moved vast amounts of wealth via war loans and foreign debt, which are old and well-funded means to move wealth and work capital.
Context Determines Pojection Direct Expenditures Explain

The Catholic-Protestant label and framing covers the confrontations of rival inner-class powers toll setting agendas. The Protestants preach all men are equally able to find the path to heaven, this conflicted with Romes autocratic gate keeping. The history of humanity involves the ramifications of conflicting interpretations of the same ideologicalized agendas with their well-established methodologies of aggrandizing. The Northern Germanys nobility were the facilitators behind Luthers legitimate complaints against Romans stipendium practices and most rewarded expediters of his acquisitive individualism. Noble agendas are self-serving with multiple attainments. Organized protests are very expensive to finance, so they require personal gains direct involvements. The gains of German aristocrats despotism involved increased local authority via political simony, which Luthers principled protest legitimized. The most contentious point was usurys malicious greeds perpetual gains. These social-economical practices incarcerate the status quo quite profitably. The ancient cults of powers autocratic squeeze economics and greeds usury maximized all gains with debt and burdening interest passed down over generations. Usurys odious debt is not valid if its essentially imposed by force or
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manipulated circumstances. The practices of usury went against the Popes wishes and the Catholic Churchs doctrines. During Spains reign of plundered wealth, Carlos and his son Philip both went to battle to support the Papacy strongly, as the great defenders of Roman Catholicism and Europes largest interest-paying debtors.
Best Information Best Protection

Seeing clearly sees through the complexity of involvements and interprets what is? The more unusual the experiences both successes and failures, the more unique the knowledge and perspectives. The fortunate break through the acceptance habits and the circular psychological ruts and develop penetrating vision without the need of catastrophes. Where did the broad range of interest and informed positions come from? Self-awareness honesty and the art of conversation are the short cuts to wisdom. Importance shared empowers by displacing the assumptions of the received; this generates the constant rewards of operating beyond the imposed. Tertulias are intelligent encounters of subtle potent joys. The participants enliven conversations are motivated by intellectual curiosity, the root of knowledge and the dynamic force behind creativity. The stimulating empowerment shared carry mental attitudes far beyond the disruptive sins of curiosity that fundamental theologians preach against and the Stoic philosophers envisioned. Tertulias with friends generally revolve around the caprices of human nature, the chaos where aesthetics and logic meet or the history of sociocultural policys intractably complex effects and function. Whose political themes sound important but reduce to overconfident words with inflated meanings. The usual tertulias conclusions on the various directors of culture and henchmen of society are unfortunately always too similar but the deductive routes taken by the speakers are always interesting because they reveal so much of the individuals inner self.
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Tertuliano participation is an intellectual exploration that creates the two forms of pleasures, diversion and attention with the added anticipations of further enjoyments, which indicate the highest form of stimulating pleasure, intellectual awareness. Grandfather, what is awareness? Awareness utilizes the mental processes as it unfolds and responds. The thresholds of recognition are very subjective phenomena with a range of dynamic alertness for being conscious or cognizant, which can be very weak stimulant or the deepest reflective event or comprehensive understandings of complexity. Awareness clarity involves a certain effective humbleness, which facilitates opening new levels of concentration that connects to actualities. How does awareness affect an individual? Awareness introductions tune one into the symphonic connections of consciousness. What is consciousness and conscious? Consciousness is lifes mysterious universal unity. Conscious is the domain of the minds becoming rather than being. How does a person become involved? Embrace your life, and patiently invest yourself. Start with focusing on watching your breath, which calms you down and brings you into the present. This opens awareness and possibilities. One learns the immediate from observing the elements of self and reviewing what ones mind is thinking as the thought flows. Then follow your thoughts wherever they go. Mindfulness is sustainable by harmonizing deep breathing and awakenings therapeutic strengths, especially unattachments liberation from cravings disempowering. These practices free you from the control of received perceptions conventionalities, then you learn stillness and to develop it into silences depths. Our spacious present emerges with the fullest involvement in a centered but highly charged state, full of life as it is. This furthers the moments events, the occurrences of the goings-on in living. Neutral responses open deeper recognitions to what is happening right-here-andnow, which is where one starts the empowering journey to clarity.
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How am I going to remember all this? Live it and add to it, because once the blinders of ideological indoctrinations prefixed psychology are lost, self-confidences enabling strength evolves from the insights of uncoveries. Choices and decisions determine life, so establish yourself as the intellectual center of responsibility because there is no authority above you or outside your experiences. This makes you answerable to and for yourself, not tollgate beliefs.
Ethnocentrisms Superiority Beliefs are Deadly Presumptuous

The situations were being managed, but Brien told me we needed time off for some reflective deliberation on events and the future. First thing the next morning, he landed on the remote spot on Madden Lake that runs out of the Zone perpendicular to Gatun Lake. At the end of a service road, a beautiful grass and shade tree clearing touched the refreshing rainwater-filled lake. Two ladies had set up camp with fabulous food and vintage wine. The image made me laugh about Tarzan in his fictional idealistic African jungle, a friend of primates never the companion of impressive native women, which leaves open the question of having hormone and behavioral challenges waiting for Jane. In a quiet moment after a long swim Brien wishfully mentioned the Caribbean Indians beautiful islands living in an abundant nature. I mentioned that Cristobal Coln severely altered ancient wellestablished cultures with contemptible ethnic-based masterdom aggressions. Historical perspectives should be based on humanity concerns in time frames with proportionality. Historical suggestions about the population of the American continents at the time of the Spanish contact ranged anywhere up to around a hundred millions, a population much larger than smaller Europe. Reliable statistics about the inhabitants are difficult because this considerable population did not live in uniform societies. The natives adapted to the many distinct ecological environments from nomadic
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hunter-gatherers to fully sedentary civilizations with political organizations and social complexities as extensive or greater than their European contemporaries. There has always been a wide-range of social philosophies and structures across the Americas, due to extensive variations in geographical circumstances ranging over these vast continents, which are longer north to south than Europe and Asia is east to west. The natives fatal weaknesses were susceptibility to imported diseases and confusion in dealing with the invaders. The Mxica, who we call the Aztecs, fought under a completely different code of conduct in war. They took prisoners, whereas the conquistadors massacred to intimidate. Intellectual ambivalence and a hundred thousands rebellious warriors from numerous enemy tribes of the Aztecs became the conquistadors allies, but the conquerors victory seemed mostly good fortune and bravery in desperate situations. Indian Americas remaining population suffered as casualties of war, subjugation, forced labor and malnutrition due the disruptions in society. The successive waves of grim fatalities from foreign diseases following the invasion almost annihilated the native populations. Within a century of the Spanish arrival, it is said the indigenous population of Mxico and Peru dropped by 90-95%. This was due to domesticated animals were minimal for Amerindians cultures compared to Europeans, so as a source of most fatal diseases the natives had no defenses. Most disease is genetic. Epidemics infecting agents have genetic drifts that are tiny mutations just large enough to slip by the bodys many defenses. While the infecting agents of pandemic involve large genetic shifts due to gene substitutions by the infecting organism that then adapt to humans. These cause illnesses for which humans are defenseless. Zoonotic diseases natural transfer of microbes caused tides of death that killed whole populations. The illnesses from animals range from cattles smallpox, tuberculosis and anthrax to dogs passing rabies and measles. Influenza and a host of others come from swine, which when ranging free transmits microbes to hunted animals. Leprosy is from the water buffalo, and the common cold comes from horses. While humans spread smallpox, typhoid, influenza, mumps, measles, whooping cough etc. with plague efficiencies.
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Brien said enough and dove into the lake and swam to our friends on the moored seaplane. As they relaxed on the wing, I recognized his reaction was correct, I needed to get away from my personality.
No Personal Effort Means You Repeat

I stayed and swung in a comfortable double hammock. The essence of the mind is non-reducible to underlying casual basis, which are unknowable but recognizable. My inner-self calmed to the moment that passes through the panes of awareness into the deep silence far beyond ones inner theaters emotional dramas and edgy anxieties. Personal spiritual moments give religion its authenticity. The sense of spirituality is clarified for individuals seeking understanding during the rough passages through livings crucial experiences and scaling lifes difficult peaks. No matter the name of mankinds spiritual summits at each, clear seeing touches the entirety of oneness magic span of consciousness. Life is about this connection and integritys appropriateness not ones comforting conventionalities. Living is about good, the innermost benevolent desires, and bad, the burdening disconnections. Both are challenges to grow upon not the foul lines of guilts blame game. The pleasure derived from daily awareness has a growing appreciation for the magnificence of mans creative capacity with the self-expression in excessive moments and the reflections of excesses, which are sadly lost to the context of conformitys uniformity. Awareness is the light of actuality; dreams are the shadows of reality. Dreams reveal messages with neither grammar nor time. Meditations can be the concentrated concentration on a specific or nothingness of a clear mind, which deeply calms oneself or thinking clearly about the stimulant triggering responses of the mind. These facilitate re-evaluation from priorities contingencies and enjoyment to intentions. Conscious impressions recognized as my out-of-self dreaming drifted into its pleasant atmosphere of being.
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Errors and Improvements Must Question Held Concepts

A flock of noisy parrots flew into the trees nearby; the birds coordinated but spontaneous behavior set my thoughts about questioning not what I do but why I do it. The brain works subconsciously to generate our conscious mental state, as memory rules language and perceptions structures interpretations. Meditative awareness catches the thought triggering the response, following these thoughts is informative psychological intelligence. In this calm relaxed moment, I noticed my body had physical reactions for no apparent reason. Seemingly random physical actions of involuntary nervousness indicated internal mental states definitely effect behavior. Ideological-psychology implants many biased perceptions with cultivated convictions supported by personal weakness. This modus operandi misdirection steers the self away from ones individuality to uniformity. This false-fronted deceit is delivered by conditioning particular responses through social indoctrination toward circumstances, which overwhelms the other possibilities. Empowering intelligence is learning not to need a particular attitude toward a circumstance, so you are not dragged around by it. Sociocultural articulations and supportive attitudes with social wisdoms that empower the individual are nonentities. Letting go of thoughts by not identifying or reacting immediately to the thoughts is intellectual maturity. The labeling of thoughts specifically and following them to the minds influences develops the recognition, which acquaints oneself with how ones mind functions. You see your influences in the interplay between projections and responses. Staying with each thought to grasp it leads to understanding yourself. The source of anticipatory reactions are the concern, which seem to generally be the well-conditioned responses of insecurities, while the tensions are the mental and physical interactions. Stimulating reactions alter the psychological mes neutral response, while overemotional responses cheapen the value of ones emotions. The nervous reactions to thoughts without direction or purpose are merely basic existential
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anxieties, which are best managed by a deep breath and the mental reminder to do whats happening right.
Effort has No Mistakes

During the picnic Brien and I talked on-and-off about what all this calculates into. Being relaxed in nature helped the calm creativity in us to emerge. We saw how we could manage our future better and discussed when the curtain should close. The connected silence was broken by a suggestion from the ladies that we all swim out and sit on the wings to watch the sunset. In the twilight, Brien and his friend decided to spend the night in the goose. Ashore, the jungles background noise was the loud whine of the insect realm. The night was spent in and out of vivid images and forgotten profoundness. Quietly calm beneath the mosquito netted hammock, snug against disturbances, when the slightest bare touch of a woman awakens lifes precious moments of deep connections and deeper gratitude. My subconscious subliminal stimuli and perceptions turned into sensations of flowing colorful images, dreams that had an ecstasy felt. We departed early after the tropical maidens served mornings passions. In the air, Brien expressed his concerns about the dangers. The pressure and involvements in this situation had pushed us well past previous references and mental boundaries, which demanded our best efforts and reanalysis constantly. The revelation carried unimagined complications and the final possibilities clarity forged unforgiving decisions. We soon landed back at the airfield before any rescue parties were sent out to find us. As we entered an uncertain GOman was pacing in his office with intensity. He was unsure on how to response to our story of having had problems and a bad night with things now shipshape and needing a day off. His intensity was still there after we left. Brien said this morning was a shot-of-fact into routines yearnings to blow away the clouds of men stuck in the foxholes of the mind. Midway people stuck on a treadmill life are spectators stuck in the ruts of banality due to frustrations and denials. We were stuck with the dangers of the
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cockpit and the mental demands fought through daily. Any positive effort beyond the poorly configured drudgery required would have restored some confidence in the institutional culture. Any positive expression that showed forethought would have restored some optimism and stopped the growing skepticism and erosion of negative cynicism. Briens actions were more an intellectual slap for these uniform workers that we were doing valuable, unique and dangerous work. Too many defense department employees identify with the soldiers life being a calling requiring superior efforts and involvements of great accomplishments. Soldering is many different jobs each adequate for the personalities that fill them, almost everyone having a compatible private sector equivalent. To me, besides always being in a group under regimented supervision, there was nothing special or different between a soldiers existence and anyone else. Civilian lifes daily challenges are just as demanding but without the soldiers extensive specialized support network and subsidized cost. Military careerists downplay their advantages by false perceptions and hidden facts like working people sacrifice to pay the bills hourly, psychology does the fighting and conscripts do the dying. The militarys presumptuous middle-management types distinguished exploits are carried out on the battlefields behind their office doors. In the open market, the entrepreneurs are the societys all-stars and the private sector is the first string. A percentage of officers are idealistic warriors; some generals are giants and too few ministers are saints. But the assessments in life, to be fair, must always be on the individual, while position performances are judged.
Interpretations Reveal Needs and Express Intelligence Motives Reveal Psychological States
Grandfather, your friends preparedness and unpreparedness helped you see the needed and positively engage the void beyond ideologies? Sharing demanding high-stakes team work showed the need of an
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experienced based psychology and what is superior philosophy. Contemporary literacy starts from What is not. Serious intellectual efforts assess and separate the extraneous. Just the concept of Humanitys history reorganized hundreds of random and uncoordinated facts from a lifetime of excerpts. The themes of literacy evolve from the need to clarify functions for livings deepening complexity, these conceptualizations are intellectual articulations that optimize, which makes maturitys openness to honest criticism a wonderful challenge, and change into an exciting ride. What was the background on Briens attitudes? Briens mastery of being and freedom parameters actualized set him apart as an actuality liver and a reality explorer. Entanglements with advantaged failings protected by formalisms psychological moats and the spun cocoons of disordered weakness emotionally bloodied him. His conclusions were wisdom gained from confrontations with the limited interests of power and mediocritys normality with its manipulations as accomplishment and appearance as success. Briens intellectual maturity made life easier and success greater on the next try. His temperament was effective motivation that created seasoned truths progress. These produced streams of consciousness and calculated creations that were enriching gifts he gave generously and I took whole-heartedly. The consistent help of those close and the key moment input of so many others helped me syncretize my wisdom into a symphony of harmonies for living with uplifting overtones that make things right. Was Brien a man of faith? Briens social faith sprang from Democracys ethics, not plutocratic morality. Brien had no faith in fixed principles. He had the occasions of serious and unique experience.
Complications are Glass Hurdles in Executions Confusion is Unorganized Delineation

Grandfather, Briens viewpoint saw social victimization. What is
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the individuals defense for this all too common social psychodrama? Recognizing what is has obvious appropriate responses. Empowerment eliminates inferioritys limitations and the false senses of necessity. Confronting the ideological prioritize relevance by utilizing sciences concepts and its tools of inquiry, because these confirm or invalidate ideas and things, therefore clarify thoughts. Sciences inherent integrity of rational replicable information has shortcomings that intellectual thugs contexting exploit to discount its acceptance and use. Over-specific points dont extrapolate into credible over-general conclusions. Some scientists have closed and dated comprehensions, while other academicians have mastered deceptive deception, the art of knowing exactly where not to look. These personal decisions have caused the flaws of agreed-upon canon with the established views selective prejudices and biased histories to remain unchallenged and far too entrenched. Yet scientists most disheartening features are the cowardly attitudes in facing up to science justifying greed and conflict avoidance over industrial explanations concerning known and surmisable hazards. Social literacy differentiates between agendas obstructionism and life cycle loses, while discerning the dynamics behind the politics of knowledge that vested interest profiteering denies at compounding wastes accelerating cost. Grandfather, contemporary literacy needs an informed skepticism because political and psychological projections influence all references, even truth. Value-free science is the legitimate theater of change whose dramas replace ignorances continuous tragedies. Sciences human chronicles of men living and surviving the aggressive raw forces of natures overkill and the biological imperatives are understandings being rewritten with ever-greater accuracy, confirmations and selective scrutiny. The vast archeological and anthropological evidence ascertains human natures ancient universality. Perspectives that continually become more extensive via genetic evidence and older findings. The knowns, theories and speculations reveal that our ancestors keep getting more connected, smarter and more interesting, as the latest scientific theories
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themselves unfold. All the while the planet has become everyones backyard, and humanity is outside the front door. The politics of power trample the soul of humanity. Scientific realities are aggressively opposed because the implications challenge the confederation of vested interest with their established canons profiteering. The most poignant being biological equality and genetic susceptibilities define medical issues not criminality. Secular power requires ever-more potent methods of psychological intrusions and non-discernible executions to control societys growing sophistication. Credentialed sects and intellectual Judases promote concurring interpretations using the mechanism of power to disempowerment and delegitimize the challenges of human natures biological authority.
Personal Ethics are Supreme Because Public Morality is a Facet of Coherence Theory
Tropical nights are long cool refreshing period of comfort. They have a prominence in the tropics contrary to the north. Living long into the night is an idiosyncrasy of having fun in urban Tropical America. One night, Rubio Roy was headed for Gregorios office through the icehouse entrance with the look of focused purpose, which meant a serious conversation. Later in the caf, Rubio Roy said he bought a farm, his first piece of private property, and was marrying Truti. True happiness for both of them was my reaction and a good bottle of wine celebrated. He repeated Gregorios philosophy that a loan was a personal obligation and repayment established a man as class or trash. The commonness even admiration of greeds thievery required written contracts. A gentlemans reputation states his character and credibility publicly, which is his most important personal asset; evading even verbal contracts terminates respect. Success is keeping ones word with appropriate actions and considerations. Semantics arguments and poor
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memory are the pathetic validations of failurers; lies are the psychological abuses of frauds, no matter the dumbness regurgitated in full ill-rationality. Because Rubio Roy watched the outside of the caf nightly, he was the man to ask, if he saw anything the night Jones disappeared. He said a man followed Tannia and Truti that night. When Tannia went into her house, the person followed Truti. At the cemetery on the way to her house, he attacked her with a knife; in the pursuing struggle the attackers skull contacted a hard object. Fortunately, a newly dug grave was nearby, to which a couple of extra feet were added while Truti keep watch. Rubio Roy knew who the attacker was, which was why he buried him, no evidence no case. The next morning they attended a quiet burial, as distant spectators.
Cultural-frauds Social-frauds Male-frauds Nameless Transgressions

A day or so later, over coffee with Toro, we caught up on currents situations and the over-all predicaments. My main curiosity was about what kept Gregorio so busy because he was never in El caf. Toro told me Gregorio had set up a shipping and nautical services business near the wharves. Gregorio and he had volunteered to add their connections to a group from the Jewish community of Panam that have been securing passage for fellow Jews for years aboard out-bound ships from European ports to any country that accepted refugees. The situation and numbers now demanded Jews seek any possible country, by any means. Gregorio was organizing refugees as passengers for ships transiting the Canal, destined for countries with restricted entry policies on accepting disembarked passengers as refugees. The plan was to take them off while transiting the Canal as in Prohibition days. He and Toro were using every maritime connection they could to increase the number of vessels carrying refugees. They knew lots of captains and many owed large gentleman favors and they were demanding reciprocation, even paying extra.
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Favors are the currency of men of character, the personal wealth so prided by anyone lucky enough to live in an ethical community. These intangible social value accounts carry immense importance because favors often obtained priceless assistance, which furthers lifes possibilities more than money. Favors are opportunities that enhance progress with understandings based on personal trust. When the advantage of favors are wasted from inadequate efforts, this misuse of opportunity indicates character disorders, as betrayal and stealing confirms failure. The cost of the giver in obtaining the opportunity to bestow a favor is the loss of a valuable asset. Dishonesty toward favors obligations undermines common mans advancements, which has historically countered the genetic-mes privileges. QUID PRO QUO avoided is stealing. Every favor due was being cashed in, to aid the refugees escape because the situations was worsening and becoming costlier both in money and danger. Some ship owners and captains were admirable, but some were just social-frauds stealing more than money. The first ship to Panam with Gregorios involvement was to arrive in a couple of days and a second a few days later. After these, the scheduling was being firmed up. Toro explained how secretive and highly organized this was because the international political climate made public support too controversial. The Jewish people have been fighting for survival against a worldwide propaganda campaign of orchestrated information suppression and negation for years. Leadership-frauds maintain power priorities irrespective of consideration; so imposed extremisms are routine. Toro had talked to old Canal friends. He was upset about the lack of concern much less full cooperation from the N-A canal workers not wanting to get involved. Most agreed to help in any feasible way, while others hid behind the rules. Toro was told the Armys officer corps with their empire illusions and elitist biases did not want Jewish refugees in the USA. Toro said that when a man has no personal discretion allowed in his job, he was unrespected and psychologically being treated as an indentured servant. In urban Tropical America, work does not define a man or give him his identity and a worker bee consciousness is far from a dominating aspect of employment. The labor laws seem very pro-labor
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due to serfdoms legacies that ultraconservative obstructionism maintain. Labor rights will evolve a harmonious relationship in a couple of thousands of years less then what it took for the profound organized abuses to develop. Bosses who are realistic understand human natures priorities, those that do not feed their disorders and greeds frustrations. Employment identity as existence and the fear of its loss induce psychological enslavement. The stronger the insecurities the more a psychological refuge employment becomes and the easier the disordered subordination to psychotic whims. Employment that humiliates is servitude, a needless counter-productive misconception, and another serfdom legacy. When individual courage places ethical and human value considerations above the price of selling ones time, this is a noble expression of integrity. A man tested, proves or fails only himself. Failure has no real self-esteem, only arrogances bravado. The adult males greatest challenge in life is to become a gentleman, the best representation of himself; a mans man on the difficult road through the harsh hostile social architecture of elite-ultraconservatisms structured advantages. The journey to maturity sensibilities itself carry rewards because so many benefits are gained along the way and shared forever. The male-fraud misrepresents his comforts as deeds of meaningful accomplishment but these pseudo-achievements lack the soundness of empowers individuals. The pathetic-self hides behind the eyes avoided in the mirrors of personal reflections.
Talented and Wise Co-workers Make Work an Effortless Dance

I adjusted my schedules so I could see Gregorio early the next morning at his home to volunteer my medical and physical services as a crew member. Gregorios plan was ready and there was a concern with the refugees mental state and physical fitness from the events of their difficult treks before the weeks aboard the ships. He accepted my offer, which made me feel really good. Naval security patrols were around the clock among the ships at
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anchor waiting to use the locks. Ship launches were checked and any out of the ordinary movement was investigated immediately, situations that held potentially serious complications for the refugees and the operation. The first ships transit was late in the day thanks to help in the port captains office. We met at Gregorios boat in a serious quietness. Toro was present with two women translators. Sherry and Pat were cousins with the accents of fluency and confident mannerisms of experience, which gave away their cultured refinements behind the quality casualness. Their job was to handle and comfort the passengers initial fears, as only women can, especially with children. To my surprise, Cris was crewing. He would handle the lines and fend-off. He was a tropical banker working with Gregorio and his associates, as a front man to various embassies and businesses to facilitate the intrigue by downplaying the operations Jewishness. Cris left to call the Canal Masters office to confirm the transit times lock schedule. When he returned, the freighter was making headway toward the locks, so we launched. In the moonlight on the still lake above the filling locks, we waited with the unique and satisfying sense of mission. We shared a focused energy on the run to pick-up the freighter, as it made headway out of the last lift lock. Gregorio fell astern, in minutes the signal-light came across the stern and, as instructed, we moved along the starboard side. A long unstable boarding ladder was dropped; our adrenaline-powered arm strength made the moving ships boarding ladder seem like a set of stairs. The women matched us in pure determination and climb handover-hand up the rungs. On deck, the ladies instructed the eight young children and four young adults in an unfamiliar language. Due to the womens personalities, the refuges seemed confident that all was OK, an alert guarded neutralness replaced uncertaintys fears. You could feel the emotions. The refugees were traumatized but in good health from a superficial examination of each. The refugees were secured with safety lines that Toro and some the freighters deckhands controlled for a smooth and fast ride down the side of the ship on to Gregorios boat. The first disembarking was euphoric, which put enthusiasm
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everywhere. Everyone felt good about taking direct actions. A few nights later, we went through the same drill, but this time the passengers were teenagers and one adult couple. We had the same team, but the passengers were from different Eastern Europe countries. The translators found whatever language was necessary. The team had the situation well in hand. A week later, the next freighter had been repositioned at the last moment in the locks schedule. The delay was due to the immediate transiting priority for all military vessels when they arrive at the Canal. Unscheduled mysterious dark ships arrived under cover of night and moved like fleeing silhouettes. We took a slow cruise along the lakes shoreline during the delay. Comfortable on the stern of Gregorios boat, an insightful image flashed into my mind. Gregorios normalcy had a high state of proficiency. He had full presence with a note-by-note composition and a connoisseurs savoir-faire; a wild eccentric unnoticed within his social smoothness. His boat was ship-shape and maneuvered in understated mastery. The confident style came from experience and incredible organization behind a casual elegance. Situations functioned in smooth effectiveness around him, things getting done moving towards completion with a seamlessly into the next event. The way events are supposed to unfold, in contrast to the varying degrees of jerkiness from the uncertainty between step-tounchoreographed-step performances. Gregorio was proactive unique, an individual operating smarter. He was so graceful in his efficiency that he glided. Sustained by his allaround sophistication, he never seemed to have to try. He always appeared to be relaxed and enjoying the admirable full-life he created. Everyone benefited and many took advantage of his considerate unselfishness. Jealousy is the psychological response of failure and envys small-mindedness denies any meaningful apperception of unique accomplishment by a cultured intellect. Vanity and disorders set the emotional dramas of tragic insecurities. Originality highlights individual artistry, the quality is confirmed in the responses. Sherry and Pat observed me studying Gregorio and each radiated a smile at me. When I rotated fully smiling back, they had already turned
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their heads. In that instant off the black surface with a half moons river of light, Gregorio cut the engines; the silence amplified the pose of silhouetted profiles radiated a screaming magnificence. The soft whispers a man dreams are about him. Focused moments adrift in the nights stillness echoed in a deep awareness. The emptiness of not touching such perfection was a sad necessity, as dedicated commitment exceeded the moment. Vast unexplored love stabbed my heart, as circumstances and timing overwhelmed possibilities. I rode on the stern waiting; the stillness held intensity that the slow powerful rhythm of the freighters prop amplified. Before I knew it, we all watched as the quiet movement swept the first person down the ladder onto the precisely positioned yacht kept under the stern, not a sound was uttered until Toro came down last. The next freighters were in route; my idea to Toro was to put our crew on the ship before it entered the locks to transit the Canal. This way, we would only have to climb down, which would cut the risks. Within a week, we boarded in the harbor. Briens priority and future rendezvous conflicts were straightened out because Eduardo agreed to take my place as needed. Eduardo with his enthusiasm was a perfect replacement. We were fortunate so far because the refugees that arrived were young, but eventually some would arrive sick or psychologically affected.
The Essence of Friendship for Individuals is Ones Personal Integrity

Over drinks with Toro, Brien and Rubn events were talked over in detail both recognized and appreciated the efforts and offered to help anyway needed. Brien commented that bonds from shared efforts builds the basis of the truest friendship, a human reward in its finest, which is a close second to the fortunate with a loving family. I said bonds are the strength of sharing that remains after the events.
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After Toro was called away, Rubn asked me how I met Toro. It was a long story. Rubn said we had time. One evening, early in my medical career, Toro came into my office and asked me so completely for help, no other considerations existed. There had been a terrible accident. Toro gave a detailed description of the injured mans compound leg fracture and his decisions to stabilize him and not more him. This was smart because transporting him on a long rough painful ride would have further injured and probably infected the leg. My first indication something was different was that he docks and mooring stations were in the opposite direction. We rushed along parallel to the Canal, and then Toro cut into the Zone, arriving at the waterway where a high-speed boat was waiting. The boat launched immediately, in a remarkably short time we were at one of the islands in Gatun Lake. What annoys me is there are few circumstantial accidents; most casualties are victims of a lack of discretion, concentration or selfdiscipline. Using the misdirecting concept of accidents sidesteps the participator-centered involvements. Accidents are participant errors, singularly or in a concatenation of events. Man always blames things, which are nonfunctioning inert entities; this avoids placing the fault of accidents on human errors and the institutional shortcomings that cultivate weakness, inabilities and problems by withholding the knowledge that empower. Peoples mental states are the causes and the responsible component, not inert objects. Cars do not have accidents, drivers do. Alcohol and dependences as excuses are indications of psychological situations needing evaluations. This human error involved a vessel from Los Angeles bound for ports along the Atlantic Coast. The ships crews were taking on a contraband cargo of Prohibition liquor, from small boats during its transit. Canal pilots are government workers and it was known they were on the watch to report any Caribe privateers bootlegging, but there is a legal requirement for vessels transiting the Canal, set by the pilots monopoly that requires the ship to supply the pilots with their meals during transiting. Toro kept the pilots occupied and seated looking forward in the
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vessels wheelhouse. He put a chef aboard with the best ingredients at one end of the Canal. During the time the smugglers transferred the illegal cargo, the pilots were kept occupied by being served outstanding, heavy wine-flavored five-course meals during the 8 to 10-hour trip. Good food was cheaper and safer than bribery. The oldest most neglected rust buckets plying the seven seas, would have a gourmet galley transiting the Canal. Fortunately, Toros advice on the nature and extent of the injury was accurate, so we had the necessary supplies to repair the injuries. With Toros help, I put in an intensive effort on the patients damaged leg. This minimized the damage, but injurys complications have complications of their own. Jerry the injured man had a sociopath temperament with the spiteful attitudes of a meager outlook. Pathetic allusions of underplayed superiority generated an existence of difficulties and a world of psychotic denial. His silent arrogant negations were perceived in presumptions of intellectual flawlessness, which fueled numerous disorders into a calculating evilness. Functioning psychotics hear nothing but insecurities fear. Mental inabilities come in self-reinforcing groups. This worthlessness was a downward spiral of mental deterioration and a life of social disintegration. His psychotic density blamed Toro for the accident, me for the limp and held everyone else responsible for his bad genes.
Psychotic Disorders are Contagious Social Illnesses

Rubn said, he has known the fool since playground ridicule set his emotional age at permanent adolescent. Jerrys genetic ugliness falsefaced envy and jealousy greed made Jerrys manipulation shrewd but not smart enough to learn while doing or grow amidst manly challenges. I mentioned his betrayals are those of a knowing sociopath due to his psychotic density being applied when his premeditated deniability fails. His evilness is a cowards passive aggression. Brien said the personal weakness of Judas betrayal is the evilest sin in the Bible.
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I said Jerrys a one-dimension genetic cluster is unhampered by intellect or the needs of a creative mind. Hes a s.t.s. Rubn said his appearance defined him because he lived his ugliness. For years, Jerrys wife was an alarmist patient, whose dim-witted nothingness was missed by responses to good symmetry. She never saw any connection between her misery and her complaints. She was trained by his disordered opinions and lived a shared pessimism that rationalized his slithering twisted selfworth. Their stupidity extended greater efforts stealing and destroying positiveness than obtaining success from the golden opportunities their friendship hustling landed. Dysfunctional couples bonded in disorder dependences with groping hormonal moments in unlit filth served as selfish reprieves in the psychodramas of a wasted existence. Dysfunctional co-dependence driven by inabilities frustrations and failures desperations are abusive but the evilest is abusing by inflicting premeditated self-gratifying damage. This makes psychological perpetrators worthless. Embracing domestic violence and/or psychotic irrationalism to sustain disorders are psycho-perversions. Antisocial behavior and general psychoticness cause ill-rational acts that psychotic denials fraudulent corruptions try to hide. Pain is pain; all pain hurts physical and/or psychological, no matter the source or the area afflicted. Inflicting psychological pain is equivalent to the senseless physical violence.
Evil is a Primary Force in Man, Made Intrinsic by Design And Our Psychological Conditioning
Brien asked what is s.t.s. Stupid trash shit. Rubn stated hes just another SOE, son-of-excrement. The extent of his failing and his willingness to do harm are lessons so painful to learn, they must not be lost.
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Such life experiences teach problems dominate the personality and expanded my primary motivators for negative consequence besides fear, greed and weakness to include the acquired and constructed disorders due emotional ages response capacities, physical imperfections neuroses and psychotic densitys denial, whose way of life damage and destroy. Evil is one of the most deadly serious aspects of living, so it must be comprehended. Evils acceptance is assembled.
Sociocultural Flaws Flog Humanity and Scar the Human Spirit

The gist of Western philosophy says man measures the value of life in intangibles. The pursuance of intangibles distinguishes men of character from the victims of compliant mediocrity. Cultured individuals strive for the highest feasible manifestation of human ideals. Personal developments efforts and accomplishments empowerment starts with admitting and utilizing what one does and does not know. Intelligence is the product of biology and lifes experiences. Mental laziness incompetences categorize the self-handicapped and indicate an intellectually challenged personality, whereas the mentally challenged have understandable encumbrances from biologys dominating life. Brien stated the foremost impediments to a wonderful life are accepted limitations and psychological barriers. But without exception, people are psychologically damaged from a variety of influences that produce many problems and inabilities. Rubn said Dantes Divine Comedy that was structured on Aquinas Summa Theologica, the core of Catholicism, needs a few of the rungs added and many other religious text need to be revised for modern knowledge. Take the disordered gratification of Jerrys degenerative psychosis and premeditated aggressions. The individual is
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responsible for making themselves psychotic-menaces existing on dysfunctional ugliness. One is only responsible for the realistically correctable, not the consequences of societys flaws. No one is a criminal for genetic behavior or a sinner due to interpretations of abstractions? Dont the true sins mentioned in the Bible seem the actions of underlying psychological disorders? Brien interjected, true sin? Rubn added sins not the sin-uendos, like blasphemy those offenses that undermine absolute belief in religions autocracy more than offends a verbally sensitive personalized god, so insensitive to such universal pain and human suffering. I mentioned we are taught not to discuss religion and politics. Brien said, thats an anti-intellectualism that facilitates the status quo. When discussing sensitive subjects that need to be understood mature personalities communicate rationally in a dispassionate manner. Reacting from emotional references are warning to be careful surpassing the inabilities of those involved.
Visual Literacy Deciphers Imagery in the Theater of Perception

As I entered the caf one morning, my thoughts were lost because Cris was seated next to Kathryn in an intense conversation. This seemed to indicate he was leading the pack, for Kathryn to share her special time. When we had a private moment, he asked me to say nothing about the refugees. Then in another private moment with Kathryn, she offered her services in any way needed including seduction. When I looked surprised, she said, true seduction captures emotions. Just then Liliana joined us, preoccupied with concerns because her daughter Mayas youthful attractiveness was getting complimented into self-destructive behaviors by too many selfish outside influences due male lust. Young egotistical know-nothings enthusiastically agreeing to
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Mayas every statement and action, no matter how erroneous or disorientating the implications. This immature adulation was undermining Lilianas constructive criticism, during Mayas hypersensitive adolescent years. Liliana was concerned her daughters self-image was being manipulated for some hard blows by entertainment values as maturity and advertising illusions as importance. But most disturbing was Mayas believing too many different intricate entanglements getting labeled love without grasping the obligations. Kathryn said experience trusts nobody and accepts nothing without questioning both the good and the bad. Rex said substantiate everything and demand answers and dont get distracted by verbal ploys. Questioning as a reflexive response is the best defense because you get a moment to think and assess what needs to be. The concern was Maya, but the wisdom registered with me. Grandfather, your friends all sound like you. Assimilation is the ultimate memory. What relevance stood-out? The relearning processes triggered by the wisdom of close friends and benefits of their insights. Astute females are mind-openers; their being helps unravel the deep personal psychology in the emotional minefield around pleasure. Explain emotional intelligence and maturity? Emotional intelligence handles and resolves lifes affect-laden expenditures, especially the painful ones. Maturity is the adjustment process applying what works better, which develops and uses patience, a wisdom of age. The journey to maturity is through honesty. Mature-honesty requires the loss of attachment to desires and vanity concerns for lifes ongoing engagement with the terrifying but liberating realization that we each face ourselves, our demons and God alone. Maturity handles changing circumstances with the control of detachment and reactions with perspectives.
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Continuous Failures are Traceable to Deficient Attitudes And Incomplete Knowledge

Time moved slow relative to our minds, which raced constantly as decisions moved long distance. We were finished with the Canal, but our inventory of work was still being released at an advantageous pace. Brien wanted to start the United Fruit contract. He expressed his characters limited focus and frivolous party mentality by cashing the retainer immediately and depositing very little. He said this maneuver obligated the contract, which fortified the plan. Briens complex mastery was delivered in direct simplicity. We were so early the first morning of the new project; Brien had to find the sergeant in charge of the fuel truck. The walk across the large apron to the airplane before the heat of the day, which had a light tropical breezes warm sensual feel. I sat in the airplanes door and followed Briens hunt around the airplanes and hangars for the sergeant. As the tropics huge orange sun sat on the horizon behind Brien, his movements cast a long shadow in his search. The exaggerated shape in fluid movement was a shadow dance of self-confidence broken by friendly morning greetings. Images choreograph meanings, visual literacy is the in the full expressions of visual syntax. Success is the conclusion of experiences awareness; his style had responsibility and civility. Learning is a continuous development process we naturally assimilate because it facilitate the moment. Correct manners have a sense of proportionality with an interplay that bestows knowledge directly. These common neutral reactions complement learnings intrinsic connection with the imagination. Good manners are vital to learning and civil discourse. Civil manners are mental processes that keeps the moment open, which are usually closed by premature assumptions and arrogant behavior. Civilizations codified manners are moments of possibilities that open occasions for furtherance because manners neutralize reactions. Meaningful manners start with an appropriate smile and end on a sincere thank-you. Thankyous are an art form of subjective expressions whose style makes for
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serious statements, not the meaningless platitudes of rhetorical avoidance that is formalism. One of the foundation pillars of Japanese culture is its ethical code of conduct. This civilizing tradition acknowledges mans inability to expunge his aggressive nature, so individual esteem is built upon ones ability to control his manners. Codification of social elegance structures courteous behaviors that take the natural tendencies for aggressiveness and coarseness out of mans social interactions. This perspective on appropriateness is far-removed from pride and servility. Social proficiency in and mastery of manners are important social statements. Important subtleties missed and dismissed by the uncultured, but are loud declarations that reverberate in silence to the sophisticated. Social wisdoms are simple, potent and effective. Positive changes to ones self lead to remarkable changes in life. Just putting on ones best face influences lifes trails, tribulations, traumas and tragedies by stimulating ones emotional responses to grow into the attitudes worn.
Livings Complexity is Confusion Due to Unorganized Thoughts and Unused Wisdom

After Brien returned with the fuel truck, we mapped out our flight plan to photograph the United Fruit properties and other requested areas in Panam. In an hour or so after these were photographed, we flew to Uraba, Colombia, a couple of hundred miles away. In the air, we got our bearing and took most of the shots before we landed at Urabas small airport to refuel. Uraba is the same jungle as Panams but barely cut into, the architectural shock had us back in Panam before the Canal was even conceived with the pace of daily life from that era. Brien asked me about the local history because he heard it was a violent area. The modern history of this area started with the United Fruit Company, which was founded in the 1860s. The corporation exported bananas from this region to New York City. By the 1890s, it was the
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worlds largest agricultural enterprise. In 1928, its Colombian plantation workers staged a ferocious strike for basic needs. The passions of injustices overwhelmed the local authorities. Colombias plutocratic seigniorage called in their national army as strike breakers. The historical mechanics of strike breaking are the standard techniques of ultraconservatisms violent suppression that have been used against every challenge to authority. The deadly confrontations that followed produced the Colombian labor unions and their militant esprit de corps, which has played a large part in the decades of civil war that many say, is a war still being fought. Brien mentioned unionisms organized protests are societys principled forces of change for social progress that challenge the abusive workplace attitudes of serfdom assumptions and conservatism with its despotic nonnegotiable never-give-a-inch belief. This calcified medieval assumptions and ownerships inner-class command over legalities directs authorities muscle, as controllers of the acceptable that set the causes definitions and legitimizing arguments. So fairness moral high ground is only established by pain for changes gain because the demands are never permitted a full and public hearing. Collective advocacys legendary battles and heroics to correct social inhumanities do not even receive an appropriate phase in the social orders history books. Union martyrs suffered to improve basic human conditions that raised societys common decency. These workingmen created gigantic liberal social progress that were victories for the powerless and carried gains for every employee both workers and managers. One of the greatest accomplishments of generations of union has been breaking the psychological chains of serfdoms legacies that internalized the superiority of authority and the acceptance of punitive attitudes squeezing almighty profit with traditional conjecture that embrace the meager. Treatments and results, not biases or isms, define the numerous types of labor servitudes and bondage prisons. United Fruits history in this region reflects the ugly side of the corporate cultures autocratic arrogance, which at its worse as it was here, was too close to forced labors give the minimum extract the
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maximum. Power sets interpretations; here the North-American citizens immense generosity is overwhelmed by many inhumane corporate realities. In Tropical America, there is no confusion between political propaganda and humanitarian efforts or plutocratic politics of advantages and the policies that disadvantage. The days that followed were so normal, as to be almost boring. The GOman was organizing his work and had no real interest in our work in Colombia. We went to the bank with the rolls and Brien brought some prints, to show Herr cabrn who wanted to hear every detail. The pictures of the airport even made him almost crack a semi-smile as he dismissed us.
Consequential Biographies Without Histories

One late afternoon in the caf, I was sitting with Rubn and Brien when Pat and Sherry walked in with a third woman of beauty; a Parisian educated trans-European named Nora. During the introductions Rubn discretely pointed out the Nazis seated two tables away. While we danced Pat mentioned Nora was London-bound, to work in some hush-hush business for the British. The ladies were giving her a going away party. We were well into a case of the bubbly and not showing discretion. Nora had the volume up on the record player and the three were singing along with the music. This was the first time the cousins ever displayed a spark of youthful happiness. Nora grabbed a seaman away from his table of fantasies next to ours to dance. Her aggressiveness turned on his lights. He danced a rough mans sincerest effort at courtly grace, which held an earnestness that was admirable. When they finished, we all clapped. Afterward, two of the Nazis office-types with espionage ambitions made an ugly comment in German. Nora jumped up and faced them in a forceful German voice. She said something that grabbed their attention. The mood changed so intensely it cleared the alcohol from my brain instantly. The merchant seaman and his mate at the table in between started talking at the Nazis in swelling voices. The conversation was in German, but no one needed to know German to grasp this argument was going in an
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ugly direction. One of the Nazis stood up and said something loud and went into the mens room. Immediately followed by one of the merchant sailors, who locked the door that switched on the occupied sign. The danger sign was as automatic as the doors occupied sign. Toro and Rubn ran to the noise in the bathroom, which drew the attentions of the cafs workers immediately. At the mens room door they all pushed but the door was too secure. The remodeling held up well with all the pushing. Brien sat staring at the commotion. Just as the upheaval was gaining more momentum from the furious noise inside the bathroom, fast movement out of the corner of my eye drew my attention to the other two players in this unfolding climax. At that instant, the other big rough sailors fist broke the Nazis jawbone and a large beer mug in his other hand went back across the face. This knocked the falling body back in the opposite direction. Then the sailor calmly reached over, took his Nazis wallet and continued his smooth movements out the front door. After a few very long seconds, the bathroom door was finally opened from the inside and the sailor walked out calmly, leaving a badly beatenup body behind. Toro and everyone elses attention was on the man in the bathroom, which let the other sailor leave unmolested. Toro and Rubn were too experienced to become involved and looked past the sailor. Merchant seamen are hard men in an unwavering and fierce world; a simple reality mature Panamanian knowns. On instinct, I treated the man who was bleeding profusely from the long-deep lacerations across his face that exposed his broken teeth and jawbone almost completely. Nora kneeled next to me, leaned down to his ear and in a loud voice said something that got his attention. The shock was profound; his eyes were the size of headlights. I asked what transpired. She had told him every time he opens his mouth again that he will draw attention his repulsively ugly scars and badly disfigured face, so he had only a miserable lonely life ahead of him. She offered to get something for a bandage and returned immediately with a damp towel that I used to close and cover his serious wounds. She said she would hold the towel in place on the loud mouth after the wounds were manageable and told me to check on the other man in the bathroom.
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Near the bathroom door, the man next to Nora on the floor screamed out that sound past pain, the sound of terror from the soul. Running back instantly, Nora had emptied a large salt shaker into the deep cut on his face. Her face was expressionless as she calmly turned and walked away followed by the cousins. Both injured men went to the hospital in a taxi that I instructed to wait. The men were in bad shape. One was suffering many broken bones, the other severe trauma carrying a scary future. Mans hand-to-hand violence inflicts physical pain and can be as damaging and deadly as any manufactured weapon, but women know-how to psychologically destroy a man. After the Nazis were sedated and the suturing sequences decided and initiated, the young doctors could practice their facial stitching techniques. My feelings were dispassionate toward the large stitches by novice doctors that result in large ugly scars; the price paid for such arrogant audacity. I returned as fast as possible to the caf, but the women were long gone. Brien had not moved, only changed to double scotches. He was mentally focused in facial-lined reflection. His thoughts kept their own counsel. His personal rage was always applied into actions not talk. He felt talk dissipates personal powers force. The women were reserved, detached and distant. None of us knew anything about them, including where they lived because there had been no social exchange at all. Toro was gone and Rubn joined Brien and me on our way to Gregorios maritime office. My mind was flooded with situations and possibilities that had me in a state of heightened curiosity. What these young women must know from experiences were lessons I am glad to learn second hand. We explained the situation to Gregorio. He knew only as much as we did about Pat and Sherry and had never met Nora. He had talked to the cousins when they visited him at his office, and despite his best efforts, he could not get past the weather. We decided to find them through one of Gregorios associates. They were located at an apartment where they were just seated and talking calmly. We asked what started all this. Nora said the Nazis recognized
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they were Jewish from the Yiddish used and insulted them. Noras fanatical hatred just exploded, which got the Polish seaman confrontation going. Pat told a short version of her and Sherrys horror story. Their fathers were taken away after the family registered with the police as Jewish with their radios that were confiscated. When his letters stopped arriving, their mothers sent them away together. They only had each other now because their mothers promised letters never arrived. Nora was a new friend from the hell of similar circumstances. She received a letter from her childhood nanny and returned home from school to see for herself if what she had been told was true. She found strangers living at her parents estate. When she confronted them, the new residents sent for the police and she had to flee. After months of refugee uncertainty, the three women had come this far. Their aloof magnificence grabbed your attention and controlled detachment kept you interested, while their deep penetrating eyes drew you in. They saw in a cold actuality, looking through everything and reacting to nothing. A concentrated look showed them to be younger than I thought. Their faces carried the strain of a difficult existence, not the age of years. They told us they were handling the situation with no difficulty, but Noras actions changed their plans and moved up their passage to England to enlist in the fight against the Nazis. We had a round of drinks and the women unwound. It was obvious they did not talk outside their circle. As the ladies defensive shells fell away we felt honored to share this intimate moment of awe-inspiring womanly beauty blossomed before our eyes. The conversations were not of misfortune or heartache but of flashing moments of life observed, as they had to move past or through events. You knew they saw the wonderfulness of living, in fleeing moments captured with a yearning for other more enjoyable experiences, but events pushed them through realities they had to endure. This rare demonstration by such beautiful young women had my emotions in anguish. These women were princesses of life and any force of man that denied this beauty was sheer evil. Their metamorphosis from innocent girls to burdened women without the marvelous moments in between were heavens lost to psychological wars fought. The words stolen youth registered in my core. When you physically feel the words meaning
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you are feeling the human experience, that languages server limitations tries to capture.
Composure Utilizes the Useful Emotionalism Undermines the Useful

Nora spoke from the heart of knowledge, in homage to her banker father and his understandings. She said dishonest histories and the discredited are endorsed by silence. The historical cycle of political opportunism is guilt by accusations that are matters of policy and historical reality. Purposed victimization is political self-servingism, which misdirects the publics natural sense of injustice. The derogatory images of the rich Jews and the Jewish money merchants are perpetuated by the ruling class potent innuendoes. This emotionalized bigotry historically vilifies the diverse multiethnic Jewish people. The early Jewish financiers served the unmet needs of the powers-thatbe. The influences and profits of these Jewish financial enterprises quickly attracted like-minded domestic aristocrats, who all practice the religion of wealth with its principles of uncontested decisions. All financial groupings are hierarchical, nationalistic, religious and ethnically oriented, sheer domestic greed forces out all nonmembers. Insiderdoms access to positions of influence is the key factor that determines the participants power. These national syndicates and their accompanying class connections quickly surpassed the court Jews limited financial and political base. Powers interest, nationalistic realism and monetary institutionalism direct the economic sector. By 1914, the industrial countries had growth patterns of national finances that delivered ever-greater annual wealth from vacuuming nationwide taxes and expanding revenues due to the states economies-of-scale. These massive sources of yearly wealth supersede all other economic activities measured by factors of magnitude that make the largest private financial operation very minor in comparison. The financier ranks gathered as one with or without the Jewish elements is constantly shrinking proportionally due to the industrial nations ever-increasing annual revenues and economic power.
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In greeds consolidating financial masterdom, mankinds greatest danger is not the ethnicity of the financial dictatorship but the ruling cliques goals. So, anti-Jewish is the face of the tribal outsider, the cultural challenger with too much independence. Financial matters ongoing importance compelled the established aristocratic cultures to come to terms with money. Commerce has a certain individuality at the core, which may or may not be greedy. Independent self-made success attainment and accomplishment belittle the indexed cultures superiority assumptions and exposes its many cherished fantasies. Formalisms conceits downplays independent success as out of place because mediocre is antagonized and defensive towards deeds of intelligence and sophisticated perceptions. Jewish financial innovations are second to the social progress from personal credit in benefiting economic development. Jewish commercial and financial skills introduced reliable financial instruments and rational monetary efficiencies. The introduction and popularizing of impersonal paper securities, paper money, bills of exchange, stocks and bonds carried the security insurance of portable wealth. The efficiency of liquid assets opened broader economic opportunities for financing and wealth-creation. Serving these monetary and financial innovations built societys numerous commercial institutions from stock exchanges and insurance to international financial interconnectiveness. The multiplying success of the financial industry solidified commercialisms economic sovereignty and monetary supremacy. At the pinnacle sit privately held central banks, conspiratorial networks that mold and moderate life, existence and our future.
The More Vague the Enemy, the Bigger the Lies Believed
Nora said, What resembles assembles. Projected assumptions and opinions are part of the politics and machinery of command but reality is Nepotism. It always has been Nepotism and will continue to be Nepotism. Blood and armor controls cash flows and wealth, not Jews. Nepotism rules because biological and territorial imperatives
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are irreducible human fundamentals that set parental priorities that are ferociously applied toward all potential threats. Jews practice ethnic traditions and nepotism just like everybody else. Social actualities are family bonds and tribalisms defensive suspicions keep-out or isolate outside influences. Cohesive group behaviors reinforce participation, and traditions restrictive social customs makes one most comfortable among shared beliefs, ethnicity and economic levels. Only simple-mindedness could believe outsiders have final authority over anything. Ultraconservative Arabs will not do business with Catholics because of the eight aggressive Crusades eight and nine centuries ago. Before a person can do serious business with conservative Arabs, they will check back to the grandmother to see if she was Catholic. Mere access, much less control, over any facet of a nations money supply by a different ethnic or religious minority is as believable as starving your children to feed your enemy. Every ethnic group and nation has a small wealth clique that has held disproportionate influence over national commerce and economies for centuries. These financial aristocracies maintain a very secretive existence. The different aristocratic webs of the worlds financial empires have one god power, one religion acquiring power and one bloodline wealth with complimentary philosophies and psychologies. The traditionalized prejudices against Jews and the subsequence blame are so advantageous to the powers-that-be, that if no domestic Jews exist to blame international Jews are blamed. Numerically, Jews live predominately as small minorities in a handful of nations. The vast majority of nations in the world have zero Jewish citizens or residents. The more vague and abstract the assumption, the more they match the rest of the imaginary Jews financial conspiracy.
Quality Comprehensions Create More Information Less Manipulation and Vice Versa
Sherry picked up the theme of honest perspectives from her parents social science perspectives. Ethnicity guilt is an irrational phenomenon
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that condemns all involved, as ethical felons in crimes against humanity and even her mixed Jewishness was an anxiety object. The convenient accusations in anti-Jewish folklore have a historical truth-consciousness from centuries of repetition in orthodox sermons and official proclamations. Powers propagandas implements its historical manipulations stigmatizing conjecture using povertys frustrations and illiteracys vulnerabilities to deceptively gain acceptance of the desired. Commands mechanisms of orchestrated persecutions through institutionalism targeting are proven vehicles of maximum political opportunism. The screaming denouncements and slanderous accusations of finger pointers by Jew baiters for hire have whatever credibility is required to tactically incite as-needed. The deceits of power most infamous historical charades are the Jewish scapegoating. Powers sacrificial victims that cloak true identities and agendas. These avoidance ploys shift the focus of public outcry to the preordained and away from the initiators failures, corruptions abuses, injustice frustrations, incompetences flaws and deficiency transgressions. The blood of beliefs from victimized innocent and powerless poverties are the true red ink of inhumanity uncollected accountability, whose leaders are historys truest greedy people.
Authoritys Functioning Induces the Conspiratorial or Complicitorial

Pats father was a lawyer and her brother a psychiatrist. They influenced her to emphasize rationalism, apply psychological sensibilities, and to reason systematically with the analysis processes and pattern recognition. Judgments and punishments require an accurate fit or social confidence in justices fairness crumbles. Not wanting to question what Jewish history epitomizes facilitates mankind continuously repeating of remarkably similar events. The lack of inquisitive is due emotionally touching what we despise in ourselves. Torture is humanitys most horrendous crime. The profiteers of torture have severe mental illnesses, not just the torturers. These organized psychoses take recruiting and training as well as psychological
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conditioning to divest feeling into inaccessible empathy. Modern torture deconstructs the individual by using conditioning penalties to maximize the effects for the torturers wants. Evil efforts are ideologically validated as working for the greater good and higher goals, but in reality, they always support first and foremost despotic aggression. Modern totalitarianism combines black psychologys manipulations with the inquisitions prosecutorial condemnations and mechanized techniques of violence to generate an obedient society of multi-tiered enslavements. The history of humanity acknowledges those targeted are innocent victims, and every enslaver is evil. Enslavement has many forms from the obvious shackles to psychological enslavements, whose disorders snare others. Behavior modifications are readily induced, simply by systematically disrupted sleep patterns, administering cheap chemicals and purposed insufficient nutrition. Intentional injury and damage to a human beings functioning or altering anothers brain processes defines psychological torture, the silent torturer. During a reflective moment, I saw these special women had a lifetime forced into matter of months. They mastered their understandings to handle the challenges and minimize the personal destruction from consuming hate. Wisdom comes from living smarts thinking smart, but the ability and rewards of sophisticated maturity from early astuteness comes from great parents. Grandfather, they said this in these words? Their critiques were perspectives; the understandings that follow are my sincerest considerations, which are taken as a continuing remembrance because these are the best comprehensive expressions of them. Sharing the flowering of their experiences adds value to these expensively obtained gifts. Goodness and greatness deserves the most meaningful wording.
Feelings are Internal Emotions are External

The next day Herr cabrn had a pack of attack dogs all over the caf. He was asking questions and offering money, aggressively hunting for
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the two sailors and three European whores working the caf yesterday. The sailors would have eaten these office barkers for lunch, no matter the odds, but gun-totters disorders and holster-bolsters inadequacies crave use. He asked me if I knew they were Jewish. His first sociable question showed him to be a ridiculous person. I answered with a thoughtful toned, What does a Jew looks like? His flash of a blank expression said it all. As Rubn walked out Herr cabrn met him at the kitchens swinging doors. They were mirror images, the same height, dressed in the exact cream suit, white shirt, black silk tie; the reflection set off matching determination, not to give an inch. You could sense Herr cabrn was thinking, whereas the intensity of Rubns stare was steel, not a fiber in his body moved. Rubns reflexes were in the attack-state of a jaguars focused death. Thinking is lethal in any confrontation that will end within tenths of a second. This makes any thought a fatal flaw. A split second loss of awareness offers a deadly opportunity for an opponent in a duelist execution. Herr cabrn met his hell in Rubns stare and did not recognize it. The confrontations spell was broken by a yell in German that got the group moving. Roberto told them he had just seen the group near the wharves an hour ago, gaining some easy money. Rubn was still motionless for a while after Herr cabrn went chasing another illusion. Serious men do not carry inner conflict because they eliminate all possible distractions immediately. Aware men on the edge of a deadly challenge exist in the most advantageous psychological state, functioning in clear-minded focused stand-by that is void of all artificial constructions and selfcentered thoughts because these facilitate ones death. Merchant sailors are immerged in the rigors of staying alive around the worlds most dangerous circumstances. Sea experiences constant struggles in natures indifferent power and violent negations forge hard men who can maim at-will. The able-body seamen were just off a ship from Germany and knew first-hand the Nazis evil that was engulfing Europe. Each saw these office-nazis for the sickness it is and took some pleasure hurting men who hurt others for a living. These merchant seamen were too experienced to stay around or return to the scene of an assault like inexperience disbelief. They simply avoid
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the predictable confrontation from the necessity of authority to re-exert their lost dominance as masculinity at the next opportunity. The number one law of survival in the jungle, green or ocean blue, is to avoid confrontation when challenged by a bigger animal or larger numbers. Fleeing is the appropriate bio-reality response. Nora and the cousins were to leave on a freighter headed for London early in the evening, two days hence. We told them to be ready at midmorning on their departure day. But instead of them going to their ship, Gregorios boat brought them to our island cabin and another ran their luggage to the ship. Our closest friends were invited for an intimate gathering that was not a party but a display of love for admirable human beings. The conversations were meaningful words with immense feelings of clarity shared without misplaced emotions. Rubns best combo supplied the music under the shade of a large tree, as those talented shared artistic joys as a perfect day floated on waves of pleasurable harmony. Toward the end, Brien carried out three portable record players with separate ribbon-wrapped collections of records. He set one up and wound the handle. Pat went through the records and played a few. The gathering drew together spontaneously, as she put on Rossinis Una voce un poco fa. All three sang with serious operatic passion in pure artistrys elegant sentiments expressing profound feelings. Afterwards, the ladies went around and thanked each person individually. Their smiles expressed happiness, while their eyes held the stillness of love. The farewell message was the sincerest of gratitude with matching tears. The Goose flew into the sunset, a unique good-bye for a journey of voyagers to futures far beyond. A pictured post card of the Cliffs of Dover above the English Channel arrived months later, which said thank-you and love S-P+N. To this day, on those days when depressions malignant nothingness is battling for momentum, I play my well-worn copy of Rossini. Thoughts of eternally beautiful princess singing opera, enjoying living while facing death, always wipes away the foolishness of even the deepest self-centered absorption. It was the shortest moment of intense happiness for others my world has ever seen. The feelings of true sentimentalities grow with age; such
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sensations ripple through the body with each remembrance. The drama of this tragic innocence leaves a heavy sadness. The rumor was that they returned as spies to fight the Nazis behind German lines as foreign nationals; all such serious rumors hold some truth. The females fate of silent glory during wars is squandered in the maze of institutionalisms medieval malemanias. My princesses lives and accomplishments are lost in unacknowledgements nonexistence. To me, these women of the noblest character were warrior-heroines of living, who I was fortunate enough to touch for a few brief moments. Grandfather, what do you think of them today? Mythological memories of youthful greatness are rare treasures for which age is ever grateful. Meaningful impressions of private events are remembrances that motivate my best efforts and instill confidence to strive beyond the precariousness. My lady friends enhance my lifes journeys.
The Chinese Innovated Bureaucracy To Guaranteed Profitable Dynasty Continuance

Word from the colonel was his superiors felt the project was working well and our deception was an important part of Washingtons defense preparedness. The official objective was to document a fully monitored southern Caribbean. The further into the eastern Caribbean the better for long-range surveillance because every hour of advanced warning helped secure the Canal. Brien was told to slow things down because some unexpected highlevel negotiations had not been completed; pyramid reviews have glacial velocity. The colonel wanted Brien to use up a minimum of a few weeks. He needed more time to implement his plans. Ideas were thrown around. We decided to talk over the different schedules and general matters with GOman. We also needed the last payment for the Canal work as a cover story. We agreed to have him short us a large part of the last payment as a pretense for a disagreement. Brien said we would take the difference in cash. The government checks came
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surprisingly fast to me, an abnormality that hopefully the disagreement would cover. Commercial responsibilities, as with official payments for services fully rendered, are bureaucratically laden with contrived difficulties because powers self-servingness is all about gainful behavior. Anonymity is the ultimate resource of bureaucratic power, so managerial bureaucrats signatures put names on the nameless. This critical connection is contrary to every institutional careerists survival instinct. The only vulnerability in centuries of bureaucratic armor is publicitys exposure. Impregnable edifices become open when an identity is attached to responsibility, transparence levels the playing fields in social functioning so things are more honest and ethical.
God Creates all Men Equal But Elitisms Perceptions and Indexing Do Otherwise
Public sector decisions and procedures are kept beyond private reproach. Institutional infallibility dismisses apologies and amends atwill. Only the fourth estates purpose can pursue and obtain corrections against obvious wrongs, never accountability or justice. Universally impartial justice and the rules of commerce are not applicable to public service monopolies, which can even be potentially fatal when perceived as threats to authoritarian objectives. The Dark Ages divine right and the Middle Ages despotic absolutes have evolved into administrativedirectories. Whereas centuries of continuous trial and error efforts have refined private commercial endeavors improvements that serve realistic needs. The rules of commerce are the adaptations to economic values and pledges, introduced into Europe by Middle East traders from the Northern Italian city-states. The success of Northern Italys pro-commerce governments led to trading practices accounting, finance, banking and laws principles and procedures to evolve into enforceable commercial obligations liabilities, which established contractual agreements on conduct. These commercial laws and The Churchs canon law were later incorporated into the foundation of modern common law.
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Justice requires man to be heard and treated with equality before the impartiality of the law. The Jews fostered the rule of law as a balancing mechanism for minority weakness against indexed immunity. Jewish and papal efforts both promoted the need to establish wrongful intent for conviction of a crime with rational trial procedures, not trial by ordeal, as protection for those with less power. Minority injustices are the social flaw in all elitisms, a fate not shared by the privileged minoritys more equal who enjoy both exceptionisms selective advantage and pre-biased rules and laws. Social immunity is solidified by the authors of hazy legislation and legitimized by vaporous statures facilitating precedents and exclusion procedures that override substance thus constructing powers desires. When transgressions are beyond moral justifications and legal protections, officialdom has the highest judicial fairness of all. Its the sole group judged in legal matters by the helpful perspectives and favorable opinions of true peers, not the under-informed notions of distant strangers.
The Socioculturals Relevances Sets the Ruts of Routines

The demands for more delays mean we had the time to take care of the next part of the Fruit Company contract. The Navy was to have a ship in Puntarenas for a few days. The flight to San Jose took a lot longer than I had originally assumed. Costa Rica is 20% larger than Switzerland and bigger than Massachusetts, Vermont and Rhode Island together. Consequently, flights around the country would take time. We arrived early in the morning on a clear day that made the city picturesque as it sat surrounded by a patchwork of geometric greens on a large meseta with a floor of over 4000 feet. San Joss base altitude had the fabulous climate of the high-tropics, while its small size had the feel of a colonial pueblo, reflecting the nations traditional ruralism. The commercial banana enclaves were on both coasts. The port of Limn, on the Atlantic is the center of the plantations exports and, after a day on that side, we acquired the shots needed. Back in San Jos we just slept after dinner. Its a very quiet town. The next morning, we photograph
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the Pacific coasts port of Puntarenas and the airport where the US Armys unassembled refueling equipment lay on the tarmac and a mid-size naval vessel sat at anchorage. The Pacific coast plantations were in the south toward Panam. We followed the banana trains tracks paralleling the coastline southward into the banana region. The rest of the assigned plantations surrounded the town of Golfito. Being so close to Panam, we decide to return directly and skip the flight back to San Jos, which seemed a wonderful place to retire an option too remote for our dark cloudy future. Upon our return, GOman listened to our report and then explained developments that would soon be made public. The USA and Colombia would sign a formal military cooperating pact. This permitted the Army Air Corps unrestricted use of Colombias coastal airports, in conjunction with joint military exercises. Public notification was to be in a week, just before the documents were signed in Bogot. Also, the plans for Venezuela were moving with long-distance bureaucratic velocity. Negotiations were required on the highest levels between New York, London and Washington, and that was all that was known. At the next meeting, Herr cabrn politeness was noted because his only concern was the duration of the airplanes downtime and its flying status. Brien parroted the normal. He was thinking about having the prop taken off the airplane before our next meeting, a visual excuse to buy more time if needed. Brien mentioned the Limn shoots and gave him the rolls of film on Puntarenas, which held nothing exceptional. We let him figure out the whys. Herr cabrn left for a minute and returned with a second man, who could have been his intimidated younger brother. He stated he would be away temporarily and this other bureaunazi was to be in charge during his absences. A deskass so wide The butt was labeled simultaneously. This office-cadets priorities were to accomplish anonymitys nonsuccess auspiciously, as fragmented minds and segmentalized personalities follow the conclusions of certainty derived from trainings convictions. Another hard trying incomplete, fantasizing beyond capacities while riddled with insecurities. The high-point of his day was probably amusing himself
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with his desk-bound bad-wind, not like Herr cabrns self-absorption with failure, whose bad wind was perfume. Later Brien offhandedly stated, The more in this existence of stereotypes, the more he sees in predictable assumptions. Grandfather, verbal voids, mental gaps and insufficiencies as repressions really show the manipulators extensive expertise. Yes, they have had centuries to construct an all-encompassing sociocultural complex with self-serving methodology. The enforcers and followers roles are historic social constants yet neither have accurate explanatory vocabularies or labels must less defined specifics. These important social identities are now filled by the terms, gestapo aggressive violent enforcers and Nazi fanatic followers. Propaganda reruns and actuality have now spread these zealots of execution and mentalities functioning as capped identities far beyond their infamous German origin. These terms are labels that epitomize uniform psychotics and disordered conformity, resurrected by ideological identities and protected by institutional control defining everything in terms of its culture. The words conceptualize the missing historical constants for the beliefattitudes and taskmasters who deliver the organized tyrannies and dictatorial states that terrorize humanity.
Maturitys Self-management has Balanced Content and Functioning

Grandfather, besides mastering breathing what is the best natural therapy? Walking for its bio-chemical and psychological efficiencies; clearer thoughts self-organize. Long walks choreograph lifes tangled voyages of reconciliation with yourself and correlating the minds potentials. Simple quality of life wisdom are lost to urbanisms easy distractions and the over-influencing by the habits of diversions. On the world-historical importance scale, what acknowledgements are missing?
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The Pantheon of Humanitarians intellectual giants are the worlds truest nobility an ensemble every individual should compile and express. Whose motto should be Successful risk made it real, because these mens creative accomplishments drastically improved meaningful opportunities and utilitarian improvements across the human spectrum. Some medical giants are recognized, but few men of the many great men of science and technology. Men like Luther Burbank whose works created the modern food industry or Willis Carrier, the inventor of air conditioning. Extraordinary achievements whose intellectual heirs continue to spur social progress by expanding knowledge, innovations and distribution. What unacknowledged group had the most positive influence on the social architecture? The modern art movements creative genuses, who conceptualized and popularized the most advanced concepts, complex abstractions and theoretical propositions of modern times as well as justifying the new role of experimentation that drives progressive change. These sophisticated intellects establish and shape the evolving modern psychology-philosophical with its developing individualized psychological-philosophy and expanding contemporary mentality. Cultural literacys most unsung artists of incredible influence are the dismissed talents of screenwriters and moviemakers. Artistic creativity and mental imagery that structured the human situation, visualized history, define mankind and dialogued the 20th century, while sketching the perception of the future. The best of the artistic communitys entertaining education opens minds and expands knowledge that broadened mankinds every dream. Ones intellectualizing is an intellectual autobiography and psychological portrait. True, but know the sources and history. The human spirit of the Renaissances openness and the Enlightenments rationality advanced Western Civilization past Medievalisms close-minded stagnation. Freud scientized the subconscious. Einstein individualized reality. The preeminence of individual awareness and contemporary literacy
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using settled truths and respect toward evolving scientific knowns are the dynamic matrix of the Incosmo.
Individual Rights Structures and Empowers Me-and-You Comprehensions Human Rights Structures and Empowers Fair You-and-Them Comprehensions
During a very early breakfast at the caf with Brien and Eduardo, a striking woman entered. The red silk dress caught her curves, which revealed her womanness magnificently. The image covered and showed all at the same time. This extraordinary beauty focused reactions in the priorities of the deepest recesses, which gave meaning to the power of beauty. She talked to the bartender, who pointed toward us and in the silent seconds of her approach to our table. She made so much blood pump, the icehouses temperature rose. Eduardo lipped Waw! What a woman. She drew so close to Brien, her energy enveloped him. After an intensifying moment, her voice penetrated him. For that connection, Brien would have redug the Canal using a shovel. She was powerful with clear determination, expressed in a plea for help. She had to return to Jamaica immediately, her parents had been in an auto accident and were in critical condition. The next scheduled ship would not work and his airplane and would-do reputation was the fastest way home possible. Cash in her bag was flashed. She wanted to leave, now. Brien asked if she would excuse us for a minute. At the bar, he sent over a fresh juice and asked my thoughts. Why not? You only live once so live well! And being in her company was living very well. Our schedule was open, time was available and delays were needed. This was an emergency. The logic chain was solid. Brien replied Jamaica was just within the Gooses range without using the reserve tanks, so there were no foreseeable snags. We sat back down and Brien said we would go. Her face relaxed and she was even more beautiful. She asked
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the price and paid half then. Brien had some food packed in the kitchen and we jumped in a taxi, grabbed our necessities and her bags on the ride to the airport. We told the colonel about the dilemma in his office. He asked about her business in Panam, which we said was buying material from Asia for her clothing business back in Jamaica. Panam is the primary wholesalers market for the western Caribbean. He was thinking the matter over, as if Briens determination could be ordered to stop. The colonel looked out the window to examine our passenger. Upon seeing she had dark skin, he instantly became suspicious. We saw smallmindedness captured in his tightening facial expressions. To break his cultural insensibilities leading to a confrontation, Brien abruptly stated not all black people are poor, only most of them just like most white people. He reemphasized the message of seriousness by taking out the cash she already paid, which he flashed for conformation. The colonel paused for a second to collect his thoughts for a position-saving retort. Brien reacted to this slight hesitation as agreement by raising and pivoting simultaneously, while accelerated away from me in one smooth flowing movement. Brien projected his energy up and out the office door in what seemed like one motion, which made any normal retort by the colonel impossible. Walking to the Goose, Brien said he should have picked up on the colonel earlier but this was the first non-military interchange. Brien gestured to board; she became relieved, then quietly happy because she was finally going home. Her parents house was in Montego Bay, which Coln called the Gulf of Good Weather, but the hospital was in Kingston. She said if we wanted to stay around and not fly directly back, she would organize our stay with a couple of telephone calls. Brien looked at me, than at her and was fascinated by unknown futures in the experiences of an occasion. The airplanes throttles were mounted on the ceiling; this made the cockpit as spacious and comfortable as a large cars front seat. She enjoyed being the copilot and both were having fun all the way. While I was lost in the blue hues outside a scratched windows rainbows. The cruising
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speed put us in Jamaica just after midday. She dropped us off at our hotel and her thank-you was heartfelt. Later in our suite at the Coral Cliff, we received a message for both of us to come to the hotels bar. When we stood at the door looking around, the place was empty except for two gorgeous Jamaican women who were staring and waved for us to join them. Obviously, we had died and went to heaven finding these two island beauties, smiling invitingly at us and greeting us like good friends. Such friendliness had us uncertain, which they noticed with a bit of wit that ignited the laughter. Maggie had her girlfriends Mercedes and Dawn come over to thank her knights-errants with a good time in Jamaica. They were as sophisticated as they were beautiful. They expressed Maggies regrets due to the seriousness of the accident; she would understandably feel uncomfortable having a good time at this particular moment. No one wanted to stay where we were and the women wanted to see the Goose, so we headed in that direction. The true memoirs of slavery in the Caribbean were those of constant battles by the slaves against the authoritarian inhumanity. The nonnegotiable conditions and routines generated an intrinsically unstable opposition. Behind most every thought loomed social unrest because every slaves fuse was one frustration too many long. Pulpit hypocrisys sermon monologues question little and authenticate the established, which indirectly supported the acceptance of slavery for the cult of greed far more than Christian principle. Congregations virtues and ethics fell prey to the sociopolitical realms and the religious hierarchies compliance. Acquiescent ministers preached subjugations morality and obedience values. These some how outweighed the violent foundation of slavery because enslavement introduced benighted African heathens to Christianity and the nobility of forced labor. The Bible, and most other religious writing of God speak, emphasis piousness obedience, while avoiding the virtues enhancing Gods gift of Freewill, as the source of personal freedom. Neither do these books of worshiped emphasize the moral and ethical righteousness opposing and
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escaping every form of human bondage and subjugations of Gods greatest gift. Nor do parables praise slaverys martyrdom resisting the imposed realms of manmade evils. Condemnations rile against failures of conformitys obedience not against the evil or sins of merciless and ruthless abuse of Gods children. The good books content and lack of shows profiteers of power and the profound chains of enslavements. Along our walk, the ladies brought to life the victims perspective, starting with Tackys Revolt on Easter Day 1760. This was the first recorded organized uprising by black slaves in the realm of English slavery in the Caribbean. The rebellion was severely suppressed by executing all those who took part. Further on, we passed where the slaves were hung from the weeklong Christmas Rebellion of 1831, the same year of Nat Turners slave revolt in Virginia. Mercedes said the history of slave revolts always leaves out the broader context of the act. Officials prescribe punishment as blame and official history ascribes no guilt or describes any causes. This structured stupidity fills the habits of ignorance; the shallowness is compliance. Yes, the emphasis only on specifics in history has the purpose of limiting truth to the desired parameters of the explanations rationale. This perception framing stops critical thought and undermines social memory building enlightening comprehensions. Dawn said, the Christmas slave revolt was due to a lawyers slave named Samuel Sharpe (1801-1832). He was following the debates over abolishing the institution of slavery from his masters newspapers that were taking place in the British Parliament. Unfortunately, he misunderstood an article and concluded Emancipation had already taken place. Sharpe was a Deacon in the local Black Baptist Church. He used the sole gathering allowed the slaves, Christmas services as a forum to organize a peaceful demonstration to address the slaves legitimate work grievances. His intentions was not to incite a slave rebellion, but events flew out of hand and violence ensued with the burning of many plantation homes by the angry slaves. When it was all over, fourteen whites died and over a thousand slaves died fighting or from the summary executions the local
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magistrates passed down against the slaves involved. This required multiple hanging of scores daily for six weeks. Seeing the victims of centuries of slaverys brutality and infantilized societies as antebellum benevolence could only come from closed minded stupidity. The ignored histories of countless runaway slaves and troublesome property, as strong-willed Africans were called, validates social brainwashing as cultural heritage, not truth.
Liberals have Unthought-out Good Intentions Conservatives Intentions are Thoughtless

The ladies fell in love with the seaplane, as we took a descriptive stroll around it before we showed the interior compartment. We continued the walking tour and delighted in local views and informative tidbits that polish perspectives. Mercedes informed us that the Jews were among the earliest traders in the Americas and the intolerance that followed. As with Brazils first governor-general in 1549 being Jewish and the Brazilian Jews being expelled in 1654 after a long illustrious record. The Brazilian Jews who migrated north became the first large-scale plantation-owners in St. Thomas, Barbados and Jamaica, where they were welcomed. The Governor of Jamaica rejected a petition for their expulsion in 1671 by his acknowledgement that the Jews and the Hollanders were the most profitable subjects of the crown on the island, which prevented officialized greeds confiscation. We walked past a club where Jamaican mento music filled the air. The music was slow and rhythmic with raunchy lyrics that perfectly suited the enticing undulating groin-to-groin dance movement called dubbing that a couple demonstrated with calm erotic excitement. Maturity is comfortable with the rhythmical contractions of love, those natural physiological mechanics the body requires for completeness that the dancer simulated with knowing eyes. When the stroll finished around town, Mercedes invited us to her house. She said her parents were away and the sunsets were splendid from her home. Her home was quality comfortable with a special sunset spot in the backyard.
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These Jamaican ladies had open tropical gracefulness, which allows personalities to shine. When Mercedes noticed my initial facial reaction to the bitter taste of my first rum tonics. She said I had an underdeveloped appreciation for the other flavors in life. Brien and Dawns quiet whispering faded into the night with a soft goodbye. Mercedes put on some mento. The music was so soft the rhythms drifted on the light breeze. Feeling her being was like a connection in stillness amidst beauty. Embracing, I floated away as this stimulating enchantress of passion and womanness liberated me from myself. Her sweetness made me smile from the heart, as an active partner in us living fully. In the cool morning, over fresh juice off a garden tree my feelings held a deep respect for her. I expressed that her grandmother and mother were interesting women from the portraits of them in the garden. She responded affirmatively but questioned my reasoning. The impression was obvious because such comfort and harmony is a true home and the quality in the garden was the tropical equivalent of an ideal French kitchen garden. This is the source of Frances Epicurean culture and such quality is a family trait refined over generations. She laughed and said when a man wants to see his future wife, look at the mother but study the father because that is who the wife will unconsciously mold her husband to become. Appreciative and relaxed with my newfound friend, the conversation drifted into the subject of men. On an island, personal reputations suffer irreversible damage from any broken restrains of courtships traditional obligations. Her tone had an inflection of being mildly upset. She was hurt by the lack of mature consideration; local men run to others, boasting of romance and adventures about matters best left unspoken. To her, vainglorious men with boys irresponsible insecurities cause pain and loss for individuals risking so much by bestowing such extraordinary generosity. Ignorances language, logic and behaviors irritated her intellectual frustration, not the personal biases and social prejudices because these were imposed shackles. Too few accept the extent and implications of the universality of the bio-basics and livings commonality or grasp human groups have no innate fundamental biological differences; were all pink
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on the inside. Human diversitys normal-frequency distribution patterns are equal whether the random variables of mental capacity or physical characteristics including endowments. The intense sensualness told me to Go with the flow of love and need. Intimacy and the ability to be released are the most important aspects of sexual behaviors connections. She recognized pleasures conveyances are in the mind. Most else is conscience stopping window dressing. Especially, men calculating manliness and women justifying male insecurities by empty stretching for sensation, which stretches mentalities out of shape. Unawareness insensitivity to nakedness fragility is a destroyer. Contrasting circumstances in societies and cultures create different interpretations. The white ministers demands for obediences follow me conventionality needs a simplistic morality that did not carry over as completely to the slaves with their drastically imposed circumstances and survival imperatives. The slaves decisions on the deepest personal matters and relations obligated actuality perspectives and emotional maturity, not the debilitating confusion of insecurities and guilt. Enthralling interest and enthusiastic appreciations blended with the starlights serenity that led to the connections of full acceptances. From the honesty of sharing souls, the pillow talk turned to lifes conflicts between meanings and the unrecognized importance of what each needed. I talked of the thoughts and feeling that mattered without specifics, a man committed to a demanding uncertainty with importance beyond self, the survival struggles of ideals with values that unfold greater worth daily. The battle against a militarized plague of all-consuming hate emotionalized me so much that the details just flowed out because knowing her was to trust. Her womanness and goodness were never going to be misused by me; the respect she got was my honesty, so she would understand and not be hurt in any way. I told her the story of my princesses of life singing. She knew this tragedy was another unwritten and unsung operatic drama of never to be given justice due powers rawness. Her deep quiet conversation expressed her direct connection with such personal devastation. I respected her for the sophisticated world she succeeded in creating.
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She was living her accomplishments. She was as smart as I was and, in many matters, more aware of the difficulties in living and surviving. An intellectual peer with her own talents, she was annoyed at herself for not paying more attention to the serious complications of the coming war against an inhumanity with a racist core. An international conflict loomed against militarized authoritarians unrestrained evil on a global stage, where the contest was beyond mere nationalism because the victors would direct humanitys future. The following afternoon Brien called and sounded off his normal clarity. When I asked what was wrong, he said he was an idiot and that he would pick me up the next morning. His sophistication would quickly moved past his concerns; setbacks and a little depression are useful to put oneself back together stronger for the next larger challenge because one is smarter from the lessons of errors reasons. These thoughts lasted until Mercedes freed me from my self-centered distractions, which just disappeared in sensualitys magic. Psychological intelligence knows insecurities and racial dilemmas are in the other persons immaturity as seen in the lack of awareness expressed by offensive confusion or abusive envy. We both knew and appreciated what we found in our shared intimacy. When Brien came by, we felt our good-bye; the kiss said thank-you for the love shared. She whispered into my ear be strong with a meaningful Via con Dios for Brien.
Medievil Beliefs Rule due to Empires and Serfdoms Being so Vaporously Understood
Brien put the autopilot on and said he was in no mood to be in his mind by himself. He asked for my thoughts on the unique aspects of the Tropical Americas social conscience because he was missing some deep psychological connections. In Central America from the conquistadors medievalism to eliteultraconservatism conditioning life has been held back and down without consideration. In the Caribbean region one must comprehend
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the extremism of slavery and the dominating involvements and consequences of slave societies. Forced labors enslavements have many names and forms each makes their way into every facet of life and become the financial backbone that carries domestic commerce and national economies. Social literacy needs the complete historical context on the involvements in organized subjugations and manipulations coercions to have any realistic conclusions. The end of the buccaneers era overlapped with the mushrooming expansion of slavery. The financial boom of the slave trade caused the continued suppression of the buccaneers to end because it diverted resources from being invested in slaverys greater profits. These losses caused a political end to the buccaneers way of life. So, the most infamous pirate of the time, Henry Morgan, was made a public official in Jamaica, in charge of curtailing the practices he ruthlessly mastered. Expedience decides social values.
All Elitisms Discriminations Befit Its Ends-Justify-the-Means Rationale

Africas long traditions of slavery and extensive slave societies probably have tribal roots that predate ancient Egypts slave societies. African cultures were continuous sources of slaves over an unbroken history of millenniums, only the buyers changed and destinations varied. The Arab history of slavery is the longest running, whether to North Africa or the perennial Abyssinian slave trade, the archetype of longdistance enslavers. These slavers criss-crossed Africa to capture slaves and sold them to the Arabs across the Red Sea, in such numbers that slave revolts killed thousands of Arab men, woman and children at a time. Enslavement of foreign and alien people was a primary part of preChristian Europe and is still an under-acknowledged aspect of Islam. Christian brotherhood symbolized the impropriety of enslaving most fellow Christian Europeans but did not cover obligated servitudes brutality or the variations of serfdoms extremism against people from other regions.
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Greece was a slave society that Rome enslaved as it became the largest slave society. Its said at times there was one slave for each Roman citizen in Rome. European and Mediterranean slavery varied and fluctuated irregularly with the regions histories until recent times. Europes earlier source of slaves was Caucasian people. These Slavs were replaced when the Turks and Islam took control of the historical white slave routes; this redirected slavers to African slavery, which Portugal controlled and Spain solicited due to treaty obligations. The epic dramas of millenniums of Africas slave practices are prehistorical compared to the Atlantic slave trade, which lasted around 425 years. The history of the Atlantic slave trade started in the Middle Ages with African slaves from Europe being included in the earliest New World expeditions. Slaves even held in positions of leadership. Twenty Africans were sold as bondservants in Jamestown, Virginia in 1619. Government complicity is highlighted by the many European land wars being fought to gain or protect the economic rewards of the slave industry. Most European nations were in the African slave trade to some extent, but England was by far the largest transporter of slaves, slaverys most lucrative sector. The English transported over 3 million slaves on her vessels with an approximate fatality rate of 20%, during the slave ships infamous Middle passage. Atlantic slavery involved perhaps as many as 13 million slaves over the centuries with the uprooting of over 40 million Africans. The middle of the 18th century was slaverys peak with sixty thousand slaves transported yearly. Englands aristocracy had centuries of lucrative empire profiteering from trading triangles. Each leg of these trading voyage generated highprofit margins. One went between England, Africa and America. Guns, brandy and merchandise were exchanged for slaves on the coast of West Africa at wholesale slave operations owned by the local African elite. African wholesalers brokered war captives and humans traded as povertys debts as well as kidnapped people from deep within the interior of Africa. Slaves were sold to any purchaser. These African slaves were then exchanged for raw materials in the Americas, which were then sold to factories in England and Europe. Another addictively profit trade triangle was the opium-based Golden
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Triangle of trade among England, India and China. Here low priced manufactured goods from English factories were traded at high profits in India for cheap opium. This narcotic was then sold in China to purchase low-priced luxury goods that were resold at great profit in England and Europe. Another morally challenging slave profiteers scheme was the Puritans triangle of trade. Rum and guns from the New England distilleries and factories were traded to the African slave wholesalers for slaves. These human beings were then traded in the Caribbean for molasses; rums main ingredient, which was then brought back to New England. Slaves were always more valuable than gold in West African societies and over time, slaves became more valuable than gold to Europeans.
Enslavers Murder Human Existence The Gain Requires Vast Institutional Conspiracies
Caribbean landscapes sharp-lined shadows delineate a deep reflective mindscape from centuries of blood-sweats pain ripped out of life. Physical subjugations are psychological brutality. Slavery equates to tortured lives and premature death due abusive struggles and bridled sufferings. The bloodstained tears from centuries of heroic acts of defiance by humanitys bravest fighters and freedom martyrs, who have vanished into the collapsed earth of shallow graves of silhouetted depressions. These unmarked headstones are humanitys monuments of negative space in potters fields, the hallmark of humanity and the truth of povertys powerlessness and enslavement shackles. During the reign of sweet sugars tyranny, slaverys attainments and comforts were selective and expensive. Human usurys well-configured social repression and compliance policies required institutional authorization. Court historians shrewdly publish extensive chronicles and sympathetic novels that promote the necessary premises that concur with the politics and tenets of greed, that societies with slaves were not slave societies. The profiteers of systematic generational greed are esteemed because a few-drops of privileged blood were spilled in
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avaricious violence. Ruthless transgressors who pillaged humanity are important, while the victims are denied entrance to the social conscience. The silence around slavery is louder than the heaving cries of publicly inflicted torture. Social ethics betrayals burdened culture with arrested human development and perverted social values that sustained an insolvent morality. Scratch the surface of official history and one has overexaggerated insignificance that is petty and worthless compared to the realities, quietly buried in the graveyards of unwritten books. The sagas of the Caribbean cultures are in the lost potentials and dreams of individuals due the overregulated lives of failed empire building by elitisms avarice morals and bloody values. Here the individual spirit reigns within the sociocultural apparatus, supported and strengthened daily by evolving nonjudgmental comprehensions. Awakening attitudes and philosophical ideals are the core of the Caribbeans Espritu del Individual, which celebrates the flowering of mankinds universals, the essence of humanity. When I finished expressing my thoughts and feelings Brien stayed quiet in his thoughts. He let me enjoy my happiness that drifted with the clouds. Consideration is quality politeness. He let someone else pop my bubble. That took until we landed back in Canal. The colonel had this understated disdain, which was read like a burning fuse. When he asked about the trip to Jamaica, he projected his unconscious racial prejudices by displaying an unmistakable superiority attitude toward us. In unmolested enthusiasm, I praised the place and its many beauties. Then, reflexively, I added that classy females appreciated mature sensibilities. He missed the points as Brien hustled me away. On the ride to the caf, Brien said I was right more than I realized. He called himself an idiot because he had a goddess and settled for a handmaiden with a personal agenda. He now realized he should have waited for Maggie to come to him. He felt she saw his actions as if he succumbed to the excitement of the moment, and he was just another male-fraud uninterested with quality as had so strongly projected. I felt bad for his loss.
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The Caribbean Cultivates Individuals Not the Social Engineers Ordered Uniformity
Grandfather, why the social and cultural iconoclasm? Social hypocrisy has a social morality that inoculates society to greeds evilness and agendas irrationality. That is why ethical actions are the truest reading on life and a personal advocacy. Ethical perspective and conduct are from what-ought-to-be; which is the individuals reference point. What stands out in the Caribbean? When slavery ended orthodox enforcement ended but not the most common constraint, the unquestioned acceptance of the social context defining what is. These uncontestable one-sided interpretations of everything are due to the unrecognized importance and understandings of the social context and its setting societys parameters. Individualitys cultural ethics and social realism are supportive of human aspirations, its diversity means open enriching sensibilities not isolation and indifference. True tolerance for the efforts of originality and appreciation of difference applauds the artistic self-expression, it is. And the sociocultural of el Caribe? El Caribes extravagant diversity is due an active palette of idiosyncrasies in the flowing rhythms of harmonic living. Originality is found wherever distinctive emphases are expressed, with each tempo denoting another style. The orchestrations are pleasures to be appreciated. Living here proves diversitys variety of dialogues and various directions arent mutually exclusive. The chronicle of enslavement constraints and social poverties founded a sophisticated enlightenment of social wisdom for mankinds error-filled efforts. The defenders of our cultures humanity protect the highest ideals of civilization because until poverty is ended, cultural support of personal effort defines the truly advanced cultures, not projected exaggeration and illusions expectation. Victimization exploitation: victim mentality victim reality. Mass disciples regimented compliance requires social
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genuflections acknowledgments, which confirm inferioritys powerlessness. Meekness bowed head with hat in hand illustrates centuries of profound ideological indoctrination and psychological subjugations grateful acceptance of the meager. What makes us so mind-blind to the mono track social psychology that produce ideological servitudes and administrative serfdoms? Authoritarianisms anonymous dictates and shrewdly formulated self-dealing efficiencies. Conducive compliance comes from the unrecognized techniques and unseen whips that stimulate hypnotic conditionings obedience. Purposed behavior modification and the assurance of the preordained mask neo-dependences and servitude controls. These are only recognizable by the consequences effects. Rigid self-policing perceptions of perfection and status discrimination sustain expensively engineered peer uniformity, which is driven by conformitys social pressure to imitate.
Training Parameters Personality While Jobs Mold Lifes Logic, Far Beyond the Jobs Life
On the next refugee off-load, a new team of translators was there. It had a familiar but distant feel, which changed my involvement. This debarking project went smoothly, but personally, without sharing the moment with my heroines, it was a much lower-toned experience. This group was a good team capable of handling shiploads without me. Toro and Gregorio, after plenty of persuasion, had all but one of the Canal pilots giving their complete cooperation. The one they did not have helping them confronted Toro on the following refugee ship and told him he could not takeoff the refugees. Toro explained the situations appropriateness in clear hard intimidation; this group of children was not going back to their deaths. The pilot said he did not care about the worthless killers of Christ. Toro said, Jesus Christ was a Jew, not a persecuted Christian and these people were getting off. In a threatening tone, the pilot said he knew who Toro was.
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Toro, with one last effort, said Christs compassion was nonviolent theological sedition in a violent sedition time. While he spoke, Toro stuffed 500 dollars into the pilots shirt pocket, which he carried for such moralizing emergencies. An audible gesture to the cash set the impression that Toro was afraid of him. Toro told him not to make problems because they would meet outside the Canal one-day and he would physically open up his closed-mind, which immediately straightened out any misimpression. Facts did not matter, dysfunctional ill-rationalitys density is impossible to penetrate. The pilots last words as he walked away were a cowardly mumbled, but an audible nigger was clear. Toro had no selfdelusions, he knew this matter was not over. That Saturday night at the caf, Toro was talking with me when Rubio Roy came into the caf and said there were some foreign canal workers hiding in the shadows outside drinking. This was paycheck reality, but talking about Toro loud and threatening was not. Toro asked their location exactly and went back through the kitchen into the icehouse. We followed and stopped when we reached a position that let us observe what was going on. Toro saw and heard the pilot talk with drunken courage. He knew their plan was to jump him, when the opportunity arose. Rubio Roy and his crew were hired to protect and help the caf patrons. The crew was good, they only appear when needed from the shrubbery. Toro said now and prepared was better than surprised later. The crew disbursed quietly and strategically around the ambushers, he did not want them fleeing. He wanted the situation resolved. Toro went back to the caf and walked out the front door by himself toward them. The two men and the pilot started an aggressive confrontation. Toro listened to their taunts and then told them to take their drunken nonsense away. This fueled the alcohols courage, and they insulted him more. When the crews appeared from nowhere, the attackers wanted to back off, but Toro said he would handled all of them by himself. The odds gave them a false sense of invincibility. Well, that was the last physical movement taken by this gang of trash for months without pain. Adult bones break easily and broken bones are very painful and take
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a long, agonizing time to heal. After Toro administered a severe beating he told the crew and me particularly not to do anything just let them lay there in their pain until an ambulance arrives. These sons-of-shit did not care about his familys suffering by injuries inflicted on him or children being murdered. Let them learn to understand pain and suffering. Toro walked over to the big mouth pilot and lifted his head, asked him if he had anymore to say and when he was about to speak, Toros large size fist rearranged the pilots face once more, as Toro said he has heard enough stupid trash shit. The full measure of Toro was on the life maximus scale. A few days later, the military police and a couple of local officers were at the caf looking for Toro. He was accused of leading a group of Panamanian thugs, who badly attacked, beat up, then robed, a group of helpless drunken canal workers. After the officials departed, Gregorio heard the correct facts from Toro and then called the colonel to straighten out the misunderstandings. The colonel arrived accompanied by the military police captain in charge of the investigation. In his finest gentlemanly manners, Gregorio explained the facts about the incident. The men were beaten up because of their stupidity and the odds were three against one, not a big group attacking three saints. The colonel was quiet, but the captain called Gregorio a liar and threatened various legal ramifications against Toro, the caf and Gregorio concerning illegal acts in the Canal, including smuggling. Gregorio requested to speak with the colonel in private, as the captain was plainly an under-educated person, not an officer nor a gentleman. After the predictable reaction by the captain to this direct insult, the colonel ordered him out of the office. Alone, the two serious men made the real political deal in clear and frank negotiations. Gregorio said that his story was the true version and that the pilot forced the confrontation on Toro. The true reason was the pilot was an ignorant racist. Gregorio wanted all the charges against Toro ended and situations back to normal, which included disembarking the refugees. This meant keeping the captain and pilot in line. For this Gregorio keep his favor patrons and the Nazis just how the colonels military espionage operation wanted them. He stated that in these crucial times everyone had to work
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together to protect the vulnerable Canal in the coming war with Germany and Japan. He would continue to help the colonels endeavor, but the colonel had to keep everyone in the caf happy. The colonel immediately recognized Gregorio knew the true value of his own importance. Gregorio walked the colonel to the front door. They both ignored the captain. Directly in front of the captain, the colonel shook Gregorios hand and said he and the whole general staff knew he had a first-class establishment, which they all enjoyed immensely, and for any reason call anytime. The captain was panicky, upset, and confused, but he got the message between the eyes.
Money and Politics are Societys Gas and Engine

The oil company contract for Venezuela had not been finalized but was firmed-up enough to get us organizing ourselves mentally, even without a tentative date. Brien dragged efforts out. The Nazis despised his casual manners, which he enjoyed subtly exaggerating. Brien wanted his money in his hands and out from under the German banks control. Bankers are ordinary people with personal weaknesses and like every worker vulnerable to greater clout. No matter the edifices large wellpolished stone facades and thick vaults that project secure solid strength, the impressions are nothing more then part of the promotion in the theater of perceptions. Gregorio found some commercial property to rationalize withdrawing our cash. International business knowledge is acquired on a need-toknow basis, screened by the financial prosperity needed to qualify. Brien wanted to hide his money in a foreign corporation as protection against legalistic extremisms officialized vulnerabilities intruding into his life. The small entrepreneurs gainful entrance is on the coattails of legal advantages designed by legality architects that facilitate corporatisms invisibility and plausible denial protection. Corporate law here protects the owners identity and the money owned because only the lawyers name appears in the public records. This simple legality conceals vast information and true ownership. Secrets become
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maintainable because corporate documents are treated as private papers and need not be recorded in the public domain. Legalisms avoid any imposed demands by overbearing inquisitiveness via regulatory compliance and the aggressions of revenue collection. Within days, the newspapers announced that Colombia had a formal military alliance with the USA. During our meeting with The butt, he asked about our schedule in a very indirect way without any perceivable pressure. The Nazis had their reasons for needing delays. The colonel knew we would be asked to take some photos on our way to Venezuela. The Army wanted the latest long-range reconnaissance airplanes on regular patrols before we landed at Cartagena, Colombia to refuel. The patrol flights would include Maracaibo, as refueling stops and into Caracas where the Germany embassy would report them, all of which Herr cabrn would know about. We were to just do our job in Maracaibo. Further unknown organizational and political-business negotiations that concerned Venezuela meant we had to keep postponing our planned departure, until final approval from Washington. We were told these delays required even more time. No one moves until the oil company lets you move.
Ecuador is Larger that the UK and Switzerland

We decided to use this inactive time to finish up the United Fruit contract and let the future alone for a while. The departure for Ecuador was perfect because the commitments were already established and accepted. No lies in sales pitch promotion were needed, which avoided a confrontation with Herr cabrns wants pushing his overinvolved and overdeveloped opinions. We took-off in the late morning and proceeded to photograph the submarine and a naval vessel. The sub was heading out into the Pacific. The large surface vessel was on the far side of the Isla del Rey, the southernmost island off the Pacific approach to the Canal, which lay on our flight path. After the shots, we throttled back and thinned out the fuel mix to conserve fuel. Uncertain of what facilities and fuel were available, we
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had decided to be prudent with extra fuel as cargo. Briens prudence kept us far offshore; out of sight is the primary form of nonexistence in society. As we approached Esmeraldas, Ecuador, we photographed the harbor with various shots of the refueling equipment near a vintage Ecuadorian military airplane on the ground; this looked more like a memorial than a working warplane. We refueled and the rest of the day was used up waiting for officials with the arrogant attitudes of greeds scheming. We spent the night under the airplane in hammocks because the country was just too open and officialdoms virtues too predictable. The feel was of distant strangers. The local dialects community words and emotional phrases had inflections full of meanings and poor articulation, which caused broken communications assumptions. The colonel had mentioned we would be under surveillance because of the regions large German community. The people we met were friendly but had povertys understandings and priorities. Too many of them would risk their future grabbing our valuable assets, instant wealth to escape generations of poverty. Coffee and breakfast were brought to the airplane at first light, which reminded me how much excellent fresh coffee is part of the culture. The breakfast gruel had a risky look, which made the coffee sufficient. We were in the sky just after first light. The flight path was down a giant valley that runs 120 by 200 miles. As we approached Guayaquil, the nations main port that lay at the far end of the valley, we passed over enclaves of banana plantations. Fortunately, the distances that appeared large on the map were not that difficult once there. The working plantations and expansion properties had a close packed density, which made the job much easier than was expected.
The Ancient History of the Americas has Just Started to Emerge

At the loading docks in front of United Fruits headquarters, we had a polite introductory meeting with the chief executive. Juan then took us to lunch, where we met his best friend Deloria, an Amerindian lawyer/ professor, who turned lunch into an Ecuadorian tertulia. Juan explained
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the workers loaded the ships by working for as many hours continuously as each laborer wanted. They were then paid in cash and could takeoff for as long as they wanted, which was usually until the money ran out. Some of these men work 72-hours straight, then disappeared for weeks. Deloria mentioned the first intensive agriculture linked to stable communities had originated in the Amazon forest and, from there, parted for coastal territories around the Fourth century Before the Common Era. In Ecuador, communities with over two thousand inhabitants existed three thousand years ago. These social groups cultivated potatoes and maize much earlier than Mxico and the Andean highlands. The oldest signs of human presence are in el Abra, close to Bogot, dating from 10,450 BCE. The ancient artistic tradition of Ecuador boasts the first silversmith ever in the Americas and outstanding pre-Inca stone statues of enormous size and intricate details. These distinctive works of art capture striking women in marvelous headdresses, which are promoted as Americas first Venuses. Juan said the Amazon suffered a massive depopulation, some say up to 6 million people died after exposure to the Europeans. He mentioned two Peruvian matters that were mysteries to him; one was an academically authenticated fossil of a mans footprint that was found in a 60millionyear-old rock formation. And the other is the Campo and the Tzipbo aborigines in the isolated eastern jungles have no antigens A and B in their blood like the others races have. Deloria mentioned that some tribes believe they came from the earth; others say they come from another world. No matter the founding myths, the Americas Indians were indigenous with numerous extinct civilizations long before European overedited exaggerations. Juan said whatever the myths each enriches the diverse origin stories people hold as to where we come from. Science bastardized into rationales by agendas always have hidden objectives. The latest one for greed is, we are all immigrants from somewhere. This somehow rationalizes away any native claim to the land, thus justifying violent aggressive land confiscation. Brien said we were open-minded toward all accounts and the
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continuous variations of documented visions, especially those that follow evidence. I mentioned perspective-forming information has far-reaching implications and these would require academic careers to decipher and extrapolate. Deloria said Ph.D. gospels are really published opinions in incomprehensive technical language that mystifies like Western religion. These restrict responses to formulated sets of agenda biased interpretations that lull us to opinionated ignorance with all the costly consequences. I stated spreading wisdom is a civil social function and ethical duty. Deloria said scientific fields must phrase precisely what they can really prove and what is speculation. Standards of evidence need clarity and adherence with periodically restated principles. Scientists need courage because too many authoritative-sounding pronouncements are misleading or worse. Which is political-religious science based on questionable or nonexistent evidence. Juan said he was glad we were men with open curiosity not monoculturalists, whose usually drift of through are elegant institutional rationales that resonate all-powerful convictions. This represses relevance by ignoring challenging information and overreducing complexity to the manageable. Diverse perceptiveness and flexible considerations addresses the difficulties of social problems with multiple layered issues, not selective acceptance and limited interpretation of complex social situations that facilitate the interests of the projecting power. Societys largest and most complicated social questions become single issues for controllability with political agendas that amazingly always coincide with authoritarian methods and laws order that set perceptions with the objectives for desired conclusions. Complex social issues require sophisticated sensibilities, reasoned searches and open intellectualism for time to formulate resolutions. Cultural wisdom evolves; the decrees of the social context serve officialdom.
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Brien said the great intellectual frauds are very complex concepts in simple sentences. Historically, there is a continuous cycle of conflict over the degree of intellectual tolerance that the subject of religion and science highlights. Juan said politics put God in buildings with employees, and he knew religion isnt dogma-babble and has nothing to do with who has the greatest emotional closeness with a personalized God. Deloria said religion experienced is spiritualitys connectiveness with humanitys common occurrences and the universal consciousness. The Amerindians religions seek the capacity and wisdom to understand how experience, individuality and the neverending cycles of nature all relate to each other. Indigenous cultural traditions and religious customs with their direct connections and immediate inferences as worship do not lead easily to purposed religions social order objectives. Native religions are a way to understand ones life, as participants in a sacred process, in a sacred place we belong in, the shared world. This indigenous worship is why the pursuance of personal, social and cosmic harmony is life. Such direct participation in life has no need for religions of anguish and a messiah or redemption narratives transcendence salvation from a negative world of tears to a wholly different heaven. Juan said the human focus on God makes religion a personal journey. The most meaningful religious experiences are by the most direct participation possible. Religious experiences are the vehicles of awareness because their obtainment enlightens one to consciousness. Native maturity is about the ability to reflect on the ordinary aspects of life and investigate their real meaning. This contrast sharply with western philosophy-psychology that presumes the products of authority minds are inherent to the structure of the universe, beliefs authoritarian institutions replicate and compel.
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Power and Size Determines if its a Cult, Sect, Religion or a Culture Not Philosophy
Brien mentioned that Ecuador had no social custom of chewing coca leaves like Peru has. Juan said he felt Peruvian governments had always utilized this social-religious custom, as a way to keep that vast remote mountainous nation economically connected to Limas ruling class. The unique American historic constant is the consumption of substances for the mind-altering effects from common plant derivatives such as tobacco, alcohol and psychoactive substances. Petroglyph chronicles of prehistoric native ceremonial sacraments depict the use of conscious-altering substances for subliminal religious experiences. Consumption of conscience altering substances that induced religious experiences are normal in numerous civilizations, which predate a personalized god and European history by millenniums. Juan said Spains pennesulars appointees were always threatened by the Creoles legitimate political support against the imported elitism. Imposed greeds social frustrations and the Creoles independent financial base from uncontrolled earnings derived from the ancient native customs involving coca, which fueled powerful political challenges to the social order. The Andes first recorded armed conflict over the coca dilemma between foreign wants and local needs, started in the early part of the 1600s, and has continued in varying degrees and disguises for centuries. The agenda rationales and propaganda moralizing about consumption are cultural aggressions with legalistic conjecture that uses the historical patterns of mass-oppressions for compliance to foreign eco-political objectives. Political histories unrealistic perspective on trying to battle social customs that involve individual awareness and religious consciousness is oppression justification not consumption immorality. Only Education changes behavior.
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Experiences Knowledge Manages Emergencies And its Insights Prevent Problems

After a full and fast workweek and Briens padded schedule, we decided to depart the quiet tropical coast for the cold capital of Quito in the mountains. The maps were poor and the weather in the capital unknown. The flight plan took us along the valleys eastern slope, until the road to Quito, which we followed into the high Andes. As we followed the road we climbed up the steep 13,000 foot mountains, the Gooses dual blades and 1,100 feet-per-minute climb rate was cutting into lighter air. The throttle and mixture was forward; the Goose flapped hard. We flew within what seemed a wings length of the steep valleys wall. When I mentioned my concern that we were not flying in the center of the valley, Brien laughed. Mountain flying requires specific insights and the Gooses aeronautical response had a long turning radius that needed all the space possible to complete in normal conditions. By flying next to one side of the valley, as close as comfortable, Brien doubled the air space available for the airplanes turning radius. A flight path in the center of a high narrow valleys fast-changing conditions would complicate any turning maneuver, which could cause a possible impact into the mountainside. Pilots are rightfully well-paid to manage an airplane through a flights uncertainties, not just sit in the best seat. High-altitude winds have higher speeds that cause fast weather changes. The air-currents changing velocity and strengthened airflow was further complicated by the turbulence of swirling wind moving through and around the mountains many-sided geological features. Virtually in minutes, the weather soured and conditions deteriorated into thick opaque clouds, the onslaught continued to whip up hazardous flying with blinding heavy rain that caused our line of sight to be shortened alarmingly. We lost sight of the far mountain wall, then the road below. Relying totally on our instruments between these mountains, in this weather, was too risky. Circumstances would have had to be perfect to accomplish this flight. Brien prudently began heading back down the valley and toward Esmeraldas.
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After we refueled at the airport, we talked over our options and decided to fly out at daybreak for Panam. Ecuador was impressive, but we were roaming strange roads on foreign maps. Having so many demanding commitments, we felt Ecuador was just too secondary within our concerns priorities. Traveling opportunities were inopportune because time was too valuable to spend on any situation other then staying on top of events and furthering our goals. The departure and flight to the Canal Zone was routine. We entered from a discreet direction low and away from the city. Brien did not want to announce we were back, less focused preparation for his next meeting. We utilized the hangar darkroom and caught GOman at his office and gave him a general status report on the refueling facilities in Esmeraldas and the totally uneventful experience. He did not request anything special, so we separated for a couple of days of personal business. Brien planned to see Herr cabrn at the bank with the film in a couple of days. We planed a meeting at Gregorios office, which was the best place to spend a hot humid afternoon with iced fresh juices and the best-aged Tequila. The nautical furnitures dark polished tropical hardwood and low ceiling gave the feel of a captains cabin in an old sailing ship. His office was above an icehouse storage room, which had a vent system from the floor into the ceiling below. This architectural feature brought cold air from below, which produced a refreshing comfort zone, no matter the level of heat outside. Friends arrived and we sat around talking about people and places of general interest. We told the stories and our impressions of our trip and being regretful we missed Quito and the countrys full splendor. Then Gregorio mentioned to Brien that if he wanted out of this situation, an acquaintance had mentioned a friend wanted to buy a seaplane. Cash on delivery, no questions asked. Briens eyes lit up when he heard this offer. He asked if the buyer was from here and Gregorio said the buyer wanted the airplane delivered to Cuba. Brien asked Gregorio to tell his acquaintance to firm this up. The reality of the power to exist organized Briens decisions. This option helped calm our quiet anxieties and steadily intensifying concerns over terminating this project. Our previous exit strategy was to fake a cosmetic airplane crash and sell the
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damaged craft to a stand-in buyer. After a long vacation, we would put it back together and fly away, but this never had the sound of conviction.
Throttling Up for Uncertainty

Soon afterwards, the colonel received word that the plans for Venezuela had gotten final approval and immediately notified us. The contracts arrived at our lawyers office and payment would commence upon our arrival in Maracaibo, Venezuela. A good-faith check was deposited in Briens account at the German bank. The exact departure date was at our discretion. Brien did some pre-flight preparation work. Panam to Cartagena was a straight west-to-east flight path of 300 plus miles, somewhat less from Cartagena to Maracaibo. Brien had scheduled departure in a loose ocho dias. We used this time to finish up details for a major overhaul, then checked and fine-tuned the results in preparation for a journey into who knew what. If nothing unexpected came up, we be ready to depart with the mood and weather. Brien was ready for the next meeting, but Herr cabrn was not around and The butt took the meeting. Immediately, upon entering the office The butts neurotic act expressed an aggressive attitude to establish some tactical position that rules the will-to-power faithful. Brien undermined his positioning ploy when he said everything appeared in good order. The butt was caught off guard and disclosed his mental velocity facially. The butt became the perfect host and proceeded to ask us the obvious, which was polite stupidness. We mentioned we had to stop over in Cartagena. He said that he wanted us to take shots of the airport and harbor facilities as we passed through. Later in the hangar, we told the colonel about the objectives. He then introduced us to Major Vic, his new second-in-command, who had just off the tarmac and would depart on the next flight out. Herr cabrn knew the colonel but not the major. The colonel was prepared with his plan and as a trained spy he understood operatives logic and priorities. He had some of the Armys latest reconnaissance airplanes on regular patrols between the Canal,
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Cartagena and Venezuela. In Cartagena, the Nazis would have personnel on the ground for military evaluations, considering the new defense agreement and our value. This was an excellent opportunity to have an alternative source of information while observing us. He knew that Herr cabrn was traveling, so we should expect him to turn up somewhere most likely in Maracaibo. Military spies would notice the reconnaissance airplanes and report the details. Our credibility would benefit from the Germans presence, as the primary source, and our photos as backup. The colonel recommended we stay as short a time as possible and use a single roll of pictures because this would work well with the voluminous details supplied by the weeks of information gathering by other German operatives. A naval surface vessel was going to arrive after we departed, which was more independent collaborating evidence that Berlin would enthusiastically consume. The colonel stated that photographing Maracaibo was the main objective and the major would coordinate the situation prior to the Gooses arrival. Accommodations were set at the Hotel del Largo. The oil company office would be the base of operation and its personnel would furnish any local knowledge needed. A scheduled flight plan and exact schedules were at our discretion and the colonel would keep Vic kept informed. The colonel wanted Maracaibo operation done fast and the kept on a tight schedule. The colonel instructed us not to alter the program. He explained that Venezuelas importance to the future could not be underestimated. As a wellhead for the USA and Englands petroleum supplies lines Venezuela was a strategic asset of incalculable importance in the coming war. Napoleon said an army moves on its stomach, but the colonel said that today they move on fuel tanks.
N.A. North Americans T.A. Tropical Americans S.A. South Americans Are All Americans Except to Those Ethnically Disordered
Rubn had kept close track of our departure plans and joined us nightly, as if each was our last night together. Double agent work was
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easier on the body than Rubns concerns. One night he got up, went on stage, and introduced a new performer, a Caribbean troubadour from the rich tradition of island hopping Caribe trovadors, a man said to know every song, pirates lair and beautiful women in the southern Caribe. Cousin Andon from Venezuela leaped upon the stage from his table in front of the band and immediately serenaded the attractive women he had been sitting among. After that romantic gesture to his new companions, the band played various islands music, which were expressions of the Caribbean that he accented with vivacity and passion. When he started to play the drums, the rhythms of his drum connected the audience and the band. He was as passionate strumming and drumming, as a man making long-desired love. The audience went into frenzy. He jumped down onto the dance floor and playing his long conical tom-tom drum that hung across his bare chest and a conga line instantly formed. Everybody who could stand up danced in the line or were drumming and swinging in place. The audience was as wild as Andon was mad. When Andon was finished, the place was unusually quiet; he left the audience drained, smiling in the spent release of tensions and lost thoughts. The waiters and bartenders were working at high-speed to keep up with the crowds needs, to replenish their blood sugar level with drinks seductive pleasures and insatiable dehydration from alcohols illusive rehydration. A short time later Andon looked like a pirate with his loose shirt on and his hair tied back, as he sat next to Rubn. Andon was a literate buccaneer with a quick wit and liberated excesses. His stage presence projected raw manly sexuality, which was obvious when women kept coming over to the table and introducing themselves to him with just fleeing glances for us. We talked for hours. Halfway to morning, Rubn told us to take him along on our journey. We objected saying the colonel would be annoyed at such an unauthorized action, which could place the operation in jeopardy. Rubn stated he did not care what any official thought! He said that bureaucrats in charge have spent their adult lives mastering institutions, not foreign cultures. How could they know enough to be
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able to have intercultural sensibilities, which is what foreign intrigue demands? He then asked, do we truly know a person we can trust in the cultures of connections we were going-to. Andon said it is the Spanish Main. Rubn said not all virtues travel nor does Panams North America bicultural influences transpose directly to the more traditional parts or less civilized regions of T.A.. After years in another country, foreigners become adolescent wise at best. So all foreigners, even with fluency, are in potential jeopardy from cultural gaps and the costly errors of misplaced rationality as with becoming easy prey to expectations that replace experience. Foreigners exacerbate personal insecurities; the newness confusion obscures seeing and hearing the normal subtle messages of daily events. He told us again that we were increasingly on our own and could count on no one. The dangers were ours. He recommended that we leave the office abstractions to the embassys bureaucrats with passports and military paranoias; local knowledge is always more applicable. Locals find foreigners amusing at best and scary at worst. Nationals are bewildered by the rich transient strangers priorities, whose demands complications seem to force disproportional burdens on locals and unnecessarily burdening themselves. Nuances are serious qualifying factors. Andons local knowledge and jargon would protect us with a supply of presumed normality, which was very important because strangers do not have social acceptance or connections protections. New environments simulate projections of anxiety that lower tolerances, these raise hostile feeling and uninformed judgments that cause paranoid reactions. Andons presence would minimize the inadvertent breakdowns in communication and greeds responses that amplify all dangers, real or assumed. Any lack of cultural sensibility accelerates social distance in both directions automatically, legitimate or not. Rubn said distance forms differences. Official pronouncements by foreign bureaucrats are projections of wants; even an army of thousands of soldiers can accomplish little if anything over nation-size distances. Reverse the situation, few master the complexity of their own country, so
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who and what does anyone really know about another multicultural foreign country full of inconceivable dangers many times larger than California and Texas together with vast stateless regions. Little Panam is larger than Holland and Belgium together, while Venezuela is bigger than France and Germany together. In his firm serious voice where contradiction was meaningless, he said Andon was for our safety, armed or not, because of the certainty of uncertainty from adventures unforeseen dilemmas in uniquely local situations. The cover story was the airplane was under contract to an internationally recognized professor of geology with a hired NorthAmerican pilot. So two Tropical-Americans and one hired gringo, make it a Tropical-American operation to concerned eyes. The Caribe of eastern T.A. was Andons home. His involvement supplied better protection than an army of overconfident foreign uniformity. We could not argue with Rubns sincerity or his wisdom. And Andons rapture with living held an obvious improvement to our social life. We were in guarded agreement with truths growing gusto. The build-up of procrastinations anxiety ended when a serious-toned Brien said the latest weather report from a ship off the coast of Colombia was favorable. I mentioned our immediate authoritys logical reasoning had Brien barely in sight; Andon required a telescope. Brien asked Rubn, if Andon why not him too? We could have a lot more fun. Rubn stated he had some important unfinished business to complete and we would stay together, until we left; a still serious focus took over the time remaining.
Friends Lighten Lifes Burdens, Fools Bury You With Them

Rubn drove us to get our bags and then to the airport. Andon packed his clothes into his drums. He traveled with his worldly possessions in his luggage. The backseat was piled high and Andon was now among the necessities. Rubn pulled alongside the airplanes door and Brien went
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to the radio room. While transferring the luggage Andon slid out and into the airplane using the car to block the view. When Brien returned Rubn pleaded in full earnestness one last time that we listen to Andon. He has sailed this sea since he was a child and knows the feel. Rubn stuck his head in the airplanes door and in his firmest voice told Andon to take good care of us or die trying. Loaded and secured, the sound of the engines held the immediate future. The Goose had been put in as good mechanical shape as feasible. The weather was perfect. We accelerated into the orange sun of the tropical sunrise, clearing Coln with a sub headed to open water off the Canals entrance, we did not bother with it because we were all too deep into ourselves. Slow hours put us within sight of Cartagenas fortified harbor islands, exhausted with the bad edge of disruptive sleep that too much alcohol caused some very poor shots. Andon christened the Goose, altisimo and our journey the aerial rumba, while Colombia was New Granada. He mention a Colombian diplomat returning from Washington at the time both countries were choosing a name had and heard Colombia was the favorite in Washington, which Bogot immediately adapted. Also, Colombia was the second country to officially organize air transportation and airmail service, around the end of the First World War. Briens extensive pilots library supplied the facts and figures to support Andons perspectives. He said Colombia is part of two culturally distinct regions. The mountainous majority of the country is in the Andean culture of the South America and the coastal strip on both the Caribbean and the Pacific historically belongs in the Caribbean culture. Bogot, the nations economic and political capital, operates in both regions, as the major northern city of southern region and the center of power for its tropical coastal territories. Historic Cartagena is impressive, the Caribbean queen. The airports location made the approach the logical time to shoot our photos as the runway paralleled our flight plan; Maracaibo was straight off the end of the runway. Cartagenas civilian airport was also a Colombian military base, which made security excellent. On the ground we decided to spend the night, and Andon said he
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wanted to spend some time and the night at the airport. The Nazis job was to observe, so we were our casual normal. As we cleared in, Andon was declared crew and he would watch the airplane overnight. The airplane was refueled in preparation for another sunrise departure. An Army Air Corps reconnaissance plane was on the tarmac, so the craft was placed in with a few photos of Colombias extensive facilities. Cartagenas incredible fortifications that the Spanish built allowed it to be the first city to declare independence, the thick walls have also preserved this gem of colonial Spanish architecture. This coastal city was the original gateway for Spains exploration of South America and a center of slavery. A local priest who spent his life working among the slaves and the poorest of the poor became the first American saint. This unique town may have been aged by the weather, but the way of life has hardly changed with its tropical-paced efforts and heated priorities. Since the days of the Spanish Galleons, harbor activity has revolved around escaping problems and finding dreams in both directions. We checked into the old Hotel Caribe and took a long walk around to enjoy this not quite Spanish not quite Caribbean masterpiece before we had an excellent lunch and a long siesta. At sunset, Andon met up with us and said he knew a place with good entertainment. The place was a crowded Tasca with excellent food and musicians, whose happy Latin melodies were a welcoming sound. Andon called for a Vallenato number, a fast and sharp popular music of local events born in nearby Valle del Cesar. Over time, vallenato spread the length of the Spanish Main. After that number, Andon went up to the bandleader and asked them to play a selection of the various popular and traditional styles of Colombian music. As the band played, Andon explained that Mestizo music tends to reflect the cultural background in the rhythms, timing and instrumental emphases that vary accordingly. He felt that the geographical influences were underacknowledged. El Bambuco is a Colombian folk dance. The music is performed around the mountainous central region in the Andean Zone of Colombia. La Guabina has the same rhythmic base as bambuco but is played in a slower tempo, while Torbellinos has the same rhythmic base with a
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faster tempo. These musical forms use narrative songs of local stories with a slower and smoother rhythm than vallenato or Cumbia. The accordion replaced the indigenous flute in traditional cumbian groups of African-style drums, shakers and scrappers, whose songs express the days moments, the peoples constant dilemmas or narrated anecdotes of the towns characters. Cumbia has refreshing complex rhythms and fast tempos that made it an excellent dance music, which is identified with Colombias Caribbean coastal region. La guaracha has wider acceptance and is the most popular dance music, thou in all accuracy the music does not come from just Colombia. La guaracha is a mixture of rhythms embracing vallenato, a bit of Santo Domingo Merengues, Cuban Son and cumbia. The songs lyrics cover broader experiences, the cries for love and the tears of love lost with special emphasis on the trials and passions of romancing. Further south of Bogot, the rhythms become less intense, the tempos more of an andante movement, moderately slow and even. The melodys horizontal movements and the harmonys vertically blended progression is a mixture that creates an expansive flowing sound. The light mountain air and open panoramic vistas color the musics expressions; graceful legatos gliding like mountain birds, soaring in harmonious purity. These smooth flowing lifting musical arrangements create a comforting sound for the mind that is so different from the pulsating coastal rhythms that talked to and seduce the body. The guitar and kena or Panflute are the favorite instruments across the high Andes. The wind and string instruments lightness and compactness facilitate carting these instruments over the paths of home, off the pounding roads of steep punishing mountain terrain. Later, as more people arrived, one couple stood out. They were dressed for comfortable movement in custom-fitted attire of the finest material. Boleros have passionate dancing; intensity expressed in complicated steps and choreographed rhythms that connect the musicians and dancers. Expressive emotions in smooth movement with exclamations in the sharp turns and punctuating kicks and accenting stops, which preceded the graceful dance of the womans hands. This artist performance held so much controlled passion; a machete would be needed to separate them.
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These vivid boleros of impassioned tragic ardor are romantic dramatizations, which differ from the deliberate tangos intense sexual rituals. Both styles cut their veins in romantic suffering, but boleros moving rhythms are sentimental music, bleeding for women and the tears cried over love, life and its painful failures. The tangos dances are seductive passions with songs of desires for love or yearnings for distant perfection.
The Spanish Main Stretching Along on the Maine to Florida Scale

The sunrise was another perfect tropical morning; a sky filling cool orange sun in a clear light blue that welcomes life. We flew over the mighty Ro de Magdalena, around the 19,000 feet Sierra Nevada Sta. Marta, where Venezuela lay on the horizon. Andon stated Venezuela was the only South American country Coln set foot on in 1498, and the first known people in the area arrived around the 14 millennium BCE, which have been proven by excavations near el Jobo. He then said, Las Americas is the lands of 10,000 cultures with Tropical America straddling the geographical center between the Hemispheres landmasses forming three diverse continent size regions. South America, North America and Tropical Americas warm seas that ran from the Caribbean Islands across Southern Mxico-Central America out to the Hawaiian Islands. The nations of Tropical America are separated from South America by immense geographical features. The Orinoco-Amazons Europeansize jungle basin extends from the Atlantic east to west across northern South America, up the slopes of the earths second highest mountain range, the Andes, whose western slopes rundown into the Pacific Ocean. These massive transcontinental obstacles formed an impregnable geophysical wall that is only breached by a few rivers and crude mountain roads. Tropical America is separated from the North America region by cultural size isolationism and colonialisms impregnable traditions. Colonialisms policies and practices in Tropical America caused many autonomous cultures to develop vibrant independent identities
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with ethnic compositions in varying degrees of fusion. Modernisms multifaceted interchange of cultural diversity has an empowering enrichment, which is lost to biased cultural propagandas ethnocentric stereotypes. Colonialism is an authoritarian culture, which institutionalize superiority with engineered inferiority that prospered on stereotyped assumptions. These officialized presumptions obscure the deceptions in perceptions and reality. Contradictory cultural practices and customs that are taken out of their cultural context reinforce the blinders of cultural arrogance. The subtexted offensiveness is accepted because its initiated within acceptable pretexts in self-righteousness and humor. Andon felt our concentration and continued. Race is a convenient and easy way to reduce differences that the social habits of overreduction and simplistic cataloguing seize. Race has many connotations both good and bad. Consequently, the terminology chosen frames the perceptions responses and influences the concepts grasped, even to oneself. Terms like Hispanic and Latin carry the coded alarmism of the event and agenda manipulation, whether ideological, political, or racially loaded. Propagandas overstatements and arrogant superioritys biases generate affect-laden comprehensions such as civilization started when Columbus discovered America. Prejudices are emotional ignorance that automatically diminishes the respect for and the esteem of those targeted. In geographical references, the terms messages are loaded by complexity oversimplified. The erroneous grouping of Latin-Americans and Hispanic-America because they are composed solely of Spanishspeaking nations is geo-ethnic stereotyping. As with Mxico and Puerto Rico being placed in South America or Chile and Santo Domingo being similar due to assumed Spanish uniformity. These perceptions of similarity have as much validity as equating Jamaica and England because they are English-speaking islands. Tropical America is a language garden with at least 14 Spanish, 17 English, 7 Dutch and 6 French-speaking nations and colonies with magnificent uncounted indigenous languages. The majority of the populations use the Spanish language, but more than 50% of the nations
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do not use Spanish, as their official language. Two diverse multicultural giants border the region, the USA and Portuguese-speaking Brazil. Accuracy is an essential individual responsibility.
Officialdoms Uniform Mafias Corruptions Involve Extortion Over Rule Infractions

We circled Maracaibo to tell those interested we had arrived. We cleared in and ordered fuel because full tanks dont rust. Andon said he wanted to spend some extra time at the airport to establish our story for the local rumor mill, as well as get a line on the airports desperadoes. As we waited for the fuel truck, we discussed our immediate concerns that employment and not just passing through changes the financial aggression of bureaucratic-economic activity. Familiarity fosters acceptance, but all ports of entry are big sources of officialdoms unofficial incomes, whose numerous petty officials with paltry salaries must capitalize upon. Bureaucratic extortions actuality was the most pertinent matter. Authoritys strict internal procedures control each facet of shipping vulnerabilities and travels defenselessness due to the power of interpretations granting permission, which are custom-made for extortions bribery. Bribery is the solutions to contrived inconveniences that are scripted as procedures and concealed in rulebook obligations; these generate cash directly from avoidance of infractions acted upon. Procedural bureaucratic transgressions are daily routines refined to formulated perfection with plausible deniability built into each hurdle, level and conversation involved, which prevents felonious misdeeds. Rulebook premises are framed for flexible self-dealing interpretations with noncompliance stated in punitive absolutes, which circumventing cash overcomes. Short-term central government appointments have a high turnover due to each change in the winds of political favors. Some positions are rented by the month and must maximize each prospect. The political bosses keep their hands clean and let others fill their wallets. The expediter is the head local administrator; the political appointee relies on. We needed to find the key man quickly to save money. These men reveal
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themselves indirectly, after the sizing-up encounter establishes infractions potentials. These men do not always hold the biggest title, and seniority definitely does not equate to intelligence, importance or worth. Andon said he find out about the official in charge of these matters, so we could negotiate as quickly, directly and smoothly as possible. Paying up the administrative ladder gets expensive quickly because those on each rung get in line. Bribery matches the recognized profits involved or entanglement inconveniences with its compounding cost; grease turns the wheels of governments. When the right position gets paid off, all the underlings stay in line. It curtails the seemingly constant petty confrontation with midofficialdoms small extortions and minimizes the disappearance of transportable personal items. Experience knows paying the crook with power to be honest is the cheapest insurance both in replacement cost and lost-time. While being seen with the headman avoids the perverted entertainment of every bored office worker with a uniforms petty power. Public corruption conspiracies are minefields of no-win situations for the powerless. Challenging corrupt bureaucrats interpreting their rules are battles for fools and idealists.
Maracaibo is One of the Wealthiest Places in the Ground on Earth

An oil company guard assigned to altisimo arrived with a chauffeured company car. On the ride from the airport, the driver told us the first oil wells, in 1883, were drilled to a depth of 150 feet at La Petrolia, located in the mountainous south of Lake Maracaibo. The early Venezuelan oil pioneers learned the petroleum business during Americas first major oil boom in the Titusville, Pennsylvania, in 1859. The story of Venezuela oil industry predates the famous Texas and Oklahoma oil booms by decades. By the 1920s, Venezuela was the worlds largest exporter of oil. It has an old, established oil industry presence. Economically, 90% of Venezuelas yearly wealth is produced from this region.
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After lunch, we got some focus, then went to the oil companys office. The oil executive from El caf was there with the major, who immediately questioned us about Andon. Brien changed the framing by pursuing the burdens of financial responsibility. In a straightforward manner, he asked if he personally or the Army was going to insure our belongings, the Goose and its flying status. This made it a no-choice situation about accepting our decision, which silenced the subject of Andon. The executive ended the minor confrontation when he said two reliable guards would be perfect. Due to German surveillance, we kept the first meeting light and short, as would be normal. We would start early the next day. As we finished up, Vic said his men would be around but not near us. Vic departed after we left for drinks at the petroleum club. The major was a solid man with the big picture, but every bureaucracy has the qualifying factors of subordinates careerism, which reduces to cooperating, so the boss receives all credit and someone else all the blame; promotion strategies expose personal character. Even in the corporate cultures military-style of operating the oil executive knew how to handle Brien with the respect required to yield results between intellectual peers. He was a realist with class. He carried himself in a quite confident manner from a life of tough oil camps with hard men and violent hazards up through the international oil business suit and tie uniform warfare.
Psychically Critical States Become Fixed Unceasing Experiences

The next day, the offices large conference table was covered with an array of maps. The colored blocks and strong black markings gave them the look of abstract modern arts compartmentalized geometric shapes on map canvases. The plan was straightforward to pass photos that would misrepresent the wells, pumping activity as well as the pipelines and tank farms. We had to use both the big Kodak and a similar large German camera that was Herr cabrns parting gift.
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Herr cabrn had instructed me to use this exceptional German camera to shoot the photos directly. He wanted original plates, not prints or negatives of other photographs. In explicit terms, he pointed out we were no longer under direct military supervision. This demand was an order, which indicated our material was important for whatever reasons, in the serious evaluations under consideration in Berlin. We decided the Kodak plates would be developed at once, in an adjoining office to see what the naizs would get. After the Kodak shots were examined and cleared, we would pass the undeveloped plates to whoever was the courier of the day, from our hotel suite. If my work revealed too much, an excuse would be given and we would reshoot the days efforts, which sounded usable once. Excuses would backfire on us, so the pressure was on me to take the photos right on the first try. Herr cabrns careerism insecurities put him close-by somewhere. He wanted control and his signature on everything coming out of this operation, especially on the documents and envelopes of photographic prints going to Berlin. In this case, in-house signatures were selfpromotion, a constant reminder about whose project it was and the rewards were justifiably due; spotlights both highlight and blind. Authorization signatures are the confirmation of responsibility accepted, which is why they are normally difficult and psychotically time-consuming to obtain. Now they were the source of promotion and adulation, so he would cover himself with the logic of bureaucratic extremism to guarantee no screw-ups, no matter how small or how big the cost. After the achievements with the Canal, a promotion was written but not yet mailed, just held until the full completion of our work. His glorious future was his to lose. We had sensed a confidence in his conceit. He totally concentrated on his wants, which circumstances must deliver, all driven by his disordered obsessions that advancement validates. His identity and worth was tied to this job. His career reputation depended on completing this project. Brien felt he was afraid to take any risk concerning his promotion that was why no German companies were contacted to use our photo business. This risk aversion and action avoidance by a fanatic exposed
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his careerisms naked self-interest. We focused our assessments and decisions on his personal priorities and institutional parameters; his disorders were the key. Our hate and attitudes had to be controlled. He was a careerist with a promotion to protect and severe mental disorders; these made him a demented sociopath not stupid. The wrong assumptions or deduced possibilities could be a death penalty for us. He would shoot us, then blame us for any failure, a deranged fact my good-natured personality downplayed until Noras face stood over salted hatred. Herr cabrns disconnected personality and clinical disorders depravity was institutionally modified further to enhance effectiveness. His psychosis social dementia had a propensity for violence and disposition for aggression that formed a socially functioning schizoid. The gravity of amoral noxious coercions and officialized disorders have an inflexibility that kills, he blindly execute innocence for expedience to advance a career. He was a trained mannequin with a violent mind that invalidated humanity. His psychotic cosmetics made me feel soiled. Uncritical enthusiasm for administrative-totalitarianisms commandcontrol is blind state servitude; institutional idolatry is employment psychosis. The secular ideologies of powers social animosity and imposed social order are maximized by the conditioned paranoiac-anxieties and desperations fears. These are adjusted by the push of daily propagandas emphasis on useful concerns and improbable consequences. Social ordered life becomes an existence of psychological dramas and social disorders that traumatize living. The situation was before us but our private conversations set the understandings for our decisions. Brien and I worked together diligently to know our enemies and allies down to their motivating cores and understand their execution capacities. We devoured information and probed deep with brutal honesty to eliminate misconceptions of what was before us; our lives depended on our efforts. The process of understanding unfolded profound insights with comprehensive perspectives, which evolved into the wisdom of our decisions that established what our plan had to involve.
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Developed Aesthetic Appreciations Prevents Developing Boredoms Disorders

During the meeting we evaluated maps distances, time and refueling, calculations that confirmed Venezuelas immense size. Off the maps, it is larger than the sum total area of Florida, Georgia, Mississippi, Alabama, Louisiana, Virginia, and North Carolina. Venezuelas diverse geological features and geophysical conditions, as well as being geographically centered in the Western world made it strategically well positioned geopolitically. We received an education in oilfield equipment and analyzed infrastructure areas to determine what to photograph and not photograph. Numerous ideas were discussed on our most important subject, our emergency backup plans, which Brien always had to initiate. The insight that jumped out at me was not just the photographs corresponding to ground observations but the deductions for our reasoning behind the sequence of decisions on the shoots submitted. Investigating these would lead to torturous questioning that would uncover our being double agents. Recognizing these dangers put more pressure on me because my finger controlled the shutters chain of decisions. The urgency and consequences compelled me to focus even more on my performance priorities. As the pilot matters being discussed were unrelated to me, I relaxed into a mediators state with some unnoticed long silent breaths and slow stretching in smooth natural movements to rid my body of tension. Balanced concentration demands neutralitys stepping back and letting-go of your self, so the mind opens to the moment. Appreciation carries influences of value, which requires effort to obtain. Hours spent in front of many works of modern art in galleries and museums would take days of follow up thought to capture and express a meaningful impression. Open-minded attitudes and Modern Arts many abstract forms unleash thoughts that tune-up intellectualizing, which flow with new deductions and abstractions. The most vague notions projected by an artists images and patterns stimulate visual literacys inspirations that stir inquisitiveness.
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The visual inspirations of abstract art stimulate the observers creative process; some of these free-floating mental responses held bewilderment thats beyond explanations even after days of intellectualizing. These connecting and labeling experiences led me to make an off-handed observation about the maps being a visual puzzle, which made it difficult for anyone to grasp, thus facilitating unquestioned acceptance. There seemed a method to the confusion, by its uncalled-for complexity, more layered and circular, when it should be more engineered direct. The impressions of logical patterns had deliberate overcomplexity; the visual entanglements to the eyes confuse the mind and stopped further critical thought. The oil executive mentioned the collection and storage structures were standard, however pumping systems, production capacity and reserves were critical information of major international importance on corporate assets. Secret corporate profits said to no one in particular because the layout made the oil company management the sole meter reader. The pattern seemed premeditated in its design complication, and even with these maps, no true centralized flow-rate metering was possible, much less workable. When my monologue stopped and my attention went to the oilman, it was noticeable how sharply he had taken my analysis. He said it was due to numerous construction companies and projects built over the years without a master plan. I shook my head and mentioned that the complexity was obviously intentional because it was more than was required for maximum efficiency, which economic margins must seek. He stopped and asked the major if he could have a word in private with us. The moment Vic left, the oil executive said that my interpretation was the reason for the long delay before the photo project received corporate approval. The oil company was afraid this information would reach the wrong hands and cause expensive renegotiations that would fill the legal trough with costly legalistic maneuvering and the predicaments publicity would arm political enemies with profit indignation. This was highly sensitive corporate information held by a few, which
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now included us. He dictated a deal, where we would receive a large bonus, if we gave our word to keep it secret and never mention the architectural stratagem again. His direct stare intensified the last phrase, given directly into both of our eyes that carried unstated deadly message. The oil business has the real worlds blackest reputation. This was the easiest money two men ever made. Brien and I sketched an acceptable scenario during a long coffee break, supposedly taken so we were not overwhelmed with the work material, as phone calls were made. We deduced the oil company laid the pipelines from oilfields to refineries and terminals independently using various construction companies. So no outsiders or any one office could measure inventory or monitor flow patterns from any one place with all the different ways discharge oil, much less exactly bottom line volumes. Keeping track of output spread out over land areas larger than numerous states was an impossibility, which demanded the accounting to be estimations by design. Big margins of errors facilitated managements inclinations. The fuel was only measured entering and leaving the big storage tanks in the tank-farms, next to the tanker loading docks. No one measures the fuel in the temporary storage tanks, spread out over the countryside. The total inventory stored in these temporary facilities and the oil in the pipelines was unmetered with quantities that equated to a large tank farm. The pipeline system could reroute and bypass the dockside storage tanks to directly load a ship. Phantom tankers or just topping off an oil tanker offered large unrecorded and untaxed gains. Conspiratorial secure because its protected by profits, design and controlled cross-checking. Organized crime means payments cover each step in the deal because pay-offs eliminate all risk. Managements entitlements of obedience, rotated workers and regulated schedules permits management to do as it wishes. The biggest pay-offs are just pocket change with the quantities of money involved from ship-size profits. Black-hand business and exposed corporate secrets held dangerous potentials for executives with compounding losses. The complete operation open to analysis was the true concern. Our project must have
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only come about after the oil companies demanded and received special financial and political favors in return, from both Washington and London. What favors must important corporations receive in return for cooperation? Just to confirm the extent of the oilfield production was potentially explosive because motivated curiosity would lead to deductive revelations of other corporate secrets that competing professional insights could utilize for gains. The corporate pay-off must have been the mega-fortunes of corporate desires and guaranteed futures. These high-level negotiations had caused our start-up delays. Deductions determined the chances of the Nazis grasping these facts to base a comparison on was still a gamble but the odds changed to an unlikely possibility, far from a probability if we did our job right. Later, over drinks at an open bar near the hotel, Brien said he felt if the money was forthcoming, we had no worries. Then he added, if an operation succeeds in one situation, it holds for similar situations. Only puppet leaders in oil nations may be in the dark about the extent of extra curricular activities but not the powers-that-be, whether key backers, bankers or military command, the size requires complicity. Opportunists can always cut a side deal, to not ask questions or direct accusations; the easiest gains are often in playing dumb. On the way to the hotel, we wagered exactly now many minutes before Herr cabrn would knock; five for me and seven for Brien. We had to control our laughter before we opened the door. Herr cabrns monologue contained nothing we had not covered with ready answers; the predictable attack was over Andons presence. His disapproval and permission was needed for such a change in personnel, no matter the circumstances. Brien deflected the confrontation with his nonchalant attitude about Andon being the airplanes security. He asked Herr cabrn if he was going to deposit the value of the seaplane in an escrow account in case it was stolen or damaged because the airports were under local control. The security for our personal property was our business. This firm response got the predictable reaction from arrogant intimidators mental screams of silent hatred; bluffs are called by having to put up the money or deliver performances. The self-absorbed usually miss the subtle facts in messages because they are always mentally reacting
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to their wants scripted performances. Brien said, Herr cabrn wanted this to go smoother than we did. The situation moved on uncomfortably with hidden threats in Herr cabrns tone on minor subjects. He mentioned he had a darkroom set up to examine these photos immediately. The whole confrontation was to a set up to get us nervous and psychologically weak to increase our vulnerabilities to this direct monitoring. Control requires intimidation to raise paranoiac-anxieties, the real reason for the visit. We waited in normalcy, until he moved down the hall after listening at the door; his shadow on the door stile was an interesting and insightful give-away. His projections and predictable ploys got what they deserve, another good laugh.
Venezuela is the Sleeping Giant of the Tropical Caribbean

Psychological restlessness is normal while waiting for serious matters to get started. The circumstances of this situation had my nerve endings active. Pressure dictates the thought patterns and in anticipating moments, they showed in my nervous pacing and intense attitude. Emotional agitations are caused by the mind. Thoughts are just pure sensory input sparking nerve linkages across the brain; the identification or reaction to them makes them real. One must have trust in things the way they are and ones ability, and not get caught up and dragged around by circumstances. This task took a demanding effort under relaxed circumstances. The projects sheer size meant fatigues silent dangers were the concern, not officialdoms game. Orders as instructions were read as warnings. The pressure was to compose the photographs to appear as a believable continuum, while actually a group of preselected individual negatives. Blank spaces had to be filled in with the correct landscape compositions, while flying, shooting and making a chain of fast decisions. Another concern was coordinating the second runs shots of the same thing, so the correct appraisal of accuracy could be made, before giving the negatives over to Herr cabrn. Andon aboard working would be helpful but lead to involvements deductions that could get complicated and too costly.
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These serious concerns needed insightful perspectives. Brien left me alone to visualize the mechanics of the work, step-by-step repeatedly, until my confidence could do it as fast verbally as my fingers snapped. Further meditation revealed the sources of my nervous irritability was my existential anxietys emotional reactions, which needed to be calmed. Situational stresses and general anxiety are normal. My self-management confidence builders induced a calm psychological self in neutral standby. This de-stressing effort was the well-proven approach used in my preparation for a medical operation. My assessment was manage the situation or it emotionalizes you. Waste involves enduring unnecessary effects. The safest procedure would be to take my time and be accurate using the German camera first, utilizing whatever time was required to compose the subjects position correctly. Then I would shoot the same shot using the Kodak for reference, on a second run that Brien would deliver perfectly. Close, smooth framing on the German plates was all that mattered. If a doubt was seen on the developed plates, we knew the first plates were more composed. These arrangements would minimize the pressure, which would make for good results and avert complications. Deep breaths and telling myself to do it right needed additional positive action to vent the pressure building-up, so a self-prescribed medication was just be Caribeos in the Caribbean with some uplifting musical therapy and good friendship, which would eliminate restless anxietys tossing and a night beating up pillows. Emotionalized thoughts were distractions that if carried over into performance would cause my worst concerns to happen. On the drive to pick-up Andon, we commented that Maracaibo had these small touches from mainstreet USA, while the nightlife was pure Caribbean. One of my favorite North American influences was the development of the finest dairy products, in the tropics, thanks to J.D. Rockefellers oil operation. Brien stated, in the early 1900s he was worth over one billion dollars, while the king of England was worth about $25million. He was around 1/65 of the whole USAs national economy. This is the base number, so figure the power when all economic advantages benefit old money and the fire sale purchases of the business-cycles for
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those with means. Compounded interest of ten-percent doubles the capital in seven years and major investors dictate terms. The driver told us the international frontier was very close and those born in either country within 25 miles of the frontier can be citizens of either country, its their freedom of choice. When Brien asked where was he born, he stated the famous Venezuelan motto Its Not Where You Were Born, Its Where You Fought. Andon jumped in the car and filled us in on the airports list of good guys and bad guys. The ratio, not who, was the message, another situation mafia. Introducing himself to the driver and the customary, Do you know so and so? established the old friendship connection immediately; by the end of the introduction they would be old friends by the end of the night they be relatives. Andon said this was one of his favorite towns; he constantly expressed positive recognitions about each place and every womans beauty in some way or other. He had joy and a soaring lifes freedom of open honesty and nonattachment to things with a quiet centered mind. He trusted in things being as they are, with the enlightenment of just doing, without confusion or patterns of avoidance from the usual mind spinning of emotionally self-centered opinions, priorities and illusions. Brien asked for a recommendation of a quiet restaurant with a quality ambiente. Andon and the driver Tomas discussed the request back and forth, until the driver mentioned one and Andon agreed wholeheartedly. The restaurant required a jacket for dinner. Brien said it was not an inconvenience, we could pick ours up passing by the hotel. Brien ran up to the suite and grabbed one for each of us, as he and Andon were about the same size. On the way, Brien mentioned my lost meal wager on how many minutes we have to wait for Herr cabrn. The restaurants motif matched the quality on the menu. The specialty was prize grass-fed beef but, as white wines travel best and with the ocean so close and the seafood presented so outstanding, we ordered a very large paella that Brien had discretely topped with three large lobsters. Artistic performances connect to deep singular affairs. The musicians Flamenco, screamed intense passion that pulsated with improvised drumming and guitar accenting. He played the various flamencos without
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the dancers jaleo finger snapping, palmear hand clapping or the zapateado, the intricate toe clicking and heal stomping, just solos of canto flamenco its core, songs of profound themes, exuberance and poetic amour. This master guitarist filled out his repertoire with individual genres of light Bularas, Moorish Fandangos and Malgueas made for a satisfying night of Spanish elegance. Early the next afternoon, we flew over the northern half of Lake Maracaibo, which is about 60 by 100 miles with the city on the northwestern shoreline. We shot hours of wellheads, drilling platforms and related oil infrastructure. The German cameras shots captured the obvious. To reinforce our amateurism, my technique was rushed in the beginning to cause some blurring, whereas the oil companys first group of photographs came out like postcards. Our plan was to start slowly, one flight daily for the first few days until we had the coverage refined. We could make up for lost time later but an error was still a concerning deadly matter. Brien wanted to shoot the oldest and most established oil sections, the common knowledge ones and those with easy access from roads. This shooting strategy was designed to give us a warning of what Herr cabrn knew and was up to, which was another of Briens astute tactics. The box of plates was passed directly from our suite on the coded knock to a vaguely familiar face. Upon leaving the hotel, we paused to admire the stream of beautiful Venezuelan women and Andon appeared like the wind. His day had been occupied with private matters in town, after we took-off. The next report was he now knew most of the airport, an excellent group of workers and soldiers with the typical mix of quality and the not-so-petty corruption of the bosses. The airport mafia now knew him and therefore accepted us, so that situation was more stable. He mentioned he had spent lots of time in Maracaibo again, and wanted to show us around; his energetic way did the entertainment driving. Tomas appeared with his car on Andons signal and, he told him to bring us to a friends tavern, as the evening was just starting, too early for much else. Upon entering the tavern, the owner ran over and hugged Andon as if welcoming his prodigal son. The owner became our instant best friend because we were with Andon. The owner joined us for a few
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drinks and pushed Andon to tell him his latest adventures, but Andon stayed vague and the owner picked this up and moved on to other subjects. Customers entered regularly; the owner knew most, but there were a few new ones, our latest observers. Later, after the band had been playing a short while, Andon left the table and disappeared backstage to return with a guitar, el Caribe trovador. His songs to the audience had the robust candor off the streets of living and commentaries on social observations. His sound was the upbeat style of Gaita Zuliana that featured the charrascas tight scrappy beat, which accented his penetrating vocals that jabbed his points home. The band played tight and hard matching his lyrical emphasis. Intellectual screams against the elusiveness of doing Justice justice, which men know and greed grinds away. Latin artists are traditionally societys most important and critical social critics. Venezuelan coastal music is the rich blend of all the caribeo rhythms with the melodies accentuated by the voices. The extravagant pervasiveness of music in Caribbean life is from the psychological needs that counterbalanced the centuries of oppressive poverties in slave societies. The only allowed expressions of individuality were songs and dance; the only affordable expression of self-worth was sexuality. After Andon left the stage, the band started to play the composed sound of Andalucas Polo. At the table, he sat quietly for a while. The high energy expended entertaining requires adjustments; the appreciative audience responses have a feel. His performances were always special as they transcend the mundane. Later, Andon said there was another place he wanted us to go. When Brien asked for the bill, the owner brought over a marvelous brandy and told Brien never to insult him again or we would not be welcomed back. His big smile of appreciation and heartfelt gratitude touched us all. Andon being himself covered the bill plus. Andon knew all sides of life and had the talent to communicate masterfully with an intelligence that gave respect to the individual no matter the economic position and social level. Brien truly admired this man of so much depth behind such quality carefree social graces. Andons personal elegance of balanced potency and talents for living well was
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creative originality. This next spot was a place best described as a hot and dark tropical club, in a faintly lit hotel. The female workforce had many talents and capabilities. We had access to our needs and left in the lost hours of the night. Andon asked, Do you know the difference between a Venezuelan and a Colombian? We said no. He said Venezuelans party until they drop, usually late the next day. Then they pick themselves up with a certain dignity, a touch of macho and swagger home. The Colombians party until they drop, usually late the next day. Then they pick themselves up with a certain dignity, a touch of macho and start partying until they drop again. Colombians continue until they run out of money and credit, a minimum of three to five days, and then they swagger home. After a pause Tomas said the Colombians act from the head, the Venezuelans from the heart. Brien got Andon a room at our hotel and put it on the oil companys account. Brien said that all the self-interest involved would rationalize Andon away, using ambitions talents for suitable logical deceptions. We just needed to keep having a wild time, staying safely in character. For the Nazis, Andons originality was the best cover story imaginable. Brien felt Vics attitude expressed the colonels paranoid anxieties and his careerisms priorities that pressurized the situation unnecessarily because they were unfounded. He wanted the schedule to fit our needs first. He did not care how our scheduling sewed the fields of worry for indentured careerist. He said the colonel had never been to Maracaibo, so his scheduling instructions were based on map assumptions. The structure of his abstractions were secondary, as a no risk participant with no attachment to our lives past twenty short conversations, balanced against heavy personal gains, which made his motivations an open question. His truth was using useful metaphors, so we had to assess his total efforts and accomplishments at the end because judgments are the emphatic opposite of understandings. Our team settled into a comfortable routine of working in the afternoons and partying long into the nights. The relaxed pace and enjoyable time gave a pleasurable meaning to living. After a week, Herr cabrn entered are room with determination and wanted to know why we were not flying more. Brien said the weather and the oil executive set the
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schedule. Those decisions were out of our hands. This prefabricated ploy was left hanging without a further statement, so Herr cabrn had an open opportunity to attack, if he wanted. He said nothing about the shots, as he would have, if these were a major concern on his mind. We knew we were on secure ground with the censored plates we had slid-in over the last few days. His attitude and predictable confrontation was music to our ears. When he left, we concluded, he said nothing because he had nothing to compare them to, so each photo was valuable. We felt more confident that we were just filling in blank pages in a blank book. No one wanted to put in the serious effort necessary to check up on them because it read so beneficially in Berlin just how it was. We were somewhat surprised that nothing else came up about Andon but then that giveaway the fact his people are following us. His workers must have filled him in on Andons image and style, which was about as far away from his existence as a man can be and still be on the same planet. A mental challenge he would rather ignore by denying relevance.
Class is Smooth Sophistication Cosmopolitans Apply the World-views Multiple Levels

Brien mentioned only the oil executive had real class. His style had hard experiences maturity and a well traveled mans social etiquette; he treated people with consideration. Legitimate men remember life starting at the bottom; great managers use the knowledge. The oil executives sophistication kept track of our lives and regularly asked if we needed anything. He invited us to many social events, considerations that cost nothing but meant a lot. The oil executive even brought up the transfer of the hush money first; it was already deposited, in Panam. Money is a catalyst and an energy source. A persons awarenesses, personality traits and character are shown in ones reactions to money and no money. Money like power confirms quality or fuels inabilities psychological panic. Success has its own knowledge and unique perspectives on priorities, which are so much more than task fulfillment and assignment performance.
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Public administrators are status quo managers, so they do not initiate, as executive talent in private management must. Officials exposed their limitations and priorities to us during important conversations, where our concerns, welfare or money were subjects treated as almost unrelated aspects of the job. Institutional mediocritys complacence is regimented neglect, avoidance and refuting, these are staff performance ploys that substitute for competences decision-making. Public management attitudes concerning obligations is evasion, the weak cowardly approach of mediocritys careerism. Mediocrity is a lack of effort, not talent. Mediocrity rulebook conformity with discipline trainings uniformity formulates performances into predetermined configurations that manifest predictable pursuance of limited abilities inabilities. Mediocre insecurities and fears become motivation that drives the social wasteland of poor decisions and the purposed unnecessary. Mediocritys shallow efforts and fears apprehensions do not want to know, grasp or evolve past the desperations pessimistic actualities that generates self-fulfilling prophecies as reality. Even though all the desperation in the world does not add up to seriousness and all the political seriousness in the world does not add up to anything but selective gain.
Unions Fight Organized Greeds Political Theater, Abuse and Denial

To Brien, labor was the life force of humanity. His thoughts were forged watching his familys silent acceptance and his working countless thankless jobs. His experiences knew management practices had no consideration. Bosses with petty conceits and common disorders translate into insulting intimidation toward at-will hourly workers, which diminishes social ethics and dismisses civility. But the worst social offenses are offensive medieval-minded attitudes that require submissive behavior. Societys memory lapses toward aggressive greed and its enforcement attitudes that expects so much for so little is not just morally wrong its usually evil. Corporate perceptions have established an enabling fiction
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that unions, the liberators of labors inhumanity and of progressive social ideals are subversive associations of ungrateful ignorant workers, who challenge the profitable status quo by disputing ownerships superior wisdom. The ideological affiliations of conservatism divide labor by induced desperations and society by unquestioned corporate propaganda. Power oligarchies PR-rationales undermines legitimate arguments with false issues or frames such efforts to justify the full might of the social order that can suppress at-will, thus making greeds ruthlessness nonexistent even with blood in the street. Labor fights the rule of master/serfdom mentalities, scabs steal and production pressures quotas control workers. Inexpressible vulnerabilities historically shackled men, women and children to their workstation, whether shifts of twelve-plus hours in fields or answering to machines. People forget Hitler built his popularity by putting bathrooms in the factories with the protected rights to use them. The historic constant of the worker is that of an uphill fight for fairer social contracts. The fruits of social progress, which all employed people enjoy were battles won not gifts, these involve costly conflicts by workers to be treated with human decency. Union campaigns against medieval servitudes stopped many inhumane indignities and counter-productive abuses. The organizers were common workers, whose innocent families endured immense suffering from injuries received by the abuse of power and its moralizing conspiratorial deceits of created hunger, jail-time, beatings, even massmurder by complicit official corruptions. Commerces architects and PR-propaganda establish plutocratic priorities as social perceptions and never publicly concede the proven wrongs and documented abuses. The benefits of social justice and civilities hold liabilities due to greeds inhumanity, which are always concealed, especially from the propagators home-life illusions. Pains are inflicted downward whether from management setbacks or the fights for worker benefits, but gains move upward so swiftly that they have the impression of always having been there. The salary class lobotomy dismisses union organizers humane achievements legitimized and raised every workers social benefits and all jobholders economic station. These compensation benefits are great accomplishments that
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must be acknowledged because they have helped move humanity and societies upwards faster and further in decades, than the centuries of the accumulating classes generosity and conservative ideologys agendas. Social philosophy is advantageously configured with wealths parameters from perceptions to purposes. The basic formulations desire maximum gain, which are validated by adjusting the scope of involvements and inclusions calculations. Profit-focused accounting procedures avoid the economic actualities of full life cycle evaluations and shun all goodwill value except at the time the owners sell. Greed sees fairness as a weakness to be exploited. Justice is never given its contrary to the just-us ideological morality of eliteultraconservatism. The civility in societies social contracts raises respect and selfesteem, whereas agenda profiteers theater of denial and status quo contexting interpret social obligations as weakening authority and giving into inferiors. Briens resume demystified wage oppressions. He understood the creed of greedy as delivered by mediocritys inabilities as the ugliest social sins and crimes against workers, their families and humanity. Unrestrained greeds savage capitalism gives capitalism its bad image. Justice is ethical fairness, not one-sided punitive actions or getting even. Justice is the best that could possible happen.
Compelled Relevances and Choicelessness Announce Intellectual Totalitarianism

We finished photographing the northern half of the lake and the Coro Peninsula with its refinery, storage areas, pipelines and the tanker loading docks. The next morning, we started to shoot the southern part of the lake and other inland fields. The lakes shoreline is dotted with hundreds of homes built on stilts above the water, Venezuelas means little Venice. The original expression came from the poor Mediterranean sailors who probably said the name in sarcasm, but it was the closest they would ever get to own a palacio on the water.
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Brien decided to land near a picturesque village in a secluded bay beside a river that emptied into the lake. He taxied the airplane to a grassy beach to keep the children in canoes from denting the crafts fragile skin. These villagers were wonderfully friendly and radiated health from the active living of smooth-paced tropical striving. When the excitement calmed down, Brien let those interested satisfy their curiosity. They entered the interior in awe, after which he gave the boys clear and direct instructions not to climb on or play around the airplane. We had lunch on a palm-roofed, open-sided platform, over the water with the village elders. We listened as they spoke within woven analogies of their oral tradition that expressed penetrating perspectives and humane comprehensions on mans commonality and shared concerns for the future. Power and greeds needs negated the genius of the native by institutionalized social immobility that gun barrel enforcement persevered. These people are fast learners, who share mankinds universal characteristics of the mind and its functioning. Only agendas priorities limit the mastery of new information due withheld working vocabularies and evolving concepts interrelationships. Elitisms exclusivity attitudes hold everyone back and academia down. Pious affiliations wrote the ideological menu with conservative recipes of dogmatic meals and selected the cooks that make scholarship, designs the motif, while consolidating the appropriate ingredients to fill the strict fundamentalist diet. Natives were never invited guests to elitisms buffet. Someone had to gather, prepare, attend, and then clean up afterward. The Amerindians also had to build the furniture and buildings, while supply the entertainment and profit. Intellectual ability and mental capacities are not the issues, accepting differences positively and getting past ideological indoctrinations presumptuous superiority is. The continuing cultural legacies of discrimination and intolerance are intellectual and moral vacuums that facilitate the historical constant of greed and powers cycles of evils fearhate-dehumanizing-killing. Mans genetic differences are so small and his common traits so great, group differences in behavior fall entirely within the subject matter attributed to culture.
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Unrespected Idiosyncrasies Echo the Social Orders Discriminations and Intellectual Poverties
Grandfather, this means thinking of natives as children is actually a suppression justification and ignorance is bliss, is a self-repression rationale. Yes, the natives spirituality is a humane balance in universal harmony with nature as it is. Native harmony has no uniform conformity rather a religious consciousness of individual awareness in direct participation with a sacred process. This is a powerful philosophical comparison for religiously masked cohesion with its ideologicalized traditions social customs, which shape biased precedents, priorities and platitudes as social psychology. The tight academic reins of credentialized superiority obligate intellectual uniformity that has cutoff centuries of developing potentials and refining possibilities. Intellectual conformitys circumscribed pursuits are accomplished with agenda directed scholarships exclusionary processes that sidestep and restrict the fields of theoretical propositions. This clever targeted suppression due to specializations overdeveloped narrow spheres within the broadening spectrum of knowledge bestows a false sense of mastery supported by aggressive conceits. Contemporary literacies evolve from educations unmet intellectual needs and the sociocultural deficiencies. Individual empowerment reflects on real meanings and investigating the ordinary with the realizations of inclusive references, while using the scientific model for relevance. Science? Sciences ethical content follows evidence, the value and rewards of which enhance living. Whenever well-established knowns are explained and the benefits popularized, they are assimilated. When no respect exists for available information on which to base ethical choices, or superior wisdoms advantageous responses, then we have intellectual repressions ethical fraud; status quo illiteracy.
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Intuitive Seekings Calm Clarity Requires Deep Relaxation

Brien took a walk, and I had a reflective cup of coffee alone under the shaded platforms thatched roof. During my siesta, time rolled backward into itself forming a timeless interplay with sensations in the borderlands of psychobiology and potentials. Deep relaxation facilitated an amazing release of myself from my I-ness; the atmosphere of being reflects off of whatever drifts in and out, on waves of preconscious. Knowledge has its moments before its rationalized. Mental phenomena like recallable memory on demand have a weight of experiences thats felt. Memory traces in my brain are thin threads of influences through the senses, which calls forth acknowledgments of conscious perceptions that hold a marvelous mental clarity. The interaction with perception starts opening interconnections endlessly, into visual images, into words, into sounds, into personal memories, even epics some real, some imaginary. Dreams drift into dreams, some directed Practiced rest enhances the minds mastery of relaxation where stillness opens the spacial presents everlasting now. The now is where the energy of perceptions becomes inseparable from the energy of creation, a consciousness of one that modern physics makes clear because we are one energy with different manifestations in potentials, all connected by lifes expanding energy. Our social consciousness probably evolved to help us cope with the vastness of the dynamic human complex; a puzzle rational science pursues. One interpretation of consciousness is as psychologically real as any other because consciousness exists beyond the social configurations of the prevailing dogmatic interpretations. Our spirituality is our awakening and connection to the universal conscience. Human Spirituality is not the meaning of life but the experiences of being alive. Spirituality is the potentiality of human life that connects in religions rituals of mythological participation. Spirituality is religions core beneath the layers of agenda add-ons by the caste of heavens middleman, the historical mediators of theology with religious vanities and sheriffs of God mentalities.
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Culture is the mothers milk of perceptions, which formats thoughts in deep and persistent ways that are totally unrecognized and therefore beyond conscious control. The Amerindians spirituality are an inseparable communication with their perceptions, living life gratefully in the rhythm of a spiritual relationship, accepting its constant journeys as they are, in preparation for the next great adventure death. Their sociocultural dynamics view death as a companion of living, which captures the purity of native wisdom for lifes unknowns and uncertainty because Gods not separate from the unity of the planet and us. Ideologies seem the politics of ideals and their ordained structuralists mere politicians. The Vatican Council defines the Church as the whole people of God, yet its ultraconservative bureaucratic leaderships transference ploy calls its ultraconservatism command the teaching Church. This framing cloaks the inherent political implications and the leaderships pray, pay and obey attitudes. Political powers disenfranchising has many forms, tactics, weapons and functions from simple misunderstandings to coded labels for rejection that dehumanize. The projected perceptions of native inferiority conclude ideological superioritys guidance. Propagandas images of mental impoverishment whether infantile or fatalistic savages used to define ancient cultures and indigenous civilizations are suppression justification rationales for greeds extremisms. Social stereotypes are far worse than the regions earliest inhabitants major cultural failings; the continuous lack of trust in cooperation between the tribes themselves. Social attitudes due their antagonistic stance towards others and the bias of collective violence that evolved from hunter-gatherers imperative within the daily availability-survival struggle for existence. Grandfather, your thoughts are the state of your comprehensions as of moment. As they should be.
The Habits of Ignorance Cap Living

Brien wanted to make this lakeside village our rest-spot away from Maracaibo. Agreeing was easy. On the flight back, Brien said he thought
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being late would reconfirm our position after the confusion in the transition to Venezuela; otherwise, priorities would become insecurities. The major questioned us about being overdue. Brien said we putdown at the far end of the lake because the oil pressure dropped in one engine from the loss of oil. We found a loose oil line, and then noticed the leak continue from somewhere in the oil system. The days work was adequate and Vic did not want any problems. Even if he saw through the story, he wanted no further complications, only successs rewards upon completion. Back at the hotel, Herr cabrn showed up acting normal, but he mentioned not much work for returning so late. Brien told the same tale, even more convincingly in a tone reminding him of our dangers with an attitude not to push. He then mentioned the last payment was late being deposited in his account. Attitude begets attitude plus. My question about whether the photos were sufficient drew a sharp reply that he tell me when the photos werent. He demanded the schedule. Brien repeated the executive in charge had other oil business pressing and wanted a tight reign. So, there was no crucial rush. Herr cabrn tried again, but Brien played dense. Then Brien stated the contract was for the project, not an hourly rate. Herr cabrn left without his mask or flaws giving anything away. Herr cabrns formalisms thinly polished veneer concealed his disordered violences and skill at ruthless dedication to self-preservation. His self-delusions were endorsed by disciplines humiliation of subordinates, which substitute conformity for ability and takes simple qualifications as skilled accomplishments and acknowledgement as achievement. Authoritarian psychoses develop from decades of eating shit disorders. Social indexed superiority automatically bestows complete inferiority on those below. Index disorders are contemptible, whether petty despotisms psychological perks of gratify disorders or obediences humiliation. Any normality of humiliating conformism is an existence of servitude. Briens commitment to secure the most favorable position by always pushing against unknown reactions from men, who catalogued us as insignificant at best, took true grit.
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Little Ladders Little Lives

Weak enough to kill but not strong enough to live is the absurdity of the social order and personal desperations. The social conflicts of superiority-inferiority are contrivances that justify taking advantage of others time and effort by enforced advantages. Greeds self-deceptions are categorical beliefs that dismiss any compensation due. Entrepreneur achievements have a certain inspiration and do not reduce to just a process requiring time, following instructions and part-time efforts. Independent success takes wisdom, strength of character dedication and full-time efforts until completion; little succeeds part-time. Entrepreneurs make their profits by receiving the multiple salaries from the numerous jobs they do simultaneously. Accomplishment and successful men recognized Briens doings was more than training techniques or a question of repetition because these only cover muscle memory and the mechanics of performance. Arrogance dismisses the time, effort and the full-range of capacities required for mastery. Intellectual frauds discount the individuals advanced knowledge acquired trekking difficult conditions and unknowns to proficiency. The unequivocal wisdom of experience is only gained from perseverances many sacrifices. Brien was a self-made man with broad experiences and a reality of wise comprehensions. He generated penetrating visions that empowered him and made human weakness transparent. Overview perspectives are expensive abilities to acquire, which one must survive to know. Comparisons stimulate insecurities that paranoid sensitivity pickup and emotions reinforce. Reactions are personal behind officialdoms uniformed front. Briens independence was too challenging. In their presence, his aloof mind dissolved the polished offensives and calculated defenses. His mental laughter was in the tones of his replies. Stereotypes predictablities are laced with ignorance and pessimisms bring everyone down perversion to be superior logic. Lifes challenges taken up are a mans decisions; those evaded are journeys lost. Opportunities are intimidated away by the weaknesses of insecuritized existences. Suppressed psychological confrontations
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generate if-only anxieties for a lifetime, which develops frustration reactions that inflict the unnecessary on the vulnerable and innocent. Those psychologically impaired in positions carrying too much authority with too many influences project their psychosocial disorders abusive inabilities on the defenseless. All sincere men try independence and the smart man does know where to stop appropriately for the realities of circumstances. True men are familiar with the demarcations of lifes challenges. Seasoned men have traveled and suffered on the rough painful path of ones best efforts. Great men consult fellow explorers for independence to be strong and take their truest shot, wishing them good fortune with the testing difficulties to be faced. In a larger sense of the overview, these personal explorations into unknowns are journeys of discovery and uncovery for us all.
Quality Living is in Every Daily Occurrence

Andon arrived later asking if things were all right. Brien wanted him to rent a truck and driver, then purchase lanterns and kitchen utensils as gifts for the small village. Some additional cash was for liquid refreshments and a cow for a village party. The map showed it was an easy route, but the road conditions were unknown. Brien organized an impressive entry. The shopping and delivery would take him three days. Andon came and went constantly so his disappearance would bother no one. Over the next few days we were perfect, but complaining about the motor; keeping the situation logical and in sequence, this built-up the image we wanted in other peoples minds. Brien spilled some motor oil around the bottom of the motor so the leak would soil the airplanes fairing creating visual validation for mans susceptibility to staged imagery. The stimulant responses to imagery presented in the theater of perceptions have invisible dictatorial direction on the targeted. Brien organized a long stay-over using a fuel truck southeast of the lake. Upon our arrival at the village, the welcome was like a lord exiting the sky. Andon was a celebrity. He kept things from going crazy until we
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arrived because we relished the peace of mind as much as the party. The village vacation was not so much a constant party, as a long running enjoyable time that generated plenty of fun for all. Sophistication does not misuse openness. Andon had brought in some serious supplies and a cow to be butchered by the village. Cooked in quarters, two were rotated on spits over a large fire in a pit. The rest was cut up and wrapped in banana and ginger leaves, then placed among hot stones in a large ground oven, which was covered with a soft blanket of loose soil that slowly cooked and tenderized the meat. A continuous village festival of music and dance ensued that would last until the food and drink ran out. Parties amplify personalities and grant exemptions for ones unresolved coarseness. Late at night, the sky was cloudy and moonless. The musicians were tired, when Andon joined the drummers and relit the fire. Various drums of African heritage followed his talking drum; a tension drum whose pitch patterns tones imitates spoken language. He played casually at first, then led them through new more potent Afro-Caribbean rhythms that had a complex physical sensation with a groove of mesmerizing hypnotic beats. His lady companion danced to the drums becoming the music, moving in unison to the exotic rhythms. The longer he played the talking drum, the more seductive every movement he sent through her became. When she lay open on the ground before his feet, he picked her up, and carried her off into the darkness. The next day was a shutdown day. The major activity was falling into the lake and delighting in the light breeze over an exhausted body. All other effort was too demanding. After a second swim, a refreshing liquid drink, an ethno-medicine of unknown substances was served. A comfortable rest arrived, full of images and dreams. Later, the deep silence in peace of mind brought me back.
Culture is to Society as Philosophy is to Psychology

Afterwards, back at the office, Brien emphasized the time and distances involved finding specific locations without many reference
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points over vast areas. The locations photographed kept us away longer from Maracaibo, arranged to our advantage. We had two flatbed trucks with fuel barrels; these workers were on our special bonus payroll. We met at prearranged refueling stops that facilitated doubling and tripling our daily workloads. Days were taken off accordingly, for cruising about Venezuelas magnificent diverse regions or spending lazy days at the village. Autocratic arrogance knows no consideration or compassion. Brien derived satisfaction from them losing some sleep and stressing their anxieties, as their lone comfort was our finished work. Our unpredictability was a reminder for their priorities. The situation was a promotion they just wanted to keep moving smoothly along, without generating friction from personality conflicts. Brien constantly put in early background information to frame the future cover stories. The impression that our work was not a pressing concern of the oil executives was smart. Herr cabrn was upset the project was not moving to his timetable. We shot many sections with total uncertainty about what was known, if anything. We shot 50% of the wells and emphasized the oldest ones. As the work continued to pass without comment, other concerns were blinking on the horizon.
Cultural Sensitivity is Intellectual Honesty that Horizontalizes Respect

Ocho dias more and we would finish up this part of Venezuela. After this, the schedule was to photograph the oilfields of eastern Venezuela, but first the buenavistas of Caracas. Andon orally sketched this urban art gallery of female divinity constantly, beauty that was going to have to be scrutinized. Excellent mechanics and facilities would be available in Caracas for a major overhaul. All the running time on weakening engines meant the downtime would correlate to the heat of the citys social life. Herr cabrn was not around, but a group of regular faces was still in constant rotation. The daily annoyance was trying to stay out of their way.
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Brien felt we had done plenty and we should be thinking about organizing our moves out of this whole business on our terms. The exit plan demanded as much good management and planning effort as any other facet of a successful endeavor. We went over every detail imaginable, while we pushed hard for days through the last of the sections to be photographed for a last long break at the lakeside village. When we finished, we arrived back at the village happy but quiet. Our mood was reflected back by the villagers. After a day of this, the villagers threw a fiesta for us, but this time in tribal fashion. We were each led away in separate directions to be dressed and adorned appropriately, as a tribal member. Andon had been living like a tribal member, actually a cacique (chief), since the first day he arrived. Visual connections are stronger toward who brought it, more than who bought it; people understand with their eyes. The sunset fiesta started simply and leisurely with everyone in colorful native dress. Performers showcased their talents, while others expressed what they felt was important, from telling stories to calling for affection and giving thanks. These were performed as entertainment or to share the meaningfulness. While the festivities were in full swing, the women were serving drinks. A sweet juice was the last thing recognized with clear delineation as unimagined details of structured patterns unfolded. The dancing started slowly and deliberately with varying tempos from the mood of the chants. These built vigor into an encompassing sensation. A snake dance developed behind the village leader with his long feathered baton. The men and women locked elbows and formed a long line that wove throughout the village with the chants alternating between the leader and the dancers. Then a change in chant caused the women to form an inner circle surrounded by the men; the women stomped and chanted rhythmically in large circular movements with a deep penetrating and unifying rhythm, accentuated by the drums. A sensation of having drifted out of my body overtook me, an experience of being awake in a dream, separate and alive. As the tempos slowed and movement ceased, only a very strong steady drumbeat sounded that was synchronized to my heartbeat.
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The cultures unifying of lifes experiences is a functioning spirituality that is expressed in these complex rituals of communion that give meaning and sustainability for the unchanging laws of change and uncertainty. Religion is a meaning, not an end. Spirituality is the effort without the terminating word fetishes and idolatry to unknowables.
Philosophy is the Creative Power of the Mind Psychology is the Science of the Mind
The next morning, my body said to rest. The hammock swung a body that weighed tons. My eyes were closed but my mind was still a journey away, visually excited with unique mental activity, a stimulating consciousness. Openness meeting openness is the essence in the very moment. Many of mans vital truths are knowns, but we lack their empowering perceptions, we tend to get caught up in the appropriateness of received perceptions. New energies emerge from new adaptations and openness with new solutions for dealing with stale perceptions and their inadequate consequences. Awareness peels away the layers of social faades, the character defenses and the unconscious anxieties to the inner depths of the personality with its preconceived notions subjectivity; each layer a subjective influence of less self-importance until self is insignificant and non-influential. These layers are the supports of ones predispositions from embedded psycholinguistic constructions; these perceptions deliver ones particular subjectiveness expressive objectivity. Awareness empowerment helps us acquire the courage to be, which overcomes that which negates life. Experience to awareness to consciousness is realitys most important journey to trek, but is the passage most obscured by the prefixed perceptions of the received and obstructed by psychological mes self. Perceptions set the path of influence, the received are obligated with reinforcements over a lifetime from original sins stamp of evil to us as flawed needing external answers. Our received ideological psychology differs remarkably from the Mayans, who are born with original debt that carries a spiritual obligation for having been sung into existence.
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Intentionality, the minds capacity to be active is far beyond the biological. The exploration of selfs oneness is the spiritual quest, which is free of obsolete categories and past the voice of self. The appreciation of the atmosphere of being, the ambience of the total environment is an untouchable omnipresence beyond being. Contemplation registers in the point of fleeing instantaneous mental activity where consciousness synthesizes its occurrences. In the timeless of the specious present, intriguing unfocused energy approaches into a perceptionless clarity of that first instant, when we receive life before the mind arises into its infinitude of expressions. This is well before craving, which requires faiths letting-go to lose. The euphoric true beings openness has revelations where perceptions blend into a mental meaningfulness with a fabulous all-inclusive attentiveness. Enthusiastic inquisitiveness of an intellectual adventurer is rewarded with assimilations of awareness from the occasions of experiences; how these play-out in living are other challenging vagaries. Such curiosity may have complicity with lust but that is normal in the sensual and sexualness of nature. Livings learning will always be about experiences that are neither fixed nor finished. The inabilities in living are in socioculturals premeditations and unpreparedness toward individual discoveries and personal growth. When my sociocultural perceptions returned, new perceptions ignited the psychological dynamics of connections that had self-sustaining strengths. Nothing could be said to reduce the occurrences enough to make the experience communicable to the inexperienced; language was too insufficient for oral expressions and shared appreciations because the archives of wisdom have been agenda biased for limited mental capacity with full occupancy. Preconscious impressions are on demand and the subconscious forming of visual images become noticeable whenever my mindset is relaxed and my body is physically in a comfortable setting. After these sublime experiences of prodigious expansion from the finite into the infinite of consciousness, my meditative mind seemed more open with tremendous clear energy and fuller with flexible inclusive thoughts patterns. Awareness harmonies end victimizing of self, I recognize
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motivation drives logic and perceptions are the restraints that made me a prisoner of my thoughts. But when circumstances are right and changes dimensions have balanced uncertainties, one has the harmony of being. Societies are all equally valid for the participants. Cultures are the collective perceptions reflected in the group by its members behavior. Cultural perceptions differ according to influences. Cultures that question their perceptions are healthy and strong, not easily vulnerable to false powerful external influences. The survival values in native customs are negated by agendas conceptions that direct biased comprehensions; these undermine the bio-imperatives survival needs that are set into social practices with long forgotten trial and error substantiation. Academics are societys high priests of categories and the acceptable with understated judgmental values and over-biased opinions, whose institutions have spent centuries configuring the social orders social architecture. These scholastic framers are connected in devotion to and pursuance of ideological constructions, whose restrictive objectives form closed-logic inquisitiveness. The premises and projections of throughengineered persuasions are the opposites of intellectual goals and sophisticated sensibilities, representing inclusive meanings for the broadest possibilities. Lifes meaningfulness is its wonderfulness, not prefixed abstractions. Sanctimonious ideological superiority and the paranoia of the moment facilitate the social forces of culture blindness. This intrusive insensitivity disrupted the native culture and its societys future, which are misevaluated by agenda hypothesis and unrealistic comparisons between yesterdays world and todays information-heavy education societies. Many native religions take their mind-altering high sacraments to remind them that their perceptions are only perception of perceptions, not codified instructions supporting formulated certainties with enforced moral certitude. These village days were full of normalcys pleasures; their versions vision was a reality of living-well in the garden of paradise that is nature. The American Indians way of life has a harmonious co-unity imperative that beautifies nature with the cosmos its icons.
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Time Talks With Cultural Accent Time Runs Simultaneously With Tremendous Distortions
Grandfather, you weave awareness and jump through time. Cosmopolitan elegance is an art project; pursuing a masterpiece takes reflection, realizations and application. Conceptualizations are reference guides. Times relativeness is its versatility, using its wateriness comes with age. The potentials in time are lost opportunities consumed by the cancerous waste from psychological noise and artificial demands. Awareness optimizes. Awareness is in every moment; improve the moment. Sitting and waiting are seen as doing nothing, but both are major daily activities that take energy and require effort; we are all engaged in doing multiple things simultaneously. To be in your mind is a positive moment with open potentials. Awareness is openness in timelessness? Times passing defines existence. Time is imprinted as the sociocultural clock, a singularly specific configuration with sequenced linear perceptions, which conditions focus to singular recognitions, the glass tubes of living that lead to the placement of the tubes end. Time and living things have multiplesimultaneousness, unnoticed is the sharing of the same physical space with all matters of different things. Time is another word for transition; experiences in the occasions of time are life. Time dictates the us-society interplay that must be reconfigured because the more times you understand and use; the more life you have. Open, flexible attitudes see and use the opportunities in multiple times. Psychological time is the open ended now. Intellectual time is multidirectional as-needed. Scientific time is how matter and motion are arranged; its dimensions and measurements have infinite implications. Biological time sets lifes processes and living priorities, these profoundest of biochemistry dynamics time frame potentials with terminations. Sociocultural times conceptualizations are set by external influences, while technological time is accelerating. Historical time is loose varying
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seasonal rhythms. Mechanical times aligns content and regularity for efficiency across standardized circumstances tailored by and for ideological perceptions. Machine times hypnotic repetitions mechanize behavior into well-conditioned captives of habits, now in the intensifying nanoseconds of existence from the precision of digital time. Psychological time has personal meaningfulness and loses because we qualify times to fit circumstances with overlapping demands. Psychological time is not a precision of accurate measurement but an arbitrary personal response to the dynamics of the situation; an empowerment lost to the illusion of movement in circumstances. Times glossed-over vagueness misses vast potentials, which are forfeitures of living because times many components have rewarding reflections in simultaneous active interplay, if recognized and managed. Times perimeters have unrestricted directional mobility, a freedom of expansive diversity, recognitions only limited by ideological agendas compositions of prefixed perceptions and narrow specifics. Descriptive time is a modern-basic. Time is the major investment utilized in every occurrence. All the dances of time happen simultaneously, but they do not always move in the same directions. Time with cross directions carries involvements and responses that can be detrimental stressors. Times use or abuse establishes the ultimate social values. Time manipulation is abusive even an atrocity. Time frustrations generated by social contrivances like standing in lines waiting for arbitrary bureaucratic obligations somehow psychologically bestows meaning, worth and legitimacy that a stamp or signatures final resolution or an accepted or obtained documented validates. Times passing stressfully are mental health issues.
Open Flexibility Overwhelms The Lowered Expectations of Conservatisms Perversions

Ultraconservatism dominates time by culturally circumscribing times perceptions to support its status quo dogmas ABCs, Anything But
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Change. The ideological referencing of self and time is the bedrock of the social conscious. A key perception is the myths of unchanging certainty cloaked in the appeal of idealistic yesterdays with today and tomorrow as a close an approximation of yesterday as is feasible. Ultraconservatisms rituals standardize the core of the social beings functioning with performances routines regimented by social custom roles, these direct society and structure living into traditions portrayed conventionality. Commands control objectives are conditioned acceptance of institutionally oriented social behavior with their visual context setting the socioculturals fixed time frames. These arbitrary abstractions dominate time with burdening efforts and selective benefits that increasingly become difficult to maintain due instantaneous information processing and multiple times. During accelerating transitions, the linear times sequential that built mechanical times social attitudes and machine times efficiency beliefs, does not holdup in the dynamical simultaneous firings from incessant labor, anxious leisure, compulsive entertainment and status ethics. Historical times over-influencing and modern times demands are source stresses and stressors that compound reactions when sequenced time abruptly jumps between multiple dynamics and numerous simultaneous demands that have under-recognized psychological complications. Updating these formidable dimensions are beyond the conservative philosophys social ordering. Historically, ultraconservatisms today is seen as a direct link added to a reduplicated chain of yesterdays. The status quos tomorrow is formed as structurally possible to todays version of yesterday. Social order traditions maintains social perceptions of the reassuring familiar, an unchanging simplicity as certainty, whose pessimistic stagnation generates a broad social illusion of permanence. Modernitys understandings of yesterday today and tomorrow are as three separate components related and continuous, but not always connected. Contemporary literacy sees yesterday as yesterday, recent history. Today is today, the predominating focus of functioning relative to tomorrows approaching influences. Tomorrow is a dispatched future.
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Yesterdays foundation of successful pessimism makes todays changes compounding stressors. Whats needed are empowering psychosocial antidotes built for optimum responses and efforts to prevent daily living from becoming an existence of a complaining casualty. Modern dynamics are so different, unawareness of time and social philosophies involvements makes one a victim of yesterday. Even the general time frame perspectives have been transposed radically. The absolutism of traditional-reactionary-ultraconservative indoctrination is temporary permanence nothing changes, and everything stays the same. This is in total discord with the modern eras evolving normality of permanent temporary everything changes, and nothing stays the same. The social comatose of the status quo and intellectual amnesia of ideological certainty are basic social forces. The mental pabulum of these forces avoids the meaningful comprehensions of modern knowledge with its uncertainty paradox and constant change, which are universal constants and cosmological fundamentals. The futures most important question is the focus of cultures time frame; will the Christian mullahs destroy the expanding information society to maintain command as the Moslem mullahs did to end the Golden Age of Islam in the 11th century. When learning everything was recognizing Gods greatness. This caused the educated-classes general knowledge to surpass the cleric-class despotic inabilities. These simple minded extremists philosophically redirected Islamic brilliance into fundamentalisms ignorance by a fanatic anti-intellectualisms acceptance of status quo failures for dreams of heavenly rewards.
Discarding Unnecessary Mental Baggage is a Necessity, Not a Luxury

The morning we departed the village, Andon appeared with his clothes in a beautiful woven blanket. We questioned him about being drumless. He said he had no possessive instincts and gave his instruments to his lady friend from the village so she would have a token of his appreciation of her. His love carried an all-consuming passion and deepest
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sincerity within lifes fleeing moments. Sophisticated men respond to events appropriately, especially the gifts of a village woman. I remarked that he was a wind wanderer now. Brien asked, Where did you grow-up? On the timeless Caribbean. Help us with that? My mother said I was born under a beached sailboat at daybreak. So I live in the Caribbeans beauty with natures rhythms of flowing harmony. What is your timelessness? The intensity of the impressions set an emotional time frame. If impressions are felt strongly, its the same as any recent event, even if it was many years ago. So, friendships are cherished and preserved because values are not obscured by the cost of social vanities or lost by frivolous actions that always come back to haunt the perpetrators. I asked Brien how his time flowed. He felt time follows creation and Eternity is the ongoing creation, which has no time or horizon. Departing Maracaibo physically required checking out of the hotel and leaving a few messages, but the Spanish Main would never leave me because it had opened me to experience my potentials and start to grasp a personal philosophy toward the variations of consciousness. On the flight to Caracas, Brien decided to stir the waters with initiative, so we flew over Aruba, a Dutch colonial possession with huge petroleum operations for Venezuelan oil output, to see the colonel and Herr cabrn reactions. The refineries are well known and important to anyone with a priority beyond a personal agenda. The responses would indicate officialdoms priorities. Brien said, Careers reflect personal insecurities, not national security. Andon added the many forms of authority figures uniforms are sacred garments that proclaim an imposed superiority. Authority configures the social context for self-serving preeminence; superiority writes historys costliest episodes, not humanitys true superiority.
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Culture Should Represent the Highest Aspirations Not the Tawdry

Andon loved the eagles view gliding high over the stories of his youth. The perspective gave a flowing structure to his narrative on the Spanish Main, an embroidery of woven details that enriched our Caribbean tapestry. He constantly pointed out interesting facts from his perspectives and local folklore, especially pirate anchorages and lost treasure stories. The English aristocratically sponsored pirates called privateers started harassing Spanish shipping and Caribbean coastal settlements in the early 1560s. These official criminals did the dirty work of plundering for the English nobility against both the Creoles residents and Spanish authorities. In 1595, the English pirate Aminas Preston captured Caracas. During the period between 1565 and 1603, pirates attacked Venezuela nearly yearly. Over the years, the English buccaneers had ransacked and burned many Venezuelan cities including the settlements on the numerous islands off the coast, famous for pearls. Diego de Losada established Caracas in 1567 and named the city after the local natives. Caracas is about 350 miles due east of Maracaibo with Aruba just a compass point offshore in between. We came over the Caribbean coastal mountain range into Caracass rich tropical green. The landings long approach paralleled a massive 7,500 feet high junglecovered mountain named el Avila. Caracas is a landscape painting of tropical impressions in the colors of changing light and shadows. Caracas geographical layout runs over interior mountain ranges that radiate out across the valley from el Avila. These geographical features spread Caracas out and give marvelous panoramic views, while the Caribbeans steady wind sweeps away the citys tropical heat and humidity. By late afternoon, we had organized the maintenance work needed, and found a hotel close to the airport for the first few days. Our toing-and-
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froming would establish a constant presence and keep the mechanics focused on the project as honestly as supervisory feasible.
The Convergence of Differences in Rhythms and Aesthetics Create Harmony and Beauty
The first evening, Andon led us to the zona rosa, an area that comes fully alive after the families are home asleep for hours. The clubs have blank doorways that the daily crowds walk pass unnoticed. Then, late at night, one can follow the perfume trails of women living night lives. Andon brought us to a dance club, meaning a place where people derive pleasure from dancing in degrees that almost induce self-hypnotic trances. The music was loud and the selections rhythms could move a dead mans bones. The Venezuelan woman danced in a sexual excitement of knowing women, moving their womanliness. In Venezuela, exotic is a visual sensation of the astonishingly fascinating. Seductresses dancing in my eyes overwhelmed my logic because the amazement of the attractiveness of these women causes simultaneous reactions to multiple features of fascination. When such engaging visuals stop the viewers movement to stare, its dazzling beauty. Here there was a dance hall full; such magnificence becomes disorientating due to the quantity but never confusing because my priorities were not lost. Sculptures of energized space with long smooth curved lines. Caracas held thousands of masterpieces in tropical-toned renditions. The one standing next to me had the confidence the classics express. Catching my eye, she asked how good was life and my answer was Excellent to stupendous. She looked into my eyes, smiled, and asked, Why no dancing? My reply was that I was studying the steps, while watching the beauty. She smiled a radiating smile, which sent my moment exploding. She offered to teach me. Her every movement was suave and sensuous. This youthful-faced goddess with statuesque features could lead me on a lifetime of lessons on living beyond dancing. After she left me gasping for oxygen, she asked me to join her table.
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Seated there was a girlfriend, a high-cheekbone, slanted-eyed, darkcomplexioned, saucy blond that made things less difficult because she was kept busy dancing. There was no way that any man could convey serious verbal cohesion with these two museum quality creatures of femme fatale together. My new acquaintance said her girlfriend was very beautiful, this apperception was understandable by men, but by female rivals, it was an expression of incredible self-confidence. Later my diva enchantress said my honesty of admitting I didnt know something was so unique that she knew I was a traveler. No Venezuelan man would ever admit he did not know something because they know everything just ask. Arrogances convictions never question because stupid egos hide behind dismissed explanations and details. She stated men were consumed in frivolitys reign with vanitys predictability. Good men belittle themselves by carrying little lies to unnecessary excesses, which where costly distractions to the basic goodness of many men. Her tone sounded as if she was mad at them. She stated educated women challenge the easy and lazy habits of boys pampered arrogance. Men do not realize the implications of mamas indulgences or recognize how macho masculino they actually are with women. Selfish interpretations are failures lost in emotional responses and dominations intimidation. When expressive violence and aggressive actions induced weakness, its the worst aspect of traditional social customs inadequacies. These actions are the opposite of competent mature attitudes, which grasp biology truths, like humanity genetically overlaps and brain functioning is effected through the influence of culture. Facts not yet understood between men, much less between the sexes. A relationship is built on respect and the powerful connectors of truth and sincerity; implementing ones knowledge is the sophisticated strategy for happiness with competence. Her explanation carried a direct message of her reality, in case there was any uncertainty on my part. As the evenings stimulating conversation continued to progress, a verbal chess game of wit developed that only mans attentiveness to and from arousing splendor stimulates. She deeply impressed me with her mature perspectives and her knowledge of the pressures of dealing with
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life, even beyond the obvious complications for talented females in the glass prisons of the mans world. Cosmopolitan class is where accomplishments wisdoms are the statements of facts. She was well informed concerning the idiosyncrasies of practicing medicine; my educated guess was an operating or emergency room nurse. She was smooth, calm and confident in her reactions, traits shared by the best nurses. Usually, the more gorgeous the woman, the less self-disciplined because boys spoil them to make the biggest impression, but she knew herself and was her own final authority. For a moment, I felt her call me with her eyes but my thoughts lost the opportunity. She excused herself because she had a full early day ahead. She said her good-byes to her friends and handed me a blank prescription. A gynecologist, she had me pick up my jaw off the floor from another stupid assumption. The foil was hers and she knew it. She departed with a lip message to see me soon; an air kiss made my eyes smile. Her magnetic movements sent the pleasure of intimacys purposes through my mind. Andon danced with as many of the available women as possible in the place, which was most of them. Brien disappeared with a couple of beauties. Beauty is a phenomena; here natures spectacle of abounding tropical beauty was a conservatory of exoticness, brilliantly colored wild flora magnificently flowerings. Later at the hotel, I was happily exasperated from the opportunity to experience beauty, intelligence and personality with an achievers strength of success that reminded me such quality deserved my respect not my wants. Tatiana was substantial substance. Two days later, Andon still had not been seen. The wings were propless and Tatiana appeared at altisimo. Seeing her in daylight was a visual pleasure, her natural movements and subtle gestures communicated a vivaciousness that captured me. Brien was focused with a smile, as the lieutenant ran over to her with full military attentiveness s Doa, no Doa responses. As Brien showed her around the interior of the craft, the lieutenants reaction had me curious because she met the lieutenants official arrogant expectations with a serious Latinas dismissals. It had to be asked, Who was she? The lieutenant said she was his generals mistress.
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A madly jealous Don Juans narcissistic neurosis in a brassy uniformed was a nightmare waiting to happen. If he was typical, his male insecurities call attention love with an annoying fixation of self-centered expectations that demands a mothers overattentiveness. These arrogant attitudes meant that if his woman had the audacity to turn her head from his egoistic infantile needs, his narcissistic injuries would motivate an evil viciousness. Weakness improper use of position motives is the invisible initiator of entanglements infractions, the product-lines of official business. Ethic wrongs are all too common actualities, the criminality that social illiteracy misses and bureaucratic legalistic morality dismisses. As her beautiful hands stroked the edge of the props blade, I asked if her curiosity was about the seaplane or me. She approached close enough that I could feel her energy and whiff her subtle perfume as she whispered she loved the seaplane and had a guarded optimism toward me. Her eye contact looked into me and, as the lieutenant headed for his office, my eyes moved involuntarily. My coolness made her smile. Her touch said not to worry and its pleasure said she was worth the effort of any inconvenience. A ride was promised and some more dancing was arranged. The quiet intensity of our slow walk to the gate was broken, when she said, Beauty is an instrument that is fun to play, but sophisticated intelligence is the truest aphrodisiacs. And femaleness is liberation on my terms. A wonderful smile said so much and the walk away confirmed sins value. Her attitude could handle the general; my concern was me. This seductress needed some cold logic. When a woman is beautiful and a smart goddess, obvious flattery measures the giver. Respect corresponds to effort in the questions of a relationships us. Brien was mumbling about her ravishing looks and compared to her blond, dark skinned, oriental-looking girlfriend, her exoticness seems somehow fabulously common. He had seen Tatiana, so an explanation was possible, but describing the dark blond siren as a mind stopper would sound imaginary. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder but exotic beauty moves a mans blood supply because pleasures anticipations are trying to catch-up with fantasies.
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Individuality Is and Respects Self-expression

When Andon showed up later, three pretty women accompanied him. They were not as intellectually engrossing as Tatiana, but they were from the same orchard of exotic flora. The wild tropic medleys of rich lucent colors are accentuated off the sharp cumulus brightness on endless sky blues, the tropics crystal clarity that gives a distinct delineation to each vista. Andons fun caravan ended the workday for us. Tropical-Americans have their personal preferences in order; the lieutenant came running out, and even the mechanics stopped working. The ladies enthralled the mood. The ladies accompanied us back to the hotel and came to our suites to rinse off the urban heat. Partial nudity shared their youthful skins exciting glow, which radiates a freshness thats so appealing they are visual kisses. Beauty ran around tastefully bared; competent women feel comfortable with the gifts of their femininity. We headed out to capture the tropical sunset in one of the open mountaintop restaurants for sangrias and the marvelous freedom of Tropical-American fun. These restaurants are the best offices in town for the ranchers from the interior. The most robust are owned by the estancias (very large ranches), which are smaller than the huge nation-sized haciendas. The owners have legitimate pride in their herds. True caballero machismo is built on accomplishments; here its creating wealth within the perils to life in the deadly tropical bio-complex. The proprietor was with his young mistress. She had the band play Joropo, the traditional music and dance style from the savannas of Venezuela, a structured sound of a ritual dance. She and her man danced, absorbed in each other. We were fortunate watching their shared pleasure, which validated this type of attachment, mutually appreciated good fortune. Age has a positive value for youth strong enough to take it; the harsh realities of survival made simple luxuries poverties daydreams. Happiness in any form and by any means has more relevance than judgmentalisms small-minded moralizing, which is assertive arrogance and projected insecurities.
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The night was young, so we moved the caravan of living to an outdoor caf and watched the catwalk of beauty pass. People watching is a rich entertainment, especially the tropical ornamentals with their flattering fitted attires scantily clad flashes of pleasure. Andons friend knew about a dance groups performance nearby. The production was entertaining and some of the dancers were friends of our lady acquaintances. After the show, our caravan grew and we moved the merrymakers to the rooftop restaurant of our hotel. In Caracas, places stay open until the partying is finished. The bands repertoire was excellent, including my latest favorite la guaracha with a cumbia bass line. The stages open microphone and available dance partners kept the party going. The rooftop sunrise over Caracas was an alarm clock on exhaustion; a state where the single thought has no distractions and no movement. An impression from exhaustions calmness was the blending of tropical flowers on the table complimenting the tones in the dawns colors, which accented the beauty seated about, a peaceful thought that radiated happiness. Tropical-American homage and artistic appreciations of female beauty is unblemished, undiminished and unprejudiced. Beauty and love in passionate desires are devotional worship in this aesthetic cultures religion of emotions. Here traffic and conflicts come to a standstill for beauty.
Racism is a Contagious Social Phobia Racist Have Cancerous Behaviors Disorders

Race is an isolated gene pool. In nature, there is only one race the human race. Race has no scientific basis; group behavioral differences are cultural not biological. Racists ill-rational behaviors involve severe psychological problems that are compounded by irrationalism toward anxiety objects. Racially motivated prejudices fill intellectual voids and ethnic stereotyping is an insidious form of prejudice. My psychological terms for racism is that of tribal sociocultural psychosis and racists are sociopaths complicated by the disorders present
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that the euphoria of hatred reinforces. Psychological afflictions and mental deficiencies make identity psychology the best weapon against the mental illness of blood-of-belief sociopaths and the structured behaviors of hate. Racisms insidious assumptions are life and feelings hinge on race and not on humanitys universality. Violent extremism is produced by dark and clever behavior engineering that methodically shapes the disorder clusters of those netted. Well-worn manipulation techniques exploit vulnerabilities to embrace racial intolerance with belief-attitudes, which requires psychotic surrender and the acceptance of destructive social perversions. Biology knows no abnormal psychology or negative transference of social biases, only personality disorders have such failures that evil psychoverts exploit.
The Enemy of Truth is Not Lies but Convictions

The world has cultural differences that are masqueraded as race and religious problems. The inherited racist views are an historical fortress that serves many social forces agendas. The social habits of biased demeanors and discrimination beliefs based on emotionally charged issues would fade without agendas influences and problem profiteering, which gives racism its longevity. Belief-centered racisms true believers are indoctrinated with excessive conviction driven by self-righteous emotional responses and contributory psychological reinforcements. This training is supported by perfectly scripted counter-arguments that cover non-believers logical deduction. Superior knowledge overwhelms indoctrinations packaged confrontationalism with its purposed limitations and inflexible responses. Dispassionate manners and intellectually active anti-racism can dismantle racisms dated predictable context, false issues and beliefattitudes. Reasoned truths educated understandings expose racisms rote mentalities. Raise the level of intellectual content of the argument using the contemporary vocabulary of the social sciences and psychological perspectives. Mention the disorders and question the motivation.
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Respected Knowns and Compassion are Evils Greatest Enemy

The vicissitudes of life can be fortunate but not superior. Tropical Americas psychological health and sociocultural maturity toward appearance is colorblind and sexual decisions are individually respected. Centuries of Spanish social miscegenations long-term unplanned consequences have created modern integrated sensibilities of affable social attitudes in the diverse Tropical Caribbean. The lingering of generational psychological failings and codified discriminations and intolerances comes from racisms intellectual legacies. The residues of Black slaverys social circumstances and White serfdoms cultures are social policies of neglect, social mores of accepted limitations and norms of failure that are the roots of social frustrations. These are always presented in seemingly unresolvable proportions that maintain the status quo wants and the problem profiteers needs. The main social differentiation between people is not over skin tones but traditionalized poverties and social agendas ignorances. Humans live their psychology and project their limitations, while judging and setting boundaries based on agendas perceptions. Unconscious psychological discrimination is more a driving force than raw racism, due to the unconfronted effect of historical stereotyping prejudices and the biased habits of ignorance. Racial anxieties are about social order suppression emotionalized by bedroom insecurities. The frontier of true integration is the democratizing of knowledge and individual respect, especially between the sexes. Equal open access to opportunities, not racial integration, is the future battle for equality among mankind. The last racial frontier between men will be in the boardroom.
Missionaries are Gods Emissaries Scripture Zealots are Vainglorious Tourists

True missionaries stay for so many years it becomes a lifes work,
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considering the short span of ones peak years. Lives of personal sacrifices dedicated to help alleviate any suffering possible are existences of lovingkindness. Genuine missionaries are humanitys most profound examples of unlimited human compassion. In the center of Caracas one afternoon, a duet of priggish proselytizing devotional types, whether independent or sponsored, cornered me at an outdoor caf and started expounding their divinely inspired urgencies. Their rigorisms catchall grandiloquence had the sound of a choirs orchestrated repetition. Stretching words and projecting assumptions to instruct the souls of the unfortunate is bombastic irreligious. These believers were too young to be motivated by the failure/fearreligion correlation; theirs was the shared bonds of self-absorbed religious emotionalism. Theo-linguistic vacationers with the narrow strengths of belief-attitudes gave them a wonderful idealistic feeling of purpose unburdened by worldly concerns or experience. Foreign biases infer cultural elitism. Their message promoted their religious bureaucracys Biblical superiority. Indifferent ideological tourist reveling in triumphal emotions of minor considerations have group convictions and self-satisfaction involvements that reward themselves far more than the materially less well-off nationals. Evangel-tourists on small budgets of hard currencies spent in a local economy with soft currencies are vast riches to dire poverty. The long-lasting accomplishments are to raise local prices and dim the hard-earned glow of the lifetime sacrifices of authentic missionaries. Foreign institutions teaching English to the best native devotees to be efficient native recruiters does not qualify as programs helping the poor. Telling the hungry, sick and futureless souls about hereafter salvation by well-feed healthy vacationers is social value hypocrisy. The rigorist most important Christian command seems to be Follow me. However, that does not include going to the market, the hospital or a university because physical survival is merely a distant secondary concern for Scriptures sightseers, touring poverty proclaiming heaven. Practical expression of religious practices are how they help the people touched. Sociopolitical agendas with religious veneers are as old as cave painting and as common as bad decisions and inadequate
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philosophy. Regulatory measures always legitimize the social attitudes desired. Bureaucratic rules and regulations have multiple purposes and obedience generates conformitys self-justified restrains. Institutions affect-laden rules are to control its members and facilitate agendas with multiple aims and opportunistic goals. The influences of deep appreciations from firsthand comparisons and intimate knowledge with far richer aesthetic cultures and natives with freer social values avert tropical temptations and socializing hormonal contamination. The face put on perceptions manipulates the emotional responses, whether exploiting guilt donations or recruiting, the motive seems to be growth of bureaucratic budgets. Institutional integrity is the dollar percentage that reaches the hands of the poor after administration and budgetary costs. Poverty needs education and access to working capital assistance not tokenism. Proselytizing institutions have self-serving priorities and vast untapped educational and health possibilities, but they share such a religiously insignificant proportion for their foreign missions humanitarian deeds. The poor need opportunities and sustainable developments continuous independent progress; povertys needs to have its standards of living improved. The human components of poverty are constant hunger and bad nutritions long-term health problems, as well as injustices by denied social and economic rights. Helping the less fortunate caught in the diseases of poverty is Gods work on earth; most else is feelgood proselytizing and institution building. Shying away from the dirty hands of ugly poverties dirtiest and stepping around and over suffering describes package tours recruitism. If ticket prices were donated effectively, such generosities would have more value than questionable social practices and biblical substitutes for the pains of poverty and shortages that curtail improving daily life. Poverties desperations and injustices burdens are daily agonies with potential solutions that are dismissed by close-mindedness. The Social Gospel affirms that religion has a duty to set right the injustices of society, while the conservative leadership affirms the status quo. The barricades of social injustices require actualizing the basic rights of social progress for societys most defenseless to curtail powers historical abuses. A
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humanity social context would have progressive ideals and the Social Gospels truth as its religious foundations.
The Social Contexts Purposes and Functions are Unrecognized As is Greeds Intertwinedness with Social History
Often the overprojected connection with their Bible is so emotionalized it appears to be Bible worship or a covenant to their theology, which seems to be worshipping the theology. The virtuous circle of assumptions and holier-than-thou arrogance preserves the blinders of past tense focus by these moralizing Scripture tourists. Priggishmissionaries and their institutions just dont take the world seriously. Humanitys common enemies are the omnipresent forces of evil and wanton suffering, which are strengthened with every negative uttered by inter-faith animosity. Spirituality and true religious efforts must be reminded that goodness enemy is every inhumanity. The underrecognized social actualities are omnipresent evil gains by any means necessary and in every imaginable way. Oversimplistic belief based understandings are facilitating to inhumanity and its acceptance. I mentioned hunger and poverty are the problematic actualities of poor people. Intellectual honesty sees the unethical as being a moral criminality, and the verbal emphasizes on parable abstractions that feeds the souls of malnourished natives as irreligious. And their religions social context with its one-sided reasoning and inquisitional sin-uendos fester the root problems, greed and ignorance. The pair responded that criminals deserve to be punished because they are sinners and the Inquisition was Catholic torture of Protestants.
A Torchbearer of Americas Humanity

The duets rigorism and trainings glass tunneling of innocence that impersonates genuineness was wearing thin. The appearance of a man
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next to my table broke the ideologue annoyance and my probable verbal aggression against these distracting, overgroomed assembly line reproductions of smiling sincerity. Thou it was an opportunity to organize my understanding concerning these religions that are about Jesus, not of Jesus. The strangers first words were that these arrogant adolescents with their imported conceits attacked him yesterday. I then invited him to join me. This commenced a relaxed tertulia, with Don Oliver, who was a social scientist by way of his writings. Oliver said forget their packaged ignorance, he wanted to talk about someone positive, whose achievements altered the Americas. Caracas was home to this historic inspirations, who alongside the Founding Fathers of the USA, where the Americas political philosophers par excellence. The political masterpieces these men authored set the course of humanitys future. George Washington spearheaded the military victories and was without a doubt a great man, but to us, his heroism is overexaggerated compared to many of his peers. The Declaration of Independence had 56 men sign it, of which 25% of them died or were imprisoned fighting the British. Finances, logistics and transportation make military campaigns feasible; leadership makes it happen. During the American Colonies revolt, many of the leaders for independence traveled the Western world to obtain assistance and recognition for the common cause. George Washington perhaps the richest man in the colonies was the major pillar in the war, commanding scores of battles with thousands of men over hundreds of miles along the Atlantic coastal plains rolling hills. Englands European rivals gave direct and indirect assistance, especially the French arms secured by Lafayette, which made Washingtons military campaign possible and victory swift. The Father of South American Independence was an American original, who accomplished so much with so little. Burdened from the start to finance his campaigns, he sold his home to finance the first campaign for independence from Imperial Spains colonial rule. His administration was an Irish personal secretary Daniel OLeary
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and his arms supplier was the Black Republic of Haiti. He embodied the revolutionary ideals and his perseverance throughout a continuous fifteen years war made the victory. He fought against Spain and her royalists using local military leaders and armies of dedicated native soldiers, along with some Irish and English volunteers, in a continent size battlefield. He led over 200 major battles between armies numbering in the tens and hundreds of thousands with countless smaller confrontations against hostile forces. His revolutionary engagements crisscrossed continental distances larger than Western Europe. He spent years in the saddle over inadequate to nonexistent infrastructure that spanned the harsh challenges of vast geological diversity from the cold Andes Mountains to the heat of the death-infested Amazon-Orinoco basins jungle-swamps. He led the armies, organized logistical support, negotiated the victories and authored many of the original concepts and documents that structured the nations freed, while implementing many social reforms from education for all, to emancipating the slaves before Abraham Lincoln birth. He freed the slaves not because he needed more soldiers, but because he knew the black men as an equal from living and fighting with them side by side for years. He pushed black freedom on the largest scale the earliest and move it the furthest. He epitomized Americas humanity. His generalship overcame immense difficulties and punishing efforts that covered a much longer and more difficult road to both military victory and political successes from being a political prisoner exiled for his ideals to freeing much of South America. His deeds established the nations he freed: Venezuela, Ecuador, Peru, Bolivia and Colombia/Panam. This Caracas Hero of Humanity is El Liberator Simon Bolvar (17831830). Bolvars leadership personalized the non-discriminating and individual tolerance that established the morality of the Tropical-American soul. His momentous achievements are part of the Americas struggles for the triumph of human ideals. His personal sacrifices, political actions and unique legacies are monumental achievements for humanitys progress that beneficially altered life across Tropical and South America immeasurably. He suffered a sad fate without meaningful rewards for
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such unsurpassed human victories that added so much to Americas humanity and mankinds greatest social experiment, democracy. History is made by individuals but written by class vanities with political biases. In English-American history, Simon Bolvar receives an insufficient line or two, which diminishes his heroics and negates all the Americas indebtedness. English cultural arrogances fake history and aristocratic information control as education makes for anti-historys overstated insignificance by over-contexted royal personalities, while aggressively suppresses honest information and historical comparisons. The only historical perspective in court history beside the name, dates and places, is what is left out.
No history is Innocent or Viewpoint Unbiased or Context Balanced Enough

History projects backwards. History puts perceptions on the past to give credit to the cultural context. Aristocratic history is not the simplistic messages of religiously sanitized heroic parables but the historical context, which is the social orders epicenter of social perceptions and agenda-centered conceptualizations. Structuring contexts continuity requires information control and chauvinistic testimonies, whose calculated distortions and perception objectives are delivered by singularity, not accuracy. The social context is the conceptual framing projected, when uncontested its rationalizing manipulation. Pretense is hypocrisies promotional disguise. Accurate historys perspectives give fair representation and the costs. The cultural context has the channeling support of scholarship, which set perceptions and qualifies understandings with idealized fiction. Elitisms coordinated superficialities and projected reinforcements are only put in perspective in higher education, where there are fewer distortions and distortionist. Scholarship is often more insightful for what was left out and the context portrayed because these reveal purpose and motive. These deductions hold the most accurate information.
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Consequences Not Performances are the Final Measurement

My tertuliano friend admired the Protestants ethics that strive for self-reliance through hard work and moral uprightness. Frugal social values and ethics have proven to be very successful at generating wealth but he felt money with the delineation dilemmas of its acquisition got in the way. We admired the Protestant emphasis on individual interpretations of the word because it gave institutional support to the mastery of reading that opens the doors of empowered individual interpretations. This empowerment for lifes potentials has strengthened humanitys options far more than visual imagery and learned parables. Don Olivier said truth is constructed and spreads like a virus that carry political and social consequences, which are the reasons behind authoritys continuous purification of the social context and societys memory by suppressing accurate historys interconnections. Uncontrolled interpretations raise embarrassing conclusions that expose the ideological tenets of power and greed, which live off of the unlearned lessons of the business of power and gainful victimizations. Institutional inquisitions are historic constants that have many names but the same purposes, methods and motivation. These anti-truth plagues of purposed violence have acquittalless prosecutions and politicized detention that are infamous but effective ways to prevent and eliminate what is superior, unorthodox and challenging, while solidifying authoritys command with the consolidation of confiscated wealth and social powers intimidations. The nave oversimplified image of the Inquisitions hundreds of years of multiple targeted persecutions as solely religious is the success of historys agenda context that molds perceptions conclusions. Accurate historical representations would reveal the morally costumed formulated prosecutions roles and institutional methods for gainful objectives. The bureaucratic realms despotic efficiencies and periodic administrativedictatorships misuse and abuse of power cause most every systematic inhumanity; inquisitions are just more target specific.
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Every Century has Authoritarian Inquisitions Only the Targets Labels Change and Tragedies Vary
So, the inquisitional enforcement model is a continuous cycles of administrative extremism with historical patterns that are lost to the undefined and unrecognized of the left out. Yes, over-specific involvements serve many objectives. Organized intimidation and fears negative psychology are wellproven as efficient means to subjugate cultures, societies and individuals. The Medieval Tribunal of the Inquisition was established in the 13th century in Europe and declined in the 18th century. The South American version of the inquisition arrived in 1570 and lasted centuries. In Spain, it was abolished in the early 1800s and restored again for 20 years in 1814 for solely political expedience against anti-reactionary forces, which was one of the darkest periods in Spanish History. Over the centuries, its suppressive cloud has hung heavy with intermittent repressions and oppressions. These political intrigues targets ranged from converted Jews accused of Judaising in secret to inner-class rivals and the innocent fair-minded intellectuals labeled radicals. In Spain, these radicals were usually educated citizens who had studied medicine, science and rhetoric at the more advanced Moorish universities, whose great libraries were sacrificed in the fires of moral certitudes arrogance. The premises and logic of ignorance breed political and aristocratic greeds idiocy. Institutional religions are civilizations curators and encyclopedists. The Church as custodian of religious values has a function to oppose all original experiences as unorthodox to prevent belief conflicts, but the status quo context of Vatican conservatives see superior knowledge in political terms, theocracys clericalism besieging begets a siege-mentality. Historically, the basis of most persecutions is paranoid reasonings expedience. The whole inquisitions reign of terror, whether reformations or counterreformation were too long running to be motivated by just a single reason. Nor was the Inquisition a singular theological incident but
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rather a complex social-political-economic event within religious linguistics. The uncontestable facade of theological context conceals many objectives due self-righteous convictions and moral indignations emotional generalities. Historical improprieties are power and greeds political theater. Excessive stories and images of torture, gore and horror inflicted on the social consciousness overwhelm the emotions and stop further critical thoughts. Historical perspectives and valuable social truisms for humanitys progress are never developed or popularized because terror framing is an esoteric obstructionism to intelligence. Religious, political and historiographys deceptive misrepresentations imprint society with controls perceptions that contributory orchestration generates into the social contexts understanding.
Religions Political Vestry Historical Context is Reality Setting Self-servingism

The Protestants black legions rallying cohesion is opprobrious propaganda, which still underwrites affect-laden perceptions; this legacy undermines honest intellectualism and inner-faith unity. Since 1620, Englands deported social deviants the Puritan Pilgrims social objectives were to establish a theocracy. Puritanism as the earliest consolidator preordained harsh self-righteous superiority-inferiority perceptions and circumscribed theo-linguistic judge-sinner biased discrimination and prejudices intolerance. Centuries of religiopolitical ventures have use deadly theological terror for political gains and economic profit. The Protestant Inquisition plague of violence was against Catholics and fellow Protestants for similar religious-political-economic reasons as was the Catholic inquisition but on a lesser scale. The Inquisition in Spain was against inner-class enemies, non-orthodoxy and diversity; whereas in Spanish America it was a vehicle of domestic suppression because few if any Moslems, Protestants or Jews lived in the Spains vast possessions. Administrative-dictatorships consolidation agendas first moves
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against the most vulnerable and powerless then onto the main targets, the threat of rival power. The history from centuries of dominations reign of terror and fear have many names with similar aspects and informative legacies, which concern the pervasiveness of altered psychology from extremism and victimizing due fear of suspicion weaponry. The Protestant black legion highlights the Catholic atrocities but not the specifics or gains because such agenda contexting avoids the social truths of shared similarities with the Protestant Inquisition. Religion determined who could hold office or attend university in England. English laws barred Irish Catholics from buying or owning land in their own country. These legal discriminations lasted until the early part of 20th century, while in the USA, No Dogs No Irish. The legacies of historys extremism still influence attitudes, perceptions and practices.
False History has No Innocence Only Victims

Over the historical reign of ultraconservatism, each form of inquisition is a legalistic conspiracy executed by prosecutors using torturous expedience both psychological and physical, which makes for cultural tyrants and social executioners. When bureaucratic-authoritarian abilities fail and disfranchisement become ineffective, legalistic inquisitions are reconfigured for effectiveness using aggressive prosecutional enforcement that authorizes guilt by acquittalless contrivances. These unrestrained trials by ordeal manipulate societies with well-worn procedures that disempower and depersonalized the targeted, while systematically lowering social attitudes toward fairness by sanctioning and reinstating authoritys medieval values. Historical constants of institutional oppression are recognized by similar results. Exoneration and vindication are not permissible questions, while the speed of prosecutions are even faster than the three days Jesus was arrested, tried, convicted of treason and executed. Guilt railroading have closed trials that function without honest defense counsel or fair and open opportunities. The accuser and judge are usually the same or paycheck brethren. Defense witnesses if any are intimidated, while
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prosecution witnesses are unlimited, even tortured ones whose unnoted condition legitimize the desired accusations. Phantom accusers and agent provocateurs initiate the anonymous treacheries of Judas that are practices motivated by sheer greed. The accusers accusations are well rewarded as participants within the prosecutor ranks. Historically, inquisitors paid no taxes and kept no records of confiscated properties. Modern inquisitors keep some, but secrecy laws at-will restrictions serve the same purpose, nonexistence. The flimsiest unsubstantiated allegation, by any accuser, was worth cash and personal gain. The physical torture and imprisonment of the accused family members facilitate confessions of guilt; these justify and legalize the confiscation of properties and destruction of the targets. Greeds easy continuous gains and fear-driven deceptions of unchallengeable routines are the main reasons behind the various inquisitions lasting for centuries. The social wisdom from the history of social justice are torture only guarantees a confession of the desired or another innocent martyr. Torture is pain for information. Torturers cannot recognize truth, nor care. Torture fails without exception because the tortured delivers what they think the torturer wants, anything to stop the pain. Torture assures the outcomes desired, not guilt. Social power can create and prove any outcome desired with enough time, money and effort, which are available in abundance. The medieval-minded beneficiaries of the many forms of bureaucratic inquisitions betray humanity by their political atrocity crimes against true religion and civic decency. Theo-linguistic frauds are hypocrisies of irreligious evil because of the psychological abuses caused by the pains and injustices that befall the innocent faithful. The animosity and annihilation of the human spirit is an unjustifiable atrocity and its perpetuators are intrinsically violence-mongers, no matter the wardrobe. Persecuting torture for truth is as irrational as killing for God. If inquisitions are repeated historical constants, where are todays burnings at the stake? Inquisitions purposes are to maintain the status quo. Public torture and executions instilled fear and intimidation in the mandatory spectators; this sustained serfdoms social order for centuries. The psychological effects and responses are similar to those from the
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constant repetition of violence and displayed gore in the media as news, entertainment and sports. Judicial-penal/enforcement-incarceration have moved away from the physical extremisms of medieval inquisitions and modernized to programmed psychological damage. The disordered torturers and devices of pain are now the perverted actions of destructive psychology due perverted science. The motivation remains the same expedience and profit. Profits still purchases social mores. Proselytizing theological sects other worldliness preaches and demands theological changes, which seem to do everything but change nothing. Ideological intellectualizing conveniently avoids reality whether forced labor, politicized justice, or failed social policies or inhumane poverties.
Humanitys History is the Historic Present in Mature Perspectives

Sophisticated adults mature perspectives come from lifes experiences, but social illiteracy and manipulation contexting sidetracks this intellectual wealth. Social literacy is realistic political comprehensions with historical perspectives on powers power and its methodology, techniques and goals. Ideological agendas and institutional priorities do not change, only the political theaters scripting and images are reworked for effectiveness. The sacrificial lambs of powers staged dramas crush the individual and humanity. The individuals meaningful authentic effort starts with reading the bought waste that misdirects living and squanders progress. Otherwise, the victims are us. Don Oliviers autodidactic intellect generated an enlightened confident personality with an International Cosmopolitans overview that communicated his historic perspectives, comprehensive insights and knowledgeable sophistication. Grandfather, what works best, if we are all products of the reigning philosophys psychology and the prefixed social context that serve the social forces beyond ones control?
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Pursuing awareness-empowerment-consciousness and making assessments informed decisions. Most people have no time or the inclination to analyze life and living deeply enough to understand how much more than the projected social context affect them directly. Arrogance is ignorance with egotistical attitudes, which breeds aggressive underachievers. The elements of selfrepression are socially structured and culturally reinforced by the comforts of social conditioning. The sources of continuous costly deficiencies and the roots of stagnations immobilities are the generational habits of ignorance and the social legacies of unquestioned acceptance of agendas prefixing existence. All of which are displaced by knowns, seasoned attitudes and actualities social wisdoms. Did Don Olivier have academic credentials? Only the insecure and index inadequate are concerned with such overratedness. Urban degree reverence is too often egotistical insecuritized social wallpaper, which stops the broad applicability strides of experience and actualitys insights, the deep connections that empower. Urbanisms tidal wave of growth necessitated aristocracies to adjust their social indexing. Urban social progress is built around prestigious institutions of knowledge that privilege controls, these credibility monopolies confer the highest social validations that legitimize and solidify the established. The indexed social order rewards the needed specialized talents with tenured status in hallowed academicism. The eminently credentialed authenticators despotic realms reign over intellects agendas through controlled choices, selective access and stipend guidance. These differentiate philosophical criteria, while participations insecurities legitimize academic outcomes with the constructing or deconstructing of archives that establish longevity.
Journeys are Personal Expeditions

We got the Goose reassembled around the demands of our social
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schedules delays. Major Vic called a meeting and instead of gratitude for the Aruba shots we received a verbal assault that concerned the Venezuelan military. The local officials wanted to know who we were and what was going on. He asked us if we had an idea why we had all this official prying; we played dumb. When we left the major, Brien said to me, Enjoy yourself. Let him earn his check. I loved the attitude but the general was definitely on to the connection. That night, I was long on words and short on information to Tatiana. The relationship had developed past light friendship into areas desired but emotions were on standby on both our parts because they carried serious potentials and the actualities of complicating possibilities. My bombastic intermale thoughts were kept to myself. She knew the general was immature about women but the potential abuse was from his position could easily cause unwanted entanglement difficulties. Weakness is fear; intent inflicts the burdens. She felt my concerns and understood more than was said. She mentioned that once the airplane departed the generals overreactions would pass. A soft whisper said her affections would not fly away and a sensuous hand gesture made me a believer. The general was leaving for bases on the Colombian frontier for a few weeks, during which she scheduled a trip to her parents house, on the Isla de Margarita. Her father was the past director of a medical school and now he had a serious illness that required consultations and decisions. She wanted us to visit, when we completed our work in the eastern part of Venezuela. This sophisticated woman was the most stimulating companion with a wonderfulness of subtle touches that were divine. The powerful affect of our intense intimate intellectual intercourse showed me this essential in building mature relations and communication is about healing not conflicts antagonisms. Mature adults minimize negative emotions non-living, which lets time work its magic. Sophisticated comprehensions calming responses transforms the causes of non-specific difficulties into nonstress harmony, not the emotionalized reactions that cause relationship fatigue.
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Personal Psychology follows Social Customs Except for the Individual Priorities
The butt met us at a nondescript Caracas hotel to discuss plans for the eastern portion of the Venezuelas oilfields. He said zilch about the shots of the islands oil facilities, which again validated Briens grasp of the bureaucratic mentalitys priorities. Behind his projections of strained rationales, the key concerns read were his traveling arrangements and accommodations in Eastern Venezuela. We repeated many logical variations on forget it, the remoteness, lack of communications, transportation and hotel facilities were a few of the undeniable hindrances. Neurotic denial is self-induced by insecurities and fear that are densified by weaknesses. Officialdom confronting uncertainty carries life-altering consequences due to possible bad deduction. Denial doesnt hear or recognize intelligence. His inabilities required perspectives to be transmitted in patient supportive increments, appropriately delivered in formalistic appearances. Pessimist believe the desired with emotions of the moment reactions. Paranoid insecurities threatened him; we did whatever we could to make it worse. We told him that any attempt to monitor our work was unrealistic. We would be continuously in the air, and he would not be able to find adequate transportation to keep up. Brien emphasized the security concerns, as polite rationales. We presented a set of doctored maps to confirm the long distances between the various fields and the remoteness from nearby towns of any size. The airfields were smoothly scraped sections of dirt roads in front of field offices and we would be sleeping rough around the airplane. The villages that do exist had no travelers conveniences. The local peoples existence was meal to uncertain meal materiality. Germanys ultraconservative culture and the Nazi fanaticism ingrain so many contributory indoctrinations for regimented thoughts, he was thickheaded and had difficulty abstracting from the geography. Brien unfolded a world map to prove about three Germanys fit into Venezuela. The maps visual credibility allowed him to concede the distances involved
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and acknowledge the remoteness. Our plan avoided the cities with their accommodations and airfields. We obstructed his effort to maximize his surveillance security. We mentioned one fuel truck. While we would use two, this let us keep moving and controlling the schedule on our terms until the project was finished. The butt had careerist enthusiasm for concluding the project but having us away from his presumed oversight for that long anxietized his mental capacity stress. He said he needed authorization for these plans. Brien put pressure on him, by saying the oil executive expected us to be doing this yesterday. It was fascinating to watch the phony bravado risk avoidance, which failed to cover his nervousness. After his personal liability analysis, he waddled out with a condescending, We will talk later. Herr cabrn was obsessed about monitoring his responsibilities directly. The butt was a convenience for many reasons that had nothing to do with us; approval was a given. Verbalized suppositions were meaningless. What other options did the Nazis have? Our work was a needed break from the careerism paranoias we had to keep track of and calculate. The independence of the airplane was inviting, a refuge from the theater of bureaucratic absurdity. Major Vic had an oil company airplane on standby and would join us on this stage of the project to learn the tricks of the trade for the military and supervise basecamp. His airplane was outfitted with the field perks of a military officer that make the hardships of outdoor living comfortable. The butts compliance by phone put us in the air the next morning. The overplayed points and the long distances were not problems, just inconveniences. Vic had us living well. With Andons help and no difficult demands on the pictures meant we took only a few days of panoramic flying in sunrise to sunset efforts to complete the work. At our last dinner together, Vic said he has been transferred stateside to a new intelligence unit. Brien said away from the colonels glory. Vic let that slide. Vic was a man who said little but saw it all. We both told him we appreciated his efforts and Brien spoke for both of us, when he told him, we understood the embarrassing demands put on him as a man. We
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admired him because he was a quality man who was far more than his training. In the morning, Brien screamed at the flying rocks not to hit the props, as we accelerated up to takeoff speed down the rock-filled dirt road. In the air at the end of the runway, we went our separate ways. Vic took his operation back to Caracas. Brien flew northwest to the island of Margarita.
Island Ladies have a Beauty with a Confident Calmness

Brien buzzed Tatianas village of Juangriego. When we saw her waving on the beach, he landed on the bay in front of the village on the leeward side of a hill protecting the wind swept bay. After the commotion slowed down, Tatiana took us around and introduced us to what seemed like the whole village, particularly the excited children. Lunch with her family was very quiet and formal. After which we flew with a free spirit to the other side of the island. Brien had Andon organize an airport crew to wash down the Goose, using fresh water to get the salt waters corrosiveness off the airplanes surface and engines after the ocean landing and takeoff. On a long walk along a longer beach, Tatiana and I felt deep passions as we thought of the unstated questions from lunch with her parents. The sunset, in all its maritime hues was enjoyed in contentness at an open beachside restaurant. Inside the large thatched-roofed cone hut, Galeron was being played. This island folk music expresses affection for the islands and the islanders way of life. The evening started unhurried but as the partying took over discretion, events took off carried by random funs excitement. Andon did a set of galeron about fire, water and earth with the spirit that makes beach magic, it then built-up into one of his creative performances of him expressing himself. The music propelled the audiences to emotional releases signed with smiles. He vibrated an intensity, he was electrical, a charged human life force, a conduit of some magical energy that sparked us all. As always, on islands all the people are acquainted, if not related. So,
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Tatiana knew the families of Brien and Andons latest friends. Brien wanted to fly and see the recently uncovered Angel Falls and the region south of the Orinoco River towards the Amazon. Group agreement came instantly for a sightseeing flight in a couple of days, which left more time for having beach fun. A couple of days later, we were on our way to Ciudad de Bolvar a few hundred miles south of the island. We flew over the Llanos, a vast savanna similar to the North Americas Great Plains, which the thirteen hundred-mile long Orinoco River lays beyond. During the rainy season, the water gathers in the Llanos low areas forming huge shallow lakes in which anacondas rule over abundant natures countless crocodiles and enormous flocks of birds that makes for an ornithologists paradise. We flew directly to Angel Falls over the landmass of Venezuela, which have moved the least in latitude of all the large landmasses on the globe. This constant geographical drifting positioned Venezuela along the equator forever, which has generated a unique evolutionary richness. Flat-topped geological features called tepuys are magnificent mountain high rock formations projected out of the green jungle floor like monuments to the primeval universe. The water became mist before hitting the ground from the 3,212 foot high waterfalls, which was more a long trickle due to it being the end of the wet season. In an airplane, one sees geographys dominating influence on life and human possibilities. The flight only touched the northern edge of the Orinoco with the Amazon River basins further south that filled the far field beyond sight. This massive jungle is the wall that separates the Caribbean coastal societies of Venezuela, Surinam and the Guyanas from the rest of South America. This barrier and a common history integrated Venezuela into Tropical Caribbean, whose socio-poli-eco power and untapped potentials make it the unrealized capital of the Tropical Caribbean. Whereas Dutch Surinam and English and French Guyana are still under-involved with the Caribbean community because of the policies legacies from colonialisms monopoly isolationism. Brien landed in front of the Ciudad de Bolvar to give the girls a water landing and the story of a lifetime. Then he taxied to a low sloping spot on the rivers bank, where we disembarked. The city was a colonial
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architectural classic with the inactive pace of equatorial daytime, which made its time frame seem closer to Bolvars last visit than ours. One of our companions, Diann, spent years here with her extended family. She recommended a rooftop restaurant overlooking the river and its commerce. We sat comfortably under a palm roof. Briens eyes were slits from the suns brightness observing the river as he mentioned excellent portable shade is another human necessity needing vast improvement; hats are hot and parasols cumbersome. Tatiana said a cold drink was as close as man has gotten because shade alone was never enough without a breeze to move jungle humidity away. Brien said cold drinks include psychological shifts that refresh more than a light breeze and ordered more ice. The hours passed so fast, we decided to spend the night. We were freed because the airplane was guarded by two of Dianns cousins.
Doing It Right Connects into Consciousness

The Orinoco is massive with Amazon similarities. The feeding time of the three thousand plus species of mosquitoes usually starts the hour before sunset, out of the wind. The strong river breeze minimized this concern, making for a comfortable jungle sunset. We then took a slow stroll around a swath of history amidst a river town on a jungle frontier of a premortal world. Diann guided us to a nightclub to hear Fado Portuguese for fate. She said the interior of the place could have come from the old section of Lisbon. Diann talked about the natural beauty living here, and the first-class performance she knew about this evening. Patience means reminding oneself to stay unattached and nonreactive, all quality takes time, only here it takes a little longer, so we waited. Instead of single drinks, a full bottle of the local liquor and slices of fresh fruit with buckets of ice were put on the table. The comfort and cocktails made the wait easy. Finally, the lights went out and there was no more movement or sound. The club was entirely dark, except for a faint beam from a weak, tightly focused spotlight over a small dance floor. The fadista was dressed
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in shadow matching black; he rotated on a tall stool playing the first chords. The light started to sparkle off the reflection of a magnificently polished twelve-string mandolin, which cast colored lines of light outward and across his silhouetted face. The playing was incredible, affetuoso, slow intense music of tears whispering from his fingers that spoke to our hearts pains and lifes sad regrets. The female voice came from the psychic shadows on an unseen face; the darkness was only broken by the mandolins reflections. Shadows and hands in tight circular movement from the darkness into the faint glow first revealed a woman dressed in black, whose restrained movements followed the feel of fados melancholy fatalism. An impassioned low voice and soft weeping sounds were a connection from the soul. Deep moaning rhythm flowed from the fadista, which moved thoughts that drift through themselves. A trance took us into ourselves, undisturbed for long after she left, as the fadista solo brought us back undamaged. We were quiet, particularly so, after Brien asked Diann what it was called and she said Saudade, the presence of absence, deep pains yearning. The expression of being both sad and happy at the same time, but knowing sadness never ends while happiness always does. When deep emotional floodgate opens, quiet echoing solitude flows. The next morning we knew we had shared a special experience together. The mood was friendship. We took-off down the river and landed at the airport to take-on fuel. When we returned to the island, the others left for their homes to share their happiness with loved ones. Tatiana said we could not leave for a few days more because she had a surprise. A depressing moment filled me, as I was reminded by my old home self about how far away from home a life could travel, which is until the traveler has traveled so far, he feels the feelings of being comfortable as being home. Late the next afternoon, we received a message to be ready early the following morning. The rest of the day was a long reflective beach walk broken by swims that were used as thought-altering psychological shifts. This part of the Caribbean has a comfortable steady breeze that blows over the Atlantic from nearby Africa, which is up current and closer than Chicago is. This is why Coln showed up.
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On the empty patio overlooking the hued sea, Andon played alone into the night. He gave a performance of artistic knowing, an absorbing virtuoso recital of penetrating interpretation that artist inspiration brings forth. Andon was a connoisseur of living, who could transmit the human burdens with buoyant perspectives he called born innocent die dumb. He carried us on an exceptional journey in the moment through his wanderings and wonderings. Universal abstractions are creative rewards; awareness is the preventative protection for the daily tide of wariness from the social hypocrisy supplementing so many inadequacies and falsehoods without concern. The soul bared by artistic insights that best explain life and living is humanitarian therapy because of their shared penetrating uncoveries refine empowerment. Duende the artistic magic that connects with lifes depths. Bruised souls know the inspirations great art stirs. People, who experience lifes sharp contrasts and serrated pains, share in livings differences and distressing indifference; profound artistic appreciations are sanctuaries that have painful admission costs.
Knowing Love and Sharing Love is the Best There Is

Tatiana had organized a large local fishing boat to cruise to another island where we dove for fish on reefs, whose pearl beds have long since disappeared. While we took pleasures from the secluded idyllic freedom the deserted island provided, the boats crew prepared a fishermans feast. During a walk along the beach at sunset, she told me how she could never leave her family and that I was more than a doctor taking pictures. Even her general, barely had maps of his country, much less aerial photographs of its major assets. Her awareness was courteous enough to let me change the subject. I did not want any lies between us. We were both more than content with our meaningful love, which confident relationships enjoy. The honest love we felt toward each other was without the emotions of longing. We understood the future would not be, which made the moment clear and the admiration even stronger. She thanked me for the friendship because,
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for her, now was the time to make decisions for her future. The general was fun, but his self-centered double standards were too costly to keep up for those involved. She had decided to return to the island and be an islander, it was the opportune time before the rapid aging of urban living and long nights made it too late. Womens make-up hides more than it covers. As the moonlight made the clouds dance above our voyage of harmony, our love mixed intimately. Fortuitous modern love is shared mature intimacy that is broad, deep and knowingly flexible, which matches living with lifes uncertainty. This sophisticated love has multipleperspectives varied appreciations that bring forth the positive efforts, which causes self-centerness and the burdens of insecurities to disappear; the life of lovers are the memories of love. Comprehensions so contrary to demands by psychodramatic partners who target known vulnerabilities for twisting penetrating pain. Abusive desperations and assaulting insecurities beat up and take costly tolls on the delicate composition of shared relations. Emotionalized attacks rarely hurt a mature adult for long, but the habit of them or the simplest wrong wording or discord demolishes the symphony of intimacy that makes a strong relationship. Long connecting hugs transmit everything needed, energy cementing the emotional memory that strengthen the deep connections touched.
Comprehend the Errors and Lessons Move Forward Without Falling Back
Island living was obviously closing down as the pull of the project was building. We were finished, but the future was dangerously vague unless we wrote the next chapters. During the relaxed time of the final phase of the project, some serious calculations were re-evaluated; final decision time was drawing closer. Time and natures neutrality had a positive influence on our discussions of exposures, positions and needs because our situations and strategies require reprioritizing. Brien wanted out or a more valuable reason to stay because we were easy targets for quick decisions by violent dispositions.
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We stated our goals and the involvements to obtain them but would they let us go. Brien wanted to fly to Cuba, island hopping the eastern Caribbean all the way. There he would sell the airplane, then buy a new Grumman with bigger engines and three bladed props, the latest and best. The big picture sounded good, but the obstacles were in the details and execution. We were back in Caracas, on our schedule. A multi-purpose option was to negotiate with the Germans to put up half the money with ownership in his name. Getting the Nazis on board could be easier than expected, just a continuation of the same operation with new locations. The previous successes would lubricate greeds obsessions and familiarity would make their decision easy. No false urgency was necessary to sell them. The strategic importance of the islands and the Southern Atlantics military preparedness were major espionage assets. Brien told The butt that he wanted to sell the airplane before it was exhausted to a man in Cuba. An offer had been made, cash on delivery. Brien mentioned we would island-hop up the arc of the Windward Islands and listed off were we could stop, including Puerto Rico and then, finally, Cuba. We read his body language and knew we supplied the idea of what to do with us, which he would claim as his own. Altisimo was seriously tired. We cruised to conserve her, the engineered life span of running time and number of operations were getting close to the specs redlines. Brien explained the appropriate technical data of engine hours and airworthiness of the airframe, including financial matters of not wanting to carry the ever-increasing cost of maintaining dying equipment. He mentioned the purchase of a new Grumman in the states, but his concern was being short of operating money. A loan was needed to augment the purchase. This would let him use his money for operating expenses. He knew they do their homework and prove the lie, which would confirm his continuing greed. Their reaction would be very informative. The water was chummed, another line baited and all the options gave us flexibility. Information is the economic vehicle of value for publicly financed institutions; this makes gathering information the jobs purpose and information management its function. So, personality
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disorders, intellectual biases, inability wrongs or ineptitude interpretations were our troubling dilemma. The flight plan would end in Cuba, the operations headquarters for the joint Caribbean and southern Atlantic region; this brought together everyones self-interest.
Ado: Immediate Activity, Excitement and Sometimes Trouble

We mentally flight-planned for Cuba, full speed ahead. Brien told major Vic that the Nazis wanted us to photograph our way up the islands to Cuba. We had to obey their orders; disobeying could prove fatal or, if the military wanted to end the work now, a crash could be arranged. Of course, the colonel would have to take on financial liability for the willful destruction of our private property. Brien figured that the Nazi ploy and the reimbursement of the Goose would get us the deal we wanted, if not a handful of cash. Island hopping would be fun and could buy the time Cuba and Puerto Ricos bases would need to create the illusions for the cameras. More of the same would keep the cash flow pumping and island hopping meant no supervision and less jeopardy. More time also allowed the past photographs significance to influence the strategists and decision-makers in Berlin. The colonel stayed in the embassy and had to be given time. This was an involved organizational and logistics operation for the military. Social familiarity enhances promotions, so GOman would run the ideas and logic past his superiors. We were occupied part-time on the Goose and full-time nightly, as the days flew past until a positive sounding, but still tentative, go ahead came from the colonel to start organizing for Cuba. Gregorio had been kept informed of plans, and Brien asked him to follow-up with a close on the sale in Cuba. Gregorios reply brought conformation he had been in regular contact with the Cuban buyer and he was still committed. He added two of Rubns hated mad dogs had been put-down. This message had us uncertain if the words meant what we thought they meant. We asked Andon if he wanted to go on to Havana, which was like
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informing a Muslim he had a free ticket to Mecca. Together with Vic, we worked out a general plan with a very loose schedule. The details and final schedule had to be put together en route. Just in case, the appropriate authorities were notified along the way. A last clandestine meeting in a far hangar at the airport gave confirmation directly from the colonel, who was preoccupied with his commands demands. Before the military objectives of Puerto Rico and Cuba, Montserrat was set as our final rendezvous. The major said we could adjust situations as necessary, after the Nazis plans were revealed. He mentioned that these islands were so small the airplanes now patrolling them would have been reported by the resident German sympathizers. Herr cabrn would probably choose St. Martin for the rendezvous point before the run to Cuba. Bureaucratic disadvantages simply took initiating the perceptions that direct the responses and expected sequences. Later, at the final Venezuelan meeting, The butts paranoid anxieties had him nervous while Herr cabrn threw around his arrogance, a subject that was boring from its familiarity and a weakness from its messages. No matter Herr cabrns attitude, he had no alternative, while being perceived stupid made us feel safer. Traveling on the fixed schedules of infrequent aviation concerned them because we traveled independently with no schedule. Our plans had us moving faster than their manpower and security could keep up. Our built-up credibility rationalized their anxieties to our advantage, which was the reason we worked so consistently to have some personal credibilitys benefit of the doubt. The decision was the payback for all the extra efforts to build and keep credibility, which now had incredible value. This asset was beyond money for us annoyingly stupid amateurs. A meeting en route was set for the half Dutch, half French Island of St. Martin, where the Nazis would blend in. The Nazis basis for discussion had the predictability of crafty spies. Brien mentioned the local weather was hard in off the Atlantic, which made schedules unreliable, a reminder to tone down the expectations of the unbearable certainty in his plans. If situational frustrations compounded travel anxieties, we did not want to be on the receiving end. The butt said to be in St. Martin on a date so uncalculated, it sent a message of confirmation that Brien was still
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directing. They wanted to stay out of enemy territory, as if Tropical Americas borders mean anything to the extrajudicial and extraterritorial arrogance of D-Cers, those empire-builders in Saville Row togas who see Washington as a Global Rome with their sons as superior genetic successors. We did not fear Herr cabrn, but as an asocial entity, he was offensive which his clawy hands accented. The butt did not have the inbred overbearance of institutional arrogance, only the bluff of subordinates obedience conditioning. The Nazis wanted all the island harbors and airports we would pass over photographed. Military size ships could safely maneuver in most of these island harbors and most of the airports runways could handle sufficient numbers of large bombers. They knew that eventually these facilities would be strengthened as the forward bases protecting the Canal. The changes would be very informative. Photographic evidence of the ease of interception was our mission. Work is a burden, but positive efforts are fun. My idea was to not even use the Kodak. Then Andon recommended we use the adventure to create a picture book of aerial views of the eastern Caribbean, which would complement the earlier Spanish Main photos. His positive suggestion for this unique opportunity avoided the waste of negative emotional responses. On the ride to the airport, Caracas stood out as a city where a walk was exciting because of what may come around the next corner. Aficionados of beauty will always pursue stimulating magnificence, which could make an art enthusiast change personal directions for life. Beauty passes and the mind questions, What was it about that attractiveness that causes it to be so aesthetically sensuous? I saw it like consciousness an indescribable but recognizable, which are not isolated knowns but many stimulations that lead to meaningfulness. Aesthetic appreciations are far beyond the unconscious appeals of pleasing facial symmetry, proportionality and biochemical scents. Natural stimulations are the connections that carry instantaneous gratefulness for the creations. Tropical Americas female loveliness unimaginable combinations of physical enchantresses and sensual seductresses truly symbolize the gregarious mixture of civilizations. In the magic of the moment, lifting-
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off the runway, vigorous fascinating feelings flowed up, inflaming flora of exotica, viva Venezuela!
Modern Economic Reality, the Higher the Lowest The More Unlimited for the Highest
We flew over the Pearl Coast, the eastern end of the Spanish Main into the Port of Spain, Trinidad, which is seven miles off the coast and less than 400 miles from Caracas. The throttle was pulled back to a good cruising speed with the fuel mixture rich as we flew into a strong headwind. Slower speeds made photographing the interesting places much easier. Brien had an excellent eye and consistently set up the shots perfectly. Andon was glued to the window; the aerial perspective consumed him. Andon told us the Spanish arrived in Trinidad, in 1592. The French arrived around 1747 and were the earliest successful commercial sugar plantation owners on many of the Caribbean islands. The British gained possession in 1808. The political victory by the Abolitionists in 1833 outlawed the slave trade but not slavery, which caused fewer slaves to be available. The sugar industry then imported tens of thousands of indentured workers to toil in the fields until 20th century mechanization. Coln, on his third voyage in 1499, named the island Trinidad after three hills, which represented the Trinity to him. As no unique features stand out, the name is as arbitrary as the rest of the official history that followed. We had planned to just spend a night there, but this Englishspeaking nation was a pleasant surprise. The islands people were composed of the descendants of ex-indentured workers from India and China, exslaves and the mixed bag of whites from a variety of backgrounds with all the regular Caribbean reasons. The exotic flavors of intercultural delights are exclaimed in Trinidad; improvised Calypsos syllabic stresses and syncopated rhythms snapped with lots of wonderful instrumental color. Andon lured us to a candlelit club that held a raw potency, captured in the music-layered movements of sexual connections and women totally absorbed in pure sensuality, whose sensuous pleasures found naked lust.
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The next day, Brien canceled the flight due to foul weather and went to check on the airplane. The crew slept in due to the cool and cloudy weather, a refreshing morning compared to suns alarm clock. Later, at a table on the hotels porch, we watched the rain in tropical patience as an interesting old character sat down at the next table in an empty restaurant. We knew he just wanted to talk to us, so Andon started up a conversation. The old gentleman said he loved to talk and hear from travelers because they brought the world to him. The conversations themes became a Trinidadian tertulia. Our new acquaintance said he needed to hear from us, so he could pass on relevance, more than we need to hear gossip or parables percepts or personality songs. Brien said intelligent people are concerned with the serious matters of life and, as an obviously cultured man, he had much to share. Briens respect made him smile and continue. He said poor people entertain each other well, maybe too well. Talking for entertainment, not communicating valuable information are lost opportunities because peers are the best source to improve ones situations. Uneducated people assume entertainment has more value because of the amusement factor, which is true at the right time in the correct situation but not all the time because as a social habit too much is lost. Our new tropical friend mentioned island living could be stagnant for the curious without access to resources. Centuries of slavery followed by generations of vast neglect carries an obscure but deep pessimism with tendencies to be overly indifferent. Social pessimism negates efforts, even toward ones intellectual explorations and possible alternatives; this self-repression cuts off the striving needed for broadening the field of themes in living.
Slavery is an Enforced Reality The Tyrannical Consumption of Innocence

Andon asked questions about our companions interpretation of his islands narrative. He paused in a well developed moments long slow breath, where one experiencing ones breathing and the mind takes hold
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and focuses. Then his body exhaled a focusing self-control; in a soft voice that demanded concentration by the listener. Europeans politics of wealth stamped their history on the Caribbean, which made for a far richer international narrative than interregional. The Americas tropical sea held Western European naval confrontations for centuries, which easily displaced the prominence of Mediterraneans maritime history. During this era, many inner European land wars ended with treaties that did not change borderlines but colonies and exclusivity over trading monopolies and gains from slavery. The term American is so biased and so beautiful, a political and very emotionally loaded word. The Anglo-Saxon residences of USoA (United States of America), who share the northern shore of our tropical sea exaggerate themselves at the expense of the other Americans. This money-getting plutocracy never fully propagated Americas truest greatness, which The Founding Fathers created, a new level of justice. This modern ideal dismissed historys aristocratic aspirations and rejected elitisms exceptionism. But the plutocrats power set a socio-economic order that established the guarantees of the traditions of greed. Andon said you define and label yourself or someone elses greed does and added there are too few books on, in and from povertys non-fiction. USoAs cultural arrogance and chauvinistic nationalism dismisses us fellow inhabitants on the American continentS, one day social maturity will respect the blanket identity American for the greatness it is, as reward enough. Political categories are mans only differences. Human beings have immensely more in common than differences, neighbors more so. Andon asked as men whose only difference is syntax, where are we. Confused by contrary generalities, except in the knowledge passed on by the traditions of oral narratives, here by ex-slaves. These teach the actualities of enslavements involvements and evil actions. The plantation overseers and slave drivers are positions that equate to low level authority figures because they share a singularity of
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purpose, whose work is the mindlessly pushing for some absentee masters profiteering. Whites history recognizes and teaches authority figures represent superiority. Blacks history recognizes and teaches authority figures represent suppression. No master means freedom to ex-slaves; more money is freedom for whites. Todays social consciousness interpretations of events and circumstances are shaped by the profiteers just as was done during serfdom and slavery. Greeds disparities demand protection to function because the tensions due intrinsically unstable opposition resonate in the hatred present, which personal weakness and social fears both generate and justify. I asked about exacting compliance. Slavisms social psychology subjugated and dehumanized everyone. Enslavers psychotic mentalities are ingrained in the social conscience with each barbaric action inflicted, which raised the thresholds of insensitivity and acceptable perversions. Now the police handle the shortfalls of poverty and ignorance, as well as being the rescuers of social anxietized and fears weaknesses. Police are a recent institutional innovation dating back to the 19th century. Their original purpose was a social-control function as protectors of the possessing-class insecurities and overseers of povertys potential threats. Intimidation and targeted criminality are the key weapons of these overseers compliance. Brien mentioned the wealth classes inbred paranoias and the many Whites who function by direction from over-believed propaganda and overpaid enforcement. Povertys desperations are pessimism and powerlessness that class vulnerabilities validate. Our new friend said the deranged processes to handle the failure of Black slavery started after the Civil War with the black codes. The slave states policies of mass incarceration that retook control of the black male population. This medievilism politicized the task of judicial-penal-enforcement bureaucracies, which have evolved into
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modern criminal apartheid. Social illiteracys failure to see the criminalizing of povertys problems with the reconfigured and reimaged handlers in new uniforms with inflated functions, now overseeing streets and prison labor, instead of fields and slaves is an intellectual dishonesty and moral corruption. Andon said regulating people through perception whips and the theatrics of terror has made the draconian punishments for the failures of the mind and the crimes of poverty into the psychological shackles of the slave quarters. Our friend added, slavisms and serfdoms perceptions reduce to pessimistic inferioritys vulnerabilities with rational interpretations that conclude the enabling fictions of elitism. Andon added slaverys perceptions of oppression needs took chains, whereas serfdoms perceptions of freedom are based on the assumptions of chained minds. Brien added freethinking intelligence pursuing expanding recognitions has a modesty shared by all because the interconnectiveness and complexity of involvements for what is, acknowledges the extent of ones conditioning and intellectual limits has honestys humbling empowering. Our friend stated the sociocultural complex with all its historical failings and functioning deficiencies is the way it is, because the absolute control of powers power wants it the way it is, and the governing systems command has all the power to keeps that way. Social literacys wisdoms knows who is responsible.
Enslavements Predate Every Ism Which Makes Elitism the Oldest Belief-attitude
During lunch, this son of centuries of slavery said enslavements are the oldest injustice, which damages individuals, societies and cultures. Slaveries are commercial regimes legitimized by anonymous alliances of proslave authorities, these official contributory accomplices from social institutions with complicit participation by actions and inactions,
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orchestrate the decisions of the social orders inhumanity that allows the enslavement and protects the enslavers. The profound implications continue to represses rhetorical questioning with ruthless efficient oppressions that suppress scrutiny and avoids comprehension that would identify the official parasitism to history and their families. Societies built upon a base of forced labor define a slavocracy, not societies with slaves. Slavism institutionalizes society with the enslavers agenda and profiteering needs; these made subjugations perceptions reality. Perceptions so old and strong one must be reminded, the slaves are the good guys and the enslavers are evil exploiters of human beings. Enslavers are domain builders not nation builders. Nations are incredible complex structures built many ways. Gains unacknowledged seem uncaused, but all gain has motivated causers. Brien said contributory indoctrinations and authoritative credentialed assurances engrave agendas as articles of faith. Profiteers perversions are avoided by corruption and design, while pardoned by superioritys social values morality that is unmolested by truth, unnecessary pain and suffering. Andon mentioned psycholinguistic ploys encourage tribal conquest and are a big part of passive genocides. Brien added its the same conquest strategy used after the German invasion of present-day England. Where the original native Celts, the oldest Europeans, were inferiorized by being labeled with a German word that meant foreigners. Andon asked our friend for some other thoughts. Enslavers socio-economies have a decimating pessimism that blunts personal effort. Powerlessness and poverties with obedience conditioning induces generations of psychological entrapments so overwhelming that striving and truth are remote fictions that require the cleansing away of the historic shackle of hopelessness as fate. Andon mentioned Humanitarianisms principles are individual rights and the end of every form of enslavement. Brien asked Andon what bothered him most. Slaveries chains still exist because the legacies of yesterday and
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racial perceptions continue to limit reasoning. Enabling fictions confine understandings to conjecture that metaphorical logic and significant sounding emotionality corroborates. This confusion makes change and real communication impossible. Intellectual social frauds are simply accomplished by occupying mental energy with vague verbal insignificance, while fears focused concerns and desires fantasies with images of vanity illusions are busy avoiding and wanting. Brien then asked our friend what bothered him the most. Contemporary knowledges comprehensions of slavism and its vast involvements would generate far-reaching implications because slaverys residues are a source of many social burdens. Slavisms worst legacies are the psychological scares and profound indifferences. Slaverys lessons are humanitys treasure-trove of necessities, even social economics analyzed for psychological cost benefits would be incredible information, no matter how foolish these are made to seem or uncertain the early premises. Slavery is not some historical footnote but the history of Humanity. It needs an honest critique of slaves, slavery and slavism because of their merciless violations of human existence and a comparative history with serfdom. Authoritarianism brands the human psyche, traumatizing societys heart and dehumanizes mans soul. Organized savagism and the profiteers worthlessness are obvious when described but not the extent of cultural corruptions and psychological debasement. The profound official silence confirms the masters mastery; avoidance and non-answers make the loudest statements. Social ethics must be expressed, if only by a single voice. The wisdom of our wise mentors perspectives enlightened us to the fact that slaverys extremist greed has a direct influence on us from its legacies unquestioned perceptions. Credentialed mens self-satisfaction with the comfortable knowns of nave efforts are some of oppressions greatest facilitators. Mr. Bell lived his rich heritages strength and wisdom. When he spoke in his ethnic style and local accent using an educated mans vocabulary, the esteem fortified his powerfully reasoned voice. He connected with us and taught slavism makes us all brothers because all
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compelled servitudes are psychological and physical enslavements that waste the immense possibilities of our shared intellects and humanity. While leaving, the next morning, I realized the peace of mind one gets when you relearn the fundamentals with sophisticated perspectives, which create lifetimes of positive contributions. As we passed over Trinidads sister Island of Tobago, the beaches cut the greens and blues, as we headed northward over the Windward archipelago. Brien steered a course to include picturesque Grenada. Andon, our historical commentator, told a poignant tale about Grenada in 1651. The French were weary of continuous skirmishes with the native Carib Indians, so a contingent of soldiers was dispatched to drive them off their island. Rather than submit to European colonists, the men, women and children jumped to their deaths from the cliffs on the northern tip of the island. This resting-places majestic view had a headstone of cliffs that mark the graves of human morality, to which the relentless Atlantic waves, pay eternal homage. Grandfather, you cant change the system. Indifference does not negate influences; it strengthens the undesired. Accurate history, comprehensive recognitions and insightful information expressed, curtails the extremisms actions by making enslavements techniques familiar. Therefore, the next neo-version illusions of dominations infallibility promoted become obvious. Social illiteracy is due random facts and biased beliefs. The foremost challenges is to recognize the shackles of prefixed perceptions and the chains of conviction rationales used by the social parasites to overinfluence society by setting their agenda as the social context. Focusing on the enslavers violence stops critical thought at the victim not the sources formulations and enabling fictions.
Detrimental Stress Antidotes The Power of Pleasure and Relaxations Rewards

The plan had us stopping any place we wanted. A cockpit conference decided to head to Barbados for some shots of the eastern most Caribbean
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Island. Andon mentioned the 100 miles upwind sailing to get there saved the place lots of bad history. After we circled the island in both directions, we headed for Saint Vincent, a green island formed from the volcanic activity of Mont. La Soufriere. According to Andon, Saint Vincent has had people living on it since 4300 BCE, which predate the Pharaoh Tut in Egypt. The Caribbeans earliest natives were the Arakawa, whom the more aggressive Carib tribes conquered while migrating northward, probably from their crowded Amazon homeland. In Saint Vincent, the indigenous Carib were always hostile toward permitting the Europeans to establish themselves on the island. More so after 1675, when a slave ship from Africa went down off the coast and many of the slaves swam to the island in chains. The Europeans continuous efforts took until the early 1700s to become established on the island. The Spanish, French, Dutch and British fought over Saint Vincent, until the Treaty of Paris in 1795 gave final possession to Britain. In 1795, pushed by the French, the original Caribs and the Garfuna, the black/ indigenous natives torched the islands plantations and massacred the English settlers. The next year, the British sent a garrison to subdue the islanders. The original Caribs were settled on one of the numerous smaller islands off Saint Vincent and the Garfunas were shipped to Roatan, an island off of Honduras where the culture survives along the Caribbean coast of Central America. The English success was short-lived because of a volcanic eruption in 1812, destroyed the plantations crops. Later, the emancipation of the slaves in 1838 set the islands 18,000 slaves free. Many of these newly freed men refused to work as employees of the reconfigured plantation system, so indentured workers from Portuguese Madeira and India were recruited to replace the independent freed slaves, whose aversion towards agriculture work still overinfluence their descendents attitudes. We stopped over for a few days to get some more unmolested rest. This island was another ethnic mixture with a feel of authenticity. The southern Caribbean has the uncorrupted aesthetics of undisturbed islands with a natural flowing pace and the gentle feel of peaceful living. We were too caught up in mental exhaustion to recognize how tense and
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fatigued we were. When beauty can only generate a mental smile and the bed is a refuge, the toned down atmosphere of fatigue is present. Anxietiesstresses-tensions fed the mental, psychological and physical fatigue cluster. The peaceful ambiences of islands are natural clinics for immersion therapy, which dissipates the distractions of over-attention to a few thoughts. Brien shared the same hotel, but had a random schedule, as he was going through the same recuperation and rebuild. We shared slow dinners and the soft calypso that drifted in the air. Relaxing sleep in the tropical bliss of cool rainy nights, long swims and longer walks generated the deep rejuvenating strength of coordinated mental and physical power. We all needed to be alone; Andon went sailing by himself on a boat he rented. The constant upkeep of boats makes them all for rent and sale. Andon sent two women over to the hotel to give us massages. Briens lady had the size and hand strength necessary for a good massage on a muscular man. My masseuse was slight of build; whose appearance seemed more for other pleasures than massages. Before we started, she asked me to touch my toes, which were farther than I thought. She said tension builds up in the muscles and is read in the bodys tightness. She calmly mentioned this condition comes with the territory of living and had to be treated regularly during the day. The act of stretching and holding the position, then extending a little more relieved the muscle tensions, while proper breathing relieved the stress. One also had to recognize the impermanence of life and that seeing clearly allows the letting-go, which collapses anxiety. Perseverance in these matters fends off the consequential health complications that develop over time. A moment of insight connected the bio-physic-psycho-social interrelationship of all true therapies. These well-formulated wisdoms counterbalance imbalances and counteract the cumulative damage missed in the inconspicuous losses of unarticulated sensitivities and dissolving reactions, which disconnects our equilibrium. On a woven mat within the plant-enclosed patio, my being got the massage I needed. She explained her techniques, which sparked my curiosity because she did not have powerful hands or arms. She used her weight and the point of her elbow on the acupuncture points and the
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thick muscles of my back. This concentrated force was better then just hand strength because it broke down the tightness the deep muscles below the outer layer of thick back muscles. She was a health professional from her integrated knowledge and mastery of various massage techniques. Not once was my spinal cord touched using the point of her elbow or hands. This could cause nerve damage by compressing the delicate nerves on the spinal cord by her elbow. To her, healers focus on prevention; doctors focus on treatment and cure. Age is in the spine and heath in around the waist. Youth is flexibility, a full-range of movement, while age is the restriction of movement. Old age is inflexibility, a supple spine and thinking flexibly keeps you moving, which keeps ones joints limber. Excessive weight means low energy, when carried on the abdomen it burdens the bodys mechanics, while fatty tissue bioaccumulates the many poisons consumed directly or acquired along the food chain. Activity maintains the body; stillness and meditation sustain the mind. Andon was late getting back, and we were glad because the more we recharged our batteries, the more empowered we felt. The relaxed mental state is always assumed present because healthy peak condition fades away so unnoticeably, as stress inconspicuously replaces it by disconnecting our self-awareness, which quietly detunes mental performance. The calm flowing days had long sweet drink sunsets and the soft marimbas rhythms of tropical living. Living in the natural rhythm delayed the departure because we felt the suns health and a swim felt like baptism, the aliveness of our bodies reconnecting to our minds. The last evening Andon gave a solo concert to us. His elongation of sound by sliding and bending the guitars strings vocalized a fuller artistic expression. This emotional sound complimented his intimate honesty of lives lived and chances missed with the pains of abusing emotions and using love, places where only true friendship sojourns. The lazy days had an impression of timelessness, felt by the travelers journeying off the regular byways. We departed rested with a positive mental confidence from being deeply prepared. As we flew over
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Guadeloupe, the large island south of Montserrat, Andon filled us in on more of the history of slaverys continuous struggles for individual freedoms over the centuries. The Black Nationalist, Eduardo Hugues, freed and armed the slaves in 1794, whereupon slaverys brutal barbarism and flogged frustrations destroyed indiscriminately. Andon said slavery proves the worst of government and validates anarchism, which is not propagandas no government and random terror but the understanding all governments interfere unjustly with individual liberty and should be replaced by the voluntary association of cooperative groups. This dangerous philosophical wisdom was transformed by political propaganda into anarchy with its projections of civil chaos and violent lawlessness due to the complete absence of government. Politicallinguistic ploys always ascribed support or justification to official conclusions, while the promoted uncaused causes stop further questioning of reasons and injustices. Experience defines temperament. Anarchisms philosophy is closest to human nature and the most practical in its application to individual expression for the fair relationship it establishes between the individual and society compared to all the forms of authoritarian government. Whose medieval-mindedness enslaves us in the totalitarian empire of the rulers culture, whose absolute power reigns because any questioning of their culture is ruthlessly suppressed.
Lifes Toughest Battle is for Peace of Mind The Hardest Working Equation in Living
We circled Montserrats small capital of Plymouth; the town was a postcard. The airports commercial fuel tanks were photographed as an afterthought. In Montserrat, circumstances slammed into our brains as we arrived back from island timelessness into urban aggression. The impact was work attitudes as personality with aggressive mental projections that cause instant stress from the greeting party, while we cleared in. The colonel had just returned from Washington and waited impatiently; full of complications from his agendas and unmanaged stress and anxieties.
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He did not understand the closer to power the greater the fear, which made him a victim of his wants and intentions. Mental loses due to his lack of psychological intelligence that were compounded by not having enabling therapies and relief techniques. Andon, never the fool, vanished instantly amidst the random energy bouncing around. The taxi driver in from the airport canceled out my pensive mood because he was a true island character. He recounted to us that Europeans of Irish Catholic ancestry settled this island in 1632 after fleeing the Protestant persecution on St. Kitts. Montserrat is locally called the Emerald Island due to the year-round rainfall that gives the island a green hue that meant so much to the idealistic yearnings of the early Celtirish residents. British traditional discrimination had to put its stamp on the place by renaming the capital Plymouth, whereas many of the villages have Irish names. Saint Patrick Day was their carnival, the only nation in the Caribe that celebrates the holiday. The colonel was sidetracked when he mentioned his last name and quickly noted he was ancestrally more English, as if some connections existed beyond servants. The driver said that was his last name and he was ancestrally more Carib-African and suggested in all sincerity, that maybe they were related. The shock in the colonels focus was worth a million. Brien added there was a facial similarity around the eyes and forehead. The driver continued with the local names that sounded like a Dublin telephone book. At the hotel, the bellman started to talk to the driver in an Irish brogue. Brien asked the man if he was an Owen. He said his mother was and his father was a Boyle. Brien smiled to the colonel and said your superior genes are here but dormant. The first night at a club, the band played the local music Soca, Irish chords and dance steps with African rhythms, which were interesting because it was essentially Caribbean. After a couple of Irish whiskeys, scotchs Celtic next of kin, GOman became somewhat relaxed among his tropical relatives. The next afternoon at our hotel under some palms and over rum drinks, we talked about our options. Washington had been an interesting trip; he told us that our work was helping the country and the democratic
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cause. His words sounded meaningful. He mentioned the Canal would be passing lots of supplies to Russia. This meant we be confronting one evil by allying with Stalins bureaucratic dictatorship, which had exterminated the intellectual-class and murderer of tens of million of innocent people, another political expedience chapter dealing with historys most villainous in the lawless world of international politics. British Intelligence reported that the single known Nazi sympathizer around was off the island, which made security perfect. There were no strangers on the last flight; potential agents could not arrive until the next weekly flight from San Juan. This helped the colonel relax. He was mentally overworked and needed to stop and balance out. He was stressed, past the point where alcohol was medicinal. These performance complications had to be watched and factored into our plans working equations, if they developed further. We agreed on the most beneficial work schedule of set times, which was a polite excuse to take long separate breaks. Big consequential goals and complex projects are only achieved with trust. The participant who cannot manage his/her disorders, usually projects them in what he/she find so bothersome in others. This is the principle cause of failure in joint efforts. We spent time relaxing and worked intermittently. This created a more conducive mood, which facilitated our communication because there were fewer subsurface attitudes behind conversations; therefore, more value was added. Over the next few days, we overviewed the plan, as the military details of the remaining places of interest were pointed out with the constant reminder of putting in sufficient secondary shots. Puerto Rico would further verify the extensive reconnaissance and naval protection. Guantnamo, Cuba, was the Nazis primary target. The enemy wanted pictures of naval forces and military installations to determine the base strength and the intercepting forces that were available to confront a German fleet attacking the Canal. This was an important reference of strategic value because it indicated Washingtons priorities and the defense preparedness for the whole southern Atlantic. This information was the real prize. One thing we had both come to appreciate in the colonel was his
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military educations emphasis on the importance of leadership skills. The military is the only institution where the subject of leadership has the recognition it deserves, as an important tool and asset required for success. We worked together on the outline. Then he would leave us alone to manage the details, which acknowledged our abilities in adjusting to the realities of changing situations. Working together with mutual respect is the secret of success, not the hierarchical superiority/inferiority arrogance that inflames emotions and inabilities. The colonels worst insight was we were the best information gatherers the Germans had in this part of the globe. The logic had the solid sound of fact. Brien wanted to get in and out of San Juan as fast as the realm of possibilities would allow. The rationale to do this was any Army pilot on patrol would notice the Grumman and notify headquarters immediately, as a routine military procedure. This had sound military logic for Herr cabrn or The butt on St. Martin. The colonel stated that no decision had been reached on a new Goose or beyond Cuba yet. Long distance assessments and decisions with multiple unknown priorities kept our future uncertain. Brien was for pushing straight through, downplaying the south side of Puerto Rico to shoot the airport at Ponce because he felt that look to accommodating; it seemed just more unnecessary busy work from institutional neuroses. Better, just continue with the straightest flight path onto the north coast of Hispaniola. He reminded the colonel about the need to refuel there and at Santiago de Cuba before going to Havana. Guantnamos photographs would show the base had heavy naval vessels present. The colonels primary request was to photograph a pair of submarines, seemingly on patrol that would be at sea just off the base. Submarines and warplanes were the weapons that could challenge the largest German surface vessels big guns. The approach was to be low from the east by southeast, until just off the coastline; being closer would raise questions about unchallenged access. The flight plans course line would miss the naval bases airport completely; this flaw would counterbalance the incredible quality of the naval information. We were to arrive at the general aviation terminal in Havana, which we knew be under intense surveillance. Brien emphasized to the colonel
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that he would keep precisely to the time schedule we agreed upon, to the minute. The colonel smiled at that statement. Briens driving force was to get to a position for an acceptable close. He remarked with an openness for a response that the airplanes buyer might be there and the colonel let it pass. My mind nodded a full breath of agreement without movement. We wanted this over, the monitoring, the dangers and the constant mental exertion with layer upon layer of stress, which caused mental fatigues exhaustion that we had just started to come to terms with. We went over the approach shots, the scenarios of events, and feasible emergency backup plans in Havana, if situations got messy. But mostly we rested, even politely avoiding each other. Havana was a personal security concern for us because there were more dangers from the colonel compatriots being too close, which could cause nasty conclusions. Havana was the center of the regions spying operations and the institutionalists know their counterparts well. Florida is a ferry ride away. Its nice and close but safe from Washingtons legal jurisdiction, so the inexperienced imagined and conditioned believers regurgitate.
Applied Citizenship Ideals Symbolizes Nations All Else is the Business of Self-interest
Washington is a metaphor with many meanings, what is your Washington? All nations are too complex with history, details and diversity to be identified and defined in social illiteracys overly simplistic terms. My Washington is not the place or the government workers but the capital of political institutions with its political community. The governing class are those folks who subsist on politics, legislation, elections and public policy with wink and nod politics sovereign immunity over the exercise of power. Differentiate each group as distinct entities with separate politics and political priorities. The political class in Washingtons regime of power maximizes itself as the confluence of influences that set the lucrative menus of government
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objectives. The structured webs of power are directed by the efficiencies of special interests bought effort, the most influential of influences. These cliques of power brokers are well-compensated facilitators who serve the interests of power, which is the organized self-serving politics of greed, no matter the proponents theatrics. Decision-makers and vested interest overlords are the residing authorities obscured by titles with official sounding disguises. Ideological agendas are political turf wars for directional control. The most deadly in Washington involves the empire-builders. These ideologues of authoritarian power are philosophical enemies of equitable ideals, as expounded by Liberal Democratic Republics like the USA. Equitable ideals are the source of Americas incomparable success, this key historical fact cant be denied so its kept out of the social consciousness by expensive triviality and complex diversions. The Roman Republic became the Roman Empire because of Romes most charismatic man, Julius Caesar. His ruthless greed was intellectualized as imperialized ambitions. The Caesar effect seeks dictatorial rule at any cost to a nation, whose complicit political mafia establishes class dictatorships with genetic-mes superiority and generational privileged positions. The business of power is a self-perpetuating entity that the well positioned political classes service, which makes them the sources of most of societys history. The conflicts between truths justice and executing agendas cause the inhumanity that is the history of humanity.
Personalities Decide Interpretation Facilitate

Washingtons extraterritoriality is geopolitics at its worse, functioning with military powers carte blanche attitudes, with or without purchased local approval. The colonel had a free reign over Havana, so we supposedly had no worries. We realized he did not know what was actually going on, even with his fellow spies in Cuba, much less the complexity of the potentials, which takes more than office assumptions. Authorities living
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off of presumptuous conjecture is one thing; making them real is quite another. Our private plans were set deep within the colonels options. We explained the airplane would either be sold in Havana or damaged in some remote distance spot in the Americas. We could be reported dead. We were not going anywhere else without an acceptable exist plan. An important subject we have deliberately been waiting a long time for the colonel to initiate, which he obviously wanted to continue avoiding. The colonel told us one afternoon that two of Herr cabrns men in Panam got into a fight against a local recently and both were cut so bad, each bled to death before arriving at the hospital. A drunk had been molesting them and, within a short time, the situation became violent. One pulled out his gun and the quicker Latino pulled out a long knife, and cut him deeply as the other reached for his gun, he was instantly maimed. The assailant then stabbed them both and disappeared. Medical help was too late so they bled to death. Neither of us reacted to the statement by the colonel because we knew it was Rubns and the mad dogs. All the news and possibilities required continuous analysis within our overall strategy. This calm setting let us reorganize and relax without emotional attachments external influences and their distracting waste. Lifes grid of decisions, hold stable questions with fluid possibilities due to details that varied with sliding weights of significance. Havana was what we expected and, knowing how North-Americans always stood out, we were happy the colonels people would not be following us that closely. Command habits and personal priorities held complications in cutting us free. We were the best things he had going with many indexed rewards and office politics riding on our efforts. Handling Herr cabrn was going to be difficult. We were a serious annoyance to that autocratic sociopath. My disgust for his vile ideology and mental disorders riding our effort to Berlin always left me edgy and calculating revenge. But this animosity was offset because the espionage project was nothing but a deception of costly deceit with incalculable rewards. Brien sent a telegram to Gregorio to confirm our arrival in Havana.
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Leaving Montserrat, the feel of intense excitement from this lifeventure was fading and being replaced by uncertainty and apprehension about the approaching future rushing toward the now. Flying level with the bottom of the huge gray-black cumulus clouds at sunrise was a journey into dissolving anticipation.
All Ideologies are Political Pyramids Benefits Fly Up as Compliance Flows Down
Brien wanted to land in the Great Bay on St. Martin, an island 37 miles square in size. Bad parking would have been a good reason to leave but the airport bordered the Bay and that was more prudent. Andons detailed the Dutch have been here since 1634 and the eversophisticated Dutch had abolished the slave trade 16 years before the English. The island had a French flair for style but functioned with Dutch correctness for doing business; aesthetic being and rational doing. The place was a good choice by the Germans, who wanted to be someplace in the tropics that felt remotely familiar; therefore, comfortable. Andon waited with a local crew that washed the plane and kept watch. Natives are natives everywhere. We are all natives somewhere. All local residents are tempted saints of convenience or craving sinners. When The butt entered our suite, our strong greeting to him caught him by surprise; it was like seeing an acquaintance. Actually, we were just so emotionally relieved that it was The butt and not Herr bastard, because this facilitated our plan, immensely. The instructions were to continue on to San Juan and pass the plates to the person using the coded sign of recognition at the assigned hotel. The colonel was right about wanting Guantnamo. San Juan was a distant secondary target; you could hear it in the focus of the thoughts. Brien expressed concerns about refueling in Hispaniola and recommended a stopover in Cap-Hatien on the north coast to coordinate the flight to Cuba. This sounded logical and, not knowing anything else, The butt acted positive about giving his full approval.
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The butt demonstrated his prowess by instructing us to pass Guantnamo, early out of the morning sun because this was a major military base. Brien had waited for an opening to complain about situation being very dangerous, even treasonous and punishable by death; we wanted a lot more money. The butt was career-scared and nervous, a good sign he was in the virgin territory of intense, fast, calculating exchanges of private-sector negotiations. He fell apart as Brien went on the attack, over being put in such an unsafe predicament that risked our lives. This was not like working daily in the Canal; this was penetrating restricted areas that were militarily defended. This base did not recognize this airplane that be full of spying evidence and the air patrols had loaded guns, which made this a deadly serious situation. We were scared and only more money would suffice. Brien demanded to renegotiate the deal. Briens anticipation was right. The butt was ready for the money argument, but the whole event was beyond his business ability. Unawareness on the opening amount demonstrated poor negotiation skills, which Brien read as whatever the amount we wanted was, he was to agree. Being paid was another completely different predicament; this Herr cabrn would handle personally and pervertedly. Brien deducted the basis of their logic was to agree to pay any amount our greed demanded, to keep the situation smooth, because the Nazis had tentative plans to pay at most. Killing is cheap and security-wise the safest, even lucrative to criminal officials. The disposition, willingness and cravings of evil perversions with unrecognized means and priorities are the naveness of humanity. Brien even got The butt to initial two copies of the amount agreed upon. Herr cabrn was desperate for the results but not as much as The butt was for his life from failures remote postings. Brien worked the careerist priorities and cemented a valid reminder of our loyalty to money as the sole motivation. We always reminded ourselves out loud, double agent work had lethality built into the employment contract. They wanted us to be greedy to guarantee the completion of our intelligence gathering; we wanted them to think about nothing else.
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Biologys Genetic Sensibilities Could Accurately Delineate Biases, Sins and Crimes
This latest takeoff had the feeling of a getaway. The bright beauty of San Juan from our aerial view reminded me that Colns most important cargo from the New World was the Americas profound philosophical influence on Western thought. The Americas existence and numerous new life forms called in to doubt Aristotles unquestioned prominence and epistemological absolutes, which say nothing about the incredible uncoveries that named the place the New World. The Americas revolution started with a letter Coln wrote to the King of Spain that stated his observations during his first voyage. Copies of this intellectual Pandoras Box circulated Europes aristocratic establishment. This undeniable account was historys most damning philosophical comparison for the world of European aristocracy. The letters information ignited unimagined aspirations and ideals for the common man, which undermined the imposed traditional reality from that day forward. The cultural comparison from the Americas was a mirror onto Europes barbaric shortcomings. Coln described the equality, liberty and happiness of the natives, who lived close to the natural state, as interpreted by him. His original observations defined the indigenous way of life, which created the powerful American Myth of the noble savages natural happiness. These potent images had a decisive influence on the philosophers of the Enlightenment, who took the American concepts to heart. I think it was the French philosopher Diderot who wrote . . . man is good by nature and only our institutions have made him bad. This captured centuries of unarticulated sentiments toward ideological domination. These advanced and truly noble visions continue to validate the ideas of an intellectual life, which underwrote the ideals of Democracy that crown equitable individual rights. The conceptual genealogy of Colns observations led to the natural rights of man as stated by Jeffersons self-evident truths of life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness. These modern concepts were also included in the first constitution in Spanish America in 1811: the aim of society is
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common happiness and governments have been set up to secure it for man. Legal acts that established happiness as a social and political ideal were no longer dismissed with suppressive pronouncements or as frivolous luxuries for inferiors. Elitism formulates what conservatism delivers, these prevents broad freedoms and personal liberties, while denying open options and independent priorities. The pyramid of advantages conceits and greeds excesses denounce and dismiss those below, which establishes the ethical cancers of the social hypocrisy. The status quo calcified assumptions of traditional views and the alliances of the loss-of-powers entitlements encage broader gains greater benefits, which are unrecognized loses due the enlarge economic-scales for established advantages. The open-mindedness our flight generated gave way to situational pressures, as the approach and San Juan was shot. At the airport, we used up the day seemingly involved with motor problems that moving around exposed motors validated. At dusk, I departed alone for the hotel, while Brien and Andon stayed with the airplane. We would meet later at a place Andon recommended. The plan was to keep the Nazis uncertain by avoiding them until the last minute because any exchange would narrow our options. Alone, empty handed and exiting the lobby immediately avoided any premature confrontations, as convenient assumptions would become rational excuses because personal initiative was too potentially explosive for underlings. The package would be passed on our schedule, so by the time the instructions and plates were dealt with and decisions taken, we would be long gone. Old San Juan was still in the late 16th century architecturally. Andons latest place featured a stage show of Plena, a sung newspapers with musically-backed social commentary, which were risqu and humorous and Bomba an arrangement of storytelling, riddles and sayings set to music that proceeded to get raunchier. These musical styles were in the West Africa oral traditions that pass knowledge generationally. These singers and dancers wore loosely woven blouses and skirts that covered the lightest tropical slips that were choreographed to their drumming accented rhythms.
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Champagne draws attention, and we had plenty of both in a comfortably dimly lit nightclub. The final act was a long, unique, languid dance by a couple whose feet barely left the floor. The slow intense provocative gestures had longing looks in drifting music, which became adoration to the statuesque dance partner, a deliberately subtle musical frottage between a female couple. The women available were numerous backstage with performances in silent movements that were pleasures of the night that moved the hours. The diversions were entertaining until an hour before sunrise. Then we separated for the airplane and hotel. At the hotel alone with an oversized package meant success to those following instructions. The taxi drove around the block then waited in the darkness. Within seconds of entering the room, the knock and the package were passed; a bad attitude and a shammed door rudely ignored the attempted questions. Minutes later back at the front desk, the sound of tossed keys startled a dosing clerk. At the airport, the engines vibrated and the brakes released us down the runway into the dawns soft colors that lit the clouds; sunrise was the only thing chasing us.
Bio-specifics as Bio-general are Often Rationales, Not Science

Briens voice broke the focused stillness in the cockpit, when he asked if it was pigment or skin oiliness that cause light skinned women to get lines on their faces at an earlier age than darker complexioned women. Oily skin is better for fewer wrinkles; its the foundation of the cosmetic industry. Diet, sleep and lifestyle with positive calm attitudes, maximize beauty. Andon said the climate determines color and the perceptions of the poorly labeled few profoundly incidental overexaggerated differences in mankind cause all the difficulties. At least in most of Tropical America this reality is acknowledged because the people have such a large varying percentage of the planets ancestry. So there isnt any kind of innate characteristics. People here
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have mixed from the start as mankind has mixed throughout history in blending neighboring transitions, so how could there be any critical difference. What are important are all the similarities, not the few differences. Such Biorealities negate the core foundation of elitism, so the power cartels political partners will manipulate such inconvenient truths for discrimination polices with contributory suppressions repressive oppression methodology. The intellectual frauds will just controversialize the scientific truths for a couple of centuries.
Cultural Awareness is Open Appreciation And Respect For Differences

We flew straight to Cap-Hatien, where povertys realities and the heat made little worth running around to see. The tarmac got so hot footprints were left in patches of soft tar. We refueled with the sealed drums supplied and rested in the shade, observing ourselves more than watching the movement in the shadows. Briens hammocks were strung in the wings shade, a comfort zone for tropical inactivity, as we waited for the heat to pass. Decisions over occasional curiosity about the airplane broke our efforts at quieting our rational minds. As the sun dropped and the heat faded, Andon found some ice cold beers and we just relaxed in the early evening. We heard the deep psychic rhythms of ritual voodoo worshiping fertility, which floated through the air carried by the light breeze. When the music stopped, Andon shared a lifetime of experiences facts-of-life and personal insights. Cultural history and the social context must be comprehended and expressed in the native or individuals terms, not court history and official presumptions that are no more then social justification or enabling fictions that covers ruthless greed. The Colonial Revolution in 1776 and the French Revolution in 1789 both proclaimed the rights of man against royal regimes. In 1799, Napoleon officially ended serfdom, while slavery started to end legally soon afterwards. The official emancipation from centuries of enslaved
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societies harsh suppressions spread the spirit of liberation worldwide. In 1804, Haiti became the first Black Republic in recorded history, as Africas ancient history seems to be missing. A Creole general Toussaint LOuverture ejected the French colonist on Hispaniola and declared black independence. This revolutionary act established a sense of black pride and spurred uprisings throughout the Caribbean. This Hispaniola general had the people build a gigantic stone fortress in the mountains to protect their freedom from a feared retaliatory invasion. The massive structure was constructed high in the mountains between where we were and the capital on the south shore of the island. But the only battles fought were for domestic control between the islanders. After Toussaints death, the any reason that works rationale used mixed parentage against those less obviously mixed or unmixed to rally the forces of greed and frustrations, which have simmered and exploded irregularly ever since. Haitis complex unwritten history needs to be understood down to its root causes, including the reasons for the islands long decline from one of the wealthiest nations in the New World to the poorest in the hemisphere. Andon called this infighting ethnic-primitivism because all ignorant actions and violence bolsters racial stereotyping negative perceptions, which perpetuates racism. Such acts authenticate the overstated claims of the real enemies, uncontested powers apparatuses serving greeds agendas. Descendents of slaves have an incredible unique opportunity to influence humanity to modernize the Americas social philosophy by living humanitys universalities, not legacys responses of imprisoning interpretations.
Futures are Lost to the Befogging Fogs of Purposed Social Chaos

Brien asked Andon about the Caribbeans sensibilities toward mixed parentage. He answered that historicism says sociological circumstances are historically determined, but he saw the few negatives of these
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situations as external and the failed tests of attitudes, which are the biases and prejudices of common stupidity. Multiple racial families, even mixed nationalities or religions, makes all involved emissaries of universal culture with individual responsibilities to raise the social awareness of the truths in these unique unions. Diversitys enriching actuality and miscegenations successes are las Americas greatest sensibilities. We must get past racial perceptions, discrimination and intolerance as thinking by assessing humanitys identity and the person as an individual. Humanitys golden rule is treating others the way you want to be treated. Group behaviors are cultural and constructed, so why should one group believe or help another group, if needs and progress are undermined by inappropriate behaviors. The race questions are profound cultural issues with centuries of involvements and simple answers but complex solutions. Racial social perceptions must be addressed and the scales of pigmentation that reflect plantation slaveries social indexing consciously abolished because such connotations maintain and project negative perceptions. Todays multitudes of different offspring from racially mixed relationships have made such terms foolish and wrong. The context, subtext and pretext of slavery must be razed because they support the abusers and weaken the individual. The social wisdoms of slaverys lessons and biological relevance must be made the tenets of humanitys civil religion. The words in Caribe Spanish for racial mixes make them social entities. The language has around sixteen words that can be used to describe the tones of skin, most on the dark side. These carry no real derogatory luggage but still need replacing with terms carrying positive perceptions. Englishs racial terms are affect-laden with situational interpretations that serve racism and its profiteers. Andon mentioned ending ones racism starts when you stop using racially loaded words and confront ethnic stereotyping and humor. Think of people in terms of individual men and woman with different talents; doing their best handling lifes generalities, daily burdens and demanding efforts; sophisticate intelligence functions from understanding the other persons position and walking in their shoes.
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Historically Isms are Run by Opportunistic Ics Who Give Form to Malleable Ist
Brien said sophisticated perceptions have multicultural sensibilities and realistic political understandings. The social reality of authoritys prefixed hallos and the status quo over-influencing is the fragmentizing and marginalizing of a lot of mental capacity. Andon added an avoided aspect of ethnic tribalism is it encourages hate and fear with emotional reasonings convictions. Brien said the consequences of the us and the dangerous-them, divide-and-conquer wedging strategies undermine inclusion and diversity, which are the strengths of Democracy, the applied philosophy of inclusion and diversity. El Caribe is the unity of diversity Andon said emotionalized issues like interracial matters have reactions that usually stem from social identity wedging. So normal actions and reactions are primarily those of socially isolated and under-informed people who are polite and awkwardly considerate at best or just plain dumb, rather than raw racist. The under-educated have normal stupidity built into daily existence, so one cant take it personally. Brien mentioned interpreting actions are tricky because separating normal insensitivity from racial motivation says so much about the interpreter. Misconceived descriptions propagated by the stereotyping diminish all, by its oversimplistic absurdity that plays well to simplemindedness. Social acknowledgments build esteem, which ends the residues of slaverys infantilism and powerlessness. Brien added everything is individual, only 2400 years of aggressive refinement and organization by elite-ultraconservatism has put existence in their political social context. Ignorant ignorance, in all its stupidity, Andon took a focusing breath and stated, the fields of knowledge and themes of life must be continuously explored and verbalized otherwise evil agendas nibble
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away at the progress made, which is intellectually short-changing and ethically wrong. When stupid actions are interpreted through racial eye, whether black or white, theres an active racism in them. The blacks worst enemies are disempowerment agendas and ignorance. Their best allies are progressive, aware citizens. The whites worst enemy is not the black face on poverty for fears isolation or violent crime for criminal targeting but powers power without democratic accountability. Their best allies are liberal democratic attitudes. Blacks have many names, labels and wordings to describe uneducated, unable and disordered whites, yet culture, society and living needs a group of special positive terms for righteous whites. Whites have many names, labels and wordings to describe uneducated, unable and disordered blacks, yet culture, society and living needs a group of special positive terms for righteous blacks. Neither group has accurate understandings or perceptions for the psychological legacies of enslavements and serfdom or the involvements of indentured servitudes. It is arrogant hypocrisy to expect one group to practice toward another group what the groups members do not practice among themselves. Simply by demonstrating practical tolerances of and for difference at every opportunity one would instruct, validate, legitimize and confirm the value of humanitys social fundamentals. The only way to change infectious inhumanity is to educate and lead by exemplary interactions. Brien mentioned the Jews have improved the social components of daily life, against the odds stacked against them, by fighting for the rights of other minorities. Civil justice strengthens the humanitarian universal via raising public awareness of all inequality and by codifying social justice with ever-greater equality. These direct actions are powerful protections against invisible abusers whose social vanities blind them to the fact that everyone one is a member of a minority. Actually many different minorities. Humanitarian universals require a civic religion of progressive efforts for democratic social wisdoms. Unrecognized sources of knowledge are the victims insights, these address agendas and character rather than characteristics.
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Slaves had a level social indexing. Freedom from this elitisms standards and value has made the black cultures interpersonal relations function with open fairness and appreciation of difference. Respect for individual expressions and the greatness of diversity and originality are humanity wisdoms. Openness to commonality and universality reveals the genius in diverse cultures.
Slavery is Institutionalized Racism Serfdom is Institutionalized Discrimination

After a long pause, Andon said women were the first slaves seized. Slavery victims tortuous lives were only better than cannibalism and massacres. Enslavement carries heroic epics of courageous human perseverance that are lost to subjugators lethalness. The trials and tribulations of forced labor have long and extensive historical footnotes, felt by everyones ancestors because the history of civilizations has been the brutal power politics of enslave or be enslaved. No culture, society or group has escaped enslavements; most more than once and too many still are. Racism is a theme in humanitys enslavements long narratives toward greater common decency. Racisms daily existence is an actuality far more complex and subtle than the obvious simplistic imagery of hate and burning crosses. The long chains of humanitys enslavements carry shared social psychoses. Each aspect, whether the obvious or the unrecognized, make violent inhumanity a sane normality.
Analyzed Projections and Agreements Desired Reveal Agendas

History as politics, war and victory is fake history, while anti-history is the aversion of realitys vast involvements buried by oversimplification and palace walls. Slavocracies are vassalage webs of mercenary greed, whose vague status intangibles mystify the
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connections of components, involvements and functions. So there is no cost-benefit analysis or accountability or recognition of the social consequences including the disorders induced and utilized. The human tragedy of reactionary medievilism has encased serfdoms pillars into the foundation of the social order. The centuries of enslavers success as masters of their desires and official history is seen in the submission and dependences shrug and pay as servitudes genuflection to power. Andon said the victims of American slavery know the actualities confronted, while most whites are not even unaware of the long era of serfdoms existence. The important lessons from slaveries ways, means, and motives are distorted or missing from humanitys wisdom because slaverys perceptions, perspectives and contributory interpretations are shunned. Humanitys archenemy is every form of enslavement including the esoteric neo-servitudes and psychological dependences. The future will advance best on the universality of the individual and the attributes of a humane society, which must replace enslavements social psychosis with personal liberties, fairer rights and social progress, while condoning any form of abuse, torture, repression and inhumanity. I mentioned the early Christians humanity changed centuries of Roman cultures worshipping unrestrained power with what amounted to human sacrifice. The Christians demonstrated their faith by helping the lowest of their fellowman in society. The faith was tested to the fullest by the emperors, who had them eaten by lions for entertainment in the Coliseum, during which, the spectacles audience masturbated.
Slaverys Wisdom Underlines Tropical Caribbeans Philosophy

Brien asked me about my personal thoughts? I am full of socio-eco propaganda, historical conjecture and stereotype perceptions concerning slavery. Listening to Mr. Bell
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and Andon showed me taught history is written in the echoing context of the enslavers and their lackeys, who produce and sustain ignorance for their masters greed. The knowledge of blood is truer so I listen and learn. Powers power eludes relevant scrutiny and scrupulous histories because it designs its existence and controls the social context, as with the industries of compelled labor or those who push armaments waste over peoples needs. Social policy contexting uses consensus-concluded interpretation. Caribbean sugar reigned supreme because its economic weight in European governments generated disproportionate political influence, which fostered political advantages of an unrestrained free hand ruling their islands. Plantation slavery with all its extremisms was modeled on ruthless feudalistic serfdom with all its historically erased extremism. Slaverys brutality and greeds corruptions lived-off sweet sugars bitter whip, which financed the masters courtly exaggerations, privileged perversions, superficial comforts and overdressed fashions. The wealthy sugar owners were purchasers of noble perfume that covered the noxious odors with social fictions that obscured the ancestral sins of evil lineage because amoral atrocities illustrious perceptions are bought images. Centuries of nepotism inabilities and status quo gains continue these organized oppressions that profiteer profits embed as reality; such history are aristocratic atrocities against humanity. Slavisms routines of terror and public exposure to exemplary violence conditioned adherence both to remind the black population for absolute obedience and the whites for submissive obligations. But I feel that Andon holds a deeper awareness and wider relevance. Andon said the strength of weakness enslaves in the hierarchies of power. Slavocracies social totalitarianism ensnares every authority figures in its tyranny. Group subjugations require society-wide complicities, which are driven by well-compensated overlords, whose jobs are to set the most expedient acceptable compliance. The era of Atlantic slavery and slavocracys institutions altered society to the profiteers needs so completely; its indefensible elite philosophicalpsychology ordering is a cultural taboo. The smell of blood and sounds of torture may have been lost to societys memory but not enslavements
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psychosocial superiority/inferiority contrivances. Avoidance conceals guilt, while orchestrated conspiracy by bureaucratic arrangements over hundreds of years has vaporized participation and honest social history. This demonstrates the power of a few to dominate the many proficiently and securely. Enslavements many forms share a simple formula conformity takes aggression, uniformity takes one-track minds and the status quo takes oppression. Repression generates the desired and suppression sustains the social order. Oppress the language or mislabel the concepts that capture actuality and no expression develops, so alternatives do not evolve? Enslavers policies of isolation and social adherence generate disjointed information and ineffectual understandings. Delegitimizing organized greeds systematic victimizations requires well-framed arguments and easily conceptualized issues with neat visual images for the power of truth and word of mouth credibility. Contagious euphonic communicability by and for individual freedom and liberties is the key. This is why those who know and do are recognized by the harsh exemplary punishments imposed and long sentencing beyond fairness.
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Deciding Gods wishes and restricting intellectualizing are enslavements most efficient ploys. The Christian Bible and hymnbooks printed and distributed to the slaves had every reference to freedom taken out of the slaves copies, the policies of religious profiteering. The slave must obey his master without reflecting on the totality of slaverys inhumanity or the masters and blood profits. Sermon propagandas circular preaching, omissions ploys and generalized absolute derived from the inarguable specific avoids moral obligations and ethical considerations concerning every human beings divine right to manifest Gods gift of Freewill. The poli-religious philosophical frauds are obvious from intellectual honesty towards religious speak and pious publications
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from the stand taken or lack of content on the divine right of individuals escaping every form of enslavement, contrived dependence and imposed victimizing greed. The great themes of inhumanity left out of religion says more than the abstract moralizing left in.
God Gave Us Freewill, While the System Gives Us Its Will

Economic factors direct social environments to produce the desired. Excessive profits pays for political expedience of wealth welfares taxfinanced services, which generates disproportional benefits that the status quo sustains over progressive changes improvements. Institutional gains are an unarticulated conspiracy, whose primary concern is preventing any moments of truth due to insightful re-evaluations or meaningful analysis of past and present socio-eco-politico. This cultural despotism never allows any aspect of their culture to be brought into doubt must less questioned in public directly. For centuries, immoral rationales and social perversions have legitimized the deluding of social morality by the deranged inhumanity of enslavements. Historys inhumane social hypocrisy are upheld by theologies fictions of public morals because the leaderships desires and loyalties are to their aspired class conservative politics, not religious principles. Conspicuous silence and moral hypocrisy propagate the devils work. Especially by ministerial schizoids whose righteous self-deceptions avoids the obvious daily depravities. Their reasoned responses identifies these men of religious conscience as public officials serving in rewarding post as solacers administering soothing and smothering pseudoisms.
Decided History is Political Propaganda

Andon continued, history is lived, so its biases set the paths of lifes interpretations. These omissions of enslavements are social transgression against humanity and me. Historically religion seems to be about conformity as worship.
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Institutional apologists psychologically comforting stipends are salaries to deliver highbrow convenience with memory detours, moral lapses and airy discourses for the conclusion desired. Career composed reassurances and rationales soothed the innocent nobility with virtuous reinterpretations and social fictions bordering on fairy tales, as with slavery benefited the slaves and saved their souls. Evils goals require directed efforts for its prosperous failures; good requires honest understandings to succeed. Moral disturbances over the ethical questions of human beings desiring and fighting for common human decency and considerations have no legitimate defense. The facts speak for themselves, which is why they are befogged and suppressed by misrepresentations. The dynamics of relevance and the channeling of themes and subjects avoided are anti-history. This anti-intellectual subversion rewards the devotees wants but carries forward its costly burdens due the repetitive cycles of ignorance. Brien said this adolescent mindedness and social illiteracy have no proportionality of involvements, only shallow allegories and nebulous fictions. Grand overgeneralizations simplistic conclusions have no reflection or resolutions, which facilitate the cheap thoughts of aspiring pseudo-intellectuals. Postcard history with singular focus fields of vision reduces whole scales of complexity to simplistic irrelevance, which negates historys complicated and unresolved problematic affectladen actualities.
Manmade Hells are Systematized Evil Enhanced by Profiteers Systematic Greeds

Andon said the history of empire building raises upon the drudgery of forced servitudes. Empires are totalitarian regimes, which compels ever-greater servitude. Perfected obedience is mindless submission and the perfect subject has total acceptance with self-administered compliance. Slaverys standardized and regimented depersonalizing and dehumanizing routines require two or three years, nominally
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valued as being comparable to domesticating animals. Serfdom came with mothers milk Brien added psychological conditioning and dominant-submissive training were developed on domestic animals and perfected by European aristocracy on feudal serfs. Andon stated excessive work, raw violence and psychovert perversions caused six slaves to die for every one born. I said domesticated work animals are never abused by being overworked, but people are continually abused by overwork. Andon added the lash set the pace but whippings were merely a first stop on the bloody inclines into torturous subjugations hells. Slaves were forced to watch strong-willed men burned alive or mothers made to hold the child in silence for no reason or any reason, as her child was whipped or raped. Days were spent working in the tropical sun wearing full-faced mask iron helmet to stop the consumption of cane profit, which also cooked the slaves brain. The psychological torture of being powerless to put forth positive influence on personal decision-making are unmitigated anguish and devouring frustration as with enduring family members being sold off to destroy the family unit and young daughters taken at-will by the masters. Aggressions that consume or destroy any aspects of man are crimes against humanity. The breaking of the human spirit erases each individuals projection of his/her identity is mans ultimate monstrous inhumane atrocity. Such aggressions and powerlessness goes against the essence of the personalized God so revered. Historically, the circumstances and actions of the industry of slavery only accomplished profound suffering and pathetic profitability. A few individuals profited immensely, but all involved were consumed in the bloody-slop of slaverys trough. The greeds of forced labors support industries made social authorities complicit, deluded, deranged and depraved co-conspirators in a social perversion perpetuated against fellow citizens and humanity. Brien said slavery is the ancestor of premeditated criminal justices mass incarcerations. The imposed social policies and framed-up law
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make the profiteers equal to the slave industrys psychoverts, both groups and their arrogant heirs deserve historys ill will. Andon said enslavement is the summation and conclusion for every form of totalitarianism. Humanity plundered and societies pillaged by profiteering cloaked in institutional rigged syntax are organized inhumanity. The final assessment of the centuries of greeds extremism of Black slavery and White serfdom is it was cannibalistic eco-tyranny. Brien said all forced labor are conspiracies with many layers of executioners. Verbal instructions are responsible for unreasoned processes with tortuous activities. The benefits received identify the participants, whether directed involvements or removed influencers behind titled aliases. Social justice demands a finer ethical and broader moral net of guilt for the psychotic behaviors because rewards are not only financial. They also include disordered gratifications.
Physical Violence and Psychological Abuse are Equitable

I said social context propaganda as knowing reigns. Brien mentioned the fundamental ideologies are so well developed their enforcement structures can ascribe blame for everything, from personal guilt to natural disasters. Agenda sovereigntys corruptions expedience, directed interpretations and limited exceptions are historic constants. These established a blanketing social conscience with facilitating attitudes that are without human consideration. Controlling influences must be intensely scrutinized both internal and external if not imposed victimizations reign. Andon said the shackles of bondages are psychological. The physical reinforcements encode fear into reflexive memory. Slavocracys diabolical brutal inhumanity firmly established the necessary psychosocial perceptions. Public witnessing of unrestricted violence and torture are psychology injuries to the observers, which also raise societys tolerance of acceptable violent aggression. Brien added malicious injuries when motivated by a gainful purpose
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are crimes. Physical violence is understood but public awareness concerning the many forms of psychological abuses that inflict mental limitations and disabling scars on unmarked bodies are unrecognized tortures. There exist many forms of torture and execution, and many types of torturers and executioners, most are invisible due to their commonness. I added physical violence criminality for the perpetrators is modern social progress, but psychological torture has yet to be officially acknowledged or its techniques identified, defined or publicized, or has the misused scientific knowledge. Humane sensibilities must respond to the full range of imposed psychologies and manipulations traumatizing burdens as psychological abuses, while psychology torture are atrocities and the perpetrators are criminal, legal condemnation is the next great humanitarian awakening. The skeletons in slaverys closet are buried in the dark recesses of our minds and deep in the vaults of institutions catacombs. Social illiteracy and generational ignorance are the great enablers of evil.
Humanitys Greatest Lessons are in Historical Failures

Andon stated slaves persevered without extensive cultural support or reliable external sources of spiritual comfort beyond the communal autonomy in the slave quarters. The slaves experiences are humanitys gain and must be pursued with academic discipline for their value to mankind, not curtailed because of powers social embarrassments. Abolition sympathizers kept detailed historical records of the scattered triumphs and countless failures that authenticated incredible cost and efforts for freedom. Slaverys actualities and survivor testimonies await conclusions and social wisdoms. Human sensibilities have turned social attitudes against slavery, but people do not see or grasp the overall meanings, which would bolster human ideals and establish the human spirit as indomitable. The extremism over the centuries of Black slavery highlights the
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human being as victorious confronting vicious profiteering. The slaves independent success exposes the charade of ideological rationales that facilitate powers attainments and greeds rabid amoralisms where life has no sanity. Humanity needs accurate and honest evaluations from Muslim sects and African tribes continuous slaveries to financial enslavements and elaborate psychological subjugations. The epic tragedies and heroic challenges by enlightened people are the triumphs of humanity. Brien said men preoccupied with their daily obstacle courses really have no overview vision of social agendas far-reaching and allinclusive impact. He said he truly appreciated penetrating his conditioned mind with accurate information because the victims deserve respect for surviving not sympathy. I nodded in agreement because learning with truth and seeing the foolishness of my brainwashing was strangely comfortable and liberating
The Truest Histories are Genetic Reality And Mankinds Actualities

Humanitys pilgrimage passes through manmade evils hells, which requires thoughtful social, philosophical and psychological reflection, for astute re-evaluations. The costs to obtain this knowledge are the most painful sacrifices in the archives of humanity. Chronicles that have long deserved a full and honest evaluation not ideologized fake history and agenda biased anti-history. Human depths incurred by brutalizing extremism goes far beyond the obvious accomplishments of survival. These experiences uncover our human essences that generates the abilities and strengths to preserver, which are empowering insights affecting areas never recognized much less analyzed or acknowledged in all of us. The foundation of universalitys eternal man with our commonality and universal traits cause each one of us to set the course of civilizations humanitarian drift. The right to be the human being we are born can be deprived but not given. The death of the Americas slavery was the birth of the realization
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of mankinds full humanity, whose sociocultural wisdom will leave the pure epithet, Humanity the universal culture is based on unequivocal respect for all. The knowledge and wisdom of slavery has universal importance, which has been premeditatedly suppressed by intellectual fraud but not stopped because the Black example touches an ancestral cord in all of us. Reanalysis and re-evaluations of superiority-centricness for facts would end societys limp mentalization on humanity. Victim-centric perspectives across the themes of academic disciplines would stimulate an honest social civility. Contemporary literacy gives form to the culture of humanity. Individuality is an incredible human achievement that slavery, the ultimate endurance trial of the individual imprints in our souls. Humanity and Democracy are the two greatest philosophical nonisms. The culture of humanity raises from the pillars of enslavements wisdom, equitable individuals rights compose the ideals of Democracy.
Greeds Imposed Bondages are the Outlines of the History of Humanity While Epic Individuals are Enduring Historical Inspirations
Andon said, the sword of slavery has two cutting edges barbaric suffering and survival strength. One-edge cut down the development of humanity, the other hones the destruction of the suppressors primitive closed-minded mentalities. Slaves creating profound originality with less than nothing are immense successes for humanity. Ethnic slaverys imprisoned bodies, suffocated minds and abused spiritual lives were sustained by music, which extended its power into untouched parts of societys daily life, far removed from formal worship and scheduled orchestration. African inspiration captured and enriched the ground rhythms of living to such an extent African music is a defining influence of modern music. Artistic
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creativity is innovative psychological healing. Personalized music of eloquent anguish is for the soul, which mends the spirit. Slaverys blood and pain consecrated the slaves art forms. These individual and connecting expressions are the therapies that heal the psychological wounds of fragmentized minds and scattered lives. The styles evolve with social circumstances, but the meaningful purpose and functions universality remains the same and grows in significance. During periods of social transitions, the classics are a refuge for individuals adrift in societys failures. The performing arts inspired under slavery are humanitys classics for the powerless transitions compelled by societys poverties. Contemporary literacy and the culture of humanity celebrate the triumphs of the human spirit against centuries of horrendous tyranny. Acknowledging the slaves success and humanitys supremacy must be comprehended as victories over the evil consciousness of powers greed. This magnifies the integrity of the Espritu del Individual, the personalized ideal of freewill. Ideals with open potentials are aspirations of existence that have been constantly stumped upon by millenniums of elitists faithful applying the ever-ready mutation of greed. Legendary efforts of epic events by humanitys heroes and heroines prove Freewills importance and human universality. Freedom martyrs died in rebellions against the creeds of greeds inhumanity. These are the saints of humanity when seen beyond socioethnic disorders. Magnificence in flights to and fights for freedoms is heroism deprived by the enforced silence of premature deaths and extinguished histories. Greek mythologies overcome intense personal trials and tribulations with the gods. Slave mythologies overcame intense personal trials and tribulation with pagan power and vicious greed. The mythological dramas and tragedies in the history of humanity are the historical confrontation between the powerless and powerful. Heroes, heroines and heroics banished from existence by racism and concocted history. Slaverys cultural history is found in the oral tradition of storytellers, a survival vehicle whispered by the descendants of slavery, without which only the masters versions would be truth by default. Brien said a lack of understanding is a hurtful failure, not a wrong,
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and these perspectives were a meaningful gift. Andon said its his lifes understandings and he must share them with those he respects.
Elitisms Social Architecture Configured All The Pyramids of Civilizations Enslavements

Brien said the shared histories of mankinds persecutions and the many form of enslavements are the primary themes of Humanitys History. Americas European descendants were aristocratic pawns and property chained to fields of hardships by the various versions of Europes squeeze economics. The unbiased narrative of the early North American colonist was vast numbers arrived chains having been sold of into penal servitude. The victims of Britains failed social policies were exported for profit to remote prison colonies in North America aboard the brutal hells of prison ships and later to her Colonies in the Southern Hemisphere. England even had profitable deportation policies against her troublesome Celtic subjects on fleets of coffin ships that made perilous disease-cramped voyages with mortality rates of 50% that arrived to quarantine hells. Eventually, these groups outnumbered the earlier groups of religiously persecuted social deviants. Andon added accurate historical representations are arrogantly opposed by the Puritan descendants vanities, which also avoids seeing Americas many bondages and social outcasts along with the slaves as contributing partners in building the nation. I mentioned that the overseers of compliance are co-victims. The imposed upon always serve for less, so the masters can have the expensive profits for the meaningless more. Andon stated authoritys capacity for functioning amnesia defies intelligence so much, it must be a consequence of belief. While humanitys historic messages are knowledge and warnings unheeded, the believers in the ever-next savior-dominator are lining-up to fall victim.
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Brien said medieval-mentalities and insecurities greed grab at any belief in the glory of the latest compliance techniques with its evermore effective bloodless cruelty, which will deliver unattainable promises and utopias that always ends up extracting despotisms selective gain by crushing lives. The core of Humanitys history is fairness, its ethics see enslavements as violent and dehumanizing evil. Sustaining enslavement range from the physical that requires ever-increasing scale of aggressions to the programmed that requires ever-more psychological conformitys uniformity with its disguised crippling waste by having education deliver ideological indoctrination and conditioned subjects, who are no more than their behavior. The descendants of enslavements are the lucid bearers of historys profoundest social knowledge as precise witness of unwritten history not the foolish illusions validated by mercenary intellects pushing social illiteracy. Agonys clarity and faiths capacity are sources of enduring life saving wisdom.
Social Justice is Mankinds Foremost Humanitarian Success Espritu del Individual is Humanitys Greatest Success
Andon said the slaves from Africas cultures brought to the Americas were elite-ultraconservatisms costliest ideological failure because the unrestrained physical torture and psychological genocide failed, and when the legacies are recognized and overcome, it will have failed completely. The generations of painfully acquired wisdom expressed a relevance backed-up by experiences sensibilities. The elegance of his intelligence composed a meaningful social literacy for the emotions and depths of evil involved with lifes most dramatic tragedies. He even overcame the subliminal perceptions, which induce the limitations conditioned us, as prey to esoteric weaknesses and debilitating deficiencies. His comprehensive grasp of these intimate and immense lessons for living were given in the universal oral tradition with the love of wise friendship.
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On the tarmac in the mild heat of the night, we poured warm water over ourselves to rinse away the days oily sweat; the sensation seemed to cleanse the soul. Altisimo accelerated into the darkness towards a growing glowing warning fire at the end of the runway. We climbed into the blackness of our skyway in a deep clear grateful calmness that matched the weather.
Cuba is Larger than Ireland and Switzerland And Runs from Washington D.C. to Chicago
Altisimos course kept the rising morning sun at our backs. On our approach from the open ocean, we crossed courses with two submarines on the surface, both on station off the coast with their bows on our flight path, as the colonel arranged. These photographs and shots over the closing distance to Guantnamos bay were the start of the end game. Cameras were used with consuming intensity because our life depended on it and the quantity would play into the new pricing somehow. Andon loaded, as Brien flew low and slow, he bearably kept the airplane from stalling and falling out of the air. A lot of detailed shots were taken as we passed by the large bay holding numerous vessels. We landed in Santiago de Cuba, 30 miles west of the base on schedule. Andon called it the home of the musical matadors, where the strutting pride of capes and swords are postures of confidence replaced by instruments in hand and strutting pride in musical talent. The statement interested both Brien and myself, coming from Andon, but we had to push on. The fuel tanks were refilled as the paperwork was entered and the various stamps paid for; commands officialdom, the compelled obligations for controls parasitic profits. The Havana flight plan went along the southern coast; the geographic features showed why this fellow wanted a seaplane. Cubas southern coast has vast tracks of cultivated areas, swamps and numerous rivers with farms and villages that broke the lush green landscape. These isolated populated areas were reminders of Cubas long history of free blacks, a situation shared with Puerto Rico because both were settlers colonies not plantation colonies as in the West Indies.
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Draining swamps and clearing jungles to build and operate rice plantations both here and in the southern states of N.A. was unhealthy and exhausting labor. During slaverys construction of agricultural enterprises the work had very high death rates; the main reason for the constant need of replacements. Andon also mentioned that here the slaves were kept together and sold with their families as a unit, which kept the tribal groupings and their African cultural influence strong, even to today. He told us not to be surprised if we heard African greetings instead of Cuban Spanish. People may see Havana as Cuba, but the flight exhausted us because of the early mornings intensity and Cubas length. On the long flight, the reflective silence knew the future was closing in. We could sense the beginning of the end approaching at our airspeed.
Preparations Execution
This calm but intense emotional state was broken when Brien gave us a panoramic view of Havana from high above the city. Then he put the seaplane deck height above the swells. We entered from the sea along the harbors entrance channel, and then Brien circled over the city and flew out the channel at the same height to get both sides of the picturesque harbor. These last shots closed my Caribbean book. Our last sensation of her extraordinary gifts and capabilities, el altisimo was soon to be a profound recollection with an unshareable meaning. During the walk away from the Goose, the meaning of the word anti-climactic overtook me. On the Las Americas Terminals apron, we had more eyes on us than the Pope at St. Peters Square. There were a dispersed group of uniformed police around, supplied by the colonel, so we could not be grabbed. While the fuel truck driver refueled, we stripped el altisimo of our private belongings and camera equipment, leaving the comfort features; our refuge in the sky was no more. Andon was neutral, as he slipped away as planned, invisible among the crew of airport workers servicing the airplane, but his parting felt wrong.
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The best scotch flowed as we waited in the terminal bar without any change in mood, which made the intensity obvious. In the rhythm of tropical time, the buyer arrived with an attractive woman at the correct psychological time for me. He was an ex-military pilot who was also a rich landowners son, which most military pilots are, as the nobility furnished the knights and horse cavalry. He and his lady went with Brien to examine the Goose. My depression was validated by my lack of interest in the pleasures of life, which a coupe of smiling beauties at the bar would usually inspire. Brien knew my chapter was closed; Andon watched in the terminals shadows. Brien took them up for a test flight including two water landings, in the harbor and at another bay down the coast. Upon their return, the airplane had excited the pilot and his friend. I was void of emotions and psychological responses; a neutral mental state observed the sharp edge that borders the dive into deeper depression. At the Cubans bank, which the buyers extended family owned, the papers were signed and cash changed hands. We wanted no paperwork and check clearing delays. Within hours, the Goose would be flown away. We were now moving without our refuge. Obviously, the Nazis were around as we changed hotels from the one agreed upon. We liked the looks of the Hotel Inglaterra on Calle Alejandro ORielly, a street named for a Celtirish mercenary. The Celtiberians arrived in Spain from the Danube basin around 1000 BCE via Celtic southeast France, within a few centuries they settled in the north, northwestern and central Iberia, while the Phoenicians, Greeks and Carthaginians and their slaves settled in the eastern and southern territories of the peninsula. Rome ruled and settled Spain with retired legionnaires and built their power by sending captives and slaves after each conquest, which eventually made Spain second in importance to Italy itself. Eras later; ORielly rose through the ranks of the Spanish army, following the Irish mercenarys well-worn path of foreign military service, and became Carlos IIIs most trusted military commander. After personally saving the kings life during an insurrection in Madrid, he was rewarded by being made the military administrator of the Louisiana Territory. He arrived to take possession of Spains newly acquired territory from France with a large armada of ships and 26,000 men.
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His leadership organized a local militia and government, which put in place a legal system with innovated scientific land surveys for property deeds. His greatest historical accomplishments was officially ending the practice of Amerindian slavery and freeing the Indian slaves in 1769. His deeds of greatness in North America made him another of Founding Father of the Americas Humanity. He has received the public recognition for his magnificent deeds with public monuments; streets named in his honor and the details in Spanish History books. Of course, being both Celtirish and Catholic, he is unheard of in the English version of Americas history. Context omission and pretext are propaganda. While ORielly a Celtirish-Spaniard was freeing the Indian from bondage, Englands aristocratic syndicates practiced colonialisms profitable misrule and the wholesale destruction of the Celts on the lands around the Irish Sea. Another ancient civilization culturally decimated by passive genocide, whereby people and societies are allowed to slowly die from prejudices and neglect that produce the same desired results as aggressive genocides planned exterminations. England applied various forms of aggressive genocide for short-term needs and passive genocide for longterm goals over centuries to obliterate the natives of both Ireland and North America. As well as mass confiscation and forced migration of broken-up families, as was done to the French Arcadian/Cajuns expelled from Nova Scotia to Louisiana, in1755.
Equal Risk Equal Cuts

We got a room that overlooked the street and the entrance. While Brien filled out the registrations with a sufficient deposit, I looked at the room. The bellboy told me that the room next-door room was occupied, which meant security. I used the house phone and called Andon at the airport bar and told him the situation and of another hotel close-by. He was to call our hotel and reserve the empty room across the hall. The plan was to keep moving fast with apparent purpose, so assumptions would hold off any immediate aggressive actions.
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Brien went and spoke to the manager. Good hotel managers are local facilitators, experts on local matters; ours recommended two foreign banks located on a plaza in the commercial district. We acted upon his advice immediately. Outside the hotel, we looked over the hotels taxis. These are literally the vehicles of the authorities, used as the principle means of surveillance on foreigners in authoritarian countries. Caution on the selection was critical. The newest car polished to a shine and first in line belonged to the man in charge of the hotel taxi concession, whether as a secret police officer or informing criminal boss. The young drivers were inexperienced; those too well dressed were playing and collecting from both sides on deeds without witnesses. We chose an older, well-maintained car and pouched man, who was the owner-driver. They had both have been around for a while. Daily experiences are far from the perceptions of media images. Our choice was difficult to get from organized greeds regulation; only after loudly threatening to use a street taxi did the taxi boss accept our decision. Our chauffeur was an urban facilitator, who knew instantly that we required discrete efficient services. Understated discretion maximizes positive outcomes and avoids the greedy aggressive assumptions of urban predators. The older the man, the better; experience counts for a lot in the ways of urban survival and general metropolitan knowledge. Brien said our choice of driver may have all the cons, but he had the solutions and connections if needed. We knew to pay appropriately because overtipping breeds greed and draws too much attention in the taxi rumor mill. Building-up the tip to match the daily service works best. We spoke in heavy jazzy slang English, while in the back seat because Tropical America is full of underemployed talent and underutilized minds. At first we played sightseer, to get a feel for Havana and reconnoiter the bank in the process to set our security strategy. Then we drove around the whole colonial area again and exited the taxi at the bank. We had instructed our driver to park and wait on the far side of the Cathedral of Havana. The hotels manager had recommended a local branch of an international Dutch bank. The Dutch merchants and traders were the
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masters of their choices. They built a prosperous commercial empire upon a long pragmatic tradition of sailing everywhere and trading with everyone. These privateers of actualities established traditions for commerces preeminence with its needs of cosmopolitan practicality that foster non-prejudicial social tolerances toward mans idiosyncrasies. Brien divided the airplanes sale price, so we had plenty of cash. The personal thoughts and considerations by him toward me were continuous gestures of pure friendship, which were expressions of deeply understood gratitude. He was a modern gentleman with an enlightened self-respect, enriched by sophisticated aesthetic awarenesses and supported by welldeveloped rational functions. His personal quests were the exploration of the mental, physical and spiritual that further potentials in its broadest sense because any deficiencies are burdening errors waiting to happen. Andons importance was obvious from all the problems and costs his presence prevented, these carried value beyond money because it helped make the success. Hourly wages for physical works exertion are locally set economic structures. These are contexted with greeds rationales that are devised for the lowest pay scale acceptable, usually to sustain the lowest bearable human condition tolerable. Andon was due a special bonus, which we decided deserved serious thought. Well-chosen gifts express gratitude, with the gifts ongoing impact the sincerest thank-you. Integrity acknowledges what really took place; how it is acknowledged indicates the givers class. Andon had waited at his hotel for our call. By the time he arrived, we had completed our banking and waited for him to approach the bank, where he count some cash and say good-bye in plain view. This image of our separation would free him from further involvement and surveillance. After he disappeared without anyone following him, we made our way to the cathedral. We entered through the large main doors and existed out a side entrance and jumped into our waiting car. After we drove around for a while, we changed into an empty taxi going in an advantageous direction to be safe. The hotels manager had recommended Dsirees as the best bordello in central Havana. We met Dsiree, who had a charming presence, and settled in for the wait. The safest place to dodge uninvited interruptions
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and confrontations from whomever, particularly non-natives, is in a highpriced bordello. For the long night ahead, we ordered some good wine, which lets the drinker to stay around longer in better condition than hard liquor. The purposes of houses of ill fame are unquestioned pleasures; in protected privacy. They service needs and supplying distractions that allow easy quilt-free fun or the eradication of psychological demeans from darkened minds safely. Available women, easy to meet with mans favorite room service menu helped the time pass. Brien immediately sent one of the house security men back to the Hotel Inglaterra to rent the room Andon reserved and return with the key. Later, we returned with him to the hotel in the same taxi; our presents kept him to the plan. We watched the hotels entrance from a dark doorway across the street, down a couple of buildings. The plans called for the worker to be our deliveryman. He was to order room service from our room and have it left in the hall outside our door, which would inform those conscientiously interested there was someone in the room. He was to wait at the stairwell at the other end of the hall for the person with the coded knock and tell that person to take the package. Then he was to move quickly and lose anyone that followed him. The package included the shots with the subs plus our instructions. Our man was paid a little up-front and the rest upon completion back at Dsirees. His payment was more than enough, and he was more than willing to follow instructions to the letter. Tradition societies conditioning produces obedience, which destroys personal initiative, this makes any confusion or problems the order givers personal responsibility, not the blamed under-informed peasantry. After a short time, our man came through the front door and moved fast in a running walk. Within seconds, he disappeared into the darkness. A few seconds later, a man holding our package exited the hotel, his head was twisting back and forth in directional uncertainty. His animated confusion on the street got the attention of two men in a parked car, oneman jumped from a car and yelled in German. The revered-up squalling tires headed in the right direction but, by then, they were chasing darkness. Back at Dsirees we paid off the man with two envelopes, one to
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In All Serious Circumstances Fast is Slow, Slow is Fast and Smooth is Quickest
Plans counter-plans are as essential as oxygen and as costly if absent in any serious endeavor. We put weeks into the details of our plan, simplifying the steps to facilitate successful execution; our foes would have a few hours at most to launch their counter-moves. Officialdoms functions without regard for anything beyond what is self-serving because official minds and institutionalism have no humanity because regulations prevent relativistic considerations. This actuality was another basic premise we built upon from day one. Brien constantly maneuvered to obtain advantage positions for our goals. The timing of the last minute changes introduced a continuous pressure, so our enemy would not have a calm minds advantages, in the last few decisive hours. Everyone but us were off their well-perceived plans, which was an important strategic advantage. The plan was to hold back the other shots of Guantnamo, while instructing Herr cabrn in detail on our wants including depositing the money in two separate accounts agreed to by The butt. The amount was supposedly ready, but collecting money has its own sets of rules. In activities with aggressive attitudes, any psychological defects can generate violent dangers. At these critical moments, we had to protect ourselves correctly by staying in character. Our consistent monetary obsession kept Herr cabrns reactions predictable, he had no strong reason to change drastically just yet. Our actions triggered his true motivations priorities; this preoccupation was our best security. The last shots were the most valuable ones in the psychology of careerism, which gave us the leverage. The plates in his hand, not what was on them, set the final sequence for his future. Brien manipulated Herr cabrns reactions by responding to his
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priorities needs; these directed his behavior patterns within institutional parameters and trainings logic. Avoided face-to-face confrontations made him powerless over us and meant the options were our decisions and actions. We could not be threatened, tortured or killed, just paid. We delighted in his being furious but without an immediate violence release on us. His behavior disorders would mistreat the nearest subordinates, which keep them all preoccupied. Our success and overall safety could only be accomplished by forcing our strategies to dominate during the decisive end phases, and then make a clean getaway. Guantnamo was the culmination of the project, which had been talked up the chain of decision-makers with high expectations and assurances that were confirmed with each batch of our work. After all the verbalizing and persuasion for the budgets and independent authority, if no final photographs arrived, the project would be perceived, as a qualified success; a euphemism for an assailable nonsuccess. Careerism malice in the blood sport of office politics requires scapegoating and devious ploys to eliminate potential threats and solidify power bases. Career breakers are givers of promotions to indebted subordinates. Psychology projected is psychology practiced. Intense ambition was desperate to finish this cleanly and our infuriating actions since San Juan, projected extra anxieties into an already stressed-filled situation. Propagandas reflexive-patriotism is one thing, but an authoritarian overachievers willful violence is quite another. Our best intellectual efforts were required during the final phases because so many plans had been drastically rearranged. All the secret agendas had finally surfaced and the most strategically positioned would be victorious. The personal value of the plates was primary because they solidify Herr cabrns reputation and delivered an open-ended promotion, only limited by political skills and ruthlessness. What was on the negatives was a fading secondary insignificance to personal ambitions agenda that would dominate in the end. Brien counted on Herr cabrns egotistical devotion to himself, when he attached himself to this project it was his career gamble. He committed his future to its completion. Achieving this goal was a consuming subliminal nightmare because personal greed
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Experience Diminishes Beliefs Power Diminishes Fear Living Gives Faith

On the level playing field of the mind, our anxiety-provoking stratagem increased the probability of finishing the deal our way because this obnoxious psychotic thinks vertically and straight up was all he ever wanted. Herr cabrns perceptual rigidity and highly indoctrinated personality made him blind to his indoctrinability and unguarded toward being susceptible to manipulation. Institutional discipline is the subconscious conditioning of Pavlovs bells. Powers images demand no appearance of poor judgment. Herr cabrn would order us killed later, as part of the process in trying to get the money back or as security insurance because our death enhanced him institutionally. Every form of totalitarianism use strategic murder, sanctioned force and manipulating mayhem, brutal ideological actualities were constantly in our calculations because institutional psychotics derived gratification from exerting domination with killing the ultimate satisfaction; murderous psychoverts. Circumstances had to be observed neutrally and managed rationally because our fate required a psychological detachment for awareness advantages. Our comprehensions insights were our most important weapons in this confrontation. Most mental states are a house of mirrors, where people become absorbed in reflections of reflection, but our team had helped each other stay clear-headed with personality rewarding cooperation. Weakness eagerness for comforting assumptions is delusional. Herr
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cabrns priorities set the actualities all else were dangerous presumptions. He functioned using trainings logic chains, which always delivers over predictable steps to the results desired. In this situation, we forced events to follow our logic chain, not the standard-issued schemes of confrontational-domination. It was crucial for him to see our ending enhanced his careerism, even if the steps we took to protect ourselves were anxiety difficult. Logical recognitions were needed to forestall any premature fatal action by him using authoritarian bureaucracies unlimited totalitarian resources and infamous medieval irrationality.
Collecting is an Art
In our serious mood the cathouses temporary sensual indulgences were meaningless diversions of light entertainment. Brothels usually relieve stress with pleasures relished, this situation was too mentally demanding for more than a few free moments of sensual indulgences pleasurable distraction. We just enjoyed the company and the girls naked conversations that captured human nature humorously, as we waited for the scenario to unfold. The next day, the bank was called regularly. Just before noon, the money was deposited. Brien departed for the bank to withdraw some more serious pocket money and get the confirmation on the transfer of the rest to Panam. International transfer receipts in hand eliminate any motivation to obtain possession of the funds back. Before he departed, he stated his confidence in the plan and felt matters were very doable. Herr cabrns men had to be outside the bank. Brien alone meant the plates and me were an insurance policy. So, the plan was to observe Brien being followed from a safe place after the bank guards escorted Brien from the bank to a taxi. Brien passed my observation position, which put a face on our enemies. He then took a long ride, giving me time to make my way back to the hotel via the service entrance to the room across the hall. Briens entrance had a quick knock on my door and then a call that opened the line between the rooms. He kept his rooms telephone receiver up by a small folded piece of paper, so I could hear everything in my
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room. The wait was less than a minute until Herr cabrn entered with two other men full of explosive aggressions. Briens first words were we were a waste of violence, before Herr cabrn exploded in an irreversible direction. Brien wanted to set the right understandings, which the .45-caliber pistol in his hand confirmed. He interjected have them wait all the way down the hall. Brien stated we wanted our well-earned money for all the risk taken; our actions guaranteed the contract. If we were consumed with the money, he had to deal with the cash and not spend time personalizing the situation more or getting absorbed with security concerns and death witnesses or double agent possibilities. Between the individuals abilities and bureaucracys dictatorial power with confrontational attitudes nothing is negotiable, so insurance was mandatory. Our actions were appropriate; we would be fools not to be concerned. Herr cabrns mindset made not getting paid a very highprobability; his disorders demanded a defensive posture, once possession of the plates changed hands. I was glued to my room phone and the crack in my door. Brien played continuous distraction ploys to breakup Herr cabrns concentration. Brien talked about being a professional and wanting to buy a new seaplane located in New York to half-listening ears and mind absorbed in calculating; even his subconscious was probably fully occupied. With his proven propensity for violence and my visualizing options, the tension squeezing the .45 made my hands hurt. Seconds of seeming hours passed while Herr cabrns made his decision as the two physical types waited down the hall. I was so physically relieved not having to empty a clip through the cracked door in a shoot-out in the hallway. When Brien opened his door and signaled me, I carried the plates across the hall. Herr cabrn grabbed the suitcase and opened it immediately. Satisfied, he closed it and moved to leave instantly, from the closing door, he ordered us to stay here. Herr cabrn was eager to establish his success. He would carry the final plates back to Berlin himself. He knew the photos would take on a life of their own and wanted to deliver them to the welcoming arms of his superiors.
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At the window, we watched in psychological detoxification their exit from the hotel to a waiting car. The plates gave him his full arrogance back and confidence the situation was not going to pass out of his assumed control. He carried his future in his hands practically and his whole focus was to secure its permanence. Brien broke a strange deep mood as he imitated Herr cabrn stiffing physical response when he saw the gun, which instantly replaced his planned evil. The reaction showed the penetrating pressure of our actions, which were reactions to Briens strength, a constant dismissed to the perils of assumptions. The self-delusions of a man who murders and tortures for pleasure on and by command were psychological flaws that functioned like a resident on the wrong side of dissociative disorders. Where the conscious linkage between his job and its effects across the social grid of lifes integrated functions are severed. Conditioning and formalism compressed his life into an existence within a few thick walled, wellappointed cubicles. Compartmentalization by rigid personal and official formalities reduces living to an isolated nonsocial existence with mechanical contacts. At the hub of institutional psychosis is extortion and exploitation, which convoluted deceptions and organized irrationality denies. The employees behavior and conformist attitudes are the pigeonholing work of institutional social engineering, whose dark knowledge and clever actions malign influences alter human behavior and responsiveness to willing self-deception. The room phone rang with a message to come over to the colonels suite at the hotel a few doors away. His questions stated his concerns that we had pushed the situation and Herr cabrn unnecessarily hard. His needs for final authority were the problem; not the serious-toned personal opinions stated in a voice trained to project authoritys superiority. His statements meant nothing and seemed mainly composed to relieve anxieties. Our actions were well thought-out and determined over the previous weeks; responsibilities for decisions over our lives were ours alone. He never once asked our reasons. Brien ended the confrontation saying you cant argue with success
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Word from the top indicated the colonel did not have a specific green light, at most a weak tentative approval, on continuing with a new Goose. His conversation was weak; full of non-specifics stated matter-offactly; toned speculation became options. His lack of focus said it all. We broke up the meeting strangely distant. After we went back to our hotel through the back alley, Brien went to the front desk to make a drama of needing to send a telegram to an airplane broker in New York. When he left the hotel lobby, he was followed by his German surveillance, which made the area seemed deserted. He took another long ride to lose the tails, this time he passed through a restaurants kitchen passing out small bills along the way. After he left our hotel, a bellboy brought our bills from the frontdesk. He grabbed Briens bags and got me a street taxi at the back door for a cooperation tip. Brien waited at a strategic restaurant to see if anyone followed me, on my second pass got in the taxi. We drove back to the cathouse. These relaxation service entrepreneurs were happy to see us rent a room again. Limited hotels and unlimited resources meant we would be found in hours. A strange crew of characters? Strange situations make for stranger associates. In spy work and business, allies of convenience predominate. One works with whomever is required, as personal feelings and judgments are not involved in any way. Good business is applying good philosophy and well managed psychology, so everyone works and walks away content, which eliminates any deserved negative reactions. Stupid business is about ignorance with unlimited psychotic rationales. Dirty business is greed. The genuine businessman works with his direct associates as partners and never steals no matter the form because worthy business done ethically brings further accomplishments success that needs no written contracts. Contracts are frameworks of agreements that should facilitate success as adjustable outlines due fair expectations, not the be-all-end-all vehicles of exploitation for changing circumstances or justifiers that legitimize unfair disadvantages.
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Conceptualizes the Denied Myths of Timeless Truths into Philosophy

The quiet islands had reminded us of how lost to this lifeventure we were. Events continued to consume our total concentrations that fed a painful tension that had accumulated over the past months. With an open future pending, not partying would be out of character. The madam recommended a beach clubs poolside restaurant. The place had quality food and cool rhythms from a small combo, which captured the Caribbean cross-cultural love affair of music. Andon showed up after missing us at Dsirees. Brien handed him an envelope full of cash and a bank account with more deposited. He said he never had a bank account before, which was why we gave him one. We detailed how to transfer money to other countries. He was deeply appreciative and a gentleman of stature as always. He gave us both a sincere thank-you. But we owed him the thank-you for his being a fabulous man, who helped our successes and enriched our lives. Great endeavors involve continuous efforts readjustments, we knew there was a long getting back to a new normal period needed. Brien said, these usually take half the time of the endeavor. Andon said that was better than pregnancy, which is really 18 months long, nine months for birth and nine months for the womans body to readjust. To me, this event had an indeterminable readjustment period to cure the mood disorders of intense single theme living. A few local beauties were found and the merriment was on automatic in true Caribeo character. A long tropical lunch lasted until the pool scene slowed down. We retired to the rooftop bar. The place was empty during the hours before sunset, except for a Cuban son singer-guitarist performing softly. Andon explained that son was a rural oral literature of local folk chants and rhymes originated in the eastern part of the island, which later adapted characteristic Spanish harmonies to the local rhythms. The music followed the peasants rural migration, a change that added musical complexity from features of the Rumba, which transformed the music into urban style dance music. The Americas most enjoyed cultural achievements are its continuous
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cross-pollination of aesthetic and musical influences. Musical genres are and always have been the hybrids of musics synthesis. Rationally one knows the moment; aesthetically one appreciates what it is and the accomplishments, which connects to the moment. We delighted in the feel of success during this quiet good time, until the loud dinner crowd infringed. Andon enjoyed himself, but he was not his freespirited self. We asked in various ways what was bothering him. He said that nothing but something was. We headed over to a big band nightclub on a barge in the harbor to rumba the night away. Dark curtains framed in bright light and the tropical meditation wheel, the ceiling fan, brought back slow remembrances of disconnected images of a lost night. Hell must run on bad bearings; the sound gives vague obscure hotels a certain familiarity. Normality returned when the affected components of mind and body merged in the shower, from where my life-long morning meditations flow. This one held truths depth of convictions, that life and death are hard, and the temporal is sad because personal endings are painful, which makes solitude lifes companion. This insight was no reprieve to untouched feelings swelling within. A call to the front desk had sent wake-up calls to the others that had us dropping the keys off at the desk together. While we shared an early lunch breakfast with a vodka and fresh grapefruit juice at an outdoor caf, a distinguished looking lady from the north sat next to us with her young son. An old Cuban lady dressed simply in ritual black approached her. When the Cuban woman spoke to the lady, she startled her. The nervous reaction made the lady miss what was said. After the short moment of strangeness passed, she asked us if the Cuban woman wanted money. Andon responded that the lady noticed her child and remarked how wonderful God was to create such a beautiful child, having such gorgeous red hair and beautiful skin. The lady from the north was touched by this poetic sincerity expressed for her childs beauty. Intercultural guessing can embarrass or decimate the most beautiful situations and relations; the reasons are from common humanities low baselines of general civility and nonexistent social wisdoms of multicultural sensibilities. A lateral thought came to Brien, when he saw a picture of a woman in
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a bathing suit; a yacht was the perfect safe haven. But first, we needed the basics so we headed back to the beach club. The same combo was working their rhythms as we had a fruit drink lunch during which we found some female companionship to share our day. Andon can find beautiful women anywhere even in church, which he said was the best place to meet serious women with whom you want to get serious. The sun was still high in the clear sky; boating in the tropics is most comfortable after three oclock. Sunsets on the tropical sea with western horizons are heavenly visuals. We grabbed our bags from Dsirees on our way to get some good wine and food. The girls had the driver pass an excellent shop for some baiting suits. One of the girls had a suit in her purse a true beach maiden. At the marina, we chose a luxurious sport fishing yacht for a sunset cruise. The robust sport-fisher had size and speed. Out the channel, the boat was riding strong and proud as the captain pushed on the throttle. In the open-ocean swells, the pounding from muscling through waves would eventually get uncomfortable for us all, so Andon asked him to slow down and cruise. This reminded me, the harmony and humbleness of sailing ships are the best aspects of being on the water. The captain wanted to play his role, but big game fish rarely enter shallow waters with sandy bottoms; in this depth trying for them was an act. I told him not to waste the effort this close to shore, so he recommended we go to one of his special spots, bottom-fish and swim. As we rinsed off the salt-water after the swim, a fishing line took a hard hit. Brien was the first on the pole with a sizable fish from the fight. Finally, Brien pulled the fighter close enough to see he had a very large Dorado. We were ecstatic. The fish grew accordingly as Briens biggest eating catch ever. Later, on the way back in, we decided to head over to the restaurant built on a barge where we disembarked. Brien told the skipper to tie up behind the barge and come over later for drinks. Aboard the barge, we negotiated with the proprietor and bribed the chef with drinks and cash, to prepare a special feast with Briens catch of fish-size baked fillets smothered in vegetables. In a private vantage point on the bow, we relished the festivity with our hotel docked astern. During the early evening hours we had the place to ourselves, the
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tables started to fill-up, so we moved to the best table, the one in front of the dance floor. In the tropics, the best show is on the dance floor. Northerners call the movements sexually provocative; here they understand them, beyond the physiological mechanics needed for a female orgasm. The band started playing the latest dance numbers and the atmosphere changed with interesting distractions; as the crowd increased, so did our party adrenaline. Rumba is an African Cuban dance originally named for any lively or exotic dance performed by the slaves. Dancing is a sensual art form of body and emotions play off rhythms that these beauties dancing before our eyes accented so well. Mastering the Yambi, the slow version of the rumba was easy, but the faster version, Guaguanco was an all night effort, lost in the haze of partying. Later people were helping each other find accommodations on the yacht. The way Juan Pablo, the captain handled the situation you knew he had extensive experience in handling people as needed.
Havanas Centuries Were the Junction of the Western Civilizations

Late the next morning a group of some ambivalent faces and bodies emerged into the brain-shattering daylight. Life started with a grip on a cup of strong coffee and a reinvigorating deck shower was a lifeline to docking at normalcy. The wharfs dockworkers nearby enjoyed the clinging wet attire of the ladies dockside shower. The growing attention provoked the captain to cruise around the bay, until we had a plan. Food was needed, so he docked in front of colonial Havana. On the way to lunch, a walk just unfolded, as the girls led us off through the oldest part of old Havana. After a relaxing lunch that replenished existence, we took a stroll in Havanas story. Centuries of Spanish Galleons and the treasure fleets rendezvoused in Havana before sailing to Spain on another historical misnomer the Trade Winds the accommodating currents of the Gulf Stream. Havana is a repository of historical perspectives on the Americas cultural involvements from the ancient well-developed civilizations on
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both continents that predate by countless centuries the arrival of organized European migrations with their African slaves. Americas unfolding narrative of multiple migrations by many different people from practically every ethnic origin has ever-expanding histories and time frames extending ever-further back. The French wanted indigenous copies. The English made savage annoyances. The Spanish sought the lowest possible social integration via miscegenation. The massive intermixture of societies, cultures and races are epic and all are understudied anthropologically and archeologically. The Americas collective narratives are at least as complex and rich as any other, including the massive archives of the overstudied and overreasoned Levant. An intellectual effort/surmising correlations so mesmerizing more is known and assumed about a few days and years there, then millenniums here. This overemphasis as the expense of so much other richness seems vainglorious justification, which is so overintellectualized; there exist more schools specializing in it than medicine, the truest divine opportunity. The pundits of theological historicism even conclude who paid the check at the Last Supper of Christ, but here academia can barely read the Mayan alphabet. Americas civilizations are underappreciated for the enriching contributions and originality. Human curiosity will take longer to uncover the recoverable and assimilate Americas cultural wealth because of agenda-centered enabling views with their politically directed research generates biased goals and purposed archives. The ultraconservatism of Iberias hierarchies and ecclesiastic Rome used centuries of absolutist rule and dictatorial atrocities as social obligators for total conquest. Civilization invalidators used passive and aggressive cultural genocides through culpable gross-negligence and prejudicial dishonesty by design to obliterate native societies. Conquest greed and conquistador totalitarianism annihilated the accomplishments, which eliminated comparisons and left a legacy of conquest that broke the native cultures empowering continuity, which prompted a cultural collapse. Pre-Iberian American civilizations are historical peers to any
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Scientific History Requires Achieves of Criticism on Sources To Facilitate the Conclusions of Comparative History
Northern European histories are chronicles of tribal warfare with later versions mere aristocratic feuds and inner-class rivalries. European aristocracies have well-funded fictions and well-founded literary narratives as history. Court historys prestigious framing are outrageous intellectual insults. Portugal defined the modern European Empire, which is another academically scandalous image appropriated by English historical novels. Spain and Portugal had incredibly wealth empires that stretched around the world in both directions to Asia for centuries before Englands empire. The Portuguese are said to have introduced cooking fried food to Japan, who refined it to an art form. During centuries of highly successful commercial era, London was still a village with muddy paths for streets. Portugals Prince Henry the Navigator (1394-1460) is one of the most important and remarkable men in the chronicles of Western Europe. The foremost patron of exploration and discovery, he single-handily made exploration of Africa, Asia and the New World conceivable, feasible and workable. Prince Henry was the spirit and light for the Age of Uncovery. He compiled all known information and every map possible as well as paying for the earliest long-range expeditions along the West African coast. The experiences built the ships and confidence that mapped Portugals routes to Asia. He published the first extensive books on navigation that charted the sailing routes that aided the sailors ability to return home; these actions launched Europes international maritime adventures. He was the true risk taker into the vast uncertainty of the unknown, a visionary genius, who made the world known.
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Henrys maritime frontier led to Europes world prominence. By Colns time, the path was marked by generations of exploration; he just followed in a more westerly direction. As an official round trip, Coln received well-deserved acclaim. His voyages affirmed the Americas; he discovered nothing but uncovered a future. The explorers and centuries of bluewater captains that followed were all beneficiaries of many aspects of Henrys incredible accomplishments. The English aristocratic establishment required a stolen copy of Henrys work for their nations sailing story to be launched beyond the sight of their island and across the pond. Centuries of Portuguese work permitted Englands ships to find their way, which commenced their prosperous period of intercontinental exploration and exploitation. Spain and Portugal operated vast worldwide commercial empires, well over a hundred years before Englands out of proportion exploits in the Atlantic. The English admirable escapades were left far behind in the exploration of the Pacific. Englands entry to the Pacific was only possible after the English governments sanctioned pirate, Henry Morgan, plundered Panam, where his crew stole a copy of the Spanishs instruction manual for entering and sailing the Pacific. Only then could the English maritime communities initiate ocean voyages into the Pacific region. This was well over a century after the Iberian mastery of the oceans. This unmatched success generated massive commercial operations that made Iberias aristocracy the wealthiest. Englands national record is on par with her European peers; some parts better, some just fictionalized. Englands sailing superiority started late, but as a strategic national priority with a third of its annual defense budget for the navy, prominence was eminent. England was a maritime follower but its most triumphant exploiter. Its finest nautical moment was the invention of the chronometer, which noble arrogance literally stole from its inventor. Englands heroic exploration and sailing supremacy are political fiction of convenient facts with systematic omissions compared to the international records. Taken in context, the fact is other nations took the initial challenges centuries earlier with much greater risk in surviving the unknowns in exploring virgin territories. Idyllic romantic narratives
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of wildly embellished fiction and folklore smoothly reasoned and expertly written delivers the factual impressions desired of historic English superiority. Druid stones and tribal mounds, with Roman walls for archeology and ancient Celtic mythological Kings with novelized political and diplomatic heritages illusions as court historys source traditions are only better than no meaningful exploits or history. Aristocratic selfaggrandizement as national pride serves wealth welfare well.
Old Worlds Propaganda as History Another Stifling Colonial Legacy

All the different types of history have significance because history influences the present, which biases the future. The importance of this influencing requires analyzing the source material, and using comparative history to establish accurate historical perspectives. Unquestioned history is political propaganda. Emotional patriotism like emotional religion correlate directly to psychological needs. Simplism reduces historical complexity to memorized names and dates that become statements of facts that are thought stopping intellectual dead ends. Arrest intelligence is ingrained by adolescent perceptions reinforced by propaganda throughout adulthood. Simplistic historys specific subjects with short and easy politically loaded framing thwarts intellectual maturitys informative comprehensions. The objectives of powers reign is to establish social customs; these were exported by colonialism policies because the colonizers supplied the colonies with agenda tailored institutions that extended dominance deeply within the wealth-generating colonies. The multiple motivates behind tainting the initial premises with framings syntax and ideological premises was to deliver the desired perceptions and conclusions, which are the most efficient method of projecting command. These thoughtcontrol corruptions are subversion conspiracies to manipulate foreign and domestic societies to function as supporting enterprises that maintain status quo subsidizing with patriotic emotionalisms rationalizing, which
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justifies the financing populations burdens. Taxation revenues underwrite the established ultraconservatisms class-configured traditions and indexed mights social order obligations with their unchallengeable beliefs in their superiority. The European cultural influence across the American colonies has had a dictating position with a manipulative bias beyond being the first to command. The strategies of the sectors of power have always been to protect its advantages and grow its influences. Over the centuries, colonialisms dependency cultures imposed systematic policies of servitude that have heavily conditioned international links. The colonizers introduced social infrastructures with formulated connections of duplicated judicial and education systems, which cultivated subservient similarities and propagated dependencies, which were reinforced by the local benefiting classes and enforced by designed laws specific inclusions of the highly calculated.
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Englands Mastery is of the Word Not the World

Court history and political fiction with patriotisms belief-attitudes is emotional ignorances. Ascribing only dates, like Columbus discovered America in 1492 stops further thought on the major issues concerning the conquest of the Americas; this structured intellectual repression, if repeated, demonstrates intellectual retardation. Conquering the vast ancient empires across the Americas and battling hundreds of lesserknown tribes, some defeated some not, were conflicts many say are still bring fought. Portugals Magellan circumnavigated the globe between 1519-1522; this nautical feat launched civilizations widespread intercontinental achievements. Centuries of Spains transpacific runs between Asia and Acapulco took months in the best of conditions and covered distance many times a transatlantic crossing. Treasures and trade goods from the Philippines with the added riches due to an extensive inter-Asian trade accumulated in Manila. This wealth was then transported aboard the famous Manila Galleons, whose cargoes held oriental treasures of silk, porcelain, spices and other luxury goods that were transshipped across Mxico and onto Havana. Peru entered this Pacific trading nexus indirectly by trading for oriental goods with Mxico, whose distance perspective is a lot farther than the Chicago to San Francisco distance it is. The wealth of Spains colonial possessions whatever the source, rendezvoused yearly for centuries in Havanas harbor where corporate fleets transported the immense wealth to the safe vassalage havens of peer indulgences. Comparing historical dates is an interesting reference. A simple perspective on the vast and complex unrecognized history of Mxico is its oldest University was established in 1553. In 1615, the first northern European fleet penetrated the Spanish Lake as the Pacific Ocean was called, and that was by the Dutch. Early in the 17th century, the Spanish first discovered gold in the Philippines. English American History started with the failure to sustain a few coastal shacks, labeled colonies in the early 17th century.
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Englands earliest explorer was the famous Italian John Cabot searching for the Northwest Passage in 1497, while in service to Henry the VII. Both he and his Italian born son Sebastin obtained the required nautical expertise from many years of sailing for Spain. In 1553, Sebastin set down the naval rules he used, which served England and its Royal Navy well for the next four centuries. Late in 1779, Hawaiians killed Englands most famous explorer, Captain Cook, when he came ashore. Englands greatest maritime uncoveries were Australia and New Zealand; its ever-greater maritime voyager was Charles Darwin, a scientific investigator aboard the Beagle in the 1830s. So, history is political propaganda and simplistic history is structured ignorance. Official historys perceptions serve political expedience, while overhyped and misinterpreted history serves tax collection and military service. Accurate historical perspectives mature with experiences relevances, whose credentials are contemporary literacies astute translations and social literacys interpretations.
Context Decides Content which Defines the Interpreter

Overstated simplicities trivialize the vast text of history. Policy subtext steers importance by the pretext of accented secondary issues and underscored details. These manipulation ploys validate insignificant facts as defining knowledge, which political emotionalism confirms. Belief in shallow thoughts and political overstatements displace historys encyclopedic information with over-reaching biases, which solidifies the agendas subtext. Such pretext generates vast meaningless assumptions that stop critical analysis. Fake history is the victors version, which erases accuracy or refurbishes involvements to make it flow to and fit the needs of nation state histories. Victory as history is unchallengeable because uncontested projections make simplified facts into inarguable emotionalized beliefs. Subtext perceptions are the most useful because of pretexts framing, as
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with patriotisms emotional reasoning dismissing honest discussions. Text that limits meaningful perspectives of historic constants is anti-history. The revealing sediments are purposes served by the misrepresentations and what is left out. Both have very significant insights due to the spectra of deductions insights. The universals of Humanitys history structure a composite of empowering understandings for lifes actualities by placing events and motivation in an accurate context with the broadest enlightenment and fullest implications. Honest historians develop applicable perspectives that hold over the largest number of situations across the broad span of history. Honest history embraces complexity and change. Honest philosophy hears the other side. Honest politics applies ethical considerations. Historys deceptions subdued and the unrecognized facilitate exploitation. Governments positions are overpowered and social progress is negated by turf warlordism, not foreigner threats, whose promotion serve political needs and economic command. Accurate modern history recognizes the actualities of daily life, which are shaped by the logic of state power. Economic historys tax receipts reveals facts not fake historys simplisms and anti-historys pretext, which sets official social context perceptions. War prizes drive history, whether precious metals or strategic assets, these become tools to finance power s obsessive addiction to ever-greater power that fed totalitarianisms obsession/compulsions disorders. Throughout the blood chronicles of mans history, the largest unnatural causes of death to humans seem compelled human behavior. The historical fact of medieval attitudes and methods is they create subjects. While social powers bureaucratic suppressions cloak the extremisms of history, whether intimidations, incarcerations or extremination. Whereas theologys bureaucratic insecurities cause many innocent deaths, these are less than the historic vacuum surrounding militarisms war machines with its cannon fodder, forced labor and sacrificed conscripts. Organized violence always has a large disproportional number of potential challengers to and questioning of authority among the fallen victims.
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Accurate historic frameworks give perspectives that carry through into living. Recognizing the different perspectives of history lets you feel part of the continuity in the narrative of humanity and reveals the path the social orders future will enforce to structure.
The Americas are Humanitys Tidal Pools

During a heavy rain, we stopped for a brandy at a small timeless tavern where the heavy tropical hardwood barstools were worn to a smooth polished finish by dirty sweat on ruff hands of hard men, handling them for generations. The bar was probably older than the USoA. These colonial streets have seen the caribeos ancestors of Tropical-American humanity that made the blood mix too complex for simplistic categorizations. The combination of indigenous American, Asians, African and European is beyond multicultural its intercivilizational. The biological imperatives of the tropics set the tones of tropical living. The centuries of slavery caused African male slaves to perish disproportionally in extraneous circumstances beyond their control. While female slaves utilitarian and desirableness were not wasted or lost for many reasons and needs, except by the disorders of imbeciliosis. Until 1540, only six percent of Spanish arrivals to the Indies were female. The Spanish males depended mostly on native women for sexual affection. The Spanish men found the natives attractive and the women gained in status by consorting with the advantages of the conquerors. The rate of miscegenation was rapid. Paraguay was called the paradise of Mohammed because the Spanish men lived openly with large numbers of women. Harems of up to 70 concubines existed, rarely less than six or seven women per man; men could have as many as he could afford, as is the Moslem custom. Evidence supported history exposes the social pretext. Especially, the status quos learn nothing forget nothing mentality that substantiates the conservative ideologys major flaws, the unnecessary cost and wasted in the gains of repeating accepted failures. These
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inadequacies are in sharp contrast to Neotropicas status nuevo appreciate readjust, use the rational to substantiate aesthetic living. Contemporary literacys evolutionary synthesis means information access is the key for sociocultural advancements, while genetic drifts socioethnic complexities are the future.
Fortunately for All, Everyone Does Not Salute

For weeks, we had evaluated the endeavors various options. The assessments and decisions were heavy on our minds because reevaluations are constant in the dynamics of forward planning. The more we went over the possibilities, the fewer reasons there were to continue. There was no strong firm commitment about continuing from either group. The Canal work was much too valuable to risk from the faintest whiff of double agent suspicion. Reliable false information would be increasingly more precarious to our security. Flying around the states was too chancy; any follow up verification by Nazi agents or sympathizers would destroy the credibility of all the espionage work completed. One contradictory double-check would make it a deadly dilemma in obtaining the truth from us. Torturing us to death to find out the facts would means nothing to these authoritarian sociopaths. Vulnerability and exposure equations had to be understood. Projections and evasions were warnings. Now was the time to end this lifeventure and that decision was our freedom of choice. Fast money and exciting times always end sooner than expected.
Questions Have Penetrating Dynamics, You Never Know Where a Question is Going to Take You
At the next meeting, we asked the colonel about the plans for us. His responses were overly general. To these, we stated our reservations about continuing; this led to our conclusions for wanting to stop from that moment on. The colonels attitude caused him to psychologically
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disintegrate before our eyes, as he dismissed our reasoning and downplayed our concerns. Command density due the conditioning to obediences absolute priority caused his response to become something else. Bosses interpret with the neuroses of office politics. Personal concerns unfurled behind the pretense of his standard institutional attitudes, which substitute for a personality and thoughtful comprehension. His personal psychodrama concerned anxiety over his credibility and reputations vanities because this project was an unqualified success. The colonel was not very intellectually secure. He pressured Brien verbally because he was in charge. His officers demeanor projected unconscious inferences that inferred we were insubordinate subordinates. To us, the lack of options and thought illustrated his closed-cultures functioning, which is not transferable to the unintimidated. Indexed arrogance dismisses at-will without consideration. His hierarchical dictates were offensive to us because past contributions count for the individuals one among equals. The ultra-formalism of the military mentality obligates structure over substance with rigid servitude coercions that made his semantic games insulting. Structured superiority is a psychological rubber hose that works over the powerless or those in mindless homage; mesmerized by the psychological seduction of the militarys PR mythology. His attitude brought home that years of trainings packaged indoctrination manages behavior completely, which dominate the personality so thoroughly sensible moments and honest conversations have no influence. We had plenty of suppressed frustrations from months of compliant acceptance of presumptuous crap; this changed the tone of our attitudes. Conformist suppressed awareness concludes acceptance of indexed inferiority by individuals with the smooth sophistication style of a gentleman. The colonels actions and reactions indicated psychological deficiencies and his poor social skills showed a polished role-player. Familiarity with conditioned minds made the confrontation only situationally bearable. When social circumstances change, character change in role-players. Briens response was a surface neutral that held-back a serious explosiveness. But knowing my friend well, I understood there was no
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respect, no consideration and definitely no compassion. He was as tough on the colonel, as he was on himself. He saw himself in the colonel and the differences between them were the consequences of a few personal decisions that concerned securitys surviving well or chances living well.
Uniforms Bestow Nothing Special Because Superiority is Imposed and Compliance is Compelled Institutionalism is a Culture that Institutionalizes Society
Many say the whole concept of patriotism is simply a combination of self-interest and sentimentality. The colonel was a professional patriot; he voiced his psychological luggage deep within carefully selected euphemisms and chauvinistic platitudes, which were one thing but his hiding behind them was the message. To read him was to see through the institutional executive, whose projections optimized his authority with self-validation from superiority/inferiority expectations. All disguised by a bureaucratic mask and pushed forward by the obedience culture, which denies accurate articulation. The colonels rationale proclaimed firmly held opinions as fact. He waved a revealing single version out of many meanings and possible interpretations. Officialdoms pretenses debase the individuals worth by procedural priorities and psychological conditioning, which establishes uniforms as superior. The strength of contributory beliefs-ideals and contexting-premises avoids the unbiased examination of such abstractions and their packaging in the laboratory of ideas called critical thought. Badge and title identities are historical constants that camouflage offensive mental disorders and other intellectually unresolved issues. Authoritarian power can contain or generate the desired, which history shows have life destroying implications. The colonels personal feelings became institutionalized opinion, after his last individual decision, to relinquish his individuality by the acceptance of the conformity obligations within a bureaucratic employment contract. Grandfather, some say a person spends their life eliminating the hurt of childhood.
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Its another psychological layer of self, one must penetrate to eliminate. Maturitys saddest realization is when an individual sees that fears and insecurities have decided their lives, when anything was possible.
Bureaucracies are Enterprises with Cartel Power And Tax-Financing

As the colonel dismissed a subordinate on some errand, it dawned on me that authoritarian leaders are not stupid or foolish, but are predators of power, who are as ruthless as needed. One must watch and regard, but never trust potential adversaries, circumstance associates, avowed enemies or those disordered or deficient with power or your vulnerabilities. In this international situation, we were on equal footing. The colonels normal ability to force compliance due to the rewards or punishments of obedience was canceled by our independence and strengths. This, in combination with Briens forward plannings advantageous positioning was psychological mayhem for him. The question was our priorities and survival decisions; not officialdoms submissive subjecting. After Briens exchange with Herr cabrn, we were dangerous to him. After this exchange with the colonel, his focus sounded serious but his priorities did not really readjust. With his official power, options are only limited by effort; he never initiated a serious useful option or contingence plan with any potential value. Pronouncements of vague references left vaporous impressions that seemed to justify us remaining involved as atwill subordinates. His agendas had verbal momentum but no decisive specifics. His thought process had too many variables that could never be figured out for decisions, much less creative options. The colonel ran situations a step at a time, whereas we put together thought-out plans with realistic overviews. We then figured out the particulars for the circumstances, which guided our deductions along each step. Brien stated career officers are generously compensated executives with autocrats attitudes that dismiss the need for consideration. We
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worked with him, not for him. His next executive promotion was from our efforts because of his fortunate posting without a drop of unique efforts sweat from him. The colonel shot back with a litany of bss (bureaucratic-submissionshit) over a lack of supervision for the unauthorized changes. In focused neutralness Brien mentioned these dilemmas were his problems. The colonels response was a bad attitude. Our decisions were beyond his command; our direct honesty cancelled his reflexive indexed behavior. We listened and watched a serious man fall into attitude ploys, which caused an inconsistency that was annoying and scary. Here was a smart man knowing what he was saying was incorrect but still saying it anyway. This involuntary mental activity demonstrated the forfeiture of personal confidence and discretion; a human being managed by the conditioning of indoctrination designates simple brainwashing. This realization changed the situation completely; Brien stood up and left. I went neutral and followed. Talking with direct honesty is a human necessity not done enough for everyones good. Outside, I asked Brien why he spewed his views. The colonel was merely a valuable support role replaceable in a second by thousands of willing uniformed copies. The dimensions of this operation demanded a tight focus from the beginning concerning everything, even with all the preparation and planning, it can down to being armed and alone in a room with three violent psychotics needing to hear rationally, which is irrational. At the time the idea sounded acceptable but the look on that cabrns face hit hard. His aggressive violence was only negated by the rationality imposed by the gun in my hand the whole time, which made his too far away. Light finger pressure on a trigger is an ugly decision-maker. This project was structured so we had openended options all along. The colonel was constantly preoccupied with the distractions of mental gymnastics from trying to manage too many concerns, priorities and commitments. Being smart but overtrained is being narrowly educated, which is one thing but he was too preoccupied with all the conflicts of interest and obligation priorities. Not with standing the memberships in
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the secret organizations make necessary for advancement, which are serious matters that have never been questioned or publicized. Ambition is a complex normality and numerous agendas take too many extraneous thoughts and too much time; these endangered us from the start as they kept us in too many secondary places. In a strange-toned seriousness, I said he was a decent man, but I did not really respect him because I did not appreciate his trainings psychoses nor admire his diseased whore ambition. Its gainful conditioning thats why its pursued and professed, forget the consideration.
Attitudes Condition Behaviors That Deliver Habitual Performances

With the colonel an unknown variable, the situation and the future had to be re-evaluated; this was not going to end as a misadventure by bad decisions. We decided to head for the marina and out on the sportfisher for a comfortable place to reanalyze events, positions and possibilities, from where we stood, to what we wanted and how it had to get done. Both the colonel and Herr cabrn had promotions both in rank and prestigious command waiting, whether we were dead or alive. We knew any future operation in the states could be become a fiasco in numerous ways. After the plates were secured and celebrated, Herr cabrn concerns over our existence would be full-time. His disorders would push him to just want to hurt us for psychotic perversions. Herr cabrn gathered more than he could by his wits and this ending got him his ticket to Berlin. The worldwide standard operating procedure of officialdom is cover-your-ass. The self-serving reality of officialdom would fabricate the appropriate explanations in detail for any flaws in the story; interpretations justify endings. Corresponding bureaucratic posts develop comparable bearings and psychological needs, stated as abilities. Authoritarian bureaucratic and militaristic philosophy constructs singular configuration for roles,
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functions and purposes. The ubiquitous bureaucracies cozy byzantine arrangements put these overly powerful organizations beyond oversight much less control, which allows them to evolve into administrativedictatorships by default from size and unquestioned precedents. Bureaucracy smart is a shrewdness that masters institutionalisms distinct knowledge base, logic and priorities compared to entrepreneur smart. There are many forms of shrewdness but few are expandable enough to fit the dimensions of advanced intelligence. The colonel and Herr cabrn were both celebrities to their organizations but to us they were the products of rigid uniformity, whose ambitions used everything and anyone for personal agendas, which is the norm. So we were on our own.
Independent Thinkers are the Persecuted Radicals of History

Authoritarian power demands absolute final authority. The ultimate arbitrator in this will-to-power totality is executing the final decision. Authoritarian sovereigntys rigid conformity and dogmatic medieval attitudes leave no maneuvering room, superioritys morality delivers its willingness to do harm with positive connotations. We had to meet with the colonel one last time to tell him of our decision and straighten out his procrastinating over eliminating the robberys remaining legal issues. Our concern was his becoming caught up in his arrogant self-importance and misuse his position. Insecurity onslaughts are unpredictable; we were in new territory with him, so we calculated in petty vindictiveness. The omnipresent reaction of psychological outbursts by others requires preparation and vigilant selfdefense for the worst but not cynicism. Maybe style is concluded from some secret understanding in the chain-of-command fraternity, but the roles logic seems to victimize. Subordinate intimidation is the true hazardous duties of government service, whose injuries are too often psychological and ethical. We would see from his actions, reactions and inactions but irrationalism is illrational, so prudence guided our decisions. Concern for a person having empathy for emotions is absurd.
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Its All Personal, At the End Its Very Personal

Briens vitality challenged the core of convictions righteousness that authority shrouds itself in. The reminder of personal failures through unimagined successes could easily motivate disordered responses. Selfworth is an enlightened assessment of ones life experiences. Self worth is not what you have or the fiats of command or whom you bossed. Brien lived his freedoms as a self-reliant person, flying his spirit of independence, which are idealistic accomplishments, a non-permissible masculine comparison that distressed titled identity and positions selfworth. The obedience cultures attitudes were the problem. Stereotypes concern differences not similarities. The notion of differences normally triggers images of social deviation and nonconformity in rigid societies. The real concern is the act of being different not the differences, while activism and being independent are aggressively pursued and institutionally punished. Sought liberties and independence are too great a stimulus because such audacity has uncontrollable results, which are assiduous threats that cannot be permitted to exist because comparative images perceptions are too formidable because the reactions are too unpredictable.
As Situations End New Opportunities Open Immediately

Official attitudes and us triggering too much crucial psychology cleared the remaining fog and mirrors. To be safe, we decided to getaway immediately; the only questions were how and where. We had to cut off potential confrontations because no bureaucratic option benefited us. There was not even a remote pretense, only evasion. Our getaway plan sounded straightforward on the sport-fisher. At the barge restaurant, we called the harbormaster to find out the sailing schedules and destinations for the departing vessels. Over drinks, the facts, options and timing made the decisions schedule. Brien wanted to
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further develop the aerial photograph business and felt a trans-continental move out of the Caribbean would afford sufficient protection. Actualities, reality and the future needed to be recomposed. The urban norths general grayness, stark regularity and hidden povertys dark desperations would provoke my susceptibility to depression. The tropics, in all its rawness still had personal warmth and civilized poverty that made living lush with the deficiencies of economic poverty. Returning directly to Panam would be a serious error, as events were too fresh. The offices were still occupied by workers currently involved as direct participants; this made me promotion material. Waiting out a personnel turnover was mandatory; this would not take that much time as international circumstances continued to accelerate. We were in comfortable agreement on the ending of this drama and a getaway. Our shared adrenaline-based excitement was an interesting question, any withdraws symptoms would answer. Briens mild hyperactivity excited the sensations pleasure. Whether this was an abandonable indulgence or a habit-forming dependence, similar to any addictive substance with our circumstances behavior the delivery vehicle. The symptoms did not interfere in any way with functioning or hold any allergic reaction, which was therefore a situation with no unmanageable concerns. But unrecognized are the secondary habits that develop like the significant increase in drinking, an influence with its own potential addiction. The first test was the forced isolation of a ships voyage to observe any psychological or physiological dysfunctions emerging.
Selfish Attitudes Make Victims by Habit

We called the colonels office the first thing in the morning and asked the officer present to tell his boss to meet us at the ancient bar in old Havana. At the appointed hour, they arrived. We moved to the backroom away from the few early patrons at the bar. This was an appropriate setting for another endnote in the continuous escapades of the Caribbean Chronicles.
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The colonel had taken our last conversation too personally; he showed how deep his occupational neurosis was by his attitudes understated tone. His arrogance had a trace of expressive violence, which demanded we accept his wants that obligated his command. So typical of the hierarchical personality that deals with powerless subordinates, where ranks self-importance does not have to remember the last conversation. He tried to intimidate us one more time; assaulting and expecting us to fall into the normal yes sir, bss. His verbal attack was partially a positioning ploy to establish dominance, but due to the last conversation this was a moment of clarity. He was a complex bureaucrat a bit psychotic towards perceived challenges to his autocratic delusions; these were covered by the polished manners of smooth offensive aggression, that is officer training. Limitations are always revealed by the impact of decisions taken. His showed me that his personality from the beginning of this endeavor was an act with diagnosable conditions unobserved by me. I felt stupid for being impressionable and not being more serious about the warnings from his inconsistencies, but military confidence is composed to camouflage personal deficiencies. While noble ideals and patriotism in the big picture conceals ambitious agendas. After a diplomatically delivered, pointed reminder of our unchanged stand, the colonel backed off with controlled hatred. He was unaccustomed to not getting his way from perceived inferiors. His autocratic regimentation was challenged by the lack of vulnerability responses. The poorly masked threat against us because of the legal issues over the robbery was the clincher. He was overreaching mentally. We all experience difficulty with cognitive dissonance and grasping new dynamics, which disturb our existing views, but he was having a concealed panic attack. He had lost mental discipline from a basket full of wants complicated by having misread situations and difficulty handling flexible independent thinkers. Brien ran deep and moved quickly around the lines of habitual thoughts that produce indoctrinations sequential processing. The colonel could handle aggressive physical confrontation but conflicts with knowledgeable personalities were not covered in training or by
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regulations, beyond applying the most effective submission techniques required for conflict resolution. These are the methodologies of domination. We realized the robbery was a malleable bureaucratic situation, only inabilities would mention. Brien pointed out we were dealing in espionage, not insubordination and personalities dislikes arent crimes, especially ones based on truth. Our insights touched some psychological button that made his occupational insecurities pass as his concerns were reprioritized; the uncertainty had us stop the confrontation.
Conformity is not Equality

Powers realities decide legal results by fabricating the acceptable, including any criminal dilemma. Even the most stringent regulations and laws are prone to arbitrary re-evaluation with expediences discretion. Laws are meant to regulate generalities, mere abstract constructions that can be reconstructed by the vaguest reinterpretation of an inflection on a single word. Authoritarian executives influence and supply solutions for any extraneous legal matter as needed because inter-bureaucratic cooperations rules the upper echelon of commands alliance, not ethics and morals. Here was the military at its worst; a monastic fraternity of social climbers in all consuming indexed servitude, built on discipline, status and seniority. The colonel must have given some big assurances for serious commitments that put a lot of personal prestige on the line in Washington. Any change in traditional organizations requires explanations, which carry the penalties of lost prestige and arbitrary responses. Career vanities and job paranoias are hypersensitive to everything affecting image and reputation. He overextended himself verbally and had some exposure concerning his occupational vulnerabilities. The superior talents in the upper ranks of the military are masters of applied psychology and situation awareness. The colonels irrationalism concerning us would pass, but his flaws would surface in his performance at the next demanding post.
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A neutral perspective saw that he was in an excellent situation careerwise. But fear resides around the center of power where vulnerabilities rule. High-level authoritarians never reveal themselves completely in personal relations among equals because equals do not exist.
Job Logic and Image Become Personality Transference Delivers Unconscious Inferences
Militarisms deceptions are called strategy, which makes deceiving a rewarded and normal trait. Working peoples unsung sacrifices always pays for official accomplishments, while victories are due to human intangibles, not garlanded officialdom. Career patriots are bureaucrats with PR portraits of citizen-soldier images and the warriors ideals. The deeds of combat conscripts disproportionally fill national cemeteries and veteran hospitals with heroes and heroines. Democracies protectors are humanitys nobility. The mythical culture of militarism applauds military patriotisms emotional overstatements because they overwhelm inconvenient information. The militarys definitional control cultivates, promotes and bottles militarisms glorious images the world over because budgets demand taxes that obligate food-off-the-table sacrifices. Facts lost to domestic propagandas emotionalized patriotisms ultimate public service with hazardous dutys heroics. Perspectives that conflict with officialdoms aggressive self-dealing. The more commanding, the less they lead; the more bragging, the less they fought; the louder the praying, the less sincere the prayers. Behavior patterns are influenced by the psychological interplay between circumstances and vice-virtue inclinations. Stupidity is mental stagnation. Intelligence is the right effort applied well. Brilliance is in the optimum application. Successful individuals are consistent on the focus of their efforts, whether improving the knowns, eliminating unknowns and acknowledging the unknowables. Greed concentrates solely on maximizing gain. We bid a hollow farewell to another careerist playing-out his
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insecurities selfishness. My earlier worldly warrior-citizen assumptions were wrong. Impressions based on projection are usually wrong. Ive learned because some dark well is tapped when a discharging set of combinations come together and one creates their confusion by accepting personality and projected identities without grasping the occupational compositions and background motivations. This psychological legacy from another time taught me again to read what is in front of me, not what my aspirations and insecurities want to see. I finally grasp how much we project of ourselves into those who enter our lives. Open attitudes get hammered but still the rewards of friendship mend the deepest psychological wounds. However but the irritations from psychological scars seldom disappear. The experiences of high-adventurers and lifeventures are magnificent opportunities to contemplate full potentials. When fabulous dreams come alive and one stands alone in reflection afterward, the individual desires most of all to have shared the sweet sensual pleasures of success and when one has, its very special.
Maturity Does Not Forget, it Waits

The colonel left and we stayed for a reflective brandy. Through the bottom of the glass, Andon and Rubn appeared. We were simultaneously shocked and asking, What are you doing here? How did you find us? Rubn answered, Staying out of your way and from Andons calls. Rubn had Cuban associates who had kept us under observation as much as possible. Rubn said he waited because he wanted us to finish our business first due to its importance. Andon told him we were close to the end and we were hiding from the Nazis and meeting with the colonel to end our involvement. So, now was the time to make contact, so he could end his unfinished business with Herr cabrn. Rubn was stone cold on this matter. We all knew what this involved. Rubn said he had organized his plan since he arrived and had been patiently waiting for us to finish up, so there would be no ramifications or possibility of us being directly
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implicated. We were grateful for his concern but uncertain about the coming developments. Brien recommended the sport-fisher to talk over these new particulars and variables, so we could put together an overall understanding. The rest of the day was spent going over Rubns plan and the various involvements and probable complications that reflected our anxieties, social-sciencing the immediate interjected some uneasy acceptance. Rubn had it worked out and was just letting us balance our mental states. The answer to our concerns were responses that seemed predictable, as if imprinted by a monopoly of nature not the insecurities embedded by agenda sophistication they were. Rubns idea was to have us establish our departure in a way that made it impossible for us to be involved. He was going to cut up a Nazi associate of Herr cabrn. Then send a message from the hospital to Herr cabrn for his ears only. Rubn would handle Herr cabrn personally in the hospital room and his Cuban associates would keep Herr cabrns bodyguards occupied. Brien asked what was his back-up plan. He said shoot them all with such intensity, no one spoke for a few seconds. Then Brien stated Herr cabrn was a coward, so be fast because he would shield himself with any innocent bystander. Andon said radio messages travel faster than distance, and there are people everywhere who deliver bullets to anybody. Rubn said they wanted us out of Havana immediately because the SOE would seek his rewards from his handlers personally, as soon as possible. I summed up our feeling saying he was doing the world a favor because this psychotic bastard with fascist power made him dangerous in unimaginable ways, and we all would feel a profound satisfaction knowing evil would know true justice, pointedly served.
Delineate by Applicable But More So by Non-applicable

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to have Juan Pablo purchase the tickets for extra protection. A freighter was departing in a few hours for Tampa and Brien decided to book passage. Later in the evening, an old tramp freighter would depart for Veracruz, Mxico. Afterwards, Rubn and Andon would return to the public pier and catch a taxi to Rubns hotel, where they would wait to launch their plan. The latest butt or another office retriever would get the ships names after we arrived by way of a conversation at El caf from Toro, passing news around to our friends. Gregorio would run into the colonels replacement. The last couple of hours flew-by preoccupied over possibilities stated as plans with concerns for the uncertainty ahead. These avoided the sad inevitable of so much departing on the tide. Andon apologized to us about his actions since we arrived. Now we both saw his distancing from us as his best reaction, we did not need any extra pressure. We owed them thanks for being ready to protect us. I pulled Brien aside and sincerely thanked him. My emotions felt our common existence and I recognized our shared diversities created a lifetime of rewarding appreciations. His efforts made the whole situation feasible; he composed, orchestrated, conducted, starred in and consummated the whole program. Without exception, all others were supporting characters. He unhinged the wildness in the opportunity that laid open unimaginable possibilities with spectacular quality experiences. At the end, mans truest wealth is his mastery of living and his greatest accomplishment is living lifes potentials. I thanked him profoundly for taking a very dangerous situation and turning it into a lifeventure that gave me new levels of awareness and previously unfathomable consciousness that empowered and enriched my being. Brien hugged me and thanked me for the integrity of my friendship and as a true partner, which would always hold exciting and rewarding memories. He thanked me for his new vocabularies profitable comprehensions and modern arts visual dimensions with its rewarding applicability that captures the abstractions of the contemporary life he seeks.
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Nothing Does Not Replace Something, Only Something Better Does

When the time arrived, the sport-fisher docked behind Briens freighter, which put him aboard inside the dock gates, where surveillance types would normally question. We walked Brien up the raising gangplank. It was a classic picture, all of us carrying cameras up the gangplank of the freighter. His last words were, Fly the skys hues. The end was quick and clean. We would disappear without leads to follow, and continue to be cautious until we could afford to be otherwise. The short walk back to the yacht was heavy from the flood of emotions. Rubn, Andon and myself knew we would be in Panam together soon enough, but Brien was leaving us. There was deep quietness that echoed our sadness. We reboarded the sport-fisher, as Briens vessel castoff from the dock. My heart was heaving heavy emotions that made my breathing pronounced. Although the ships high stern put distance between us; our bond was closer then ever. The open-ended separation from Brien registered in the nucleus of my personality and the core of my mind. Adventurers and travelers are doers, and doers are always busy doing, usually off the beaten tracks. Doers intense excitements and enjoyments are rare tempos, seldom shared. The permanence of separation revived too many unhappy moments in the lonely ways of life. After such occasions of experience, diverting paths carries personal losses but conscious awakenings. Brien was intellectual flint, which caught hold and dispersed the suppression fogs of traditional thoughts that revealed the actualizeable potentials of life. Such great friendships linger in a timeless adjournment. Our free spirits peerless peer, Brien was an evolving self-creation that made for a unique individual. His challenging intellectual wit as a sense of humor was built upon an honest character and experienced personality with the knowledgeable perspective of successes; these generated unique wisdom. On the bow, men stared into their own intense thoughts; in deep-time the connection of being to meaning. As Briens freighter made headway outbound, we followed it well clear of the Havana harbor channel. He
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stood still on the stern; his final wave was a last slow two-arm farewell with an air kiss that emptied me. We shared a life-fulfilling opportunity but the departure left no pleasure. It was all too fast, intense and serious. Just then the sunsets green flash caught my eye; my wish was for all of them to be safe. This odyssey had grown into a connection with the human/universal consciousness that leaves the me behind. On the ride into the harbor I felt time expand and accelerate, as I aged comfortably. The walk to my vessel held a deep connections silence. On the stern, I had an intense feeling of deep aloneness that was captured in the shadow play of my body in the powerful sterns lights that cast a sharp dark starkness. My waves sent prayers. The sport-fisher lights blended into the city lights, as the glow of the citys lights dimmed into blackness. My tight mental focus cut the swelling mental whitecaps, lost in a starlit ocean of thoughts; storms of feelings arose until a cloudy darkness served a lonely depression. Under its spell, depression causes everything else to become a draining problem, which I knew was a dated response for the meaningfulness the day sculptured in my soul. Long into the night, drifting in the shelter of the decks shadows, the stars gave perspective to my thoughts; the lazy passage by slow freighter on the harmonic rhythms of the ocean eventually sedated me. A long comfortable rest and clear meditation allowed me to acknowledge the psychological pleasure in adrenaline living. Self-directed behaviors slip into the habits of dependences that stay because they soon seem normal; this familiarity establishes a sense of positiveness, as reactions become perceived values. Modification requires intellectually stimulating alternatives to be substituted.
Mxico is Larger Than England, France, Spain and Germany Together

Veracruzs harbor channel gave a last picture of the magnificent seas blue horizon, whose fullness appears empty. The freighters numerous breakdowns in route were drifting rest periods, which calmed me down and clarified the closing of this incredible adventure that the shutters
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snap of a Veracruz sunrise punctuated for the memories of a lifetime. Over the bow of the ship, a new portal appeared in the viewfinder that held a fresh future in ancient Mxico. At the bottom of the ships ramp stood the man sent by the colonel and, for all the friendliness, the actual motives were the unspoken obvious. I surprised him by asking when he got word of my arrival, to which he answered Last night. I interpreted the message with relief for Rubn and Andons safety, because they were to pass the word along after the vendetta was finished. Veracruz is the main Atlantic port, the region is home of the Olmec culture, the oldest civilization in the Americas (1200-300 BCE). Mxico City is a few hours away at a refreshing cool altitude, which would be a pleasant break from the tropical heat. At least the embassys army attach got me through the port easily and onto the capital fast in a comfortable ride. He tried to pump me for information along the way; my lack of caring was polite stupidity. While stuck in traffic in Puebla de los Angeles, a purely Spanish city founded in 1531 by Corts army, my thoughts contemplated the historical shadows of cultural rationales. Rationalism is always modified in the North by the purely financial concerns of its socio-economic order, which has too much exclusiveness in its ideals. Up there comfortable assumptions of wealth generate so many curiously insular clean living fuzzy thinking narrow minded people functioning with purposes undisturbed by harsh realities. USoAs homogeneous cultures conformity and homogenous societys uniformity has an intellectual aloofness that does not match the deeprooted perceptives inside these structures that are older than USoA itself. Social progress traditions are on-going cultural conflicts between ancient, medieval and modern values with their profound complications holding so much importance. These various philosophical viewpoints question the ideals that constitute the very nature of Western Civilization. This philosophy of culture is similar to the European Latin societies with their vision of a more basic universal human, intuitively striving for the best humane priorities. A contrast noted by the different social priorities. Here fairness sees the extra costs of luxuries as subsidizing
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basics and helping the simplest residence to become a home. This socioeconomic view discourages overuse; the more used the higher the rates. In many places in the norths flat rates and expensive basics subsidize luxuries and wealths thoughtless overuse due to the cheap relative cost. From povertys perspective the real crimes are the waste of inefficiency, the ineffective and the unnecessary so the real criminals are the profiteers. On an impulse to flee from my rides annoying limitations and aggressive tensions, I opened the door as my bags were lifted and told this lost soul to tell the colonel a long vacation was the only item on my agenda. The exit was abrupt but effective; any future company would be at my discretion. After my long lunchs relaxing adjustment to Mxico, the capital called. A taxi took me to a hotel in the Jewish barrio of Polanca; this was definitely the safest place for someone avoiding Nazis with their disordered xenophobia. The neighborhood benefited from the displaced talent. Emigrants are efficient economic stimulants. Resettlement always has an invigorating effect on the receiving communities from new ideas and better ways of doing things. This engaging area was full of small markets and new restaurants, serving the latest arrivals favorite receipts, which put excellent international cuisine on streets named after humanitys giants. The citys giant park bordered one side of the barrio, which supplied walking paths to its museums that exhibit murals and paintings of size and grandeur equal to Rome. Mexican artists naturalistic colors and artistic sense of unformalized shapes held images from its rich Amerindian traditions and the colonial period, which expressed a narrow but deep appreciation of their cultures expansive aesthetics. Great painting provided a marked impression compared to Protestant high seriousness that emphasizes the word with its orthodox preference for the sermon over the visual arts. Calvinisms highest art form is the plaque; those icons-of-the-word that bear interesting facts. The earliest known inhabitants of Mxico dated from 15,000 to 10,000 BCE. The first human settlement in the valley of Mxico City was around 10,000 BCE, while the cultivation of maize started about 3000-2500 BCE. The earliest pyramid found south of the city was a round one, from 600 BCE. The earliest
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Mayan settled in the region in around the third century of the Common Era. An incredible find was the great appreciation for Fr. Bartolome De Las Casas (1474-1566), who arrived in 1502 following his father who had come ashore in 1492 with Coln, a leader haunted with getting his 20% finders fee for anything found, a percentage quickly confiscated by royal greed. Fr. De Las Casas is the Father of LIBERATION THEOLOGY because of his lifetime efforts fighting for the fair treatment of the natives and his harsh criticism of slavery. He and his spiritual brothers also put a Latin alphabet to the native's picture language and secured the existing current of life by teaching the many indigenous cultures how to use the Spanish language, art and Catholicism as vehicles for their spontaneous and original creations. These sophisticated sensibilities and humane considerations gave Mxican Catholicism an element of unorthodoxy that became evident in the nationalization of the Churchs property and the natives devotion to the female metaphysical principle. Christendom turned to this female imagery in the Middle Ages because the role of mother is biological and strongly understood, while the roles of father and religion are socially constructed. The tangible comprehension of a woman giving birth, sharing in the child growing and the ultimate emotional trauma of watching him die symbolizes motherhood. The connection is so powerful that Mary appears alone without Christ, divine in her own right. In Mxico, she is characterized in the form of the Dark Madonna, a woman with a dark complexion, who first appeared and spoke on the spot where previously an Aztec goddess was worshipped. Tropical Americas magnificent antiquity is obvious in Teotihuacan, a city 30 miles north of Mxico City. Teotihuacan was named for the civilization prior to the Aztecs that had lasted for over two thousands years. This archeological treasure of a city was larger than ancient Rome with a population second only to Constantinople, which was abandoned in 750 CE after seven centuries, as the center of the Western Hemisphere. Built during Roman times, Teotihuacan is an aesthetic gem that carries a superior archaeological legacy to Rome with a structural magnitude well beyond any historical structures in Europe.
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Teotihuacan is one of the most impressive examples of urban planning in human history. It features vast accomplishments that celebrate ancient mans cultural wisdoms, scientific sophistication and technical knowhow. The urban grid plan was astronomically aligned with the sunset at the suns zenith and built around the Pyramids of the Americas. The Pyramid of the Moon is one-half the height of the 20-story Pyramid of the Sun, which has a larger base but not quite the height of Egypts Great Pyramid. The under-publicized existence of this immense civilization offers an undeniable example of the long silent narrative on the original natives remarkable cultural sophistication and engineering achievements. Historically, classic eras have cultural complexes that are depended on large servitude classes. These powerless groups daily physical efforts provided the material basis and support for upper classes in evolved civilizations. The peasant classes could not read the hieroglyphs and remained uneducated to the astronomical and philosophical speculations of the exclusive classes. The inequality in such social successes is a historic constant because greed begets exploitation and wealth laziness has a thickening callousness. These failures generate self-absorbed ignorance and self-centered interpretations, which produce social and economic injustices that cause advanced societys historic repetition of ill-fated self-destruction. Without the axialed wheel and rewarding participation in the culture beyond the existence of daily survival, the lowest classes were more beasts of burdens. The distance traveled for supplies always increased due to the demands of continuous resource depletion. This painful reality was felt with each excruciating step further, carrying the burden of a societys physical needs. Therefore, it is not absurd to image these peasants still close to their tribal roots and survival ways, grew weary of such meaningless servitude and just left. This multiplied the burdens on those remaining, which accelerated the cities decline within a few decades. The Aztec reached Teotihuacan about 1060 CE and the city had already been abandoned for many centuries. The Aztec Empire supposedly had ten million people. In 1519, a Spanish invasion of Mxico was lead by Hernando Corts; after his conquistadors went ashore, he ordered his
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fleet destroyed. His army numbered in the hundreds with dozens of horses, this force became an army of Aztec enemies of over 100,000. After many indecisive battles in the siege of Mxico City, Corts rebuilt a fleet of smaller vessels to use the canals surrounding the Aztec capital. Both this military victory and Francisco Pizarros enslavement of the Incas ended civilizations. Historically, Mxico City has been the Americas largest city. During this period, the city was an organized metropolis with a civilized populace twice the size of Rome or London. The Spanish reported the city had massive pyramids, ornate public building and elaborate private structures and was so clean it had no litter. Egyptian like pyramids, ornately carved buildings, vast markets of bright exotic products and the pageantry of majestic Rome, in vibrant tropical tones. The conquistadors cultural blindness and irreligious contempt was enforced by the presence of fanatical religious authorities whose moral certitude justified and perpetrated a genocidal racism. Greedy ignorant oppressors made any recognition much less fair assessments of millenniums of the accomplishments by the Americas original civilizations impossible. These magnificent indigenous cultures were too foreign intellectually, exotic, majestic and imposing for the inabilities of primitive rural peasant soldiers and too ideologically challenging for the orthodox certitudes of the bearers of divine instructions. Aristotles natural slave rationale debased the Amerindians while dogmatic beliefs put them in medieval feudalistic bondage. The nonconformity penalties were torturous brutality, as with branding the face or the testicles with hot irons followed by 200 lashes to sacrificial murders. Corts told the King of Spain; he murdered women and children to impress his will on the natives.
Greed Overpowers Knowing; Ignorance Doesnt Know, Stupidity is Unused Knowns

New Spains feudalistic totalitarian oppression, inquisitional repression and ruthless suppressions were horrors too barbaric to be
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justified. The extremism of the conquistadors social order even forbid reading or possession of any unauthorized material. All reading material was censored before printing and only licensed books could be imported or exported. The owners of books without permits faced death and confiscation of personal possessions if denounced by rewarded informers. Spains history of America was sheer historical fiction. This fake history was an orchestrated intellectual fraud because the Spanish authors had never even been to the Americas. Not until the end of the 17th century was the first outsiders account given of Mxico and its antiquities. Social powers agendas have always been black water streams polluting the ocean of humanitys history. The new aristocracy of Spanish conquistadors and the aristocratic Church leadership ruthlessly obliterated great civilizations. These violent savage monoculturalists cut off all the enlightenment from these highly developed native cultures knowledge, usable truths and artistic visions. Such greatness unacknowledged and unstudied reduces ancient wisdom to myths and superstition. A simple philosophical insight of these original cultures uniqueness is an old Aztec saying, That we come to this earth to live is untrue. We come to sleep and to dream. The sophistication of the Indian American civilizations are great unknowns. Some unrecognized achievements were the highly organized political structures in all aspects of society from village matters to the Amerindians democratic models, which rival Athens at its best. Extensive scientific accomplishments are highlighted by the agricultural staples, which took thousands of years to refine. These are the breeding stock of more than half of the crops grown worldwide, which expanded the worlds staples that supported huge population increases and changed the course of human existence. The ancient Indian America cultures artistic and technical knowledge are captured in their advanced astronomys formulation of the synodic return of the planets, cyclic phenomena of solstices, equinoxes and eclipses of the sun and moon. Their sun calendars not only embodied long-standing observations, but also were designed to affect the actions of the societys members by bringing the communal life into accord with the periodic movements of the heavenly bodies.
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The Mayans ancient astronomical observations and calculations created a highly precise solar calendar with an accuracy that only differs by 33 seconds per year with todays Gregorian calendar. The Aztecs precision astronomy and engineering sculptured their celestial mathematics onto geometric forms that displayed the science for common use as public monuments. Sculptured stone calendars have been uncovered weighing as much as 24 tons. The design sophistication of this functional arts recorded astronomical chronicles is so sophisticated they are still read by school children. So, cultural sensibilities and intellectual honesty interprets the Indian Americas achievements as evidence of very advanced civilizations. Historical comparisons accurate perspectives towards achievements like solar calendars and functional art exposes intellectual suppression by single-minded dogma. Ones immediate reaction to the statement Columbus discovered America show its extent and accepting the facts the Americas were visited long and often well before Coln indicates the strength of ones habits of ignorance. Roman coins have been found under the heads of skeletons in burial mounds of inland North American Indian tribes. The Egyptian Pharaohs ingested cocoa and tobacco; analysis has confirmed traces of these substances in uncovered mummies. Such historical facts indicate the coastline of the Western Hemisphere and its numerous islands were touched for millenniums. While tales of long lost mariners and adventurous traders have fueled the continuing legend of the ancient Greek myth of Atlantis for each new ages reinterpretation of expanding knowledges unknowns. For me, the centuries of seafaring tails and wild claims made the pre-1492, Americas, Atlantis.
Active and Passive Corruptions Range from Censorship to Execution

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people. They believed every human had a soul and generally promoted conciliatory settlements that calmed everyones anger. These cultured and sophisticated human beings have continually been characterized less than complimentarily by the perceptions and premises constructed for and by the viciousness of greed. Negative stereotypes establish and support the depersonalizing and dehumanizing needed by barbaric rules malicious subjugations. Every form of totalitarianism perpetuates anti-intellectual repressions. The Spanish social order ushered in a passive genocide with a facilitating social conscience. This intellectual evils perceptions, discriminatory interpretations and belief-attitudes are still accommodated by pretext, subtext and the out of context as accepted text. The embedding transfers a humiliating education that prevents communicating honest enabling information. Socially accepted legacies of such biases and anti-intellectual perversions are victimization that makes generational casualties. Civilizations are compositions of achievements and resolutions; a created social evolution written by daily existence over centuries of trialand-error efforts, with unique insights on civilized necessities. Scrutinizing another civilizations path of accomplishments offer progressive gifts to humanitys library of knowledge. Too many of these rewards have been destroyed by ruthless greed pursuing las Americas wealth by enslavements and genocides. Wisdom lost cost more in losses that gold and silver could ever gain.
Ignorance and Inhumanity Festers the Darkest Evil Within

The ancient cultures of the Americas are thought to have little relevance compared to the centuries of post-formulated history with unscrutinizable premises for long dead cultures around the shore of the eastern Mediterranean. Ideological history as social reality requires a restricted social consciousness reinforced by contributory single-minded orthodoxy, whose unquestionable facts are confirmed by fundamentalist values and extremisms morals. The Americas tyrannical invaders superior us-or-dead-them had
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religiously supplied coded rejection as motivation for their inhuman cruelty and torturous oppressions. This command obedience morality killed millions of natives to save their souls for God. Sick perverted convictions were rewarded with the easy gain of victims wealth and mastery over the survivors. Greeds obliterating exploits saved Europes second rate institutions from embarrassing factual comparisons while inducing a completely false cultural superiority. Powers sociocultural context is framed with self-serving premises and framing, not the greed and evil they are. Acts of tyrannys self-sealing logic create envelopes of ignorances that misrepresent this totalitarian existence, which subsidized powers power. Ethical injustices and moral frauds are pretexts for powers evil and greeds gains. Honest history and a full text on the natives incredible achievements would generate factual comprehensions with honorable perceptions and intellectual subtext for future generations. These would supercede the legacies of accepted dehumanizations that unknowingly continue passive genocides. Historical stereotype designations confirm the bestowers purposes because these ancient cultures, in many ways are well beyond the labelers comprehending abilities. Under-educated ethnocentrists are cultural assailants projecting absurd irrationality as vainglorious sanity to the fullest of their inabilities with gun barrel credibility. The oppressors are the barbarians and their cultural eradication verifies the extremism, which sustains their elitism that has no meaningful superiority. Cultural literacy factual accuracy and mature sensibilities acknowledge the debt owed for benefits received not the ideological tribalism sins of excessiveness as superiority. Social ethics with honest historical perspectives would start to compensate for the officialdoms conspiratorial evil that creeds of greed and cultural brainwashing maintain. The European genocides of the Americas and Atlantic slave industry make historic institutional contrivances guilty of perpetuating evil and the religiopolitical involvements ethical frauds. Institutions span centuries; lifetimes span decades, so the lies of the publicly-financed official line outlive truth. As I stood among the pyramids of the Americas, my personal being to humanitys antiquity seemed to resemble the flash of refracted light off a
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Humanitys an Evolving Entity Without a Comprehensive Framework or Structure

After a short stay, the isolation of crowds and disconnections of large cities was as tiring as the compulsion to overthink the recent past. Acapulco beckoned; the Pacific was an ocean away, not in hours or miles but a new horizon. My clean mental slate started with an unburdening walk among the stimulation of new surroundings, which opened a new chapter. The stroll around in the activities of Acapulco led me to the beach in front of the yachts moored offshore, in a palm-shaded comfort zone, where a pause for some reflective solitude beckoned. There, in the patch of shade on the beach, a sailor lay asleep in rough dreams. In time, the sailor rolled over and noticed me. After a swim, we commenced a general conversation on the sailors life and women, which continued in the drift of time at the nearby beach shack over cold beers and fresh seafood. Figuring he was off some boat and knowing a long hot shower was a sailors true luxury; I invited him to my room to clean up before we headed out for dinner. Later at a nightclub, we found some female companions and he hired a Mariachi band, which tagged along all night. They played soulful Mxican Blues of unrequited and lost love, the hearts yearnings and lifes longings, songs most every Mxican knows. The person serenaded becomes the lead singer, while the others sing along. We carried on with a loud soiree of singing and improvised dancing with women, who could match our every song and drink, in the early morning hours we separated congenially. By late midday, we met at the bar frequented by the crews off the anchored yachts, listening to Ranchero, the country music of Mxico. My new friend stated our duty to Mxico was live it, so we had to hunt for a white flag. When flown over a bar the bandera blanca indicates a fresh
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supply of mescal or tequila has arrived. The traditional local beverage pulque is mescal to the rest of Mxico. Tequila comes from blue agave variety of cactus in the denominated region of Jalisco and parts of adjacent states. These potent liquors capture Mxicos warmth, mysterious strength and metaphoric visions. We found two banderas waving proudly, across the street from each other. One sold the hearty plata; the other bar sold oro, which is plata colored by aging. Well into the tasting, events flowed into a comfortable drift that was reminiscent of where we left off the night before. Quick reliable friendships are a maritime tradition, the other edge of the pirates sword. Sailing generates open confidence due to highly developed survival skills in the precarious nature of sailing actualities and the highly developed social skills of tight living quarters. The unpredictable characteristics of transitory occupations make for instant solidarity among fellow adventurers. The night was a carbon copy of the night before; the Mariachis became symphonic, as the tequila became hallucinogenic. I was moving through surrealistic sensations of reality, where meaning and time was suspended and the visual dominated. Unfocused forms of colors made sounds of light; soft images became zooming faces that melted into soft broad landscapes of colors, with impressions of long, drawn out sensations. I became lost in selfish indulgences for about a timeless week. One morning at breakfast, my sailor friend GB said we needed to get time on the water or we would become cactusized whore dogs. He asked me if I would be interested in crewing and doing some serious bluewater sailing. I guessed he was crewing on a boat with a vacant crew position. My acceptance was rude in its loudness but honest in its enthusiasm. I jumped at the chance for a unique positive opportunity, as my ability to concentrate was fading with consumptions ever-longer after effects. We agreed to meet on the beach at daybreak, ready for bluewater cruising. My nautical concerns only got a smile and various levels of laughter without answers. Due to sailing open uncertainty, the security of my photographs became a concern. The coastal tramp steamers at the commercial wharves were the solution. These coastal freighters hit every port from Alaska to
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Chile, wherever cargoes are found and the rates pay to operate. Finding the right open ocean captain was another matter. They are the strong men of the sea with the most demanding and serious round the clock and through the calendar job due to the constant responsibilities in sailings ever-changing conditions. The final decision-maker over survival requires accurate assessments on critical matters with many made under intense pressure. Ships captains do what they say and only say what they can do. Trust and strength, not stories distinguish great captains. Mans greatest enemy is single-minded interpretation of himself and life, but fatigue is a mans great danger. Its the major mental influence facilitating death. Brien had no pilot identity problems as many others do, who speak with bravado concerning higher risk from the certainty of death, due to the forces and speeds involved in flying accidents. Flyers have no deep fatigue in their job performance, maybe exhaustion but no mind altering bone aching fatigues. Ship captains only reprieves are slow changing weather fronts, whereas airplanes can only fly for a few hours and are grounded by storms. Ships always seem to have difficulties in the demanding strains of foul weather, which can last for weeks between ports. Airplanes can usually avoid bad fronts; ships battle by the minute through them as daily existence. A ship captains time frame matches natures conditions with its dictating rhythms in the long isolated solitude of the sea. The constant of tensions demands and fatigues dramas build ups until stress becomes a permanent mental state, as part of the maritime traditions of never-ending doing and get it done reckonings. Death at sea is even fatiguing, caused by the consuming pains of long drawn out suffering from its many gradual and merciless ways. Slow deaths mental fatigue ultimately wears the mind down through the levels of crazed irrationalities and blackening depressions that welcome death. So, the pilots fast death has merits over a drifting painful sufferings agonizing death from the slow, swelling tongue of dehydration that suffocates with every last torturous try for a breath. A search of the docks located a well-maintained vessel. The conversation with the captain in his wheelhouse confirmed the quality
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behind the ships maintenance. The captain agreed to deliver my package to Gregorio with pleasure. Included were the two best bottles of scotch Acapulco possessed and a letter to Toro for a free night on me at El caf. Copies of the negatives, finished prints and my notes would be delivered intact. Early the next morning, on schedule under the palm, a launch waited to row me out to the yacht. We rowed in growing efficiency past the smaller shallow drafted yachts anchored near the beach. Then we hit the deep water, where the large, deep-kneeled yachts lay in tranquil splendor. I smiled to myself, pleasantly surprised. We were headed for a magnificent yacht, a John Alden schooner well over 75 feet counting the bowsprit. My new friend did me a true favor. Alongside, GB helped me aboard and grabbed my small bags and asked if these were all my worldly possessions. I answered yes; seasoned travelers pack light and always tote their belongings because even the shortest journey often becomes a long oneway. Particularly on boat rides, their function is to voyage and make passages. When anchors are raised, departures only guarantee is gross unpredictableness, coming through them proceeds arriving. On deck, my eyes were running over this incredible vessel. As he welcomed me aboard, I saw why he laughed at my previous questions and concerns. He threw my bags below, through an open hatch, onto a bunk and then he asked me in a loud voice, Where to, Hawaii or the Caribbean via Panam? I said Hawaii; the other end of the American Tropics would be a great next stop. He reconfirmed my answer in all seriousness. After I nodded yes. He yelled set the sails for Hawaii. The crew screams approval as we all smiled approvingly. GB asked me which crew position I favored. I signaled the foredeck. Together with James, another foredeck hand, we hanked the headsails to the headstay, ran the sheets and coiled the halyards. While working together hoisting the anchor, I questioned him about the situation and the next port of call. He kept saying the crew had been divided and GB was ambivalent, so they were waiting for me to come aboard and cast the deciding vote between Hawaii or the Caribbean. I couldnt believe what a bunch characters they were, to let a stranger make such a decision.
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Normal nautical etiquette introduces the captain and the owner if he is aboard. GB was obviously the captain but he had moved me along so swiftly there was no opportunity for prying questions. James said GB was the captain and the owner. Full-sails in a clear morning was a good omen for an open future. With Hawaii the next port of call, surprise and happiness filled my sails with a smile felt.
Life Enhances Genes, Seized Moments Enhance Life

With the foredeck shipshape, I walked back to the helm as the course was set to clear the bay. My wits had to be gathered because they were scattered. James statements and GBs subtle ways had some confusion on my face. GB read my expression and explained the crew had been in Acapulco for weeks and had gotten mutinously restless. So, the actions of decisions were at hand, my vote decided the course into the future. Later, while leaning against the foremast, with the wind and a light bow spray blowing in my face, I acknowledged the perfection. The feel of coordinated strength and adrenalines heightening sensation had me feeling alive within myself and psychologically prepared to meet the challenges of bluewater sailing, where the acceptance of death is a constant wise companion. Hours at the helm put the rhythms back; it had been a long time, but sailors never lose the touch. The helms was slicing long smoothly white lines across a rolling dark blue sea, driven forward by full-sails from good steady winds. Lots were drawn for the crews watch; luckily mine was sharing the captains watch. In normal conditions, the crew works four hours on, eight hours off. The captains watch lasts from two hours before sunrise, until two hours after sunrise. At these latitudes, the sunlight hours of the days changes little with the seasons. This put the second four-hour shift at sunset, the second best time on the water or the best depending on the weather and the company. Standing at the helm in these hours of tropical beauty is always contemplative and harmonious moments.
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Yachts are Majestic Sailing Islands, Built of and by the Finest

After two days of steady breezes in comfortable seas, the yachts rhythms became choreographed into a smooth ballet. The heading cleared Clipperton Island, off the Mxican coast, west by southwest of Acapulco. After this last landfall, we caught some excellent tuna next to this French Island in ancient Mxicos waters. Far offshore, the marine food chain runs into the muddy ocean floor that is rich in microscopic marine life but generally void of eatable fish. Birds with loss bearings landed on the boat to rest or die from nonstop exertion in the perpetual flights of survival, seeking land over endless bluewaters. Most crews run fishing lines off the stern, for fresh food and shipboard entertainment. One morning the whole fishing set up was gone. The next morning the strengthened replacements were pulled in. The line was broken. Daily, the weakest link in the set-up was strengthened with the strongest replacement available. When a thin metal wire was bittenthrough, we decided to put together our strongest possible trawling line. Chain attached to a thick metal cable lead, onto a chopstick thick hook. Strips of sea bass hid the hook sticking out the belly of a large tuna; the bigger the bait, the bigger the catch. The monster fish that had been following us for days was scavenging the trash thrown overboard and eating the bait on the trawl lines. This reminded David of a travel story about huge schools of sharks that scavenged behind the pilgrim liners returning from Mecca to India, where going to heaven in religious bliss for the old with burials at sea was better than poverties receptions. As James, our resident fishing expert set trawling lines, he said any fish caught on this set up would have the hook ripped through the mouth or the fish would drown as it was dragged behind the boat. The next morning, the chain, wire and hook were there but the hook had been straighten out like a pencil. Further afternoon swimming plans were canceled.
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Bluewater Sailors are Cosmic Drifters

After three days of bluewater sailing, my mental state became desensitized concerning clock-time with its social perceptions and habitual conditioning. Cultural conventions for time with numbers and days with names no longer had relevance. Time outlines existence, shipboard time became strangely distant and seemingly other dimensional because effort was required to bring it back or to attach importance as helm watches rotated naturally. All movement flowed in periodic occurrences; natures daily rhythms, the harmony of self and the forces of the cosmos replaced sociocultural time. This new consciousness became stronger with each passing day; full presence of mind became full daily consciousness. The planets biological mutualism within the universe affects all from the regular recurrences of atmospheric and ocean dynamics on the grand scale to the functioning of the bugs and weeds that produce the air and soil while cleaning the earth and water. This commensalism serves man so incredibly perfectly its balance has a long string of decimal points accuracy that increases with scientific understandings and measurements precision, so it is mans to lose by misaffecting the sensitive balance. Natures purposes and functions connect the vibration of us into the oneness of energy; sailing the seas harmonizes to this cosmic dance of expanding mutual interdependence. Life in the cosmic sea has both universal order and the supercomplexity of chaotic properties seen in every sunset, dynamical systems interplaying in microscaled and macroscaled processes. Life blossoms on the edge of the envelope of living, a place where youre seldom if ever lost, but are usually alone.
The Mental Storms at Sea are the Most Difficult Challenges to Sailors
This sailors dreams were passages across dimensions; our courses geographic destinations read the South Pacifics fantasy of Hawaii.
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Nothing is certain about the weather at sea except the weathers uncertainty. It changes from good to bad as cyclically as bad to good. The course was westerly; pointing-up cutting north on each puff of wind to catch the southern edge of the North Pacific trade winds. Our anticipations of perfection were postponed as the ship sailed into a powerful clear sky front that drove us southwest. When it was over we lay in the doldrums, which were positioned further north than normal. The doldrums are vast dead spots of atmospheric surface conditions that hover over huge areas along the equator. They are seas within the ocean without wind but with a mix of wave patterns. The concern after the engine broke was how sociable and well the crew could hold onto themselves individually with the patience required, until the situations difficulties improved. At night, the deck became the crews sleeping quarters because the lack of breeze made below deck a stifling oven. Sailors must develop patience waiting for wind in the doldrums; insanitys waiting room. The doldrums equatorial monotony amplifies and alters psychological frames of reference. Daily clear skys blazing sun magnifies off the smooth reflective surface of slow waves. These rolling mirrors, breathless air and warm water fuse sensations; the eye loses its blinding dominance to visual perceptions, the dynamics of balanced awareness emerges and reigns. Man moving over water is mankinds longest journey into the excesses of lifeventures. The intensity of relating to oneself demands self-reminders to control ones existential anxieties. This settles down nervous reactions and checks emotionalizing tension because ones deep mood stimulates the sparks of acknowledgements that trigger direction, which are followed spontaneously. Space is a metaphor for privacy in confined areas like boats and islands that reflects personal states because there is no place to physically run or mentally hide. Confined areas cause wise sailors and islanders to be socially well-adjusted folks. They live open to nature with a social emphasis placed on balanced unattachments and psychological maturity, which keeps you out of the closed reverberating recesses in the mind. Experienced sailors are mentally comfortable within themselves, so
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negative personality traits confusion does not infringe nor complicate the normal susceptibilities due to the stress of physical restrictions. The psychosocial dynamics of the groups balance obliges the individual to use their psychological intelligence to manage the situations attendant sense of anxiety favorably. Drifting playhouses of quiet psychodramas feature mental inadequacies boredom, which slow boils emotionalized disorders into psychological panics unknowns. The extensive range of mans multiple simultaneous triggers have different thresholds of significance. Those crossed pressurized the crews social psychology. Self-managing handles uncertainty and develops character. Since life and the ocean are always the way they are, which is not always fair or always pleasant, the challenges either damages you or makes you stronger; the consequential aspects of lifeventures survival adaptations. Unfortunately in the annoying dull doldrums without sufficient wind to fill the sails that propels the energy and spirit forward, crews lose the focus of the journeys destinies. Barely discernable directional drifting causes the mind and its disquietness to just drift along aimlessly in ones emotional sea, up and down on every psychological swell, accompanied by the constant loud flapping of large empty sails. Becalm is a nautical term used to express the ships lack of motion. To me, be-calm describes the neutral mental state required to endure the difficult challenges amidst the spectra of psychological excessiveness. When yearning frustrations and unconfronted afflictions dominate personality, the pressure cooker of hot uncomfortable tight quarters bring them front and center. Intrusion factors on various fatigues compound every mental irritation, which could cause intense reactions. In such testing circumstances, calm dispositions require stress-reducing behavior for beneficial perseverance. GB watched the pressure strains on the crew for any presence of lifes bottom-tenth, the predictable exceptions to everything. The ugly inabilities of these lost souls, who usually have undiagnosed medical problems, are complicated by disordered behavior patterns, whose frequent long periods of intense anxiety or reactions are difficult to control. Severe maladaptive patterns of behavior cause mishandled circumstances,
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due to a wide range of reasons some controllable some biological. This crew was fortunate there were no bio-psycho concerns or bottom-tenth complications.
Night Journeys into the Universe Uncover the Shortfalls of Well-calculated Psychologies
The more the normal points of references and social perceptions are replaced by natures shipboard harmony, there awakens crystal awareness. These new insightful levels of subtle sensitivities register revealing potent particulars, like recognizing the unstated or reading the projected with an accuracy from the choice of words or the bodys gestures that are an accenting dialect or proxemics the messages in the use of physical space. Identifying the projections and statements in action brings forth far more appropriate reactions, as does the centering pause before speaking. Awareness and mental discipline in tandem are very self-empowering because their ever-greater comprehensions create positive shifts in effectiveness for lifes challenges. As with grasping silence is a subtle power with refining dimension full of life, a vast stillness of inexhaustible energy that connects into what is. Crossing new thresholds of awarenesses awakens sensitivity and open comprehensions, which are indescribable but utilizable. Disciplines strength is calming oneself by deeper unattachments, where awareness is alerted by the subtlest sensations or external recognition. Watching the heavens speeding pass as our world turns, one is immerged in natures immenseness and dictates that diminish man and dismisses the ego, exposing consciousness with new metaphors. The sense of kinship with the sea and the salt in our genes came from the awareness of my bodys ocean composition being pulled along the ocean surfaces along with the tides by the moon gravitational force. The physical sensations were evidence of environmental unity, a daily empowering comprehension of the connections of the bodys wisdoms beyond psychological creations. Sailing dances with lifes rhythms and the feelings of aesthetic senses,
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vast interactions that strengthen an individual with the mind expansion of clarity due to the loss of the psychosocial creature. Mans natural unencumbered expanses are lost to the socioculturals obligated complexities and the captive influences of urban disconnections. Natures influences are so obstructed its overwhelming presence fades; replaced by artificialitys second-hand worlds and the contraction of fears called self. At the helm alone on a moonless night well into the doldrums a light favorable breeze had me riding a soft skyward rhythm across a glass sea that reflected the deepening starriness that surrounds comprehensions. In the vast mysterious universes black mirror backdrop that magnifies the choreographed interplay of heavenly rituals with the heavens pulsating colors of astronomical potentials, one touches absolute presence. True selfs infinite energy potential knows no separation between the cosmic spacescape and the mindscape, which merge into a deepening seamless cosmos, echoing oneness. Another starward night, wonder got absorbed into the order of the universe, visualized as the top of my brain seemed to open into the starfilled universe, where my thoughts functioned in stellar imagery. The cosmic connection passes through us; potentials lie within. Exploring the seven directions, N-S-E-W, above, below and within, revealed indescribable comprehensions and unremembered states. Unique experiences produce unique responses that excite inquisitive openness. Awarenesses and consciousness felt are the accomplishments of living. Even the recognitions of perceptions some label fantasies have the value of unique experience, as with internal reflections on subconscious and preconscious activity. The cosmological constant has countless possibilities from unlimited content. The fundament principles and laws of nature are unknown and the consequences of those known are barely comprehended. Things are understood in terms of physical forces acting under utterly impersonal laws over billions of years with no special role for life. Knowledges directional dynamic has made existence precarious because the worlds command centers hold yesterdays ignorance on modern technologies centralized buttons controlling indiscriminate power.
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Easy distant mental journeys with open questions ended with a loud explosion. The Northern Trade Winds hit the sails with the sound of a cannon being fired; instantly the ship flexed and rose to break from the ocean, full of focused power, physically felt by all.
Storms Torment Makes Sailors

The Pacific is so huge a sailor could theoretically sail the ocean for a lifetime and never see a major storm. Experience has sailors one-step past prepared, ready in neutral standby for changes eventuality. We sailed fast and hard into an intensifying mid-ocean storm as we sailed into the higher latitudes. The storms strength and its larger waves overpowered the air stream and waves patterns of the normal trade winds; natures forces determine nautical decisions. The trade winds are ocean size rivers of unbroken wind. Wave size and speed are directly proportional to wind strength; across the vast Pacifics strong wind currents ripples compound into thick massive sea swells. Over the ocean distances traveled, these long rollers have crest-tocrest periods of separation that deepen into long moving canyons between steep white-capped mountainous ridges. Waves travel in sets of varying numbers with a set-wave that is the biggest. Three different wave patterns were crisscrossing our course. The open-ocean swells of the trade winds had the big fast storm waves at bearable angles but large waves from another distance storms hit at a terrible angle, which stressed both crew and yacht. Waves teach humility. Simultaneous sets of waves from different directions are intensifying uncomfortable sensations, which is equilibrium hell. Sailors personal battles take place while bracing and carrying-on the demands of the ships work; handling difficult and demanding circumstances separates the men from the boys. Nauseating agitation last until the bodys balancing mechanism can adjust to such unnatural movements and abrupt body slams with mental reactions that redefine a life. The monsters of the sea that reign nautical nightmares emerge when numerous wave patterns are running in close similarity, these can form
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the infamous rogue waves. Rogue waves are piggybacked waves from faster moving sets overtaking slower waves, which are short-lived walls of dead. These bad combinations or a single massive pressure pulse wave from any direction caused by natural phenomena are the destroyers among dangers that the yacht designers and captains strive to survive. Sailing is energy propelling force. In the night you feel the energy in the raising walls of darkness moving into yet more blackness. Barely a few feet off the oceans surface, muscle waves breaking or hitting the hull deliver stinging ocean spray or punishing body blows that required fullflex countermoves to hang tough. Movement around the deck requires full-body strength, one hand for the boat and one hand to hold on along the high side. Climbing the rigging is pure high-adventure. Potent risk in coordinating survival demands every faculty be in centered balance for the abrupt movements of random conditions. Such focused efforts and executions awareness creates intense strengths. The physical aptitudes of the worlds greatest athletic performances are forms of gymnastics, which makes the smooth storm-riders of bluewater sailing some of the ultimate athletes. The recurring storm waves consumed the crews consciousness. Waves hit the yacht every minute or so for the many minutes in 24-hours as the storms fury lasted for about a week. Hitting a wave wrong can cause the yacht to stop just like hitting a wall. We were without solid rest and mercilessly beaten into indeterminable fatigues by the relentless forces, which threw us about mentally and physically. Becoming stronger mentally and physically or being psychological damaged was the participants choices. Long bluewater cruises and their storms are the casting fires of sailors minds. The concentrated efforts of sheer insignificance, amidst the fury of natures massive forces and the enormity of the universe cause the light of the sailors soul to change as the personality reviews a repentant life. Exacting experiences handled in demanding challenges under every conceivable circumstance validates perseverance furthers, and aware selfreliance is the survival code of conduct. Bluewater sailors are unassuming individuals at sea as veterans of countless survival battles with nature; most weary gentlemen, only diminish by their personal tendencies and indiscretions ashore.
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The storm waves faded as the front finally passed and the strong trade winds returned that drove growing mid-ocean waves. Strong ocean conditions over the stern are the high point of excitement in bluewater sailing. Riding the unison of natures wild forces in a custom yacht is an ultimate in longterm spectacular thrills. High-adventure perfection standing on the bowsprit of a full-rigged sculpture of design, surfing designs ultimate performance across moving cliffs of water cleansed my mind and expanded my horizons. Riding the cutting edge of awareness pierces the consciousness of ones being is surfing lifes concluding embarkations.
The Sailors Ode Stargazers Reflect Visions of So Much With So Little

This downwind leg of the voyage was ideal sailing, which lighter conditions underscored. The helm had warm winds whispering to the mind talking; we were gliding over a hued sea with no mental road maps just dancing wind trails blowing perceptions, psychology and time away. Intelligent shipmates disconnected from cultural roots in fluid motion within the extremes of human endeavors are cognizance explorers, outriders blazing the periphery of consciousness. Intellectual journeys far beyond civilizations charts of the farthest reaches of the furthest sentient created a bond of positiveness in self-uncoverys discoveries. Even at the worst of times, GBs earnest purpose and motivational spring was compassion not ego. He smiled at lifes strangeness and changes surprises. Sophistication has no mental-lying. Intellectual eclecticism toward ever-greater awareness and fuller potentials was his spiritual quest. The challenges of enthusiastic inquisitiveness taken as far as conceivable into the excesses of the mindscape were conversations that took a lifetime of preparation. His conceptual inferences ascribed a cosmic reality to lifes manifestations of energy and man its realizing stardust. To him God was about life; religion was about living. Theology concerned the parameters of sociocultural philosophy and science the matrix of existence. His spirituality connected to God without agendas and psychogenic motives. We talked about the philosophical influence
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of art and scientific knowledge that is necessary for individual clarity. The minds frontiers past the abused psychology and perception jungles takes intellectual machetes to clear and awareness to cross, which than opens the profoundness of inner journeys shared. The human races one people are thoughts with cosmic trajectories that flare like comets on stellar winds across the universe with flickering colorful beacons amidst the dark seas of black space. The heavens are filled with the cosmological constants boundless possibilities that our cosmic human race use none of, beyond the focus of pray. Cosmic images were his holy pictures, modern icons capturing unrecognized wisdom. Divinity is mans unifying thought, the ideas of references that transcend all thinking. The universe simply exists, as divine purpose guides us in the dance beyond being. The Great Spirit of the life force is the deepest identity found inside each and all, the bursts of energy events. His modern imagery was God is the unity, the Son exists where the mind comes out of the brain and the spark of life is the Holy Spirit. Angels are the good efforts of people, and Freewill is unrestricted potentials. While the individual is fully responsible for Freewills decisions, one has limited responsibility for the consequences of biased imprintings and psychic manipulations mindblindedness. Religion maintains the rituals of mythological participation, as well as being the arbitrator of central questions and the facilitator of humanitys obligations, not its history as a middleman elite. Karmas law of cause and effect are words to describe perceptions, applied to the influences of human preparedness. Karma is not selfpunishment but livings responses, as one creates ones actuality. Personal karma is created by the consequences of personal actions, reactions and inactions because influences are the result of what you have done or not done, for and to yourself. The under-recognized positive side of Karma is it is changeable, not permanent. External influences are the complicaters. Kingdom come has no accounting process for time everlasting because living is a continuous performance of reciprocating participation, reflected back by personal wisdom or the consequential voids of unknowns and unknowables. Accepted destiny is a perception prison profiteers utilize.
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Biology is the record of the creation of life and that, which has influenced life, as we know it up to this time. Everything is not made of small units of material but small pulses of energy. The simultaneous interconnectiveness of particles of energy and waves of energy dynamics in the balancing of negative gravitation energy and positive matters energy has the universe dancing along the space between open and closed geometry. The fabrics of life weave with threads of intricacy because all is relevant; this makes accepted and intentional inabilities the worst atrocity against self and humanity. Eden is here; our earthly experiences decide purgatory because a person co-creates his heaven or personalizes a hell. GBs crystal energy matched the distinct clarity of clear moonless nights. When the unique wavelength of starlight arrives from the deepest matter of the universe, a cosmic-light shrinks the cold blackness. His brain understood everything with interest, but his life was on an independent flight plan, separate but not disconnected just different. The problems, warnings and fears were conceptual echoes. His journey was to explore vastness, a cosmic-sailor cruising on thoughts so simple, yet so potent. And yours? Its less than a decisions difference that sets heaven and hell apart. In modern terms, we are a medium of energy, a universal light-like force experiencing energy and potentials, innocent of dimensions without spatial or temporal limits across the universes all-pervading force in the common cosmic dance of creation and evolution. Life is the concentration of potential energies, the free-flowing connections of finitude to infinitude, which flows in elemental harmonies of the elements of vibration that compose the universes overtones.
Aloha a Symbolic Word Capturing a Civilization and Its Poetry

Maritime lore says when bored, study the nautical charts; this develops the invaluable asset of reading geography and its determining
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influences. The cruise across our stretch of the Pacific to Hawaii took weeks at sea. Bearing down on an inordinate high cloud formation in the rich blue on blue vista with uniform cloud lines gave way to a growing dark dot off the bow beneath dominating clouds on the horizon. The next sunrise had the Big Island of Hawaii and the Island of Mauis growing silhouettes; these mid-ocean mountains punctuated this lifeventure, eventually filled the horizon as the schooner neared. The Pacifics massiveness made my insignificance self-evident and size totally relative to the focus of perspective. Hawaiis 125 islands are mostly uninhabitable and stretch 1,200 mile to Midway, which is the oldest and sits half way between Tokyo and Honolulu. The Big Island is the newest and composes about 40% of all the South Pacifics landmass. These newer easterly islands have less erosion so greater height. This altitude divides the islands sharply into wet green windward and desert tan leeward sides. The islands are massive volcanic mountains that rest on the ocean floor with summits of 12,000 feet above sea level for Mauna Kea and over 9,000 feet for Mauis Haliakala. The yacht entered Hawaii down the Alinuihaha channel between these mountains with their steep narrow walled v-shape valley that generated powerful Venturi winds and massive waves in normal conditions. The name Alinuihaha means five times greater because the conditions in the channel are five times heavier than the conditions in the channels of the other islands. The days heavy winds and large open ocean waves made the run a dramatic and impressive entrance. We sailed hard across collapsing peaks above mountainous cliffs on whistling winds out racing avalanching white thunder with roaring echoes. Soaring in screaming motion before a consuming chaos was an adrenaline pumping over the edge surfing adventure. When we crossed the distinct wind line on the leeward point of Maui we experienced a total break from riding uncontrollable motion to calm serenity. The adrenaline was still pumping, at the same time feeling becalmed from flat seas and light wind in the lee of Haliakala. In the stillness, my body vibrated an excitement that had a deep smile connecting my mind and spine.
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On our sail to Lahaina, we parallel Mauis patchy tan and green leeward coast, a pair of swimmers appeared on our course line about a third of the way to Lahaina. The crew played the sails out as we drew closer, slowing sufficiently to pull them aboard the low side. Sailors who have not seen a woman after a long voyage, do not miss one arm grabs. The ladies were literally lifted and swung aboard one-handed by James and David. The distance to the beach took a second look because it was flabbergasting, how far offshore they swam. The long distance was beyond any conceivable idea that would have ever entered my mind, much less attempted. The crew was totally engrossed by two shimmering mermaids, whose powerful eyes penetrated us while their bright smiles spread happiness. The yacht headed up the coast for the old whaling port of Lahaina. This roadstead with its open-ocean mooring had limited protection, but in the middle of the Pacific it was relatively safe with an anchor watch, which would keep the yacht from dragging anchor and hitting the beach or drifting to the Philippines a few months away. The ladies said Lahaina was a quiet old town, whose loudest days were during the latter part of the 19th century. The introduction of powered vessels and the development of Honolulu made Lahainas function redundant. Back then, the whaling port entertained a hundred ships at a time. The crews that pass its pier were wild and crazed men because shore leaves were rare occurrences on whaling voyages. Whaling ships voyages were for whatever time was necessary to fill cargo holes with whaling oil, some lasted for five years at a stretch. After which they sail back to New England to buy the family farm. These ocean hunters crisscrossed the Pacific numerous times yearin, year-out between Antarctica and the Arctic Circle from Asia to the Americas following the trans-ocean migrations of whales that swim from Hawaii to Alaska in a month. After years of constant sailing, the return leg meant a second trip around the tip of South America with its infamous foul weather, then up the full length of the Atlantic Ocean to the ships homeports. These whaling voyages were the foremost journeys under sail ever taken on such a large scale in both in the number of ships involved
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and distances covered. No other nations commercial sailors or navies ever came close to these famous Yankee sailors on their whaling ships. The story explained the knowing eyes. The ladies then told us stories about the Alii, the islands aristocracy. A royal prince learned of Christianity from the visiting captains. His search for greater knowledge led him to seminary studies on the mainland. There he invited the first missionaries to teach the islanders in the hope of ending the native aristocracys custom of cannibalism. The ultraism of this privileged group had such absolute power over a commoners existence, family and property; they could confiscate his harvest, have his wife, and take his daughters, while serving him up for dinner. The missionaries succeeded in stopping this ultimate in elitisms superiority perversions and traditional extremism. The missionaries offspring just cannibalized the islands by land devouring ownership. The Hawaiian King paid off his poker debts with real estate measured from shore to mountaintop. In time, the USAs marines secured the entire Kingdom for the new owners. We got our land legs, took on supplies and spent our days making easy repairs. The people were as friendly as imaginable. The Hawaiian alphabet has twelve letters. This made the words easy to pronounce and spell but confusing for the enthused novice with so many shared meanings to the same sound. These sounds were symbols that captured feelings and pictorial images, which had an influence and affect more than rational definitions. Meaningfulness amid natures splendor makes many words poetic songs. The Aloha Spirit has an aesthetic mindfulness that conceptualizes a potent meaning and grand metaphor. Poetic impression and suggestive style that share the oriental way of structuring words that can be used as nouns, verbs or adjectives. The sequence of the words used establish the emotional content desired, not the grammatical rules using precise abstract symbols and logical thinking to represent clearly delineated concepts as in English. The Hawaiians are not a demonstrative people and use songs to pass on their culture, history and insightful expressions for the events important to daily living and life. Very early one morning, Lahainas harbor was
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filled with a flotilla of small local boats, all decorated in tropical flora. The people were dressed in colorful clothes, adorned by countless leis, necklaces of tropical flowers. Gliding in a crystal-light radiating a unique illumination in the morning light were twins wearing numerous leis; they put a few around my neck and invited me to come with them. Not that far offshore the boats circled and the participants were having a good time singing songs. The affair turned quiet, then sad with emotional words yelled across the water in toast, as everyones flowers were cast into the water until flowers filled the surface between the circling boats. The music and songs played became melancholy, accompanied by screamed statements of goodness and greatness. The twins informed me this was a Hawaiian burial ceremony, an ocean funeral for a diver who did not return. Billy Smith was a great man but maybe not always a good man. He lived human weakness with personal indiscretions but his strength of character did not let his actions affect the greatness of his being. On the return journey of the flotilla to the pier, the girls shined the pure grace of pleasant beauty. The friendship of the V-twins, Martha and Jennifer, had the presence of perfection, love given love received; the Aloha Spirit is shared love lived.
Oceanic Adventures Inspire Hawaiian Naau Harmony and Focusable Power

Sometime before we departed Maui, after my anchor watch, a plan developed not to lose a future memory by an unfulfilled opportunity. To be young in Hawaii means adventurous athletics. It seemed a good start to take a swim in from the schooner and a walk along the coast to Kanapalii for a dive from Black Rocks high cliff. On Kanapalii beach, a man named Bernardo prepared to enter the ocean to skin dive. He told me he wanted to catch some octopus because he had been invited to a Japanese friends wedding the next day. To the Japanese, octopus was an expensive delicacy, so this would be his gift. In describing his dive to a reef offshore, he mentioned it was at least 60 feet deep with a sand bottom below the cliffs. So, through the shore break he swam until his head was a dot far
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offshore. Splashes on the surface marked each dives length. Watching dramatic athletics got my curiosity aroused about the depth. A few steps into the water put it well over my head. Swimming out and diving often, the bottom grew more difficult to touch. Bernardo on a deep reef beyond the cliffs base was an ocean master. The high dive from the cliffs was graceful, my bond with the ocean peaceful. Afterwards, on the beach, my positive stillness appreciated the different waves sound as they slapped and harmonized while rolling across the sand up the beach. Bernardos return broke my contemplation. A line of octopus hung from his thin three-foot long metal rod bent 90 degrees at the end for a few inches. On the bottom, he would find holes in the reef with rocks piled in front of them, which the octopuses gathered to block the entrance for protection from predators. My assumption was the metal rod was used to kill them in the holes. He explained using it to annoying tease the octopus until they came out of the hole to attack. These octopuses were over six feet or more across. When an octopus attacks, it latches on to his body, so he had to kill the octopus before the many suction cups attached to their eight arms were activated, which allows the powerful octopuss parrot-like beak to bite deeply at-will. Blood attracts sharks, complicating an already hazardous adventure. Bernardo had six octopuses on the rod and showed the wounds on his arms where some suction cups grabbed hold before he could kill them. I asked him how he used the rod to kill them with the other octopuses strung on the rod. He said he did not use the rod. He would wait until an octopus climbed on him and just before the pressure started from their suction cups, he bite the octopus between the eyes to kill it. He smiled at my wide-eye expression recognizing to all this was being done offshore in deep water. He said that deep spear fishing was impressive. What is that? Spear divers free dive to as much as 150 feet by filling their sinuses with water and using a rock as dead weight to pull them down deep fast. Instead of a baited hook, they use a spear gun attached to a line on a big fishing reel with a one-foot rod. The diver waits until the
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choicest big fish swims by and spears it. Then the reel is used to let the angry fish run to the ocean depths. While the line plays out of the reel, the diver goes up for breaths. During the fight the diver is pulled through the ocean, until the fish tires and can be taken aboard the divers small boat and killed, another dangerous battle in itself. Hawaiians connect with the water as a friendly spirit and have no fear toward the ocean but plenty of respect for its energy and the dangers of disrespect. They swim and move in the ocean with quiet efficiency, unessential noise or unnatural movements cause vibrations, which attracts the attention of predators; sharks are treated like big dogs. The thought of that these big fish speared and fleeing through deeper water in panic attracting even bigger deep ocean predators, where thoughts that gave pause and an involuntary head movement of astonishment toward these most adventitious of serious big-game fishermen. Proximity sets the truest interpretations of adventitious living. Men and women surviving the most demanding circumstances and surpassing the ever-increasing challenges with quiet confidence is a remarkable defining style. Participants in high-adventures and lifeventures worst feature may be the lack of rational restrain, which seems due to adrenaline needs and no previous references. Astute independent individuals selfexpressions operate beyond normalitys conventional wisdom with its fears defensiveness and self-deceptions projections that protect the social mask and support its performances.
Ecstatic Tropical Latitudes

Connections and sensitivity to nature are the specialness of tropical living. One notices the mildest change in atmospheric conditions from the slightest temperature change felt on the skin to the faintest shifts in the winds direction off the lightest breeze on hair follicles or the whistle in the ears that tells the winds direction. I felt a dj vu on board watching another long contemplative sunset. A fresh stalk of bananas had been my only calendar. As the last bunch of bananas dwindled, I realized a week of perfect summer days and nights had passed, with the same daily
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temperature and soft breezes that made for the same sensations from pleasurable doings. Time flowed in a smooth tropical rhythm for me as everyone was occupied doing something somewhere else. My living was a harmonious solitude with long swims and body surfing massages. This dissipated the nervous tension of my flashes of existential anxieties that let me understand the different mind states in livings perfection. These produced an open still center in the atmosphere of being. During the long inspirational sunrises and contemplative sunsets, the cosmosynthesis of eternity was experienced, which is the function of consciousness. Eternity has nothing to do with time or dimensions but connections to the transitional vibration of energy in the infinite of nowness.
Nature Orchestrates Hawaii

On our sail to Oahu a small group of local passengers came along. Daybreak on the leeward side of Maui was in the cool shadow of the crater of the Moon. We glided over the glass-surfaced water, propelled by a light deck-long drifter sail that billowed out from a high, soft offshore breeze. We sliced nature in a flowing ease, a stones throw from the shoreline heading toward the Pailolo Channel. The deck was shipshape; time to lay back and take pleasure from the moment. A full sailbag against the mast was a comfortable resting-place where peace of mind relaxed into being content in the now. The breeze ever so slowly freshened, as I rested in the privacy that is light wind sailing. A nautical symphonic composition surrounded me, the puffs of wind drummed off the sail and whispered through the rigging in a rolling harmony due to the yachts slow pitch and the rhythmic slaps on the hull from the cutting wake. Listening with unfocused eyes, a tonality connected my emotions to the sounds of the boat functioning and the passengers voices, which sang the notes left out of the black and white keys. It was a high melody of openness that soared, carrying me aloft. After the passengers were settled and comfortable, they unpacked
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their instruments and played traditional Hawaiian music. Accomplished musicians are like other accomplished individuals, unknowns who capture and maximize lifes moments without need of notice for well-deserved appreciation. Fortunately, this opportunity was shared. My relaxed eyes eliminated the focal points, which rested my mind; colors became impressionist sensations, which conveyed the aesthetic component in the nature of things for their own sake. Impressionisms visions and the pleasurable musics smooth expansive sound flowed with the easy comfortable pace of this tropical mornings perfection. The music was cords scored across the volcanos vast wind-swept canefields in swaying colorations of varying shades of greens and shadow grays. Panoramic tempos and accented rhythms of overlaid colors that fast flowing windlines blended into the dance of wind blown cumulus clouds. The magnificent shipboard vista was a graceful dance of natures forces in visual forms. It was a massive canvas for a lifes most majestic landscape portrait. Encompassing dimensions of nature-size brush strokes in colorful movements that were framed in sky and ocean blues with a horizontal line of tan sand. The vibrant greens ran up the volcanos broad base to the narrowing deep vertical lines of darkening purplish valleys, which majestically lifted my eyes to the clouds whiteness. The suns brightness reflected a brilliance of clarity that bowed my eyes. A sparkling rainbowed wisp of clouds was a bejeweled crown.
Big Wave Rhythms Wind Wanders Melodies Tropical Hawaiian Harmonies

Solar heat drove powerful Venturi winds down the volcanos deep vertical lava flows and out across the beach onto the sea, setting darkening windlines ahead along islands coastline. The changing wind conditions increased sharply as we approached the channel causing us to change the sails for the strengthening conditions. At Black Rock, the sails dissected the first heavy windline; the yacht flexed as each sail firmed up and the rigging hardened. The darker windlines of stronger winds punctuated the
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oceans surface at each valley. These changed the musicians tempo to the sway of the palm trees lining the beach below the lava valleys. We cut across the Pailolo Channel to the north coast of Molokai, which put us on a smooth downwind run along the islands north shore with its miles of green cliffs and numerous waterfalls. Dramatic nature was interrupted by its tragic leper colony set on a low isolated peninsula protruding from the islands high cliff face; splendid beauty for heavily burdened lives. The musician had stopped playing while crossing the channel. A passenger described the colony as beautiful humanity and asked GB to run close and slow by the colony. While passing along the beach, the group played moving songs from the heart. Across the channel, between the end of Molokai and Oahu, we had full-rigged surfing across steep muscular channel waves, until Diamond Head was rounded. There the blue Pacifics white reef breakers ran up to sandy palm-lined beaches with a background of rich mountain greens to the shrouded ominous dark gray summit. Hawaiis beauty is the harmonious variety of dynamic nature, whose overwhelming impression comes from the immediate feel of up-close accessibility that has an intense intimacy. The yacht entered the Aliwai basin and found an empty slip on Tpier, the transient dock for Southern Pacific fantasies and around the world ambitions. Wanderers plans are fluid and malleable; many made permanent transiting into an art form. GB checked the crew into the Royal Hawaiian Hotel, the royal familys cabana on the beach. The pictures of this beach inflamed the dreams of the mainlanders, which generated the rebirth to the international tourist industry. The earliest peaceful international tourist industry was the Middle Ages religious pilgrimages around Christendoms shrines across Europe, which the continents continuous military campaigns eventually ended. Back then, it took over a month to walk from Paris to Rome; Hawaii is a long voyage away from everywhere. Wealths decisions brand the possessor. GBs casualness had style and confidence. His class had the aware experience that traveler-residents gather. He took the boats laundry to the hotel and had it all cleaned. He rented the Kings suite. Hawaiians are very big people. The Kings bed was the largest ever seen by me much less slept in. Rare and expensive
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oriental antiques decorated the royal grass hut on the beach, which was much more enjoyable than the numerous times I spent sitting on the British royal throne, while staying in the Royal suite on the Queen Mary. The crews braking up party was held at a traditional Okinawan restaurant, where patrons eat what the waitress brings, then pay what the patron considered the meal was worth. The restaurant was the hungry sailors feast of happiness that bottles on the table enlivened.
Hawaiis Culture Altered Human Consciousness

The Polynesians are originally from Southeast Asia and the first great ocean explorers. Over centuries, Polynesian migrants paddled and sailed in catamarans across the largest most desolate geological feature on the planet, the vast southern Pacific. Much later, these islanders descendants migrated over 2000 miles from Tahiti to Hawaii, around 350 CE. Except for the luxury of the Pan Am Clippers to Honolulu, the only way to and around the islands was in accordance with the schedules of ships. Visitors stayed for weeks, so they acclimated themselves to the islands open calmness. The Aloha Spirits warm openness generates a comfortable friendliness that delights in approachability. Walking the beach in front of Honolulu, a person could approach anyone and strike up a meaningful conversation that continued daily over weeks. Attractive women who are approachable are a pleasure to a man because you never know the qualities you will meet. The unapproachable belles are just scanned for impressions. At the beach, one man stood above mere mortal man, like a passing comet in the night sky. Duke Kahanamoku was the ambassador of the Hawaiian culture. He was an Olympic champion and screen celebrity. His performances introduced the art of surfing to the world on the biggest waves most of the audiences ever saw. His infectious happiness while surfing said more than words ever could. The ocean wisdom captured in the Dukes movies transmitted a profound mastery that had ramifications worldwide. Idealistic images of
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paradise living required no translation or explanation. These visual dreams changed man and societys perceptions of long-held taboos towards going into the water, fears deeply rooted in most cultures ignorance, superstitions and beliefs. The Hawaiian cultures lifestyle of fun and pleasure in, on or under the ocean brought social changes of evolutionary proportions for traditionbound people around the world. The athletic mastery of individual Hawaiians with the forces of nature on mid-ocean island bestows a mature confident contentment. These enthralling islanders well-adjusted living and satisfying way of life amid tropical splendor is the islands charisma.
Hawaiis Big Waves Resonances a Rolling Thunder That Humbles

Waves are the Hawaiians spiritual fountain. Hawaiis myths and ethos of ocean legends are adventurous tales of fearless athletic and romantic individuals. The effect on oneself from the mental and physical energies experienced in total immersion, whether maximum performances demands or harmonious executions are potent and unique. Waves are recurring patterns of spiraling energy with undulating motions of curving fronts and cresting peaks with subtle variations. The energy of waves are sensations felt and moments had. Waves take knowing decisions that the art of surfing accent. The three sizes they come in are onshore, in them and illusional, those steepraising walls measured by vanities. Waves of massive dimensions release such power upon impact, the earth resonates with a deep baseline vibrations that make you respect and admire those committed to riding them. Waves peeling off points in palm lined bays, surfed from a moored yacht for luau weeks with dancing beauties were the pleasures of paradise. Watermen guided me to feel the forces in the experience of big waves that quiet and empower. Nature instills confidences respect, not fears panic. Panic kills not the water or marine life. Panic is the blind confusion of psychological over-reactions. Wave adventures demand the focused concentration of survival that
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eliminate distractions, whether unconnected psychology or disconnecting emotions. Seriousness generates awarenesses and power, where relevance is nowness, while functioning in interconnected simultaneous of oneness. Experience in dangerous circumstances builds confidence, which creates explicit advantages that resonate into living.
Rainbow Days, Tropical Evenings and Moonbow Nights Aloha Oe

Board surfing sunrises, body surfing or snorkeling afternoons with awe-inspiring women on sunset cruises provided waves of fun days where time became suspended in lifes energy. The Hawaiian cultures ocean wisdom enriched my being and sparked a continuing rejuvenation. Waves are the planets pulse as the winds are its breath. Swimming is a gliding dance in weightlessness, which cleanses the minds dirt and massages the hurt that restores harmonys functioning rhythms that surrounds a stilled centered mind. The inner universes nowness and oneness is a spiritual companion, easily felt in waters many buoyancies. One day, I shared a walk on the beach with an archetypal old sailor named Stan, who spent years in Tahiti and the South Pacific, spent hours telling me wisdom escapades and nautical yarns. He came from the interior of the north, where he built a boat in his backyard part time over years, then trailered it to the nearest river flowing south sailing into his tropical dreams. Stan, having pure uninhibited fun in the days when tropical women went topless with sarongs and danced the real hula for the fortunate. Then one day, he wanted to do something else because fun had become a routine; a jadedness from the loss of appreciations. So, he sailed around Asia for years then settled in Hawaii. As we watched a pair of tropical beauties walk past; I laughed with uncertainty at his words. Such a great life becoming stale seemed ridiculous, it did not sound right; we hear what we want. He noted my disbelief and smiled. Then I mentioned that the beauty of women enthralls a mans very existence. Stan said its not the beauty its the man. As some mainlanders sat next to a group of Northern Asian
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tourists and locals on the beach, I commented on the various skin complexions of reddish-brown tans, yellowish-bronze tans and tanner tans. Stan said Asias vast cultures and people have yet to penetrate our culture superioritys self-absorption. Cultural arrogances prejudices and biases are with everyone everywhere because weakness needs them and power uses them. Beneath Asian many external differences lie reactionary philosophies. These have religionized elitism, traditionalized ethnic hatred and institutionalized racial supremacy over dynastic millenniums. Yet the people still created such useful originality and produced incredible aesthetic values and some of the worlds finest arts along with so many fundamentally important innovations and technological advancements the techniques, implements and products seem natural.
Months of Island Time Become Yesterday

Serene moments on sunset sails opened my quieted mind. Opportunities that touched the connection of the universes deepening horizons of vibrations into eternity. One day, while catching a Michelangelo sunsets, Stans sharp perspective provoked me into a serious state that I had to clarify. Beautiful solitude and nonstop causal fiestas were cultural ways of life. The good times had spontaneous regularity that would only end due to outside encroachments. Appreciating livings experiences and lifes opportunities made the flow of unsought pleasures easy living among wonderful people, but my constant fun had become self-indulgent entertainment. Some restless sensation drifted about in calm moments that keep me wondering. All the ugliness brought to light by my lifeventure and its assessments hardened me psychologically, but not socially. Blatantly obvious ideologically purposed hypocrisy, failures layered disorders, and irreligiousness are due to continuous gainful behaviors due to content ignorances silent support for problem profiteering. Desperationados who abuse potentials and aggressively sustain poverties triggered my hatreds and assailed my humanity. My nautical centerness had me acknowledge
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the nave fools and grasp greeds practitioners and shareholders of misery as pathetic losers, no matter the theatrics of denial and orchestrated songs of deception. Awareness of my doing and personal priorities forced me to face my actualities, as an ethical man roaming the dimensions of the mind confronting the knowns, unknowns and misknowns, while acknowledging the unknowables. Absorbing experiences penetrating lessons and esoteric knowledge from conscious expanding adventures hold rewards with the recognitions of living fully. These interesting times were symphonic inspirations of living. Integritys ethical obligations are a success built on personal growth, which expands the potentials and vistas of life; which are values shared by those strong, able and aware but belittled by little minds inabilities. Decisions had been made with faith based reasoning. A freighter was scheduled to sail in a week. One more farewell round of Hawaiian style before I would be a fading memory. Hawaiis harmonious ocean culture made me an emissary by enthusiasm for its ecological ways and Aloha Spirit. GB had a Hawaiian group in my stateroom early and the party was fun until the crew pushed my friends down the gangplank that was immediately disconnected. I had hugged GB and told him I loved him, just as I always have with my parents and those dear because each goodbye is too often the lost opportunity for the last good-bye that gives the peace to eternity. This was a known forgotten and a lesson relearned in the conflicting emotions of Briens departure. My departure from beneath Hawaiis Aloha Tower, that beacon of sophisticated individual sanity amidst the elements of natures uncontrollable forces. Over the stern of my Panam bound freighter, the sun broke through the sunset clouds and crowned the island in rainbows. Hawaiian folklore says if your Aloha Leis are cast upon the sea departing the island, you will always return. Sharon, a fellow passenger, was deliberately casting her neck full of leis one flower at a time with meaningful tears running down her beautiful face. In pure earnestness she sang a soft song of poetic Aloha. We shared our passionate feelings with champagne as our leis went upon the sea. We became quiet alone together in heavy emotions. Then
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the clouds opened on the horizon in time for a green flash, we wanted our wishes sealed with more flowers but none were left. In the perfection of the moment, I removed my brightly colored, flower-filled silk shirt, my finest lei and had her cast it with love upon the Pacific hues with a new faith in local legends. This brief connected moments cadence of Aloha was amazing poetry upon the sea of lifes changes that had made me a stronger and better man for many reasons. Night fell as Diamond Head disappeared. The next morning, a quiet excitement was felt that built daily. I was being drawn back home.
Life is a Self-captained Voyage

Commercial vessels are so contrary to the fluid harmony of sailing. The ships bow plowed straight parting the waves, rising in suspended anticipation against only the mightiest waves. Mechanical powers bruteforce turned the giant propellers relentlessly driving this world above the sea forward nonstop. At sea, a change in prop vibration sets the nervous system reverberating for nervous reasons. One evening on the bridge after the navigator shot his celestial fix, he mentioned that Miami is closer to Panam than Mxico City. London to Rome is about Panam to Caracas. I then asked him about other interesting geographical distance perspectives. He mentioned off the bridges wall size map of the world: New York City to Washington D.C. is London to Paris, Cairo to Jerusalem. NYC to Chicago is Buenos Aires to Santiago, Tokyo to Seoul or Paris to Rome. NYC to Miami is Miami to Caracas, Berlin to Athens, Beijing to Hong Kong. NYC to Caracas equals D.C. to Mxico City or London to Moscow. NYC to London equals Mxico City to Buenos Aires. NYC to New Orleans equals Mxico City to Tijuana, Madrid to Berlin or Bogot to Miami. NYC to LA is farther than Madrid to Moscow and a little closer than Dublin to Jerusalem. Tijuana-San Diego to London is about equal London to Hong Kong. Tijuana-San Diego is closer to Tokyo than Madrid. Then he said geographys necessitarianism probably determined most history, economics and social customs.
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He was a highly educated man with insightful perspectives he generously shared. His habits of 3-packs a day and pots of coffee until he can get to a bottle said other things. The silent afflictions of substance reactions did not interfere with his functioning but mediate his living. It seems the worse the behavior the easier the habit. Biological susceptibility, psychosocial vulnerability and psychological dynamics complicate behavior patterns. Even the weakest habit is difficult to break, which is the reasoning behind man being defined as a creature of habits. Personal purgatories are the loses in damaging existences. He was another victim of dependences or overdependences addictions, those permanent habits with aggressive attitudes. Man has an ordering to his behavior patterns, which are his decision-makers that cause daily psychological dynamics to be oriented and restricted to a few repetitive influences, as the habits of ignorance generate repetitive thoughts.
Life Itself Assesses Our Ideas of Existence

Nurture reinforces or retards nature. Living is about weaknesses and strengths, not inevitability. The bio-psycho dynamics are simultaneously varying combinations of reinforcements, agitations and catalytic interactions. The individual is impacted by the cumulative cross-reacting of environmental circumstances from the uterus to daily grinds and lacks thereof. The psychosocial interplay is complicated by social forces, economic circumstances and the social orders pestilence of deficiencies, which are compounded by ones vulnerabilities interacting with the problems and histories of others. Habits hierarchical strengths are determined by positive or negative behavior patterns developed in response to these dynamics. The best habit is breaking habits. Habits with the repetitious reinforcement of external supports, whether psychological or the chemical affinity of potent substances, usually move onto dependences. Habits repetitive behaviors become hell when layered with pessimistic psychology, whose lonely torment becomes ones sole companion, not the hollowness of loneliness.
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Addictions psychological or physiological overdependence are chronic relapse disorders, as are depression and many other mental illnesses. Relapses are normal and only indicate that more treatment is needed. Substance reactions and disorders are lifelong processes requiring lifelong follow-up treatment. Challenges complicated by unpredictable disruptive behavior disorders that usually lead to an array of aberrant compulsive behavior, as associated with biochemical dependence. Personality traits swing wide during treatment from medicated states to the complications in the withdrawal cycle. All species share a common chemistry they just have different packaging. Sensitivity levels are measured in parts per billion and parts per trillion. Biochemical potency intensifies and complicates health matters because a chemical can easily influences even alter the biochemical reactions in the brain. Psychological states trigger reaction in the bodys biochemistry, which have residual complications that promote illnesses, damage organs and affects genes. New understandings make conditions treatable if not reversible, which make solutions feasible goals. These positive comprehensions are in contrast to ideologist maladies and pessimistic merchants of guilt, whose divine transgressions and moral deficiencies are forgiven by obedience. Medievilisms legacies of indisputable abstractions and status quo beliefs deny, prevent and delay superior understandings resolutions, while fundamentalist hypocrisy buys the latest medicine.
Contemporary Literacies Self-empowers the Individual By Qualifying the Received

Scientism and Modernism call into question the basic categories and methods of traditional study. This undermines the dated premises and all the inferring certainty that follow. Science tries to find what is. Modernism follows the evidence and utilizes what is superior. Ideological hypocrisy and backward perspectives still identify sciences information and advanced modern comprehensions as unreliable. So, obstructionisms ploys of deception, denial, disparagement, depreciation, decrying,
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belittling and out right lies for confusion are used to negate positive consequences and the undeniably as with modern psychology. The science of psychology is a speculative discipline. Psychology relates to the quantum grays of living, those instances of specific fundamental mental activities and interactions. Not the black and white of overgeneralized absolutes either . . . or. Psychology is the descriptive role of personality; a rescue vehicle, which delivers copeability and sanity, which diminishes suffering due to replicable results. Some early psychology was practiced in classical Greek times for post-combat afflictions, which substantiates human sensitivity and wars heinousness that have never mixed or been particularized. Psychological intelligence readjusts behavior, nullifies poisoned encounters and annuls received contaminations. The factual contents of the mind strengthen the individual as self-directing abilities evolve past the comprehensions of received perceptions and purposed motivations. The psychological voyage from moral certitudes self-constrains to flexible openness and tolerance, which frees up the mind control leads to the unlimited potentials of mature intelligence. Freud died in 1939. His new level of introspection and concepts of human psychologys dynamics were speculative innovations, which extended the commonality of the motive-based understandings of ones mental states; these changed the comprehensions of influences on living. Functionings fundamental actions are affect-laden attempts to satisfy biological cravings and psychological motives, the internal causes of individuals responses and behavior. Human behaviors seemingly superficial chaotic events make rational sense when viewed by cravings or motives. Personalities, choices and sins change, but biology and motivation remain. Personal disorders flourish from the lack of motivational self-knowledge and motive-based explanations. Why did you start to put together your actuality philosophy? To a living organism, complexity and change are fundamental; these dynamic essences need a process philosophy not status quo references. After ideologies have served their purpose and are cast aside by experiences facts-of-life and realitys untruths, we become
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adrift in an intellectual void searching in the cruel currents of unknowns. Over time experiences build-up actuality based psychological comprehension usually from pain, what feels right, works better and ages wisdoms. This preferencing replaces the irrelevance of the received philosophical-psychological that formed us. The consequences of conservative contexting and legacies of elitism are responsible for the unpreparedness that cost so much unnecessary waste and damage to our lives and the premature deaths of innocent peers. I am trying to introduce some relevant correlations with contemporary knowledge, so you dont have to overpay. More contemporary literacys best practices strategies.
Bow Riding Cuts into the Future with Penetrating Clarity Stern Riding Facilitates Constructive Moments on Reflective Voyages
Large ships are luxurious traveling hotels with unbroken ocean views that include the enjoyable entertainment of the pods of dolphin surfing on the hulls pressure wave and conversations with interesting strangers. These conversations have a stimulating ease that move from the informative to the needed. The ships rhythmic forward movement and the minds cognition processes have a coordinating harmony upon the sea, as the minds forward flowing thoughts flows into creative ideas. The stern is the most popular spot onboard for crews and experienced travelers. The longer one sits on the stern traveling into the future while looking back through the reflections of life, the more one penetrates the multiple dimensions of the spacial present, where the hows and whys arrive with understanding. Projections expose preoccupations. Involvements reflect priorities. Mental encumbrances and uncontrolled emotionalizing of anxieties and thoughts, whether worries loaded opinions or insecurities ceaseless
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mentalizing on the if-onlies due to inadequacies and guilt need psychological reprieves. Relax the mind, so concentrations focused scope can calm and de-stress. After which centered stillness supplies resolutions. Living is too often sequences of tragic dramas. Lifes tragedies are many-sided with overlapping intensities and compounding influences. The effects overwhelm the fragileness of social educations overinstructed conditioning. Catastrophic situations take place in seconds; the dramatic reactions pain lifetimes and victimize existence. Situational reactions are intensified by the anxiety presence in every disorder and exacerbated by the emotional repercussions due to the painful self-afflictions in the pathology of victimization. Merely grasping the source view of the victim-casualties psychodynamics and recognizing the psychological ping-pong counteracts this vicious cycle because comprehensions strength ends the self-wounding. Comprehensions are one thing; the doing and implications are something different. Question and determine; go over everything until you reach what the meaning does in its various possibilities. Insightful overviews fortify appropriateness, which counteracts the ever-more potent next challenge. Especially unrealized are negatives with positive aspects, like adrenalines compulsions that are often lifestyle indulgences, mine included. Who is to say you are right or wrong? Whos to say Im not? Ismized social values of right and wrong do not holdup well on the response chain of experiences assessments or bio-realities comprehensions. Modern conditions and priorities of events have superceded yesterdays agendumed generalities and the narrow contexting of vested interest. What about survival of the fittest? Tyrannical vested interest politics overwhelmed the greatness of Darwins theory on the complexity of the natural selection processes and evolutionary obligations. His fittest is adaptive adjustments using principles that utilize the most advantageous traits or strategies and the elimination of nonessentials by design. Survival is about the
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most adaptive change in the struggle for existence admit the forces of nature, not a ruthless dominations greed motivated rationale. The debasement of Darwins genius by the status quo and bastardization of his insights by agenda manipulation, such as economic Darwinism, is due to definition control and mastery of the power of theory. Darwin never used the survival of the fittest interpretation. Social Darwin rationales capture elitisms extremism at survival, whose moral legitimizations and ethical justifications has shades of Aristotles natural slaves and the divine rights of the despotic desires. Commands survival is greeds contexting. Humanitys survival is adapting cooperation. Conservatives actions are projected onto rivals. Vested interest manipulates by accusation; special interest blames at-will. The mechanisms of executing power betray every ideologies greatest secret, the reign of powers power.
Dimensional Journeys are Penetrating and Consuming

Far into my voyages, when sleep was the deep rest of a relaxed mental state that somehow opens to some connected dimensions of awareness, an astonishing physical sensation flashed vividly. This awoke me with felt impressions and powerful thoughts of GB. Perplexed by the strength of the disturbance, I began thinking of our friendship. The joy of the relationship was enthusiastic no ego meets inquisitive no ego. Later that day, Jamess telegram said the face with the smile was gone. I recognized the onslaught of a psycholapse, that sudden loss of mental alertness and my first step into depression. When death arrives, strong opinions pass and assessments are appreciated with only the deepest sincere reflections. The presence of remembrances is loves most aesthetic image. Depression is a psycho-reality we all suffer that blackens all it touches. Depression is normally a short-term symptom of some other psychological disorder. It creates a mood characterized by feelings of despondency, a
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sense of inadequacy with drops in activity or reactivity accompanied by pessimism, sadness and similar symptoms. Depression can be present as a symptom of some specific or secondary related symptoms, as syndromes of psychological disorders or as major variation of depressive disorders. The defining characteristic of depression is the lack of interest in the pleasures of life. Psychological and biological depressions reasons and characteristics have a range of variations for the many-hued spectra of life from minor depressive personality disorders to the blackness of serious depressive episodes. These can share a variety of symptoms intermixed and overlapping. The darker the potential complication, the more difficult the adjustments because of many manifestations, notably mental inactivity and physical exhaustion. Depression and disorders affect all the sensitive susceptibilities of human functioning, including personal relations and sexual performance. My depression disorders interfere with and diminish the quality in my living, which was an admission finally acted upon after two days spent in my cabins bed. Normally, I use the Japanese treatment for depression, which involves hard, physically exhausting work for days followed by an equal number of days of quiet reflection in a therapeutic setting. Since I was ship bound, the spacious circular deck facilitated long walks during the day and longer brisk walks late into the night that helped me work my way through my depression. Walking in solitude promotes the possibilities of uninhibited and unrestricted thoughts. Thoughtful walks air out the mind and resolves problems by keeping the problems out of the cure. Another aspect of walking is its contribution to sound sleep, wellness greatest ally. The long walks dissipated my free-floating anxieties and social-personal angers, which helped me deconstruct my depression. The glory of thinking, lifes most pleasant diversion is maximized in peaceful environments. Nature is the easiest place for positive thoughts due to the spontaneous randomness from stimulating surroundings. Selfdiscipline is the reminding of the mind to return to the positive present; this avoids the problems mental intoxication compounded by obsessive rehashing. Self-discipline is a repetitive process for a lifetime.
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Consciousness Has an Appropriate Intelligence

Grandfather, what strengthens the individual? Awareness and unattached groundedness is a neutral openness that yields a calm responsiveness. This state has an intentional momentto-moment attention that puts one in touch with the dynamic of oneself in the moment. Knowing psychological time and space facilitate clarity, which reveals the involvements of the deepest motivations that allows one to reconfigure inadequate notions positively and to grasp new possibilities. Intellectual maturity means one does not have to put up with every situation or need a particular attitude or reaction toward abstractions and circumstances. Health and healing comes from within, my medications are personal quiet time and numerous relaxation techniques and exercises. Mastery is the appropriate correlation of use to need. The rested body and neutral mind allows awareness of the deeper aspects of relaxation, which reveals the minds profound mental abilities, its levels of consciousness and the depths of silences awakenings. Mental calmness efficiency and destressings effectiveness optimize functioning. Psychological intelligence counteract the unnecessary involvements in Doing and Making with the costly effects of constantly reacting to weakness presumptions and responding to projections and the confusion of uninfluenceable activity societys petri dish of busyness. Transitions stresses from societys flaws and our overly psychological vulnerabilities require adapting numerous therapeutic adjustments and maintenance techniques. The lucid connections in complexity put quality into time. Contemporary literacy eclectically scours for empowering information from ancient wisdom to the latest scientific knowledge. Holistic therapeutic practices use poised concentrations, physical fitness strengths and mental calmness unattached self-control to establish daily reprieves, insightful moments and long-term wellness. The unattachment to and groundedness in actuality allows one to replace biased perceptions with profound insights that empowerment the individual for lifes habit of answering back with the unexpected. The
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Orients ancient social wisdom evolved to countered milleniums of elite delusions and the stressors of overpopulation poverties. These welldeveloped quality of life physical/mental disciplines sustain the individual. Techniques that generate positiveness help the individual to persevere through the stresses of negative entanglements and the stressors of unpreparedness. The modern individuals psychologicalphilosophy wisdoms are consciousness-raising quests that self-empower. Such intellectual structuring-in attunes ones inner nature to prevention and optimum behavior, which offsets internal reactions to external aggressions.
In the Beginning were Images and Realizations Then Much Later Came the Words Arbitrariness
No matter how long the last part of a walk is, its always too short because tensions have been dissipated and the calmness allows the creative potential flow. We always do better when we understand expertise is the core of our intelligence, not the summation. Expand expertise broadly and applying it fully. Intellectual Philistines restrict themselves to specialized professional interest and wisdom to a few specific issues within a narrow subject ranges in this Era of Enlightening Knowledge. Individual progress necessitates openness with refinements for greater mastery, which are processes of recognizing connectedness. My ship bound days offered a full-time rejuvenation from a relaxed mind with long periods in silences inexhaustible energy touching my essence in exquisite nature. An opened cleared mind and the focusing event of a promise kept about lifes next voyage from an absent friend was a unique moment. Another interesting impression sensed was a wispy uncapturable sensation of a females mysterious magnetism.
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Scientism and Modernism Bio-basics and Psycho-basics Complex Dynamics and Psychosomatic Mysteries
Scientific literacy is an evolving perspective understanding similar to ones historical perspectives? Educated perspectives give intellectual weigh to thoughts. Ethical questions, not dated reasoning, should concern the scientific understandings of lifes functioning; ethics based on what is known, with biases, wrongs and the premeditated taken into account. Science is the fountainhead of replicable knowns with ever-deeper linkages and farther-reaching interrelationships. The unfolding of this structuring of knowledge dismantles agendas purposes and eliminates normalitys constrains. Functioning in the scientific culture with its theoretical justifications of scientific approximations is intellectually sustaining because one interacts with what it is, not the whys, nor does one dispense with reality due to moral certitudes indisputable truths of unknowables. Science serves mankind well and is not its technological by-products. Science should be value-free but isnt due to greeds small-mindedness and indentured science, which vested and special interests manipulates by constructing all sorts of rules, pressures and expectations. These affectladen influences are why one does not live in science. Sciences superior information is empowering in many ways, especially its usable terminology, ideas and interrelated understandings of the facts-of-existence. The use of these actualities has a burgeoning relevance with immediate rewarding applicability. Sciences revelations have crucial significance, which are establishing the influences that regulate most of our life. These confluences of influences are raising many questions concerning personal strength and control over decisions. There is no Freewill in promiseless nature, and one cannot will eternal youth or death away. Freewill may have a shrinking potency, but in its non-reducible state, it is the ultimate philosophy question.
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So, intellectual maturity, psychological intelligence and scientific information are contemporary literacys modern rescue vehicles with the highest quality mode of survival. In the strenuous adventure of living, contemporary information holds answers not the pseudo-comfort of limiting perceptions. Psychology is difficult to see, so grasp the empowerment of modern conceptualizing using comparison perspectives. Yesterdays notable survival dangers were external, dominating unknowns compounded by beliefs in eternal guilt and personal blame. Todays dangers are unutilized knowns and internal esoteric enhancers. Human progress is configured on the inner nature of the individual, not yesterdays belief-centered institutional necessities. Introspection for fully developed human personalities does not omit the social theory of self because this leaves the individual weak nor believe in the superiority of institutions and their functionaries no matter the title. Sciences validation of the interrelationship of the mental-physical and the psychological interplay makes the potentials of the holistic integrated view very pragmatic compared to Western medicines treatment of diseases as things-in-themselves. This mechanistic model dissects life into parts and substances. While holistic is the sum and focuses on the process of the parts interconnectedness. The psychobiology of the human as a whole entity with physical and psychological interactions has been an unceasing integral aspect in the Oriental philosophies. Holistic wisdom holds that the patients mental state is an equal participant in ones physical health, which can not be separated because they directly affect each other. The body has its own wisdom, and the brain influences life the most. Furthermore, psychological power is seen in the mysteries of the mind from the psychosomatic to being intuitive. Scientific wisdoms and psychological references are daily survival tools and the future guides. Scientific information is a systems order. Social ecologys inner-responses between living things and their surroundings are very important conceptualizations because they visualize an integrated sense, the modern Western terms for holistic. Ecology is integrated sciences for our living planet and lifes organisms. Individual living in an integrated normalcy is an investment that holds
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incalculable benefits and profits. Healthism is the daily health of wellness. The conceptualizing of wellness as the maximizing potential for living emphases prevention but requires individualized responses of proportional responsibility for ones own well-being in a partnership with expertise.
Modernity Acknowledges Actuality Intellectual Responsibility Acknowledges Modernity

Grandfather, in the Real Academia Dictionary one can see the ultraconservative loaded definition of modernism, which starts off as excessive affection for things modern. This is then followed by a quote from a 1907 papal edict that taints the acceptance of modern eras superior knowledge. Dictionaries have biases, its definition control set ideological perceptions. Modernism is about appreciating the new and adapting to changing entanglements and complexity. Modernity is an empowering process that takes more of the world in and develops new forms of courage and endurance. Informationless servitudes identify old stupidness. New stupidness is the misplaced emphasis on partial information and determined conclusions. Social power generates multiple level contributory propaganda that generates its own importance. Eco-injustice generates the poverties that cap lives and dead-ends futures. Modern social attitudes and economic-justices level playing fields supercede imposed povertys ease of effort for privileged inabilities and selective gains for squeeze economics with mediocritys assumptions. High-end economics sustainability correlates to well-compensated talent and raising poverty lines greater purchasing power. While the status quo is sustained by overcompensating under-educated enforcers and overfinanced systematic ignorance. So, the concept modern has an explanatory role. Modernitys ethics and sociocultural values are biased towards progress with equity motivation. Such social honesty is the archenemy
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of powers power, whose darkest secrets are organized inequalitys longevity is sustained by formulated extremisms. Evil delivered by brainwashed inabilities and calculated black psychology. Only the modern is replacing the legacies of serfdom and slavery. Napoleon may have ended serfdom, but it took World War I over a century later to start the final act of the Middle Ages in most of rural Europe but serfdoms last chapters are far from over. The battles to end slaverys legacies will take centuries more, as will the recognitions of domination. What contemporary perspectives counteract the abuses of powers power? Contemporary attitudes pursue the art of living for a mastery of life. Needs and circumstances structure participation. Desires and perceptions inevitabilities construct comprehension. The bio-basics have distinct common sense. Greed is not a moral justification or a cultural value. Inhumanity is usually the impact of institutions selfserving decisions with ideological rationales. Gradualism is the evolutionary process of humanity but the status quos most lethal foe. Price tags are no more than initial offering. Public perceptions are PR packaged opinion. Public perceptions simplistic notions divert attention with selfsatisfying conclusions that create and feed the desired and hide the status quos mediocrity, deficiencies and failures. Ideologies with all-encompassing beliefs are arbitrary abstractions that support the supporters psychology.
Yesterdays Legacies are Perception Prisons Ignorance Makes Prisoners

Modern times are marked by human-centric attitudes and the normality of the unique. Biofrontiers to space explorations unleashed a knowledge era of intellectual awareness that demanded social justice from broad-based democratic citizenship to conscious raising comprehensions. A crystallization of fairness started in the 1960s rebellion for individual expression, progressive priorities and idealistic aspirations. The information existence eras Comprehension Renaissance and its
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artistic sins against the sermon incited a historical impassioned spirit for Humanitys human freedoms, democracys ideals and enlightened progress. This multiple pronged defeat of the status quo is seen in minority civil rights, womens equality, academic freedoms and the placing of ecologys importance and nuclear reality in the national consciousness. Moreover, it gave people the enabling power of advanced technology and a constant stream of what is superior. The sophisticated sensibilities and aware attitudes, which the people of that moment fought with and for, have been proven right by events in every way with incalculable compounding rewards. The consolidating political and social power of ideals acted upon panicked the powerful, whose intellectual inabilities reacted with social pressure suppressions and expediences appeasements. This generations successful questioning of authority and the skepticism of the following generations exposed the house of cards culture and social orders hypocrisy. The psychological shifts by this end of the century generation face the onslaught by uniformity techniques of the cultural information agency and the conformity imposed by the dependence exaggeration agencies, which are just official suppression links on the shackling chain of oppressions. All repressions validate social order failure. Cultural history is a mediated imagery. Orchestrated institutional history has replaced court historians. Authoritarian information adjusters are bottling this eras seismic events in the revisionists Vietnam mist. The extent and expenditures to redefine the military, political and social failure while cooping the incredible Middle Class accomplishments made popular by the end of the century generation shows the small-mindedness of power and pettiness of mediocrity. The contexting, cooping and revisionism by the best bought efforts of credentialed Judas intellectualizing and out-right erasing by official power are image strategies motivated by intellectual weakness and desperations envy. Small-minded ideologues leave nothing for humanity but obediences self-grandeur compared the enlightened perspectives by adventitious wisdom seekers. The eras Chaos Theory and its offspring Complexity Theory not only reflected the times but also may be its greatest contributions.
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Contemporary literacy uses what is superior, which speaks to the truth of humanity. Authoritarianism omnivorous power imposes a fundamentalist status quo. Consequently, the social authority caste of interacting classes with institutionalized self-serving interest and political pets are status quo primitives. Historically, autocracies rule by incarcerating oppressions to stop progress no matter the cost because the ultimate ramifications of progress are not just the undeniable truths but the realizations of the institutional system as problem profiteers due to organized failure.
The Disorders of Power and the Activity of Stress Dissipate the Quality of Life Quietly
Grandfather, wronged and purposed premises cause unsettling and misplaced emphasis in daily circumstances that overcharge human events. The by-product of agenda purposed anything is poor psychological coping. Another psycho-reality is the emotions fed to them, which advertising inflames with all-inclusive symptoms, which susceptibilities neurosis substantiate that are mental states treated by over-medication. A very serious and immediate psycho-reality confronting everyone is the power of the psychosomatic influencing. Isnt psychosomatic just autosuggestion? The psychosomatic is a major psycho-reality. The consequences of the subtle but critical brain/mind interactions are profound. This makes identifying psycho-realities and psychology parasites doing and making a modern need. Psychologys inescapable concepts must be identified and articulated; otherwise the stress of indeterminacy is decimating. Identify the sources of discontent and determine the best practice to manage it away, without the correct conceptualization living will continue-on with agenda responses and groupthink influences. Yesterdays limited social architectures ideological foundation is not able to expand to sustain todays doubling of knowledge every so
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many months. Incompatibility between modern evidence based abstraction and dated systematic agenda biased imprinting is the source of the inexplicable social neurosis, which are both a stress and a stressor. The spectra of existential anxiety are due to unprepared minds and damaged personalities interacting with the social orders purposed functioning. System-centricness is the psychoactive fuel for the psychic pyre. Stress and stressors can be an effect or a cause, which over-influence functioning by activating, suppressing or amplifying. Multiple causing agents and compounding stressors cause stressful livings fatigues, which modifies responses and triggers overlapping vulnerabilities. The lack of understanding across the spectra of stress from uterus stresses and the daily survival stresses to the stress of dying are complicated by constant stressors from the compelled and urbanization to loud noise. Stress many health related problems and stressors intensifying negatives can be summed up as STESS KILLS.
Psychology is the Scientific Culture in Progress Bio-realities are the Over-established Psycho-reality
So, relevance and prevention calculations are best practices empowerment. Relevance needs to be extrapolated and new conceptualizations expressed as with psychology connects every life. There are only leverage points in the psychological realm. Circumstantial variations are determined. Nothing is in fact something. What are some best practices prevention calculations? The individuals golden rules for living well are good nutrition, healthy sleep, positive activity and mental health. Self-discovery focusing starts with labeling personal thoughts precisely, so one becomes acquainted with ones self, and how ones mind works. As you see yourself clearer, your assessments, decisions and responses become more appropriate. The psycho-basics have a proactive Prevention Works perspective.
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Intellectual maturity functions from Free yourself first by knowing thy self, and Protect yourself first by knowing others well. Intellectual maturity minimizes the detrimentals by adjusting the arbitrary to be beneficial. Psychological intelligence recognizes involvements and the sequencing of influences and establishes Where does the problem exist, internal or external, is it influenceable or not, and at what cost. What is bring determined, and where will the conclusions lead? The essentials include the awareness to comprehend the moment and living your empowerment because doubts, fears and intimidation are understood. Awareness and empowering disciplines are modern necessities that must be gathered diligently for tailored effectiveness and expenditure efficiency, while correlating practicality to needs. Self-help therapies and self-defense techniques facilitate selfmanagements optimum behavior. Self-helps best reflexive response is the collecting pause in a centering breath. Self-defense preparedness is an alert neural readiness. Self-management sets positive paths that avoid triggering influences and risky situations, while controlling sensitivity thresholds. The dangers and cost in the psychotic swamps one gets immerged-in makes reading the warnings in the subtle signals projected and motivation statements in behavior modern prevention tools. Why do you say self-management and not personal responsibility? The received is constructed to serve the giver. Its affect-laden perceptions stimulate yesterdays imprinted responses. These earliest perceptions imprinted pass on the initial who we our. Replacing these is an empowerment that reconfigures living. The motivating recesses of black psychology are the distortions of What is. Use the shared existence of human nature for the positiveness it is, and do not underestimate the extent of potential evil in people and institutions. Functioning is constructed with fog machine of confusion to obscure the professing and doing of the What is. Youre lucky the ages of revolutionaries and heretic hunting has passed. Fighting for truth has always been at the core of every revolution. Has the history of honest intellectualizing changed or have the
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thought-adjusters techniques just psychologicalized personal gulags? The masterdom philosophy and its power system with its elitism style, ultraconservatism structuring and functioning medievalism always replay history because authoritarian institutionalists are their own best fanatics. Their us-and-dangerous-them contexting with its concluding beliefs and purposed patriotism always produce victim oppressions, propagandized as being for societys good. The defenses against enemies from the neighbor to the vaporous always translate into institutionalized compliance, permanent conformity and autocratic power, instead of the using the ultimate weaponry sharing the success of progress, which has disempowered every dated belief. Their systems traditionalized status quo stagnation is the most dated therefore very vulnerable; thats the motivating problem.
Ulysses Symbolizes the Lifeventurers

My journeys final boat ride was aboard the shipping agents launch. The long slow ride to shore was a reconnection that felt as if I had passed through centuries. On the bow my comprehension knew the darkness my mind-talked in and measured the echoed stillness of reflection. The moored ships all about seemed silhouetted mysteries, posed to carry forth their occupants to exciting destinations, and for the fortunate unlimited voyages of personal journeys. The nautical life gave me a bluewater sailors harmonies, Hawaiian melodies and my own recognitions. The personal odyssey to actualized individuality is a long, disciplining and rewarding passage that accepts its never ending aspect by internalizing comfort for lifes multiple, simultaneous pulls and occurrences. Experienced understanding realizes what or what not to pursue especially failures small achievements and their over-burdening involvements. Perspective knows the whys and hows. Comprehension determines the dynamics. Wisdom is knowing and doing what is needed appropriately. The walk along familiar streets gave me a powerful feel of conscious
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connections. Biological life forms had procreated in my house; the effort to eliminating them was a meditation that ended in the early morning. My old wardrobe and the unnecessary from simplified appreciations were left at the church. The cafs coffee beckoned and sitting there, as if waiting, was Rex, lovelier than my memories. I focused on her for reasons both sentimental and the attractive spark that always ignited me. Her specialness filled my senses, a rather quiet, exotic, mystery with a charged strength, the attraction that had me join her instinctively. The glowing energy in her eyes absorbed me into a nowness of oneness soul-level recognition. Rexs awareness and the seriousness demanded pure communications. She had the strength of a womans key moment. Our psychological signals sang in the harmonies of attraction. We had to be alone, so as not to disconnect from the intense clarity that being among others in jovial entertainment would cause. She suggested a walk. We glided away from the caf to a spot overlooking the Canal entranceway where we watched the ships underway. Embracing, her eyes looked into me, and I could feel the mindfulness of a relationship as she whispered for a description of myself. After a moments breath, the words flowed. I described a resilient individual scouting out wisdoms for a more appropriate and ethical value system, whose philosophy matures as mortality unfolds. The philosophy in the Hippocratic Oath has open meanings to minimize the tragedies of life. In my life, practicing these ideals has been a vehicle for a lifetime of full participation in the extremes of the human drama. My strength of presence is from hard-fought efforts perseverance, my earnestness from being humbled and knowing success. Im idealistically ethical, clear, flexible and open, while politely projecting the positive with non-personal attitudes and wearing no specific ideology or country of origin. She put her arm around me as she wondered about what made a good couple. The responsiveness to each other. This couplehood is a delicate clay sculpture glazed in the kiln of living, fueled by the alchemize bonding of us. Reading the connecting spaces between the social
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structure protects this fragileness. Relationships are organic reflecting energies of a shared freedom, which are optimized by rendering void ones selfishness. True love has no I want and true commitment has no Ifs. As we embraced, her being and our bio-magnets charged me. Into a radiating openness and deepening eyes, I asked her about herself. GBs starwardness saw the universe as simply existing; God as the ultimate ideal to reference mans thoughts because God like the universe transcends all thinking beyond being. Another victim of cultures female fiction with its uterus and sexploitation referencing and ideological ignorances hormonal damnation. My understated optimism is due the fact if you do things right, they cant get better and having experienced moments of letting-go. My decisions are tailored to personal discovery and creative inspiration. Beliefs? My spirituality is the wisdom of direct participation in the sacred process of life, in a sacred place, this world where we belong. I pursue the harmony of life from the connectiveness of how experiences, individuality and the cycles of nature all relate to each other. Thats very similar to animism. Call it what your understanding grasps. I function with unattached reflections and a full presence in the moment. My poetry is a connected appreciation without triviality or escapism; my art is living, with love my core. And marriage? The poetry and love of relationships depends on how the understandings are composed and conducted. Our sexual dimension is who we are with each other, not our denials. The proper inclusion of sexual matters in living requires talking with thoughtful candor. Gender-equality, sex and sexualitys generating sexual feelings in another person are sensitive and complicated couple issues. Good communication and good sex are directly linked Sex is lifes most fascinating and challenging mystery, but the sexual recognitions in society are demonized hypocrisy. Sex, sexuality and the sensual are profound parts of the nature of things that have been
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sin-uendoed. Sex often has an unneeded obsession/repression pattern because the sensual has been sterilized and disconnected from nature and living, which affects sexual health, a psychological pillar of life. Intimacy is erotic living.
Travel Prioritizes Relevance

She mentioned she had not been through the Canal onboard a ship. So, we retreated to call the Canal Masters office to find out if any yachts were scheduled. Speed determines the transiting schedule, the slower the earlier in the day. Yachts are required to have four crew members to handle lines to keep the vessel positioned correctly in the strong, swirling currents of the filling and emptying locks. Large yachts have the crew required and speed to depart whenever they can double up in the locks with small ships. The port captain was an old friend, who offered to put us on a motor yacht scheduled to transit from Coln that afternoon. He would have the canal pilot take us along, as pilot trainees. We took the train to Coln. The canal was its times biggest engineering project, but as local legend has it more men died building the railroad across Panam than the Canal itself. Each rail tie is said to be a gravestone for a dead laborer, humanitys monuments to the true cost of nation building. Colombians, Jamaicans and men from Barbados were the vast majority, but there were over 40 nationalities involved in these projects. The train ride was quiet and contemplative the slow rhythms over the rails between the oceans through the deadly, picturesque jungle was a deep journey across the apex of our individual emotional lives and we both knew it. Our parallel thought patterns were settling some of lifes most serious questions. In Coln, the Canal Master had the situation organized with the pilot, who was piloting a 60-foot yacht of floating luxury. We boarded immediately and were treated like royalty by the crew as we waited to transit.
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Private cars, boats and airplanes are unique treasures. Lifes true wealth beside health is unmolested independence and mobility. The ultimate affluence is time to luxuriate in the freedom. Self-made wealths paradox is normal for yacht owners. They earned the prize but cant afford the time. Our friendship shared so much empowering philosophy in so few words. The conjoining of a couple sharing travel experiences cuts through insecurities and emotionalitys hyper-sensitivity that cause most relations to self-destruct. Togetherness immediate circumstances charge the atmosphere of intense passions, which demand clear and direct communication to minimize confusion and disharmony because superficial interactions, social awkwardness or the wrong expression shatter dreams. The moments of total openness needed intelligent conversations to cultivate our discoveries of admiration and respect. Such efforts fertilize the comfortable ideals of love. The Turks say books give knowledge but travel gives wisdom. Travelers seek uncoveries and welcome transforming experiences. Challenges faced together stimulate the bonds of clear communication, which are the foundation of long-term friendships pillars committed honesty and sincere sharing. Adventures wisdoms are confirmed by their utility. We trusted each others integrity and forward-looking balanced style. The excitement of full presence in the moment and our supportive peace of mind connected us in appreciation for all the efforts in recognizing lifes perfection. Enrapturous love is a chain reaction of explosive enthusiasm. This gracious woman made complete openness irresistible. The communications intensity screamed amour. I was intoxicated by loves excitements. The cells in my body vibrated a heat that sweated love. The human enterprise of the Canal enclosed by a vibrating jungle was a marvelous setting for our beautiful endeavor to blossom. The yacht moored in Balboa where we departed with deep gratitude to all because we transited our metaphorical canal from appreciative friend to intimate companions, the journey to us. We returned to a clean but empty house that Rexs entry made home.
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Plugging into a Different Sameness

Our intimacy solidified smoothly into a comfortable togetherness, a joint creation that stands alone on its merits as an independent entity of a commitment. The days slipped into weeks that eventually forced us to separate from our serene peace of mind and shared consciousness, enhanced by the random abandonment of pleasurable love; the fuels of togetherness that the fortunate knows as being in love. A visit with Rubn and to the clinic was long overdue. Rubn lived late and rose early but was a slow departurer from bed. We shared coffee in his regally appointed bedroom that was engulfed by a panoramic view from a wall of glass overlooking tropical urban. As his lady friend used he bathroom, I inquired about Andon and how his plan went. He said the Nazis paranoia caused events to be improvised, which made things messy but the bad guys got what they deserved. He and Andon then left Cuba on a tramp steamer bound for Jamaica, where they stayed awhile to put events behind them. Rubn wanted a rested mind before coming home. He changed the subject to Andon. Quince dias after they returned, a frustrated Northerner was complaining loudly in the caf about hating the heat and the boredom of slow sailing; another collapsed tropical fantasies. Andon asked the man about his boat. The owner replied it was a beamy wood sloop, too slow to go anywhere fast enough. Andon asked how much he wanted for the boat. When the amount was stated, Andon said he wanted to see the sloop that was at the yacht clubs dock. He bought the boat for half the price; cash gets big discounts for imagined solutions. So within hours, Andon was the owner-captain of an admirable vessel renamed the Carbievador. Soon after, he sailed away into the sunrise, without any good-byes. His quaint superstition about serious good-byes carried the feel of permanency. An invitation for dinner was passed as his companion emerged. Our friends were invited to quiet casual dinner parties as we moved deliberately getting reinvolved. Our guests all share a sincere happiness for us. Kathryn was the finest; her friendship with Rex was the essence
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of pure. Eduardo with his two wives and a booming clinic made him a busy man with long days and too few hours. Tannia was traveling. Felix came by one afternoon alone, no longer a sad victim of psychosocial blame-guilt-fear mechanics or the burdens of perceptions limitations. He overcame his habits of arrogance and pessimistic social consciousness where the negative is the message and satisfaction is derived from having the worst victims story or a halo for suffering continuous martyrdom. His cleansed mind and clear vision gave him a constructive interpretation and the rewards of good decisions, which radiated optimisms confidence and faith. His conversations had the silent reflective pauses that have profound and dramatic effects on the quality of conversations. The speaker says more, as compared to most talkers who need to hear their voices to know what is in their heads. Generally, the social psychoses of wars events dominated most conversation. These social tensions and anxieties caused our friends to have fewer distractions of wishful sentimentality, trivial diversions and emotional overreactions to secondary matters. This social maturity was a necessary psychological adjustment that diminished the psychological burdens of daily impacts from stressful events. The therapy of sincere communicating was being utilized much more. When Tannia returned, she called immediately and had a lunch organized just as fast. She entered and started to talk to us about Brien in a slow deep voice. They had become lovers and kept it quiet, as so much was lost to the secondary, and he did not want her exposed in case events got out of hand. She felt she should have been more directly honest and matched feelings with actions. Now, she felt so much had become irrecoverable, lost to a separate future because she had held back too much. Rubn joined us and after a simple but passionate explanation of her feelings, he said Brien was right to handle the relationship his way and she could not have gotten involved because institutional power and evil always uses the woman to destroy the man. She knew the truth of this female ignorance vulnerability but was doubtful of the dangers expressed. She was checking to see if it was just a dramatic excuse to leave her without a guilty conscience. So to help her life, Rubn told her what
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happened in Havana; the facts would help her accept events without the damaging sequences of unnecessary emotional scarring. Rex instinctively put her arm around Tannia as Rubn explained us having to flee Havana and not returning to Panam. Separating and departing on separate ships because Brien and myself were targeted for death. Rubns plan made matters even more deadly serious because we would be hunted and tortured to death to find out what was going on. The day after our departure, Herr cabrn was summoned to a hospital room by a message in German from one of his operatives, who had been attacked and wounded badly on a street in Havana. When Herr cabrn arrived at the hospital, he was directed to the injured mans room. Andon kept the driver occupied, and Rubns other associates occupied the bodyguards down the hall in the floors waiting room, where events turned messy and permanent, while Herr cabrn was in the operatives room. When Herr cabrn entered the room he faced the back of the white suited man standing at the patients bedside. He started to talk to the patient, ignoring the man. The patients well-bandaged broken jaw caused sounds without words and unread facial gestures were messages missed. When Herr cabrn approached, Rubn turned in anticipation. Herr cabrn faced a mirror, which staggered his thought process, as Rubn knew it would. The dj vu had Herr cabrns mind working so fast it confused him, a matching white suit, shirts with a black silk tie with the same knot; trying to mentally coordinate the face and place simultaneously. Rubn waited for recognition because this was an execution and he wanted Herr cabrn to know it. When cabrns eyes widen in psychological panic, he was dead and his ego knew it. The shocked expression of wide-eyed death fell across his operatives hospital bed, a convenient witness. Knowing the outcome of what Rubn did to those Nazi agents who tortured and killed was enough. Pursuing my curiosity about the details would be rude and insensitive. He may have executed them deservingly, but that was a question of honor and correctness, not a subject for light conversation. Rubn might never tell the story again. The information gave Tannia a needed positive perspective.
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Communality the Applicable Universals

Respect is esteem and virtue. Self-respect is the striving for a personal standard of values with mature sensibilities and social relevancy. Responsible maturity strives for integritys ethical sophistication. Tropical Americas civility evolved from the world of conquistador feudalism and racial slavery, a culture that creates seasoned adults. Consideration and respect does not talk about or pry into past lives, except when invited. The reasons for privacy are more meaningful and important than insecurities uncontrolled wants. Respect for privacy, directly and indirectly, toward anothers predicaments and circumstances is respect of the others self-respect. Living challenges everyone. Enduring the consequences of ones decisions and lifes perils are difficult personal battles intensified by lifes many demons. The frequency of self-inflicted deaths under so many ill-chosen ways confirms these stalking consequences in the social neurosis inadequacies and ones unpreparedness. Human natures fragility among the deep dramas of tragedies in mans inner theater must be allowed appropriate comfort or the best available substitute. These often have inappropriate self-directed behaviors, which fall into habits that complicate matters in dealing with the challenges of living. If a person tells a novelized story, no matter how weak, stupid or flimsy, that is the story to repeat, either straight-faced or being smart by politely withholding further involving responses. Doubting by questioning the validity of a storyteller, no matter the quality of the fiction only demonstrates the questioners obnoxious ignorance and opinionated attitudes because such superficiality hurts the deeper human necessities. Sophisticated adults have nonjudgmental public perspectives because personal opinions are usually unresolved prejudices. Skepticisms shared with others usually carry counter-productive repercussions. Verbiage indicates the speakers limitations, as interpretations project ones level of psychological maturity and intellectual awareness. Even said humorously, the speaker projections reveal more than is realized, which is always noted and recorded by the quality in the audience.
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Cheap verbal criticism of another mans novel simply demonstrates immaturitys limitations. This shows the self-appointed critics are sharp enough to see another mans dilemmas but not smart enough to grasp the human commonality or help another casualty with humanitys universal conflicts. Survivors of effort do not deserve the put-down projections of self-adulations opinions but the common decency of civility.
Vested Interest with Ruthless Agendas Define Power Profiteers

The historic constant of militarism is its wars monopolize existence, plunders economics and blunt humanitys conscience. The increase in state terrorism was confirmed daily in the horror stories from refugees about the conditions in Germany and corporate slave labor. The Nazis compelled citizens by random arrest and summary executions. In total war, bureaucratic perversions like forced conscription and inhumane atrocities are seen as side issues because propaganda spews medieval beliefs. Wars evil has an infectious psychosis spread by the reptilian predators and psychovert leaders. Events and situations forced Gregorio to form an international bank because other peoples problems unfortunately provide plenty of somber situations that others take advantage of or help. Gregorio was enlightened; he knew what enough meant. The partnership included Cris; two resettled Jewish bankers and an anti-nazi German. These financial warriors were trying to keep every cent out of the hands of the murdering confiscation gangsters because the fascist war machine needed ever-increasing amounts of financing. Grandfather, in your inquisitiveness, you never let friends escape without them adding to your understandings, what did they add as a group? A mans masculine identity is his applied intelligence and his masculinity is the guidance demonstrated in the involvements of human progress. Decisions reveal the inner person. What overview influences?
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Intelligence concentrates and attracts attention. The art of listening is an intellectual symphony that becomes noise by the unregistered discords of assumptions. What loss has the greatest cost? Fading memories lost happiness, and the sad losses of unnecessary causalities, whose sacrifices in unmet challenges leave too few survivors.
The Theater of Greed Performs Allegorical Renditions of Humanity

The Allies navies and merchant fleets moved the might of the USoA lead Anglophone Empire through the Canal constantly. Observing these ships of war was both interesting due to patriotisms conditioning and frightening from comprehending wars actualities. The madness of power egomaniacs was destroying normality with actions that forfeited innocence. Guns were fired; heroes fell, another generation of noble survivors would emerge as biographers writing the critical points of view through complimentary memoirs. The powerful losers will buy the copyrights of the disingenuous books and bury truth and historical libraries in everfewer copies. Constructive criticism becomes lost over time due to ideologies vindictive nature and the protection its institutionalized abstractions requires from the relentless habits of revisionism and erasure. Propaganda victimizes because it is an intellectual stressor due to inaccuracy and purposed emotionality; these negatively influences ones organizing and deciding. The war footing propaganda was a daily annoyance. The crap of pro-hysteria, scare tactics and false optimism by the war machine was spread by newspaper stories scripted and twisted to sell papers. The pretext pushed the official line as the context reported few facts and the text explained fewer issues. The historic constant is wars take bloody years because defeat requires depletion of man and materials. The social neurosis dis-ease was fueled by PR dysfunctionality that stimulates personal insecurities and induces
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stress. This causes the projecting of anxiety-biased opinions with emotionalisms undue significance. Grandfather, how do you see war? War is commanded plague of death, a historical occupation constant that undermines human progress. Even the word war has too much false glamour for the evil hell it is; war rationales are psychotic vomit. And militarism? Militarisms scope and effectiveness has provided both ancient and modern societies with a dependable system of accepted political authority that controls populations and economies. The values and obligations imposed by militarisms siege mentality link war preparedness with oppression; institutional logic always has selfserving premises. The militarized social context configures the military rationales and priorities with a social coding that eliminates all other value systems and alternatives, while promoting its realism abstractions as the only sane reality. The military culture structures powers power with a totality that even censors potentials. So every conceivable social context and the deductions have agenda bias foregone conclusions that keeping facts secret and releasing information selectively guarantees. The decisions of militarism determine socio-economic priorities, especially in peacetime by endless unchallengeable premises due to the enemy/patriotism charades. Militarism is elite-ultraconservatisms structured muscle, so the 4-Cs conclude absolute power. The military culture with its garrison nation economic model and the active interest of corporate-links are off-limits subjects aggressively enforced, except for the approved tolerances of PR comprehensions. The economics history of the military and politics, the largest component in gross domestic economies are just about nonexistent. Critical evaluations and accurate assessments of militarisms expenditures from a life cycle cost-benefits analysis or the possibilities of alternative investments accomplishing the same goal or a better solution are dealt with by treasonous intimidation. Grandfather, I read that an English historian named Ferguson
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calculated in WWI it cost the Germans $11,300 to kill an enemy soldier, while it cost the other side $36,500 to kill a German soldier. And its well known that it cost more to keep prisoners behind bars than to send them to university. Humane issues aside I bet the cost benefit analysis of the mentally ill being made prisoners would indicate mental hospitals are more cost effective. Not including the economic aspects of a work force of medical professionals compared to medieval guards in modern dungeons. These efficiency perspectives from economic information empower contemporary literacies that adds credence to the humanitarian cultural/social context not propaganda perceptions. So, wars are up there with mankinds greatest crimes. Not honest defensive wars but warfarce, contrived wars and manipulation conflicts that cause unnecessary sacrifices. The cost and involvements of war and organized enslavements are long overdue for honest analyses by intellectual evaluations. The myriad of war advocates and profiteers are humanitys psychotic social parasites till proven otherwise not promoted as otherwise. Constructed events by institutional policies that further violent agendas are state terrorism because the gains are parasitic and possible by other means. What is the latest version of contrived profiteering against humanity? Poverty as crime, and medicine as retail are greedily reasoned economic views. The philosophy of health defines the soul of humanity. Medicines role and accomplishments are humanitys greatest progress with moral and ethical concerns far beyond status quo hypocrisy that continues the primitive intersection of humanitarian realities with medieval morality and medicines economic models. Medicine frames its ignorances and economic agendas, deep and well. When medicines emphasis is on damage control diagnosis and treatment it makes illness the market. Treatments of symptoms not prevention correlate to selective profits, such priorities have detrimental social repercussions that aggravate societys overall health as well as being are a disservice to true healing professionals.
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Health is impacted by bio-realities, social factors and environment contamination irregardless of cures and the best prevention. This means more patients no matter what. Calculated maintenance demonstrates incompetence, and the worst corruptions of medicine are overpriced treatments and the unnecessary. Illnesses and treatments indicate failure; acceptance of the preventable borders on ethical violations of humanity because the most advanced medicine is integrated prevention. Economically framed medicine is business. The medical/ pharmaceutical industry media-manages cures perceptions and prevention issues with medication absolutes. Corporatisms economic models have bottom-line obligations imposed on financial decisions and corporate priorities. These legalisms mask greed in accepted financial formulations, which become obvious in life cycle/cost-benefit analysis. Illness challenges are struggles for well being. Human knowledge is based on the acceptance of reason, the essence of the human species. Advancement requires readapting for effectiveness and reorganizing for efficiency. Comprehending the full-range of involvements means overcoming business priorities and the systems structured inertia due to turf protection and the entrenched profiteers priorities. Status quo conclusions work selectively but endanger everyone, as with the diseases of borderless pollution, whose only guarantee for profiteers families is the best medical care money can buy. Greeds myopic obsessions delays implementing preventative medicine and active participations rightful position of outright prominence. Cures losses are presumptions treated in silent. Any premeditation with economic motivation that does harm establishes the perpetrators as public-heath criminals and the offending corporation as criminal enterprises. You cant change the system; you cant do anything about it. These agenda social truisms are PR propagandas greatest success because they become validating statements of negation. Such perception-loaded clichs stop the Middle Class critical thinkers expressing influential insights. Problem resolution takes verbalizing to spread the truths irrefutable logic. Personal understandings set societys mood, which are decided by the information held. Great
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political success rally around societys mood, which is the only force capable of overcoming corporate wealth and its power delivered by the public relations industrys social engineering.
Intercultural Sensibilities Hold Contemporary Perspectives

We received letters from Brien. He was a mercenary pilot flying into Southern Asia and China. He was having plenty of adventures, moving fast and living hard on adrenaline, which had me think this was a seductively self-induced dependence. He planned on returning to Panam after the war and starting an air freight business. Toro had run El caf and the icehouse, but days and nights were too much, so Rubn took over the caf. He gave the place a musical variety show of quality weekend matinees with solo performances and his big band nightly, which featured talented acts. He knew the local musicians and each needed a chance to perform because preparation deserves opportunity. Rubn paid each performer well, which baptized them as professionals. Each stood straighter and walked taller as accomplished human beings with professional self-respect, which were quality gifts from a master composer. El caf was entertaining before, but Rubn put the place center stage; even Gregorio loved the new vivaciousness. The nightlife at El caf equaled or surpassed everyones stories. The closer the war, the more uninhibited the partying at times it seemed almost frantic. War that destructive tidal wave of pains suffering was rumbling closer each time one looked. Kathryn settled-in with Cris, probably because she was past ready, as bio-reality prescribes. She recognized the excellence character of Cris and his poetic romance was an appreciated sentiment. Kathryn knew how to create and manage happiness; time and communications would allow a deserving relationship to develop. As a couple, they had some serious pre-nuptial negotiations to finalize before she made any important decisions, which were matters and concerns that had nothing to do with money.
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Modern people modern relationships mutual respect, bicultural actualities and changing sensibilities required some up-to-date adjustments for traditional perceptions and domestic attitudes. Truth and sincerity were contractually covered, as a performance guarantee to minimize the potential of emotionalisms destruction on the rocky road of unfolding changes in couples due to the different paces of personal development. Written documents avoid pathetic mental lapses by the weak or the emotionally driven lies from emerging disorders that reinterpret what was understood and accepted. The entrance into the modern marriage carried new perspectives for both. Theirs had a clause acknowledging her final decisions over her artistic performances. She was not going to lose any rewarding artistic meaningfulness over male insecurities and intercultural conflict. Her sophistication worked at avoiding machismos legacies of personal wants and closed mentalitys arrogant needs. Artistic maintenance carries commitments and personal burdens that ballerinas epitomize due to the sacrifices made for the moments being a muse of beauty. An intimate relationship between Kathryn and Rubn could easily become a mood cycle confrontation due to Kathryns strength and Rubns hormonal affection. An understood relationship facilitated their artistic cooperation. She got the best he could give without the potential damages of an intense tango followed by the fiery aftermath of waning operatic passion. Their maturity wisdom and self-respect delivered pure artistic inspiration.
Friendship is Respects Responses

Respect is not an emotion, its an attitude involving balancing the appropriate recognitions, communicating thoughtfully and reacting calmly. Self-respect is the proper disposition toward oneself and ones functioning, which is in contrast to arrogances self-deceptions with its vanitized self-absorption and reflexive denials. So, deep honesty with oneself is an essential?
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Honesty qualifies ones integrity, the search is truly empowering. Relationship bonds are connections constructed on honesty and sincerity, which are sustained by mutual respect and trust. The affinity of personal bonds with the specialness of a sophisticated partner requires knowing their perspectives with situation awareness and relating with full presence. Us is the bonds of intimacy, a creation deserving and demanding each partners unconditional efforts and unqualified best interest. Special relationships are cultivated commitments to and acknowledgement of the wonderfulness of realizable ideals. Communications working things out together for shared perspectives and evolving comprehensions from self to intimacy and death are infinitely worthwhile. Relationship wisdom evolves with continual refinements; these shared creative accomplishments are the best of living.
Mental Illness, the Sociocultural Neurosis Urban Strain

Felix came by to tell us he was marrying the gracious young woman from the island who had nursed him so long. Virginia refused to come to the city; she had sensitivity to intensity. For her, urbanization is far more than the distractions of mesmerizing images and exciting triviality. To her, the urban environment pulsates with broadcast radiations from every form of energy across the spectra of physics that were biological and psychological stressors that aggressively penetrate our bodies and contaminate our lives, while slowly dissipating consciousness. Rex joined us on the porch where our still centers, open hearts and clear minds connected. Felix expressed his concerns about sustaining psychological balance and his inability to do so in the urban culture. He said that after two days in town he becomes hyperactive and impulsive, which were two mannerisms he was once proud of. He interpreted these sensations as being free and potent due to the pleasures of habit satisfaction. Now his personal enthusiasm no longer confused sensations as meaning and liking with knowing. He recognized decisions as carrying the complications of
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opportunities. His personal style now expressed his understandings, not projections of insecurities. This mature sensibility generated a disposition that handled varying circumstances and delivered wisdoms rewards constantly. His was an incredible personal achievement, when the full distance of change is measurement from the starting baseline over the hurdles encountered to the present. We extended an open invitation to visit but his friend would never come; attending the wedding on the island and visiting them was more important and healthier. Since that conversation, the influences of unknowns that exist beyond the precision of instruments and accepted formulations have become an interesting observation. These patterns of effects are obvious with the social psychology and the social neurosis stressors in a society in transition that is generating a culture of stresses. This psychological petri dish cultivates the modern pandemic of mental illness, whose stealth afflictions are silent, invisible and contagious unknowns.
Success Educates; Failure Overmedicates and/or Incarcerates

Those empowered with self-determined priorities handle the modern world far better than the clinging to weakness psychoticness and medicated stupors. Psycho-realities are survival questions because the consequences are formable and deadly as with depression having many forms. Everyone suffers many bouts of depressions over their lifetime. So, any unacknowledged disorders in oneself or others are problems with time fuses. Psychological honesty and respect for the accepted knowns are the best self-defense and rescue vehicle. Disabling psychological maladjustments and behavioral disorders vary from transitory episodes, which interfere with normal living to abnormalities of sufficient severity that they require clinical psychiatric intervention. Managing disorders involves recognition, education, consultation and treatment. Care may involve biological psychiatry, which examines nature for a cause or cure or psychotherapys nurturing. Whereas psychopharmacologys affectory drugs treat the emotional illnesses as brain disorders that are inescapable tragedies.
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The widespread tragedies of psychological defenselessness are common situations but manageable compared to genetic and psychological profiles in the anonymous hands of unchallengeable institutional authority. A possible modern suppression hell is a new array of totalitarian intrusions and executions based on automatic technologies with agenda interpretations for the potentials in biological characteristics and molecular profiles predispositions.
Every Form of Happiness is Wonderful

Tianna, Rex, Liliana and Kathryn hatched a plan that got Toro, Rubn and myself involved with a surprise birthday party for Gregorio. Successful endeavors require the efforts of planning and organization; festivities with a rallying reason do very well. Monday to Wednesday are the nights caf society circulates comfortably, more calculated craving than vanity. This also avoids fighting the crowds of the weekend escapist. On a Monday night, a couple of hours before things would start Kathryn had invited Gregorio to her house cocktail before an early dinner, where I dropped him off after a day of playing golf. The ruse was to keep him always from the caf all day and then get him there on time. As Gregorio was entertained, Kathryn burned the meal on purpose, playing the kitchen novice. In actuality, she was as competent in the kitchen as she was with all her interests. Truly smart people are good at anything desired because they assess needs, learn on their own and know what done correctly means. Successful accomplishments are normal for the focused intelligent person; the sole restrictions to mastery are the degrees of effort applied. The dinner partys new plan was to pass by the caf and pick up Rex. Kathryn wanted her to join them. Before the group left, she called the caf and the party was launched. The guests and the lucky patrons of the evening hid outside. When Kathryn and Gregorio entered the caf, the place was completely empty, even the kitchen workers were missing. In his vulnerable first seconds of thoughts, Kathryn got Gregorio to check the office. He knew the situation
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was too strange but went up to the office anyway. Kathryn followed him and kept him away from the door while the guests filled the caf, in silence. Outside the office door, a slight sound of urgency in Kathryn voice, called him to the door. The second he filled the doorway, the place erupted in screams of joy and the band hit a groove in a few notes and stayed there from then on. He was shocked. Everyone was overjoyed in his surprise. I was captured in a feeling of the good fortune from years of solid friendship. Open casual arrangements set the tone. The tables were piled with gourmet appetizers, as the Japanese say drinking alcohol without eating is uncivilized. The large containers of ice water on the tables meant no early intoxication because thirst is the bodys message it needs water, not more alcohol. Each table had musical instruments such as congas, bongos and maracas. Swing is jazzs basic rhythms, whose beat and phrasing must always be played with intensity and soul. The partygoers and bands rhythms had souls filled with fervent passions. Rubns backup singers were dressed in glamorous white costumes of sexy high slitted skirts and low-cut blouses, their hair done up with flowers creating tropical crowns. The band members were in traditional white guayaberas with colorful feathers in the hatbands of their wide brimmed Panam hats. In aesthetic cultures people with limited means develop their artistic talents because poverty has time, which the intelligent invest in the vehicle of artistic creation. Liliana had put together a floorshow around traditional regional dances, which made the theme of this fiesta an artistic feast. The dancers were dressed in white peasant dresses or white slacks and shirts with very opened shirts filled by long red scarves. The scarves expressed the allure of sexual intimacy in the dance, which got the audiences attention, especially the target group of eligibility bachelors. She used only unmarried female dancers, including the mustached mens parts. This evening was a quality opportunity for rendezvous by the single females. Lilianas choreography was superb, but her singing narrative of explanations was a surprise. Her voice tightened the whole production together, capturing the peasants hidden sexual passions, the rural lifes secret entertainment. The sexual excitement in the atmosphere when this
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act finished had the males swarming like bees around the performers as if each were a queen bee. The next act was Lori and Linda Lee, in bright yellow, revealing blouses and green, waist-high, thigh-slitted skirts; beautiful images of Brazils colors. They performed a couple of traditional Brazilian songs and then switched into the latest Brazilian dance numbers whose rhythms vibrated eroticism, which the patrons absorbed. In between acts, Rubn kept the place dancing with Cuban music; these Mambos evolved from the eternal rumba, the name of any slave celebration. Those not occupied or romancing were drifting around the room of friends, old and new. Liliana was at our table, when a congaline formed with Virginia and Felix at the head, which his happiness and confidence built-up immediately. Shortly, everyone in the place was either cha-chaing in line or dancing at the tables. The dancers serpentined the club wildly for a long time but not as long as the dances originators, leg-shackled Cuban slaves. The chains made the slaves take shorter steps and lower side kicks, but the meaningful healing rhythms were still rhythms of euphoria. The dance ended with an exhaling explosion of a physical release, as the revelers went on playing, singing and dancing nonstop in moondial time. Later, the band members rotated with long breaks while those who remained performed soft jazz. This was a reprieve for some needed breathing time; loud table cruising and screams of laughter excited the place. The partys melody was a flowing suave song, accented with surprises vivace tempos that were carried along by wonderful grooves, those patterns of rhythms that capture the spirit. The Caribbean beats and rhythms improve the way you feel happiness more than a classical contentment. Then Kathryn and Rex appeared on stage, in full tropical fantasy costumes, with flowers woven into their hair and bright sexy costumes; the natural artistry of woman and beauty. They started performing some popular numbers, these had the guests dancing; even the crew was dancing while working. Rubn arrangements were masterful collaboration. The groups final set had each singing one song with the other two as backup singers. Kathryns solo was filled with vivacity and love for life.
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Rexs solo was shared intimacy, as the backup chorus sang deeply of responsive love between lovers. Rubns song about being a man loving being in love ignited the place. The song took on a new direction by the provoking improvised coplas (stanzas) questioning his lusty ways. The backup singers along with Rex and Kathryn began a call-and-response, which questioned Rubns passionate expressions of love serving lustful aims, in the most direct terms. The backup singers exaggerated expressions repeated his replies. The comments they added got screaming applause by the women in the audience. This number launched a wave of emotional enthusiasm, more for the seldom-stated messages to men than just to Rubn. The ladies closing duet started with a couple of verses of deep passionate love for living then they were accompanied by the floorshow dancers in singing a rollicking, Love All You Can. The performing arts celebrating living.
TAs Improvised Arrangements and Intense Rhythms Expresses the Cultures Natural Flow
A second conspiracy was to have Gregorio on the dance floor at the prearranged signal. Rex had him dance with her, which got everybody else up on cue and in position. When Toro rolled out a huge birthday cake that was structured tall and thin the place went wild. Gregorio joked there might be a girl inside, but the size appeared just too small to hide a girl. The kitchen crew constructed the hollowed cake with a petite exotic girl inside. The tablecloth tricked him because the wheeled serving tables top and the middle shelf had a circle cut out of each with a matching hole in the tablecloth that hung just enough to reveal the solid bottom shelve. She revealed herself slowly on a musical signal when he cut the cake. He was surprised. Her being nude and kissing him long and passionately caused screams of approval. After a rousing birthday number some valses Spanish waltzes were played. Then Rubn passed the baton and stepped off the stage with dramatic and musical flair he approached Kathryn. The band played in
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overtone harmonies, as he bowed in his finest courtly gesture and asked her to dance. The second they touched, they were gliding across the dance floor. In an intimacy of deep familiarity, they moved in fluid harmony. The piece lasted a long time, then as he drifted past her table the song ended on a note held as he glided, her into her chair. He bowed again deeply and he walked away, never a word spoken in this public display of serious passion. The dancing continued all night with selections of La Habanera and its offspring of tight tangos and fluid boleros; these were danced with the intensity of Spanish drama in Tropical-American living. The audience was full of real dancers, who showcased their talents. Long and numerous valses were played again as the intimacies of couples grew; the night was slowly becoming morning. The mood slowed with inactivity the hour before sunrise, the longest hour of the day. Then Tannia walked out and sang longingly of life lost to tragedies in deep passionate French, a haunting sound as moving as Edith Piaf at her best. Before first light, she walked off in darkness. The touching mood changed as daybreak flowed with the soft complex jazz; aficionados listening music filled the awakening spaces in the brain. A couple of morning workers augmented the kitchens crew, who had partied in the icehouses main cool room with a revolving group of caf regulars and band members.
A Certain Finality, No Love No Life

A short time later, as a fast pick up of the tables, put the caf in good shape, a tuxedoed woman made announcements about returning to our tables. When all were comfortable, the kitchen served a champagne and lobster breakfast, which gave everyone a second life. The band had been replaced by a quartet of tuxedoed musicians, who played classical pieces during breakfast. The breakfast stretched out into the early morning and had a curious conversation about more surprises. The excitement was far beyond caffeine. As the crowd relished the joy sitting at their tables a growing
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anticipation started by Rex had the place buzzing over a super surprise. Anticipation stimulates excitement, for the morning to top the night; this had to be unique. Classical musicians in tuxedoes with colorful cummerbunds filled the stage with touches of tropical casualness. We were all in a silent awe of what could conceivably be next. Every glass was filled to empty the old bottles of champagne, which were then replaced with fresh bottles and ice. Everyone, including the crew, had bottles and filled every imaginable seat; the place came to rest, as a state of focused excitement built. Rex was asked what was next. She said, she knew who was coming but not what was coming. She leaned back into her seat to end the conversation. Out walked Kathryn tuxedoed with a wide tropical sash and matching scarf tie, which made me smile in appreciation of her complete artistry. She introduced the pieces she would conduct with her small chamber orchestra. These short selections were from little known works: Ravels Bolro, its not a dance but life itself, followed by Hindemiths Mathis der Maler, which captured a deep mood, dealing with the artists spirit in society during dark and brutal times. Ensemble of Life was a symphonic poem of blues orchestration. When these short intense pieces were concluded, she said the main attractions would be starting and to stay seated, as a harpist continued to play. The place was so excited you could physically feel the energy circling around the room from table to table. When the orchestra started, there was a powerful stillness not heard since yesterday. A deliberate tempo built anticipation and tension into an explosion of silence with instant darkness. Then an explosion of light from the lobby doors flying open sparked tired brains. The halo of blinding tropical sunlight illuminated the entering figure but the intensity hide the face. The audience was focused beyond attention. The doors slammed shut and darkness returned instantly. A spotlight hit the figure, and Consuela walked to the stage after the grandest of all entrances. She radiated presence in a long rich purple flowing gown with crystals reflecting sparkles all-around, shooting rays of light that punctuated her glowing aura. Her entrance revived everyone completely. Consuela had been noticeably absent from the festivities and everyones
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life, since the death of her brother. This was her first public appearance and she was making a statement. She started by singing a selection of ariettas, short opera arias each carrying a meaning. Her repertoire of arias had an overall message composed to affect a deeply felt passion for humanity living in uncertainty. A few Italian ones expressed human dramas, individuals confronting the mysterious workings of Gods ways. This was pondering arts serious culture. The orchestra played in the spotlighted darkness. Her selections profound overtone combined with her spoken dialogue was a marvelous expression in the full artistry of an operatic performance. Her slavery spirituals were selected from Deliuss dramatic and dynamic Koangas. The next selections used a rescue operas salvation from tyranny, through the agency of human self-sacrifice and heroism. Fibelio, by Beethoven is about a political prisoner and victims passions. Consuelas melodrama of text spoken and singings musical accents was an improvised sermon that delivered heartfelt comprehension that connected with compassions silent knowing tears. This musical drama closed with an emotional hymn that was sung in the choir of our minds. Doyenne Consuela finished the last note, as the stage light faded in the darkness a legend evolved. There was no applause. The seriousness made applauding inappropriate. This profound artistic drama was beyond entertainment. Her operatic composition recognized and acknowledged lifes tribulations that gave form and perspectives, a cloud messenger for our dilemmas and futures. Awareness and preparation empowers as spiritual comfort strengthens; the specious present is a truly religious experience.
Lifes a Mobile of Diverse Intricacy Montages In Varying Unpredictable Combinations

Rex and I had made my book project a joint effort with her as editor. The book was printed up to pass copies out at the party. Piles appeared next to the door as a gift from all those involved because no great endeavors are solos.
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A transparent sentimental curtain slowly closed as friends drifted off in a strange mixture of pleasures joy and silence contentment. The harps majesticness sound hung in the background; a solemn sentiment took hold of all. Rex took my hand connecting love and heart in the deepest appreciation that aesthetic living bestows. The harpist was still playing in my mind all the way home. This was a lifes celebration for the closing of a generations era. At home, we sat with a panoramic attention. Our tranquil partnership of peaceful trust and admirable respect sculptured the profoundness of love in the togetherness of us. As we relaxed in stillness, the now emerged that dimension of existence where deep-knowing grasp the elements of self and accepts death, our journey of recognizing and utilizing the spiritual lifes vast deep silence. My eyes welled with tears as deep-time love swept over me from living life with unrestricted feelings, shared by so many friends, which is living so very specially. The sad probability was there would be no more such group celebrations, as death collects its unscheduled dues relentlessly. Too soon, my lifetime would rest in a comfortable rocking chair before an expansive scenic view where natures soft touches would invigorate the perfumed smells of yesterday. The sun fell below the horizon without a green flash; twilight was upon life. I thought of those acrobats of life, who worked intensely wise instead of building a net. Farfield Outriders Cruising the Periphery of Potentials.
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MODERNISM: Comparative Thoughts Contemporary Intellects Postmodern Applied Modernism

What you do is how you see. Lifeventures shatter the walls of perceptions because strivings to survive finds whatever energy is needed. Freed minds awaken open potentials. All knowledge has political enemies; the response code carries relevant messages. Expenditures references importance. Read the projected to peg the projector and the contexting to penetrate the conspiracy. Narrative tangents state personal inadequacies. Master the spectra of manipulations to enhance intellectual integrity and success. Astuteness analyzes self-servingness, perceptions psychological inferences, and the broadcast perspective priorities and aggression purposes. Comprehend engineered events and the constructed ploys of contrivances for the selected targets and rewards, the goals meanings and the overviews conclusions. What historical event epitomizes the extremism of the fundamental philosophies anti-intellectualism in establishing their cultural/social context?
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The centuries of repressing Charles Darwins work. Darwin, and Copernicus before him, were made sciences poster-boys for the established views intellectual suppression. Individual geniuses are ultraconservatives sacrificial victims to intimidate the educated and agenda science. Fundamentalism philosophies and the status quo leadership have no demonstrable answers or inclusive comprehensions, which is what scientific philosophy is all about. Biology is comparative information; Darwin gave it some grammar. His principle of change through natural forces was an explanatory schema, a rationalization of complexity. No more than a rough, intermediate narrative in a better direction, decades before genetics. His work developed broad understandings of the biological processes, another element in the endless correlation matrix of ever more vast, deeper and connected scientific contributions on the nature of living things. Darwins natural selection operates on the final product through the mutating processes that enhances continuity in the sequences of natural phenomena. The universe and the biosphere are much more intellectually challenging than all the ideological certainty or moral certitudes truth. Ideologies controversialism is directly proportional to the truth the information contains. Natural selection is still without a realistic public understanding, which shows ideological antiintellectualism over-influencing society. The manipulation of society by overstated ignorance starts with the title of Darwins 1859 book On the Origin of Species, which is usually stated without the On, this simple manipulation ploy changes the perceptions perspective completely. His theories on evolution describe various processes in life, not life, nor some progress toward a specific goal or reached sending divinity, which grows closer. Darwins work is a combination of necessity, law and chance processes driven from behind. Intellectual frauds steal futures. Darwins theories are continuously declarified by vested interests, which debased them by emotionalized opinions and the confusion of selfserving presenters false issues. All
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the while, elitisms entourage utilizes Darwinistic framing, whether social biologys genetic elite and unrestrained greeds Darwin capitalism, whose legitimizing perceptions run in the same rationalese as Aristotles natural slaves and divine rights exemptions. The centuries of multi-level intimidations of science are to make scientific truths fit the ideologues limited doctrine. The dogmatic rigorists religiously coded strategies maintain ignorance by obstructing Darwins brilliance. This close-mindedness caused Darwins biological knowledge to be excluded from the curriculum of medical schools for generations, which kept it from being utilized by doctors and accepted by the general population. Consequently, this intellectual suppression directly facilitated corporate greeds deadly misuse and overuse of penicillin and antibiotics. So, fundamentalisms impact has ever-higher priced expenditures due to untreatable illnesses and the profound social ignorance of the biological causes of most diseases. Medical problems have yet to even come close to final losses and costs. Biologys higher platform of functioning and scientific truths calls into question the morals and ethics of and the gaining from sustaining dated doctrine without consideration or compromise. Beside this what other purpose does targeting Darwin serve? The ideological status quoist are fanatically against biologys potential implications, so they hold the line in history they wrote. Darwin was from the 19th century; he died in 1882. He mentioned man once, in the last sentence of his masterpiece ascent of man. Yet most of the contrived controversies attack the human facets of evolution and leave-out the dominating questions concerning the foundations of life and biologys authority. Agendas reign by perpetuating ignorance and sticking to composite doctrines written in the format of power through obedience. These are delivered by simply embracing charismatic platitudes and dogmas euphemisms. This avoids confronting settled truths and the foremost themes of mankind; the denial of our troubling physical life, the spectre of death and the origin of life. Agenda profiteers formulations are simple and effective with singlemindedness to sustain their societys necessary circumstances. This
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medieval social contexting was established in terms for and in an era of ignorance. Change is reflexively dismissed by orthodoxy irregardless of the importance or value. Consistent efforts are expensive, so long-term efforts indicate institutional commitment. When public manipulation fails, institutions suppress until they obtain their objectives, while attacking the innocence or powerless to cover institutional failure. Were born full of potential denied by the status quos concluded culture. Contemporary literacy evolves as evidence emerges and comprehensions unfold. Natures information has no personal bias and the bio-basics put diversity as a foundation of life. Bio-basics are functioning superior. Another very important bio-basic, repressed as mere side-notes with mocking contempt that justifies ignoring it, is the biospheres essential principle, the bio-cooperative stratagems that give life by facilitating living; working together as opposed to working for. The evolving understanding of genes, the software for making protein molecules that construct life, helps us understand ourselves. Genetics and diseases do not discriminate in their universality. The palette of genetic hues can vary life by a single genetic effect or polygenetically. Complete randomness, in each involvement, encodes a very particular biological function. This randomness forms the composition of vulnerabilities due to traits, characteristics and influences. The nature or nurture, genes or environment are not solo and independent actions but interacting combinations that are set by the dances of cognitive neurosciences subtle ever-changing balance of influence. How they work and interplay together must be the primary focus of science because of the immense philosophical importance to the individual and humanity. The contentious belligerence around Darwins process of variation and selection is the real monkey business. The 21 st centurys accelerating information base and the compounding scientific successes jeopardize the status quos absolutism. The status quo primitives will spend and do whatever it takes to maintain their social order and bad decisions, rather than correct the simplest error because of the potential fallout from follow-
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up questions. Desperations flaws and inabilities cause fundamentalisms historical precedence to go to whatever levels of extremism and tyranny assumed necessary. Mediocritys inabilities greatest successes are damming-up What is superior, and driving the undeniable into the political arena, where the challenges can be manipulated away by ideological and vested interest allies. Aggressive denial of obvious social policy failure that correlates to public idiocy are due orthodoxys Dont give an inch and show no consideration. Such conservative ideology absolutes are why even supporting trends are crushed, as with general harm reduction. Inabilities and weakness fear even the smallest positive adjustment because its perceived as an intellectual legitimizer of gradualism, whose inarguable social progress is the status quos archenemy. Modern wisdoms effective comprehensions trivialize presumptuous infallibility, formulated legitimacy and poli-ideological rationalizing. The politicization of science is obvious from the indentured scientist, who bastardized scientific interpretations for agenda justification. Agenda-centric framing by negative intellectuals and technicians of opinions using willful manipulation are status quos agent provocateurs, who rationalize in terms of declarification not rationality. Unfortunately, the efforts disseminated the earliest are set the deepest, which makes the PR mercenaries mastery of theory and the commercial conservatives command of distribution the prime reasons for social progress Sisyphean nature. Contemporary literacy grasps the political legacy of Darwin, as lost centuries of refining rational involvements in managing controversial subjects fairly and neutrally. Historically vested interest insecurities, not truth, are the reasons for the long running intellectual fiasco surrounding important scientific breakthroughs. Today, commercialisms profit motivation drives research information into secrecy not discourse, even though the potential risks and losses due to unknown outcomes that could easily be deciding mankinds existence. Consequences oblige stating the spectra of possibilities and an open rational overview for protective procedures. DNA is supposedly essential for an organism to infect another organism, but something other than
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DNA governs the synthesis of fatal infectious agents like mad cow diseases. Another complication-loaded scientific endeavor is genetically modified foods and creatures serving important needs, but the long-term questions are loaded with irreversible consequences. White coat corporate sciences aggressive PR dismisses the precautionary principle. The fundamental bio-basic that is the foundation of the environment movement, which states if you dont know the complete outcome in advance, the potential risks are too great for life destroying unknowns. Ultraconservative attitudes and agendas purposed methods are totally insufficient for the prudence needed in dealing with the super-complexity of these modern scientific endeavors. The inevitable potentials obligate open discourse from the best minds not powers decrees or unrestrained commercial exploitation. The open-ended possibilities and uncontrollable consequences in genetically modifying foods and creatures are so far beyond corporate powers overstated abilities because these undertakings involve existence. Extinctions finality demands the most informed efforts and best practices conceivable because this time greeds expedience and inadequate working knowledges concerning genetically altering the food supply and inner-species complications makes us unwitting participants in incredible corporate experiments that could destroy humanity. Scientific exploration leads and anchors philosophy, while also setting its course. The intellectual drama of the life sciences knowledge pouring forth has many enemies due to its comprehensions repercussions. There should be a political scale of controversy along the lines of radioactivity to qualify the contents and effects for the status quo fears. The historical perspective on centuries of Darwinistic coding by status quo ideologues indicates the socio-political radiations half-life. Contemporary literacy recognizes sciences philosophy and the scientific methods analyses with its replicateable results give authenticity and an unarguable position of prominence to scientific-truth. Whereas moral certitudes self-righteousness infers divine inferences with theolinguistic context of specifying unknowns, defining unknowables or condemning respected knowns in self-proclaiming overstatements.
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Biological forms are made of chemical forms as obligated by the laws of physics with deep linkage in shared interdisciplinary importance. Sciences cross-disciplinary information explosion has identified many new arenas and broad themes. Gene expressions are interpretations of complex interactions that involve comparing the genetic variations, correlating gene sequences and gene activity. The futures pivotal intellectual emphasis will be biologys references with source material from genetic history, genetic tracking, genotyping etc. The political selfserving of biologys references will center on genetic discrimination, as stated by genetic-mes geneticese. Genetic scholarship has the same efforts and goals of all science, just new techniques that are forging very significant paths to understandings, the ramifications of which shatter status quo justification and fundamentalisms legitimacy with their histories of bloodstained irrefutability and murderous infallibility. Scientific scholarship has established that the earths peoples have a common DNA link. Our bonded universality is confirmed as basic as possible by the genetic legacy of a marker found on a part of every male Y chromosome, unchanged over most of mans existence. Genetic archaeology by ethno-geneticists mathematical techniques can establish accurate historical data, not rationalizing abstractions. Genetic history traces us directly back a statistical number of grandparents to a common progenitor, the proto-Eve, a nonspecific woman of African origin. Her descendants, possibly as few as 500, migrated at various times from Africa about 200,000 years ago and mothered the races that eventually populated the earth. Meanwhile, anthropologists with social commitments agenda-centric framing in every race are trying to prove man evolved from multiple racial Adams and Eves. So, were all Africans on our way to becoming greenhouse Eskimos. Scientific research has proven that the fathers DNA does not even start coding until the mothers eggs has divided several times to make an eight-cell embryo. After the days required for this initial aspect of the fertilization process to be completed, and at that time only, do all the genes from both parents start to work together.
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Therefore, conception is not instantaneous, so the emotionalism is political. These bio-basics have serious socio-political radiation. The bio-realities evolve daily and carry incredible sensibilities as the field of biology unfold and matures. Cells are the irreducible units of life. Proteins are the basic building blocks of life. Life created DNA. Genes are segments of DNA, which are a protein produced by the cell store information that encodes proteins to self-duplicate, carrying on the function of the gene. Humans have 30,000 plus genes and hundreds-of-thousands of proteins and modified proteins. This complexity and ratio imbalance means we are being premature in crowning anything, even DNA, as the sole and exclusive agent in the assemblage of inherited traits. Changes in DNA are inherited, but changes in proteins are not; this makes randomness a bio-reality. Scientific speculation has speech possibly coming from a single mutation, which are changes in genetic binding. Men and women share all but one chromosome; those long strains of DNA that contain thousands of genes. Statistically, in molecular genetics it could be deduced that humans of the same sex are closer genetically, even interracially, than the opposite sexes of ones race. The numbers of genes combining for racial characteristics are less than the genetic strands that produce the difference in the sexes. Yeast shares 20%, chickens 80%, cows 90% and chimpanzee over 98.5% of the same DNA as human beings. The main difference between humans and chimps is that mans brain sizes are multiples of apes and we have four times the gene use in the brain. So much for the ultimate rationales of genetic-mes superiority and their cult of powers elitism. The primary bio-reality is there is no genetic superiority. We are all genetically the same with differences so small they require many decimal places to establish. Contemporary literacies demand the individual label importance and identity with positive perceptions. Otherwise, difference and the impacting new will be labeled with affect-loaded biases by isms prejudices, as is the historical precedent. How do you see unbiased bio-genetics universalities reconfiguring the psychosocial-sociocultural dynamics?
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The bio-basics are the irrefutable facts-of-existence; whose irrefutable molecular instructions for entire organisms establish the primary authority over the body and the human fundamentals. Genetic information gives more accurate perspectives on life, but life is more than the sum of our genes. Statistical suggestions of genetics imply that a few DNA strands combined differently do not make us different, only social interpretations do. No radically new or unique quality exists in man, but quantitative differences and levels of development merge due to our high degree of sensitivity that affects the individuals distinctiveness. All people genetically overlap, so we are genetically the same, only better or worse in our differences, All is Influence, knowns-unknown-unknowables, obvious or not yet uncovered, from every sphere of the life sciences possibilities to psychological stimuli potentials. Genetic inheritance influences individual trait configurations because instincts appear to be genetically programmed. This must have a greater part in the formation of traits, as nerve interconnections are not connected at birth. The brains synaptic connections increase rapidly in the first three years then decline; these slowly developing interconnections and nerve pathways then push the genetic tendencies to the background. Almost all-chronic illness is caused by parasites, whether viruses, bacteria or other evermore infectious microbes. With time, the impact power of many should logically connect to long-term health effects, which could easily cause many serious forms of the illnesses associated with old age, due to genetic predisposition and lifestyle complications. Some speculation, deduced from rational knowns and an abnormally high appearance rate for others, could indicate an infectious or contaminated component. There are only a limited number of ways for illness to affect an organ, especially the well-protected brain. Darwins offspring, the evolutionists, reason that such premises follow the nature of genetic logic. Broadened comprehensions of lifes dynamics must include the exciting paths and usable findings of intellectual explorations. The biological imperatives implications and sciences interdisciplinary uncoveries are generating applicable comprehensions for all. A more bio-
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centric view puts empowering actualities into the sociocultural context. Bio-realities and scientific alloying are humanitys universal adhesiveness. The factual wisdoms carry comprehensible dimensions with instant assimilation, which facilitates individual progress and humanitys success. Life-systems order is the biological informations transmission process; these are woven into the unfolding of every biological relevance. Bio-realities must replace the less relevant, no matter the short-term adjustments costs, which usually reduce to social things and philosophical words, not the job panic of vested interest. Respect for evidence, all of it, is the great leveler. God does not have a limited vocabulary or interpretative inabilities, only his officials ignorance and dogmatic agendas do. Knowledge that is empowering generates better assessments decisions. Contemporary literacy is built on awareness sensitivity using the bio-basics processes and genetic bias that prescribe lifes functions across a life span. The psychosocial complexitys dynamic outcomes are the interplay among the life sciences parameters, sociocultural forces and the circumstances of living. Living wisely is using aware comprehensions, potent perspectives and effective understandings. This crescendo of knowledge, applied with creative executions is an individuals ideal. Agenda slanting is noticeable in over-specific arguments of evolving situations. The scientific communitys discoveries and uncoveries are in general, present tense knowledge with empowering impacts from psychologys gradients of quantum grays to advanced sciences multidimensional abstractions. The expanding grids of dynamic concepts and the functioning of science as a habit of the mind has surpassed simplistic reductions. Describing what is has expanded beyond linguistic capacities and philosophical perceptions. The scientific spectrum of what is ranges from nanos and micros, with the borderline of knowing at 10-34 of a second, while at 10-154 of a second science is guessing, to megaparsecs distances out to the
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farfield, that which is beyond the Hubble telescopes sight and current data based thoughts. Modern sciences supercomplexity of actualities is generating vast comprehensions of incredible physical occurrences from observations, uncoveries and discoveries. Every field of science has dangling specifics and streams of themes carrying revelations that require broad and flexible intellects for assimilation and adaptations rewards. The scientific culture is creating a catalogue of life that overwhelms simplistic parable learning. Science is guessing that impenetrable dark matter and the visible world may comprise only ten percent of the universe. New astronomys knowledge and cosmological theories are captured in comprehensive digital animation that conceptualizes meaningful icons for humanity. Hubbles deep perspectives of the universes wonders to headline medicines psychological-physiology integrations push humanitys universal philosophy relentlessly. Space-science found water on the moon and other solar bodies, which wrote the first chapters of astrobiology. Shortly thereafter, chemical evidence of life was found in a fossilized form in a meteor that was recognized by the similarity with rocks brought back from the moon, the first paragraph of exobiology. Astrogeophysic arrived with the meteor from another planet, which impacted the earth and ended the dinosaurs reign sixty millions years before man appeared. Exploding images of the birth of stars and time across the universe visualize science in our lives. These give intellectual comprehensions and philosophical redirections that are delivered in replays broadcasting time, which accelerates assimilation into a matter of hours not centuries. Science clarified superstitions, then supplemented the accepted ignorances social disciplining function with understandings, as well as ending false ideological dogma by explaining the phenomenon of mysteries that rationalized fears. Modern times dynamics of relevance and unfolding comprehensions are reconfiguring ones place and lifes connections with greater appreciation and recognitions toward the Grandeur of Life. The multiplex of
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perceptions from the universes imagery inspires the profoundest reflections, which internalize Gods residence. Sophisticated sensibilities do not care which religious truth is proven, just that the wisdoms are used; the messages emphasize faith, founded in truth, upon whatever path leads to that truth and wherever that truth leads. Sciences most meaningful journey is into the mysteries of the corporal universe, the foremost frontier of human exploration. The collective interdisciplinary knowledge circulating in scientific fields is beginning to piece together a vast interconnected image of the plants ecosphere. This relevant source material directly affects humanity because incredible facts and accurate understandings are replacing biased perceptions and ambiguous thoughts that are so ingrained; challenging them is emotionalized as social treason and cultural heresy. Modern cultures source materials are lifes humbling and ennobling wisdoms, where our finitude is revealed in biology and our infinitude through cosmic voyages. Science needs comprehensive appreciation, not the ideologues approval or greeds perversions. Ethical sciences requires peer review, not official secrecy or commercial exclusivitys property rights with overreaching patent interpretations. Contemporary scientific theories are not always neutral or value-free because sciences truth is often lost to commercialization. This directs sciences potentials or is corrupted by a reconfiguration to agendas needs. Independent science and science with value-free objectivity have inconvenient truths implications that are intellectually disruptive to ideological reactionaries and status quo fundamentalists ruthless self-legitimizing core. The power collectivism of fundamentalism-fascisms-corporatism all have contributory dimensions of similarities and overlapping interests in obedience that compels adjusting to destructive systems rather than change, which allows mediocrity to enforce its self-fulfilling inabilities. Cultural tyranny demands and takes a lot of hard effort for very questionable results. How do you see time?
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Times parameters marshal inescapable fundamentals. Age reprioritizes time with a sense of value correlated to the individuals comprehensions for each instant. Time is a scale to follow the biotriggers of natures processes that prioritize mans most precious assets. The unnecessary is the crime of time because it wastes our most precious asset. How do you tell time? The tempos and use of time change with the significances of age, which makes times relativeness and simultaneousness more obvious. Day travels fast; nights travel slower. Days fly with the sensation of merging, blurring moments, as week flee like daydreams. Now, Forward and History are good phases. The changes in biological rhythms are the passage of bioprocesses. The most delightful time is the appreciations in reading the days light. The most fascinating is my psychological time, whose now units contain the greatest interest. Forward is the futures personal composition, biological constructions bouncing off change. History captures yesterdays influences. Ones past carries many unfinished emotions; mine are felt in the reminders for neutralness due the psychological pains in the memory flashes of disappointments. How do you maximize time? The key to time is the use. The effort to do things right uses the least amount of time. Focusing attention on ones thoughts is concentrating on what the mind is thinking in the moment, the recognitions are self-knowledge. Being in that moment is the nowness specious present. The Now, the point that divides the past from the future, is the most potent and influential psychological time for an individual. A calm and clear mind is a wonderful human achievement that clearer comprehensions obtain but living makes it difficult to sustain; its not a concept or physicalized abstraction, its self-awareness and realizations uncovered. Pure consciousness is-ness of nowness is the oneness; the minds transcendent moment. The journey to an open minds still point and the wholeness of life is a religious experience; when everything is very right and good and the strength of faiths letting-go is an open connection. This psychological moment is from the mind, not some place. The nirvana
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of Eastern philosophies, those religions of faith without any theology or prophets, which is called peace by Christians, those religions of beliefs with certitude in abstruse theological details that the Muslims call Taqwa, perpetual consciousness. Islam is a religion that holds justice is the essence of God, another wonderful ideal lost to fundamentalisms ruthless tyranny for totalitarian expedience. Fundamentalisms format for power uses idealistic-yesterdays as paths of destiny, traditional costuming carry perceptions control. When religious ideologies use violence or passive aggression or economic policies to function, they are political parties. You understand the future. In ways because age knows life; experience recognizes livings analogous patterns and lifes algorithm affairs as they approach; the earlier the wiser. Human nature has a familiarity, too human in priorities and so regular as to be habitized; both rarely change, becoming tragically predictable. Social mans existence is his habits playing themselves out, within sociocultural parameters. The clarity of the details and creative variations of fiction become more important than the restricted, repetitive plots of conformitys uniformity. Awareness influences the now, which alters the future. You need to be old to see time? No, times perspectives are maturitys vision. Mine crisscrosses the worn path of repetitiveness, whereas age reveals the many forms of times, as growing shadows over lifes dynamic interactions with living. The wealth and truth of our life-scales overall significances are sadly lost by societys folly on youth and quick hard moments. Informative conceptualizations and evolving literacies? Social literacys perceptive correlates centuries of vast commercial wealth to ever-growing power. Corporations are legal fictions of private entities serving private interest with legislative protection as paper entities securing private property rights and minimal citizenship obligations. These legalistic fictitious persons are technological structures with entity principles and institutional morality, where human morality is anomalous. The corporate
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absolutes of profit, growth and expansion make corporations perpetual profit machines, which insures the invisible hand of corporate command over the economy due to liquid borderless wealth, flexible power and PR effectiveness. What is corporatism? The orchestrated philosophical pursuit of corporate governance. The corporate state is societys fifth estate. Medieval squeeze economics has run its course because there is no expanding growth and too few beneficiaries. Corporatism is humanitys latest powercenter rivaling the historical constants of power theology, plutocracy and militarism. Corporatism has had a growing influence over daily life for centuries, shielded by a stream of distributed positive accomplishments with eco-propagandas perceptions. Corporatism is an expanding power with a self-determined existence paid for by yearly profitabilitys scales-of-power. The proficiency of corporate economics is structured by the designs of private bureaucracies, whose objectives and arrangements are hidden behind legal curtains. Commercial conglomerates operate through the interconnected networks of consolidations cartels. Whose socio-economic orders functioning is guaranteed by legally obligated by executive performance priorities in the pursuance of shareholders interest. Corporatism is that influencing and powerful? Power is self-organizing, ruled by gain and defined by its wellrewarded practitioners. Corporate governance expands by PR budgets, friendly law and control over the channels of distribution, which can place disguised corporate propaganda as news stories that manage public perceptions and generate the consensus sought. The corporate context rules because any liability due responsibility disappears into the vacuum of yesterdays news. Commerce coordinates strategic influences that social engineers who smiles, and who believes the projected as directorial decrees. Corporate donations underwriting contributions to affirming organizations and facilitating archives legitimizes the desired. While copyright property determine the promoted and seen. Corporate values are disseminated widely and rapidly into every area required, by ambitions admiration
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and insecurities responses, while the professionally packaged implicitly installs the desired recognitions due sponsorship. These thought-adjusters set the basic perceptions that pattern behavior and as social/cultural context deciders, they are the collective filters of what is seen and not seen, expressed or forgotten. Commerces social involvements and influencing are far beyond the publics scope of utility, much less insightful understandings. What annoys you? Centuries of agenda references and the despotic preferences have neutralized most progress by negating accurate understandings of humanitys needs and priorities as with mankinds failings and enemies. The disguises of corruptions are concealed as societys needs and selective agendas are configures behind and within an unarguable general good. Social hypocrisy is humorously dismissed, as are the noble promises bought and sold. Corruption felons hide behind the inarguable with interpretations that somehow rationalize the unjustifiable. Authorless and anonymous institutional actions, misconduct and inactions are unethical, immoral and at the root of social injustice, as the questioners get branded with expedience labels. Premeditated abuses by compelled contrivances are manipulations that inflict the criminality of unnecessary agonies and heavy burdens, which identifies info-felonies and profiteerings inhumanity. Informations value makes suppressing knowledge, biasing relevance and purporting misinformation some of the most serious modern social transgressions due to the ramifications in instantaneous information processing economies. Ethical corruptions not only undermine Democracy, but also existence because the threshold of survival drops as consolidating technology advances. This modern actuality makes public knowledge the only real counterbalance anonymous keystrokes executing technologys power. What are the ugliest features for you? Ideologys hypocrisys standards of value make the vicious nature
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of greed acceptable and decency nave. While media propaganda produces neo-conservatives, who do not realizing beneath the media clothing of the conservative leadership are ultraconservative beliefs and attitudes that sees the middle class ideals as their ideologys most potent enemy. Power destroys; liberalism transforms. Liberal progress has been the primary source of undeniable social progress benefits for the nonprivileged, which conservatisms definition control co-opts after all the status quo aggressions and bureaucratic obstructions have been finally overcome. Liberalisms legitimacy and success are fanatically undermined by amoral social and purposed cultural contexting that muddles the historical facts because selective gains are power losing comprehensions. Are these the worst ideological abuses? No, its demonism in human affairs and the delegitimizing of humanity are by far the worst. Social powers greed delegitimizes humanity? Elitism cultural mythology masks its being a civilization forming ideology, while ultraconservatisms ideology hides its ethos. These fundamental ideologies perpetual reign prevent liberal attitudes broad-based progress, which historically negates humanitys inspirations and aspirations. Conservative realism rationalizes itself by negating humanitys credibility due to relentless institutionalized objectives and smothering propaganda. Ideological thugs push and pseudo-intellectual hacks justify the displacing, dismissing and denying of any consequential supportive actions of and for humanity entitlements. Beside politics as applied philosophy with its taints and abuses what is it? Crisis management presented with the pretentious sincerity of cinematic license. So, pragmatic resolutions are made illusional by the delusional. All suppressions start with definitions. Your most ruthless example? Grouping all difference ideological opponents, rivals and non-
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followers in the social context of societys foes, no matter how legitimate the grievances. Vested interest failings cannot afford to confront the reasoning of legitimate opponents, whether Liberals curbing state power or the Social Democrats who use state support to improve societys underclass. The noble oblige of the Middle Class with its power of knowledge and educated wherewithal is to keep the wealthy from losing touch with reality and to reign-in the unrelenting assaults by powers corruptions. The informed world admires the USAs Middle Class with its liberal ideals, democratic practices, material progress, individual fulfillment and pragmatic Liberal Capitalism. The history acknowledges and social literacy of this group compassionately adjust social progress to reward everyone because mankinds common occurrences means shared responsibilities, such magnanimous attitudes are derived from Democracys basic components fairness, equality and respect. Social progress is modernization overcoming the waste of status quo primitives. Social awareness grasps the social rot of the ultraconservatisms medieval-mindedness, and the betrayals of powers greed; those masters of inequitable outcomes who have aggressive anti-Democracy beliefs. Social literacy recognizes Democracys political stability is based on it being the only self-perfecting form of government ever devised. Democracy is brilliantly configured for the weaknesses of human nature to be its strength because it utilizes the imperfections of human nature. The political processes are designed to adjust and improve, not remain stagnant. For all of conservative ideologys self-administrated superiority, it is historically unproven because its dogmatic ruthlessness has eliminated all comparisons. Therefore, it is without legitimate credibility. This deflates this theory to a system of compelled abstractions and speculation, whose authoritys legitimizing causes most inhumanities. The cults of ancient idolatry are the ancestry of every elaborate cultural subjugation philosophy, which historically underwrites unequitable social development using gainful ideological perceptions. The social ethics of power worshipers are why Democracy must legally protect humanity. Democracy sees the citizens as partners; authoritarianism sees 536
citizens as dangerous threats; medieval-mindedness seek subjects. Democracys laws are a tedious salvation because law is so vulnerable to influence. Law made political, prejudicial or greedy, undermines its legitimacy and Democracys credibility because fair and ethical law is the common work of Democracy. The worst social transgressions are targeted criminality and selective enforcement that brand the powerless to maintain a limited Democracy. Authoritarianisms unrestrained restrain legitimizes all its desires without question, whereas Democracys restrained restrain legitimizes all by questions. What is Democracys best protection? Knowing and practicing it, while recognizing its enemies and understanding its weaknesses. Democracy is inherently undecided, even its ideals of checks and balance advances unevenly, as does all idealistic striving in a bought advantage society. The democratization of knowledge and rights of access to pertinent information neutralizes entrenched power. Education is Democracys strongest guarantees for unlimited success. Democracy has proven its philosophical worth beyond doubt by facilitating less war and advancing the spectra of humanity. Openness is the fate and strength of the democratic functioning and any fear of Democracys imperfections indicates a lack of understanding of human nature and of history due to ignorance or agenda beliefs in the beholder. Greed has no faith; its proponents profitable lack of faith in democracy is the ONLY honest reason democratic efforts fail. Social illiteracy serves the agendas of greed, not Democracy? All truth is constructed. Configuring the social/cultural context produces social truths. PRs truth is legitimacy due to establishing consensus, as with military pride being patriotism. This context serves militarism needs, while the taxpayer and Democracy are the sources of all success. The practicing of Democracy is living its ideals, whose patriotic respect is equality that requires patience for every practitioner, if not the forces of suppression win. What eco-socio-poli situation alarms you? 537
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The lack of a contemporary based psychosocial philosophy and an honest comprehension of Liberal capitalism allows dated attitudes and ideological beliefs to be configuring the futures commercially ruled world. Globalization could become another word for corporate colonialism if unchallenged during the critical gestation stages. Corporate abuses due to greed would define the eventual confrontations that status quo attitudes will then maintain. Fairness could be incorporated from the start not fought for over the coming decades before vested interest puts its fangs and claws on the future. Historically, fascism has been the possessing-class together with the generals. Today, we have the uncontestable wealth of corporatisms economic collectivism and the power of administrative-dictatorships. Social illiteracy facilitates such unrestrained power, which could coagulate a concluded culture with psychosocial-fascism conformity. Neo-fascism will essentially be the supremacy of a particular way of viewing things with an identity idealization of what is considered perfect. Economic-political apparatuses, with or without ideologies will condition acceptable efficiencies that impose a certain type of ethnic dominance and preferences. The monopolization of conceptions and oligarchies of perceptions that are established will control the content of the social/ cultural context, which technologys spontaneous information distribution will empower. So, the History of humanity is the affect-laden social powers consequences? Total state cultures produce autocracies with fascist psychological conformity. The latest mutation is a corporate aristocracy of oligopoly power, which is superceding the power of governments. Commercial powers abilities are maximized by design and legalized to function outside political accountability. Economic propaganda uses the platitudes of marketplace ideology for social responsibilities to disappear. Corporate networks of economic dependence and shared benefits are consolidating a designed eco-socio order with selfserving politics for a global corporate free market, which is
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massively subsidized by predatory capitalism applied to the financing public. Orchestrated conventional wisdom carries the messages of powers conclusions. Contemporary literacy reads the messages meanings and interprets the orchestrations. The composition promoted under-plays secular powers agendas that sprawl undisturbed beneath layers of rationalizing political, economic and ideological propagandas. This makes reading propaganda a necessity. The information is in the strings of informative source material. What about the future of command? More power less visible with deeper intrusions. The bifurcation of command self-constructing and self-fulfilling its desires will continue to generate self-serving distortions of reality, no matter the cost. Domestic authoritarian institutions are mutating into the global orders webs of authority-oligarchies due to compatibility in functioning and multiple complimentary objectives. These internationalized inner-institutional classes are performance networks that expand invisibly with liege connections, digital structures and objective formulations. Broader mutual functioning from shared missions efficiency and headline demands means contrived successes to maintain growths gains, as organizations self-systematizing cohesiveness will unify into unchecked and unbalanced power. Institutionalisms processes are being solidified by legalism interdependence and payment fealty. Efficiencies ordering and commands ability to actualize its desires will make the system operational before its uncontrollable formidability and contagious detrimentals are recognized, regulated and overseeable. Its your future, what alarms you? Engineered conclusions from auto-hypnotic referencing due to directable electromagnetic delivery that conditions mindless perplexitys dysfunctions and dependences with stimulations vulnerabilities.
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No electronic projection is pure. Technology is the great enabler for good and bad. Technologys instant inter-exchange access from multiple sources enhances functions with immediate relevance that empowers decisions and performance. Accurate history teaches social powers adeptness at social ordering unequitable outcomes, so with technologies uncontrollable proficiency we face unimagined capabilities. Clandestine entities with extremism potentials are intensified by the automated efficiencies of technologies, which can digitally escalate entanglements into uncharted connections. The global marshalling of information gathering magnifies the silent circuits of powers influences beyond the conceivable or recognizable with humanitys historical insurance, the human factor, made obsolete by accelerating information technologies artificial intelligence. So, systematic efficiency is the new fanatic. Power must destroy to expand and medieval-minded mediocrity must subjugate to rule; actualities compounded by factors of efficiency that makes humanitys historical constants of structured domination and victimization a degree question, not an if, probability. What protection is there against such power perversions with its silent contaminations, invisible transgressions and social poisons? Comprehend digital-shackles will follow medieval logic for servitude dependence. Formulated penetrations of aggressive subliminal intrusions by electronic execution with program abuses will rearrange perceptions to manipulate the induced paranoias intensified in living isolated realities. Digital environments social distancing disconnects humanity by unmet needs, which generate psychological susceptibilities that institutionalisms ordering will utilize and social pessimism will validate. Defining culture is the sacred cow of the powers-that-be because he who decides the content of the social context controls society. Culture is also a catchall concept for expedience and will be the futures most controversial word and declarified concept. Follow the power, not the wording. Power brokers, whether military-
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political, plutocratic or ideological are the historic constants of command that only something from outer space could dislodge. What about shifts in power? Shifts in power are inner-class power struggles. Powers turf wars are the primary cause and unstated reasons behind most every domestic conflict. Historically, these struggles have many names and politicaleconomic masks that conclude with manipulating the powerless. The reactionary fundamentalists moral certitude compels everyone to live under their yesterday because heavens calling allows killing for God, which forces everything back under their despotic leaderships control. The roots of the next major conflicts will be cultural, over the adjustments to the demands of market capitalist growing power at the expense of the fundamentalist moral certitudes coatings. Where do you see the future going? Wherever unchecked power wants. Power always does, as power wants, which is why constitutions are written in blood. What are your thoughts on the masterdom mode? All eco-centric cultures are built around extorting and exploiting. Power and greeds totalitarian conceits construct encompassing socioeconomics realms, ruled by conspiratorial ways and esoteric whats and whys. The plutocracy-militarism-ideological politics generate streams of multi-level contributory manipulations that produce dysfunctionalities. These psychotic shackles of neo-servitudes and info-fragmentation become obvious when one grasps disunitys multiple purposes. What historical perspectives have modern relevance? Psychological manipulation is the social adhesion, not money, which is obvious with elitisms serfdom, where shrug and pay defined existence. Internalized compliance is the social orders continuous quest. This psychologically compelled behavior starts with mothers beliefs and authoritys conditioning, whether the closed-minded
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ignorance of serfdom or the smiling auto-subject due to researched adjustments and social engineered persuasions. Believed fears psychological swamp is the intimidation of self with manipulation methodology and technologys unlimited intrusions its easily an incredible masterdom. What are the most effective techniques? Subdue thoughts and discouraged actions, whether propaganda spectacles that set visual perceptions or directed internalized selfrestrain. Medievalisms absolute authority intimidates the viewing audience to imprints authoritys superiority and unquestioned obedience as citizenship. The paramilitary polices excessive violence is public theater to condition fear-based respect for authority. This dramatic terrorizingforce against target-specific enemies reinforces intimidations compliance and the acceptance of inferiority. The self-inducing paranoias for mass discipline are derived from the perceptions of omnipresent surveillance by an all-knowingly God reading our minds. Such self-restraining beliefs are now intensified by the prying eyes of ever-present cameras, sharing their visions on walls of monitors. The loss of psychological confidence due to continuous monitoring and personal privacy from unrestricted identification surveillance has the added pressures of indiscriminate evaluations by unknown supervision. These aggressive intrusions and executions generate vulnerability submissiveness. Blanket monitoring as normality triggers responses across the spectrum of psychosis. The psychological consequences are a sociocultural psychosis that induces a weakness paralysis for those beyond poverties powerlessness. How do you see identity surveillance as national security? Just another evolving form of totalitarianisms total state where all is political with neo-encagements as enforcers for totalitarian submission as commands security. An ultra-conformist class with presumptuous superiority will exercise control with their undereducations overreactions. This over-paid-to-obey class will oversee
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the servicing classes. Induced weakness paralysis produces system fodder. Social hostages to legalistic-economics, uncontestable rules and conventional wisdom will subjugate time and effort to the fluid acceptance of assumptions called status that allows the systems to flourish at the individuals expense. Why are the patterns of history, re-runs of ill-rationality? History follows the repetitive cycles of commands functioning because of ideological infallibility, the might of institutional structures, mediocritys lack of personal courage and status quo control, which are aggressively protected by the many uniforms of tax financed authority. Elite-ultraconservatism social architecturing defines priorities, not ethical social morality. The strategies of power are so well established that its centuries old anti-democratic charade of criminal justice against the targeted is a form of apartheid that goes completely unchallenged. The ill-rationality comes from misplaced importance and misordered psychology, layered with anxietizing, which are kept active by the constant stream of unmaterialized statements and unanalyzed prophecies. Statement accountability is nonexistence because the projected is never compared and the context is absolutely never analyzed. Inconvenient truths are merely dismissed with the humor of forgettability when necessary, but ill-rationalitys affect register as positive responses to negative reinforcements. Disempowering and abusing weakness indicates real abnormal psychology. No matter the propaganda or shunned morality, mediocre institutionalists are ethical frauds because they have the power to do right. Being paid to be brainwashed is one thing, but selling your humanity by compelling greed on others is evil. The social orders subjugation patterns seems to follow natures geometry of single, simple patterns repeated on different scales with bend and twist variations. The received is too biased, limited and oversimplistic for modern complexity.
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The nature of the modern is expanding comprehensions progressive adjustments. The agenda biased slanting found in every aspect of society and dimensions of command similarity at every level makes normality ideological. Ideologies are intellectual abstractions with self-serving referencing and priorities, so their limitations are inherent anxietizing for modern needs. Theyre intellectual frauds when agenda structuring impose psychosocial unpreparedness as the only sane rationality. Unchallengeable assumptions and ideological presumptions incarcerate individuals for years and minds for generations. If the basic premise is wrong, the rest is meaningless. Does abnormal behaviors or social deviations have applicability, when the root of the problems are in the bodys regulatory chemical forces, chemical imbalances or inherited accentuaters of the profoundly incidental genetic differences? Educations failures of unmet needs are seen with the inability to abstract. This dumbmentalisms affect means those who cannot learn from abstracting must suffer the avoidable lessons of learning the hard way, by doing, which usually means doing it wrong. I have read prisons are full of people who cannot abstract, therefore they must suffer the consequences of their inability to make good abstractions better decisions. Hormones can override genes, so ideologues purposed abstractions are false issues imposed by extremist. Dependences susceptibilities, sexual preferences, as well as many learning disorder complications are a few of the physiological-psychological time bombs facing ideological based interpretations of behaviors. Sophisticated understandings see the fallout of social policy failures have the fear of liability for the agenda relics and institutional dinosaurs. The danger is in their medieval mind-sets that are wrapped in warped traditions of ritualized barbarism. Media labeling defines morality, image selection decides justification, while descriptions conclude ethics.
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Size and media coverage determines whether its a crime, warlordism or a national movement. All commands are mini-totalitarian fiefs with enforcement by the desperations of the unemployable. The only differences in of the worlds militarism are in the name of its supporting economic model. Each has a domestic economic focus with a convenient foreign enemy for PR saberraddling. The uncertainty of wars outcome can cause a changing of the guard, so the historical spoils of war and territorial expansion have been replaced by fixed budgetary gains. These garrison nations economic systems most pressing needs are compensation and inventories both building and clearing. The main treats to militarisms war machine are questioning relevance, disgruntled payees and allies, not foreign armies. Modern vaporous terrorist enemies with dated ignorance as beliefs and rearview mirror followers with poverties frustrations are a PR departments dream to legitimacy total state command. Militarisms ideal economic model needs unquestioned scriptable scalability and adjustable conflict intensity. Terrorisms sinister expectations and warlordisms cruel capabilities have excellent enemy proportionality for political generalships expedience and for economic sustainability policies and command-control politics domestic compliance. Democratic militarism should be about middleclass values, not the politics of generals. The middleclass created the modern sociocultural complex, whose core is improvement, creativity and progress. Progress is a multidimensional dynamic that improves and excites life. Progress is the connection of change with sensible benefits. The legitimacy of Modernism is in the benefits derived when the overproven and underutilized strengths of the collective scientific knowledge are applied. Modernisms is only dangerous to the parasitic profiteers who use the status quo philosophy to suppress progressive change.
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Modernism refines progress, its status quo plus applies intellectual attitudes that adapt what is superior. Status quo plus implements superior rational comprehensions compared to elitisms stagnation interpretation of the status quos philosophy, which maintains the privileged/inferiors existence without rational considerations of cost and losses. This status quo dogmatism accepts broad unnecessary burdening for established gains. This historical economic model with its ultraism of purposed poverties and squeeze economics increases and endorses inheritances worth because orchestrated scarcitys false pricing overvalues established wealth. Doctrine adhesion makes up for privileged weakness second-rate efforts and underutilized advantages from the challenges of wise intelligence. The progress of commercial industrialisms consumerism has been a continuous fight over centuries to overcome ideological obstructionism. And like science both have grown past ideological limitations intimidation, which has stagnated this needed social philosophy? Corporatisms ethos and perceptions are tragedies if economic imperatives set societys functioning and bias the social consciousness in positive terms for unrestrained greed. Profit at any cost as the corporate priority and the status quos medieval premises have only profiteers credibility as validation. The economic reality is sustainable profits, not indiscriminate max profits. Fighting for the lowest priced labor keeps every other workers wages artificially low and everyone overworked. These failures will be the downfall of commercial industrial consumerisms great success. Profit squeeze economics caps the market as too poor to buy the middleclass fuel, progress value-added products. Culture is a primary source of defining strength for the individual. Economics is morphing into spheres of setting individual perceptions and sociocultural contexting that were once the exclusive domain of religion. Ultraconservatisms socio-eco-poli limitations drive expedience responses against modernizing. Dated comprehensions generate intellectual voids filled by fears, desires and conveniences.
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Received relevances have expiration dates. Progress is far more than materialism and conspicuous consumptions more-of-everything exaggerations. Materialisms advertising propaganda as belief, consumptions purchasing power as social status and moneys eco-socio values correlate into a valueless elitism. These orient life with perceptions of the unattainable; materialistic cravings direct thoughts and consumptions hedonistic satisfactions define a possession value system of illusionary living. Consumerisms artificial calibrations of desires and consumptions obtainments crystallize precarious meaningless delusions, where mere logo familiarity confirms identity with indexing attitudes lock-in personality to the narrow and shallow. Corporate imperatives and consumption aspirations have price tagged everything and made love and beauty the alluring seducers of the money god in the pantheism of desires, which make the challenge Having and Being. The culture industry has embedded replication as status due to corporate mediocrity devising the desired by repackaging the proven and promoting it as the best with multiple level marketing tie-ins, whose engineered responses guarantees financial success. Corporatism advertising fantasies manufacture the phenomenon of the latest ultimate, which run along the gainful paths of copyright ownership revenues. While sponsorship compatibility delivers the audience to the product in the right mood. Such manipulation insures cash flows by triggering random attention perceptions of conventional wisdom that tie-ins maintain. So, there will be twelve colors of the same thing and all twelve will be needed. Consumption desires chasing illusive dreams are neurotic social dazzle, whose psychotic patterns of expectations will be nightmares of possession status and eternal youth. This psychosocial prepackaging will conclude wasted lives; especially in retirement, when one should enjoy the sharing of rewarding wisdom earned. How does the individual influence control?
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Control stops, once you stop believing it. Reference living to lifes universal and humanitys meaningfulness. The accelerating dynamics of increasing complexity requires empowering relevances, perspective insights and comprehensive overviews; otherwise our conditioned weaknesses stimulate anxiety vulnerabilities and stress susceptibilities. Intellectual maturity and psychological intelligence stops the steep slippery incline into real psychological problems and the serious complications of psychosomatic reactions. Express it to change it? If youre not questioning or intellectually challenging orthodoxy, youre part of it. Living is a working composition that decontaminates being. Modern knowledge applied must be seen as rewarding wisdom, a pleasure whose enjoyment overcomes the fatiguing battles against esoteric constraints. The forces of social engineering overpower human compassion; the sensible common reality of shared interests. The universality of the human condition and the bio-realitys statements-of-fact expose the selfish ideological preferencing and social profiteers, as overcompensated primitives. Ethical social values grasp bio-reality regulates life and bioethics are about the roots of fairness due to sophisticated comprehensive, not conclusions set by PR budgets domination of the immediate. Bioethics is to the psychosocial what digital ethics are to the sociocultural. Conceptualize the contemporary? Awareness, empowerment and consciousness are the paradise of functioning sanity in the bedazzling swirl of modern times. Overviews prevent fragmentations stress and poor performances. Without contemporary conceptualizations, we are mind-blind to the esoteric. Modern icons, images and abstractions on lifes interdependence and interconnectionness are replacing the hypocrisy of corruptive biasing of the sociocultural and the intellectual frauds disguised within eternal wisdom. Mans humanity biologys symbiosis; the philosophy of ecology has an inclusive elegance. Biosymbiosis is interconnectiveness in nature, the living/life ecological equilibrium, which has both incredible
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sustaining strength and thresholds of fragility. Living things mutual advantages from symbiotic cooperation is an inarguable bio-reality that establishes social sensibilities and cultural responsibility for humane coexistence. Harmony is the state of balance in changing circumstances. The dream is a global best practices ecological-economic model. The planet is a proven success, not man. The planet is becoming less an object and more an idea with ecological actualities and scientific realities. Life-cycle parameters within the ecological complex are open economic potentials not the closed premises of the plutocratic primitives whose status quo tyranny obstaclizes the future. To me, life is adrift in Eternity, the unfolding universe. We strive along our reception abilities with scanning antennas for uncoveries and discoveries in self-contained cosmic buoys with self-constructed propulsion and directional abilities that respond to influences. Whats strange for you? The wisdoms of Humanitys are not the reference points of thoughts, which serve mankind but rather the needs of greeds morality. Political promises and moral obligations deliver powers wants at a cost of ever-shrinking benefits because the unnecessary and accepted waste is ever-more expensive losses. Denials obliviousness is obvious in people accepting too much simple-mindedness, while they act upon biased projections, as if whatever is said is truth, not mere abstractions requiring critical thought. The PR effect causes a vague certainty because the more you watch the less you know. News as a consensus product is bottled to promote agreeable consumption with pabulum thoughts carrying belief-attitudes. The sustained war on truth by the status quo sociopolitical realm and the invisible government of PR expediters is unrecognized, which indicates its power. The psychological-intellectual traps of engineered unawareness use the well-worn assumptions of clear and concise unverifiableness that dismisses any follow-up. Greed lives off victimization. Well-adjusted people dont self-victimize or victimize.
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Greeds interest compounds hourly due to the cost of complicating living with every poor understandings bad decision. What is a working outline? Take a breath, do it right, smile. Understand yourself self and your associates and recognize thy masters and enemies with their dynamics of involvements. Modern wisdom manages negative influences. Routine good decisions revolve around assessment and needs, so analysis cause, effect and reasons. The habits of intelligence decide. Intellectual maturity and psychological intelligence hold the clearest practical decisions for the vicissitudes of living, which emerge from the brains unpredictable interactions of millions of simultaneous, self-organizing chaotic processes that bounce-off the countless actions and interactions of societies. Your contemporary and social literacies are an individuals intellectual architecture for obtaining successful potentials? Contemporary literacy relevance amidst the spectra of manipulations and compelled contrivances negates todays social neuroses and will avoid tomorrows psychoses due to the immerging sociocultural psychoticness. The core of the modern individual is pursuing and handling What is, while expressing and applying What is superior. Contemporary literacies are decontaminating processes that effectively identify the parameters of relevance and the connections of influences. Accurate comprehensions eliminate confusions misintellectualizing, which frees the mind, while intelligence is optimized by awareness and cooping the superior. The dynamic grids of modern circumstances are evolving interconnections and expanding interrelatedness, which are made satisfactory or distressing depending on the effectiveness of ones sorting and categorizing. Problems are semi-permanent dilemmas of involved seriousness, demanding circumstances and affect-laden consequences. Do not identify the annoyances of society and livings daily hassles and demanding decisions of work and personal obligations as problems because if
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everything is termed a problem the illnesses of stress follow. If you get too attached to any problem, struggles and turmoil follow. Contemporary literacies hasten the extinction of irrelevance because the critical mass of applicable relevance is accelerated by utility. This undermines the irrelevant so much it will collapse under the weight of its ignorance, a process that needs to be watched for warning of extremist responses. Recognize the cults of power as men-of-yesterday, who historically have forced change and the future into their dated bottle of despotic ideological mastery. And social literacy? Social literacy is about appropriateness and assessments, especially the Why that. Why that particular selection from the spectra of arbitrary abstractions and possibilities. The deductive information from the motivations messages and affect-loaded consequences hold valuable knowledge. Modern spontaneous knowledge processing necessitates using scientific abstractions advanced insights and accurate syntaxs encompassing content. Sophisticated sensibilities, knowing and doing are the enlightening wisdom of actualities; these empower managing the expanding complexitys unfolding entanglements and unrecognizable consequences. Modern preparation requires openness and flexibility because limitations breed until inabilities set in. The interrelatedness from the integrations of scientific advancements and the technological sociocultural are causing so many changes and input stimulation, they desensitize feeling and attitudes. Too many disconnected images and facts, foster conceited notions of comprehension that cause well-projected partiality to be accepted as deliberated conclusions. Unbiased intellectual curiosity and applicable extrapolations have been repressed away by millenniums of orthodox single-mindedness, which is an extremism driven by ideological certitudes and maintained by murderous belief-attitudes that impose the status quo neuroses and fundamentalist psychoses. Agendas purposes, industrial explanations and militarized socialization have self-interest priorities and limited adaptiveness. These handicap living with restricted potentials and the unnecessary. Social
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literacies eclectic sensibilities are the effective deciders in the vital actualities of modern complexity with borderless global problems and indiscriminate death, which involve cause and reason that need recognition. The implications must be refined into comprehensive perspectives with common sense truths, as with bio-actualities determine the ethical, not agenda expediences. Contemporary and social literacys functionality is about success in the modern world. Todays survival requires developing a quiver of proficiencies with open flexible attitudes and positive applicability for optimum behavior. Sophisticated comprehension builds upon relevance with the individual taking charge of living across the spectrum of effort from responsibility to love, which must include integritys putting your life and self in knowing perspective. Modern effectiveness has expandability; this shrinks the volume of unconnected specifics. The ethics from these accomplishments have an intrinsic correctness because morals are too personal to transfer. The modern components of the evolving psychosocial-sociocultural dynamics have an individualized erasing and reordering. The newness and overhanging influences are why the futures most valuable investments are in ones enterprise with life. Maximized by correlating information as rewarding enjoyment with credible utility, the currency of influence. Contemporary literacys appreciations and social literacys involvements distinguish maturity. Applicable intelligence is awareness rewards. Learning as pleasure is the key. What reality check realizations are missing? The superiority of individual responsibilities establishes themselves because the individual is their own final authority. Optimum behaviors self-determination utilizes proactive premises, dedicated efforts and sustainability for the resilience necessary to manage the life long flux of changes readjustments and uncertaintys new demands. Cultural sophistication has expanded beyond elitisms self-
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congregation concepts of refined taste because evolving involvements and needs are compounded by social circumstances that have many undesirables, hazards and dangers; all of which have elements of evil. Individual strategies must incorporate a pro-active personal security focus and independent generating expertise. Masterys proficiencies from therapeutic techniques to self-defense disciplines must be structured into daily functioning for wise intelligence and individual empowerment. What are your desires? With age, desires become detached abstractions of the remotely interesting, while moments of true passions are too valuable to waste frivolously. What conceptualizations capture the person? Self the heroic individual. And personal relationships? Separate and entwined Ourselves together. Philosophical comprehensions of parity for the interbeing of relationships develop win-win partnerships. The appreciations of the commitment package utilize the values in respected differences and the rewards in total acceptance. The form of relationships comes from the efforts exerted with the intimate connections setting the parameters. Relationships are delicate kinetic sculptures of overtoned behavior that have their own intelligence. Couple relationships that get it right are a pronoun in life. These reciprocating interconnections of synergistic flows have the luminous opalescent co, an explanatory prefix for the symphonic composition of a common narrative: co-authoring co-productions co-operative coequals co-staring co-counseling co-creating a co-existences unifying us. Integrated co-backers co-communicating wisdoms co-empowerment that diverse experiences enrich. Modern man and me? Awareness-empowerment-consciousness optimizes the individuals envelope of existence. Awareness enlightens aliveness as knowledge
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empowers living. Modern insights connect into correctly prioritized understandings with balanced perspectives, which extrapolated into applied comprehensions that are wisdoms sustaining strength of applicability. These enhance the individual in the modern actuality reality. Man as a genetic learning organism lives an intellectual passage on a cosmic trajectory across the immense entirety of the universes eternity. Man and Humanitys ideals are fairer relationships with truer referencing. The biological/ecological-imperatives mutual advantages are obvious throughout the harmonious integrated biosphere. Such knowledgeable perspectives hold vast implications that both benefit living and spiritual awakening. Spiritualitys relevance is far greater than the millenniums of regulated minds efforts or ideological agenda that holds the supremacy of things and traditions over human potentials and humanitys possibilities. The ideals of a generationally shared humanity-centric and healthier individual-centered sociocultural composition are directly tied to political definitions. The individual is the citizen in Humanitys culture of common occurrences. This is based on biological universality and what all societies actually share. Humanitys principles are respect for the individual, as authenticated by civil-social-economic-human rights with home rule over local issues and full and inclusive rights for minorities. Humanitys social progress is universal acceptance of these basic rights because acknowledging them curtails the extremism of elite-ultraconservative realism and the lawless realm of medievalminded governments. Cultural globalization is the inter-exchange of humanity. An evolving social consciousness where doing the worthwhile sets the social values and ethics. Such connected comprehensions and righteous efforts neutralizes the neuroses, psychoses and stresses compounded by disconnections of technologys social distancing, modular living and densified isolation.
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How do you feel about your life? Self investments revealing efforts are rewarding compared to the accepted habits of age, which tune down the inputs of living constantly lower, to keep functioning in the terms of yesterdays perceptions that eventually turn off living. I live contently in a clear and calm minds melodic purity with a freefloating optimistic openness. Awareness reminders awaken chains of unmapped poetry and images that lit mental smiles, which brings-forth arousing inspirations and enlightening reflections. Time does get caught on the annoyances of the strings attached to old age, but experiences insightful prevention and ages acceptance of what is enhances lifes happiness with appreciative joy in finding more in life and of oneself. Whats behind Tropical Incosmos quality casual attitudes? The maximizing arbitrators of comprehensive sensibilities and integrity with an acquired appreciation for harmonizing aesthetics and diversitys beauty, which rectify living into adventitious journeys of expansive uncoveries. Besides the sin and excesses that invigorate the artist, conceptualize your basic components. Idealistically, optimum behavior while living the brilliance of honesty with the intelligence of reflective deliberation. Meditatively, I strive to distill concentration to consciousness that connection beyond the stillness the pulse echoes so loudly in. Functionally, a philosophizing synthesis of positive eclectic pursuits that sidesteps forward over obstructionism and through the walls of perceptions into ardent efforts marvelous enlightenment with special interest in the potentials of lifes pleasures. So, overviews are perspective of perspectives with simultaneous foci? Awareness, contemporary wisdom and applying the best practices positively engage the intellectual void on the theory of and for self,
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which clear away the tranquilizing normalcy of trivial escapisms, opaque confusions and directing distractions. These modern attitudes and comprehensions for what can be are not another ism of agenda relevances, but effective and healthy efforts for utilizing what is superior. Individual references and change orientated preferences match-up well with the new frontiers of multidimensional complexitys indeterminacy. Modern perspectives give usability to information inflation and applicability in preventing evil, the burdens in the spectra of denials and the losses from the disintegrating of the meaningfulness. These dissipate consciousness unity; which is the knowing strength in the potential energies of lifes echoing vibrations of oneness. The immediacy of living is in the focal points. Ones still centered and flexible open mindedness fuels the individuals mastery across the grid of living from the induced to the random. Experiences enhancements supercede the received philosophical-psychological inadequacies that are the source of the inabilities to cope, the common tragedy of slow suicides. Optimum living is in the dance of deftly shifting simultaneous foci among subjects and perspectives. Lifes phenomenal regularity and natures unchangeable laws mean everything is in a state of dynamic becoming. Incosmo is a reasoned concept for a pragmatic process to manage these unique transmodern challenges. The modern quest for success demands accurate recognitions and continuous correctness in decision making amid ignorances actualities and the vicissitudes of reality. Contemporary modernism is the fusion of intellectual clarity, necessary adeptness and astute wisdom, which are balanced by ethical considerations based on multicultural and intercivilizational sensibilities for livings commonalties and lifes universals. The International Cosmopolitan connections of awareness and wisdom have a vivo of optimum behavior accented with aesthetic pleasures and passionate enthusiasm.
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What is your goal? Goals are sought outcomes of personal decisions. Mine have been to be naked and alive; perceiving what is really in front of me, so I can live in the categories in which I think. My efforts and responses are launch platforms in my striving to get beyond the prefixed spectra of self to sing the poetry of living. What is the purpose? Existences potentials and dimensional journeys. What of death? A lifes uncoveries, optimized potentials and realized dreams of exhilarated living are deep-time treasures and the best preparation for lifes ever more important last moments, where post-potentials reveal the human existences truest truth. A summation? A beautiful intelligences flow of awareness maximizes living because nothing lasts and little is impossible. An individuals greatest accomplishments are creative living and independence. The most realistic freedoms in life are sensual success, lustful aesthetics, health and happiness sustained by wisdom. VIVA LA VIDA DIE LIVING
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A CONTEMPORARY MIND AND OTHER CRIMES

AN ADVENTURERS PHILOSOPHICAL OBSERVATION & AN ADVENTURES POLITICAL CONCLUSIONS

Copyright 2002 by B'RYAN.

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